#disney's movies lately have been uh oh

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Haven't watched Disney's Wish yet but this is my own interpretation based on the reception

[swee7dream]

how would the dreamies react to their s/o regressing for the first time in front of them after being super stressed and not being able to be a little ? ^^

it’s been a long time caregiver!nct dream x gender-neutral!regressor!reader

genres sfw age regression content, established relationship, hurt / comfort, angst in some, bits of fluff in all warnings involuntary / vent regression, regression block, negative self-talk, haechan's is long sry dni if you sexualize age regression. not only blocking but also reporting.

author’s note i'm SO sorry this took so long for me to get out. i promise i didn't forget about you, nonnie! i might've geared a little bit ( a lot ) off the prompt at times but i still hope you like it ! thx 4 requesting !

mark lee (ᓀ‸ᓂ) wc 642

With all your responsibilities lately, Mark finds it logical that you don’t regress as often as you used to. The last time he remembers was over three months ago. He misses taking care of you, hearing your sweet voice call out for your 'Mack!'. But he doesn’t want to burden you even more with any expectations to do anything you weren’t feeling up to do. He wasn’t planning to bring it up. Honest.

That was until you started coming home to avoid his kisses and go straight to bed. That moment left a pang in his heart.

In the silence and tension of your apartment, Mark finds himself in your little corner of tiny things, picking up your toys and dusting off your coloring books with longing. He misses his baby, so he’s going to get his baby back, he decides, no matter what it takes.

“Oh look, that new Disney movie came out you said you wanted to go see it, right?”

“I’m tired, Mark.”

“…okay.” He bites the inside of his cheek.

Just keep trying, Mark. You got this.

“Babe, I’m doing laundry. You want me to wash Cheese Doodle?” He knocks at your office door.

“Huh?” You raise your head as if you were a fish out of water. “Uh, yeah. That’s fine. Thank you.”

Hmph.

“What is that?” You give the box in Mark’s hand a look.

“It’s a game. Picked it up at the store. It’s like… Twister? But there’s something different about it. I dunno, I didn’t pay attention to the label and just bought it. Chenle asked that we bring some kind of board game for his party on Saturday.”

“Oh. Well, I have a thing on Saturday so tell him I can’t go but I hope everyone has fun.”

As the saying goes, the fourth time’s a charm.

“You’re not going to bed?” You rub your eyes, already in your night clothes and under the sheets.

“Not really tired,” he replies with a shrug as he makes his way out into the kitchen. “I think I’m gonna make myself some angel milk to get the sleeping juices going. That always worked for you. You want some?”

You’re already pretty tired, the events of the day had sucked every last drop of potential energy from you. Still, some angel milk in all its sweet, vanilla-tasting glory makes you lick your lips.

“…yeah. Please,” you answer.

When he comes back from the kitchen, he has your warm drink in one hand and Cheese Doodle—your orange puppy stuffie—in the other.

“Sit up for me, baby,” he says softly as he sits down on the edge of the bed, not wanting to spill anything from your favorite mug.

“Unicorn…!” You notice, taking the pink and rainbow cup in your two sleeve-clad hands. “Thank you.”

“Mhm.” Mark smiles. “and I just took cheese doodle out of the laundry too. Used the fabric softener that you like. Wanna feel?”

“Oh.” In a second, you’re like a cat rubbing your cheek against Cheese Doodle’s fur. “Smells good, Markie. Thank you.”

”Of course, baby. Feeling tiny?” He asks only now that he’s 95% sure you are.

”Little bit,” you admit into your mug, slurping quietly to not burn yourself.

”Aw.” He pouts. “That’s good. You know, Markie missed you, baby. I haven’t held my baby in such a long time.”

”Missed Markie too.” You blink at him with sleepy eyes and a milk mustache. “Lot.”

”Wanna cuddle for a little then?”

”Just for a lil' bit.” You nod, placing your angel milk on the bedside table.

Mark knows the mug will be forgotten by the morning but he'd rather make and waste a million angel milks than for you to forget him and Cheese Doodle again.

huang renjun ૮ ˙Ⱉ˙ ა wc 594

“Oh that’s a nice painting, Jun,” you praise, resting your chin on his shoulder as he sits on a stool. “Very pretty.”

“I feel like it’s missing something, though,” he says with a frown. “Here. You paint something.”

“On your canvas?” You look at him. “No way, love. I’ll ruin it.”

“You won’t. Now take the brush.”

“I won’t.” You step back and cross your arms. “I’m not gonna mess up this painting you’ve been working so hard on with my clumsiness.”

“What are you talking about? You always add something to my paintings.” Renjun gives you a look. The look that makes you want to roll your eyes.

“And they’re always so much better before me.”

“You don’t think that.”

“I do.”

“Why are you talking about yourself in this way all of a sudden?”

“Because it’s true!” You explode. There’s a burning in the backs of your eyes as you keep talking. “All I’ve been doing lately is messing up stuff for other people. I’m no good, Renjun.”

“…”

“My boss thinks it, my team members think it. I know you think it too!” You sob.

“Darling-”

“Stop it, Jun.”

“Darling,” he repeats, taking your hand in his. “come here.”

He pulls you in with one hand and wipes your tears with another, so careful he almost makes you think you are glass.

“What’s in that green binder in the bookshelf over there?” he asks.

“What?” You furrow your brows. “I don’t know.”

“Go check.”

You give him a look but make your way to the oak bookshelf; filled with sketchbooks, novels, and a singular green binder. You look at Renjun when your fingers touch the spine and take it out only after he nods. Your knees wobble as you flip through the pages so you let your bottom hit the floor.

In the binder are the handwritten notes from back before the two of you even started dating; flirtatious exchanges recorded on coffee shop napkins, gum wrappers, and ripped-up bits of college notes. The next stage of your relationship is at the flip of a page; rushed post-it notes of domestic living with 'I love you!'s and 'Don't forget to eat!'s kept safe in the plastic sheets.

You look up at him with surprise but he only nods his head for you to keep flipping pages. You flip through empty slips until you almost reach the back cover and find all the drawings you’ve made for Renjun over the years while in regression. Each and every one. Even the ones where you're mad at him and have him eaten by monsters.

“You kept them…” You pass a finger over a drawing you made of the two of you, your stickmen-selves holding hands and smiling in a rocket ship.

“Of course I did, baby. How could I throw away something so perfect?” You hear his voice next to you, having gotten up from his seat to crouch next to you on the floor. He gently pulls your head into his chest and his lips drop to kiss the top of your head. “I don’t think you mess up things, my love. Ever. You simply change their direction. My Lovebug is the most creative, innovative person in the whole wide world, didn’t you know?”

“Junnie…” You sob, the dam of pent-up emotions finally seeking release.

“Hi there, babybug.” He whispers. “I’m right here, lovey. Right here. Let it all out.”

lee jeno ૮ .◜◡◝ა wc 655

“Babe, the ice is melting and your coke is turning into gross, brown, sweet-tasting water,” Jeno warns.

“One second, baby. I just need to finish this assignment real quick,” you mutter with your bottom lip bit in place.

It seems you’re still in the same clothes from three days ago, the same amount of time Jeno’s seen you stay in bed studying. He’s beginning to think your butt might be attached permanently to the mattress at this point. When it comes to your bedside table, your 5-hour energy from lunchtime being the latest addition to the food trash and empty water bottle pile doesn’t fill him with any more positive thoughts.

“When’s it for?” He sighs. “Your assignment.”

“…what?” You turn your head to him but your eyes stay on the screen. “Oh, um, Friday.”

“It’s Monday. Come on.” Jeno pulls at your arm like a spoiled child. “I’m not even making you shower or anything. I just wanna hang out with my hermit, stinky, computer nerd. Will you grant me my wish please?”

You look up with a half-offended, half-amused expression and your jaw dropped.

“I’m not stinky!” You fail to shake off your arm from his hold. “I told you I’m coming! I just really need to finish this.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“No.”

“Ye- ah!” You squeal as Jeno pulls at your arm, throwing you over his shoulder. “Jeno! I’m serious!”

“I’m serious too. Monday to Friday is five days-”

“Four days!”

“-and that’s more than enough time to finish your assignment.” He refuses to acknowledge your interruption. “You are going to eat a proper dinner with me on the couch as we watch TV and you’re gonna like it, you got that?”

“Augh…!” You groan, going limp on him.

“Oh, I know.” Jeno pouts as he sets you on the couch, covering you in your train-print fleece blanket. “I’m so mean, aren’t I? Asking you to take a break when all you wanna do is work, work, work.”

You just stare at him, squinting your eyes as you fail to hide a smile.

“Well unfortunately for you, gumdrop, babies don’t work! So I’m afraid I can’t let you do that. The police will come after me if I do. Child labor laws or something like that.”

He leaves a quick kiss on your forehead right before speeding to the kitchen. Jeno’s eyebrows wiggle in a wave when he returns with your food; apple slices, chicken nuggets, and fries all in their respective spots in your divided plate.

The original pasta and movie date night plan being scrapped for a Nono-Gumdrop night doesn’t phase Jeno. In fact, it excites him. Your projects and exams and assignments and professors... he tries so hard not to hold resentment against them all as they pull his baby away from him. But tonight? Tonight is different, and for once in his life, caregiver Jeno is triumphant.

“Thank you…” Your fingers wrap around the blue silicone and Jeno engulfs you in a bear hug when he sits down. Tight but not so tight it obstructs your arms when eating. “What are we watching, Nono?”

“Max and Ruby.” He smiles when you gasp.

“Love Max and Ruby!” You gush with a mouthful of apples.

“Do you?” Jeno drops his head to the side. “You do? You do? Nuh-uh. I do. It’s my favorite show in the whole wide world.”

“Well, ’s my favorite show in the whole galaxy!”

“Yeah? Well-”

You squeal, feeling ticklish when he nuzzles his stubble on your face.

“Nono, stop!” You giggle.

“Eat up, gumdrop.” He sighs, the feeling of his baby in his arms and eating a proper meal for the first time in days is an incomparable joy. “Two episodes and then it’s bathtime.”

“Ah, boo, Nono!” you whine but it turns back to giggles when he compresses you in his arms.

lee donghyuck ʕ˙Ⱉ˙‧:ʔ wc 994

“You there, Angel?”

You shake your head.

It feels strange, like your body isn’t yours, as you hold on tight to your dolls in your hands and see none of the lively sparkle in their eyes you usually do when you’re small.

“I’m broken, Hyuck,” you say with such a lack of emotions that you can’t tell if it’s actually you who is speaking. “I did everything right. I got dressed, I put on the music box, I’m trying to play for God’s sake. And nothing is working still. I feel ridiculous. A grown adult trying to act like a child.” You scoff.

“Hey, stop.” Donghyuck’s firm tone sends a shiver down your spine and you pull away. His shoulders drop when he notices; you’re scared and he’s only making it worse.

“That’s my baby you’re talking about, you know?” He tries again, with a softer tone this time. “Don’t talk about yourself like that. You are not broken.” He holds your cheek.

“I’m just so tired, Hyuck.” Tears come up and blur your vision. “Everything has been going on for so long at the exact same time and I just- I can’t anymore. I need to just step away from reality for a little bit but I can’t even do that. My brain is just locking me in here in this state of suffering for who knows how long and I have no way of getting out. Not even for an hour.” You sob.

“I know, lovely.” He wraps his arms around you, letting you in turn wrap your arms around his legs from your seat on the floor. “It’s been so much for so long. You deserve a little break. Take a deep breath. Let’s try to let go of all these grownup worries, okay? We can pick them back up later. Come on, Angel, breathe.”

Angel.

Channie called you Angel and you still don’t feel small. The realization makes for more tears to come up but you refuse to let another defeated cry leave you. The denim of his jeans is rough on your face but not rough enough to make you stop using it as a tissue for your tears.

“…okay,” you creak out. “Breathe in. Breathing in…”

“There we go.” Haechan passes a hand over your head, the sensation soothing you somewhat. “And out. one, two, three, four, five, six, seven. Good job, Angel. Nice long deep breaths.”

You repeat the action several times, following his counts and pushing yourself to feel his jeans under your fingertips and smell the woodsy notes of his cologne to ground yourself.

“Everything sucks,” you say after some moments of silence. “Everything sucks. I didn’t even ask for any of this. I just want to be small,” your voice breaks.

“And you will be.” Donghyuck’s touch is gentle, encouraging you without words to look up at him. The pad of his thumb is warm when it wipes the tears from your face, brushing against your damp lashes. “You will be. I promise.”

“I don’t know what to do, Hyuck. I’m all out of ideas at this point,” you admit.

“How about just trying to feel not sucky?” He scrunches his nose, the most tender of smiles painted on his face. “How about… just drawing a picture? Just one. Doesn’t have to be with crayon or marker like when you’re feeling tiny. It can be whatever you want it to be. Don’t think about being small, just about drawing.”

“…draw what?”

“Hm… what about your dolls?”

When you unwrap yourself from his legs to look at said dolls, it gives Donghyuck the chance to go grab your art supplies. Your dolls don’t have that lively aura you see them with when you’re small but you can almost feel a sort of pity and empathy from them. It reminds you of the type of support your friends give you in their messages despite the country lines separating you.

“And I’ll draw… a car. Jeno’s been getting me into Formula One.” Donghyuck pulls you out of your thoughts when his voice is so close it makes you turn to see he’s taken a seat next to you on the floor. He opens a pencil case right in front of you two and takes a black pencil for himself to begin sketching on some paper.

“Really?” You opt a red pencil.

“Yeah. It’s pretty interesting.” He shrugs.

“But ’s so boring.” You sniffle up some snot from your lightning-fast crying session. You didn’t even cry for that long, how come you can feel your eyes swelling? So annoying. “They just go around in circles.”

“It’s not just that though. There’s—pass me the red? Oh, you have it. No, it’s okay. I can wait—there’s like a ton of beef between them. I like watching the interviews and stuff. It’s like watching basketball or football.” Haechan lets out a groan as he lays on his stomach, resting a cheek on his fist. “That’s really pretty, baby.”

“Y’like it?” You move to mirror him, turning your drawing for him to see better. “Think I’m gonna add some other stuff too.”

“Like what?”

