#i also need to catch up with astro so bad

[kryovene]

astro notes

let me know if you have these placements whether or not they resonate, i'm always trying to improve. these are based off my personal experiences :) NOT MENTIONED: virgo, gemini,

fire mars (aries, leo, sagittarius) are good at dealing with confrontation that is sudden and head on, but not conflict that brews over time. water mars (cancer, scorpio, pisces) on the other hand, can become very perceptive and can pick up on the coming tension much easier. capricorn mars is good at both.

an aquarius sun with no other aquarius placements can struggle a lot to express themselves. this is due to the sun being detriment in aquarius - their individuality and authenticity is being compromised by a weak sun.

an aquarius mercury trying to communicate is similar to a famous celebrity trying to relate to normal people.. there is definitely a disconnect. i don't mean this in a bad way!! they just have a different way of thinking and it takes time and patience for the rest of us to catch up.

11h venus doesn’t always date someone in their friend group, but it’s typically very important for them to have a best friend built into their relationship. companionship is majorly important!!

4h moons are soooo sweet, even if the moon is detriment or at fall. they know how to make others feel safe even if they struggle to make themselves feel safe. very warm people <3

most pisces placements want to be organized like their sister virgo, but it takes a long time for them to find a system that works for them because of how vivid their mind is. big picture (jupiter) vs details (mercury)

taurus mars are veryyy argumentative due to their stubbornness. if you challenge or question what they're saying at all they will be very defensive. taurus mars/scorpio moon will defend themselves even if the statement wasn't aggressive or coming at them any sort of way. i've also met a lot of taurus mars who will counter your point even if they don't believe in it, just so they can argue with you.

12h placements, i hear you, i understand you, i feel for you lmfaooo

capricorn venus typically embraces aging

aries sun/moon are very sensitive to rejection because of their competitive nature. they really want to be the best and they take that shit seriously

the sun in libra is at fall, so these natives need to learn to separate their wants and needs from everyone else's. it's good to be cooperative but it's more important to find and establish your values

pisces mercury can come up with the best ideas, it's just that others might not be able to understand them fully. they think more in the abstract but if you can see their vision they can be very innovative

[kisseobie]

okay but on the arguments with seob imagine the lovemaking after a long days of being far apart and it's just so hshsjsjsjjsj and full of sopsososjdj 😔

i’m literally the biggest slut for needy big dick bf seob…

oh my god yes, he’s usually pretty touchy with you in general but it’s so much more evident when he’s been away from you for a few weeks, reuniting with you and immediately seeking solace in your skin. when he’s away on tour, he texts you daily updates to show you how much he thinks about you, including good morning and good night texts, daily selfies, pictures of his food, the photos he took on his digicam that week, etc..

he’s also really bad at hiding his need for your touch, even when he’s miles away from you. his neediness to be close to you is most evident when he goes from texting you 3 times a day to 5, when he’s sending you more photos of himself than usual and asking for more in return.. and if he’s especially horny, sending you a voice message while his fists his cock and whimpers because the contact from his hand doesn’t compare to your cunt :( just misses you, your face, and your body so much. send him some risqué pictures or videos of you touching yourself and he’s a mess, begging you for more..

when he does eventually travel home, he’s texting you the entire commute about how much he misses you, and how excited he is to finally have you in his arms again. sends you his flight and airport intinterary so you can see him right when he lands, because he doesn’t think either of you could wait any longer. when you catch sight of jongseob wheeling his luggage to the visitor section, you run up to him and can’t help but jump into his arms, kissing him with all your might, the the point where onlookers are gawking at your shamelessness. he’s honestly taken a bit aback, not realizing that you craved his touch just as much, and maybe even more, than he did for yours. the lyft home is disgustingly sweet, you and jongseob’s bodies incredibly close and you think you may have heard the driver scoff when seob leans in to kiss you again. there’s a feeling of anticipation hanging in the air, and you feel yourself getting wet at just the thought of seeing your boyfriend naked again..

the pair of you enter your apartment building with your fingers interlaced, lips connected for the nth time whilst your free hand blindly searches for the light switch. your boyfriend effortlessly picks you up, wrapping his arms around your frame as you both lean in to devour each other again. he messily shoves his tongue in your mouth and you audibly whine, a reaction that he’s become quite familiar with in the past few years, a reaction that tells him you want more. he continues to carry you all the way to his bedroom, throwing you onto his bed as he strips himself in record time. cut to a few minutes later and you’re both on top of jongseob’s sheets, your back laid against his silk pillows as he plows into your heat as hard as he can. the only sounds filling the room are the bed creaking and the noises being pulled out of you and your lover, whether it be your loud moans for more, or jongseob’s curses mixed with sweet praises. time slips by as your boyfriend continues to fuck into you, never speeding up his comfortable pace and just basking in finally having you like this again.

and i can 100% envision marathon sex after jongseob comes home to you for the first time in months, with you praising him for his hard work, and him telling you how much he missed feeling your tight walls around his fat cock. you fuck for hours, until it’s late at night and your limbs are too tired to continue. the scent of sweat and sex doesn’t even bother you, and you tuck your head into your boyfriend’s chest and doze off, content that he’s finally here, and satisfied with the feeling of his cum oozing out of your swollen hole…

a/n: can u tell i want to be bred

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[marsfa1ry]

astrology observation 𓇼

(pics from pinterest)

capricorn mercury i love their dry sense of humor and dark sarcasm. my scorpio mercury be giggling like a baby when they tell a joke while everyone else blank stare the native, concerned about their dark humor. also their choice of words is so calculated and careful if developed, no sugarcoating tho, with well aspected could also be poetic. it’s so cute. ahhh my favs

lilith 3h knows how and when to push the button and let that intelligent communicator self take over lol literally can talk themselves out of anything and could wrap someone around their fingers by their words. school and/or siblings might be a hit or miss for them. it’s either good or bad, nothing in between.

mars 1h idk if it’s just me or not moving body when mentally in a better place for a whole day can cause natives a great emotion turmoil like (esp in virgo degree i guess💀) that’s why coping mechanism and serotonin booster includes deep cleaning room, groceries … oh maybe it’s just me ok

not to mention that healthy routine HELPS natives a lot i mean i guess it helps every human being but i feel like it emphasizes when it comes to mars 1h let me know if you resonates or not^^

earth moons with uranus prominent aspects/placements yes earth moons do need a stable routine to help them maintain their mind but with uranus influence esp if making aspects to mc, i think will most likely hate to have a 9-5 work, plus with prominence 9h/sagittarius, spontaneous career life is their go-to. their earth moons still want the stability tho so it could be that they have a stable morning and after work routine etc.

leo moon something about their hair that never fail to catch my attention. it’s like tho they did nothing their hair be thriving.

also something about head bumps because there was this one time i dreamed of a leo moon head bumping me just for me to wake up to an astrology observation (i can’t remember which one😿feel free to inform me so i can put credits here) says head bumping is a lion thing so leo placements tend to do that helpp- but tbh it’s so cute ><

earth moons w fire moons i rarely see astro community talk about this two together like it’s SO underrated. earth moon say the most straightforward, simplest compliments that get fire moon all flustered up and stuff like 😳 and firey do this most random, unprovoked things just to get reaction out of earthy. purely just vibing together. fire moon get earth moon out of their comfort zone, earth moon makes fire moon more grounded. seen them in many long terms relationships.

ex: EDIT : i just found out that brian groomed megan fox and actually so problematic so i deleted this example 🤢

ross lynch (aries moon) - jaz sinclair (capricorn moon)

aishwarya rai (capricorn moon) - abhishek bachchan (aries moon)

ryan gosling (capricorn moon) - eva mendes (leo moon)

moon conjucnt mercury synastry : moon be like ‘bruh you speak my mind’ while mercury ‘you read my emotions and know what to do with them without me talking it out so’ love this

moon conjunct chiron chiron making hard aspect to luminaries (emphasize on moon bcs istg…the pain towards deepest part of ourselves um) can manifest such a big impact in native’s life :,) and which part will be effected depends on houses where it sit in. however, as much as how diverse the conjunction can play out🤭 the same thing that wounded the natives could be the same thing that heal the natives. the key is to mastered the cruel (💀for real like who have this aspect would understand what i mean) chiron. as much as it makes you a severely wounded soldier in inner world’s field ffs, breaking the pattern of chiron can manifests a really great result.

