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Gnawing at My Enclosure
a/n: I don't wanna hear it synopsis: heavy make out session with dazai w/c: 1.0k m.list: here
˖ ݁𖥔.☁︎.𖥔 ݁ ˖
So picture this. You are at Dazai’s apartment. You both are on his couch. You’ve been at his place tons of times-you’ve known him for a long time. There is no denying the chemistry you both have and other people see it too. You usually try not to think about it, but damn. He just looks really hot right now. He’s wearing his work shirt without the vest, an extra button unbuttoned. His coat is hanging off his kitchen table. Every now and then, he runs a hand through his hair, and you’re just dying. He’s manspreading as he talks and for some reason, you like it.
You’ve felt like this ton of times and figured your little infatuation would go away the longer you were friends with him. What were you thinking?
He turns over to look at you. And you don’t think you can hide the blush on your face. He raises a brow, “You alright, sweetheart?” He calls you that sometimes, and it infuriates you. The first time he used it, he was just being a tease. He saw how red your face went, and it just stuck. Now it’s just something he uses when you’re alone.
He can see how flustered you are, and you don’t even try to answer. Your eyes do not leave his because if you look away, he wins. He knows he has you in the palm of his hand at this point. He knows he can move you. He does it all the time.
Running his hand through his hair again, he rests the same arm on the back cushion of the couch. “You know, it’s rude to stare.” You still don’t respond to him. If you do, he’ll win. He’ll hear how stirred up you are by the falter of your voice. However, you turn towards him, mimicking his pose. His eyes are unwavering, and it feels like needles are piercing through you. You don’t know if you’re gonna win anymore.
You’re both at opposite ends of the couch, but it feels like he can reach right through you. He stands up, without removing eye contact I will add, and removes his belt, setting it aside.
You’re appalled. Disgusted at how quick that turns you on. He sees that he barely cracked that hard exterior you tried so hard to keep. He thinks it’s so cute when you try to battle with him like this.
When he sits back down, he’s closer. You are now panicking. He loves it. His arrogance pisses you off. “Are you gonna blink, or…” You curse yourself when you waver at the end.
He grins, which is even hotter, and you’re so mad. The tension is killing you.
You have had enough of this man. With a frustrated sigh, you yank him by the head and smash his lips onto yours. He’s quick to respond, giving you what you deliver. His energy doesn’t disappoint. He grabs your waist and lowers you down to the arm of the couch. He’s now on top of you, his right leg between the both of yours. His other foot is steady on the floor, keeping him balanced. His tongue slips through your mouth while you pull onto his shirt.
“Fuck,” he gasps as he releases his lips from yours until they latch onto your neck, just below your ear. He’s rough with you, and you can tell he’s needed this for a while. He’s needed you. His hand that isn’t on your waist reaches around to the back of your head, forcing you to move where he guides you. The smell of his cologne is sickening. It invades your senses and only makes you want him more.
He hears a little gasp from you when he reaches that place on your neck you love, and he keeps a mental note of it. Not without annihilating it first, of course. The bruises he leaves on your neck are going to be so visible, but you don’t even care.
He lets go of you and leans back, undoing the rest of his buttons and tossing his shirt aside. This isn’t the first time you’ve seen him shirtless, but it doesn’t fail to give you butterflies. What is he thinking? Because his eyes are devouring you.
He leans back down to you, one hand on your thigh while the other goes up your shirt to hold your waist. His body heat warms you, and you melt into his touch. He makes you shiver. His lips go directly back to your neck like it’s his mission to bring those noises back out of you. And of course, he succeeds.
“Can’t believe this is all it takes to make you sound like that,” he teases. It takes everything in you not to kick him. But you’re lost in the pleasure. His stupid remark only makes you whine more.
He groans into your neck, and you’re a mess. He doesn’t let up either, but he does lick a wet line from your collarbone to your ear, and you grab onto him for dear life. Your phone buzzes once, but you ignore it.
“Osamu…” You can’t help but let his name roll off your tongue when he sucks on your neck again.
His lips go right next to your ear as he toys with you. “Tell me about it, sweetheart.”
Your phone dings again, and he grabs it and turns it over, not allowing you to be distracted by anything but him.
