#i dunno depends on if I lose motivation

[thebitchbehindtheslaughter]

I forgot I’m allowed to talk about my own stuff here

Anyway, expect sacrilege

[priincebutt]

Happy Sunday everyone!! I'm trying to get back onto the train of doing these things every week to motivate me to write, so here I am, and today I'm going to give you TWO snips because I'm feeling generous! I would also like to add that I had a fic go up yesterday, take me back to the light, which is a Buck/Alex crossover fic that I am very proud of and would love for you to read if you're into that. One of my snips is going to be more of that pairing. Thank you to @onthewaytosomewhere , @blueeyedgrlwrites , @sophie1973 , and @run-for-chamo-miles for the tags today!

First snip is going to be from my demon!Alex/demon hunter!Henry au. I'm really excited about this one and hoping to get more of it written so I can start posting it for spooky season!

“Where’s your sense of humor, Henry?” “I’m sorry, Alex, but I’m failing to find the humor in this situation. You could have seriously injured someone, and—” Alex’s smile drops as a sigh falls from his lips. If he doesn’t laugh it off, he thinks he might actually cry from just how overwhelming everything is that’s happening to him right now. In the span of months he’s been  1. Attacked by a demon 2. Discovered there is something deeply wrong with him, and 3. Started losing chunks of consciousness because of the above. So really, his ability to still find humor in these situations is something close to a miracle.

Second snip is from another firstfire (Buck/Alex) au I'm working on! I dunno if this one will see the light of day ever, so I figured it'd be fun to put it here. Have Alex being relieved his boyfriend was not the firefighter trapped underground.

“Buck.” He doesn’t wait; he doesn’t even really think. He launches himself off of the last stair and into Buck’s arms, because professionalism be damned. Alex knows he’s exhausted, can feel it in the tense set of Buck’s shoulders, how he wavers slightly when Alex’s weight hits him, but still sweeps him up and holds him tightly, his strong arms wrapping around Alex’s shoulders, holding him tightly like a weighted blanket. Buck’s soaking wet from head to toe, he’s tracking in mud and he smells, but he’s here and he’s not in the hospital and that’s everything. Buck’s lips find Alex’s, and Alex is giddy with the joy that curls his toes, that he can still hold Evan Buckley like this, kiss him without much abandon and savor the feeling of him here, alive. Alex kisses him like life might depend on it, like he's the first breath of fresh air on a spring day, because god, this is what he’d needed. There’s a relief that’s bright and heady and running through his veins, and Alex breaks the kiss, leans his forehead against Buck’s shoulder as he buries his face in the juncture between Alex’s neck and shoulder. “It wasn't you,” Alex's words are colored with his relief.  “It wasn't me,” Buck confirms, his words breathed out against the sensitive skin of Alex's neck. Alex pulls back and frames Buck’s face with his hands, letting the pads of his fingers skim across warm skin, feeling the rush of life between his hands. He’s so thankful Buck isn’t in the hospital that a giddy smile wraps across his lips.

Okayyyyy so that's all for today! Y'all got a lot of sentences from me today. I'm going to tag @jmagnabo92 , @thinkof-england , @suseagull04 , @stellarmeadow , @thighzp

@taste-thewaste , @bitbybitwrites , @caterpills , @judasofsuburbia , @seths-rogens

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@tinyarmedtrex , @piratefalls and an open tag to anyone who may want it! Tag me, I wanna read your writing!!!

[poundstonaira]

Solid Silva ABC NSFW headcannons

A/N - this is from 2021 and I barely published it anywhere lol. I dunno I used to be obsessed with this guy now he's just... meh 🫤 and disclaimer : this is cringe

Word Count: 1000 on the dot

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Knowing the secret freak Solid probably is, he’d probably keep his junior inside of you while cuddling after y’all have done the deed. He doesn’t care.

If he feels disgusting or uncomfortable, he’ll probably order some maids and servants to prepare a bath for you and him. In the bath, he would hug you and whisper to you some comforting words. 

“You did me so well… you deserve a treat for next time.” 

“Mhm…” 

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

On you: Your hands. The silver-haired could let out a random grunt just thinking about holding your hands while you are screaming his name underneath him, being plunged by his shaft.

On him: His eyes. You can’t help but just stare into his big, baby blue eyes most of the time.  They are just so addicting to look at regardless of what he’s doing. 

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Solid doesn’t like using condoms. With that being said, he feels more pleasure and enjoyment when he can actually feel your insides when he isn’t being covered by anything.

 So he’ll nut in you, on you, or in your mouth. As long as his cum is near you, he doesn’t care. 

Basically, if you don’t wanna get pregnant please get some birth control. <3

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He likes to see if he can try and suck himself off. He seems big enough to do it. 

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s experienced (in his own way). He has been with other women before you. 

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Anywhere he can your face and hold your hands. (Missionary, cowgirl, etc) 

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He’s pretty serious about this. This is probably one of the only times he can express his love for you to you without anyone around. He has you all to himself.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Pretty well groomed down there. 

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

It’s an equal balance between lust and love. For Solid, it’s not just about him feeling the absolute ecstasy of feeling you, it’s about him showing his love for you and just breathing you in. 

“Y/N… I love you so much.”

“Ah…  I love you too…” 

“Heh…” 

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

5 times a week. He’s one horny bastard. 

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Breeding kink, edge play, praise kink, degrading kink. Shall I elaborate more? 

