#god this is so disjointed...

[baekhyoris]

RIGHT??? MFING HIASHI SHOULD HAVE DIED THAT NIGHT AS COMPENSATION TO BOTH HIS BROTHER AND HIS NEPHEW 🤬🤬🤬 like what the heck was his character development for? To teach kids that you live a slave (or poor) and no matter what you do you'll die a slave (poor)???

And I've always believed that Neji should have been the next head of the family, like he clearly has experience leading and is the mf prodigy of the family. And besides, what better way to break the generational trauma than give the mantle of head to someone who was taught to protect the main branch, bc surely he can apply what he learned when he was young to when he's older.

Also I love Hinata but that girl did NOT want to be a ninja nor do I think she wanted to become the head either. But I fully believed Hinata would have stepped down in favour of Neji. And I know damn well Naruto would have found a way to break that seal.

I'm so sorry but that seal makes me angry so bad.

Neji is a sassy little bitch, true, but that only means he needs an equally sassy little bitch so they can maximize their joint sassy bitchness.

When I read that you hc him as demiromantic and demisexual, my eyes were open fr fr bc that idiot would not know that his ass was in love until someone like Hinata tells him lmao and not to mention, with how he grew up, I doubt he has the faintest idea what being in love looks like. Like he maybe has an idea what love looks like bc of his father, but being on love? He's clueless. Also, Hizashi Hyūga come back to us and beat your brother pls.

Also I can't help but think of that audio clip of "oh I'm going to hell. here he is talking about his poor dead mother and I can't stop thinking about his hands unbuttoning my dress"

Like, it's so Neji coded lmao. He could be talking about his poor dead father I will be thinking about his hands ehehe 🤫

It's the fact that my older brother spoiled me that he was gonna die really got to me cus his fave, Itachi, died too lmaoo. I never even watched the war part just only the episodes he's on lmao. My fave moment was him and team gai during the time they were saving gaara.

SPEAK YOUR SHIT 🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️

i'm glad you see the demi aroace neji vision. it just makes so much sense to me the more i think about it and it makes me happy to think about.

god neji and his s/o would be such a power couple lmao. but i can also imagine neji falling for someone who's more mild-mannered/calm.

here's how neji's arc would've played out in #MY naruto cinematic universe. under the cut because this got so long 💀

hiashi would have taken that hit to protect neji. it would have been a full circle moment, if you will. hizashi died to protect hiashi and the village (i have Many Thoughts on hizashi's death and how it doesn't really make sense but that's for another day) and hiashi ultimately died to protect his nephew, in a way, he's also paying his brother back. i love literary parallels.

as his final words, hiashi declares that neji is to be the head of the clan, trusting that he'll lead the clan through major reform. it also serves as hiashi's redemption arc if you want to view it like that. fast forward to the war ending, neji and naruto manages to get someone who can remove the seal (maybe tenten considering that she's proficient in sealing jutsu), and gets it removed. but, every member of the clan has a new seal put on them that protects their eyes, no brain melting feature.

kishi this was so obvious why did u fucking do what u did-

no cause the seal pisses me off so fucking bad. and the weird thing is that we don't really know much about it in the grand scheme of things. like we know about how it works, but how did it come to be? i do have a headcanon about this though.

the CBS was created during the warring states period, when everyone was at constant war with another. the hyuga were concerned with the secrets of their kekkei genkai being known to enemies, so the clan head at the time commissioned a member of the uzumaki clan to create a seal that would protect their eyes. hinata gets to live the quiet life that she's always wanted.

upon death, the seal will destroy their eyes and it did not have the brain melting ability. the side branch is like the milita, whereas the main branch didn’t fight, instead focusing more on politics. as a result, the members of the side branch get branded with the seal. the warring states period comes to an end as it does in canon.

while konoha is in its infancy, the second clan head—who became head while hashirama was hokage—is the one who starts twisting the seal in order to control the members of the side branch and ensure their obedience. by the time hiruzen becomes hokage (1st time), the seal turns into what it is in canon.

