#but i don’t have to think abt the test anymore and now i have the rest of the month to get caught up on late work and study for ap calc so 😌

[zzzzombieboy]

Leon Kennedy

Headcannons

just things that I think abt Leon

listens to Linkin Park for sure, fav song is probably no more sorrow or in the end (he likes the basic songs i’m telling u) also DEFINITELY listens to Three Days Grace, doesn’t have a fav song tho

he was obsessed with guitar hero for a little bit and he got really good at it when it came out but then stopped playing and now can’t even fc a song on easy mode

sleeps on his stomach with his face to the right side

if you like a movie he doesn’t like he will act like you’re a swine and bring it up all the time to make fun of you

doesn’t have a bed frame, sleeps on two mattresses stacked on top of each other

he is so bland and probably has like one thing on his wall, the rest of his room is bright white with stains on it

doesn’t like sour candy

never talked much in high school, probably only had like 3 friends each year

terrible hearing, absolutely awful (from all the guns he’s shot INDOORS)

used to LOVE zombie movies as a kid and obviously he is not a big fan of them anymore

loves atari games like centipede or tetris but he can’t stand playing space invader for some stupid reason

he loves a good, horrible, greasy, poorly cooked fast food burger

has so many shirts but like 3 pairs of pants

very unorganized work locker, probably stinks too

he only knows one way to tie a tie, and it’s very simple so all of the ties he wears go somewhat past his waist

used to be a little thief and stole issues of comics from the gas station and then giggle about it once he got out of the store, he always got caught though

he is so stingy about his money, the only extravagance he has is really expensive leather jackets (or the jacket that he wore in the re4 remake that was like $1000)

doesn’t fold his laundry he just jams it into his drawers

DYES HIS HAIR!!!! he dyes his hair he was born in 77 he is 46 he has to be graying at this point

gay king 👑 (i don’t CARE that he asks women out in the movies to me he is just so hungry and wants dinner so bad)

he wears his dog tags under his shirts so they don’t get damaged

he sucks so bad at driving because he missed like 8 days of drivers ed and had to retake the test like 4 times before he passed

also he didn’t have anyone to practice with so he just kinda winged it

doesn’t know how to reply to compliments so he just goes “ok 🙂”

texts with his pointer finger and not his thumbs

he’s bad at keeping secrets but not in the way that he’s an instigator, he just forgets that the person he’s talking to isn’t also in on the secret and will randomly blurt it out like common knowledge

bad at cooking, nobody ever taught him and he is really stubborn and doesn’t wanna learn

he’s an atheist but has weird religious trauma so he’s like scared that god exists but doesn’t believe in one

we all know he’s corny and says stupid shit and i think when he comes across a cookie he goes “don’t mind if i do 😏” then has a little nibble, puts it down and forgets about it

he likes german shepards

doesn’t understand modern art

likes taking personality quizzes that ask him really obscure things

ok that’s it tell me if u agree or u want a part 2 or something ok bye

[leoluved]

moondads to be

summary: each of the boys reaction to you telling them you’re pregnant plus more cute lil headcanons warnings: mentions of pregnancy, mood swings, super teeth rotting fluff, i’ve formatted this like 90 percent mobile so if it’s a lil messed up that’s why :) word count: 500

steven

- the second you told him you were pregnant he needed a brown paper bag to start breathing into lmfao

- he was so excited from the get go and he was one who loved to go to stores and pick stuff out for the baby and the nursery

- he brings a bunch of parenting books and baby books home, and begs the other alters to at least look at them

- steven wants to be the perfect dad, he wants to be ready in any situation that’s presented to him. he wants to be prepared

- he’s kind of a soccer dad? he makes snacks with cute notes and drives them places

- never lets them out of his sight, specifically because the first time your baby had some tummy time with steven they decided to wander off

- steven almost had a panic attack and they were just chilling under the sofa

marc

- he is stunned, shocked n scared. he is terrified. he’s honestly really avoidant about it at first

- the conversation doesn’t go so well, you tell him you’re pregnant and he just kinda goes ‘ok’ and the two of you go on about your day

- it isn’t until later at night when you’re almost fully asleep that marc just whispers “you weren’t joking, right? you’re really pregnant? for sure?”

- you get up and show him the pregnancy tests and it just clicks in his head that he’s really having a kid

- he doesn’t wanna fuck up and be a bad dad and he’s always nervous about holding them

- the first time marc held them they cried and he was certain that meant they didn’t like him

- “they hate me already.” meanwhile they fall asleep on his chest while he’s sleeping on the couch

jake

- he is way more emotional than he thinks he should be. he wants to be a dad so badly, i feel like jake wants to have a big family and while he doesn’t outright say it i think you can understand it

- he is super onboard with all the weird shit abt pregnancy, you need pickles and ice cream at four am? fuck it let’s go

- you don’t like the nursery anymore? let’s just rearrange it right now. no i don’t care it’s midnight you sit back just tell me where to move things

- he’s the best out of the three who deals with your moodswings and emotions, he apologizes profusely and is on his knees worshipping you

- i mean u are carrying their kid how could he not be completely ecstatic?

- out of the two between him and marc, jake actually takes his time to read the books steven brings home

- he learns a lot, and pretends to be a bougie dad but really he’d let his kid each the fries off the floor of the limo

- “what? my limo’s clean.”

[eyeballth3vampire]

Ok so, since I keep seeing no one talk abt her uh… don’t mind me, I’mma just rant abt Cherri bomb and stuff bc why not >:]

Cherri Bomb imo, should’ve had A LOT more to her design and I mean A LOT

Now although Cherri’s design is not as bad as the others (well her Design is decent ‘ish but just rarely), ever since I first saw her design I always felt underwhelmed by her design especially now.

