#but frankly anon i do not care if i come of as 'disrespectful to a lot of the artist' tbh

[zevranunderstander]

No offense, but "colonialist and imperialist festival that is trying to rebrand colonizers into quirky modern nations" is one of the most ignorant definition of Eurovision I've ever seen. The contest was born in the early 50's literally to put Europe together after WWII. And believe me, neither then, nor now the organizers give a fuck about colonialism, also because EBU is made of 56 country and only a small fraction of them were colonizers. On the other hand many were colonized.

So far it's also one of the very few occasions in EU where queer artists can express themselves. We all agree Israel shouldn't be allowed to partecipate, though, and that the jury's vote should be abolished. As for the public, this year their vote has been a mess as well, but for the first time it was open to the whole world so this may be part of the problem.

Your post is also insulting to many of the artists, btw.

the ESC was NOT put together to reunite europe after WW2, this sentiment is not once stated in the first ESC or any of the following ESCs and is literally just a narrative told today to make it seem more heartfelt, there is a really good video on it that by verilybitchie, that goes into much more detail about this than i will right now: link. but generally the first ESC was also just a money making concept: the EBU had this whole new platform they needed to have content for, and hosting a "non-political" song contest was a really lucrative idea. also for a long time, eastern europe for example was excluded from the ESC, because the west didnt like the communism going on there. the video is really good if you are genuinely interested in the previous "brandings" and politics of the ESC and is like, 40 minutes long, so i will not rehash everything said in there.

"neither then, nor now the organizers give a fuck about colonialism", yeah, obviously they don't otherwise they wouldn't allow Israel or Azerbaijan to have a platform in this contest. a lot of these countries aren't just "former colonists" they are still actively colonizing or completely suppressing human rights in their country. they do not care about colonialism because Israel for example can offer tons and tons of money so that they are in the contest and that's way more lucrative than "doing the right thing" and not having colonialist superpowers in a song contest that are currently actively waging wars. i am not saying "the EBU does colonialism", i am saying "the EBU let's a bunch of colonialists do funny acts where they can show off queer people in their country so that they can gain sympathies as a progressive country because they get a lot of money from the people participating and it's also giving them a whole new country as a market for the event night". do you know how lucrative it is for a country to host, because they can completely re-brand themselves as a popular tourist destination?

also, they did only ban russia after 6 countries appealed for them to do so and threatened to drop out, so they truly don't care about colonialism and only how to serve the biggest market available. but the narrative of a country persevering in the face of war is so inspirational, no? so this year you could have almost mistaken all of their branding to be a genuinely heartfelt stand in solidarity with the ukraine, with all of their anti war stances and singing imagine by john lennon, but really, if no one would have threatened to drop out in solidarity with the ukraine, would the EBU have thrown russia out? probably not.

also colonialism is such a complicated, intricate topic that is very much not a thing of the past just because a lot of countries have "officially" been declared independent. colonialism is not a "this is a bad thing that happened in the past but, like, it was 100+ years ago and now we're all modern and progressive, we are both colonizers and colonized", what do you think the european interventions in Afghanistan, Iran, Iraq, etc. are - if not re-branded colonialism? occupying a territory with a foreign military to "free" people of random regimes, when it just so happens that there always seems to be a lot of oil in th occupied territories. do you think Germany, France, the fucking UK are not STILL colonizers? do you know how many weapons Germany sends to Israel each year so that they can keep doing Apartheid down there? (colonialism also persists in globalization and outsourcing of labor into underpaid "third world countries" so that the economy in "first world countries" like Europe stays stable, but this out of the scope of this answer right now) but like? colonialism is not a "thing that happened long ago" its a thing that is still happening with a lot of the countries, and this paragraph isnt really relevant to answer you question but i really wanted to get this straight

also im focussing on the actual colonialist aspect in my post and am more talking abou how i am concerned with the intentional branding of any country as a woke, queer and progressive country, like, "look they sent a gay entry, that is sooo progressive of this country", which make you absolutely blind to the fact that they might be doing Apartheid and shit.

also i explicitly said that i do like how diverse the stage is for artists, it is just that the network's intentions behind putting them there aren't as genuine as you seem to believe. these artists are usually really talented people and I really loved some entries over the years, but 1. these artists need to be aware on what kind of stage they are performing, this isn't some indie underground platform this is one of the biggest music events in the world, and i love that there is an international stage for queer artists to perform, but you kind of have to count in the fact that these people all made the willing choice to be in a contest that is usually hosting Russia, Israel, Azerbaijan, etc. and I am not saying they are bad, horribly immoral people for that but they made that choice and then they should be able to live with the fact that they were in a show that is being criticized by people. does it suck that the biggest (and maybe only) big opportunity for a lot of queer artists seems to be a rather nationalist PR event? yes, of course it does and I genuinely do not blame artists who do ignore the moral implications of the event for having a chance of kickstarting their career, but that changes nothing about the morality of hosting countries that are active imperialists trying to convince you of the opposite. like, why do you think so many countries want in? because Australia and Israel wanted to be part of some european song contest REAAAAALLY bad or because it's THAT much of a PR boost?

The EBU will do whatever brings them the most money and that is:

allowing as many countries to be there (regardless of the fact that some of these still very imperialist participants are using the space to re-brand themselves) and only dropping them if this would cause real backlash from other parts of the audience (hence why Israel will never be dropped)

being "non-political" so to cause as little controversy as possible (if you watch verilybitchie's video she actually also mentions how "non-political" EXCLUSIVELY seems to refer to "do not make any political comments about participating countries when it could cost us viewerships"),

having progressive entries that give off a good image, which is endorsed by the countries as a PR campaign and by the audience, who mostly genuinely wants to see queer and campy entires that aren't the common mainstream. this also leads to the ESC branding itself as such a queer event and then often leaving it to the juries to ensure that nothing too queer or too campy or too communist or too political or too "generally eastern european" wins, because the winning entry needs to be marketable and needs to be playable on every radio station for the next 3 months without causing any offense to all the people who only then watch what the winning song was

none of these things are done for "moral" reasons or because they care about "doing the right thing", but because they make the most profit. but BECAUSE some of them seem so morally inspired the ESC usually tries to weave it into their branding ("was founded in an attempt to unite europe after WW2", "ESC has always been queer", "we stand with ukraine and thus russia isnt in this contest this year")

[lemotmo]

Well, THAT happened last night…

First time for everything, right?

I have a couple of things to get off my chest, but once this is posted I’m moving on to regular fandom stuff again. I’m not going to come back to any of this, because frankly it isn’t worth my time or energy.

So without further ado:

Thank you so much to all the lovely people who have been sending me and the other people involved in this mess non-stop kind messages in support. I appreciate it. I won’t be responding to each and every one of you, because there are just too many at this point. But know that you helped me a lot. It’s great to see that no one actually believes any of these terrible accusations.

Negative comments (very few of them) have been read, taken note of and deleted, with the sender blocked. I’m not engaging in fruitless discussion and arguements with anyone who is only here to cause trouble and rage bait. You won’t get any kind of attention from me.

I’m also not going to accuse any side of any fandom of this garbage posting. Mostly because I have no idea who is responsible for it and I don’t feel comfortable accusing a group of people or a person of something I’m not sure of. I wouldn't want to do what has been done to me yesterday.