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

His bedroom. Like I said before, he wants the moment to just be you and him and no one else to interrupt.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Hmm…

Liking ice cream in a suggestive way could have him bricked up. Praising him if he does something well. Him seeing you eat makes him drool (he’s thinking about you sucking him off).

Solid would lose his mind a bit if you were to let out a small groan while making out with him in his bedroom. From there, he’d carry you and just take you from there. 

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Though he is a spoiled brat, he wouldn't do anything that you wouldn’t be comfortable with. He wants to be sure that the enjoyment is equal and isn’t one-sided. His needs wouldn’t overtake yours.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He’s more on the giving side, he just loves seeing your reactions at every move he does. 

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Depends on his mood.

If he’s mad: R.I.P that pussy aye. He doesn’t care for your pleasure at that point. 

Sad: He’d go slow and rough, with A LOT of moaning from him. 

Regular: Fast and sensual

Drunk: Bye bye

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He doesn’t mind that at all. 4 a week. 

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He is a heavy risk taker. 

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

This little horny bastard could go for 4 hours max, and maybe around 4 arounds.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He does use toys on you. Only you though, he just wants to see how you would look being pleasured by them. A satisfying sight to see for him. 

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Look at how he treated Noelle. He’s not nice. 

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He’s loud. He moans so much and its uncontrollable. The amount of moaning and whimpering he does when you’re riding him is crazy. He whimpers like a little bitch. 

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He wouldn’t say this to you for the sake of his ego but he wants you to peg him.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

From his outside appearance, his body lacks muscle and fat. He looks relatively bony and all the meat and muscle has to go somewhere…

I would say 7.8 inches?  

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

High as a kite. I don’t think Solid could spend a whole week without sex. 

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Men usually fall asleep first because they are letting out more energy after they ejaculate. So Solid would probably fall asleep on your chest as you would just stare at him with dreamy eyes.  You would also run your hand through his hair while he’s asleep.  

[petalsplayplace]

Hello again pants in peril Petal,

Would you answer these in order? I'm curious if the first answer is swayed by the others?

🌟- You did a great job today! How would you most like to be rewarded?

☀️- You light up every room you're in! What do you think is your best feature?

🌻- It's a beautiful spring day and you've got the whole thing to yourself! What are you doing to make your little heart happy?

🤞- You're wishing and hoping for something! What is it?

😇- You may look innocent on the outside, but something tells me you've got a naughty streak. What kinds of funishment do you like?

😳- It's time for you to be regressed! How do you want it to happen? Fast? Forced? Magically? Slowly? Covertly? Hypnotically?

💕- Love is in the air! Tell us what you love about your CG/partner(s), or what you most desire in a CG/partner.

🌟- You did a great job today! How would you most like to be rewarded?

🌟- Ummm.. I really really really like gold stars an candies for rewards when am good... they're super good motivation!!! So umm prolly that???

☀️- Already said my boobies bu I guess should say something else... umm... oh!!! I have a super duper cute face!!! People tell me I'm cute lots so that!!!

🌻- So like do I have the whole day to myself like totally??? Like nobody around at all except those I want??? Cause if that's the case then am getting dressed in diapies and a onesie with shortalls or overalls and going outside!!! Gonna blow bubbles and run around and play and get all dirty so that I hafta take a bath once i get cold and wanna go back inside. Then after bath time would colour an play tea party with my stuffies (with real tea cause am prolly supervised) an then it'd prolly be late so would like snuggle up with a blankie in jus my onesie an diapie an watch cartoons or princess movies until bedtime :3

🤞- Ummm prolly to be kidnapped and kept as a baby for someone forever an ever an ever 🫣🫣🫣 cause like that's Mt biggest dream ever... jus being kept and losing all my adult privileges an being totally helpless at the hands of someone wanting to regress me totally...

😇- Ummm I said spankings already but umm... lemme think... umm... oh oh oh!!! Being bound and gagged!!! Is the bestest kind of time out!!! An because I get so hyper an talk lots an lots an lots an lots an lots an lots then it's prolly a good idea for you hehehehe 🤭🤭🤭🤭

😳- Oh gosh!!! Ummm... lemme see... I think I'd want it like slow-ish... not all at once... like little baby steps of slowly over time taking away my adult privileges and abilities until I become more and more dependent until its impossible for me to ever go back... and like I want it from like hypno or conditioning or gaslighting or stuff... I like it to be realistic in my daydreams cause then it might one day happen... 🫣🫣🫣

💕- so like def someone who takes like control an takes charge an like decides for me ya know??? Like someone who's not afraid to trick me into being a good little girl for them!!! An always condescending an over protective... an umm yeah... oh also also has to like umm be super ok with me being like dumb... cause am super duper dumb...

☀️- oh gosh um.... I think I'd really really like to be rewarded with umm... ummm... I dunno... wha do you guys think is a good reward for me???

[scoops404]

wanting advice how to write dnf because you're one of the first dnf writer I track down after reading and I want to write them but I'm struggling so much

First of all, thank you so much, that's such a compliment.

This is kind of a broad question, so I suppose it depends on what you're struggling with--plot, characterization, their voices, etc

What helps me the most is to re-listen to a DNF stream and just hear the absolutely insane things they say to each other. If I were you, I'd take like a thirty second snippet and transcribe it out so that you see the words on your document, and get a feel for their voices that way.

