#go on vacation and I didnt know their plans. they decided they want to go next month and neither of them bothered to

[yummyuta]

four sides to every heart | n.y, j.j, l.m

♡ genre: polyamory | smut - mndi! fluff | word count: 2,333 words

♡ warnings: multiple sex scenes, oral (male & female receiving), semi-public sex, unprotected sex, breeding kink, creampies, overstimulation, petnames (princess, angel, kitten)

♡ summary: you had always considered yourself to be a rational and organized person, meticulously planning every detail of your life. that was until your emotions had become a tangled mess, involving four crucial people - your boyfriend yuta, your roommate jaehyun, and your childhood best friend mark.

♡ authors note: this is the final part of the series! read the preview, part 1, and part 2 here. i am very pleased with how this all turned out. i have never written before, so i really challenged myself, and i hope you all enjoyed this series!

♡ song recommendation:

the smell of saltwater, the chill breeze, the flowy silk sheets under you, and the sound of jaehyun breathing were all you could focus on when you woke up. it had been a year since you went from one lover to three, and you all decided that a vacation was needed. the boys wanted to celebrate in their own ways and found that scheduling separate time with you would be the best ways to express their love and gratitude for all the memories shared over the past 12 months.

the recollection of the previous events from the night before with jaehyun flooded back to you as you hid your now blushing face underneath the blankets. his strong arm found its way draped across your bare chest, as he nuzzled into your neck. "good morning love" he murmured, placing a chaste kiss there. you turned around in his embrace, wanting to face the handsome man before you. he traced soothing patterns along your spine, his lips finding yours in a sentimental kiss. jaehyun's kisses were one of the many ways you knew he deeply cared for you. he spared no effort in slipping his tongue past, leaving you breathless almost instantly. you recalled the first time he touched you like this, how nervous and unsure those feelings were. you can't believe you made it here now, so self-assured and courageous. if it wasn't for you developing those feelings and going through that door, you dont think you would have made it here now.

your touch became more daring as you slipped your hands from his chiseled chest to his defined stomach and lower. jaehyun always was pleasing you first, knowing your body like the back of his hand. he deserved to be taken care of, too. "what are you doing" he groaned in your mouth when you started pumping his length. "just trust me, and lay back. you took more than enough care of me last night. let me do the same for you." you said sweetly, placing your other hand back on his chest to push him on his back. you started slowly, placing your lips softly around his pink tip, kitten licking before taking more of him in your mouth. you felt him flexing around you, trying to contain his excitement. he was big, but you wanted to prove yourself. you had only ever done this a few times with him and were determined to make this a moment to remember. he hit the back of your throat, you lightly gagged, eyes welling up with tears, but you bobbed your head, moving steadily. hearing jaehyuns deep moans made it all worth it to you, he didnt make sounds all the often so whenever you got the chance to hear it, it was like listening to your favorite song over and over again.

he was getting close, one hand gripping the headboard above him, the other found a hold in your hair. the second you looked up at him with your doe eyes, lashes fluttering, he could have lost it all on the spot. he fought his urges, pulling you off him and placing his thumb on your pouted lips. you held eye contact, parting your lips, sucking lightly. "god, you are perfect," he groaned before taking a grasp of your hips and placing you into his lap. "i need to cum inside of you princess." he pleaded with you, he sounded so needy, something new to the both of you. you nodded, putting your arms around his strong shoulders, lifting your knees that straddled him and lowering yourself inch by inch on his cock. he threw his head back, whimpering "baby relax, im not going to last long if you keep clenching around me like that". you tried your best, but every time he filled you up, it was like that first time all over again. you began rocking back and forth at first, grinding in his lap before you gathered enough strength to start riding him properly.

you were so lost in the feeling of him, your eyes closed and moans slipping past your lips, with every thrust. when you went down, he moved up, setting a lovely pace that worked harmoniously. jaehyun was mesmerized by you, the way your features were highlighted by the morning glow shining through the windows. in that moment, he realized he was irrevocably in love with you. from the time you agreed to live with him, he knew his life had changed in an instant. you not only walked into the door of the apartment you now shared, but into his heart as well. from that point, onwards he began to effortlessly imagine a future with you. he could see you both slow dancing in the living room, whiskey glasses half-drank on the coffee table as his favorite jazz record you bought him for his birthday played in the background. he thought of walking through the door after a long day of work and seeing you playing the piano, your child giggling and smiling on your lap.

the more he thought of how beautiful you would look with a baby bump and the pregnancy glow the closer he got to releasing his seed inside of you. "you are my one and only forever love" he declared, sealing his lips with yours in a passionate promise. his hips stuttered, painting your walls white and securing his fate that he had been manifesting with you this entire time. you were meant to live your lives, building a happy home together.

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the following day, you felt refreshed, and mark picked you up for a romantic adventure. you took a private yacht to a secluded cove, where the water was clear you could admire the sealife from below. there was a picnic already set up for you, as mark put his hand on the small of your back leading you to it. he was affectionate as ever, feeding you chocolate covered strawberries, and making sure your glass of champagne was never left empty. there was something about mark that was extremely captivating. his graceful composure, humble mind, and compassionate heart made him all the more attractive to you. he was a kindhearted friend and an even more dedicated lover.

as you lay together on the blanket, watching the sun dip low into the sky, painting the horizon shades of pink and orange, mark decided to softly sing in your ear as he held you. "a million different stars but you're the one," you blushed at the line from the song he wrote as you gift he prepared for your anniversary. he dipped his head into your neck, leaving wet traces behind as he shifted his body to hover above you, his elbows on either side of your head, staring into your eyes. "i hope i find you in every universe," he announced as he brushed stray hairs out of your face.

the following hours were spent with him proclimating his everlasting love for you over and over again, with the moon and stars as your witness. he lowered his head between your thighs as he drank up every drop of your sweet nectar. your hands grabbing a fistful of his hair, forcing him to disappear further into you, the hem of your dress covering his face. he looked up at you with his puppy dog eyes, and you saw the entire world in them. your vision became blurry, as your mind further slipped as you thought back to how you have grown up with this man alongside you. you had always loved mark, but falling in love with him was a completely different chapter. tears springing in your eyes as your emotions and upcoming orgasm washed over you.

you moaned his name like a mantra, as you released on his face, but that didn't stop him. his hands wrapped around your legs, holding you closer to him as he continued his menstruations, alternating from sucking your bundle of nerves to laying his tongue flat between your folds licking up and down. "its...too...much" you sighed, becoming overstimulated, your entire body vibrating. "give me one more angel, you can do it" he encouraged against your core, nose bumping into your clit.

when mark was in the zone, there was no stopping him, he could go rounds. the man's biggest vice was you. he went to sleep constantly dreaming about moments like the one you are currently in. waking up sweaty and his hand wrapped tightly around his cock. he was happy to share you, most of the time but there was a part of him that was underlyingingly possessive. after your first time together, he became obsessed with the way you said his name, with how you reacted to him. when he had you to himself is when his true nature could come forward.

you needed something to ground you, grabbing his hands that were forcing your legs apart, interlocking them with yours as your body thrashed with the waves crashing into the rocks surrounding you. it was like you and nature were synced. you had never felt so connected to the world around you, reaching a higher plane as you climaxed. you fell into a trancelike state from the immense pleasure you had succumbed to.

mark finally revealed his face to you, wiping his mouth with the sleeve of his shirt before taking both sides of his shirt and throwing it up and over his head. you knew then as you layed in the sand, and he continued to undress himself that your evening with mark as well as your story with him was far from over. you thought of the two of you growing old together, reminiscing on the love that kept you young, carefree, and alive all of these years. after all, it was like time didn't exist when you were around each other. even though you have known him your entire life, you still felt like you had an infinite amount of memories to make with the man you wholeheartedly loved.

