#everyone else posts all their random thoughts 24/7 all the time so

[theloveinc]

would it weird if i like. LMAO. ...

[youneedsomeprompts]

~ FORBIDDEN LOVE ~ PROMPTS about secret dating

requested by: various anons requests: I saw the "Forbidden Love" prompts, mostly about not admitting to themselves / each other, and it really made me yearn for forbidden love prompts where they're together but they have to hide it from everyone else; one sided “keeping a relationship hidden from coworkers”; can you post prompts about two oblivious people who are already dating but the other people don't know they're dating? dialogues or scenarios would do<3 thank you and love your prompt contents!

Feel free to use and reblog!

Part 1: ~ FORBIDDEN LOVE ~ PROMPTS about confessing a forbidden crush Part 2: ~ FORBIDDEN LOVE ~ PROMPTS about showing love without confessing

Setting/scenario:

#1 - keeping it secret at first because they didn't think it would turn into something that serious anyway #2 - enjoying the thrill of the secrecy #3 - being unsure whether that nervous feeling in their stomach is coming from their feelings for the other or the fact the relationship has to be kept a secret #4 - it's killing them that they have no one they can share their thoughts about their new relationship with #5 - making up the most random excuses to secretly meet up with the other #6 - screaming internally because they're having a date but they can't talk about it #7 - trying to act casual and unsuspicious in public when they're together but it's so hard #8 - teasing the other because they know how hard it is for them to keep their affection/arousal to themselves #9 - making promises that they don't have to keep it secret for much longer (but is it really realistic?) #10 - developing a method to communicate in code #11 - keeping it secret to protect the other #12 - keeping it secret until better times come #13 - making up for keeping it secret by extremely romantic/spoiling dates when they're alone #14 - wanting to fix everything before making the other their official s/o #15 - finding it the least stressful way to date to just keep it secret #16 - enjoying their little, happy secret because that way, no one can ruin it/take it from them #17 - it's like living in two completely separate worlds because their relationship is something that just exists between the two of them and the time together is always otherworldly #18 - wanting to stay in their happy dream world forever #19 - making plans for the future together, even though they don't know where they will be tomorrow #20 - they're keeping the other's love letters hidden under their pillow even though they know how risky it is

Dialogue:

#21 - "You're the most precious thing to me. So, I have to keep you as safe as possible." #22 - "Ah, I'm glad to have you finally to myself." #23 - "When I'm with you, it's like the earth stood still. I'm never so at peace." #24 - "You know, I really don't want to imagine what would happen if the others knew." #25 - "We have to be more careful. This was really a close call." #26 - "Do you really think it's necessary we keep it secret for much longer?" #27 - "I'm doing this for you. You're much better off when the others don't know." "You always say that. But I'm not sure if I still believe it." #28 - "It's not ideal but hell would break lose if it came out. I'm really glad we have the moments of peace. And intimacy." #29 - "Could you have imagined that we would someday end up like this?" #30 - "You're the best that happened to me. And I can tell no one about it. But I want to shout it from the rooftops." "Oh, you better don't. But you can always whisper it to my ear." #31 - "Isn't it fun to have this secret?" #32 - ^ "That's one way to call it." #33 - "I was really impressed how you handled that earlier. So cool. So smooth. So casual. As if I hadn't just made you whimper and made your eyes roll back minutes prior." #34 - "It's all worth it. I would risk it all again just to be with you." #35 - "Do you really think this is a good idea? They could find us." #36 - "You'll be the death of me." #37 - "To be honest, it's pretty funny to see you acting so unfazed and oblivious when we both know you were still thinking about me being naked." #38 - ^ "I always think about you being naked. It's not as if it's a new challenge to keep a straight face." #39 - "But you do know that I'm doing this all for you, right? Otherwise, I couldn't care less." "But you have to act as if you were in for the thing itself. They cannot connect you to me." #40 - "One day, I will carry you off to a place where it's just us. So, be prepared to be kindly abducted one day, alright?"

[everpresence]

stop caring about what others think: the law perspective

hi, everyone! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

i've thought about writing this post for a while, especially since this is a mindset that i am freeing myself from. i know i'm not the only one who grew up in the state of being a people pleaser, so this is for people who were programmed to neglect their own desires and give in to pressure from family, friends, and society.

the other day, my mom noticed that i had a really long gray strand of hair. i didn't believe her at first, but when she pulled it out and showed it to me, i was shocked. it looked like it had been there for months, and i wondered to myself what i did for this to happen.

seth said that your physical body is a reflection of your beliefs, or your dominant dwelling state. if you notice that there is something "wrong" with your body, then you must first look into your thoughts and emotions over the last few weeks, months, etc.

Physical symptoms are communications from the inner self, indications that we are making mental errors of one kind or another. ♡ Seth (channeled by Jane Roberts), The Seth Material

after seeing that gray hair, i knew that it was because of stress. okay, what was i stressed about? i started looking back into what i had dwelt on over the last few months, and i realized that i was stressed out about a lot of things. what stood out, though, was my inner conversations about my family. i was mainly dwelling on what my family thought of me, whether i was worthy of their approval or not, if they were proud of me, etc.

in other words, i cared way too much about how they think and feel about me that it had translated to not only having that long gray strand of hair, it also translated to other physical symptoms (chronic fatigue, chest pain, rashes).

and not only did it translate to those physical symptoms, it also translated to my thoughts, emotions, and the events i was experiencing in the 3D. in other words, everything out here is a reflection of your inner state of being. the cause is always inner.

i found myself feeling more anxious about talking to my parents, wishing that they didn't bring up anything that i really don't want to do. i even avoided them for a certain period of time because of this fear. and since the law is always working 24/7, they ended up bringing it up way more often since i frequently dwelt on what i don't want to hear.

thankfully, though, if i decide to do the opposite (i.e., dwelling on what i want to hear instead), then the 3D has no choice but to outpicture what i choose to experience with my inner senses.

when you consistently dwell on people pleasing, on your fears and doubts about your family, peers, etc., these are all going to be translated into your thoughts, your emotions, your physical body, your experience—everything.

when you care too much about what other people think, when you consent to someone else's limiting beliefs about reality, when you care about external validation, it is only hindering your infinite potential. you are only going to experience such limitations and unhappiness in your reality because you chose to try to fit into someone else's box.

As long as you're in a state of consciousness where you care so much what other people think and what their attitudes will be, you're not going to get very far. ♡ Reverend Ike, "Your Unconscious Fear of Success Affirmation"

i am not saying this as a way to fearmonger, or to blame, or to guilt-trip you. that's not my intention.

i am saying this for you to fully realize the connection between your inner world and your outer world.

nothing is random. nothing is an accident. you are always getting what you concentrated upon, and therefore, you ultimately have the responsibility to choose what reality you want to experience.

you're the only one that can free yourself from these states. no one else can do that for you.

the more you focus on being true to yourself, the more you shift your focus from making other people happy to letting yourself be happy, the more you're going to experience the happiness that comes with the authenticity of your unique being.

yes, it might feel hard to do so at first, but that's because we have made a habit out of wanting to please other people and being rewarded with external validation. it is what we have gotten used to since the beginning of our lives.

however, if you want to be the best version of yourself, you must give up all inner conversations about what other people think of you, that what they think about you matters. stop the arguments in your head. their thoughts and opinions about you have no power over you unless you choose to give it to them. it only matters what you think and feel about yourself.

your inner world is your refuge, where every single reality you desire to experience and is already promised to you exists in this present moment. everything is happening all at once. here, you can experience how it'd feel now that you are free to be yourself, to do whatever you want, to be unconditionally loved and accepted no matter what. you must make this a habit, and the more often you do this, the easier it gets.

I must consciously return to my new state constantly. I must feel its naturalness, like my own bed at night. At first the new state seems unnatural, like wearing a new suit or hat. Although no one knows your suit is new, you are so conscious of it you think everyone is looking at you. You are aware of its fit and its feeling until it becomes comfortable. So it is with your new state. At first you are conscious of its strangeness; but with regular wearing, the new state becomes comfortable, and its naturalness causes you to constantly return to it, thereby making it real. ♡ Neville Goddard, "The Perfect Image"

if you find yourself going back to those old inner conversations, don't beat yourself up over it. don't criticize yourself. it's okay. consciousness is the only reality, but you are also having a human experience. you are on your own journey, and this is completely normal. be gentle with yourself and let those thoughts and emotions pass over, as they are only temporary. then choose to continue to let yourself dwell on who you really want to be within.

to wrap this post up, i have a song recommendation :]

i stumbled upon this song on spotify by paris hilton which features rina sawayama (I LOVE HER BTW RAHHHHHH). perhaps the lyrics will resonate with you guys and allow yourselves to enter the feeling of being your authentic self.