The other thing would be to kind of, I dunno, write out what types of things you've noticed about them (or what things you've seen people you trust/respect notice about them) and list those characteristics off. Like, George has a LOT of emotions, but he doesn't really talk about them much, he's an actions guy. Dream LOVES talking about his emotions. George has a hard time being serious, we know that's true even from what we've heard other ccs say about him. Dream is like painfully earnest in everything he does and he likes arguing and being right, and most of the time he is. But it's really funny when he's not (thinking of the Celsius vs Fahrenheit debate that went on way too long)

And then what I like to tell new writers, and what helped me a lot when I first started writing fanfiction, is to start small. Write something 1k and finish it. Then write something 5k and finish it. Be able to see the entire journey of finishing a story, even if it's small. And once you post something, and you see how encouraging people are, it will help build your confidence and you'll want to write more and you'll get even better. Starting a long multi chap work as your first DNF fic can be done, don't get me wrong, but the odds of losing steam/motivation/low readership because that's just how WIPs are--all those things can be overall demoralizing. No matter how amazing your story is.

Not sure if this is helpful at all or just me rambling. The good news is that this fandom is really kind to writers, so posting some snippets and your works on AO3 to twitter or tumblr will go a long way. And once you post a few, people will start to remember your name and want to read your new stuff.

Also, sorry I assumed you've never written fanfiction before, I think I got too broad in trying to answer your question, feel free to ask anything more specifically and I'll see if I can help.

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

Hmmm, interesting, changing MK's picture to Wukong's... maybe to make him more motivated to kill? Unclear. Wdym 🥺 MK is just a bit too much like him, don't you think? It makes sense right. Welcome to your first taste of this show's use of trippy imagery. Enjoy S2 Ep 5 and 7!! And yes, that was a child that thing just possessed. Child doesn't even qualify for background character status, but fandom is obsessed with her and has named her Bai He. Crazy phenomenon, wish my underrated female favs got that treatment. Anyways, don't worry this is still a kid's show, nothing crazy happens with the possession there. You'll hardly notice it. Unless if there's something specifically personal that really bothers you about this act because, oh I dunno, Nina and Alexander, then by all means prepare yourself all you'd like. It'd be uh, hm. The S3 special where any fighting happens. <--- situation is not at ALL comparable to FMA dw lol, I'm serious when I say she's basically fine and it's not noticeable until the Special because you gotta end the possession too at one point y'know? If there's anybody you need to be worried about because of The Thing(tm), it's actually *gets dragged off stage-** hehe. Man, I love S3. For sure mentally prepare yourself for that one. Uh, depends on where you draw the line at whump, visuals of being triggered/having a possible panic attack on screen. There's a fair amount of emotion and violence too in S3, very action oriented. Have fun with the EP I mentioned too, those are also your first heads up.

LMAO, fair enough!

Im just not a huge fan when kids get hurt/are in danger, PLUS possession/a character forcibly losing control over their actions is a tricky subject for me: sometimes it's totally fine no issues, other times I absolutely hate it, and I never know which one it's going to be. I prepare every time like it's going to be a problem and simply hope it won't be. So it's good to know that this PROBABLY won't be an issue.

Also, not ominous at all! I'm totally not worried about any characters I may have already grown attached to!

Thank you for the heads ups!

[cutthroatcarnifex]

starting my rankings of the best ways to murder someone. adding more as i think of more. under the cut cause im rambling.

//OOC: Content warning for graphic descriptions of torture, gore and murder

dismemberment:

pros: can be as long or short of a process as you want, depending on how little or how much you //ice at a time. can keep your victim conscious or chop their head off right away. good for torture and pitch flirting. maybe even foreplay before pailing idk... if they stay awake that is.

cons: what are you supposed to do with the pieces afterwards? can be pretty messy cleanup. boring if after a bit if they lose consciousness on you pretty soon in.

final rating: 7/10

pu//ing out their pusher:

pros: the drama! the metaphors! the moments when theyre sti// conscious after it happens before dying. rea//y fucking cool and something straight outta //ashers. also kind of intimate for pitch stuff. get to keep their heart after.

cons: they die pretty fast. i dunno if my claws are sharp enough to break through the skin and bones. probably unrealistic for most tro//s to achieve. also i... dunno what to do afterwards... goregle, how do i preserve a blood pusher?

final rating: 5/10

torturing them until they starve:

pros: rea//y rea//y good for pitch flirting! they stay with you for a pretty long time and you have complete control over them. lots of time to monologue about how they hurt you or your motives for what youre doing.

cons: depending on your victim, this can get boring really fast. some tro//s act all tough and dont give good responses. a stoic target is not recommended for this one. can also be time consuming even if it is fun. sometimes you want them dead right away, so w/this method you need to have patience. not as bloody as id like either.

final rating: 3/10

backstabbing them (litera//y):

pros: absolute classic. if you pu// this move out at the right moment it// rea//y hit all the right notes. gives you a chance for one witty one-liner... make it count!

cons: tbh? a little cliche at this point. not as intimate. requires some buildup prior to the //ashing as we//.

5/10

[truckreincarnation]

I Don’t Fucking Wanna Be Here | Shinjuku | Trial 4.1 | RE: Esmee, Germain, Manami

Surely this trial can’t get worse, right?

Shin was thinking it as he was making his way to the circle, before noticing the special visitor observing this event. The King. The fucking King is here.

Of course he is. God fucking damn it.

