#hidden thoughts

[swaniigirl]

I don’t think I’ll be loved or visible by anybody at all….i don’t see that day not now nor in the future.

[pandora-books]

"There is, in each man's heart, Chinese writing -- a secret script, a cryptic language…" -- from Translations from the Chinese by Christopher Morley.

[pixietinky]

Home wrecker , Heart breaker,

I'm a mess but not my place.

Unknowingly created chaos.

Wish she knew, wish I could.

But I promised, why can't man some be just honest.

Own up to mistakes in life they've done,

so I don't have to overthink and truth might won.

-Slogi

[sadjoshsworld]

(T^T)

[quicksilver87]

Sunny Morning

Good morning my sun,

i can see it will be fun,

i allready had a clue,

but a message from you,

confirms it will be true,

i don't wanna say,

it's hope on the way,

just happy to see,

your spirit in glee,

our thoughts free,

i still wanna read,

you poem of need,

not to again cry,

just see your shy,

see eye to eye,

you know my mind,

what's hiding behind,

i love you soo much,

to that i will clutch,

our souls still touch,

can't wait for today,

to see you in play,

it's been a while,

to see your smile,

i'll walk every mile,

so see you real soon,

sun will light up the moon.

[burymysoul]

I'm stuck in my head, with no escape

There's a constant thought of never being good enough, I feel replaceable even when I do for him things I have never done for anyone. He mistreats my heart with neglect and isolates me with words never said. I crave the days we had in the beginning, when I meant something to him. Now I have to ask for basic love an affection, I have to ask for time with him.. I feel so tired of asking for the simple things I need to feed a relationship that I have stopped asking. I have just been quiet and watchful, day by day taking a piece of my heart and closing it off to him..

But there are days I let him in again and it's a feeling of euphoria that I can't explain, and the whole time I have to keep reminding myself it's just temporary.

He won't be this nice, kind, and loving consistently. I know those brief moments will be gone before I know it, but I soak them up all the same. Love isn't supposed to be like this, how can we be together everyday but move backwards towards being strangers instead? I know I'm not the one, I know from the songs he plays and moves he makes that someone else holds his heart. Even when he tells me I'm wrong, too many things don't add up. He can go all day without speaking to me and it doesn't bother him one bit, how? It never used to be this way, he used to crave me but that was all on the surface and now I feel I no longer am "interesting," enough to try for. I do all the things he needs and asks even when I'm drowning myself I lift him up so he doesn't worry but I've begun to sink farther and farther away from who I used to be.

I can't tell him these things, I can't be honest with my thoughts or feelings, I can't scream out that I need help, I can't ask for his reassurance that I'm the only one, I can't ask for kindness, I can't ask affection, I can't ask for communication, I can't ask for more of him,

I can't I can't I can't..

Because he won't

He won't care, every time he has gotten angry, turned things back on me with manipulation, making me insecure and telling me I am crazy for thinking the things I do. He speaks so disrespectfully to me, then shuts down and completely ignores my existence isolating me from any hope of growth. I have become wise to his ways and now say nothing at all.. It never does me any good.

I am nothing to him, I am not the one he truly wants, I'm just useful for the things he needs and nothing more.

Sit pretty, keep quiet, and survive.

That's all I know.

But I want more, I deserve more.

[hinamie]

long way home

[datcravat]

It seems there's a new lawyer in town!!!

[swaniigirl]

Sometimes I feel like a vintage postcard from a place that doesn’t exist anymore. Like, I’m not lost, but definitely not found.

[bardspeak]

Here's the comic I made for War Never Changes, a Fallout charity zine that's still available to puchase digitally here: link.

The captions are lyrics from Autopsy Garland by the Mountain Goats. I've been dreaming of making this for literal Years, and the mods for the zine let me do it for them! I'm still pretty proud of it, and only regret that I completely forgot to replace Col. Hsu with General Lee Oliver in the final. Sorry man.

[anna-scribbles]

last one i promise(<—lie)

[pixietinky]

When I write the poems are full of sorrow.

Unfulfilled goals, dreams we borrow.

When you describe it it's a horror.

But mostly I write in my native language,

Not nearly smart, I didn't go to Cambridge.

My grammar all over the place,

Yet the paper is full of space.

Just waits for a message, something to learn.

Yet most things I have accomplished I didn't earn.

Passing my time, college on delay.

Mind is everywhere but in reality, what can I say.

And still when burden catches up,

And brain pleads for overthinking to stop.

I grab my paper and pen with ink.

Slowly writing what my mind does think.

Somethings are good, somethings get thrown.

And somethings get anonymously shown.

- Slogi

P.S. picture from pinterest

[astronnova]

danny phantom cast explorations and thoughts :v

[quicksilver87]

Taurus & Capricorn

You ignore what i think, you won't let it sink,

you don't even blink, spill any more ink,

let yourself on a brink, let you and me sync,

my thoughts just stink, leave love to shrink,

i'm just little blue, only words i can spew,

these days were a clue, you saw it too,

all the way through to the wonderful view,

how our vibe is true, this still is our cue,

am i just so insane, is it just my brain,

coping with the pain still seeing this lane,

keep riding this train, old, boring and plain,

am i just a stain to be washed off with rain,

my heart is assuring i can keep enduring,

keep garden manuring, keep on maturing,

am i still alluring, you mind still touring,

the thought of curing, our love securing,

noone can deny we make eachother fly high,

we are a sunny blue sky, its our natural dye,

but i can still spy your soul internaly cry,

how you away shy, wish to give it a try,

our souls are tied, we can't let it slide,

nothing yet died but you keep a stride,

puzzle pieces still hide, moved by a tide,

pushed to the side, start looking more wide,

i love being your friend, don't wanna offend,

don't wanna contend, just make an amend,

my will to you send that you can depend,

just take my hand and let us ascend,

situation is a clot like the Gordian knot,

like a tangled plot that this life brought,

it's such a tight spot but give it a shot,

i keep stirring the pot to give all i've got,

just take a sword, cut the knot cord,

reset the chessboard, rise out of the fjord,

from your own accord step bravely toward,

please let us afford to again play our chord.

[technically-human]

When the ghost who read to you as you died activates all of your Must Protect instincts

[prabeankai]

Our lovely group of neighbours all gathered in one place! A pleasant group photo, isn't it? ^^

Though take a closer look, maybe a smidge of a squint, and you might find that all may not be as it seems? 🤔

But I'm urged to assure you, all is just fine! Just don't look between the spirals and lines...