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ow1et · 5 months

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it is so exceedingly rare to get an honest smile out of athene. at least in regard to typical, everyday interactions with people she isn't very close with. granted, she's a ridiculously good actress and the average person she interacts with would never realize that she isn't being genuine. her fake smiles are tight, small, polite, and very controlled (like most of her reactions are). but it comes across as her just being the prim and proper socialite that she's perceived as. most of gotham's higher class smile like that, so why wouldn't she? it's the same way with her laughs being short, intentionally cute, giggly, and more exhaled air than sound.

thinking about the absolute shock it probably is when someone sees her really smile because it's a bit lopsided (the right corner of her mouth always raises higher than the left) and she has dimples! she usually bites her bottom lip trying to hold it in. it's very sunlight peeking through the clouds kind of energy. also, if you make her laugh hard enough she will snort.

#her real smile being imperfect is so very important to me!!!#it goes against everything she tries to be!#idk just adore her funky little dynamics where she gets to be herself for once💛#(even if she still feels like she's lying to everyone)#but her inability to recognize her genuine self/relate to her real reactions or emotions is a whole Other Thing #i think she doubts herself a lot #takes forever to verbalize to someone what they mean to her #because she forever feels like she's stringing everyone along to some false narrative (even when she isn't)

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kingofmyborrowedheart · 6 months

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Speak Now is Taylor’s most neglected child and it makes me sad. I don’t think it’s intentional, I just think that there’s a lot of heaviness attached to it that makes revisiting it a bit painful.

#taylor swift #speak now #like there was a lot of tough things she was going through both personally and professionally #she was trying to follow up fearless and all the success and doubts that came with it #aftermath of John and entering into her relationship with Jake #in that threshold between childhood and adulthood #trying new things and pushing herself creatively and artistically #I know she takes a lot of pride in writing the album alone but I can’t think of how solitary that must’ve been at times

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fromtheseventhhell · 11 months

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Sometimes I wonder if it even makes sense for Arya's first stop back in Westeros to be in the Riverlands. I feel the same way as Arya's response to the Kindly Man when he offers to get her on a ship leaving for Duskendale and Gulltown. She just got there from the Riverlands, what point is there to go straight back? Especially with the way it seems to become a meandering hell for every POV there lol. What developments in TWOW would motivate her to go there? I can really only think of wanting to reunite with Nymeria, or if the faceless men are touchy about cheating death and put a mark on either Lady Stoneheart or Jon that she either has to fulfill or prevent.

It's just when I see actual Arya fans speculate on her TWOW arc it's about running into Jeyne and finding out what's been going on in the North through her name, finding out about Jon's death or resurrection, something to do with the Hardhome wildlings, Bran watching Nymeria through the trees and maybe contacting her the same way he did with Jon, discovering what's going on with the Sealord and maybe getting in his favor, anything involving the keyholders and the Iron Bank, potentially discovering secrets about the red door or even the Sailor's Wife being Tysha, a climax involving the Uncloaking of Uthero... almost everything I can think of would point her back north, to claim herself as the true Arya Stark or getting revenge for Jon's death. Or wanting to reunite if she hears of his resurrection before leaving Braavos.

The only benefit I can think of for landing in the Riverlands first thing is going up through the Neck and meeting Howland Reed. He could give her Robb's will and laugh if she tells him she found out Jon's mother is Wylla through Ned Dayne lol. I want her to meet Lady Stoneheart as much as anyone, but I would prefer Lady Stoneheart stick around long enough to reunite with both Arya and Jon. I don't want the gift of mercy to be given to her before that happens.

See, the tricky part about speculating on Arya's TWOW arc is that she has so many plot connections that it's difficult to imagine that she'll be able to fulfill them all. Arya going to the Riverlands first and ending her story in Winterfell/The North is a way of hitting as many of those connections as possible. I don't think that Arya going to the Riverlands is confined to her antis because a lot of Arya stans make the same speculation, but I do think too many people discount the possibility of her going North. She has several plot connections there in her proxy marriage, Jon dying for her, her connection to Bran (seemingly highlighted in ADWD and hinted at in TWOW), her personal connection to Roose, the likelihood of her encountering Jeyne, her connection to the magical plot, etc. It's also, like you mentioned, unlikely that she intentionally sets out to travel to the Riverlands. George could continue her "never seemed to find the places she set out to reach" and she could get knocked off course, but even then there are other places she could end up. There's a good case for her traveling to both places, or even somewhere new, but there's just too much in the air to say definitively.

