#but i must share thoughts. this is for me. because i'll forget literally everything if i try to keep it in my head

[cassandracain52]

You made me think about immunocompromised Tim so now you suffer the consequences (my thoughts) :D

Disclaimer: I haven't actually read that particular arc yet - I'll get around to it, I swear! But I do know roughly what happens.

With the whole spleentuation Tim turns the Red Robin costume into what basically amounts to a Hazmat suit. He doesn't actually change much - he goes for full face coverage and introduces some airtight seals. It makes upkeep slightly more laborious and makes him a lot scarier than he wants to be but it's this or risking getting benched for an infection for an unreasonably long time. Bruce returns and doesn't even question the look until he finds older Red Robin costume without the Hazmat qualities and in an attempt of casual bonding asks Tim why he changed it. You can imagine how the rest goes.

Second scenario:

Bruce vanishes before the pandemic, when he returns the family is very careful with like, disinfecting everything and they always have gloves and masks on their person. He writes it off as a side-effect on the pandemic until he realises how much more careful everyone is around Tim

Third scenario:

Tim uses his general lack of an immune system as a way to get out of things he doesn't want to do where there'll be a crowd. Mostly Gala's. Like:

Tim: I'm worried I'll get sick when I go to the opening of the Lexcorps factory we need to make An Appearance at.

Bruce: You went to ComicCon last week, you'll be fine.

Tim: 🥺

And like, what's Bruce going to do? Tim is right he SHOULD be a lot more careful. He SHOULDN'T go to the gala. So he folds like wet paper without fail every time. Tim cuts his public appearances down to an absolute minimum. Jason is seen more often and he's supposed to be dead.

Tims coup de resistance (is that the saying) is getting to attend a business meeting virtually because one of the three (3) people there was travelling two weeks ago

4.

Bruce: Tim you should go to sleep staying up this long is not good for your health your immune system will thank you.

Tim: what immune system.

Bruce: What do you mean what immune system.

Tim *chuckles*: I'm in danger.

Bruce: What do you mean what immune system.

5.

Damian sneezes once and refuses to take off his mask for six days straight on the off-chance he'll get Tim sick. He was literally digging through the dusty attic. He is not sick. Tim isn't even around half the time. You don't need to sleep in the mask Damian. DAMIAN.

”Jason is seen more often and he's supposed to be dead.” <<<asfghjkl XD this is taking me OUT😭 I never really thought of Tim using this as a “get out of jail free” card but he so would. But only for things he doesn’t want to do. That party of maybe 200 guests at most? Nope sorry can’t do it, too risky. That concert with 50,000+ people? Completely fine

All these scenarios were so fun!! I especially appreciated “What do you mean what immune system.” and Tim just immediately starts sweating bullets cause Oh Did He Forget To Mention That?

and Damian would so be super paranoid to accidentally get Tim sick but also would never admit that because Tim Must Never Know He Worries About Him

Damian wearing a full mask, gloves, and maintaining a ten ft distance at all times because Jon (who has seasonal allergies) sneezed kinda close to him: You’re a disgrace to this family Drake. Do us a favor and die

Tim not falling for this for a second: Uh-huh so can I just- [attempts to take approximately One Step Closer]

Damian rapidly scrambling back: nO I HATE YOU STAY AWAY-

Please feel free to share your thoughts again🤣

[astarlightmonbebe]

blind, eps. 5-6: what we know

this is not so much a comprehensive list as it is a stream of consciousness and my own inter spliced theories as i try to make sense of what’s been going on. hope this helps summarize things, or at least organize your mind as much as it did mine. obviously, if you haven’t watched the recent eps of blind, maybe don’t read on.

(disclaimer: this was not proofread. also if i say the same thing multiple times, i’m sorry.)

WHO’S WHO

- the story starts at hope welfare center with five boys: boy 7, boy 11, boy 12, boy 13, and boy 24

- boy 13 is confirmed to be jung yoonjae, who was confirmed to be sungjoon; however, sungjoon has no memories of hope welfare center (whether that’s because of trauma or a mix of that and his head injury from falling from the walkway in episode one idk)

- yoonjae/sungjoon had an older sister named yoonjung who likely was assaulted or killed by chief yeom (sungjoon knows she’s dead ? because of the necklaces, but not the rest of it idk)

- boy 11 was close to the jung siblings (photo; he also promised yoonjung to protect yoonjae, and had her necklace, which he gave to yoonjae after crazy dog took his)

- boy 11 and boy 12 seem to be actual biological brothers as seen in episode one when boy 11 tells boy 12 to ‘go to mom’ before he goes back for yoonjae

- boy 12 gets caught in a bear trap of sorts. we don’t know if he gets captured or makes it out alive

- boy 24 is the one who gets hit by the car and run over and presumably dies, though knowing this drama he could actually be alive who knows!

- boy 7 is the one who spills their escape plan to crazy dog/mr. baek; he’s also the one with the burn scar and the one who makes it to the road with boy 24

- boy 7 is confirmed to be one of the jurors based on choi soongil’s words, and as of ep 6 this is tentatively said to be an taeho because of his limp (which like. was obvious since ep 1, but also people were speculating he was actually the one who got stuck in the bear trap because of his limp, so idk)

- boy 11 is also the one who makes it to the hospital and is brought back by chief yeom (and says something like ‘i’ll kill you all’)

- choi soongil worked as a security officer at hope welfare center under mr. baek

- chief yeom was the local head of police and was in on it with mr. baek

- yeom hyejin was his daughter, baek jieun was mr. baek’s daughter, and both of them were murdered, presumably by the same person (the joker killer), although choi soongil possibly had some connection with hyejin’s death

- the person who approaches hyejin’s son minho gives him a bag with the drinks and food chief yeom gave to boy 11 (the banana milk or whatever and red bean paste buns)

- kang youngki, one of the jurors, also has a daughter who is getting married and likely will get murdered soon, so he probably has a connection to hope welfare center as well

- eunki’s mom seems to have been some sort of healthcare center at the center back when it was operating, and mr. baek had a reason to suspect she might know who yoonjae is or where he currently is

- detective kang is not only batting for chief yeom, but also for mr. baek, so he might have possibly been a kid at hope welfare center as well, but i don’t think he’s one of the five

- sungjoon is confirmed to be adopted, but it hasn’t been confirmed in sunghoon is adopted or not. based on episode 6 and sungjoon’s surprise that he was calling for his brother in his nightmare/memory, he has no knowledge of the fact that he and sunghoon might have had an abnormal past or something, which is definitely suspicious!

- his adoptive parents, na gukhee and ryu ilho, recognize mr. baek and know of sungjoon’s past with him (to what extent, i don’t know); looks like we’ll find out more about this in episode 7 based on the preview

THE MURDERS

- as of episode six, the body count is as follows: baek jieun, yeom hyejin, jung manchun, jung manchun’s wife, and jung manchun’s son (wonwoong)

- also mr. baek’s wife, but that was an on screen murder, so no questions about who killed her

- + yoonjung, but she hasn’t been actually confirmed dead yet (no on screen body or bones)

- sungjoon has been implicated in the murders due to jung manchun’s testimony and the fact that the killer has been using his real name (jung yoonjae)

- he had yeom hyejin’s fingernail, but has been absolved of that crime due to the fact that his dna wasn’t on her actual nail

- there was the whole situation about baek jieun’s earring being in his car with the bloodstains, but like the medical examiner said, he’s not as smart as sunghoon, but he’s not an idiot + he would definitely have cleaned his car i don’t know about you guys

- baek jieun and yeom hyejin are killed by the joker murderer, and have those gruesome smiles carved onto their faces

- jung manchun and his family are supposedly killed by the same person to cover their tracks, but not using the same method, making it clear that jieun and hyejin were the intended targets (and cementing the killer’s connection to hope welfare center)

- who pushed jung manchun off the roof is a mystery, but based on sungjoon’s testimony, his wife was already stabbed and wonwoong was already dead when he entered, although he successfully resuscitated wonwoong. however, wonwoong dies in between the time he flees and police reach the scene, wherein dt. kang is the only one there, unless the killer didn’t leave the scene to begin with

- the killer has wood carvings in his (their, whatever) little hideout

- for yeom hyejin, she was either assaulted or murdered by choi soongil, another juror with a connection to hope welfare center, as previously stated; however, unless he committed a copycat murder, it might have been a situation like with yuna, where she seemed to be dead, but wasn’t actually, and the real killer found her later

THE JURORS

- yeom hyejin, daughter of chief yeom and single mother, murdered by the joker killer

- choi soongil, a taxi driver who used to work as an enforcer at hope welfare center; has a tattoo that matches mr. baek’s

- choi soongil recognized boy 7 as one of the jurors, and is trying/has tried to coerce money from him; he’s currently injured/in critical condition due to being brained by (presumably) boy 7

- jo eunki, social worker; was held hostage by jung manchun during the time yeom hyejin was being murdered, and is now harboring sungjoon (who is currently a fugitive)

- charles, who owns a sushi restaurant and is, uh, according to his own words very skilled with a knife. comes across as amiable and friendly

- bae chulho, works as a pd, kind of sleazy, and was definitely looking at yeom hyejin during their first dinner together. either suspicious or, like i said, just a sleazy guy

- kang youngki, retired. we talked about his daughter earlier. probably not as clean cut as he seems, all things considered

- kwon kyungja, a very famous shaman. is constantly cold (due to her shamanic abilities). had an extreme reaction when she accepted sungjoon’s business card, including some sort of possession.

- an taeho, walks with a limp and didn’t want to be included in any group activities following the funeral. doesn’t like having his photo taken, and generally comes across as unfriendly. as of episode six, sungjoon believes him to be ‘the killer’ i.e. boy 7, who attacked choi soongil, based on the killer’s gait

- jung inseong, an engineer (?), who is very quiet and friendly, overly courteous and chivalrous at times, and seems the most kind hearted/open minded after eunki. does seem overly interested in eunki to a fashion. sorry i just find him suspicious.

- the woman sungjoon calls ‘mom’ owns a restaurant called ‘inseong’s place,’ so i’m also just leaving this here because i find it too weird of a coincidence

MY THEORY

okay buckle up i’m going to summarize my thoughts and talk about who i think the killer is. my money right now is on boy 12, the one biologically related to boy 11. i think that boy 11 could be sunghoon, and that he and yoonjae (sungjoon/boy 13), escaped together, but believed the other boys to be dead (and obviously sungjoon forgot everything). they ended up adopted by na gukhee and ryu ilho OR (and i lean towards this theory) sunghoon is the biological child, and he and his brother (boy 12) ended up at hope welfare center for some reason or another (though this is where the theory falls apart). therefore, when sunghoon reunited with his parents, they took in yoonjae as well, believing boy 12 to be dead (and like. he could be. what was his fate after getting stuck in the bear trap? was he able to escape on his own?). that way, yoonjae/sungjoon would have ended up taking on the identity of the real ryu sungjoon, which could be why the killer uses his name (jung yoonjae) to kill.

there’s also the fact of sungjoon being framed as the murderer of baek jieun (and here we focus on the theory that he was framed and is not the killer because i like to believe the best and it has a solid backing as of right now), and the killer using wood carvings, like we see sunghoon doing in episode 1/2. not only is the killer deliberately making them doubt each other (if the killer isn’t sunghoon, as it could very well be), but it’s also a way to get revenge on both of them, for sunghoon for abandoning him/giving him up and replacing him with yoonjae, and yoonjae for taking his place/forgetting everything/etcetera. this holds up whether or not boy 12 and boy 11 are biologically related to the ryu brothers’ current parents or not.

right now, i’m putting my money on boy 12 being inseong. not only because he seemed to recognize an taeho, but also because he’s the right age, and he’s very private, as well as being on the jury, so he had access to a lot of information about the cases and so on. build wise, i don’t know how capable he would be of subduing and murdering someone, but i’m just saying - don’t trust the nice guys in shows like these. his interactions with other members of the jury, like eunki, also make me kind of side eye him, as well as the fact that he seems less inclined to fully believe sungjoon is the killer - he’s definitely moving with a hidden agenda. whether it’s one with malicious intent or not, things are not clear beyond the surface level.

but whether or not boy 12 is inseong, i still think boy 12 could be our joker killer.