Just seeing him standing there, observing, the pit in Shin’s stomach grows even DEEPER. AWESOME, having to deal with his paranoia on top of grief. He just gotta hope that people don’t fucking dick with him, LIKE USUAL, and he can just forget about him. If not, and they decide now is the RIGHT time to pick on the man that controls all of them, then he just has to forget about his paranoia instead.

Neither of these seem realistic to Shin, anyway. So, he’ll just be miserable and on edge.

As the first three of Esmee, Germain, and Manami speak up, Shin silently looks their ways, nodding slowly, then looking back at the floor. His eyes are completely dull, all of his usual energy is absolutely gone. And when he speaks up, his voice is flat.

“....sorry. I’m not going to be acting really…. Well, either. I’m…. not going to get pissed, I think, or cry but……. Yeah.” A small sigh, looking at the stands next to him. Now, alone. “.......I lost my best friend and someone I viewed as a daughter. I’m beyond upset, but I’m just…. Keeping it here.”

Just keep repressing. Deflecting. He wants to yell. Explode. Cry. Just let everything go at once. But once again, he can’t. So, the merc continues to suppress it all for a later time. He’s too tired to give anyone the satisfaction of him continuing to fall.

Why is he so cursed to lose everyone.

There, he glances away, swallowing. “....this motive this time sucked. It probably influenced whoever did this in some way, whether that’s to turn off everyone’s restrictions, or to turn off their own.” Pause. “....dunno, depends on the person, I guess. Mine’s was awful…. Not even in a contact sense, but the fact that mine was super dangerous for me. Someone could just grab onto me and shock me to hell and back. Couldn’t even fight back.”

And yet, he’s still here. He sighs. “....I could’ve lived with it though.” It wasn’t worth their lives.

With that, he tucks his hands in his pockets. “...right, what I was doing. Just…. Bear with me, once again.”

“....at 6:30, I was in the training hall. Working on training with my cursed weapon, and uh… no one else was there. Nothing happened for a while. I grew tired of training around 8:15 and left, heading towards the Antechamber. Heading to the manor, I passed Esmee, then…”

……..RIGHT. As he thinks of it, he glances at Bian.

“....I found Bian’s unconscious body in a bush. I tried to wake her up but she was out, so I started to panic a little bit. So, I just… picked her up, took her inside to the lounge. Think that was around 8:28. I found Frank and Germain, setting her down on another couch. Frank… also panicked a bit, but Germain reminded us of the possession powers so…. Alls good. I thanked them both and headed off.”

“There I was in Tiger’s room for a bit. 8:45, I think. I was gonna tidy up their room, since I saw a basketball on the floor, but decided to shoot some hoops instead-” Fuck it, we ball. “-and lost track of time.”

“...once 10 pm hits, though, I snapped out of it. There was a loud-ass boom outside as the building shook a bit, and at the same time, I got two intense pangs from my domain. A second later, one more, not as intense. With my new powers, I reached out to my bondmates. Perry and Esmee responded, but not… Frank and Luz…”

“...I ran back downstairs and grabbed Germain. He told me Frank passed through and left a bit ago, and he found Bian in doll form in Panther’s room. So, I went and grabbed her, running outside with the two of them. We raced to the gate, and found….. The two. Plus, Theophania in her revival flower, and a strange distortion with the barrier.”

“The alarm sounded and I just… dropped.”

“.......”

“.................sorry, again.”

Once again, his domain continues to torment him, unable to protect any of the ones close to him. Anyone he loves.

[thoughtsaladblog]

The eye of the beholder

Another night, another conundrum. So I’ve been in deep contemplation...- ok, I’ve been in contemplation at certain points of the day, when in fact I should be finishing off those damn report sheets, and I’ve come to the realization that part of the reason why Lewis lost interest was the bad sex. Ok fine! I realized that a while back.. But I realized why the sex was bad. I mean, I don’t in any way think I’m a diva in the sack, but I also know I’m not generally bad either. So why the awkward sex as of late? Mainly coz I’ve lost confidence in myself. 

I mean just the other day Dowaan asked to hook up- and while to be honest I’m not really feeling that for several other reasons- I didn’t want to even say yes to try it out because I was feeling overly self-conscious. Why? Well, coz the girl is fat... In fact, the girl’s the heaviest she’s ever been. If that doesn’t chip away at your self esteem, I dunno what else can. I see myself in the mirror and all I notice is my prominent double chin, and then I pull my arm forward and it’s all it takes not to cut away at my flesh with a meat cleaver. When I don’t like the way I look, how can I expect anyone else to? 

I mean, let’s be honest. Men are visual creatures. They spend majority of their life watching porn and stalking models and actresses. They want to see sexy while having sex- not Adele during her album 19 era. I can’t blame them- I want to see sexy too when having sex. I’d be lying if I said a man’s untrimmed beard or hairy chest doesn’t turn me off. But another something I realised- with regards to my subpar performance was that, good sex is at least 60% dependent on how confident we are in ourselves. If your attention is being diverted to worrying about turtling, looking like an upside down hippopotamus and figuring out which angle to face so you look less like Mona Lisa (no, she isn’t beautiful), you’re spending less time enjoying the sex and even less time making sure he enjoys it. You cannot make someone else feel good if you don’t feel good. It’s simply that. So I suppose the reality that I’ve come to face is that, while I remain looking like Mona Lisa’s uglier step-sister I’ll never be able to have good sex.