As of this moment, I am done posting about anything else but Buddie or Tommy in function of Buck’s narrative. I will of course also post about all the other characters and the show as a whole. I have always tried to maintain respect when it came to Tommy and the BT fandom. I never used any of the tags this fandom frequents, because that would be disrespectful. Yes, I sometimes gave my opinion and talked about the more radical aggressive stans who for example, harassed other people over many platforms, but I have always maintained that there are a lot of BT fans and multi-shippers in fandom that have nothing to do with this toxicity and I still stand by that. Case in point, the two kind anon messages I got from BT shippers who didn't buy the lies either. Thank you by the way. I appreciate your support. I don’t care what anyone ships or doesn’t ship. Just like I expect other people to not care what I ship or don’t ship. Ultimately, the characters we ship are not real. They are fictional people in a fictional world. It's fun to ship them yes, but they aren't worth all of this insane drama. Drama that affects REAL people in the REAL world by the way!

Yes, I am aware that there are also radical aggressive Buddie stans and yes, I have a lot of them blocked as well. I don’t discriminate on what fandom you’re in. If I see someone suggesting to someone else to do harmful things to themselves, I react by blocking that person instantly, no matter what fandom they are a part of. We are all still living and breathing human beings behind our blog. No one should get things like that thrown at them.

I will continue to post Ali’s posts (anonymous blog I love), but I’m going to ask the anons that send me her posts to only send me messages that have to do with either the show as a whole, other characters, Buddie, Buddie speculation or Tommy and Tommy speculation as a character. He is still a part of Buck’s narrative for now, so I can’t ignore him, even when I really really really want to.

I won’t respond to any asks about any part of the BT fandom and more specifically about those radical stans anymore. So far I have been polite about all the drama, but I am tired of all of it. I don’t wish to spend one more second giving attention to these stans. If you want to still send me something related to that topic, you are free to do so and I will certainly take a look at it, but I won’t respond publicly to anything.

The fact of the matter is that the insane levels of toxicity that have popped up in this fandom have only been here for a couple of months. There was always some level of toxicity, but not to this amount. Like Tim said, it got ugly. I know because I have personally been in this fandom for years now and things have never ever gotten as bleak as what me and two other fans were subjected to yesterday. Do with that information what you will.

Finally, I wonder what drives people to do something like this and I fail to comprehend this kind of behaviour. I sincerely hope that they see the light and put all of their energy in doing something more productive in life, because this is not a healthy way to live their life. I wish them only the best.

All right, now on to normal fandom stuff:

I predict Buddie canon in season 8! 🤞😉

[ryuichirou]

As Malleus' bday is soon, I wanted to ask about any nsfw headcanons you may have for his special day?? I usually ask for sfw but I feel safe here for some reason

It is his birthday! Happy Malleus day!

We do have a post with Malleus-centric headcanons, and we were reminded about this post by Anon the same day you’ve sent this ask lol But hey, it’s been almost a year since we posted those headcanons, and it would be a shame not to write some new ones for Malleus’ big day. Especially considering that we didn’t even fully ship LiliMal when we posted the previous one… yikes!

(I’m also glad you feel safe here :3 Thank you for sending asks <3)

Alright, here are some nsfw Malleus-cerntric hcs~ With a little bit of Sebemal and Lilimal sprinkled throughout.

Malleus doesn’t think about sex all the time, but he gets sudden sexual cravings sometimes – he is a young dragon, after all. This is one of the reasons behind his sudden disappearances: sometimes there are days when he just wants to be alone, because this longing and thirst drive him insane, but Lilia is busy and Sebek isn’t always the best option. Malleus doesn’t masturbate though – it doesn’t feel the same, so he believes it’s not worth it.

Malleus is a pillow princess. He takes the initiative too sometimes, but he prefers to tease and provoke and then enjoy the consequences of his provocations. So when he gets Lilia either way too aroused or angry (or both) and Lilia stops being careful with his body, Malleus loves it the most. Being a prince, Malleus likes being bossy sometimes, but when it comes to “the main event” he just wants to see how Lilia would use his body this time.

Actually, when he’s being “used” by Lilia, it unlocks something very special in Malleus’ mind, because of how significant of a person he is in Malleus’ life… Things are complicated between them, but when he sees Lilia’s feral eyes, it’s like he reaches absolute happiness. Or is it just an orgasm? I guess it’s just more intense than usual then lol

Malleus is also one of the most capricious “bottom” characters: his mood could shift very suddenly and he either gets way more aroused than his lover expects (although Lilia is used to everything) or sometimes loses his desire and wants to be left alone. The latter scenario is rare though… what isn’t rare is for him to get horny and a bit clingy even though he was arguing with Lilia just a moment ago.

This is something that stresses Sebek out a lot, because he is very afraid of angering Malleus, and he is way more stressed about it than he should be. Because what frustrates Malleus is the fact that Sebek holds back. He knows why it happens, but this is probably one of the main reasons why Malleus doesn’t treat Sebek with his attention all the time… this, and the fact that he’ll get way too clingy lol

But in the heat of the moment Malleus really loves it when Sebek gets clingy and his brain gets all clouded and horny and he doesn’t know what he’s doing anymore. These moments, when Malleus is being bitten, crushed under Sebek’s heavy body and frankly disrespected, are what makes the whole thing worth it, especially if he can tease Sebek about it afterwards.

One of his most favourite birthday gifts was something given to him by Lilia a couple of years ago. Well, it wasn’t really an item: Lilia just spent the entire day with him in his bed. This was one of the most indulgent things Lilia has ever done to him, and Malleus was very pleased for an entire week after that, even though his body was very sore (he could’ve healed himself, but he didn’t want to <3). Lilia doesn’t know how he himself survived that…

Intimacy is very important to Malleus, and usually he prefers absolute privacy with no one interrupting him and his lover (in fact, he hates being interrupted). But sometimes all of a sudden Malleus starts craving the thrill of the possibility of getting caught. There is an exhibitionist somewhere in his soul… But it’s not like he has anything to be ashamed about, right?

[patamus-warmer]

Do you live in butte? It kinda seems like you’re treating my town like a poverty zoo for your art. Do you even know any of the people that frequent pissers palace? Why are you taking pictures of peoples homes like that? I get the maybe displaying capitalism decay in a town that was used and abused for its resources and then left for dead. But genuinely your photos feel a little cold to me. It just feels like we’re focusing more on the aesthetic of a decaying house (that btw people live in) and not like the humanity of the fact that people have to live there.

I’ve lived in uptown Butte for two years and no I don’t know any Pissers Palace regulars. Honestly, I don’t have a lot of friends here because I’m not the most socially adept person and Butte is the kind of town where it’s hard to make friends if you’re not from here. However, those facts don’t really matter considering the issues you raise, anon. I want to avoid addressing these valid concerns with some kind of PR-tailored bullshit statement and frankly there may not be much I can say that will satisfy you. So, I’ll try to do my best to answer as sincerely as I can.

