#i have been thinking about that twitter post at LEAST once a month since i first saw it

[uncanny-tranny]

Not a day goes by where I do not think about the advent of medicine like PrEP and wonder just what the people - especially queer people - who passed from HIV/AIDs during the AIDs crisis would think

And then, I read this survivor's testimony and it just makes me emotional. I think this is the closest answer we have. HIV has changed, and we must always remember the people who didn't see that change before it happened.

[eyeheartboobiez]

-> 𝗃𝖺𝗌𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗈𝖽𝖽 𝗑 𝗌𝗂𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗋!𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

-> 𝗌𝗈𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗅 𝗆𝖾𝖽𝗂𝖺 𝖺𝗎!

-> 𝖺/𝗇: 𝗈𝗄𝖺𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖫𝖠𝖲𝖳 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗂𝗆𝗆𝖺 𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗇𝗂𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝖼𝗄𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗌 𝖺 𝗃𝖺𝗌𝗈𝗇 𝖿𝖺𝖼𝖾 𝖼𝗅𝖺𝗂𝗆 𝗂 𝗌𝗐𝖾𝖺𝗋😭

Jason Todd and ex girlfriend, Artemis Grace, spotted outside a club together just hours ago! May this old flame be finding its spark again? (8/20/2022 3:14 AM PT)

For months now, people have been buzzing after Gotham elite Jason Todd and singer Y/N Y/LN hinted at being in a relationship. Ever since this past March when they were initially spotted together, fans have done nothing short of obsessing over the two.

Artemis Grace, former girlfriend of Jason, had gotten into some hot water recently when insiders claimed that the singer had something to do with leaking Y/N’s unreleased track, Fantasize.

As mentioned in former articles, TMZ investigators came to the conclusion that Artemis was involved in publishing the song as a way of “getting her lick back”. Time logs show that the dubbed “rival” singer entered the same studio as Y/N not too long after she left for the night.

Many people online have been more than vocal about their love for the song, despite the fact that it was released without the artist’s consent.

While Artemis has yet issue a statement regarding the accusations, she seems to have plenty of time to be out partying with her ex.

Fast forward to last night, when just hours ago, Jason and Artemis were seen leaving a nightclub together and looking very close for comfort. Onlookers were not only shocked, but absolutely gagged when they saw the two hugging each other goodbye.

With their late night rendezvous breaking headlines, some fans are starting to question if Jason may have also played a part in helping Artemis, or if they ever really broke up at all!

The exes, who were romantically involved for almost two years, have a long history of being toxic towards each other. Their on-again-off-again relationship was notorious for its dysfunctionality, making it hard to keep up most of the time.

It wasn't until late last year when both Jason and Artemis officially called it quits by posting an announcement on their respective Instagram accounts (although many were skeptical to believe it).

Despite the initial shock of the situation, it begs the question: Where does Y/N stand in all of this?

Fans of the singer songwriter were quick to come to her support, majority of whom expressing their clear disappointment in Jason.

“I was really betting on these two,” says Twitter user @y/n’scoochiehairs. “I feel like a child of divorce…”. The fan account, while only just a few months old, grew exponentially due to their constant posts about the alleged couple.

Many sentiments like this have been circulating the internet once the pictures from last night began to surface. Y/N is notorious for putting her emotions into her songs, so at least we know she’ll be releasing new music soon, right?

— replies —

user1: oh she really aint playing...

user2: COOK HIM GOOD SIS!!

user3: girl this is a whole bar put this energy into a song or sumn😭

user4: sooo what im hearing is that ur single🤔

⤷ user5: ntm on my wife now..

user6: this next album bouta be BIBLICAL

user7: genuinely hope youre doing okay🥺🫶

user8: ily queen🩷

people you may know!

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@artemisofmighdall: last night was a dream✨

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user1: first you mess with her music then you mess with her man.. if bold was a person…

user2: the hell is she smiling so damn big for?? ain’t shit funny😐

user3: girl you betta PRAY i don’t catch you in these streets…

user4: “last night was a dream” yeah and you in for a rude awakening cuz wth💀

user5: these comments killing me😭

user6: you already going to hell for being a ginger now you just making it worse for yourself🤦‍♀️

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end notes: is jason involved or is he just being framed👀 lmk what you think!!

[colorfullpaperbird]

Characters in Ace attorney that i believe are aware of fanfiction✨ ( and fandom )

Warning i haven’t played all the games yet, in fact my apollo justice trilogy is crashing every time i try to open it, so all the characters from after aa3 are based on fandom osmosis

Miles Edgeworth - writes Steel Samurai fanfiction on ao3 and has been doing it for some time now (the living embodiment of the ao3 writers curse) would rather die than anyone finding that out tho, doesn’t have a lot of free time so only posts once in like 3-4 months, fics are pretty good and distinct since he writes them with so much formality, so he is relatively popular in some fandom spaces;

Maya Fey- fanfiction reader only, runs an account on Tumblr for Steel Samurai news and fanwork, famous in the fandom and runs a discord server, one of those people that lowkey have their own fandom mostly bc of the insane revelations she drops about her own life from time to time ( “ lmao guys sorry for being absent but i got accused of murder for the 4th time and that really sucked ANYWAYS did you guys look at the leaks for the new reboot… “ ) Shes also way too open about herself on the internet;

Simon Blackquill: Sasuke fan ( derogatory ) also steel samurai fan tho, dont think he goes out the way to read fanfiction ( i think if he did he would read them in fanfiction.net ) but its pretty funny to think hes edgeworths beta reader ( AN: sorry for the delay, unfortunate circumstances came to light that my beta reader was arrested and is now on death roll ) He ran an AMV account on youtube before going to prison;

Trucy Wright: Shes 16 and her only friends are her dads coworkers, she opened wattpad AT LEAST once, probably accidentally read one of those “got sold to one direction (gavinners)” fics and immediately closed the app;

Klavier Gavin: opened wattpad to see what type of fanfiction people were writing about him, he runs a secret fan account and shares fun facts about him and his bandmates as “hcs”, also pretty popular but most people hate him bc they believe his depiction of the gavinners is “too ooc”. He is actually pretty impressed by the quality of most of the works and alludes to their existence constantly in his main on twitter, the fans go insane everytime;

Franziska Von Karma: I don’t believe Franziska is a fanfiction reader nor is she into any fandom, i do however believe she has notifications turned on for Edgeworth’s ao3 account, he doesn’t know that of course, what a foolish fool to think he could hide such a thing from his big sister, she will sometimes quote his work back to him and find amusing seeing him freeze. He thinks its a coincidence because he is too secretive about his hobbies, he’s wrong, she’s been following him online since she was 13, that’s how she knew he wasn’t dead in JFA.

Extras: Phoenix is technologically illiterate, he couldn’t read fanfiction even if he wanted to. Apollo is way too normal for that, he has the law autism not the fandom one. Athena knows of fanfiction bc she is young and in the internet but she wasn’t very interested in it. If you ask Gumshoe about fanfiction he would give you a smile and say “Of course im a Fan of Fiction Pal!”. I do believe Pearl has wattpad but only reads original works on there, so in my opinion she doesn’t count.

Im sorry for any spelling mistakes, english is not my first language

[georgiapeach30513]

I'll be honest, while Deuxmoi always and still does post a ton of BS, thanks to the development of this never-ending saga...I'm starting to really feel like she's been used intentionally to push this narrative along all the way from the very beginning. Aka 2021.

A very out there theory but hear me out: Early on, the fandom had the general consensus DM was BS. Especially in regards to CE. Because DM was the one that first started spreading his super secret GF nonsense back in 2021, right before the introduction of Soba Saga. Her almost nonsensical rants about her having legit sources on this secret GF - while doing weekly podcasts where she insisted she never got any intel on him because his circle was so tight knit (interesting how that suddenly changed out of nowhere when someone showed up) - just made her seem like crazy cat lady gossip conspiracy Marjorie Taylor Greene on steroids.

She was the first to post that "dating Soba for over a year and everyone in PT/her circle knows about it" in early 2022.

They go public in late 2022. 2023 There's some Sunday Spotted (I could be wrong) vDAY post about CE and "fiancé" being seen in town at dinner (sounds very similar to the most recent vDay sighting). That was about 10 months before the super secret wedding and there had been no announcement of being engaged, minus the Tumblr blogs and random third rate tabloids and troll twitter accounts passing on the rumors. DM starts spreading around the same time some Tumblr blogs get the intel about secret engagement, wedding, rift in the family, people on his side not liking Soba, etc. Eventually it is revealed DM was right all along???? In a complete turn of events her credibility goes from zero to 1 (grudgingly of course, while she continues to spill BS daily)

Meanwhile, DM gets the first RPatz sighting with Scarlett and crew at dinner. Nobody believed it - as Nancy mentioned, it just seemed too farfetched with the way that restaurant was set up.

Then in early 2024 we get an actual RPatz sighting with with Soba/CE, and separately, sightings with Scarlett and Colin. Now there's more "credibility" to that random other sighting even if it still can't be proven.

Now...possible project with RPatz and CE's name circulating. Maybe just gossip fodder, maybe some truth to it. Time will tell. Coincidences once again.

DM gets the sighting of CE in LA with Russos. He actually confirms that one himself a month later.

Simultaneously, DM gets random sightings of CE doing other stuff where soba is not mentioned. Nobody knows really what to believe anymore.

But for every 15 BS things she posts, she actually gets 1-2 right. It starts to completely make her a hit or miss source but enough to get people riled up and worried if/when she gets something related to CE/Soba.

In a way, this strategy, if it were to have any salt to it, is kinda interesting. It also sort of enforces the idea of possible foul play. Because if CE is truly in such a happy, private, loveful relationship, why use somebody as uncouth as DM to throw out breadcrumbs? Especially since, in the past, his fanbase and most Tumblr blogs believed it was only legit if it came from someone like People Mag (his team's go-to). Ironically, Page 6 has been getting most of the exclusive scoops this time around, in addition to weird low rate tabloids that eventually make its way to the top.

I know I sound like crazy qanon conspiracy theorist, but I guess people see what they wanna see. But for the people who believe this relationship isn't as genuine as some want to believe, it kind of tracks that somebody's PR team pushing this out in ways to sort of make you wonder, question, and push back on the validity. Just enough to make you think, maybe, maybe there's something going on BTS that they're not saying but they're kinda telling. But you'll never know what the truth is. At least not for now.

I do find DM’s role since 2023 to be very interesting indeed. You missed nothing. Not one thing. She’s made herself be credible enough during this, but also, she’s questionable. So of course, take everything she says with a grain of salt.

I made this comment a bit ago to someone else, he still uses People. Who got the Jinx articles first. Think about that for a moment. He. Just him.

As far as the last paragraph, what I will say is celebrities need to be talked about. Good or bad, they need the press. They need to be in the front of people’s minds. What better way to have them in people’s minds, and to have fans talk about something long past their expiration date than by playing a game. PR has become such a hot topic word, and I think very few people even understand it. But to me, if you’re having to play so many games, what really is real? Live your life. Isn’t that what we continue to be told they’re doing?

[idolomantises]

I think I’m gonna discuss this once and hopefully never have to bring it up again. Originally I wanted to talk about it on Twitter but people are very disrespectful when it comes to mental health so… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Basically, I haven’t been doing so great, mentally. Nothing bad has happened to me, I’m safe and surrounded by people I care about, and it’s been like that for months. I just, I haven’t been feeling good.

For people who do follow me on accounts like Twitter and Instagram, you may have noticed I haven’t posted anything new since January. I was struggling to feel motivated to make something for my main accounts despite having countless ideas I’d love to work on. I feel better now and do plan on getting something done in March, but that sudden lack of motivation is pretty rare for me. Art is not only my job but a big hobby for me, I just love drawing. I did get some nsfw art done at least.

I don’t know what really prompted my mental health decline, I’ve been getting a few worried messages and fanart because someone insulted my art. But that didn’t hurt me at all, it actually boosted my account and patreon.

I guess I just… got sad?

I have a really bad tendency to suppress and even ignore my trauma and feelings of guilt. And I guess one day I really sat with my thoughts and I just, lost it I guess. I have so much traumatic memories and sudden and intense feelings of self loathing, something I’ve never felt in almost a decade, that it got overwhelming. I couldn’t reassure myself, I couldn’t really talk to anyone about it because how do you confront things that happened years ago? You feel almost irrational. It’s just memories that haunt you, it’s nothing physical or tangible and yet it’s a crushing feeling of anxiety, self hatred and resentment.

I was crying almost every day, and crying so much that my eyes kept hurting long after I was done, and I could barely see my own screen. I’ve had paranoid thoughts about myself and others, thoughts I can’t get into because they’re so deeply irrational. I was feeling suicidal urges and thoughts of self harm. I don’t see myself doing it, but it’s so frequent and overwhelming it’s like I’m already planning my suicide note.