moon prominent aspect in mother’s chart can be presented in your s/o’s chart or someone you like. for better or worse. 🧍‍♀️

mercury in sagittarius degree (9°,21°) philosiphize their words unintentionally and left people who had a conversation with them thinking about their words a lots esp when they give advice, they brought a whole new perspective to the person.

scorpio/8h prominent the struggle is real when someone they close with or trust don’t also hate their enemies. it’s a sign to retreat for them😠 ride or die. all or nothing.

lilith prominent/dominant men try so hard to hide their feelings and reactions when lilith prominent/dominant women come around. might even bully/pick on them at an extreme end. horrible at it finest when undeveloped ugh

taurus lilith square ascendant attract a lot of taurus mars and i have love-hate relationship with most of them

pisces rising really do get away with things. wittiness and chameleon energy of mutable + slyness of water = slay 💅

aries in big 6 literally always there in charts of ppl who heavily watch or fond of anime, manga

capricorn/cancer sun pair with scorpio/taurus sun no matter what others perceived them individually, they seems like a traditional couple to me lol when they’re together it gives ‘of course they’re together’ vibe. capricorn-scorpio and cancer-taurus more often than vice versa

pluto 3h i found myself thinking about what these natives say a looooot like even if it’s the most silliest stuff they said, it still echoes in my mind like ‘i think yellow is a really bizarre color’ and my mind goes 😮🤯😦😵‍💫🙀 wtff

; hihi, first i didn’t expect my previous astro notes to blow up this much so i want to say that i appreciated all the interactions and support <33 thank you so much and i hope whoever come across this astro ranting HEHE a really nice day/night and much fun reading this ⭐️

© @marsfa1ry

[miyakuya]

— So… no blood?

request: Maybe a one shot with Mikaela and an S/o. Something with S/o comforting Mikaela about drinking from them (they/them if that’s okay?). Also maybe something with s/o feeling insecure because they think Mikaela would pick Yuuchiro over them anytime, for anything. Just s/o feeling like they’re second best

a/n: this is so fucking bad i’m so sorry 🥀 anon😭 i rewrote it 9 times and can’t get it to be as good as i want it to be😭 also thank you coward and astro for beta reading this <3333

“Why do you only drink Yuuchiro’s blood?” It was a simple question, one that you didn’t really expect would catch your boyfriend by surprise. But from the way Mikaela’s head whipped around and he stopped what he was doing, you’d think that you asked him something completely different.

“What?” Mikaela stares at you, waiting for you to elaborate further and you give a small shrug in return, hoping that if you seem like it’s not a big deal, he’ll stop staring at you as if you grew two heads.

“You only drink Yuuchiro’s blood when you need to drink… why is that?” you ask, a bit hesitant if this was something that you truly wanted to know. He continues to stare at you, the wheels in his brain slowly beginning to turn as he processes what you were asking and how to even respond to it. His mouth opened a few times before closing almost instantly as he still couldn’t find the words that he needed.

Eventually, a quiet sigh escaped and he looked away, a bit frustrated. Not at you. But rather at himself. “I just… I don't want to hurt you and… I feel better drinking his blood instead of yours. I know that I won't do it with him but I’m scared that I’ll go overboard if I drink yours.” Mika explained. It made sense, all things considered but you really couldn’t help but think about how… stupid it seemed? Mikaela, even if he can be a bit frustrating to deal with sometimes, would never hurt you so you don’t see why he’s worried about it.

“Mikaela, I trust you. I know you wouldn’t hu—” Mika let out a frustrated sigh, stopping you from continuing any further.

“Yn. I'm still a vampire. There will always be a chance that I can hurt you. Why are you even wanting me to drink your blood? It’s not that pleasant.”

“It’s not that I want you to drink my blood, Mika. I just… feel like a second choice. You go to Yuuchiro for everything. Whether it be for blood, to talk about things that are bothering you or anything in general, you go to him. I have to hear about them second hand because Yuu already thinks that I know about them.”

Mikael scoffed, looking away and focusing on something else to keep himself from looking back over at you. You noticed right away that he was refraining from saying something that he would regret but the moment he looked back at you and his eyes narrowed, he stopped caring. “Really, Yn? I don’t have to tell you every little thing that goes on in my life.”

“That is not what I'm saying Mikaela and you know it.” You let out an exasperated sigh, your hands immediately going to the temples of your head as you tried to keep yourself from getting any more annoyed with him. “What you do or don’t tell me is completely up to you, I don't care. I'm just tired of hearing things second hand from Yuuchiro or any of our other friends and I’m annoyed that you act like my offer to suck my blood so you’re not suffering, is the worst thing that has ever happened to you.”

“I’m sorry.” Mikaela’s voice was quiet and if it weren’t for the fact that he was close to you, you would assume that he didn’t say anything at all. You couldn’t help but look at him with a confused look as he let out a small huff, realizing you want more than that. “I never intended to make you feel like you were a second choice to me, yn. No matter how much I care about Yuuchiro, you’re my partner so I’ll always care about you more. I’m scared of hurting you or showing you sides of me that you may not like so I stick with Yuu on those occasions so I don’t risk losing you. I’m sorry and I promise that I’ll try to at least communicate with you better.”

You nod, smiling at his words. You knew Mikaela was being genuine, he always was with you. “Thank you. It means a lot to me that you apologized and I promise that I'll start communicating better with you as well, especially if something like this bothers me. And.. you know that you can trust me with whatever is bothering you, right? I promise no matter what you say to me will make me love you any less.”

“I know and I’ll try my best to start communicating with you more. I never intended or even wanted to hurt you.” He replied and you nod again, knowing that he was being genuine once again. However, no matter how genuine and sweet he was, you couldn’t help but tease him

“Ah wait… does that mean that you still won’t drink my blood?” You asked, your sweet smile that he loved turning a bit more mischievous. He scoffed and rolled his eyes at your words, regretting apologizing to you.

“You’re so annoying. This is the last time I’m ever apologizing to you.” He grumbled and you laughed, quickly placing a gentle kiss to his cheek and pulling away before he even had the chance to respond.

“But you love me~”

Mika was silent for a moment, staring at you once again before he looked away and pink beginning to dust his cheeks. “…yeah.”

[toons-and-doom]

(This the response for @asilikesshit I accidentally deleted the ask- I think it was along the lines of like, a hypothetical real dandy world episode but it’s corrupted due to being in a tape for awhile, dandy’s world being lost media, and like- dandy transforming for the first time? )

Imagine if the episode starts out normal but as time progresses the episode gets weirder and weirder until it’s nearly unrecognizable (hehehe parallels to twisted go brrrrr)

Tbh I wanna eventually get around to exploring dandy’s world through a lost media thing. After gardenview closes, all the episodes are pulled off the air and all merch is discontinued. Since this is the early 2000s it’s not recorded well and now in the modern day very few peices of media exist including the toons-

Now Onto dandy

Cw for body horror, emetophobia, gore of the skin variety, and potentially bad writing I felt a lil snazzy and did this all in one day. Its also kinda rambley and there is NO planning plus im tired af

TLDR; It wasn’t fun to say the least. It was a little gross to

No 2nd reading or beta read either we die like the toon handlers probably did

Sorry if this is ooc, and dandy is fucked up when twisted in cannon when I finally design him I’m gonna try and make him make sense so he doesn’t right here

Anyways thank you to my pals on discord for giving me ideas

Now I can finally sleep

Enjoy :3

The first time it happened it hurt. It hurt like hell.

Dandy should have paid attention to how that off feeling had been building up the last few days. Maybe he should haven’t gotten so worked up about this whole ichor operation- Astro was gonna be quiet and none of the others knew. Not that he could help it. If he were to be caught the consequences would have been heavy- perhaps he would have gotten rewritten and redrawn entirely.

Maybe he should have been more cautious and not gotten some ichor onto himself.

Maybe he shouldn’t have then proceeded to continue on with his experiments with said ichor.