THE END

share your thoughts and theories in my inbox or the replies/reblogs, i don’t care! i have too many thoughts about this show. 

[rozieramati]

i think i've discovered the meaning of life

3/9/24

i have an affinity towards crows. it runs very deeply in the lore of my contract with the universe (ketu is rampant in my chart.) there's a herd of crows that: wake me up in the morning, leave feathers (from other birds) in the screen of my door, are always on the part of the roof that's above my bedroom, etc. one time i caught them organizing things they found in a straight line. it feels so strange, especially because it always happens when there's a huge change in my life. intuitively it feels like protection of some sort. i don't know. i usually divert from sharing stuff like this on the internet for fear of literally sounding insane. there's just this whole mystical side of existing that i really don't have a choice in ignoring. elephants in asia are burying their young at a specific gravesite and i'm supposed to wistfully let that go? there's rituals and lives and thoughts and emotions all around us. within a phone screen and beyond the screen view, in the walls of your room. there's emotions in the air when dust particles strike your nose to make you sneeze and get the fuck up. there's emotions in the first person you talk to, if you decide to get out of bed that day. there's emotions in the atmosphere of your neighbor's house, who may or may not notice you slamming the gate on your way to the coffee shop every morning. there's emotions in the barista who asks if you want the green tea or the latte, as they anxiously hover their hand over the ipad that holds your answer in its system. the emotions, the atmosphere, the divine, it slaps me in the face everyday whether i like it or not. that's why i make music, it feels like one of the most widely accepted forms of divinity in our current world. creation in itself is magic. every fabric of our being is working within a framework particularly built for us to toy with, to alchemize and create from. i hope they ban tik tok. it's not a place for creativity anymore. it's ruining everything it means to be human. what is everything it means to be human? creation.

humans create simply by existing. the seat you sit in on the bus creates the instant that someone sees you taking up that space and decides to sit next to you, across from you, or to stand instead. humans create when they breathe and one germ coalesces with another. then it runs through the body of someone strong, but not strong enough to be woken up without a sore throat. then that sore throat takes itself to a doctor. then it goes to the pharmacy and runs into a person they don't know yet, but will not be able to live without within the next couple of months. sore throats, bus seats, doctors, and pharmaceutical soul mates, all of which were created by us. the sore throat was created by some doctor or linguist, i'd presume. why does love always come when we're inconveniently stricken with illness? why are subway chairs that slippery muddy orange color? why why why. it's because we created it, it's because we are human and even more so, we are animal, we are mud, we are lily petal, oxygen, and feather in the screen door, a hand with lines on its palm braided between the fates and free will. the crows have something to say and create, just as much as we do. that is the meaning of life. from the creation in which we are born, we must continually give back by creating ourselves and others.

sometimes i forget where the beauty lies. i'll re-read this to remember.

[koheletgirl]

HI BELOVED okay so ive hurt my head by listening to smoke signals and thinking of zukka too much (s/o to your zukka playlist its amazing-) and now I HAVE to know your musings, rambling & thoughts on it- like you were so right its them!!!! OUGH!!!!going crazy as we speak <3

💖💖💖

ok first of all TY FOR LIKING MY PLAYLIST! this means the world honestly.

oh my god okay. okay. so. smoke signals

so the first thing that feels so zukka to me is the imagery from the chorus - "sending smoke signals / pelicans circling / burning trash out on the beach". it's the fire/water, the smoke/beach, but it's also the beauty and the ugly, the serenity and the destruction.... it's about how their love is beautiful but tainted with so much history and circumstances and choices they have made in the past and still have to make. it's about how they see each other, and how they see themselves.

i started from the chorus so i'll keep going. "you must have been looking for me" - because they were both so lost, because they still are. because they lose and find each other, and themselves. over and over again. it's you must have been looking for me and i wasn't there, but also you must have been looking for me and you hadn't known until you found me. sending smoke signals, as a call for help, or just trying to get their attention. signaling for someone who would know the signs and come.

ok well so another thing i like to think about with this song is that each of the first 2 verses is from a different perspective. like that's just how i read it in this context. and it works pretty literally, with the way each verse starts: "I went with you up to the place you grew up and we spent a week in the cold" // "one of your eyes is always half shut something happened when you were a kid". lol.

there is something so peaceful and so sad about the verses. there's something grounded, simple, about it, like it's a stream of consciousness of sorts and love is weaved into it almost as an afterthought. like it's a given, that it's there. "[...] it’s a love song about waking up to your reality, in a way" (<- quote from phoebe). there's still pain and trauma and death and boredom and overthinking and self-doubt, but there's peace and there's hope and there's growth and there's that familiarity you feel with someone who truly sees you.

the chorus and the last verses are from a shared perspective, i believe. the 3rd verse is about wanting to run away from your responsibilities, from everything life entails, just to be with this person and forget the rest of the world. it's a lovely sentiment, but it's very obviously unrealistic. and the lyrics are just so them, in a way im not sure i can explain but i really enjoy rotating in my mind.

ok i talked enough so let's get to the last verse.

"i buried a hatchet, it's comin up lavender / the future's unwritten, the past is a corridor / i'm at the exit, lookin' back through the hall / you are anonymous, I am a concrete wall"

KEYSMASH it's about trying to make peace with your past, with the people you've hurt, with the people who've hurt you, with yourself. trying to accept that you can't change what's happened and you can't control what will happen. and it's about how they both try so hard to hide themselves, to pretend they dont care, to act like no one can truly know them. these facades they both try to maintain, of someone who doesnt feel or doesn't show their emotions, of someone who's unreachable or beyond help. and how they see this in each other, recognize this, and see right through it. im driving myself crazy

thank you peng for letting me ramble about this here's the zukka playlist

[stargazeraldroth]

Questions for the Horse AU :v

- Are the Oreo Bros part of this at all, or are Ink, Reaper, and Cross unrelated- Assuming they’re in the AU in the first place? Do they have horses, if they are, and what do you think they would name them? And what about Fresh and Geno- Are they here, and if they are, are they related to Error at all?

- Are the murder trio here? If so, I feel like Killer and Dust should have horses named Mischief and Mayhem. Horror… I’m not sure, but probably something food related, like Sourdough or Paprika, though I guess he could also name his horse something like Hatchet?

- Is this intended to be a completely fluffy AU or will it have a bit of hurt/comfort? Either way is fine, of course! You just posted about it after remarking that you wanted to write something fluffy, so I wasn’t sure if that’s what this was intended to be :>

- Do you have any color schemes for the horses, yet? I feel like Broomie would be a brindle coated horse, if you go with more natural colors (plus, some patterns make it look like there’s ink dripping down the horses back, which could be a cute little nod to Ink himself!), and Sugar and Spice strike me as white/silver and black/gold, respectively. Im nit sure about the others, though.

- On the note of Error’s horse, if you really wanted, maybe she was initially named Mistake by a shitty past rider and is actually a former rescue? And now Error calls her Missy and she takes pride in “being such a lovable mistake that she couldn’t be turned away” or something. I dunno, I thought it was cute-

- Are there other animals the characters have as pets, here? Because I could see Ink with a little Welsh Corgi named Canvas… Just a tiny herding guy who rides around with him on Broomie. The theme of art supplies must be upheld, okay? And I like the idea of Ink with a corgi.

I can't believe I'm being serious about this Horse AU. Why am I like this

I'm gonna be honest with you guys... I forgot to include characters like Cross, Epic, Geno, Fresh, Reaper, etc. But for the sake of Oreo Bros and CQ Bros, they'll be here. Cross and Epic are stablehands for the most part, maybe they share a horse. And the horse is gonna be named... Majesty. Epic probably tried to name it something stupid and Cross said no. Look guys, this is Memelord the horse! Rubber Chicken the horse! Cookie the horse- COOKIE! That's the horse's name, Cookie.

No, the Murder Trio's not allowed near the horses. Get them away from Broomie, Sugar, and Spice. And everything nice. Maybe they're the troublemakers of the ranch, I don't know what role they'd have. Maybe Horror makes the food, he's the community chef.

There's gonna be some hurt/comfort, but it's primarily a more wholesome AU. Gotta have some conflict. I remember an episode of Full House where... shoot, I forget if it was Stephanie or Michelle, but one of them was a horse girl and got into an accident that made them lose their memories. Something like that could happen. And the damn eating disorder episode, man. What the hell. If anything, I'll do a social anxiety "episode" where Ink thinks everyone's judging him for literally existing, I'm sure many of us can relate

One of my favorite designs for the horses, and I forget all of their names except Pepper and Sunburst, is the black horse with red streaks in her mane. That's what Spice looks like. As for Sugar, she's a white horse with pastel streaks in her mane- she looks like a Galarian Rapidash, doesn't she? These are the only ones I can think of. I think your suggestion for Broomie is good, with some colored streaks in the mane to match with Ink.

Error's horse is a rescued horse that Ink was taking care of, and then Mistake bonded with the glitchy boi. Because I have an agenda- I have an Errorink agenda, and I will push it at all times. Error renames her because he's not calling his horse a Mistake.

Ink gets all the dogs. A corgi, a husky, a golden retriever, a chocolate lab, a German shepherd- okay, I'll stop, but you get the point. We have Canvas the Corgi, Paperjam the Husky, Glaze the Golden Retriever, Paint the German Shepherd, and Gradient the Chocolate Lab.

[bish-plz-haha]

Chapter 5

"So, sharing thoughts ey?" Ron said a few days later as they were sitting down for lunch. Hermione had been held back at work again so it was just the two boys. "How's that working out? Any evil plans we have to thwart?" Harry raised an eyebrow at him. "I live with Hermione, what'd you expect?" Harry sent him a playful glare and turned his attention to his food. He absentmindedly ran his fork through the salad he had gotten.

"No. And it's rather..." he paused, thinking of the correct word to use for his predicament. "Strange." He ended on. Harry had been hearing more and more of Malfoy's thoughts each passing day. He had also come to the realisation that the man must have been trying to filter his thoughts so Harry couldn't hear his deep secrets. Though a few thoughts Harry was sure he didn't want him to hear got through.

"Oh really? I'd have thought it was perfectly normal." Ron said, sarcasm dripping from his voice like water from a tap. Harry sent him a real glare this time causing his friend to chuckle. "Not sorry about that. This brings up too many opportunities for jokes." Ron told him.

"Yeah yeah." Harry paused, a thought crossing his mind and his head shot up to look at Ron, horror and worry in his eyes. "You haven't told Hermione, have you?"

"Have you gotten a strongly worded essay about why you should've mentioned this to her sooner?"

"Well, no." Harry mumbled as Ron looked triumphantly at him.

"There you go then." He said. Harry smiled and rolled his eyes, shoving some of his food into his mouth. They sat in silence for a little bit before Ron spoke. "So what's up with you not going into the field now? We've had like three raids and I'd have thought you'd be in one at least." Ron questioned.