“I don’t know yet,” you admit. “Probably you. I always like drawing you. And then… your red car. You can take me and the dollies on a road trip. I like it when we have fun together.”

Affection floods out of Donghyuck, letting out an adoring ‘aw’ as he hugs you, leaving kisses on all the spots he knows won’t lead to a tickle fight.

“So cute! I always have fun with you. My Angel...” he hums into your temple.

“My Channie…” you mutter under your breath, sketching his head four times bigger than the rest.

na jaemin ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ wc 664

“I’m okay.” You rub your nose. “Just a couple sneezes, Jaem. It’s not a big deal. I can keep studying for a little while longer.”

“You sneezed four times in a row.” Jaemin stands next to your desk chair with his arms crossed. “Do you know what that means?”

“What?” You sigh, knowing he won’t leave until you entertain him.

“You have the plague.”

“The what?”

“The plague.”

“Baby, I don’t have the-” Achoo! “the-” Achoo! “the plague…”

You move your mouse around your screen and click away at it but it doesn’t hide the reflection of Jaemin’s intense stare into your skull. He’s not amused. You spin your chair around.

“I don’t have the plague,” you repeat with a clogged nose, not even convincing yourself this time. “…I just have a little cold.”

“I wonder where you could have gotten that from, hm?” He turns you toward him by the chair’s arms and traps you by holding onto both of them and leaning in until your foreheads almost touch. “Maybe from studying a little too much? From stretching yourself too thin? Pushing yourself past your limits? Hm? Hm? hm?” He turns his head at an angle with each question, being obnoxious about his accurate statements.

“Five minutes.”

“No.”

“I just need to email this professor.”

“No.”

“I have a group project.”

“Good thing you have groupmates, huh? Come on, get off your pretty little butt.” He grabs you from under the armpits, placing your feet on the ground as if you were merely a bag of rice. “We’re playing hospital.”

“No…” you whine with dragging feet the whole time Jaemin guides you to the kitchen, his gentlemanly hand giving you no chance to run as it rests on the small of your back.

“Yes…” He pouts at you as he fills up the syringe with orange medicinal syrup. “Babies need be good and take their medicine when they are sick, okay?”

“Jaemin-” You pull your head the other way, holding his wrist away from you.

“Baby…” he sings, dodging your attempts. “Say ‘ah’, pumpkin.”

Pressing your lips tight doesn’t do anything, the plastic tip of the syringe still slipping in and filling your mouth with bitter medicine that makes a lame attempt at orange flavoring. You shake your head, still rejecting the cold syrup as it goes down, but it does regardless, chilling your throat when it does.

“Bleh!”

“Drink some water, baby.” Jaemin holds up a cup (when did he fill that up?) and you take it as if it were the key to eternal life.

“Taste so icky,” you say with your face scrunched up like a raisin. “Hate it!”

You’re sick and suffering from forced consumption of medicine. Jaemin knows this. Jaemin shouldn’t smile. But he just can’t help it! His baby is finally back after such a long, long time. he thought he was gonna die from BWS (Baby Withdrawal Symptoms).

“Aw…” His hands reach out to hold your face and squish your cheeks together. “Baby doesn’t like medicine? Babies don’t like yucky bitter things. Babies like… sweet yummy things! How about some hot chocolate, lovey-dovey?”

“Chocwate?” you ask with raised eyebrows.

“Hot chocwate.” His nose scrunches as he pinches your cheeks. “Does that sound good?”

“Yeah!” You hop free of his crab claws. “Hot chocolate! Wanna, wanna, wanna!”

“Be careful, sugarplum!” Jaemin laughs, twirling you with such ease it feels as if you were in a dance. “Why don’t you go put something on the TV while I make us the chocolate? Whatever you want, baby,” he says, but you’re already out of the kitchen and looking under blankets and cushions for the remote.

“Spongebob!” You hold it up to the ceiling like it were the sword in the stone.

“Except Spongebob. You know that shrinks your brain.”

“Aw!” You slump but quickly straighten up like a ruler. “Ah- Ah- Achoo!”

zhong chenle (ᯟ︿ᯏ) wc 622

“I’m so proud of you.” Chenle pecks your head as you hold his waist from behind. The smells coming from the stove you two stand in front of are nothing if not heavenly. “Pretty, funny, kind, graduated. How’d I bag you?”

“Mmm, I dunno.” You shrug smugly, as you look out the window. A content sigh leaves you as your eyes follow the raindrops that slide down your window. “Must’ve done something good in your past life.”

“Must have,” he hums. “Set the table for me? I’m basically almost done.”

“You got it.” You peck his cheek. “Smells delicious. Jaemin give you cooking lessons while I was gone?”

“I’ll have you know I’m a great cook. I don’t need any cooking lessons. Never have.”

“Ah…” You roll out the placemats with a sarcastic nod.

“But if I did, I would go to Donghyuck.”

“If you did, I would approve. His soups are good.”

“Mine are better.”

“…”

“Right?”

“Sure.”

The music playing from the speakers and lights in the apartment all shut off at once, not even the hum of the refrigerator sounding in the silence, the darkness. The thunder is so close it feels like footsteps. Heavy, angry footsteps coming close. Closer and closer to you.

The power comes back as soon as it left but you can’t seem to recover as fast. You don’t even remember dropping down to hold your knees, and in the dark you didn’t see how many tears came up to overflow from your eyes. Chenle calls out your name but it sounds so distant it doesn’t even register. It feels like you’re running out of oxygen like a deep sea diver falling hopelessly down to the ocean floor.

“Hey,” you take a sharp inhale at Chenle’s warm hands holding your cheeks ground you back to reality. “Hey, the power went out. Everything’s fine. You’re okay. You’re home, you’re with me. Nothing is gonna hurt you here, you hear me? You are safe.”

You almost knock Chenle over from his crouching position when you throw yourself on him, but he reads your body language just in time to catch you. His lips press into your hair, your temples, your shoulders, the softest of touches as you wail into his shirt. His heart breaks at how fragile you seem in the moment, like a porcelain doll with a chip. You sob and babble to the point that Chenle can’t understand what you’re saying. All he can catch is one word.

“Daddy…”

There’s nothing for you to do but cry, Chenle’s learned with time, so he lets you do just that. He lets you cry in his arms there on the floor and when you’re finally willing he attaches you to his hip as he walks around. He wipes your tears with a paper towel and makes sure you get a bottle of water to drink from to rehydrate.

His eyebrows furrow when you turn your head to dodge his spoon, rejecting the meal you were so looking forward to less than twenty minutes ago. This meal which was meant to be a celebration of not just the end of your education but of all your life up to this point. Of your growth, your endurance; of all the stress you put yourself through to come out victorious in the end.

You’re still victorious, he thinks. Even now as you fill up the apartment with tears, he’s so proud of you. His partner, his baby, the strongest person he’s ever met.

“Come on, dollface. Just one spoonful, yeah? Need you to eat,” he tries again.

park jisung (∩˃o˂∩) wc 668

“What’s that giant box?”

“What giant box?” He looks at you on the couch. “...I thought you were napping.”

“I woke up. What’s with that giant box you’re pushing into our house?”

“Oh, this?” Jisung looks down. “It's… a box.”

You blink, irritation in your tight-lipped smile at your boyfriend’s lack of cooperation.

“I know it’s a box, Ji. I'm asking what’s inside the box?”

“Box… stuff…”

“Jisung!”

“That’s not my name!” He whines as he shuts the front door. “My name to you is Ji! Or Baby! Not Jisung! It’s so scary when you call me that...” He sighs. “It was supposed to come before you started your vacation time, while you were at work.”

“Why?” Your eyebrows come together into a questioning frown.

“Because- just- you’ll see soon. Pass me the scissors? Thanks.” He pecks your lips, taking the scissors from your hands and pushing your back away with little force. “Now go. Get! Your surprise will be ready in a minute. Go… brush your dolls’ hair or something. It’ll be super quick.”

“Doll hairs? is it a Little gift?”

“Shoot.” Jisung bites his fist. “...can you just go in the bedroom already? It’s not a Little gift. It’s not.”

The instructions that came in the box of the not-Little gift said construction would only take thirty minutes. Not to fear, with super handyman Park Jisung to the rescue it only took three hours and two people.

“We’re done!” You clap, looking in awe at your brand new play kitchen, pink and wooden and creaky and yours. “Jiji, finish!”

“Yeah.” He sits back on the floor, wiping the sweat from his brow. “We’re finished. D’you like it?”

“It’s so pretty, jiji!” You beam, hugging his head and squeezing the brains out of him.

“I’m glad you like it, bub.” He nods at his work in approval. “You deserve it. Worked so hard recently.”

“Thankie!” You get up quickly, running barefoot into the bedroom to come back with a box of play food in all colors and sizes.

“Make you a lenonade, bubby!” You begin adding ice to a cup and add a lemon to it. “Ice cold lenonade.”

“Oh, I love your lenonade. Thanks, baby.” He takes the cup, making gulping noises and finishing it off with a loud and satisfied ‘ah!’. “Actually, are we playing restaurant right now?”

“Um… yeah!” you decide. “Welcome to my rest’rant! What would you like to order?”

“I would kill for a good burger.” Jisung pats his stomach like a starved man. “I hear you guys have some good ones, is that true?”

“The truest!” You smile. “One burger, comin’ up!”

You turn back to your kitchen and hum to yourself as you place a burger patty on the stove.

“No pans for that?”

“No pans!” You shake your head. “Special burger.”

“Ah, must be.” He mutters behind you.

When it comes to building time, Jisung acts like a to-be-blacklisted customer.

“Could I have no onions in my burger? I’m allergic.”

“No, you’re not.”

“It’s just play pretend, honey.”

“Oh. Then, yes you can, sir! No onions.”

“And no tomatoes please. I don’t like how the seeds get stuck between my teeth.”

“No tomatoes!”

“And could you cut the cheese? It kind of sends me to the bathroom.”

“Ew… okay, no cheese, either!” You toss the slice of play cheese to the side.

“…could you also remove the meat? I’m vegetarian.”

That’s the final straw. No meat? You look down at his ‘burger’: bread, lettuce, bread.

“This is what you want?” You turn to show him his order.

“Oh yes.” He smiles, clasping his hands together in anticipation. “That’s my burger! So tasty. Thank you, shop owner.”

“You’re welcome…” You give him a look. “Ketchup?”

“No thanks.”

“Mayo?”

“Bleh! Pass.”

“…barbeque sauce?”

“Oh, that’s my favorite! Lettuce and barbeque sauce burger, my favorite.” He licks his lips.

“Jiji, ew!” you whine.

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[stormberry-12]

he's a tramp ~ jj maybank x reader

pairing: jj maybank x kook!fem!reader

warnings: slight language ig, mega fluff, not very edited like always ✌

notes: inspired by my fav Disney movie EVER, the first part to my Disney inspired series

He's a tramp, but I love him Breaks a new heart every day He's a tramp, they adore him And I only hope he'll stay that way

He's a tramp, he's a scoundrel He's a rounder, he's a cad He's a tramp, but I love him Yes, even I have got it pretty bad

"Let go of him, you can't just boot him!" you protested from across the room, JJ looked deep into your eyes and swallowed whatever he had just snagged off somebody's plate, security's arms still on him.

"I invited him here! I'm a member of this club..."

"Y/n..." your mother hissed.

JJ blinked and turned around pushing the guard off of him, "Sorry bout that-" Chaos erupted and he turned back to you, " Y/n, come on! Workers of the world unite! Throw off your chains!"

Your father rolled his eyes and grabbed your arm, "You can't hang around these kids."

"I'm sorry-" you tugged away from him running off.

"No, Y/n!" both your parents cried at the same time. You ran at JJ and he caught you in his arms spinning your around. Your midsummer's dress blowing in the wind.

"WHERE THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR GOIN'?" you heard Pope's dad yell at him as he, Kie, and John B ran out the other exit.

You turned to follow them.

"No, Y/n/n-" JJ grabbed your hand, "wait a sec, lets go this way..."

"But the pogues..."

"They're fine. Come on!" he ran in the opposite direction of the rest of the group and you reluctantly followed him.

You and JJ had a weird past, you used to think he hated you, the ways he would talk about how bad kooks were right in front of you. Or how he would complain when Kiara invited you that it was a pogue thing, but after a while, you grew somewhat fond of each other. Late-night drinks just the two of you were a common occurrence and the friendly bond got pretty deep. JJ talked to you about his dad and you talked to him about the planned-out future that was forced upon you. All and all, You and JJ had turned into a decent team.

You had walked into town, stopping at a restaurant.

"Tony's!" JJ grinned over his shoulder at you, making jazz hands at the sign. You waltzed towards the front door to get a look inside, it looked cozy. "Nah, this way Cupcake, I got my own private entrance..."

JJ walked around the fence to the back of the restaurant, there was a big dumpster, an alleyway looming in the distance and in front of you was a worn out picnic bench.

"Wait here," he whispered walking to the door, knocking lightly.

"Just one minute, Imma comin', Imma comin-" a voice called from inside. "Eh! JJ!"

"Hiya, Tony-" the big man scooped JJ up into a big hug and you giggled at his attempt to hug him back while getting the life squeesed out of him.

"Jay, where have you been! Hey Joe, look who's here!"

"Well, whatcha know? It's blondie!" Joe cheered. "And all dressed up, how nice, where did you come from Midsummers?"

Joe and Tony cackled until they cried, trying to picture JJ Maybank at Midsummers.

"Hey, Joe go fetch Jay some meatballs, yea?" Tony said, and Joe scurried inside.

"I was at Midsummers actually, it's a long story..." JJ rolled his eyes playfully, "Anyway, I brought-" JJ searched the shadows for you unable to see where you had gone in the dim streetlight.

"Oh look, he brought his imaginary girlfriend too," Tony quipped, once again falling into a fit of laughter with Joe from inside.

"Y/n!" JJ hissed.

You walked over to JJ and gave a meek wave to Tony, who’s eyes widened, "Nice to meet you, Jay, I should really get going-"

"OH JOE! LOOK, LITTLE JJ'S GOT A NEW GIRLFRIEND!" Tony cried in excitement.

"Uh..." you fumbled, not wanting to correct the kind man that you two weren't actually dating.