There isn’t really much to say other than the usual colors blend in problem and such

But imo I find this redesign to be quite lazy because this literally just her design in the Addict Video, and I just wonder, why? Could viv not think of anything creative when redesigning her after the addict video? I ask bc there is literally so many ways viv could’ve made Cherri’s design to look very cool and unique! Like yea, I know this is viv who we’re talking Abt and her creativity can only go oh so far BUT STILL!!!

“But Kat! What could viv add/change Cherri’s design to make her more ‘unique’?? After all you can’t change perfection-“

DON’T. TEST ME.

Like I said there are literally MANY GODDAMN WAYS viv could’ve made her design more unique! Infact, I can literally share some ideas I have / things that would’ve made her design better

1. Literally changing her Outfit.

Like do I even have to explain????? Her outfit is absolutely hideous and imo doesn’t suit her like AT ALL. Her Outfit is literally a bunch of ripped clothes with the most atrocious colors I’ve ever seen. Her outfit would’ve honestly been more cooler if she had Punk attire! It would Honestly fit with her personality really well! Like REALLY REALLY well! And if viv doesn’t know how to design characters with punk attire then there are LITERALLY endless amounts of references of punk outfits that viv could use when she was designing Cherri and these images are not just any references of punk fashion but rather punk fashion that was LITERALLY FROM THE 1980S!!! Y’know, THE ERA SHE DIED IN??

HECK, THIS OLD REDESIGN I DID OF CHERRI (that I plan on updating after I finish making this post with a bunch of other redesigns I’m doing) CAN LITERALLY BE AN EXAMPLE ON HOW PUNK CAN FIT CHERRI’S PERSONALITY REALLY WELL!!

LITERALLY THESE ALT OUTFITS SHE WORE IN HER LONG GONE INSTA ACCOUNT ARE ALSO GREAT EXAMPLES OF THAT TOO!

If viv used one of these outfits as her main one that would’ve been fine too! Like yea I would at first question why viv chose one of these outfits but other than that I wouldn’t be as pissy as I am with what we got bc it fits her character.

2. Make her have doll elements or som idk

Ok. I know what y’all are gonna say.

“Kat. Why do you want Cherri Bomb to be a doll? Velvet’s literally right here.”

Uh huh, I know that but like hear me out on this

I feel like Cherri being a literal doll could honestly work imo! Heck, if Cherri was a doll, the weird anatomy she has can literally go in viv’s favor! Since dolls most of the time don’t really have realistic bodies, like literally look at this thing if ya don’t believe me

But jokes aside, I do genuinely think it would be an awesome idea! I mean there are literally many dolls out there (even dolls from her era too), that viv can use as references if Cherri was gonna be a doll too! Cherri can literally be a punk rebellious version of Barbie for all I care (I mean like cmon are you gonna tell me that wouldn’t be so cool?)

She doesn’t even have to be specifically a doll either if viv didn’t want make her one, she can literally be an action figure too! (Unfortunately I can’t show anymore images bc I’m a the limit for adding photos in one post but hopefully you get idea)

3. GIVE HER A DIFFERENT FUCKING COLOR PALETTE FOR FUCKS SAKES!!11!1!

Blah blah blah Cherri’s palette as mentioned before in this post sucks!

But the thing that bugs me most in her color palette is literally the gradients in Cherri’s hair

Like every time I saw Cherri pop on screen in the hh pilot (and I do apologize if I sound dumb), the gradients on her hair would change ALOT to the point it kinda felt inconsistent…

The only time the gradients in Cherri’s hair felt consistent was in the addict video but that was only bc viv had to LITERALLY SIMPLIZE her hair so the animators wouldn’t have an hard time animating her god damn hair (kinda wished she did the same with the rest of the designs but oh well)

And that’s all I could think of (for now), if anything I can prob just make reblog to add on to this post, Uh Ty for reading this critical rant post thingy I have going on, I’mma go to bed it’s literally 3am for me rn at the time of making this and uh idk bye ig

[4kiraa]

thinking abt men who treat there pretty lil gf so good. spoiling her rotten, giving her endless compliments. but when she starts to act up, they turn into straight up bullies in bed:3!!!!

warnings: fem! reader, cervix f!cking :3, NAWT proof read🤓

Sigh, bfs who treat their gf like she created the moon and stars herself.

As soon as you two walk into a room almost everyone immediately knows who you belong to. your boyfriend loves to make this known by wrapping his arm around your waist and propping you on his legs.

“baby, there’s a chair right over there”

“So? my pretty baby should have her own personal seat”

did i mention that your bf also had a habit of spoiling you rotten?

it was his favourite thing (apart from spending time with you) at the start of your relationship, you made it clear to him that you were an independent woman who made her own money. “you shouldn’t have to spend all this on me baby, you know i can-“

“shh” he cuts you off “please baby lemme just get this for you, just this once. you deserve it” he’d say with a sly grin on his face. though, it was never “just once”

He was also never afraid to beat the hell out of guys for looking at you a certain way, you couldn’t even count the amount of times you’ve had to bail that boy out of jail because of a brutal beating he had given to a guy who tried making moves on you when the both of you would go to clubs.

you sighed “baby, i don’t wan’ you to get in anymore fight ok? one of these days they’re gonna lock you up for real n’ i don’t know what i’d do if-” He cut you off with a kiss. you pouted at him and he looked down at your pretty doe eyes, slowly caressing your hair. “alright baby, i’ll try” (he did not in fact “try”)

he’s really not one to blame. you’re a pretty scratch that gorgeous girl. who wouldn’t start a whole bar fight and go to jail for you it’s not his fault he just can’t resist those pearly whites of yours. and that soft hair, and pretty lips that make him wanna kiss you every second of the day, it’s almost natural for people to try and test their luck by hitting on you in front of him.

so if he loves you sooo much, then why his he bullying his thick cock into your pussy right now as we speak? the answer is because you “love to try him” you’ll admit it, you do. there’s just something that makes your mind go numb when he flips you on your stomach, ramming into your cunt from the back while saying the most obscene things ever.