I was talking to my therapist about it, that I was starting to hate being alive. That I hated living. That I could spend the next 50 years of my life with no more conflict or trauma and I’d still be in intense misery and turmoil. They’re feelings I couldn’t really bring myself to tell friends about because what could they say? How do you calm yourself down and reassure yourself. I can’t even talk about my trauma verbally without crying. And it’s funny because sometimes minor irks started to affect me negatively. I was feeling anxious about what to draw because I didn’t want to do deal with homophobic backlash.

I went to a therapist, I talked to friends, Ive been working out more and eating better, I did everything I should do to improve my mental health and all of a sudden a single night just sitting in my room destroyed everything I was slowly building up over the past 5 years.

It’s been really difficult for me. I think also, I just felt so much guilt over not being the best person I could be. I decided to lessen my online usage, not just for my mental health but because I really wanted to work on being a better person. I want to stop hating myself and letting my trauma push me down and I want to do just be better and do better as a person. A lot of people have been very forgiving and kind to me but I don’t feel like it’s enough and I want to do more and I want to feel better about myself. I want to give everything I can to people around me. I’ve been going to therapy a lot more lately and things are getting better for me, but it’s been a very slow process.

I just want to repeat that nothing serious has happened to me. Nobody attacked me in a way that negatively affected my health. A lot of people, friends and strangers have been really nice to me these past few months. I just was doing a lot of self reflecting and unintentionally forced myself to confront a lot of my trauma. I’m saying trauma a lot. I don’t want to get into depth about what I endured because it’s my business but people who do know me know how bad things were for me. I don’t want to feel like that again. I want to feel better, and I want to do better.

Sorry for the long read. That’s just how I feel.

[hachibani]

i'd never seen a dog tear up

I don't think i ever wrote about it here but Bianca died on march 5th of 2021, she got diagnosed cancer in 2020 just before lockdown and major pandemic events and unfortunately every treatment I could get her in such times were not enough or too late and the moment her metastasis became unresponsive to pain medicine i decided to let her go

i know i didn't talk about her a lot here since twitter became my main site of activity for years but i remember when she had her accident back in 2016 i posted about her here too, i got a lot of support and commissions to pay for her treatment and thankfully i got support as well when i opened comms there to pay for her chemo and surgeries, and for that i will always be thankful. I don't know why but I kind of had thought if I ever post about Bianca again here in this little old blog it'd be about her beating her cancer, something happy

i really regret the fact i didn't post more about her when she was alive and once she died my depression got so bad i was either unavailable or tried to ignore the pain by focusing on personal work... to this day it still hurts to think of everything that i could or should have done even if there's no way i cannot go back in time

losing bianca after almost 13 years of being together and more than half of my life at the time with her was more traumatic than i'd like to admit, so i try to rationalize little things like not being able to replace her picture even after so long, the most i've done is sell her stroller and i still kind of regret that haha;; but neither of her brothers fit in and at some point it became too much of a reminder of her illness and last days it felt like i had to, but just that one

(even thinking she was part of my life for 1/2+ of it and that that fraction will become smaller as time passes feels so wrong it might make me cry again)

i didn't get to draw her as much as i wished either, i thought i could never capture her cuteness (i still struggle) but since i drew her again on her first death anniversary i thought "i could somewhat get her to look cute" and i try to draw her looking like this from then on https://twitter.com/hachibani/status/1500315555215126536

because of her i started drawing pets more often, my goal for this year was to draw her at least once a month but... i didn't draw her at all in february, i think i'd like to make up and draw her again this month if my free time allows it, i never thought i'd get to complete a comic (albeit short) about these feelings i've had, i have still, i don't know for how long i'll have

doing personal art like this has never been easy but i somehow feel less heavy now, maybe it's bc of the wall of text i'm leaving haha

[insertdisc5]

Devlog #16: Answers and Questions

Hello everyone! Welcome to this month’s devlog!

If you just stumbled upon this, I am Adrienne, also known as insertdisc5! I’m the developer, writer, artist, main programmer, etc of the game. The game being In Stars and Time, a timeloop RPG, which is also the next and final game in the START AGAIN series, following START AGAIN: a prologue (available here!).  You can find out more about In Stars and Time here!!! 

LET’S GET TO IT. This month is Q&A: Cohost edition!

“A Q&A again?” Heheh well I don’t have anything to talk about this month ✨ We’re working hard on finalizing the localization! And on porting to consoles! And on secret stuff! You know, the usual!!! Get excited!!! So, Q&A again 💖 And see, I asked questions for Q&As on Twitter. On Tumblr. On Discord. But some new social media platforms have entered the fray. SO.

Welcome to Q&A: Cohost edition. (Follow me on cohost and/or read this post I wrote about why I think cohost is neat teehee) (and follow me on bluesky if you want. I like it way less though. Sorry bluesky)

@ItsMeLilyV asks:

One of the bits of advice that gets tossed around by indie devs is to avoid making RPGs, especially for your first few games, because they tend to be large in scope, difficult to prototype, and easy to underestimate.

Was this ever a fear for you in making START AGAIN, or In Stars and Time? Did you take any special precaution to keep these games within a scope you could handle, and did you learn tricks from START AGAIN that carried over to ISAT when in came to keeping things manageable? Thank you!! ✨

I had no idea that was a piece of advice given, but yep, that makes a lot of sense! Since I didn’t know, I went in blissfully aware, teehee.

I will say that I am familiar with working on big projects from working on comics, and with seeing big webcomic artists always mention to never start with your magnum opus… And I could tell ISAT had the potential to be way bigger than I imagined, which is why I decided to start with creating the prologue to get used to RPGMaker as well as making games. Kind of a pilot of sorts!

Again, thanks to comics, I know to keep my scope pretty small, because even if you keep it small it WILL balloon into something way bigger than you thought. Just for the prologue, I imagined it’d be a 20mn game, and it’s easily a 2-3h one! Keep your scope small!!!

As for tricks, when I catch myself thinking “wow what if I added this cool thing”, I try to always keep in mind those two things: 1. How long will it take to implement (including bug testing), and 2. Does it add something important to the game. I know we always want to add a fishing game, or a fun minigame, but do you Need It. Does it add something substantial to the story, to the Themes. Or are you just adding it because you like fishing games. Which is a valid reason, but also, maybe just make a fishing game instead. You are not the Yakuza series!!!! You are a small indie gamedev!!!! Think about you in 4 months who has to fix all the fishing game bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@stem asks:

how is it to have a piece of art that's basically done (as far as i understand) that you can't share yet? like how do you personally bide the time until it's finally ready to release, or is it not really a challenge to wait? :0c

It’s so weird!!! The game has been done for so long!!! I’m very glad I asked some friends to playtest the game, so I could at least get some feedback before the game is out… In some ways it feels like the game will be done twice: once back when I finished making the game, and once when the game actually comes out. It’s just a very strange experience. Sometimes people tell me they’re excited to find out more about this story beat, or about this character, and a part of me is like… Wait, haven't you played the game? Oh, yeah, it’s not actually out. Guess you’ll find out later.

EDIT: My god. I just checked on my private devlog for when I completed the Alpha of ISAT. It was in August of last year (I lay down on the floor and look at the ceiling) (I still had to finish all the illustrations so really the game was Done Donezo in October but still…)

anon asked:

What role did Armor Games play in creating the final product?

SO MANY THINGS. Here are some of them: support when it comes to porting/marketing/social media/localization, feedback on the game and how to make it better, community guidance, testing support, QA/internal testing… The game couldn’t be the way it is without them.

For more small details, I have a weekly meeting with my producer, Dora! We talk about the game and how everything is going. A couple months back, I also was checking in with the internal QA team fairly often to fix any remaining bugs. They also helped me find ISAT’s additional programmer, Isabella, and she is a godsend because coding is hard. They also take care of communicating with press, finding more opportunities to showcase the game in conventions, talking with the localization/porting teams… I am probably forgetting a thousand little things they did to help out!!! THEY’RE SO GOOD OK

Anon asked:

So obviously the skills/spells/what have you are based off of Rock, Paper, Scissors. Did you design each "type" to be like a certain style? Rock being heavy damage and defense buffs, scissors being speed and quick attacks, like that?

Absolutely! I just went with the obvious. Rock is physical damage, defense focused, Scissors is swords, attack focused, and Paper is magic, mind focused. It was fun to develop a spell system around those! I’m excited for people to find out more about Craft…

@nickshutter asks:

I really loved START AGAIN (streamed it for a small handful of friends) and was super happy to hear about a follow-up! The cast is so much fun and their personalities are really well-balanced—did any of the characters change pretty drastically from their initial conception during development of the game?

I’m so glad you streamed it with friends… I hope you had a good fun time…

And for sure! Isabeau and Mirabelle were pretty set from the get go (himbo and shy wallflower), but Odile started as more of a gentle teacher type, even if I very quickly went the snarky old lady route. Siffrin and Bonnie were harder to pin down– I wasn’t sure how to portray Siffrin’s despair in the prologue, and started showing them more overtly depressed, but I thought it’d be Very Yummy to have them show a happy facade to their friends. And then, for ISAT, I had to figure out what a non-depressed Siffrin would be like, for the first couple acts of the game before the despair sets in. As for Bonnie, I had a lot of trouble figuring out what they’d be like, what kind of kid they were, what their relationship with everyone else would be like, and then I thought about what their past would be like and then their characterization was set in stone. Sometimes you need to figure out One Thing to unlock a character’s brain. I’m very excited for everyone to find out more about each character in ISAT!

@SuperBiasedGary asks:

What games (or other media) lit a fire under you to create your own?

It could be stuff you liked so much it inspired, something you found frustrating because you felt an itch to do it differently, or something that made you realise humans make things and you could be one of them.

I found a lot of indie games inspiring, but I think Umineko might’ve been the one that made me go… Oh, anyone can just make a massive video game narrative. And you can make it very simple, with kinda goofy sprites, and still manage to make an incredibly touching story!

As for frustrating games that lit a fire under me, I think I’d say in general, I found issue with the classic trope of the “main character helps people and doesn’t get anything back”. What often happens in some games is that you help NPCs with their problems, sometimes helping them with very intense, complicated problems! For a very long time! And, in exchange, you get… A cool item? A nice new skill? And that’s it?

I know this might be complicated to implement on a narrative perspective, but I remember playing Persona 5, and your character just went through a very harrowing experience (like, oh, being INTERROGATED AND TORTURED BY THE POLICE) and you help your friends during social links, and they go “thanks for your help! Bye~” like WHAT ABOUT ME. WHAT ABOUT MY PROBLEMS. CAN YOU GIVE ME A HUG

So on a certain level, I wanted a game where instead of the characters around you having problems, the main character also has problems. And is subconsciously screaming “CAN YOU PLEASE NOTICE I HAVE PROBLEMS AND GIVE ME A HUG.” And hopefully, the characters notice. Winks

Hm. I do want to say I wrote most of the prologue/ISAT during the pandemic, and I felt very lonely and not supported. But then guess what. I told my friends about how I felt. And most of them told me they had no idea, and vowed to support me more. And now I’m closer to them. So the moral of this answer is, yeah, it’d be nice if people noticed, but also, you need to tell people when you’re feeling bad. LOOKS AT SIFFRIN

Anon asked:

Is there a song you listen to in order to put yourself in the sasasa/ISAT mindset?

I have a whole playlist baybee. Before you ask: there aren’t any hidden meanings behind those song choices. It’s about the Mood, and also my personal tastes in music I listen to when I need to concentrate. I like songs that go WUB WUB

 In no particular order, here are five random songs I played on repeat when making the prologue:

Future Club (Arcade Version) by Perturbator (in bold because this was THE song I listened to on repeat. I believe I gave it to Lindar for inspiration lol)

Arcades by C2C

Wake Me Up by Para One

The First Wish by DROELOE

Les Enfants du Paradis by World’s End Girlfriend

And here are five random songs I played on repeat for In Stars and Time:

Down by Chloe x Halle

Nonsense Bungaku by Eve

Non-Breathe Oblige by PinocchioP

Gentle Heart by Jamie Paige

Ready For The Floor by Hot Chip

It’s interesting, the songs I listened to for the prologue are generally more heavy and frenetic, while the ones for ISAT are more hopeful… I made sure to listen to more lively songs for ISAT, since that’s the feeling I wanted to give off…

That’s all the questions I have! In other, non related ISAT news, I have started a new project and having a lot of fun. It’s a visual novel this time. I’m hoping to get some screenshots ready in the next few months, but also I’m taking it easy on this one. If it takes years with many breaks in between to get it done, it’s fine. What matters to me right now is the process!

That’s all I have to say for today! Let me know if you have any questions, or if there’s any aspect of the game development struggle you’d like me to talk about! See you next time!!!

