#ex situationship

[glop----26]

I thought loosing you would break me, but trying to hold onto you shattered me.

[anmclarensblog]

Where are u?

In this cold April I begin to feel the sadness of your absence, four years of complete loneliness, I don't know why I still can't stop thinking about you, and although I try I can't not dream of you, I wonder if your heart feels the same. I'm going crazy thinking that I imagined you and that you're not real. Your silence is torment to my ears. But you are real... still you are not here... I miss you, I need you, but you are not here anymore. 

[constakesnotes]

i hope he gets deja vu

from the morning until he kisses the moon

i hope they see me smiling from across the room

and cry because nobody looked

this is for the boy who acted as a king

and needed me to please him

from morning 'till noon

but he replaced my eyes

every time he got the chance to run

and i eat with a pretty smile

surprise, surprise

to the man-child

you were good in heart

you were good in mind

however i was never satisfied

in bed or in your arms

you didn't get me high

almost there all the time

but you used speed and not strength

how strange

you talked to her

you were never fair in the games i played

i wanted touch but got told to fuck off

i admit i was messed up

but you were blind by your pride

and i cry

because you're never going to be their father

i wish you worked harder

but i always climbed first and waited for you to behave

[that-strange-artist]

Fuuuuuuuuuuckkkkk

I was chatting with my ex (we're trying to stay friends)

The conversation started flowing until I made a comment about his birthday on Sunday.....

Turns out its today.

I got my dates mixed up. Plus its been a messy time lately.

I feel terrible as a person 🫥

Even the way I worded it.

I'm not sure I could have done it worse.....

[mystupidj0urnal]

my stupid journal entry one

The boy I’m talking about is named Taylor and his brother is Levi I was one year older the Levi and two years younger the Taylor me and Levi dated for two mouse then broke up and three to four mouths later give or take me and Taylor started dating are being in an on and off talking stage for months!!! Like dude get over yourself?? Anyways let’s complain shall we?

Why did he ghost me? Like dude I didn’t believe in the 3 mouth rule till I met him and then after we broke up his brother took me out to go shopping and he bought me flowers to make me feel better (I didn’t realise he was into me I’m so stupid) and I posted a TikTok with the sound “I’ma get me a bitch that look like you” because I’m actually so funny and when me and Taylor broke up we had an argument about me being immature and he fucking ghosted me removed our matching profile pictures and bios to break up with out telling me like!? I guess the crack got to him I swear to god. So with the argument he said and I quote “don’t worry you’ll get over me in a day and would replace me with some dumb guy or another ex, wait my brothers your ex go date him” so I replied “hmm I didn’t think of him maybe I will thanks for the idea cunt” then I blocked him. anyways where were we? So after we took a bus home me and Levi after hanging out for hours Taylor got his failed situation ship (btw wtf is a situation ship they either want you or they don’t? But that’s a chat for next time) to screen shot my story because I had her added and Yk what she’s a cunt two (another story for next time)  and I saw she screenshoted my snap story so I showed Levi while we were on the bus home and then when Levi got home Taylor came into his room broke his cds and posters because he was jealous like YOU broke up with ME why are you jealous I mean I would be jealous of me too like your an 16 year old boy whose turning 17 and you only had your first kiss last year like bfr rn anyways let’s talk about how he pretend to not know me but in public he makes fun of me like your just mad I was the only one that wanted your Crusty Emo ass and he acts like he doesn’t care about nothin but it’s like what if I tell everyone how you would cry to me everyday? Or how you said you cared and loved me so much you wanted to marry me? Or how you told me to call you good boy……? sorry I’m just saying every now and Yk what is the best part in all this? This isn’t even half of it i have so much dirt on this man (boy) that I can’t help but to tell others

Entry one done! See you tomorrow or next post! Xx

Love Maddie

[unspoken-mystery]

He used and broke me in more ways than I can explain. How could you do that to someone? How could you possibly think it was okay to fuck with my life like that after everything? I hope you get what’s coming to you one day.

- L

[hoplessbeliever]

I can’t even deal with hearing her name or seeing the posts. My stomach drops. Every. Time.

How the hell do I move on and appreciate the relationship I DO have with you? To appreciate this good man who is back in my life and has loved me for a decade?

Fucking. How.

[tobthoughts]

ex situationship realisations

monday, november 6th, 01:06am

this is kinda gross maybe (talking in depth about my sex life w this girl) so just… be warned.

you guys know that taylor swift sound on tiktok “now that we don’t talk” ?? i made a video to that sound about my ex situationship and i’m now realising how fucked up they were😭

we were a thing for like a couple months this summer but she lived in sheffield which is like four? five hours away? so i only saw her twice but we had e-sex or whatever it was kinda cringe. coming into the relationship she was like “yeah i’m kinda kinky” cool! alright! so am i! so we had like an in depth discussion about what we like/dislike in bed which i think is pretty normal when you’re getting into a sexual relationship with someone, setting boundaries or whatever. then she was like “oh yeah i’m a switch but i’m really submissive” okayyy… i’m a switch too. like this could work? in theory?

i topped every single time. and i can’t lie i hated it. i think i need some balance in my sex life, sometimes topping sometimes not, because it was absolutely awful. she was also really horny all the time and would get mad at me if i didn’t wanna have e-sex with her like if i just wanted to sleep/wasn’t in the mood she would get all upset about it… sometimes until i gave in. i sent her pictures and voice messages to help her get off but apparently it “wasn’t as good as the real thing”. isn’t that sexual coercion?

