#i am emo i am sad i am in the mood for christmas

[oncasette]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐔…

✷ my mood themed spotify playlists

ABSINTHE. dad rock $15.63

ARNOLD PALMER. lost & drunk on the beach $1.20

BLACK COFFEE. he’s an older man $40.50

BOURBON TOSCANO. smoky $5.21

BUBBLEGUM SODA. girly bubblegum pop $0.56

CEREAL MILK. just a girl in a coming of age film $7.13

CLEAR SALINE. grief $0.98

CRYSTAL PEPSI. live life like it’s an 80s movie $1.25

DIET MTN DEW. pretentious indie bitch $3.78

EGGNOG. christmas beats $13.12

GINGER SHOT. in love with a women in the 70s $8.08

GINGER TEA. lo-fi & movie quotes $7.21

HOT CHOCOLATE. warm $5.00

JACK AND COKE. permanent wave $20.56

JELL-O SHOTS. the era, the icon, the 2000s $13.31

LAVENDER LEMONADE. vintage love songs $0.99

LONG ISLAND ICED TEA. dancing w/out a man $42.37

MARTINI, DRY. mom, i am a rich man $1,843.00

MEAD. living in the mud $0.00

MILLER LITE. generic beer & truck country $21.00

MONSTER ENERGY. emo $15.21

MOONSHINE. country love songs $20.59

NEW COKE. my 2018 editing 80s era $1.99

A NICE CHIANTI. stuck in a horror movie $19.88

OLD FASHIONED. slow dancing to vinyl $19.54

ORANGE JUICE. lost love $14.70

PEACE TEA. relaxation $0.78

PROSECCO. songs that buzz $24.70

PEACH TEA. country for the plains $19.90

RED RED WINE. classic rock n roll $54.32

SALT WATER. cry your eyes out $0.15

SANGRIA. that woman’s the devil $10.55

SPARKLING APPLE CIDER. pretty princess $25.55

STRAWBERRY DAQUIRI. feminine felonies $12.30

SUNNY-D. growing up $1.49

TAP WATER. sad, but a bit drowsier $0.00

TWISTED TEA. summertime $20.99

VODKA REDBULL. 2000s tramp anthems $14.35

WATERMELON MARGARITA. hot girl shit $14.29

[indyflanery]

Written Aesthetics / Types of People as Tim Burton Films

*Repost don't reblog

Beetlejuice: 🪲📓👻

Obsessed with the occult and the afterlife, Air Sign Vibes, “I, myself, am strange and unusual”, loves The Addams Family, blunt bangs, gothic throw pillows, reads Edgar Allen Poe, morbid sense of humour, Poison by Dior, rescues spiders, wears funky hats and hair accessories, old wooden bannisters, collects strange things they find in thrift shops, probably makes sculptures or models.

Batman: 🦇🌃🚨

Reads/watches true crime, city lights reflected in puddles, good at keeping secrets, listens to Lana Del Rey, knows about all the secret raves and underground clubs, running across intersections in heels, Great Gatsby quotes, smashing champagne glasses, neon signs, jewellery is the way to their heart, police chases, holds grudges, charming, owns at least one item of leather clothing.

Edward Scissorhands: ✂️🌳🏘

Perfectly manicured gardens, can’t decide on a hairstyle (or an aesthetic for that matter), hopeless romantic, hardcore crushes on emo boys, writes poetry, gothic architecture, white roses, probably grew up in a small town, believes opposites attract, cautiously optimistic, the first snowfall of the year, yearns for the extraordinary, daydreaming, wants to stand out but also wants to belong.

The Nightmare Before Christmas: 💀🎄🌌

Likes Christmas but LOVES Halloween, unconventional pumpkin carvings, mood lighting, spiderwebs on wrought iron fences, knows how to sew, collects Halloween masks, has tattoos and piercings, injury prone, cemeteries at night, owns way too many candles, herbal tea, full moons, secretly a romantic, loves snow globes, winding tree branches, pining love ballads, black nail polish.

Corpse Bride: 🧟‍♀️🦋👰🏻‍♀️

Listens to classical music, skin is always cold, petals falling off dead flowers, clings to the past, trusts the wrong people, corsets, lanterns, someone brushing your hair for you, sad eyes, blue butterflies, believes in soulmates, self sacrificing, midnight walks, long dresses/skirts, blue veins, cobblestone paths, bruises/scars easily, earthy perfumes, “if you love something, set it free”.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory: 🍫❄️🏭

Sweet tooth, can’t dance but does it anyway, purple velvet, watches slime videos, flamboyant sunglasses, heavily saturated landscapes, daddy issues, has no volume control, low key terrified of children, rolls their eyes a lot, eccentric, collects strange objects, has a unique laugh, expensive boots, avoids answering questions, fireworks, childhood flashbacks, the smell of burning sugarcane.

Sweeney Todd: 🪒🥩🩸

Has a nice singing voice, high functioning crazy, wears lace clothing, cool toned scenery, mysterious vibes, enjoys the doomed lovers trope, intrusive thoughts, stressed and depressed but well dressed, carnivore, bites their fingernails, can bake a mean meat pie, old horror movies, the little devil that sits on peoples’ shoulder, long skirts dragging along the floor, makes direct eye contact.

Alice In Wonderland: 🐇🕰🍄

Stoner, drinks out of irregular sized cups, patterned tights, cat person, rambles about philosophical topics, adventurous, talks to plants and animals, old garden furniture, vertigo, always losing their keys, lucid dreams, optical illusions, rebellious, can be stubborn sometimes, has strange celebrity crushes, probably vapes, bumps into furniture, abstract paintings, listens to pop punk music.

[gyujeongfmd]

end the year blues — headcanon, aesthetic & playlist

summary — winter brings earlier nights, and that’s where he inevitably ends up dwelling in the end of the year. the end of the year’s always the hardest and loneliest for gyujeong, despite being the period where he’s the busiest career wise. the paradox brings this familiar melancholic feeling he can’t shake out, and it bleeds into the spring until the weather pulls and flowers start to bloom. winter time blue, seasonal depression — call it what you will, but it’s something that causes late night walks, feeling cold and then finally passing out until the sun rises and it’s time to repeat. playlist summary — end of the year also accounts for more music than usual. his earphones in his ears as he nods off to and from late night schedules, and even during it. the weather calls for some typical winter songs, and the peak of the ballad, slow-music beating through the speakers. beats will fall through from the time he wakes up till he falls asleep as he calls this his “white noise” getting him through the winter drought. perhaps, maybe in some warped world, he’d be listening to happier music getting ready to look forward to what’s to come in 2023 (but that’s not necessarily the case here). wc: 483

1. wine — suji (태연) 2. 나의 모든 날 (all my days) — kim sejeong (김세정) 3. 다시 난, 여기 (here i am again)—baek yerin (백예린) 4. meant to be — baek yerin (백예린) 5. for you — lee hi, crush (이하이 크러쉬) 6. 이번 겨울 (this winter) — kwon jin ah (권진아) 7. always remember us this way — lady gaga 8. 아마도 그건 (perhaps that was love)— 하림 (hareem) 9. come out and play — billie eilish 10. 나랑 갈래 (go with me) —  곽진언 (kwak jin eon)

i’m aware that this playlist sounds / feels a lot more like minjung than gyujeong, but wintertime gyujeong is pretty similar to baseline minjung — aside from the fact that gyu’s probably a bit more sadder? melancholic? in general during this time

it’s less about sad boy hours, and more about just wallowing in wasted time. time feels wasted despite being busy. there’s staff around him constantly, but that sort of crowd just makes the sound feel more deafening to the point where his own voice feels empty

as a result, he’s reverted to just popping in his headphones and drowning out his own misery through the sounds of sad sounding music / crooning ballads

which, normally, he won’t listen to ballads but tis the season! people might be listening to jellyfish’s christmas song, or ariana grande, but gyu won’t budge and he’ll probably even be listening to these songs on christmas night

the thing about this music is that it makes time feel like it’s at a standstill despite it passing, and by now, he just uses it as the soundtrack to his life. meaning: when he wakes up, the playlist is played. and before he goes to sleep, he hits play to listen to it as he falls asleep

though gyu isn’t really a drinker, this is probably his most “experimental” era when it comes to taking a sip of beer or drinking wine. it obviously doesn’t end well because he ends up blacking out because of it, but regardless, he tries because it “fits” the mood.

if not, he spends his nights on walks where he’ll take walks in the cold dead of night when no ones around. basically, music in and he starts walking across hangang until his legs feel too frozen to move any further ,which then becomes his cue to go home.

other times, he’ll ride his bike around — for some reason, he doesn’t like to go on drives during the winter season. there’s no driving around, and more just walking or taking a bike to waste time and drown out feelings of bitter loneliness lmao

but that’s only when he has the time? mainly, end of the year causes really busy schedules for him because of award shows / comebacks that platinum has. thus, he really just gets transported by his manager and free time becomes a luxury (another paradox i know)

again, not really sad boy? but i would just reference winter gyu as an emo kid who says “this isn’t a phase”

less social and less likely to make friends, but if you’re persistent, it’s pretty easy to get him to come out and have a conversation. the initial encounter is the only portion that’s rough though, so someone become his friend during this time : ) he probably needs it

overall, winter gyu is just gloomy. that’s probably the best way to describe him. less angry, and more gloomy.