#ask #anon #arya stark #personally I think there's a good chance she goes North but a better one that she goes to the riverlands #because I doubt she'll set out to make it to the riverlands again unless she somehow? hears about Lady Stoneheart #In TWOW she'll learn Bran + Rickon are alive that Jon has died and of /her/ marriage to Ramsey which are all connected to the Northern plot #and I think that would do more to push her plot forward just as well as going to the riverlands #I do think th elong night will filter into the riverlands though and that makes me think that she'll be going there first #or she could find herself somewhere inbetween #my best guess is that she sets out for the North gets knocked off course and finds herself closer to the riverlands #there's just a lot to speculate and we won't KNOW until we get TWOW so it's hard to say #either way she's gonna have a whole arc in Braavos and I'm so excited to see it after the slop D&D gave us #speculating for Arya is so hard and fun cause there are so many ways that it could go #either way I need a reunion between Arya and Nymeria at some point

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oldtestleper · 6 months

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big spoilers for new info as of tonight's episode but eye am soooooooo curious about the extent to which galicaea is still opposed to cassandra in some way. obviously in her high elven form she was trying to get kristen as a follower rather than have her continue to investigate the nightmare king and find cassandra, like she was NOT trying to put her thumb on the scale in that way. and from the sound of it she and sol basically respectively absorbed/dissolved the domains that once belonged to cassandra and ankarna through numerous calculated efforts of their clerics and evangelists, with sol and helio acquiring exclusive association with the sun and summer, and galicaea acquiring exclusive worship of the wood elves and becoming a goddess defined by certainty and eternity, driving away doubt. so is galicaea still playing the game even after being "restored" by wolfsong, trying to keep rage and doubt out of the world that is so well set up for her. was she ever really restored or was it doomed to be a cosmetic overhaul after the high elves got behind it again. like how christian fundamentalists dress like hipsters and open really trendy and successful coffee shops

#crazy plot twist the big bad this season is NOT capitalism! it is imperialism and religious fundamentalism #.txt #d20 spoilers #d20 #also lets be clear i definitely don't think galicaea's being like played or piggybacked by sol i think they go hand in hand #like i think sol stood the most to gain directly by destroying ankarna as the only other major sun diety. we haven't heard of other dieties #of night/the moon so much. darkness yes mystery etc sure but not those specific domains. so sol surely had a lot to gain out of this.#but i think she elevates herself by elevating her husband & their union as sun and moon. when the sun shines brighter so too does the moon!#anyway i think perhaps what we learn from this episode (besides the obvious)#is that the 'corrupted' versions of the gods don't disappear so easily. obviously ankarna is still surviving in some form.#the nightmare king is still an aspect of cassandra. galicaea's wolf aspect is still tempered and her sylvan aspect is elevated over it #also interesting that the form of cassandra that was defined by betrayal from her sister is associated with mirrors lol.#presumably galicaea changed a lot after her marriage to sol. and then she had cassandra and her partner wiped from knowledge. so.#also crazy to think about how old the worship of these gods are and how recent the supremacy of sol/galicaea is.#when kristen died during the cataclysm that created the nightmare king her bones were 850 years old.#the menhir commemorating cassandra's marriage is 3000 years old. AND obviously that was a place that was sacred to the pantheon if they hel #a wedding there. AND galicaea drove the evidence of that literally into the ground and claimed it as a place of exclusive worship.#AND on a historical scale that happened like two weeks ago.#just saying im not surprised the nightmare king is back. and if i were galicaea i'd be terrified of rage and doubt as well.#dimension 20

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system-architect · 1 year

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thinking about the mlm and transmasc rep situation again and i think the thing that gets me about it is how exceedingly easy and completely inconsequential it would be for a single writer to just sprinkle in a bit of rep. like a bulk of the queer rep we already have is via random npc dialogue out in city maps or festivals or something and is not even voice acted. you literally have to change NOTHING and dont even need to pay for extra voice lines to just change a single pronoun or word in some npc's pop-up text from "girlfriend" to "boyfriend". this is not a replacement for centered, featured representation with actually memorable chararacters played by queer actors or so on, but it'd be SOMETHING and it's amazing in a sad way that we have like actually nothing right now