“it feels so good baby, don’t stop!” you’d moan.

“Damn, shit, shut up” he’d say while bucking his hips against your ass. “i shoulda’ never made you cum in the first place n see how long you can hold out, since you wanna act like a bitch, i’ll treat you like one”

you know that you cunt shouldn’t be squeezing him even more after he said that, but you can’t help yourself. your boyfriend was just so hot when he was mad.

“apologize” he said, snapping you out of your thoughts . “wh-what” “i said apologize, are you that dumb on my dick? should i stop and make you collect your thoughts? he said, his voice now deeper. “n-no!” you protested “m’ sorry baby, m’ really, ah- sorry! i swear!” you know you sounded desperate, but all you wanted to do was cum, and you knew that your boyfriend’s threats were not empty.

“aight baby, what are you sorry for? if you can’t answer, then are you really sorry?” he was driving you crazy. at this point, his hips started slowing down, and all you could do is throw your ass back at uh i’m in order to compensate for the same stimulation you felt earlier. “m’ sorry for acting like a brat! i p-promos it won’t happen again”

he smiled “that’s a good girl” he grabbed your hair into a ponytail, bring your head up to his and giving you a chaste kiss on your cheek. he then shoved your face down into the bed and began to ram into you again. at this point you were seeing stars, telling him endless ‘thank yous’ and ‘i’m sorrys’ he knew you didn’t mean any of it, but if it meant that he’d get to fuck you like this, he didn’t care. As long as he got to see your cute drooling face and tear stained cheeks, you could act like a brat all you wanted. Just know he would always be there to put you in your place.

-it’s 3 in the morning i could’ve expanded on this but wtvr. hashtag enjoy.

[heartshapedjelly]

my subliminal results!! Σ(·口·)

⌗ my face has gotten slimmer for sure! I still have chubby cheeks but my lower face is sooo much slimmer!

⌗ my skin is sooooo clear and glowy i had clear skin before yes! But i used to get a lot of acne frequently now I don’t really! Everyone always compliments me also on how they’re jealous of my skin and that my skin is so clear!

⌗ my eyelashes are literally so long like omggggg every always compliments on them

⌗ my hair is growing sooo long! A year ago i cut it like so short like earlobes short and my hair was growing veryyyy slowly now its shoulders length! My hair used to be sooo dirty and oily now its so soft and silky!

⌗ my lips was sooo crusty and i would pick on it now my lips are sooo soft pink and slightly bigger! Also my bottom lip was a little unsymmetrical but now its so full yayyyy!

⌗ better posture! I used to have such bad posture like my back is literally a C now my posture is wayy better! Even my friends said that to me

⌗ i’m in a love-hate relationship with my hands cause sometimes its soooo pretty and skinny and the next second it’s horrendous but i’d say it counts! I used to bite and chew on my nails and I don’t do that anymore my nails are growing fast too and they don’t break that much

⌗ no because in the first semester i got suchhh bad grades I literally cried i had 1.5 grade on math and 2 2.5 overall 3.25 i placed 217 in all of the students class i think? Like do you get what i mean like the entire grade?? next semester I literally didn’t study anything at all i got a 3 in math overall 3.68 and i placed 134! Also my Chinese test I didn’t study like nope nope i mesmerized only 1 paper but we were supposed to do 3 and i got 25/30!!

⌗ i sing wayyy better than before thats all i can say like um its not the best but its definitely better!

⌗ one of my tiktok actually blew up and got 1.4k views! I used to get only like 220 and i only listened to a subliminal once?? Then i think i got obsessed after that so now tiktok shadowbanned me manifesting for it to blow up again!!

⌗ i’ve gotten sooo many compliments lately??? From literally everyone, one of my classmate literally was like “no? Because when you waved at me over there i was thinking who is she?? Shes so pretty! Then I realized its you!” Like girlll im blushing

⌗ my skin was pale and still is pale! But I’ve noticed i got a little bit paler than my friend who is also pale! And I don’t really get tanned anymore when i go in the sun?

⌗ literally i was thinking to myself on summer break that i wanted a teacher that ask personal questions i think i may have just wanted a therapist but um and boom! New semester! I get that desired teacher??

⌗ this one’s a lil embarrassing but um i have rlly bad digestive system *wink wink* like i would not be able to sh!t at all! BAHSJBSJSJSJSJSJ now with the help of subliminals fruit juice lots of water and walking it soo much easier! ^__^

⌗ this one is a little concerning- weight loss sooo ummm I didn’t lose that much weight but my appetite has dropped and i mean DROPPED as in like eating 3-4 meals per day to being completely okay with only 1 T__T its to the point where my family are worried abt mee im not obsessed with weight or anything and im totally healthy! I’d say.. it counts??? I think it went frommmm 46 to 44??

⌗ theres this mole on my waist?? Or hip?? Area and i hate it! So i got rid of it jsjsjsjsjd its not completely gone but it used to be a reddish dark color now its the same as my skin tone! But its still bumpy- y’know??

[biolumien]

you’re… something | astarion x oc

note: i love thinking abt writing something rather than actually writing it, don’t you? lol. minos is my seldarine drow bard that i’m playing for my current run of baldur’s gate 3 :)

The Underdark is beautiful.

In a way.

Bioluminescent mushrooms almost murmur as timmask spores perfume the air below, and the entire place seems to breathe with quiet majesty.

Minos’s eye stares out. Once, he could perceive the depth of the cliffs below—and yet, now, it’s murky, hard to tell. A vast drop, sure, but it holds less power than before. He isn’t sure whether or not to be happy about it.

