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Not enough about the clones being children and adults at the same time. They're 10 years old. They're fully grown. They're still little kids. They never got to have a childhood at all. They're terrifying soldiers. They hardly know anything about the galaxy except how to fight and how to take orders.
I want clones that have this childish wonder at the world, but being terrified to show it. Clones with the sense of humor of 10 year old boys. Clones who don't really understand what death is, not really. Not until they're on a battlefield and dying in droves.
#you ever think about how small their world was on kamino?#how little they knew or experienced?#kids in bodies of adults who were made to grow up too fast in more ways than one#yeah they had the accelerated aging but they're still only 10 years old#like. kids are still fully formed people they just haven't been around long enough to experience as much or develop yet#the clones are physically adults but they've only had half as much time to grow up#i just wish it was something that was explored more
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my martha knight au in a nutshell:
Danny/Martha: see up here?
Danny/Martha: *taps skull*
Danny/Martha: intense psychological damage
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Danny/Martha: *upon finding out she's pregnant*
Danny/Martha: oh my god i cant be a mom, I'm fifteen and homeless--
Danny/Martha: im going to be a terrible mother--
Danny/Martha: i live in a cAR--
Danny/Martha: what if the baby inherits my powers? Oh no--
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Danny/Martha post giving birth: i've only had Bruce for a minute and a half but if anything were to happen to him i won't even need to fuse with Vlad, I'm razing this goddamn planet to the ground myself
Danny, to Baby Bruce: you are the last remaining thread of my sanity. I'm going to give you the world :)
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Danny/Martha prior to getting pregnant: Fuck it, if everything in my life has led to this moment, i'm allowed to make one stupid decision. I'm getting drunk and getting laid
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Danny/Martha while Bruce was a toddler: i swear to fucking god i am going to kill the next person who talks to me--
Bruce: hi mommy!! i brought you something!!!
Danny/Martha, immediately flipping on a dime: hi baby!! what do you have?
Bruce, a weird child like his mother: a spider :)
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Danny/Martha, talking to Falcone after he made an unsavory comment at her and Bruce: If you ever come near me or my son again, I will dig up your shithead father's corpse and make you eat his skin.
Danny/Martha: do you understand me
Falcone:... crystal, ma'am
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Danny/Martha new in Gotham: *getting mugged*
Danny/Martha: *grabs man's arm*
Danny/Martha: I AM GOING TO BREAK YOU IN HALF LIKE A TWIG, FUCK BOY, DO YOU HEAR THE WORDS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH--
(she then proceeds to terrorize Gotham's night life for the next extended period of time, mostly unintentionally)
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Danny/Martha: Danny Fenton?? No. you must be mistaken, my name is Martha Knight.
Danny/Martha: this here is my littlest knight, Bruce.
Danny/Martha: I made him all by myself :]
#if martha could become the joker in one timeline if bruce died then she had to have SOMETHIGN going on up there mentally. im all for it#im a 'martha wayne may have been secretly batshit' truther. subscribing to bruciemilf's portrayal of the wayne parents#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#fem danny fenton#female danny fenton#martha knight au#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dp x dc#giving danny fenton psychological issues since 2022 folks#points at marthadanny: she's a hot mess with unprocessed trauma and psychological prblems. she's hanging on by a thread#LISTEN TO AFTER ALL BY CHRISTINE EBERSOLE THAT SUMS UP MARTHADANNY ENTIRELY#bruce your mom is even crazier than you. how is that possible. her trauma has trauma.#marthadanny: i dont wanna talk about my feelings OR my trauma i want to raise my son. go away#martha: who knew that being a child hero without any support would result in deeply rooted psychological issues and paranoia in spades#marthadanny: im fine (<- experienced liar. is not fine. please god someone restrain her before she claws someone's eyes out)#she has eyebags the size of the savanna and wields red lipstick like a weapon. she's going to rob a rich man blind. she has a baby to feed#what would a mother not do for her child? what heights would a mother not climb.