#my stuff #sorry this is one of the very few gw2 things i still start getting a little tilted about #they should make chul-moo gay i think.#he has kind of a Quality to him #edit: forgot my train of thought hang on #i forgot to say that part of why this would be so easy is that its how this happened in the past #sya was added to the game by a dev named teddy who im unsure if she still works at anet anymore #(im unsure if she still goes by teddy but thats what i remember her by so)#teddy herself is a trans woman and wrote in sya when she was assigned to add npcs to the new lions arch #teddy worked on a number of areas of the game over the years and she was ALSO responsible for the onscreen kasjory kiss #(and also for making raids work. which isnt lgbt but like good for her)#so it was this one dev who was trans and iirc gay? maybe? who took it upon herself to add the rep she wanted to see #which is so fantastic and i just wish like #that we could get More Of That #its possible that anet doesnt have mlm or transmasc writers atm but i feel Doubt about that #i think a lot of it has to do with games still being a 'boys space' and making mlm rep a hard sell #its sad

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deathsmallcaps · 1 year

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Ok I’m probably not the best person to say this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of (as of right now) accurate insults on how the CGI approach for the Live Action Little Mermaid movie, but please be mindful that you don’t take things too far, and *especially* don’t start going after Halle Bailey (Ariel’s actress) and to a lesser extent, Ariel the character.

Antiblackness is still an issue in a lot of fandom spaces, and it doesn’t just come out as using nasty slurs or stereotypes. It manifests as drawing Black characters lighter and/or with more white features, it comes out as removing Black partners from ships, and it starts out as plausibly deniable insults that get the door open to microaggressions and outright nasty comments.

I’m not saying that all discussion of the movie should be stalled, or even if it turns out to be an artistic failure, that it doesn’t merit discussion. I’m saying that you shouldn’t extend your vitriol to the characters and actors.

If you really feel the need to insult her, it might be worth a little introspection. Ask yourself, “Do I resent that they changed Ariel, or that they changed Ariel in this way?”. You’re not irredeemable if your personal answer isn’t kind. Just be more careful, try and observe how that sort of world view affects your behavior to others, and then course correct.

A lot of little kids would love to see another Black Princess. A lot of little kids would love to have a Black mermaid as a main character. Hell, a lot of adults would love those too. Black fantasy characters have long been excluded, transformed, killed, merely in the background, relegated to stereotypes, villainized and have hardly ever in the spotlight, especially in major productions.

Don’t make it harder for kids (and adults!) to see themselves on screen. Don’t ruin their wonder. So don’t make unkind comments. Keep it to yourself. Frankly, Halle looks beautiful, and I can’t wait to see the sparkles in her fans’ eyes as she swims across the screen.

#live action little mermaid #the little mermaid 2023 #Halle Bailey #I’m a white girl but the concept of a Black Ariel is near and dear to my heart #my best friend in elementary loved H20:Just add water and introduced it to me #and she dreamed (at least half then #we haven’t kept in touch) of ordering herself a mermaid tail to swim around in #and I really hope that she has. if she didn’t fuck up a year of college like I did (she was damn smart so I doubt it)#then she’s likely just about to graduate #M I hope you get a great paying job and can order yourself a beautiful quality tail and live out that little girl dream #you deserve it. I don’t think you had near enough #black girl Magic growing up. miss you #i doubt you’re on tumblr but just in case you’re wondering #‘is that me?’ I’ll give you a hint:#I used to say floober doober instead of cursing when we played Mario kart #I mean I did start cursing heavily later. but at first I said that #in any case idk if you’re still into mermaids but we both know you would’ve loved to watch this movie when you were little #this was both spurred on by all the flounder posts I’ve been seeing and ‘A Song Below Water’ by Bethany C. Morrow #one of the main characters Effie works as a Renaissance Faire mermaid and she talks a lot about #how people write fiction about her character but whitewash her or body swap her or would rather do self inserts #or the only comments made about her beauty are just about her tail and never about her Black skin or features #and how she (and her Mom before her death) were usually the only Black characters at the fair #and how she feels so beautiful and incredible being her mermaid self #also again I’m white so I don’t have personal experience but my younger brother is mixed #and he’s always been really lowkey about his feelings but #I took him to see Into the Spiderverse when it first came out #and he’s loved it since #here was this (adorable - don’t tell my brother I said that lol) lanky smart awkward hurting courageous Black boy on screen #and I can see in his heart how he’s been affected by it. he’s not a super fan or anything but I can just tell (big sister thing.) Anyways I #really hope that joy will happen more and more for everyone.