[bonny-kookoo]

Heyaa Bonny!

Have you thought of doing a siberianhusky!hybrid reader or for BTS? It will be so much fun to read!!

Hm, not really? But I could give some random headcanons for it? Husky-reader x ot7, Let's see...

Let's be real, Namjoon is gonna LOVE going on long hikes, walks, or bike rides with her

Takes her on every trip he can

Researches ways to keep her otherwise occupied with something if she needs to stay alone

Reads up every hybrid book he can find to make sure he's prepared for everything

Always makes sure to give positive feedback to make sure she doesn't ever feel inferior just because she's a hybrid

I can see Jin causing mischief with her 24/7

Don't look once and suddenly he's running around outside at night shooting fireworks

(I imagine like he did in the morning during the soop)

Keeps sneaking treats for her

Like, randomly feeds her a piece or watermelon or something out of the blue

She trusts him blindly though, never hesitates to accept anything he gives her even if it doesn't end up being her taste

Like how he gave her a piece of a grapefruit once and she just went 💀

Laughed but still got her something else she likes as apology

Jimin looooves cuddles and helping her with skincare etc

Brushes out her hair and fluffy tail almost every night

Gets her a stuffed animal every time he's away on a trip

Taehyung I can see being playfully romantic with her

Calls her pretty just to see her tail wag

This guy buys way too many collars for her

We're talking spoiled princess type

Sparkly rhinestones, gems, unique designs and patterns, velvet, you name it

He basically turned a horribly demeaning necessity into something uniquely beautiful

Started a 'trend' (or more a competition) for idols to buy designer collars for their hybrids now

Actually connected her with expensive brands to 'model' hybrid accessories (pretty much in the band's name)

That's when Hoseok comes in

He flaunts her

Like, brings her along to EVERY solo schedule he has just to show her off

Brings her to music video shootings, meetings, everything

Posts so many pictures of her

Yoongi just enjoys the quiet times

Whenever she needs time to wind down she just stays with him in his studio or close to him in general

As soon as something makes her anxious: Yoongi-time

He will quietly talk and reassure her

Bonus points for cuddling, running his hand over her back and head

Best Naps are taken with yoongs

10/10 no matter what time of day

Jungkook = Instant zoomies

He WILL get her to howl randomly just to anniy the other members for fun

Makes a game out of EVERYTHING

Quietly sitting on the floor? He will try and catch your tail out of the blue

Outside for a walk? Sudden game of tag

But at the same time he can just be as quiet as Yoongi

Bath times are spent together

If you're sick he's not leaving you alone ever

If he needs to go to the toilet he'll just holler for someone to look over you during his short absence instead

Overall everyone would love her

I can imagine her being a bit more withdrawn at first, especially if she's newly 'adopted'

And let's be real, they won't be instantly comfortable either

But as soon as the ice is broken they'll all just become inseparable

Maybe she's also special? As in, a floppy ear due to an accident, or her eyes are not the same color, or she's got anxiety and needs meds for it etc

Either way she's gonna be SPOILED like a princess

They Will probably set new standards for hybrids

11/10 will donate and advocate for hybrid-organisations that fight for their rights and better treatment

Everyone always makes headlines like 'member x did something unexpected with their hybrid- and its making everybody swoon' or 'member x sets new standards for the treatment of hybrids with his new Instagram post'

Oh oh and fancams! Yes, of HER

At award shows, backstage, during concerts whenever fans can catch a glance

There's compilations like 'Y/N causing chaos for 12 minutes straight' or 'Y/N's peak husky behavior part 3'

Hybrids are basically fans of HER, if not just the band

Fanmade photocards lol

Oh God and don't get me started if it's her birthday

Billboards, cafes and everything

She's gonna be dubbed the 'nation's best girl' oh my

Oh God what have you done to me please

Have mercy

I love her now

God damnit

🥲

[starsinmylatte]

Hi, can I ask for F, G, and R from the smut headcanons (for the hot blue man) and maybe also Y if you want/have enough time? Love your writing, keep up the fine work (of giving us Thrawn girls things to feast on)

Thank you, Anon, my beloved!! I have a solemn duty to feed my fellow Thrawn Girlies (gn) 💜🥰

Original smut headcanon post here

Other letters I've answered: Q, S, Z || E, M, and W

Warnings: There really aren't any for this one besides NSFW. It's sweet and intimate here, besties.

F: Firsts (First time having sex together)

Any first with Thrawn is going to be so deeply passionate. He isn't one for random flings, and I don't think he's much for escort services (although he'd respect the profession). For him to truly find release in the arms of someone else, he'd have to trust them, and that in itself is an incredibly tricky thing given his position. Needless to say, anyone Thrawn is having sex with is important to him and has been for a time. Because of that, he is absolutely determined to show them how much he cares.

Every touch, kiss, and caress is filled with hunger and Thrawn's pure desire for intimacy with you. The sex isn't necessarily gentle, it's more reverent. He doesn't treat you like you'll break because he knows you won't.

I feel in my soul that there are probably multiple rounds, but the very first one is Thrawn trying to manifest his feelings for you into a physical form of intimacy. It's slow and intimate lovemaking, but the implication behind it is obvious... your souls are entwining as much as your bodies are.

G: Gentle (Describe gentle/loving mid-sex gestures)

Thrawn is the type to break the pace at which he's fucking you to take a devastatingly slow roll of his hips, press a kiss to your temple, and murmur something to you in Cheunh.

When you learn more of his native tongue, you realize that he's telling you how beautiful you are. Thrawn calls you his beloved, precious, and more, whispering all that you mean to him and just how amazing you are against your skin.

He's also the type to hold your hand while he fucks you, lacing his fingers through yours while you cry out in pleasure.

R: Ruttish (Signs that they’re horny)

His eyes glow brightly when the two of you are alone and he wants physical intimacy. Thrawn is able to hide it (to an extent) when others are around or if the timing isn't appropriate.

That being said, it's also very similar to how they glow when he's excited or intrigued by something. Only like three people probably know him well enough to tell the difference, so he is able to find an easy excuse.

Thrawn also gets handsy when he's in the mood, his voice gets a little deeper, and his accent comes back. Even if he can't get as handsy as he'd like, he still manages clandestine touches of your hand or shoulder. They are touches that seem mundane to everyone, but you know exactly what they mean.

Y: Yawn (How they sleep post-sex)

Alright, there's a certain level of "light sleeper" you have to be when you can be called on at any moment for an emergency (ask me how I know this lmao), and Thrawn is basically on 24/7 call as a Grand Admiral.

That being said, his sleep patterns are interesting. He sleeps better next to his beloved, especially after sex.

Thrawn, the infamous tactician and Grand Admiral of the Seventh Fleet is a clingy cuddler. He needs to feel his beloved is safe in his arms and his preferred sleeping position is any that allows him to fully wrap himself around his partner.

When Thrawn is alone, he tends to wander into his office at 0200 when he has an important thought, or because he needs a fresh perspective on a piece of art he's studying, but when his beloved is sleeping next to him, he's a little more conscious of what is imminently important and what can wait until morning. Thrawn's desire to not disturb his lover actually backfires into him taking better care of himself, too.

[saltygilmores]

Thoughts While Watching Gilmore Girls, Season 2, Episode 13 ("A Tisket A Tasket") Part 3 of ????

Parts 1 & 2 and all of my previous pickings-apart can be found in my pinned post. Where we last left off, RoryGil appeared to be in deep contemplation about the current shitshow that is her life.

Rory and Jess embark on their Shitshow Picnic, then we cut to Jackson trying to buy Sookie's basket back from Kirk, who complains about the lack of carrot sticks in the basket before proceeding to trauma- dump on Jackson (not about carrots but about how no one loves him). Kirk also looks like he is questioning existence.

Jackson quickly whips out a checkbook which he apparently carries with him at all times (because it's 2002) and pays Kirk $250, and after popping that number into an inflation calculator, Jackson paid Kirk the 2023 equivalent of $423 for a picnic basket with no carrot sticks. Not only does Stars Hollow need group therapy I think they could use a group audit to see exactly where some of these people are getting their money.