#and you're shaken to your soul with an ache that you cant erase. like the tears you never cried but still keep scrubbing off your face.#there's a pain you cant imagine. the little talk that keeps you wide awake that somehow turns to bold determination that you wont ever make#the same mistake. so you've got to feed your little future and ensure her talent poise and charm might just grow up and save you after all#fun fact bruce and danny's birthdays are exactly one week apart. danny is Feb.12 and Bruce is Feb.19. take that as you will :)
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[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#jrwi riptide spoilers#JUST NOTICED A MILLION MISTAKES FUUUUUUUUCK BUT WWHATEVERRRRR IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA HHUURRRLLL#SO I REALLY LIKE FISH AND CHIPS RIGHT. IVE BEEN IN LOVE W THE SHIP EVER SINCE THAT NAT 20 KISS#BUT I THINK I SHIP IT WRONG. OR LIKE. I AM CORRECT BUT EVERYONE SHIPS THEM DIFFERENTLY#THE FISH N CHIPS I SEE EVERYWHERE ELSE IS SO FLOWERY AND SWEET AND ROMANTIC. AND THATS NICE! THAT STUFFS NEAT#but gillion and chip would NEVERRRR enter anything similar to a romantic relationship. chips too damaged and gillions too uninterested#I LIKE MY FISH N CHIPS ONE SIDED AS FUCK#bc 2 gillion chip is his best friend in the whole wide world but hes also kinduvagross little man that took him a MINUTE to really warm up2#but to CHIP gillion is this powerful and gorgeous and heroic paragon of destiny and his best friend in the whole world who will#bring about the eschaton. 'i didnt believe in destiny until i met you' until i met a champion radiating with a light thatll alter the world#OHH REMEMBER THE FIRST ICE ARENA?he was so mad.still probably shaking from the ordeal.NEVER had he felt true divine radiance CLEAVE through#his SOUL like that.do you remember that moment in the forest w the bugs. an alien from the ocean; lacerating the land w lightning#when the realization flickered in chip for a moment.that the thing standing before him was more powerful than he could ever fathom#remember when grizz mentioned that the nat20 kiss was the 'best kiss chip ever experienced'. that has nothing to do w this. where was i.#LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. BUT HEY. I THINK at the beginning chip absolutely knew that gill was smth grand n powerful n scary#when gillion revealed what exactly the prophecy was;chip got defensive and mad.sure he was sleep deprived but OOH. HES SCARED!#he believes gillion too! he believes that his destiny is to eradicate either the sea or land and that scares him!#but then he gets past it bc ultimately he trusts his bestfriend gillion so so much. he fuckin loves this dude.#he would throw himself intothe path of fire for this dude. he would boat across the ocean for this dude.he would build arenas for this dude#even if this dude will end half the world.even if this dude wields the power and the obligation to eradicate him at any second.#even if this dude is going to throw himself into harms way for his own comrades.even if this dude is just going to sacrifice himself.#one way or another one shall die for the other.these self-sacrificial bastards click so well with eachother!!#chip believes his body is best used to pave roads and gill believes his body is destined to pave prosperity.WHATEVER!!#i really love their dynamic!! they care for eachother so much!in MY heart tho. the icing on the cake here is the fantasy that chip is#just a bit more In Love w gillion than he realizes. like this powerful fish guy is HOT and PRETTY and KIND and FUNNY and LOYAL and STRONG#but gillion would never rly feel that same sort of attraction towards chip. its just not rly his thing. aroace as fuck man.#thats how it is in MY little heart atleast. and i sit here and play w my touys in my brain n i explore my silly lil one sided fish y chips.
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ryoji's character be like. "what if the only thing death ever yearned for is life" "what if the answer to accepting death is to try to live" "what if your entire life's purpose catastrophically goes against your every wish yet youre doomed to carry it out anyway" "what if the only way out of it was death" and being shocked when someone important to you... refuses that fate for your sake. that they want you to live.