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theheadlessgroom · 27 days

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@beatingheart-bride

This humble answer made Susannah blink rather owlishly at him, tilting her head a little as she mulled over his response with a small sigh, trying to work out this puzzle in her mind, the riddle of why he would help her: There was no glory in rescuing someone like her, of course...and there was nothing that she could possibly offer him, if he were fishing for some kind of favor for him coming to her aid...

...could it really be that...he was being genuine when he said that he had only helped her because...it was the right thing to do? That he did it not for praise or to get something out of her, but just because...he saw a woman in distress and came to her aid?

It was a hard pill to swallow, but she did her best to do so, to will herself to believe in a selfless desire to help someone, class or race be damned, as she gave the tiniest of smiles at his comment about the awful morning awaiting her attacker come daybreak. It was true, that man would no doubt wake up feeling as if he'd been beaten over the head with a sledgehammer...

Still, the idea that he would selflessly risk his well-being for her sake sat on her stomach like a stone, and in an effort to ignore it, to put it out of her mind, she asked softly, "H-How are you feeling? Y-You don't hurt too much, d-do you...?" She had some salve and some painkillers in the first aid kit here somewhere, if need be...

#((ahhh; i thought you'd like that detail! it just happened to come to me and i came to love it as well))#((that in an act of love and support; august happily took his wife's name instead; he respected and adored her))#((and no doubt having seen her pride in being a pace; wanted to join in the family and so happily took her name))#((as opposed to her taking the name burke! i think wilhelmina would've happily become mrs. burke))#((but i imagine it spent quite a lot to her; to know that august was so keen to take her name; and be proud to do so!))#((and that would be so wonderful for philippe to do the same; even thought it *would* make susannah's head spin!))#((for so long she's taken no great pride in herself; in her name and her heritage; so for her husband to take her name))#((i think it'd be extremely heartwarming; and i think susannah wouldn't say no to the idea!))#((i think she'd still ask philippe if he wanted to do this; if he was sure he wanted to be a pace))#((but i think she'd also be very touched by the suggestion!))#outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Genderbent

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vyrantium · 10 months

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hmm. i haven't made ambrosia's playthrough spicy enough when it comes to durge things, i think. i need to replay her anyways because i missed a bunch of stuff, and maybe this next one will be more... tragic

#hi sorry i haven't been here i've been making a lot changes in my personal life that have left me exhausted #but i have had Thoughts and idk where else to put them #durge spoilers in these tags i guess #but like. listen. as much as she hated herself for killing alfira #i want her to SNAP and kill isobel too #which is so sad because i LOVE HER #and i will cry through the whole thing #but i've just seen a video of how jaheira reacts and MMMMM good shit #GOD i just. ambrosia's story is such a tragic one and i think this would really make her doubt herself #and when i played her in campaign i was always looking for a chance for her to snap and lose herself momentarily #durge was basically written for her lmfao #so glad i get to explore the character more with it

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sageofthestrange · 10 months

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bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP. childhood friends / work buddies or coworkers / family friends / friends with benefits / smoking buddies / adventure buddies / fake friends / recently friends / party buddies / friendship of need / dying friendship / circumstantial friendship / partners in crime / old friendship /[your muse] is the good influence /[your muse] is the bad influence /[my muse] is the good influence /[my muse] is the bad influence / opposites attract / ride or die / frenemies / roommates or flatmates / penpals / exes to friends / enemies to friends / other

ROMANCE. childhood sweethearts /[your muse is mines] childhood crush /[my muse is yours] childhood crush / exes / exes to lovers / forbidden lovers / highschool sweethearts / secret relationship / opposites attract / long distance / unrequited [from your muses side]/ unrequited [from my muses side]/ unrequited [from both sides]/ skinny love / friends to lovers / enemies to lovers / spurious relationship / power couple / newly entered / soulmates [ metaphorical ]/ soulmates [ literal ]/ awkward / turning toxic / toxic love / cheating [on your muse]/ cheating [with your muse]/ other