I hope this ask isn't a troll because it was upsetting to read. Not due to my personal feelings, but because a member of the community feels like my photography is exploiting Butte by only seeing the decay caused by de-industrialization without seeing the broader community as it is, let alone the people. This is a fair criticism that I do think about with my work—probably not thoroughly enough—and one that’s at the heart of photography ethics (e.g. taking pictures of homeless people while doing nothing to change their material conditions). My interests and curiosity do gravitate towards darker aspects in society such as the consequences of late capitalism on communities. I’m not the first (or last) photographer to explore these phenomena, especially in Butte, but it’s what I often photograph. At the same time, this type of photography doesn’t do much to break cycles of exploitation and can create a myopic perception of places inviting gentrification. It definitely makes me consider what I photograph and why, particularly if the work is perceived as “cold” poverty aesthetics. I think one of my intentions with the photography is to help see the deep rooted history in the landscape of Butte that is out of time and special, especially compared to all the gentrified shit holes a lot of cities are now.

However, there’s also the issue you raise which is there’s much more to Butte than that and it’s not just aesthetics. Point taken. My last b&w post doesn’t exactly express positivity while probably coming off as cliche and annoying to people from Butte. Nobody wants to see the place they live in reduced to mindless social media posts. I’ve had a similar, yet inverse reaction many times seeing influencers portraying Montana as a new bastion of freedom while everyone who grew up in the state often view them more as rich, tax-dodging gentrifiers who don’t care about the people or the history. I think the other issue with the lack of humanity in the photography is the lack of portraits. It’s something I’m personally working on to be less shy and take portraits in a respectful manner—with the subject’s permission—without creating a dour perception. Also, I didn’t mean to disrespect the people living in any of the homes I took a picture of—I’d love to meet those people and talk with them.

The last thing I want to say is this: I have nothing but respect and admiration for Butte. And not to sound patronizing or condescending, I specifically admire the passion and dignity of this community that comes through in your ask, the town’s strong labor history and compassion for marginalized people. One event I attended last year was when after the public library gave into nazi demands to cancel a trans speaker, our local community radio station hosted her talk and the town came out in force to stand in solidarity with her. They did the same thing recently to make sure an ADA ramp wasn't defunded by the county commissioners.

I’ll never be from Butte, but I’m honored to live here and want to contribute to it respectfully. I see more beauty and the wonder of a place out of time in Butte than a decaying town to pity. You may see it differently in my photos and that’s fine.  If you want to discuss this further, please feel free to reach out: patrickwarnerphoto@gmail.com.

[fratboykate]

Because I can't let it go and I'm an east coaster. Enjoy waking up to this:

Kate tries so hard to make sure the kids are not impacted by her and Yelenas argument. She and Yelena are in agreement on that so with the kids, it's business as usual, but kids got these stupid things called brains and feelings so they know their moms are having problems.

Maks, fearing for his family staying together, apologizes for being upset that Yelena missed the play. Yelena can either break or look at Kate like "he forgives me, why can't you" because I genuinely think she's so analytical and book smart, she forgets feelings so she could really go either way on that.

But you just have the kids walking on eggshells around them and Kate hates it but Yelena keeps saying "we need to get over this" which isn't an apology. It's kicking the can down the road. And so they're in therapy one day and Kate just goes OFF about not letting her kids feel abandoned and Yelena should understand why that issue is so important.

I need to go lay down.

You really can't dangle angst in front of me and expect me to resist. Here's 2k words of "moms are fighting" like that other anon said lol.

---

Yelena pokes her head into the dimly lit office where her wife sits, intently pouring over stacks of documents.

"Hey. You coming to bed?" Kate flips a page and scribbles a note on the edge. "You don't have to sleep in the guest room...You should come to bed...I stopped at La Perla on my way home and bought some new things I could show you. You never say no to a private fashion show." Kate thumbs a few pages back and cross-references that data with the one on the current page. Yelena is blatantly getting iced out. The blonde nods and sighs. "Well, at least I know you'll have to talk to me on Friday from four to four fifty."

Yelena references their standing bi-weekly couple's therapy appointment in jest, mostly trying to lighten the air between them. She loathes that Kate can hold a grudge like no one else.

"It's not a joke, dude. None of this has ever been a joke to me." Kate rebuffs her without looking up from the splayed-out folders.

"Are you implying it is to me?"

Yelena steps inside, closes the door behind her, approaches one of the two plush chairs across from Kate’s desk, and unceremoniously plops herself onto it.

"You treat it...us...very aloofly when you feel like it. Like things you can put on a shelf when it's inconvenient to have us around, so, yah. I guess I am."

"You always have the drama dialed up to twelve." Yelena states, her tone lighthearted. She's frankly pushing to minimize this, not maliciously, but because she needs it to go away. Yelena needs them to be okay again. She can only handle them being in a weird place for so long before it starts to drive her slightly mad, and this has already been going on for weeks now. Slowly escalating until it all blew up.

Kate huffs and shakes her head incredulously.

"Maybe people are right. Maybe we do marry versions of our parents because you're exactly like my mom."

W O O F. Kate could've called her wife a slur and it would've stung less than being compared to either of Kate's parents, particularly Eleanor.

"The hell is that supposed to mean?!"

"You're a genius. Figure it out."

"Why are you hellbent on making this worse? He forgave me. Why can't you?"

"Dude..." Kate swallows an aggravated, throaty groan. "Sometimes I can't figure out if you're actually this dumb outside your little lab or if you pretend to be so I let you get away with shit."

"You're angry. I get it. But don't insult me. I draw the line at disrespect. We can talk this through without going low or being childish."

A bitter laugh escapes Kate.

"You seriously have zero self-awareness. It's stunning to watch. You should have one of your coworkers observe you. 'Genius who's a fucking idiot in disguise: a study in how she gets through life.' could win you some awards. That's all you care about anyway."

"Yeah, we're going to do this in therapy because I'm not letting you goad me into saying something I don't mean."

"Whatever."

Yelena stands and attempts to walk away, but Kate's reply forces her right back down.

"Stop acting like a child, Katherine. I have three of those already. Don't need a fourth."

"You remembered you have kids?! AN EARLY CHRISTMAS MIRACLE."

Yelena rises again and manages to walk a few feet this time, but she eventually pivots and stomps back. Kate has successfully managed to push her buttons.

"I told you. I told you so many times that more than one was a bad idea. I'd be stretched thin. It's why my parents only had me. My mom knew this career is complicated. Time-consuming. But unlike you, my dad listened. He got it and they acted accordingly. Responsibly."

Halfway through her diatribe, Kate jumps in and begins talking over her wife.

"I'm sorry I can't be a perfect, obedient lap dog like your dad. I wanted a big family. You always knew that."

"AND YOU KNEW I DIDN'T! You knew it. We talked about it for years. You should've married someone who wanted the same things."

"You should've just said no if you weren't going to be around."

"Do you even remotely comprehend that it’s basically impossible to say 'no' to you?! Remember the cabin? I told you I didn't want kids and you threatened to leave me, Kate. You asked for a divorce, said you were done with me if we didn't."

"Don't rewrite history now. You said you weren't ready yet. YET. Not that you didn't want them at all."

"It was so clear. It was clear what I meant."

"Words have meanings. You can't change them retroactively. That is NOT what you said."