[anonforlackofabettername]

Aight, here we go:

♤ honorable mention

♤ pretty in punk

♤ grand theft autumn

♤ homesick at space camp

♤ a little less sixteen candles

♤ the music or the misery

♤ golden

♤ don't you know who i think i am?

♤ disloyal order

♤ what a catch

♤ light em up

♤ save rock and roll

♤ the kids aren't alright

♤ twin skeleton's

♤ church

♤ heaven's gate

~ Lauren

FOB Asks

honorable mention: what would you title a movie of your life?

It would probably be a pun on my last name. I’m not sharing my last here name so I’m keeping this to myself

pretty in punk: punk, emo, scene or goth?

Punk for the values, emo for the mid-00s music, goth for the aesthetic (attraction). My personal style is unfortunately none of these. I’m very soft femme or sports gay. I’ve moved away from nerd girl chic thank god.

grand theft autumn/where is your boy: which was the first fall out boy song you heard and liked?

It’s either Dance Dance or Thnks fr th Mmrs way back when IOH first came out and FOB was a band my sister liked instead of anyone I listened to on my own. I know those were the only two songs I had on itunes before I got obsessed. My Songs was also getting a ton of radio play my senior year of high school that I liked but didn’t link that to the band. I think the first “Yes!” song when I was getting obsessed with them on my own was Phoenix. I’m still a lot obsessed with Phoenix.

homesick at space camp: what do you blast when you’re angry?

It really depends on what my mood is. I’m rarely ever just angry. If I’m angry and want to stew, usually I’m Not Okay (I Promise) is the right mood. If I’m angry and sad I’ve got a handful of playlists that help me deal with it. Most of the time I just put shuffle on and hit skip until the vibes are right.

little less sixteen candles, a little more “touch me”: favourite fall out boy mv?

Does the entirety of the Youngblood chronicles count? Does it? Am I going to have to pick a single song from that? You’re going to send me on a FOB MV YouTube binge after this aren’t you? (side-eyes you) (I’m finishing this and then I’ll go on the YouTube binge).

the music or the misery: favourite fall out boy bonus track?

I don’t know what counts as a bonus track. Are they the remixes? The live recordings? The random singles that aren’t one one of the main studio albums? All of the above? I’m going pick Dear Future Self (Hands Up) and Alpha Dog from the greatest hits albums (Believers Never Die Volume One and Two)(tho I’ve got them listed backwards DFS is on 2 and Alpha Dog is on 1).

golden: do you prefer fall out boy’s upbeat songs or the more emotional ones?

It depends on the mood I’m in tbh. Also what does this mean by upbeat? Some of their most emotional songs have the fastest tempos. The only ones I can think of that are emotional and slow are What A Catch Donnie and The Kids Aren’t Alright. The band is very good at being loud while hurting. So I guess upbeat.

don’t you know who i think i am?: which high school stereotype would you describe yourself with?

I was absolutely the only girl in the group of nerds. The wears science puns on her shirt and can’t get a date unless it’s a popular boy baiting her (jokes on them I’m queer and ace I don’t want a popular boy to date me and never did). Nowadays? Well I’m still a girl in stem so I guess that hasn’t changed even though my fashion sense has.

disloyal order of water buffaloes: which is your favourite fall out boy lyric?

So many. Fuck you for making me choose.

“I’m gonna change you like a remix/then I’ll raise you like a phoenix”

All of Miss Missing You but especially “Sometimes before it gets better/the darkness gets bigger/the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger”

Cold open no music “Where is your boy tonight I hope he is a gentleman”

“The ribbon on my wrist says do not open before Christmas”

“I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me”

“Anything you say can and will be held against you/so only say my name”

My sister’s favorite opening to any song ever (it’s not relevant here but it came to mind when I was trying to choose): “Are you ready for another bad poem”

what a catch, donnie: favourite artist that features in a fob song?

Elton John (2008 Panic! is a close second - not whatever Brendon Urie is doing now as a solo act under the name P!atD, Panic! circa Folie a Deux and Pretty Odd). Everyone who featured on What A Catch Donnie gets a shout tho, they all rock

my songs know what you did in the dark (light em up): favourite single?

Lol of the songs I listened to as singles I’m gonna have to pick American Beauty/American Psycho with honorable mentions going to both My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark and Centuries.

save rock and roll: thoughts on elton john?

Yes. Absolutely yes. I don’t love all of his music and I never really listened to his discography in depth before the Rocket Man biopic a couple years ago but since then I’m yes. At this point he’s a flamboyant elder queer and I’m like rock on you funky little rocket man.

the kids aren’t alright: if you could send a message to yourself five years ago, what would it say?

God five years ago I was going into my senior year of college. I’d probably tell her that she has time to figure it all out. Shits going to be bad and good and everything in between but stressing ourselves out trying to fix it doesn’t actually change much. There is no way to make the one right decision that will make everything perfect from now until eternity and she shouldn’t try but for G-d’s sake do something nothing is not an acceptable choice. Also work harder on your senior project, talk to your counselor about ADHD, and be kinder to yourself but not too kind that you do nothing.

twin skeleton’s (hotel in nyc): describe your exact opposite.

A neurotypical cishet Christian who is already married with kids and thinks coding and modern technology is for heathens.

church: what do you associate with fall out boy?

I associate this specific song (Church) with oral sex lol. Now that that’s out of this way, idk I associate it a lot with my college years cause that was like the start and peak of my hyperfixation but also sitting in my living room while my sister had the music video channel on on the tv (not mtv lol a different channel) when I was like 12. I associate them with 1am youtube binges. I associate them with saying these motherfuckers (affectionate)(derogatory). I associate them with with rock and pop punk and a song for every mood. With broadening my horizons and also one of the things that helped me grow into liking shit whether or not it’s mainstream, niche, nerd, cringe, and anything or everything in between.

heaven’s gate: give one way fall out boy have helped you.

We’re friends because of FOB. I wanna be clear that we’d probably still be friendly without the shared special interest in FOB but we would be different friends. We were kind of tentative on the friendship/roommate front until we saw we had the same Fall Out Boy poster and from there we built the foundations of our friendship on that and ace shit.

Fall Out Boy Asks

[lcvecircles]

i do not care about concept albums but eraserhead’s fruitcake (1996) is a christmas masterpiece and the fact they released a children’s book to accompany the album makes me sob.

[coldasyou]

Christmas, dear. 

[playsthetics]

Written Aesthetics / Types of People as Tim Burton Films

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Beetlejuice: 🪲📓👻

Obsessed with the occult and the afterlife, Air Sign Vibes, “I, myself, am strange and unusual”, loves The Addams Family, blunt bangs, gothic throw pillows, reads Edgar Allen Poe, morbid sense of humour, Poison by Dior, rescues spiders, wears funky hats and hair accessories, old wooden bannisters, collects strange things they find in thrift shops, probably makes sculptures or models.

Batman: 🦇🌃🚨

Reads/watches true crime, city lights reflected in puddles, good at keeping secrets, listens to Lana Del Rey, knows about all the secret raves and underground clubs, running across intersections in heels, Great Gatsby quotes, smashing champagne glasses, neon signs, jewellery is the way to their heart, police chases, holds grudges, charming, owns at least one item of leather clothing.

Edward Scissorhands: ✂️🌳🏘

Perfectly manicured gardens, can’t decide on a hairstyle (or an aesthetic for that matter), hopeless romantic, hardcore crushes on emo boys, writes poetry, gothic architecture, white roses, probably grew up in a small town, believes opposites attract, cautiously optimistic, the first snowfall of the year, yearns for the extraordinary, daydreaming, wants to stand out but also wants to belong.

