#fp vent

[piendoll]

It is hard resisting being so clingy and begging for constant attention. But I know it is wrong. But. I still yearn so badly for their complete attention. It is so hard not talking to them and giving them space. All I do is wait for their attention.

[bloodywithapinkbow]

[xenaventz]

Yall ever know that moment when your fp has a new friend who seems so nice and perfect and a better friend then you ever will be. I'm so fucking mad and upset I cant stand him talking about them. Im so scared hes gonna get bored of me, drop me, and replace me. I wanna cry and scream my heart out. Hes my friend...I dont want him taken. I feel so bad that I am directing my hatred to some person I dont know who makes my friend happy but I cant help it.

[hpdgirlfriend]

why do i want approval and validation most from those who don't care and refuse to give it

[selfaware-stalker]

he will never beat me to death

[alltheangelssayyouarealltoblame]

Fuck, idk if anything hurts as bad for us as the feeling that out of everyone in the room, we’re the one our FP seems the the least interested in. That shit is mind numbingly devastating. You’re literally my favorite person out of everyone here and everyone else in the world and you’re barely considering me at all.

[ch3m1c4lpr1nc355]

I hate how easy it is for people to abandon me when I would literally have killed to keep them in my life

[borderline-vents]

how come my fp has time to talk to others once he wakes up but not to answer my messages? it's not fair, does he find me annoying? am i that replaceable? he once said that he always checks my messages in the morning, guess that was a fucking lie

.

[cataclysmic-chaos]

[toxix-lullaby]

its ridiculous how bad i need you. how you make up my days and nights. i want to be healthy but i know i likely never will be. im obsessed and it'll never chill out.

i feel sick without you.

[bitter-and-dumb]

Continously being passive aggressive towards me and then not telling me why core<3

[piendoll]

The worst feeling is explaining yourself and apologizing and then realizing you might sound manipulative and when you ask if you're being manipulative they say know but you can't help but feel they're only being nice because they are scared of you.

[bloodywithapinkbow]

Can someone hold me and tell me it's okay while I die?

[xenaventz]

missing my fp to an obscene point. Like I physically feel it and I'm gonna bawl my eyes out. Its 2 am tho and he isnt awake. It's making me....wanna sh a little. Oh God. Recovery is hard. I'm just thinking about it so much. It's all I can think about. Having a fp sucks. I remember one time we were at school and he was in the hallway and I went up to him and when he saw me he was so happy. I dont go to the same school as him anymore and now I'm crying about it. I'm actually so depressed about it. I cant see my other friend either. The literal only thing stopping me from cutting myself to ribbons is him. I need to see him. I'm like. In withdrawl. I dont know if gore understands how I fucking feel it's like. eating away at me. I feel so guilty everytime I split on it. HE DESERVES SO MUCH. WHY CANT I BE BETTER FOR HIM!!!????? I NEED TO CUT. I NEED TO CUT. I NEED TO FUCKING CUT

(Once again to prevent confusion my fp uses he/it/gore prns)

[hpdgirlfriend]

fp deprived (they have been offline for more than 3 minutes)

[thedarksideofthesuns]

losing all faith that I’ll ever be happy in a relationship with someone that will make me happy and accommodate to my bpd and stay with me forever without abandoning me

does anyone have any support to offer?? Put in comments so other people can see please