You push back against him gently, “Wait, what if it’s important?”
“It’s not.”
“How do you know?”
His lack of response makes you roll your eyes. When your phone begins ringing, he takes it and answers it himself. “Can it wait?”
You try to reach back for it and he blocks you. “What are you doing?” You whispered.
“Bother Ranpo with it.” After going back and forth with who you assumed was Kunikida, he ended the call with a frustrated sigh.
“That murder case from last week has a new lead, and our suspect is going to be around the harbor in an hour.” He grabs his shirt and stands up. You follow suit, still in a daze. He turns to you and traces a thumb around your lips, “You’re drooling by the way.”
You still want to kick him.
˖ ݁𖥔.☁︎.𖥔 ݁ ˖
#anime#bungou stray dogs#bsd#fanfic#x reader#bsd dazai#dazai#dazai osamu#fanfiction#reader insert#make out#dazaiosamu#dazai osamu bsd#bungou stray dogs dazai#dazai osamu x reader#dazai x reader#writer stuff#writing#brain rot#reader#x you#y/n#simping#drabble#hit me with a stick or something
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warm-up from this morning
#chonny jash#cccc#cccc mind#cj mind#cccc heart#cj heart#(not a ship) (please don't tag as such)#art#something I really want to try and do more is like... looser lines. focus less on cleaning up. but still keeping the shapes fun#hence why this is very messy. the moment I start to focus on cleaning up rather than drawing is when the perfectionism hits#which is my number 1 enemy I hate you perfectionism Die perfectionism#I keep thinking about Heart and Mind lately :( they piss me off#they're so shithead siblings to me. I hope they explode#don't mind the top left corner btw I didn't want to make a different post for him. I don't like him#so he's sticking himself to this post like a flea#concordposting
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#aubrey plaza#me: yes I love the baseball the way they throw the baseball and hit it with the big sticks and run around haha *twirls hair*#(I have accepted that she is playing softball which is something different)
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Honestly, we, as a fandom have been so unfair to Kant about his lying/acting when this whole time, Mr "has my whole life planned out and I have a contingency plan for everything and also I am fully in control of all of my emotions" Fadel has been like:
Fadel, at 10am, pretending he wasn't missing Style: Sorry we're closed. Ignore the sign that says we've been open for the past 3 hours.
Fadel: I'm fine.
Also Fadel: Are you actually. 🥺 Not interested in dating? 🥺 Anymore?? 😭
Fadel, after he accidentally was too honest: OH shit, oh shit, oh shit!!!
Fadel: I'm a struggling business owner!
Fadel (under his breath): Nailed it.
#i'm literally so glad that the show is sticking to the comedy#like it just lightens the whole show and keeps us on our toes cuz you never know when the drama is going to really hit#or the romance for that matter#once again i'm so sorry to the people that this show isn't meant for because its perfect for me#i know some people want this to be darker and grittier and i saw a few people compare this show (unfavourably) to KPTS#and like... sorry not sorry this isn't the same show and it NEVER PRETENDED TO BE??#not sure why you're upset that the comedy is... comedic?? :<#sorry that was a bit of a tangent but...saw something in the main tags that made me annoyed *sighs*#also i LOVE joong's face when fadel accidentally says something that should be nonsensical and style calls him out on it#like just... when will joong get a proper comedy where he isn't forced to be dark and broody he's just SO PERFECT for it xDDD#the heart killers#the heart killers the series#fadel#thk shitposts#hui talks thai bl#hui talks thk
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what happened to Corey Millsap!!? He was such a sweet kid - his little his bump with Kelvin after he protected him from Jesse and singing with him and my heart broke for him leaving to get his dad away from his mom - and now he's publicity insulting and talking down to his wife and his mom constantly
#Significant chance Lori got the fuck out of dodge after the divorce was finalized and Corey chose to stick around Cobb to keep an eye on him#And Cobb really got in the kids head#Maybe it's cause watching a kid convince their drunk parent to let them drive hits a something for me but my heart was breaking for him#I don't blame him for lying at all#trg spoilers#the righteous gemstones
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funfact I’m extremely susceptible to timetravel shenanigans. aus save me
#I made the mistake of reading how to fix a temporal mistake#and due to my history with the ninja turtles I immediately remembered that I wanted to do something similar#now I have emmet 18 years in the past. I don’t like him. I’m gonna hit him with sticks. emmet you are a prey animal#spenxer lou art#lou is an artist#submas#submas emmet#submas ingo#subway boss emmet#subway boss ingo#subway bosses#subway master emmet#subway master ingo#I mean I guess technically Ingo isn’t a subway boss in these yet. but who care. he will be#btw if you don’t want to do math. Ingo is 19#Emmet is 37#my hcs have Ingo missing for 8 years#Ingo and Emmie have been working at gear station since they were 18#also don’t look at ingo’s legs too hard on that first panel thing. authors thinly veiled hatred for drawing legs#BTW. AS ALWAYS. IF I FUCKED UP THE ALT IN ANY WAY PLEASE TELL ME. I WANT TO KNOW
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thinking about shouto todoroki and this line from season five of miraculous ladybug: “the love you have for your friends isn’t divided; it’s multiplied!”