honestly there's not much we know about the hyuga clan. lots of plot holes and unanswered questions. it's really annoying because they're so interesting to me, but that's for another post.

and i'll end with this. in the end by linkin park is the most neji coded song ever in this essay i will- ("i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter, i had to fall to lose it all but in the end it doesn't even matter")

[hypertranced]

anyway vi and jinx mean the world to me and the way they became a secondary plot in their own damn show makes me so sad. "oH bUt ItS aN EnSeMbLe CaSt ThErEs No MaIn ChArAcTeRs" yeah that's bullshit. the show starts with them walking hand in hand. each episode starts with them facing each other on the record player. the story was meant to be about them and how their relationship affects the fate of the sister cities.

but in season 2 they threw that all away for a generic marvel esque "the whole gang fights to save the world" ending. they threw it all away for jinx to become a defanged less radical version of herself all because a child who was written like her fucking therapy dog was dropped onto her. threw it all away for them to force caitvi to happen in a toxic and unsatisfactory way, a way that took everything away from vi's identity and made her feel colonised.

vi and jinx were meant to be the core of the show but they got rid of that because of course they fucking would, these incapable writers were more focused on what they thought would satisfy general audiences and themselves over what would've actually made a progressive and interesting story.

[yashley]

no but fearne and morrighan leaving the feywild as creatures of impulse who never once questioned how their primal instincts could be inherently violent but they step foot outside of their world and suddenly experience such a crisis of identity because… why am i like this? and why does it bother me so much now?

[muffinrag]

s1 tng baby Worf is sooooooo ashy. what'd they do to him. why'd they do him so dirty. looks white in the bridge lighting. looks grey the other half of the time. i think he's only looked normal like, twice, 2.4 seconds total

[funnyscienceman]

listen listen listen listen. i am never going to get over singed & viktor. CAN YOU IMAGINE THE MENTAL ANGUISH. THE MESS OF EMOTIONS VIKTOR HAS TO DEAL WITH. he's so steadfast with his morals and ideals. hextech must not be weaponized. dangerous science is fine as long as the only person at risk of getting hurt is me. the moment it kills someone else he's fucking BROKEN by it and just throws in the gd towel. YET SINGED WAS THE ONE WHO TAUGHT HIM. like just. imagine, ok. imagine— take the premise that singed & viktor were actually pretty close. viktor was lonely as a kid, but he found company in rio. in singed. singed provides a space and opportunity for viktor to do his science stuff. "we can be loners together." here's someone he probably has a decent amount of affection and respect for, maybe even admires like a kid would a mentor/role model/parental figure. and he hurts rio. and viktor doesn't understand, he can't reconcile this. "we can be loners together," but also, "you did this?" viktor's got like a whole slew of emotions to deal with. What the fuck? How could you? I hate you. But also, "I told you, I was consulting a friend about our quandary."

"You built this? Why aren't you playing with the others?"

"We can be loners together."

Like just what are you supposed to do when someone who provided for you — who took care of you, who looked after you as a kid — hurts someone? Someone that you care about? What the FUCK are you supposed to when that person is willing to torture and kill for science — something that you are also passionate about, the very thing you both found commonality in, bonded over — and does it all without even a hint of remorse? What are you supposed to think?

Are you allowed to find comfort and safety in that person anymore? Can you still have good memories about them, and look back at them fondly? Can you be thankful for all the good that person's done for you?

What does it say about you, if they're the one who influenced you so much so early in your life, and here they are now?

Viktor gets Sky killed, and can you imagine what must've been running through his head? I'm no better than him. I'm turning out just like him. I am just like him. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

AND IT'S JUST.

AAGGHH!!!