Harry sighed. "Robards. He wont let me since the whole thing last time. He said something about me being a valuable asset to the ministry and not wanting to take a risk and 'lose the face of the ministry' as he so delicately put it." Ron just hummed. Harry could tell he had no idea what to say next, and neither did Harry so they left it at that and moved on to quidditch. It was a normal routine conversation between them during quidditch seasons. Ron would ask if Harry saw anything about the latest game. Harry would tell him no then get the rundown about what happened then move on to their next topic.

"Mate, I really think you need to tell 'Mione. She could help." Ron said after a while. Harry looked at him, his face straining into a hard look.

"No. Absolutely not. She will give me the look until I give in and explain literally everything to her!" He said. Ron sighed but nodded nonetheless.

"I still think we should at least tell her what happened."

"Fine." Harry gave in. "I'll tell her the next time I'm over yours." He told his friend. Ron grinned at him.

"Well good. Because 'Mione wanted me to invite you round this Saturday for dinner. 6 in the evening. Dont be late. You know how she gets." Harry groaned and accepted the invitation. Three days until he had to tell her and he'd be counting down.

*

Harry crept to the front door at exactly 6, dreading the conversation he knew he was about to have. He gently knocked, hoping to have not been heard but a second later, Ron's smiling face appeared behind the door as he opened it for the man. "Harry's here!" He called behind him and dragged Harry into the house. "Dont forget." He whispered to him and slung his arm over the dark haired mans shoulder as Hermione made her way out from the kitchen.

"Harry! It's so good to see you. It's been forever." She said as she wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. He hugged her back of course, though his body was stiff with anticipation. If Hermione had noticed his body language she said nothing about it - to his relief. "I'm making some roast and vegetables. Make yourself comfortable." She grinned at him before making her way back to the kitchen. Ron smiled at her as well and kissed her cheek before she left, turning his gaze to Harry.

"She doesn't trust me to cook. Set fire to the kitchen one time! Once! And she doesn't trust me." He mumbled.

"You set fire using only water!" Hermione yelled from the kitchen. Harry chuckled as he sat back into a chair.

"How'd you manage that?" Harry questioned. Ron slumped into his seat, almost shrinking into himself.

"Dont wanna talk about it." He said. Harry didnt push further. He was sure Hermione would tell him later. Later - Merlin was he dreading later.

As Hermione finished cooking everything, they made their way to the dining table as the food was being set out. "So, Harry," Hermione started, sitting down after getting a plate of food for herself. "How's work been going? Ron talks about his all the time but you're working on different things than him right?" Hermione questioned as if she didn't already know.

"Um, yeah. Yeah. I'm currently working quite a bit more with Malfoy. Dark wizards seem to have random potions lying around and he is able to determine what they are." Hermione nodded, looking down at her food and going quiet. It was almost as if she had more to say than just a nod but Harry ignored it. Well, tried to until Ron cleared his throat which caught Harry's attention. When he looked at the red head, Ron quickly glanced at his girlfriend then back to him. He did this a few times before nodding in her direction slightly. Harry huffed. "Um, Hermione." Harry said cautiously, eyes sliding from Ron's triumphant grin to Hermione's curious look. "There's something I've been meaning to tell you." Harry sat, wringing his hands together nervously under the table.

"What is it Harry?" She said.

Harry cleared his throat and said, "Well, the other week, I was hit with an undermined spell." Ron elbowed him in the ribs. Harry gasped and said, "Well me and Malfoy were. But dont worry, I got checked out at St. Mungo's." He said. She crossed her arms and sent him a stern look.

"Harry! How could you be so careless! Has anything happened since?"

Merlin, get me out of here, he thought. He heard Malfoy's reply. It sounded amused and condescending all at once.

"No. Your suffering is funny. Good luck though. You're gonna need it." He internally groaned at that.

"Well, um, y-yes?" He said, though it came out sounding more like a question. Hermione raised an eyebrow at him, arms still crossed over his chest. She was even more intimidating like this than when angry or upset. "Well, um, the thing is, you see, is that I, um..." he trailed off, taking a breath and finishing the sentence quickly. "IcanhearMalfoysthoughtsandhecanhearmine." Hermione rolled her eyes and uncrossed her arms.

"I knew you were hit with something but how do you manage to fail at admitting that tiny detail." Harry let out a breath.

"Yeah, it's not that big of a deal." He said nonchalantly.

"I was being sarcastic. It is a huge deal, Harry! How could you think otherwise?" Hermione exclaimed, food forgotten as she stared at him in bewilderment. She said a few other things that Harry cared not to think too much about as she stood from the table and walked out of the room.

"This is your fault." He glowered at Ron who gave a sheepish smile.

"Hermione has been our best friend for years. She cares about you. She deserved to know." Ron said in defense of himself and shoveled some food into his mouth. Harry rolled his eyes at him but knew he was right - though he'd never admit that aloud. It didn't help with that voice in his head calling him an idiot and saying that though he wasn't friends with her, he saw this coming. Harry told him to shut up and mind his own damn business.

"Would if I could but I cant with you droaning on inside my fucking head." Malfoy griped. Harry just rolled his eyes at that and went back to his meal before Hermione emerged with, of course, a book. She slammed it into the table after sliding her half-eaten plate out of the way.

"Sounds to me you were hit with some sort of bond spell. Very dark magic and most are lethal when not used correctly." Harry sucked in a breath, eyes going wide as a look of fear crossed his face.

"I'd rather not die again." He said.  Malfoy's voice pitched in with a 'you've died?', completely ignoring the rest of the conversation. Harry made a mental note to tell that story to Malfoy later on now that they were working together.

Hermione laughed and shook her head. "No, Harry. If you were to die, it would've happened in the first twenty-four hours after you were hit with the spell." She explained as Harry let out a breath of relief. "But I'd reccomend trying to spend as little time as possible with him. The bond will break on it's own if you can stay away from each other for at least three hundred and eighty four hours. Or sixteen days." Harry nodded along but knew the task to be futile. He had yet to be assigned a partner as he worked with Malfoy in the dingy basements they called the potions lab of the ministry. "I'll look into breaking it manually but try to stay away from Malfoy for the time being, alright?"

"And if I dont?" Harry grudgingly questioned, trying to keep Malfoy from hearing this conversation.

"Well," she began but paused, mumbling something to herself before turning to smile at Harry. "Let's just say that it wont be as bad of an outcome as it could have been. But depending on your view point, you may want to throw yourself into a volcano." She said quickly as she slammed the book shut. Harry flinched at the sudden noise, looking at his friend in confusion.

"What? What is that suppose to mean!?" He sputtered. She just shrugged and cast a wandless spell, sending the book back to where it came from.

Once dinner was finished - awkward silence surrounded the trio as they ate after Hermione dealt him the news - Harry had decided that he was due back to his own house for a while. He said goodbye to his friends, giving them both a hug before passing through their floo and into his own house. He collapsed into a chair situated by the fire he kindled in the actual fireplace on the opposite side of the room.

Great, he thought. And again, Malfoy responded.

'What's great about that? She's going to be nagging you about it and I'm going to have to sit and listen to you whine about it.' Malfoy whined. Harry groaned and tuned him out as he summoned a glass and a bottle of whiskey from his kitchen to himself. He poured the last remnants of the liquor into his glass and downed it.

[marshmalleaux-queen]

This post is going to be weird, maybe uninteresting, kind of personal, and definitely cringe (you're 100% allowed to say it), but honestly, I'm writing it almost entirely for myself. "Peace of mind" kind of thing, I guess.

Back in 2011, when I was 14, I discovered a roleplay page on Facebook for Romano from Hetalia. I made a post there as myself (Cici - not an OC or anything) and ended up in an RP almost 1,000 comments long. We took it to other posts on occasion and even in the DMs for a short time (after DMing pages became a thing), but after a while we both kind of disappeared from each other, I think.

I was in a very bad place around the ages of 13-15. I won't go into detail but it was bad enough that most of it is actually a total blank in my memory. Those RPs and the person behind the page are some of the very few things I do remember, because they were honest-to-goodness like a light in the dark for me, and I don't really care how cheesy that sounds. I remember sharing all my problems with them pretty much every day (well...more like saddling them with my problems, if I'm being real) and, god bless their soul, they took all of it and responded with in-character comfort. My troubled teenage self couldn't have fathomed a more perfectly-written Romano, both classically stubborn and tender and understanding of my troubles.

The admin running the page was a veritable angel herself, taking time out of her day to check on me and make sure I was healthy as I could be at the time (...maybe not so strange in hindsight since I was sort of a...concern). All of this despite the fact that she was also dealing with her own issues - something that I really wish I had the capacity to acknowledge sooner, because I definitely don't think I supported her nearly as much as she supported me.

...At least, that's how I remember things. Those few years are so fuzzy in my memory that I very well may be imagining some things that didn't actually happen, or forgetting things that did. Not only that, but the original post has since been removed and I can't find a single trace of it anywhere, save for a note on my laptop that says I posted it on July 14, 2011 (but literally nothing else).

At the very least, I know for a fact that the comfort I received from her was real, and despite everything, I remember it fondly. It's not as though it consumes me, but for the past decade-or-so since then, I've often wondered how she's doing and if she's happy. The whole thing holds a special place in my heart that I've never been able to let go of 100%. A small part of me still genuinely thinks I wouldn't be here today writing this if it weren't for her.

...So, it's a really, really long shot, but...

Destiny, if by some astronomical chance you happen to see this and remember me, I want to apologize with everything in my being for all the heartache I must have put you through. I feel incredibly selfish for worrying you so often, and even if I was young and hurting it was no excuse to burden you as I did. I want you to know that I'm not in that dark place anymore, and I haven't been for a very long time. I'm still not 100% (is anyone ever, really?) but I am much healthier than I ever thought I'd be. I don't know if I'll ever get to speak to you again - maybe you don't even remember me, or want to associate with me if you do (in which case I truly can't blame you) - but at the very least you deserve an apology, and maybe even this bit of closure.

[emmlovesmarvel]

Chapter 7 - Calm Before the Storm

Lennox POV

On the last stretch towards Midvale, I decide to put my book down because I'm a little car sick. I don't feel like I have to throw up but my head is definitely hot and hurting.

"Hey, love you okay? Your face is a bit pale." Lena says turning to face me with her hand on my thigh.

"Yeah I'll be okay. I'm just a bit car sick from reading for too long I think." I say putting my head down.

"Here, drink some water, babe." Lena hands me a water bottle.

About 45 minutes later we pull up to Eliza's house. I'm nervous to meet her. I love Kara so I want to make a good impression for her adoptive mom. We get out of the car and I have to lean up against the car a bit, due to still being dizzy.

"Woah, hey you alright Len?" Kara asks helping me so I'm leaning on her.

"Yeah, just still a bit dizzy. It's starting to go away." I say basically hugging her.

"Well I think Eliza might have made some dinner so once we get some food in you, I'm sure you'll feel better. Sound good?" She asks with my face in her hands.

"Yeah." I smile.

Eliza comes out to greet us and she tackles me into a hug first.

"You must be Lennox! I'm so glad you're here and that Lena found you. She's told us so much about you over the past 4 years. I love you already." She says hugging me tightly.

I sometimes forget that Lena has been in National City for this long and had to endure me being missing and not being able to find me. I'm not mad that people know the base of what I've been through, but it makes me ashamed and feel like I'm a nuisance sometimes. Lena is trying to drill it into me that I'm not, but old habits and thoughts die hard when they were literally beaten into you.

"It's nice to meet you too, Eliza! Thanks for letting me come stay and visit you. I'm glad Lena found me too." I say hugging her back.