The Nightmare Before Christmas: 💀🎄🌌

Likes Christmas but LOVES Halloween, unconventional pumpkin carvings, mood lighting, spiderwebs on wrought iron fences, knows how to sew, collects Halloween masks, has tattoos and piercings, injury prone, cemeteries at night, owns way too many candles, herbal tea, full moons, secretly a romantic, loves snow globes, winding tree branches, pining love ballads, black nail polish.

Corpse Bride: 🧟‍♀️🦋👰🏻‍♀️

Listens to classical music, skin is always cold, petals falling off dead flowers, clings to the past, trusts the wrong people, corsets, lanterns, someone brushing your hair for you, sad eyes, blue butterflies, believes in soulmates, self sacrificing, midnight walks, long dresses/skirts, blue veins, cobblestone paths, bruises/scars easily, earthy perfumes, “if you love something, set it free”.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory: 🍫❄️🏭

Sweet tooth, can’t dance but does it anyway, purple velvet, watches slime videos, flamboyant sunglasses, heavily saturated landscapes, daddy issues, has no volume control, low key terrified of children, rolls their eyes a lot, eccentric, collects strange objects, has a unique laugh, expensive boots, avoids answering questions, fireworks, childhood flashbacks, the smell of burning sugarcane.

Sweeney Todd: 🪒🥩🩸

Has a nice singing voice, high functioning crazy, wears lace clothing, cool toned scenery, mysterious vibes, enjoys the doomed lovers trope, intrusive thoughts, stressed and depressed but well dressed, carnivore, bites their fingernails, can bake a mean meat pie, old horror movies, the little devil that sits on peoples’ shoulder, long skirts dragging along the floor, makes direct eye contact.

Alice In Wonderland: 🐇🕰🍄

Stoner, drinks out of irregular sized cups, patterned tights, cat person, rambles about philosophical topics, adventurous, talks to plants and animals, old garden furniture, vertigo, always losing their keys, lucid dreams, optical illusions, rebellious, can be stubborn sometimes, has strange celebrity crushes, probably vapes, bumps into furniture, abstract paintings, listens to pop punk music.

[greenstudies]

Updated spotify playlists

I have playlist for any type of mood. Just choose how you feel:

I just want to chill for a second please let me 

I want to create an illusion of a very productive morning

I’m kinda sad... I wanna be SADDER

Time to daydream I am a protagonist of a post-apocaliptic novel

I’m kinda sad... I don’t wanna be sad anymore. I wanna DANCE

Feeling a bit sexy... Not too sexy, just a little bit, ya know

Sun is shining, birds are singing and I really miss Christmas

I want to feel like I can take on the world

fINE! I’LL DO ONE PUSH UP

I wish I was by a swimming pool

There are just too many bugs. I want the cold

Imma go jogging around my living room

Am I emo?

This one is just P!nk’s songs

I want to be educated on the amazing music of Czech republic

I’m not only in love but also very gay

I desperately need to get some work done please give me SOMETHING

Oh man do I love spring

Enjoy!

[fmdminheearchive]

hello everyone! finals + anxiety are totally beating my ass right now, but i still want to do some stuff for the event!! so, this post is a plot call!! i’m going to describe what my three kids’ll be up to during the event/some thread ideas, and if you see anything in particular you’d like to snatch up, just let me know via dms or replies! and if you’d like me to come to you, please hit the like button! i know i’ve been slacking on plotting with new people over the last couple of weeks, but i’d love to, so :pleading_face: maybe this event is a good spot to start. also, if you want my d!scord, hmu for it! i find it a little easier to reply on there through my anxiety.

minhee

minhee is so pleased about this whole thing!! she hate hate hates her mother’s stupid christmas and new year events, but this year! she won’t even be in seoul!! suck on that, mom! a little sad that she won’t be with mouse because she got her a really cute cat christmas present stocking ):

dec 25th: concert day! minhee is excited for it. she always loves concerts!! excited to be performing little touch. not much else to say here, but come hang out with her backstage!

dec 26th: minhee needs a roommate so! if your muse is looking for a roommate who probably won’t be spending that much time in the suite, then minhee is your gal! 

her randomized drawn card was yellow!! dance machine minhee is in her element! genuinely just there to enjoy herself and do some dancing! flash mobs are meant to be fun, right?

during the afternoon, she’ll probably hit up the italian restaurant, and then head off for a spa day, to be finished off soaking in a hot tub!! someone please join her <3 

holiday ball!! she’s excited to go to an event like this with co-workers and friends instead of her parents and their high society frenemies. someone come drink and decorate cookies with her, it’ll be so fun, i promise!!

dec 27th: she’ll probably spend her free day in the pool and the hot tubs again, and eat at the korean / american bbq grill restaurant! after docking, she’ll definitely be going out to visit taipei! she’ll do some shopping, drop her bags off at her suite, and then head back out to take in some nightlife. if anyone’s muses are interested in partying with minhee during their free night, hmu!

dec 28th: today.... will be minhee’s own personal hell. she drew the red card, which means she’s going to... have ... she’s... going to... have to cook. on top of that, she’ll probably be hungover too. somebody please help her and stick her on like washing up duty or something.

she’ll be back to her regular self by the time they’re backstage at the concert again though, don’t worry!

dec 29th: on the 29th, minhee is gonna treat herself to an all she can eat meal at the sushi restaurant! but otherwise, today she’s just going to be exploring all the different parts of the ship she hasn’t been to yet so there’s nothing there!!

dec 30th: she drew blue, finally! minhee is always down for more spa time. i think she’ll go for the free mani-pedi, so if anyone wants to chat shit with minhee over getting their nails done, now is your chance! 

her free time this evening will be spent... in the bar again, but also in the game room maybe!! she’s shitty at card games and always tries to cheat, so if anyone wants to hang out or tell her off for cheating, come on downnn.

dec 31st: concert will go well, as per usual!!

new year’s party!! minhee will be very drunk ringing in the new year, v excited for the fireworks, and probably in search of someone to kith at midnight. 

jan 1st: luckily, lipstick’s fansign isn’t until the afternoon, and... that’s the first time anyone will see minhee that day. she’ll be sleeping off the results of the previous night for as long as she can get away with. lipstick members, fuse members and gal.actic members, i’m sorry for her crankiness already.

eunah

the christmas season this year is a pretty big deal for eunah, even though she’ll be spending it like this. it marks the one year anniversary of her starting to get help for her eating disorder, so she’ll probably be in a kind of funny mood as she thinks back on the year and how far she’s come.

dec 25th: excited for the concert, especially since 7rophy’s set is over pretty early in the show. she’s hoping to just relax backstage for the rest of the show.

dec 26th: eunah’s going to room with lux because... why wouldn’t she. her having a roommate doesn’t really matter too much though because she’ll just sleep, wake up, leave for the day, repeat. she won’t be spending any time in the room anyways.

she drew red for her card for the 26th!! eunah actually likes decorating, so she’ll probably be enjoying herself well enough. unfortunately she’s tiny so if anyone tall would please help her reach some stuff, that would be much appreciated.

she probably won’t spend the whole time at the holiday ball!! she’ll mingle around for a couple of hours and then dip out to rack up charges on her bill as she sets about calling her family back home. 

dec 27th: i think eunah’s going to spend the 27th curled up in the library for the most part!! she’ll probably duck out to go for sushi if anyone wants to join her, but mostly she’s just going to relax, read, and maybe work on some lyrics.

she’ll probably head out to taipei during the evening though to do some light shopping, but that’s about it there! (unless anyone wants to drag her along to anything.) 

dec 28th: on the 28th, eunah is very happy that she hardly bought anything the prior evening, because she drew the blue card! she does really love shopping, so someone come with eunah for a treat yourself moment! 

same as the previous concert, she’ll get 7rophy’s set out of the way and spend the rest of the time relaxing.

dec 29th: eunah will be spending the 29th moving between the library, the games room, the observation lounge, and, of course, the sushi restaurant. just a chill day!! maybe she’ll go to the spa for a massage, if anyone would like to join her. she’s always apprehensive going for one, but they help her a lot. 

dec 30th: eunah drew red, so that means she’ll be cleaning! she’s surprisingly hardy when it comes to cleaning, so she won’t be shying away from anything. maybe she’ll convince your muse to scrub a bit harder? or... once again... she’ll probably need help reaching some shit. 

dec 31st: you guys know her concert routine by now.

i think!! eunah will actually allow herself to have some fun and get drunk at the new year’s party! she’s a big lightweight, so it won’t take much. does anyone wanna come to the theatre with her?? preferably any other musical kid?? so they can drunkenly sing theatre duets together!!