[fallenangelblade]

can I just say???? crazy to get “nobody cares that you’re broken, cas” and “i’d rather have you, cursed or not” in the same fucking episode

[i-am-become-a-name]

What kind of makes the end of Forty (two) even worse is even as five tries to hold himself aloof from his companions (while simultaneously being so composed of them) post Adric, he still cracks sometimes - comforts Tegan after the Mara, clucks over Nyssa, is amused by Turlough - he is, in spite of himself a lot of the time, kind to them (to his own detriment probably - how much worse is it going to be when they inevitably leave him if he can't keep that affection in a chokehold- anyway, different conversation.)

But himself? His own fracture who is so young, even in comparison to this, his already youngest regeneration?

"You're an aberration. A splinter who shouldn't exist."

"There's no need to be so cruel about it."

"I'm not being cruel. I'm giving it to you straight- giving it to me straight. I am you."

He's seen inside the fractured mind of this Doctor, via telepathic connection, this tiny life this Doctor has been allowed in happy highs and oh so incredibly tragic lows, in the certainty he has in Tegan as always being there and his confusions around everything else changing. His desperation over Adric.

And unlike with his companions, where affection and compassion will sneak through - he has none to offer himself. This Doctor who has had everything crammed into such a short life and is unravelling mentally, unspooling through time, splitting at the seams and losing what reason he had at the beginning? Who could be more deserving of compassion? (Personally there are few moments I have ever had more of a desire to gently hug someone and tell them it'll be okay.) But this is himself. And I don't think it's a matter of he himself would want it straight, but more... self loathing. Of here is this creature that is all the worst parts of my already failure of a self. Who cannot hold himself back from the desires I have been strangling. Kindness is not for ourselves.

And even when he does try, that last little moment of life where this splinter can do no damage? The one thing that has kept him whole through this life, who has always been there, is gone. Yes Doctor, here is your future - you'll still travel (for this final adventure, there is your death looming on the horizon) but adrift. You have a friend (you don't know her, you'll never have the chance to get to know her before you die) but everyone you ever met before has already left you.

The unbearable cruelty that after a life of such loss he's been forbidden to lean upon any of the companions that experienced it with him, instead dropped into the lap of a stranger who he'll still give his own life up for in a second. It feels like Five is just... condemning himself in the same way he has ever since Earthshock, but actually hearing it aloud is so much worse. And none of this is mentioning he sends Tegan back out, says to her he needs to tell himself off. Because there's no way she'd let him talk to himself like that. Like she said earlier - he's already beaten himself up enough. (Another kindness to a companion in not letting her know the splinter's fate? After all, they were the closest to each other, she was always there when he was, his anchor.)

It's loathing and its tragedy and everything he touches fracturing. He can't be kind to this fracture, not even when he tries, because it's himself and he has failed so many times and lost so much in this such short life that he cannot be worthy of such a mercy as kindness.

[nyx-bait]

Actually you know what I'm still not over this. q!Slime's entire fucking arc has been about processing grief and about his guilt over the one kid he actually did kill. He went into exile after killing Tilin and promised not to leave until he atoned. When he found out Tilin's death was an accident, he still remained in exile.

He had forgiveness and got closure with many of the dead eggs during the day of the dead event, and he still remained in exile.

He went to Purgatory, even though he still had his 'daughter', because he "can't be responsible for another egg cracking."

Note that q!Slime's "crimes" were mostly nonsense, silly accusations and then "misclick". The federation is LITERALLY ACKNOWLEDGING IT WAS AN ACCIDENT. But no, according to the fanbase, he's still definitely planning on killing kids outside of that one incident brought on by grief where he didn't even manage to hurt anyone.

