#i am aching

[littlebabywille]

don’t talk to me

[thenachlegacy]

This crinkled me. Crinkled me, ripped my heart out, and crushed it into a million pieces.

[antisocialgaycat]

hows the ill going

i have bronchitis and conjunctivitis so the ill is going great but i am not

[sleepyheadunamazed]

If we weren’t so devoted to ourselves, we’d realize we exist

[beemlm]

I miss your skin on mine. I miss your hand on my shoulder. I miss leaning into your chest. I miss your hands. I miss your arms. I miss your body. I miss you.

I miss the way you looked at me, even when I told you not to. I didn't mean it, you know I didn't. I miss your eyes. I miss the way you said mine were cute. I miss looking at you. I miss staring at you. I miss you.

I miss the way you laugh. I love the way you laugh. I love that I can make you laugh. I love that you can make me laugh. I love that you told me I didn't need you. I miss making you laugh. I miss you.

I miss hugging you. I miss the way you can wrap your arms around me and hold me close and tight and strong. I miss you holding me. I miss you.

I miss kissing you. You were so sweet. You were so gentle. You wanted it to be good. You didn't wanna mess it up. I miss kissing you. I miss you.

I miss the person that I am with you. I miss how happy you make me. I miss you.

[it's been 5 days since ive seen him and I'm going insane]

[that-homoerotic-blouse]

"The guy who shot and missed. It was me" what if I jumped off a cliff what then

[pessimisticprincess]

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[batdevil19]

I wish I'd never fell in love

Fox D.

[pancakesandraccoons]

The ringing in my ears deafens the sounds

Far away yet next to me

yet neither

I have seen your lifes pass on my screen

Your faces, your hopes, your dreams,

They haunt me

Not in the way of a ghost in a mansion

But in the way that the toy in the middle of the road haunts you

The questions unanswered...

And the answers always seem worse than my heart can comprehend.

Still I ask

Are you safe? Are you alive? Are you taken care of?

I pace the rubbled building in my soul Wishing to clean off that bike and give it back to the owner

To the child

Is that child safe?

Are you safe? Are you alive?

No... And they are starving...

The ringing in my ears mimic the recordings of the bombings that I've heard

How it must shake the people to their very core...

Their screams have filled my sleep for months...

I wish I could bat the danger away somehow

Like an annoying fly over your friends head

But those are bombs... And I am flesh...

To my core I am aching

I have so many feelings that do not have names

I wish I could hold all of you I wish I could feed all of you I wish I could house all of you

And so I scream and I scream and I scream

Ceasefire

Until my voice is gone

And then I will write and write and write

Ceasefire

Until my hands no longer work

Then I will mark in big letters with my own bloody nubs

Ceasefire

Until I am too dry to move

Ceasefire

[deadhoneybee]

In the back of my head,

Is my fathers voice.

It says to me

“Why must you be so mean?

Why must you hurt everyone around you”

And my answer is always the same.

“Because i am your child.

It is in my blood just as it is in yours.”

-November 2023-

[sloppy-disc]

Went to a social event today for nephew's school as a sort of back to school night, WALKED THERE, autism on full blast, hated being social, would rather have eaten glass, but I did it for Him...............

[mykwalsh]

You know when you see someone you fell in love with and who fell in love with you for the first time in years and all of a sudden all those feelings come rushing back and it leaves you with such an aching heart and you just want to scream because you desperately want to be with this person, because you both still love each other, but your lives and the things you want out of life just aren't in line with each other and you don't live in the same state or even the same time zone and it just makes you ache in your entire body

...yeah, me either I guess

[bookshelf-dust]

hey I just saw ur little blurb about not being wanted or feeling so! I know I’m a nobody but I also got stood up, ghosted, most definitely disrespected by friends/relatives this whole year. I know it’s hard to crawl out of that hole, but I hope u know ppl care. At the very least me, a person who comes by to read u stuff and see ur posts, cares. I hope u feel better soon, life isn’t straight and narrow. Neither are people, but the right ones will be whatever direction ur going in ❤️

you’re definitely not a nobody, honey. i do know that people care about me. this person told me they cared too, and now they’re pushing me away without reason. i appreciate that you care. it means a lot to me, really. i hope i do too. i really thought that something good had happened for me. clearly, i was wrong. but i usually am.

[butilovedogs3]

I have this aching in my chest for something, but I do not know what that thing is.

This pain has been here for a long time, and I’m afraid i will never find the thing my heart is screaming for.

[tineyshineystar-blog]

It hurts .

[generalized-you]

I hate myself