jan 1st: she’ll put on her best smile for 7rophy’s fan sign, but she’ll probably not be in the most... energetic mood. or whatever eunah’s version of energetic is. she’ll be amicable though, as per usual!! wish, 7rophy or silhouette members please come get a coffee with her while they’re waiting around.

dowoon

dowoon is pretty neutral about the whole thing!! as per usual, he’s just vibing. he doesn’t really care about christmas. can’t help but cringe at some of the spectacle people get up to when it comes to like extreme amounts of lights, so he’s happy enough to be somewhere that at least feels like it has a right to be decorated.

dec 25th: dowoon will put his best foot forward at the concert, like he always does! after charm’s set, you can probably find him facetiming his dog. 

dec 26th: dowoon is rooming with yeonggi because they are bffs!! stan dogi <3 

after that dowoon is headed to the pool, courtesy of the blue card he drew! kinda wishes he drew yellow instead but he likes swimming well enough, and will probably enjoy playing games!! someone come race in the pool w/ him maybe. 

he’s honestly most excited to try all the different restaurants, and will be starting with the french fine dining one because he thinks he’ll like it the least. 

doesn’t really care much about the holiday ball, but a party’s a party, he supposes, so whatever. 

dec 27th: today dowoon is checking out the sushi restaurant!! 

aside from that, he’s just relaxing in his suite LOL

will go out to get something to eat and maybe a couple of drinks in taipei in the evening though, if anyone wants to join him. 

dec 28th: dowoon drew blue again!! he’s not big into shopping for himself (at all), so i think he’s going to use the money to pick out some nice gifts for his parents and his dog, and maybe something small for himself.  

then it’s concert time! dowoon does his dance, he’s great, that’s all there is to know. 

dec 29th: the next restaurant on dowoon’s list is the italian place!! again looking for a food critic partner in crime xoxo

otherwise, dowoon will probably just be vibing in various places around the ship. god, he is so boring. 

dec 30th: dowoon drew yellow, and he’ll be sneaking off to join the red team to clean! he’s a decent actor and is known to work by himself a lot, so i don’t think he’ll be that suspicious. 

last restaurant today!! the korean and american bbq grill. he left it for last because he knew he was guaranteed to enjoy it. 

dec 31st: concert. hit hit hit hit sound.

new year’s party!! omg i am opening the floor to something inch resting if anyone has even read this far........ who wants to kith at midnight? but like not in the fun minhee way, maybe in a kind of emo we drank together for the last couple of hours on the observatory deck way and now we are kissing because it’s the new year. but like also dowoon does not like to Feel so he’ll probably be like “bye” and just fucking leave right after. nice one bro this is why you don’t get any.

jan 1st: dowoon holds his alcohol pretty well, so he’ll be fine for the fan sign, but if any of the members from charm, origin or mars need a pick me up, he doesn’t mind giving them some painkillers or whatever.

[mayflowers07]

Sanders Sides moments that still have me absolutely shooketh

“Am I in a paradoxical loop where I endlessly generate a problem and try to solve it like a snake devouring its own tail in order to satiate its hunger?!?!”

Virgil’s whole “sitting somewhere not meant to be sat on” speech from the Q&A. That shit gets dark

Roman’s arc in Losing Motivation because as someone who also values themself based on the work they create due to high expectations placed on them? Big mood

The ending of My Negative Thinking when Logan says “you jumped to a conclusion” and Virgil looks shocked, like he’s rethinking his life

When everyone in the Growing Up video finally all looks to Patton and realizes they’ve been doing things wrong, because it sets up the series theme of “every side is important. Even one missing side causes issues”

THE ENTIRETY OF THE ACCEPTING ANXIETY SERIES

But specifically the name reveal, Roman’s “you make us better” speech, and the breathing exercise. All just so well done

Seeing the visible change in all of their attitudes towards Virgil in Fitting In and how they really are actively trying to be better

Plus the outfit changes? Iconic

I’m just gonna insert a bunch of quotes in for the next two episodes that speak for themselves:

“Hi just frustrated, I’m sad!”

“Can they?” *insert obviously fake smile to cover up sadness*

“Logan can you stop... please?” (This Part still gives me chills)

“I'm never sad! I'm your happy Pappy Patton! Just a fun-loving father figure figment.” “Falsehood.”

Also the entire ending montage with Thomas and his ex is cinematic and bittersweet and gorgeous

When they changed the ending of the Twelve Days of Christmas to be “And an emo who's now our best friend”

Also Virgil giving Patton a card as a call back to accepting anxiety is just *chef’s kiss* perfection

Rewatching Can Lying be Good and seeing all the little hints about Deceit

“Wow I’m so proud of you Thomas, you’re so mature,” had me screeching

Just the introduction of a new side in general though was so shocking and so perfectly placed. And it set up the new arc with “am I a good person” being the theme

Roman’s insecurities being laid out in Why do We Get Out Of Bed and Crofter’s the Musical

THE ENTIRETY OF THE SONG IN LEARNING NEW THINGS CAUSE FUUUUCCKKK

Like hearing Patton and Virgil talk about their issues and “no one hates you” alone destroys me everytime

But also the Logan vs Thomas moment is super intense and takes my breathe away

In Learning New Things and Embarrassing Phases as we see Patton’s and Virgil’s relationship broken down and fleshed out more beyond “cinnamon role baby and dad friend”

Deceit’s “society is a lie” speech

“I don’t feel” “oh of course you don’t”

“The one and lonely! Whoops, Freudian slip...”

Roman’s final decisions to go to the wedding despite him obviously suffering for it

Seeing deceit’s logo for the first time

The entire scene in Intrusive Thoughts starting with “have you ever imagined killing your brother” and leading to remus’ reveal was so menacing holy shit

Remus just giving his name out right away

Logan defeating Remus with logic

Logan being called cool and having that blown away look

“It’s like looking at a funhouse mirror... it shows you everything you don't wanna be”

VIRGILS WHOLE DARK SIDE REVEAL ASDFGHJKL I REWATCHED THAT 5 MILLION TIMES

The whole conflict with Thomas and his friend in Healthy Distractions that also mirrors Thomas and Virgil’s relationship after Intrusive Thoughts

Logan calming them down with the grounding technique

[swearronchanel]

9.08

wow i cant even think too busy crying

Reggie and Fred 🥰

Ok but is setting all this shit on fire in the middle of the street not some barbaric ass move or is it just me LMAO?

Trixie looks great as always, I still want the white hoops

NURSE CRANE AND THE WRESTLING LMAOAOAO GET OUT LOVE IT

that’s a pretty veil

Shot gun wedding time

This guy is hella familiar ?? Was he on Downton or something?

Poor Elsie

Val giving me sailor vibes lol

Phyllis gives me the vibe of older lady’s who chug beer and yell from the nosebleed seats at baseball games aka me in 40 years

How dare you say Nonnatus’ is unimportant mr tight vest LMAO

I love that Phyllis is making him a sweater LMAO why is it so funny to me

DISCOTECH, Sister Hilda is deff the “cool” nun

You’re telling me that poplar will throw a fundraiser/charity sale thing  for anything BUT to save their building??

Sister J’s voice breaking 😢

SAVE NONNATUS 1k65

THEY NEED RENT MONEY

Oh noo they’re gonna kill Elsie off today huh

I forgot Phyllis is a vegetarian, good on her I could never lmao

“Don’t go crying, not in all that eye black” 😭

Throwing up blood oh shit not good

Omg cancer of the esophagus? Jesus

WAIT HE HAS TWO BABY MOMMAS??? BIG YIKESS

SISTER HILDA SHOWING MCNULTY HOW TO DANCE LMAOAOAOA why do I love this?

SISTER PJ’s PAMPHLET “HOW TO DANCE SOCIALLy” LMAOO

“No one wears plimsoles to the discotech” 😂 plimsoles are like white sneakers right?

you really have to be an addict to wanna play with needles and inject yourself all the time 🥴 Issa no from me

The midwife with the curly perm 🤣

Ok I agree sister Hilda deff has a soothing voice. Her accent is very velvet-y

Poor Val this is so heartbreaking 💔Let me call my grandmas after this

Wow there goes my stream 🤬🙄

ok I’m back

“Every land mark I ever knew seems to be falling down” 💔

Sister J and Lucille comforting Val ugh this is too many feels

I can’t wait till this cheating ass mf gets caught LMAO

OFC Phyllis would be the one to notice the missing drogas

Fred checking his watch is a mood like he does not have the time for this shit LMAO

Councilor Buckle you better step it up LMAO

TELL HER PHYLLIS!