AND DON’T FORGET TO WISHLIST THE GAME ON STEAM ALSO IT REALLY HELPS BECAUSE STEAM’S ALGORITHM IS MORE LIKELY TO SHOW OFF GAMES WITH A HIGH AMOUNT OF WISHLISTS THAT’S THE REASON WHY GAME DEVS ALWAYS ASK TO WISHLIST!!! OKAY BYE!!!!

[frillyfacefins]

A constructive approach to building a solid Femslash Subculture in a new fandom, a thread (+ anecdotal “Case Study”)

(I posted this as a thread on twitter a week ago in response to some pretty old arguments getting thrown around again; the situation has cooled down now, but somebody asked me to put this thread on tumblr, and I thought it could help some people, so here we go.)

In 2013 I was in the Silmarillion fandom when the Hobbit movies brought in a giant influx of new fans.

I was not one of the people who had been into the Silmarillion for ages, I only just read the book too, and the fandom at the time was very much in flux.

Since Baldur’s Gate is in a similar situation - a very old fandom with a new influx of fans and new characters - I think it might be helpful for me to explain how we created a space for fanwriters and -artists to explore and celebrate femslash ships.

Here are my recommendations for femslash fans who want more f/f fanworks in the Baldur’s Gate 3 fandom, sectioned off in

“3 Warnings”

“3 Ways forward”

and a “””Case Study””” of what happened in the Silmarillion fandom.

Warning 1: Be aware that your fandom is a baby.

Nominally, the game has been out for less than a month. Most people who will write amazing fanfics for your favorite characters maybe don’t even have the game yet because they can’t afford it until the Christmas sales, or they just haven’t finished it yet (like me). Most people don’t want to write for a fandom until they have consumed all available canon. You don’t know how the fandom will look like yet, but you can start building a solid foundation to influence it.

Warning 2: Don’t alienate the Astarion-fans.

Astarion is fandom-bait. He is the exact kind of character people who ‘don’t get it’ have been fuming over for decades, and who people who ‘do get it’ get obsessed with. He is the exact formula that has been working since at least the 80s: A morally grey bad boy with slightly edgy good looks who is also - and this is THE key for this kind of fandom-bait - very vulnerable and can absolutely be made into a better person/ be healed by his love interest.

This is why most heroes in (especially older) romance novels work. This is why Lestat worked. This is why Kylo Ren worked.

The thing is - the people who go gaga over him now? A lot of them will grow bored at some point. Either they will leave the fandom, or they will become invested in other characters from this fandom.

So the worst thing you can do is make them feel like the femslash community is rude, confrontational, whiny. Sorry, but that is how fandom works.

Fanwriters write fanfics for 2 reasons: 1. They have fun while writing something specific. 2. They get great interactions because they write something specific. If they look at the f/f corner and see people constantly fighting or complaining, guess what? They won’t be as interested in writing about their favorite female characters. And especially in Baldur’s Gate 3, the female characters are not easy to love, but once you do, they have potential to make you into absolute stans. I disliked Lae’zel a lot during Act 1, but by now I honestly think she’s the absolutely cutest. And Shadowheart is definitely intriguing, but I want to know how her story ends before I get really invested in her. (And we don’t even have to talk about Karlach…)

Warning 3: Lurkers have no voice in fandom.

Sorry, but this is a fact. If you don’t write fanfic or draw fanart, you don’t get to complain about what other people draw/write about. We create fanworks because we are enjoying them, not because of some social obligation. We are giving you free labor, and if you keep complaining about the things we write because it’s not what you want to see, we will just be less likely to write the things you want to see. So if you don’t create your own fandom content, you can whine as much as you want, but you will just make those who actually do create look at your whole niche of fandom with way less interest than they might have had.

Now, what can you actually do to build the basis for a solid femslash subfandom?

Measure 1: For lurkers: Support those who create fanworks you like.

And I’m not saying financially. I’m coming from an old-school-fandom perspective here. You know what will absolutely make me want to write another fic for a pairing that maybe doesn’t have as much works about them as the big ships? Really, really nice people who either write detailed comments on my fics, or who engage with me on social media - like, actively comment on my post or even hop in my DMs and tell me how much they liked something I have written.

Complaining about people who don’t write your ships is the worst thing you can do. Celebrating people who do write your ships is the best thing you can do.

Measure 2: For most writers: Kind of logical, but - write.

Write long-fic, short-fic, flash-fic about your favorites. Plaster your social media profiles with it. Do monthly challenges, request your pairings in cross-fandom exchanges, write long rambly threads about how awesome they are. Right now, YOU get to potentially create the fanon. You get to sway people’s opinions of characters. And you get to actively build this community.

And please, try not to get discouraged if it’s hard at first. Like I said - this fandom is a tiny baby that only just started screaming its little red head off. New fans will come. And they will do the same as the person in the screenshot, and maybe if they actually look through the ‘other tag’ bar or by filtering for F/F, they will find your works and be super happy about it.

Measure 3: For fans who want to invest more time and effort: Organize cool stuff for your community.

Fests, exchanges, challenges, discord servers, tags on tumblr or mastodon - there are tons of things you can make happen that will inspire people to create. Make a femslash month with themed weeks and prompts every day, for example, both for fanfic, fanart, edits, fanvids, whatever kind of fan-work anybody wants to contribute. Or make a challenge with a list of prompts, or a generator, or anything else you personally are able to do. Invite people to participate. Make it easy. Make it fun and welcoming.

And now to my “”case study”” which is completely anecdotal but which definitely left an expression on me.

The situation: The winter of  2013/2014. The second Hobbit movie has come out, Elrond is hot, Galadriel is hot, Tauriel is polarizing, Legolas looks weird. A ton of new people come into the Tolkien fandom, and discover the Silmarillion.

The Silmarillion-fandom has to deal with a new influx of people like it never has since the LotR-films. These are new fans who are used to new fandoms, not the LJ-survivors who make up a lot of the fandom. The new fans glom onto the usual suspects - Maedhros/Fingon, especially. But with Galadriel and Tauriel being so prominent in the Hobbit movies, the few fans who were already trying to put some femslash flavor in this fandom suddenly get a trickle of new people. Not that many. But some.

And then somebody decides to try and build a little bed for that trickle. Tumblr-User Elleth (not sure if she’s still around) creates the (by now defunct) archive “Textual Ghosts” to register all 600 unnamed wife characters in Tolkien’s work. A labor of extreme love for a fandom, and a big stepping stone for a developing femslash-subfandom. Soon afterward, tumblr-user Elleth and I start the first Legendarium Ladies April Event (legendariumladiesapril.tumblr.com) which would - without my continued support because I’m a fickle bitch and I’m still sorry about that - continue until 2020 and fill the event archives on AO3 with 150 new fics - which doesn’t seem a lot, but it also leaves out a lot of fanfics, fanart, fanpoems, fanedits etc. that were only ever posted on tumblr.

Meanwhile, I - always a multi-shipper and not devoted only to femslash, but VERY devoted to kinky smut which is also not really such a big thing in the Silmarillion fandom at this time - open a kink meme for the fandom. It creates a few new smuttier fanworks, but it also creates a few handful of female-centric works when I make a mini-event for world women’s day.

I am sorry to say that I abandoned this one too after about a year or two, but the kink meme is still there. (It would take another 8 years for somebody to be like “Hey so maybe you have incapacitating adhd, would you like to try ritalin?”)

Anyway, in this way, that trickle did become a brook. The M/M and even M/F works still outnumbered the F/F ones by miles, but F/F fans (and fans of female-centric works) WERE fed. And maybe more importantly - we built a community of people interested in the stories of women who were treated extremely badly by their source material. We made friends, we wrote stories for one another, we had fun. And that’s how you make a community within a fandom - you find some way to make it FUN.

(If Elleth should read this, I’m sorry for being an absolute flake, you’re wonderful.)

Oh also this is when I realized I’m not straight. So there’s that, too.

So if really love a fandom and you want to have more femslash works in this fandom? Start working towards it. You don't have to do it alone, there are other people out there who want to help you. But you need to find each other.

And you REALLY need to encourage each other.

(And also, stop making people outside of the femslash space associate you with nothing but complaints. That's not going to bring anybody into the fold. Be inviting, welcoming, have fun, be a positive community people WANT to join.)

And just to make my own position a little clearer:

[bangtaninborderland]

𝘗𝘑𝘔: 𝘛𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘔𝘦

𝙎𝙪𝙢𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙮: Jimin asks for your trust once more and this time you give it to him. Inspired by this video.

Genre: Fluff, angst, minor smut / smut references.

Warnings: smut - angst.

A/N: I really worked so hard on this please share your thoughts, I’m happy to take requests and drabbles based on this couple. Thank you so much for all the love you have shared on the first two chapters, the response was overwhelmingly beautiful I’m so glad 300 of you have enjoyed it enough to like it!

Taglist: @filtrmin @blairtann @parkjiminlovies

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A month had passed since the incident between you and Jimin and despite how scared you felt that night things had been better since. He had been around more as the members finally had a break and for the first time it fell right on your birthday.

For the past week Jimin had been obsessing over it, making sure you got to celebrate it together, every day he would bring you something home. He said your actual gift would arrive the day after your birthday, you’d lost track of how many times he had apologised even though you’d told him it was fine.

In all honesty the best gift was him.

You hear the door close which can only mean one thing, he is home. You rush down the stairs leaving your paperwork all over the desk, that could wait.

“Hey baby.” He chucked wrapping his arms around you, placing a kiss delicately upon your forehead.

“How was practice?” You look up at him through your lashes, even though they had a week off Jimin said they still had to practice at least once just to get the new choreography right.

He brushes a loose hair from your face. “It wasn’t as good as being with you.”

“Okay okay I missed you too.” You release him and make your way to the kitchen.

You hear him pull the chair out as you finish cooking the dinner you had started some hours earlier.

You turn to him only to see his eyes fixed on you making you blush. “Did you eat already?”

“No I thought we could eat dinner together today.” He smiles.

“I tried to make it as healthy as I could just in case.” You explain showing him the vegetables and kimchi you had prepared.

You feel his arms link around your waist as his head rests on your shoulder. “You didn’t have to do that I would have ate anything you made.”

You giggle at the way he grows so clingy, you wouldn’t think he was nearly 28. “I know even on a break you like to try and keep your body perfect. How comes you didn’t eat breakfast this morning?”

“I didn’t want to be late.” He humms.

You knew Jimin which is why you knew he was lying about that.

“Jimin.” You feel his hands fall from your waist as you turn towards him.

“Jagiya.” He winks but his usual distraction methods won’t work this time.

You wave the chopsticks you was using to stir the food at him. “Don’t Jagiya me, why didn’t you eat.”

“You know I can’t gain too much weight on this break.” You watch as his gaze drops to the floor.

“Jimin you won’t gain weight by eating more than one meal daily, you do more cardio than the whole of South Korea put together.” You walk over to him grabbing his hand.

You know how much pressure not only him but all of the members face to be perfect but even so his words still make you feel sorry.

“I see some posts, a lot of posts. They were saying I had gotten fat, that I looked like a chubby kid again. I don’t want army to see me that way, I don’t want people to think like that.”

You place your hands on his face, making him look at you. “You are not fat, you are not Chubby and you are not a kid. Have you ever actually looked at the comments army gives you?”

You watch as he shakes his head and you let out a sigh. “Stay here.”

You head up the stairs, grabbing your phone from the desk you had abandoned earlier. You was going to show him a side of social media he had most likely not taken much notice of.

“What’s that?” He asks pointing to your phone screen.

You blank face him, making him laugh. “Twitter.”

“You use Twitter?” He asks raising an eyebrow as you lean against the counter next to him.

“I use Twitter to see videos of my boyfriend when he gets too busy working hard making millions of people happy.” You correct him.

“Upload a selfie.” You tell him.

He pulls out his phone opening Instagram “Why?”

“I mean on Twitter.” You laugh however that stops as you watch his eyes widen.

“I kind of deleted it, none of the other members post their much either.” He explains.

“I can’t believe you, instagram will do.”

You watch in silence next to him as he uploads a selfie he had sent you days before, you always love that you get to see pictures of him before they get posted, even though everyone knows most things about him you still have that small piece of him that’s only for you.

“Done.” He shows you, you read the caption that read “missing my Ami already.”

“Okay now watch.” You refresh the Twitter app on your phone.

You hand him the phone “Scroll through the timeline.”

He shakes his head before finally accepting and scrolling through. Thousands of people reacting to his newest upload had already started and watch as his face shows a vary of expressions, shocked, happy, confused.

“They really think all these things about me?” He asks looking up at you with tears in his eyes.

“Every single time you post a picture, a live, any content, that’s the way my Twitter looks. There’s always hundreds of these posts called threads that show people’s favourite moments of yours and it’s always about the words you say. The speech you gave “someone in seoul..” do you remember it?” You ask him and he nods.

“Hundreds of people post that and say they are having a bad day but that makes them happy. Your impact on these people go far beyond the way you look.” You watch as small tears stroll down his face, you brushing them away.