"Well, son of a gun! He's got a kook girl!" Joe laughed, poking his head out the back door.

"Get a double batch for the two, okay Joe!"

Joe sprinted back inside and you looked over at JJ with a questioning look, he smirked and shrugged his shoulders. Tony was a very large, plump man and he seemed a little older than his skinny little sidekick Joe. You watched Tony's playful interaction with JJ and grinned to yourself, you loved him. He was a pogue but shit, you loved him.

"Well, we's so grateful for ya Y/n," Tony smiled wrapping an arm around JJ's shoulder, "We know JJ don't got much goin' for him on the outside, but on the inside, he's got a biiiggg heart!"

You let out a genuine laugh and JJ looked genuinely insulted.

"I'm just kidding little Jay," Tony chuckled giving JJ a good slap on the back, hard enough to knock the wind out of him.

"MEATBALLS!!!" Joe called and Tony rushed you to sit on the picnic bench, you sat next to JJ on the side with no bird poop and watched as candles and flowers were placed on the table along with the largest bowl of spaghetti and meatballs you had ever seen.

"There ya go!" Tony placed some forks on your table, "The best spaghetti in town!"

You thanked him and picked up your fork, JJ had already started to dig in and was slurping his noodles, getting sauce all over his face. You laughed and stuck your fork into the bowl, spinning the noodles around the prongs.

"What?" JJ complained in mock offense, mouth still full.

You started to copy his actions, slurping the noodle swiftly into your mouth, the end of it catching your nose and spreading sauce all over it.

JJ started laughing too, "You got a little something-"

"Where?" you said, looking down at your nose and making your eyes go crossed.

"Right here," he swiped his finger across the tip of your nose, "Oh, shit, it's spreading-"

You laughed as he spread the sauce all down your cheek, tongue sticking out in concentration. You swatted his hand away and wiped your face with a napkin, still grinning from ear to ear. Sweet music started streaming from inside the Italian dinner, you lifted more noodles to your lips and craned your head to peek inside.

Your face suddenly got pulled to the side by the long noodle that JJ also had tangled up around his fork and your lips brushed softly against his. Sparks flashed through your body and you pulled away blushing, looking back down at the bowl. You both cleared your throats awkwardly.

JJ glanced over at you through his lashes and pushed the last meatball in your direction.

"You ate all of them," you mumbled, the kiss still lingering on your lips, not remembering having one single meatball and now they were all gone.

"I saved the best one for last," he countered. "just for you.”

“Wow. Thanks,” you replied sarcastically making him chuckle quietly.

“Y/n…” JJ started, “I uh- this. This wasn’t a joke to me…” he whispered the last part like it was a secret not wanting to be shared.

“What wasn’t?”

“This dinner, this night, the time I spend with you on a daily basis…” he continued rambling about different moments you thought you had shared but had never been addressed until now.

You felt yourself blush and a small smile played at your lips.

“I’m glad,” you said. He returned your grin, lips meeting yours once more. This time the kiss was intentional, soft but determined. He pulled away just as fast and went back to the remaining noodles in the bowl, smirking to himself.

The pogues were ecstatic after you and JJ started dating a few days later. Honestly, it was quite a shock to those who didn’t know you, but ever since that night the two of you were inseparable. Y/n and JJ, kook and pogue, lady and tramp.

[your-ne1ghbor]

My problems with Magnifico and Amaya and how I would rewrite them (TKoRaT AU)

GOD DAMN IT NOW I WISH MAGNIFICO AND AMAYA IN MY VERSION WERE GOOD PEOPLE AHHHHHHHHH-

Ahem..sorry..what was I gonna say?

Oh yea! Feeling like a long rant again, so prepare your eyes!!!💀

Sooo, I kinda have been off putting stuff again since I had school work and a bunch of ideas like this one, so I decided to just share it so I don't loose the idea (ik I can write it down but idk I felt like sharing it). Plus the fact that I've been more chatty lately lol.

Idk how to transition to my problems with Amaya and Magnifico so here.

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Magnifico and Amaya's Character in Wish 2023

Magnifico

Magnifico in the film is...well is a pretty stand up guy! Sure, he is paranoid most of the time and is pretty stubborn, but he is very selfless and a really generous person!

You can say he is more in line with the kings of original films that deeply care for their children, such as King Sefan from Sleeping Beauty, or King Frederic from Tangled.

In this case, he deeply cares for the people of Rosas. I mean yeah, it is weird that you forget what your goal is in life, but if I had nowhere to go and no roof over my head, of course I would go to Rosas to live there safely. Heck, in perspective, you have a chance of your wish getting granted, and don't have to pay rent to live there. It is a pretty fair deal, especially for families who want their kids to grow up out of harms way. Sure, he can't grant all of the wishes, but his reasoning is pretty valid. The only line I could get from the film that would support this would be when he commented on Asha's Grandfather's Wish (which is to inspire the next generation):

"To create what? A rebellious mob perhaps? Inspire them to...to do what? Uh, destroy Rosas, maybe?"

And a lot of people can argue that Saba's wish is very simple or isn't dangerous, but here is the thing. Simple things can have dangerous concequences no matter how small or big they are. Sure, you can start out small, like inspiring people, but it will cause a domino effect that can lead to something greater. Either for the better or worse. And example would actually be Walt Disney himself! He started out small, but without him, animation would not have gotten to where it is today. With his love and passion to art and story telling and taking risks, we WOULD NOT have gotten Puss in Boots, SpiderVerse, OR EVEN ANYTHING ANIMATION WISE. Walt Disney really pioneered animation and without those baby steps, there would not be an Disney, Pixar, Dreamworks, ect. It would just be...well...live action I guess. Hate the Disney company or not, Walt helped get animation to where it is today, and it sucks that his company, even after death, wont try anymore to push the limits of animation except for companies that isn't Disney.

Plus, I don't even blame Magnifico for thinking this way! Although it is sort of annoying that his backstory was told instead of shown (not that there is nothing wrong with telling, but showing for me is a more effective way of story telling for me. You can take the little mermaid for example), I personally understood where he was coming from. In his backstory, his home was destroyed from thieves and barbarians, with his family and possibly everyone he knew being dead. Its honestly tragic, so him making a kingdom for people to not suffer that pain again is very selfless of him and just...feels good in a good way you know?

But as everything in this movie is, it takes the good things and beats it over with a 30 foot pole and leaves it to rot.

He is turned into the villain. And no, it isn't because of Asha not getting what she wanted, and no, it isn't because Amaya, his wife died (she never did btw)! OH NO IT IS MUCH WORSE.

He opens up a mAgIc bOoK oF dArK mAgIc and becomes the bad guy...

...What the fuck. Actually no, applauds to you Disney! This is such a effective way of telling a story. 10/10 forever and ever. Great job! :D

(I am being sarcastic, this is legit the worst way for a good guy becoming the villain, its so fucking stupid-)

He is just simply stripped of his good qualities and only lets his bad qualities shine through. It kind of feels like he was being held at gun point here.

"OH PLEASE BELIEVE THAT I AM ACTUALLY THE BAD GUY. OH PLEASE GOOD CIVILLAIN THEY ARE GOING TO PULL THE TRIGGER-"

Seriously, there was no other way of making him the bad guy? Like legit? Simply remove his backstory and make him evil at the begining. I guess it would be weird if he took the wishes without reasoning, but even then, why give him good qualities when he is supposed to be the bad guy? He became more of a tragic hero than a tragic "bad guy".

I will go more into my problems with him after I talk about Amaya for a bit since talking about her character is more shorter than Magnificos.

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Amaya

The best I can say for her character is that she is like Jimmy Cricket but fell in love with Pinnocio (I know that sounds weird pls spare me).

She is like the voice of reason for Magnifico, and it is best shown when Magnifico FIRST concidered on using the book for "his evil deeds". This scene specifically:

Other than that, she wasn't really a character in the film AT ALL. It sort of sucks concidering what the original concept was (WE WILL GET TO THAT) and instead degraded her character to...well...nothing.

I can't really say anything about her since she just was "I am loyal to my husband" to "actually fuck you I will believe a 17 year old instead of the man I trusted for the amount of years it took to get the kingdom to it's feet." I want to, but I can't. SHE HAS NOTHING.

I wish I can say more about her character, but it would just be me ranting about how trash her is character and was handled. Speaking of that, lets get into why I dislike how they were handled.

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Why does their character bother me so much?

Well it is sort of hard to explain, but I'll do my best.

Magnifico was supposed to be the return of the classic villains. You know, on the levels of Jafar, Ursala, Evil Queen, Malificant, ECT, he just...wasn't. Although he had a bunch of Evil Queen inspirations thrown into his character, it felt like more of refrences to a better film than being apart of his character. Plus, I feel like I sympathized with him way to much. I personally felt more emotion when he was on screen instead of the main character because I understood where he was coming from. Its honestly baffaling to me, since if he didn't have his backstory told to us, I still would not rooted against him. Even without his backstory, it just sounds like he was doing this at the bottom of his heart and empathizing with people who are doing far worse than what he is going through. Its honestly heartwarming seeing a person trying to do good in the world and provide a safe place for everyone to be free from the burden of this world. And want to know something? None of the classic villains had tragic backstories. They are evil for the sake of being evil. There probably was some with sympathetic traits, but from what I recall, there is none. So going with the sympathetic rout is not on par with classic villains.

However, there is nothing wrong with giving your villains sympathetic traits. It makes them feel more rounded as a person/character, and you can get a lot of emotion from that alone. I just think that Magnifico being the villain doesn't make sense since as I said, they made him so generous and kind in the begnining and only destroyed it since "oh wait, we need a villain, so why not make the good guy the villain" and threw in the dark magic book and called it a day. Not even that, but he is not threatening in any way. What I mean by that, is that his powers don't really get an upgrade at all. His magic just sort of turns green and thats it! I even bet that he can crush wishes even without the powers of the magic book.

Going off topic, but making plushie..COUGH... star...(plusie = wish 2023 star) less "stronger" to make the female lead stronger just makes Magnifico's reason for going after plushie's powers even more useless. Even with plushie's powers, HE IS JUST THE SAME. I guess he can now create vines? BUT IT JUST DOESNT WORK. It makes more sense for Magnifico going after plushie when it is powerful because he could see that power as a THREAT to his own powers and his kingdom.

Now for Amaya, her turning against Magnifico is just stupid. Haven't you went through a lot with him? Why the hell did you give up after "oh he can't be saved"? I feel like she could have done a "true loves kiss" sennario which breaks the spell it has on him. Not only that, she barely contributes to the plot at all. The only thing she contributes to the plot is just "getting the teens into the castle so they can free the wishes" then disappears, then reappears at the finally when Magnifico got a little too silly with his drugs-I MEAN wishes haha... Then she becomes the ruler of Rosas. It feels weird and out of place, especially concidering her character MOST LIKELY went through so much with Magnifico only to turn on him when he gets a little mad. It is so stupid. Also, if you just remove her, nothing would really change except the first scene where Magnifico has the book, only this time, no one is there to stop him. And as I said, HER CHARACTER IS NOTHING. But here is the thing...

When concidering the concept version of Amaya, she would have been the villain along side Magnifico. Not as a selfish love relationship or they are together at ones expense (gaining something from one another for only themselves) no, THEY WERE MADLY IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER. Something to note here is that there is barely ANY villain couple or ANY VILLAINS who are like this, let alone love each other for the sake of it instead of a "selfish love relationship and then one gets redeemed " situation (im looking at the mayor of paris from miraculous ladybug). So that, THAT RIGHT THERE, would have been a brilliant idea and brings something new and fresh to the table. Not only that, it is so brilliant that it would have respected all of the male/female antagonists we had for the past 100 years with the company. It is also A RISK. Walt was all about taking risks, even when his company would have floundered at the expense of making art. Snow White for example had a lot of money put into it that if it failed, well Disney would not exist in this timeline so to speak. So taking that risk is also RESPECTING Walt's legacy in a really good way.

I personally just see this as a fun way to explore their characters, especially when you can reflect their characters off of our main characters, Asha and Star (boy), if you want to of course. I can imagine Magnifico kinda be like Gaston from beauty and the beast with some Frollo flare to it (not the lust thing tho but yk what I'm getting at) and Amaya can be like Ursala or Gothal. Plus, it works as a power balance. In the original concept, Amaya was the potion maker while Magnifico does all of the magic. Its honestly a fun way to play with power set ups. Magnifico can just be for show and Amaya can just be a drug dealer (or basically Ursala).

But NOPE. WE HAD TO SHIT ON WALTS LEGACY TO GET THOSE SHINY DOLLAR SIGNS $$$$$$$$$$$$$

Here is the thing: I can get over Star Boy not being in the film, like I get it. We gotta have that girl power in Disney movies now, and they have to be emotionless people. But a Disney power couple? WHAT THE HELL??? LEGIT THE BEST IDEA YOU HAVE EVER HAD IN 100 YEARS. AND YOU GOT RID OF IT BECAUSE WE CAN'T TAKE RISKS ANYMORE??? BUT WALT WOULD HAVE TAKEN IT. YOU WANT TO RESPECT HIS LEGACY? THEN TAKE THE RISK TO DO SO YOU SELFISH, INSUFFERABLE, PIECES OF SHI-

(This section was removed because I went a little crazy there. Sorry about that. I'm not sure how I can transition into the rewrite section, again, soooooo here:)

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How I would rewrite the characters

There is no wrong or right way of rewriting a character, especially when a lot of people interpret them in different ways, and that is completely fine!

This will also fall into somewhat Asha's character and she will be mentioned to fit what I am going for with the characters. I will also leave out what they both do to the wishes since I am making a whole reimagined scene and it is going to include what they do to the wishes there. It will leave out some stuff I had with it here, but I will do my best interpritation of the characters the best I can, even when I can't really say much about it :)

Magnifico:

🌟 For starters, right off the bat, he does not have any of that sort of backstory they gave him for the original. For what I am going for, his backstory will not fit his reasonings for what I am going for, especially for his character.