“I would think you would be more thrilled to return home,” Astarion’s voice is always composed, prim, and proper. He never approaches from Minos’s periphery, though. Minos doesn’t ask why. “Instead, this entire time you’ve been here, you’ve had a bit of an unsightly little grimace upon your face. Displeased, are you?”

He feels and hears Astarion more than he sees him—he feels the soft, sauntering steps, the sharp inhalation of breath like Astarion’s not quite sure whether or not this breath will be his last.

Minos’s lips quirk in a downward smile, or something like a grimace.

“Not quite,” Minos says.

Astarion hums.

Minos hears him sit down on his right, settling his weight delicately on the stone.

Minos doesn’t talk about his partial blindness. Not really. Mostly because it shouldn’t be a big deal. It doesn’t come up in discussion. It hasn’t made him a worse fighter, hell, a worse bard. He’s managed fine. But it bothers him still, somewhat, for some reason. Bothers him that Astarion won’t sit on the left, and let Minos see him. Not that Astarion even knows, but then again, shouldn’t he? Shouldn’t they all, with their illithid connection—

No.

Astarion is close-lipped. He is close-minded, but in the sense that he shuts off how he feels from others.

There’s something there, of course—buried down deep is a story to be truly dissected, about his scars and about his vampiric nature.

Minos wonders, of course, when he will be given the gift of Astarion’s story.

“Baldur’s Gate is.. was more of a home than this place,” Minos says after a moment.

Astarion shifts.

“You’re from Baldur’s Gate?” Astarion’s voice is… possibly curious, though tinged with his signature flare of uncaring sarcasm.

“You don’t need to sound so surprised,” Minos says.

“I thought that drow burned in the sunlight,” Astarion replies coolly. Minos can’t see his expression, but he imagines that Astarion’s lips have curled upwards, his red eyes sharp like bloodstone.

“You live in Baldur’s Gate,” Minos says. “And you burn in the sunlight.”

Minos turns his face now, to look at Astarion properly. His initial guess about Astarion’s expression is right. But as Minos continues to speak, Astarion’s gaze fixates on the chasms below, his brow furrowed.

“I would hardly call it living,” Astarion rasps. “To be under the thumb of a vampire master and jerked around for his every whim, a dog at his beck and call…”

Astarion’s voice sharpens.

“That’s not living at all.”

Minos hums.

“But I tire of this,” Astarion says, in a way where Minos can tell he’s not bored of talking about himself at all, but that this amount of vulnerability is the thing that makes him uncomfortable and puts him on edge. “Tell me about your story. How does a Seldarine drow end up in Baldur’s Gate?”

Minos laughs.

“My parents and I escaped the Underdark when I must have been… eight, nine? I don’t remember,” Minos says. “We moved to the Lower City. My mother and father repaired instruments. I played them to test them. Pretty good life, all things considered.”

Minos traces patterns onto the stone floor.

He’s spent more time not seeing his parents than he’s spent seeing them. He barely remembers their faces anymore, he thinks. A wrinkle on skin. A broader nose, softer jaw. A bubbling laugh. Dappled sunlight on wood, the searing pain of light against his skin as his mother whisked him up. He can’t picture her face, only the swift movement as he went from the ground and then lifted upwards.

“Don’t know who my parents pissed off, but one day I smelled smokepowder, and that was it. The shop, my home, my parents—gone in an instant.”

He’d been forced to fend for himself. He was drow, after all—no kind word or aid would ever be extended to him.

“It wasn’t right,” Minos says. “For me to be the last one alive. I should have died.”

His head throbs, and he winces as he feels the tadpole press at the back of his eye, carving out space in his brain as it takes the memories, nibbles on his anguish. He leans forward, letting out a low groan of pain.

Astarion watches.

He thinks he sees Astarion extend a hand, but it dangles somewhere between them, and he does not cross the gap.

“The explosion took your sight,” Astarion says.

Minos snaps his head up as the tadpole ceases its movement.

Astarion’s face is impassive.

“What?” Astarion asks, his voice suddenly growing a touch defensive. His expression settles on something more neutral, relaxed. “I notice these things, you know. You are not nearly as sly as you think you are. You favor your left side. Twice Lae’zel has called out for you to avoid an obstacle on your immediate right and you failed to notice. At first, I thought it must have been because you were playing a fool. But I see now.”

“I—”

Astarion stands.

Minos feels hot embarrassment creeping its way onto his face.

“If it’s any consolation,” Astarion says, and he seems to take pause. He shakes his head, jerking it slightly. “You…”

He looks at Minos again, and Minos wonders what expression he must have on his face if Astarion is looking at him like this, like he’s properly seeing Minos for the first time.

“You’re… I think… you’re… something.”

With that, Astarion stalks off back into the camp, and Minos is left alone, staring out into the chasms below.

[aroaceconfessions]

I’m more than halfway through my first semester at college but I’m astounded,, at how many ppl are already in relationships and hooking up

I saw ppl in relationships as early as the third week!! Like if u were dating before that and then both went to school here I can understand, but if you just met this person??? It’s been three weeks; you probably spent a week getting unpacked and buying things u missed, one week to really get in the hang of classes, and now u want to add a relationship to it??? That actually sounds like the most stressful thing. And this is a stranger. You’ve known them three weeks? That’s not anything.

Also I’ve heard a lot of ppl, specifically cis girls, talking abt how they’ve been hooking up w a bunch of ppl. Some even talk abt their friend’s hook ups! How it felt in bed, how them and their friends are all taking pregnancy tests, how the guys they like only like skinny girls w big butts and breasts. It’s… disgusting and alienating.