Now, as for the blatantly obvious remedy to this (losing weight), that’s a post for another day, because frankly, my recent attempts have only led to failure and I’m struggling to get started. It of course doesn’t help that it randomly fucking rains cats and dogs in a way that turns my classroom and bedroom roof into Niagara falls and the floor into the Castlereagh Reservoir, thus banishing me from my own home and setting all my weekly plans on fire. Yes, these are in fact excuses for the fact that I simply am not trying hard enough and lack the resolve and motivation to follow through on what it takes. I had that traction at one point- I only wish I could get it back. 

Although this be for genuine and also somewhat sinful reasons- Jesus take the wheel! 

[bylightofdawn]

My work decided randomly at the end of last year that they were going to move the cap for PTO from 100 hours to 80.

I am a very dedicated (read stupidly obsessed with being dependable and diligent worker bee) Capricorn that exudes so much Capricorn energy you can prolly read it from orbit so suffice to it so say I have over 100 hours of banked PTO and was at risk of losing 20 some odd-hours. This is after I took two vacations last year so yeah I was kinda not happy with this new policy.

Soooooo I requested that time off before it expires on the 15th and ya girl now has 5 whole days back to back off starting tomorrow.

I'd originally planned to make a trip to Houston but sadly, I can't afford it thanks to getting the plague after my last mini vacation in December and my check on the 31st wasn't what I was expecting it to me.

Which, eh no big deal I'll just enjoy this time and do a staycation instead for the next 5 days.

I'm going to do some spring cleaning and rearranging of my apartment. My mother has been trying to fob some furniture off on me for years so I've decided to get rid of this 96 inch metal baker's rack that was housing all of my dvds and various fandom crap like lose figures and the like.

On Sunday, i went through all my DVD's BluRays etc, took them all out of the boxes and recycled them and started to put them into a binder. I had to buy a BIGGER one because 270 something wasn'r enough. All together with some DVD's being doubled up like bluray/dvs combos. I filled up a 400 space binder.

What. The. Fuck.

And that's not counting the things I didn't get rid of because it was specialty cases or things like my Red vs Blue and Star Wars stuff or ANY Of my many, many TV shows. I think I'm going to get a separate binder for those and then keep the cases but put them in a box to free up space so I can hopefully get shit down to one book shelf so I can get a small couch or love seat in my living room.

That ain't happening tomorrow though. Tomorrow is me time, I am going to play video games, read and write and then start cracking on that stuff on Monday.

The only thing that could make this vacation better was if I could get a massage or something stupidly self-indulgent like that.

So here's crossing my fingers and hoping I make some head-way in my new JasPlo fic. I'm debating breaking my own rules and posting things as I write rather than once I've finished just to see if the stress of keeping people waiting would be enough to motivate hibernating motivation or if the stress would just make me not want to write at all.

I mean is it really the end of the world if I have a WIP that hasn't been touched in six months? I dunno. I feel like my own innate sense of guilt would eat at me and I'd prolly crater like a house of cards the first time I get some shithead self-entitled comment asking why I haven't updated.

Which, LBR prolly won't happen cause how many people are going to be reading some super rarepair fic to begin with and I don't think I attract that sort of attention so no way that would even happen.

Most of the time I just feel like I'm putting stuff out into the void. Which, I'm not complaining about but I just really doubt that sort of scenario would happen.

But....you tell that to my guilt complex. I was definitely catholic in another life and have apparently carried said guilt into my next life.

Useless Edit: I ended up getting 90% of my tv series in the binder that held 270 something dvds. When did I buy all this shit that realistically I will never watch again because I own a chunk of them on digital now anyway.

I’m going to see if I can sell the random Smallvile seasons 4-10 and random Naruto seasons at Half Priced books since I’m well past my Naruto phase and what’s her faces sexual assault scandals kinda ruined the show for me forever. Same reason I got rid of all of my Kevin Spacey dvds when I was going through my dvds. But I forgot I bought both seasons do BBC’s Musketeers and I lowkey kinda want to rewatch it now. I also forgot I had seasons 1-4 of Scrubs which is one of my lowkey favorite series ever. I’m kinda excited by the things that got kinda lost in my collection. I found my Dark Angel series and kinda want to add that to the list as well

So series wise I’m pretty set. I don’t know if I’ll be watching any of my dvd or blu rays though. I plan on taking my binder of movies over to my moms house since she doesn’t know how to run Netflix ffs so the know she will get some use out of them. Or at least more than me.

I guess this semi counts as a declutter, yes? Pffft

[still-a-morosexual-help]

Hey, sorry to bother you but I’d like to request if you could write a list of all the things Mammon’s canonically good at- like his talents, his good traits, and things his done that caught your eye or things that just makes you love him. I just want to have a list to remind me of the things that make me love him. Again sorry for bothering you, take care and have a nice day!

It's not a bother at all! I've actually been coming up with this list for about a year now and I've actually spoken about it on this blog a few times too! I keep on postponing posting it cos I figure I should post it when it's finished but new things keep on getting added to it, so this is as good a sign as any to post it!

Like you said everything is based off canon (main story, devilgram, chats, events, manga & anime). I've probably gone into more detail on some of them in my other posts but if anyone wants me to clarify a point lemme know.

I will probably be adding to this with each new detail

Canon* Things Mammon is Good At

*(main story, devilgram, chats, events, manga & anime)

• Analytical

• Supportive

• Hand to hand combat to an extent

• Trapeze

• Balloon art

• Customer service - both as a waiter & as a host/entertaining customers

• Singing

• Dancing

• Chess

• Surfing

• Swimming

• Card games

• Cheating at card games

• Modelling

• Good with kids

• Emotionally intelligent

• Technology to a certain extent

• Cooking to a certain extent

• Maths - his mental maths is faster than a computer's and his answers are all correct

• Debating/winning arguments ?