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on the final evening of your vacation, you walked into yuta's private villa that he transformed into a sanctuary. as you walked in, you stumbled across a path of rose petals leading to the bedroom. you continued tiptoeing, making your way to the window, you saw that he had prepared a candle-lit dinner just outside on the terrace. he stood there dressed in an all black suit and boquet in hand, looking as dashing as ever.

you enjoyed a delictable meal together, always enjoying the warmth of his company and the love that he shows you through his acts of service. once you had finished your meal, he cleared the table as you stared out into the abyss of the night. yuta came back out, "wow look at this view" he said behind you, and he raked his eyes over your figure. "i know right, its beautiful out," you responded in awe. "not as beautiful as you...kitten" he whispered in your ear, as he began to undress you slowly, wanting to take his time and savor the moment with the women that he loves and cherishes the most. although he never imagined your relationship coming to these heights, he wouldn't turn back the clock for anything. making you happy was his main goal in life, he realized that the day he met you.

as your dress dropped to the floor, you stepped out of it, turning around and meeting his lustful gaze. you never shyed away from him. the man in front of you seeing you at the most vulnerable and transformitive stages in your life, accepting you with arms wide open. his hands and lips began exploring your body in a way they have countless moments before, with a sense of reverence and desire. the air became filled with soft moans and whispers of undying love. you were standing, pressed up against the cold metal of the balcony. your knees buckling as your hands fumbled around yuta's neck. he showed no mercy, pounding into you with such intensity you swear you thought the ground was shaking. very little words needed to be exchanged, as his actions proved his devotion to you.

your entire sense of self was a torch that only yuta could light. you owed him your life. he was the first real boyfriend you ever had, the first man to show you what real love and intimacy was. if it wasn't for him, you wouldn't have found the other pieces that completed you. while mark and jaehyun were equally as important to you, yuta was the first man you ever bared your soul to. thats a love that nobody comes back from, the type of love that you find once in a great lifetime, that you would be willing to go through the pits of hell for. you had met your match and yuta was it.

you clawed your nails, down his backside, as you stood on your tiptoes, one leg wrapped around his waist and he showed no mercy, hitting that spot that made you explode like gold dust. you opened your mouth to speak but couldn't form any thoughts, not when yuta was making love to you like the sky was about to start falling around you. you wanted to tell him you loved him, to thank him for giving you life and meaning to the world you existed in.

in that instant, it was like he knew exactly what you were thinking. he brushed his lips against yours, hips begining to falter, as he lost any ounce of power he had over himself. "i know everything... I love you too," he said breathlessly with his lips curled up into a smile. the one that made everything peaceful around you. lost in the aftermath of the passion, your breathing mingled into the hue of the rising sun, bringing in the dawn of a new day and the continuation of your everlasting love.

♡ ending authors note: for this part, i wanted to do something a bit different and focus on the feeling of each relationship more than the acts themselves as a way to wrap everything up. i enjoyed diving into each individual scene, and i hope you enjoyed this series!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for not wanting my fiancé to hang out with my sister and I?

Okay so my fiancé (22f) offered to drive to Mexico with her aunt and stay a couple days. It was only three days notice and she hadn't discussed it with me(24f) at all. I do think she should go, she's been wanting a vacation lately and been really upset because I can't afford to go anywhere. It's a good opportunity to get vacation and family time. I was really happy for her. I just feel like it's basic politeness to at least let me know before she gave a definitive yes since we live together so I was slightly annoyed.

Fast forward two days and it seemed like that plan wasn't going to work out because her aunt wanted to postpone, so instead she decided to go out of town with her brother (18) since she had gotten her hopes up about a vacation, which again sounded like a good idea. In the meantime I'd set up a sleepover with my sister that same weekend.

Without even mentioning the situation to me, my fiancé posted on snapchat asking if a third person wanted to go with them to keep the costs down, which would be fine if she hadn't posted it to her story. Its okay if someone else goes but maybe asking in a groupchat or a few people individually but not absolutely everyone.

So of course her ex (who she has readily admitted shes left multiple people for) asked to go. It isn't her fault that her ex is the only one who offered but also that's part of the reason why I would have asked her to ask more directly than every single person she has on snapchat.

She asked me if I was comfortable with that which was nice, and I said not really because of the nature of their relationship. The only times we've hung out, my fiancé ended up being super cold and hostile to me and laughing her ass off at inside jokes with her. I get that they have a history and I don't expect her to pretend they dont, but it just makes me uncomfortable when we're all together because I feel like a third wheel to the person I'm engaged to and her ex girlfriend.

She got upset and said I was being unfair and ruining her weekend. I told her it was fine if she could find literally anyone else and that frankly it was inappropriate for her ex to even ask. She got argumentative about how she's been hanging out with her ex for years because they have mutual friends (which is fair except the mutual friends are not invited) and that her ex didnt even know I wouldnt be there. The argument lasted another two days. She kept saying that I am being too controlling, which I dont think is fair because if she didnt care about my feelings then why ask about them. I just gave up and said it was fine. I'd be having fun with my sister anyway so I wouldn't spend the whole time worrying, and I trust her not to cheat on me I just think it's a weird situation and it makes me uncomfortable, which is what she asked.

As soon as I said yes she told me it was too late to book an airbnb so she wasn't going to go, and that really upset me because she'd been so angry about me being uncomfortable that she wouldn't leave me alone for days and what was even the point of all that if she wasn't going to go anyway and she already decided that.

During the past 4 days until canceling suddenly like that, she was 100% supposed to be going out of town to somewhere, and I had gotten really excited about my sleepover with my sister. We were going to do things that my fiancé does not enjoy (arts and crafts, watching period movies) since it would be just us and also have some much needed sister time.

All of a sudden, the next day, my fiancé asked if she could come over too since she wasn't going anywhere. I said "I guess, but we were going to do stuff that you wouldn't like." And she got mad and told me I was being super rude and I could have been nice about it, which I thought I had been and I told her I feel like if she came either she wouldn't have fun or we wouldn't get to do the stuff that we were planning to. She was still angry all night and kept saying she obviously didn't want to come now since she wasn't welcome. I barely slept because she was so clearly upset with me and I didn't see any way to fix things without ruining my night with my sister.

The day before the sleepover she kept hinting that she wanted me to invite her and I really didn't want to. Maybe before all this stuff but I am really annoyed with all of this and I don't want he to butt in on my sisters night.

I think she's been inconsiderate and mean to me over this whole thing. I just don't get her thought process with any of it. But she seems really sad and that does make me think maybe I'm being the asshole here.

So AITA for not wanting my fiancé to hang out with my sister and I?

What are these acronyms?

[pixelyssa]

Bye I am acc desperate atp I need helpppp

Basically I go on holidays mid July and I just know the food will be so tempting (and I’m so scared of letting myself go) and my family will obvs notice if I don’t have anything but I also want to have a nice time 😭 what do I doooo??!!

And even if i eat small amounts of things I’ve no clue how many c@ls would be in them

I will be so so grateful for any tips or advice u have!! 💓

ily stay safe bb 🩵

hey! if i was in this situation i would just heavily r3strict for the week before. that way the vacation will be like a reward. ofc thats probably not good to advise you to do 😭

maybe instead of that, you can up your workouts and make sure all of ur meals/snacks are nutritional (get ur proteins and ur veggies) vs f00ds with just sugar and sodium. and that can help u have the energy to up ur workouts too.

u said you might “let urself go” no honey, its not a choice… its brain chemistry. if ur thinking about the f00d ur gonna be having over a month from now… youre in deep. you won’t “let yourself go”. youll be anxious either way. youre not gonns get used to e@ting normal and then just stick with it, even if h do youll slowly become obsessed with ur image again soon and go back to ur ways.. thats the fuck of it all… might as well ENJOY ur vacay.

it would rlly suck to go in vacation and be trying to guess the c4lories in everything, and ordering what u think is the lightest option. you should e@t what you want.

you can still r3strict certain f00d groups. if i was going on vacay with my family theyd buy snacks for the hotel or wherever we’d be staying. i would avoid those, bc i would normally avoid them at home.

going out to restaurants id do the same thing i do at home when i go to restaurants, order something that sounds good so i can enjoy myself, whether its a salad or a big mf burger lol. and i eat till im full. (if u dont have that sense, leaving 1/2 or 1/4 of the meal on the plate is a good measurement.)

if theres an appetizer, i have maybe a bite of each one and say im saving room for dinner, (my family and friends know i get full easily) & same goes with dessert. if it looks rlly good ill have a bite, but since i ordered what i WANTED for dinner, im satisfied before a dessert comes out and i play it off that im full.

i would probably figure out what we’re doing for food and decide what is most worth it to me and save my c4ls for that.

id also make a list of things i wanna enjoy. for example: my trip to nyc i wanted to try

-new york pizza

-a pastry and latte from the cafe next to my hotel

-a martini

-something fried from a food truck

-any non american food restaurant (italian, french, idk)

-a croissant from this popular cafe in times square

and i just kinda rationed it out. i remember my bf wanted to go for a walk, i new we’d pass the bakery, so i pointed it out and indulged there. got a matcha tea and a macaroon & then played off being full until dinner and chose something light (i think i made us get sushi that night which is pretty low in c4l) another day, we took the metro to soho and we walked around ALL day, so by the time we got back to the hotel it was late. we ordered the pizza i wanted to try… and i didnt care bc i had 20k steps done. i was still able to have everything i wanted the whole time, i just r3strictied the things that werent on my list.

idk what kind of vacation ur going on but a lot of them call for lots of walking, so thats a plus. you will not g4in that much. thats why i said id go crazy a week before, so that i dont feel like im g4ining it just feels like its fluctuating normally.

either way if u let urself enjoy it atleast ur metabolism will get faster! (im toxic) lol metab week(s?) ❕

me and my bf are planning a 2 week trip to europe. 2 weeks before we go i would push myself to burn way more c4l than normal. and i wouldn’t w3igh myself in that time. in 2 weeks i could lose like 4Ibs and not even know, that way when i get back from vacation and ive g4ined 3Ibs i wouldnt even notice. then life goes back to normal!

i hope that makes sense, and i hope its not too much. i really hope u enjoy ur vacation & can allow urself to enjoy a few of the f00ds wherever ur going. 🩷

[thegorysaint]

Long Time No See

Hello everyone! I'm finally at the tail end of the rough month I had (and years).