"Maybe not at that moment, but I told you I had doubts before that day. More than once. You heard what you wanted to hear."

"One is a mistake. Four is a pattern."

"You wouldn't stop asking! I wanted to make you happy. That's all I've ever wanted. Obviously Maks...after......Maks was my idea. I know that. I needed it after the...It felt wrong not to try again. And you were so upset. You tried to bury it, but I could see it. I always know. I knew it would make you happy to try again."

"They're not some consolation prize, dude. What is wrong with you?"

"I never said they were. Don't put words in my mouth."

"Can you leave? I have work to do."

"I love them. More than I think I could ever quantify."

"You're doing the bare minimum. Congratulations. Good for you."

"Stop being an asshole. I'm trying to have a conversation."

"I got shit to do."

Yelena doesn't move, mind racing. After a long beat, she speaks anew.

"Maybe it's my pride, maybe it is...but do you have any idea how hard it is to feel so incredibly subpar at the ONE THING you're desperate to be great at? I don't have to try at work. That's innate to me. It's easy. This...all of it...I feel like I'm treading water every day. There's not one day that I've gone to bed feeling I've done a good job with them. I think I can be a good partner, most of the time at least. I feel like I did it for a long time before we had them, so I can confidently say I'm no less than competent on that front, but I've never felt anything except terrible at being a mom. It's an awful thing to come to terms with every single night. I don't think there's been ONE night since Alex was born when I don't beat myself up over everything I did wrong or could've done better that day before I fall asleep. It's suffocating sometimes, Kate. I often feel like the weight of my own disappointment is smothering me. Add yours on top of that and…it’s not easy for me. None of it. You're a better mom than me. Always have been. They love you more too and I get it. I get it. It's understandable. If I were in their shoes, I would too."

"It's not a competition. Never has been."

"Sure. Doesn't mean this come naturally to only one of us and it certainly isn't me. Sometimes it feels like the best thing I can do for all of you is stay out of your way. You seem to do fine without me when I'm not around."

"We've kind of had to learn to lately. You checked out."

"I didn't."

"This is your dissertation all over again."

"If you felt that way, why wouldn't you say something? We promised we would never let it get that bad again. We said we wouldn't."

"I can't spell everything out for you."

"I also can't read your mind."

"Trust me. You don't need mentalist skills to put two and two together. You just don't care enough to pay attention."

"Why do you go out of your way to say things that hurt me when you're angry? You know I care. Of course I care."

"Why do YOU go out of your way to DO things that hurt ME?! ALL.THE.TIME! All the time, dude."

"I don't mean to."

"That would be an excuse for almost anyone else, but you've got a big ass brain, so...try again. Not good enough."

"I don't know how else to apologize for missing the play."

"This is so much bigger than the play! My god, it's impossible to talk to you."

"Try."

"Yelena, I have work. This is the third time I've asked you to leave my office."

"Work is more important than this?"

Kate's eyes shoot up from her computer screen to scowl directly at Yelena.

"Don't play that bullshit with me right now because that would be RICH coming from you."

"I'm only trying to talk."

Kate doesn’t offer an answer and refocuses on her work instead. 

Yelena is not deterred. She’s not leaving. 

They sit silently. Kate examines papers then types as anger oozes out of each pore. Yelena wordlessly follows her every move with her eyes. 

After around a dozen minutes of Kate trying to play it cool while her wife's gaze bores into her, she forcefully shuts her computer and glares at Yelena.

"My entire fucking childhood, I had to watch my parents pick other shit over us. I won't let you do it to them. I know what it did to me, what it did to Deej and I'm breaking that pattern. I also won't force them to watch us do this charade of pretending to be okay for their sake. Either we fix it...YOU fix it...or it's done."

"So what? You want me to quit my job? Become a stay-at-home mom?"

"No. I just need you to get your fucking priorities straight."

"So it's you, or it's done?"

"'Prioritize your family over work' is a pretty fucking basic ask, dude. Don't make me sound irrational because I'm not."

"Why do you always do this? Why do you always throw divorce around so flippantly the moment we have big issues come up?"

Kate stands from her chair.

"If you're not letting me work, I'm going to bed. I'm exhausted."

"If you truly want to break the pattern, then stop running away like your parents did..."

"Yelena." Kate speaks over her wife. Firmly. A blatant warning that she should stop going down that path.

"...They blow relationships up every time things get hard because it's easier to walk away than to work at it."

"Don't bring my parents into this."

"You already compared me to your parents. Twice."

"If you don't want that, quit acting like them. Simple. I'm going to sleep. In the guest room."

"You're the one who always walks away..."

"Yelena, I swear to fucking god...Stop talking."

"...and I'm the one always chasing."

"Must be nice living in an alternate fucking reality. For someone who claims they don't want a divorce, you sure love to do everything in your power to push me to it."

"You know what, Kate? Fine. You want to be away from me this badly? I'll go to a hotel tonight then stay with my parents starting tomorrow. You come find me when you're ready to stop acting like your father and are willing to have a conversation with me like the adults we're supposed to be."

"Do whatever the fuck you want. It's what happens anyway."

"Good."

"GREAT."

Kate storms out of the office, leaving Yelena behind. The blonde exhales explosively and allows her head to sag between her shoulders. 

That's not how tonight was supposed to go, but Yelena is too proud to back off from the threat now. She has to call Kate’s bluff at some point, or they will get stuck in this cycle forever. Now might be as good a time as any to see how far her wife is willing to take this.

...Seems like she has to go pack.

[the1975attheirverybest]

do you have any tips on how to be less parasocial? I hate feeling so emotionally attached to celebrities, but my brain won't stop doing it

oh, I might be the absolute worst person to ask about this because, a long time ago, I decided that being parasocial is not a bad thing. indeed, 90% of the time its a good thing. YEAH I SAID IT. COME FOR ME I DARE YA.

Like, im sorry but since when has caring for and loving something or someone been a bad thing????? This is why I dont get bothered by the hate anons who are like "you dont know Matty Healy grow the fuck up" like im sorry if you are so limited in your emotional and cognitive capacity that you cannot fathom an understanding of somebody, however partial, or incomplete in your brain. I genuinely feel sorry for those people. But thankfully, im human enough to use my brain and my emotions. and I like to think that we *do* know Matty. maybe not on a personal everyday basis. like maybe we don't know his favorite pizza place in london or the wacky story behind how he ended up with an ex-gf's brother's t shirt or whatever. But we KNOW his heart. we know what type of guy he is. we know what he believes about being in the world. whats important to him. what he wants to do with his life. what he thinks about important topics.

AND FUCKIN HELL MAN! Like isnt that the fuckin reason art exists??? like isnt that LITERALLY how it work. the artist puts their feelings and thoughts and world view into their art, shares it, and then the consumer goes "wow me too! i didnt know other people felt this way about this." or "wow this has made me experience someone else's pov. i never would have thought about it in this way but thanks to this novel or song or film or whatever now im thinking about it."

and how can you not be emotionally invested in something or someone that makes you feel less alone, that challenges you to think differently, comforts you, or teaches you, or inspires you to be a better person???? the fuck is wrong with people, man????