#ryoji mochizuki#persona 3#persona 3 fes#p3p#p3#thinking about p3 and getting insane again#aishi.txt#aishi.exe#i just like screaming into the void methinks#i have not experienced any other p3 media aside from fes btw like i havent even seen ryoji's girlypop little social link romance route#and i think its amazing how his character still stands anyway#dont ask why i havent played anything other than fes im. ... going thru it..... this game quite literally made me heave for breath crying#i watched p3d opening and cried basically and knew i still was not ready
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"Jason was the happy robin" this, "jason was the angry robin" that. Let's all be fully honest here Jason was the lonely robin
#It gets worse the more i think about it aiguaoughhh#they pretty much retconned the people he was close to before the crisis. he only interacts with dick like once or twice#ive never seen him with barbara#he had no team#in terms of school he had rena(?) and then 3 friends that show up in an annual and never again#and obviously with the whole secret identity it hardly can be a close friendship. esp with how little theyre shown#in terms of super friends he had Danny and Kid Devil. which. one is mentioned off hand and theyre never seen together#and the other is from a short story and never brought up again#alfred has his praises sung but we never really see him connect with jay#all he had was BRUCE. and the only way to ever be with bruce is to be robin#is it really any wonder he chased after his mother? is it any wonder who chose to trust someone he hardly knew?#dc liveblog#jason todd#i feel so bad for him all the time for forever#ive just started reading comics after his death but before his resurrection. the hallucination jason era#and its seems to be shaping up to be with him written as the angry robin who never listened#which i Know is because of the writers. but in universe? it just feels like jason wasnt understood or known at all#doylist vs watsonian moment as they say#dc comics#batman comics#and he became a symbol of failure to batman So Quickly. not a memory but a reminder#and every trophy from his time as robin was taken out of the batcave. and every moment as jason was removed from (at least) bruces room#he was on call/on a list as a backup titan if they needed help but he wasnt With them. they teamed up twice#i cant remember if he meant it towards blood specifically or in general rn but he fully admitted to not being good/experienced enough#they didn't really know him and he didn't really know them#wait fuck was rena all pre-crisis. devastating. he stopped going on patrols n being robin for awhile when she was his gf#of course by then he was already A Hero who cant fully ignore how he can help so he eventually was like yeah we should stop a little#obviously there was that catwoman arc going on and i feel writers just liked keeping him away alot. but ough. he was so quick to stop when#there was someone There. and robin didn't have ti feel like all he had#anyway crisis got rid of her im sure. like harvey. when does 'pre and post crisis' actually start bc its not at the crisis its issues after
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I know everyone is reading into the characterisation brought by the masks in Glass Onion, but I love how these clues rely entirely on the audiences shared experiences and connotations made from living during covid. It makes the film so personal, I think.
#the fact that a few years ago or several years in the future no one will get the same experience as those watching it now#everyone knew a Claire or a duke during the pandemic which helps form our ideas about the characters#and that extra layer of understanding will be lost on someone who has never experienced covid#I don’t know I just thought it was neat#and a cool exploration into how covid has collectively shaped us and changed the way we experience the world and cinema#Great encorporation of a global pandemic as a storytelling device that would be incomprehensible to me a few years ago#I saw Blancs funky little dotted mask and I knew he was both dapper and fruity#character development at its finest#also props to the costume team honestly#glass onion#knives out#benoit blanc#mystery#film#movie
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i feel shy talking here when i dont have anything worth sharing but i cant help feeling like ive said things in the tags that could be brought up in court
#im joking#i think i just get embarrassed saying smth that most ppl can see out in the open. its like when prey animals are grazing in a pasture#and then they hear a twig snap yk. im like that. but talking in the tags is more comfortable because it just feels more.. hidden?? quiet???#its kind of like how i prefer responding thru asks than DMs.. idk if it has something to do with space or less pressure#i also use these as an excuse to ramble a little abt recent events so. ive worked a little bit on shuffle and prestos backstories ^_^#i was thinking abt giving them a shared past where they knew each other as kids and forgot but i also though hmm.. idk if it would drive th#story i want bc i think itd be better if they bonded over similar experiences instead of the fact that they knew each other before. i get#that reconnecting and reconciling your idea of someone now and then is a good concept but id have to think abt it.. i dont want it to feel#like they owe each other to be friends again just bc they were as kids. ive experienced that a lot and all it did was make me feel guilty#so i think id want to write it as u can be friends with someone who had similar experiences and make u wish you knew each other then#i also know theyd hate each other but idk HOW. i suck at writing conflict so idk if theyd try to make each other eat glass and why#idk if itll ever come up but id also like to see if theres a way i could rationalize why they have animal ears.. normally i say aliens#but ive had an idea for a species and background for that too. although its very abstract and it probably has a lot of holes#smth abt peoples souls attaching themselves to smth they identify with.. although i dont know to what extent like if it can#be called a sona or if it can even be smth mythical like a unicorn or god itself.. its very weird rn#yapping#oc talk