One second, dandy had been going back to his resting quarters, taking the long as to avoid any employees which still remain. The next, he’s suddenly doubled over on the floor, his hands having barely caught himself. He shivered. It was like he had been dunked in cold water, a feeling which only intensified as he inhaled shakily.

Dandy tried to will himself to get up, yet his limbs felt painfully stiff, uncoordinated. He gave up getting up when his hands nearly gave out and he’s almost sent face first into the floor. He initially wonders if he had come down with something, but something this intense doesn’t come on this suddenly.. unless-?

Something is pushing its way out up Dandy’s throat. It somehow both burns and freezes his insides. Now dandy’s wondering if it’s something he ate- food poisoning maybe? no, it can’t be that, the only thing he ate today was a cupcake sprout made. Sprout usually made edible food.

Dandy gagged as whatever his body was rejecting oh so violently finally began to choke him. His hands gave out, leaving himself only propped up by his elbows as he heaved. When that something finally did come out, thankfully it seemed to come out all at once. Something about it felt fundamentally wrong but dandy couldn’t exactly tell what- his body gasping for breath. Once dandy could begin to focus again would he begin to dare at whatever caused such a reaction and-

Oh.

Oh.

That wasn’t bile. Or food.

That was ichor.

He knew his little hobby was eventually going to catch up to him- but not this soon.

Dandy mustered the strength to pull himself away from the ichor, now he lied on his back. He knew far too well what pure ichor did to somebody. Just a little bit of it killed humans. It needed to be diluted to be safe for them. While toons like himself could get closer than a human ever could, it wasn’t a good idea.

Strange enough, the cold sensation is beginning to fade, but it’s rapidly being replaced by burning instead. Perhaps ichor brought fever along with it-?

Dandy is brought back to reality as his tongue brushed up against something sharp. A shakey hand comes up to his mouth, and he feels his teeth. In a second he withdrew his hand, a small cut leaking ichor onto the mitten like appendage.

Oh god.

What is he supposed to do-? He’s heard of toons who explode when exposed to pure ichor- is this a symptom you experience before exploding-?!

Think dandy- you can’t die right now- think!

Water. He needs to get water. Dilute the ichor inside him. Yeah. There’s gotta be a sink nearby- maybe if he’s sneaky he can pretend none of this happened!

With newfound determination, dandy pushed himself up onto his feet. Doing such a thing was near impossible considering how uncoordinated he is- and he had to hold onto the wall to stabilize himself. He looks to his right. The door wasn’t that far- he just needed to find water-

So he took a step.

And another

And another

Each step felt like he was walking on hot coals, and dandy couldn’t help but notice how difficult it was getting to remain upright. With each step the wall became more and more of a godsend. He couldn’t help but whine, he’s not used to this kind of pain at all. He tries to power through it as best he can, even as he notices how he seemed almost taller.

He could not ponder this, one misplaced step has sent him back to the ground. He was only barely able to shield his face from impact. He tried to get up once more, less out of determination and more out of a desperate attempt to survive. His legs simply did not cooperate with him, limp but not numb.

Dandy would have opted to crawl, but a morbid curiosity overtakes him. He turns his head, and he nearly wants to throw up.

He doesn’t think his feet are supposed to bend like that. He doesn’t think they are supposed to be that long either. His ankle isn’t supposed to be that high, nor his arch that long. While toons are naturally stretchy, dandy could feel his skin beginning to give way to the sudden growth, unable to adapt at such a rapid pace. He could begin to see a black coating underneath. He doesn’t think muscles look like that either.

The shape vaguely reminds him of a animal’s leg,

Dandy quickly turns his head around. Change in plans- he needs to find an employee. To hell with his plan of secrecy- he’d rather have at least a chance at living! He screams out for help, for anyone really, his handler, one of the employees, he’d even take up his chances with a janitor at this point.

His voice echos across the halls, and he doubts anyone hears him.

So now he crawls towards the door, though it is less crawling and more so just dragging his body against the cold tile floor. He could downright feel the skin throw thinner and thinner.

Snap!

Something slid off his foot.

Dandy already knew what it was. He was already shrieking- hands grasping onto his petals for any semblance of comfort. His hands could only remain on the petals for so long before even that became painful.

Focus. He needed to get help-

Thus, he dragged himself forward like a wounded animal escaping an inevitable fate. The door was so close now- he just needs muster the willpower to get up and reach-

It was only now dandy is beginning to realize the sorry state of his hands. His thumbs were slowly being shriveled up to the point of being absolutely useless. He could feel something lurking just under the flesh of his hands- not like the ichor which coats his body under his skin. It does not stretch his skin until it snaps, rather, it slices through the skin rather effortlessly- a much more merciful agony but still agony nonetheless.

…

Dandy now has three sharp digits on each hand, slowly twitching as he holds one hand up to his face. Each digit represents a color of the rainbow, like his petals…

Maybe dandy would have found it cute if he didn’t feel like he was dying.

… at least now that’s the worst of his problems. The pain from his feel was beginning to subside, and he could tolerate the horrors his hands are undergoing, he might be fine if he can just-

…

it’s like he’s getting too large for his skin. All at once, it’s like he’s tripled in size. The strain is far too much to bear- and dandy is completely lost in the agony and haze beginning to engulf him.

Bones shatter. Skin tears like ribbons

Dandy’s very likeness, torn to shreds, a monster left in its place.

He wants to wake up. He wants to hug pebbles tightly right now. He wants to see the others- he wants to see Astro-

But no. This is his punishment by some sick god.

By the time it is over, dandy does not have the strength to continue, and collapses.

…

The monster comes to, and it quickly gets on its feet. The fluorescents above it hurt its red eyes, and it squints. It appears to be in a hallway of some sort. How it got there does not matter to it.

Not much matters to it. Besides a simple instruction; kill those not like it.