🌟 He is more on par with the original personality from the original storyboard, specifically this one:

(This also goes for Amaya too personality wise)

🌟 Something that is very different from a lot of villains is that he has sympathetic traits. Although he has more negative traits than positive, he has more of a caring side. Mainly to Amaya, but Asha as well. When Amaya found Asha at their door steps (they aren't holding me hostage as I write out this specific part guys, I swear) at first he saw her as an opportunity to boost his and his wife's popularity that would have other people come more to their kingdom (its more of like they are seeing their "generosity" side and dismiss the problems the kingdom has). But as she continued to live with her adoptive parents, Magnifico became pretty close to Asha. Its mainly because of her passion to what she strives to be, to be like him. Probably feeding into his ego, but you know, nice to know he cares.

🌟 Just because he treats Amaya and Asha well, doesn't mean that the kingdom gets that same treatment. He doesn't care about the people at all. He actually has enjoyment when he hurts or breaks people's dreams. He gets all excited about it and you guys can ask him why he finds enjoyment out of it cause idk it would be more fun that way and gives you guys the chance to interact with him :D

🌟 The wishes boost his powers temporarily. It fades away after either a few days or hours. When his powers are boosted, he has more control over the people. And, to who he consumes the wishes of, can see through their perspective for a little while. It also makes civilians more compliment with him and not question his authority. This does not work with people who have not given up their wishes though. Only to people who have already given up their wishes. He can also make people forget certain memories (that might be Amaya's thing though but I'm not too sure) and can put on much more longer "light shows" (think on the level of: Playing with the Big Boys, but more flashy and crazier). He can also manipulate his surroundings with images, but not at a physical level. (Like hallucinations so to speak)

🌟 His powers without the wishes are more of what he uses to do simple things or put on small light shows. Not as flashy than ones when he has his powers boosted, but he puts on the smaller ones to "gain more people to comply when they have to give up their wishes", one might say, inspire them to do so. He also uses it to help Asha practice with magic (She can't even do magic STFU I KNOW.) It also can be used to take desires that you have deep in your heart.

🌟 If hair jell were to exist in his time period, he would eat it with no regrets (Amaya would make it so he can eat it without getting hurt)🔥

🌟 When he consumes a stars powers, he legit goes insane and can shape shift like one, but more corrupt with no consistancy to what he turns into since he legit gone insane. With a star, a star can shapeshift to whatever it wants or to express it's emotions. With him, it is all over the place. He can't control it.

🌟 Like Frollo, he tortures anyone who is against him, and will not hesitate to take it to the extreme if needed too (or that he wants to, to please himself).

🌟 What his wife says or does, he will willingly go through with it. After all, he loves her with all his heart.

🌟 He can't let Asha out of the castle often to make sure that the people will not take advantage of her generosity (thats what he thinks though, in reality everyone is just scared of the royals.. most of them at least) or learn-

Magnifico then breaks the forth dimention and destroys my house.

Ah...right...

🌟 He is such a silly goober!!1!11!1!11!1 o(*￣▽￣*)o

(He told me to write that or else he will kill my dog and cat. HELP ME PLEASE-)

Amaya

🌟 For starters, she is much more involved in the story than she is in the original. She doesn't have a backstory like what Magnifico had in the original, nor does she need too. Not sure how they would meet at the moment, but I'd like to think that they met and then were like: love at first sight and became more silly as time went on...including their insanity <3

🌟 As I said for Magnifico, she is more on par with the concept version personality wise. But she is more of an Ursala and likes to put herself as the victim to get more people to feel bad for her (MANIPULATION AT ITS FINEST 😜)

🌟 Just like Magnifico, she has sympathetic traits. And she only has it, because of our main character Asha! She just found her one day at the castle doors. She didn't understand why, but like Magnifico, only let her stay for as long as she did to post her popularity with the commoners, and grew closer to her as she became more of a mother figure to Asha. (Ruh Ro, anyone sensing Mother Gothal vibes?) Unlike Magnifico though, she uses her sympathetic traits to get people to comply with their ways better. Her main trait she is good at looking at the person's situation and understand it well, or aka being empathetic. She uses that to her advantage when manipulating them to do whatever she pleases.

🌟 She is more of a witch than anything. I imagine her somewhat like Ursala (yes a heavy load of Ursala), Evil Queen, and Yzma (Emperor's New Groove) when in terms to what they make. She does make a lot of poisons to use if anyone is getting a little too close to the close and they gotta...TAKE THEM OUT without anyone knowing. She can also use it for like a form of medicine too.

🌟 Some potions, like turning people into animals or certain poisons, requires people's desire. More so with turning people into animals as a form of punishment. She can also use her craft at potion making to have her wield magic for a certain amount of time WHEN NEEDED. (Gee I wonder what she will use that for). It can also be used like a drug, or to get someone to comply with what they want a little better than Magnifico. She can put on pretty shows too, but more smoke themed and is better at manipulating her surroundings.

🌟 Although Amaya would teach Asha how to make potions, she worries that the people of Rosas would take advantage of her kindness and use the skills that she would teach Asha to their advantage and form a revolt to take them down. (Which really, with them ruling, who can blame them?)

🌟 I would say she is more of a planner than Magnifico. She plans ahead and makes sure everything is in line with what they want and makes plan Bs or Cs even Ds in case anything would go wrong. Asha actually gained that trait from her believe it or not!

🌟 Magnifico is more reckless than his wife. Amaya is more so less confronting and tries to keep up their image. She actually have certain gestures that Magnifico would take notice too. And since he trusts her a lot, he complies and lets Amaya take lead in certain situations.

🌟 Yes...she also finds enjoyment of seeing people getting tortured. They actually made up a game on how they would torture a certain civilian 💀

🌟 When it comes to how she treats the people of Rosas, she is as I said, less confronting and puts on more of a fake smile and gaslights everyone that their kingdom is fine or whatever (It is not gaslighting when it is telling the truth. I feel so offended right know! DUDE LADY CHILL I AM CREATING YOU RN AND YOU ARE ALREADY TRYING TO GASLIGHT ME WTF😭)

🌟 When she has a star's powers, I feel like it would let her create whatever the fuck she wants at an insanity level. Wishing stars create items that would help users on their journey, so with her, she can use it to her advantage. Also she becomes just as insane as her husband. It also gives a difference in terms to what they would do when they have a star's powers. Magnifico would be able to shapeshift at a corrupt level, and Amaya can manipulate her surroundings that would become reality so to speak at an insane level. I chose this one since it fits her not being more confrontant while Magnifico is more so on that. She be lurking in the shadows like a cat :3

🌟 How she knows so much about the people, is by her cat! I think the cat would be called Custos. Idk the name yet, might go with the concept version of the name.

🌟 I learn more about my prey before I strike at their weakest point. (Nah that's very catnap of you. Unless you want to fall asleep for 100 years, I suggest you choose your words carefully. Bruh alright lady💀) And yes she wrote that in...

🌟 She is such a silly lil guy...AMAYA STOP LET ME BE SILLY U SON OF A BI-😡

Erm anyways...(she tried to eat my dog and steal my cat. GRRRR)

I feel like it would be fun if it is just expanding their empire for their main goal or taking over the world. Kind of like this song as their modivation:

I want this to be their goal since it kind of feels like some of the old Disney Villains, for me at least :3 (And I am having WAYYYY to much fun with their characters already hehe)

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Final Thoughts

On a final note, I will mention that there is a possibility that all of this wont make it into the final version. And in all honesty, I'm actually shocked I was able to compose all of this together without mentioning what they do with the wishes, like what- 😭

I also am still debating if Amaya and Magnifico made the kingdom or it was passed down through generations. Don't know yet tbh :^

Also, Amaya was sort of difficult for me to jot down since I didn't know how to get her into the story, and I think I am slowly, but surely getting there :D

I also really tried to make it different and fresh from the other versions and I am very excited to show that "I DECIDE WHAT EVERYONE DESERVES" when it is done (it is now We decide what everyone Deserves).

You can also ask both Amaya and Magnifico questions regarding the info you know about them now and about how they feel with the other versions of them if you want to of course (and I can show off their designs HEHHEH)

And yes...I had too much fun with writing out how they would interact with the post. DW, they wont interact here in the Final Thoughts section hehe ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I might also do a post on Asha since I have been pretty quiet on her character design/rewrite and another post about Star Boy since I wanna get more in depth with the ideas of Wishing Stars in my AU.

Speaking of Au...

what to call this AU of mine hmmmmm

I'll go with The Kingdom of Roses and Thorns, or TKoRaT. Feels fitting to me, at least for what I am going for story wise and character wise. Might change it since I can't stick with one thing, but rn it rolls off the tongue nicely.

Until then, I hope you have a great day and I hope Magnifico and Amaya don't steal your dreams 💀

@oh-shtars @annymation @chillwildwave @signed-sapphire

(They are thinking of working with your versions of Magnifico and Amaya oh boy not good 💀)

[palettepainter]

Amazon: HEEEY!~ Hazbin hotel is getting a second season!

Me: Oh okay, that's cool I guess.

Amazon: They'll be even MORE action this season!! We're gunna focus on Alastor's backstory, and Pentious will be a key character, and Vox is gunna be a more prominent protagonist, and we'll show off more overlords, and Vaggie and Charlie get a "sexy life"~

Me: Uh-huh. And I can only assume that this season has a bigger episode count so that any of those plot points you mentioned have time to breath for more then ten minutes unlike season 1?

Amazon:

Me:.....You're gunna give this season time to breath ri-

Amazon: WE HAVE MERCH AT HOT TOPIC NOW TOO!!~

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(Incase people don't read the tags: The reason this annoys me so much isn't because I hate the show, it's because I want this show to do well. I want this show to make me feel like I should care for any of it's characters and plot points because it's well made, not because it's been created by an artist who is already popular online. I truly believe the animators and voice actors are giving it their all for this show, the voice acting is honestly the best quality in my opinion and everyone nails their roles, but the writing and pacing has so far been a cluster fire.

This is a legit show now, it's being funded by Amazon's money with literal broadway stars as parts of the cast. If season 1 taught the people creating this show anything it's that there needs to be breathing time for the plot points and the characters, and I sincerely hope that season 2 takes this into account. I doubt it with how much they've said they're going to include, but I really hope that, for animation as a whole - cuz god knows Disney hasn't been pumping out good animated movies as of late - season 2 takes into account what season 1 did poorly and improves on it)

[mysticstarlightduck]

OC Headcanon Tag!

Thanks for the tag, @thepeculiarbird (here)!

Rules: use this headcanon generator to generate some headcanons for your OCs! How accurate are they?

I'll go with the cast of Supernova Initiative and The Forgotten Ones for this one!

SUPERNOVA INITIATIVE

Jack believes in ghosts and insists on trying to summon one at every sleepover.

You know what? This is canon now. I think Jack doesn't actually believe in ghosts but insists on trying to summon one just to spook out Deimos.

Deimos sings in the shower.

Omg, no lol. Deimos is so anxious about what people think of him and seeming perfect all the time, he would feel too awkward to do that and risk the others in the spaceship hearing him.

Cassiopeia has an incredible long-term memory but an awful short-term memory.

Eh... I mean, if she has been pulling all-nighters and drinking too much coffee I can definitely see her forgetting short-term stuff really clumsily, but she normally has pretty good long-term and short-term memory.

Vesper is very good at walking in platform heels.

I mean... she's a cyborg so she probably has uncannily good walking balance, so likely yes. But since she's all about practicality, she ain't trading her special combat boots (that have built-in wheels she can activate) for anything in the known universe lol

Aleks knocks people over by hugging them.

I can actually see that happening fr. Aleks is really clumsy, and is also really friendly and loves a good prank, so he's the perfect mix for this to happen lmao.

Noctus is oblivious to any and all romantic interest someone may show him.

THIS IS ACTUALLY CANON. Noctus is as oblivious as a doorknob to any kind of affection directed to his person and is genuinely confused/weirded out when someone is "too nice" to him.

Gabi has an intense fear of spiders.

Yeah, no. That would be a headcanon more suited to Jack, who has insectophobia, but Gabi? She don't care lol. She will smack a spider with her bare hands and carry on like nothing happened.

Pax almost drank the lethal dosage of caffeine once.

I don't think he likes coffee nearly that much on regular days, but if he had to pull all-nighters to pass an important test or something? I can definitely see him accidentally doing something like this and being hella confused when he wakes up in the hospital.

Ethean has a Roblox account.

Roblox doesn't exist in their universe, most likely, but he probably has an account of the in-universe equivalent of Roblox lmao. He pretends he doesn't but he probably does.

Lyorna is not good with social cues.

Actually canon!!!!

Meridian's favorite subject in school was Math.

Uh. No. They're a theater kid/art kid at heart and don't have nearly enough patience necessary to like math.

Pyerce cries while watching disney movies.

Pyerce is a legendary ex-assassin/mercenary and father of two in his late forties/early fifties. That is to say the answer to this: Yes, he does cry while watching Disney movies but no one shall ever find out.

THE FORGOTTEN ONES

If Arzhel likes someone, they will give them a pretty rock.

... Yes. Just yes.

Elodie tackles and wrestles people to show affection.

Probably! She has three siblings and is a pretty hyperactive street urchin, so I think this is actually really accurate!

Sorin always has a maid dress on her.

LOL NO. HELL NAH. Sorin was raised to be a warrior and is on a journey to get revenge on the man who killed her father, I think she hasn't worn a dress in a while now - mainly because she is pretty attached to her armor, though she does really like dresses - and probably hasn't worn a maid dress ever.

Vivaldah has a pet squirrel.

Not canon, but she would love one!

Finnian desperately needs a hug but doesn't know it and refuses to ask for one.

ACCURATE. This is actually canon!!!!!

Aisling is an introvert.

I mean... this is canon!

Gael could easily survive The Hunger Games.

... With his power on full blast? Oh yeah, but that has bad consequences for him every time he overexerts his powers. With his "regular self"? Yeah, no he dead.

Daragh has one, very simple word that they cannot figure out how to pronounce.

Hm. You know what, this fits his vibe very well for odd reasons.