Eliza hugs Kara and then Lena. I can see Lena melt into her hug like she does with Kara. She must really love Eliza. I can see why. She's the polar opposite of Lillian.

We head into her huge home and I look out the window and can see the beach. They were right, it's so much quieter here and so beautiful. Kara leads me up the stairs with all our stuff while Lena stays with Eliza and helps with dinner.

"This here little lady, is where Supergirl slept and spent a lot of her time. I shared this room with Alex, too. Which by the way, she and Kelly are joining us here tomorrow!" She says putting the stuff down.

"Your room is so cool, Kara!" I say looking around at all the stuff on her side and then to Alex's side.

"Well you can sleep in here if you want!"

"I'd like that." I say taking some of my stuff out.

We head back down the stairs and see Eliza setting the table and Lena washing her hands.

"Perfect timing, you two. Dinner's ready!" Eliza says smiling and leading me to my seat.

Eliza made really good roasted chicken, mashed potatoes, asparagus and a fruit salad. It was so much food but I was excited to try it all, even if I could only have a few bites of everything before feeling full.

"Thank you so much, Eliza. Everything was so good! I wish I didn't get full fast or I'd be eating as much as Kara is." I say giggling while Kara makes a face and tickles me.

"I'm glad you like it! It was Alex's favorite meal growing up." Eliza says while clearing the table.

"Oh let me, Eliza. It's only fair since you cooked!" I say standing up.

"Well aren't you just the sweetest. Thank you!" She replies kissing my head. I see Lena smile in adoration at my words.

Kara decides to help and wash the dishes as I dry them. Lena and Eliza are having some wine on the couch, chatting.

When we finish, we join them on the couch.

"So Lennox, how have you been liking living with Lena?" Eliza asks including me in the conversation. It's weird to have adults actually have a conversation with me in the room, let alone actually talk to me.

"Oh I've loved it! Lena has been so kind and has given me so much." I say shyly.

"Well it sure is easy to love you, Len. I love having you back in my life." Lena says pulling me into her from behind, placing a kiss on my head and resting her hands on my front. I think we both love physical touch which is amazing. Kara loves it too.

"Eliza, Lena and I actually have something to tell you." Kara says to Eliza.

"You two are finally together. I know. Alex called yesterday and told me. I am so happy this is finally happening! Took you two long enough!" Eliza says chuckling and Kara's face is red as well as Lena's.

"Oh great, so I guess Alex and Kelly know. I'm gonna talk to Alex when they get here." Kara says with embarrassment laced in her voice, while Eliza and I are laughing.

"Kara, don't be embarrassed. I'm glad you two are together! You both make me happy because you make each other happy!" I say getting off the couch to hug Kara. She smiles and takes me into her arms tightly. Then all of a sudden, she lifts me up in the air and puts me back on the couch and starts tickling me to the point where I can't breathe.

"KARA.....STOP!" I say laughing out of breath.

"I can't! You're just too sweet and cute and I love hearing your laugh!" She says basically on top of me, now smothering me with kisses.

"Haha, I love you Kara." I say hugging her for real.

"I love you too, little one." She says kissing the side of my head.

"Hey hey I want in on this!" Lena says and takes me into her arms while Kara hugs us both.

I can see Eliza with some tears in her eyes.

"Eliza, are you okay?" I ask making sure we didn't do something wrong.

"Oh yes, honey I am more than okay. I've never seen these two so happy. And I have you to thank. My mom heart is full." She says joining our hug.

"Hey why don't we take Lennox down to the ice cream shop by the beach?" Eliza suggests.

"Oh yeah! Len they have the best strawberry cheesecake ice cream." Kara says.

"Okay, that sounds good!" I say getting up to use the bathroom before we go.

We all put our coats and shoes on and start walking. I'm hand in hand with Lena while Kara and Eliza are in front of us, catching up about things they've been up to.

"Len, I just want to say how proud I am of you. You are so kind and thoughtful. You always manage to put a smile on everyone's faces you're around. I love that about you. I know it can be scary to try new things and go new places, but you are making strides and I am so happy to be able to witness it." She says wrapping her arm around my shoulder, kissing the top of my head.

"You make it so easy to be around people, Lena. I don't think I could do it without you there to help. You are what grounds me and lets me know I am safe. I still have a lot to unlearn from Lillian and Joe, but I'm lucky to have you and Kara to help me with it. Thanks for being so patient with me." I say looking up at her, smiling.

"Of course, my love. You deserve all the time to heal and recover from what you went through. Never think that you are an inconvenience or bothering us when you need help with anything, okay?" She kisses my forehead. "I love you, Lennox. You are my world."

"I love you too, Lena."

The store is so cute and beach themed. It's not too crowded which I'm thankful for. I've only had ice cream a couple of times and I can't even remember what it's like. Kara and Lena helped me choose which ones to sample. They were all so good I couldn't choose. Until I tried the strawberry cheesecake one that Kara first recommended. It was so good. I got a scoop on a cake cone and we went onto the sand to watch the sunset over the water. It was the most beautiful sight I think I've ever laid eyes on. I was in between Lena and Kara, leaning on Kara's shoulder. Being with them is my favorite thing ever. I am so happy to have a family who loves me and cares for me. Eliza is amazing and I really love her too. Nothing can ruin this moment.

It starts to get cold and we decide to head back. I am on Kara's back because she insisted on carrying me back to the house. When we get inside, the house is at a perfect warm temperature. I take my shoes off and head upstairs to take a shower and brush my teeth before I head to bed. I come back down the stairs where all 3 women are chatting with some wine.

"I'm gonna to go to bed. I love you guys. Thanks for the best day ever!" I say hugging Kara and Lena as they kiss my head.

When I hug Eliza, I whisper so only she can hear, "I love you, grandma. Thanks for everything." I feel her sob quietly and hug me tighter.

I head up into Kara and Alex's room and immediately fall asleep as my head hits the pillow.

[zorilleerrant]

I've been looking through my old bedroom and found a bunch of books I loved as a kid to reread.

The Song of the Lioness Quartet, by Tamora Pierce - the one that started it all. That is, I've been seeing Tammy's books everywhere this year, characters that yes, I do know, book recs, nostalgia posting, everywhere. So, yeah, I'm getting on board this train. I'm going to start with this series, because that's where I started the first time, but I'm going to read through a lot of Tortall, hopefully. Anyway, that's why I wanted to look through my old books.

Batman Forever, by Peter David - yeah, it's the official movie novelization. I was obsessed with this book as a kid. I read it over and over again. So I have to include it.

The Last Vampire series, by Christopher Pike - I picked this up as a kid because I was like, omg, like THEE Christopher Pike??? and I figured someone who would name himself after THEE Christopher Pike would write great books. And I did really enjoy the series, so it worked out. I saw at some point there was a sequel series to this or something? I was excited to learn that years ago and then never did anything with the information.

Time Cat, by Lloyd Alexander - this book was so inspiring to me as a kid. I don't remember if it's any good or even if I thought it was good at the time. But it made me write a whole bunch of terrible short stories about cats with magic powers, which largely resulting in adults in my life telling me I couldn't spell. Which was true but wasn't even the point, okay, maybe cats have their own language which is just like English except spelled bad because they can't spell because they're cats. It's fine.

Star Split, by Kathryn Lasky - I saw this on my shelf and I have no idea what it is. It gave me very warm and fuzzy vibes to look at, though, so I think I must have liked it. I guess I'll figure it out!

Replica series, by Marilyn Kaye - this is about clones or something. I don't recall details because at the time I was willing to read anything and everything that so much as hinted at clones and anyone grown in a test tube or vat. It's probably either good or bad. I don't know how many there are and I literally don't even remember the main character. She's named Amy? Okay, sounds good to me, I believe you. Why's she cloned tho

Cirque Du Freak series, by Darren Shan - I loved the conceit of this, which is that they're a true chronicle that no one would believe. Oh, but that's very common - yes, but no one actually committed to the bit by making the main character and author share a name, which I loved. I don't remember how far through this series I read, either, so there's probably a lot of story past the point where I stopped, which is going to be fun.

Twitches series, by H.B. Gilmour and Randi Reisfeld - Okay, I'll admit, I only read the first one. I tried to find the rest at the library and they didn't have them, and then I forgot completely. Finding the movies as an adult was fucking amazing? They're great, if you like campy silly fantasy, and seeing some of my favorite actors in those roles was so much fun, so I've been meaning to go back to the series (but, again, forgetting). Just. Twins. Who are witches. It's just the distilled wishes of every SFF book kid.

Rascal, by Sterling North - I double checked and nothing horrible happens to the raccoon at the end of the book, which is weirdly common in kids books? Anyway, I just remember this being my introduction to all the cool things raccoons could do with their tiny thumbs and being very impressed and enamored and yes, of course I wanted a pet raccoon, but that's not special, I still wish I could have one of those they're adorable.

I Was A Sixth Grade Alien, by Bruce Coville - someone requested this for Yuletide, and I was like. Okay, I have for sure read that book, and I remember literally nothing about it except what's written on the tin. I think I only read the first book, or the first couple? Like, this is a series, right? I have no idea! I just saw the title and went I really have to figure out what that's about before it drives me crazy! It's a great title, though, isn't it?

Julie of the Wolves series, by Jean Craighead George - I have definitely read two of these books, but not, I think, all three. Other than this one, I don't know which of the two I read. Maybe I did read all three, but just not all at the same time? You have to understand, I was a Wolf Kid. When I saw there was a book not only about wolves, but where the main character was friends with wolves? Family even? I was the most excited I've ever been to read a book, and they really delivered. Excited to hang out with Julie again, and make sure I've definitely read all of her stories this time.

Jedi Apprentice series, various authors - I might read the Young Jedi Knights or Junior Jedi Knights series too/instead, but this was the one I apparently had on my shelf. I loved it so much. I was in love with the former apprentice sith who wanted to take over the world, which is par for the course, really.

Holes, by Louis Sachar - a children's classic. Also the movie is one of the best adaptations of a book I've ever seen, and I might give that a rewatch, too. The song in this story gets stuck in my head randomly since I read it, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Diadem series, by John Peel - I only read the first three books of this, because even though I searched for more than a year, the fourth volume was out of print and not in any library I could find. The rest of the series wasn't out of print! Only the fourth one! I wanted so badly to read the rest of the series because it had everything I was looking for as a kid. Alternate worlds. Kids who grew up in entirely virtual environments. SFF old timey places with archery. Some ambiguous villain that our heroes were intent on stopping despite not knowing who he/she/it/they even were. Hopefully I can find the fourth book this time somehow or my reread will also be cut tragically short.

Fearless series, by Francine Pascal - I also don't know how far I made it through this series, but I am very nostalgic for a character who just does stuff because she doesn't feel fear. Everyone wants to give me characters with tragic backstories, or who have to overcome their phobias. Nobody wants to give me someone who gets a bloody nose fistfighting a stranger because she forgot she wasn't supposed to. ADHD relatable? Okay, yes, maybe. But she's also one of those 'this person was an asshole so I bit them' characters, so I love her.

Among the Hidden series, by Margaret Peterson Haddix - a series I kept up with in real time, for a while, and I think I read to the end? Or almost to the end? Whatever, I love most of her books, they were my favorites as a kid, and despite the awkward xenophobic loading of the premise, the idea of a whole underground world of hidden children trying to find connection is an interesting subversion of the SF trope, one that actually has the scaffolding to make sense, instead of just 'yeah, we kept them in a cupboard their whole childhood but they're normal somehow'. It's heartbreaking and cool.