FAMILIAL. siblings [half]/ siblings [step]/[my muse] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure /[my muse] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse /[my muse] is a parental figure to yours /[my muse] is a child figure to your muse / guardian figure / legal guardian / adoptive child / foster child /[your muse] is taken under mines wing /[my muse] is taken under yours wing / other [kin-sisters/blood of the covenant vibes]

ANTAGONISTIC. dangerous to each other / dangerous to others / unpredictable / rivals / petty / developing into sexual or romantic tension / based off family matters / based of off circumstance / based off professional matters / based off misunderstanding or lies / conflict of ideology / betrayal / hero - villain dynamic / enemies / fight club / friends turned enemies / lovers turned enemies / exes turned enemies / other

#n1ghtwarden #ANSWERED.#(this is a funny time to mention that valerya is actually older than minthara and not by a small margin iirc.)#(There's A Lot To Start With Though So Hmm...)#(by virtue of both being exiles from the underdark of very powerful noble families with minthara from THE noble family of drow—)#(they both have an inkling of what that life is like right away despite taking such diverging paths)#(the backstabbing; the fear; the paranoia; the viciousness)#(both had been bred and groomed to be the perfect daughters for the queen of spiders and the matrons that raised them)#(yet now they're both on the surface; excommunicated and for far different reasons)#(they have a lot in common but a lot of DIFFERENCES too that could take the relationship in all kinds of angles imo.)#(valerya would simultaneously admire but somewhat scorn the ruthlessness of their shared underdark being brought up onto the surface)#(she'd also respect her experience and capacity as not merely a combatant but also in her devotion to whatever cause she pushes herself to)#(there's also the obvious physical differences in capacity which would make for an intriguing point between them)#(minthara; i think; would approve of valerya's practicality and use of her own cold authority in hard-to-call situations for the party)#(putting mind over matter; but i also imagine she'd have some doubts given her choice of profession and her obvious infirmities)#(but i could also see minthara commending valerya for surviving and even thriving in many ways GIVEN her infirmity)#(she didn't just lie down & give up; valerya would tell minthara the same; she lost purpose twice and yet still stands by her with an oath)#(both of them are women of incredible competence plagued by fatal flaws and downfalls)#(valerya is LN while minthara is LE so they both have a lot to bond over as well as argue over while not being TOO far apart in morals)#(neither of them are people who sugarcoat)#(LIKE I SAID; SO MANY THINGS AND WAYS TO EXPERIENCE THESE TWO)#(don't even get me started on the vibes they'd have during Act 3 when valerya 99% chooses to go partial illithid)#(thank you for the ask!! >:]] )

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fragmentedblade · 1 year

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Very interesting that Fu Xuan was regarded as the peak of efficiency and yet now we see her struggling with the position she has at hands, something noticed by the other characters, that worry and wonder how she'll fare

#I think this was quite realistic. One doesn't just magically become the best at their job overnight‚ it takes some time #And I think this also tells us a few things about Jing Yuan #It's very funny also how Fu Xuan talked about his way of dealing with things before and how she does now #She is a lot less... uncouth about him and his efficiency when he is not around #and she more openly regards him and his professionalism with admiration #It's also interesting how Jing Yuan‚ while aware that Fu Xuan had to overcome a few things to be the perfect candidate as next general‚#never doubted her. Yet there she is herself. The first thing we hear her say is that she could never grow accustomed to this #I don't know. I think this all was very realistic. And very interesting. I think it shows us indirectly a lot about Fu Xuan and Jing Yuan #Both as individuals as well as giving us a better insight on their dynamic and the perception of each other they have #I wonder if we'll get something similar with Yukong #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later

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a-heart-of-kyber · 1 year

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The Still Pretty podcast's read of Empty Spaces is...pretty off base. A big yike.