 I wanted to get back to streaming today but i think i will take a couple extra days and start on Tuesday. Now I will explain what happened, so if you are not interested in that you can skip the read no problem : )

Mid May I got a really bad case of gastritis that lasted for 3 to 4 days, meaning, I had really bad stomach ache, I honestly dont remember but i probably ate something too spicy. Then after that week on a Sunday at 2 am I got what i thought was an allergic reaction to some ham and salami. I went to the ER when I started feeling itchy all over and my face swollen.

I stood around the ER for about hour and a half and I was not getting treated, so i just decided to go at the drugstore for at least some allergic medicine, i was feeling better on the way home but as soon as i was pulling up I felt bad again, i was really tired, it was almost 6 am so i went to take a nap to rest and let the medicine work. I woke up an hour later with a rash all over my arms and itchy all over my neck and chest. I googled to see if there was a 24/7 doctor nearby and luckily there was one.

After explaining everything I got a shot for the allergic reaction and some pills to take the next 3 days. Omg, it was so bad, at that time i didnt know the shot should of taken care of the reaction, so i thought it was normal and was gonna go away with the pills. The rash was going away little by little the next couple of ways but still very itchy and visiting the bathroom too many times during the day (not the good kind of bathroom visits).

After going to the same clinic but different Doctor, i was diagnosed with Food Intoxication, not food poisoning or allergic reaction, I had a fever that i didnt notice. So they were gonna give me antibiotics pills but i asked to get the injections, because I know antibiotics are really bad for my gut and i was already at my limit with the bathroom visits. Luckily the Doctor said ok and i had to take only 3 injections, 1 each day, and some pills in case i felt more pain or fever. Literally 40 minutes after the first injection i felt great, no pain in my stomach or guts, it got so relaxed that i was able to burp and without feeling nauseous for the first time in a week.

I was finally so relaxed that i was able to sleep a full night. After the 3 days have passed i was feeling so good, better than what i've felt in the last couple of months. I was able to eat without wanting to puke it out as soon as it touched my mouth, and the bathroom only saw me once a day. Funny thing is, my brother came for a surprise visit so, while i was still recovering physically, he helped me to recover mentally, he stayed for a week and by the end of it i was feeling so good and full of energy (even tho I was under the sun sweating my butt off a couple of days).

He left before this past weekend so i've been just recharging my social battery. I was feeling so good i got into the pool a couple times to just relax, pretty much I had a vacation week because my bro was here (totally making me want to go to my hometown again but the heat is worse there for some reason).

So, for now I just need to get my energy back and not let the bad energies to return, I'm trying to focus this week on getting my sleeping schedule back to normal (something i fixed before i got sick), and trying to get in the rhythm of drawing again. I want to get some stuff before I go to visit my bro for a couple of months around mid August or September but I really need to sell some stuff I dont need. Also kinda making plans to move to Japan as soon as possible, the forecast for my country is not good with the election and if the new term people have it their way, Mexico is heading to a really bad place.

I wanted to visit USA before going to Japan to visit friends but obviously I havent been making enough money to save up, so unless i win the lottery that aint happening because my mom doesnt want to go to USA for whatever reason. That means I will start fully focusing on getting on track with projects so I can afford a living.

Sorry for the delay of all my stuff, last year was really bad mentally and physically for me, and sentimentally was devastated for the second year in a row, now I will try to focus on not getting attached to people for a while and just work work work (dont worry, that just means im not going to search for a romantic long term relationship, specially not long distance online)

So, I apologize for my lack of professionalism and I really appreciate your patience, it really means a lot.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/long-time-no-see-105561594

[wewerebornsextuplets]

I dunno if someone asked this already but how did your sweetie lesbians meet and fall in love ? What kind of dates do they go on and what’s their relationship dynamic 🥹

i am OVER THE MOON that you asked!! i'll give a little abridged version of their history first [mostly because i wanna do a more in-depth post later.. id feel weird doing that on an ask OTL] and then get to the present-day fun stuff ^__^

the two of them met in college, when they were in their second year! keiko was friend's with kiru's roommate at the time, which is how they met. it took a few months for them to actually get to be Familiar with one another, mostly because they were in wildly different courses and had absolutely zero classes in common [keiko was studying for librarian certs and kiru was shooting to get into a more prestigious veterinary school once her bachelor's was done], but they were both pretty interested in each other since they always really enjoyed the few conversations they Would get to have. once classes + schedules changed and allotted for more free time, the two of them started hanging out more and more and became friends Very quickly.

their third year is when they started to Actually get close, though; even though their personal experiences were very different on paper, i think they both related in that they felt similar ways about themselves, especially in relation to other people. in particular i have a very specific comic idea in my head related to keiko learning makeup and other skills from kiru; since the latter had so many bad experiences with cosmetics and trying to appear "feminine" in the past, i think she was Very careful about making sure keiko knew that she didnt have to do anything she didn't want to, and that above all else it should be fun for her. this assurance helped keiko navigate her own personal tastes and preferences much more easily, and it brought the two of them much closer together. they decided to try out dating at the end of their third year in college and have been together ever since :,)

during the early stages of their relationship, i think kiru tried to take her on a lot more ""fancy""/nice dates since she felt like she had to impress her, but over time they both realized they kind of hated that LMFAO. they both tend to be pretty adventurous and would try Anything once, but i think they would like going on movie dates the most :-) in particular they both really enjoy watching movies that they KNOW are gonna be bad just so they can make fun of them later on. theyll stay in just to watch movies so bad they dont even MAKE it to the theaters sometimes!

as for their actual dynamic. i think keiko is probably still the more direct/"assertive" one? thats not to say kiru Isnt direct or assertive when she needs to be, but keiko has more of that confidence across the board. "somebody's gotta tell the waiter i ordered mashed potatoes and it aint gonna be be" or however that quote goes. shes still got a little of her upbringing baked into her behavior is all! they tend to be a pretty jokey couple as well; theyre always looking for silly ways to annoy one another or just to make each other laugh. i like to think of them as the kind of couple that seems like theyve been together for much longer than they really have... like the kind of people where youre genuinely shocked when you find out they Havent been married for 20 years even though you know that would be impossible

that said when it comes to like, domestic life, they split household chores and daily tasks pretty evenly [the main exception here is that keiko Cannot cook to save her life... that lady could burn cold cereal and its hardly an exaggeration]. both of them are very diligent, and are the kind of people who prefer to plan ahead/keep track of a schedule [a vet + a librarian is kind of a winning combination when it comes to keeping a schedule], so when it comes to vacations or the like theyre both very well-prepared! theyre the type of people have one of those gay little dry-erase wall calendars hanging somewhere.

[jmvore]

» WARNING › nothing, just fluff, jimin’s stressed, guitarist! Jimin, indie!Jimin, he and darling are on a mini-vacation, hint at Jimin going to therapy. bruised up!jm » SONG PLAYING › I don't wanna by jagged edge, promise by jimin » A/N › this takes place one week after that other ask. I wanted to write something else for it, didn't want to leave it on a sour note but, this is simply Jimin trying to cope with his injuries.

thank you for reading! & remember: you nice, keep going.❤️ › masterlist ‹

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[05:45pm] You wake to an empty bed, unsure of where Jimin is or what he is up to. Things have been hard for him since the incident that happened last week and you wanted to help take his mind off of things. It kills him not being able to dance with his students. Forced to sit on the sidelines and not being able to pressure on his foot until it fully healed. Needing help from other teachers just to teach his own class.

You see the toll it’s taking on him every time he comes home. It hurts to know you can’t do anything about it but to console him when he does break down because no matter how many times he says he's fine, his actions say otherwise.

So with the children’s quarterly break at the school and your firm’s available cases slowing down, you decided to make plans for the two of you. It gives you the chance to take a much-needed vacation. A place accessible but secluded. A place where it could be you and him without any interruption. A place he doesn't have to think about anything, just simply relax.

You sit-up to rub the crust from your eyes and shake yourself awake. The chords of strings linger from a distance and the thought of why he's up so early crosses your mind. That is until your ear pick up the sound of rain. Jimin loves the rain. He once said that rain cleanses you from unwanted ties and vibes.

Another strum of chords and you're up to find him. If you know him by now, you know he’s either by the sliding glass door in community room or by a window watching the rain fall.

You swing your legs off to the bed to slip on your houseshoes before grabbing your purple silk robe to wrap around your body. You follow the sound of the noted he pluck.

"Petal?" You call out to him as he mentions he's by the patio door. “Hey.”

"Hey… Did I wake you?"

"No." You stand next to him as he continues to play in small increments. His brows scrunch together and you can tell he's concentrating on something. You can see his foot lying on the cold floor, turning to grab the pillow from the dining chair and placing his foot on top. "I was just wondering why you were up. checking on you."