And thank god it can hear someone coming.

~~~

He’s okay guys he’ll learn how to change himself back and learn how to be conscious during the whole thing.

Now I can finally rest

[jacksdinonuggets]

Smol Genderbent AU

I have this AU where only Charlie and Vaggie are genderbent. Lucifer is still Charlie's dad, and Angel is still...Angel. anyways, I just wanted to share a few headcanons i have for them.

~Charlie~

Charlie is one of those dino boys. He loves them and has at least 3 dinosaur plushies. He also really loves the primary color palette. All of his little outfits consist of red, yellow, and blue. no exceptions! He doesn't need diaps, but when he's feeling under 3, he wears them. only the dino print ones! he won't wear any others. if he could have dino print pull-ups, he absolutely would have them, but unfortunately, they only have diaps. Getting him to eat vegetables are really hard. like normal Charlie, Boy Charlie HATES veggies. Lucifer or Vags have to do a lot of convincing to make him eat. Speaking of Lucifer, Lucifer loves caring for his little boy. He and him bond over duckies and dinos. Lucifer tried playing catch with him one day but the boy wasn't feeling big enough to have good reaction times... he had a giant bruise on his forehead for a week. Though, he does love to play outside, unlike normal Charlie. normal Charlie would rather play inside and sometimes outside, Boy Charlie needs to go outside at least once during his regression time. he's also very comfortable with regressing in public and will even be in his little gear! but only if Lucifer or Alastor is with him. they protec. they attac. but most importantly, they make sure he eats snac. Charlie also loves to wear footy pajamas or Overalls. he does get fussy sometimes when he doesn't get his way but will feel bad for being fussy later.

~Vags/Vaggie~

Vags goes by vaggie or Vee, when smol. He's more of an astro boy and loves purple. although, his special interests do switch up from time to time. sometimes its space, sometimes he's neutral, and sometimes he loves sharks. he regresses pretty small but is super embarrassed of accidents. Luckily, Charlie is supportive and they go to pick out diapers together. He has to have his comfort stuffy with him at all times. He also acts like his stuffy is his friend, so whoever is taking care of him, also has to take care of his stuffy. He has a hard time walking so outside is a no-go. Unless you can carry him. but Charlie can't go more than 2 minutes with him in his arms. Vaggie is pretty quite, even when it comes to crying. Normal Vaggie is pretty loud but Boy Vags is quiet. Heaven was full of people who thought that boys shouldn't cry and had a lot of toxic masculinity. So its still hard for him to realize that he can be emotional. He often apologizes for regressing, especially if it was involuntary. Charlie tries to assure him that its okay but he still feels bad. He has chronic back pain from getting his wings ripped out so sometimes when he has bad pain days, he slips. He does a lot of whimpering and curling up in a ball when his pain is bad. Charlie gets ice packs, heating pads, pain meds, and lots of cuddles on these days.

[boneappleteethsplural]

RAMBLE TIME! not a serious post whatsoever

my headmate, Astophilith/Astro, is a Kraken Cat. half octopus, half kitty. he loves the sea and sea creatures and when he fronted we all knew he would fixate on the ocean in some way

its mermaids. its mermaids and their potential biology, this is what he has determined:

mermaids are pale. pale pale pale. assuming they have human skin, no light gets down into the ocean so they dont need melanin to protect them from the sun

mermaids are FAT! theyre plus sized. if you look at any sea mammal (whales, dolphins, walruses, seals) they are fat they have tons of blubber to keep them warm in those freezing ocean temps

pupils are HUGE! there is no light down there, their pupils are either massive or their entire eye is pupil

meemaid hair is not the same as human hair, the damage from the salt water would be BAD bad itd be frizzy and horrible. they are either: bald (lots of hair slows swimming down)(competitive swimmers wear swim caps and shave off ALL hair on their body), they have octopus/squid tentacle hair like medusa or the inklings from splatoon, they have hair that functions like cat whiskers (cats whiskers can sense things, if mermaid hair is super long they could use it to sense when something is behind them. useful due to no light down there), or they have jellyfish tentacle hair (stings and catches pray for them, also good reason for how long it is)

if we go with the jellyfish tentacle hair thing, their hands and forearms, shoulders, back, most of their body would be scales. like hard hard scales to resist the stinging of their own hair.

they have webbing between their fingers (like duck feet) to help them swim

if mermaids *are* mammals (and therefore chonky), theyd need some sort of thing like turtles where their nostrils close up so they dont get water in their lungs. i personallt love the concept of mermaids with human mammal lungs *and* gills. im thinking that the way this would function is that underwater their nostrils close up and stop taking in above water oxygen, their gills would have some sort of function where between lung and gill the H2O stops being H2O and is converted into water and the water part just goes back to the ocean (like through the skin or through the mouth, maybe back out through the gills the way human lungs take in oxygen and push out carbon dioxide. have not worked that out yet). above water im thinking that their gills close up and they revert to using their nostrils and take in oxygen etc etc

obviously mermaids are fantasy creatures and therefore not real so you do you! these are i guess just headcanons that made me and astro go Oooooooo and i wanted to share them

again do whatever you want with mermaids design them however, this is just speaking on a more scientific level (or as scientific you could get with fantasy creatures)

anyone is free to reblog and add onto this or (politely) correct me (i wont reply to aggression or anything mean. this is for fun.)

if anyone takes inspo from these ideas for mermaid art please show us we would LOVE to see! theres no need for credit either, we saw some headcanons a few years ago and simply expanded on them and turned them into our own thing :)

-Maelstrom

[guentzel]

people you want to get to know better

thank youuu @sofarsofastmp3 for the tag! <3

last song: "where to find me" by hardy. needed something to hallucinate too while i was lying down

currently watching: "what faking cancer looks like" by fern on yt. its about a girl and mom who had munchausen by proxy and created a charity and profited from it to meet *ne direction and become a "hero" for other ill kids and used the money to go on vacations. the daughter ended up dying--not from brain cancer like she claimed--but from a cardiac arrhythmia from all the meds she was on to keep up the charade. idk if the daughter was knowledgably involved or if she didnt know.

im also watching s4 of umbrella academy for more of a "mainstream media" kind of thing

currently reading: a clockwork orange by anthony burgess bc i gave up on catch-22 and my mom is beating my ass at our reading competition :')

current obsessions: financial audit videos (particularly the ones by caleb hammer on yt) like it makes me feel better abt my finances and that theyre not as bad as some of these people lmfao

sweet, savory, or salty: salty! i love potato chips and salty snacks. i prefer those over candies

relationship status: single :') #foreveralone

favorite color: orange! particularly a soft, peachy orange

last thing i googled: i googled "jose altuve" bc i misread an espn article so bad after i had swiped it clear i thought altuve was leaving the astros lmfao

i tag : @barkovsasha @hischiersjohnston @sorrellegiance @captainbradmarchand and anyone else whod like to do it!

[danpuff-ao3]

2023 Goals

I am a goal-oriented lady so here we are, once again looking at a new year and planning ahead. I'm very excited about things to come, so read more if you wanna have a looksy with me!

Reading

Read with great outbursts and lightings by my friend Lila! I've been meaning to for ages but between the length and knowing it's going to be emotional I've been putting it off. But soon...soon!

Reread Snitches and Songs because when I recced it the other day I felt the urge!

Reread The White Road - yearly reread, I gotta!!!!

Reread When the Rose and the Fire Are One - cuz it's been a while!

Reread Pains and Contradictions - again, it's been a while!

Reread The Apple Tree - maybe 2023 is just the year of rereads haha.

Read all the fics on Squash's 12 HP Femslash Recs for 2022. I do need more femslash in my life, and I don't think I've read any of these!

Read Littered with Lonely Hearts cuz newwwww Lizzy fic!!!!

Read a Tomarrymort fic???? Since apparently I'm having thoughts right now. (Feel free to send recs, pls & thx.)

Oh catch up on reading for Hoggywartyxmas. I'm a very bad participant and very behind!!

Read a "real" book...it's been a while. 🫣 Maybe finish Brandon Sanderson's Skyward series (Sanderson is my partner's favorite author) or Orson Scott Card's Ender's Game, because so many people have been recommending it to me for years (and my partner bought it for me recently so I really should actually read it...)

Writing

finish Devotion

chapter 3 of smile with sweet surprise

work on Dralbus fic

work on Sugar Daddy fic

work on Good Daddy

work on Scarry fic

write at least one of the following ships: Gwenevera, Ginmione, Drarius, or Dremus

write for Kinkuary and Kinktober (even if only 1 each!)

write for Snarry Bang

work on Project: Three of Hearts

Miscellaneous Fandom

more HP Astro posts! Hopefully I can get to Neville, Hermione, Luna, and Ron as horoscopes and Draco/Charlie, Remus/Snape, and Sirius/Snape for synastry. But just adding more to the series in general will be good!