As If a checkbook didn't age this show enough, the cut to a payphone immediately afterwards finishes the job quite nicely. You guys are waiting for that whole Rory and Jess on the bridge thing aren't you. Well, let's keep it moving then. It feels like a minute since we've heard some Luke Danes Wisdom. Lorelai (sitting in the gazebo with Luke): We're supposed to be eating a picnic on the ground. Luke: Every time I've seen a picture of people eating on the ground, I've thought, "What the hell are you people doing eating on the ground? Spring for some beach chairs ya cheapskates." Finding the payphone broken (which puts a dent in her complicated scheme to meet Henry), Lane comes running to Lorelai to ask if she has her cellphone. In the third moment of the show aging itself in under a minute, Lane asking Lorelai if she's carrying her cellphone reminds us that the few people who did have cellphones during this time period didn't always carry them 24/7. Somehow even though this is early 2002 Lane (and everyone else seen using a cellphone) manages to get perfect reception at a random spot of her choosng which is honestly pretty impressive for a town that I'm convinced is still a good 10 years away (at LEAST) from getting cable TV and moving away from dial-up internet.

"Morality in an ever-changing world." What do the people of The Hollow know about morality or world-changing? Stars Hollow never fucking changes. Ever. Changes? No one noticed Luke mis-spelled "tomatoes" on his menu board and let that shit slide for a good 6 years. The citizens thought a drawing in sidewalk chalk was the height of immorality. Well, maybe Lorelai could stand to listen to a sermon or two about the immmorality of sleeping with your daughter's underage boyfriend, but I digress. (I really wanted just wanted an excuse to write "Speaking of Satan" and introduce Dean back into the story, but instead it's Henry.

Because this show loves to do poor Lane so, SO SOOO dirty, Henry called Lane's house when she didn't call from the payphone as she promised. Much to Lane's relief, he somehow managed to trick Mrs Kim into thinking he was just a telemarketer and not A Boy (or so he thinks). But afer hearing Lane describe another insane scheme she's cooked up to hide him from her mother, he's tired of playing games.

Wahhhhh my heart breaks for Lane. In my gritty adult Gilmore Girls reboot titled The Hollow all of the women who were dealt an unfair hand on this show will be made whole again. Lane will reunite with Dave or Henry and live happily ever after, Lindsay will have Dean Forrester's head in her freezer, and so on and so forth. Henry says he can't be breaking up with Lane because he's never actually been out with her. He says I want to be able to pick you up, get out of the car, take you out somewhere. And then he has to TWIST THE KNIFE IN MY POOR GIRL'S HEART JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE.

SPOILER ALERT/TRIGGER WARNING: UNABASHED CRUELTY AHEAD

*her I AM NO LONGER TEAM HENRY. THAT PIECE OF SHIT. That was the most heartbreaking thing I've witnessed on this show up to this point!!!! JUSTICE FOR LANE!!!!! LANE AND DAVE ONLY!!!!!! And the cherry on top of the Shit Sundae for poor poor Lane is that of course Mrs. Kim has caught on and is none too happy and they scream at each other.

This coat.... and these pants. *deep breath* Look, Jesstopher, I love you and you know you're the only fictional character I'd go to the ends of the earth for. And I'm sorry your uncle is clueless and wears the same thing every day and couldn't style another person no less a child to save his life and I'm also sorry that it's a miracle you even survived your Mom's parenting and she has a very busy schedule of Full Time Child Neglect so making sure her son wears properly fitting clothes is low on her list of prorities. I'm sorry neither cared enough to make sure you didn't look like Vincent Adultman from BoJack Horseman.

Another perfect "okuh" that no silent screen shot could ever capture.

When it comes to Rory and Jess, sometimes I like to quiet my Snark for a moment and just enjoy. Jess tells Rory that he bid on her basket because seeing Dean get annoyed makes him laugh. Any time Jess tries to annoy Dean to get closer to Rory, an angel gets its wings.

I know you don't, but when you're dating such a putz like Dean, That's kinda written in the contract. Date Dean Forrester, lose your will to live. Read the fine print. I just remembered there's still almost another full season left before Jess and Rory are officially dating.

The lighting in this scene is really beautiful to me, and the way the light hits MIlo's face here makes him look angelic.

I can never un-see Milo and Alexis falling in love in real life through their characters. Once you know it will never escape you. It will burrow into your brain, much like the worms in whatever slop Rory put into that Tupperware. I'm tempted to say Rory missed another opportunity to poison Dean's food (like the time she baked him cookies but didn't add poison to the batter), but since Jess ended up eating it instead and because it would be very obvious that she was the perpetrator since it was her basket, I won't hold it against her this time. Keep trying, Rory Gil.

Well, this screen shot isn't exactly going on the cover of People's Sexiest Men Alive magazine any time soon but he speaks the truest four words in Gilmoredom.

There are still 18 minutes left in this episode. HOW???!!! Part 4 coming whenever.

[arionawrites]

arionawrites updated writeblr intro

who the hell am i?

my name is ariona! i also go by ari (common nickname), rio (occasional nickname), and whatever the hell else people wanna call me (within reason). fun fact, my childhood nickname was bird because when i started talking i apparently sounded like a parrot (:

i’m in my mid-twenties (23 as of posting this; turning 24 in march!) and i have been writing since i was in the second grade, or about 7-8 years old. i’ve wanted to be a published author since the fourth grade (10 years old). i have yet to achieve that “published” thing, but i’m working towards it every day and am hoping to have something published somewhere by the time i’m 25 (or while i’m 25, i’m not too picky lol)

i’m a chronically ill lesbian who tries to include type one diabetic characters in everything i write and almost exclusively write queer characters.

i currently work in before and after school childcare, though i am in the process of finding a new job that provides me better stability as well as the time to be able to focus on my writing more. my hope is some kind of office job, or, even better, something in a library!

what kind of things do i write?

it honestly depends on the vibes, man. i’m happy to write (almost) every genre so long as i have a story idea that fits it that i want to write. however, i do have some common things that i tend to write more often than the rest, such as:

queer romance (usually the romance part is not the primary focus, though i do have a sapphic romance novel in the works)

modern fantasy

coming of age

found family

complex and complicated family dynamics

i also have a tendency to post weird little ramble-y thought pieces in random points in time (would it count as poetry? i honestly don’t know). if you’re interested to seeing any of it, my writing tag is #ariwrites !! i’ll add the tag to this post as well for convenience sake!

what projects do i currently have?

so, here’s the thing: i struggle with completing things and tend to have a bunch of new ideas and kind of leave old ideas in the dust. because of this, i’ve decided to take almost all of my current projects and scrap them? actually, scrap isn’t the right word - i’m starting from scratch with a majority of them! i think there are some ideas that i can actually combine into one story rather than them being separate, and a lot of it is just a kind of conglomerated mess that i am in the process of detangling in order to move forward in a more coherent and structured way. however, i do have two projects that i am not starting from complete scratch. i am remaking the outlines for these two stories, though, and then rewriting them from the beginning!

here are those two projects:

rotten

a zombie apocalypse scenario that i originally started writing as a nanowrimo project in 2022 that i did not complete. matter of fact, i only got a couple of chapters in before the spark fizzled out. however, i love the characters i have created and the bones of the story i had in mind, which is why i am choosing to restructure the outline and try again. it will likely change quite a bit as i remake the outline and iron out the details in new ways, but the basic breakdown of the story is this: it’s three years into an apocalypse that has left a mere remnant of humanity in its wake. we have a cast of four main characters (maybe six, depending on how you look at it). one is an older brother taking care of his siblings, both of whom have yet to reach double digits in age. one is a grumpy pessimist who thinks it’s pointless building bonds when everyone else she knew before is almost definitely dead and anyone else she meets will end up dead, too. one is a former optimist who has been weighed down by the realism the apocalypse has forced upon him, who hates being alone (being lonely) but has been betrayed by every single person he has come across since the fight to survive began, and he doesn’t really know what to do about that anymore. one was raised privileged and pampered by a paranoid and eccentric millionaire who was also absolutely certain that doomsday was inevitable (hey, turns out he was right!) and therefore raised his daughter teaching her every survival skill he could and preparing her for the worst, so she is, realistically, the best person to have on your side in an apocalypse—and yet she has been alone the entirety of the three years. all of them are queer and all of them will have to learn that they can rely on one another after stumbling into each other’s lives. also, despite only one of them being the older brother of those kids, the other three will eventually come to an agreement that they would burn the rest of what’s left of the world if it meant keeping them warm, so that’s cool, i guess.

hot chocolate

this is the sapphic romance novel i mentioned above! started writing it on a whim with literally zero plan for it last year, made it my camp nano project, and somehow managed to hit 30k words before the lack of preparation caught up with me. the title is a working title and might change upon the rewrite, but i absolutely adore this story so far and am very excited to get an outline busted out so that i can get back to writing it. the breakdown is this: mallory james moves in with her big brother when she’s eighteen. it’s the summer after her graduation and every single plan that she had for her future has been rendered pointless and now she’s trying to find her footing in a life that is completely different from the one she had been living only a few months ago. her brother, eddie, is going to do his best to be there for her and help her heal, but mallory doesn’t want to heal. she doesn’t even want to acknowledge that there’s anything she needs to heal from. unsure of what to do next, she enrolls in the local community college and meets a few people who somehow manage to become her kinda sorta friends — ellie, ash, and bee. featuring sapphic love, healing from loss and family trauma, finding stability and reason in an unexpected place, and a side character who is definitely polyamorous but entirely unaware that that’s a thing he’s able to be.

alright, i think that’s all i want to put here! i’ll definitely edit this with updates as information changes and as old projects become new again and things like that, but it’s a new year (the fact that i’m posting this in february is absolutely not important at all) and i’m trying to make ‘24 something worthwhile. if you’ve read this far, thank you so much and i hope everyone is having an incredible day/night !!