Tagging (gently): @sleepy-night-child, @kaylinalexanderbooks, @smol-feralgremlin, @oh-no-another-idea, @littleladymab,

@winterandwords, @cowboybrunch, @eccaiia, @sarahlizziewrites, @illarian-rambling

@agirlandherquill, @anoelleart

@leave-her-a-tome, @writernopal, @anyablackwood, @unstablewifiaccess, @forthesanityofstorytellers

@i-can-even-burn-salad, @cakeinthevoid

@lassiesandiego, @thepeculiarbird, @clairelsonao3, @memento-morri-writes, @starlit-hopes-and-dreams and OPEN TAG

[isleofair]

Thank you for the tag, @saltedpin! 💖💖💖

(Tag someone you want to get to know better! Or just check in with.)

Favorite color: Whatever Chessex calls Caribbean blue, although Google says it's not, lol (it used to be emerald green when I was a child, though)

Last song: Oh, this is going to get really funny, really fast, if you're clued in, lol. It's This Woman's Work by Kate Bush. 🥲

Last movie: ... Disney's The Little Mermaid 🤦 (the 1989 animated one! I saw a single picture of Flounder in the live action one and my childhood died a little on the inside, so...)

Currently watching: Our Flag Means Death season 2 (wow, what a surprise)

Other stuff I watched this year: Uh... Good Omens 2, and... *searches through the slice of Swiss Italian Cheese I have for brains for a few minutes*

... Okay, I know I have been watching nearly nothing lately, but I think I might need to do something about my memory issues 😥

Shows I dropped this year: Not sure I dropped any? Because, like. I haven't started or kept up with pretty much anything, apparently? 😥😥😥

Currently reading: I guess Spy x Family and Skip & Loafer! Although I think I might be a couple of chapters behind on both.

(I'm also waiting in an absolutely normal and sane way for the Ueda Tiger & Bunny 2 manga to get to the part where they reveal exactly how FireSky became Buddies 😶)

Anyway! I am tagging (with no pressure) @nicoroni, @debstinyyy, @imaginatorofthings, @rockkandi, @zimithrus1, @damedanedameyodamenanoyo, and... Well, if you see this, and we've talked before, but not super recently, I miiiiiiight have wanted to tag you but gotten shy about it 🫣 If you'd like to do this, please pretend I was brave enough to do so? 🙏💙

[mlobsters]

supernatural s13e15 a most holy man (w. andrew dabb, bob singer)

this episode open in malta and the choral voices and bells and candles and i'm thrown back to half remembering an episode about a haunted painting...? from florence? and trying to remember if that was actually an episode/fic/fever dream (it was, 10x16)

sam managing to find an even more uncomfortable place to use his laptop. fixed metal stool

SAM Worth a shot? DEAN Yeah. Good. Why not? I don’t think I can take another one of these cold pieces of Papa Giovanni’s.

what's up with the cheesy film noir music intro

LOL ok. is he usually annoyed when someone is coming on to sam? seems like he usually thinks it's funny, rolling his eyes or encouraging. i don't recall glaring at the flirt-er being in the repertoire

dean is going through a journey of emotions

interesting the differences in the emotional journey from this version of the script and what made it onscreen lol (production draft linked on wiki)

her voice keeps pinging alicia witt for some reason

spn s13e15 as richard greenstreet, the magicians s1e13 dominic burgess as ember

there's a character named emily greenstreet in the magicians and dominic plays ember who is a god that they're trying to get a powerup (aka jar-o-jizz) from (and they do a small blood sacrifice to him) lol

GREENSTREET I gave up on worthy causes years ago. And as I said, the blood cost me a fortune. Judging by your Montgomery Ward suits and your cheap ties, I’m guessing you don’t have a small fortune, or for that matter, two nickels to rub together. So I’m quite afraid this has been a waste of your time, and more importantly, mine. Good day, gentlemen.

montgomery ward, blast from the past. stores all shuttered by 2000 or something. random reference for this uk character

film noir heist mob movie sure. reminds me of the clue episode.

SAM So, this is what we’ve come to? Thieves? DEAN Hey, you want the blood, right? Well… besides, the thing’s already stolen. SAM Really? That’s your rationale? DEAN Hey, I’m not perfect. And by the way, neither are you, okay? Oh, so, what? Now you’re above a little, uh, chicanery? Look, this isn’t a perfect world we’re trying to save, okay. And if I’m not perfect trying to save it, then so be it. Come on. You with me or not?

not sure why sam's supposedly bothered over this. of all the morally questionable things they've done for The Cause, this is pretty low on the list

sam with the cockblock and all i can think while dean's flirting with this very lovely woman at the coffee shop is how they refuse to drop the busty asian beauties for dean's porn preference.

DEAN Look at you. You’re like a Boy Scout. You’re always prepared. SAM Yeah. You’re like uh… I don’t know what you’re like. DEAN Yeah. Thanks.

proud to pissed in 2 seconds flat. also, kind of cute but what is even going on

i mean. i. listen, they did some real fucking dumbass episodes in the early seasons too, so i shouldn't really complain that it's purely a late season phenomenon. but when the dumbass episode is surrounded by episodes i'm also complaining about it becomes somewhat of a .... 'what am i doing with my life right now' moment

he's been in a ton of stuff but probably the sopranos (which i never did finish) what i know him from

this is something all right. god and it's only halfway through 🥴😩🤪

DEAN Okay, I’m just saying, you’re taking a lot of shots to the head lately. I mean, I know that Disney Princess hair gives you some padding, but, uh…

listen they both surely have CTE by now with the number of concussions they've racked up over the years

FATHER LUCCA It’s not about luck, son. It’s about effort. All the time, I hear people saying the world’s not perfect. And they’re right. It’s not. But do you use that as an excuse? Do you use it to excuse your own sins? Your failings and your laziness? Do you use it to give a bad man power, because the world’s not perfect? Or do you work? Do you try and improve things in whatever way you can? Guys, the world will never be perfect, but if good men do good things, it can be better. Every day can get better.

???? are we trying to..... invigorate the boys to do what's right, have hope, ....???? i don't even know what. but i'm sure gonna start bristling over rando man implying they don't put in the effort to make things better. that's their job and they do fuck up and make bad decisions too but overall their schtick is literally making the world better. but instead we're getting some moralizing speech that i think is to make them feel bad about participating in the the continued theft of an item so that they can get the thing they need to save their family+new-kinda-god-adopted-son

SIGH. it's like this episode is supposed to be tongue in cheek, but it's too serious. so it's like just. fucking weird. because it's not serious enough to be like, slick.

FATHER LUCCA Yeah. He called me un uomo santissimo. SAM What does that mean? FATHER LUCCA “A most holy man.”

did they not google this phrase before this whole waste of time

DEAN Come on. I know that look. What’s on your mind? SAM I don’t know. Nothing. I mean – I mean, you know… You ever feel like we’re – we’re doing nothing but playing defense? You know, bouncing from one apocalypse to the next? DEAN Well, it’s not exactly our call. SAM I know that, and I’m not saying we don’t do good. But – but no matter how many people we save, there will always be more people that need saving. No matter how many monsters we kill–

DEAN There’s always gonna be another one around the corner. SAM Exactly. You think we could ever change things? I mean, really change things? You know, stop all the monsters, all the bad? DEAN That would be nice.

SAM Yeah. So, what are you thinkin’? Think that’ll work? DEAN I have faith.

loaded term that is for them. anyway, circles back to how for what felt like a while there, sam was the reassuring reasonable collected one and dean was needing some anchoring. but now it's dean's turn to be the one with faith they can get whatever done. but what got me about this exchange is that like.. dean often times would get a little defensive when sam would bring things up like this, brush him off. but now it's like he's actually listening and understanding where he's coming from and wishes it was better but accepts that it probably won't be. and it's honestly just nice to see dean being positive and a support for sam.

annoyed that there's that nice (for me) character moment in an episode that will otherwise likely erase from my brain in a few days

[ashdreams2023]

Hi! I was wondering if you could write father figure!Tony Stark just comforting the reader because she's been having a rough few months. Like just reassurance and encouragement. Thank you! Love your work by the way!

Cheeseburger

It was around two in the morning, and you still haven’t gotten an ounce of sleep. you weren’t sure when you became so restless.

You just know that the last few months weren’t that great.

"Uh fuck it" you threw your feet off the bed and headed to open your bedroom door, it was chilly in the hallways this time of night. Or you were too lazy to wear socks and was walking around with you pj shorts and favorite graphic shirt.

The plan was to watch a Disney movie in hopes you’ll feel somewhat relaxed and fall asleep eventually but of course that doesn’t happen since you do live in the avengers tower.

"Oh buttercup is up!" You sigh at the sight of tony sitting at the kitchen counter, apparently refilling his huge coffee mug again. Sometimes you wonder how he has not had a heart attack because of it already but then remember how his body actually works.

"I didn’t sleep" you mumbled, standing there awkwardly before he gestured with his hand for you to sit with him.

"Why’s that?" You rubbed your tired eyes and sighed.

"It’s just…I’m not feeling so bright lately" you admitted.

Tony hummed looking down at his coffee mug.

"Hm would you like to company me on a little trip?"

You raised your brows at him "to where?" Tony smirked before pulling our his keys and tossing them at you. "You drive and find out" after catching the keys you followed him until you two reached the hidden car spaces, your slippers made your steps as quiet as possible while tony had one a pair of his favorite sport shoes.

"Just take three turns to the left and take a right after the traffic lights" you followed his instructions, driving in the city that doesn’t sleep. You didn’t typically go out this late on regular week days but for some reason it felt different, it seemed quieter and a homeless couple were cuddling under one of the big buildings with a tiny street kitten curled up near their feet.

After seeing the lights of the 24 hour running diner you had a pretty good idea of what Tony had wanted.

Tony seemed to know the people who worked there as the first thing he said when he walked in was saying he wanted two of the regular. He picked a table in the back and sat with you across from him.

"You know buttercup, gathering feelings up inside good for you and before you start being all sassy with me I’m only saying this because I see you’re close to a breaking point" your mouth open then closed and before you knew a dumb small smile graced your lips, it was almost irritating how he knew how to put his point across just so bluntly.

"And what about it? I tried everything" tony gave you a raised brow, obviously knowing damn well you were exaggerating but wasn’t going to pin point it.

"Not everything" he said as your plates were put in front of you, a cheeseburgers and fries with a side of coca-Cola.

"You haven’t tried this" he grabbed the burger and took a big bite. In all honestly it looked delicious, so it wasn’t your fault you gave in and started eating.

"You can always come to me and we can talk you know, even if it means I can just listen" the lump in your throat felt a little lighter, like you weren’t on the verge of tears or a break down and instead you felt you could use a nap.

"Can we come here again, sometime like this?" Tony smiled and nodded. "Anytime you like buttercup, you just ask" it was an interesting night to say the least and you even got an ice cream Sunday as dessert.

"Get some sleep and if you can’t you know where to find me" he gave you one of his usual winks and as he walked back to his lab you told him one last thing.

"Tony!…thank you, I really appreciate it"

"Anytime buttercup" he waved you a hand beside disappearing behind the doors of his precious lab.

That night you fell asleep.

[seancekitsch]

i have about half of the next chapter of Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too written so here’s a little wip sneak peek

“Hey,” Chris slides into the space to stand between yours and Adrian’s barstools, “You seeing anyone?”

You look confused between Chris and Adrian until you start to see Adrian’s brows furrow behind the wire rims of his aviator glasses.

When you realize the question is directed at you, you splutter into your margarita, some of it splashing up into your nose. Holy fuck, that stings.

“Dude, what the fuck…” you hear Adrian mumble, but all you see is red. Chris is playing a dangerous game, with Emilia in the room and you wanting to be able to explode him with your mind right now. You had Adrian right there, you were about to make the move, you were about to do it and then he had to come and ruin it. Cockblocker of the century in all his muscled glory.

“No, I am not seeing anyone,” you confirm not at all trying to hide the venom in your voice, and then add, “Emilia is right over there dude, what kind of fucking game are you playing?”

Emilia and Chris have been sniffing around each other for months now, not unlike… well, not unlike the way you and Adrian have lately. What on earth could his stupid reasoning be for hitting on you in front of her? Of course, he has the audacity of looking shocked at your questions, as if you’re the ridiculous one in this situation.

“You know, I just figured if she got jealous she would finally want to… you know…” Chris verbalizes, slowing down when he hears how this plan sounds once its out of his mouth.

“Oh.”

“Uh huh. You think that’ll work on someone like Harcourt? I mean, where did you even get that plan, a Disney Channel Original Movie?”

Even if Harcourt wasn’t exactly in shape to murder him right now, you know she would emotionally eviscerate him. You look over his shoulder to try to get Adrian’s attention, only to see him ordering another Miller Lite and fully ignoring what’s going on between you and Chris. Fuck, shit. You can see your window of opportunity closing in on you.

“Listen, some of those DCOMs are solid movies. Camp Rock? Lemonade Mouth?”

Chris is wildly serious about this.

“I’m literally going to kill you,” you seethe, before downing your drink.

“Oh my god,” Chris exclaims, and then looks between the two of you.

“Oh my god,” he repeats, “Did I interrupt something?”

He looks between you, about to jump off of your stool to strangle him, and Adrian, equally and uncharacteristically agitated sipping his beer.

“Oh, I definitely did. You and him? Really? Are you—“

“Go!” you shout, and he finally gets the hint to head back to his not-girlfriend.

[slashingdisneypasta]

You’re welcome! Star Wars and the MCU are both owned by Disney so you should totally watch their movies and tv shows sometime - classic good vs evil like in the animated and live action Disney movies and tv shows. I live in America and we the people would love for you to come visit us! But you say that you cannot pop round to the Disney parks because it’s too expensive - where do you live, may I ask, because there are discounts on transportation like flights and trains.

PS: I love the rabbit! So adorable! I’ve never had pets but I would not mind ‘seeing’ a man with pets - especially dogs because some of them are able to fetch! :) Have you or your family had pets before Ghost?

Oh, I know they are 😅 And trust me I've tried to get into it (the MCU at least) but it's just not my cup of tea unfortunately. I love x-men, though, if that counts?? I'm not sure if it does! 😅

I still will give Star Wars a try though XD

I'm Aussie, so I'm very far away 😅 We had rumours in August that we might get a Disney park for our own but it hasn't been mentioned since; unfortunately i don't trust it 😔 And besides, I'm trying to save for a home at the moment! ^^ After that I'll probably save up for some kind of trip! XD :D That would be so cool.