Like, I know they have the right to talk abt and do whatever they want, and I’m not saying they should stop if they enjoy it (tho I don’t know how that would be enjoyable), but I do think that talking abt friend’s hookups is too far. They probably told u that in private so why are u telling ppl? Or if they did say u can tell other ppl… why??? Why would they want that?? I don’t get it

I’m a trans man who’s pretty well passing, so I haven’t run w the cis girl group in a while (queer girls are a different story tho lol) but I still have the mentality that I have to be thin and pretty and not have facial hair and desirable so boys will want me (tho if I had to pick anyone, I would pick a female partner). Hearing them talking abt stuff like that, in addition to grossing me out, makes me feel like I’m failing at the life I’m supposed to be living even tho I don’t belong to that world anymore and don’t want those things anyway

Also, just going back to the hookup thing, this is not a party school, it’s pretty boring??? And everyone has at least three roommates??? So how and when are they doing this??? I’m so confused

[bestworstcase]

ok ok but the thing abt the gods

and redemption—

“if your kind is unchanged, if you demand our blessings while still fighting amongst yourselves, then man will be found irredeemable and your world will be wiped from existence.”

the heart of this is that you can’t accept the possibility of mankind being redeemed by the act of unquestioning obedience unity without also accepting that humans as they currently are deserve to die, that if the gods came back right now they would obliterate remnant and that would be fair and just, because humanity failed to redeem itself. redemption cannot occur without genuine fault or genuine debt.

and one of the foremost reasons ozma is so profoundly fucked up is that he was, and in many ways still is, somebody who believed heart and soul in human worth, in the value of human life—and his status as the chosen one tasked with redeeming humanity DEMANDS that he take it as a given that humankind does not intrinsically deserve to exist, because he is responsible for saving them from their own unworthiness. his choices are to accept all of what the god of light told him, or to reject it in its entirety.

so

two things happen with salem in the lost fable that i think are important in making sense of where rwby is going with this:

1. the kitchen scene:

ozma raises the subject of humanity “seem[ing] more divided than ever,” to which salem says “are you surprised? this world is quite literally godless. these humans have no one to guide them. perhaps that’s all they need.”—and then, when ozma skeptically asks where she’s going with this, continues,“we could be the gods of this world. our powers surpass all others. our souls transcend death. we can mold these lands into whatever we want—what you want!”

none of this appears to disturb ozma particularly. he is, at worst, a little dubious. until salem says THIS: “create the paradise the old gods could not.”—the instant she says paradise, he’s like:

in short it is, specifically, salem’s insinuation that she believes human beings have the potential to be better than the gods that rattles him. remember, this is a man who was directly told by one of these gods that these humans are inferior and broken and must be either redeemed or destroyed—and he raised the subject of division as a way of testing the waters to see if salem would get onboard with that divine mandate.

and her response was to give him a full-throated declaration of human superiority over the gods.

everything else salem said fits tidily within the divine perspective and the moral framework of the mandate: in the eyes of the brother gods, magical power—the divine blessing—really DOES make salem and ozma superior to other humans, and ozma was in a very literal sense put on this world for the express purpose of acting in the gods’ stead in order to lead humanity to redemption. but the moment salem made it clear that she thinks human potential is greater than the gods? i think that was the moment ozma realized he would have to make a choice, that he could either leave salem and accept the mandate or stay with her and reject it.

only he couldn’t bring himself to make that choice, so he kept the mandate a secret and tried to have it both ways.

2. the confession scene:

“don’t you see? none of that matters anymore! why spend our lives trying to redeem these humans—” [the camera cuts away from her to ozma here] “—when we can replace them with what they could never be?”

the most intriguing thing about that cut is that it shows ozma’s shifting reaction to what salem is saying; he’s disturbed at first,

—and when salem says replace them, his expression shifts not toward disgust (as one might expect) but rather contemplation—

—and once her hand is extended to him there is a very clear beat of ozma genuinely not being sure.

which is to say, either ozma was so morally compromised by this point that genocide was not an immediate hard no for him, or salem meant something else and, for example, made a gesture we didn’t see that clarified her meaning as “replace the gods.”

worth noting: “she painted them pictures of a time […] when they could claim the powers of their creators for themselves, and in turn, perfect their own design. all they needed to do was destroy their old masters.”

also worth noting: the first time jinn uses the phrase “the hearts of men are easily swayed,” it’s in reference to salem leading a rebellion against the gods. the second time it’s a coda on salem telling ozma they can surpass the gods. “we can replace the gods” has a much stronger continuity with salem’s character up to this point than “we can replace humanity,” is what i’m getting at,

ANYWAY, THE POINT IS. ozma lays all his cards on the table after years and years of trying to both be with salem (which he wants) and fulfill his mandate (which he didn’t want, but agreed to so he could find salem)—and salem predictably flatly refuses to accept it. she rejects not only the task itself but the idea that anything the gods want or say matters at all; she rejects redemption and everything it implies.

it’s possible that she’s really proposing genocide here—i’ll grant that, and certainly the scene is structured in such a way as to suggest that quite strongly—BUT, it didn’t read that way to me the first time i watched the episode and it really doesn’t read that way to me now. and regardless, salem’s total rejection of human redemption innately goes hand-in-hand with rejection of the divine perspective that humans as they currently are deserve to die; ozma’s moral failure here lies in his refusal to reject the gods along with her.