“Ah,” He smiles but it doesn't reach his ears. Something that's been happening as of late. “Thinking. Playing…”

You hum, “Anything I can help you with?”

"No, it’s okay, darling.” You frown but nod, knowing he's not going to -. “I, um, I re-wrapped my ankle bandage so you didn't have to."

"Baby..." You sigh, sliding down the wall to sit next him as he tries to avoid eye contact. He's doing what he can to help. You know that but you dont mind helping him too. "I told you, you didnt have to."

"I wanted to."

You nod, letting the silence fall around you. You hate not knowing what he's thinking.

Instead, you change the subject.

“It sounded pretty.” You glance at his trembling hands, placing your own on his thigh. “Can I hear it again?”

He nods, holding the guitar to begin strumming the notes he has on the paper. You listen intently as he sings the words given to him. His voice delicate and sweet, it makes you feel as if youre in a trance.

"It sounds so good."

He puts the guitar aside and smiles, holding his arms open for you to move into. Youre careful not to bump his ankle but you lean back to fast and accidentally bump into his ribs.

"Fuck! I'm so sorry!" You turn over to apologize, frowning as he double over. "I forgot about your ribs baby im sorry."

"I-It's okay."

"No its not." You frown, standing up to help him to his feet. "Lets go to the couch."

He nods, trying his hardest to hop beside you as to not mess with his ankle. The sooner it completely heals, the better.

You sit first, hiking your left leg up and leaving your right off the couch to accommodate him. He lays down between your legs and sighs, happy to be off his foot.

"Do you wanna watch something?" He asks, reaching for the remote.

"We can. Or we can talk."

“I don't wanna think.” He shakes his head as he turns to lay on your stomach. “Please…”

You turn on something random as the both of you get comfortable. You don't say anything, simply watching him as he watches television, carding your fingers through his hair. It doesn't take long for the rain to do its magic once the box of you fully relax into each other.

And eventually, sleep began to invade you.

"I love you, Darling,” He whispers the moment you kiss his forehead. Holding his left hand out for you to enclosing yours within. He gives it a gentle squeeze and you cant help but reiterate the words back.

"I love you, Petal."

You know it's going to take time to heal (and maybe some additional help) but you're willing to help him. If he wants to help himself.

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[daebelly]

serious

yknow what? i keep seeing my mutuals reblogging from this user and at this point letting people know individually is too much work. and i'm exhausted of having a panic attack every time i see their username.

if you follow the user razzdrgn i feel it's prudent to let you know that i lived with them for several months, during which they sexually assaulted me with a nonconsensual kiss on the forehead while apparently blackout high after jumping around and screaming for about an hour and ranting incomprehensibly about numbers and the nature of the universe.

during my time living with them i was subject to constant negging, especially about my cooking, forced to do almost all housework(the only exceptions being when i asked them to do it, after which they would invariably claim extreme exhaustion and noticeably sour their disposition towards me), clean the toilet almost every single day due to their poor hygiene, handle all of the cooking sans like three occasions, shouldered the cost for all groceries(and whatever luxuries they decided they needed to buy with my money without consulting me; they even memorized my debit card at the time's PIN number without my knowledge), and had to pull them out of a fit of suicidal rage after my plans to move in with my girlfriends was finalized while on vacation with my family several states over so i wouldn't lose access to my car and my legal documents, which they had insisted i didnt need to take with me on that vacation. and that's to say nothing of the physical and mental strain of being expected to wait on them hand and foot for two straight months after returning from that vacation.

even if their abuse was not conducted with intent, my time with them was incredibly traumatic and i am being reminded of it more and more often as my mutuals seem to be discovering their account.

please stop reblogging from them. i do not want you to harass them or anything--if i see or hear of you doing it, i will block you--i just want to stop seeing them on my dashboard. i have been content to act like nothing happened for months now and i'd like to go back to that. i do not want this to turn into a campaign. i just want to stop being hurt.

[my-castles-crumbling]

okay so hi..

um ive seen people do this so ig im going to as well.

basically i and my gf (she/her) have been in a relationship for nearly 6 months (6 in two weeks). we're both 19.

we met through my bsf and her bsf dating and now we are (i had the biggest crush on her but genuinely didnt think she'd give me a chance).

ive had pretty bad luck in relationships before and they never lasted more than 3 or 4 months mainly due to the fact that im asexual and btoh previous oartners just assumed they could change me (???) but she genuinely understood and went out of her way to make me comfortable and make it known that nothing will be demanded of me more than that which i can give.

from the beginning of the relationship, ive made some rules very clear which are like my no nonsense ones, like i wont tolerate them usually at all.

one of them being not making me purposefully uncomfortable and the main big one is not yelling/shouting, especially at me. (i have past trauma from my parents and it has in the oast made me shut down completely for days at a time, only getting up to feed my cat)

on one of our beginning dates i mentioned this really nice and sorta expensive restaurant that ive always wanted to try but reservations are really hard to get.

she joked saying that oh id love to go with hou ehicb i laughed at but was mildly excited about.

so i got the reservation for yesterday, i made the reservation for two.

last month i told my girlfriend that i have finally got the reservation and would like to go with her, told her the dates and time and everything and she seemed genuinely excited to go with me.

now last week i confirmed her availability again, and asked her what colored dress she was wearing so i could match it with my clothes and we decided on a color etc and also to get ready at my place because her bsf has their family over so shes will be staying with me for 2 weeks.

now, yesterday, after i was done with my work i went to the living room just to well see her and hug her cz i missed her a bit since i hadnt really seen her in about 5 hours (i was working). when i knocked at her door, she opened it and was ready with a dress (not the color we agreed on), her purse laying in the background as she greeted me with a big smile and kiss (on the cheek).

i asked her isnt she ready a bit early and she just looked at me confusedly and said no i hve to meet R (her friend) at 4:30 so im just on time.

i asked why and where she's going just to know if she'd be back and she said that theyre going to the mall and then to the movies because R is leaving in 3 days to go on vacation so they want to spend some time togetehr.

i smiled and wished her luck, i thiught that maybe i got the day wrong but i hadnt and i was actually really sad because all my life, everyone in my family would repeatedly just forget about my plans and my shit for others' and she knew abt that.

but anyways, so i decided to still go and i took this really lovely lady, who's homeless but i buy her a meal everyday and take her out to lunch once a week. (shes like in her 30s btw)

we had a lovely time and the food was divine, i even helped the lady get ready in a changing room.

but anyways on my way home i realised i had 3 missed calls from my girlfriend and a text that just said.

we need to talk as soon as you get home.

the moment j entered my apartment, she just started to yell at me about how much of a piece of shit i am, how people forget and its not a big deal, how im an arse, how not everything is supposed to be about me, and could i possibly imagine how she felt coming back to an empty apartment, she thought something had happened to me.

that is not the order she sais everything in but someway through my breathing started to get extraordinarily fast and i coukd feel my vision getting blurry.

i said sorry to her, or i think(?) i cant really remember stuff when i get panic attacks like this. i took my cat and went to my room.

it took quite a while for my cat to calm me down bur she was able to in the end.

this morning, i made breakfast for her and since i have today off from uni i decided to go to my job (i work part-time remote but can come and go to the iffice if i wish)

its my break rn and im thinking about it, maybe it wasnt a big deal? maybe i should have reminded her again but like idk it was a pretty big thing for me.

i feel bad, i feel like i made a mountain out if a molehill and shouldve just apologised properly and explained to her that its okay and that it wasnt that big of a deal.

i dont knwo?

i wanted some advice because i truly feel very strongly for her and shes the only relationship ive had in which i feel valued and had zero self doubt (up until yesterday)

im sorry it was so long, and thank you for your help.

Hi!!

Okay so...this is hard because, I don't know if either of you are to blame, here. Your girlfriend wasn't great for forgetting, but then I was wondering why you didn't say anything? But then she was shit for yelling later....

I'm wondering if this is the first time this has happened? It sounds like a lack of communication, you know? I think you guys really need to sit down and discuss how you were both feeling. But if this becomes a pattern, especially your girlfriend yelling, I would think more about the relationship.

Keep me updated! I'm naming you orange anon.

[safetycar-restart]

Hiii, it’s rolling restart!! I forgot how much fun I had in your inbox so I returned with poly!merc thoughts!!!

Now he is on holiday with Estie, Mick must be happy, but not quite relaxed. You and Toto wanted to extend his leash a little, for him to have a bit peer-appropriate fun but it ended up with long factime calls with you during the most inappropriate hours when he comes back from a club.

Consequently, you and Toto decide to make a surprise appearance at the end of his planned holiday to pick him up with a yatch to have some… private time before going back to work. Needless to say this little stay involves very little clothes and no thoughts at all in Mick’s little sub brain! Maybe you decide that it’s also a good time to train him with the leash, walking him around the deck when sun goes down a little. Those curious tan lines WILL raise some questions but Mick couldn’t care less because he is being fucked senseless again by his favourite people, fed when necessary and doesn’t have to think of anything at all!!