Goosebumps and The Nightmare Room, by R.L. Stine - I'm definitely not going to reread one whole series, let alone both. I've got to find highlights lists somewhere and go back to the popular ones, but, still, a lot of these were some of my favorites.

The House of the Scorpion, by Nancy Farmer - This has a sequel, which I never read, and I'm very much looking forward to that. The whole story had such a huge impact on me, both for what I look for in elaborate worldbuilding (this book has the best worldbuilding ever), and in how I write emotional arcs. I used to try to write plot driven things exclusively and, you know, I'm not really a plot writer. I'm all about the characters, and I feel like people try to hide that from kids. Chapter books are always plot driven! They only slowly let the character driven ones in, and then the worldbuilding ones, and how often is a MG or YA book allowed to be structurally driven? Basically never. Anyway. Huge impact on my attitude towards narrative. It was also just really emotional for me. One of my favorite books, and I really hope it holds up on rearead.

[13-nastin-13]

Surpriseee I finally fully resurrected myself!!

You probably thought the new year's rant would be published ten months later again? Not today ha ha! How about only two months later this time?? (that's some progress for sure)

Well, since you already know in advance what I think of 2022 from the previous big post (the one with 2021 art summary), I guess I don't have to write all of this here from scratch... In short, 2022 was a huge disaster in terms of everything *ahem*

tbh this decade feels like a very long crappy year, but I still have hope for 2023 because, as I told myself literally a year ago, “never EVER lose your hope and especially forget your own advice”

But since the previous three years were so crazy, why not just take a moment, leave all of my complains in the previous summary and try to focus on what was actually good in 2022? Yeah sounds challenging but I must admit that first time in ages I felt truly comfortable with my art wich made me so happy ���⚜️

I know this is probably one of my most unproductive years ever, BUT there were still all these little cursed yet somehow heartwarming stories hidden behind the drawings of this summary, and I can't wait to share a couple of them with you a little later ✨

Okay not gonna lie, I totally f up all of my goals for 2022, but trust me, this year I will be 100% able to bring an actual renaissance here so stay tuned, a whole new era is coming 👍

As you can see, my new art summary has some of my drawings in it that you haven't seen yet! I don't remember the exact reason for not putting out these on my socials (except for october, because they are just a bunch of outtakes from my stillborn inktober 2022 yeah), but now I'm going to post all of them here as I promised earlier!

In conclusion I'll say that all this time during the previous year, I seemed to be preparing for something in my head, like... I mean from my very personal point of view it was similar to some kind of rehearsal or the calm before the storm (something tells me I've said this before)? So, anyone wANT SUM SToRM ALREADY HUH? 🔥🔥🔥

Anyways, Happy New Year in february and happy new ERA guys!!

I love all of you and big shout out to anyone who reads my long txts haha you're precious ❤️

[rocketmuse]

I thought I'd share my playlist for the anniversary of the boathouse kiss. :)

Song translations, MANY thoughts, and timeline under the break.

Noise warning for song 19, Hinahanap-Hanap Kita. 4:23 to the end. Loud high pitched beeps.

YouTube music version to be made soon.

Translations for foreign songs:

Ewan [Dunno] — Apo Hiking Society — Filipino/Tagalog

Amour plastique [Plastic love] — Videoclub — French

Panalangin [Prayer] — Apo Hiking Society/Moonstar88 — Filipino/Tagalog

Hinahanap-Hanap Kita [I'm Looking For You] — Rivermaya — Filipino/Tagalog

This is a collaborative playlist made with my friend.

Thought Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy would be a good starter song. Something about the music. Represents a good start of Alec persuing Maurice, like, hey, I can be yours... Whatcha doin'?

I added Puppy Princess because of the chorus but I know some people don't like that song so... You can skip if you'd like. KISS MEEEEE KIISS ME WITH YIIR EYESSS CLOSED . ALL I WANT IS YOU YEAH YOU. TELL ME I'M NOT FUNNY TELL ME I'M LEGIIIIT

Ewan. OH MY GOD this song is so them. Alec cares for Maurice, and doesn't like not being taken seriously or being treated badly and brushed off.

"I don't know why you're like that, you're difficult to talk to and you're a snob" COME ON IS THAT NOT THEM — Just a smile from you, and I'll be in heaven. Please give me a response, anything but "No idea"... What a perfect representation of Alec's continuous persuit of Maurice, always talking, always trying...

I could go on with every lyric.

Edit: I just realised this song fits so well for Alec's letters and meeting at the museum. Must resist the urge to add the same exact track twice.

So about Touch Me... Some of the lyrics apply better in other versions. Spotify just has this version tho. Touch me, just like that.

All I've Ever Known. Maurice discovered so much that night about touch and sharing and being with someone. He wants to be with Alec. "All I've ever known is how to hold my own, but now I want to hold you too. [Hold you close, I don't wanna ever have to let you go. Hold you tight, I don't wanna to back to the lonely life.]" Alec opened up his eyes and he'll never be the same.

Can't Help Falling in Love With You. 'Did you ever dream you'd a friend, Alec? ... Someone to last your whole life...' 'Alec, you're a dear fellow and we've been very happy.'

I'd Like To Walk Around In Your Mind was added from Maurice's perspective. Perhaps it fits Alec too...

I think Love At First Sight has the double meaning of the literal title, as well as "wouldn't you like to kiss her" perhaps being... Something Maurice would hear.

I Don't Dance. Based on this post/edit. Please watch this video oh my God.

Pink in the Night. Alec yearns for Maurice in the boathouse. He hasn't come. He hears his heart breaking tonight.

Every lyric is perhaps pulled straight from Alec's brain, to be honest. I remember seeing a post with this song in other contexts with them too. So yes, a few meanings.

Amour plastique. Alec reminiscences on the night in the Russet room. Why hasn't he come?

In my mind, everything goes wild. I lose myself in your eyes. I drown myself in the vagueness of your loving gaze.

And at night I cry tears that stream down my cheeks. I think of you only when the days ends, only when my sad demons descend upon my mind, into the bottomless abyss.

Waiting in the boathouse at night, when the day ends.

I ring out in kisses all down your chest. Lost in the avalanche of my heart astray. Who are you? Where are you?

The moments of then repeat in his mind. Where is Maurice?

I suppose Hopelessly Devoted To You and I'm A Fool To Want You are self explanatory. Maurice should really come... Alec really toughed it out, 2 days he spent in the boathouse, really wanted to see Maurice, really knew they had something, and doesn't want to be treated like a dog. Generally, his 1st letter.

Moon Song. My friend said they added it as a general love song. — Why do you treat me like this? Why didn't you come to the boathouse? — Alec's 2nd letter as a whole. Plus bits of 1st.

And you pushed me in, and now my feet can't touch the bottom of you. ... So I will wait for the next time you want me, like a dog with a bird at your door.

Ewan would fit here tbh.

Panalangin. My only prayer in this lifetime: to be beside you, to be together with you, that's my prayer.

"I since cricket match do long to ... place both arms round you and share with you, the above now seems sweeter than words can say."

And this heart won't allow if you will be away from me, my love, please listen.

It also fits the end of museum.

I Want You. Maurice, can you come to the boathouse already? Alec has no power to teleport you there. I hold one card that I can't use.

I found you. I found the door, but when I stepped through, there was no floor. He found Maurice, bit he's not being here for Alec.

You're coming back And it's the end of the world We're starting over And I love you, darling And I am done, dear

Alec wishes this would happen. Also, he does come back later and they love again over, and "it is finished".

Credit for suggesting the next two songs goes to @beatle-capaldi!!! He also wrote was in quotations!

English Summer Rain

The Most Radical Thing To Do

Hinahanap-Hanap Kita. 1st letter, he's looking for Maurice. Thinking about them together.

In my thoughts and dreams, in every turn of destiny, I look for you. Also applies to that hotel/post-hotel feeling. I look for you, even if I try to forget you, saying goodbye, looking back...

Wildest Dreams. They think a lot of each other. They share once more. But they must say goodbye. Alec saw this coming. Maurice hopes that Alec will remember him like this.

I Hear a Symphony. Alec truly opened up Maurice's eyes. Maurice was meant to be with him. He helped Maurice, changed his life. But now Alec is leaving on ship... Or is he? The symphony leads into...

An orchestral sountrack. The Boathouse. Unfortunately the Maurice soundtrack is not on spotify. It's on my personal YouTube music version. I added it because it just captures the boathouse the only way the sountrack itself can.

The Word of Your Body (Reprise). MLM people have moment of romantic tension, which culminates in confessions of love. Just had to add it. "Haven't you heard the word of your body?" perfectly describes Alec gifting and showing Maurice the wonder of truest physical affection and love. He lets Maurice be okay with himself, and again, changes everything. Every lyric is perfect.

Also, sorry JBW, I like other versions more... Too bad Spotify is mean.

I See The Light. Yeah. Every lyric. Maurice is Rapunzel. Movie Blond too. Both the morning at Russet room and the museum. And the world has somehow shifted. All at once everything is different, now that I see you. "By now they were in love with each other consciously."...

Suddenly Seymour. Suddenly see more, yeah? Clive = ass and someone gives him affection for once, wow! Sidenote, I want to sing this with them and their accents... Suddenly SCUDDER...

Helpless. Musical theatre songs seem to be good retellings of their love story. It's why they belong in post boathouse. Summaries and retellings. They're also good at conveying love they'd feel for each other in general, all times ever. Like loving men, retelling a story.

I'll Cover You. Cute love song feat. gays. I like to imagine them dancing around, declaring their love and devotion for each other. Walking and dancing around like in the original scene, sometime post canon. In my own imagination, I thought of Alec as Angel and Maurice (Christopher) as Collins.

Video Games. They must love spending time together. I thought this to be Maurice POV. Only worth living if somebody is loving you I mean, come on.

It's you, it's you, it's all for you. Everything I do. I tell you all the time, heaven is a place on Earth with you.

Un sospiro. I headcanon that Maurice picks up the piano and plays for Alec. Perhaps he picked it up bc of/after Clive, but now can play it for someone who gives a shit.

Something about the melody reminds me of them. And then it gets more intense... A bit like the passions of love, showing up in sharing and touch and more, too.

Liebestraum. I mean, it means love dream/dream of love. I just had to. Also I just like Liszt.

Take Me Up With You, Dearie. This song is just so sweet... So soft... Edwardian to boot... I love how quintessentially 1909 it is. Discovered it in a YT video. The thought of them getting married makes me cry. This song in general makes me want to cry, it's so romantic, tender, and exudes my favourite era...

Let us float, float, float through the clouds, and just have a lot of fun. We'll go up, up, up as two and then come down as one.

Put Your Head on My Shoulder. We Belong Together. I always imagine Maurice and Alec slowdancing to songs that come on the radio together, when the 1950s hits... Alec probably rests his head on his shoulder as this plays and they dance...

I'm using a lot of ellipses, am I secretly Rupert Graves?

Welcome to the 70s and 80s. They love dancing together and being with each other. Now, Panalangin can be a happy song. My only prayer for this lifetime ... To be together with you. And this heart won't allow if you will be away from me.

Just the Two of Us. What a nice, vibey song. Great title, great scenario of them dancing to this...

Tiny Dancer. Your Song. MLM people in the 70s + Radio, being happy and in love with each other. — I just thought I should add some Elton. A different friend, and I, like him. Maurice sings to Alec, "And you can tell everybody this is your song." That I put down in words how wonderful life is with you in the world.

Electric Love. Fun fact: this song got me to share the playlist. Got me thinking about them and their anniversary again. The funky busy instrumental describes well their passionate love. The highs of electric LOOOOOOVE describe the intensity of them.