• Teaching/being a mentor

• Leading the others

• Salesman

• Anything he tries if he puts effort into it/is serious about it

• Rope climbing/rescue

• Thinking on the spot/spontaneous decisions/actions during stressful situations/under pressure

• Inventing things using mechanics, engineering & magic (physics??)

• Multitasking

• Office work/ Sales

• Paper work? Organisation? Anything regarding being a Throne which is basically a Personal Assistant

• Can walk in heels very well

• Flying - either by his own means or with the help of magic objects

• Understanding others' emotions and manipulating them to get what he wants

• Calming down Satan when he's pissed

• Coming up with new extremely successful business ideas

• Designing clothes

• Driving

• Fixing up cars

• If you take just the card art as evidence - pole dancing

• If you're considering AUs, which I am, - he has the ability to rule a kingdom (with MC's help)

• Can talk to crows, command them & get them to spy for him (which he relays to Lucifer)

• Pushing down his own fears for others - Prioritises MC & Luke over his own fears

• With animals - volunteers at a human world dog shelter? Cat person.

• Making jewellery

• Soothing nightmares/getting his traumatised younger brothers to sleep

• Steering/Sailing a pirate ship

• Fastest of the brothers

• Quick draw standoffs/shootouts

• Juggling

• Script Writing

• Film Directing

• Editing Videos/Films

• Facing Interviews

• Agile

• Can waltz

• Really good at whistling - it sounds musical

Bonus;

• I vaguely remember "skating" but I can't remember where it's from so I'm not 100% sure if it's canon

• I don't have the band devilgram with Luke & Beel so dunno if he actually plays an instrument

• this is never stated explicitly in canon but considering he's the best at dancing and he's a really good trapeze artist = he's probably very flexible

*despite being good at all of this his skill level varies a lot depending on how motivated he is, how easily he'll get distracted, how much effort he puts into it, how much he's paying attention etc.

• He's good at sewing & and embroidery, though he can get bored and lose his concentration after a while which makes him pissed off/start spiralling

• Basketball

For example:

- he's still failing maths at RAD despite being very good at it & the best at math from all his brothers

- he made a plan (that included tricking Lucifer, Solomon and Satan) on the spot to steal a book from solomon that worked very well. He lost the whole game because he couldn't be bothered to read the cover of the book to make sure he got the right one - he immediately gave up after finding this out

[nsfwjay]

oOOOOoh bOY i think about hyungline 5some on the daily basis i shit u not-

Yes, I agree that Sunghoon and Jay would be the more dominant ones while Jake n Heeseung would be more laid back and just there to have a good fuck! AND JAY BEING THE VOYEUR BF ENJOYING IT FROM A CORNER IN THE ROOM JACKING OFF TO THE SIGHT OF YOU BEING USED? smeggci. I swear. He won't hesitate to bark orders here and there, and maybe occasional degrading lines like "Look at you pup, what a view.. Like being filled with their cocks, huh?"

I also think about how Hee, like previously mentioned, would be more laid back and less serious but he wouldn't hesitate to get a lil bit stern w you if you decide to act out?? Like.. mayb a lil disrespect to him, n he'll be like "Now just bcs I don't show off like Jay and Hoon, doesn't mean I have less experience than them. If anything, I can probably fuck you better," since like,, he's older than them n all,, I dunno tho? They would probs just giggle at Hee's lil outburst and maybe that'll motivate him to fuck you even harder HNDJSNS

Also I think the way it would go is after Jay tells you about how his friends r gonna join in, and preps you for a bit, Jake would def go in first?? He'd be so flirty on purpose to get you blushy and rile Jay up.. Anyways, after Jake's done pounding you all the way to heaven, and making you see stars with the help of his skilled dirty talking skills, it'd probably be Heeseung's turn, and Hoon would join in after a while.. Jay's waiting ever-so-patiently and in amusement too :'D

After Hee's done, Hoon's still teasing you with overstim even though you're already sobbing and your face is wet (unknown if it was due to the drool or tears).. And Jay finally joins in??? And oh lord. They both would be such hard, sadistic mean doms.. Manhandling your already fucked out, fragile body... Degrading you but praising you at the same time?? "Such a good whore for us, hm? Took two cocks so well already.. you can handle ours too, can't you, pup?" *one of them chuckles* "Of course she can, what else to expect from a cockslut like her? Besides, we'll make her take it. She can and she will, right, princess?"