“Thank you for showing me this.” He smiles kissing you to which you reciprocate.

“You’re welcome, now let’s eat okay pretty boy?” You ask him making him laugh.

He nods at you, his eyes flicking down to your phone screen once more. You turn back to him as he calls your name.

“Why are they saying I probably have the prettiest cock?” He asks, making your face go red.

You rush to grab the phone from him but he holds it above your head and continues scrolling reading out the comments.

“Jimin looks so good Id let him use me.” “Jimin could just look at me and I’d orgasm.” “I’d throw myself in front of a bus to have jimin touch me once.” “Waking up to jimin must be the most amazing thing ever.” “Jimin knows he is going to drive us all insane.”

“Stop it.” You whine reaching for the phone.

You’re thankful when he stops teasing and hands it back to you. “So those are the kind of posts you read when you miss me?” He asks in your ear.

“N-no.” You stutter, his body pressing against yours.

“Do I have the prettiest cock?” He asks, his shyness gone.

“Well..” you whisper.

You squeal as he lifts you up and places you on the counter surprising you. “I said do I have the prettiest cock or should I get it out and make you tell me?”

“You know you do.” You mumble, trying to hide your embarrassment.

“Good girl, next time don’t make me ask twice.” He wraps his hand around your neck as he kisses you roughly.

You can’t help but widen your legs allowing him to press himself against you.

“Jimin” you moan into his mouth.

He humms back too focused on kissing you.

“I want you.” You moan.

You watch as he pulls back, the hand around your neck loosening, falling to your lap instead. You push your hips up, your need for his touch becoming overwhelming.

He rubs his thumb over your pussy through your pants. You curse yourself for wearing sweats. “Let’s go to the room.” You whisper trying to pull him closer to you.

“Not yet baby.” He shakes his head his hand pulling away. “We both need to eat and it’s your birthday tomorrow.”

“You can be my gift.” You pout at him.

He runs his thumb over your lips. “Good girls don’t huff. Go clean up I’ll finish dinner.”

You want to roll your eyes at him but by now you know butter so with a sigh you jump off the counter and head to the bathroom.

You didn’t have a lot of time before dinner was cooked which meant having a bubble bath was out of the option so you settled for a shower. You didn’t realise how badly you needed one until the warm water trickled down your skin relaxing your muscles.

As comforting as it was you didn’t want to make jimin wait, you quickly washed yourself and your hair before hopping out and wrapping a towel around you, as always jimin had forgotten to hang the robes back up so you was forced to run across the apartment into your bedroom.

Jimins voice was faint but you could hear him talking on the phone, you never knew if it was business or personal and you never wanted to invade his privacy so you ignored it and continued getting dressed.

After throwing on one of his shirts and a pair of your shorts you headed back downstairs, you had hoped he would have finished with his call by now but he hadn’t so you waited in the hall, hoping not to disturb him.

As much as you had learned to ignore his calls you couldn’t help but pick up a few words, he didn’t sound happy.

“-I’m not lying to her.” Jimins voice shouted in a hush.

Only now did you wish you could hear the other person.

He sighed.“I get that but I’m doing this for her.”

“She won’t think of it as lying she thinks we was rehearing Hyung.” So he was talking to one of the members and he lied about being at rehearsal.

“I don’t want her to hear me I’ll call you when she goes to sleep, I don’t want her to have any idea.” You hear him hang up the phone and you quickly hide being the door as you see his head turning.

You leave it a few seconds before entering the room, not wanting to make it obvious that you had heard his call.

“Hey you.” You mumble taking a seat at the table.

You watch as he carries over the pot of food you had made. He places it in front of you with a smile as he hands you a bowl. “How was your shower?”

“It was okay.” You mumble, filling your bowl.

You see him sit down opposite you out of the corner of your eyes “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing, so what was you rehearsing today?” You asked him, forcing a smile.

You watched as his hands froze for a second before he shook his head, adding more kimchi to his plate. “We practiced the choreography for idol. It has been a whilst since we did it last.”

“You only practiced one song in five hours?” You knew you had to fix your tone before you gave away that you had heard his call.

“You know what Namjoon Hyung and Jin Hyung are like, besides Jungkook kept making us laugh, we practiced Dionysus and Yet to come too. What did you do today?” He smiles at you picking up his chopsticks.

You noticed he changed the conversation but you let it go, you wanted to ask him what was really on your mind but you didn’t want to give him the wrong idea.

“I worked on some things, filled in some paperwork and sent some emails. I had a call from your eomma she asked if we would visit her soon so I told her that we could go on your next weekend off if that’s okay?” You look up at him but you see he isn’t focused on what your saying as his eyes are fixed to his phone screen.

“Uh yeah that sounds great.” You watch as his phone rings.

“I’ll be back in a moment finish eating.” He said tucking his chair in as he walks towards the stairs.

You watch him run up them only hearing him say hello to whoever was calling, your appetite had long gone so you tidied up your food and cleaned your plate. The sun hadn’t set completely yet so you decided to make the most of it and go for a walk.

“Jimin?” You call out but you get no response.

You groan but begin making your way up the stairs but the words you hear make you stop. Your heart drops and you feel the food you just ate coming back up. “She won’t be my girlfriend anymore.”

You silently run back down the stairs, you grab your phone and your shoes and head outside, Closing the door behind you silently.

You send jimin a text so he doesn’t worry, not that it matters if he is planning to break up with you.

To: jiminie.

“I’m going for a walk, didn’t want to interrupt. Be home soon 💜”

You attached his usual heart emoji so he didn’t think anything would be wrong but you cried as you pushed send, your heart aching at the thought of being without jimin.

You didn’t actually know where to go. You didn’t want to walk around and cry, you had friends but they weren’t the kind of friends you talked to about these things, you never shared much of yours and jimins relationship to anyone out of fear they would sell the information so there was only one person you could talk to. One person you trusted.

You searched for the number not hesitating to call. It took a few rings for him to pick up but you suddenly didn’t feel alone anymore once you heard his voice.

“What’s wrong?” He asked, you could tell he was sleeping from his rough voice.

“Yoongs I need to talk but you can’t tell Jimin.” You explain.

“You want me to pick you up?” He asked making you smile.

“Yes, I’m near Jimins apartment.” You direct him.

You hear him open his door. “I’ll be there soon, go wait at the coffee shop.”

“Okay.” You don’t wait around as the phone call ends.

There was one coffee shop in the whole of seoul that you and the members could go to and be in privacy, an old lady owned it and it was run by her grandson, when you and jimin had first gone the woman had noticed him and had asked if he would like to eat inside. He declined for obvious reasons but she shushed him, she showed you a back room, a small room with a view of a lake nearby, there was windows but no one was able to see.

Slowly it became safe place for you all, whenever you would go she would take you to the back room and eventually her grandson did the same thing, neither of them ever asked for a picture or a autograph and no one ever knew you was there, one time a flood damaged the building so Jimin paid to have it fixed. Anonymously of course but she knew who it came from and she had always been grateful, giving you free sandwiches every time you went.

It didn’t take you long to reach the building but you was grateful when you did, the homely smell filling your nose.

“It’s lovely to see you!” She embraces you quickly guiding you through to the back room, you wasn’t an idol but she made you feel just as important.

You hugged her back. “Ajumma, how have you been?”

“I’m fine! I’m fine don’t worry about me, how are you? How is everyone it’s been weeks since I see any of you!” She flaps her hand at you, taking the seat opposite.

“We haven’t had much time Jimin has been busy at work and so have I. I feel bad for not coming by more.” You smile at her.

“Don’t you worry, we all get a little busy sometimes. What can I get you ?” She asks, patting your head lightly.

“Two coffees and maybe a tangerine or maybe five tangerines.. if you have any?” You ask her earning a laugh.

“Ah mister Min will be coming, I’ll bring them right out for you. I’ll let him know you’re here!”

“Thank you.” She smiles as she opens the door and you bow to her.

You always missed your eomma, you hadn’t seen her much since moving to Seoul it made you often feel like a bad daughter but you’d send money home whenever you could.

Your phone buzzed but you didn’t bother looking, you knew it would be Jimin. You watched out the window as you waited for Yoongi, jimins words were running though your mind no matter how hard you tried to think about something else.

You felt a hand touch your shoulder making you jump, you had grown so focused you didn’t hear the door open.

“It’s just me.” Yoongi calms you down.

You stand up and give him a hug. “You scared me”

“I could tell.” He mumbles pulling away. He wasn’t always a fan of physical attention but he always had a soft spot for you wether he admitted it or not.

You watch as he pulls out the seat next to you, his eyes watching the world go by out the window. “It’s beautiful isn’t it?”

You nod as he looks to you, “so what happened?”

You always found it easy to talk to yoongi, Jimin was close with all the members and in a way you was too but you had grown a true friendship with yoongi, not one based off the fact you was Jimins girlfriend but because you see him as another ordinary being so you had grown to become fond of his bluntness and you appreciated that.

“I think Jimin is going to break up with me.” You state, you watch as his eyes widen and his mouth open his face falling into that classic confused look you’d see in a bad comedy movie.

Before he could respond the door opened.

“Ajumma let me help you.” You mumbled rushing to take the coffees from her.

“Aish go and sit down im not that old.” She waves her hand at you as you place the coffees on the table in front of Yoongi.

“Ah Suga.” She smiles at Yoongi and he laughs.

“Ajumma you can call me Yoongi” he bows to her, accepting the bowl of tangerines she hands him.

“You know I like to have a laugh with you, how are you? How is your family?” She asks patting his shoulder.

“They and I are okay. I went home this weekend to visit them, they said the next time they are in Seoul they will come by to thank you for taking care of their son.”

You watch as her small smile grows into a grin. “I am happy to take care of you all. I have to get back to work now but you two just let me know if you need anything, say goodbye before you leave.”

“Thank you.” She smiles at you both as she leaves.

“You asked her for tangerines?” He asks picking one from the bowl.

You smile. “You have an unhealthy obsession over them.”

“They are good for you.” He groans peeling the skin off.

“Yeah and so is the gym but I can’t remember the last time you went.” You can’t help laughing but it doesn’t lasts long as Yoongi gives you a look that shuts you up.

He rolls his eyes before flashing you his gummy smile, he always knew how to make you feel better. “So why do you think Jimin is going to break up with you.”

“I know he is.” You huffed stirring the coffee.

“That still doesn’t tell me why you “know” he will.”

“Because Yoongi I heard him tell someone on the phone that I won’t be his girlfriend anymore, I heard him again on another call say that he wasn’t lying to me. So maybe I figured it out.” Your voice sounds angry but inside you’re just hurt.

“Look you can’t assume something so big from hearing one sentence, you should talk to him because as much as I can sit here and tell you what I think none of it may be the reality.” That was another reason you liked talking to yoongi, he had the best advice.

“I can’t do that, I can’t face him yet I’ll just cry and you know how he gets when I’m crying.” You explain taking a sip of coffee.

You almost want to laugh when you realise Yoongi had already ate three of the tangerines. Even in his most wise moments he was in love with the fruits.

“The longer you wait the worse it will be, you could always ask someone who Jimin talks to.” He looks down to your phone and your eyebrows frown.

“That’s why I called you.”

“I mean someone who he talks to about this kind of stuff.” You watch as he pulls his phone out of his pocket. He hands it to you after dialling a number and you bring it to your ear.

“Hello?” You mumble unsure of who Yoongi called.

“Long time no see.” You scoffed at the voice. Of course it would be him.

“You know you can’t see me right so what you just said is completely wrong but yes it’s been a long time.”

You hear him laugh. “How can I help.”

“I feel a little awkward asking this but is Jimin going to break up with me?” You whisper the last few words, afraid of sounding ridiculous.

You want to throw the phone when you hear his laughter burst out uncontrollably. “Jimin would never do that. Did you hit your head?”

You laugh at his tone, he always made you smile. “I heard him talking on the phone about it, I’m not delusional I promise.”

“I think you should talk to Jiminah about it, you know the talks we have I don’t share. If you want my advice you don’t have to worry.” He explained.

You understood the position he was in, he had to put his friendship with Jimin first and that’s something you would never ask him to not do. Even if it meant you being clueless and hurt.

“Thank you hobi and for making me smile”

“You’re welcome. That’s why I’m everyone’s hope.” He hangs up a few seconds later and you hand Yoongi his phone back.

“So feel any better?” He asks placing his coffee cup back on the table.

“Not really but I shouldn’t have jumped to this conclusion so fast. I should go home and talk to him.” You mumble the words hoping that he doesn’t hear them but when he smiles and stands up you know he has.

“I’ll take you home.” He looks out the window on the door and he turns back to you.

“I can’t go out there.”

Maybe being with Jimin had you familiar with his tone but you knew what that meant. You walked over to the window and looked out of it.

“Why is it so busy out there?” You ask, turning back to him.