I think the only time that being parasocial can be bad or dangerous is when it leads to people disrespecting the celeb or whatever. like stalking Matty's house? yeah dont do that. sure he feels like your best friend, but frankly, even if it were my best friend, if someone shows up at my house without invitation id be mad. feeling entitled to his time or his energy just cuz hes performing or in public? yeah thats bad dont do that. feeling like you can ask him about taylor's private jet (this was back in may) bad, dont do that. like stuff like that! you know what I mean? like dont be a fuckin asshole. other than that BE MORE PARASOCIAL WHO CARES I THINK ITS A GOOD THINK! It shows how capable we are of connecting despite our differences and our capacity for love and understanding that we can bond even if we never met. thats literally the best. fuck haters. be weird man.

[perawuat]

⚠️disclaimer⚠️: I might seem a bit salty and a bit rude today, sorry in advance, but honestly in front of some people who say such nonsense I can't stay polite.

I would like to discuss something very important, but since I can't reblog the post, I leave it HERE and I invite all of you to read it regardless if you are part of the twst fandom or not.

I think this thing is clear to most people, but for those who have slipped their mind I will try to remind you of these points:

First of all I'm sorry anevilbunnyinthehat have received these messages fr. Ignore them, these people are certified clowns.

None of you own the canon characters of TWST. So don't go and annoy other artists' inboxes by saying "Stop shipping Leona with your MC because I'm already married to him in my head😭" or other nonsense like that. Not only because you objectively being ridicolous, but because I repeat: you.do.not.own.any.rights.to.that.character.

People sending negative messages while hiding as anon…well frankly you comment for yourself. Not only are you going to annoy people who literally just want to express their art or be happy with their artwork and mutuals, but you literally don't even dare to show who you really are *clown song intensifies*.

I also ship my MC with Leona, but tbh this goes for any other character. It's certainly not for a dude like you that I or others stop doing what makes us happy or gives us positive vibes. If you don't like our content because of your jealousy, block us, srsly it's better for us not to have people like you around. But don't come and send these messages anonymously because in my opinion it is disrespectful towards people who put effort into taking care of their blog, drawing or writing works.

In conclusion: every artist is free to do what they want, write what they want, ship whoever they want and I can go on and on. We are not in a dictatorship, so everyone is free to express what they like best in their art or writing, so stop behaving in such a territorial and immature way and examine your conscience before doing this type of action.

Have a nice day 💖

[ghostlytalkin]

blog like yours are so toxic because half of what you post comes without any sort of proofs. and once it’s out, it always cast doubts on the people involved. but you’re just after the popularity and not trying to help anything. really toxic.

Some of the things I post, yeah don't have proof. I can for sure do better about looking into things before posting as well. But then again it either comes to me or I have a feeling and go looking. Or I post it asking for proof. Sometimes admins of rps actually message me and we talk about the asks and they can clear things up.

I honestly don't care about the popularity I'd rather get things known about truly toxic rps or rpers. My messages are always open and I've talked to plenty of people in ims/dms about things and heard from admins of rps, heard from rpers, actually helped an rper figure out who was sending hate messages/death threats to them because of a little slip up they did. You'd actually be amazed about the things that I don't post. And I actually have been looking a bit more into things as shown in some asks.

My blog isn't going to be everyone's cup of tea, and that's fine. I don't have many followers and I am still posting regardless of follow count. If I cared a ton about follower count I'd get back on my old indies that people really liked, but frankly I don't because I don't have the desire to be popular, just an information well. And I'm happy to retract things if they are proven to be misinformation. I've talked to literally two rp admins today alone.

If you're unhappy with me posting, block me. Then you don't have to see what I say unless you're actively on my blog, reading what I post. If calling out rps that allow abuse plots, r*psit, nazis, and the works to be played or calling out rpers that constantly push boundaries and disrespect people even when told about it is me being toxic I guess that's a matter of opinion. I know some people don't even think about this but I've also posted retracements or statements being like "hey we've talked, this is the gist of it." so people can make their own informed decisions.

Don't ever hesitate to message me and be like "hey this is misinformation here is the proof." I'm happy to listen and to talk to people behind the scenes and make a post owning up to being wrong if I am in fact wrong. Just cause I'm a bitch in my responses doesn't mean I'm 100% a dick in private messages.

Have the day you deserve! Hopefully it's a good day and you can process and do what is healthy for you. My private messages are open if you want to come off anon and talk.

[ess-presso]

I honestly don’t really know you or any of your fics but I certainly plan to read all of them now because (I think Nat already covered this but I’m still gonna say it) we need more heist fics and im very excited to read yours and best of luck writing it. So thank you anon for adding another great fic to my tbr.

It pisses me off when I see people saying “you’re copying *insert author*” because not only is it super uncomfortable for the *insert author* that people use them as a way to drag others down but it’s also so stupid. Whatever idea you’ve had, someone has already thought of it. (Or it’s that way for me personally because I’ve never had an original thought). To anon (and they’re lucky I don’t know their tumblr because I would’ve come for them) quite frankly and in the most disrespectful way possible choke on my fucking dick. No one cares what you think and not having the balls to come out and say stuff like this without hiding under “anonymous” is fucking pathetic. You’re just an ugly, loser cunt and can again choke on my dick.

Anyway don’t listen to pathetic losers and keep writing because there are people (me!! from this moment on) who are very excited to read your silly little fic. Have a lovely day!!! ❤️❤️

And I feel the need to emphasise to anon again that (and for the third time) they can choke on my dick and if they ever decide to stop being pathetic and have the balls to show their actual tumblr, I will find their address and I will be hiding under their bed with a very sharp object💞

I don’t want anything i say to sound mechanical but i appreciate this message so much. Whatever you said , every single point is literally the truth. I don’t understand particularly why the anon was so hostile , and i genuinely thought i did something for a second. like i know i’m just a wee little author , & other writers get way more hate (which they shouldn’t!!! no one should !!) but i’ve kinda been like ,,,, did i do something,,, ??? why am i a bitch ??? made me proper sad for a second xx but thank u !! u have my full permission to stabby stab mean people!!

[sweetestt-dispositionn]

To the other anon: She also has the ability to turn off anonymous asks or the option to just not answer them but she still does. So if she doesn’t want to answer them she should just delete them or even better turn off the option for people to send anonymous messages maybe? Maybe this is something you could consider instead of feeding these people and their silly questions by answering them. No hate or anything i’m just offering advice.

You’re right I do have that ability and that choice, i’m an adult and I assume the people leaving silly asks are too? I let a lot of asks go unanswered because they are frankly disrespectful, and not always just to me. I delete a lot of hate, more than i’d care to admit on here. I wish I had the first idea about who leaves them, but I know that whoever they are hasn’t got the first clue about me, Ellie, or our lives. And is simply just bored and looking for a reaction, which I admit sometimes i do give them because the questions and statements are just that ludicrous. We ended, coming up to a year ago now so this time of year is gonna suck as it is without this constantly. Yes we’ve talked a few times when needed this year and we both know that we can contact the other. No we don’t hate each other and no nobody did anything wrong for the relationship to end. All I’ve ever wanted is for her to be happy like she deserves to be and I’d like to think I deserve that too so I’m finally ready to start moving on with my life, I will always have love for her, always. If i ever do meet someone else i don’t want to be made out like I’m cheating or doing something wrong like the people on here make out. So can you lot stop being so childish, rude and quite frankly borderline creepily obsessed with two complete strangers and move on? I think that answers most of the questions I get asked constantly so are we done now?