Thank you!! Ghost is my sisters rabbit but, uh, she has a way bigger social life than me 😆😅😆 so I end up watching Ghost pretty often XD Other pets we've had were 3 cats (Diablo, Tobasco, and Karlos), a fish called Fighty (it was a fighting fish... I didn't name him 😅 XD They and the cats are/were my brothers) and a budgie (Cho Cho ^^ He was mine).

Ooooooh you wanna date a man for his doggos!?? XDD Oh you fiend XD /j of course ^^ I have been thinking lately about making my F/O's hold Ghost (well except for Cruella De Vil 😅) cuz it would be s o cute I gotta admit- and i'm not a pet person! What pets would you get if you could? ^^

[graysongraysoff]

tagged by @pyrrhlc !!!

top 3 ships: man idk uh. idk about all-time ships but i guess in terms of ships i am Actively Currently Unwell about dazai/chuuya from bungo stray dogs is probably the one that causes the most wailing and gnashing of teeth at the moment, followed closely by gojo/geto from jujutsu kaisen. then i guess probably wei wuxian/lan wangji from mo dao zu shi/the grandmaster of demonic cultivation!

first ever ship: this is so hard lol uh. i’m trying to think in terms of fandoms i’ve like actively engaged with, but the first would have been harry potter and i didn’t really ship anyone in that.... i wrote one (1) kingdom hearts fic back in the day that was a hayner/olette fic but i didn’t really engage with the fandom at all beyond that at the time. what the hell would have been next. sherlock??? was fucken johnlock my first ship??????

last song: rich girl kk cover....................

currently reading: i have been veeeeery slowly plodding through all the sherlock holmes stories via audiobook as i drift off to sleep. so far i’ve gotten through a study in scarlet, the sign of the four and the adventures of sherlock holmes, and now i’m on the memoirs of sherlock holmes. the narrator is really great and they’re wonderful books to fall asleep to, lol.

last movie: oh man i’ve been watching a lot of disney movies while i do chores and stuff just because i’ve seen most of them so many times i don’t really have to fully watch them to enjoy them, you know? the last one i watched was sleeping beauty, i’m pretty sure, which is just so pretty, god. beautiful movie.

currently consuming: a strawberry pop-tart! (toasted)

currently watching: i’m on s4 of jojo’s bizarre adventure, lmao. i was gonna take a break after i finished s3 to finally watch demon slayer s2, since jojo’s seasons are pretty self-contained, but then i decided i was gonna binge demon slayer s2 on my 8-hour train ride tomorrow and finish whatever i have left on my 8 hour train ride back on monday, and honestly i’ve been too tired after work/errands lately to start anything new, haha. so the soothing absurdity of jojo’s it is. (also let’s face it as far as anime goes it’s not one i feel like i have to be glued to the screen at all times for, which is also really nice for relaxing after work.)

currently craving: not a moment goes by when i am not craving the loving embrace of a good night’s sleep. i am also craving The Will to Write.

i would like to tag @antique-romantic @humblegoat @arealcrow @demonandthedogstar @chirpchirpmuahaha @humble-wayside-flower and YOU dear reader! but of course i know some of y’all are busy so only if you want to lol.

[kylekozmikdeluxo]

Something Uneasy in Paradise

Preamble...

"There's always a breeze. The sunsets are beautiful. Palm trees are everywhere- Get away to paradise, call 1-800-

I'm wrapped in the beauty of the paradise, I'm outside this hotel, by the water... I hear a familiar kind of music... There's a vibe to it, an almost inexplicable one, I feel... Actually, I think I remember hearing this... Somewhere... It's kind of ominous, actually... Uh- You know, it's almost like this is a commercial. An artificiality that I'm somehow existing in... A commercial void of sorts. None of this is actually happening...

But, I can't put my finger on it. Something about this is very familiar...

The late 1990s...

As a kid, I went to the cinema quite frequently. My father took my sister and I to, almost, virtually- every family movie that was out at the time. We saw plenty of Disney films, and we saw plenty of live-action family movies, back when they used to make those regularly. We saw many animated films, too. Some of my earliest moviegoing memories are for films like THE HUNCHBACK OF NOTRE DAME in 1996 (possibly my first cinema trip as a wee bairn), and then 1997 - HERCULES, FLUBBER, GEORGE OF THE JUNGLE, and THE BORROWERS.

I actually saw THE BORROWERS twice in the theaters, believe it or not. If I remember correctly, it was because my sister had gotten sick halfway through the movie, and we had to leave. Then we went back, to see the whole thing. I'm guessing my dad got a refund that night, but he took us again to see it... And I remember I was dreading it...

Why? That sounds so absurd. Wasn't that some harmless family movie with John Goodman in it? Because, when you're a young autistic kid in the '90s, in a movie theater with a big screen and everything's louder than it usually is, and you have all these sensory issues... Things are 10x more intense to you... There was a scene where the little people in the movie (it's based on the story THE BORROWERS ARRIETTY, which Studio Ghibli later adapted into a 2010 animated feature, released in America as THE SECRET WORLD OF ARRIETTY) get chased around by a vacuum cleaner. And I remember it was *terrifying* to me. I remember the vacuum cleaner just trucking abruptly up at the screen, engulfing the whole thing- I already didn't like the sounds of vacuum cleaners when I was a kid, and again - dealing with a lot of my sensory issues, you could imagine how much that frightened me in the theater. I remember I closed my eyes when I saw the movie the 2nd time. But then once that scene was over, I remember getting through most of the movie just fine. I don't remember what really happened in it outside of a few scenes here and there...

... but I do remember, when I was in kindergarten in late 1997/early 1998, sometimes they'd have us in the class draw a "picture story" of sorts. At the time, I was still a little shook by that scene in THE BORROWERS, and... Well, this is kind of a weird thing I'd like to bring up. I used to do this thing as a child where I would re-enact or rewrite a scene from a movie that I saw, sometimes it would be a scary scene that kinda stuck with me. I would draw the scene, it was kind of my way of processing what I had seen... and weirdly, in turn, it kinda helped me become the writer that I am today. Not just of these tumblr blogs and various animation writings, but also of the stories that I've been writing for years that I'm trying to turn into things I want to release (comics, animated movies, etc.), and the webcomic that I'm currently working on that's in beta form. It's like I kinda learned through understanding movie scenes and just how they played out, and recalling them from memory and then writing them down on paper or drawing a "picture story" of how it happened... and I remember one of my teachers in my kindergarten class was wondering, "Kyle, why are you drawing pictures of people being chased by a vacuum??" And it was just sorta like, "Oh, it was in THE BORROWERS movie!" I'm going on and on and on and on about this John Goodman movie that I've only seen that one time, all the way through, in the theater. I'll have to look it up, haha.

So yes, to reiterate: I am autistic. As a kid, I had a lot of sensory issues when it came to loud noises, or... even in the movie theater, even though I liked going as a kid (and later came to LOVE it as an older kid, preteen, teenager, adult, what-have-you!)... Early on, when I was like 5, 6, 7 years old, I was a little... Unnerved, in some ways at what I would be seeing? Like it would be a little much for me? But I could never could articulate why, and I never bothered to at the time, I was already afraid of other benign things as a child that... Whenever I told people about them, they'd be like "How come you are afraid of THAT? What's so scary about THAT?" Not mockingly, but a little caught off guard. I just couldn't say why it was scary, whether it was a commercial or it was a logo with a weird jingle or anything like. I wouldn't protest going to the movies circa 1998, I did enjoy going, but there were some things where I was like "Hmmm, I feel kinda weird."

So, it's the late 1990s... All the theaters that are the closest to me are National Amusement theaters. They were a theater chain that was bought by Rave Motion Pictures in the late 2000s, and then they'd be bought by Cinemark. They're pretty much all Cinemarks now in my area, at least the ones that are still standing. I'm pulling this from my file cabinet brain, most of this was/is being written as I'm thinking about it, without doing the research that I normally do. Please bare with me- I barely write like this, but I'm in a flurry right now, I'm quite excited about something so minuscule, we'll get there!

So National Amusements used to operate these multiplexes in my home state called Showcase Cinemas. Most of my childhood moviegoing experiences were at Showcase Cinemas. National Amusements theaters had their own sort-of, like any theater chain would, they had interstitials, bumpers, they had commercials and they had what I recently learned were called "snipes". I never knew what the proper term for them was. So, in 1995, National Amusements created a snipe that really stood out...

It was a sort of sequence where it was like a neon cinema with Art Deco touches, and to kid me... This was very "alien", in a way. There was something very alien about it. It's not that it "scared" me, it was weird in a way, like I was still processing the world around me... and now I'm watching this in a dark room, and it's like... Something very strange about it. I got this with a lot of logos as a child, I got this with a lot of commercials and still title cards and such, it was very unusual feelings... I will elaborate.

One thing that cropped up on the Internet, in the early-to-mid 2000s, in some circles tucked away in parts of the world wide web (showing my age by saying that phrase) was this unusual sort of thing... There were people, admitting on message board forums and such that they were afraid of production company logos, of the motion graphic variety...

Where am I? What is this place? Why is it so... I can't define... It's like it... Never ends...

These particular logo graphics were from the '60s, '70s, and '80s. Sometimes they'd be as short as 4 seconds, seen at the end of a TV show after the credits rolled. Sometimes they'd be intros on home video releases. On the off chance, they might also be theatrical movie studio logos, but more often than not - in my experience - it was usually applied to television production company logos and home video division logos. More so television, given that home video came about in the mid-1970s but really became ubiquitous in American homes by the end of the 1980s.

A lot of people are absolutely baffled when they come across a word like "logophobia" or they come across the idea of somebody being afraid of a production company logo when they were a child. A lot of people ask, "Why?" Like, why is there a documentary (THE S FROM HELL) about it that was directed by the guy who did ROOM 237? What is this "phenomenon"? Are you all a bunch of wusses? I see it crop up from time to time, and it eventually clicked for me over the years... The director of that S FROM HELL film, Rodney Ascher, he really scratched an itch that I was sort of looking for as someone who was unnerved by benign things as a child.

Via Chris McGovern's The Glass Blog:

Well, just because I was sort of fascinated by it... I certainly got this really visceral memory of being 3 years old, parked in front of the TV for hours and hours and hours, being sort of confused and baffled by these little pieces that were exposed between the cracks of the TV shows. I certainly didn’t have the language when I was 3, but I think what I was seeing was the machine code underneath the TV! [laughs] And maybe this was the window between GILLIGAN'S ISLAND and BEWITCHED, where for a minute there was a gap, and I could see in that gap this kind of cold robotic machinery behind the TV shows.

So, what is THE S FROM HELL? It was a documentary short that was made in 2010, and I believe it screened at one of the film festivals. Sundance? Telluride? Maybe. Ascher contacted people who saw the 1964 Screen Gems logo as a child. These people said that the logo scared them when they were little, and they described what it is about the logo that frightened them in the 1960s and 1970s... Whether it was the strange modern design of the logo, or it was the strange synthesized jingle by Eric Siday. Logos back then used a lot of futuristic and even avant garde imagery and sounds, as they were more in the world of graphic design than they were the fine arts or traditional art. It's a fascinating film because you're hearing, firsthand, from the people, hearing their voices talking about what scared them so much about these logos. Ascher uses a variety of footage and imagery to convey those abstract fears, it's actually a pretty interesting watch. It's almost like an "I feel seen" sort of thing, and while I didn't grow up in the '60s and '70s and experienced that particular logo. Or, another well-known logo that apparently scared the heck out of kids back in the day, the Viacom from 1976. Much like the "S from Hell", it's nicknamed the "V of Doom". Other logos have been given such monikers, too.

Being someone who is autistic, someone who was unnerved by various benign things, sounds and jingles and commercials and such- It's like, WOW, it's not so far-fetched after all! Even neurotypical children were scared of these things. I've read multiple explanations that really made it make a lot of sense. One person said they were akin to weird jumpscares, they came out of nowhere, were unusual, made an impression for 4 seconds, and then disappeared after that. This was, to this person, exacerbated by the janky editing and broadcasting means of the '60s and '70s... And made even worse by intermittent Emergency Broadcast System tones, the Cold War going on, and the possibility of a real cataclysmic event happening... While you were watching TV one afternoon.

Another interesting way of looking at it was being a kid and not having a concept of what a logo is, or what even a corporation is. That's especially interesting for a logo, a motion graphic without a person or any sign of being in it. Usually it was against like a solid or gradient color background, and it was usually just be text and shapes and objects forming up the design of a logo. Like, the Screen Gems logo. A dot with two wrapping parallelograms around it, forming an "S". And the Viacom logo from 1976 is just two shapes forming a "V", with the words a "A Viacom Presentation", usually the music was synthesized or very bombastic or very loud or very... Again, alien. In a way. Much like how I thought the "snipes" in the movie theaters kind of were. It was like "What is this? What does this all mean?"

In the podcast Podcast: The Ride, the hosts brought up this phenomena as well. One of the hosts was talking about the Walt Disney Home Video logo from 1978, the "Neon Mickey" logo, and he had said...

-you know that scary, when Disney started putting out VHSes, and there's that like laser Mickey, do you know what I'm talking about? It's like a neon outline, that is so frightening, although I'm just one of those people who was scared of every VHS logo that ever existed... Definitely. And anything like that, those- just- frightening company logos. Always. Which were often, would have some just weird sound, like [noise]… And I- I just didn't know, I was three years old I didn't know what they were. Like, why'd, how come when I watch a movie, there's all these things?"

That's a GREAT way of putting it, and what I couldn't even begin to articulate as a child describing benign visual media that bugged me.

But yes, looking at it... There is no "human" element, in a way, in one of those logos. For me, it was like being transported into a surrealist space for about 5-10 seconds. That space didn't make any sense when I was five years old, it's almost like you were in a void. It was the weirdest thing. When you don't know what any of those things are supposed to be, when you don't know- There's no person, no human, it's a little bit strange and surreal.

It's kind of like how people say, when they were kids, that a surreal scene in a movie bugged them. Maybe a Disney film like DUMBO, or the Heffalumps and Woozles scene in WINNIE THE POOH AND THE BLUSTERY DAY. All that kind of nonsense in a weird, random void. That can be terrifying and unnerving for some out there, and I feel that's kind of similar with logos. The weirdest thing, though, is that as a kid? Scenes like those didn't bother me at all! I was mesmerized by "Pink Elephants on Parade", "Heffalumps and Woozles" as well- Maybe because characters were present? I couldn't tell you, but they lit my creative fire more than made me want to fast-forward.