#i don't agree with a lot of what they've said on a lot of stuff #but holy shit #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #to act as if it would've been better had buffy doubted herself Again #when these ppl consistently shovel the shit on her and expect her to take it #but only the way they think she should #no buffy failed 1 gd times and she’s treated like she’s the worst #and the scoobies absolutely have done this to her before #at the beginning of s3 #it's not that out of character #not to mention it being an ambush #and sending away the only person who seems to grasp what they are ignoring #her person #as she says the one person who has her back #and then acting as if that's not true when THEY PLANNED THIS

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blujayonthewing · 1 year

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channeling High School Jay for for juniper vibes comes in clutch once again with the realization that I can get more of the astarion conversation outcomes I want by virtue of his being more conversationally forceful than she really knows how to push back against

#juniper would ABSOLUTELY be peer pressured into picking a friend she'd want to bite by a very forward man who makes her uncomfortable #she doesn't want to be having this conversation but doesn't know how else to remove herself from it #but for ME THE PLAYER approval is approval babey astarion's computer brain can't tell the difference lmao #'which way would you want me to murder you 😏 ' whichever way will make you happy so I can leave this conversation 😰#juniper HAS more of a spine than she thinks but it's easier to stand up for yourself when it's against something specific you're opposing #'I feel uncomfortable right now' is nebulous and trickier to address and she has anxiety and a lot of self doubt :')#anyway I love astarion lol I'm glad I can loophole my way to interacting with him more #and juniper DOES feel sincere compassion for him and wants to help him because of course she does #but it'd be fun to play through as someone more willing to properly yes-and and banter with him on his own level #about me #my OCs #juniper #bg3

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cozcat · 2 years

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mary malone and her daemon + love

It's been a few dates, and lovely though they have been, it is still only a few, the first she's been on since– since before.

He likes her too, and he says as much in soft chirrups and fond words she can only hear as she slips into a state of consciousness she now finds as easily as breathing, and she'd feel like she's gone mad were Will not able to see him too, but the part of herself that does not have a name is as real as the blood in her veins.

She's known it for a while now, but it strikes her anew: no matter how much she loves someone, no matter how much they love her, there is a part of herself that she can never share with them, and it is a lie she cannot avoid living.

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#142 words. i'm gonna meta on my own fic here #mary as we see her is wholly honest with herself and open about who she is #she left the church when she stopped believing because she would not stay as a liar #she fell in love with a woman and embraced that #(and i have no doubt that she would be quite openly out once she was truly sure of it)#she's honest about this to lyra and will too and she really barely knows them #so to have to hide a part of her life that so wholly altered her? especially when there is a gap in her life? god she'd hate it #and how do you even share that with someone without them calling for a mental health wellness check #so. i think about this a lot #his dark materials #hdm #myhdm #anonymous #ask meme

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ettadunham · 2 months

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trying to look into the mechanics behind shadowheart's questline is a trip

#mse's playing baldur's gate 3 #like i was reading up on the act 3 decision she makes on her own about her parents #and i'm starting to think that it was a bit of a fluke that i got the option where she wants to save them on my first playthrough #AND I WENT BACK ON THAT CHOICE #and now i'm playing with a single save file and i think i'm too anxious to see what happens if i give her the choice #because i do want to see the option where her parents stay alive #and according to the wiki if you get her to doubt her faith in shar early on that actually locks her out of choosing that herself?#and i don't know if i should trust the wiki but i guess it could make sense since letting the parents die seems like the selunite choice #then again a lot of people just say that there's a lot of stuff that's bugged with her #or maybe they were just not aware that there was an extra mechanic involved here?#uf. girlie is complicated.

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toasteaa · 4 months

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Started thinking about Eclairette and their dynamic and the deeper themes and connective tones that draw them together and...

I don't know how to explain it exactly, but just as you have Law and Order, you have Truth and Justice. Justice cannot exist without Truth, but Truth cannot be confirmed unless it's actively sought after. Lies can be manipulated and posed as truths - enough to where even Justice could be convinced - but that doesn't mean Truth no longer exists.

Justice is blind, but Truth is not.

Ugh, my brain isn't working the way I want it to right now but this means something and I've gotta sit a bit longer and figure out exactly what it means...