Post meta to AO3. At least the HP astro series! (all under my danniperson pseud.)

More rec lists! I have one for Snarrytales and Background Snarry queued up already. I'd like to do a Valentine's Day rec lists and lists for other ships, such as Dron or Dremus or such.

Guest on more podcasts, if anyone wants to partner up again!

Attempt podficcing.

Attempt fanart.

Personal

Stay in therapy - even if things don't work out with therapist, find a new one. Don't wait. Don't be disheartened. Keep going!

Take up meditation again - meditation is hard for me but I always felt better when I was doing it.

Take up yoga again - or other light physical activity.

Travel! I love to travel, even if it's within the state. I'd ideally like to get back to New Orleans, but my partner and I also plan on going to Universal again (Florida or California? Undecided) and maybe Utah in the fall. But just getting out of town at all would be nice!

Keep up with my planner. I fell out of the habit during covid and I felt a lot better when I was keeping up with it.

Finish decluttering/reorganizing apartment. We're in the middle of it and I love it so far!!!!

Self-care - honestly the hardest. But I need to learn to set boundaries, rest/relax, have fun, and prioritize myself.

[myhumaninteractionsafterall]

Year end

546 films, that surprised me too.

734 books, no surprise there.

250 albums which seems a bit low.

I did not achieve my submission goal, but I have enough written that I can edit and submit frequently next year. There was a 3 month span where I was writing 3 or 4 things a day, but then I had a bad thing happen which cascaded into another bad thing, and though I did write two things about it, it kind of killed the momentum I had built up, and I only wrote those two things in the last month.

I have one new thing I need to learn to complete the skill set I determined I would need if I need to look for a new job in June. It should not be difficult to learn it. I already made a roadmap and gathered the materials I will need. I guess a goal could be preemptively finding a new job, but I doubt I will. No other real target goal for next year aside from the aforementioned acquisition and submission. The latter I have also heavily researched and read a submission guide for my chosen field and weeded out of the 2000 or so venues anything that did not fit for me. It seems pretty evident the best places to submit require money for a reader’s fee, but that is in exchange for feedback regardless of acceptance, so that seems worth it due to my inexperience.

I feel like I am the least prepared for this coming year even though the last few were also fairly goalless. I guess I am in the mood for a hard goal again, so I will look for something.

There was no method to my movie watching except for trying to complete filmographies on letterboxd. That led to some interesting discoveries, so I will continue that. No method to music either (new control number 4,111), but there are several discographies like David Byrne and Bjork I would like to complete by filling in their more obscure albums.

I probably have to move soon so most of my reading has been about what can I complete quickly that I can sell back to the bookstore right after in order to lighten my transportation needs later.

For TV, I listed what I watched in the order I watched it which is why 9 below seems odd. There were many other things too, but they were new this year and I was not catching up on old seasons so I did not think to put it down.

Easy 1

Dollface 1-2

The Blacklist 8-9

The White Lotus 1-2

Hacks 1-2

The Outlaws 1-2

Kim's Convenience 1-5

Strays 1-2

The Office 8, 7, 6, 2, 9, 3, 4

Finished up some games that were lingering for awhile in partially played states.

Valkyria Chronicles (PS3)

Ghosts of Tsushima [NG+] (PS4)

Dishonored (PS3)

Captain Toad Treasure Tracker (Switch)

Pikmin 3 (Switch)

Rage 2 (PS4)

Red Dead Redemption (PS3)

Kirby and the Forgotten Land (Switch)

Dishonored 2 (PS4)

Tiny Tina's Wonderland (PS4)

It Takes Two (PS4)

Horizon Zero Dawn (PS4)

Call of Duty: Vanguard (PS4)

Astro's Playroom (PS5)

Resident Evil: Revelations 2 (PS4)

Horizon Forbidden West (PS5)

Sackboy: A Big Adventure (PS5)

[crehador]

brother crab's spring 2024 first impressions: spring 2024

ok ok ok now that everything's had at least one episode out i am finally finalizing my list with a rough preliminary ranking of everything

tl;dr for me? sentai daishikkaku and kaijuu 8-gou in the lead so far (and BY far)

top 3: sentai daishikkaku, kaijuu 8-gou, wind breaker (and shockingly yes in that order)

this is pretty unexpected for me because wind breaker was one of my most anticipated series of the season, and i knew nothing about the other two

kaijuu 8-gou had an incredible first episode, if it keeps that up i think it'll be an easy anime of the season. but sentai daishikkaku also had a great first ep and really won me over with its second, so if it stays just as compelling... also a strong contender

wind breaker so far is really good, but it doesn't feel like anything i haven't seen before, i guess. i don't mean that in a bad way! familiar comforts are, well, comfortable. nothing wrong with that

but sentai daishikkaku feels very fresh and unique to me, and i'm rather partial to kaijuu 8-gou with it featuring an older cast of characters, so those two have a bit more of my attention for now

ALSO GREAT: yuru camp s3, boukyaku battery, tadaima okaeri, sasayaku you ni koi wo utau

THRILLED to be able to put both the yaoi of the season and the yuri of the season in this category. tadaima okaeri is cuter than words can expression, this is for sure going to be a highlight of my week every week. sasayaku also had such a cute and fun first episode! i'm an anime only for this one so will be looking forward to where the story goes (and hoping it stays that good)

yuru camp is yuru camp. what else needs to be said. extremely cute

boukyaku battery had a very compelling start too, definitely comes close to a top 3 for me after one episode. the seiyuu cast is really crushing it

REALLY FUN: astro note, yozakura-san chi no daisakusen

both enjoyable and entertaining, set just ever-so-slightly down a tier from the others for me for now, but feel like they both have even more room to grow on me (and already did grow on me between eps 1 and 2)

not bad: jii-san baa-san wakagaeru, re:monster

jii-san baa-san is honestly not quite what i hoped it'd be, it's heavier on the gag comedy than i would've wished. i think i would've preferred more of a softer, warmer, iyashikei-type slice of life series. but! that is not the show's fault, and it is not bad for what it is

re:monster isn't really outstanding but i'm having a good enough time for what it is also

in both cases i'm really liking the cast. mikishin is just so perfect for the grandpa voice, and satotaku is satotaku

dropped: the fable, hibike euphonium s3 (LET ME EXPLAIN)

hibike is not actually dropped of course lmao it is one of the ones i was most looking forward to, but before i started i decided to take it off my list for this season. i watched both of the previous seasons after they were out and really want to binge this one too, instead of going week by week, so it's not a drop so much as a pushed off for later

as for the fable... it feels like a shame to say it, but i wasn't vibing with this one. the manga scores or so high so maybe it's just a sense of humor that didn't translate well into anime form for me, or maybe it's just a sense of humor that's not for me full stop

either way i think i'm going to call it quits on this one even though i wanted to check it out for the cast

the only series i haven't started yet is karasu wa aruji wo erabanai because of some funky streaming timeline for the first ep... and now two are out so i have to catch up...... still looking forward to this one but alas i will have to get to it when i get to it

[astroexaminer]

Astro-Inspiration for Saturday, April 22, 2023 ~ Happy Earth Day!!! 

The sky has shifted the energy during the past few days (I’ve been away enjoying surf, sand, and food on Amelia Island, Ga.) To catch you up... just in case you weren’t paying attention - this year, at 12:12 am ET on April 20 there was a second New Moon in Aries (the first took place on March 21.) This second New Moon was a hybrid new moon solar eclipse. According to “EarthSky,” hybrid eclipses are rare and occur only a few times a century. The next hybrid eclipse will be in 2031.

 Additionally... 

The eclipse took place at 29 ° 50’ Aries. The 29th degree of any sign is said to be the anaretic degree. An anaretic degree is often considered a “degree of fate.” That doesn’t mean bad, but it does indicate events happening that are beyond your control. An eclipse, at this degree, can trigger massive developments and events in the world, and you can see all sorts of changes happening around the world when this occurs. Things have reached a crisis point. This was a very intense New Moon eclipse. 

The eclipse is also holding hands with Jupiter, the greater benefic in Aries, and out-of-sign Square Pluto in Aquarius. Bare this in mind... chaos and conflict have the potential to generate opportunities for growth, empowerment, and transformation. This eclipse was a harbinger of change and moving toward the unknown. 

A few minutes after the eclipse, the Moon entered Taurus. A few hours later, the Sun entered Taurus. Mercury stationed retrograde in Taurus on Friday, April 21, making this an important time to be aware of what’s coming up for you... but also for extending yourself the gift of pausing, refining, reflecting, and making critical adjustments. Now is not the time to act; it’s time to process and recalibrate before moving forward. 