Anyways, enha hyung line brainrot. That's all for now, unless you'd like me to elaborate more 👍

p. s. I like to use sincerely as a fun signature thing BDNJSNSJSN

Sincerely,

- 🍷

omg if i think abt it lots of the stuff on my blog can be linked as one storyline..... imagine hyungline 5some after the Short Skirt Incident but instead of going the jealousy sex w jay <3 route jay proposes a 5some for your slutty holes to finally be fulfilled <3 when he asks if u want all 4 of them to fuck u you're not sure if he's just joking and will rip what u want away from u but he assures you he's not playing games and will gladly let his 3 friends use your holes

dude omg heeseung as a soft dom would be so. painful bro if he's disappointed/mad with you you will literally feel so guilty cuz he'll say things like "i thought you were a good girl, i was jealous of jay for having such a good little angel but turns out i was wrong, hm?" same w jake actually...... but jake is just more smug about it he is just so smug throughout the whole thing

depending on the situation i think it would be even generous for jay to give u any prep at all....... back to the bruises hc and honestly heeseung and jake would b perfect to prep u and lull u into a false sense of security, before sunghoon gets his turn and MAN he would fuck u up..... gently, condescendingly and psychologically before jay just fucks you up all over<3

if anyone is up for this idea..... what about double penetration... with two of the members (but not jay, he gets the final sloppy seconds (thirds....)) and you are just moaning so pornographically, losing yourself in pleasure riding two of his friends' cocks, jay almost cums himself before remembering that he still wants to fuck you, so he just stands up and participates actively for the first time this whole night, wrapping his hand around your throat and lifting your head up just the slightest, revelling in the way your eyes roll back in pleasure <3

[31mmstudios]

It's not your fault there's no time to rest

While I'm a staunch advocate for discipline as part of maintaining good mental health, there is something I feel I need to say:

I know you're trying.

I recalled the time I was at my worst burnout. There were quite a few actually, but the worst ones made me physically sick. I was already pre-diabetic to begin with, then it elevated into Type 2 diabetes. I also developed allergies and began to experience really disruptive anxiety that a doctor once couldn't tell it apart from a heart attack and hooked me up to all these machines with a ton of I-dunno-what's IV'd into my arms.

To this day, the sound of consistent beeping that isn't from a microwave brings back tremors and cold sweating because it's so reminiscent of all the times I was in the ER. And this was all because I tried to work through my burnout instead of fixing it.

And because I survived it, sometimes I tend to over simplify my trauma to uplift myself when I feel powerless. So then I have this very energized way of talking about surviving burn out that I turn into a motivational speaker and somehow lose some sense of empathy. Am I making sense?

Anyway, I was disgusted at myself for becoming like that, so I went back to the drawing board to be reminded that when I was burnt out, I just wanted empathy. That's it. I didn't want advice, to be preached to, or a ticket to see some motivational speaker who'll kick my ass into my ideal future self.

I just wanted to know someone got me.

So, I wrote this post to tell you, the reader, something very important that I wish I was told in my darkest, most difficult moment of my burnout...

If you are burnt out right now, I want you to know that I see you trying. I want you to know that I see you stuck beyond your control in a job or school setting that is squeezing the life out of you.

I know you want out. I know you're trying you're best. But because times are shitty as they are, quitting has become a luxury. Sometimes your best manifests and seems like a very weak, not good enough effort. But that's not true.

Your best is going to be rough because you're hurt.

What should we expect when we're spent, worn out, and our tank is empty?

It would be so insensitive if anyone, including yourself, expected you to be at your record best at a time like this.

While it's true that our lives are in our hands, our hands can only carry so much. And right now, your hands must be full of the burden to survive a time run by dick bags who forget you're a human being*.

** HUMAN BEING (n.) - NOT A MACHINE OR ANIMAL

You were dealt some shitty cards. As far as I'm concerned, you're doing a great job of getting through this.

Survive the way you can and know how to.

Please don't fall into the trap of thinking that your best now deserves to be compared to your best when you were at your demi-god form and everything was going right in your life.

Your best varies depending on your situation.

A person who is filled to the brim with passion can endure anything, even if it meant cutting off their limbs. But look at this situation. We're two years into a pandemic and there are still people who act like there are no mental health consequences from this. You've been robbed of the chance to replenish your passion.

But you're still here.

That's something to be so fucking proud of.

You've survived 100% of your worst times before. You'll survive this too.

You are adaptable, resourceful, enduring, and you still manage to have space to worry about the people around you. You're flourishing even if you don't feel like you are.

What I just hope for you is that you remember you.

While it's a maze of traps to find time to rest in this situation, I hope you develop self-forgiveness. I hope you forgive yourself for not being as passionate and driven as you used to be, because it's not your fault you have so much less to work with now.

I also hope you remember this is temporary. All things are temporary. Please don't believe your anxious thoughts when they visit, because anxiety lies to you.

And though there's so much more I'd want to say, I think it's a good time to end on this note:

You're stronger than you give yourself credit for, and this situation is not for nothing. Trust that from your suffering comes a deeper sense of self.

To have become a deeper man is the privilege of those who have suffered. - Oscar Wilde

Remember: life doesn't get better, you do.

Be well,

Miel

[gone-series-orchid]

What do you think would change if Astrid and Diana swapped places? Like Astrid had gone to Coates instead of Diana and became friends with Caine?

ooh, what a fun question! i'll admit, though, it's a bit difficult for me to see astrid being friends with caine...maybe academic rivals or something? maybe they're not friends pre-fayz, but astrid ends up falling in with caine and drake after the fayz begins, figuring that gaining powerful, if unsavory, friends would be essential to protect little pete. i think caine and astrid would have an icy relationship, if an artificially polite one; astrid would find his sliminess and ambition distasteful and caine would find her genius intelligence and steadfast moral code threatening. drake would find her even more off-putting because of course he would. the idea of them all trying to work together/undermine each other as a trio interesting!