“I don’t know, it seems like something is happening.” He explains his head peking out of the window.

“Let me go check.” You smile at him, although he couldn’t risk being in such a busy place alone you could.

“Ajumma!” You shout through the crowd but you had no response, you couldn’t see Daesong around anywhere either.

You looked around a little more before finally finding Da-som crouched behind the counter.

“Ajumma what happened why is it so busy in here?” You ask, watching her hands try to fix the light in the display cabinet.

“A tourist groups bus broke down they found the cafe and wanted to wait here until they could get some help. Here you and mister Min should go out the back door, just leave the keys in the flowerpot outside.” She hands you a set of keys, pointing out the one for the door.

“Is there anything I can help with before we go?” You ask worried about the older lady.

“Don’t worry I’ll be fine you go on about your day if anything the extra custom will help me.” She smiles shooing you away with her hand.

“Okay have a good day and stay healthy, thank you for everything Ajumma.” You wave to her and walk back into the room where yoongi was waiting taking pictures by the window.

“Oh look at your selca king.” You laugh waving the keys at him.

“I promised army I would post more but it’s hard, I think they will like the site.” He smiles pushing his phone into his pocket.

“Yeah yeah whatever you say you love taking selcas and then you don’t post them. Let’s go out the back.” You sigh unlocking the second door.

“Did you find out why it was so busy?” He asks, pulling his face mask up and his hat down.

“A tourist bus broke down so they came here.” You explained.

Once you was outside you follow the instructions given to you and placed the keys inside the flower pot next to the door.

You walked a few steps behind Yoongi as always. If any fans or paparazzi found him that way you could make it seem like you was just another passer by. The boys had told you time and time again you didn’t always have to be like that but you couldn’t explain how bad you would feel if you became the reason that they ended up facing some bad media. The dispatch deal helped but it didn’t stop everything.

You made sure to look around you before entering Yoongis car, thankfully no one see you meaning neither of you would be front page on some trashy media site.

“So I’m taking you home?” He asks, adjusting his mirror.

You sigh, nodding. “I guess so.”

“You need to talk to him.” He reminds you, not that you needed it.

“Home it is.” You confirm.

You listen as he connects his phone to the car, it was a short drive but you both welcomed the music.

“Is this you?” You ask turning the sound up a little more.

“Yeah I guess it is.” He laughs.

“What’s it called?” You ask, Jimin hasn’t played this song for you before.

“People .” He laughs.

“I like it. How comes I’ve never heard it before. ”

“Thank you. Ask Jimin.” He smiles at you and you roll your eyes.

“I already have too much to ask him.” You hit his arm laughing.

“Can I ask you something?” He asks, his eyes fixed on the road.

You hum in agreement.

“Why did you call me instead of talking to Jimin straight away.”

You thought for a minuet, the question was unexpected. “I think I always find myself calling you because I know you’ll be honest. You’ve never lied to me, never broken a promise, if I ask you how something looks you’ll tell me if it’s good or bad but you’re still aware of emotions. You’re insightful.”

“Wow, you sure you don’t want to write a poem about me?” He laughs and you hit his arm again.

“Aish! Do you want me to crash? I will you know.” He waves his hand at you which you slap away.

“Go for it, it’s not my car.” You side eye him and he forever a scowl at you.

You had been laughing so much with Yoongi you hadn’t realised that he had entered to parking lot for Jimins apartment. It was only then that the butterflies fled your stomach, your mind and heart racing.

“Hey you can do this, I’m just one call away.” Yoongi nods at you.

“Thank you for being there for me today.” You smile at him before closing his car door behind you.

“If I can help I will.” He smiles through the window.

You wave to him as he drives off, you begin your slow walk back to the apartment.

After choosing to take the stairs and going up them slower than you ever thought humanly possible you arrived at the front door, you reluctantly pressed the key pad.

You was hoping the ground would open up and eat you but it didn’t so you slowly pushed the door open. You didn’t have any time to prepare yourself as you see Jimin laying on the couch.

“You’re home.” He smiles walking over to you, his arms wrapping around you, his familiar scent filling your nose.

The arms that once felt safe to you became more like a weight with every passing second.

“I heard your call.” You blurted out, the words unprepared.

“What?” Jimin steps back, his eyes roaming over your face.

“I heard what you said about me Jimin, that i won’t be your girlfriend anymore.” Your eyes fall to the floor, you didn’t want him to see the tears already forming.

“You.. I.. just I need to explain okay?” He asks, his hand rubbing your arm.

For the first time every you shrug his arm off, you look up only to see his face filled with hurt. “Are you going to break up with me?”

“I would never do that!” He shakes his head.

“Then why did you say that I wouldn’t be your girlfriend anymore?” You ask, the tears slipping down your face and no matter how much you wanted to look away you couldn’t.

“Because I don’t want you to be my girlfriend.”

You swear your heart breaks at that moment. Time stops and for a few second you guarantee your breath does too. You don’t say anything, you don’t even look at him. You begin walking to the stairs, the idea of packing everything and leaving solidified in your mind but before you could take a step his voice fills your ears.

“I want you to be my wife.”

[bonesandthebees]

now I'm not trying to doompost bc it's clear tumblr isn't going anywhere at least for the next few months, but since we're very unsure about the long term of everything I am trying to think of alternatives bc I'm going to be genuinely heartbroken if tumblr ever shuts down. this website has been my primary social media since 2014. I've met so many friends through here and on this blog specifically we've built such a lovely community i'm just arghhh thinking about it

anyway, again not trying to doom post, but I want a backup to be ready

unfortunately, the only reasonable alternative social media I can think of in terms of actually having an active userbase is moving completely to twitter. which sucks for many many reasons. however, in the event this ever becomes necessary, I'm debating making a second twitter that I'll only reveal the username of on here and not have it publicly connect with any of my bonesandthebees stuff. then I'll just lock it onto priv once I think most of the people who follow me here who wanna move over have gotten in. of course this would suck in the sense that new people wouldn't be able to follow me but just. ugh. it's so complicated.

is it dramatic to be like "I want a secondary twitter only for my tumblr followers"? yeah a little, I'm aware of that. but it's the only way I'd feel comfortable posting my thoughts as freely as I do on tumblr on twitter. no clue how I'd work out an equivalent to the anon system we got going on. maybe I'd have a curiouscat and hopefully since the twitter account would be priv it wouldn't get overrun with weird shit?? idk man i'm just brainstorming here and thought I'd let you all know what i'm thinking.

again, not doomposting. business is continuing as usual for the forseeable future. just though I'd let you all know my ideas for options so far

[masonika]

♢𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘁 | 𝗿𝗲𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗲.♢

Day 2 of me posting my SMG4 artwork!

March 2023 - Hal Monitor (Humanized) and SMG3 on a Unicycle

I was honestly surprised on never seeing one of my favorite characters have a human design, so I did one myself and would like to imagine that he has somewhat of a cherry brunette look to him. Oh and uh for what he is wearing it's an actual monitor, or you could call it a visor. I based that off of Future!Tom from the Eddsworld movie/special). In the other artwork, it was a request from James himself on Twitter that he wanted SMG3 on a unicycle. Fans provided and someone I know has been recognized which I am proud of them for. But yeah, I made this for the funny and I mean, who else can help the purple man besides Eggdog?

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June 2023 - Life is But A Dream and Gothic Hunter SMG3

So I added horror elements to the TV and I wanted to add a creepy scenario of it. I think if I recall, this was before or after the events on when the TV showed up during the Wild West special. But I forgot since it's been awhile. This piece I went all out with my shading and wanted to experiment dramatic effect. Which was nice. Now for the Gothic Demon Hunter, SMG3? This is an AU that I still have yet to make. The AU is called "The Last Moon", it's about a hunter that hunts down demons but in space. So practically, the Meme Guardians that take place in here are not Meme Guardians, but they do have an interesting past. I won't reveal much but more shall come once the story releases. (If I ever have the motivation...)

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May 2023 - SMG4's Birthday x Slime Rancher 2 Crossover

Final piece of the day is something that I planned months for and worked about 2-3 weeks in advance. This was an art piece that I've made special for Luke. It was a painting as well as appreciation and gratitude for all the things that he has done during my childhood. He brought me laughs, joy, and something to smile for. And even if I didn't personally know the guy, his content as well as his team meant a lot to me. I was there during his first video and seeing how much his channel grew, left a soft spot in my heart. It taught me so many things. He also inspired me to keep going as a fellow artist and fan and that is something that I will truly cherish. I have so much to thank him for. It may have been unfortunate that he wasn't able to see my artwork on Twitter, but it didn't bother me in the end. I know that he can be a busy guy and there are other amazing people out there doing the same for him and the team. Personally, what really matters is that I least made many fans smile with what I create and that itself is good enough for me. ❤️

~Masonika

[nakanotamu]

Rossy got fired from stardom??????????

LMAOOOO I was just about to post "lmao Rossy got fired" and then I saw this yeah apparently he got fired after the show last night. I never got around to writing that post about the management issues so I guess I'l try and summarize some relevant points before people panic

Okay so Rossy was off of booking since some time last year. We don't know for sure but my guess is that All Star Grand Queendom was his last show as booker, based on the belt going to Tam apparently being his decision and the timing of when stuff started to fall apart very shortly after that.

He was highly critical of the last president (who had been booking) once that guy got fired - and the issues with him were more than just booking. This was the stuff Giulia talked about. Like the schedule he booked was way too grueling on the wrestlers with non-stop big matches & shows back to back to back, and he would book matches just out of the blue without paying any attention to the stories the wrestlers were trying to tell, where Rossy's style was to just let the wrestlers throw out story threads themselves and then book what he thought would sell out of what they wanted to do. He also just was an idiot and didn't seem to think particularly highly of wrestling in the first place, pushing tons and tons of product tie-ins and advertising shit and the fucking NFT shit and. Yeah he sucked

However despite being highly critical of the last guy once he was gone, Rossy also said he didn't comment on the decisions he was making. He also may have been the one who decided who won or lost in the period before the new president came in, but from what's been made public at least, as soon as he came in he took over, so Stardom since whenever that was like the start of December has been the new president in charge.

So what I'm trying to say is, at least creatively, this probably isn't actually a huge change for Stardom compared to the past roughly a year of the product. People freaking out that the booker is just suddenly gone, he apparently hasn't been the booker for a while already now anyway. If you didn't notice a change in booking twice last year you probably won't notice this either.

So, yeah, Rossy did get fired. Bye bitch, it would be nice if this meant Sonny is on the way out too. Rossy is absolutely fucking not the guy who saved joshi wrestling or whatever the fuck narrative he & a lot of western wrestling media have been trying to present him as for years now. This probably isn't going to lead to a massive shift in Stardom's booking compared to what it's already been for months, and just as a fan we have no way of knowing what else this is going to impact, because it's hard to tell how much influence he even had for the past year, which was admittedly bad but more recently imo showing signs of turning around.

I think it's worth pointing out that one of the things that drove me off of both Reddit and Twitter wrestling fandom is that whenever shit like this happens everybody's gotta be a fucking insider or whatever and we don't. Know. Anything. But further than that it's not our fucking problem. We don't work for Bushiroad and we don't know anybody involved. We don't NEED to worry about what this means for The Business or whatever the fuck because that doesn't matter to us. I care about the roster being treated well and the product being one I am enjoying, and Rossy already couldn't prevent both of those things from not happening last year, so obviously he's not gonna be the difference maker.

My concern if I have one though is mostly the roster. If people are loyal enough to him to start jumping ship that would really suck. If the rumours that are already going around that he was poaching people for a potential NXT Japan pan out in any way that would REALLY suck. Even if the entire roster went I'm not going to watch a WWE product or even a show that isn't women in every match. So I guess as ever all we can do is wait and see.

[utilitycaster]

wrt using 2016 fandom as a cudgel: in your experience, to what degree is that manifesting these days as "things were better back in the good old days" as opposed to "the fandom sucked back then so that justifies me refusing to hear criticism of my faves now"? or is it roughly equal and the degree of fervor behind that sentiment just depends more on the demographics of whichever social media site you're using?

So please take this with a mountain of salt in that I know a decent amount about the Reddit through having dealt with the guy who founded it and through people I know who check it out, but I rarely actually go there, and similarly I don't care much for Twitter. Please also note that I started watching in 2018, and then lurked around the Tumblr fandom (as someone already on Tumblr) for about 5 months [was simultaneously binging C1 and watching C2 week to week, caught up around July 2018] before actually making this sideblog, so I was not myself there in 2015-2017.