I came across a website when I was 12 years old called "KRS Logos", and this site had quite an impact on me. It was like one of those old fortunecity sites that was put together by like maybe 5 or so boomer to Gen X-aged adults, sort of reminiscing about old logos and bumpers; what kind of animation techniques they used, how long they had been used for, what year they first appeared, it was a site I believe was constructed in 2000 and routinely updated up until 2006. I was visiting the site for the first time in 2005-06, and it was being updated with new logo descriptions and such, even though the site looked like it was from 1998.

Sure enough, I found a category on one of the logo pages that was called "Scare Factor".

There were logo descriptions, method of animation used, if the logo was rare or easy to find (rarity would be caused by what's known as "logo plastering", when companies replace the old logo with a later one on reruns), etc.... So the final one was called "Scare Factor", and it was totally the opinion of the five to ten people who made the site and those that they were in contact with on these logos. It'd be like None, or Low: It's a little unnerved. Median: This can be a little bit scary, or there was High: This is terrifying, the weird animation, the loud synthesized jingle, the weird everything- and there was NIGHTMARE. Viacom 1976 and Screen Gems 1964 made it into "Nightmare" territory on that old site, along with the 1978 WGBH Boston logo and a Simitar logo from the '80s. It was very interesting how there was a whoooole forum dedicated to that sort of thing... But then over time, I feel like random kids took control of everything and turned it into the CLG Wiki and then... Oooh, the harmless Nick Jr. logo from 2007, that's SCARY! This is like a 13-year-old kid who says this, and I highly doubt that happened. When most of the scare factor descriptions on the old site were written by adults describing how they reacted to the logos back in the day, it all got lost in a flurry of kids going "Oh my god, the cute Nick Jr. logo from 2006 is the scariest thing I've ever seen!" I'm trying not to make fun, but I feel a lot of people looked at the logophobia thing and were like "What the hell is wrong with these pansies??" And, for a little while, it made me afraid of how to articulate these unusual past fears as an autistic person, and these cynics used a lot of ableism, too. So that did not help.

I will talk about a logo that scared me as a child, and a commercial as well... Like, actually bugged me.

Those who know me well for my Disney VHS collecting side-hobby will likely be shocked when I say it...

The 1986 Walt Disney Home Video logo...

I have no idea what exactly it was that bugged me about this logo when I was a young kid. I eventually got over this fear when seeing the logo for the first time in years at roughly age 8, unprompted and out of nowhere may I add (hah!), and then it was like "Okay, that's nothing. I was afraid of that?"

But, it had to have been... The low note of the synthesized jingle, the black background, and the red lettering against said background. Now, its counterpart, the Walt Disney Classics logo used from 1988 to 1994? Which opened the same exact way with that still image of Sorcerer Mickey?

That didn't bother me AT ALL... That had less ominous music, a bright background, a diamond behind the text, silver to golden lettering, etc. Much better! Way Disney-er sounding than that other logo. I didn't dread that logo as a wee one, but the standard WDHV one? Nope, uh-uh.

But if you step back for a second... These logos are kind of bizarre, at least for Disney... It's a motionless still image of Mickey Mouse. Disney, known for... ANIMATION, Mickey Mouse, an animated character... And yet he's but a beautifully-rendered still image in both of these iconic logos. Maybe *that* contributed to it, too? A motionless character? Certainly unusual, equally unusual was the first-ever Disney home video logo with the multiple neon outlines of Mickey's shape... Talked about by Podcast: The Ride up above. I never saw that one as a child, I had only discovered it once I came across the old KRS Logos site and found VHS tapes with it on there... I wonder if *that* would've frightened me at age 5.

So yes, to a kid, especially an autistic person such as myself, you can get weird feelings out of a simple picture. The weird thing is, I grew into majoring in graphic design and I make that kind of art a part of what I often to do, be it comics or any other kind of design that I often do. Maybe it's all rooted back in these logos and interstitial works and little things inbetween the media that I watched as a child, that it all made that much of an impression.

Now before I go on, here's a 1995-ish commercial that frightened me as a child... I dread this one...

Yeah, you can see why little autistic me *hated* this thing... Serene paradise imagery, then a wham-fucking-cut to AHHHHHHHHH! The way it was shot, quickly zooming out from a screaming guy's mouth, made it all the more worse... It's a funny idea, and I appreciate the commercial's gag now... But 3-year-old me in 1995? "Nooo, not the Honey Pinch Me commercial!"

So, back to the logos-

The visual component is one thing, the music is another...

I already talked a little bit about how the rather odd music of the 1986 WDHV logo didn't sit well with me as a child, but I can't quite adequately describe what about it was so... Unsettling to me. Maybe if that music accompanying a colorful logo or a logo that wasn't red on a black background with a still picture of what should be an animated cartoon character, maybe I'd have received it a lot differently?

Interestingly, the music *does* show up somewhere other than a WDHV logo on an American-released VHS tape... On 2nd and 3rd sets of pressings of the original 101 DALMATIANS VHS from early 1992, this really weird- what sounds like an extended version of the music or a possible alternate/unused recording of the jingle plays over the film's Buena Vista title card right after the movie ends, and segues into a cut-in-half WDHV logo. No "HOME VIDEO" below, just the red "Walt Disney", and the Laser font text below detailing what's to come in the ensuing previews. I remember feeling less unsettled and more... Why's this music here? Whenever this cropped up when 101 DALMATIANS ended. I had the 3rd pressing where the end of the movie went straight to the logo w/ the weird music over it, 2nd set of pressings had a silent Buena Vista first (that's the way movie ended on its 1985 and 1991 theatrical re-releases, Disney would swap the BV title cards with their then-new Walt Disney Pictures castle logo), then the BV card with the music over it. On close inspection, the BV w/ the music and announcer looks to be a paused still-frame. It weirdly lacks any motion the proper version has, like one is from a film print and the other is a paused image. It's really weird! And that only happens on that one VHS release from 1992, a good 6 years after the logo was first created. You can't hear that alternate version of the jingle anywhere else, unless someone unearths it in the future...

I hope someone does, though! Because jingle music, maybe because of this logo and other intros of yore, is one of my hyperfixation-fascination things... Again, maybe because of how it made a weird impression on me as a child...

Over the years, it was discovered that the music Disney used in their iconic Feature Presentation "handwriting" ID (and also the gold lettering one that appeared prior to that) was a piece of production music, 'Great Ovation' composed by Steve Gray, which appears on a 1984 Bruton Music LP called 'Televisual'. Composed by a British individual, recorded by a band/orchestra, meant for one of many sorta-faceless music LPs of all-purpose music. Fascinating! There's just loads of it... Across multiple labels, the aforementioned Bruton, along with KPM, De Wolfe, Bosworth, Berry Music, Amphonic, etc. etc.

The original 'Great Ovation' conjures up images of a ritzy, extravagant game show, flashing lights everywhere and an announcer that could very well be the late Mark Elliot, who voiced the most common Feature Presentation intro for Disney and numerous other trailers/previews. I could easily picture it being on a show that came on during the mid-1990s, for sure. Something later at night. There's another track from the album that I have in my collection called 'Surprise Package', composed by Zack Laurence, it has that same overall mood. Like, I was somewhat blown away that this 4-second jingle was actually a 2-minute piece, sharing an LP with other similar pieces of music. The opening 4 seconds, however, fit perfectly with this kind of intro: The loud horn fanfare, drumming up excitement for what's to come. Like, did staffers at Disney sit down and listen to a ton of production music LPs and CDs before settling on this piece? Disney had actually used it before in the mid 1980s on a demo tape that laid out a holiday promotion WDHV would launch one year (might've been 1985 or 1986), but my question still stands? I'd imagine that's how the assignment goes- all this thought, into 4 seconds of music.

But hey, I was never alone! Defunctland just did a whole epic on the mysterious origins of the 4-note Disney Channel jingle of the early 2000s that everyone around my age has burned into their brains. This isn't some niche autistic thing anymore, it seems. (Maybe that's my internalized ableism talking.) Who's to say someone who worked on the 1986 WDHV won't share some history of the logo's creation? Motion graphics are, to me, a big deal in not only company identity, but also storytelling as well. To me, every good logo tells a story and makes some kind of impression, or at least conveys successfully what's in store whenever you see it... Disney's various print and motion logos, no different...

Starting in roughly 2016, I searched for music that I never knew the origins of, but suspected *could* be production music, and sometimes I won out. Walt Disney Home Video used a piece called 'Pageantry' on this one unique "Also From Walt Disney Home Video" bumper that appeared on the 1991 VHS of THREE MEN AND A LITTLE DAY, from composer Leslie Pearson. A set of bumpers that appeared on the 1992 releases of SO DEAR TO MY HEART and BEAUTY AND THE BEAST used 'Fanfare to the Modern Man' by Richard Hill. Both of these came from 1978 Bruton Music LPs. Someone at Disney must've gravitated towards them! On their own, they conjure up different images as well: 'Pageantry' creates a medieval scene in my head, what with its bugle horns, while 'Fanfare' - very obviously from a sports-themed collection - in its full form makes me think of a football game broadcast circa the mid 80s or mid 90s.

This search also answered some long-held questions I had with some Pixar work: The cheesy, flutey music that plays in the dentist's office in FINDING NEMO on one small scene, and also plays on the original DVD release's 2nd disc menu, is a piece called 'Rosery', composed by Jan Schneeberg and Boris Schoska. It comes from a 1973 Berry Music/Studio One LP, the entirety of it performed by the Manfred Minnich Orchestra. Now, on that same album is a track called 'Waltzing Flutes'. If you're unfamiliar with that one, it's the Krusty Krab Training Video music. Both media, coincidentally, set underwater! The episode in question aired less than a year before FINDING NEMO was theatrically released! FINDING NEMO uses another cheesy tune in one of the dentist's office scenes and on a DVD menu, 'Time for Romance' by John (Anthony) Helliwell, that first appeared on a Concord LP in 1972, it also used in the previous Pixar feature, MONSTERS, INC. It can be heard in Roz's office. Other bits of production music have been used in Pixar films, but one that came out of nowhere for me... The entirety of LUXO, JR.'s smooth jazz soundtrack is cribbed from Bruton Music's 1982 LP COUNTERPOINT IN RHYTHM, all of its tracks composed by Brian Bennett and Carlton Hall.

By the end of 2016, I had fallen in love with production music, and perhaps its rather blank-slate nature is one you can project so many images onto. When hearing the tracks that I now have in my collection, I could see scenes in films that don't exist, scenes that didn't happen - it's more than just some generic stuff to me. It's music made by people, but it's like that element doesn't belong in it - that the listener is the one making the music theirs in a way. It's almost like a void, in the same way a solid color background is on an old motion graphic logo...

So now along comes my revisiting of National Amusements bumpers and interstitial animated segments...

Now, before the neon "snipe" that I mentioned earlier...

... there was this thing...

I already had found, as a roughly 5-6yo kid, the big "policy trailer" snipe to be a bit weird and unnerving in a way, this was like an ominous prelude to that... I'm already in a very dark movie theater, a spacious environment, and this title card is an even darker theater. You can't see the exit doorways, not even an outline to indicate they are there, just the flashing "Exit" signs. The weird fakeness of the image (likely a digital rendering of a typical Showcase Cinemas auditorium circa 1989), the starry image looking almost cosmic - combine that with the neon stuff and futuristic city, like that was - again - very "alien" to me as a kid. And that music... It was kind of ominous, too. The idea of an emergency in a public place like that, having to run to another side of the building in doing so... That doesn't help, either.

Now over time, much like the Walt Disney Home Video logo, I got used to this and the longer snipe that followed, but early on you do get hit with that weird feeling... The autism experience is very unique in all of us, and for me, a trip to the movies at night in the in-your-face 90s was quite a trip early on. By 2000, I loved going, so as I got older, those weird feelings were becoming yesterday's news to me.

But those early, almost *primal* feelings - like a fear of the unknown, continue to fascinate me. Especially as I write and create stories, sometimes trying out the horror genre! I feel like modern horror works such as various indie games of the early 2010s (FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY'S) and analog horror (LOCAL58, GEMINI HOME ENTERTAINMENT, etc.) tap into that sort of thing, and I found myself endlessly fascinated with those. They successfully transported me back to the mid-1990s, in a dark area that might've confused or bothered me, or a piece of media that did back then... I was uncomfortable watching or playing them... Job well done.

Lo and behold, I recently find out that the music that accompanied the "Exit" snipe for National Amusements... Is a French piece of production music titled 'Paradise Hotel', by Stephane Joly. This originally appeared on two KoKa Media releases in 1987 titled JINGLES, one was a vinyl release and the other a CD issue.

So now, instead of a dark theater with warnings about an emergency, I now hear what was the original intention: A sunset image in the tropics, by a hotel, some time in the late 1980s. You can feel the soul influences in the thing, too, I was initially *excited*. I had some shower thoughts that eventually all made it into this post, but then... Not too long after... The piece still seemed weird and ominous to these ears now...

Could it be the long association with a warning snipe? Or is it just that weird '80s synthiness that sometimes comes off as a little unnerving? Is it just a subconscious thing about growing up autistic in the excessive '90s, the very excess that I - an artist - now look at fondly? Why these feelings, that I'm 30 years old now?

I moved out of my home.

I had lived under one roof for 30 years, and now I have moved into an apartment that's a good 15-25 minutes away from where I used to live. I'm about half of a week into my new life there, and a lot still needs to be done to get myself used to the place, but also the looming fear of paying the rent, affording groceries, gas and STILL having the gumption to continue pursuing my creative endeavors and make many of them into sources of income... All millennial worries, right? I have other worries, too, which I won't get into, but it's created a lonely and horrifying anxiety storm sometimes. One of my greatest fears is giving up all of my passion and love of what I love, and sinking into a safety net of bland boredom. There are some days where I'm just too exhausted to let my autistic brain run the way it usually does, spontaneous and excited and finding creative things in life.

