#i hate the way i am

[firefly-sky]

legitimate question

am i good enough?

[bellagrimfox]

Mermay 2024 @somecartoonisttalkshere Edition

Day 4: Clownfish

This is just a vent art today.

You know what is down below

[a-confused-teen-venting]

If I was normal,

I could love you the way that you love me.

[altermay]

Hey guys can I vent for a second?

I hate being poor I really do. I hate that I grew up hearing people say “you can do whatever you want if you just put your heart to it!” And I hate that I believed that. I hate that I know people who are going to my dream art schools while Im struggling to pay for community college. I hate having well intentioned people tell me that if Im stressed out I should just take a vacation to Europe when my shower doesnt even have a showerhead, its just a pipe. I hate that the person who hurt me time and time again is now on testosterone and I hate that I care. But im stuck in a body I hate because I dont have the money to do anything about it. I live in a shed, im on food stamps, I want a bettef life, I dont want to be poor anymore. This winter Im going to have to go hunting because my family isnt able to afford lasting groceries anymore. Im sick of suffering while shitty people get whatever they want just because they were born into a wealthier family. And Im stuck in the poorest part of the south, I feel like Ill never escape, even if I make enough money to get somewhere here, I feel like Ill never be able to make enough money to move out and live in the North, considering the cost of living is higher. Im stuck. I just wish I knew what it was like to be middle class. Most of my problems would go away if I was middle class. Im so sick and tired and I dont know what to do. My dysphoria is awful, my mental state is worsening, Im scared Ill lose my best friend because she lives so far away and I dont have the money to see her often. And. My hometown has. Many bad memories. And speaking of bad memories, I keep remembering very confusing things from when I was a child. Why cant I just have a break. Why do things have to be so shitty all the time. Why is my life so shitty, what did I do.

Whats the point

[catmask]

the 'all marriage is gay as far as im concerned' except its me watching a man and woman character in a show i like and accidentally saying 'theyre so gay' because i literally forget thats not the word for romance because to me all romance is gay

[lilybug-02]

Pain is a great motivator…

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Meanwhile Toriel:

(Loud noises don't wake her up usually.)

Artist note: I’m so proud of this :))) I know it’s a lot of dialogue and reading, but dialogue is grueling work for me. I’m glad with the art and for the amount of pages I made in such a relatively short time span -w- page 5 was super fun to work on. A lot of blood, sweat, and hours here... :) The backgrounds were a big bore tbh, but I finished them! Yippie!

[greencheekconure27]

Okay, we've had plenty of those "popular food that you hate" polls.It's time for:

[bixels]

Just gonna have to wait and see, right? Just wait and see! Just gotta wait and see! Who knows, we'll just have to wait and see! It's anybody's guess, we'll just have to wait and see! The future is exciting, we just gotta wait and see!

[i-just-like-commenting]

Text: decoupling pregnancy from femininity means accurate and more inclusive language and treatment, but it also allows cis women to refuse motherhood without refusing womanhood, which is great for feminism and terrifying for misogyny.

--THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS. As a sterile cis woman who doesn’t want to have children anyway I feel this is every ounce of my being. “Define woman” types tend to do so in a way that excludes me too, so I got to stand with my trans sisters.

[locusfandomtime]

The maths fandom is wild. “Real” and “imaginary” numbers? I think you mean canon and non-canon. You guys seriously go “this is my number oc his name is i and he is the square root of -1” when in numbers canon lore it’s actually impossible to square root a negative but sure whatever. “Complex numbers”? I think you mean a character x oc ship. “f(x) = 3x - 5”? That is self-insert fanfiction.

[bubbarnes]

“... seb is back”

[tsukkibito]

You know,

I finally experienced wearing a two piece swimwear. It must sound trivial to some and it might sound funny or silly. Even the antagonistic part of my brain scoffed at me for deciding to voice out this. . .this.

But swimming in a really good pool, in a pretty decent resort, wearing something that I chose for myself and showing skin, partially forgetting that I hate the way I look and I hate me, all of me- it was a tremendous leap.

I didn't take pictures because I still couldn't.

But the pool was great and I swam a lot and gods knew I love the water so much.

Oh, it was also my first time in a swimming pool.

I am twenty nine years old.

[potassiumprincess]

i think marinette is worse at resting when she's sick but adrien is worse at sitting things out if he's injured. i have no explanation, these are just the vibes

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

[rosekasa]

i think what i adore about ladynoir beyond high school age (18 and over) is the opportunity it leaves for some of the most DELICIOUS best friends to lovers scenarios. because, like, two people who've been fighting side by side for years? who've known each other long enough to make jokes about it, haha remember when we were fourteen and you-- we AGREED to never speak of it!!!! who've spent so long learning each other inside out, even, in chat noir's case, getting over feelings, that the idea of anything romantic between them is so far off the radar that they don't feel the need for certain boundaries, because why would it matter if they made jokes about how attractive they find each other, about getting married, about how they could totally mess with the rest of the miracle team by pretending they're hooking up because it's so far out of the realm of possibility.

but then there would be that imperceptible shift. the moment where one of them makes a joke and it feels just a bit more loaded than it should. gazes lingering where they never lingered and playful smiles turning curious. the sudden awareness that, while maybe they were cuddling on a rooftop with their best friend, they were also wrapped up in the arms of someone they trust with their lives, and is extremely attractive, and, wait, if the only reason it was platonic before was because there were no feelings, what does THIS mean?

THE TENSION. THE PINING. THE INHERENT MESS OF BEING IN YOUR TWENTIES. PLEASEEEE

[lxnelyhearrt]

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