while listening to christmas music tonight, a thought struck me while merry christmas by ed sheeran & elton john was playing, specifically in this part:
this would be good for a christmas-themed azriacrow/ineffable spouses fic.
[would write it myself but i don’t have the spoons to rn]
Guys, if you have taken a look at Ed Sheeran's new album, oh my gosh, isn't When Will I Be Alright such a Grayson song? Like literally, the lyrics describe him to a T:
And then:
His mentality captured perfectly in one song and the struggles he's faced, mostly what he was like in The Brothers Hawthorne.
Going on vacation with family is literal TORTURE when you have an ed
Like nooooooo lets take a nap instead of going to some restaurant where they won’t have a break down of how many calories are in each thing they serve and wether they cook something in butter or oil and serve greasy fries
Like I personally go on vacation to relax and thinking about getting fat is not relaxing
18 is the only song Ed Sheeran wrote specifically for One Direction, and only one he wrote from their perspective. To me, it refers to I Wish You Would which Taylor wrote about Harry while on the Red Tour with Ed. Like Tenerife Sea, I think it is about Taylor from Harry's perspective. The Spotify vertical video focuses on Harry and Zayn who primarily sing it:
To Smallzy in September, 2014 Ed said, both that his songs are generally about a specific person and he also talked about writing 18 for One Direction:
"I wasn't gonna do it again because there was lots of ..ah.. basically, my record label got very annoyed that my first #1 was a song that I gave to someone else, and they were kind of like "don't do it. I did Britain's got Talent and basically Simon Cowell invited me up to eat and talk. And he mentioned it and in my head I was like 'I just just want to focus on my stuff' and the next day I was in Copenhagen and I got an idea and I kind of went into the shower room that's big and reverbartive and I wrote it thought that sounds like something for them. It's not something I would use for myself. It was written specifically for them and it's cool" Smallzy asks about Taylor he if he had helped with 1989, Ed "that's all her, all throughout of her doing it I heard little bits of it all throughout. Everything she does is a certain quality, it is going to satisfy any fan of hers."
Simon Cowell tells a similar story. Taylor also told Ryan Seacrest and others she played 1989 to Ed while on the Red Tour together.
The '...ah...' it is interesting, because although Ed and Harry stayed close, Ed did not write a song for Midnight Memories. There is a rumour this is about Don't. Ed did write Tenerife Sea, another song from Harry's perspective about Taylor in 2013 - that's on Ed's Multiply. This helps determine which Britain's got talent appearance he was referring to.
Timeline
Ed was on Britain's Got Talent twice, both were live shows, which narrows down when this song was written to 2 days, the day after:
8 June, 2013, Ed and Taylor performed Everything Has Changed together, or
27 May, 2014, Ed performed Sing.
Either is possible, but I am inclined to focus on 2014, because it's on Four and Ed did not write for Midnight Memories, which June would have made. In May 2014:
24 May 2014 Ed and One Direction both performed on the main stage of the Radio 1 Big Weekend in Glasgow. Harry and Taylor were seemingly back together. 2 squad members, Lorde and Lily Allen, also played. Taylor was in New York that morning then disappeared for 6 days, Harry off 3 of those.
25 & 26 May 2014 - ED & Taylor MIA, 1D have a few days off, Harry is seen in London playing a celebrity football game.
27 May 2014 - Ed performs on Britain's Got Talent in London, Taylor and Harry MIA.
28 May 2014 - Ed said he wrote the song in Copenhagen the next day, he wasn't seen. 1D UK show, Taylor still MIA.
5 June 2014 - Ed seen in London, Simon Cowell said he gave him the song a week after Britain's Got Talent.
Live Performances
Ed has never performed 18, he has performed other songs he gave to other artists, it may be that it was never written for him or it could be that others charted higher. One Direction added 18 to the OTRA setlist with No Control on 13 June 2015, replacing One Thing. It hasn't been on any solo 1D concert setlists. (It's at 33 mins here)
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Since we were 16 honey
Harry once said “I have love you since we were 16 honey” after the chorus. Noting the song was only performed June - December 2015 I think Harry is taking the piss of Louis and Larries. 1D met industry people in LA before he turned 17 and Taylor was in town there, and there were times in late 2015 Harry and Taylor were in the UK and seemingly in contact with Colour IG posts and Haylor surprise songs from Taylor, so while Harry did potentially know Taylor at 16 I think this line is trolling .
Lyrics
I got a heart, and I got a soul
Believe me, I will use them both
We made a start
Be it a false one, I know
Baby, I don't want to feel alone
The opening verse is about a relationship that ended (false start) and not wanting to feel alone. To me, this is referring to the events of 2012/2013 and that relationship ending, Ed, being good friends with Harry while on tour with Taylor, hearing 1989 as it was written would have been keenly aware. He wrote Tenerife Sea in that time.
This verse, like the song to me sounds like it is written for Harry's voice. The verse is describing someone close to the narrator that ended. Later, in Olivia Harry sings of being alone "When you go and I'm alone"
So kiss me where I lay down
My hands pressed to your cheeks
A long way from the playground
The end of this verse 'long way from the playground' tells us this is a love that started when they were young. Taylor uses school and childhood as a metaphor for One Direction and this young love, including in the MV for EHC which Ed co-wrote, and Suburban Legends.
I have loved you since we were 18
Long before we both thought the same thing
To be loved and to be in love
All I can do is say that these arms
Are made for holding you, oh-oh
I wanna love like you made me feel
When we were 18
The 1D boys all dated people different ages to them, however Harry and Taylor started officially dating when Harry was 18. I think Ed's simplified this to 'we were 18'.
"Long before we both thought the same thing", to me, is referring to I wish you would and the way Taylor described it. IWYW was written 27 May 2013 while on the US Red Tour with Ed who was likely to have heard it then.
The end of the Chorus is telling us this is a relationship that had come back, much like Taylor had written Style a few months earlier.
We took a chance
God knows we tried
Yet all along, I knew we'd be fine
So pour me a drink, oh love
And let's split the night wide open
And we'll see everything we can
Living love in slow motion, motion, motion
This verse is so much like Harry and Taylors later work which makes me think it must be a referring to a conversation or pattern:
Drinking
Delicate: But you can make me a drink
Satellite: We share the last line / Then we drink the wall / 'Til we wanna talk
Fine Line: We'll get the drinks in and I'll get to thinking of her
Time and slow motion
Olivia: And time is irrelevant when I've not been seeing you
Gold Rush: I don’t like slow motion, double vision in rose blush
Midnight Rain: My boy was a montage, a slow motion love potion
“Slut!”: Half asleep, taking your time in the tangerine neon light
So kiss me where I lay down
My hands pressed to your cheeks
A long way from the playground
Harry's unreleased Lay down also has arms around his muse, without knowing a clear era for Lay Down the inspiration could go either way with those. "Lay down with me (I put my arms around ya)" I am inclined to think Harry referenced Ed.