#toast talks #I associate a lot of eye imagery with Eclair for the reasoning of 'Justice is blind but Truth is not'.#She's even said something extremely similar to Neuvillette at some point. Might have been an argument?#I can't remeber exactly but I *do* remember one of her biggest gripes with how Justice is handled in Fontaine #is its reliance on the Oratrice to give ''proper'' judgements.#A machine that takes facts at face value and never has a moment to weigh if that fact is fallacy wrapped in truth's garb #is not the cornerstone in which Justice should rely on.#But Truth *needs* to be sought after. If no one seeks Truth then how can Justice prevail?#What is Truth if not the anchor that holds Justice in place?#And I can't help but think back to when Eclair got her Vision and had this same conversation with herself #Because while Justice ruled her mother's disappearance as unsolvable *Truth* was still hidden and begging to be found.#And Truth can be such a fickle thing. Like water.#Slipping between loose fingers on doubting hands. Slacking the thirst of those eagerly seeking it.#Drowning those bold enough to believe they could *always* keep their head above the water.#I am...doing a *lot* of thinking on Eclair today ooough...#''Justice is blind but I am not.'' Lines that go hard and remind me that Eclair is so much more than what I've shared so far #I should not have drank this coffee today I'm gonna go into a thinking spiral omfg #oc tag: Eclair Dumont #<- so I absolutely do not lose this later on #eclairette

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deadsetobsessions · 9 months

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He could overlook a lot of things, but this was getting ridiculous. You’d think seasoned vigilantes would have better excuses prepared, but Danny had caught that flash of panic that crossed Tim’s face as Danny came face to face with Tim dragging an unconscious Steph to her designated room in the manor.

“Uh.”

“Danny! Uh, Stephanie brained herself- uh, sliding down the bannisters and- pleasedon’ttellBruce.”

Danny blinks, staring at Tim and then very pointedly, very slowly, turned his head back towards the direction he came from: the main hall… where the bannisters were. He wonders what vigilante hijinks they were trying to hide from B this time.

Tim coughs, trying to inch Stephanie away. “Uh. She was doing… cartwheels?”

Danny let his eyes slowly take in the bruises that were clearly not from “cartwheeling in the mansion” on the both of them. There’s a huge bandaged cut on Steph’s forearm and a giant bruise on the edge of Tim’s jaw. Tim’s face twitches nervously, not that anyone else would have noticed- except Danny has enhanced ghost senses and could feel the panic coming off of his adopted brother.

“You know…” Shit, what does he do? Not knowing would be so much easier if these idiots gave him good excuses! “I don’t think I want to know what you two have been up to… but should I be worried for your, uh, physical health?”

“Nope!”

“… Okay.” He says. Tim opens his mouth to make further excuses but Danny adds quickly, “But don’t tell me, because if Bruce asks, I want plausible deniability.”

Cartwheels, Danny’s ghostly ass. Luckily, this show of doubt reaffirms Tim’s belief that Danny believes them all of the other times. Danny grins inwardly, planning capitalizing on the guilt that flashed over Tim’s face.

“Deal.”

“Want help?” The halfa points at Steph, who’s still being dragged over the carpet by a noodle armed Tim. Danny knows Tim’s strong, he’s a vigilante, but it’s funny watching him pretend to struggle.

“Please. I’m so tired right now.” He looks it too. Danny’s brows furrow with genuine concern when he takes in Tim’s drowned raccoon look. He picks up Steph, firmly removing her from Tim’s suddenly weak grip. Being careful to avoid her injuries, Danny nods at the door to her room. Tim cracks it open and does a little showy gesture towards the inside.

“C’mon, we’ll tuck her in and then I’ll tuck you in.”

“What, you don’t have to do that.”

“If you don’t let me tuck you in and make sure you sleep, I’ll tell Alfred who really accidentally poured boiling hot coffee on his azaleas last week. And I’ll sic Dick on you and tell him you haven’t been sleeping enough.”

“You drive a hard bargain,” Tim grumbles. “But fine. It’s really not my fault I’m this tired. A missing spleen is hard to handle, you know.”

“Yeah, missing an organ sucks,” Danny says, shit eating grin hidden long enough to catch the contemplative bloodhound look that passes over Tim’s face.

“Which- uh, which one of your organs is missing?”

“Liver.” Danny says, remembering the flashes of pain. He tilts his head away to hide the grin at Tim’s panicked face.

When he tucks Tim in, he pretends to believe Tim’s sleeping act and left his room while mumbling about the Wayne’s clumsiness and bruises and stocking up on bruise cream. He couldn’t even enjoy Tim’s floundering, this time, worried as he is.