[urashindig]

Welcome one, welcome all, to the Urashindig!

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Hello everyone! We come bearing challenges! This was originally going to be a week-long bleach ship challenge but we thought it'll be more fun if it was 24/7 365.

Essentially this is going to be a challenge-centered urashin event in which participants can write/draw. Each challenge is sectioned into tiers of difficultly (labeled masterfully by mod mix as varying degrees of cooked egg) and you are encouraged to do whatever you find would be the most fun or the most comfortable.

The only prompt you have to go on is to portray urashin in some fashion. Showcase their dynamic in whatever way you see fit. 

Below the read more line will be the actual challenges!

FAQ

Over-Easy

Rainbow- have a character who’s clothing/appearance/powers appear in each color of the rainbow [red orange yellow green blue purple

The rainbow one but names of people this time and the first letter of their names make an acronym that spells urashin 

That idea you always wanted to create but never thought anyone would be interested in? go make it

Redraw a meme with urashin :3

Medium rare 

The sugarberry challenge- write it all in one go, no edits, no looking back, no planning, grasp the first idea that hooks you and write it all out and hit post while making the :3 face, or a continuous line drawing

You can only use monotone colors (black, gray, white) for lineart, coloring and shading (optional)

Redraw a panel with kisuke and shinji as a re-imagining (any panel existing with the both of them can be used and it must be colored and lined!); should incorporate personal elements or interpretations of the scene

Start a fic from the very ending (like how you write a mystery, figure out the mystery and work backwards)

Hard boiled

Write a fic without using the letter K or S (or both, dealer’s choice, if you really want to spice it up) 

Draw a simple piece with your non dominant hand 

You must write a fic only using words the same length or less than the names Shinji, Hirako, Kisuke, or Urahara. (ex: kisuke has six letters so you can only use words six letters or less throughout the fic)

Pointillism. 

Ultimate fried rice 

Write a fic composed entirely of palindrome sentences. 

Draw a piece entirely upside down (no drawing it normally and then flipping it upside down)

Mystery box

Mystery boxes will come in segments and are a bit of a surprise thing (hence the name) so send an ask if you want one!

Buddy 

Write the ending of a fic, get some else to write the beginning for you

One person finds a bunch of images (don’t have to match up really it can be random) and the other person has to create a cohesive piece with those pictures (can be literal like modeling from them or symbolism)

Person A writes about 200 words, and then Person B has to continue it with only the last sentence from Person A’s writing. This switches between them about 5 times (1000 words). The two people essentially don’t know what the fic is going to look like until the end

[a-spell-a-rebel-yell]

December

hello everyone, i know it's already day 23 of January 2024, literal almost a month after the month ends and is already on another year, but at least i'm here yaaay (i really need to start writing the monthly post a week before said month ends 😭)

December was actually, just as thrilling cliff-hanging as November! thing is my countdown to my other coldplay show was finally down to under 50 days and it was also the end of the very first semester.

just in the true fashion of my life, my adventure this time is: going back and forth between Jakarta and Tasik in under 24 hours (22 hours to be exact!) on a back-to-back journey just for school and seeing my hometown again 😂

so, as you can tell, i have so many assignments and one of them is a practical skill's lab project where i have a typodont (a phantom model of human teeth embedded in wax) and i pretend to apply orthodontic treatment on it to correct the malocclusion. it was not easy at all. it's quite literally a simulation of what will happen and what should i do when i treat an actual patient. the project lasted for almost five months and even the class didn't stop once the semester break came around, that is why i had to go back and forth between Jakarta and Tasik: i don't want to lose my holidays while still having to attend the weekly class 😂

some will say i'm insane because it's so tiring to do so and indeed it was super exhausting. but if you know me, i'm the type to do just about anything for my loved ones (my parents were staying at Tasik to take care of things and it's been a while i visited my grandparents' last resting place) so it was no big deal at all to endure 7 hours of bus trip each and then 1 hour commute to the station/home. a total 16 hours in 48 hours timeframe spent on the road. and it's worth it, every second of it, because i got to relax and work in the middle of lush green and rice fields... it was the very definition of healing time. i was still under the pressure of stress and deadline to finish that last project, but at least i did it while being surrounded by serene nature and with my mum and dad 😂😂😂 it's such a nice drastic change to do wire bending with all my pliers and stainless steel wires and orthodontic brackets with herd of ducks quacking loudly near me and farmers ploughing soil to plant rice seeds... best part? zero pollution! no light/sound/air pollution whatsoever and i get to see amazing sceneries right out of my windows every day! rain every evening to help me and my mum water the plants (which are thriving!) Mt Galunggung in its majestic full view... woah. it's my best treasure tbh nothing else compares

the most unexpected thing was that our class for that subject/project is usually scheduled on Thursday (so for the first back-and-forth journey i made sure to go back to Jakarta on Wednesday and get back to Tasik on Thursday right after the class ended) and for the second week, my prof suddenly requested us to come to the campus on Tuesday, and guess when did he sent the message to inform us? 6 AM on said Tuesday!!!!! oh you couldn't imagine my panic, how am i supposed to be in Jakarta in less than 4 hours!? thankfully my prof is a lenient one and he let me and kak Mandy (who was in Bandung at the time) to join the class from zoom. another good news is that class is to be our closing session for the project, and that i can just send my typodont instead of coming in person to submit the assignment. yet again Allah's plan is always better than my most carefully thought of one 🥺

the rest of the break i get to spend every day at my hometown just recharging my energy and soaking every positive molecule there is, and my mum have this brilliant idea to buy a table tennis equipment!

at first, not fully knowing the impact of my mum's seemingly random decision, i opposed the buying of said table tennis because it's quite expensive. but after it arrived and i got to play against my mum and dad (who happen to be great players!) i finally understand that my mum knew fully well i don't like outdoor sports (solely because i hate the sun getting my face so red lol) so table tennis is the best option! it's so fun to play and i still get to exert my whole body to get that exercising regime my nutritionist has told me years to do so 😂

for new year's eve, the end of 2023 is the quietest one yet. with just my parents, deep in the greens, miles from the city, and just watching Pengabdi Setan 2/Satan's Slaves 2 (exactly my style hahaha getting my dad to watch it!) i moved over to 2024. just saying and sending out my prayers to welcome the new year and hope i can go through whatever i must face in the future. and again, just how i like it, not many fireworks were blasted so it wasn't that rowdy. it almost didn't feel like NYE celebration, all is calm and cool.

i love slow living, far away from the crowded areas, i could quite literally stay in my hometown at my house and just. be there 😂 it's so easy for me because as long as i have my loved ones with me and a roof above my head, enough to live and get by... that is all. to reach that tranquility and peace of mind is one of the highest priority/goal for me. hope one day after i've accomplished my dreams i get to reside and rest where my heart has always been dwelling.

here's to another journey in 2024, i hope we can together make it through. see you in the January post, that as i said in my Nov one, i'm counting down 3 days to my trip to Singapore and 4 days until i see coldplay again, historic moment as i'll be back to the stadium where i first saw the band 7 years ago!!! see you all soon 💙

[dwtsfun]

Dancing with the Stars Season 5 Week 7: Rewatch

So after an extended break, I'm back! And we haven't got a moment to spare, so let's get this started. Everyone is doing two individual dances this week, so this is when things start to get real.