And all of the led up to today... Earth Day! It will be difficult to celebrate Earth Day while ignoring the daunting reality of climate change... mass extinctions, the bad behavior of corporate actors, and the public’s unspoken facilitation of environmental devastation. Today the sky urges you to take an honest look at what is and what needs fixing. Then adjust your tactics and lifestyle in the interest of preserving the planet. The good news... you're likely to have a natural inclination to gather information and talk about anything and everything that's happening to our planet.  So, even if you don’t consider yourself an environmentalist, it’s wise to consider the impact your actions or inactions are having on Mother Earth. On a more positive note, look up tonight and enjoy the beauty of nature. The Crescent Moon and Venus will be in the western sky.

 Today’s Quote

“It comes as no surprise that money talks, even when it comes to climate change. Governments hold the key to transforming our economy by empowering green business practices as the ethical and lucrative option. Clean energy jobs provide earnings +25% of the national median wage, yet our governments continue to incentivize technology, damaging our future. The fossil fuel industry profits over $5.9 trillion annually (and rising). It’s time to make our voices heard and get our government leaders to launch the sustainability revolution TODAY!”  ~ Visit earthday.org/earth-day-2023

Today’s Sky

Moon enters Gemini at 6:10 am ET. Moon in Gemini Trine Pluto in Aquarius, Square Saturn in Pisces, SemiSextile Jupiter in Aries. 

The sky speaks to you if you let it. Every day it delivers a message that each person hears in a uniquely different way. This is not personal or predictive astrology; it's creative astrology meant to help you understand and align your mind, body, and spirit with the unique soul vibration of each passing day.

 To quote Joseph Campbell: “The goal of life is to make your heartbeat match the beat of the universe, to match your nature with Nature.”

 I hope you enjoy and your life is enriched by these Astro-inspirations.

Thanks for reading. Please like and follow Patricia Lantz, Astrologer

[wooahaes]

Hi! How are you? Sorry, I'm only catching up with all your stuff now. Sweet night was so good! Ngl, I did feel a lil emotional at the phone call part. I feel bad asking this (I'm sure you have your own stuff to deal w/), I haven't been having a great time recently BUT I have been listening to a couple of Shinee songs. Any recs that might help cheer me up? Or recs in general? Hope you are keeping well! 🍧

hi lovely <3 no need to apologize!! take care of yourself tbh your well being is far more important than my silly lil fics <3

but tysm abt sweet night!! i was hoping the phone call would be a lil emotional hehe

i hope things get better for you soon <3 as for song recs, i'm always happy to share!! these are probs just gonna be generally more upbeat/fun songs i enjoy hehe

for shinee: woof woof (watch the performance from the concert, its so goofy and i genuinely love it sm lmao), punch drunk love, girls girls girls, atlantis, view, 1 of 1, married to the music, prism, replay <333, ready or not, dream girl, runaway, colorful, dynamite, EVERYBODY (bc she's a legend who i love sm!!), and superstar!! also 321 tbh there's japanese releases i'm forgetting but she's fun

outside of shinee as a group, onew's mini album from this year DICE is fun!! i rec dice and sunshine for upbeat things hehe <3 dance whole day + life goes on are also songs that i enjoy!!

i'm home by minho is a lil softer but i genuinely love the sound of his voice there <3

key's gasoline in general is full of bops tbh. gasoline is less happy and more power if tht makes sense, but i like G.O.A.T (greatest of all time) + i can't sleep + another life + guilty pleasure + delight for more like... upbeat songs? the entire album is so good tho, fully rec listening to it. key's music has a certain quality that is just Very 'key'. outside of gasoline, my faves would be show me, good good and imagine.

taemins solo stuff imo is a lil more intense? and horny tbh lmao <3 i love it but idk if there's anything i'd go for pick-me-ups in the same vein as my other recs? pretty boy is fun tbh!

jonghyun... she is. white t-shirt. shinin' both makes me happy n comforted while also making me a lil sad. i think just chill is nice. love is so nice. deja-boo + crazy (guilty pleasure) + NEON

for general songs that i enjoy tht r happier:

clap! + beautiful + darari + u + hello (treasure), healing + when i grow up + heaven's cloud + do re mi (svt), candy sugar pop (astro), life is still going on + beatbox (nct dream), bottom of the ocean + that feeling + i love u crazy! + spring again + 3! 6! 5! (golden child), fairy (dvwn)

theres def more tbh but i feel like htis is a lot already lmao

[kwritingbooks]

co-written by me & @sunsalutationsss

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Did Aurora scare him away? She knew she probably shouldn’t have done what she did, but now she was suffering the consequences regardless. Why was her mind so clouded with this anyway? Why doesn’t she feel like herself?

AU: star-being!harry x astronomy-student!aurora

AURORA'S POV

My alarm boomed through the room, caused by the aftermath of accidentally leaving my phone at maximum volume. I felt Astro immediately stand to her feet and start to growl. It jolted me awake with crusty eyes that burned. I had stayed up a bit too late last night because I was studying for a final for physics class.

I groaned as I rolled myself over, hitting my phone blindly a couple of times before finally slamming the alarm off completely. Astro stared at me, her tongue hanging out of the side of her mouth as she panted.

"I know." I mumbled, pulling the blanket over my head as I closed my eyes for a minute. Mornings were always the hardest to get up, especially at six-thirty in the morning. I laid there for a few moments, contemplating my entire life while thinking about the day I had ahead of me.

When I finally got up, I started my morning routine as usual. Brushed my teeth, washed my face, and took Astro out for a walk. I always took her to the park across the road from my apartment. It was convenient and pretty—a match made in Heaven. It was the usual. Simple and sweet.

I seemed to constantly have a million thoughts racing through my mind in the morning—could have been fictional or non-fictional. Most of it was made up scenarios, though. Typically about me being able to sleep in for once in my life and get a restful eight hours of sleep. A girl could dream, right?

But this morning, I couldn't stop thinking about Harry. Nina and I hadn't seen him in two days and we were starting to get a little worried we may have scared him off. Was it something that we did? I did?

I felt bad that I went through his fridge. I should have known better, but he was drunk and I was just trying to be helpful by getting him a glass of water. Who knew that could've been such a bad move.

Not to mention the whole note thing was a bit weird. The way he was so defensive about me just holding it made me a little uneasy. I couldn't quite place my finger on what was so uncomfortable about it. Maybe it was the slight aggressive he displayed that made my body tense at the thought. I had never seen that side of him before and I hated it.

I tried to chalk it up to him being a guy—some guys really didn't like sharing their feelings. Maybe he was scared that I would make fun of him for the things he wrote on paper, but that wasn't me. I just hoped he knew that.

It also didn't give him the right to act that way towards me, but I still felt guilty regardless. I shouldn't have snooped, even if unintentional.

Astro's barks from outside pulled the attention away from my thoughts. I was grateful for the shift in concentration. I had a habit of doing that a lot—getting stuck in loops of my own thoughts. I wouldn't even realize it until much later when the sky's colors had changed without my knowledge. Luckily this wasn't one of those times. Thanks Astro.

I unlocked my apartment door, pushing the door open with my foot. Astro raced inside as she panted. She immediately went for her water bowl before I could even take her leash off. I chuckled to myself, closing the door. I gave her a pat on the head as I watched her tail pick up in speed from excitement, refusing to break from her water to look up.

"Such a good girl, you are." I cooed to her.

She didn't pay me any mind while I took her leash off and hung it up on the hook parallel to the door. I checked the time on my phone—I had around an hour before I needed to be in class, which meant I had thirty minutes to get dressed and be on my way.

I grabbed one of the iced coffees from the fridge, popping it open. I sipped it gradually as I walked towards my bedroom. Each sip reminded me why I preferred the coffee shop's more. It just wasn't the same, but it would do—even if just for the caffeine spike.

The door opened, revealing the mess I had last left it in. I had neglected it for so long that the clothes in the hamper were overflowing and my bed was covered in dog hair. The view made my nose scrunch with slight disgust. Thankfully I hadn't had guests over to witness it at least.

That was what I got for letting Astro sleep in my bed.

I couldn't help it though. Ever since I got her, she always slept in bed with me. I needed her more than ever. I hated to say that it was because of loneliness and moving far away from my home in Alaska, but Astro had always been there for me. Whether she was there through all my homesickness or general sadness, she got me through. She was my therapy dog, even if she technically wasn't registered. Even more so when I had to move away from my family. When I would wake up in the middle of the night, dazed and confused about where I was and it was too late to call my parents, Astro was there.

Don't get me wrong, I loved Yellowstone, but I also missed Alaska. I missed my mom and dad. Any person would miss them too if they were in my shoes. There had been so many nights that I stayed on the phone with my mom while she tried to talk me through how to cook her homemade casserole. It was such a comfort food for me and something that always made me feel at home.