Sister Hilda’s voice is actually calming me rn LMAO ((my laptop has been stressing me out all day))

LMAO THIS IS IT OMG

HE CAUGHT

SMACK HIM UP MOMMA!!!!

HE DESERVES MORE THAN A HANDBAG TO THE HEAD HE NEEDA CATCH THESE MF HANDS LMAOAOOA

Phyllis is like what the fuck is going on here today??🤦🏼‍♀️😂

Elsie coming home 😢my freaking heart

Now they’re both gonna be in the maternity home OFC

Ugh I cant deal this hits too close

LET TRIXIE SPEAK

ALSO LET ME SIGN THE PETITION

“Oh no” LMAO ofc they’re put next to each other

NOW EDDIE SHOWS UP OMG GET OUT LMAO

“You’re loving her. That’s the only medicine she wants” stop omg my heart 💔😭

CTM don’t you dare make me feel bad for this guy lmaoo

Sister MJ 🥺 angel on earth

“The good stuff” is that not suspicious to anyone who doesn’t already know?

“She was here the night you were born. I recollect her” Ok I’m hysterical bye

Sister Hilda is underrated and I’ll keep saying it lol

Eddie with the 2 bouquets 😂

“I grew up arching women brawling in the street...but I’m not gonna fight you for him.” Remember the brawl from the pilot ep

YES TRIXIE YOU SPEAK!!!

“They gritted their teeth and that’s just what I’m doing now” ugh this is too much

I won’t ever have a baby bc Phyllis Crane can’t be my midwife so why bother LMAOO jkkk

poor Petra tho :((

“A memory like a firework exploded in my mind”

GRATITUDE LETTERS 🥺

GOD D*MN IT SISTER MJ HAS DONE IT AGAIN

“I was never more proud of you when I saw you wearing that [nonnatus uniform]” 😭😭😭

I am in actual tears and I can not deal

And McNulty is down

GOD SISTER FRANCES WHERE IS THAT VOW OF SILENCE BC UR NOT HELPING LMAO

The community rallying for Nonnatus we STAN 

ARE THEY SAYING “PISS OFF OF OUR MIDWIFES” LMAOO I CANT HEAR AND HAVE NO SUBTITLES RIP

“I prefer to be referred to as NURSE Franklin in a professional setting” YES MY QUEEN !!! TELL HIM

NURSE BEATRIX FRANKLIN SAID DOWN WITH THE PATRIARCHY!!

THIS IS THE MOMENT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR !!!

“YOU HAVE NEVER ONCE CALLED US BY OUR NAME!! BUT DO NOT THINK WE WILL NOT BE MISSED IF YOU WIPE US OUT COMPLETELY” YOU FUCKING GOO BEATRIX OMGG WHAT A DAMN GOOD SPEECH!!!

BUDGET FUCKING RESTORED HELL YEA

for 12 months is that catch but you know SCREW YOUR CATCH, Nonnatus will go on somehow as long as NURSE Franklin has a say!!!

I mean at least for series 11 they have to make do somehow? We’ll see

NOOO OMG ELSIE CAN’T DIE WHILE VAL ISN’T THERE

I’m literally drowning in my own tears Oh my god

now they’re singing Amazing Grace might as well just rip my heart out with your bare hands 💔😭😭😭😭

Val with the ice cream cone ugh 😢it’s so sad

Reminds me of how I missed my abuelo passing by literally 7 mins. After a 5 hour drive, legit 7 mins late...

They tried to make McNulty go to rehab but he said no, no, noooooo

IM SORRY I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF LAUGH BC IM LITERALLY A SOBBING MESS

I wonder why they never bring up Patrick’s mental health anymore?  like he wan’t magically cured for life 

the “for now” sign on Nonnatus omg

LMDOAOAOA THE FIREWORK OMGGG

FRED THANKS FOR EVERY LAUGH

TRIXIE LOOKS GREAT AND HAD THE RIGHT IDEA LMAO

“I love you Nurse Anderson” MY HEART MAY BE REPAIRED, GIVE ME A WEDDING

Petra lost the baby aww poor gal

wow i’m emo but they all look happy during the bonfire 🥺

Poor Val is breaking but at least she’s got her gals

“Welcome the darkness, embrace it as a canopy from which the stars can hang, for there are always stars when we are where we ought to be...The darkness is beautiful for how else can we shine?”✨✨😭😭😭

She said more that I loved but couldn’t hear it all over the sound of my UGLY CryING

This reminds me of what Sister Hilda said a few eps back ugh I’m having too many feelings let me log off until Christmas 

[neonwizardheehee]

personal rant & brain dump bc I’m listening to bigbang and feel emo:

so i have a few topics that are circling my mind thus this will get messy (as usual hahaha)

- music as I said I’m listening to bb and the way I wanna cry??? mainly bc i miss my sis talking about them and being all happy and proud.. and just her in general v.v I feel like i overdid her with kpop and that doesn’t feel good. i was supposed to be the baby but i got too invested and now i am so damn invested i scare her :((( it makes me so sad :( but idk how to stop.(current mood & playing: let’s not fall in love) 

 - romance the new girls i met here are so different from the friends i have bc they are extroverts. i never had extroverts as friends before so i feel blessed now. we only met recently but they already were so open to me about things no one ever told me. like 3/4 girls i met talked to me about their first time and BOI i was so glad that we casually talked about it bc my other friends wouldn’t do that in a million years bc they are too shy. it really felt good. also no one judged me which was very reassuring. albeit me feeling a bit dumb bc i couldn’t really add to the convo but apparently I get better at listening ig? also that made me think that sex and dating shouldn’t be such an “important” topic as it is with my friends before. one friend sees it as an achievement to have a s/o but doesn’t talk about it or either brags (kskssk giiirl that’s so funny yet annoying XD yes u can be proud of your boi and brag bc i’m here for that bc i’m just so happy for you but ... not at random moments XDD). this made me realize how ppl refer to their s/o when talking to others. bc my friends who are very chill with their relationship always say their name while said friend (and ofc some others where having a relationship is important) always say “my bf/gf” or “ex” when that specific info is not relevant to the story they are telling XD

anyways it also made me realize how BAD i am with talking about my own feelings and wishes. since talking about my worries feels like complaining and i am good at that - but it feels random and uninteresting for anyone to hear i think to myself (it prob isnt). i feel so smol when asked about that topic and all i wanna answer is “???”. even if there is no pressure. idk why I’m like this and it makes me feel sorry for the people around me :( I’m so confused and idk what the question is. i can do better with writing but idk why but i wanna find out one day hahah. maybe i should just ask my new friends for advice since they are not judging me and i trust them and want to learn to be better with that. altho there’s this thought that I’m uncapable of love which frightens me a lot. I know i’m okay without it and i don’t mind but i feel so sorry for the people who like me? it also might be natural and I’m just stressing myself over nothing so idk what to ask and do -since you can’t force love right? i mean i don’t really believe in love at first sight i guess but rather spending time with that person and liking them a lot. so id why I’m pressuring myself so much with this :( maybe i am just too scared? or maybe i am anticipating too much? it all could be possible bc for everyone love is different and every relationship is different. so it’s mostly me feeling sorry for not giving back as much as i should and could :( - that’s also the reason why I’m so pro polyamorus relationships bc I know I’m not enough and idk how and if i want to fix that bc idk the rules bc there are none hahhaha - but also that makes me feel good bc i know i’m not responsible for someone’s happiness. i am too egoistical and these thoughts work as a self-protecting mechanism I KNOW that’s why i do this. so i’m not stressing myself even more. i just feel so unfairly precious when someone genuinely praises me when we’re just two ppl and no one else :( might be bc i don’t understand that feeling yet. i def want to know that but also i’m scared that it’d take me down a road where i loose myself (for some foolish reason idk why). so in the end ig I keep trying and get used to that (i already made loads of progress this year so ig i shouldn’t feel like I’m being too slow)

- studying okay so next topic is also just me feeling like i do too few. this week went quite okay and i managed to study on out study server everyday (ofc i had my bad days but i still at least smth). well yesterday i hastily did some vocab and then teh whole day i spend with friends & kpop... like LITERALLY until the night. a friend of mine was proud of me for taking a break (me too yesterday) but today i don’t feel good about that :( i missed so much. i’m scared it’ll kick me out of my study routine (since it was so hard to get my ass down to study itself!). i really want to be the person who’s studying every day and feel good about that. so since i have another thing planned today i don’t think i’ll get much done today as well :(((( i just wanna be a wise guy who knows a lot T.T i already made progress i know but... i want more.. i really wanna do well here and not be stuck behind like i was for the past 6 years :( i wanna have ambition again and not just pass... i kind of hope i can manage to study at nights on days like this but also i need my sleep so i stil have to find a solution for that. bc even tho i regret not studying as much i don’t regret hanging out with people. that’s smth i missed out in my first semester and so important in times like this were I’m stuck on my own. 