Ballroom Round

Helio and Julianne- Tango (Judges' Score=25, My Score=8)- I have to say that I thought this dance was very awkward. Helio's hold was a bit strange and his head position was a little weird. His feet weren't good and it wasn't as sharp as it could have been. It wasn't bad, but there were many technical issues.

Marie and Jonathan- Quickstep (Judges' Score=28, My Score=9)- So I saw some mistakes, but this was Marie's dance, okay! Jonathan choreographed a number that showed Marie off in the best light possible. I would've liked for her to tuck her butt under, but to me, this was her best dance by far.

Mel and Maks- Foxtrot (Judges' Score=24, My Score=9)- A lot of the mistakes that we are seeing this week is due to there being two dances for the couples to learn. It was a good dance. The feet weren't up to par and there were some bobbles throughout (probably a result of them not being completely in sync like CAI said).

Jane and Tony- Quickstep (Judges' Score=24, My Score=7)- Well. Um. It wasn't bad. But it was just super lackluster for me. Her posture was good. But there was no body contact and like everyone else, there were mistakes. I actually agree with CAI about there not being a lot of technical issues with Jane though. She just wasn't exciting at all, and that's what's needed at this point.

Jennie and Derek- Viennese Waltz (Judges' Score=25, My Score=9)- Before I say anything about this dance, I wanna draw attention to how close this cast was with one another. The cheetah (fake) tattoos that they all got for Sabrina was cute and showed so much of what the show is missing right about now. I said it in the last post, but the camaraderie was such a major part of this show. As for the dance, I think it was one of the best dances so far. I didn't feel like the two dances affected Jennie as much as it did everyone else. Her carriage wasn't as strong as it needed to be, especially in hold. But her arms were gorgeous and it was an extremely fluid dance. I just need her to get that strength through her core and everything will be top notch.

Cameron and Edyta- Quickstep (Judges' Score=24, My Score=8)- Oh no. I could tell that this was going to be a really great. Cameron came out with amazing energy. I do think that he lost a little control and he also forgot a good bit of the choreo. It sucks because it had the potential to be the best of round 1. I do agree with Len about some of the choreography choices, especially that last random and unnecessary backbend.

Latin Round

Helio and Julianne- Samba (Judges' Score=27, My Score=9)- This was much better than round 1. Helio was definitely more at ease. There were still a few moments of hesitancy and a couple of mistakes. But, it was a great dance and so much fun to watch.

Marie and Jonathan- Cha-cha (Judges' Score=24, My Score=8)- I think Marie handled this night better than every other celeb. She didn't let the amount of dancing throw her off. She went out there and performed! I would've liked her legs to be crisper and there did need to be more content. But, Marie had a really really good night. And in my second watch of this season, I'm really growing to love this couple so much more. They are FUN!

Mel and Maks- Paso Doble (Judges' Score=30, My Score=10)- Yep. Perfection. I can't say anything else. This is still one of my absolute favorite dances of all time.

Jane and Tony- Cha-cha (Judges' Score=26, My Score=9)- I liked this dance much better. Technically speaking, it was very good. I do think she gave a more lively performance, but she needs to push it further and WOW everyone. So far, everything has been too safe. I do wonder if she had that in her, but I wish we had gotten a chance to see if she did have that final gear in her.

Jennie and Derek- Rumba (Judges' Score=28, My Score=9)- Jennie had a few moments where she hesitated right at the beginning, but this was a divine rumba. Her lines were beautiful and her core was so strong. And she performed it SO well. She was amazing. It was definitely her best dance to date.

Cameron and Edyta- Jive (Judges' Score=27, My Score=8)- Cameron came back and did much better in this round. What I'm most impressed with is his control of his legs during the kicks. Not only is Cameron tall, but like me, he has long legs. They were high and 100% under his control. That is HARD! Some of the transitions between moves could've been smoothed out. But this was a good dance.

My Rankings and Scores Out of 60:

1 Mel and Maks- 55 (25 for foxtrot, 30 for paso) 2 Jennie and Derek- 54 (26 for Viennese waltz, 28 for rumba) 3 Marie and Jonathan- 52 (28 for quickstep, 24 for cha-cha) 4 Helio and Julianne- 51 (24 for tango, 27 for samba) 5 Cameron and Edyta- 50 (24 for quickstep, 26 for jive) 6 Jane and Tony- 49 (23 for quickstep, 26 for cha-cha)

Before I get to the elimination (I don't believe there was a bottom 2 that was revealed this week), I want to say that everyone was much better in the second round (minus Marie but she was good in both rounds). To me, that speaks to the entire cast's talent as it seemed to be mostly nerves that got in their way. With that said, Jane was eliminated. I'm not shocked and it was the right decision. I still wish she got a chance to really go for it as it takes a little bit of pushing from the judges for Tony to push his partner past his own comfort level. That's it though. From this point on, two dances will definitely be more polished and I'm excited to see those. Let me know your thoughts and I will talk to you all soon! And by soon, I mean this week. I gotta catch back up with these posts lol.

[funkylittledemon]

autism and emotions is so.... well it fucking sucks is what it is. i need my mind to slow down for a second to get all these thoughts down bc i will explode if i dont get them out there (hence why this post - only bee is gonna see this & knows me enough to be worried for more than an hour or so and if i put this where nobody can see it aint actually out there) (wassup bee dw i am okay)

anyway

i say that life is just getting to me rn and it is but thats too vague a statement. current affairs (an impartial term but a useful one here) are getting to me - I'm trying to navigate adulthood while it feels like the life i was promised is being taken away by whatever event you want to pick; global warming, late-stage capitalism, multiple genocides, the list goes on. and I'm one of the lucky ones!! how fucked up is that! so there's that constant stress hanging above my head.

then there's more abstract life: navigating uni and living alone and looking after myself while forming relationships and starting to try carve a path for myself. this one isn't as bad but still can't be ignored and the fact that interpersonal relationships have become so scrutinised through social media doesn't help. no matter the insecurity you have or your own specific factors there will be someone online telling you your worst fears are right - i cant say how many times ive scrolled past a reel saying that i havent had a message back because "he" doesn't care. does the person saying this even know I've seen it, let alone who i am or who "he" is? No!! but the sentiment sticks with you despite only seeing it for 3 seconds before scrolling on, despite logically knowing it can't apply to me because its a catch-all statement to everyone who feels insecure pushed onto us by an algorithm that thinks we want to hear that. social media is feeding into our fears and insecurities and we can't stop it. as an autistic person whos insecure as fuck and who knows they dont understand a lot of societal cues being told by some random person that im right to be insecure really doesn't help - i get the idea of something stuck in my head and bc i know its bs i try get it out which cements it further into my mind and lends it credence.

then there's uni itself - i am now faced with the realisation that everything leading me up to uni and my course has been about me helping other people, often to my own detriment. i chose a counselling course because i was always the therapist friend, the one who everyone else went to for help. and wouldn't you know it I've been burnt out for years and literally don't have it in me to help strangers, or give a shit about their lives. i cared so much and made my entire life about helping other people that i had no idea what i wanted to do. im switching to just psychology now, because it is interesting and i do enjoy it but im kind of lost now i dont have that purpose. it also scares me just how much of my life hadn't been about me at all and im still not sure who i am if im not helping someone. obviously thats the dramatic version but you get the gist. uni's been a wakeup call i wasn't prepared for and theres the work and exams on top of that

christ this is long. okay. what else was there. emotions. god i hate emotions. this is the hard bit. all my emotions are so so big and i am so so small and it feels like they would devour me whole if they could. anxiety is a big one. recently pretty much all ive been feeling is anxiety - a deep anxiety that makes me nauseous pretty much 24/7. last week on friday i had what i call a breakdown. i still dont understand it (which is scary enough - every other breakdown i can disect and point to the cause). i just sarted screaming in the middle of the street and couldn't stop and its making me anxious just typing this up. then there was a day of panic attack after panic attack (lost count after the 4th i think) and then a few days later and some bad decisions (booze. ik i shouldn't have drank but i thought i was ok to drink) i had another breakdown. i dont remember much of this one but it ended in me being locked out and sobbing - security had to let me in and it must've been bad bc the guy gave me a card with hotlines on it. (again, i am okay). i lost my leather jacket that night which both sucks bc i loved that jacket and also the fact that it's gone is a constant reminder of something im ashamed of. after that it was just this constant nauseating anxiety, occasionally spiralling into something more but not significant enough to include. the thing about me and emotions is that my strategy for dealing with them is to ignore and repress them until they're not my problem anymore. which is bad. but idk how to cope with them healthily and when i feel okay i never know if its because i repressed them again or because i genuinely feel okay. being around other people helps but thats probably not a great thing - i hide my emotions from other people to avoid being a burden. not that its always a bad thing that my friends make me feel better its just not a sustainable approach to constantly avoid being alone. i have this constant struggle of feeling emotions so intensely then feeling shame because of how intensely i felt those emotions or how they made me act.