Alt text continued: themselves together under and the love. And the love. The song has its own tension and it perfectly pictures their own tension. So yeah, this is THEIR song quite literally.

Sorry if my music taste is perhaps basic. I just made it for when I hear songs that are Them.

Falling for Ya. Alec falls for Maurice. "I saw you when you first drove up, Mr Hall..." Something about Maurice, right? Plus really nice vintage vibes with the music. The bit about Into your arms and it's a secure sure sounds like Maurice. Awh, they're falling for *each other*...

Rainbow Connections. Gay and bi people. Marriage. Everything that Maurice and Alec went through to get here, where they were meant to be. Clive. Working for Clive. Leading up to now.

All the things that had to go right, all the things that had to go wrong, that lead us to the place where we were going all along.

On the YT version there's a soft/jazzy cover of Panalangin here. Because they're old and spending time together and being happy. What a throwback, a defined meaning in their lives over time.

Still Into You. After all these decades... Old and grown, together... True soulmates... Two men can defy the world... Maurice and Alec still roam the greenwood. Imagine Maurice meeting Alec's mom in this context. If only.

Postmodern Jukebox cover, because they are a quintessentially 20th century couple. They exude vintage.

Some piano playing for Alec. Soft, tender, romantic, emotional, true. Feels like nighttime. Feels like Maurice and Alec. And a throwback to the pre 1914 world as well. Claire de Lune feels like... A credits of life piece. Time spent in the early 1980s. Nocturne feels like that too, but more romantic. Smidge less nighttime. Ah yes, Gymnopédies. The truest credits feel of them all. None of these actually are credits for Maurice and Alec, but I struggle to find the word for this feeling. But yeah. These all have Them vibes to me. Piano of the time just does I suppose. Glad to be reminded of them at any time.

What a long playlist. Like going through almost their whole lives together. 1:52 hrs. Almost like a movie. Imagine that. A full movie of THEIR lives... But leaving to the imagination was a good thing. Led to this such action. Thank you E.M. Forster.

Timeline:

1. Pendersleigh

4. & 5. Russet Room. Night, then Morning

9. Cricket

10. Boathouse Nights

18. The Museum

20. The Hotel

21. After

23. The Boathouse

24. They Still Roam the Greenwood

I just like to imagine them dancing to songs on the radio, for decades to come...

[key201303]

SF9 as best friends

Pairing: SF9 x reader

Warnings: This is fiction, some of the situations desbribed in this post might not be what you expected. This is not meant to mock the mebers in any way as well.

Genre: fluff

A/N: It's been quite a long time since I made a reaction so here I am 🤭hope you enjoy it ❤

Taglist -> @ailoveyuta @jaysbestie (let me know if you want to be added!)

DISCLAIMER: NONE OF THE PICS USED IN HERE ARE MINE (except the banner) CREDITS TO THE RIGHT OWNERS.

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Inseong

The intelectual bestie.

You met him in middle school

And he has been the reason why you passed your math exams ever since then

At first you thought he was a nerd

But ended up loving him like he was your brother

Older than you but probably more childish than you

Cafe dates at Thursday's at 6pm are a must for him

Organized af kid

Also tries his best to convince you to organize your life

Helps you out whenever you ask him too

A simp for books

He made you become a simp for books as well

After you two had a beautifl day at a library reading such interesting books

He's literally the reason why you love cultural things

Super proud mom whenever you achieve something on your own

Even if it's a boyfriend/girlfriend 💀

Not the kind of bestie to get too jealous about you getting a boyfriend

Unless you forget about your Thursday dates

"I have no reasons to hate that guy/girl unless he/she makes you go back to the dumb self you were 15 years ago."

Youngbin

The protective bestie.

Probably was besties with your brother/sister before he met you

But then he started to spend more time with you and ended up being closer to you

Your second older brother

Spends more time at your home than you

Takes you out on random trips to random places

Your parents cosider him part of the family

Protects you quite a lot from absolutely everything

Doesn't want to see you feeling bad because it hurts him

He literally raised you up and taught you everything you know about life out of your little bubble

At some point, you see him more than you see your own family

Night escapes to go watch the stars (of course with your parent's permission until you become adult)

Car rides to heal your heart whenever it has been broken

Has been there for you in every single break up you have had

He's not jealous when you talk about other boys/girls or when you tell him you want a boyfriend/girlfriend but he's scared

Will literally prepare an interrogatory just to make sure that he's leaving you in good hands

"If you hurt her/him, I'll kill you."

Jaeyoon

The fit bestie.

24/7 on the gym

And trying to convince you to go with him because is good for health

Mocks you when you get tired after running 5 km with him on a Sunday morning

Sends you pics of his gym achivements just to hear you nagging at him for doing that

Thinks you will never get a boyfriend/girlfriend because you already have him so, why would you want a boyfriend/girlfriend?

Thinks all boys are jerks and lowkey tries to protect you from dumb people

Doesn't want to see your heart breaking because of someone else

Says he's the only one with the rights of mocking and teasing you

He's actually right tho 💀

Becomes your personal trainer with a wide smile

Really serious and strict when it comes to doing exercise

Tells you to send him your achivement pics just to tease you

Will treat you healthy food after every training

"Look at you! You're going to look even better than my ex if you keep working like that!"

Dawon

The annoying yet supportive bestie.

You've known each other since you were kids

Calls you every day and night to check on you

Or maybe just to tell you a dad joke because he says texting is not the same

You both share the same half braincell remaining in your brains

24/7 asking you if you're free to spend time with him

And when you're actually around him, he doesn't stop asking and doing stupid things just to see you smiling

Your number 1 fan and supporter

Whatever you want to do, he'll be there in the front row to support you

Even if he's the only one

And even if they're stupid things like buying a new plant

Would go to the end of world for your happiness

But will never admit it because he likes playing hard

Both of you are really stubborn so little fights happen quite often

But they don't last more than 5 minutes because he feels bad for fighting with you

Though when you were kids, both of you were the hell to the neighbor

24/7 shouting at each other and wanting to kill each other

But missing each other so much whenever you couldn't be together

Has been there for you in every single hard moment and so you have for him

Doesn't get too jealous about you dating someone else but will make an exhaustive interrogatory to be sure that you'll be safe

Probably making the boy/girl in question to run away because of his inapropriate questions

Leaving you once again alone with him and only him

"It wasn't that bad, it was a normal question! He/She's not worth of your love."

Rowoon

The flirty bestie.

He was your neighbor in middle school

You have had a crush on him ever since then

But then it slowly turned into a beautiful friendship as you notice you liked someone else

Flirts with you 24/7 just for fun and because he feels comfortable with you and only you

Whenever he has a problem or an issue he needs to fix, you'll be the first person he thinks of to help him out

Late night calls whenever he can't sleep or you can't because you both feel safe in each other's presence, even if it's just through the phone

Exams coming means him being locked in your bedroom with you as you both study for your respective exams

Everyone thinks you two are dating but actually none of you are in love with the other

You both just enjoy the other's presence that much

Watching movies and dramas together are your favorite ritual, specially during holidays

You both would probably become roommates when you started university

He's the first one to know that you have a crush on someone

And even though he likes to flirt with you in a joking way, he will help you get that person's heart

Even if it means that he won't be able to flirt with you from now on

"But I swear that if he/she breaks your heart I will go back to the pick up lines after healing you with ice cream and movies."

Zuho

The cold outside but cutie inside bestie.

He has been your bestie ever since you entered high school

He was the typical quiet and shy boy that gave cold vibes and so you were

Your friendship started after you had to do a project together and found out how similar both of you were

The only person he feels comfortable with is you

And you're the only person that could see his true and cute self

Even of you nag each other 24/7

Cat cafe dates are a must for both of you

If you ever end up being roommates, the first thing you will get (even before a damn couch) would definitely be a cat.

Study dates are also a must

You both just enjoy sitting there for hours in complete silence, just admiring each other's presence

Enjoys night walks with you because of the cooler weather

You're the only one with who he can joke around

Actually, deep inside, he's really protective over you because you're his only true best friend and he's too afraid of loosing you

If you ever mention you like someone or you're dating someone he will make you sign a contract saying you will never leave his side, no matter what

"Just sign this and I'll let you go with him/her."

Yoo Taeyang

The aesthetic bestie.

Loves to take you out with him just so you can take aesthetic pics of him

But will pay back doing whatever you asked him to do

The type of friend you can trust to tell him all your secrets and know he will never talk about them again unless you start the conversation first

Gift him a camera for his birthday and he'll be the happiest human being on earth

Falls in love with your best friend and ask you to help him out

Spoils you a lot just to convince you of helping him win your best frind's heart

You end up helping just to not hear his complaints over and over again

Your favorite night talks are always with him, because it doesn't matter how tired or upset you feel that he will always make you feel better

If you have an upcoming exam that is making you feel kind of anxious, he will pack a lunch box for you to make you feel better

Feels kind of bad for not being able to do anything else but tries his best as always

"I can't help you study but I can cook you delicious food."

Hwiyoung

The inseparable bestie.

24/7 with you

Ever since you were born

Your parents being besties not helping to both of you get away from each other

And he being a few minutes older than you was not helping either

Knows absolutely everything about you and so you do about him

Summer trips together are a must

Likes to tease you from time to time because now he's taller than you

Your friendship was the perfect example of what soulmates meant

Whenever you weren't together, you felt empty and even sad sometimes

Promised you he would never have a girlfriend because he had you when you were 5 years old

Never treats you because he says you're yonger so you have to pay

Which always lead to a small discussion because you literally were born the same day

Disturbs every single boy/girl that apporaches you because he enjoys seeing your annoyed face

And when you actually tell him that you like someone, he gets even more cocky and annoying

Only to end up helping you confess your feelings because he just wants to see you happy even if he never admits it

"You win, but just because you are younger."

Chani

The teasing bestie.

Known each other since kindergarten

You have both always been fighting against each other

But both of you ended up being inseparable

Nagging each other 24/7

He literally lives for teasing and pranking you and so you do

Have a bet on going about who would make more teasings/pranks when the year ends

The prize for the winner being a 691666 won dinner (578 $)

Both of you loved betting on things because of how competitive you both became when it came to betting with each other

Can you hear his devilish laugh? Because I can 💀

Made you set his voice calling you 'babo' (stupid) as a ringtone because you lost a bet

Deep inside his heart, he loves you quite a lot and won't know what he would be doing if you weren't part of his daily life

May confess you that kind of stuff at late night talks when you're feeling down

But then will deny every single word the next day, just to tease you

Will act all fine about you getting a boyfriend/girlfriend but inside he's panicking because he thinks you will leave him forever

Secretely makes an interrogation session with the said person you're dating just to make him/her scared about hurting you

"Listen you bastard, she/he is my bestie. No!! My little sister/brother actually! If you hurt her/him, I swear I'll go find you."

[journalbynics]

A KAKAMPINK'S REALIZATIONS

March 12, 2022

Never thought I would be invested on this elections when I purposely tried being silent during the campaign period. I only watched debates and followed them a bit on social media when we're a month away from the elections but still, I became invested. I'm one of those who felt so emotional and tears up when the results are just coming in.

It's not that I'm ungrateful for what we have in our country but it's the HOPE I saw in the eyes of passionate kakampinks rooting for VP Leni Robredo. She painted a picture of what our country could be when she's elected as the president.

As a Christian who just became spiritually alive recently, the results really dismayed me. I thought my faith was strong enough but turns out, I just never experienced and felt something this extreme to become disappointed. Maybe because it's not only my future that depends on it but the FUTURE OF THOSE IN NEED. (Yung mga nasa laylayan na nga ika nga.) The Angat Buhay Project is really great since it's like a positive 'Sana All' for every Filipino.