But I kept burning it.

Every fucking time.

I checked the time once more and knew I had to be out of the door in a few minutes. I had already finished my iced coffee, successfully throwing it into the bin across the room. I hummed to myself with contentment, impressed by my aim that was hardly ever that lucky.

I put on some comfortable clothes. Anything other than comfortable would have made me angry at the world and I didn't need that. Not until I was awake for at least a little while longer. It wasn't going to be a long day at school today anyway. I only had three classes, then I had to head to the planetarium to help Professor Collins for a couple of hours.

But, I was secretly hoping that I would run into Harry at school so I could see if he was okay. I never got his phone number the night that I dropped him off at his house. I didn't think I would have needed it before then. I expected him to be back the next day, but that just wasn't the case.

I made sure to fill Astro's bowl full of food before leaving the house. After double locking the door, I started down the sidewalk towards the college. Yellowstone was a beautiful city and thankfully smaller than most. The college was only a few blocks away from my apartment.

I honestly didn't know why I even invested in a car when I constantly had to walk or get rides from Nina anyway. The extra money would definitely help if I just sold the piece of junk. All it did was sit there in the parking lot all day anyway. I could already feel the imaginary pats on my back by the reduce-reuse-recycle squad that would plaster their fliers across campus. At least there was some positive out of me not using it— and it also made for a really good excuse.

Driving took away my love for walking everywhere. If it was in town, I would much prefer to go by foot. When you're behind the wheel you can't take in all the beauty around you. Living in Yellowstone, I wanted to soak it all in. No matter how many times I saw it, I never got bored. It felt new every day. The familiarity never got boring— the sunsets never set the same way, the birds never cooed the same tunes, the leaves never fell the exact same way. It was always new if I wanted it to be.

When I got to college, I tried not to make it obvious that I was looking for someone or something, but I didn't think I did very well concealing it. Nina had a day off from her classes today, so I was stuck walking the campus alone. Walking by yourself and peering over every corner would look weird to just about anyone, but college kids didn't really care about what others were doing so maybe they didn't notice after all. I crossed my fingers that that remained true at least.

My eyes wandered to each face I saw. I even mentally noted how tall everyone was—just looking for that goofy grin that Harry had on his face all the time—but to no avail. I didn't see him at all. This was a huge college though, so he could have been anywhere. But, his classes should have been in the same building as mine.

Maybe he was just running late. Or maybe he was sick? Classes canceled?

I even walked by one of the classes I knew he took and glanced in, but nothing. He wasn't there either. I gave up. I surrendered to the thoughts of my own guilt. I probably fucked up royally and now he was avoiding me at all costs.

I pressed my body against the door of my classroom, a small huff leaving my lips. My eyes gazed around the room for a moment before I had found a seat in the back. I knew it was a bad day when I chose to sit all the way in the back.

It was like a sign hanging around my neck saying 'Don't bother me.'

It was safe to say I wasn't very attentive in class. My mind was too busy in other places. Professor Collins would ask questions that I already knew and he would look at me expectantly, but I instead stared at him with pure disinterest. I didn't even bother to pretend to be engaged; I kept my gaze out the window as I watched students pass by the windows. Little sparks of hope ran through me as I would see a matching feature of Harry, but on someone else's body.

The professor knew something was up because I was never like that in class. Not unless I was overly homesick or getting my ass kicked by some kind of emotional slump. In those days I typically wouldn't show up at all though.

Most of the time I could just hold my own.

After class, I didn't stay to talk to the professor like I usually did. I grabbed my shit and left in a hurry. I still had a couple more classes to go to before I went to the planetarium.

This day just wouldn't give— dragging on and on.

Classes went by so slowly. I didn't know why. Maybe it was because I was on a mission in my head to see where Harry was. I tried to go over everything in my head that could've gone wrong that night. The only thing that I could possibly think of was me being snoopy.

This was probably all my fault.

Who knows? I wish I did.

Per usual, I arrived at the planetarium on time with a fresh cup of coffee in hand, my tote bag hanging off my shoulder and my sunglasses pushed into my hair. I took a sip of my drink as I pushed through the doors, scanning around the room in front of me. The first morning's coffee buzz didn't last like it needed to, and I was desperate for that spark of life that had yet to break through.

The planetarium was already filled with people. We hadn't been this busy since the last meteor shower—it seemed like every time something happened in the sky, people ran to us to find out more. We weren't complaining. I was just happy to be able to give people the information they had been looking for. It was also just fun. I loved every bit of it.

Stepping back towards the booth, I put my tote bag underneath the desk and set my coffee on one of the coasters.

"Hey." I whispered over to Professor Collins. He hummed over at me, fixing his papers.

"Hello, lovely to see you today." He started, poking his tongue to his cheek. "You okay today?"

I teetered on figuring out if I wanted to delve into that or not. Ultimately, I chose not to. When I looked at him, he was staring down at my shaky hands. Guess that caffeine was kicking in more than I thought.

"Yeah, I'm fine—Hey, where's Harry at?" I quickly spoke, concealing my hands back into my lap.

He looked at me in confusion, tilting his head as a chuckle left his lips. "Mm. He's not working today, actually. He only works on Mondays and Tuesdays. Why?"

"Just wondering." I hummed, looking down at the show we had planned out today. I was working the screening while Professor Collins spoke over it. This was entirely too much fun to be bummed out over Harry. I barely knew the guy anyway. Plus he was weird.

I worked my shift as usual. It was an okay day, all in all. After I left the planetarium, I went home. Astro bombarded me at the door like she always did, but it made me so happy knowing that someone was waiting for me to get home. Not once had she ever changed in that way— it was like seeing me for the first time in years every night I returned.

I walked her in the park while I waited for Nina to come over. She pulled me along the sidewalk, instructing me where to go. We had done this so many times; I had full faith that she knew where she was taking us.

Nina and I made sure, no matter what else was going on in our lives, that we still would have dinner nights. So, she was on her way over to cook with me. She was in charge of the food while I was in charge of the drinks. A nice glass of red wine sounded the best, so I grabbed the first one I saw.

I was really exhausted after a long day of my brain running me ragged, but Nina was always so warm to be around. She always knew how to cheer me up, even without trying.

I stared up at the sky as Astro ran around me, the stars twinkling and shining in space. For a moment, it made me think of Harry. It sparked memories from the first time I met him in that field—the flash of light, the shooting stars, the planetarium.

I couldn't even think about my favorite things without him clogging himself along with them. Great.

I was specifically taken back to the specific memory of me and him sat together at the planetarium while he gazed at the stars shown during the show. The way his hand would pop up at times to tell me he knew what star was what. His eyes would light up with every slide shown above, causing the reflections to twinkle in his eyes.

He was so much like me and I didn't realize that until I lost contact with him. I think I was growing to miss his goofy personality.

I stood from the grass, patting my leg to get Astro's attention. She ran over to me, her tongue hanging out the side of her mouth as her tail wagged.

"Good girl." I smiled down at her, grabbing her leash as we walked back across the street to my apartment. I filled her bowl up with water and food before walking into the kitchen to pull out the different supplies we would need for tonight.

My phone buzzed, bringing my attention to it as I looked down at my wet hands. I sighed out, looking around to find a towel. Unfortunately, I had forgotten to grab one.

"Siri, answer." I said loudly, and the phone answered the call. I hit the speaker with my elbow, my dripping hands raised in the air as I continued to hunt for a clean towel. I resorted to wiping them on my jeans. "Hello?"

"Hey, I'm outside your door. Open up, bitch!" Nina said excitedly. I chuckled, shaking my head as the call dropped and I walked to the closet door, grabbing a hand towel so I would not share the same fate later.

I walked to the door, lapping up the last droplets on the cloth. When I opened the door, Nina stood there with a pizza box in each hand, shaking it around for a moment.

"Surprise! I got us some food!" She smiled wide, walking into the living room. "I thought, why cook? I'll just pick up some pizza."

"You're so sweet." I gaped, shutting the door with my foot before following her to the living room. I threw myself lazily onto the couch, letting my body relax against the cushions. "Quick question, have you seen Harry at all? Around school?"