[caelumsnuff]

I think it’s more than fair and reasonable for creators to have things that they’re uncomfortable with especially with their creations and the spaces they made. Why is that such a problem for you I’m sincerely asking? Everyone has things they’re uncomfortable with and no one wants others to go against those things ya know? Especially when it comes to sexualizing and things like that. And to just say “I don’t care I’m gonna do whatever the fuck I want no one can stop me” feels disrespectful. I would just genuinely like to understand where you’re coming from.

you're the only anon im gonna let continue to be in my inbox after this. you can thank my partner for convincing me that this is in good faith, cause imma answer it as such.

Everyone has things they're uncomfortable with. Literally everyone, myself included. Some of us have things that don't just make us uncomfortable, but actually trigger us and put us in psychological distress, myself included.

But that being true doesn't give people the right to demand that they cease making the art they wish to make. People in this fandom make things that trigger me, and yanno how i act? I block them and move on.

As I've said before, respect is subjective. Personally i find it disrespectful to try to dictate what are other people make because some of it might make you uncomfortable. Everyone has the right to creative liberty, and it is wrong to step on other people's feet in that regard because something they create makes you uncomfortable. If we bent to the will of anyone and everyone that didn't like certain things in art, art just.... wouldn't exist. Or if it did, it'd be the most sanitized shit in existence.

To avoid that happening, we use sites' features to cultivate our own experiences, and do our part to help others do the same. Block, mute, ignore, tag, spoiler, and trigger warn our art. I do the same. I appropriately tag every single one of my fanfics to the best of my ability. The one thing i have refused to tag my fics as is "underage" when they're not. Caelum is 24. He's not underage, he's not a child. And quite frankly i've been thinking of him as a mentally capable adult from day 1, so I'm not going to tag my fic as something it isn't. But i've done my job to let you know that there is sexual NFSW of Caelum in my fics, i make it very clear. If you proceed to read it when you believe he is a child, that is your choice and your responsibility. I have done my job. If you interpret Caelum as not being capable to consent, i can't and won't stop you. Hell, i don't want to stop you. You're free to do such a thing, that's your right.

It's not disrespectful to write something that someone dislikes, or makes them uncomfortable. People can ask nicely, or demand, or try to control you all they want, but their right to not be challenged by art ends where your right to creative liberty begins. Nobody has the right to tell you what you can and can't make, and that includes Erik.

I've said it before and i'll say it again, but fandoms just simply aren't for the creators, they're for the fans.

I'll admit that if i didn't tag my fics as i do, or if i intentially tried to shove them in Erik's face despite his possible wishes to not see them, then i'd be a disrespectful asshole. But i don't do that. No one has to see or like my fanfics, they're written for me and i share them for anyone who would like to read them.

I hope you understand a little bit of where i come from. If not, that's fine. If interacting with me or even seeing me or my content on tumblr or on AO3 makes you uncomfortable, i really do insist that you just block me. It's not worth it.

[ur-dad-satan]

How horrible a person must one be to say that Louis sisters reposting tweets from an Ukranian war reporter about a baby surviving another horrible tragedy the earthquake in Turkey and Syria which like the Russian war killed hundreds of thousands of people - are signaling for your babygate conspiracy theory? I'd spit in your face if I'd ever met you. You are despicable. And you wonder why people despize conspiracy theorists like you? If you don't post this ask with an apology - burn in hell

Hi Anon, respectfully, I have literally zero clue what you're talking about as the last thing I've posted about Louis was talking about his song Common People which was over a month ago. I have not said anything about his sisters and when I saw that stuff on Twitter, I didn't even believe it. You don't know me and you said you would spit in my face and that you hope I burn in hell? That's a bit aggressive.

No, I don't care about the whole babygate thing because it's not my business. I saw those tweets and posts and stuff about it and moved on with my day because quite frankly I have more important things in my life to worry about than a new theory in the fandom. I agree that they were disrespectful for people to say and think, but I never participated in any of that.

I didn't do anything to you and that ask was really aggressive. I don't like you coming into my asks on my account and wishing ill on me. I don't know where you got your information from, but you have the wrong person. Hope you have a great day/night though!! <3

[ryuichirou]

SEBEK X LEONA??? OH WOW I actually really like this unexpected ship....

Can you tell us your HCs for their relationship? (and how they would have intimate moments together?? I think Sebek is a biter 👀)

The ship was unexpected for us too, Anon! But they do have their rare interesting moments together, even though they’re mainly tied with Malleus… well, with Sebek, everything grows from and comes back to his adoration of Malleus lol

As you might already know, I’m always bad with headcanons related to Leona, so I won’t give you much, but here is a couple:

First of all, yes, Sebek is definitely a biter. Which is something that Leona actually appreciates – he likes being bitten but doesn’t like asking/demanding it. With Sebek, he can complain about getting bitten and disrespected, but still get bitten and disrespected to his heart’s content – Sebek does this without thinking.

Another thing that Sebek does without thinking is berating Leona by comparing him to Malleus, in a “my liege is great, and you behave like… this” way. But he needs to get super angry for that, because he knows that Malleus and Lilia would be angry if he seriously disrespected a prince from another kingdom. What he doesn’t know is that Leona likes this treatment, even if he complains about it. He thinks that Sebek’s stupidity is a blessing, because he doesn’t seem to notice just how horny Leona gets when he does that.

Leona’s go-to was to tease Sebek about Malleus, but he very quickly learned that he should be careful about these things. Of course, Sebek might get even more aroused and angry (in a good way), but he might also get upset and angry (in a bad way). Frankly, Sebek is too much work sometimes. But he also isn’t, because Sebek is actually quite easy to provoke…

[myuni-moon]

one of my favorite parts of genshin impact (other than the characters) has to be the NPC world quests because i find it really amusing that the world renowned traveler is doing stuff like getting 2 berries for some random person they met when exploring-

so it’s only natural that i think it’d be funny if god darling really loved to help people, like these random people are just approached by their GOD being like “hey i saw your commission, have 3 meat” before just leaving and moving on to help someone else.

just god darling slightly disguising themself (like when traveler to sneak into fauti schemes just puts on a face mask and calls it a day) and joining the Adventurers’ Guild and constantly sneaking out of their Teapot to do their daily commissions (they’re married to the genshin grind-)

so can i get headcannons with a darling like that with scaramouche, venti and anyone else you would like :)

yours truly,

gremlin anon

#commissions, commissions, commissions

headcannons of reader disguising themselves and doing commissions ft. cult!scaramouche and venti

warnings: yandere content, yandere cult stuff, mentions of murder

it'd be a miracle that you were able to slip away so easily without zhongli or anyone else noticing, and perhaps that they do know of and acknowledge your little hobby as an adventure— their way of letting you indulge since the know just how you hate staying cooped up.

venti knows where you are at all times through the gentle whispers of the wind, but he lets you do as you wish. depending on what commission you take, he’ll either just watch over you or join you. he doesn’t dare try to expose your identity sine he sees it as alone time with you.