[if she did mean “replace humanity” the only effective way to persuade her otherwise would be to reject the gods and then engage in an actual ideological argument; i do think salem would have been more receptive to discussion on whether or not they were doing the right thing if ozma hadn’t opened the topic by going yeah so when i said i wanted to unite humankind that was because the gods, who punished you with eternal suffering and then killed every person on the planet except you, told me i had to or else they’re gonna kill everyone. again. like. sir,]

which—somewhat ironically—makes the heroes adopting salem’s perspective of the world and humanity a prerequisite for her to undergo a complete villain-to-hero arc; as things stand now team oz are still playing by the rules set out by the gods, implicit acceptance of human unworthiness at all, and that is demonstrably NOT a position that salem can accept. (in that sense, raven saying that salem can’t be reasoned with is true: there is no possibility of an argument that will ever persuade her to accept the rightness of the gods.)

and

given the clearly negative way that rwby uses “redemption” in other contexts—it is what the albain brothers use to manipulate ilia into going along with the assassination of the belladonnas and kidnapping of blake, and it’s the excuse salem uses for abandoning cinder after haven and being cruel to her even after cinder nominally ‘redeems’ herself, which salem herself obviously comes to recognize as a huge mistake—i think there is a very strong possibility of this big picture moral question coming into focus for team rwby (and jaune) in the ever after, of what it truly means to accept that humanity needs to be ‘redeemed’ from human nature and in turn what that question means for the conflict with salem, which is made impossible to resolve by their side’s implicit obedience of the gods.

[di0rdevil]

Affirming Success Story Compilation by moi 💋✨

these are some results I’ve gotten over the past few months of 2022 ✨

1.”Payday”

at my workplace the times we get our checks is every two weeks like normal. I wanted to get my paycheck a whole week earlier bc y’all know I’m impatient with money and want to see that bank rack up 😌

but all jokes aside, I kept affirming to myself that “oh I don’t need to worry, I’m gonna get paid tomorrow anyway” or “I’m getting paid tomorrow I’m so excited “ things like that I kept telling myself. I got home from work on Friday and checked my account, I did indeed get paid a whole week early and to make things even better, they’re changing our paydays so we get paid every week instead of every two weeks!

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2. “Rona”

ok so this one is abt to sound mad stupid but hear me out 💀

So around the last month nd a half of school and a few assignments were coming up in two of my classes which were a five minute presentation and an essay presentation. Now me, I don’t like public speaking and wanted any way out of doing the public speaking portion. Around state testing time I noticed I started to feel a bit sick and decided to call out sick and go home after I took my states math exam. My mom was worried sick that I might have the Rona so she tested me and it came out negative. Me thinking “oh if I do end up having rona I could stay out of school for longer to buy some time”. And that is sorta what I did, I affirmed for less than two minutes saying to myself “the rona test will come out positive “ and the morning that I had to go back to school my mom tested me again and it came faintly positive which shocks me sm because what the actual hell. I didn’t feel sick but I was so gassed that I got to stay home for like four days. (The sleep I got was heavenly). I did get my presentation pushed back for one class though so it was worth it, I had more time to prepare!

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3. “Bomb bomb bakudan”

this title sounds stupid af if you don’t play Genshin Impact but again, hear me out.

For you genshin impact players, the Kazuha and Klee banner dropped about two days ago. I’ve wanted to pull for Klee since last year’s golden apple archipelago event but instead I got a Diluc which I coped with for an entire year. I affirmed to myself two days ago “watch this, I’m gonna get Klee in this pull” (mind you it was a single pull) and I got her off of no pity. Last patch I got venti via pity so it’s impossible for me to be capping rn. A SINGLE PULL, I was in such disbelief. If you look at my older posts I mentioned I did the same thing to intentionally pull a Jean on standard banner.

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4. “The pretty friend”

So this is sorta a result that’s been going on for the entire year so it’s not really new to me anymore.

I’ve always felt like the ugly friend in my past friend groups, being the one that sticks out. I was heavier than my peers (being blonde yt girls, there’s no problem with them being yt it’s just that comparing yourself when you’re a completely different race is wild) and looked completely different than them. I felt completely inferior, like I was lesser. I was never persued, never got attention and was the “other side of the sidewalk” friend when it came to what I like to call “pretty politics”. This past year I moved and consistently listened to my playlists, affirmed and obviously tried to better myself by working out and treating myself better. When I tell you the whiplash I got when I entered the campus was incredible, like I had ppl left and right calling me pretty almost treating me like a celebrity?? Like boys my type actually talk to me now, that never happened before. I won’t say I’m of it-girl status yet but that’s what this account is for anyway, tracking my progress! Anyway I was coined “the pretty friend” by my peers and being a dark skinned African American girl, sometimes you find that hard to believe because of what you’ve been told since like elementary school. I’ve been told that I should model, many people believe I should even though I’m like 5’6 but that’s not the point. (Like I’m deadass a girl stopped me in the hallway and asked me to take a picture with her WHEN I WAS WEARING A MASK) It’s the confidence I gained after affirming myself and people confirming my affirmations for me that reflected this all into my reality. If you told me like two years ago that I’d be like this I would fr laugh at you, but what can I say. I’m just that girl now 🎀 *and being that girl I’m gonna bag a bf just as easy as 1..2..3..Here’s my old playlist so y’all can use it as reference bc it works SO WELL ( I used it from Jan 2022 to may 2022)

*I’m gonna update y’all on that I promise 🫡

[maracujatangerine]

If you were interested in learning shorthand teeline is pretty simple to do and unlike some others it doesn’t require a calligraphy pen or super exact lines although it can’t get as fast as others bc it’s a bit more lose you can still with practice get 100+ wpm they teach it to journalists in the US and there’s lots of online workbooks or you could just learn the alphabet

i’ve been using it to take notes for a law lectures bc my teacher would pretty much just talk at us and then random bits would be useful later so i could write pretty much everything he said and then type it up later and have nice notes and since typing is faster than writing for me it saved time

i’ve found for me bc it helped to just have a little journal i carried around and then once i knew the alphabet( just filled like half a page with each letter then page with alphabet) i’d practice random things like ppls names or snippets of something that way i didn’t put the pressure of accurate transcription on until i knew it well enough that i was like ok well it’ll be at least as good as my normal stuff

i wasn’t trying very hard(did no work book stuff just notebook in varying stages of frequency) and after abt a month of it i could write pretty well i would just forget the occasional letter so id start by writing alphabet everytime and then write whatever stupid thing in the margin of my notes or test or whatever i started spelling everything exactly how it is to get used to it then began doing the shorthand shortcuts as well like f instead of ph or remove vowels combine signs and for those again i filled like a page with the short shorthand for the, and, various chemistry phrases(i was taking chem at that point) and then random law phrases and cs phrases bc i knew i was taking those classes and it’d be useful to even just chuck it in sometimes amidst english when a word was really long

sorry for the long ask thing i saw your comment on the dracula shorthand post and now here we are. have a good day

This is so awesome! 😍 I think I love you, Anon! 💖

And I love Tumblr, where else can you unexpectedly and delightfully be gifted a long explanation of a particular kind of shorthand?