[ineffably-idiotic]

the fact that crowley essentially says "one fabulous kiss and boom its sorted" when trying to get nina and maggie together, like that's how Love works. and his Last Ditch Effort at getting aziraphale to stay, to keep living in this comfortable existence they've carved out for themselves, to love him back, is a kiss. it's the most Human way he can think to express this love and desperation that is overflowing in him, because he knows that aziraphale loves humanity, they BOTH do. "to the world", and all that. "to us".

i wonder which kiss made him think of that. i wonder what historical event crowley saw, a miraculous kiss, and immediately realized "that is how humans love. this is what they do". was it in biblical times? was it from a romcom?

it's not even a GOOD kiss! neither of them have ever kissed before! its a messy smushing of lips and they're both shaking and crowley isn't sure if he's doing it right, aziraphale isn't sure what's Happening.

and aziraphale, in his fear, calls crowley's desperation "temptation". he forgives crowley for a sin that he himself has reprimanded himself for, many times over the years. its easier to blame his own falling in love on the demon himself. it's easier to backslide into an awful way of thinking that has kept you safe for millennia than take an unsteady step forward, a step where aziraphale isn't sure he'll have a place to land.

aziraphale is a guardian by nature, and what he does at the end of season 2 IS him trying to help. trying to protect, trying to fix. but for aziraphale to really break that cycle of running back to heaven for a secure attachment, he needs to realize how awful heaven is from the inside. because crowley sure as hell isn't opening up about what happened to him. because they never talk, and ESPECIALLY not about important things.

[sparring-spirals]

I need to yell about fcg and *specifically* this great post that you wrote ( https://www.tumblr.com/sparring-spirals/747570433506902016/okay-after-some-sleep-back-on-my-bullshit-lets ) because it made me realize that I really, truly hope Laura will remember she took off her circlet moments before the bang and Imogen had the chance to hear that fcg was at peace with this decision, not because they were trying to be a martyr, but because they had a true chance to save their friends, knowing full well that detonating *would* be a sacrifice because their life *did* matter.

(I hope sending asks is okay, sorry to barge in like this)

Ahw, hell yeah, glad the post hit hard, recontextualizing it in my head helped a lot with chewing through my feelings about. All of this. I'm always okay with asks!! As long as folks are aware I am not necessarily going to agree with every ask that comes in, and more critically, sometimes I disappear off the face of the Earth for a while, dont answer asks, and then feel too embarassed about answering them so much later/get asks about something I didnt watch, go "ah ill answer when i watch it" and then. Well.

(To the various people who sent the total 12 asks that have been sitting in my box for over a year now. I am. So sorry.)

Honestly, I didnt even think about the possibility that Imogen might have heard it, goddamn. Fascinating. I was fully bracing myself for Bell's Hells just- never knowing, and them having to grapple with it. Which. Takes me out at the knees, tbh. I hesitate to speculate on it too much when the episode is going to come out Thursday and probably prove me wrong, but. God, there's no world where the Bell's Hells would instinctively know that F.C.G had made the call with that attitude, and fuck, that puts all of it into a different light, clearly.

I'm a little apprehensive and tbh deeply curious to see how the Bell's Hells take this- the depth of the loss, the sudden nature of it, the victory against Otohan probably not even feeling that way. Maybe wanting to honor F.C.G's sacrifice but. Probably. And understandably. Angry at them for making that call, but he's not. Even there for them to be angry at. So what then? So what then? They can have all these feelings and have all these questions about why he did it, about what he was thinking, and he's not there to answer them, and that's the issue.

If Imogen did hear his last thoughts, this elevates it into a different kind of heartbreaking, but probably still easier overall. The world where they don't know. Is. A more tricky one to navigate, for sure.

But also if I'm being honest. I am not opposed to how the cast would have the Bell's Hells experience and explore that scenario. So i mean. I mean. I hope so too. But if Imogen didnt. Consider me buckled in for whatever happens.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

HIIIIHIHII mackerel happy sundayyy i hope u r having a good dayyy <3 :] swinging by for my mandatory holding a mic up to u Worm Thoughts?? worm thoughts now that ur through another arc or so?? conjectures & such?? miss militia trigger vision surprise tool to help u later? :33 also i think now u did get to that part where taylor's just sitting in her lair and her her-shaped insect clones are terrorizing the merchants in her territory & lighting people on fire & shit while she's drinking her tea... shes so fucked up <33