going on from emotions fucking me over and moving on from Life being an issue anxiety is a fucking bitch. all my life I've felt like an outsider and so constantly nervous about everything. it was hell and then in 6th form i made friends who were so so confident and i finally started to relax a little bit more and not feel bad about taking up space. uni was even better! i had flatmates i loved and i was going out doing things I'd never dreamed of and i was making friends!! i barely recognised myself and i loved it!! then the breakdown happened and i was plunged headfirst back into the old cycle of anxiety and going back to that after feeling what life could be like? that was worse than the breakdown. it feels like ive never felt worse and the knowledge that theres no reason for it, that nothing had actually changed other than me and i could still be out there with confidence but i wasn't was such a crushing feeling it felt like i was never gonna feel okay again. dramatic i know but the truth.

im home for easter break now and typing this out has helped and going back to my old stomping grounds has shown me i have still changed and i do still have the confidence even if i couldn't access it for a hot min. I'm still anxious but thats okay. my emotions don't have an all poweful spell over me and anxiety can suck my dick. there's still the fear that I'll go back to uni and it'll all come rushing back however im just gonna see how this break goes. im gonna be alone whether i like it or not while im down here and if i can manage to be okay with that then I'll be fine. and i do have a support system both here and up at university.

[nathank77]

3/24/24

4:27 a.m

Why is my youtube so dead? I worked so hard on my videos and I have over 160.. I also have achievement hunting and a wide range of different kinds of games.

I mean beyond that my tags are good. I learned the right way to tag. I even posted myself on true achievement.

I have been having random anxiety.. at first it started with my eyes like what if I lose control over one or something bc of a tactile..then I started to think about what the real anxiety was about. I'm anxious about going to my dad's but I jsut won't go tomorrow if I don't sleep well or at all. I'm a little worried about sleep. I'm worried about talking in my sleep but I'm not going to look into it or talk to my Dr about it I don't want to lose my Xanax... to her I sleep like a baby.

I'm going to start my lie... reporting Kristen doesn't mean I can't lie and say I recovered. The only people who have to release information for my report, is Elise, Mike, Erin and Kristen. That's it. So soon I won't hear Behavioral Health anymore.

Although I'm worried about how the conversation will go but I'll just make sure she knows I have almost normal thyroid levels I'm hypo and I have tried to sleep without the drugs many nights and I can't cause of my insomnia and xanax works great and had saved my life.

I think I have anxiety about all the things I have to do although that's coming to an end April 1st minus Kristen... but yea all the incessant drs appts will go down to my t shot and therapy. Minus one ultrasound and a dentist visit I'll reschedule If I have to.

I feel like I have anxiety about nothing and everything at the same time.

I know I'm sick of hallucinating. I've been so productive I haven't gamed since last Sunday... I'm going to game this Sunday... I just haven't seen much of a point.. no one watches my hours are at 12! In 28 days! Thats it. Despite my wide range of content.

I feel like I'm always being attacked by my hallucination. I'm a little worried white mulberry will make it worse but it's a fucking tree extract it's not like I am on antipsychotics.

I'm anxious I'm going to spend every night alone until I end my life. No one swipes on me... no one likes me for me.

I guess overall I feel very unfulfilled with everything in my life. And idk why I'm fighting.

Actually I do, I love myself too much to kill myself. I have tried and I can't fucking do it. I can't kill someone I love this much. I wish I hated myself bc then there would be some mercy but I don't hate myself.

I don't even dislike myself. I hate my brain chemistry but it doesn't define the silly dorky guy I am. I hate that I'm dorky but at the same time it's everyone's else fault they won't give a nerd a chance. I'm pretty awesome glasses and all..

Either way I'm entirely unfulfilled in my life. I watched movies with my mom and I hardly hallucinated then I came in my room and I've been hallucinating just a little bit too much and when I check things and count its like it gets more intrusive or louder... but it doesn't really get louder just more intrusive.

All I know is it's exhausting trying so fucking hard and dealing with this chronic hallucination. I haven't even had one day this week I got to stay in the house. I have Sunday to look forward too... and then 4 days of back to back things to leave the house for. Then new Hampshire since I smoke like a chimney either Friday or Saturday..

I wish I could meet someone, I wish I would stop hallucinating. I wish I wasn't so God damn alone. I wish my brain would stop attacking me 24/7 and give me back my old life in which I'd appreciate so much more if I grow old alone...

So yea. I'm unfulfilled. Anxious and my hallucinations is a bully that lives inside me and even though it isn't scary, smart and it doesn't say much more than happy birthday and my dead name, I mean I feel constantly attacked everything I hear happy birthday or anything. I try not to think so I don't hallucinate my own thoughts...

Sometimes I imagine happy birthday or other things it says and I know if it ever stops I'm going to be traumatized just as much as I am now.

Today when I was with my mother I had a few flashbacks of the earlier days as I spent a lot of time with my mom bc I was so scared all the time. I def have ptsd from it. And it won't stop.

And once it does, I'm going to think happy birthday and it's going to be chronic flashback.

My ptsd isn't why I hallucinate... but nonetheless I def have flashbacks. I don't really have other symptoms. I just have flashbacks to everything that happened and this never ending hell that hasn't stopped and I fear never will.

What if it doesn't? What if I spend my life alone? I truly love myself too much to kill myself. Eventually in a few years if I'm still single and hallucinating, I will mercy kill myself but I'll cry about killing myself. About killing someone I love so much who had so much to give and tried so hard and just wanted his shitty old life back.

It'll be awhile.im incredibly unfulfilled and I look at that chart for the "short term" recovery from psychosis and its 36 months...

36 months is considered short term. I mean I'm almost at chronic on April 10th it's good chronic doesn't mean I'll never recover. All I know is hallucinating and microsleep gave me flashbacks.

[whumptober]

Whumptober 2020 - Updated

Welcome to Whumptober 2020! We’re doing things a little differently this year so please make sure to read the Event Info carefully. We are also excited to announce the addition of an AO3 Collection, which can be found here.

We hope you’re as excited as us to watch the Whump Community come together once again for a month of bone-crunching creativity and collaboration!

(All 31 Themes + Prompts, Event Information, and FAQs are posted below the cut!)

No 1. LET'S HANG OUT SOMETIME Waking Up Restrained | Shackled | Hanging

No 2. IN THE HANDS OF THE ENEMY  "Pick Who Dies" | Collars | Kidnapped

No 3. MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY Manhandled | Forced to their Knees | Held at Gunpoint

No 4. RUNNING OUT OF TIME Caged | Buried Alive | Collapsed Building

No 5. WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING? On the Run | Failed Escape | Rescue

No 6. PLEASE.... "Get it Out" | No More | "Stop, please"

No 7. I'VE GOT YOU Support | Carrying | Enemy to Caretaker

No 8. WHERE DID EVERYBODY GO? "Don't Say Goodbye" | Abandoned | Isolation

No 9. FOR THE GREATER GOOD "Take Me Instead" | "Run!” | Ritual Sacrifice

No 10. THEY LOOK SO PRETTY WHEN THEY BLEED Blood Loss | Internal Bleeding | Trail of Blood

No 11. PSYCH 101 Defiance | Struggling | Crying

No 12. I THINK I'VE BROKEN SOMETHING Broken Down | Broken Bones | Broken Trust

No 13. BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT Delayed Drowning | Chemical Pneumonia | Oxygen Mask

No 14. IS SOMETHING BURNING? Branding | Heat Exhaustion | Fire

No 15. INTO THE UNKNOWN Possession | Magical Healing | Science Gone Wrong

No 16. A TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD DAY Forced to Beg | Hallucinations | Shoot the Hostage

No 17. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING Blackmail | Dirty Secret | Wrongfully Accused

No 18. PANIC! AT THE DISCO Panic Attacks | Phobias | Paranoia

No 19. BROKEN HEARTS Grief | Mourning Loved One | Survivor's Guilt

No 20. TOTO, I HAVE A FEELING WE'RE NOT IN KANSAS ANYMORE Lost | Field Medicine | Medieval