Thank you for the suggestion! I will think about it! (Tee line looks awfully difficult to me, but good to hear that it isn’t that hard.) I don’t have as much use of note taking in my everyday life anymore, but it would be fun to know. :)

[soggypotatoes]

i am feeling a bit better today

but the dietitian was like. i dont want to scare u but u are extremely malnourished at this point. i was wondering lol bc ive been having blood tests every second day and theyre making me drink these gross supplements up to 4x a day

who wouldve guessed that not eating anything for 2 weeks would have this effect????? i am eating now tho, i ate a bit of sushi today and some salad.. ik it’s not normal people amounts, but.. it’s something.. apparently my deficiencies are getting legit dangerous :/// so THANK god im in hospital and not slowly starving to death at home i guess????/ i still hate blood tests even after having them every few days for nearly 7 weeks but the blood test lady is so nice i dont mind anymore.. i am thinking tho, abt how i used to not eat for periods of time and not get any help for it.. was i malnourished then, too??? i always just assumed i was fine?? bc i never lost weight really (i still haven’t really lost weight! i don’t think my body likes to which is fine hahah just makes u think about the ‘eat less’ crowd like if i didnt eat for 2 weeks and barely lost anything what are u even saying)

also i did figure out WHY im not eating.......... it’s a whole thing, a complicated mess. won’t get into it. but i am happy that i’ve gotten a bit of focus back now that i’m eating again, even if it’s only a little bit. i watched a whole movie today!! played animal crossing while watching and took lots of breaks but i processed stuff!!!!! been in such a brainfog recently so it’s nice.... got a bunch more movies downloaded..... i’m going somewhere, it’s just slowwwwwww

[radgranny]

Hi you don’t have to answer this unless if u want to, but. I think things will be okay. Umm I recently broke up with someone I was with for abt 8 years and, at first I felt the same as you, like... completely alone because that was the only person I was ever rly close to for my whole life? My whole routine was talking to them and at first I didn’t know what to do without that familiarity. Like, I’m not close with my family and I don’t rly have friends, just acquaintances I barely talk to at work. I felt scared bc I was completely by myself. But after like a month of being broken up... I realize I rly love being single. I feel like a whole entire person. Like, my thoughts are My Thoughts and I don’t have to think any my ex’s opinion. Yes I’m still lonely sometimes like in a familial sense and sometimes romantic and definitely platonic, but like, I realized I did not need that One Single Person I was so attached to. In fact I don’t even want to speak to her at all anymore (nothing bad happened I just realize I am feeling so free being away from the routine of speaking to someone everyday out of obligation rather than love) so like... idk what I’m trying to say is, your breakup was necessary and it is not going to break you. You are hurting and sad and lonely but you will not feel that way forever. And like, because I am now Not Talking to my ex, I’m suddenly finding more free time to talk to other ppl. I don’t have a best friend or anything yet but sometimes I have a full conversation with someone I think is cool and I’ll think “whoa hey look at that”

You say in the future that one day you’ll be broken and that will be the final straw... but you can’t see the future, what if so many good things enter your life by that point? I know it’s hard to picture but hear me out: what if, a year from now, you made a new friend? What if you find hobbies you enjoy or become very absorbed in a new tv show or book or series in five years? Our lives change and opportunities always come and inevitably we do not stay in the same place even if it feels like we are stuck, eventually the universe gives us a push. Like yeah you might be lonely in the future but it won’t be permanent, it will come in waves, and you’ll have grown so much by then, the loneliness will be easier to handle compared to right now where you’re still testing the waters. You’re a different person today than you were one year ago. That’s just how humans work. Anyway I’m sorry if I was overstepping but literally everything you wrote really resonated with me and idk. I am someone going thru similar feelings as u and I promise shit’s gonna be okay fam

thank you for writing all of this out. i can't describe how much i appreciate it.

just reading this makes me feel like i can breathe a little easier--i really needed to hear it from someone that's been in a similar situation and made it to the other side.

[wildgeesedotpdf]

Ok I’m going to complain abt someone I know irl. I was sick about a week ago (fine, normal, expected at the start of the semester) and I was very cautious (wore a mask, took multiple Covid tests (negative), warned my friends and roommates) one of my friends said she was uncomfortable eating lunch with me while I was sick (understandable, not what I’m mad about) but now she’s sick and had symptoms since at least yesterday (fine, normal, etc.) BUT we had spent a few hours together yesterday and had dinner together today and she did not tell me she was sick until after we ate. She was not wearing a mask, she had not done a Covid test, and when I asked if she would take one she said probably not. Bitch what. What do you mean probably not. You understand that a disease can spread from me to you but you don’t care if it happens the other way around??? Hello??? Our college’s student health center offers rapid testing FOR FREE and you won’t even do that?? Even if you don’t have Covid I don’t want whatever the hell it is you do have. Literally the bare fucking minimum is telling me you’re sick before we meet and you didn’t even do that? Do you think Covid doesn’t exist anymore because we’re not at the peak of the pandemic? Exhausting.