- religion so i have one christian friend here and yesterday we talked about church services and stuff like that and it was cool learning how it’s with her bc she goes to a very modern church (instead of me going to a traditional one 4 times a year). Suddenly i got sad tho and felt like crying :( even tho she was just stating her opinion i felt attacked and wanted to cry. after some thinking i think it’s just the way we are used to talking about religion bc we both grew up in an area where religion is looked down onto. for me .. i turned to myself and made up my own thoughts and beliefs bc i am too scared to talk and ask someone about it bc of all the accusations around me. religion was not smth to be discussed and only smth for yourself and maybe your family for me. the girl had to fight her way through all the “churches are old and fucked up and scary” things and since she goes to a modern one has good reasoning against them - that’s perfectly understandable and I’m so proud of her for speaking up like that. but like... it hit me on thw wrong side bc i am used to these old traditions and kind of like them even :( so it felt like she was insulting me. even tho she wasn’t.  i just dont know how to talk about religion and how to practice reading the bible or praying and hearing her talk about how she does all these things.. makes me feel invalid :( it’s like the only thing that i have is that i was raised a christian. but y’know for me it was okay since i learned in school not to practice or show my religion.. so idk how to do it... and i feel baby and sad if i have to ask her for some reason. i tried to look up this on the internet but ofc everyone is even more crazily involved there and it scares me SO much. so i unfollowed everyone hahah. i also have this one podcast but i still feel bad bc i’m not able to really read the bible on my own ig :( these days I’m just blaming it on the translation that i have but deep down i know it’s me who’s not able to ask questions at the text. maybe i should try to talk to someone... my sis who’s also in the same situation as me... or said girl to take me along and feel like a complete newbie and a little bit like an outcast bc religion for me is so different than to her.

- christmas i really enjoy the christmas spirit but i also already wanna cry if i think about gifts. i hate that i have so many people i love and will prob get smth from them so i have to make smth in return. i am overwhelmed and scared already. i didn’t even make a list yet T.T feels like i should block time to figure out gifts in my schedule bc I’m just putting it off more and more :( and also i already feel sorry for everyone bc they will get shitty gifts bc I’m so bad at this :(

[garyofrivia]

a few Modern!Gang college AU headcanons!!!!!

not that anyone asked!!! and this has probably been done already!! but i’m bored at work so :/ i’m so sorry 

Arthur:

graphic design major, creative writing minor

took a photography class to impress that cute albert boy from down the hall and worked extra hard all semester just to end up accidentally telling his advisor that he wanted to double minor in photography as well

Tired™

he’s def one of those students that can fall asleep a n y w h e r e on campus

has a sleeve tattoo and is working on a second ;;;)))

he doesn’t party often, but when he does, the entire fire department and 7 cop cars show up by the end of the night to break it up

there was a rumor his sophomore year that he beat up 5 frat dudes at once during rush week for harassing girls and no one has heard of any issues from that frat since

is banned from the local chili’s for dining and dashing

shoplifts chef boyardee, microwavable ramen, and snickers bars from the student center convenience store to Survive

Charles:

environmental studies major

is in 50000000 activist clubs

regularly punches racist white boys w/ maga merch in the dorm common rooms and when the RA saw one time he didn’t do jack shit bc…. he right

he’s never procrastinated an assignment in his life

studies until 5 am every night but? still wakes up at the crack of dawn to go to the gym????

works part time as a barista at a hole in the wall coffee shop/bookstore and is 100% a coffee snob

doesn’t smoke but knows every weed dealer on campus, mostly bc they’re all enviro studies majors

his roommate thinks he’s a myth bc he’s never there or is just super quiet, but rly he just Minds His Damn Business

can be seen reading for leisure on the quad when it’s sunny and warm

Dutch:

political science major, philosophy minor

arthur and hosea are his friends from high school and they’re the only ones that can tolerate his mood when he goes on Insane procrastination benders where he’s trying to write 4 essays in a single night on a fuck ton of adderall and energy drinks

frequently goes on rants while studying in the student center about capitalism and it somehow always results in him on top of a table, yelling about ronald reagan

it gets Annoying when he talks about ancient greece, which is… constantly..

has 4 girlfriends and 3 boyfriends but still has time to participate in debate team every saturday

accidentally incited a student labor strike on campus one time and the cafeteria wasn’t functional for a week

started 6 clubs, but never goes to meetings and can’t remember what literally any of them are for

doesn’t work at all but somehow? always has money??? like he pays for his friends’ dinners all the time?? how??????

Hosea:

graduate economics student

he’s that cool TA in a super hard class that sends the prof’s tests from previous semesters to all the students so they can study for the final

Constantly in the library reading/studying/tutoring

still lives on campus for some reason and pirates textbook pdfs out of his dorm room

has a 4.2 gpa, but acts like he’s never been to a single class in his life

gets high all the time and talks about moving to europe on a whim and is *THIS* close to just fuckign doin it

makes his own kombucha

when he can’t sleep bc of test anxiety he rambles to arthur and dutch until the wee hours of the morn about existentialism and how great the beatles were

is responsible for multiple people discovering they have a daddy kink despite not having one himself

John:

undecided major (communications maybe, but he hasn’t found his “passion” yet)

failed freshman english twice for just not showing up to class

drives one of those old subarus from the 90’s and does donuts in the student lot when it snows

has a CD collection from his Emo™ days in the glove box and pops one in every now and then when he’s alone and feelin’ nostalgic/sad

skateboards to class and usually almost runs over a bunch of people since he always has headphones on

death note is his favorite anime

that One Room on your hall that is ALWAYS playing loud ass music until 3am

is surprisingly really good at math and tries to help tutor his friends but gets frustrated when they don’t understand “basic” calculus on the first try

his favorite hobby is harassing the ducks on campus and has made enemies of multiple geese

Sadie:

criminology major

plays intramural sports, probably volleyball and softball

everyone’s Jock Girlfriend they wished they had but are too afraid to talk to bc she might snap someone’s neck if they look at her wrong

wears leather jackets and aviators for every occasion

one time gave a monologue about sexism in her political theory class after not saying anything for the entire semester and her professor was moved to tears

has a lot of friends but only a few are ride or die babey!!!!!!!! (it’s arthur, charles, and abigail and they bully john together)

knows a lot about cars and ppl pay her to fix theirs since college kids usually can’t afford to go to a garage

speaks german because she got bored one summer and taught herself a fucking language i guess

Sean:

french major (????why is he like that???)

he says he’s studying a different language because the thinks it’ll make him hotter, but really it’s because he fantasises about moving away one day to start a new life

always says how college isn’t really for him and is .2 seconds away from dropping out

hangs out with john a little too much for his own good and once broke his wrist while trying his skateboard

“hey, have you heard of [insert incredibly obscure punk rock band name here]?”

gets blackout drunk every weekend and keeps a journal for the sole purpose of documenting the various places he’s woken up

wears stupid beanies and owns one (1) hoodie that he wears year round

quotes memes out loud to be able to communicate his emotions effectively

a ~Film Hoe~

also………. he vapes

Javier:

international studies major, finance minor

studied abroad in spain and almost didn’t come back bc he loved it so much

plans to get mega rich so he can travel Everywhere

um,,, he loves classic lit and owns an entire library full of it

took a gap year after high school to tour with his band and kinda became a lil famous so that’s cool

runs a thirst trap instagram acct and models part time ;)

every single person that encounters him has been attracted to him in one way or another and they truly don’t even question it

he’s a major mama’s boy and she visits him all the time

he rooms with sean who drives him insane but they have similar music tastes and were able to bond over that

they get rowdy on saturdays but has his (few) friends over on sundays for a “family dinner”

Bill:

computer science major

used to play COD competitively and wants to get into videya game development

seems like kind of an idiot when he asks questions in class but his grades show that he’s smarter than he looks

did ROTC for the tuition money but dropped as soon as he found out that you have to enlist after you graduate lmao

southern angery boi that drives a pickup truck and hosts tailgates every single football game

has a bunch of dudebro friends that he hangs out with due to societal pressure, but all he wants to do is bake some cookies

his roommate was scared of him at first but when he bought him a lil gift for christmas before break, he realized that he was a big ole softie

is late to class bc he spends 65943598 years on his hair in the morning even though it literally never looks different