YES MORE POLY!Mercedes! I LIVE FOR THIS AU!!

Firstly, I love the idea that you and Toto actually had to encourage Mick to go on holiday with estaban? You could both see how much he wanted to go, but he was uncertain and a little scared cause he hadnt been away from both you and Toto ever since the three of you got together.

But you and Toto know that Mick would love a holiday with esteban, those two are always talking and hanging out and Mick is always saying how much he loves spending time with Esteban and he always comes back with stories and pictures of what they did together. So of course you want Mick to go have fun with Esteban!

Plus he's been working SO hard and he deserves the break.

So you and Toto are more than happy to wish him well and let him go have some fun with esteban.

Mick makes it about 8 hours before he's facetiming you because he misses you! He needs his doms! Luckily you're with Toto at the time so Mick got to speak to both of you.

You expect a quick video call, but no Mick goes on and on. He takes you two into the shower with him too, not even hanging up then because normally he'd drag you or Toto with him, so this is no different! He babbles on and on about what he did with esteban so far and what their plans are for tomorrow and you and Toto just smile cause your sub is having such a good time and even though he's enjoys himself so much, he still wants to talk to his doms.

And then he always calls you and Toto when he gets back from a club, no matter how late. And he promises you both that he was very good and didnt get very drunk and didnt let anyone else touch him because of course he didnt. You and Toto both knew he would be good, but you praise him anyway and thank him because he deserves it.

Toto had told him to text you both when he got home after a night out so that you both knew he was safe, but instead he always called. Because how else is he supposed to go to bed? He must speak to his doms first!

Naturally you and toto decide to surprise him on the last day of his vacation because you can both tell that he's starting to really miss you and Toto and you want to be able to spent at least a night or two fucking him senseless like the good boy he is.

When Toto tells esteban about this plan, esteban is so relieved because he's been hearing about nothing except Mick missing his doms for the past three days and he was about two days away from pushing Mick onto a plane himself.

Mick is just so overwhelmed when he sees you. He can't believe he has doms who love him enough to come pick him up on a yacht and let him spent two days getting fucked silly. He's so so happy!!!

Training him with a leash them is so so good. Maybe the rule is that he can't move unless you or Toto are pulling him with the leash? So if you let go of the leash, he has to just kneel right there and then he cant move until you or Toto come back and take the leash to lead him somewhere else.

He's truly so happy, not a single thought in his little mind.

He gets fucked silly and just focuses on being a good boy and he loves it so much.

Maybe Mick loves the leash so much that he starts using it more in the Mercedes garage? He's basically the team sub at this point, it's not surprising to find him kneeling at toto's feet during meetings, so kneeling with a collar and leash is an easy step. And he loves it. So much.

The only people who can lead him are you and Toto, but you'll often lead him to another team member and then just leave him there.

Like Bono will be having a bad day and then suddenly you'll walk over with Mick on a leash and just leave him with bono. Mick can't move until you or Toto come along to take him somewhere else, to bono simply has a Mick until then.

[akaakeis]

HEY HEY HEEEEYYYYYYY bokuto moment

HI SAV<33

first of all shut up and pretend I didn't see ur sideblog posts THE THING IS I LOVE LOVE LOVE SENDING ASKS BUT LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW IF ITD BE FREAKY TO SEND RANDOM ASS ASKS TO YOU EVEN THO I BLEAT IN UR DMS EVERY OTHER SECOND

N E WAYS HIIII im having lunch rn !! IT RAINED SO BAD SO ITS LIKE 5PM AND IM STILL IN MY UNIFORM AND STUFF i had like.. stuff planned on my schedule and stuff :cccccc

dude the way i do NAWT feel like writing at all but also im dying to get yns pov in the first chapter like PICK A FUCKING SIDE OMFG literally had to pause writing this to think

TODAY I CORRECTED THE ENGLISH TEACHERS GRAMMAR IT WAS SO FUNNY LIKE I WAS WRITING AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS HUGE ASS WHITEBOARD SO I WAS KNEELING ON THE GROUND AND SHE GOES TO CORRECT SOMEONE'S (ALREADY CORRECT) GRAMMAR AND I LOOK UP TO HER LIKE UH NO THAT'S RIGHT ACTUALLY AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN QUESTION IT JUST TOOK IT LIKE A CHAMP??? LIKE GIRL WHEN EVEN U KNOW UR WRONG????

THE SENTENCE WAS monica went to her grandmother's house for summer vacation AND SHE MADE IT WEIRDER SOUNDING "during vacation" LIKE GIRL NO??????????? sorry for ranting god im such a hater

AND LIKE THESE FUCKASS TEACHERS WONT SEE MY TEXTS (i love them) BUT THE EXACT SECOND I PULL UP TO THEM AT SCHOOL IM GETTING MY CHEEKS TUGGED AT LIKE "oh em gee alina u did such a great job we r sooo proud of u" DIE. AND IM SO SCARED CUZ IM NOT STUDYING PROPERLY OR ENOUGH I THINK AND MY SCHEDULE IS SO FREAKY AND WEIRD AND THE !! RAIN !! EW 🤮🤢🤮🤢 not that i hate the rain, it just conveniently happens NOT when im at home ready to go to school, but rather otw to school or otw home so i'm just late everywhere. also MY WATER BOTTLE DISAPPEARED?? AND THERES A GIRL W THIEVING TENDENCIES IN CLASS LIKE IM NOT POINTING FINGERS BUT BUT BUUUUUUUT um. ANWYAYS I SAW A SUBMERGED MOTORCYCLE AND ALSO MY CHEM TEACHER TAKING PICS OF THE FLOOD LIKE WTF HE WANT THEM FOR "look wife im not cheating im actually trapped in school"

dude.. biceps r so..... like... kuroo... IM LOWK A KUROO ENTHUSIAST HE IS SO YUMMY LIKE U JUST KNOW HED LET U BITE IT (my intrusive thoughts r like. if he existed irl. nom nom time) NOT EVEN IN A SEXUAL WAY BTW I JUST NEED A CHOMP

ANYWAYS I FOUND OUT LIKE RN THAT I GOT 77/90 IN PAPER 1 AND 95/110 IN PAPER 2 OF BANGLA AND I ONLY GOT AN A* BECAUSE OF THE THRESHOLD (171) LIKE WHAAAT. (I GOT 172)

ITS 5:18PM RN AND IM GNA TAKE THE FASTEST FUCKING SHOWER OF MY ENTIRE LIKE CUZ MY HAIR GREASY ASF AND ITS SO EW AND THEN ILL DO CHEM NOTES HASHTAG STUDYING TRUST ME ! ! !

ANYWAYS last anyways of the day HRU MY BABY POOKIE PIE DARLING SWEETHEART POPEYES MUFFIN CUPCAKE HONEYPIE POPSICLE POOKIEBRO HOW WAS UR SLEEP HOW WAS UR YESTERDAY HOW IS UR LIFE WHATS GOING ON AND ALSO ALSO ALSO i forget give me a sec um erm ueueue OH I GOT IT I ABSOLUTELY ADORE U FOR READING ALL OF THE THINGS I SEND U LIKE!!!!! SHIRRJSKSKSOKSKS ILY okbye!!

HEY LINA!!

yeah im gonna act like u didnt see that sideblog post bc i SAID i wasnt trying to hint at anyone... AND NO THATS NOT FREAKY?? idk man i send in asks to ness like every day bc i think its fun to talk that way!! paragraph asks are genuinely so fun to receive!! ALSO USING THE WORD BLEAT IS CRAZY YOU R NOT BLEATING IN MY DMS

omg i hope you had a good lunch!! im answering this like an hour later so i assume u already finished? idk its weird that we're 12 hrs apart 😭 AND NOOO THATS AWFUL :(( sorry to hear that love :( hopefully the rain didn't flood any area and you and your fam are all good!!

HELP THATS SUCH A REAL FEELING i was battling with that yesterday so bad omf... i feel like sometimes we can attach somewhat negative connotations w writing bc sometimes it can feel like a chore? so sometimes it's a struggle to get up and decide to write? maybe thats js me but like yeah 😓 BUT GENUINELY SO EXCITED FOR YOUR APOCALYPSE AU!! ITS BEEN AMAZING SO FAR!! AND ANYTHING IVE READ FOR IT MAKES ME WANT TO LET OUT AUDIBLE SOBS ‼️ that sounds negative but i feel like you get why i want to LIKE GOOD GRIEF anyway write whenever you feel like it!! dont force it <3

THERES NO WAY??? PLEASE THATS SO FUNNY TO ME 😭 I LOVE THAT SHE DIDNT EVEN QUESTION IT OMG? YOU PROBABLY SPEAK MUCH MORE FLUENTLY THAN HER ANYWAY LMAOAOAO BUT PROUD OF YOU!!

okay like maybe im stupid but i feel like both of those sentences make sense? like "monica went to her grandmother's house for summer vacation" makes sense but so does "monica went to her grandmother's house during vacation" it's just that it doesn't specify whether it's during summer vacation so it can sound awkward ig?? idk man ive been stuck reading old english for the last couple of days bc of the hobbit (I DESPISE THAT BOOK IT CAN GO DIE) sigh

HELP?? I MEAN IM SO HAPPY YOURE GETTING GOOD GRADES THO!! AS LONG AS YOURE ABLE TO STUDY JUST ENOUGH SO THAT YOURE CONFIDENT IN THE TOPIC THEN I THINK YOURE GOOD HONESTLY 😨 and the rain sounds like its out to get u thats wild??? PLEASE im not pointing my finger at anyone... im just agreeing here... there's a chance 😭 having classmates with tendencies to steal is such a pain in the ass tho i hope you're able to retrieve your water bottle!! AND HELP I LOVE THE WAY YOU DUBBED THAT "im not cheating im actually stuck in school" had me giggling sm

HELLO? BITING KUROO'S BICEP IS INSANE (but lowkey i would too VERY LOWKEY because i feel like im not super attracted to big biceps and stuff idk?? but just a little chomp 😋😋)

WHATATATAT AT LEAST YOU GOT A* THOUGH ‼️ GOOD JOB!!!