if anyone disrespected you during one of your tasks, he so badly wants to tell off the person for, quite frankly, insulting their god— but he doesn’t. in lieu of this, he just makes some passive aggressive comment and/or kills them off later.

the breaks in between doing your commissions are filled with the gentle strum of his lyre. venti helps you calm down and catch your breathe while he makes sure you’re thoroughly entertained with songs that he comes up on the spot with. you’ll find him poking fun at some of the other archons or dropping shade on some characters.

overall, he just does commissions with you. his favorite one to do is where you have to sweep up all the leaves because he just does the work for you while making it a fun experience by floating up with you.

scaramouche, on the other hand, detests having you lift a single finger, but he just wallows in silence since it makes you happy. while he may not approve of you doing such things, it doesn't mean he'll just leave you alone to do as you please. he always tries to persuade you into "taking a break" for that day or going with you if you refuse to budge.

our harbinger is surprised that no one has realized that it's their god that's been heeding their requests, given how you just put on a mask and called it a day. no one dares to mess with you with the fatui harbinger trailing beside you, and even if someone tried, they won’t miss the way the tension rises from scaramouche’s glare alone.

if any of your commissions include any fatui personnel, he’ll take care of it. while he may not care if the said fatui dies, he does care of the long-lasting effects it will have on you if they die. in lieu of this, he results to just ordering them to do something else to help you complete the task. scaramouche would have to feign friendly relations, even if all he wants to do is bash their skull into the ground.

these two think it’s incredibly adorable of you to try and keep your presence a secret when it might as well be a given when they’re right next to you, overprotective in every sense of the word. if you leave your mask lying around them, you might find it decorated with a cecilia or sakura petals.

overall, the two wouldn’t interfere with your plans. in the case that zhongli finds out, they’ll be happy to keep you company as you’re effectively put under house arrest for the time-being.

[edvinception]

I love Edvin, so much, but can he stop acting like him saying he is straight (which it’s not a bad thing and also the norm lol) it’s gonna get him hate crimed?

I really don’t get him playing all coy and avoiding the question, it’s quite annoying and it’s actually extremely harmful towards actual lgbtq celebs who come out and for real get hate crimed or lose jobs because of it or those who have to live in fear of being discovered. No straight actor lives in fear.

“Don’t assume someone’s sexuality” sure, but it’s really annoying and the disrespect is just astronomical because again, he has nothing to lose. Unlike others. No one would care. Avoiding the question acting like he’s got something to lose when being straight is the norm just makes him look like a bit of a jerk... the way he said he doesn’t want to be typecasted as someone who plays an lgbtq character? That boy is done fake kissing boys. He is lucky 90% of the roles are all straight boys, so he doesn’t have to put up with that and people will stop asking him if he isn’t straight. Which he is.

I'm sorry anon but this needs to stop. Ove seen this ask being sent over and over and over.

When has he ever acted like him saying he's straight will get him "hate crimed"? Also drop the ironic lol if you want to be taken seriously.

Not wanting to talk about your sexuality is not acting coy. In what way does he owe any of you information like that? He's never said he lives in fear. He just doesn't think it's relevant to talk about and frankly neither do I.

I disagree that it's disrespectful to not tell anyone you're straight. It doesn’t matter if the person has nothing to lose or doesn't risk losing jobs over it. It's literally none of your business. It's quite disrespectful though to assume someones sexuality and feel entitled to it. But here you are acting as if you are. I find it very ironic that you talk about astronomical disrespect because you're the one that demands private information from people and make assumptions both on his sexuality and his intentions and feelings.

I think you come off like a jerk if I'm honest.

He said he didn’t want to play another role similar to Wilhelm right now not that he doesn't want to ever play an lgbtq character again. So what's your point?

also as someone who follows him quite closely I can't recall even one interview where this as come up? Let alone several that would make it the issue you're claiming it is.

I don't remember him being asked about that actually.

And maybe people just shouldn't ask in the first place.

[gojology]

Intense Healing Session.

the request :

pairing : caring! healer! fem! reader x gojo satoru hehhehe warnings : cursing, implications of seggs after sum intense kissing, pet names wordcount : 2.0k a/n : yoyo i’m back!! semi-long one for u all. cute request, anon. sorry for late delivery. pls dont rate me a 1/5 on yelp </3 hehe the title is kinda funny LOL