i think as someone who grew up without friends (much like kagami) that line and that revelation overall would hit very hard for him. i imagine it’s difficult sometimes for him not to view love as a nonrenewable resource, but. time and time again, his friends prove that it isn’t. they love him and continue to love him no matter what.
#i’m going to lie and say this isn’t coming from a place of personal learning#but i just rewatched that episode the other day and it really hit me hard#for one reason or another (or a lot of them) i have a tendency to view love as something… consumable? i guess? like a battery#it can be drained and depleted. inevitably i think i end up feeling like if someone loves someone else a lot#then they must love me less to compensate#and i’m just now starting to understand that that. isn’t necessarily true. but i’ve lived my entire life having that belief internalized#and being given proof in some way that it was true. it’s really really hard to unlearn y’know?#i had a lot of experiences as a kid where it was reinforced that you could only have one best friend at a time#and if you made other friends well then you could never love them as much as your best friend. in fact you shouldn’t and if you do#then obviously you don’t love your best friend that much. and man is that a really messed up set of beliefs to instill in a small child#my biggest problem now as an adult is trying to comprehend how that can be false y’know? it seems so unfathomable to me that an alternative#could exist and be true. i never know how to equate those words and actions and it gets so impossibly confusing to try#but i am grateful for my friends. i am so grateful for them. i love them so much. i’m trying to understand their love for me.#and i hope they know how grateful i am that they continue to stick around as i figure it out#bnha#mha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#shouto todoroki#mlb#miraculous ladybug#kagami tsurugi#<- they’re the same your honor. sorry. the perfectionism and isolation speaks to me#kats rambles#kats rambles in tags
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hey have any other writers (or readers!) felt it has been… very quiet… recently…. i know i was quiet for a bit but i feel like there was an uptick in activity for a bit there and we’ve gone back to quiet… maybe that’s just me
#tis very uh disheartening to say the least#i’ve been writing long enuf to sort of tell when something checks tumblrs boxes (within reason) but rlly everything is sort of soft floppin#just rn#idk!#i feel like nothing is hitting but that’s like the uhhh 6th piece in a row#by hitting i mean picked up by ppl outside of my usual following#<- whom i love DEARLY for sticking w this blog thru thick n thin mwah mwah#but even then those usuals seem quiet a bit 😭#idk maybe im whinging! u can tell me if it’s just me!#jay talks#delete later
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My experience with being aroace:
Me at 13: I've never been good at telling the difference between romantic and platonic love, so I'll just say I'm pan till I figure it out
Me at 14 near the end of that same year, reading the asexual definition: Oh ok that makes sense. Haha, no wonder I think everyone's so overwhelmingly horny.
Me, later: there's different ones for romantic attraction?? Panromantic asexual till I figure that out too I guess.
Me, discovering aromantic: oh. Well, I should've guessed that really.