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costume design, set mockup, and rehearsal photos from this guide to the show that's like really thorough in providing Context like, mini articles about the creators of the original movie, musical, and movie musical, about other versions of productions, the history, quotes of other commentary, interview quotes, context of other / preexisting genres like b movies, faustian stories, "what if a plant was weird" stories, glossary of terms (such as references that may generally be less obscure if you were in the '60s, e.g.), suggested further reading....haven't read it top to bottom but i think it's fantastic, link to the pdf as post source
#lsoh#will roland#seymour krelborn#all news to me. i don't know anything about anything#like i do know some things. but nothing i would begin to call thorough. & need some stuff linked up like this#like oh yeah i know of this relevant thing a bit already; thanks for explaining how it's connected#and i think this is great for Seeing A Show. i always want this kind of broader Context and also i think it sure really would help for like#just being ready to see the thing. doing some prep#was having this exact thought like sure have sometimes seen things where in fact Not Having A Clue has not been simply helpful#the idea that the peak version of Experiencing A Story is to have No info about what you'll be getting into beforehand....#like who keeps asking like 80 yr old english actors what they think of theatre content advisories & then making me see it?#where they also talk about ''now why would you even go see king lear if you knew the ending'' ah of course#like i saw what was probably a fairly swanky production of pippin once. proper Regional maybe even#i just can't recall much abt the actual experience though i do recall enjoying it at all#and it's like yknow i think walking in with Zero Info was not helpful#and anyway i love info yay yippee wahoo#and naturally i think something like yay little shop of horrors musical has a lot of interesting backstory. whee hooray#i'm grabbing these pics. So grabbing the one ft. also robert dorfman mr. mushnik. he're
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Cough cough AU where Dr Rabbit and Vanny both take full control over Vanessa and Gregory's bodies and escape PQ ending style while Vanessa and Gregory consciousness' are trapped in their respective arcade machines and Vanny n Rab try to live a domestic life like 3 star fam and move on from everything they did but they know that taking over Vanessa and Gregory's bodies to try and achieve a more "normal" life style is wrong and that they need to give them control and their lives back but are scared of losing the freedom they've never had in their lives that they've just now achieved cough cough
#Chip Chatter#Vanny trying to act like everything is normal and fine and nothing is wrong with what they're doing knowing damn well that it's wrong#while Dr Rabbit is very openly aware of the fact that this isn't right and that they need to give up control and free Vanessa and Gregory#they know that this life they yearn for- a normal life outside of Glitchtraps control where they can just be normal people- wasn't meant#for them. They were created with a purpose and that purpose was to serve Glitchtrap and kill anyone who got too nosey#they weren't made to have normal lives#but now that they have *some* sense of normality#they just don't want to let go#no matter how wrong it is#maybe Vanessa and Gregory could make them little robot bodies or something after they're freed so they can still live outside the walls of#the pizzaplex<3#sorry just- the idea of Vanny and Rab being basically just#*people*. People with thoughts and feelings and wants and goals#it's just so interesting to me..#they've never thought about life outside of their purpose for more than a fleeting moment beforehand- they knew their purpose and#everything they could ever need or want was all within the walls of the Pizzaplex. Freedom wasn't *necessary* and it wasn't for them#but after getting a taste of it- a chance at living a normal life#they'd take it out of curiosity- like a small outing before getting back to work#but then they just... get used to it#it's comfortable. It's relaxing. It's *new*. Nothing like what they were made to do- nothing they've ever experienced before#but they love it. They love it so much that they just.. don't want to look back.#normality is *nice*. It's *refreshing*. but it's so wrong at the same time.#no matter how domestic things are- they can never fully get rid of the nagging feeling in the back of their minds that this is wrong. that#what they're doing isn't right. That this life they're getting a taste of could never be permanent.#and it's so weird cause they've never given a shit about “right and wrong”. Hell- we all know what they've done- how they're parasites#created to infect Vanessa and Gregory and do Glitchtraps bidding. That isn't *right*. They always knew that. So it's so odd to them that#out of everything they've done- *this* is what feels so wrong#yet so right at the same time.#they're having one hell of a time with their confusing ass morals#hafbergujrfdsujhf okay anyways I'll shut up now I just love them<3
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I hate that life has become catching up with friends every few months on things that are no longer happening !!!!!!
I hate having to recap on what’s going on in my life and vice versa because we don’t get to talk often enough to go through things together anymore !!!!!
I am so exhausted of telling friends “yeah so this happened last month and then this happened and this is something I just got done dealing with” I want to experience things in community !!!!!