since diana has the power to determine power levels, that means drake and caine would have to sort out which kids have powers using only astrid's potential-determining power (which for the sake of this au is once again canon), which would be difficult. astrid, being a smart cookie, would get suspicious as to why caine wants to find out the identities of all the powerful kids in the first place (something that they'd probably be markedly less successful in doing, since astrid's power is more vague/symbolic), so she might start lying to caine and drake in order to protect the remaining kids from becoming targets...of what, she probably has only a slight idea, though that depends on how good she is at dissecting caine's true motives. which, let's be real, she probably is very good at it. but here's the question: how much is she willing to look away from for the sake of securing little pete's safety? especially if it means little pete himself may be in danger from caine?

and there's a question! what about little pete?? if caine finds out about his powers, who knows what he'll do! maybe astrid could try to pretend that little pete's a normal and keep him sequestered away somewhere, hoping that caine and drake quickly lose interest? regardless, they'll still know that they could potentially use petey as leverage for keeping astrid on their side/keeping their secrets lest she ever tries to join the townies. but why would they want astrid on their side, you ask? i dunno. maybe caine wants a girl in their squad bc he's worried about optics. maybe he thinks it's funny that drake dislikes her so much. maybe he finds her christian devotion endearing, despite it all. or maybe he just wants someone to complain to about drake.

but i can see astrid's loyalty to the terrible twosome very tenuous and strained. once the coates academy kids get to town and drake starts acting up, she might defer to the townies' side, especially once she sees sam be all heroic and save the little girl from the fire.

then again, she might be suspicious of the townies, especially diana. and she might be worried about caine having a personal vendetta against her if she defects. and if astrid stays with caine and drake through hunger, maybe because she feels she has no other choice/doesn't trust the townies/thinks she can effectively manipulate caine, then she's in for a bad time.... poor girl.

i think diana would be positively impacted by allying with sam, edilio, and quinn! though she wouldn't have the same motivation as astrid does for doing so. maybe she wants to manipulate sam in the same way she manipulates caine, but eventually starts enjoying his company for real. the townies might be prejudiced against her for being promiscuous and a bully, but sam and edilio and quinn are good guys; they'll protect her. i think diana would be in much better hands than she is in canon. maybe she finds it in her to be a good person.

thank you for the question! this is an interesting au! feel free to ask me more about it!

[peapod20001]

Aight I got a dumb question but my friend forced my hand and is convincing me to attempt this but

How hard are animatics???

Legit, bc I have an idea and it'd be a like, 2.5 minute song animatic to a gotdamn MLP song. I have it all like, written out, and a vague idea, but dunno how to. Implement it, y'know? Like, program/put it all together wise.

So I guess two questions, how hard are animatics and how do you usually put em together/ what program do you use??

I’m honored u came to me with this question:,,0 (and it’s not a dumb question at all!)

I’m definitely not super experienced with animations or animatics BUT that just means I better understand struggles you may have!! :D

For how hard it is, it really depends on a lot (motivation, ideas, patience, etc.) for me personally it’s not too crazy hard but a more involved program may take more effort to look right :,)

The two programs I have used are imovie and capcut. Capcut has LOTS of filters and editing things and texts and stickers and lots of other things, but it can be a lot to figure out and manage :,,0 iMovie is way simpler, but you can do as much with it :,,0 (both definitely take some learning to use)

Now for actually MAKING an animatic. You first need to decide just how detailed your trying to make it, if it can be simple go simple (otherwise you might lose motivation part way thru 😭)

If it’s a small animatic (like 30 seconds or smth) I draw out everything all together, for smth longer, like what your trying to do, I suggest breaking it into chunks and doing a few images at a time so u can really put your heart into it :3

You put your audio into your program (maybe do that first so your able to put images in later hdhdhdhdh) and then insert each drawing in and edit it to fit the audio (play through it often, it’s easy to miss things lsbdhd)

And, that’s all I’m really able to put into words 😭 if needed I can try my hand at making a tutorial or smth

[r4bbitdragon]

so a bit of uh. thematic tension. that i felt in donbros one and guess i’ll note here. this feels like a losing exercize because i feel like people who know inoue will nod at it and go ‘inoue’ but as my first brush with a full inoue production i guess i’ll record my authentic attempts to lay things out

so we’ve got the motw representing rampant human desire, and the ‘brain people’ team who decry human greed and have the goal of just mercing the motw, humans and all. and the donbros team who want to save the human involved instead

which with the donbros in opposition to the brain people does frame them on the side of human will? not like it should get to the extent of just rampaging about but like, the Right to experience that as well. and that does sorta fit with onisister’s motivations in this first ep, since her running around looking for momoi tarou i think is partially out of her desire to fix her weird sudden bad luck

except its also weird though because the donbrothers dont have like. free will?

like. the sunglasses first appear out of their own random event that onisister had no part in. onisister doesn’t transform this ep, the gun literally transforms her. and she gets teleported around to whatever battle. its indicated as similar for kiji with his ‘another battle?’ exclamation, ie he was just dragged there without warning too. and then they get automatically dumped Back at the end of the fight

and like. yeah onisister is looking for momoi tarou out of her own self interest. but it’s out of this weird prophecy type thing that she must Swear Fealty To Him to fix things. her fate depends on this coerced adherence to this assigned role.

and then there’s momoi tarou himself who. well!

a bond is formed through any chance encounter. not like, he’s making bonds, a bond is passively made. and then he appears to have special powers involving... luck?! his own good fortune and the ability to bestow it on others (final heir of omikujitopia im still ON this.) but again like, luck isn’t something you Really have any kind of control or will over its just... a force acting on you

man. i dunno. inoue, am i right (sitcom laughtrack)