HAPPY SUNDAY!!!! I've been in the car all afternoon hi hi hi. last thing I read was the merchants party 0_0 holy shit dude. I have so many thoughts. TAYLOR SAW THE THING. UGH. I dont know what it is about it but I've gotten this with Imps powers too where. taylor will describe something and then the next sentence forget it exists??? and it's SO uniquely unnerving I've never felt that exact feeling from a piece of text before. my brain is like BUT WAIT. ITS RIGHT THERE GO BACK AND READ THE LAST SENTENCE AGAIN but she cant! she's not reading it this is happening to her! I feel as though I am being gaslit by a book. DO U KNOW WHAT I MEAN. it's such an extremely specific writing quirk it's SO good

ALSO FUCK YEAH THAT WHOLE SCENE WAS SO GOOD. BUGS DOING INCREDIBLE VIOLENCE AND THEN IT CUTS BACK TO TAYLOR WITH HER TERRARIUMS SIPPING TEA. THE WHIPLASH. THE CASUAL BRUTALITY OF IT ALL. girl you have fallen so far from the sad high schooler eating lunch alone in the bathroom. holy fucking shit. I love this for her btw.

[zylphiacrowley]

Question for maintenance day: has X’vahl kind of found a paternal relationship with the twins since he was never allowed to see his own twin children?

Hi Meg! (Sorry I'm only just now answering this) but the answer is YES! Not in any official capacity of course but he kind of thinks of them as his own kids (nevermind that he was prepared to sign the adoption papers to make it official pre-EW... you know when I'm talking about). Alisaie calls him dad a lot (It's a joke... is it tho? 🤨). He wouldn't think of them as replacements for his own bio kids, but they do all kind of think of each other as honorary family at this point.

Like many things in his backstory, this whole thing started as a joke to me then I made it into real lore lol. Called him "catdad" as a joke in the beginning, made him a dad in his actual backstory, then realized the twins were... also twins like the kids I had in mind for his bio kids so I was like "wouldn't it be funny if they called him dad?" (This was before we really knew much about their parents), and then it all stuck.

Moral of the story: joking about character development things is a slippery slope into actual character development. 😅

Thank you for the ask!~♡

[eridan-ampora]

something about this

[getougender]

jjk orv au sashisu inspired by yoohankim. gojou, the protagonist. shouko, the writer. getou, the reader.

this story is for that one reader. tell me you fool. i want to live in a big house with everyone. getou as kim dokja with his patchwork vessel found in the dumpster in the industrial complex arc. swapping names. we’re the strongest. gojou as the unstoppable protagonist hellbent on bringing down the stars. oldest dream arc. shouko as han sooyoung, director of the false last act. the fuckingn story repair scenes. everything begins and ends with them DO YOU UNDERSTAND. DO YOU UNDERSTAND. ARE YOU PICKING UP WHAT I AM PUTTING DOWN ARE YOU SEEING WHAT I AM SHOWING YOU

[fortjester]

in other news, my joey claire fic is now 4.2k words long, whoot whoot

[ozsvessalius]

like what even is the point of the adult timeline idgi being a thing. like yes it establishes even as middle aged adults they're still haunted by the wilderness & their consequences followed them but like. ????? that rly isn't given as much focus as it should be given. there's too much random other shit going on. there's too many outta nowhere things. esp w other survivors showing up just to fucking die one season later. none of the mysteries in the adult timeline feel worth it being there. the adult casting is Great, & i wish i could like it solely for that, but man. even when i start to like it, some decision is made that turns me right back off to it. :/

i stay for the teen timeline bc i rly feel like despite some minor, minor qualms, it's genuinely super well done & interesting. truly an incredibly gripping mystery that keeps me on the edge of my seat, & makes me gasp, but that i can easily follow bc all the beats Make Sense.

but bc of how good it is, im just like. man i rly wish Both timelines had that much care put into them instead of making me wonder why there's two timelines at all