[tea-and-finalfantasy]

cw/tw: outdated terminology for disabled people, ableism

in other news, there was a. is it a slur or just an outdated term. it’s not a great term either way and it was in the first fucking multiple choice question in this test prep book from 1999? new copyright or version or something in 2005?

i literally was reading out the question to the student i’m tutoring and went through each answer, why one was correct/why the others weren’t, and got to option D and was like ????i’m fucking sorry??

like i literally just went uh okay that’s not a good word to use. that’s an outdated term for someone who’s disabled and it’s not used anymore so yeah. i wouldn’t use it. uh. :I

like i went over the definition even and explained that literally in the term/making up the whole word--invalid--is the word “invalid,” as if not valid or good

and i’m no expert on every word in the world or the history of this word in particular but i know enough to be like hey people don’t use it anymore

BUT BUT BUT

even if u used the best fucking word in this context, the sentiment would still be fucking horrible!

the blurb was like tim’s grandfather visited him and did stuff like play catch and playing on the swings. tim and his friends thought it was cool but tim’s mother thought the grandfather was being childish / what does the word childish mean?

and option D was like that tim’s grandfather was acting like an invalid

and i’m like. i’m sorry??? even if u used the most preferred term in this context, the sentiment is still that it’s wrong and embarrassing and incorrect?

could you imagine fucking going “you’re acting disabled right now. you’re acting mentally ill” I’M??? HELLO???

and obv this started an issue w my mom, her being ableist, her not getting the issue/her trying to figure out why both versions of the question + answer are not great, her not remembering calling me a different slur + LITERALLY trying to figure out a correct term to use to insult me (which. it really fucking sucks but i did successfully roast her a lot and feel good abt that lol)

but even just the fact that no one did a reread of this booklet since 1999

OR

the fact that even if it were a fine word to use, it’s not one that people know as well these days, i don’t think? like the population of people using this book (it’s for 6th grade/we’re working in an earlier grade than she is) won’t know what that means? 

so like, something’s in here that makes answering the questions difficult? 

there’s a possible answer that will probably get overlooked--even if it were the correct answer--just based on it being written in unfamiliar language that hasn’t been updated in a while and it’s just. it’s not great lol 

like please gauge if a student can answer the question correctly, not if they can answer the question correctly and have to know unfamiliar words you don’t need to be using for multiple different reasons

learning new vocab is nice (when it’s not words u shouldn’t be using in the first place) but in the multiple choice options is not where i want that to be happening

[moomindreamboy]

thinking abt how perhaps i’m so drawn to horror/apocalyptic media bc of the way my nervous system tends to be in “disaster mode” most of the time, with the ptsd & such. it’s like that’s the only mode i’m used to operating in. being at rest feels uncomfortable, alien, wrong. being in crisis mode is what i know. it’s nostalgic & comforting in a weird way. worst-case scenario was my baseline for so long. i got quite good at navigating life that way. so odd that i don’t necessarily have to do that anymore. like i’m still getting my land legs. i dunno. i think there can be value in finding oneself at the junction of difficult situations & having to make tough choices. test of character or whatever. but also no one deserves to be put in that position all of the time. people need rest, myself included. i deserve to nurture & discover myself beyond a survival scenario. i deserve to allow softness to permeate my life, even if for now it’s just here & there.

[183idfk10-24]

Random ass vent that Lowkey is all over the place and I shouldn’t post this publicly but idgf maybe someone will read it and relate or be like “this bitch stupid idk”

Today my family is celebrating thanksgiving. I just weighed myself and turns out Im at my starting weight again. Starting tomorrow I’m going to watch what I’m eating. I don’t necessarily want to go hard core 500 cals just yet, but I want to eat healthy foods and count calories. I also wanna exercise. I just wanna make healthy habits and be healthy. I mean yeah I will probably eat a less amount of calories to keep me healthy but once I reach at least 120 pounds , that’s when I will starting eating a healthy amount of cals cuz I look like a cow. Even my cousins are getting smaller than me. I think that’s my problem. I mean I compare myself to a lot of people but I compare myself a lot to my cousin. Maybe because my mom compares her to me a lot. Or maybe because we where close in age. Or maybe because we use to be friends but then she turned into a fake bitch and now I feel like I need to be better than her to just prove something. Like today I’m at her house and I noticed she wrote “permit test” on her calendar. And that really makes me annoyed and stressed out because I am a year older (16) and I should already have it but I can’t take it yet because I’m still waiting for my birth certificate to come in the mail. It’s stresses me out because what if I fail? I mean I could retake it. I don’t know. I don’t need to be better than anyone. I just want to be skinny. I wanna have good grades. I wanna be able to drive. I want good friends. I wanna be closer to God. I just want inner peace. I know it sounds corny but meh idk . I just wanna go home to my cat and be alone in my room. What’s wrong with me. Am I even normal lmao? Am I just overthinking… overreacting? I know I can be so much better than this what the actual fuck is wrong with me. I’m such a btich. I always complain abt my mom yelling at me but then I treat my brother the same way. Am I gonna treat my kids like this in the future? Tf hopefully no. I need to change. I need to just be nicer and more positive. Not just in a mental form but also physically I need to be healthy. Like I have such good genes! I have a very curvy body and small bones and waist. It’s just covered in 60 each pounds of tucking fat. I have nice hair, a pretty face (I mean some ppl will think it’s normal not like supermodel, western beauty standard type of pretty) I mean I kinda got a non defined nose and uneven eyebrows but it’s alright bc it makes my features look softer and my eye shape is pretty. And my mouth reminds me of a pourcil doll (idk how to spell it lol) but anyways I’m just saying I like how my face looks, I like my hair and body (if I was skinny) and I like my skin color. I use to be embarrassed of how pale I am but idc anymore. Everyone should be happy with themselves and their skin bc everyone is different. Yk how boring earth would be if we all looked the same. Anyways I just needa loose weight and be nicer and stop overthinking so much. I’ll be alright I just need to make the changes.