#but first mental health and school

[pixlokita]

I feel like ? I gotta remind people it’s ok to unfollow a blog when it upsets you in any way >> like if I ever do that sure, you can let me know if it was anything I did personally I’d appreciate it but if you just don’t enjoy something it’s ok to unfollow ;w; can’t stress enough how important it is to put your mental health first 👌

[bruhstation]

(redraw of last year's art!) happy new year 2024, everyone! hopefully things go well this year, too :]

[astriiformes]

Guess who got straight As for the first time since early high school :)

[exitstageleft-pursuedbyabear]

OG Harvey girlies who saw the Too Sweet edits and went "you don't understand him at all"

May present you:

[mygoodfriendjohnathanharker]

Fixed the door that Johnathan had slipped through, not letting that happen again!

[unforgivingchorus]

if i get to write my red robin solo run, i will validate all trans Tim truthers. not by actually having him be trans or explore gender, im just going to give him so many extremely complex identity issues, it will be hard not to draw a parallel

[schizopositivity]

worst recation ive had to saying i was schizophrenic/psychotic: "do you need to go the emergency room?"

best reaction ive had to saying i was schizophrenic/psychotic: "that doesnt change anything"

funniest reaction ive had to saying i was schizophrenic/psychotic: "oh cool i had a schizophrenic friend in prison"

[fowlblue]

Potentially controversial AF thought but… where did the idea that Angeline is one of those ‘crystal moms’ come from?

Like… she lives in a world where she has regular (if usually indirect) contact with actual magic and more likely than not would not want that stuff anywhere near her home, given how little control she has over the actual magical creatures and procedures her family often goes through.

Also… didn’t she later go and pursue higher education specifically in regards to mental health (I think)? So she could better help herself and others?

[daz4i]

i am extremely worried about tomorrow. wish me luck

[lieutenantselnia]

Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of me🥹

[thatrandomlemononyourcounter1]

Kinda feel like I'm going to cry

[necrogfie]

nooo why are the subliminal actually working for once... i remade my subs playlist and added a few to be sick (they won't be permanently in it, i plan to take them out tomorrow lol) bcuz ... reasons, and im already not feeling good rn.

i don't fully believe in subliminal because i am still a skeptical at heart but like ?? magic ??

(also kinda hoping the others subs work too then :3)

[stormyrainyday]

this entire year has been flop after flop why am i losing so bad your honor i am literally just some guy

[mukuharakazui]

I'M SO SORRY TO HEAR YOUR MAIN GUY CAPTAIN SPARKLES QUIT MINECRAFT STUFF 💔 MY CONDOLENCES

no it's ok!!! he's still doing minecraft stuff, just on twitch and his 2nd channel rather than his main channel. right now he's doing an all advancements 1.21 snapshot series as the "finale" of his main channel mc content. i've also been kind of expecting this given the vlogs/"talking in front of a green screen videos" he's been putting out, esp the ones in the past year and a half.

unfortunately, while his dedicated audience is still committed to him, the new generation of minecraft youtube fans is nowhere near as keen on episodic series and are more for short-form content (e.g. "i survived 1000 days in hardcore this is my world" "this MOD lets you KISS the WARDEN in MINECRAFT?!"). jordan tried to appease the algorithm with this for a while and then did a whole series of videos talking about how he was done with that because it wasn't making him happy. he also did a big poll on his channel and found that a majority of his viewers have been watching him since around the mianite days or earlier, and we also weren't especially happy with his clipped main channel mc videos.

he's been making minecraft videos for 13 years now, and even as someone who's been watching since his original survival series, there are plenty of series and videos from him that i haven't touched yet because of the sheer amount of videos he dedicated his career to making. i can still go back and watch his older series i never caught, plus some videos i watched back in the day and don't remember very well/didn't understand the humor of (*cough cough* buildinggame *cough*).

given the way stampy ended his minecraft career, i'm glad to see jordan taking a similar route. they're definitely some of the few popular minecraft youtubers who were never involved in any sort of intense drama or horrible scandals. i would honestly argue that this is a small shift for jordan, but a large shift for his audience. his major shift definitely occurred around the time mcc started and when dream and his cohort got popular. that's when the youtube algorithm and new mcyt audience started to value him less than other mc youtubers and the whole thing where jordan tried to appeal to the algorithm and hated it. the only difference between what he's been doing for the past 2 years and what he'll be doing going forth seems to be that his minecraft content will, as a lot of it already has been, be focused on captainsparklez2.

i do think "retirement" as he put it, as opposed to "quitting" or "leaving," is definitely the best way to describe what he has planned. he'll still do mc, just not as his primary career. he also said he may be willing to do mc videos on the main channel if a huge update appeals to him in some way at some point. he's definitely not suddenly quitting minecraft forever, and if he does, i have no doubt he'd still enjoy hearing from people who like his minecraft content and wouldn't be too bothered by being known as the minecraft guy.

tl;dr i'm not sad cuz not only is he putting his own needs and goals first, but he also...isn't even quitting minecraft altogether. i mostly watch his twitch vods on cs2 anyways, so it's no big deal to me in the end. long live captainsparklez, team ianite forever, etc.

[ajearthlinggg]

"oh yay first day of school I can see my friends-" *EXTREMELY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER* WRONG. PANIC ATTACK! PANIC ATTACK! PANIC ATTACK! PANIC ATTACK!

[ashas-autistic-alcove]

I had a shower without having an anxiety attack today

I’m really proud of myself