#like. ok. story time.#i spent my first pride 'cosplaying' being pan#and i could only go because of a trans and gay student at my school. he was older than me and we became friends#he would constantly show me pictures of the celeb of the week and go 'isnt he sooo cute?' and my answer was always 'uh. no not really?'#so he knew i at least didnt like men and thus took me to my first pride#i made a trans woman cry by saying that our features dont make us who we are (she was upset over her big hands)#a girl hit on me by giving me a 40$ metal bottle for free and i didnt notice it was flirting until it was pointed out to me#watched a drag show and gave some money to a drag queen or 2#there was also a tarzan drag king. you go boo that was cool as shit#figured out that im ace later#turns out that said trans gay friend is a raging aphobe and genuinely doesnt believe that someone can be completely unattracted to anyone#he got so heated over it that i started sobbing into my phone and he yelled about it in a group chat we were in#it was full of trans people and no one was really sticking up for me#well. one person said something but it was just 'not the aphobia...' which. thanks. i guess.#thankfully i blocked him and havent talked to him sense#asexual#asexuality#aromance#aromantic#aromantism#arospec#aroace#aromantic asexual#gotta stop using pan as my go-to but no one will mad about it if you change you mind so it works!#gay#homosexual#lgbt#lgbtq community#lgbtq#lgbtqia
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At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.
I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)
(2024 summary here)
#poorly drawn mdzs#art summary#It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year!#I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on.#My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3#Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*)#There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster!#My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been-#-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit.#Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it.#And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!!#I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes.#but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary.#I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*)#I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!
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Pretty much 7 out of 8 of these guys are some kind of muscley- stopping cursing my boy seungmin with the What if he got muscle shit
#/if/ he hit the gym in a changbin sense bc it made him happy than yuh id support but considering he says he hates the gym#and has reiterated multiple times he works out to keep up stamina and thats it like..... leave him alone#hes literally hot as he is#first you have the members making comments about his body being “nothing” to look at then i have to see What If He Went To The Gym on tumblr#like the fact he hasnt become obsessed with this stuff at this point even tho nearly everyone else has is something impressive#why not pat him on the back for sticking to his own principles idk? and again HES HOT WITHOUT ALL THAT#god this shit annoys me lmao#like ??? if u want muslce theres a bunch to choose from leave my guy alone#also just fyi the universe where seungmin loses his soft arms and soft stomach is not the one where he becomes better
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imo karlach’s soul coin usage seems like it should have been a little more significant than it was.
she only ever really stops to consider the magnitude of burning through a person’s soul for power during an origin playthrough—otherwise she rationalizes to the player that they’re doomed anyway, and if using them gives her an edge in combat, why not use them for good instead of leaving them to be used by evil? the dialogue with lann tarv in act 2, where he tells the story of each soul he's handing over to her, tries to humanize each soul coin, and still she doesn’t really budge and disapproves pretty heavily if she's told no in regards to using them.
it just seems like something that could have caused some kind of conflict between her and wyll, given he sold his soul to a devil in dire circumstances and takes issue with the player for sleeping with mizora, because she 1) is mizora, and 2) similarly expends tormented souls during her romance scene, even if for a different purpose. but it just... never really comes up?
i love karlach. but that seems like it should have gone Somewhere, from a writing standpoint? karlach values wyll as a person but is willing to use currency forged from souls like his for the sake of a temporary power up. she knows the soul is consumed when she uses them. that whole exchange with lann tarv is there to emphasize that every soul coin she destroys was a person once. but it all kind of loses narrative purpose if this combination of factors doesn't mean anything? karlach doesn't change at all in her willingness to use soul coins, no matter what the player says or how much she cares for wyll.
idk. missed opportunity that wyll doesn't have any dialogue about this, of all things.