AAA ENJOY YOUR SHOWER! I HOPE IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER!! AND YES WE LOVE A RESPONSIBLE STUDIOUS GIRL 😋

AND IM ACTUALLY DOING GOOD MY POOKIE WOOKIE SUGAR PLUM COOKIE BROWNIE PUMPKIN PIE HONEY LOML (i laughed an obscene amount while writing that)!! TODAY IM GONNA BE SUPER BUSY.. I HAVE SPEECH AND DEBATE AFTER MY SCHOOL DAY IS OVER AND THEN I HAVE VOLLEYBALL PRACTICE UNTIL... 7 PM???? I THINK???? GOD. AND I SLEPT SUPER DUPER WELL I WOKE UP RLY COZY IN MY BED AND IM STILL HUDDLED UP IN HERE LMAOAOAO 😭 YESTERDAY WAS GOOD!! I DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING I NEEDED TO DO SO I GOT TO CHILL AT HOME AND LISTEN TO MUSIC AND LITTLE PODCASTS (i listen to the bit my tongue podcast by nailea devora SOOO MUCH) AND AWHAGSHHA LINA!! I ADORE EVERYTHING YOU WRITE AND ANYTHING YOU SEND TO ME!! ILL ALWAYS MAKE TIME TO READ SOMETHING YOU SEND ME!! ILY!! <3

[mini-sae]

Scars

James March × reader

Summary : James kills you to keep you with him.

James never felt regret. He never regretted anything. He never regretted killing before, he never regretted making victims and killers. He never regretting all the sad ghosts walking in his hotel. He didn't even regretted all he did to his ex-wife.

That was before you.

He felt something at the moment he laid eyes on you. A pique of interest. An ounce of curiosity.

So he followed you around ( discreetly, of course ), and tried to get to know you. But you were an enigma. A guarded little thing. You spoke a lot to people, but you reaveled almost nothing about yourself.

He specifically asked, more ordered, the other ghosts to not hurt you. Not yet. He enjoyed seeing you going off and on his hotel. Getting addicted to the joy he felt when you finally walked through the doors. Illuminating the room and his heart.

And if he was being honest, he liked knowing that you didn't feel trapped in here. That you took joy coming back home. Coming back to him. Seeing that you were, he decided to approach you. For real, this time.

You were in one of the chairs, in the hall of the hotel. You liked to work surrounded by people. Unlike him. But it was one of the cutest thing he ever seen.

- May I sit here ?

You looked up at him and nodded gently. Oh those eyes. He has seen them a lot but they never looked at him before. Not directly and not consciously.

A voice in his head told him that you weren't a great beauty. You weren't perfect like that goddess he used to be married with. His taste for perfection always pushed him to look for the best.

But he didn't care. He liked how small you were. He liked your tiny hands and your kindness. He liked that you were dressed very simply even if you deserved way better.

To him, you were perfect.

So he sat in the chair in front of you and introduced himself. You two talked for about an hour, and when you excused yourself to leave, he was excited as he was frustrated.

He got to talk to you, but he didnt learn anything he already knew. You knew how to turn the tables and avoid personal questions. You were good.

He vowed himself to talk to you again the next day and this time, he will get something out of you.

But that's not what happened.

Instead, he drove a knife through your heart.

Which wasn't planned, not at all.

He had an evil plan on action. Again. Someone like John, that he was grooming. But way more bloodthirsty and wild.

James was watching him stabbing and stabbing some poor man on a vacation. He was enjoying it until he heard a gasp.

He turned around and saw you at the door, petrified.

- Y/N. It's okay. I can explain...

But as he was walking to you, you were snapping out of your trance. You left the room, running as fast as you can. The young psycho got up to catch you, but James stopped him right away.

He was the one to catch you.

He grabbed you from behind and turned you to face him.

- Y/N listen to me.

- Please, let me go. I won't say anything.

He couldn't say what hurts the most. Your pleading, your fear of him, your need to get away from him. If you did, you would never come back. He was sure of that. No, no. You had to come back. Actually, you just had to stay.

He didn't even think. Really think. He just knew that it wanted it to be fast. He didn't wanted it to hurt. You shouldn't be hurt. Not by anyone, not even him.

The look of pure shock on your face was hard to watch. He didn't mind the mess, but that look of hurt, shock and pain was unbearable.

He held you as you were losing balance.

- I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

He fell on his knees so he could keep you in his arms. He strongly held the back of your neck With one hand while gently stroking your cheek with the other.

It took only a few seconds. But as he was holding your dead body, he felt it for the first time. Regret.

He was glad he did this. He was happy knowing that you'll be here forever. But this was nothing compared to the guilt he felt for taking your life. You'll never getting out of here again, and he knew you never wanted this.

Whatever it was that was waiting for you, it will always wait. Whatever you wanted to go to, you'll never will. And that was because of him.

He carried your body in one of the rooms of his floor. He laid you down on the bed and sat on the edge. Waiting for you. Until you finally wake up for good.

And what a brutal awakening you had.

He told you everything. Absolutely everything. He told you the things he had done. He told you what this place was. What the people in it were. And that now, you were one of them.

He tried to calm you down when you bursted in tears.

- I can't be dead. I have to go home. I have to...

You just couldn't believe it.

James putted his hand on your back to soothe you.

- It's going to be okay. You'll do good, you'll find a way to have a life here. I'll help you.

- Why did you do this to me ? - You said in a sad tone.

- I had to. I had to do it because...

- No, you wanted to. You said you were a killer. And you were training another killer. It's... It's murder. I've been murdered.

You laughed quietly but there was something hysterical in it.

- Y/N please.

- I want to go back in my room. I want to be alone. I can be alone, right ?

James got up when you did.

- Of course. You can do anything you want.

You were gone before he was done talking. That's how fast you wanted to be away from him.

That lasted weeks. Months even. You would go out of your room sometimes. But only to talk to Liz or Sally. And everytime James would walk into the same room as you, you were ready to go.

You knew you could go anywhere in this place. Sally told you that James let you access to the seventh floor.

- Why would I go in that place ? - You asked her.

She laughed a little.

- There's not just torture's rooms. There's also a grand living room. A study room. Beautiful ancient bedrooms. You're actually one of the very few allowed there.

You turned that down, of course. But the days were all the same. And you couldn't still accept that you'll spend eternity here as a ghost. You were dead. You felt dead on the inside.

But as time went by, you grew more bored and bored, and the study room started to attract you. Reading was one of your favorite activities when you were alive.

And one day, you just gave it a try. Trying to calm your fear of James as you were heading to the seventh floor.

You saw it already, but it was still weird to see how it was different from the rest of the hotel. It was like entering an ancient time.

You walked past a few doors, realizing you didn't know where was the room you were looking for. You timidly opened a few doors until you found yourself in a disgusting room. Those objects were so scary.

You felt a cold shiver running down your spine. You were about to run again when a voice froze you.

- It's down the hallway, on the left.

You turned to see James, who were eyeing you from the frame of his bedroom's door.

- No, it's fine actually. I shouldn't have come.

- Please. Go in there and take whatever you'd like. You have nothing to be scared of.

You nodded and went were he said.

You hated him, but you hated even more when he was being kind to you. You were drawn to kindness, like to a safe place.

But he wasn't kind. He was a killer. Your killer. A sadist murderer.

But you tend to forget it every time you see his beautiful face and hear his reassuring words. Gosh you were weak, you thought to yourself.

James was pacing in his room. He heard you coming from the elevator. He recognized your light footsteps right away.

He waited weeks for that day to come. When you'd felt less frightened to dare come back here.

He didn't want to talk to you. He wanted you to just feel safe here. And comfortable. At least, as much as you could be. And he knew seeing him wouldn't do that for you. You were still too afraid of him.

But he couldn't resist. He had to see you. And seeing you and hearing you felt like a blessing.