No 21. I DON'T FEEL SO WELL Chronic Pain | Hypothermia | Infection

No 22. DO THESE TACOS TASTE FUNNY TO YOU? Poisoned | Drugged | Withdrawal

No 23. WHAT’S A WHUMPEE GOTTA DO TO GET SOME SLEEP AROUND HERE? Exhaustion | Narcolepsy | Sleep Deprivation

No 24. YOU’RE NOT MAKING ANY SENSE Forced Mutism | Blindfolded | Sensory Deprivation

No 25. I THINK I’LL JUST COLLAPSE RIGHT HERE, THANKS Disorientation | Blurred Vision | Ringing Ears

No 26. IF YOU THOUGHT THE HEAD TRAUMA WAS BAD... Migraine | Concussion | Blindness

No 27. OK, WHO HAD NATURAL DISASTERS ON THEIR 2020 BINGO CARD? Earthquake | Extreme Weather | Power Outage

No 28. SUCH WOW. MANY NORMAL. VERY OOPS. Accidents | Hunting Season | Mugged

No 29. I THINK I NEED A DOCTOR Intubation | Emergency Room | Reluctant Bedrest

No 30. NOW WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? Wound Reveal | Ignoring an Injury | Internal Organ Injury

No 31. TODAY’S SPECIAL: TORTURE Experiment | Whipped | Left for Dead

Alternate Prompt List

Alt 1. Punctured

Alt 2. Falling

Alt 3. Comfort

Alt 4. Stitches

Alt 5. Stoic Whumpees

Alt 6. Altered States

Alt 7. Found Family

Alt 8. Adverse Reactions

Alt 9. Memory Loss

Alt 10. Nightmares

Alt 11. Presumed Dead

Alt. 12. Water

Alt. 13 Accidents

Alt. 14 Shot

Alt. 15 Carry/Support

Event Info

WHUMPTOBER is a month-long, prompt-based creation challenge (think: Inktober, but whumpier). There are 31 Official themes this year - one for each day of the month - which can be used, skipped, or combined in any way you’d like. They are meant to serve as inspiration without being taken literally (e.g. you don't have to include the exact wording into your work). Additionally, there are 3 prompts for each theme.  These are optional suggestions and can be used in conjunction with the theme, or as options/alternatives.  We want to give everyone as much creative freedom as possible, as well as increase event accessibility for folks with triggers and squicks.

Creators can PRODUCE work in any media they choose, including but not limited to: writing, visual artwork, and photo/video/audio edits. Creators can PARTICIPATE as much or as little as they want (i.e. you don’t have to do ALL the prompts if you don’t want to) and prompts can be used in any order. They are also free to use even after the event ends.

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PLEASE BE DILIGENT WITH YOUR TAGGING. Only properly tagged posts are considered for archiving on the official @whumptober2020​ blog. They must be tagged in the order above.

Unfortunately, due to the sheer number of participants in recent years, we cannot guarantee your work will be archived. A random selection of properly tagged posts from all genres will be reblogged each day.

Whumpers who produce content for 31 total theme days are considered event completionists and will be tagged in a masterpost at the end of the month.

Questions not addressed below can be directed to this blog as well.

Thanks for reading, and happy whumping!

Frequently Asked Questions

Q. What kind of content can I make? Can it be NSFW?

This is a MIXED MEDIA event! You can write fic, post meta, doodle or paint, create a gif set or photo edit, link a song, or get crafty with video - anything goes. As for NSFW, make what you like, we just hope that you’ll tag your work accordingly so that others participating in the event can stay safe :)

Q. Do I have to do all 31 Days? Can I post early/late?

Participate as much or little as you like, and post whenever! Just be sure to tag your posts properly (ex. #no.11, #psych101). Combining prompts into one piece of work is okay, and posting late is as well so as long as it’s in October.

Q. What if I don’t understand a theme?

Send us an ask! We’re happy to help clarify. That said, the themes are entirely up for interpretation :)

Q. Can I combine Whumptober with other creation challenges?

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Fandom characters, OC characters, human, furry, alien, cyborg, whoever you like.

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Q. Do I have to create 31 standalone pieces to be considered a completionist or can I write one continuous story?

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[heartsumu]

PRO GAMER MSBY VS THEIR PRO GAMER GF

SAKUSA KIYOOMI

Has a grimace all the time

24/7 narrowed judgemental eyes

He isn't the type to talk a lot while he streams games. He's a focused pro gamer. Don't disturb him if you don't wanna be mince meat

There are rare moments when he gets so deep into the game that Sakusa loses his cool and his language becomes comparable to Atsumu's and his volume to Bokuto's

You always make sure to record such rare occasions and post random clips of them when Omi is being particularly snarky online

"Ugh... Why am I even playing with these shitheads..."

"Y/n is literally the only reason I'm tolerating these scums"

"God help me I don't want to go to jail this young— GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE ATSUMU! GET YOUR FUCKING DISGUSTING AVATAR OFF MY FUCKING HOUSEE BEFORE I KILL YOU FOR REALLLL!!"

"Huh? Where is y/n? I saw them a second ago—" *sfx: bomb blasts* "fuck— sHOYO WE ARE UNDER ATTACK DONT U FUCKING DARE DIE THIS EARLY!" *sfx: atsumu mourning hinata's death from the other side* "oh hell nah," slams the buttons on the controller, "shit is going down, y/n. You better run"

HINATA SHOYO

Lots of screaming

Scaredy cat. He's also scared of the Minecraft zombies ffs

Is the first to die in anything. Manages to somehow die in 'Human Fall Flat' all by himself-

He usually sees you as his anchor, his safe place. And he sticks to you in every game. So imagine how betrayed he felt when you turned out to be the imposter and killed him off in the first fucking round of 'Among Us'

Now that he knows that he can't trust you anymore, all he does is start running around like a headless chicken, regardless of the game. Omi has had his try in teaching him the games, and thanks to that Shoyo's gamer career is looking brighter than expected. Especially since he has the ambition and drive to win once he's actually settled down

"O-OMI-KUN... WAS IT THE RIGHT BITTON? NONONONO IT WAS THE LEFT- THE LEFT YEAH, thank fish I thought I was going to die— NOOOOO! Y/N!!! NO STOP ATTACKING ME!!!" *sfx: y/n cackling noises*

"Alright, calm down. Calm down Shoyo you can get them in the next round. Yes next round."

"FUCK YOU Y/N! STOP CHASING ME AROUND!!! TARGET SOMEONE ELSE!!! LEAVE ME ALOOONEEEE!!! PLEASE!!!!"

"Ok, arms first then y/n. Arms, then y/n. Arms, y/n." *sfx: game starting, battle sounds* "Yoshha! Cornered them! Y/N-SAAAN!! HOW ARE YOUU?" *sfx: shoyo shooting y/n* "WHAT DID YOU SAY?? DIDN'T HEAR YOU FROM UP HERE! OH? FUCK ME? BUT YOU ALREADY DID—" *sfx: shooting noises* "I- OMI-KUN! WHY WOULD YOU KILL ME? WE SRE IN THE SAME TEAM! *sfx: omi hissing from the other side "keep it pg idiot"*

BOKUTO KOUTARO

Screaming x100

Loud yelling noises regardless if he's winning or losing

Actually kinda good if you ignore all the god forsaken cackling noises

Has the best and most unintentional big-brain moments among all of MSBY. Like, he would be the jester and call for impromptu meeting without anyone dying. Which leads to everyone voting him out just because he was being annoying. And voila! Victory to the jester!

He loves tailing you. Like you don't even have to act suspicious, he's already turned off the lights and is right behind you, creepily laughing into his mike and telling his stream all that he could be doing to you right now *sfx: bonks to every dirty-minded reader*

"HEY HEY HEY!!! HOW IS EVERYONE DOING? WE ARE PLAYING AMONG US TODAY! WELCOME TO ANOTHER EPISODE TO TAIL Y/N WITHOUT GETTING CAUGHT!"

"Shh... We gotta be quiet, people, be silent in the chats you guys, we can't alert them of our presence... Wait where are they? WAIT— WAIT, NO! Y/N COME BACK HERE WHERE ARE YOUU?" *sfx: y/n killing bokuto and self-reporting* "Y/N YOU LITTLE CHEATER! I HATE YOU!!!"

*whispering to the chat*"just kidding I love them so much... even if they kill me so ruthlessly"

"Guys guys guys I have a plan. Wanna hear?" *sfx: cricket noises* "OH COME ON GUYS! I SWEAR IT'S GONNA BE FUN!"