#destroying souls is otherwise unambiguously portrayed as A Pretty Bad Thing To Do in bg3. so it just seems weird to go#yeah using this destroys a soul but it makes me stronger and it feels GREAT!#and stick to that no matter what without really questioning it much#ethel's vicious mockery line about her selling every soul but her own just doesn't hit right if it flat out doesn't. matter at all.#plus. idk. something something soul coins apparently are difficult for non-evil characters to even have in their possession#so using them and fully destroying the souls within seems kind of. idk. significant from a character standpoint#disclaimer: not character hate obvi. i love karlach and her relationship with wyll is very good.#but idk. conflict is interesting! and that seems like somewhere it should have happened if you have both in the party#karlach sans wyll might never question using soul coins but karlach with wyll probably should have?#in the same way wyll's character changes somewhat whether he chooses to kill karlach or spare her#as it stands this is like how using the tadpoles makes a grand total of one roll in the game harder. there's no bite. no consequence. idk#not every character has to change to be good but idk. idk!#it all seems set up to make her reconsider at SOME point#and that she just doesn’t is in itself a pretty significant moral compromise on her part#that is just not. recognized or discussed basically ever#karlach#karlach cliffgate#bg3#baldur’s gate 3
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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo
#ganondoodles talks#also probably sounds like self pity#but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist#i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think#but the internet never gets to see that much of me#i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere#so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing#i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out#i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with#i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong#im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh#it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again#sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it#doesnt sound like a good excuse#... i want to thank those that do stick with me#even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise#there are little things that still make me angry at myself#like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing#and i got two#and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop#i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late#i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom#no matter how much i enjoy the ask#and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((
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#I feel weird posting on this blog rn. Imagine an arena audience dead silent for the most part#with some hecklers 🙄#and a wonderfully engaged front row or two of friends#as much as I deeply appreciate you beautiful people in the front#it's hard not to think about the rest of the space.#especially when the front row crowd shrinks as the rest of the crowd grows#yes i know there are many reasons people leave. and this isnt something new#but when youre known to have haters and have been stalked and harrassed etc it hits different#idk what im doing#im pensive#ty for sticking with me ❤️#and im not even a performer im just like sitting there talking to you guys and telling stories lol#writeblr
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taking bad drawing requests
feel free to throw me a suggestion! animals, people, concepts, plants, etc. i am More likely to draw it if it's something i'm familiar with but i am not planning on looking up references and i just want to get the hand movin and groovin while i have a few days off school
#hurgle says things#send them in !!! let's gooo#i have a few older requests in my inbox. might look through those a bit#these will not be polished. if i make something too polished you must hit me with a stick#i have the Unable To Finish Drawings disease atm#i need to chill out. be less precious. get loose get casual
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"I'm rather lucky," said Wimsey, with that apologetic air which seems forced on anybody accused of too much wealth. "I have an extraordinarily faithful and intelligent man, who looks after me like a mother."
I love it when a book looks me in the eye and goes 'yes my friend you are so completely and utterly correct and valid and always right well done'. bunter DOES look after him like a mother I am literally always saying this!!!!
(that note from peter's uncle where he describes bunter like... peter returned from the war with the man bunter, who was and is devoted to him. I have been thinking about this for weeks now. what a thing to say. what a way to sum up a situation a man and a relationship. *gazing pensively into the air with my chin resting on my interlaced fingers* was and is devoted to him.....)
#if you think I'm exaggerating: I think like 3 out of like 5 posts in my lord peter wimsey tag is just me ranting about exactly this#thank u dorothy l sayers for writing that for me specifically and personally almost a century before I was born#'I believe bunter would stick to me whatever happens' how could you do this to me (gratitude)#lord peter wimsey#mervyn bunter#love this bunter & peter backstory drop btw. interesting that peter seems to have actively gone out looking for him after the war#at least in peter's telling of it here. he was clearly in a real bad place when he came home so doubly interesting#also what an adorable glimpse into their everyday life. 'mooom where is --' vibes from here to the moon. 'excuse me my lord#I am engaged in the development of a plate' (a perfect sentence. will be using that to excuse myself from any number of situations#from here on out.) he has an internal telephone line to bunter in his flat. this is the best thing that could have happened#only at the beginning of the book so far obviously and I love that we seem to be diving into this stuff fully#after unnatural death kind of pulled back on the main character development in order to focus on the mystery plot!#awwwwwwwwwwwwwww and I just hit on a description of parker that made my whole heart melt. this was what was missing in the last one#happy to be back. also hard to not see the 'male loneliness epidemic' ideas and talking points echoes here#which is. something. no matter what is happening to men -- war. lack of work. mental illness. -- it's always women's fault somehow#the more things change huh lol. women don't need men anymore and that's the bane of society actually#oh yeah I guess the horrors of industrial warfare did something too but mostly it's those damn girls and who they want#or don't want to sleep with. kind of depressing to see someone a hundred years ago lampooning it in a way#that would not need THAT much adjustment to be about the current day debate :')
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