#he makes me uncomfy

[imnotafoximarabbit]

The dsmp will always be the biggest media let down of my life 

like yalllllll hyped it up so much

made amazing music 

fanart was amazing

movie like animatics and traliers

only to find out yall picked out the coolest parts of the streams that come few and far between and from a literary standpoint the writing kinda sucks ngl  You cant mix memes with genuine lore and excpect me to care. I think its a great starting point though it has made way for using smps as a storytelling device and the 3 canon lives system and thats great but damn I was so excited to learn about this epic war only to find out it started because some guy wanted to sell “drugs” out a van and some kid was being annoying it was funny at first but the more i thought about it the more sad i was it wasint as cool as it seemed 

[andro-dino]

yeah i uh. i like this guy a lot

[cheecats]

Okay, I hate Slash, but for some reason I want you to design him, what do you think?

Me: Can we have One Eye back? Erins: We have One Eye at home. The One Eye at home:

[sophsun1]

Queer as Folk – 2.13: It's Because I'm Gay, Right?

[sneeb-canons]

mind can rarely crack his joints bc his bones are metal and whatever and usually run pretty smoothly. but on the rare occasion that he can crack them. it sounds like the entire house is being torn apart by fireworks and violent explosions. his back snaps like a godsamn whip and his neck cracks so hard it's a surprise he didn't break his own spine. every single joint in his body will pop louder than anyone in the house has ever yelled, without fail.

he'll always make sure to do this in direct vicinity of both heart and soul because as he rearranges his internal structures they will stare on in sheer, absolute horror, especially considering that once he's done, he just continues on with his task as if it never happened and as if every atom in his body hasn't been split in two

Headcanon #632

[dykedvonte]

I dislike takes that Danse would be just as conservative in modernized aus when it's clearly shown his staunch views of things come from his time in the Brotherhood and his deep-rooted desire to belong to something with a greater purpose.

Not to mention lines that show much more open-mindedness that get overlooked for his harsher sentiments when you first meet him. Like the oppurtunity to be a part of something is why Danse fell so far into Brotherhood dogma and it doesn't negate the offense things he does but I feel like it's just lazy to be like "hmmm he'd def be racist" just so it aligns to his BoS beliefs.

[daytaker]

NightBringer Satan is a Gift.

I understand everyone has their own opinions on how good/not good NB is as a game or a story or whatever, but in my opinion, Satan's characterization is soooo enhanced by it. I know that this isn't an opinion that everyone shares, but to me, Satan felt emotionally artificial sometimes in the original game (more on that below).* He felt kind of awkward and like he wanted to connect with MC but something was blocking the kind of connection they develop with some of the other brothers. (Disclaimer: I've only done season 1 of OG, so I can't speak to how he's characterized later on. I know, I know, shame. But I'm trying my best.) Getting to see what Satan is like when he doesn't have any control over his emotions makes the stiffness and artificiality make more sense to me, and they become admirable because we get to see just how hard it is for him to get everything under control.

I think they did a really good job with the pacing of his development in NB too. Satan in Lesson 1 and Satan in Lesson 19 are different, but there isn't a moment where he suddenly starts controlling his emotions better. I think there's a lot going on behind the scenes with him as far as his emotional growth and self control are concerned.

Also let's not forget some very important things about Satan that make him, IMO, one of the most interesting characters to work with as a writer:

Satan was never an angel; he had no fall from grace.

Satan was created from Lucifer's wrath---he is literally the product of trauma and self-mutilation.

Satan is significantly younger than his brothers.

He spent the first year of his life more or less trapped in a castle with his deeply emotionally wounded brothers.

He has a deep resentment towards Lucifer that sometimes defies reason---he wishes he didn't dedicate so much of his time and energy to him, but it's basically a compulsion.

He hates his deep association with Lucifer, and he hates that he has a lot in common with him.

And these lead me to some headcanons that live rent-free in my brain every day of my life.

Satan sees himself as a reminder of the Great Celestial War and everything his brothers lost in it, including Lilith.

He is divine retribution against Lucifer for his failure, for leading his brothers to failure, for letting his sister die.

He acts as a counterbalance to Lucifer's pride by bearing the weight of the shame that Lucifer can't fully accept now that he is the Avatar of Pride. Even if Lucifer pushes it out of his mind, Satan never forgets that he failed in the worst way possible.