"Hmm... I haven't seen him since the party. Was he okay, by the way? That was totally weird what happened..." Nina frowned, opening the pizza box. "That girl felt so bad. She really thought she did something wrong."

"I really don't think it's a big deal." I nibbled my lip, grabbing a piece of pizza as I took a few bites out of it. After I swallowed, I turned my body towards Nina. "You know, I think I may have freaked him out a bit..."

"Oh, god. What did you do?" Nina covered her mouth as she chuckled, chewing on the bites she just took. "Did you guys sleep together? Did you ask him to piss on you or something?"

"Eww, what? No. Nina—Jesus Christ." A laugh erupted from me, sinking back into the couch as I sighed. "No. He—he didn't have any food. Or, like.. any cups or plates. Swear. He had one cup."

"Oh?" Nina's face contorted in confusion, her lips pursed. "Well, he said he just moved here, didn't he? I'm sure he will get something for himself soon. I wouldn't worry about it. Living that broke college student life maybe, eh?" She chuckled under her breath, nudging me in the shoulder for my own laugh to come out.

"I guess." I mumbled, tapping my finger against my knee slowly. A smile poked through from her attempt at comforting.

I looked up at the TV. There was another rerun of Rupaul's Drag Race that played across the screen. Nina and I both loved this show. It was almost a ritual that we had to watch at least one episode on our dinner nights.

"Sharon Needles, man." Nina pointed her pizza at the screen. "I'm telling you. She's my dream woman."

"That's so weird coming from you. Sharon Needles is the opposite of you." I laughed out, scrunching my face as I ate the rest of my pizza. I was so full. We still hadn't even touched the wine yet.

"Baby, just ‘cause I got flowers in my hair doesn't mean I can't kick it with the goths." She picked at the strands of her matching puffs of hair atop her head slowly, tilting her head with a big smile. "Plus, I'm open to all types of people. You know that."

For the rest of the night we drank our wine and commented on our favorite drag queens while cutting up about prior things that had happened at the party that night, too. I was pretty sure we covered pretty much any possible topic that swam around in either of our heads.

I ended up falling asleep on the couch around ten o'clock that night, and Nina woke me up to let me know she was leaving and would lock the door behind her.

I didn't bother to get up. I just grabbed the throw blanket that was on top of the couch and wrapped myself around it and went back to sleep.

Today was an exhausting day, but I knew that tomorrow would be a lot better.

I was full of hope that I would see Harry again.

NEXT UPDATE: 03/01/22

a/n: i know this is a shorter chapter w/o harry interacting so i hope you guys aren’t too mad! (🤞) we just really wanted you guys to see the inner turmoil that his absence left aurora. we gotta let everyone get to know our baby aurora, too !!! but don’t worry, we’ve got some fun tricks up our sleeves 😏

[scarabiaa]

9, 11, and 32 for ocs of your choice!! (I too am using this ask game as a compromise for not making vignettes JHSJDKAD)

LMAOOOO I'm sitting here going "titus birthday vignette omg..." so i pretend nothing happens bc there are more birthdays coming up but ! I pretend not to see !

9.) Relationship with their siblings?

Meditrina - She has two little sisters and she pretends she hates them, but she worries more about them than anyone else. The best oldest sister, although she secretly harbors resentment towards herself for not being able to let them go. She's just scared of them growing up and she's scared of something happening to them. They take her for granted and don't appreciate her as much.

Ignis - With an older brother that has paved the way for him, Ignis used to admire him but now he is afraid of following his footsteps. His brother is absolutely gorgeous and he's a famous model, but he's done so much other stuff as well that Ignis thinks he won't catch up to him. He also doesn't like him as much for never defending him when he was little and being bullied.

Gale - He loathes his younger brother. He'd glad he doesn't have to see him again but all his little brother brought him was sleepless nights and torture. His little brother has never seen him as his older brother, so Gale has to suffer or else his parents will tell him that he needs to be nicer to his brother (it always irritates him when he hears that).

Blanca - She would do anything for Riddle. She's sacrificed it all for him and she would do it again. It's anusing to the others because she has never lived with him but she already has the oldest sister instincts. She protects him a lot although he's embarrassed by that because he can do it himself, but she just doesn't want anything bad to happen to him!

Colette - She has an adopted younger sister that she hates. She will not go into detail about it, but what you have to know is that the little sister is the reason why Colette was replaced and willingly ran away.

11.) Most embarrassing memory?

Lumi - She remembers going on her first date and immediately saying, "I'm not ready for a wedding yet." She thought first dates were proposals. Imagine her face when Gale told her that first dates were NOT proposals. She never left her room and did not look at her phone because she could sense the notifications.

Valkyrie - Confidently said that she could throw a football and have it landed in a bear's cave, but she ended up throwing one of the dwarves instead. She panicked and raced after the dwarf to save him, but it was so embarrassing how she came back and had to explain everything.

Navin - When he was starting off in theatre, he didn't notice the rigging on the wings, so the rope around his ankle closed in on him and nyoomed him up to the catwalk, where he was screaming for help for the longest time, he cried for a while.

Titus - Cringes at the thought of one of his pickup lines back when he was a playboy, every single memory makes him want to curl up and die. They were some awful pickup lines too. "Are you lost, babygirl" but make it worse and it doesn't help that the Package Trio has learned and constantly repeats those memories around him.

32.) Favorite song? - (I'll do all of them since it shouldn't be that long)

Lumi: Merry-Go-Round of Life by Joe Hisashi (she definitely doesn't listen to this song and imagine herself dancing to it at her wedding, what)

Meditrina: A Sky Full of Stars by Coldplay

Gale: YMCA by Village People

Ignis: Getaway Car by Taylor Swift

Iris: Maniac by Michael Sembello

Navin: Jellicle Songs for Jellicle Cats from Cats the Musical

Blanca: MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT by Elley Duhé

Colette: Yellow by Catherine Ho

Titus: Guillotine by Jon Bellion

Astro: Replay by Lady Gaga

Valkyrie: So This Is Love by Emile Pandolfi

Onyx: Doce Rosas by Lorenzo Antonio

[outcast-thingz]

Mutual Appreciation!!! Thank you so much for being here. Regardless of how often we talk, I will always hold the memories dear.

Yeah so normally this goes the other way around on a day like this but I really couldn't care less. I honestly didn't remember my birthday (aka today) was coming up until yesterday. I've been super focused on helping out with stuff for my dad's wedding. Okay excuses out of the way? Good. Final thing i need to state, this is in no particular order!

@bisexual-confusion Nerris, you show me so much support and enthusiasm for the things I create. Honestly I don't think I would have done as much as I have done (so far) with BOTH Outcast Squad and F U Flowers with out you. Really. You comments and reactions mean a lot. Outside of that talking to you in general is um.. soothing? Calming? Sure something like that 😂 but seriously talking with you even about normal stuff like how our days went is really nice.

@yeet-man haha you're writing is so interesting and eye catching for me. I know we haven't been mutuals for long but I can tell you have such a creative mind. Those what if scenarios always get me thinking.

@xsugarysweetsx I know things havent been fun lately... but I really hope you're doing well hun.. you're such a sweet and beautiful person. I always find myself running back to look at the stories you've written. Whether I'm talking to you are seeing the interactions between you and your followers, I end up smiling.

@x-ap0llo-x hi 🥺 I hope you're doing okay and that more donations are rolling in. It's been a while since we actually talked. Still I laugh at some of interactions we've had. I was kinda scared of talking with mutuals but people like you and (the previously mentioned) sweets helped me out. Even if you guys don't realize it.

@red-riot-rat Sunshine, a nick name with a purpose. Talking with you always brights my day no matter how bad it's been. I honestly couldn't have written some of the first I have if I hadn't talked with you. Especially my Denki one as cheesy as it is.

@spir1tfar3r <3 pretty and funny damn. Okay but seriously no matter what account you're on, its you and entirely you. That probably sounds weird but im not sure how else to describe it. I'm so glad to have you as mutual from talking about Fandom we enjoy and fanfic ideas to jokingly going back and forth with God awful pick up lines that made me giggle... it's really fun and I appreciate the time we've talked together.

@astro-pioneer You!! Hi!!! Playing with you on genshin? So much fun and you were so freaking helpful. I loved joking about our fondness (and Cove's hatred) of Childe and making the creation of undercut Kurapika. It's thanks to you I have Kormit and a bunch of cute little sketches I was inspired to do of him.

@gayfanficanonymous hi 🥺 I hope you're doing well. Alot of my mutuals have made me laugh but none quite as much as you. Whether it be reactions you have in the hashtags of a post of some sort or we were talking about some dumb shit, I have laughed a lot. You also gave me a lot of support for Outcadt Squad and I can't thank you enough for it.