     You’re beginning to hate Satoru.        Surprisingly, it’s not for the reasons people dislike him- he’s a bit of a blabbermouth, never quite learned how to seal his lips just because of how important he was to the jujutsu world. Unsurprisingly, he gets away with everything because he’s attractive and crucial to defeating curses, and there’s no shame in admitting it.       People hate Satoru for his destructive personality, he’s carefree and doesn’t let anything get to him. This may be a good trait for the untrained eye, but look carefully and you’ll see just how hectic he gets. It’s manageable since you don’t have to deal with him at the level of the Jujutsu elders.       You don’t particularly hate him for this, though.       It’s the fact he puts you through so much work, for almost no reason. You’re a healer- something very important to the quaint school that you worked at. Healing abilities are often overlooked, it’s often said that if a jujutsu sorcerer can’t provide offense, then they’re not much of a jujutsu sorcerer. Unfortunately, you have little to no talent in the battlefield, so essentially you’re a meat shield to everyone.      It was a growing occurrence to see him after every business trip, slightly roughed up but not enough to kill him. He comes into the room you share alongside Shoko, almost always when she’s not there, takes his shirt off, and displays a wide variety of cuts and bruises on his back like he’s a museum. You’d scold him, asking him how he’d get such abrasions with his infinity up constantly- but Satoru would hum, unanswering while you’re working your hands on his back.      Maybe you’re overreacting- but something tells you he does this on purpose, perhaps to fuck with you, and you’re bitter about it.     So it wasn’t surprising to see him whistle a sweet tune, hands shoved deep into his uniform pockets, casually strolling into the medical attention room for the fifth time this month.    “Gojo Satoru.” you say his full name aloud, just so he knows how much you hate his presence. Turning to look at you, his face displays innocent shock, but you just know that he’s probably rolling around in the inside seeing how riled up you got just by him stepping into the room.     Drained, lifeless eyes stare back at his childish bright ones.     Gojo places a hand on his chest defensively, “Well, I’ll be, Y/N. When did you want to disrespect your senior?” he snickers before shutting the door behind him. “You mad?”      “Unbearably. Lucky I care for you.” you utter back, venom dripping in your words, you feel like you’re making a fool of yourself as you shove your lunch aside that you had been enjoying on the tiny table next to you, sighing and rubbing your temples, tugging and effectively straightening your coat. “Get on the bed, let me work my magic.”     Looking at you with a shit-eating grin, he whistles, placing his elbows against the mattress, his roughened hands caressing his cheeks. “Working your magic? I’m interested. Tell me more, Y/N. Does this involve... Getting naked, perhaps?”     Staggering, you give him a dirty glare, “Satoru! I’ve been working my ass off like every week to get you all healed up, and you dare be perverted in my-”     “No cursing, lil girl! You wouldn’t want this rubbing off on Yuuji-kun and everyone else, would you? You’d be charged with a felony!” leaving you stunned for a second time- the first time being when his lanky figure strode into the room like it was his room- you don’t even know how to respond. How could one possibly be so... Ungrateful for your work?  Well, then again the elders existed... That was besides the point, though. You’re not even sure if Yuuji knows what the word fuck or shit is.     He drags his finger lazily along the cot, drawing various shapes into existence, giving you a skeptical look. “Not gonna answer? Stumped?”     He broke through your train of thought, and you shake your head. “Satoru, I don’t know any sort of fighting jujutsu, but I will fucking pulverize you and make sure you’ll be dust by the time I’m done with y-”     Butting in, he raises his hand as a way to shut you up. “Honeybun, you’re an amazing jujutsu sorcerer, but I hope you realize why they call me the strongest of all time. If you haven’t noticed, it’s because I have a constant shield. The closest you can get to doing that is maybe poking me.”     Giving him a snooty face, you’re frankly about to push him out of the room with sheer willpower and hatred alone. It seems he realizes this, a moment of adoration flickering across his eyes before finally neutralizing. “Alright, alright, I’ll stop playing with you. You’re so cute when I do though, like a little... Rabid raccoon! How can I not resist?”     It’s difficult to tell if that’s a compliment or an insult, with Satoru, it could be several things. But, you’re still slightly flattered, knowing him he’d go out of his way to lengthen his insult if it was one- just another reason why you hated him. Being called a rabid raccoon was definitely not on Satoru’s top 10 utterly offensive insults.       “Shut up, Satoru. Here, take off your shirt, what did you get yourself into this time?”       He obliges with a nasty grin on his handsome features, hastily yanking off his uniform. Underneath was a very meticulously trained body, toned muscles and all. You can’t help but to also catch a glimpse of his collarbones, which were so defined it looked like it could cut your butter for your morning pancakes. You gulp, blinking, you had forgotten just how well-shaped he was in the one week you hadn’t seen him.       “No need to stare, sweetums.” he chirps, realizing your darkening cheeks. “Feed my ego any more and I’ll probably burst and my organs will decorate your walls. You can donate my body to the local college, they’ll be surprised by how top-notch they are.”       Giving him another stern, but much more sheepish gaze, he snaps his mouth shut, but a triumphant smile replaced his grin in place.      “Please, no gruesome detailing. I’d much rather my cute kitten posters.” you motion to a white cat slumbering peacefully in a basket.      “Looks just like you.” he says.      You close your eyes and pretend he’s not there, choosing to ignore yet another one of his compliments, but your heart thumps faster in your heaving chest. Heaven knows how curious your hands could get if you could see where you were touching-      “Those are my abs, Y/N. I think we’re focusing on my back.” he muses aloud in an almost teasing tone. You can already imagine how obnoxious his face is, opening your eyes hesitantly, blinking to adjust to the bright room lights. Your hands are still hovering above his abs, his gaze is upon yours, looking at you with a mix of speculation and speechlessness. Instead of his unusual smug smirk, there’s an almost coy expression on his features, which shocked you.        “How’d your hands get there? Last time I checked, abs are at the front, not the back, hmmm?”        You grit your teeth, your face flush with warmth at your sudden realization. There was no cheeky retort you could’ve possibly come up with, after all, he was right, how did your hands wander to his abs? You weren’t thinking of doing it. You weren’t interested in him either, but he was attractive. Of course you’d be too curious for your own good.. Yes, that was it..       “Your hands are still on an inappropriate place, Y/N. Except, a lil lower than last time.” he chuckles wholesomely as you jerk up, straightening yourself and clearly sweating, your arm wiping your brow and exhaling a drawn-out and awfully dramatic sigh.       “Give me a break, Satoru. I just, um, you know... Zone out.” your pitch was unconvincing, high-pitched and wavering, bringing your chances of believability to a low.      “So, this is like, the 375th time since you’ve zoned out, lil girl.” he tsks, “You’ve gotta sound convincing if you wanna fuckin lie, you know.”      “I--” you falter, now clearly a shade darker than you were just 5 minutes ago. Your heart beating so rapidly it was almost like you were running a marathon. Why was your pulse so quick? Why was everything in the room a blur besides him? Why couldn’t you focus on healing him? What was he doing to you?      “You haven’t even begun the healing process.” he murmurs, his large hands caressing your arm that was by your side. “Anything you want to tell me, pumpkin? I’m on a tight ass schedule, but I’ll let Ijichi solve that. Spit it out.”       His voice rang out high and clear amongst the hectic fight that was going inside your head, steadying your thoughts. A few moments pass by, studying him, lips moving but no words coming out. Why was it so difficult to say through the insults, you cared for him, and wanted him to be more careful? Was it because of the monster inside of you, who wanted him to get hurt, to spend his time with you, listen to his horrible compliments and giggle at the jokes he made as you worked at a snail’s pace on his back, that weren’t even funny, but was funny because of his presence in the dead room, his boyish laugh very much needed in such days of flatness?      “Satoru..” you finally muster out, his eyes flickering on you once more as he was studying the kitten poster with much boredom. “I just.. Care for you.”      “Huh.” is all he says, face falling and examining the spotless floor. “Is that all?”      Acknowledging his body language, you huff, suddenly filled with the need to defend yourself. “What else did you want me to say? I just feel like you’ve gotten yourself hurt a lot more recently and... I just, want you to be more careful. That’s all.”     “No.” he was barely audible, so you had to lean down to hear him. “No, that’s not it at all. You’re hiding something. Do you prefer me to say it?”     Puzzled, you peer at him with childlike curiosity gleaming in your eyes. What did he know about you that you didn’t? Surely, you knew all about yourself?    “You’re not that fucking dumb, are you?”     “Huh?-” you begin to speak, clearly offended, but you’re stopped.     By none other than his lips.      They’re soft, pillow-like even. A familiar warmth floods inside of you at the sudden physical contact from Satoru, except it’s amplified by 10 times. A moan slips out of your mouth, his hand against your back so suddenly you could’ve sworn it wasn’t there just a millisecond ago. His lips were mashing against yours, as if he wanted to have done this a long time ago. You hungrily push back, teasing your mouth with his tongue that slipped just barely into your mouth before indulging in you, which you thought wouldn’t had ever happened prior to this.      You grip the back of his head firmly, as if he were to escape, other hand tangled in his snow white tufts of hair. Eyelashes fluttering, heavy breathes fanning out both of your noses, your lips were sure to be swollen after this. Your tongues dueling each other, working your mouth against his. His unoccupied hands start to play with the hem of your shirt, and another moan slips out of your mouth, anxious to have progressed so far to the removal of clothing, but at this point, you’re ready for anything.    ‧₊˚✩彡.       “I don’t think Gojo-Senpai and Y/N-Senpai are just in an intense healing session.” breathed Yuuji with a terrified look in his eyes, clutching his arm that was bloodied up, his head leaned close to the firmly shut door.        Nobara looked like she was about to faint, looking at the door as if it was a several feet tall monstrosity of a curse.        “What? What are they doing in there?” Megumi knelt down to where Yuuji was, pushing his ear against the door, and immediately his eyes shot open, a traumatized look in his fearful eyes.        “What the fuck.”