His biggest aspiration is to become a full and complete person outside of any association he has with Lucifer. He feels like some sort of parasitic tumor that exists only in opposition to his brother, and he wants desperately to escape that role that he feels he was born into.

Anyway, Satan is great, hail Satan, all that good stuff. Did you know I have a lot of thoughts and opinions about Satan? I know, shocking. For more of my takes here's my fic about him (on AO3).

*I think Satan almost metaphorically represents certain elements of autism---emotions that don't come out the way you intend, masking and its limitations, hyperfixations that are barely under control. In Fandom Discourse(TM) there's sometimes a level of focus on more 'cutesy' autistic traits that we find endearing in characters, like social obliviousness and gleefully indulged hyperfixations. But emotional control, emotional masking, emotional seepage, emotional artificiality---these are also real and messy and often times they aren't cute and they're uncomfortable to see in yourself or in someone else. I really don't like diagnosing characters so I'm not about to claim Satan "is" autistic, but as someone who has been called essentially 'spectrum adjacent' by doctors, I relate to the awkwardness and the desire to appear normal despite knowing you're not and emotions spilling out in ugly ways---um. That got really long and personal.

[littelestvic]

Nacekris

[flopgirlsummer]

honestly, Armand is so cringe and I am so sad for him.

he gives off the most try-hard vibes in everything he does and Daniel is not having it, which is valid. he calls him out every time he tries to come off as blazé or superior and Armand tries to put some mansplain manipulate malewife-energy into his side of the story in the interviews. even with krypto boy’s/lunch menu’s shades on Armand ist getting outcunted by both Louis and Daniel just sitting there (and probably Real Rashid). he ate for like a second, but then he just radiates such desperate, ancient boomer energy that it’s off-putting.

Armand's dominant facade is exhausting for him to perform and for all of us to witness. he just needs to relax and sit down next to Louis on a cushion on the floor and stop levitating to try and remind everyone of his powers. we know you're strong honey. you’re cute, but you are not the assertive, badass bitch you would like to be and that’s okay, jesus. him being enslaved, groomed and then appointed as head of a coven is just cruel at this point. he craves guidance and approval, but since he cannot get it outside of the Maitre/Arun role-play he just tries to manipulate his way to the top of the food chain. when actually, he should be hand-fed by DanLouisRashid while they pat his curls. I want them to have a cozy, healthy Dom/switch/sub dynamic with sane and and consensual play. so, yeah.

[jaguarys]

I'm certainly not here to police the ways in which people explore their fucked up queers but I'll always be kinda Eugh about people shipping Orochimaru and Kabuto. That is a boy and his awful mother. Orochimaru peeks in nightly and asks if he's done his homework (taken apart several human corpses) and tells him they're proud of him. Kabuto is Technically Siblings with Team Hebi and fucking hates it because he is the Favorite and he will Let Them Know It. I have many thoughts

[constehlla]

Foolish interacting with the Spanish speakers is so funny to me because on one hand. He’s made so much progress with Leonarda (and is one of the only English speakers on the server I’ve seen really TRY with Spanish?) to the point where he can read signs not meant for him and foil pranks from her.

On the other hand, he can be surrounded by only Spanish speakers and he will not stop saying idioms and phrases and a million other untranslatable things. He makes no effort to change how he speaks for them and it is so funny

[sillywabbits]

meanwhile, in the low-sensory corner fjfjfj

sometimes you just gotta lay back and stare at the ceiling until the bees in your chest calm down and stop trying to convince you that everyone secretly doesn't like you fhfj (and a co-worker with a big cozy lap and affirming words doesn't hurt ☀️❤️)

[pixiatn]

feels weird when writers have the Batfam lowkey dehumanize Danny but it's like never addressed, like they're 100% ok comparing a traumatized child to a feral animal they're trying to tame

Like ik dehumanization is a big trope in these fics but it feels so weird for the heroes (and eventual family) to do it and never address "hey it's a lil fucked up we're comparing this clearly abused homeless child to a rabid animal"

[ruthlesslistener]

have u ever had that thing where your ball python sits likes it's dead. Idk how to describe it, they're curled up in their hide like normal except they just LOOK dead. Like they have their head limp and crooked, or they're less of a tight curl and almost look like their sides are gonna fall over. My guy does it everytime he sheds and it still scares the shit out of me 5 years later. I know shedding can't be comfortable but can we be less dramatic abt it

No??? Most dramatic I've gotten from them is Toast striking at me when he was in shed (though he missed and then never did it again). Most of the time I just get a hiss from him. I think your little guy is just really really uncomfortable when he sheds and is being all dramatic about it.