another thing was that she had some really weird kinks. and i’m not saying this to kinkshame, because i’m a really kinky person, but jesus christ. this one was the worst: olfactophilia. that was how she prefaced it. so then i googled it, it’s a smell kink. for bad smells. yes it’s as bad as you think. i thought like… “oh maybe it’s feet?” which is WEIRD don’t get me wrong, but definitely not the worst it could’ve been. nope. it’s farting. she wanted me to fart on her or in her face. wtf ??? at the time i guess i thought it wasn’t too bad… but in hindsight YEOWCH. she said it was part of her degradation kink, because it’s degrading to be treated like that, but like oh my god. it was gross. and i wasn’t into it at ALL but she wanted me to talk about it every time i helped her get off and it was just disgusting overall. i never did it when we were in person either. ew.

also she’s trans so when we fucked i used The Strap on her, which was fine, but she wanted me to be there in the bathroom with her while she was douching. which i guess if i was in a relationship with her i wouldn’t have minded, we maybe could’ve laughed about it or whatever, but we WEREN’T. so we were in her bathroom in near silence, i was sat in her bathtub, and it smelled so fucking bad i was trying not to throw up. obviously it’s gonna smell bad - it’s literally the smell of ass and shit. but i wasn’t there for that. like?? we were supposed to be having casual-ish sex..? i don’t wanna be in the room while you’re emptying the contents of your arsehole into the toilet. and the noise it made eeuugghhh ew ew . it was really gross.

hmm what else… she wanted to smell and lick my armpits? that was kinda weird i guess. she tried to stop me from putting deodorant on so that it would be worse too. as if licking armpits wasn’t weird enough already, she wanted to taste my sweat. and this is in the summer. it was HOT. i didn’t like that either.

she never made me cum? i think the only time i came was when we were like… mutually masturbating, and i used to tune her out lol. but in the times we were together in person she never made me finish. she was really bad at giving head and never knew where to put her fingers, even if i was guiding her. that’s why i don’t count it towards my body count. it wasn’t great👎

i’m sure there’s more i haven’t thought of.

we stopped talking a few weeks ago and i missed her at first but now that i’ve really thought about it it’s definitely not the end of the world. we had a cat in stardew together tho. that’s kinda devastating. miss u grumby🫶

[ramensauce2pointoh-blog]

The most hilarious thing about last night...(if you want the tea)

So on Xmas eve I sent her a text just saying, "Hey you should probably mention that you're messing around with other people before you mess around with me, again JS". This woman takes a whole week to talk to her "advisors" on how best to respond with no response in the interim.

After she figured out her argument, she decided to start instigating the conversation last night. Folks, let me tell you that this woman had the absolute weakest milquetoast rebuttal. Being that I was still pretty drunk I ended up with a bit more of a saucy disposition than I wanted to have.

But it took a week to put together an argument that was torn to shreds in minutes. Then it turned into gaslighting, lying, and bargaining in the end. All failed.

The argument that, "it's none of your business" gets trumped very quickly by, "I have lost all the trust I would have ever had in you. That is an unsalvageable situation".

[smolpinklady]

The fact that a man can message me all of this but still have a whole ass girlfriend

[glop----26]

i wish youd just figure yourself out. i know you dont want me, but you dont. you dont tell me you want me, not directly, not even slightly. i reached out to touch you, you didnt pull away, but you didn't push your fingers out to grasp mine either. but i know you think you love me. when we were, whatever we were, you knew i looked through your pintrest, your music, because i wanted to know you. you told me that was too much and i felt too much for you. that i liked you far more than you liked me, and that hurt. now youve been dropping hints, that you've looked through my Pinterest, or my music, and that hurts. it hurts because i know you dont miss me. you miss what i was for you, you miss what i could do for you. I was there for you when no one else could be, i gave you the love and affection you so desperately needed, and that is what you miss, not me. I wish you knew that, i wish you saw that in my eyes as i beg for you to want me. not what i can do for you, but really and truely me. you think im annoying, childish, a pest. you dont even know me. you think i talk too much, that im too loud, that i make the stupidest jokes, you think im annoying. and yet, you cant stop missing how loved you felt with me, you desire love so desperately that you're willing to push aside the fact that you feel annoyed at my presence, to fool yourself into believing its me that you want, because there's no one else you can have. but im more than just a last resort, I know that, i wish you did too.

[kikiixcinnamon]

It doesn't matter how many days, months, years go by. It doesn't matter that i know we never talk unless i text first. It doesn't matter where i am, what im doing, who im with. Every day i don't text you because i want you to text first, i regret, because i wanted to talk to you and i didn't. It hurts so bad to know that im the only one who still cares enough to text first. Yet, i can't handle the idea of us never talking again. Even if you don't care, i can't stop..

[likeprettythangs]

[regulusblackcore]

just found out my ex situationship ? (he was literally my boyfriend but was too scared to talk to me irl and would never hang out with me but would tell me how obsessed with me he was) would go around telling people who didn’t even know we were together that we were never together and how i was weird and crazy and obsessed with him. when literally he was the one obsessed with ME. i have receipts. he literally told people that we hung out and i was weird to him and shit?? LIKE WHAT. I NEVER HUNG OUT IRL WITH HIM BC HE WOULD NEVER WANT TO.WHY ARE MEN SO WEIRD HELLO

[static-quo]

Not certain these clergy can do anything about cleansing my sins- ówò

[yourlocalabomination]

I am not immune to funny crackships.

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