Lenny:

english major, applying to the education masters degree program

he wants to be a high school english teacher fuck me up!!!!!!

was super homesick when he first moved away :( 

writes his friends papers for them sometimes even though he’s killing himself with his own schoolwork

netflix binges and video game benders are regular weekend activities and he’s been known to not move from his chair for 15 hours at a time

runs an avengers stan blog and cried at comic con when he met robert downey jr

begged the manager at the local comic book store for a job and the guy was just like “yeah, kid literally just apply online idc”

has lots of friends that rope him into doing hooligan shit instead of study

is a giant ball of anxiety for the majority of the semester and is just,, Trying His Best

Micah:

he was the maga kid that charles knocked out the first week of classes

[robertsbarbie-archive]

I don’t know about you but this is why I love the debut

Oof, hi, warning: this might get a little sad and I also talk about some rough topics but I felt the need to tell my story on this and why I love it so much

So, obviously I love the debut, and there’s so many different contributing factors as to why but I guess I’ll start at the beginning

Taylor’s album was the first female album I owned, it was mine, not my sisters’, not my mother’s, mine and that meant a lot to me. Soon after getting it I got a karaoke machine for Christmas and can you guess the CD I got to go with it? Yep. The debut. I listened to the CD and the karaoke version all of the time. I went so hard to Should’ve Said No lol, I would put on concerts for my sisters and it’s what made me want to persue singing and musical theatre, which eventually turned into just theatre and I couldn’t be happier because of it, that album meant everything to me.

Fast forward a couple of years I’m hanging out with my best friend when her mom asks if she can speak to both of us (we were like 10 and our families were friends so I didn’t think anything of it) my friend gets a sad look on her face and I’m just confused, her mom told me that they were moving. They said we’d stay in touch but I was devastated, we go back up to my friend’s room and she digs something out of her closet. It was a debut Taylor shirt, and she gave it to me to remember her by ( I’m pretty sure it was given away cause my mom thought it was my sister’s and she didn’t want it anymore )

That album was there for my entire childhood, I remember taking showers and singing to Invisible, cleaning to Picture to Burn, etc. it has always been there. And I had a very lonely childhood (am barely having a non lonely teenage ages) but the debut without fail was there for me, there was a song for every mood

Oof now we are getting into the fun stuff (and by that I mean not so fun so some people may want to stop reading for a while), um, after all of these years it’s still not easy to talk about, even after I have accepted it and am trying to figure out how to make it work in my life. I don’t know if any of you recall me talking about how I Knew You Were Trouble saved my life, well this sort of relates to that. When I was 12 I had lost everything, at least it felt like that, I had no friends, I didn’t care about anything really, things had started to get bad with my family (or maybe I just realized it), I just went through the motions, and um, basically I thought about killing myself everyday (lol I’m actually crying while typing this yikes). It was Taylor (with RED and I Knew You Were Trouble) that saved my life and made me start to have interest in things again. I realized Taylor was my safe place. I went back and watched all of her music videos and I went back to her roots, the debut. I had forgotten about it honestly (what? I know. It was a bad time). I went back and listened to the debut. I just started sobbing. I remembered my childhood, I cried to Tied Together With A Smile because I reacted to it and I was tied together with a smile but I was coming undone, Stay Beautiful reminded me that no matter what I can be loved, Invisible, oh god invisible, I know it’s a crush song, but I truly felt alone and invisible which was the worst feeling (I still feel that way sometimes), everything about that album now spoke new volumes to me and it was deafening. With time I began to heal a little bit, all because the debut was there to support me. I’m gonna try to keep the triggering stuff in one paragraph so this is out of order a little. Um, oh god, this is really hard to talk about because I’m so ashamed, but, um, I need to talk about it I guess, I self harm, I haven’t since June 10th because I had a really bad day and I just wanted to feel anything but my emotions, sometimes the depression just got too much and I couldn’t, I'm mentioning it because a lot of times when I think about it I’ll put on the debut and calm down to the point where I can think rationally (Disclaimer: This is not me saying that Taylor is the only way I won’t, I still sometimes do even when listening to her but I’m just saying that the debut helps me a lot) The album is so important to my mental health and my well being and i barely notice it half the time. The debut plays and I am instantly calmed

I don’t where I’m at but I think all of the triggering stuff is out of the way. Um, so next, um, my first breakup was the year 1989, and I had associated so many of the songs from that album with him that I didn’t know if I could listen to Taylor (fun fact it’s why 1989 is my least favorite album but I still love her), nothing by her felt right and would make me cry, but not the debut, it was just like listening to my music and comforted me greatly, especially Tim McGraw (cause I replaced some words with our own versions {even I hope you think Taylor Swift lol } and it felt personal. I took a break from Taylor to explore other music a.k.a my emo phase, but the debut stayed. Always.

Okay I think we’re up to this year, this year has more or less sucked. I lost friends and just felt like overall crap but the debut taught me some lessons about that. Let’s start with the before named ex, I texted him on his birthday, I had changed my number and told him but he, um, didn’t bother to say it, so it sucked having him not knowing who I am. I listened to Picture to Burn on repeat, realizing that I need to let go of my past and a person who really doesn’t care about me. I had like eight falling outs with friends and I’m Only Me When I’m With You made me realize that I wasn’t being myself around them so they really weren’t my friends and they didn’t deserve my real self. And then the first crush I had since my ex.... I listened to Invisible everyday, I put Mary’s Song on the playlist I made for him. I really liked him.... then the time came for Teardrops on my Guitar and I was just devastated.

And then to come on here and see the debut listed as most people’s least favorite album broke my heart, cause it meant so much to me. It has always been there for me, and always will be there for me. I love it so much and nothing will ever change my mind about it

Also the songwriting is A plus and overall a masterpiece that you should appreciate

And yeah, that’s my story for anyone that cares.

[ieatsurveys]

52.

Do you like McDonald's sprite? Yes, I can't eat my meal without McDonald's Sprite. It's a weird quirk of mine.

What age did you start becoming more independent?  I'm still not as independent as I had hoped to be. My car got totaled, so I rely on my parents for rides.

How do you like your oatmeal?  I don't eat oatmeal.

Do you ever just dance around the house?  On occasion.

List 5 things you need to do soon. 1. Get ready for interviews. 2. Do dishes. 3. Clean bathroom. 4. Apply to more jobs. 5. Take a shower.

What do you do when you start to feel sad?  Lay in bed for the entirety of the day if I don't have anything to do.

Have you ever been to a metal concert?  Nope.

Do you like metal? Some.

What's your favorite Christmas movie?  A Muppet's Christmas Carol.

What about Halloween movie?  Don't have one.

Do you like the taste of cilantro?  I sure don't.

Have you ever busted a window accidentally?  Nope.

Do you remember those Bratz dolls? What were your favorite dolls?  I remember them, I never owned one.

What was the last thing to bum you out?  Continued existence--> Yep.

 Name a song that reminds you of summertime. Anything by hellogoodbye.

Do you enjoy apples?  Crunchy ones, yes.

Have you ever made apple butter? Do you like it?  I have never made any type of butter in my lifetime.

Do you own any pocket knives?  I don't.

On a scale of 1-10...How happy are you and why?  Today is sunny out, so my mood reflects it. Probably an 8.

Do you think diamonds are overrated? I don't really have an opinion on them.

How many languages can you greet somebody in?  A few.

Do you have a favorite planet?  No.

Do you know how to play the flute?  No.

What do you enjoy putting in your smoothies?  I don't drink smoothies.

What's a medication that has really helped you? Abilify.

Do you forgive easily?  No.

Have you ever broken up with somebody?  Yes.

What was the biggest phase you went through when you were younger?  Emo/punk.

Is there something you've been hiding from someone? Uh, probably.

Do you believe in demons?  Yes.

Have you ever seen a spider consume another spider?  No. I didn't even know that happens.

What's your favorite fruit?  Grapes.

Do you ever go clubbing?  No. I went a couple of times. The first time I liked it, but the second time, I hated it.

Have you ever been to a church camp?  Yes.

Have you ever accidentally swallowed something you shouldn't have?  Probably.

Last book you remember enjoying?  Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers.

When was the last time you got scared?  I don't remember.

Have you ever seen a boy band live?  Yes.

When was the last time you drank water?  About an hour ago.

Have you ever been dehydrated?  Sure have.

Have you ever shot a gun?  A paintball gun.

Do you use Facebook? Too much.