He felt happy like that. Even though you weren't in the same room. You were enjoying something that was his, on his floor, near him. It was a huge step. He would take scraps if that's what you wanted to give. He'd take anything.

He was well aware of his feelings for you. He craved your presence mor than anything. What he used to feel for the Countess was laughable compared to what he feels for you. The Countess was a prize. The greatest he had, but still, nothing but a possession.

But you ? Oh he wanted you. He wanted to give you everything you wanted. He wanted to know that you were safe, okay, happy. He needed to be near you.

He wanted to possess you. Not as an object but as his and only his. His woman. His darling. The girl who had him wrapped around her finger and didn't even know it.

No you didnt know you had him. You didn't know you've changed him. The first great change in him was his murderous needs. He hadn't killed since he killed you. Just the idea of it repulses him. How would you react if he killed again ? In the same place where you live ? He would never take the chance to find out.

You two started this pattern for a few weeks. You would come every day to read and he would just get out of his room to say hello to you.

You didn't like the way you were looking forward to this. The reading, yes. But also the few seconds with him.

You wanted to hold on to your hatred but it was slowly slipping away.

- Y/N. Liz voice pulled you out of your thoughts.

- I need to ask you a big favor, I'm afraid.

- Please, go ahead.

Liz was your favorite person in the hotel. You liked Sally, but Liz was so special.

- I want to throw a big party for the next week event. But I need the approval.

- Who's approval ?

- The owner.

She looked down while saying this. Knowing how you felt towards the owner.

- You want me to ask him ?

- Yes. I would do it myself, but I know he's in a pretty bad mood the days. But I think if it comes from you...

You found silly that she believed that. James had no problem of killing. He'll have no problem of saying no for some party.

But Liz was your friend and you wanted to do something for her. You could at least try.

So here you were, knocking on James door. When nobody answered after the third knock, you decided to try to see if he was in there.

- James ? - You asked as you slowly walk into the bedroom.

It was a beautiful room. Very 1920's. Another door opened from the other side of the room.

- Y/N ? Is something wrong ?

He wore nothing but a towel around his waist. You felt your cheeks heating while watching his muscular chest and broad shoulders.

- I'm sorry, I shouldn't have entered. It's just... Well I...

You were so embarrassed you wanted to hide.

- That's alright. Please let me put something on.

He turned his back on you to grab a shirt and a pair of pants.

That was the first time you saw them.

The scars.

Douzens of very old scars adorning his back.

He went back inside the bathroom, you guessed, and came back fully dressed.

He was a beautiful man. That was hardly to debate.

- So please tell me.

You told him about Liz and her party. Waiting the refusal.

- Of course she can.

You looked at him with big eyes.

- Really ?

- Yes, really. - He said with a soft smile.

And for the first time since you were dead, you smiled back at him.

It was like a sunbath. He would keep that image in his head forever and ever.

- Thank you. She'll be happy to hear that. And again, I'm sorry for entering your room like that.

You were about to leave when he stopped you.

- Y/N.

He sighed before coming closer to you.

- You can ask me anything, you know that ? And you're more than welcomed here. Anytime you want.

- There is something I'd like to ask but I'm afraid to overstep.

- Anything.

He was watching you closely. You tried to see any hint of a serial killer, but you couldn't. Only soft kindness, interest, and something you couldn't describe.

- I noticed the marks on your back. I was wondering how...

You were twisting your hand, expecting a violent reaction.

- Oh.

His smile dropped but he didn't seem angry. He looked sad and tormented.

- You don't have to say it. I know it's a private question.

You involuntary took a step toward him.

He sits on his bed and runs a hand through his hair.

- It was my father.

Then for the next hours, you talked and talked. About his father and what kind of a man he was. Which explained a lot about the kind of man James became.

You talked about the Countess. About this hotel. And, at his demand, you talked about you.

Talking about your life made you sad. You missed it, greatly. But you were starting to like it here. Some bits, some people.

It felt good. Maybe James was not the best choice to have this conversation with, but it felt good to talk about this.

So you did it again. Every day, you would spent time with James and talk for hours. He tells you everything about him. But being an almost one hundred year old ghost, he had a lot to say.

And you listened. The good, the bad and the horrible. But you were not so shocked anymore. Especially that he wasn't killing anymore.

That was the top subject among the other ghosts. The owner stopped murdering people. Surely he wasn't feeling well.

That couldn't been more wrong..

He never felt so good. He felt calm and peaceful. Listening to your stories and telling you his.

You weren't really afraid anymore. He could see how relaxed and calm you've grown to be in his presence.

And he was falling more in love with you with every day. He wanted to tell you so much. He was dreaming of you loving him too. It would never happened, of course. But he allowed himself to fantasize about it.

But it did happen.

It was a day when one of the ghosts got really mad at Sally over a stupid reason and you took her defense. The ghost slapped you real hard and all hell broke loose.

Sally went maniac on the ghost while the others gathered around. Liz got you out of there but before she could say anything, everyone went silent.

James was walking through the group of people and grabbed the ghost who hitted you by the neck.

- We need to find the proper punishment for this one.

You saw everyone shivered and step back from them.

Suddenly a horrible beast came running, took the ghost, and went back to where it came from.

James came to you, and softly caressed your cheek.

- Are you okay, dear ?

You nodded and he gently took your hand to lead you to his floor.

- What will happened to her ? - You asked in the elevator.

- Let's just say she'll never lay a finger on you ever again.

You shivered at that. James told you that he could control the ghosts cause they knew what he was capable of.

A part of you wanted to urge him to stop that. It was a stupid fight and just a slap. But another part of you, a much darker one, was thrilled about having someone who's willing to hurt anyone to defend or protect you.

Which everyone was aware of now.

- James. Thank you. I...

You feel him grabbing your face and the next thing you know, his lips are on yours.

You put your hands on his arms and kiss him back.

You didn't even know how much you wanted this. Wanted him. He is soft yet so firm. You moaned into his mouth and he let out a little laugh, his forehead against yours.

- I love you. I'm sorry for what I did to you. I am. But I couldn't let you leave. I couldn't let you leave me.

And just like that, the obvious took you by surprise. You loved him too. The way you ended up craving his presence as he was craving yours. The way you just got passed everything he did. The way you wanted more. Always more.

- I love you too.

He looked at you as if he couldn't believe you.

- It's okay. You don't have to say that. I'm fine with just being with you.

You smile and put your hand around his neck.

- I love you, James.

His smile was so beautiful. His eyes never looked so bright and his hands were holding you so close to him.

- I'll do everything to make you happy. I promise this to you, my love.

- I think I already am.

[swiftfootedachilles]

It was autistic!Mickey and nerodivergant!Ian (I wasn't specific with how or why he is) going on holidays and how they struggled with it but liked it and it was based off my experiences of loving traveling and exploring but struggling because of being autistic and needing certain things/routines

You inspired me so much by seeing someone talk about ALL aspects of autistic!Mickey in a postive light and not acting like he's a helpless, delicate little thing that can't consent or live his life or love his husband

Thank you for your kind words and if I ever decide to publish it you'll be the first to know

-dedicating a fic to you anon

aww that sounds wonderful!

i relate SO much!!! i love the idea of traveling around the world and wanna move to germany next year but im also TERRIFIED of losing the familiarity of home. when ive traveled in the past i would get so anxious i wouldnt even go out that much. i would only do something if i had others with me and would literally even not eat because i didnt wanna go to a store or restaurant alone. but i still love going other places and making new memories! i just havent found a conducive way for me to do it yet

mickey pushed ian to move out then when he realized it would disrupt his life, he hated it! i can see mickey so badly wanting to drive south for a vacation and then getting there and realizing he didnt plan for certain things and melting down as a result. he is very capable and independent, but that doesnt negate his autism! he is BOTH. even, he is capable and independent partly BECAUSE of his autism. he can stim and be nonverbal and melt down and lash out and STILL be so incredibly strong physically and emotionally

now im thinking about mickey alone in mexico, already completely thrown off bc he really thought ian was gonna go with him, trying to establish new routines and not having ways to cope with the change ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️😭😭😭😭😭😭

[tears-of-boredom]

i want to be dead. but you know, in that passive way where its just kind of a fact. im pretty sure its just my womanly hormones talking but i really dont see myself ever getting out of this mud. metaphorical mud i mean. im like laying in mud, and sometimes i manage to stand up,, but you know, im still standing in it, and covered in it. and eventually i fall back down. you know i seemingly really like to make up stupid metaphors. i have no idea why, maybe it makes me feel smart.

im tired. tomorrow i have a driving lesson. my first one. ever. im not really worried for myself, i just feel like the teacher is going to be dissapointed in me or something.

ive been having annoying dreams. in the last one i was smoking with my sibling and i talked to them about how ive been having so many dreams where ive smoked. i hate that my dreams do that. reference other dreams as if they arent dreams themselves. makes it harder to wake up ya know. i wish id have a positive dream for once. amybe one about moving on my own and getting away from this family finally. or more like just getting away from mom. shes literally the only one i want to be away from.