I no longer want to hear “oh wow that’s a lot” or “I’m sorry you had to deal with/go through that alone” without the willingness to sit in it with me !!!!!
I am so bored of spending weeks “catching up” over text !!!! I just want to sit down and talk about everything over coffee !!!! There is such limited connection and emotion over text !!!!
I hate that posting on social media has become the unspoken method of knowing what’s going on in your loved one’s lives !!!!
I hate that society has pushed us all so far apart from each other and despite the fact that we’re all so lonely we are also so complacent in it !!!!
I am tired. I am tired. I am tired.
#mine#text post#late night rant#I have been thinking about this a lot#and how there used to be a time when I knew what was going on in my friends lives#AS IT WAS HAPPENING#and now we’re all just so distant???#and I hate it#and trying to make plans and see people face to face is just so difficult#and I’m so tired of trying#but I’m so tired of playing catch up and experiencing everything in my own little bubble#idk if any of this makes sense#but the way we all connect nowadays drives me insane
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okay so idk if any of my followers are into kink culture at all. but my fiancee and i used to be very active in it. and before we got engaged, we "collared" one another. up until a couple years ago, we both wore our collars 24/7!! but now we're in a different place and we are more comfy without them (sensory needs).
however!! i finally splurged and got myself an "eternity collar" (stainless steel, able to be worn 24/7 vs leather and Brahma web collars). so!! we're about to do an intimate little collaring ceremony in the forest 🥺💖
autumn is my favorite time of year, and autumn (my fiancee) will be seeing the leaves change for the first time this year!!!!!! we're going to have a little picnic at the park and take in all the trees. maybe do little vows 🥺🥺
i want so badly to actually marry her, but i can't bc of financial and SSI reasons. so this will hold me over in the meantime 💖💖💖
anyway i've never done a ceremony before, so this is really really important to me 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i'm so excited for it !!! it's something so special and so bright, which is a welcome change from the dark months i've had ❤️🩹
#I'm like fine irt the last sentence! the past couple months have been blurring by tho#im not really experiencing joy rn and the days are blurring bc im running from my orher feelings u know?#i think this little celebration of our love is gonna remind me why I'm here and that im loved ❤️🩹#ive always told her that my arms were made to hold her. and it's true#i have never felt so strongly or passionate about ANYTHING as much as i feel about loving her#it's my life's purpose. shes my soulmate. my fated love. i can't even explain the bond we have#we have traversed universes together and our souls knew right when to find each other again.#as much as we bicker at times or get frustrated like all couples do. i know shes my home#thats how u KNOW its real lol. i still love her even when she has her stuff all over the floor for the millionth time LOL#anyway ugh i love my fiancee. im so glad that the universe gifted me this guardian angel#to love me. hold me. and take care of me. thru. well everything.#chatter#autumn
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People be like "merry Christmas" meanwhile I'm over here uncovering new depths of my trauma
#yeah so apparently I experienced csa and I'm honestly not processing that super well#i started just telling people about stuff that happened that i never want to talk about#and they were like 'uh yeah thats csa im sorry you went through that' 💀#like wdym that was csa?? ahhhdjdj ah djdhdgd#in all seriousness though I've gad a lot of very painful realizations about this lately#like the fact that people knew and not only let it happen but actively tried to allow it to continue#and prevent people who actually try to do anything about it from finding out. including me! i was told it was all normal#like 'oh yes this is all normal. but also dont tell anyone this.'#'not because its wrong but because theyll get the wrong idea'#god. i can't comprehend it#i never thought it was sa because ive always been asexual. i couldnt think of any motive so i just didnt know#i didn't have any grasp of what sexuality was in general. i thought it was like a social construct or a game i was sometimes bad at#i still don't understand. i hate how when i think about it all i feel like a little kid again
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Dear horror youtubers who write video essays explaining and examining extraordinary works of horror that I deeply want to see and understand but will literally never be able to safely watch due to my own trauma - thus providing me with a way to learn from and connect to works of art that would be otherwise forever inaccessible to me,
I love you.