Because of this experience, I had the chance to reassess my character. I admit, I slightly let my emotions get the best of me at first. The SCORPIO in me literally went out AGAIN. I planned on holding a grudge to those I knew who voted for the leading candidate. I even unfriended a lot of my relatives. I don't really care because I don't actually use Facebook often and share something so I doubt if they will notice it. Maybe they will. I don't even plan on going to family events as much as before too. If they had the chance to confront me about it, I'll just simply make an excuse like really? I have no idea because I don't use facebook much since I'm busy. Lol.

The closest apologist from my family is my older sister. The middle child since I'm the youngest. We're a family of five and the rest, we're proudly kakampinks. She's married and her husband is also an apologist. We had to hide our disappointment during their stay in our house since my sister went home in our province just to vote. I'm really sad and angry on the inside because I look up to her but she disregards all the red flags on her candidate. I tried being distant to her and make excuses but then she treated us on a family dinner. It's bittersweet because I was reminded that she's the one spending on my school allowance as well. They left and that's the time we have a family talk of kakampinks expressing our dismay and anger. It's funny how we're the ones who stayed silent when it's our home at all. My parents are civil to them and I'm actually the only one who had to put an effort and fake it. Over time, I guess my hatred will fade but I'll never forget everyone who supports questionable candidates. That's for sure. Anyway, it's a relief finally talking to my dad, mom, and oldest sister who shares the same sentiments like mine. It's comforting to know that atleast, we got each other. Just sad about the only one who isn't and building her own family already. I don't wanna imagine how difficult it must be for those with majority family members as an apologist in a household. If you are, stay hopeful. You're not entirely alone.

HERE'S A POST THAT COMFORTED ME THIS MORNING BT DUBS!

As I've said, I had a difficult time processing what's happening in our country.

It came to a point when I felt my faith in God is slightly fading. I know everything has a reason and He has a PLAN for us. It's always God's will that's gonna happen. I think it's easier for me to accept the hardships I personally face but imagining those people who suffered in the past and potential people who's gonna suffer in this term is just too much for me. Even if doubts are starting to drown me, I still kept praying. I know about He's will. That He planned this. It's just one of those hard to accept situations that's testing us but I'll get pass this. As always.

So I prayed, with a heavy heart and sometimes as I teared up...

I ask for forgiveness for not completely accepting and trying to understand what's happening. I also ask for His patience on me. Because I feel like I failed Him too since I thought my relationship with Him is deep enough. But I guess it's not. I know He's the most patient and merciful God so I feel at ease too. I know I'll overcome this emotions. Besides, it's written a lot of times in the Bible that it's okay to tell Him our feelings, our desires, our cries. To share our burden with Him. With that in mind, I know this unfamiliar feelings of mine relating to politics are VALID and NATURAL.

SUMMARY OF WHAT I REALIZED THIS ELECTION WEEK:

1. I'm gratefully privileged and I care a lot too for the common good of people and our country.

2. I need to improve my character even more and manage how I react to things I can and can't control. It's always the reaction that I have the control not the situation.

3. The journalist in me is blazing again. It's good to write about things that really matter and I should continue it more consistently.

4. I should trust God's plan even more, even on national/global matters as well.

5. This is a time of realization. I really hope people who voted for the leading candidate learns too and stop being so blinded.

In conclusion, Bishop Rey has a point. Maybe God never really meant for Leni to win. Her mission was to waken us up. Because SHE REALLY DID. She won the hearts of people.

YAKAP!

[its-me-im-coraline]

Peculiar and Beautiful // Victoria De Angelis

words // 1333

warnings // angsty but also fluffy

pairing // Victoria De Angelis x GN!Reader

author's note // if you want to be on the tag list let me know besties, don't forget the 'sleepover' on sunday (yes i'll be saying it on every fucking post lol) and yeah, that. also, a little complaining moment from me, im currently in sooooo much pain, my tooth hurts, i got neuralgia on a tooth and ljajakjfa so if this seems high to you it means im on meds for that lol unlucky few days anywaaaays enjoy to revive yourselves from the teasers of iwbys video

request // yes, here

summary // Reader finds themself in a emotional rut. A few comments online, the constant youtube recommendations on how to be “perfect” have been making them feel some type of way, hiding away from the one person that can help them; Victoria

It was a consistent thing and that was the issue. The comments about what Victoria did and did not deserve, who she should be with, the constant shipping with Damiano… And then there were the absolutely random videos on youtube, indirectly telling them what and who they should become, at least according to all those people online. It took less than expected to cave into the vicious lies surrounding their daily life. Although they tried to take control over the situation the absence of Victoria did nothing to improve the rut they were in at the moment.

Her presence tends to be a reassuring thing to her lover. Words need not be spoken, all problems can be hidden, but the moment they look each other in the eye everything is resolved. Understandably, Victoria missing from the equation in the moment made matters far worse than Y/N could imagine.

The self depreciation came in waves. At first it was that they looked “off” next to Victoria, as if for some reason they didn’t please the eye aesthetically when together. It was a comment that was shared around a lot. They did not believe it at first until their brain led them into looking through all the couple’s photos… Maybe they are right, they would mumble before closing the phone and continuing their work.

After that stage came the personal attack. Why don’t I look good next to her? Must be my looks. Agh, if I didn’t look like that… Whenever they passed through a mirror or reflective surface they’d stare at themselves to see how they looked, whether they looked bad or decent. Never gave enough credit to themselves, sometimes not even believing Victoria when mentioning the beauty she was lucky enough to hold in her arms. Always something about being independent and not needing anyone to make them feel valuable due to their looks. Simple and plain stubbornness.

Victoria took not too long to notice how something was off with her lover. At first, she gave not too much attention to it, knowing how both missed each other and knowing how tired they were from work. But, as days passed by she could simply not ignore the situation anymore. She first saw something was off when talking to Y/N on the phone, seeing how they did not exactly respond to her jokes and comments as they usually would. Again, she wrote it off as tiredness, missing her, just as she missed them but it was far more than that. After a while they started cancelling some of their facetime call time, saying different things about having bad days at work and, although, she believed them does not mean she was not worried out of her mind. The more that kept happening the more Victoria kept stressing. Not few were the times she’d end up falling onto Damiano’s bed and almost crying with worry.

“Why don’t you tell them to take some time off? Reckon they said their boss owes them some time off work.” And he was right. The answer to the pair’s misery was there all along and she simply had not seen it.

Victoria wasted no time, rushing to get to her phone and arrange everything. Surprisingly enough, dealing with Y/N’s boss turned out to be the easier part of the whole ordeal. The real struggle coming to persuading them about it.

“Oh come one, cucciolo, I know you want to see me-”

“I do want to Victoria, but I can not. I have work.” Lies, lies, lies. They knew they were lying, work wasn’t their trouble in the moment.

“Dealt with! You have a few days of work. Your boss was surprisingly real nice about it.” They could practically hear the smile the beautiful woman wore on her face but they could not keep their response at bay.

“What?! What did you do?!”

“You sound unhappy…”

“I am not, but Victoria why did you do this before talking to me?”

“Because…” she sighed.

“You are tired, I miss you and you are stubborn. Plus, I wanted to surprise you. I thought it’s be a good surprise... Am I wrong?”

“No, no! It’s great. When is the ticket for?” Everyone knows Y/N can never say no to Victoria, even the girl knows of her partner’s weakness, targeting it with her adorableness at times in order to get them to do something like buy her fries or in this case take a break. But Y/N was not worried about Victoria’s influence on them, or rather not that influence. They were out of this world worried about how little time it was going to take Vic to see their insecurities, maybe she’d even agree with them, they thought.

The first night of being by Vic was pretty normal, just as it was back at home, full of cuddles and kisses and all the children shows and movies playing in the background while the bassist recited all her adventures to her lover.

“And Thomas just felt face first onto the pavement! Can you believe it?!” Y/N laughed lightly, eyes fluttering in an attempt to focus on the woman in front of them and head lazily hang on the pillow by the headboard.

“Are you feeling alright, amore?” She asked, voice soft as she caressed the other person’s cheek.

“Yes, love, just a bit tired.”

“It’s alright, let’s sleep. You had a tiring flight, I get it.” Y/N simply mumbled a thank you, kissing the blonde’s forehead before pulling her close in order to sleep.

Unfortunately, the momentary bliss did not last long. After being seen together people started talking and Y/N returned to the previous thought pattern, this time getting deeper into their insecurities. They felt like they were not enough for Victoria so, while trying to not be suspicious they started distancing themselves from her. They would avoid kisses, get away way to soon for both their liking, sleep early, sleep-in… No matter what they stayed away from too much interaction with Victoria, and she was getting sick of it.

Finding them walking down the hallway from the stairs to their hotel room, Victoria rushed to her partner, making sure to get in the room with them quickly, before they had the chance to hide away - again.

“You are ignoring me,” she simply stated, voice stern but never elevated.

“O-of course not, what are you on about?!” Voice was trembling and eyes were looking everywhere but the exasperated blonde.

“Yes -agh- yes you are! You were all over me when you came here, which I’m not complaining about, and then the next day you all but slept in the tab to avoid me! What is going on, Y/N?” The use of their name might have stung just a little bit, enough to make them talk. They always got worried when Victoria went all first name basis rather than cute pet names.

“I-” they hesitated for a second but the strict look on the woman’s face made them continue.

“People talk, Victoria.”

“About what? What does-”

“About us and you and me… It’s always how I am not a good fit and other things like that and maybe they are right.”

“You don’t seriously believe that, do you?”

“Of course I believe that! Look at you, Vic, you are perfect and me? Well, I am me.”

“And that’s exactly why we are together. Because you are you! Y/N, you being who you are is why I fell for you. Your little quirks, those strong characteristics you get insecure about are literally what make you who you are, that individualize you.”

“Really?” They asked with hesitation, fearing the chance of her lying.

“Of course, cucciolo. I love those things that make you different. Reminds me that there is no other one like you and it simply makes me longing for you more,” she praised while leaving kisses all over their neck.

“I simply love you.”

tag list: @bieberhoodforever @tabi-toast @ginny-lily @moriro-da-regina

[kasjophe]

So yeah I kinda noticed this and now my brain is convinced those are best friends and reason why Weasley & Malfoy families seem to have such prejudice upon each other is because of something that happened between these two.

So I did some digging.

And that would mean they are Septimus Weasley (I found he was born in 1913 and these scene takes place in 1927 so he'd be 14 at the time) and Abraxas Malfoy (couldn't find specific date but I assume they're the same age)

And as I did some research I learned 1) that the families relation became worse in twentieth century 2) WEASLEYS AND MALFOYS ARE RELATED (look at number 4), RON AND DRACO ARE DISTANT COUSINS (there's Longbottom there too and that means NEVILLE MIGHT BE THEIR COUSIN TOO, ba Narcissa and Frank could be cousins for all I know)

I know all purebloods are literally related one to another at some point but learning it is even more interesting

Back to boys - I saw them for 3 seconds and can't help but imagine their lives. Even if Abraxas was raised like Draco (to be a spoiled little shit hating muggles) he surely wouldn't show it. Times were different, he wouldn't speak up rudely and share his opinions lightly.

"Gryffindors are reckless fools son, but don't ever let them make you lose your composure. You're better than that."

"Yes, father."

Acquaintances, that's all he was supposed to be with Septimus. He was a pureblood after all.

But he was so... bright, that Weasley boy.

Well mannered conversations were either about politics or anything but politics. And somehow Septimus managed to talk about everything and change small talk into hours of laughing.