(If you ever manage to snap a pic of him doing it tho pls show me, I want to see this snakely 'woe is me' pose for myself)

[camellia-thea]

this isn't a meta thing or a condemnation, i just wanted to write down some opinions. but i've thought about it a bit more. i really really don't like the hallucination/psychosis elements within iwtv.

i think it's in part because i experience hallucinations regularly and i've experienced psychosis, but i don't find value in it being shown in this instance and i think it could've been completely left out.

hell, it could've been just louis seeing lestat (and fuck, maybe even claudia) as manifestations of guilt, but the beginning of s2e8 wasn't it. i don't think i can properly convey what made me uncomfortable, but i had to pause for a little bit to let myself get through it.

i wasn't very keen on louis killing someone he thought was lestat, as a way of showing instability and as a way to make him obviously unreliable. i think it did give the impression they wanted; the unreliability, and i've talked about that in regards to unreliable narrators, but it didn't sit right at the time, and having now seen the finale, i don't think it was necessary.

the erratic behaviour and the hallucinations of his victims within those moments just felt. bad. especially since it was an element of driving louis to get revenge. it's just another case of psychosis being used to "motivate" harm. especially since he's a vampire! you don't need to justify him wanting to kill people! claudia's death pushed him to the edge without any elements of psychosis, he could've just killed them! and yes, he was tortured and had come back from the brink of death in those moments, but even still. it felt like it went too far.

i don't really have a point here, i don't think. i guess it's just, you can do horror and violence and instability without leaning into those tropes. i think it was unnecessary.

[facetsofthecloset]

i'm sure it's been said but i feel like both Raxtus and Ronodin can be argued as "the only gay kid in the family and consequently shunned/rejected" and it's like. so weird bc Mull is so Mormon he'd probably rather eat his shorts than even acknowledge the possible existence of gays but

i mean. Raxtus literally has a fairy form. he's a fairy dragon.

Ronodin was just emo lol

and they both get so thoroughly rejected and sidelined by their families their whole lives and it turns Raxtus into an awkward but basically decent guy who runs back to the approval of his family once he's performed masculinity/violence enough to be accepted, only to then realize that he's basically just being used and still not fully trusted/accepted and having to betray them to save his real friends

(who sadly are probably actually homophobic but that's ok bc they're not dragon-phobic so that works out for him)

while Ronodin's like "fuck it. chaos and murder then!" and can you really blame him? he spent his entire life trying to conform to the "right" (in this case, Light) way of life, started spending time with the outgroup and learned to question things, then was told he was "too corrupt" to remain in his home

like. the symbolism is right there.

it's so funny, because sure Raxtus isn't a bad guy, but Ronodin definitely is and he pretty much gets sent to a type of hell at the end of Dragonwatch

and while Raxtus gets kind of a happy ending, like, him becoming an effective killer in a war and being accepted by his dad for being Good At Murder in the first Fablehaven series is presented as a happy ending. if Celebrant didn't wind up being the main villain for Dragonwatch, that probably would've been the end of it! gay kid learns how to soldier and is finally accepted by his homophobic family bc he's finally aggressive enough for them to love him

(i mean i have MANY issues with Celebrant being the main villain later and the reasons he's framed as bad but like. that's a separate rant lol)

the queer reading is right there. but also it's very bad and you can tell completely unintentional. or at the very least highly repressed. idk man i don't look into Mull as a personal individual bc i doubt i'll like what i see and i don't care that much but Dragonwatch was SO MUCH MORE MORMON than Fablehaven already was and it's so weird, seeing the fingerprints of it all over.

i feel like he either has a new editor or he's been doing this for long enough and sold enough books that he has the clout to veto changes made by editors or SOMETHING, bc i feel like? he's gotten worse?? and more unfiltered?? that or something happened and he's like. even more religious than before or something idk

like fablehaven was just kinda generic/bland fantasy with some fun ideas for magic items/powers/one sentence character premises, with just a hint of sus Mormon ideology, and then Dragonwatch just went. Full Mormon.

but then there's somehow even more weirdly queer shit. like. he's repressing so hard he's approaching queer from the other side??

idk man i wish this deeply mediocre man's writing wasn't a formative piece of middle school reading, leading to me still giving more of a shit than i really should over questionable children's literature now