youtube
#original#horror#final girl studios#if this youtuber is on tumblr someone should tag her#LOVE the idea of a girl coming of age and becoming monstrous but now obsessed with how they described this movie as#'a girl coming of age and finding that the people AROUND her have become monsters to her'#fucking. brilliant! thank you for giving me a way to learn from and enjoy this movie! i am more sure than ever that i should not watch it!#but i am so grateful to you for giving me such a gift! how wonderful!#that said - folks please be very cognizant of the warnings at the beginning of the video. there were still parts I had to look away from#also it was cathartic experiencing this movie from this POV bc 'the horror of girlhood being validated' is healing tbh#it was HORRIFYING being a little girl who became a teenage girl! and no one seemed to care what girl-children went through!#I mean folks were dismissive of kids in general but teen girls and little girls are like. a Joke to a lot of people.#everything we liked was ridiculed. and our fears held similarly little weight to adults. and yet. The Horror of Girlhood is so Real.#I Can Only Imagine how much more girls of color were dismissed and targeted and dehumanized.#and then you've got the little Trans girls and teens - who were playing The Horror of Girlhood on like. Nightmare Hard Mode.#the specific horror of girlhood for me as a transmasc AFAB person meant that the existential horror of being seen as a girl#meshed with my gender dysphoria in a way I did not have the language for and would not for many years to come#like the internalized misogyny and the gender dysphoria were literally impossible to parse apart. i couldn't tell which was which.#i just knew i HATED being a girl and i wanted it to STOP. and it was mostly because of how people treated girls.#like it probably took me longer to figure out my gender because of that.
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sometimes i think about what the rest of the cast couldve looked like if they were designed around the same time as lammy and truffles
#img#htf#i think about how they were designed so much#every other character was designed with the thought they had a budget of 17 cents and a paperclip#and it was 1999#flash wasnt even for CARTOON animation yet it was for WEBSITE animation#and they STILL USED IT#and they WENT TO THE ADOBE OFFICES??? APPARENTLY??????????#but with the new guys. it was 10 years later.#they were not only more experienced but had a BIGGER BUDGET#and KNEW they could get away with more detailed designs#instead of crying over toothys two strands of hair to the point they took em away after a single ep#they willingly gave lammy sooooo many bumps of wool.#ALSO because it was PUPPET ANIMATION at that point! they didnt have to draw everything frame by frame!#just LOOK at the detail they put into truffles#his little tuft of hair. his floppy ears. the fact hes FULLY DRESSED.#just imagine. giggles could be rockin an entire outfit.#instead of standin there butt naked except for the bow that is SOMEHOW stuck on her head#what could have been.
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Thinking about how I only learned that I had, in fact, had anxiety and panic attacks before when I went to the doctor because I passed out from one. I have now learned that I have been having anxiety attacks for my whole life and just didn’t know because so one wanted to explain shit to me.
#This is not a vent post. Just genuinely think it’s interesting and that we need to yknow#Explain how attacks happen and what they feel like so people know when they’re having them#I “knew” what a panic attack was but I didn’t think I was having them because I wouldn’t hyperventilate or run around with nervous energy#it’s actually the opposite with me. I just kinda. Fully shut down like stop dead in my tracks and look forward and forget to breathe#Also I thought I wasn’t having panic attacks because it wasn’t like. Out of the blue. Something would make me upset and it would just build#Untill I eventually had an attack#Little did I know THATS WHAT AN ANXIETY ATTACK IS#WOWWWWWWW#I thought what I was experiencing was normal I thought that’s just what being nervous was lol#I thought getting so upset over little things to the point of crying and shaking and being completely disfunctional was#What being nervous was#Anyway I was looking up what to do as a person who faints when having attacks sometimes and#The language used was like “if you have anxiety attacks it technically can make you pass out but don’t worry because it barely happens”#Well 🧍♀️#The rarest thing about me is the fact I take a bad nap every time my brain decides to go into emergency shutdown :[
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YESTERDAY WAS GREAT!
#oh my god I’m SO SO tired but I’m officially a graduate!!!#at the start of the day before the graduation I was a little lonely thinking about my entire journey and how I really just focused on school#and made no friends because all the graduates knew each other but I just recognized a few in my class#but then afterwards my family PULLED THRU! they took me out to breakfast after#and then my dad booked us a dinner reservation at this fancy Turkish restaurant#I had no idea but they organized a surprise for me and the waiters brought out a cake and a HUGe ballon saying congrats#and my sister missed my grad since she moved to Seattle but she organized this entire thing#the cake had a meme written on it and the ballon was one of those money ballons that have bills attached underneath#it was all super super sweet and I got so many nice messages from family abroad and I just felt really happy today#gosh it’s been awhile since I experienced joy like that but it was TRULY a perfect day🥹💗✨
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