ATSUMU MIYA

Is very popular among gaming enthusiasts

His chat is filled with people gushing over his looks and gaming skills. It's too much of an ego boost for him, and you are more than happy to help de-ego him a bit by beating his ass

Funniest stream out of the four players. He's always doing something to spice things up

Will have small side missions for himself while he plays, small things he decides with his viewers before starting the games.

Screaming + cussing + flirting (he needs to up his game but that's for another day)

"Hey people! How is it going? Hope all are getting their asses busted like they should be heh. Welcome to yet another stream! We are gonna decide what mission I should be doing for this game. Wanna send in some suggestions?"

"Oooh found a nice one. So today's mission will be— 'get y/n to say I love you, tsumu'. Sounds pretty easy but you guys know how my y/n has a stick up their ass dontcha?"

*sfx: game starting and mindless chatter, atsumu's avatar walks up to yours* "Babe..." *sfx: y/n- "hmm? what's up tsumu? you sound sad"* "Nah, its nothing. I'm just feeling really dull today. Just needed a hug." *sfx: y/n- "aww c'mere tsumtsum" your avatar jumps over his in a makeshift virtual hug* "Thanks babe. I love you" *sfx: y/n- "I love you too tsumu"*

"YASS!! DID YALL HEAR THAT? THEY SAID IT HAHAJJAHAHAHH THAT WAS SO FUCKING EASY!" *sfx: angry y/n cussing* "Hahahah, sorry y/n it was my mission for the day. But it was fun hehe, we should do this again."

[trixabke]

Heyy, can I ask for a Haikyuu matchup please? I saw your post and I thought that it would be actually cool to do.

My personnality is ISFP-T,my zodiac sign is Leo, my pronouns are she/her and I’m straight. I’m a black girl and my height is 5’7, I have 4c black hair and dark brown eyes, I wear glasses. My general style is more like jogging, crop top and jordan, or a cargo and an oversized t shirt. And, from time to time, my style is more like « a baddie ».

About my personality, I’m an ambivert (mix of introvert and extrovert). I’m most introverted and shy with strangers but goofy and dynamic with people I’m comfortable with but I'm quite stubborn and sarcastic. I am known to my friends as « the person who laughs every day and for nothing ». I’m « adventurous » funny and I love to « be chill ». I also know to be serious when it is necessary. I can easily stand up for myself like when something/someone is bothering me I immediately say it (and put people in their place sometimes..) and don’t necessarily need people to help me with this ( but it sometimes depends on the situation).I really like to cuddle, watch Anime/Netflix, just chill and listen to RNB/ US Rap. And finally, I’m collected but have a certain attitude. All that doesn't mean that i'm not polite and respectful because i really am.

IMy ideal type would be someone who would be a little bit more mature than me and « clingy ». He would match my energy and we’d look like bestfriends and a couple at the same time. He would be sarcastic too but protective.

That’s it I think ! I’m honestly sorry if it’s too long, but thank you very much and have a great day ! <3

HII! u did perfect angel <3 (I googled some stuff on ur personality type so if I mention something and u didn't say it I got it from google and if its wrong ... I will be embarrassed)

I'm rlly happy u asked for one! and I'm so sorry if this is short I tried to make it as long as I could

MATCHUPS OPEN!

(romantic)

I match you with...

SUNA:

you guys probably met in like the weirdest way..

like imagine ur turning on netflix, opening your account, about to click your profile and there is another random profile

and ur like tf??

so u delete the random profile and continue on with ur night just wanting to cuddle up under some blankets

and the next day you come home ready to relax in your comfy bed and the profile is back again

this happens like a few more times and eventually you find out it’s this guy names Suna?

atsumu was probably fucking around and found ur acc and gave it to suna because he was too lazy to pay for his subscription

after some minor communication you get sunas number and tell him not to use your account anymore

although you both aren't great at conversations at the start overtime u become more comfortable around each other 

BUT he ends up really enjoying talking to you and says he will pay u the money for the subscription if he can use your account 

monthly payment = more excuses to talk to u

(just pretend for a second there isn't a possibility he could be like a creepy old man or a scammer that could take all of your private info ok?? this is for the sake of romance not logic)

you change the password and then make it a joined account

he confesses to you by making another profile on the account saying that he likes you (atsumus idea cringe ik)

you guys end up going out for a couple dates and the rest is history

the sarcastic energy would be just *chefs kiss*

u bring out all the snarky comments he hides in his head

probably mumbles something under his breath about kita that has u both laughing ur asses off

everyone else in the group just staring at u like ??

obsessed with your glasses

he likes that you're on the taller side

(feeds his ego that he is still taller)

you wanted clingy?? ur getting it with suna

he really likes to sleep and LOVES to fall asleep on you

he really doesn't care what ur doing

he’ll make it work

texts 24/7 of just random shit

he really likes doing simple things with you like grocery shopping or late night snack trips

very chill vibes, everything is super low-key

a lot of go with the flow dates and just seeing what happens

he’s happy with anything as long as he gets to spend it with you

he loves that you're not afraid to speak ur mind and tell people no

despite that he is always very gentle with you and your emotions

and because he's not super talkative he's a great listener

if ur ever upset he will just listen and hug u to make u feel better

silence speaks volumes!!

even if you're not talking, all he needs is your presence to feel complete

overall a very sweet calm relationship!

as always, if u see any spelling errors no u didn’t ..

LOVE YOU GO DRINK SOME WATER, EAT SOME FOOD, AND HAVE A GOOD DAY (NIGHT?)

[leon-anna]

Hello all!👋 I know it's been a while, but we finally finished the first in line for our clone Stealth Squad the Underdogs;

Meet Captain Monsune!

We're so excited to show you his finished concept art! It was very much a team effort as my sister made the logo and personal effect and I helped out with everything else. I'm really proud of or accomplishments!

Just as a little warning, this is a kind of a long post so, be prepared~

⬇️More Facts About Him⬇️

1. Full Name/Title: Captain Monsune

2. Name Meaning: A seasonal change in the direction of a region's prevailing, or strongest, winds.

3. Do they like their name: Yes. It was given to him by General Fisto, after all.

4. Nickname(s): Cap/Cappin'/Sir/Monnie(strictly confidential)

5. Age: 12

6. How Old They Appear: 24

7. Eye Color: Caramel

8. Weight/Build: 197.6 lbs/Well built, yet, kinda lean.

9. Height: 6.2

10. Skin Type: Polynesian

11. Hair Color/Length: Dark chestnut/Short

12. Taste In clothes: Coruscant High Street Fashion

13. Healthy? Why or Why Not: Yes and no; diet-wise, he's very healthy, but he has a chronic left leg injury that hampers him from doing certain things

14. Music: Whatever's playing on the transceiver

15. Daredevil or Cautious: Cautious

16. Are they the same alone: No

17. Good traits: Always punctual/Efficient/Good timing/Polite/Level-headed

18. Bad traits: Impulsive/Abrasive/Strict/Standoffish/Seclusive

19. Hobbies: Dressing up/Writing/Learning new languages/Spewing random facts

20. Deepest Fear(s): Others dying because of him/Drowning

21. Worst That Could Happen To Them: Having to sacrifice the ones he loves for the greater good

22. Favorite Thing: A good meal

23. Role Modle(s): Commander Monnk/ Commander Owen

24. What Would Break Them: The realization that all his best efforts were in vain

25. Best/Worst Thing(s) In Their Life: Best; His brothers/Ulyra/Freedom Worst; Moff Taloe/Idiots/Disillusionment/His bad leg

26. What Are They Reluctant To Tell People: That he's soft-hearted/That he's afraid/That he's ignorant

27. Opinion On Romantic Relationships: He used to be quite the playboy, so he's not unfamiliar with the concept. He's just afraid of commitment.

28. Major Flaws: Puts too much pressure on himself/Prideful/Hypocritical/Perfectionistic

29. How Do They Feel About Themselves: He hates himself and feels that everyone around him would be better off if he were dead. Other than that, he's hot and he knows it.

30. Selfish Or Selfless: A lil bit of both; willful when it comes to things that closely concern him, but ready to sacrifice himself if necessary.

31. How Does The Way The Character Tries To Be, Differ From How They Actually Are: He portrays himself to be strong and all-knowing, but in reality, he isn't, so he covers it up with his extended knowledge in order to cope with his inadequacy.

✨Bonus✨

I worked too hard on his base for it to be missed out on, so here it is!

You can even see his scars, which makes me think I should do this for each member of the Squad. What do you think?

Comment below and tell us your thoughts!!