With that said, my understanding is that it's the social media site you're using. Reddit is bemoaning the good old days when you could order the cast pizza and Matt posted dropboxes of his stuff regularly and forgetting that like, early episodes were filmed in an Ikea set from the mid-90s with sound that sounded like it was coming out of a cassette player from the mid-90s and more importantly that there was a strong group of rampant misogynists. Tumblr, meanwhile, has people who unironically think that there is some magic threshold of toxic misogyny after which you are indefinitely excused from even a whiff of anything that isn't adoring praise. I suspect, honestly, the Reddit is fueling much of the Tumblr discourse, because it feels like this attitude on Tumblr had been on a strong downswing during Campaign 2 and the few stragglers who were around (and who tipped me off to this phenomenon in the first place) rage quit at the end, but it's now being dragged around, Weekend At Bernie's-style, by people I legit do not remember seeing before like, a year ago.

I think there are valid discussions to be had because, frankly, every member of the cast has in some way been done dirty by the fandom, and on Tumblr at least I think that's been getting better every year as the cast continues to show off their range and grow more confident. But I also think, as the fandom picks up new people - which is good - you get this very ahistoric idea of What It Was Like (and again: I admit openly that I was there in 2018; I was not there in 2016). Like, people will claim that a woman character wouldn't get the same hate if she were played by Liam and that's just...never been true. It's fine to be frustrated by the way people talk about your favorite character, but there is a way to talk about that that isn't just straight up lies and presumptions. And I think again that's people not realizing the Reddit is not a remotely reliable source of what the fandom was like, despite the Reddit attempting to be a recreation of what it was once like, because nostalgia is a hell of a drug.

Hence the "kill the Reddit within". Setting aside what you think was going on during the early years of the fandom, what's the fandom like now? What issues do we see now? Are they a continuation of that attitude, or have they arisen since then as the fandom changes? How can you thoughtfully address them now in a way that isn't passive-aggressive (or worse, outright harassment) or relies on flat-out incorrect claims?

[supop]

What do you think BTS will do next as soloists? Which member has been the most impressive in Chapter 2?

Hi hey hello :) I’ve been MIA for months but I’m surprised to see I’ve still been getting lots of asks. Did you miss me? Did ya did ya did ya? Going by the number of messages in my inbox I’d say, yes :) Sorry for ghosting you guys; I simply got bored with BTS and stopped keeping up with the group as whole. Meanwhile, their solo era has been fun to observe, huh? Some things I expected, other things I did not. I’m sure you’ve all missed supop thoughts. So, without further adieu, here are my guesses for 2023-2024, in no particular order:

Truthfully, I’ve been trying to post for the past 3 days but tumblr is glitching, and none of my posts are saving. Just as I was about to say F it.... if you can read this, then the issue must be fixed, right? This post hasn’t been proofread, so ignore any grammatical errors and the weird use of punctuation. I have a flight to catch soon, so I’ll answer more asks when I land, and as always.... keep it cute~

Individual YouTube channels (starting off with this because there’s been rumors about it for months now; I doubt all members will have one, but I feel like j-hope or Jungkook may go this route. I actually started to believe it when j-hope posted about his new Leica camera a while back. I know he’s into photography, but there’s always a deeper meaning behind everything he does/posts and he’s been carrying that camera around to all the events he’s been attending; maybe it’s just me overthinking, but it’s giving vlog material at the very least. Each member has a YouTube topic channel, but this will likely be a platform for more direct professional/business use where other creatives are featured or personal use for vlogging, trips, unedited material etc. without constant company oversight; aka without every single piece of content being scheduled by bighit/hybe and distributed via weverse; I also wonder if any more of them will get solo shows like Suchwita on the BangtanTV channel)

Individual Twitter accounts (this one seems farfetched, but so were their instagrams at one point; if they do indeed go this route I can eventually see some members leaving it up to the company to handle their respective social medias while others take a more hands-on approach with their fans—since instagram alone already seems like a struggle for some; they can also repost content from instagram which would also give them more individual exposure since the two social media platforms tend to have completely different audiences; it would also be nice for collaborators/brands/media to be able to tag them directly instead of @ the group account; finally, there’s a reason why each member has stuck to uploading all personal content on their respective instagrams since Dec 2021, so expect the group Twitter to become even more desolate than it already is if this does happen)

Individual TikTok accounts (Instagram, YouTube and Twitter....then why not TikTok too? It would make more sense when it comes to promoting their solo music and once again connecting with their respective audiences/fanbases; it only makes sense for solo artists to promote their solo work on solo accounts especially when their music and personalities are all so different; that’s 7 different audiences that should be catered to instead of trying to fit everyone into one big purple-colored box. All 7 members together represent BTS, but no single member is a representation of BTS; there’s a reason why JITB is completely different from anything BTS has released as group, and it’s the same reason why Indigo is so different from JITB; someone who likes JITB may not care for 90% of BTS’s discography and the same would apply to other members’ solo albums that have yet to be released; this is the obvious truth, but armys will continue to delude themselves as if the term bias doesn’t exist.)

Individual Facebook pages (and lastly, Facebook because all artists need a Facebook page to be able to link their music to their personal Instagram accounts; the BTS official Instagram account has it but when you scroll through you only see JK and RM’s music, which to me isn’t fair to other members who have music under their official Spotify profiles; the members are artists first, right? not influencers, therefore, artistry should be respected in a similar manner)

Opening their comment section on Instagram (limited comments are boring, but i don’t blame them; I’d sure they’re well aware that a select group of their “fans” are unhinged; just look at the way those same “fans” have attacked people who they’ve deemed to be “wrongly” associated with them or people they’ve “accidentally” followed; honestly I’m also worried about the occasional wave of hate/d.threats some members would receive in their comment sections from deranged akgaes; I will never understand not liking someone, yet going out of your way to invade their public accounts or content posted related to them just to spew hateful nonsense or send d.threats about how much you don’t like them; take a breather because it’s never ever that deep. And if you ever feel the need to take it that far towards anyone (celebrity figure or not), then may your pathetic existence quickly reach its expiration date; people also seem to have a lot more balls on instagram, so it’s a good thing Instagram’s safety features are a lot better than Twitter’s—i.e., the report and block buttons def work)

Following more people on Instagram (lol honestly following 0 people isn’t anything new from the celebrity pov and we can all thank Bey for establishing that, but following only your 7 group members is just...meh; are they gonna live as 7 for the rest of their lives? No, but they probably have to keep it this way otherwise there’s a possibility that every single non-bts related account on their following list would be harassed and stalked to oblivion by deranged fans; not to mention as it is, BH/Hybe staff already do such a great job at leaking private info related to BTS, you would think their proximity to such high-profile celebrities would result in ironclad NDAs but I guess not...sigh when will we be free)

Individual brand deals/endorsements (this one is already under way and was really really obvious from the start because we all know “7 or nothing”—not necessarily their bond but the way they’ve been marketed to fans—has always been nothing more than a sales gimmick; seriously not every member will have the skillset that a specific brand is looking for, so let’s let the ones who shine, shine; instead of trying to sell the lackluster ones as a package deal; “buy one get one free” should never apply to people; for the members yet to be announced there’s been rumors of various brands so let’s just wait and see...hopefully no controversial brands are chosen.

Individual fashion global ambassadorships (similar to the above, except I think only the members interested in fashion should get involved in this, but then again, this is the k-entertainment industry we’re talking about, and as of late ambassadorships have become part of the whole “album promo” package deal; either way I’m sure the money is good for BTS, and at the end of the day it’s a win-win; interest or not, the artist gets paid and the brand gets “exposure”) **side note: ambassadorships are cool, but the real deal would be with whichever brand pursues a true partnership with the artist by creating a collaborative fashion line or collection that expresses their artistic vision through fashion and/or even a performance that speaks to the brand’s image. pretty red carpet and campaign pictures are nice, but what the world needs is a tangible piece that can be held or tangible memory that can be seen. I think that’s what truly separates the artist-turned-fashion icon/creative director/business mogul from the rest.

More fashion week appearances (so far we’ve gotten Louis Vuitton, Dior, Hermès. I’m glad j-hope didn’t/hasn’t yet? signed with LV otherwise we never would’ve gotten 3 completely different, yet ultimately iconic looks from him in the span of just 3 days; Jimin for Dior; Suga for Valentino; other members may also attend shows for the brands they will be announced as Global/House Ambassadors) **another side note: Hobi wore clothes from LV’s unreleased collection which is rare feat in itself and he was also invited behind the scenes, shown the collection prior to the show, and he entered and exited the venue via a private entrance that was reserved for VIPs. I also saw a photo of Hobi with the Arnaults. Do you know how difficult it is to meet them? You can’t just meet them lol, they’d first have to want to meet you. And Hoseok did that with not 1, but 3 (maybe 4 because 2 of the brothers attended the Dior show) members of the family, including the LVMH CEO himself. It’s not even enough to be a high-profile celebrity; You usually have to have a long-standing working relationship with them or with one of their brands which means their connection with Hoseok must run pretty deep, and they have plenty of trust in him as a global representative. The same thing applies to Hermès. They do no care how rich or famous you are. Before you’re even able to purchase one of their bags directly, you’d have to be a longtime/VIP shopper. Even then getting a bag isn’t guaranteed. You’ll forever be on a waitlist, it could even take years, until you’re invited to purchase one. You also can’t pick and choose which model or color of bag you want lol. Everyone knows about the Birkin, but most are lucky to even be offered a Kelly for purchase. And not only did Hoseok meet with their executives, they also gifted him a Haut à courroies 50 bag (the one in his airport photos upon arrival from Paris) which is one of their largest bags, and is more difficult to secure than a regular Birkin. In short, he got the full VVIP treatment from both rival brands. Who else can relate? With that said, more than an ambassadorship, there could be a j-hope fashion line or a collection of some sort in the works; or perhaps he was doing field research to decide which brand will be in charge of designing his world tour outfits....who knows, only time will tell; as for fashion week there’s still New York, London, Milan, more in Paris, and even Seoul; appearances and shows will depend on the brand)

More solo magazine covers (this also isn’t anything new but even Hybe’s nugu groups with zero impact and lots of payola are already getting solo covers in top magazines, attending fashion week, and having brand ambassadorships under their belts, so it’s ridiculous it took BigHit/Hybe almost a decade to allow bts members the same opportunity)

Vogue, GQ, Hot Ones? video interviews (as much as I love a good magazine interview, there’s nothing better than being able to observe body language; I was surprised when we got GQ’s ‘10 things Jin’, but it only proves that more spontaneous less unscripted interviews where the gp can easily tune in are no longer beyond the realm of possibilities; which means I’m expecting Vogue to come through with any of the following: Life in Looks, 24 Hours with, 73 Questions, Get Ready with, Beauty Routine, etc; more 10 things with GQ; and Hot Ones would be great)

More solo interviews (see tv appearances)

More solo TV appearances w/Korean media (I know that new Mnet program is currently in the works; and I’m kind of hoping for more popular variety shows and broadcasts; anything that would promote their music domestically vs. the fan-targeted content posted on BangtanTV)

More solo TV appearances w/Western media (it’s no secret that Korean media can be restrictive when it comes to artistic expression, so similar appearances at tv programs like late night shows for an interview and performance would be great; just like they’ve done for many years as a group, so it’s ridiculous how they’re not getting a similar promotional rollout for their solo careers)

More solo red carpet appearances (this one technically isn’t a stand alone event, but you can include any activities here that aren’t necessarily centered around them or any of the other ones I’ve listed; like them getting invited to a movie premiere of a friend of a friend’s)

More solo performances (probably minor ones because I really don’t think any of them will put on a performance as major or as lengthy as the scale of Hobipalooza’s headliner setlist and preparation; unless of course its j-hope himself; as for festival performances, there’s of course Lollapalooza, but we also have Coachella, Rolling Loud, Something in the Water, Wireless Festival, Splash Festival, Made in America, The Governors Ball; most of these festivals have a primarily hip-hop/rap-centric audience, so don’t expect vocal line to make any appearances. I can’t speak for Yoongi or Namjoon, but I doubt Hoseok will be interested in doing anything less than a headlining stage. Otherwise expect performances at the usual Western music award shows, year-end Asian music award shows, and South Korea’s music bank/inkigayo)

Solo world tour announcement (we can dream right?)

More solo music collaborations (there’s been many rumors on this one so let’s way and see; hopefully collabs involving actual good music and more collabs with artists that don’t cater to the demographic of bubblegum pop music lovers; seriously enough is enough with the abysmal lyrics and the lack of good production on some of these collabs)

More solo albums (duh! and emphasis on the solo part; as much as I love a good feature or collab, there’s no good reason for those featured artists to be eating you up on your own song, much less album; features should add to the album, not make the album itself—especially when you’re a musician who aims to establish an individual identity and move away from the idea that you’re nothing without bts/without other people propping you up; next: jimin -> suga -> jungkook -> v ; in that order of album release is my guess)

More solo singles/EPs (the 94s; Namjoon has been hinting a lot at releasing new music, so likely an EP; I think Hoseok will also release another album before he enlists, if not an EP; I think they both have more options than other members since they’ve already officially debuted as soloists)

Subunit singles/EPs (once all of vocal line have released their solo albums, i can see BH trying to push for subunits; don’t expect full on albums with only 2 or 3 members on it, but I can definitely see a single or two or more happening; again likely with vocal line)

More OSTs (original soundtracks; again with vocal line)

More individual enlistments (they all technically have until early/mid 2024 to enlist if the tentative 2025 BTS reunion is supposed to happen, but once you taste the high life of individual freedom can you ever really go back to the mundane days of group work? Yoongi has until the end of 2023, Hoseok and Namjoon both have until the end of 2024, Jimin and Taehyung 2025, Jungkook 2027; I’m curious to see—to the absolute horror of armys—if anyone, especially maknae line, will put off their enlistment past 2024....I think Hybe was foolish to announce a “comeback” date; only doing so to calm investors and give themselves an additional 2 years to “ease their dependency on BTS” by bridging the profit gap between them and all their other groups; well if all else fails, i guess they’ll have the company stans to rely on)

or Paired enlistments (again? I really doubt a 2025 reunion will happen simply because a lot of things aren’t adding up at the moment, but if they enlist in pairs it may be a sure sign otherwise. It still makes me laugh how this time last year armys were so sure they’d be getting a bts world tour announcement only for it to be a hiatus + enlistment announcement instead. The signs of exhaustion from the members and lack of effort with the group in all aspects were way too obvious. I will never understand why fans keep deluding themselves. Seriously what group at the peak of success releases an anthology as an album? With only 3 new songs? And the purple warriors ate it right up. They could’ve at least put the demos on streaming platforms. Don’t even get me started on the 3 english songs that took over a year of “convincing” before the members agreed. Lmao my point is bts have never 100% been open about their plans, yet we all know they plan and settle things months in advance. Which means enlistment had likely already been decided on prior to the second leg of the ptd concerts. And yet, they showed no signs of it and acted like everything was swell. Even RM said the 2025 date was tentative; there’s also the Expo 2035 to consider, but after all those infrastructure problems, I’m pretty sure Busan won’t win the bid. People should accept that if the members want to keep doing their thing solo after 2025, then that’s okay. If they come back as a group, then that’s okay too. These days most of them seem happier and lighter being able to do their own thing without being tied down to the rigorous schedules that come with being “7”. So, why pressure them to do anything more as a group just to fulfill the selfish desires and needs of fans?)

Dating news ??? (this isn’t a big deal either and it’s none of our business but all it really takes is one member to open the floodgates of deranged hyperventilated tears; although it’d probably be in their best interests to continue to keep their personal lives private for that very obvious reason)

Grammys attendance (BTS has several nominations, but I doubt all 6 members will attend; j-hope’s Equal Sign was submitted for “Best Song for Social Change”; there’s been hints of a Pharrell collab involving RM; I doubt the Recording Academy will want to miss out on that BTS viewership clout so I expect at least one or two members to attend and maybe we’ll even get a performance from them)

Met Gala attendance !!!!!! (first comes FW....then comes....seriously, j-hope is just wow and this has to be said. I’ve seen the photos/videos from PFW and modeling/posing aside, not only does his entire aura change, but even his etiquette and mannerisms change depending on where he’s at and what he has on. It’s like the outfit and environment molds itself to him. It’s almost as if cameras were created for the sole purpose of capturing his presence. You know how Koreans have this thing of calling someone “Human [insert brand name here]” j-hope is like that but with every brand. As a longtime lover of fashion, it’s rare to see someone be able to digest every style so well. I can actually count on one hand the number of celebrities who are able to pull it off. He fits perfectly in everywhere he goes, and it’s no wonder why every show gave him the best seat in the house next to all their executives and other notable figures in the fashion industry. It’s amazing, not only do brands love him but so did all the photographers/journalists. He gives you something to write about just by simply existing. So it wouldn’t be a stretch to expect the star of this year’s Paris Fashion Week to finally make his Met Gala debut this May, right? Imagine j-hope attends, goes all out and does one of those behind the scenes ‘get ready with me’ videos with Vogue. Do you see the vision? He’s the only member who has a genuine passion for fashion, does his research, looks good in everything he wears, and isn’t just content with wearing whatever a stylist hands him. He’s also the only member who I’ve seen several designers go out of their way to praise. This year’s Met theme is super flexible too and I’m sure there’s lots of brands that would absolutely love to see j-hope ‘The MVP of Fashion Week’ dressed in their designs)

Hope On The Street Comeback (putting this out there just because there’s rumors that people saw him filming something dance related in Paris; what could it be? maybe for his YouTube channel? a MV? maybe LV ad campaigns or commercials of him dancing? one of the models danced at their recent show so i’m sure they’re open to incorporating more of that type of creative expression in their marketing; either way, if the rumors are true, then naturally we’ll find out soon enough because it’s j-hope)

Drama/Movie roles (lead, second lead, or guest appearances; I don’t think any of them will go this route until they’ve at least released a solo album because if they’re actually serious about their solo music careers, it’s much easier to take an established artist-turned-actor seriously, than it is to take an amateur actor-turned-artist seriously—especially in these fragile times of solo uncertainty for many)

Contract renewal announcement (their contracts expire in 2024?, but I don’t think all of them will renew with BigHit/Hybe; I doubt there’ll be any news on this until later this year at the earliest...although there may be leaks and speculation here and there; since solo activities are in full force—besides re-releasing BTS’s entire catalog as vinyls and repackaged special editions—I’m curious to know what other ways hybe plans to milk them during their hiatus in order to keep pumping that BTS money into their new groups and push a BTS successor. Gotta keep those investors happy, right? Hybe has always had a lot of internal issues with their staff and the way things are handled. Hybe has also spent the last two years promoting their plans to “reduce dependency on BTS”, and have been investing in any and every venture, to the point that their slogan “we believe in money” should be changed to “we believe in profit”. If you notice any positive deviations in the company’s usual behavior regarding how the members are being managed, then they’re likely trying to butter them up behind the scenes to get them to renew. I’m also curious about the current status of their contracts, and if any new conditions were added regarding their solo work; I feel like some may have already renewed but, again, I could be wrong; half the members have already sold a portion of their 1.2% in collective hybe shares; all it really takes is for one member to leave the company and I’m pretty sure at least half would follow suit; there’s power in solidarity)

That’s all that comes to mind for now. As for your second question (which member has been the most impressive in chapter 2) if it wasn’t already obvious, the answer is: j-hope. It’s only been 6 months, and between his solo debut, critically-acclaimed album, multiple iconic performances, being the star of Paris Fashion Week, documentary on the way. Who else is doing it like him? He’s been booked and busy since the group’s hiatus was announced, accomplishing all that in just 6 months. He set the bar high for himself and continues to raise it. 2022 was the year of HOPE and there’s no signs of him slowing down in 2023. He deserves all the recognition he’s getting because not only is he the most impressive, he’s also produced the most impressive results overall. Let’s put bias aside and face the facts because anyone who says otherwise is a l-i-a-r.

I’m sure the haters are gonna say “he only accomplished all those things because he was the first one to release his album”. Well, any of the other 6 could’ve released theirs first, yet here we are 6 months later where some of them still have nothing close to a finished album and are busy idling their time away. Any reason they give for not being in the studio working is an excuse. Not to mention j-hope was working on his solo debut and preparing solo performances while BTS was still active as a group, meanwhile others were what? Taking vacations? Partying? Playing video games? Not that there’s anything wrong with doing any of that. If you want to rest, then by all means rest, but don’t expect to be on the same level or have the same results as someone who consistently works hard like j-hope. Even with the group being inactive it was only j-hope showing up to every award show in the name of BTS (Jin enlisted, but what were the other 5 busy doing)? Failing to prepare is preparing to fail.

“Effort plays an important role in trying to stay where I am now. I will always try my best because efforts will never betray me.” — j-hope, 2018; “Efforts never betray you....All my efforts have never betrayed me....Looking back, the efforts I made didn’t betray me, in the end.” — j-hope, 2023

And “j-hope always has a plan”, so it’s only natural for him to never miss out on a golden opportunity to show the world who he is and what he’s capable of doing. It’s one thing to be talented, it’s another thing to have excellent work ethic, strong social skills, the confidence and charisma to pull off anything. Not to mention he’s always super genuine, humble and polite with everyone he meets—and we can’t forget that heart-shaped smile. These attributes go a long way and are invaluable especially when you work in industries as cutthroat as music or fashion where first impressions are always a make or break. That sort of discipline and awareness isn’t built overnight. I’ve seen some videos of j-hope’s PFW interactions (with executives, photographers, and just recently, his bodyguards) and it always makes me go: “wow I want to meet him, I want to talk to him, he seems like a really nice guy, he’s a natural model, he’s super good-looking, I can’t help but smile too”. So, imagine how all those people on the receiving end of his affections feel? Exactly. Hence why j-hope will continue to be invited into those exclusive spaces. His body language is always warm and inviting, he’s good at connecting with people from all walks of life. Even something as simple as a smile or wave is enough to make someone’s day and j-hope gets that. The more time passes, the more obvious it becomes that he’s the main reason BTS even lasted this long as a group. Other members don’t call him “갓이홉” (god j-hope) for nothing. **final side note: even the way j-hope reposted all those photos from local photographers on his IG story is so ¡wow! Lots of celebrities wouldn’t even bother. Not only is he giving them more exposure in such a competitive industry, he’s also letting them know how much he appreciates their work. And some of these photographers often run around FW for free in order to build up their portfolios. Now, you never know who could’ve watched his story, saw those photos he reposted, and offered them a job. It’s little things like that, that go a long way, because guess what? The next time he comes back to Paris the same photographers will be happy and ready to capture him on their cameras. In fact, notice how some of them posted even more photos of him after that repost? Exactly. j-hope should really teach a masterclass on networking and building connections; the first thing on the agenda? Making the best first impressions. The second thing? The subtle art of personal branding. Don’t try to give Bighit/Hybe any credit either because as we’ve seen from some lackluster solo activities and the incredibly botched debut solo album rollouts (especially j-hope’s and especially when compared to the debut of other groups under the same company), thus far, BH/H does not give enough fvcks about BTS as soloists to invest money into them individually. the same way they’re currently doing for their other groups; they might care for some members more than others so a sponsored opportunity or two may come in the realm of that possibility, but they definitely value “OT7” above all because that’s where they believe the money lies. Ultimately, how each member’s solo career will turn out relies heavily on their ambition, respective goals, personal initiative, the drive to want more and to be more in their own right. They may be at the top as a group, but as soloists they’re just getting started.

I wrote this post about a year ago, and it seems that Hoseok has finally given us an answer. He’s clearly in it for the long haul and plans to have a very long and very flourishing career in both music and fashion; chess, not checkers~

[hyunlixsbbygirl]

♡ Things Can Change

Skinship was one thing that Hyunjin had sworn he would never do once he debuted; his love language wasn't even physical touch so he planned on never giving skinship nor receiving it. No one could make him enjoy it nor did they dare to try, but that all changed when one of his members did dare - giving him a hug on stage in front of all their fans.

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──◇ length: 1.8k

──◇ warnings: idol au, mutual pining, angst, crying, mention of a member falling during practice, yelling

──◇ note: the characters don't represent real idols; this is a work of fiction intended for entertainment purposes only. this in no way represents nor reflects real life. this has been cross posted on ao3 under the username thishippiekid.

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It was... shocking, to say the least. After months of trying to get Hyunjin on board to do skinship with the members and failing; JYP, their manager, and BangChan had given up the battle but when Felix decided to back hug him in the middle of the company dream concert and Hyunjin actually turned around and hugged him back - Chan could have sworn the end of the world was about to begin. 

"So uh, Hyunjin..." Chan decided to just ask, just ask what changed since debut that made Hyunjin not only accept skinship with a member but also give it back. The members had just entered their dressing room while Twice performed their solo stage; Hyunjin, like the others, had intended on flopping down on the couch and scrolling through social media before they had to change for their next set; unfortunately, their leader had other plans. "You let Felix hug you. Not only that but you hugged him back. Does that mean..." Hyunjin spun around to look at the older member; the look of annoyance flooding his chocolate-brown eyes "No, that does not mean I'm suddenly into skinship. I just... it's Lix okay? How do you deny him anything?" Chan burst into laughter, he knew it was near impossible to deny Felix anything but Hyunjin hated skinship so much he'd probably go sky diving despite having a fear of heights before he'd ever do skinship. "Oh I know, trust me. Still, something must have changed. You've never given into Felix so easily before." Hyunjin sighed, the older one didn't lie. While Hyunjin never truly denied Felix anything, he didn't exactly give in so easily either; the younger would have to beg over several days just to get Hyunjin to do something for him while the other members would give in to him in a heartbeat. It's not that Hyunjin was cold or had ill feelings toward Felix; he just wasn't used to having someone around that was so cute anyone would fold for him. "I'm just tired so I didn't think about it. Plus I didn't want the fans to spread rumors online that I hate him or something." Chan nodded, not quite believing the younger member but also deciding not to push it further. Hyunjin turned back toward the couch and flopped his entire body down on top of it letting out a loud sigh as he felt his muscles relax for the few short moments they had before going back on stage. 

"You all did amazing tonight! The Stray Kids hashtag is one of the top trending hashtags in Seoul!" the boys were loaded into one of the several buses JYP had rented to transport the idols from their dorms to the stadium, their manager was currently scrolling through Twitter accessing their performance by reading fans' tweets. "There are a ton of photos of the HyunLix hug trending too" he continued only glancing up when he heard a slightly annoyed sigh leave one of the members' mouths. Chan knew all too well who the owner of the sigh was, Hyunjin, but he chose to ignore it and took out his phone to see whatever their manager was seeing. Felix, who was currently sitting beside Jisung, looked over at Hyunjin; he too knew the owner of the sigh and had become anxious over their little interaction on stage. He knew the older didn't like skinship, but Felix's love language was physical touch and he was feeling particularly lovey that night and wanted to show his members how much they meant to him, so he just hugged them all without even thinking about it. "I'm sure he's not mad at you Lix, he's probably just annoyed that the fans are going to expect him to do skinship more now" Jisung whispered, patting the younger's thigh softly. Felix gave him a small smile; leave it to his nearly birthday twin to sense the mood change instantly, that's why they were called the twins to begin with. The driver of the bus rolled out of the parking spot once all the staff was seated and headed towards the company building to first drop off the crew that was put in charge of Stray Kids before dropping the members off last. Hyunjin pulled up the hood of his sweatshirt and leaned his head against the bus window, not really caring if he was spotted by a fan; he knew his sigh was too loud and knew Felix had heard it. 

For the rest of the week; Felix tried to avoid Hyunjin the best he could, he figured the older was mad at him when they finally got back to the dorms after the concert and he didn't ask Felix to play games with him; opting for just washing up and going straight to sleep instead. The tension between them was so thick though; all the members knew something was wrong but no one wanted to be the first one to step up and say something. Talking to Felix wouldn't result in anything as he would just brush it off and say everything was fine even though it clearly wasn't and talking to Hyunjin also wouldn't result in anything as he would just change the subject or avoid talking altogether. Chan finally decided to say something after both Felix and Hyunjin basically refused to practice their duet dance routine for their upcoming award show performance; Hyunjin claiming his back hurt too much and Felix using a stomach ache as an excuse. "Okay you have to tell me what is going on between you two. I know you aren't really sick so why are you trying to get out of rehearsal with Hyunjin?" Chan asked once he had successfully pulled the younger away from the group. Felix shrugged, he really wanted to tell Chan the truth but he was scared that Hyunjin might be reprimanded or that he was just over exaggerating things. "Lix, you know you can tell me anything. You're my soulmate remember? My little brother. You never have to be afraid of telling me something." Chan continued when he realized Felix wasn't going to start talking so easily. Before Felix had a chance to say anything though, they both heard shouting from inside the dance studio and quickly flung the door open to observe the situation. 

"JUST BECAUSE I LET FELIX HUG ME DOES NOT MEAN YOU CAN JUST TOUCH ME!" Hyunjin yelled at Changbin who was currently hiding behind a scared-looking Jisung. It was then that Chan realized what was going on between Hyunjin and Felix; Felix thought Hyunjin was mad at him for doing skinship and Hyunjin was just being the drama king he is and overthinking everything. The leader pinched the bridge of his nose as he went to stand between Hyunjin and Jisung; not that he thought Hyunjin would hit Changbin or anything but he needed Jisung to see that there was nothing to worry about. "Hyunjin, please go calm down in the waiting area." Hyunjin turned on the ball of his foot and sauntered out of the studio without saying another word; Chan turned to Felix and tapped him on the shoulder. "Go talk to him. Please." Felix nodded and also left the studio as Chan watched him leave. Hyunjin wasn't in the waiting area between the three dance studios like Chan asked him to go; Felix had to walk up and down the various hallways of the company just to find him. "Jinnie hyung" Felix called out softly once he found Hyunjin leaning against the side of a vending machine. Hyunjin looked up but didn't say anything; opting to look at the wall on his right instead, Felix swallowed down the lump that had formed in his throat and approached the older boy slowly. "Hey, I'm sorry if I made you mad..." Hyunjin shifted his weight from one foot to the other. 

"I know you hate skinship... I just wanted to show you all how much I appreciate you so I hugged you without thinking." Felix ran the toe of his shoe in a half circle on the tile floor; twisting his hands and fingers together nervously. "I thought it was okay because you hugged me back but... I..." Hyunjin could hear the crack in the younger's voice; he was on the verge of crying. Hyunjin quickly turned to face him and pulled him into a hug; even though Hyunjin was admittedly the most emotional member after Felix, he usually managed to keep his emotions to himself, but hearing Felix cry was one thing that would break him every time. "I'm so sorry Lix... I was never mad at you. I was tired last week and I didn't think my sigh was that loud. I was just annoyed because I didn't want to be forced to do skinship. I didn't realize you heard it" Felix wrapped his arms around the older member, letting a few tears fall down his freckled cheeks. For several moments, the two just stood there; hugging each other until they both stopped crying. Hyunjin pulled away just enough to look into Felix's eyes; wiping his thumb over his cheeks softly and lovingly. "For someone that doesn't like skinship you sure don't mind it with me." Felix giggled slightly, a light blush creeping across his cheeks as he looked up at the older. Hyunjin sighed, "You're different Lix... I just didn't realize it until you hugged me and I didn't hate it." Felix's eyes lit up "So does that mean I can do skinship with you more often?" Hyunjin brushed the younger's dark brown hair out of his face; his heart beating slightly faster than before. 

He couldn't explain the reason for what happened next but considering Felix didn't pull away when Hyunjin gently pressed his lips against the younger's, Hyunjin assumed it was okay. When they pulled away, Felix looked awestruck; like a fan meeting their celebrity crush for the first time. Hyunjin chuckled lightly and laced his fingers with Felix's, "Skingship is fine, as long as it's with you" he then led a blushing Felix back to the dance studio where Jisung and Changbin were rolling around the floor presumably wrestling while Chan just leaned against the large mirror shaking his head like a disappointed parent. "You two finally make up?" Seungmin asked once he noticed the two standing in the doorway looking confused. Chan looked up at them and then looked down at their hands which were still intertwined. Felix hid behind Hyunjin realizing his ears would be a dead giveaway that something more than just an apology happened; Hyunjin rubbed his thumb over the back of his hand soothingly. "If you two love birds are done flirting can we please get back to rehearsal?" Lee Know asked desperately. The members all took their positions, ready to start practice again; this time with zero tension in the air.

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[jhugas]

PROVE IT.III-Jeon Jungkook-‘Fuck you’

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Series: Prove it

Genre: some angst, jealousy

Summary: Jungkook does something unexpected, but it doesn’t go the way he wanted to… by the way, who is this guy?

Word count: 1,3k

Warnings/tags: argument, misunderstanding.

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After these two busy nights with him, it was already time to go back home, and you were the first one to leave.

‘Bye…’ you told him before leaving the hotel, and all you got was a small glance from him, he didn’t even talk to you after this night, and was still shirtless. 

He's been acting odd since this morning, luckily though, he still made breakfast for both of you before you woke up.

After this awkward moment, you close the door behind you and head to the car.

Now that you were in the car with your driver, you took the opportunity to do what you feared the most, checking your socials. You go on Insta and the first thing you see is the 11k more followers you won, then, under your last post, the comments:

@yuflying:   GIRLLLLLLL

@y/nsfav:    Close the window at least😭

@koofuckk: Us: they’re gonna kill each other 

                       Them: Lez do it😫

@y/nkook:   GET IT!! Y/nkook shippers 🔛🔝

It really wasn’t as bad as you thought, you believed that they’d have insulted you, or that Jungkook’s fan had hated on you, but it’s like everyone was involved in the story, and in a good way.

So you decide then to go on Twitter, and you see unsurprisingly that ‘FREAKY’ was trending along with your names, and when you clicked on it, pictures and videos of you two having sex showed up with other tweets:

…you didn’t know how to feel about this, indeed, you won lots of followers ‘thanks’ to him, but you just couldn’t not feel bad about this.

Once you arrived at the airport, you saw hundreds of fans waiting for you, all excited and screaming loudly. So you get out of the car, the bodyguards join you and you pass by. On the way, you hear comments about you and Jungkook, especially by the paparazzis, but you just waved and smiled at your fans, then head to your private jet, and once you laid down, you immediately closed your eyes to sleep.

3 hours passed by and the plane finally landed right after you woke up, you were sure your manager called you at least once during the flight, but you’ll only check your phone once you arrive home.

‘Home sweet home…’ you say as you enter and unlock your phone, but instead of seeing missed calls from your manager, two unknown people sent you texts.

The first one sent:

He answered by saying that he had a list with the names and phone numbers of the candidates, so you simply renamed him ‘Suhyeok’, you’d remember who he is by reading the messages anyway.

Then the second person sent:

He answered almost instantly after you sent ‘Hi?’, but somehow, though you also answered quickly ‘Who are you?’, he didn’t answer.

Though it kinda scared you, you carried on with your night, cooked dinner, and went to sleep. Still without an answer to your message.

A WEEK LATER

It’s Monday, and time to go back to work, and this afternoon from 2 pm to 6 pm you will train on the field for the next mixed competition, which occurs in three months.

You thought the other athletes would talk behind your back, point at you or even laugh, but no, most of them just ignored you. And knowing that you are the most famous female athlete, this situation was abnormal, but oh well… with time, everything will go back to normal, you think.

Only one person came to talk to you this afternoon, and it was Suhyeok. He was actually nice and the only one that approached you the whole day, so you felt good about him. Moreover, you discovered that you two had a lot in common, and you wished you could’ve talk more, but it was the end of the day already.

To be honest, you were kinda mad that Jungkook didn’t talk to you a single time, not even a hello, nor just a nod… but he was bullshit anyways, ‘what was I thinking…’ you tell yourself.

He was acting nice when it came to sex, but when sex wasn’t here, you were just a slut to him, right? You sigh in arrogance and head to the lockers, when suddenly someone pulls you apart, and you recognize this face, it’s Jungkook.

‘Who was this?’

He asks.

‘Who was who?’

‘This man, he was talking to you just now.’

‘Oh, well he is new here, and he actually had the balls to talk to me, unlike someone else here.’

You answered, clearly indicating that he was this ‘someone else’.

‘Well, if you answered me maybe?’

He said sarcastically.

‘Answered you? When did you even talk to me. You didn’t even say bye when I left.’

‘Are you joking? I literally texted you a week ago, but you never fucking answered. "Who are you?" then when I tell you it’s me, Jungkook, you completely ignore me. I even asked you if you were okay, but apparently it’s none of my business.’

He said before poking his cheek with his tongue.

‘So it was you?! And sorry but you never answered! I was waiting for your response, but nothing. Had to wait a whole week, just to see you again, hoping that maybe our relationship had changed, but you’re still as annoying as before, I see.’

‘Fuck you.’

He finally said.

‘And fuck you too!’

You snap back at him before going to the lockers, enraged.

So he really didn’t change? You tried to think of the best, but it seems that life pulled you back to earth, he really still hated you, and as much as you hate him now.

Jungkook stood there in silence, ‘what did I do again? Is it my fault?’ he thinks. He can’t believe you've already started talking to someone new when you just started to talk to each other. But he doesn’t want to overthink again, he sighs, then goes to his locker quietly.

He really wanted to be alone, but the first person he saw in the men’s locker, was Suhyeok, this complete stranger to Jungkook that you were talking to.

‘You alright?’

Suhyeok asks.

‘Yes… why? You know her?’

‘Know who?’

‘Y/n.’

‘Oh, yes I’ve talked to her a bit, she’s great honestly, what about you, do you know her?’

Suhyeok returns the question.

‘Of course I do.’

Jungkook answers before rolling his eyes.

Suhyeok frowns at this answer, if Jungkook seemed so confident about knowing her… then why would he wait in front of her lockers to argue?

You finally arrived home after taking a few pics with your fans, and you immediately receive a message:

What? Did he really send the message and you ignored him? You can’t believe it, now you felt bad, he really thought you ignored him… 

You start writing an apology, but he’s faster, he already sent another text:

So it was just a misunderstanding? How sad, you think, his phone just didn’t send the text when Jungkook wanted to, he must have some serious problems with his connection…

He seemed genuinely sorry, for once, you wanted to accept immediately his apology but you didn’t want to seem too nice, you tried to keep your cool, yk?

Well anyway, now you’ll be able to communicate with him. And that’s what you did. But surprisingly, Jungkook isn’t the only one to text you. 2:09 am, you receive ‘Is everything okay?’.

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