Perhaps this is all normal, but right before I moved in, when I started visiting my new apartment at nighttime, those weird feelings struck me. I'm by myself, it's lonely, I have other worries in life that I have no idea how I'm gonna solve, I fear my soul being crushed, etc.

I started feeling primal fear of the unknown. In the dark, like I was 5 again. I mean, I navigate dark basements just fine, but what's going on here? And that's when I came across the piece of production music, which otherwise would not have affected me this way in my adult life... It's like those old subconscious feelings, being a kid and a bit intimidated by the loud world around you, and not knowing what to even do about that. How to process that information. How do you tell your weirded-out parents about some inexplicable sound or image that bugged you?

And like the paradise that 'Pacific Hotel' paints- I'm literally relating an emotionally maelstrom time in my life to a 45-second piece of music that some French fellow composed in 1987 and likely forgot about the next day, anyways, like the paradise in 'Pacific Hotel', my own place should be a paradise, right? Where I can be independent and be me and flower into the me that I've always restrained or hidden my whole life... But there are possibly so many consequences awaiting once I open this proverbial Pandora's Box. It shouldn't be just that, but it likely is in my case. And then add in all the responsibilities and other issues I currently face, it is TERRIFYING.

... and sometimes I simply need a big break from all of these stresses, so I can recharge my creative batteries and reconnect with my best self... The world's already built against your average neurotypical who is merely trying to keep afloat, financially, it is ten times worse for an autistic person who suffers from anxiety. I'm only about a few days into this new chapter, and I have no idea what's ahead. Either that should be thrilling, or utterly terrifying.

I'm happy to have cracked another hyperfixation mystery, though. I'm happy that I made such progress in life, it's the stuff that I have to do to keep it up, ya know?

Facing fears, quite frightening in itself... Comics and art will resume, of course, once I get some aforementioned stuff sorted out (such as having suitable internet), but I had a *lot* thoughts these past few days, from when I started writing this based on a mystery I cracked (I initially intended it for my hyperfixation tumblr - titled @kylesvariouslistsandstuff) on some random interest of mine, to the ensuing nights in my apartment... Again, all largely spurred by some jingle that's 35 years old now and composed by someone I've never heard of before. But I heard the jingle a ton of times in the late '90s and early '00s, when visiting my local movie theaters... I currently work at one of those theaters...

Funny how the brain works, huh? I hope you're doing well tonight.

(Image credit: digital94086, iStock)

[bearpillowmonster]

D23 Haul

Eh. No Kingdom Hearts. No Big Hero 6, that would've made everything worth it but I feel like lately companies have been showing too much too early. Here's Incredibles 3...it's happening, dunno what it's going to be, when or anything else but it's coming! Frozen 3, concept art, 3 years from now...which is so far away that I wouldn't even plan on getting people's hopes up, look at Beyond the Spiderverse, where is that? I don't mind waiting for it but they set that original date too soon, it wasn't just the strike, it was that they weren't even ready for it to begin with, it was a pipe dream and only makes people more wary when something gets delayed. I thought we learned this from CP2077 but apparently nobody learns anything.

On a positive note, I'll allow the Lilo and Stitch one even though Detective Pikachu set the standard for those designs but it had a cool intro. Tron at least had a cool laser and Nine Inch Nails (though no actual music reveal) Zootopia and Moana did great. Snow White actually got a trailer. Toy Story told us what it was about (even though it sounds tacky and seems in part with the og TS2 concept)

The parks. Yeah, we're gonna have a Lion King Land and an Encanto Land and a Frozen Land and a Villain Land- "Well, when is that?" Uh, yeah, left on read, so we have pictures! "That's concept art. That's not going to be how it'll look." Come back to me when you have models or animatronics and did you really just tell us that LK Land was based on the 1994 movie and show us concept art for the 2019 one? AND it's just Splash Mountain but with Pride Rock? You've had since 1994 to think something up and that's it?

Look at all the hotel concept arts to what they ended up being. So you're telling me that you won't (not 'can't', 'won't') spring for a new dragon for Fantasmic (which is literally on the poster for it) but you'll make a whole side-park for villains and add a dragon. And the walking mat...yeah, that's cool technology but that's all you're showing. You didn't incorporate it into anything. "Yeah, we're going to use this in the future...for something!" It's all tentative.

Well, what about the games? They had a big presentation set out after announcing that they wanted to get back into games. The stream actually taking place within Fortnite. They had an Epic Mickey panel celebrating its remaster and original release. They have all these Marvel games in the works, Kingdom Hearts (of course) and rumors that the Disney Afternoon cast will join in Fortnite, a vague Epic Games collaboration announced earlier in the year. So what did we get? I'll start a bingo card...Oh...it started a half hour later than scheduled. Ok? Oh, it has the leaders with Dave Filoni, Pete Docter, Kevin Feige and Jennifer Lee and they each have something to announce. Ok, Disney Villains in Fortnite. More concept art. Ok? The Incredibles in Fortnite. Ok, a picture. IG-11 with Baby Yoda backpack and Moff Gideon coming next week. Ok, this is all Fortnite, maybe they'll get that out of the way first. A bunch of Marvel cast which was inevitable as they have most in there already, ok. Black. Huh? Black? Oh, it's over, they didn't say bye, they didn't say anything else, just DONE, mic drop. You needed a whole event and panel that was delayed...for some skins?

I thought they were holding back throughout the year to save stuff for the game event but no, they were actually just trying to scrape the barrel to make stuff for it, maybe that's why they delayed it, they realized that they didn't have anything and had to try to get everybody that got applause on stage. They didn't seem to know what they were doing, like these people were thrown in, quickly briefed to add a quick word before grab the wheel and show it. It reminded me of trying to stretch out my powerpoint in college to meet the 5 minute runtime.

Show me stuff, sure, there was no shortage overall but I feel like concept -> production -> marketing -> release should be how it goes but lately it's all been combined with production taking a backseat and release still on the GPS. Show me earlier stuff at an event like D23 but make it past the concept stage first, show me production!

They design it to generate hype so much before the fact that by the time it actually releases, you feel like you've seen everything and nothing is no longer a surprise. "Oh yeah, Incredibles 3 is coming out. I could've expected that but now it's real and I heard about it 20 years ago." It's not just Disney, it's every corporation, I see it with game shows. Oh...a title card...oh...CONCEPT ART. I love concept art but it's more something I like to see AFTER THE FACT as bonus of seeing 'we went from here to where we are now!' but I see the whole journey now, I don't need the after the fact, you're not investing in your future, you're investing in your now so that investors will see this, it's no secret, it's not about the mainstream fans anymore that actually do most of the promoting for you and give it the returns. It's a bunch of rich people buying into other rich people and the audience just happens to be outside fueling it.

[elhopper1sm]

Susanna Kaysen x Age Regression! Lisa Rowe

Summary: After leaving the hospital and returning for her regular therapy Susanna comes to visit Lisa. She soon finds out Lisa has some unconventional coping mechanisms.

SFW Age Regression

Lisa calls Susanna "momma"

F/F pairing

Lisa Rowe/Susanna Kaysen

Susanna had just gotten back to see Dr. Wicked after her session. Life outside of the hospital was tight but great. She had just visited Polly and saw how much everyone loved the new cat she had brought in.

"Hey Valerie" Susanna stared Valerie down as she spoke.

Valerie stared back at her and smiled

"Yes Susanna?" She responded

"Uh is Lisa available or should I leave her alone for now?" Susanna asked

"Yeah she's been doing better now. She's in the art room" Valerie responded

Susanna walked all the way down to the art room. She was so eager to show Lisa the writing she was working on. And she couldn't wait to see her. She knocked on the door of the art room

"Anyone in here? Lisa ? honey? Are you in here" Susanna knocked on the door and had brought in a bagel with cream cheese and jelly for her.

After not hearing any answer she walked in and saw many very childish paintings of talking animals from Disney movies. She didn't see Lisa.

"Uh hey Torch have you seen Lisa? I've been looking for her everywhere" Susanna asked

"She's in her room. Yeah she's really quite lately. Ok the second floor" Torch responded

Susanna rushed up to the second floor and knocked on the door of Lisa's room. No answer. Susanna opened the door slightly to see Lisa sleeping next to a pile of coloring books.

"Lisa... Are you feeling ok" Susanna asked

Normally she'd let Lisa sleep. But she was super excited to see to show Lisa what she'd been writing. She also noticed a giant bandage on Lisa's arm. But she wouldn't mention it. Episodes happen sometimes it's nothing to be ashamed of.

"Honey.... Wake up please." Susanna lightly shook Lisa awake

"Mommy no. I want to sleep in today. Maybe we can go to the park. I don't wanna go to school...." Lisa mumbled in an infantile voice.

Susanna didn't think much of it.

"No silly. It's me Susanna. Suzie Q. Yeah I want to show you something" She responded

Lisa finally woke up extremely groggy. And stared at her. She was still stuck in little space. And she immediately grabbed a bottle and fed herself from it. Susanna looked dumbfounded.

"Lisa what the hell are you doing?" Susanna asked her

"Momma...." Lisa mumbled only semi-awake.

"I'm not Momma stop calling me that!Tell me what's going on" Susanna demanded

Lisa looked embarrassed as she had fully woken up

"You promise you won't be mad?" Lisa stared at her desperate for any answer

"I promise." Susanna told her as she kneeled down to look her in her puppy dog eyes

"Sometimes I feel little. I like to act small and do baby things to get people to take care of me. I know it's weird please be nice" Lisa told her looking nervous. Clutching into her stuffed bear for dear life

Susanna graced Lisa's chin and touched her cheek and kissed her forehead.

"Oh honey how adorable" Susanna responded "So do you really see me like your Momma"

"Uh uh. Well you're definitely cooler than her just saying"

Lisa said as she fiddled with her hands and stared at Susanna.

"C'mere Let momma take care of you" Susanna said looking at her

Susanna rested Lisa on her lap and combed her hair. She asked her if she wanted anything which usually involves coloring with her into hours for the night. She read her unfinished drafts to her and all Lisa could manage to make out as a response was to clap and flap her hands. As she kissed her cheek. She let Lisa play as much as she wanted to as long as she let her write in peace. Only problem Lisa was extremely bratty and needy. She'd knock over Susanna's writer supplies when she wanted attention or "accidentally" spill cups of juice. Her favorite was the I'm not touching you game. Susanna did her best not to get pissed. She was so in love with Lisa it just didn't matter. She'd do whatever Lisa wanted. Including helping her rest. Before Susanna left Lisa stared at her once more

"Momma can you uh next time you're over bring me some chicken nuggets please??" she stared at Susanna with her puppy dog eyes again

Susanna smiled at her and replied

"You have to earn that princess ok?"

Sorry this little ficlet is kind of lame. I was sort of thinking of this on the fly. Maybe I'll take requests or something not sure. Just send me anonymous asks

[10moonymhrivertam]

about me

Hello it has been a hot second but I was tagged by @littledreamling​ !!

Nickname: Moony! In some servers where I’m preceded by another Moony I’ve gotten River. No particular irl nicknames, though.

Sign: Libra sun -- i’ve done my other signs before but I regularly forget them 😔

Height: 5′6.5″ (And I’m gonna claim that half because I become an Angry Short Person when there are people taller than me around ;akljdflkaj)

Last thing I googled: either “how to offload ios apps” or “What is hollandaise sauce”. I think it was the offloading because I was trying to update Disney+ to cast Bluey 😅

Song stuck in my head: Sleigh Ride and The Bus Is Late have been trading places for the last two weeks or so.

Number of followers: 896, but not everybody’s active and I haven’t done a bot purge in a couple days.

Amount of sleep: Oh jeez. My sleep’s really fragmented cuz I have a 4 AM job, so I do a lot of like. Nap from 3pm-5 and then “sleep” from ~10-2:30

Dream job: When I was a kid I wanted to be a teacher, but then I got to the point my ADHD started wrecking me and I realized that was w a y too much paperwork for me to be comfy with. If my average ‘finished piece’ wasn’t 500 words my answer would be ‘professional author’. So there isn’t really one right now unfortunately.

Wearing: Walmart Queen shirt and gray fleece pajama pants with elastic ankles. If I get cold I shall add Pikachu slippers and the sweatshirt I got at the work Christmas party

Movies/Books that summarize me: yeah, this does seem like a question-for-others but I’m not brave enough to ask anyone else at home right now ;akljf;akldsj

Favorite Song: uh oh no I have a pretty firm favorite movie now but favorite song is harder. (Favorite movie is Coco and my favorite song from that is probably Poco Loco, but -) Maybe Farewell Wanderlust? I do always end up screaming in tune with it lol

Favorite Instrument: Trombone represent, babey!!!! Great to play, fun to watch, and I love people who do arrangements of whole songs all on trombone! (I want a trombone with an f attachment SO BAD oh my god there are so many lines that would be so easy if I didn’t have to go from sixth to first or seventh to second)

Aesthetic: A three-way split between ‘idk just comfy’, ‘geeky’, and ‘Hello I Am Queer’. ‘idk just comfy’ and ‘geeky’ kind of smoosh together in that most of my comfy t-shirts have a fandom design, but ‘Hello I Am Queer’ consists of a few colors of George polos paired with ties, a rainbow belt, and ball caps worn backwards.

Favorite authors: Diane Duane! I’ve only really read the first few books of Young Wizards and most of Rihansuu but she gets to always stay on the list for namesake reasons. Also Neil Gaiman and Tamora Pierce (I think Circle of Magic has gone out of print which is devastating to me tbh, between the ADHD & several moves I don’t think we have a complete set anymore)

Random fun fact: Hmmm....I’ve made two cross-country (USA) moves, altho I was 2 for the first one XD I went to the 5-5-05 Serenity premiere despite still being in single digits, and there’s a picture of me talking to Adam Baldwin. There’s also a picture of a younger-than-9yo me meeting Mary Pope Osbourne and I believe I also gave her some handwritten Harry Potter/Magic Tree House fanfiction? :P

Lessee....I know it’s been a while since this game was going around, so sorry if I’m double-tagging anyone -- @thebestworstidea, @cant-think-of-anything-creative, and @shippiedippie

And of course, anyone else who sees this and feels inspired! I’d love to be nosy, though, if you wanna drop me a tag :P