And Merlin's beard his father mustn't hear about this.

(According to Harry Potter Wikipedia like sites, Septimus might have had six brothers since his name meant seventh and was usually given to that child - many siblings wouldn't be also surprising as it seems Weasley family had tendency to have many children)

So I can imagine Abraxas asking him what it's like to have such a big family and Tim just smiles "Loud." and then asked the same question later when they know each other better, answers:

"It's like.. sharing one broom between whole quidditch team."

"That must be annoying."

"It is haha! You're lucky if they don't push you off of it!"

"I suppose.. you have to get a broom on your own then."

"Maybe, but for it to be useful someone has to teach you how to fly."

Also as you can see on screencaps - smirking is Weasleys thing.

But what is interesting in that scene - Dumbledore is teaching students DADA and moment later aurors come into the classrom. Tim is smiling, finding it entertaining, while Ab sees the danger this situation holds. He's looking at Dumbledore whole time - he recognises his power (and probably fears it) as well as what comes along with Ministry..

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"Chess?"

"Yes! I've got it for Christmas, look at the pons, aren't they brilliant?"

"Whatever makes you happy.."

"You're sulking cause you know I'll beat you."

"As if!"

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"Come on Ab, it'll be okay, you can fly on my broom."

"Father says quidditch is a brutal sport and I shall not play it."

"Why, you're scared?"

"Shut up Tim, you know it's not like this."

"Come onnn.. here, you can sit behind me. Then it's not you flying, technically."

"You'll play my servant? Also practically - I'm on the broom."

"Merlin, Ab just get on you won't regret it."

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"I asked Cedrella to come to the Yule Ball with me! She said yes!"

"You actually did it?! Actually- why am I even suprised at this point.."

"And what about you? You still haven't told me who would you like to go with?"

"Tim you fool, we're purebloods! I can't just ask any girl to be my d.. date. I'm surprised Black even agreed, I bet her parents would be furious knowing she accepted your invitation. What if she thinks you're courting-"

"Ab! Stop! Lala I'm not listening!"

"I suppose.. I just hoped we'd go, together."

"But.. we're both boys-"

"As gentlemen Weasley! Companions! And then you'd ask Black for dance- ugh forget it."

"My brother said it would be fine!"

"Your brother was pulling your leg Tim, now you gotta marry her."

"What?! You're the one pulling my leg! Ab? Abraxas! Stop laughing!"

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"So.. I spoke with father and it seems like he's really fond of seekers."

"No way-"

"So I thought maybe I should-"

"Yes! YES! Move your ass Ab! We're going to get you on the Slytherin team!"

"Well it's not like I have a choice now-"

"Can't wait to kick your ass."

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"Is it true, Abraxas?"

"Woah, full name? Haha-"

"I'm serious. Is it true you called that muggleborn girl that awful word?"

"What? Mudblood?"

"Malfoy!"

"What? That's what she is."

"How can you even say that-"

"You can't possibly be on her side."

"There is no side Ab!"

"We're purebloods Septimus, we're not like them."

"You.. you really think like this? I- how did I not notice? I thought you were different, but you are evil!"

"Now Weasley, last chance, take that back. You must see my point."

"No Malfoy, open your eyes. You're acting evil!"

"Father was right, you are a fool."

Okay so, I actually imagine them as best buds all the time they were in Hogwarts. Tim helped Ab relax and Ab was there to stop Tim from getting into (too much) trouble. They would laugh, do silly stuff, help each other study for exams, really, they were best friends - shared passions and could help the other grow with different point of views.

It.. it was just so good. Not having to think about their families and outside world, just living the moment. So Tim ignored how suspicious Ab sometimes acted, he closed a blind eye on his rude remarks about others.

"Your father is a fool."

And the hell rose.

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The Meeting of a Lifetime AU

Part 13: The Pre-Wedding Rituals

Pairing: Ethan x f!MC (Dr. Arundhati Kulkarni)

Characters: Elijah Greene, Bryce Lahela, Rafael Aveiro, Tobias Carrick, Naveen Banerji, Alan Ramsey, Sienna Trinh, Aurora Emery, Jackie Varma, Harper Emery, Kyra Santana, Mridula Patel (OC), Ruby Ramsey (OC), Uma Kulkarni (OC), Sahil Kulkarni (OC), Greg Barnett (OC), Edward Walter (OC), Apoorva Sharma (OC)

Word Count: 1458 words

Rating: General

Summary: Ethan and Aru hold a ceremony to conduct certain pre-wedding rituals according to Aru's traditions.

Category: Fluff

Tagging: @nooruleman, @izzyourresidentlawyer, @jooous, @schnitzelbutterfingers, @sophxwithers, @red-rookie

A/N:

@nooruleman: Noorie, I am extremely thankful for your help, support and motivation. It was only because of you that I decided to write this series. You are a literal sweetheart. Thanks a lot for your help!

I sincerely apologise if this turns out to be messy or not up to your expectations.

A day before their wedding, Aru and Ethan had a pre-wedding ceremony according to her traditions, known as Haldi. This ritual consisted of the bride and groom's family members and loved ones applying turmeric paste on them using mango leaves.

For the ceremony, Aru invited all of her friends from Edenbrook, as well as Mridula, Sahil and her good friend, Apoorva. She wanted everyone she knew to celebrate her happiness along with her. Ethan brought Alan, Naveen, Jenner and two of his closest friends from college along with him.

The day started with Naveen and Sahil explaining everything about the ritual to their guests so that they knew how and what to do as well as arranging some delicious Indian and Continental food and snacks for their guests.

The ceremony started as soon as Aru and Ethan arrived, both coordinating in yellow outfits, dancing to some famous Bollywood songs, which were being played by a DJ.

Naveen was the first person to smother the turmeric paste on the couple, who was applying it almost everywhere. He was doing it so excitedly as he was very happy to see Ethan finally getting married to Aru and respecting her culture as well as letting her plan her wedding the way she wanted to.

After Naveen was done teasing and blessing the couple with a long and peaceful life, Alan came forward to apply the paste and told the couple to always take care of and understand each other, which they promised they would.

"Ethan, big man, before I apply the paste, I just want to remind you how lucky you are to have a chance to marry the love of your life. So, please don't do anything that will make you lose your chance, okay? And didi, don't forget, I'm saying the same thing to you. I'm equally protective of both of you."

"Don't worry, young man, I'll take good care of your sister. And I know very well that she is strong enough to see that if anything happens to her, she will take good care of it all by herself."

"Sahil, don't worry about your big man, I know to not do anything that invokes his bad side and to stay away from it."

"That's comforting to hear, so I wish you all the happiness in the world, you guys. Always stay happy and healthy and take care of the little angels."

"Thanks a lot, Sahil. Your approval means a lot to both of us."

"You know, I started trusting Ethan from the moment I met him. The way he spoke about you and looked at you, I knew he was the one for you. I'm really glad fate gave you two another chance and you guys took it."

"I know, I thank God for it every day."

"And every day when I look at her, I forget how difficult my life was before her."

"Oh, Ethan", Aru said, on the verge of tearing up.

"Okay, you lovebirds! Dry up your tears! Enough with the sappiness and bring on the happiness. You are getting married tomorrow! You guys must be really excited!"

"We are! It seems like I've been waiting for this day to come ever since Aru returned into my life."

"Who knew Ethan would be such a softie, hey!", exclaimed Bryce as he and her friends joined Sahil to tease the couple.

"You know what, Aru has turned him into one!", teased Elijah.

"That's true, Elijah, you should have seen him before her. He was extremely grumpy back then", pitched in Harper.

"Harper, you'll have to tell us some stories of Ethan before Aru waltzed into his life", mentioned Tobias, "cause I knew how grumpy and annoyed he used to be at all times."

"Yeah, definitely. You'll love to hear them."

"Did you know, he was so grumpy that we, along with Tobias, had nicknamed him Major Grumpy Pants back then."

"Aru, meet my friends, Greg and Edward."

"Thanks for the nickname, Greg, now that's what he is going to be saved as in my phone."

"Even we have some good stories about Ethan's grumpiness that we would like to share someday."

"Sure, you all are welcome to."

"Well, Aru, it seems like you have cast a spell on our Ethan."

"So has Ethan on Aru. Just look at them!"

"I hope that this spell never wears out and may you live happily now that you have gotten another chance."

"Hey, Ethan, why didn't you invite us for your bachelor party?"

"I did, but you said that you both were extremely busy that week and would love to catch up later."

"Greg, did you say that? Cause I don't remember saying so."

"Are you kidding me?"

"Relax, Ethan, they are joking around", Aru said, as Greg and Edward started cracking up.

"Never change, Major, never change."

"Okay, guys, now let's get done and get going so we don't block others from meeting the couple. We'll have plenty of time to talk to them later", chimed in Sienna.

"But before you leave, let me give you something", Aru said, as she applied the paste on her friends.

"Why did you do that? It's your Haldi, not ours", said Bryce.

"Meathead, the bride and groom apply the paste to their unmarried friends so that they can find a partner soon", explained Jackie.

"Enjoy this new chapter in your life, you guys. May you be blessed with happiness and joy all the time."

"Aww, you guys, you are going to make me cry, you all are too sweet", Aru said.

After the group was done, Mridula and Apoorva came in to meet and greet the couple.

She pretended to be happy for the couple, but she couldn't stop thinking about how she missed her chance to be with Aru and how much she regretted letting her go.

"Is everything going well, Mri?", asked Aru.

"Yeah, everything is going good, there are no major mishaps or issues as of now."

"That's great, Mri. We are very glad that you are our wedding planner. All of this was a part of our imagination and we could turn it into reality all thanks to you", Ethan replied.

"Oh, you don't need to thank me, I am glad to have met Aru after this long. It's been a pleasure doing all this. I've always dreamed of planning Aru's wedding and I'm extremely glad I got a chance to do so."

"You don't know how happy I am to hear this. You are seriously the best wedding planner out there."

"Aww, Aru. Well, can I?"

"Yeah, go on, it's literally our Haldi. You have a right to apply the paste on us today."

"She's right, Mri. Go on. You don't need to ask us today."

"Alright, then, may you all be blessed with good life and be together forever", Mri said while lathering them up with the paste.

"You too, Mri", Aru said as she applied the paste on her face.

"Hi, Apu! I'm delighted that you could come for my Haldi. It's been ages since I met you."

"I know. We need to catch up as soon as possible. I want to know everything that has happened since the last time we met."

"Yeah, we will need an entire day for that."

"Well, that's what makes it interesting. So, congratulations on your engagement, Aru! I would have never thought that you would get married to the guy who you so deeply admired."

"Just like Ethan, who never thought that he would get married to one of his interns", joked Greg.

After everyone was done wishing and blessing the radiant couple, they went on to take a ceremonial bath, while the others had fun applying the paste on each other and enjoyed the party.

When Aru and Ethan came back, Naveen and Alan told them, "So, children, you will not be allowed to meet each other until tomorrow, okay? Will you be able to do that?"

"Definitely", they said together.

"Also, the bride and the groom meeting before their wedding is considered to be inauspicious, so we will not be doing it."

"Since when did you two become superstitious?"

"Ever since we realised that we couldn't take any more chances."

"That makes a lot of sense."

"So, you both can go and take your beauty rest while all of us will help clean up."

"Thanks a lot for everything you have done for us and the girls. We can't ever thank you enough."

"Dear, you don't need to thank me. I'm just returning the favour from every time you both have helped me", replied Naveen.

"And I'm just doing my job as a good father, Aru, you don't need to thank me at all."