——

“Brother.” Danny half turns his head, just to beam a sunny smile at Cass. He signs an exuberant hello. The halfa hangs up his coat as he addresses his adopted sister.

“Cass! What’s up?”

“Dinner.” She smiles back, signing that Alfred wanted them to the dinning room post haste. The main dining room, because rich people were fruit loops and Batman is totally included. Cassandra looks down and gasps.

What…?

Oh. Fuck. Danny glances down. He genuinely forgot about that.

“Huh.”

“Okay?” Suddenly, Cass is right next to him, hand reached out and hovering over the actual knife Danny forgot was sticking out of him. At least it’s where his liver should be, so he won’t have to pretend.

“Oh. Yeah, I’m good. Don’t have a liver.” Danny decides on the spot that he’s not gonna mess with Cass. She smiled the same as him. “Got mugged on the way back but I think they said I could keep the knife, right?”

“Danny.” She’s frowning at him. He feels like he just kicked tiny Cujo. But he doesn’t feel bad enough to blurt everything out.

“Here. You can have it if you want?” Danny casually pulls out the knife and holds the wound together with his bare hands. Cass looks more alarmed. She bodily picks up Danny and starts running.

“Woah!”

Cass throws him at Alfred, gently.

“Miss Cassandra! Why, I never-!” Alfred pauses in surprise.

“Uh. Wow, Cass. You’re really strong.” Danny pipes up, hand still over his gushing wound.

She ignores him, pointing at Danny and telling Alfred, “Hurt. Got mugged. Dumb.”

“Hey! It’s not my fault Gothamites are ready to jump people at any moment. Besides, it’s daytime. It’s not like the vigilante furries are out to save my butt. I think I did really well coming back safe, you know?”

“Hurt. Forgot the knife. Was in him.”

“Master Danny!”

Danny pouts. He also knows there’s a discreet camera in the corners of the sitting room, so he’s definitely hoping he could phase into the cave when Barbara eventually tells the group that he called them “vigilante furries.”

Alfred clucks his tongue and set to work patching him up. Danny tries not to bask in the careful way Alfred tended to his wounds. It reminds him too much of Jazz, if Jazz was British and a man with greying hair.

But because they were watching him and he was watching them in return, Danny noticed the moment Alfred’s hands stalled and Cass’ gaze got intense. What now…?

Oh, fuck, his vivisection scar. Oops. Danny smiled, channeling Dani (his lovely clone sister) at her most innocent.

Cass smiled back, just as sunnily, fists tightening at her side in repressed fury.

——

“Cass? Why’d you call us?”

“Yeah, baby bat. I got a couple o’ smugglers to talk to.”

Cass paces.

“What is it, Cassandra?” Damian tuts impatiently.

“Danny. Has… scars. Autopsy. But was struggling. When cut.”

“What.”

“A vivisection, Master Jason.” Alfred’s voice was crisp and eerily cold. His hands are folded, rage only held back by his sheer will and a well practiced sense of propriety.

“We find. Who hurt him,” Cass snarls. “We. End.”

Jason’s eyes glint green, hands going to his guns. “Fine. By. Me.”

“It does tie in with the dead comment. I wonder what happened to him.” Tim clacks away at the bat computer, furiously looking into the matter already. Bruce has taken to prowling, stressed out at the prospect of one more of his children- not a vigilante at that- getting hurt the way Jason had. Worse, even. A vivisection. He was alive, dissected. Aware enough to struggle. Dick looked like he was torn about hunting down and lunging at whoever hurt Danny to rip their throats out with his bare teeth versus the urge to go back up to the manor and wrap Danny in bubble wrap.

In the corner, Danny was having a quiet breakdown because he came here to watch them react to vigilante furries, not offering to murder the people who vivisected him. What the fuck?? He ran his hands through his hair, invisible.

——

“Oh, by the way, we should consider more daytime shifts.”

“Why?” Spoiler asks Barbara.

“Danny got mugged. And called us the nightly furries.”

“The fuckin’ what-?” Jason chokes out, laughing. Bruce stops his pacing, body language becoming slightly offended.

Danny muffles a laugh only Alfred would have heard.

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