Would you say you're well educated on religious topics? Not so much.

What's the longest you have walked at once?  I don't remember.

Do you ever take those Buzzfeed quizzes?  Not at all. I used to, though.

How long was your last phone call?  Less than a minute.

Are there a box of tissues on your bedside table?  Nope.

Have you cut your hair recently?  No, but I am in serious need of a haircut. But, #depression.

Do you like skittles?  I do. The regular kind.

What is your favorite kind of cheeto? (spicy, regular, puffs.. etc.) Regular.

Do you have a skin care routine?  I could be better.

Do you know how to write in cursive?  Yep.

What's the closest thing to you that is pink?  My notebook.

Have you ever watched a black and white film?  Yes.

Did you use to read Dr. Seuss books as a kid?  My favorite kids author of all time.

What's the longest you've had to wait in line for something?  I don't even remember, maybe an hour or two.

What's the sickest you've ever been?  When I had food poisoning.

If you had to be named after an inanimate object, what would you choose?  I don't know. I've never given much thought to that.

What is one food you would not like to give up?  Tacos or pizza. It's a toss up.

Would you ever donate a kidney to a stranger if applicable?  Yes.

How many scars do you have?  I used to be a cutter and was shocked that the scars faded away. I haven't cut in 3 years.

Do you have any unusual things wrong with your body? (I have different length arms and hands for example)  Nope, just fat ;) haha. What did you last have to eat?  Egg sandwich.

When was the last time you visited a carnival? Not since high school. I miss them.

Do you own a pair of those socks with toes?  Absolutely not.

What age did you stop trick or treating? I never went.

What's the best flavor of popsicle?  That's a tough one.

Are you caught up on laundry?  I just did a load. Just need to fold and put it away.

Does your car tend to get super messy like mine?  I no longer have a car :( Gah, I miss it so much.

What search engine do you use?  Google.

Have you ever had a flat tire?  Nope.

Do you know what ginseng looks like?  No.

When is the next time you have to go grocery shopping? Next week.

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L E S B I A N for the musical asks :)

That you sent me LESBIAN anon, I’m dying, YES!!!

L (a playlist on your ipod): Lmaoooo okay, I have many playlists. Some are on themes according to mood or season, some are grouped by artist or vibe, etc. My favorites are my ‘now’ playlists. I dump everything I am ‘presently’ listening to a bunch into one playlist called ‘now’. After a few months, I add a date to that playlist (it’ll be like ‘Now 2018 Spring’) and then I make a new, fresh ‘now’ playlist and start it all over again! It stretches back a couple years at this point, since I always keep the old ones. It’s neat to see what I was listening to during different periods of time. For example, during Fall of 2016 I was listening to Kim Kwang-seok, Hank Williams lmfao, Winner, and Mylène Farmer!

E (favorite song from the year I was born): Okay, so I was born in 1991…hmm. ‘Our Frank’ by Morrissey?

S (artist you have the most merch from): Love this question. It’s probably Malice Mizer (I have a bunch of CDs, DVDs, photobooks, etc). Actually though, recently I’ve been getting a bunch of Gerard Way shit that’ll probably end up surpassing that. I’ve got the Hesitant Alien album, the picture disc, the Pinkish EP, THE LOLA STUFFED ANIMAL, the Hesitant Alien zine, some random magazines that Gerard is in, the Lola socks are on their way, oh and I have a bunch of his comics shit like Doom Patrol, Killjoys, Umbrella Academy, and the Secret Loves of Geeks he contributed to. I really want the Boyzine thing he did though, that’s my next goal. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to track a copy down however, unfortunately. Seems hard to find. I’ll keep posting about it and hoping though, hahahahah!

B (Top 5 albums): GODDDD THIS IS GONNA BE SO HARD!!!!!!!! Okay, keep in mind this isn’t in any particular order I couldn’t possibly rank these.

1- Soft Ballet: Incubate. It’s early 1990s, new wave, synth pop REALNESS! Also my fave song of all time, ‘Engaging Universe’, is on here! Woo, it was hard to pick my Top 5 albums though, I nearly put Ippu-Do’s Radio Fantasy or YMO’S Naughty Boys instead! But yeah, ultimately, I put Incubate instead because hmm…there’s something, I’m not sure, otherworldly and philosophical about it. I listen to this album to think. Not sure why. There’s something special about ‘Deep-Sets.’)

2- Malice Mizer: all their albums BINCH!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHA If I had to pick though yeah, Merveilles…but honestly Bara is beyond good, too…and memoire…I genuinely like all of them, I do. I guess Merveilles best represents their spirit though, as a band? As an art project? Idk, and Merveilles I listened to a lot as a teenager when times were rough and so I’m really attached to the fantasy world they created with that album. It’s like I could leave wherever I was and go there, you know?

3- Susumu Hirasawa: Sim City. This album is so beautiful and meaningful to me. It’s about Susumu’s take on Thailand as a city of the future, as a place where people take their bodies and destinies into their own hands. He was very interested in the transgender women he met there, and befriended several. One, Lady N, is featured on the cover of the album and does some spoken word stuff on the album. I believe she came on his tour for the album too. Hahaha, most of my fave shit has to do with gender/trans/sexuality shit hahaha. It was a hard toss up between that and one of his other albums, Philosopher’s Propeller, which was the basis for the Millenium Actress film soundtrack!

4- Gerard Way: Hesitant Alien– WOOOOO!!! I had to limit myself to 1 Gerard item, otherwise, MCR would fill this shit up too fast! But yeah Hesitant Alien is what got me truly into him because, believe it or not, I’m late to the Gerard train! Only got into him like, 3 years ago, and only truly became a fan for maybe 2 years now. I was too busy with Malice Mizer and visual kei as a teen to notice MCR, or really a lot of things that were big for kids my age then! Like I really have...no affinity for most the rest of emo from that time period, aside from The Used (and obvi MCR). But anyway yeah this album makes me laugh and cry! The song Brother is like a feel I feel…even though I don’t have a nice brother like Gerard does. Also just musically I’m impressed by Gerard’s constant evolution soundwise overtime. He reminds me Bowie that way, always evolving. I have many artists that I enjoy that are more static– there’s defs something to be enjoyed in that consistency, but yeah, I totally admire when somebody can gracefully evolve as an artist over time. It’s not easy.

5- Amadeus - Mikan No Gosenfu To Kurayami No Meikyuu. They’re on some early 2000s, symphonic, operatic, indie visual kei realness! This album shaped a lot of my musical and aesthetic sensibilities for years to come. Although it’s cheap, it was such an ambitious record, such an ambitious project. You can feel a scope that isn’t usually present in an indie band. Defs a band that I wish had made it, but was pretty much doomed to never make it. 

Honorable mention: David Bowie’s Hunky Dory changed my life!!!! 

(I own them all! They’re all important to me!)

I (an artist you don’t like): Normal, uncreative stuff… I’m not even getting specific because then I’d have to like, think about who I dislike and then I wouldn’t be able to get their songs out of my head, hahahaha! Besides, eh, having some musical tastes that are niche or ‘unique’ (though there is defs mainstream stuff I like as well) I’m sensitive to not stepping on other people’s toes about music. I feel like the stuff I like gets shat on as weird/“shallow”/overly focused on visuals (whatever that even means like??? as if you can’t, idk, potentially attend to visual and musical and lyrical artistry at once HAHAHAHA) so I tend to not mention if I’m not into something, unless I’m speaking to somebody who I know for sure isn’t into that shit. But yeah, I can narrow it down to a genre…probably ‘normal rock’. Rock music where it’s like the same chord progressions you hear in a million different bands? That gets to me a bit, er, a lot. Sounds like a drone. Makes me bored and sad LMFAO!!!!

A (guilty pleasure): One Direction! Specifically, their album Four. Idk if that’s ‘guilty’ though because I’m pretty open about it. I certainly don’t feel bad about it. I think I own Four…or did I just download it? I can’t remember.

N (a song you haven’t listened to in a long time but you love): Aw ;.; Man this makes me nostalgic. Probably ‘Green’ from Klaha’s solo album, Nostal Lab. That whole album and the personal symbolism of idk, his many sides through the prism, the past cutting through the future and back again (nostal is short for ‘nostalgic’), it just makes me feel things so I don’t tend to listen to it. Aw, I loved him so much. I used to spend every Christmas/New Years when I was a kid watching his blog, hoping he’d post again. His site is gone now. I think the guy’s just done with music and public life, you know? Hoping wherever he is though, that he’s okay.

Thanks for a good ask, anon :)