#do they scare me sometimes? obviously

[carbonateddelusion]

I know I haven't said much about it, but legitimately, "running away" was one of the most pivotal life decisions I've ever made. Probably THE first major life decision I've made, and also the best. If you have an opportunity to go, leave. Get out of there. If you are not safe at home, emotionally, physically, whatever, and you're able to leave, do it. It's going to suck such major ass for a while because you're going to have to deal with the scars they've left on you, but I wholeheartedly, full-throatedly, with-my-chest promise you that it is going to be better. You're going to be better. If you have the privilege of being able to escape, no matter how difficult it feels, then RUN.

[burninglilys]

ahh, the way mon and sam’s “obliviousness” doesn’t stem from the fact that they’re ignorant of how their relationship looks like, but how acknowledging it would mean acknowledging the ugly, the fragility, the pain that comes with their ever-present feelings. they know that they cannot be together; mon doesn’t know the reason sam is pushed into the corner by k*rk and her grandmother & sam knows the destiny her elder sister has met and is afraid of following those footsteps.

obliviousness here is an easier option for them. only if they pretend that this is what friends do, and only if they pretend to not be aware of how deep their feelings run for each other, and what to call each other, then they can behave in a way their hearts desire.

[briar--rising]

It's very interesting trying to find blogs to follow for cherry alive bc like. Things we like: pink, ribbons, flowers, pretty clothes, baked goods, cute things, fairies, feminine stuff, cottagecore aesthetics, etc etc etc

Things we DO NOT like: misogyny, thinspo, 'i'm just a girly girl who needs a boyfriend to take care of me' (and related), traumacore, lana del rey inspired stuff (her music's fine, the way it's been turned into an aesthetic online bothers me), nymphette stuff (Yikes TM), tradwife stuff (extra Yikes TM), etc etc etc

Like a lot of pink themed blogs have content we find viscerally upsetting and completely antithetical to what I'm trying to make this space into. On my former account I saw a lot of posts criticizing the whole "girlblogging girl dinner" thing but I didn't see a lot of the original content they were responding to. Now I've seen it and I do not like it! I like femininity and fairies and flowers and sunshine. One of my deepest desires in a relationship context is actually a dynamic that includes a certain amount of being taken care of. But like. In a chivalrous butch/femme way not a weird 'girls are incompetent' way. I like so many things that are aesthetically adjacent to a lot of stuff I hate, but at the same time completely opposite from it. Because for me it's about healing and embracing joy and whimsy and magic and sunshine and hope and art, and, to a certain extent, how that stuff interacts for me with gender and femininity and finding joy in my femininity again. It's not about this bizarre 'i'm just a weak little girl' and/or 'i'm a violent girl who's cutesy and cruel' or whatever all that nonsense is. It makes me so sad to see honestly. Like. Idk what you're doing, I'm having fun. You should maybe try it too.

[undertheknightwing]

I loved their short-lived "I hate this fucking family" scenes

[voiceshearingyouloud]

I was kind of complaining to my psychiatrist that I find it difficult to deal with everything going on in my life and I guess she thought I was being self pitying, and she said ‘everyone has something.’ And now I keep thinking about how any one of my ten mental illnesses or five chronic illnesses could have been my ‘something’. Or it could have been my parents abusing me, or me being gay, or being an immigrant.

But I have to deal with all of those things. And I get that everyone else also has a combination of terrible things happen to them, but when I have some horrible experience and I think to myself ‘this could easily be the worst thing in someone’s life’ and it doesn’t even come close to everything else that goes on for me it’s a particular kind of painful.

[kingdomoftyto]

"Carlos, if you could just pause your experiment for a second--if you could only hear me out, hear my hypothesis! I think once you understand the science of the situation, you--" Carlos opened the door. He was crying. She had never seen him cry. He was overwhelmed and unsure of how to express his emotions, since he usually only did so in carefully worded sentences, not with water from his body. "The science of the situation?" he snarled. "That Otherworld. I was trapped there, Nilanjana. I couldn't see Cecil for ten lonely years. I was kept away from the people I love, in that desolate place where you never get hungry and you never have to drink water and so you never live. It is a place that devours. It is a place that is empty. That is the science of the situation, and I study it so I can fix it. Only I can do that. Only these experiments can do that. I'm sorry, Nilanjana; I'm not going to stop so you can tell me what science is."

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[blamemma]

i know this is controversial to say, but i wish more fic had sad endings

[arbitrarystrawberry]

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[nagitoedit]

still it was sooooooo funny and uncomfortable at the psych appointment because she saw ? somewhere in papers/files that my mom and dad divorced in.... 2015 i think and shes all like "so.... usually divorce causes problems in children... how was that for you was it hard on you...?" acting all nervous/gentle like lmaooooo thats not even the worst part i dont think i cared about the divorce In Comparison to Everything Else. hed been abusive to my mom and generally neglectful not great to us (me and sibling) and theyd been separated for 6 years before the divorce because he kept going to jail for drug related things which he would often steal money from us for it and generally made my moms life hell by like manipulating and emotionally abusing her and hed have violent tantrums where he broke things (there are still holes in the walls and other damage in the house from him) and also sorta ruined our lives a bit and then in 2019 he was accused of some crime and he ran away to escape getting arrested or whatever and i think legally he is classified as a missing person and we dont even know if hes alive or not.

so like the divorce was whatever to me i guess.

[formulapisces]

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[coloursofaparadox]

>:[

[you-are-my-neverland]

taking a creative writing intro course this fall and i’m so, so excited!!!!

[formulatrash]

truly don't understand people who apparently find out who Max Fewtrell is enough to post hate in the tag like man this is not exactly the world's biggest controversy. former F3 driver is nice bloke who people are fond of, happens to be friends with F1 driver. not quite sure what level of hate you have to have in your heart to make up reasons to call a guy unemployed.

[elytrafemme]

friendship is cool bc you get to have these funny little guys who make you happy and become a better person or whatever and laugh a lot. but then there’s the horrors (trying to see and message them frequently enough when you know you can’t possibly juggle all of them all at once and never knowing the best answer)

[zemnarihah]

much to think about.

[mintsilhouette]

me: It would be great to once, just once, write a normal-sized chapter that is not TOTALLY unhinged in terms of length 

the chapter in question: 11,000 WORDS SO FAR AND WE’RE NOT EVEN DONE YET, BABY

me: