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How to Spill the Beans According to Mermaids /./ [Bonfamille Lyons + Tritons]

In which Simba, Berlioz, Ashlee, and Sarabi are invited to Christmas dinner at the Triton’s...[takes place: December 25, 2022]

@ber-bonfamille-lyons, @ashlee-bonfamille-lyons, @attina-the-responsible, @panicked-nights, @adella-the-idyllic, @arista-the-musical, @alana-the-brilliant, @crickey-itsjake, @aquata-the-champ

[tw -- none this is ridiculous lmao]

AQUATA: Aquata noticed it when she had slipped into the bathroom to check her makeup. And then she had to do a double take. Who in Neptune’s name was taking a pregnancy test?

Only three of her sisters lived in Swynlake right now. Arista wouldn’t have been able to keep it a secret. Neither would Ariel (Aquata hoped not, anyway). And come to think of it, Alana had been acting a little weird, anyway…

The first person she ran into in the hallway was Adella, and Aquata quickly pulled her into the bathroom. “Is Lana pregnant?” she said breathlessly.

ADELLA: Adella had barely adjusted from the jet lag when Aquata kidnapped her into the bathroom. Holy shit!

“Neptune, no way? What on earth— she doesn’t want kids, right? I can’t imagine Jake changed her mind…wait. Why?”

AQUATA: Aquata took her hand out from behind her back and unfurled it to reveal a small plastic pregnancy test— with two very clear lines. “I mean, who else’s would it be, right? I found it in here.”

/./ /./ /./

AQUATA: Did Aquata think it was a little weird that the Lyons were coming? Yeah, a little. But it was probably a good thing that JEFF seemed to be hanging out with Sarabi more, that he had friends his age. And maybe she could talk to Simba about the VFD more.

“Hey! Come on in,” Aquata said when the doorbell rang. “So glad you could all make it.”

SIMBA: Was it a little weird to be going to Triton Christmas? Simba didn't think so! He got invited to a lot of Christmas celebrations in town. He wanted to stop by all of them, but Ber always said no. The only reason he'd agreed to this one was because Mama was going. Which was a little odd, but not very, because Sarabi was popular and got invited to a lot of things too.

So, here he was, arms laden with presents, Ber and Ashlee a step behind him.

"Hey, Q!" Simba said, leaning down to give her a hug and almost covering her in an avalanche of presents. "Happy we could make it. Is Tina here?"

BERLIOZ: Yeah, this was a little weird.

But if Ber was gonna pick some party to go to, it would be the Tritons. He knew them well enough; liked them all well enough, and now that a lot of them weren't even here anymore, it meant it wasn't quite as...overwhelming. So yeah, he could do a dinner and chat with Lana or Aquata (his favourites, in that order). And Sarabi was going to be here, and at this point, she was like his mother too. Well. She technically was his mother, sort of...

"Hullo," he greeted with a little wave, but then mostly stuck with Ashlee, helping her navigate around Simba and the avalanche of presents. He'd be her pal tonight too, he figured. Stick together when things got a bit mad.

ASHLEE: Ashlee was hesitant on coming to the Triton's, now she would never say no but really she didn't get it? Why now? Why this year? It felt weird and all she really could be happy about was that it wasn't a full house.

Now that just sounded horrible. Simba could do enough of the talking with a small group that Ashlee could just coast.

Still she smiled offering a wave and a wide area of space so she didn't have to offer hugs or get hit by a present or five.

This was still all weird. Nodding her head in she waited for Ber so she could follow his lead in.

AQUATA: "Yeah, she's in the kitchen! Let me just put these under the tree, though," Aquata said, taking a few of the presents out of Simba's hands so that at least he could see where he was going. Classic Simba. He always had to go all-out. "Is your mum on her way, or..." Aquata had assumed she would arrive with the rest of the Bonfamille-Lyons, but she was nowhere to be seen.

SIMBA: Simba let Aquata take the presents, distracted as he looked for his friend, who was obscured by the small crowd of people standing between the door and the kitchen. He caught a flash of red that he assumed was her and was just about to take a step in her direction when--

He swung his head around again.

"Huh? Mama? She's coming, is she? I didn't know that! Did we know that, mume?" He turned to Ber with a shrug of his shoulders. Ber would've remembered if Simba didn't.

BERLIOZ: Uhhhhhhhhhhh... did they...?

No. No, Ber didn't think so, but in that moment he was reluctant to say that. He was starting to get a feeling. It was an instinct he'd picked up from being a child of divorced parents. How many times did he remember strange men, Maman's 'friends,' showing up at the house? Or Pere introducing them to a woman-- another 'friend?' He had known in his heart what these people were. But he'd never acknowledged it. Neither did his parents.

This felt like that.

Ber didn't wanna just lie to Simba though. He hesitated, then slowly said, "Uh... no, I don't think so. I don't think she mentioned it..."

ASHLEE: Ashlee had a bad feeling about this, the day already felt out of sync and she kind of hated that. But she wasn't the one that had to deal with that, No that was all Simba, and Maybe Berlioz.

Instead she just pulled out her phone texting her boyfriend instead as a way to distract herself.

/./ /./ /./

AQUATA: Questioning Adella hadn't really led anywhere. But maybe that was just because she was out of town. Honestly, she didn't expect Arista to be able to hear something like a pregnancy in the family and keep it quiet, but it was worth trying...

"Ris! I need to talk to you!" Aquata said when she spotted her sister, pulling her into the bathroom next.

ARISTA: We’ll it was that time of year again! Holiday dinners and family time, what could be better?! She’d just finished putting her wrapped gifts under the tree when she was caught by Aquata just outside the bathroom. Her eyes widened, “What? What’s wrong?” Bathroom talks had to be serious.

AQUATA: Aquata took a deep breath, ready to do a whole preamble about how she didn't know if this was true or not, but she figured that was why she would ask Arista, and don't freak out, except the fact that somebody was pregnant...

"Is Lana pregnant?!" Aquata blurted out, waving the positive pregnancy test for emphasis. "I found this in the bathroom and it's not Della's and I'm assuming it's not Ariel's and it's definitely not mine, so— do you know?"

ARISTA: The blonde's eyes widened further if that were possible, eyes stuck on the stick that was probably totally peed on like fairly recently. But now wasn't the time to think of that.

"Pregnant? No... I don't think so? But then again, she and Jake have been spending an awful lot of time together lately and like whispering about stuff before I walk in the door and then changing the subject and I saw apartment listings on his computer one time when I was over visiting and I thought it was strange because he loves his apartment so much and has lived there for like since he moved here but you know if they need more space that would make sense for the baby, ohmigosh she's pregnant." She finally took a breath and looked from the test to Aquata.

"Maybe she was double checking here before making her announcement tonight? Maybe they're waiting to tell us? Jake did seem rather nervous about something, much more fidgety than he normally is. Although, he could just be playing with his new hair because I mean, he didn't have much to play with before and I've been known to play with mine from time to time without even knowing it." She squinted her eyes, thinking back to what he was doing.

"Also wow, everyone's just having babies now, huh."

AQUATA: Aquata ignored all the comments about Jake's new haircut, because there was something much bigger going on here.

Oh Neptune. If Alana was pregnant (which it was beginning to sound like) then of course she would need more space for the baby. Aquata couldn't live somewhere with a baby! And Jake would probably want to be there too, which meant Alana was growing up and having a baby and having her own place and everything was about to change, everything, and... what, was she even planning on telling anyone this? Obviously she hadn't left that pregnancy test in the bathroom on purpose...

"Neptune. No, you're right, that's got to be it, then. Fuck..." Aquata said, her face going pale. She turned and started pacing back and forth. "I mean, I'm happy for her, obviously, but... fuck. This is so much to process. I'm her bloody roommate! Why didn't she tell me?"

ARISTA: Arista just frowned a bit, that's true. Alana really should have told Aquata. She put her hand on her sister's shoulder, "It's okay, Q. Obviously there is still time to figure stuff out. Months of it. Maybe they just wanted to make sure Daddy didn't hear it from anyone else first, you know?"

AQUATA: Aquata's stomach dropped. She hadn't even thought about Daddy. But Alana must have told him, right? She wouldn't keep that from him.

"Actually... I think Daddy might know already," Aquata said in a low voice. "Don't you think he's been a little strange lately, too? More than once, I've called him and gotten a busy signal... and he's always got these 'plans' lately. He never has plans. Maybe it's something to do with the baby..."

ARISTA: Huh, Arista didn't think Daddy was acting too strangely or having any secret plans. He was just out with Sarabi a lot. It was a new relationship but then again, maybe her sisters thought it was weird. "I haven't really noticed those things but then again I still live here." She gave a slight shrug.

AQUATA: "Really?" Well, maybe Arista had just missed it. She could be a bit of a bubblehead sometimes. "I dunno, I just don't think it's right for her to tell him and not us. I mean, I'm literally her roommate. But... it's fine. I won't say anything until after Christmas. Let's just... get through tonight, yeah?"

ARISTA: Arista was excited though. Her sister was having a baby. "Oh yes, we'll get through tonight and then we get to start doing baby shopping, and who knows Q, I might end up being your new roommate with the way the apartment has cycled through sisters." She joked, not about the baby shopping though, tiny clothes were the best kinds of clothes.

AQUATA: "Yeah, maybe." Aquata smiled weakly. As much as she'd like that... she didn't really do well with change. Moving out of the family home and into Alana's apartment had been a big change for her. And now she was going to have to think about adjusting to live with a new person? Alana had been her only roommate all throughout her life. Was she ready for this? "Uh, we should probably get back out there before people start wondering where we are."

ARISTA: "Yes, we really should be getting back. I think dinner is almost done by the way things are smelling." She smiled at her sister, knowing she didn't enjoy change, many of her sisters didn't. Perhaps it was the fact that they'd all had their lives turned upside down at a young age, but what she did know was that if anyone would get through changes that were big like this it would be her sisters. She bounded down the stairs to find Jake alone at the dining room table, poor guy in his ugly christmas sweater nursing an egg nog, undoubtedly spiked. "Alana abandon you to be bombarded with sister questions?"

Jake looked up and just laughed, "Nah, she's in there talkin' with JEFF about something I think." He gave a shrug, "None of my business."

The blonde sat down next to him, "Yes but it will be won't it, oh it's just so exciting." The Australian gave her a look which she didn't entirely notice (although it was one of confusion because no one was supposed to know about their news but again why would that make him on a need to know with JEFFs business, it wasn't like they were getting married). Arista just continued, "Oh it'll just be so great, and you'll be the best father." Father. I can't believe you both waited until now to tell us all. And of course you'll have all the best family support and you'll be in a new situation and ugh, it'll be great I love the holidays, don't--"

Jake finally got a word in, his mouth agape, "I--wait what? She--"

And then the call for dinner rang out and all the family filed in and Jake was left sitting and sweating through his sweater. Was she pregnant? Did she not tell him? He just looked at her as she sat down, no idea what his face was doing at this point and took the largest gulp of eggnog possible.

/./ /./ /./

ALANA: This was a big deal.

Okay -- maybe, objectively, it wasn't a big deal. People her age and younger moved in with their longterm boyfriends all the time! But it was a big deal to Alana, because, well, she'd never thought she'd be doing this. She'd never thought she'd want to do this.

And there was, of course, the question of Daddy.

Only Arista and Ariel even lived in the house anymore. And though Lana wasn't, like, moving anywhere, it was still a big step. She didn't want him to be lonely.

She'd spent most of the day trying to figure out a good time to tell him, and she figured it would be best done away from the others. While everyone prepped for dinner, Lana slunk away, looking for her father. He wasn't in the kitchen, where Benjamin and his partner and Tina and Roman were cooking. He wasn't in the living room, where Arista was strumming a guitar and leading everyone in Christmas carols. Was he in the study? Or the bathroom?

Lana walked upstairs.

"Daddy --!" She stopped dead in her tracks.

JEFF: It wasn't that JEFF was keeping anything from his daughters...on purpose.

Part of it was Sarabi, who was still getting comfortable with everything. Which was fine, because he was still figuring it out himself. It was nice to have someone else to confide in about love and grief. Someone who understood. It was nice to have someone else to talk to, who wanted to talk to him. Not that his daughters had abandoned him, but they were all grown now. With relationships and lives of their own.

It had happened sort of on accident. Sarabi and JEFF had known each other for thirty years now. Their spouses had known each other. There had only ever been friendship. But, about six months ago, something had changed. Maybe it was just loneliness. Maybe it was just a shift. JEFF tried not to think too hard about it. Sarabi was lovely--smart and charming and funny and beautiful.

And they'd tell their respective children. At some point.

For right now, a quiet Christmas was just fine for them. They hadn't even planned this moment alone, but JEFF had forgotten one of his gifts upstairs and Sarabi needed her scarf she'd left over and--

Well, it was innocent, what Alana saw. Just an embrace. And, yes, okay, a kiss too, but--a gentle one, before they went back downstairs.

And then Alana's voice cut sharp between them, separating them like a knife.

"Oi!" he barked at her, like she was the one doing something wrong. (Not that kissing Sarabi was wrong but, you know--)

"Hello, Alana," Sarabi said with a smile, smoothing a hand down the front of her dress, as collected as ever, even if she was blushing.

ALANA: This was --

This was a lot to process.

Her father and Simba's mum?! Kissing?! On Christmas?

Suddenly, a lot of things made sense. Like why Sarabi was even over in the first place. Like why Sarabi had offered to help with Aquata's campaign events. Like why Sarabi and JEFF had spent Halloween together --

"How -- when -- what -- no don't answer that last one!" Alana's face flushed. Her heart beat a little faster. She wasn't sure how she felt about this all. Her immediate reaction was shock, of course. Then betrayal. Why hadn't he told them? Then anger. What about their mum?

"Does anyone else know?!"

JEFF: "Er, no, we were going to tell everyone tonight."

That was a lie. They hadn't really discussed that.

Sarabi shot him a glare, but he wasn't looking at her. He was watching Alana. This wasn't how he wanted this to go at all. He didn't know how he was going to do it. Maybe one by one? With Tiny first...but--maybe this was better. JEFF had no idea if he would've gotten up the gumption otherwise.

"Okay, we weren't going to tell everyone," he admitted after a moment, shoulders slumping a bit. "I'm sorry, Lan. You weren't--" he stopped himself, started again. "I didn't want anyone to find out like...this."

ALANA: "Well, when were you going to tell us?" Alana whispered. She knew she had to whisper because the minute the Christmas music stopped playing, everyone would be able to hear this. "Were you just going to carry on about this like two lovestruck teenagers with strict parents?"

JEFF: "Now, young lady," JEFF said in a hushed warning tone. "There is no need for that. We are adults. We can keep our relationship personal if that is how we feel most comfortable."

ALANA: "Oh, yeah, like that's a good idea," snorted Alana. "You keep one secret in this family and everyone suddenly thinks you've stabbed them in the back."

Alana realized how hypocritical she was being right now, as the person currently acting like she was being stabbed in the back.

She folded her arms over her chest.

"Fine -- I won't say anything, but really you should tell them all sooner rather than later. If you drag it out, they're gonna take it badly -- you know that." She huffed and pursed her lips. She couldn't really look at her father. Or Sarabi, even. Had they... done it?! Ew ew ew ew ew -- gross.

The bright side of this was that, well, he really couldn't say anything about her own news now, could he?

"Ahem, while i have you here," said Alana. "IthinkI'mgonnamoveinwithJake! Okay! That's it! I'll leave you two to canoodle!"

JEFF: Yes, like Alana was doing right now. What he had been worried about. Even if he had told them the first day, they probably would've accused him of hiding it. And he was allowed to figure it out on his own, thank you. It wasn't like it hadn't been complicated. It was still complicated. Wonderful and painful all at once.

"Alana--" he huffed, crossing his arms over his chest.

He wanted to say it wasn't totally his fault. That he would've been ready to say something a few months ago, but Sarabi was more hesitant. She said Simba wasn't ready. JEFF didn't know if his girls were ready or not, but he was. Wasn't that what mattered? Or was that selfish? He wasn't sure, so he hadn't pushed.

Now, he couldn't exactly throw his girlfriend under the bus.

"Alana Cordelia!" he barked as she tried to turn and run back down the stairs. Probably a bad idea, because people definitely heard that. JEFF had a booming voice.

Sarabi put a hand on his arm and he glanced at her but looked back at his daughter. He stared at her for a moment and then softened slightly.

"I think that's lovely. Just--let me know when you need help moving, alright?"

ALANA: "I will," said Alana, who had wanted this conversation to be over a while ago. She'd already backed away to the staircase, ready to bolt down and find Jake. She wouldn't tell her sisters, of course, but she could and she would tell her boyfriend. In private, of course. But very frantically.

"I -- " She looked at her dad, knowing she should say something more. She shouldn't leave it like this. Maybe a few years ago she would've stormed off, but Alana didn't want to drive any more wedges between her family. "I'm happy for you two. Really."

It felt like a bitter pill, those words, but as she swallowed, she knew it was true. That shock, that anger, that surprise, it still lingered. It probably would for a while.

But here was her father looking soft and looking happier than she'd seen him in ages. And with all the sisters growing up and moving out, well, Lana was glad he had someone.

She did, however, know he had a full storm ahead telling the rest of the girls. Let alone Simba.

"I'll see you two downstairs," she said, turning around. "Don't keep us waiting too long."

/./ /./ /./

AQUATA: Aquata was mostly mad at Alana. Which was probably misdirected anxiety about everything about to change, but her anxiety tended to sublimate into anger, because it made her feel less powerless, and everything she did just made Aquata's blood boil. There was definitely something going on with her and Daddy, Aquata decided, overanalyzing every one of their interactions.

If Alana could tell Daddy, why couldn't she tell everyone else, huh? Weren't they supposed to be sisters? Weren't they supposed to be roommates? The more Aquata ruminated on it, the angrier she got. But she couldn't say anything. Not until after Christmas was over. It was making her crazy.

"Sorry," Aquata scowled, sounding not very sorry at all when she bumped into Alana on the way to the kitchen. "Can you get the napkins? Someone forgot them."

ALANA: So, Alana was trying to be Totally Normal about the whole Daddy x Sarabi thing going on. But now she kept glancing at them, reading into every interaction they had -- their hands touched as they passed the salad bowl! Daddy totally darted his eyes towards her bum! Ah!

She almost missed what Aquata said when they bumped into each other.

"Oh crap," said Alana. "Sorry -- that was supposed to be me. I'll go back and get them."

AQUATA: “Don’t strain yourself,” Aquata retorted, her voice dripping with sarcasm. She snatched the basket of dinner rolls from the countertop and practically stomped back into the dining room, then sat down in her usual place, stone-faced and silent.

ALANA: At that, Lana raised an eyebrow. Aquata could be... so weird sometimes. Especially when she was hungry. Though... maybe this wasn't her being hungry? Maybe she was upset about something --

Maybe she knew about Daddy!

Oh man -- that had to be it! No wonder Aquata was looking so surly. She'd probably found out about it the same way Alana had and thought that no one else knew.

Alana grabbed the napkins and hurried back to Aquata, whispering under her breath.

"Wait -- do you know?"

AQUATA: “Of course I fucking know. It wasn’t exactly subtle,” Aquata replied venomously, her voice barely a whisper. She crossed her arms and looked at the ceiling. Okay, maybe she was being a little bit dramatic, but this was probably better than picking an all-out fight, right?

Though the more Aquata ruminated on it, the closer she got to just yanking Alana into the hallway and demanding the truth.

ALANA: Wait -- had Alana really been the last to find out? Well, probably Attina and Adella (and Andrina, of course) didn't really know. But if Aquata was pointing out how obvious it was, maybe Alana just hadn't been around as much... granted, she'd been so busy with the shoppe and stuff.

"I guess it was pretty obvious in retrospect," she scoffed. Was this Aquata's way of telling her she needed to come around to more family events? It wasn't her fault she was busy! "Look, I've just been so stressed and busy that I didn't really pay attention."

AQUATA: Aquata’s eyes went wide in alarm, and she slowly turned her head to stare at Alana in concern. “Wait, when did you realize?”

ALANA: "Uh, just earlier today. When I went upstairs." Alana shrugged. "When did you? Did you know before me?!"

"Alright!" JEFF clapped his hands together. "Let's sit down for dinner!"

Alana pressed her lips shut. She knew she probably shouldn't talk more about it while Daddy was here. But they could gossip when they got home and yes, Lana would apologize about not being more present or whatever -- but really she wanted to figure out when Aquata had found out!

She took her seat at the table, right between Jake and Aquata. Everyone sat down and Alana tried not to stare too much at Sarabi. Simba, meanwhile, looked totally oblivious as he sat on right down next to his mom. She darted her eyes to Aquata, raising her eyebrows in an OMG isn't this weird? God -- at least someone else knew so she didn't have to feel so alone.

"Let's have a toast!" said JEFF, raising his glass. Alana reached for the wine bottle, pouring herself a hefty amount of red. "To family -- coming from far." He looked at Tina and Adella. "To the family we make for ourselves." He smiled at Sarabi and Simba, and Alana really had to behave. "And to our new family!" This was, of course, to Roman and Jake.

Alana reached for Jake's hand and gave it a squeeze.

AQUATA: Aquata couldn't take this anymore. How could Alana be so relaxed about this? To the point that she was talking about "not noticing" and now drinking wine? Clearly nobody in the family was taking this seriously enough— and Aquata was the one who would have to step in. As the older sister, for once.

"Alana! You can't drink that!" she said hotly, pointedly not raising her glass.

JAKE: Jake continued to just nervously sit in his seat, he made sure to wipe his hands on his pants before Alana grabbed for them. He just kept looking over at her. Was she gonna tell her whole family now? New family? He almost coughed on his own drink when Aquata stepped in.

SIMBA: Simba raised his eyebrows but didn’t say anything cause it wasn’t any of his business but he was paying attention.

ALANA: Alana had been mid-sip when Aquata spoke. Immediately she spit the wine back out into the glass and looked at it. She was... confused. The wine had tasted fine, from what she could tell! And now that Aquata had spoken so loud, everyone was looking at them -- in a rather pointed way, mind you -- and Alana thought it was rather silly, but also she didn't know why everyone was making a fuss

"Why? What's wrong with it?" she asked, lifting the glass up to the light. "Did we grab the wrong bottle? Is something wrong? Why are you all staring at me?"

AQUATA: Neptune, she couldn't believe that her sister could be so dense. That was Aquata's first thought, and not that there could have been some kind of misunderstanding. Because she was certain that she was right about it. She didn't even take any time to think about it before—

"Because you're bloody knocked-up, aren't you?" Aquata blurted out, loud enough now that the whole table could hear. "I mean, come on, Lana! Stop trying to hide it! Pregnancy tests don't lie!"

ALANA: At first, Alana wanted to laugh — surely this was some elaborate practical joke? Maybe Aquata had gotten whiff of the fact that she was planning to move out and this was her dumb, emotionally stunted, very Aquata way of saying she was sad about it.

But Alana looked at her sister a little longer and it became quite evident that Aquata was serious.

“What the bloody hell are you talking about?!” Alana snapped. “I’m not pregnant! Oh my God — you thought I was pregnant?!”

JAKE: Jake’s face went red as the ribbons on the presents across the way. His whole body felt like it was drenched in sweat as Aquata blurred out that his girlfriend was pregnant. He gulped slightly as eyes turned to him as well and he just sort of stammered out an intelligible response. Arista just patted him on the shoulder, smiling.

As soon as Alana told them otherwise he just exhaled, “Thank fuck.” He cleared his throat before apologizing for his language, sheepishly, “Uh sorry.”

ARISTA: Arista just frowned a bit, brows furrowed. Then who’s pregnancy test was it? Also why is everyone acting so weird today?

ADELLA: “Well if it isn't Alana's...and it isn't mine...Ris?" Adella asked, narrowing her eyes at the blonde. "No, you totally would've texted me if you suspected."

Adella and Ris were so close! She'd've told her...surely?

AQUATA: "Obviously Lana's the one who's pregnant, she literally just admitted it to me— 'it was pretty obvious in retrospect?' I mean, you just said that, do not try to deny it!" Aquata argued, her face turning a deeper shade of red. It was one thing to hide it. But to flat out lie? And laugh at Aquata like she was crazy? Well, that was a new level!

SIMBA: Alana was pregnant?

Simba perked up as soon as the words were said and he was already reaching over to slap Jake on the back, when Alana denied it. It was too late, the forward motion was already happening—and Simba clapped Jake on the shoulder, grinning like a git.

But, then, Alana and Aquata were off arguing about whether or not she was. And Simba really shouldn’t butt in. It wasn’t his business. Clearly this was a family thing. But also! It was a baby! And Simba loved babies. He simply couldn’t help himself.

“Aw, Lan, it’s great if you are! Don’t be shy.” He grinned bright at her.

ROMAN: Roman knew who's pregnancy test it was and still he couldn't help the grin as he watched everything unfold. "Man I missed Triton Dinners."

AQUATA: Aquata glared at Roman. Not funny.

ROMAN: Panic dialed Rob on FaceTime, this would be something he was sure the other would enjoy

ALANA: "What!" Alana yelped. Suddenly, everyone was talking and looking at her and Simba was reaching over the table and --

Alana stood up, slamming both hands on the table. The wine in her glass lapped at the edges, almost spilling onto the red Christmas table cloth.

"I'm NOT pregnant!" she shouted. "I never took a bloody test, because I got my bloody, bloody period last week, so there is literally no possible way I could be pregnant and I had no idea that's what you meant --" She whirled to Aquata, tone sharp and accusatory, and jabbed a pointed finger towards her. "I thought you were talking about Daddy and Sarabi making out under the mistletoe!"

JAKE: Now that she mentioned it, she did in fact have her period last week. He recalled that fact because he was sent out to the market for tampons while Alana got into her usual monthly sort of mood. Wow, he really was dense today wasn’t he? He blamed the spiked egg nog and the overly warm ugly sweater he was wearing.

At the new news though, his brows rose, a bit shocked but hey JEFF had to move on at some point right? Go Mr. Triton.

ROMAN: That was something Panic didn't know and casually he turned his head to the newest couple with raised eyebrows.

AQUATA: As Alana started to defend herself, Aquata was taking a big sip of water, which she promptly sprayed out in front of her.

She couldn’t even really process the pregnancy test revelation because that image of Daddy and Mrs. Lyons…. what?

Also, eeeek!

Also… a lot suddenly made sense.

“What?!?!?!” Aquata shrieked, whipping her head around to look at JEFF. “What the fuck?!”

ASHLEE: Ashlee slowly lowered in her seat her eyes flicking between everyone.

ARISTA: Arista looked a bit confused in all the chaos, “Wait did people not know? It’s been going on for a while. I just figured everyone knew about it.” She shrugged and took a sip of her own holiday spiked drink like it was no big deal.

SIMBA: The whiplash of an excited Simba looking for a baby to love on--

And a Simba who was just finding out that his mum was dating someone was swift, immediate and terrifying.

"What?" Simba echoed. Though, his voice was quieter than the Tritons who raised up in a ruckus. Even Attina, who had been quite and blushing this whole time was looking at her dad, wide-eyed and confused. But while JEFF tried to field his daughters...

Simba only had eyes for his mum, who was shifting back and forth in her seat, looking at Simba and then flicking her eyes to her plate.

"Girls, GIRLS!" JEFF said, his voice booming, though not angry. "I'm sorry. This isn't how we wanted you to find out." A glare for Alana. A glare for Aquata. "But yes. Sarabi and I have been seeing each other for a few months now. It has only just become something more...serious."

Now, he grabbed her hand, which was resting on the table, giving it a squeeze.

Simba contemplated murder.

"We were going to tell you after the New Year."

"Oh, is that when you were going to mention it?" Simba snapped at his mum.

"Simba," Sarabi said in a soft, warning tone.

"Don't Simba me when you're going around behind my back!"

"Simba!"

"Simba--" JEFF also tried.

"Don't--" Simba's eyes cut towards JEFF. "Well, I think I've lost my appetite." He pushed his chair back with a loud scrape.

"Onyango," Sarabi hissed, which was usually enough to get Simba to snap to.

"C'mon Ber, Ashlee, we're leaving."

BERLIOZ: Well. He had seen this coming, but because Berlioz was Berlioz, he'd hoped he was wrong anyway. He'd invented plenty of totally plausible explanations and did not point out the growing pattern of Sarabi and JEFF interactions and just prayed. But here it was. His instincts were right. Of course they were right.

Now, Ber winced. Maybe he should have brought up this possibility to Simba... just in case.

Well, it was too late now though. And hey, Ber was on Simba's side. No matter what, obviously, but this was a pretty shit way to find out, and if Sarabi and JEFF had wanted to keep it on lock until New Year's, they should have probably been more careful-- or just more smart.

Quietly, Ber got up, putting a hand on Simba's shoulder. He squeezed just once. "Uh, thanks for the meal," he uttered.

ASHLEE: Ashlee wished Simba hadn't said her name, she had been slowly slipping in her seat so she could maybe hide as everyone yelled between each other. over each other. But he had, and well Simba was ready to leave and Berlioz was ready to leave which meant Ashlee was ready to leave.

"What he said." Ashlee mumbled agreeing with Berlioz as she stood up as well awkwardly stepping back from the table.

AQUATA: Aquata still couldn't really wrap her head around it. All of it was happening in slow motion, and yet she couldn't keep up. Daddy and Sarabi? But... look, she knew he was going to move on eventually, and she didn't want to make it seem like she was still hung up on the past. Obviously, she was fine. It was just... how had nobody told her? For several months? Why would he tell Lana and Ris and not her? Were they afraid she would freak out or something?

Well... the truth was that she was freaking out, but.... no, she wasn't. She was fine.

Aquata stared at JEFF, her face bright red, her napkin clenched in her fist. She barely paid any attention to whatever was going on with the Bonfamille-Lyons.

"B-but... I saw the two of you talking, it wasn't about..." No, Aquata realized. It was probably about Sarabi. Aquata could imagine it now, all of them sneaking around and keeping secrets from her! "I can't believe you would tell her and not me!"

ARISTA: “I mean I live at home so it wasn’t as if I wasn’t going to notice Daddy talking on the phone quietly and smiling more and rushing out to things.” Arista gave a slight shrug. “I thought everyone just kind of figured it out too.” She looked between everyone and then looked to Jake and Alana, “But also that doesn’t explain why you two are being weird, or why there’s a positive pregnancy test in the bathroom. Someone in this house peed on it.” She took a sip of her drink before calling after the Bon-Lyons, “Doesn’t it matter that your mom is happy?” Before turning to everyone else, “Or that Daddy is also happy? That they’re happy together?”

ALANA: Simba had dramatically gotten up and stormed out. Alana had half a mind to do the same thing, but instead, she just stuck her tongue out at Aquata. She did feel a little better that Aquata hadn't known about this whole JEFF x Sarabi situation and that she hadn't been the last person to find out.

"To be fair, he didn't tell me -- he was just rubbish at keeping it a secret --" Arista spoke and Alana realized there was still an elephant in the room. One shaped like two bright pink lines. "Wait -- so who's pregnant?!" She gasped and whirled to face JEFF. "Is it Sarabi?!"

ATTINA: "Oh my god," Attina exclaimed, rolling her eyes at the same moment that JEFF said:

"Young lady!"

And Sarabi paled, looking like she was going to just disappear.

"It's me!” Attina shouted. “I am pregnant. Neptune."

This wasn't how Attina wanted to do this. She was going to tell everyone today! At the end of dinner, maybe. She had already had suspicion a few weeks ago and taken a test then, but she'd taken another one this morning to confirm things. Thank Neptune she'd already talked all of this over with Panic. If they wanted to tell her family right away or wait...just in case. But, telling them now had felt like the right thing.

And now, apparently, it was the necessary thing.

"Yeah, it's me! Happy everyone?" she huffed and flopped back a little in her seat, face red, scowling slightly that her surprise had been ruined.

AQUATA: For once, Aquata didn't have a response to that. She just stared at Attina, mouth slightly agape, eyes wide.

Tina? Pregnant? Again?

If she had known it were Tina, she would never have made such a to-do about the pregnancy test. Sure, she would have wanted Tina to tell her, but she knew this was a sensitive topic for her sister. But somehow, she had convinced herself it was Lana. And now she felt quite stupid

But... she also felt really excited. Like, tentatively so. But... okay, she could forget the hurt feelings and the frustration and the shock of finding out about Daddy and Mrs. Lyons for a second, because... Tina was pregnant?

"Wait..." Aquata said, and then she realized she didn't know what to say next. Her eyes were shiny and a little watery, and there was just a little bit of glee behind her tone. "Tina... for real?"

ALANA: "Oh my gosh!" Alana, who was still standing let us remember, shoved her chair aside and scurried towards the other side of the table and threw her arms around both Attina and Roman, pulling them into a hug while they were both sitting and she was standing, which meant that their heads knocked against her bosom, like she was some sort of Virgin Mary in a stained glass window and both Attina and Roman were but wee babes.

"Oh my God! Congratulations! Ah! I'm so glad it's you and not me!"

ARISTA: Arista was already on the verge of tears as she spoke, “Oh Atty that’s so great.” She’d have to craft a new lullaby. She looked at the two of them and Alana then to Jake who looked like he’d dodged the biggest bullet of his life and was now attempting to relax.

ATTINA: This wasn't exactly how she wanted all of this to go down. Especially considering the news about Sarabi and Daddy. Attina had no idea how she felt about that. She should probably be happy for Daddy. It wasn't like she didn't worry about him all the time but...

She didn't want another mum. Not that she thought Sarabi was trying to replace Athena...but it was still weird. And her mum feelings were extra complicated, on account of having been one and becoming one again.

Mums, apparently, were the theme of this Christmas.

Someone took her hand. She looked over and smiled a little at Panic. Then 'oofed' as Alana came over to hug her. She laughed and reached up to touch her sister's arm.

Right.

They could figure out the Sarabi thing later. Right now--she wanted to smile with her family and share this with them, while she could.

"Thank you," Attina chuckled. Her gaze slid to her dad, who was smiling, blue eyes twinkling with tears. He winked at her across the table and she blushed, but smiled, feeling tears in her own throat.

"That's lovely, dear," Sarabi said and Attina smiled at her too.

"Thank you. We're very excited. And we can't wait for all of you to be a part of it. Happy Christmas! Now, uhm, let's eat!"

JEFF chuckled, letting out a relieved breath. "Yes. Food sounds good. Dig in. We still have to open presents!"

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That's the word I was looking for! Efficient! Sweetpea is more efficient since while he did have backup, he was/is left on his own a lot and Tia basically pounded it into his head when he first woke up to end fights as quickly as possible. So Sweetpea is more efficient while Sage is more flexible in the way that they fight. Sweetpea prefers to use the same kind of sword and bow while Sage is happily using farming hoe to gut a hinox.

(I like to think this leads to fun little squabbles over what weapon is better. A royal broadsword fused with a dragon's horn or a Moblin club. Aaliyah thinks they're both idiots and proclaims bombs to be the superior weapon. Sage agrees but Sweetpea )

Sweetpea did get the vows and his arm was mostly saved rather than being written off entirely. Instead, Sweetpea got all those bands around the arm that act like magical braces and tourniquet for the gloom. Still hurt and drained him of a lot of his strength (which he got pissed about even with Tia's warning. His appreciation for Tia goes up again when he sees what could've happened.) So he gets to join in on the little sages' secret clubroom.

Tia's Hyrule is absolutely bullying their 'new neighbours' into this community thing because 'we didn't survive the Calamity by being little bitches. Play Nice or Shut the Fuck up :)'

Natura is having her whole world turned upside down and she's blinding herself to it. She tries to order the knights and soldiers around but they all just ignore her because she's not the one who saved them. Some of her original people do listen but they are so out numbered by people who either recognise Tia as the ruler or are so tired of the conflict they follow Tia because she explains and listens.

Not to mention the house in Hateno is now definitely not hers. It's Link's and his sister Ariel's home and several villagers get very protective over their hero's little sister who's only like 14. (I went with the concept art where she looks about 8ish). (Weirdly, Link's twin and sister-in-law live in Tarrey Town. Nice place.) Natura is brought back to the castle until they can get Urbosa.

Tia feels kind bad for dumping her on the former chief but, Urbosa is the only one who'd be able to get through to Natura and is probably the only one who'd have enough patience and understanding to separate Tia's personality from Natura's and vis versa.

Sweetpea probably has more traditional training while Sage's goes as far as 'Fuck around and find out'. Which makes for an...interesting dynamic when it comes to battle fronts. Like when it comes to those pirate ships, Tia's trying to figure out a plan and Sage is going in, flame sword flying with little remorse for the WOODEN SHIPS.

(These are probably more than little squabbles. Like they're trying to scale a mountain and they're throwing rocks at each other to prove a point while the girls are so over their shit. Aaliyah is right, bombs are superior, but Sage will be damned before admitting she's right. He loves her, would kill for her, probably has, but he would be damned by the big three themselves before ever admitting that. That's one line he won't ever cross.)

Sage is glaring at the arm the first time he sees it bc like?? HOW COME HIS ISN'T LIKE THAT?! Aaliyah is just 🙄 the whole time, like 'Suck it up'. And Sweetpea is praising Tia for everything under ythe sun.

THE SAGES SECRET CLUBROOM- I LOVE THAT.

Tia's hyrule is beating the others in submission with kindness. They learned from their princess. They're just :))) 'you don't wanna do that lmao'. And they're just 'Here's a gift basket full of all the nice things you can make if you GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS'

Natura is having a bad time. Or she would be if she chose to look at her problems in an effort to fix them. She strikes me as the type to like, throw a fit when things don't go her way. Stomp her foot and yell louder to try and force them to listen. Some of the original soldiers, like you said, do listen, but the other are just 😒'are you done? I have a patrol to get back to.' I like the idea that she almost gets a rebellion going before they see the harmony that comes from Tia ruling. They see the different races finally coexisting, forming relationships beyond just what they can do for the other and are just like 'this is kinda nice'.

And now that house is returned to its rightful owner, it doesn't have as many bad memories! Which is good! Sage and Aaliyah probably visit Hateno a lot more to see Ariel and Sweetpea-- which is good because they like to help out at the farm and bring mushrooms to Cece. And with Natura no longer there, the hostilities between the older generation and the newer one definitely simmer down as well. which works even better.

Urbosa is the best chance to get through to Natura and Riju can report back using her Sage to talk to either Link or even Aaliyah (I think with the Sage of Spirits, she can probably talk to the other Sages through their secret clubroom). So while Tia probably feels bad, she has no reason to. Which Aaliyah and Sage are quick to remind her. Natura is still their Zelda, so while she should be their responsibility, they're not nearly patient enough to deal with her shit.

I also like the idea that the longer and more time Sage and Aaliyah spend with both Tia and Sweetpea, and their Hyrule and their people, the more the kind of mellow out. Like, they won't ever be the prim and proper type, but they don't immediately bite people in a form of defense.

#cinder rambles #switch au #with aaliyah and tia :)

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1, 11, 16, and 22 for Descendants Ask Game

yikes forgot i reblogged that so here we go lol

1- Favorite entry of the series overall? even tho i love/prefer the costumes in d1 and did i mention being my favorite song, i think i'm gonna have to say d2. mostly for uma, but i like more of the soundtrack, plus theirs crumbs of shipping of my rare pairs that i just devour lmaoooo

11- Favorite character overall? ahhhh it really depends on my mood but it's mostly a toss up between ben and jay whoops

16- Least favorite ship? anything involving doug that isn't with chad and vice versa lmao

22- Have any OCs that you wish to share? ahhh i don't talk about ocs that often cause i rarely make any, but surprisingly, i do have a few for this fandom!

first and foremost there's uriel, uma's little brother: yellow eyes, pale blue skin, even paler green hair, and deep purple tentacles, he's a full on cecaelia legit created by ursula out of science/witchcraft. technically he and uma are half-siblings, and he's four years younger. he was kept isolated from the islanders, as ursula didn't want her prized/perfected experiment damaged, but he snuck out from her shoals and timidly forged a bond with his sister

next is the atlantean twins, kaiagakida and kyanekida, called kyan and kaia by family and close friends. they're three years older than ben. there was a lot of resentment of each other in their youth but they've worked out their aggression, which was a good thing for milo's poor heart lmao kyan is more of a healer and diplomat than his sister, who loves combat more, but kaia is a master craftswoman. they excel in the kitchen, with kaia’s specialty is game meat while kyan’s unrivaled with desserts. both are queer and polyamorous, though they’ve never dated the same person [they'd make an exception for a certain someone tho shhh]

reed, the third child and eldest son of eric and ariel. auburn hair and blue eyes, he's a flirt and loves being dramatic. he's a year older than ben. despite gentle nudgings from his parents, and some pushing from melody, he wants nothing to do with anything resembling the crowns his family wears. he's much more interested in his love life and being on stage [he's been part of the drama club nearly his whole school career]. though, he's tempted to try out being merfolk. still, he isn't political. he'll get in your space and stay there if you let him.

i actually have more orz but i felt this was getting too long lmao so there's a sampling of them!

#Anonymous #shippy speaks #ask meme

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I Wanna Be Where... - J.Yunho

Tags/Warning: Absolute fluff, dad!Yunho, mentions of pregnancy/periods, no gendered terms for reader, reader has a uterus, very little editing lmao, this was inspired by a tiktok I saw!

Word Count: 1.7k

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“Cute” by Prod by Rose “Part of Your World” by Halle Bailey

You and Jeong Yunho would consider yourselves very lucky people.

You married your soulmate. Someone who understood you and communicated with you well. He could read you better than anyone and knew you better than you sometimes knew yourself. He made sure to look after you, even if you struggled to look after yourself. Made sure to bring you water if he noticed you hadn’t been drinking enough. Offered to grab you a snack if you had been busy for a while. You didn’t have to tell him if you were stressed out with something - he would already be giving you a kiss on the cheek and a gentle smile, letting you know how much he loved you and how he knows that “you’ve got this.”

Yunho knew you were the only one for him. You held him close to your heart on the nights when everything felt a bit too overwhelming for him. When work became overbearing, and he needed an escape, you were that. You were there to bring a smile to his face no matter what. You gave him real and honest advice that he needed to hear. Told him when he was pushing himself too far, and to give himself a break. Accepted his hand when he offered you to sway to the light music playing from his record player.

You both felt so lucky to be gifted with two beautiful daughters. Your six-year-old, Jieun, was almost identical to her father. Her smile and her energy completely matched your husband, not to mention her squishy cheeks. She was a complete surprise when you realized your period had not come after a month, but both Yunho and you were ecstatic to meet her.

And your four-year-old, Daeun, was your tiny twin. She had your eyes, lips, and ears, but Yunho’s nose, something she shared with her older sister. She was a bit quieter than Jieun, preferring to draw more often than not, but enjoyed playing with her and their shared toys. And there was one specific thing that would always tie them together.

When the new Ariel movie came out, your daughters begged and pleaded for you to take them both. She was their favorite Disney princess, having watched the original cartoon roughly over a dozen times in the past year. When the new live-action movie was announced, they jumped in excitement, wanting to see Ariel in person.

It was a complete shame and disappointed them both, however, that both Yunho and you had been completely busy for the entire month the movie came out. Yunho had been training for work, preparing for another comeback. Your job had overloaded you with assignments that you ended up having to take home, staying up a bit later than usual to work and finalize them. It absolutely broke your heart to see both of your sweet girls upset. And it got you to muster up a plan on how to give them a little treat.

After putting your girls to sleep one night, you laid back in bed with your husband as he read a book he had been trying to get you interested in.

“Love?” You poked his cheek to draw his attention, to which he immediately turned to you and put his bookmark on the page he was at, setting the book on his nightstand.

“Yes, baby?”

“I think we should have a little family movie night with the girls,” you smiled, grabbing his hand once it was free. He hummed, a small smile gracing his face.

“I think that would be cool, love. We haven’t really had time together as a family, I suppose.”

“No, not really. And they were really looking forward to seeing the new Ariel movie. I figured that since you have off tomorrow, I can maybe call in sick, and while the girls are at school we can set up the house for a full movie night. Maybe move the furniture around a bit, I can cook up some snacks themed around Ariel or the ocean in general, and we all just hang out together.”

Yunho watched you as you spoke excitedly, with such passion in your eyes, talking about putting together something that would mean so much to your daughters. It always made him fall even deeper in love with you, knowing how much affection you held for your shared family. It was evident in how you had planned out this entire project.

You looked at him expectantly, waiting for him to say something. Instead, his smile grew wider, and he grabbed the side of your face to bring you in for a kiss. It took you by surprise, but you would never deny the warmth of his lips. When he finally pulled away, he rested his forehead on yours, looking into your eyes.

“You are so amazing. And I know our daughters are absolutely going to love this.”

Warmth filled your chest at his words, and you threw your arms around his neck to give him a tight hug.

—

You held Yunho’s hand that rested on your leg as you smiled giddily, watching as kids piled into the cars and buses. Your heart beat fast, excited to have your daughters in the car and surprise them with your husband’s presence. Usually, it would only be you picking them up after work, but with his day off he was able to drive with you to get them, and you knew it would shock them as neither of you told them about his free day. So as your car pulled up close to the sidewalk, the girls mindlessly hopped in, they laughed and jumped up to give him a hug around the neck.

“Appa! You’re here!” Jieun smiled with a toothy grin, eyes sparkling at him as she buckled Daeun in first before herself.

“Yes, sweetheart, I had a day off and wanted to spend it completely with the best people I know.” He grinned, looking at her through the rearview mirror to ensure they were both settled before shifting the car back into drive. You admired your husband’s features; how much he lit up when it came to his babies. He fell into the dad role so effortlessly when Jieun was born. Of course, he had his worries, but they passed as he learned his way around raising two girls, just as you had. To him, you and your two daughters were his entire world, no question about it.

“Girls,” you turned around in your seat to look at your daughters. “Since Appa is off today, we were thinking about having a fun day in. We have a very special surprise for you both when we get home. What do you both think?” You watched as both their eyes widened at the promise of a surprise, and they nodded their heads in agreeance with your offer. It made your chest warm inside, seeing your girls so happy.

When you four finally got home, you walked your girls to the front door before stopping them from barreling inside. You squatted down until you were their height, holding both their hands.

“Okay, loves. I told you it was a surprise, so what I need you both to do is put your hands over your eyes. And don’t peek!” Your playful tone made them grin, and Jieun gave you a thumbs-up before they both covered their eyes. You stood back to your full height, looking at your husband as he unlocked the door, holding Jieun’s shoulders to help guide her as you had Daeun.

You had them kick off their shoes at the front door and maneuvered them around the furniture until they stood right in the middle of the living room. You looked at your husband before nodding at him.

“Alright girls, you can look.”

And as you watched as their hands fell from their faces, you knew that this is truly where you were meant to be.

Their eyes widened impossibly big as their mouths dropped in shock.

The projector placed carefully behind them cast the title screen for the movie onto a bare wall, and as your husband grabbed the remote to unmute it, “Part of Your World” started to play through. The girls looked around at how the couches were moved, making a semi-fortress filled with blankets.

On the kitchen island, an assortment of foods were spread out. Blue jello dessert with gummy sharks and crabs in it, sand made from crumbled-up graham crackers that had rock candy littered in it, sandwiches cut up to create dolphin shapes, and a big fruit tray meticulously ordered to look like a big turtle. Blue and green Koolaid filled two pitchers, and their favorite cups were set out waiting for them.

Daeun started jumping up and down squealing, something you had never heard from her before. Jieun dropped her backpack off her shoulders and ran to give your waist a hug. You patted her hair and leaned down to kiss the crown of her head. She then peeled away from you to run to her father’s waiting arms, getting picked up and twirled around by him. Daeun came up to you next, holding her hands up at you, waiting to be picked up. You let out a gentle laugh before grabbing her up and giving her kisses on her cheek.

“Why don’t the two of you go get changed into your Ariel dresses and we can then all eat and watch the movie together, yea?” Daeun nodded as you set her down, running to follow Jieun as they went to their shared bedroom to change.

Yunho looked back at you as you looked at the hallway fondly, heart feeling so full at being able to do something that makes your daughters so happy. He walked over, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you into him. The smell of his cologne washed over you, and you both gently swayed to the song as he sang along to it.

And at that moment, hearing your husband’s voice, hearing your daughters’ excited laughs as they run back out to jump on the couch that you had pushed together, you realized this was where you wanted to be. Right where your people were.

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(pls take the time to read)

Signs I should have known I was aro: Disney edition

I think this topic has been stressed a lot already. But here is my take, anyway.

Of course, romantic love had been, is and will always be one of the main themes in kids' movies. Why, I can never fully understand. I'll explain below how I like other themes more.

Some time ago, I did a post on the kiss/hug scenes in Rapunzel which depicts how much more I value acts of showing love that don't include kissing.

Not only those two. I have a history of hating Disney on-screen smooches. As a kid, I thought, "Well, maybe, I don't like seeing these characters kiss because it's a grownup thing."

Could you blame me? When my parents were in the room and a kissing scene appeared on the screen, they changed the channel. So my toddler brain concluded that the reason I didn't like watching kisses was because I wasn't of age to like it. Or something.

At the time, I had no idea that I was hand-picking my favorite movies by the level of romance they had in. Or lack thereof. And I was a very judgemental kid. Let's go through my original thoughts on some Disney classics.

Snow White — No. Just no. She's a child, fourteen. Marrying an older guy she doesn't even know. After he kisses her corpse. NO.

Cinderella — The age difference is a little better, I guess. So is the age of consent. But they only talked one (1) night and he relied on that slipper to find her instead of asking to meet all women and see for himself. Fairytale logic I guess. I didn't like how she called it love immediately and kissed the prince at least once that same night. Or how they got married immediately.

The Sleeping Beauty — Must I even explain? Aurora didn't even know Philip that much, had only met him once (if you exclude the "dreams"). And yet, he's her true love, the only one who can revive her corpse. Ridiculous. And yes, kissing a comatose body, ew. Also, the arranged marriage trope pisses me off, royalty or not. Aurora was engaged as a newborn baby, come on.

Mulan — Cinematic gold. I didn't know it back then, but the fact that romantic love is such a pushed-aside aspect in this movie gives me life. The songs give me life. Especially when the trio dresses as concubines and "Be a Man" plays in the background. An absolute gem, lmao. The sequel however ruined the story somewhat for me, too much lovey-dovey stuff. I like Mulan more when she's fighting than when she's acting all sappy towards Shang, sorry not sorry.

Peter Pan — Loved it, still do. But I did dislike the mermaids, the image of fangirls who are petty towards other girls. And Pan's brief "relationship" with Tiger Lily was nauseating to me. I couldn't explain it but when Pan blushed at her nose-nuzzling thing, I always pulled a face.

The Princess and the Frog — In my opinion, (remember, always my opinion): Tiana, this hard-working girl who doesn't belong to anyone, was lost to love. Well, not lost. But falling for Naveen in the course of three days? Unrealistic and kinda unnecessary. Sweet, but still. I adored the "relationship" between Ray and Evangeline more. Either way, it's a movie that I enjoyed when love wasn't that prominent on screen.

Aladdin — I love this movie because of the Genie. The relationship between Jasmine and Aladdin is meh. She forgot his face and didn't recognize him until later. Their coming together is a lot like that trope "first guy who treats her right sets the expectations and wins her heart". Usually that's a thing, not only in Disney movies but media in general. The female lead settles for the first guy that treats her right because the bar is that low. A good movie, all in all. Love how Jasmine stands up for herself at least. Not a lot of princesses fight against the objectification of women.

Pocahontas — I used to hate this movie. I didn't sit right with me: the racism in it, the manipulation, the murders. And the romance, yes. Pocahontas fell for the strange man who tickled her curiosity in the span of two days. I also hated how her father just sold her to marry Kocoum like that. I know it's tradition. Heck, that's a tradition that still goes on in my country. Maybe that's why I didn't like seeing it on screen. And Pocahontas doesn't even end up with John Smith. The second movie definitely ruined the story. So yes, she's the first princess who fell for a man in three days, TWICE. Needless to say, only the songs kept me from blacklisting the movie entirely.

The Little Mermaid — I actually loved this movie for some reason. I can't explain why, maybe it was my obsession with mermaids. Yeah, that was probably it. But I was pissed when Ariel exchanged her tail for legs. Not to mention human periods and overall, all the bad in the world, for a man she'd only seen once. As I grew up I realized just how f*cked up that story was: Ariel giving her entire lifestyle, family and identity up for a guy she hadn't even spoken to. I don't know why I loved that movie, alright? Hell I still do a little. The sequel too. Say what you want.

Brave — (I know this is technically Pixar, shut up) Much like the paradox with Ariel, I didn't like this movie. I can't explain it. Maybe because Merida wasn't the typical Disney princess I had been used to seeing. Now though, I ADORE that story. No, it's not because Merida knows archery... Okay, yes maybe a little. I love the aro-arrow word play, alright? Anyway, the way Merida fights against being shipped to a husband like the "tradition" I aforementioned asks her to, has always had my heart, even when I didn't like the movie. The focus on the mother-daughter relationship is special, I love it. Stellar movie.

Tangled — One of my favorite Disney movies, my favorite princess. But her relationship with Eugene.... Well. Again, three days. That's all it takes to fall in love. Classic of Disney. Not only that, but Eugene is literally the first man person Raps has ever since, besides Gothel. The bar is nonexistent for her, she would have fallen for anyone. He lied to her and she still... Well, I won't stress that any longer. Their relationship in the end is sweet, one of the few cases where we are actually shown that they would risk their lives to save each other. Respect that. Mostly, I love her magical hair and Pascal. And the guys of Snuggly Duckling.

Moana — EPIC MOVIE. The story, the culture, the character growth, the plot twist, everything! Loved it at first sight, at second and forever. Even more when I became aware that there's no romance in it. I don't think I need to say more.

Frozen — My opinions on this movie have always been changing, accompanied by mixed feelings. So the relationship between sisters was cute, but Lilo and Stitch made that more realistic. Anna's relationship with Hans, ugh. I think that for a long time I used the fact that he was the antagonist to justify my absolute hate for the way Anna "fell" for him in one evening. Again, Anna sweetheart. This is the first man you've met. The bar is nonexistent for you too. God bless Elsa for forbidding her to marry Hans. And while it's cute to think Elsa as a lesbian, she has aromantic vibes. Sorry not sorry, but she's also a God by the end of Frozen 2. Gods are beyond attraction, I said what I said.

Raya and the Last Dragon — Loved it, still do. Say what you will about "dragon Elsa". Sisu is her own character, and I adore her. And yes, I love the lack of romance in the movie. Make no mistake, I shipped Raya and Namaari from the first moment they smiled at each other. I swear on my name that I paused the movie and screamed, GAYYYY, at the top of my lungs. Luckily, I was home alone. If only Disney directors would do the right fcking thing and give me a queer main couple!! I swear I wouldn't mind the lovey-dovey romance one bit.

Of course, I've left dozens of movies out. This post is already way longer than I wanted it to be. But I think that was enough to make a point.

While I'm not romance-repulsed, seeing animated kisses (and unnecessary relationships) on screen makes me uncomfortable. As a child and as a grownup. It just doesn't sit right with me. Not to mention all these princesses who identify with their princes and specifically their relationships with said princes when they're perfect on their. Wreck it Ralph 2 made them a favor, I think, by making them work together and showing their strengths. Another movie I love.

Friendship just makes an overall better theme to apply to kids shows, my opinion. Family, work, self-discovery, mental health, happiness. These are all better themes to portray in media dedicated for children. Which is, again, my opinion.

And yes, Disney has been getting better. They've fixed the age difference and the age of consent. The female characters no longer depend on the male ones, at least not as often. They understand the assignment, alright. There are still many questionable things about Disney's reputation though, things we all choose to overlook for the sake of the good movies. But who knows? They might change. Hopefully soon we'll also have an obviously queer couple in a movie. Hope dies last.

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pretentious-librarian · 2 years

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the art teacher is so cool

the art teacher just turned on a video of Taylor Swift performing How You Get the Girl which has got to be one of my favorite Taylor songs.

now that most of my classes are over, i have a ton of free time now. what have i been doing with this free time? making a powerpoint explaining the entirety of the fnaf lore. my mom and i have been trying to heal our relationship. since she doesn't understand me (cliche ik, but true), i didn't share myself. she hates horror, i love it. but she said she was sad that she didn't even know what my interests are so that's why i'm making the powerpoint explaining the fnaf lore, so she can know me better even though i know she's going to hate all every part of fnaf. i was sick yesterday and my sister forgot to pick up one of our friends on the way to school because i wasn't there to remind her and now he has detention for being late to class lmao. Taylor Swift released her version of This Love last night and I'm in love with it it's SO GOOD.

today a friend texted me and asked me about people who have made impacts on me, real or fictional,. friends or strangers. some people have simply impacted me by making me feel less alone, making me feel seen. I didn't really include those people and my friend said i wasn't allowed to say Michael Afton smh. but i can't seem to stfu about him ever so i understand why she said that lmao. I'm totally not working on my third--wait maybe fourth--fanfic about him rn.... anyways here's a copy of what i told her about people who have impacted me:

tyler joseph and his band (twenty one pilots) convinced me not to 💀myself and gave me hope and showed me the importance of art, two of my teachers are like father figures to me so that's a huge impact on my personal growth, my middle school english teacher was the sweetest woman with the best roasts ever who i credit as making me into the writer i am today, lily sigh (iisuperwomanii) is a youtuber i grew up watching who made me laugh, feel safe, taught me important life lessons-through the years i watched her she basically raised me, when i was a little kid i loved ariel the little mermaid and she's the reason i'm a competitive swimmer today, gerard way is the lead singer of a band i used to be obsessed with and he encouraged me to be myself and showed me that i can survive hard times just like him, my favorite asmr creator, Gibi, comforted me and gave me rest when i was anxious and showed me it's okay to be into nerdy geek stuff no matter how old you are (she's like late 20s rn i think and her bedroom looks like a teen girl gamer room) my favorite twitch streamer nick smithyman never fails to make me laugh and interacts with his fans and makes a ton of your mom jokes. taylor swift taught me how to recover from breakups when i thought i never could and helped me express my feelings in a healthy way that no one else could and taught me that i can find happiness in myself, without needing anyone else.

i don't know if you can tell but i am most impacted through art more than anything else. i believe art is what makes us human. i could talk about the beauty of art and stories and storytelling forever. maybe i've already talked about here but idc. all of those things are what make us human. and when i say art i don't just mean visual art. music, poetry, filmmaking, video games, writing, architecture, speaking, dancing, anything that humans create is art and it tells a story. maybe it literally tells a story but even a story tells a story of the artist. whether the artist intended there to be a story or not, art tells a little story about who we are. art tells the story of an individual and tells a piece of a story of humanity. storytelling through art connects us all and that is why art of all kinds impacts people so strongly. this is why i want to work in a library, surrounded by my favorite kind of art that i can indulge in and best of all, share it with others.

maybe i just repeat myself over and over again but i'm okay with that.

#taylorswift #fnaf #tyler joseph #twenty øne piløts #lily singh #iisuperwomanii #michael afton #gerard way #my chem romance #gibi asmr #library #books #librarian

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a-shakespearean-in-paris · 4 years

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I was in a toxic friendship

I want to preface this by saying I am so much happier right now and I am no longer friends with this person. Haven’t seen or heard from her in over a year. I also want to be clear this was a friendship I had in real life, not tumblr. I think however this story’s lessons can be applicable across the board to online friendships and even relationships with family members. Please, if you ever feel belittled by your “friends,” and you bring it up to them and they brush it aside and think you’re overreacting, it’s not a friendship.

I was friends with this person, let’s call her Stacy, for about ten years before I realized I no longer wanted to speak to her or be her friend. I met her in the ninth grade and we bonded over Disney World and other things and I could talk to her about anything, including this huge crush I had on a twelfth grade boy. She came over to my house sometimes, though not a lot, and as high school wore on we started going to the mall together, stuff like that. I went to college in a different city and she came to visit me sometimes, and we even worked at the same theme park, though different departments. For all intents and purposes this was my best friend, though Stacey got upset when I also called my cousin my best friend, even though she spoke of her sister as her best friend.

She got a boyfriend when we were both around 21/22 or so, I think we were both juniors in college, though she took a semester off because she hated school and thought it was weird I was a double major. She told me her boyfriend was thirty and she met him at work. I thought the age gap was a little big, but I wasn’t one to judge. Later on I found out he was 36 and she told me she lied because she was worried how I would react. I met him and I thought he was nice, but when she got engaged when we were both around 23, I had only met him that one time for a birthday dinner she had, and my mom and dad told me they thought it was kind of strange. They also said it was weird to them whenever I hung out with Stacey it was only for like an hour, two at most, especially since my cousin and I could spend days and day together at sleepovers, chilling and being ourselves, interpretative dancing, lol. Privately I also found it odd I could talk to Stacey about anything, but when I asked questions about her life and her thoughts she’d barely talk. Her grandma passed away, she loved visiting my grandma because she could have one through me. One day I broke down and admitted my grandmother is a narcissist, and she is different behind closed doors. she berates me, used to call me fat, berated me. Stacey didn’t believe me. I can’t say when she started not being such a good presence in my life, but these were some seeds, and it got worse--slow at once and then all at once as they say.

Anyway, I was a bridesmaid of hers and her sister was the maid of honor--a mutual friend was another bridesmaid and there was one more (super sweet girl and I don’t even think Stacy talks with her much anymore either LMAO) and at this point in my life I was really into my first fanfic IWD. I was consumed with it, to put it bluntly. This is another story entirely but I spent so much of my college career as an English major writing for academia, and when I was finally writing something for me, I bloomed. I talked to her about it and she kind of laughed about this Cullen person but she liked to read fanfic herself so was whatever about me doing it. I shared with her my first piece of commissioned art and she laughed at Lydia thinking Lydia was just me, and I told her, no, she wasn’t, she’s based off of several old hollywood ladies and I actually made her avatar in game, but she wouldn’t believe it. I actually ended up saying “would you think this if I were white and she were white as well” and she laughed and didn’t understand. Needless to say the whole incident rubbed me the wrong way. I ignored it. Her wedding happened, her sister made a good speech, then when all the groomsmen did a speech for the groom the other Bridesmaids and I thought we had to do something, so we got up there and made an impromptu speech. I called her my sister and I told her I loved her. I didn’t know it then, but I didn’t believe her when she said “love you too.”

I wanted to go back to school, and I ended up in a Masters program after the wedding. My summer semester, my first, went well, starting in June and ending in July. I finished IWD and went to another fic, Stacey making fun of Sophie, my OC for that fic too, because I just straight up made her part Hawaiian like I am. When I told her I had little representation growing up other than like Lilo and Stitch and now Moana, (which I don’t like TBH but another story lol.) she asked me what the big deal was about that. Why did it matter that no main character ever looked as I looked? I couldn’t explain to her how much writing a character who was like me in a fanfic mattered. We planned on going to Disney World, me, her, her sister, and the other bridesmaid, but don’t post anything on facebook because she didn’t want to invite the other other bridesmaid. I wanted to go to a nightclub with her for my birthday but she didn’t want to go because her sister couldn’t enter, so after my whole family, plus her and her husband ate at my favorite restaurant, she went home even after I begged her to come with my and my cousin. She said it was stupid. Also, her husband was a huge ass to wait staff. Alarm bells went off for all of us.

But I was looking forward to Disney in December that year. (2018) I didn’t have a job at the time but was actively looking. Well, I got a job after interview after interview at restaurants that wouldn’t hire me, my dream job researching Shakespeare. It fell through. (I was promised to actively help the professor research, it fell through.) She paid for the trip without me knowing and I had to pay her back 800 dollars on writing commissions which I severely underpriced. because I was worried no one would pay otherwise. School wasn’t going well. Put it simply I felt really dumb and stupid and like I didn’t belong, (we were reading Ulysses!!!) which I later learned was a common sentiment with my classmates who began the same time as I. I will admit my relationship with academia is rocky at the moment, but I genuinely do love to write, love to research, love to make discoveries about new texts. Stacey saw how stressed I was and sad and got angry I was so sad, and asked why was I in school anyway Am I going to be on my deathbed and wished I studied harder? I didn’t have the energy to tell her it wasn’t about “studying harder,” it was that I loved writing and reading and wanted to be a part of academia. Learning makes me happy, expanding my mind. She belittled me anyway, thinking getting a Masters was dumb and I wouldn’t get a good job.

At Disney World I was so happy. I hadn’t been there since I was a child. She made fun of me for wanting to meet Ariel, for wanting to ride Soaring and being afraid to check grades when a classmate said they were up. I got so stressed I cried at the Japan pavilion at Epcot and stress ate sauerbraten at the Germany pavilion (Amazing by the way, I love German food.) She basically dictated the entire trip--we went to Universal for Harry Potter World at her request and refused to ride the spider man ride with me (it was fucking fun too-girl missed out.) All she wanted to do was stand around in Harry Potter world all day, (LOL now right?) I wasn’t that big of a Potter fan anymore, even at that point, and she told me I was going to stay there anyway and like it. She dictated the entire trip and when I questioned her about it she said I wasn’t listening to to her--we were following the agenda. Our last day there we went to a “Hawaiian” restaurant and made a comment about my “Hawaiian privileges.” I just didn’t have the heart to tell her that the crap we ate didn’t hold a candle to real Hawaiian luau food.

When we got back I was mentally drained and melancholic because I wondered why Stacey was so cruel to me. She always had a biting wit, but before it seemed playful. Now it was cruel, mocking. She made me feel so incredibly stupid. At this point my cousin got engaged and I cried because I wanted so badly to be in love with someone and get married. I was angry and I lashed out at people I shouldn’t have. I was later diagnosed as depressed. I felt like my life was at a standstill and matters with Stacey didn’t help. I also had a huge writing crisis--I told Stacey something I will always remember and always regret because she doesn’t deserve to know: I write the romances I want because no man wants me. At this point, Stacy turned me into her project. She didn’t like how sad I was at Disney World, it put a bummer on her trip, and when I told her she seemed off she brushed it off. Her plan was to get me on dating apps and basically settle for anyone, even though I had used apps before and don’t like them, but when I got back on Bumble she basically patronized me and told me she was proud of me and “small steps.” On bumble, I wanted to vomit. (for the record, I am not against dating apps, I know success stories, but at that time I was not emotionally ready to date.) Also, she would teach me to drive so I could go on dates, but only in my Dad’s truck.

I wish I could say I broke it off, that I told her not to talk to me again, but Stacey stopped talking to me first. However. the day she stopped was when I told her she was wrong and I wouldn’t listen to this anymore. What happened? I mentioned I was demisexual. She said it wasn’t real. I said it was real to me--I don’t experience sexual attraction unless I have bonded with someone. Sure there are people I like to look at, but it’s not a sexual attraction. She asked about my crush on Tom Hiddleston, Cullen, “that robot guy” and was like yeah you’re sure demi, and lol it’s not real. It wasn’t just her words, it was the mocking indifference.

I went off. I told her she didn’t have the right to tell me what was in my brain or how I felt. I knew who I was and who I am. I should have also told her I wasn’t her project, but I left her that day and it was the last time I saw her.

I talked to my dad that night and mentioned it to him, being demi, and you know what he told me? I think I’m the same way. I think I almost cried.

I tried to talk to her again but she didn’t want to see me. She had “personal issues and was busy” I pissed her off. Good, I say now. But after this happened in March of 2019 I thought I had no friends. She was my only friend, and I lost another mutual friend (one we went to Disney with) because she knew Stacey longer than she knew me. But you know what happened in April? My cousin asked me to be her maid of honor and I fucking wept, because there was my best friend--my sister all along. Just because she lives in another city and we are growing up and it took me longer to figure out my career than her doesn’t change the fact that we have a bond that can’t be broken. My cousin is one of my favorite people and if you know her you love her--it is impossible not to. And when I told her about my fanfic and about being demi she wanted to know, wanted to listen. School got better too--I started chatting in class more and come to find out, one of my classmates also broke up with a toxic friend. God I love her and I miss her--wish I could see her. (thanks COVID)

There was more, but this was a lot, and I spent more time writing this than I thought I would. I wanted to write it because seeing a few posts float around made me remember, and I want ya’ll to know, leaving a friendship is scary. Sometimes it can be worse than leaving a lover. But it is a brave thing to do. Part of me that knew I should have left at the first racist comment (oh yeah, she called me a pineapple one day before the Disney trip, did I mention it’s a slur for Hawaiian people? If my grandma were there she would have clobbed her.) but I stayed because I didn’t think I had any other friends. Well, I did and I do, and I know now friends lift each other up, not belittle or talk behind your back. They listen to me when I talk about how important my writing and my characters are to me.

Sometimes I still miss her--but mostly the high school her that I knew before she met her husband. I don’t know if he changed her or this was her all along, perhaps both. I got fired from a job in November 2019 (which now I’d like to thank them because I got a better and more fulfilling job with a boss that respects me.) and when I cried outside the place, humiliated, I wanted to call her and vent like I used to. I didn’t. Now I don’t want to call her anymore or talk to her. I’d rather spend time with people who care, people who don’t kick me when I’m down. Since then I am so much stronger, in so many ways. The worst times in my life yielded the greatest lessons I have ever learned.

If you made it this far, thank you. I did tear up a little writing this, but please know: it can be hard to walk a new path, but it is brave. You are brave. You don’t deserve to be belittled *hugs*

#personal #toxic friend #ok to reblog #tw: depression #tw: racism #yep she was that bad and I was blind for a long time

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gamerwoo · 4 years

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Seventeen headcanons: Seventeen as Disney Characters’ Kids

a/n: you can thank my cousin forcing me to listen to the descendants soundtrack for this. may or may not do oneshots for these at some point so uh,,,,,,we’ll see

Seungcheol, son of Kovu and Kiara

a lot like his parents

is a little infamous because some people still see his dad as “evil” anyway

does whatever he thinks is right even if it’s not traditional

heir to be king and he takes that seriously

honestly he is lowkey trying to prove himself to everyone

hangs out with wonwoo a lot and usually goes to him for advice

also best friends with soonyoung since they’re kind of in the same boat

doesn’t want to be sheltered by his parents even though he has mixed reactions from the public

even if his entire kingdom doesn’t like him, he wants to be a good prince and future king

Jeonghan, son of The Cheshire Cat

sly and sneaky and mischievous lil shit

you don’t think he’s there but he’s there

he hears and sees everything

his favorite thing to do other than nothing is eavesdrop

he’ll be hanging out with his friends and as soon as someone is like “let’s go do this” he disappears without saying anything

often found lounging about with his tail swaying and flicking

typically up to no good but his seemingly sweet face always fools people

but those who know him know he’s typically anything but sweet

whenever he appears, you always see his smirk first

Joshua, son of David & Nani

surfer dude

i mean, come on, look who raised him

hangs out with seokmin a lot

he’ll sit on his surfboard out in the ocean and seok will swim up and rest his arms on the board and they’ll just talk or swim and stuff

he is a little ‘odd’ but his aunt is lilo and he was raised around aliens so can you blame him

but he really just wants to be normal because people have been judging him for his entire life

sometimes he’s a lil judgy just to make himself feel less weird

*insert that gif of him making that face in the going svt episode that everyone uses as a meme now*

but like he also keeps experiment 002 as a ‘pet’ after mrs. hasagawa couldn’t take care of her ‘cats’ anymore

so he still is a lowkey strange boi

Junhui, son of Thomas O’Malley

smooth as heck

a little goofy but that’s his charm

he comes from one of thomas’s many one-night-stands, so he lived on the street and was only raised by his dad for a long time

when he was brought in to live with duchess and her kids, she treated him like one of her own, and he got along well with her kids

would throw hands for his sister without question

still a flirt like his dad though

but he drinks his respect women juice i promise

usually playing around with his brothers or sometimes going off to help hansol

even though his family is loaded now, he still acts like he’s an alley cat lmao

kinda stays away from jeonghan because he finds him scary

can be found hanging around with soonyoung though

Soonyoung, son of Shere Khan

he wants to be a tiger so badly so

despite his dad being kind of yknow an asshole

soonyoung is a huge sweetheart

some people may think it’s an act or whatever but it’s just how he is

and his dad is trying so hard to get him to be less kind but the boy can’t help his fat heart okay

he hangs out with seungcheol a lot because the two can relate on being misunderstood

soonyoung is basically kovu

came from a shitty family but is just here for a good time

but if you fuck with him he can and will rip your throat out

hangs out with jun quite a bit because he makes him feel more upbeat and kind of grounded i guess???

because he doesn’t want his status or his father’s words getting to his head

honestly highkey worried he’ll become like his dad

Wonwoo, son of Milo Thatch & Kida

literally the perfect mix of his parents

the curiosity and shyness/awkwardness of his dad

mixed with the beauty and grace of his mom

he’s the prince of atlantis since kida became queen after the king died, and everyone absolutely adores him

has girls lining up to marry him but because he’s awkward like milo, he’s not really that interested in getting married anytime soon

hangs out with seungcheol and tries to give him helpful advice

pretty much always reading and learning about other cultures and kingdoms

has never been outside of atlantis and he’s highkey curious about what’s out there

but he’d never sneak out behind his parents’ back because he’s a good boi

Jihoon, son of Elsa

he’s a lot like his mom (from the first frozen i havent even seen the second one ok)

he also has powers like her which he doesn’t use often

even as a child, he preferred learning how to use and control it rather than just use it for fun

but now when he has to go out for royal things, he will sometimes make a little ice rink for the kids or create little flurries and dancing snowmen just to see the children laugh

and if you look at him, you can see the hint of a smile

spends most of his time in his room reading or sleeping because that’s just how he chooses to spend his time

tbh he doesn’t want to be a prince he just wants to do what he wants

but elsa is a single mom and he’s her only heir so he doesn’t want to let her down or stress her out

but if he could just,,,,,,not be a prince, he would love that

Seokmin, son of Ariel and Eric

everyone always sayin this boy looks like prince eric anyway so

he’s a mermaid like his mom so he can spend time in the water and on land

often goes ‘surfing’ with joshua but it’s basically josh surfing while seokmin swims in the waves and watches

sometimes he goes to visit wonwoo in atlantis but not often because it’s kind of hard to get to

spends 50% of his time singing whatever song is stuck in his head or just making up his own

he really is more like his mom personality-wise lmao

and of course more like his dad when it comes to looks

likes being on land and in water equally you can’t make him choose one

his best friend (other than josh) is a dolphin that goes on adventures with him and stuff, and an octopus that clings to him like a backpack

Mingyu, son of Eugene and Rapunzel

big clumsy but kind idiot

also does that weird smolder thing like his dad

honestly he’s kind of the perfect mix of his parents

very kind and curious

but he’s not nearly as trusting as his mom

he may be kinda dumb sometimes (he got the braincells from his dad ok) but he makes an excellent prince

he loves his kingdom and his kingdom loves him

he’s got so many suitresses but he put his training to be king first

however he highkey in love with the girl who sells flowers and planters at the market

Minghao, son of Cruella De Vil

like his mom, he’s very into fashion

unlike his mom, he prefers to find cruelty free ways of achieving fashion

he actually left home when he was 16 and has nothing to do with her

he’s become an anonymous fashion designer because he knows nobody would give him the time of day if they knew who his mother is

as a designer, he goes by the8

he designs all of seungkwan’s clothes too

he usually just stays inside and works on his clothing because people are mean to him when he goes outside

Seungkwan, son of Charlotte La Bouf

just wants to be a prince so heckin bad !!!!

likes to dress up in nice clothes and go out a lot

only wears things designed by minghao though

he’s boujee okay

honestly would give up his prince dream to help minghao make a new name for himself

he wants to be a prince more than anything but his friends and those he loves come first

but seriously can a princess just marry this poor boy already

Hansol, son of Robin Hood & Maid Marian

hands down the sweetest boy ever

he’s pretty well off so he typically just gives away his own things

but he will steal from the rich if he has to lmao

pretty much friends with everyone because he’s just so likeable

the only people who don’t like him are rich assholes lmao

may or may not have been arrested a few times but it was for good reasons i swear

sometimes has chan tag along on his adventures to steal from the rich

Chan, son of Mulan & Li Shang

he’s not a prince but damn he looks like one

the strongest warrior in his kingdom

his family is also very highly ranked so while he’s not a prince he’s still an important dude in the kingdom

girls swoon over him and men want to be him

can we blame any of them

if he’s not training/practicing, he’s off with hansol

often donates to the poor but also loves to eat the rich lmao

has also wound up in jail a few times but his parents are fine with it because it’s for a good cause

but if he’s not practicing or with hansol, he’s just fucking up assholes

those are basically his hobbies lmao

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hiccanna-tidbits · 3 years

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I agree with you SO MUCH about j/slsa and Mo/arel!

Like, I saw in tags that people are giving more reasons why they ship those two pairings but... let's be honest.

The main reason they ship j/elsa is that they both have similar powers and white hair. The main reason for mo/ariel is that Ariel lived (past tense!) in ocean and Moana loves ocean. And it's just.. stupid for me.

Their personalities just don't match with each other and even if they were together that wouldn't last long.

I think that Jack would totally annoy Elsa. She is more calm and she's even sometimes annoyed at Anna's behaviour. So Jack would be just get her angry. And for Jack, Elsa would be boring, cuz she can't have fun or sth like that.

Moana would like Ariel, but after a while it wouldn't work either. Moana would love to be close to the ocean while Ariel would prefer be on land. After a while, I think, there would be a lot of arguing about this and finally they would break up. In friendly way, but still.

ahh, sorry, but reading about that couples made me kinda annoyed.

But it's okay cuz they not that as popular as back then (I mean J/elsa).

DUDE I FUCKIN KNOW RIGHT???

Like highkey they’re both such shallow ships and their personalities don’t mesh well at ALL like...they’re neat aesthetically but that’s about it???

Right on the nose about j/elsa, like Elsa would NOT be attracted to his antics. And highkey his and Anna’s personalities are really similar, and I straight up cannot see Elsa wanting to date someone who reminds her of her little sister??? Kinda weird :/ And Elsa seems to not have much patience for men in general, so honestly Jack would work her every last nerve. She might eventually come to be fond of him as a little brother figure, but I can’t see her ever being interested in him romantically. Elsa I feel like mostly likes women anyways, and would be pretty picky with her men. And Jack seems like he would like girls who are fun-loving and energetic, and like...Elsa CAN have fun, but she doesn’t seem to like...value it as much as Jack does. Like Jack will always make room for fun, while Elsa just has fun if she has time, but it’s not a priority. If that makes any sense. She’s generally reserved and serious, and Jack would get bored of her pretty fast and be annoyed she was putting a damper on his fun XD

I can see Moana being interested in Ariel because she’s a mermaid, and Mo is like “whoa, people who live IN the ocean??? COOL!” But Ariel’s personality itself I don’t think Moana would jive with because like you said, Ariel’s all obsessed with human culture on land and leaving the ocean behind and Moana would be like “Literally WHY??? You have the option to explore the ENTIRETY of the ocean UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL UNDERWATER and you wanna...give that up???” And hearing that Ariel wants to give up being a mermaid because she’s “in love” with some dude she hasn’t had one (1) conversation with??? Moana would roll her eyes SO damn hard. Like she’d be like “this girl needs to get better priorities” lmao. Doesn’t help that Moana has big gray-ace gray-aro vibes, so the thought of someone doing something THAT drastic to leave the ocean for a goddamn CRUSH of all things would be even MORE baffling to her. I can imagine Mo being like “dude you have EVERYTHING that I could ever want, and you want to give it up for a guy because he’s...hot? Excuse me???” Meanwhile Ariel would be too busy fantasizing over the next hot human who catches her fancy to spend a long time, if any time at all, swooning over Moana XD

Dude you’re so valid, I internally kinda go “Uggggghhhhhh” whenever I see J/elsa or Mo/ariel so I couldn’t read about them without getting annoyed either XD It’s honestly kind of a relief to me that the J/elsa craze seems to be mostly over, because I was super not a fan of seeing them everywhere XD

Steaming hot take maybe but good aesthetics mean nothing if your ship ain’t compatible *shrugs*

Also watch me make a mermaid!Merida x Moana moodboard solely out of spite XD

#anti jelsa #anti-jelsa #anti moariel #anti-moariel #rotbtd #rotbtfd #my askbox

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Survey #395

“suicide? i’ve already died / it’s just the funeral i’ve been waiting for”

Have you ever met a famous political figure? No. Have you slept for longer than usual today? Ugh, no. I officially have my APAP mask for my sleep apnea, and I chose the one that covers my nose and mouth considering it varies which I breathe from when I sleep depending on congestion. It is very hard to get used to. When is the last time that you experienced rejection–literal or imagined? Hm. Is there an artist or celebrity whom you admire for their craft but take issue with their personality or politics? Yeah, such as Marilyn Manson. He's a pretty gross person but by god do I love his music. What’s the last thing you made out of clay? An anatomically correct heart. Do you like bacon bits on your salad? Yes. What do you do to celebrate Earth Day? Nothing. :/ I wish I could think of something to do for it. Have you ever had someone try to intentionally bully you to suicide? Bro what the actual fuck. No. Who are your favorite kids that you’ve babysat? My nephew Ryder. Would you feel funny if you kissed somebody of the same sex? I've kissed a girl and it felt pretty great, so. Name three things in your room that others probably don’t have in theirs: 1.) a snake; 2.) a huge meerkat collection; and 3.) an APAP machine. Besides furniture, what’s the biggest thing in your bedroom? My snake, I think. Describe your feet: Ugh, the worst. My feet are horribly callused from when I used to walk all the time. I have small toes. What’s a pretty bird? Peacocks. Besides sleeping, what do you do in bed? Just about everything. .-. How do you like your hoodies? Loose/oversized. Can grills be sexy on a guy? They're hideous, if you want my honest opinion. Have you ever been in a Catholic confessional? Yes. How fucked up are those, honestly... I really hate the concept of teaching children that they have to tell some random guy things they feel bad about and let him ask God to forgive you or else you're going to Hell. What color was the hair of the last person you kissed? Brown. Can you do a backflip? No. Where are the last three places you went? The TMS office, a gas station, and my sister's house. Do you consider yourself a flirt? No. How old is the oldest person you’ve dated? I actually don't know, but at least close to 30 now for sure. I just know we were both in high school, but he failed I think two years. What’s something that makes you feel more creative? Music. Who has the best personality on YouTube? Guess who, lmao. Which YouTuber seems uber-confident? Mark is a very confident person. I envy 'im for that. What is the funniest YouTube video you have ever seen? I watch YouTube like... constantly, so I've seen thousands upon thousands by now. I really don't know. Have you ever been inside a Victorian mansion? No, but that's like a dream marriage venue for me. What was the most boring field trip you ever want on? I don't think I ever had a boring one. Man, I miss those. Do you enjoy watching videos of babies being born? NO FUCKING THANK YOU. Does ANYBODY? Are you a hoarder? No. If you were rich, what things would you get done cosmetically? I would say liposuction, but I honestly want to lose the weight myself. If/when I lose the weight I want to, I am 110% getting loose skin removal at LEAST on my stomach because I feel hideous with it. Also if I achieve my weight loss goals, I want to get a breast lift. Weight loss-related things aside, I'm pretty serious about getting laser hair removal on my legs because I HATE shaving and my legs are VERY hairy, and the hair is dark, so I'm extremely self-conscious about it. Are you the type of person who asks a lot of questions? It depends on who I'm asking. With some people, I'm afraid to look stupid if I ask too many. How many states have you visited in your lifetime? If you're excluding the ones I've merely driven through as well as lived in (which is only one), I've visited Ohio, New York, Florida, Virginia, Tennessee, and Illinois, so six. I MAY have been to Michigan as a baby, but I don't remember. What is your biggest fear for the future? Ending up homeless after Mom passes. I'm scared my family will give up on me, which is completely unrealistic, but I'm terrified of living on the streets. Do you like seafood, or not so much? I only like shrimp. Have you ever cried from being so nervous? Oh, certainly. What is your favorite book series, if you have one? Hm... of all series I've ever read, probably the Shiloh trilogy. I adored the books and the movies. Have you ever had a parasite before? NO NO NO NO NO, DON'T MAKE ME IMAGINE THIS. I am PETRIFIED of parasites. Do you have a big heart when it comes to animals? Absolutely! Have you ever put your pets in a kennel for a while? I actually don't remember? It's possible when we've gone on an extended vacation, but I'm unsure. Whenever we've gone somewhere, friends have normally taken care of our animals. Where is your favorite place to buy clothing? Hot Topic or Rebel's Market. Do you enjoy listening to older music? I love classic rock and metal. What do you think is the most stupid song out there right now? "WAP" for fucking sure. I haven't even heard the whole thing, and I don't EVER want to. As a child, did you ever want to become a mermaid? Nah. Ariel was my favorite princess, but I wasn't obsessed with mermaids or anything. Can you compose sentences in any other language than your own? Some German, yes. Mainly just the basics. Have you ever met someone who was really racist before? Yes, many. -_- Do you have any celebrity autographs? No. If you could be a Disney character for a day, who would you be? Maybe Kiara from TLK. What is your favorite color of clothing to wear? Black. Did you ever build furniture forts as a child? Oh yeah, lots of times! I sometimes even pretended they were burrows and I was a meerkat, ha ha. What kind of dog is your favorite? I have a beagle bias. Do you prefer water or land? Land. Have you ever had a seizure? No. Do you plan on losing weight any time soon? Hunny, I've been trying to since 2016. -_- I lost like 70-ish pounds through 2017-2018, but recently I've gained almost like... all the weight back and it is upsetting beyond words. Have you ever been in a heated pool? Uh, a hot tub? Yes. Are you looking forward to anything? Getting Venus' terrarium, finishing TMS so I can maybe get a job, visiting Sara again... What was your GPA in high school? Over 4.0. Do you require a lot of private time? OH yes. What do you plan on doing with the rest of your life? I hope achieving a sense of accomplishment and becoming content with my hopeful career, marrying a fantastic partner, and having a family of lovely pets. If you have a favorite television show, who’s your favorite character? I'll go through the very few I deeply enjoy: 1.) Mozart in Meerkat Manor; 2.) probably Hyde from That '70s Show; 3.) perhaps Envy from Fullmetal Alchemist; 4.) Jerome from Ginga Densetsu Weed; and 5.) Shiro from Deadman Wonderland. Did you use to watch Blue's Clues? OH yes. I loved that show as a kid. Do you stutter when you get nervous? BADLY. Your lunch consisted of...? What DID I have... uhhh OH leftover pizza. What is your favorite kind of chips? Hot, crunchy Cheetos. What is the best way to tell someone that they stink? I wouldn't. Do you have any embarrassing usernames? Some from the past, yeah. Do you have a backpack in a shape of an animal? No. I found a meerkat one once, but it was way too small for me to use in school. :( I was so disappointed. Have you ever waxed your legs? No. I've waxed my upper lip and eyebrows, but especially with how long and thick my leg hair is, I think waxing there would be excruciating, so no thanks. Do you own any shirts with a peace symbol on it? No, but I would if it had a cool design. Have you ever taught a little kid to flick people off? No, and I wouldn't. Children generally don't have a strong enough grasp on when profanity is appropriate and not. Have you ever itched yourself until your skin was raw? This is VERY common. Like right now, my right arm is the Sahara with how dry and raw it is. Do you always clear your history after using the computer? Nah, got no reason to. Have you ever eaten a Big Mac? No, because I know I wouldn't like it; I don't like lettuce on my burgers. Do you feel like you’re judged for your looks? For my weight, yes. Name one world issue that upsets you. Just one? Poverty is high on the list. Just... no one should have to live like that. Do you like Wendy’s frosties? After they thaw a little bit, oh yeah. It's physically impossible to drink them for a good few minutes because they're so damn thick.

#survey #surveys #random questions #lyrics: ''cyanide'' by metallica

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I know you love Marcel (or at least find him very fascinating) and I had two questions about him. What do you think happened to his father? He seems to not have been around but that is just my impression. My second question is whether you have any names you think of as belonging to Marcel's dæmon?

Ihahah yes I do love Marcel very much, I find him an incredibly character!

For your first question: I think the most likely answer (that which may show up in canon, should Philman decide to write about that) is that the father is dead. Do I like that? No, but it’s probably the most likely scenario. Maman is very old and sick by TSC, so it’s fair to imagine that Papa Delamare would be around her age or even older (considering how Philman write these books with a bit an antiquated mindset, so perhaps he was much older than she was when they married, as it was kinda customary during the first five decades of the past centuries).

Now, if I had to guess and go into headcanon territory, I like to think that he left Maman for many reasons, most likely because of her cheating. He may not have wanted to divorce her as to not disgrace the children as well, but he left her and either he didn’t want to take the children or Maman refused to let him take them, whichever works. My personal headcanon is that he left her due to her cheating with Binaud - which explains Marcel’s anger with Binaud and Maman - and that Papa Delamare is still alive in TSC. I also headcanon he is the man who gave Lyra the Myriorama, because I like some family drama asjhskshjkasjkhas He probably lives in a costal city, owns a fishing boat and just stays chill as far from drama as he can get. If he ever tried to visit his children, it’s possible that they didn’t want anything to do with him - either because of resentment or because maman would have turned them against him or simply because they would consider him weak for giving up his perfectly good life. I also think he was a very rich man involved with corporations (if ur not familiar with it, I wrote a theory over Thuringia Potash being owned by the Delamares). But this is all just headcanon, a realistic guess is that he is dead and gone. Good for him, imagine living to see your son hunt down your granddaughter because he thinks she killed his sister and your former wife is trying to brainwash the girl into whatever-- u get the drill lmao

As for your second question: I honestly don’t know. I’m very bad with naming daemons, especially daemons from canon characters, but if I had to name the owl, I’d problably look after a saint’s name. I think Maman is very religious, and she’d have had her daemon name both the monkey and the owl with saint’s names. If she wanted to be a little extra, maybe she’d go after angel names as well, but most angels tend to have names associate with masculine, so probably not many options for Marcel. We don’t know for sure, but I think they might be Swiss - very likely from Geneva or any other French speaking regions, I know very vaguely how that works in Switzerland tbh (I know they also speak German and apparently Italian, so possibly the names could come from these languages too, tho Maman strikes me as A Very French Woman) - so all the names of the saints/angels/bliblical names would likely be in their French form (as they change according to the language). I do not speak French lmao So I’ll just give you the names in English form, but you get what I mean, I hope

I did a quick googling and amonsgt the names I found I think Edith, Euphemia, Francesca, Genevieve, Gianna, Godelieve, Louise, Marguerite, Eunice. I mean there are way too many options between the bible and saints and some angels, but if I had to pick one would probably pick one of these or I’d go for a less masculine-coded angel name. I like the idea of an angel name because both he and Marisa could have daemons named with something ending with -el, and I think it is believable enough considering the way Maman seems to be very intense about belief. Angels names that I would choose for him: Ariel, Muriel, Sabriel or Sariel; I’d probably sit and like really think before I’d name the daemon though, because I think the name is very important and usually all the names we have are great matches to their human’s name - because Philman knows the character well. So I think it’s a hard process, but the general idea I’d go for is religious name, always taking into consideration that the monkey’s name would also have been reflective of that religious concept.

Thank u for the ask! This was very fun to research and write about!

#asks #marcel delamare #hdm meta: marcel delamare #thank u for the ask!#always happy to talk about marcel!!!#Anonymous

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heya folks

gonna write a long post about the nicest person i know who i’ll probably never see again :’[

it’s an interesting story, but i wouldn’t blame you for not wanting to take the time to read it. do what you’d like!

it was after 7th grade just ended; i wasn’t in the best place emotionally, things kinda sucked. i was excited for camp, however, something i always looked forward to. i got placed in a bunk and stuff, of which there were 4; i was happy with the counselors, too (their names were ariel and jared). i was kinda bummed that one of my favorite counselors, named eli, wasn’t working there as a counselor anymore - he still worked at the camp, but whatever position he had i didn’t see him around as much.

at camp i would carry around a drawing notebook and a fanny pack, in which i had pens, pencils, the like. i soon noticed that another counselor, named shai, had a fanny pack; no, we didn’t ‘bond’ over it or whatever, but that’s one thing that made him grab my attention.

my camp is a ramah camp, which is a jewish camp; one of the activities that we’d have were a kind of elective we’d sign up for, called ‘shiur’ (literally means work), which integrated jewish learning with some activity - sometimes it’d be calligraphy, or pokemon, or super heroes. during first session i chose the pokemon shiur. normally, during the shiur period, counselors would go off and have a meeting. but, for some reason, shai would always hang out near where we’d have our pokemon shiur. i knew, of course, that this was because of julian.

i don’t know a specific reason why, but camp ramah tends to have a good number of autistic kids going there; some of them have a specific ‘caretaker’ of sorts who are with them to make sure they’re okay. my sister had one, my friend abby, and julian - shai tended to be with him and made sure he was okay. (something i find fascinating about julian was how he loved drawing road maps and signage)

it just so happened that julian picked the same shiur as me both sessions -pokemon in first and super heroes in second - so shai tended to be around. in this way i got to get to know him.

he noted my art on several occasions - he said that i’d be good at doing henna considering how frequently i’d draw on the back of my hand; when making the banners for color war, he said he’d abduct me so i could do the banner for his team (no abducting ever occurred, lol)

shai is a very funny person - i don’t know his mbti type, but i’m dead set on him being an nf. he was nice to be around, and i keep describing him as ‘supportive’; no wonder why, considering the circumstances of most of second session.

near the end of each session, we would have an overnight trip we’d go on (for two nights, three days). on the first trip, shai unfortunately wasn’t able to come for whatever reason. it was still a fun trip, but i still missed him.

come second session, however, and things would be different - shai was able to come with us on our trip to baltimore! i ended up sitting in the back of the coach bus, and shai was sitting across from me. something i noted is that he’s one to ask ‘you okay?’ a lot. and i mean a lot.

on the first day of the trip, we went to the national aquarium, got caught in a downpour, and watched an orioles vs yankees baseball game in the rain. we arrived at the synagogue we were staying in and went to bed; i got my typical 7 hours of sleep.

the next day we went to six flags! i chose the slow group because i’m a wimp. i had been wearing my galaxy hoodie at the time; when we stopped to have lunch, shai seemed concerned about me. woop

we went back into six flags after lunch; at one point we went on some raft ride type thing, and we were sitting on a bench in the sun to dry off (we’d gotten drenched). i was still wearing my hoodie (which, i may note, is rather thick). eventually shai’s group came around and they sat next to us on the bench.

shai checked the temperature on his phone, which was 90 degrees farenheit, so he said that i should probably take off my hoodie; i was only convinced after the “do it for me” thing that people do that just sells it. note: after his group left i put the hoodie back on lmao, now that’s a story i tell a lot (along with the story of eli having gone illegally ziplining with jesus)

that night, for whatever reason, i slept terribly. i fell asleep at 10:40 and woke up 48 minutes later, at 11:28. i was left sitting in the dark, super bored; i watched counselors walk in and out of the room, i counted to 1000, i went to the bathroom to sing to myself, i looked out the window. either way i had to wait 8 hours for everyone else to get up.

by this time this was the last day on the trip, and we were going to go to an elderly home. we packed up our stuff, something i did quickly. i then kind of wandered aimlessly around the room, waiting for everyone else to finish. this prompted another ‘you okay?’ from the shaister.

i managed to nap on the bus, but only for half an hour. we eventually got to the place; we were going to talk to them, give them ceramic gifts that people had apparently made, and that one kid who can play any song on the piano by ear just went off.

you may know that i’m a rather shy person; this, for whatever reason, felt like any party i’d ever been to - isolated and very anxious. there were a number of girls who said they were scared, but they weren’t shy - they were just scared of old people or something. shai convinced them that old people are not scary, then came to console me; he noted that people used the pun of “shy” and “shai” sounding similar on him a lot, but now he could actually use that himself. he didn’t pressure me to do anything i didn’t want to, and even suggested going outside if i really felt uncomfortable. i probably should’ve gone outside, but i didn’t. eventually we all went outside anyway to have rita’s ices, but i didn’t want any.

i’m pretty sure that’s all the trip stuff, but there’s more afterward. there are some stupid inconsequential things that i just find kind of amusing, to say the least. for one thing, there were these tacky plastic champagne glasses that the counselors had for whatever reason; there was this show going on, and everyone was bored out of their minds. shai just gave me one of these stupid glasses with no context, for the lulz or whatever. my response was to draw a smiley face on it with sharpie and give it back. he found this rather amusing.

one day i brought this shark plushie to camp, whom i called ‘smore’ because he looked like a marshmallow. shai insisted it was a piranha just to annoy the heck out of us, an argument that lasted two days.

another thing, one of the counselors was going to be leaving for israel before camp ended, so we had this whole thing where basically you could give a shoutout to anybody and thank them; i decided to thank the counselors in general, as most teenagers wouldn’t tolerate leading around a bunch of loud middle schoolers; shai knew i was a rather shy person, so he said that it was a very good thing of mine to do.

my age group was actually an amalgamation of several age groups - rising 6th graders, rising 7th graders, and rising 8th graders. being in the latter group, i was going to take part in some stupid graduation. and, you see, we all had to write speeches for it.

i wrote a speech, whatever, which mostly consisted of thanking counselors (in general i get along better with figures of authority, eg. counselors or teachers or whatever rather than fellow kids). i was very worried about the whole ordeal, but i did it; afterwards shai said he was proud of me for giving my speech despite how anxious i was about it.

and note how i never outright told the guy how anxious i was about any of these things - he’s just the type of person who knows; i always value people like that, given how i never tell anyone anything :’]

when it came to the last day of camp, i wanted to make sure shai knew how thankful i was for everything he did for me. i didn’t know a single other person who was half as validating and supportive of me as he was. but, being me, i couldn’t just tell him. no, i had to make a hand out of pipe cleaners, write a card, fold it up and make it look like an ice cream cone, put the folded card into the hand, and then awkwardly give it to him.

he initially said he’d read it later; but soon enough he read it and then i got a shai hug. yea!

welp everything after camp sucked! before school started i was so worried how i’d cope with my dumb issues without shai being there; i came to miss him a ton. like really, a ton.

before that summer, i had camp dreams like, heck, maybe once or twice a year?

but since that summer of 2019, i’ve had ~15+ camp dreams. i really missed him. i longed for the support he’d give me when i was anxious, for the knowledge that somebody understood me. i eventually started having headaches a lot, so i came to ‘think’, “oh! he’s trying to telepathically talk to me!”

i never did believe that to be the case, but imagining that i could talk to shai was comforting. every day i’d talk into my hand, telling him how my day went, asking him about his, and sometimes singing him a song or something. this came to be a normal thing i did routinely. i would get worried when i didn’t get headaches for a while, as i perceived those as him ‘responding’, so i would think i did something wrong.

i would frequently worry about if i’d ever see him again - i had no way of knowing if he’d be a counselor at camp this year. then covid-19 came and i knew he couldn’t. at some points it really bothered me how much my mental health revolved around this person who i knew for around 2 months and who i’ll probably never see again.

as of now, i still do miss him. i still had camp dreams. i literally had one last night, where i saw shai and was trying to call out to him, but he didn’t hear me. i still do ‘talk’ to him, but it’s not like i think i’m actually speaking to him. but heck, if it’s comforting to me, there’s no reason not to.

but really, shai seems more like a figment of my imagination now. it’s been a year since i’ve last seen him. was he ever real?

i would draw him sometimes, imagine what it’d be like to talk to him again. how i wish i could talk to him again.

there are so many silly little things i remember about shai - his poofy hair, his aviator sunglasses, how his fanny pack had writing on it in red sharpie and had multiple sunscreens in it, how he almost got hit by a cookie...

shai is the nicest person i’ve ever known, and it’s a shame that i’ll probably never see him again. he’s the kind of person i want to be - i want to be able to understand people and cheer them up when they’re upset. i want to have poofy hair and call people ‘bud’ unironically...

oh to be you, shai...

(oh wait, i know he exists because apparently you can find his channel on youtube and his pfp is his face... the only thing on it is one comment saying “thanks for subscribing” lmao :’])

if any of you know who i’m talking about, or think you do, please tell me!! :’0

thanks broskis *sob*

#ramble #long post #shai bocarsly if you're out there i miss you so hecking much aaaaaa #wait i already had that tag?#oh #when the heck did i use it before?#:']

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