ive been decorating my room. setting up shelves and buying trinkets from kontti. it kind of halted because i couldnt figure out why our nail gun wasnt accepting the nails i was putting in it, and then i couldnt find any other kind. and i didnt want to ask mom for help. and also i decided to do the net thing, which is the main thing, cuz ill hang shit from it. i guess i could hammer a hook into the wall for a painting...but the point was that ive been thinking about the fact that if i wanna move before im 18, all this decoration ive been planning wont have the opportunity to be up for that long. but also that was the reason that ive literally never felt comfortable decorating my room, even when the ones that were completely my own. and i decided that this time im not gonna make that mistake and just decorate if i want to, no thinking about how itll have to be taken down eventually.

anyways im just really sad, and i visited my sister recently and i was really close to crying just because her apartment seemed so safe and so much like it was hers. and i like really want that for myself. and im just sad. and i dont wanna go to the driving lesson tomorrow. not because i dont wanna go to the lesson itself, but because i feel like ill be like at my worst, and thus wont get that much out of it.

i really want to get out of this house. when we were moving, there was like two weeks where me and my brother spent the nights at this new apartment, while mom slept at the old one, just because our trips to school would be much shorter. and those two weeks felt like heaven honestly. i didnt even realise why i felt so good and happy, until mom started sleeping here as well, and all the joy drained from me in an instant.

i dont know how to express to the adults in my life how much i want to live on my own. because im just a child. a fifteen year old child. and living with a different adult wont work. it has to be alone. i can promise you that when i fucking get that apartment, no matter how small or shitty, i will cry tears of happiness and relief.

im hesitant to even type these words but: maybe i should talk to my mom about this. just tell her that i really want to move out. no feeling-sharing needed.

i wanna go skydiving without a parachute. soar through the air for the first and last time in my life.

i wish i could fly. ive wished that for a long time. i remember wishing it ever vacation i had to spend up north. and everytime i spent a recess alone in the school yard.

i hate that im crying just because im menstruating. it makes me feel like my emotions arent true. not like i trust my emotions to be true any other fucking time.

why is life like this. why do so many people get to live so easy lives and then i have to do this shit.

ohhkay i just felt the urge to go get a knife so im not going to feed my own anger.

im tired.

its weird because i do dissociate clearly, but its always more liek just, my body seems weird, and it feels realy creepy how my body just moves when i want it to. and i feel like im just watching through someone elses eyes. it cant be me whos so good at typing. im clumsy, i struggle with guitar chords and mute the wrong strings. why are my hands so soft. it feels really gross to be in this body. but still, in the back of my head i know that im ust making this all up in my head. because who the fuck else is this. of course its my finger that are typing my thoughts out.

even my fucking ring looks weird and foreign.why does my skin have a texture. why are humans os fucking gross.why do i have to feel things.

oh my god im driving myself into a fucking meltdown right down im going to force myself to stop.

[indigo474]

3223-Hello March

Time is speeding up. Everyone says the older you get the faster time goes. My weeks fly by. so much happens- so much life happens in the span of a week and it's almost as if nothing happens. things change but stay the same.. a weird time in my life. time.. time is weird. Madison wants to make a big deal about my birthday. very sweet, but i do have to work. a month away.. anything could happen.

I saw Kika 2x this week. tuesday she got in trouble. she got a new toy, she was really excited to show me. i was playing with her, maybe a little too much and she just couldn't or wouldn't calm down. she got yelled at because she kept "getting in the way" today she ran down the driveway to greet me. she is so sweet. i look forward to seeing her every week. I managed to make it through my whole workout tonight without complaining. last week i heard myself complaining and i didnt like it- i told myself i wouldn't do it again. soo i didn't.. 90x5 and 80x5x2.. not bad. i can tell i am getting stronger.. it feels good. I squatted 160x5.. heavy heavy heavy.. i did it but GOD, it was hard.. my co worked never did call me to lift with her- she was tired after work. i NEED to start going to the gym in the morning.. i tell myself i am going to but but but.. excuses. i would really like to start going before work- this way its done and if i want to i can workout after work. WORK- 2 people said something about me being a manager.. Pam said when you become a manager... Drew introduced me as April, recently promoter customer service manager. Who knows right????? i've dared the Universe to show me how good my life can get.. Work is ok. i mean, its work. Am i supposed to love it? so much more to write.. i have off this weekend. yeah. i have things to do around here. I think i am going to join eharmony.. Marci says i have to get back out there. She might be right. there are a bunch of concerts coming up.. i have to decide what i'm doing. i haven't planned a vacation yet. i haven't heard anything in regards to my divorce settlement. I guess i'm just not getting it? venus and jupiter meet tomorrow. i got a glimpse of them tonight and saw them a few nights ago.. i think it's going to rain tomorrow so probably won't be able to see them. life is funny.. i do a lot of listening. i've come to realize about 90% of what is said doesn't need to be. probably more.. people LOVE to hear themselves talk. i catch myself talking just to talk- not really saying anything. sometimes i just want to tell myself to shut the fuck up. nobody cares . people listen only to respond.. i can see them thinking of a response before i'm even done talking. some people are worse than others. i get that way too- if im excited to share something- I'm tired.

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. lefty eyebag 😌

I'm doing okay, couldn't get up this morning cause it was so nice and warm. And it was cloudy and rainy outside. Just working now. How about you? What have you been up to?

I used to do that with my ex when we lived together. We fold the clothes together and she puts hers away, but then I end up reorganizing her stuff because when she picks out what she wants to wear and decides it's not what she wants, she puts it back all messy. And I'm just there like, no wonder it takes forever to get ready lol

I've read that one too! Where they pretended to be together so Vision can notice Wanda? I love the part that Vision is the eye doctor and his name is Vision hahahaha I thought that you were very clever and sneaky.

Yes, I want a game room too! I already know how it'll be set up and stuff. But I want to combine the game room and the movie room. So that when playing games, it'll be in a big screen TV with really good sound.

And it'll have a little fridge for snacks. Because whenever I game, I always need snacks lol. That's why I like the nugget ice. It's a weird habit, but I chew ice a lot.

I'm sorry about that! After I sent the ask, I was thinking to myself, damn why did I say that. I do get a bit flirty when I am tired and sleepy. Good thing I wasn't drunk, or I would have showered you with good compliments hahaha

I get flustered when people surprise me with things. Like if someone tells me that they got something for me because they saw it and it reminded them of me. So knowing that I crossed their mind and feeling appreciated.

Also what gets me weak is the smile and hugs.

Uh so when I used to live with my bestfriend, we basically just go into each other's rooms without knocking. So one time, I walked in on her and her boyfriend having sex. 😵 I ran out, so quick, and was so embarrassed lol

Hm, what's the first thing you would buy if you won the lottery?

-CuriousGeorge

Hello hello righty eyebag!

sorry for the late reply? how was ur day?

my day was okay. I tried to write a bit n then chores n be a mom for the little sassy princess. lol. alsoooo, I made the cover for the dark fic with Nat mini series today!

I decided to announce it tonight and post the 3 parts that are ready since I dont think I cant finish it on time before my vacation. I plan to post all 3 this week. :D So yaaaay! I'm excited!

hahahaha yeah, he is like that too but i'm the one that take longer to get ready. lol. i meant i can get ready fast but when i have to do my hair n dress up, it's gonna take longer. :D

haha yeeep! That's the fic. I love the comment R said about Vision is an eye doctor but cant see how much Wanda into him. 😅

Oh yeah my game room of course have a full bar n kitchen too so i can have a drink snacks too.haha.

Sometimes i chew ice cube too but it depends how hard it is.haha.

Oh no no..dont be sorry or apologize. It's okay. I know u were joking about the flirty comment.. i was joking too. N u werent being disrespect or anything. So feel free to joke around. If u cross the line, i will let u know. 😊

Oh really?? So u always give compliments to people whn u r drunk? Thats nice n sweet. Maybe when u r drunk u should message me. I actually love when people drunk text me.😅

Aaww all the weakness u mentioned are cute n nice. I agree with u. I'm like that too. We r pretty similar.haha. i love something spontaneous act of care like that, it means i was in ther mind.

Oooh haha thats awkward. Good thing i never walk in to something like that.hhaha. i just remember but i dont know if this counts but i once serve my regular customer. They r a pretty cool couple But i think i once came to their table to check up on them n they were in a big argument or something so when i ask if i can get them anything else, both of them say a stern upset "NO" at the same time. I was like ooo okaay. N after that, i didnt go check on them until they ask for the check. 😅 i like them. I think both of them are pretty cool women. One of them is a cop n the other is a lawyer. They even bought me an eifel tower keychain n silk scarf when they went to Paris. 🥰

The first thing i buy when i win a lottery is my dream house n my dream car. Then maybe buy a business so the money will multiply.haha 😅 what about u?

Next question?

Cheerio!

[cherry-pop-soda]

if my parents want to include me in their summer plans why are they not capable of fucking COMMUNICATING said plans to me