#i'm going to help the people of this world with this powers

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hi, sorry if this is an insensitive question but I was wondering if you have books by black authors that don't center racism? It's not that I want to live a blissful life not knowing about racism, I'm dark skinned nb woc, racism is part of life. I just noticed that unless it's a romance book, every 'by black authors' book list I find will have all the books with racism being a major theme. As if being a black author means publishing will only sign if you write about racism. I want to read something different, happy and humorous, fantastical, scry, whatever. I don't want every book I read from black authors to be about race the same way I don't want every book by queer authors I read to have homophobia. I got some recommendations before and all of them were like "hilarious book where author talks about racism they faced in a funny way", I feel exhauated. I know different books have to exist but I can't find them when I google.

sorry I'm so charmed by the idea that asking a white bitch for book recs about Black people doing something other than experiencing racism might be insensitive

anyway you're right like!!! a lot of authors of color only get to crack into publishing if they're willing to write about their suffering and be lauded for that and like, cool, bless up for writing that but would be cool to pay attention to stuff that's not all pain and suffering!!

I'm going to caveat to say that some of these will contain, you know, References to racism, especially if they take place in the real world, since Black authors and Black characters are gonna acknowledge that, but I'm not gonna rec like. The Hate U Give where that's The Point, yknow? also a lot of these are still rather dark and grim as novels because of who I am as a person and what I like but I hope will still be helpful. check the content warnings for everything I recommend ever.

ANYWAYYY

gotta shill for Akwaeke Emezi right out of the gate as usual: their most recent novel, Little Rot, is a pitch black thriller that starts with a Nigerian couple breaking up in Lagos and proceeding to have the most evil and deranged weekend anyone has ever had. truly almost content warning in the book for this one, BUTTTTT racism is like. the least of anyone's worries. girl, there are hitmen.

My Sister, the Serial Killer by Oyinkan Braithwaite is another Nigerian novel that's more of a dark comedy about a dutiful older sister who's been cleaning up her impulsive and beautiful younger sister's dead boyfriends for YEARS. shit comes to a head when little sis sets her eyes on a man her older sister likes (who's also her boss!!! gag!!!).

Helen Oyeyemi's novel The Icarus Girl is a quietly creepy horror about a young mixed English girl who visits her mother's Nigerian family and comes back with a commanding, powerful imaginary friend that no one can see, who starts causing terrible things to occur once the family is back home. I was blown away by how well Oyeyemi wrote little Jessamine's POV; really nailed the smart, lonely, anxious child perspective.

Darknesses by Lachelle Seville is a WILD paranormal indie pub that i read earlier this year that's soooo messy and so entertaining. I think I described it as feeling like reading through someone's blog about their OC's? it was a hoot. the basic premise is that a young Black woman named Oasis, physically and mentally scarred from escaping a cult, is working at a bookstore in New York City when she meets another gorgeous Black girl who claims to be in love with her... and also to be an incarnation of Count Dracula.

if we want some high fantasy I really, really love NK Jemisin's Dreamblood Duology, which is set in a fantasy version of ancient Egypt and revolves around a class of priests who utilize the magic of dreams. political intrigue ensues!

love of my life Janelle Monáe curated a collection of short stories called The Memory Librarian, where each story is written by a different author and is inspired by the world of Monáe's album Dirty Computer. Danny Lore's story Nevermind, based on the music video for Pynk, is my #1 favorite thing.

also if we want some nonfiction I truly adore all of Samantha Irby's essay collections so much; there aren't a lot of writers who consistently make me LAUGH laugh but she gets me. her most recent, Quietly Hostile, has some top notch shenanigans re: having to go to the hospital for a very stupid allergic reaction at the height of COVID social distancing.

you may also find inspo here (I know I did!!)

and here (I'm especially intrigued by Meet Me at the Crossroads)

[magpiemirroring]

I am always sort of astonished by people who expect me to sheepishly shrug and go "Oh well, I suppose there might be a god, haha, but this is what I feel, yanno?" as if I should be embarrassed or ashamed of being an atheist. As if I might have doubts about this after growing up in an aggressive majority Christian country where admitting you don't celebrate Christmas makes people look at you as if you've grown a second head while they sputter that Christmas, the holiday that celebrates the arrival of the Christian savior, Jesus, is for everyone. (As if that isn't kinda weirdly presumptive when it comes to anyone who's just not that into Jesus.)

I am conscious that religions provide more to people than simply spiritual guidance and set of beliefs about the world. So I looked at a bunch of other open (or open if you follow the right path) faiths just in case something else spoke to me and I was still like, hmm....none of this is doing it for me. I get a lot more peace and confidence out of not worrying about gods or other spiritual matters. I like wrestling my morality without having to get a religion mixed up in it. (I'm pretty moral and fairly kind. A fact that astonishes some people so much that I once had someone tell me straight out that they didn't know atheists could be nice. I don't believe in a higher power. I haven't abandoned the ideas of responsibility for my actions or participating in some sort of social code or contract with other people. I still have empathy for others based on the fact that we're all people. I have even fought to ensure that minority religions are not ignored in my workplaces and work projects on the basis that whether or not I believe in a religion doesn't matter when it comes to protecting both the freedom to practice a religion and the joy of representation.)

On the flip side, I know some religions are cults and the more I have learned about cults, the more I am determined to be openly, kindly atheist when I can. Not to convert people to atheism. But to show them that there is a world outside their cult that can be kind and supportive so that if they want to escape something that functions as a controlling or abusive relationship, they have some hope that folks outside the cult will be kind and helpful. The world is not as your church says it is. There are even nice nonbelievers out here. You have options if you want them.

And every so often I check in with myself to see how I'm feeling about it and to check in on my beliefs and values and attitudes towards the world to make sure that I am not letting things get to me in a way that leads to me to reactionary bullshit. For me, atheism is not a nihilistic giving up and shrugging. It's an active part of who I am.

So why would I be shy or ashamed or self-conscious about it? I put a lot of thought and a lot of work into defining who I want to be and being that person. Sometimes I am cautious about admitting it until I get a sense that people are not gonna treat me like shit about it, but that's yanno, normal for anyone not a part of the religious majority in this country. You gotta make a judgement call sometimes. Am I gonna get hate-crimed for being myself?

And, yeah, some leftist spaces are, no matter how open-minded they proclaim to be, still functionally culturally christian spaces that get real uncomfy if you don't pay lip service to the idea that believing in a religion or some vague form of spirituality is the default (and better) position and being an atheist is functionally an attack on people's beliefs more than simply holding different beliefs would be. (I don't care what you believe. Just don't force me to follow rules based on your religious belief system.)

There's something about atheism that I've repeatedly tried and failed to put into words on several posts on this blog but I think I finally got it.

Atheists are the only religious minority who, even (or sometimes even *especially*) in ostensibly progressive spaces are not allowed to ever act like they're sure of their beliefs.

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Given the World

Fandom: Marvel

Pairing: Bob Reynolds x GN!Reader

Summary: You like to bring little souvenirs for Bob whenever you travel for a mission.

Marvel Masterlist

You and Bucky were assigned as security detail for a senator in Hawaii. Being part of the new Avengers, you expected various kinds of missions, especially when Val was the orchestrator of the group. Being part of security was the tamest mission you could receive and you were gonna be in Hawaii for a month? Easy.

What wasn't going to be easy was leaving Bob.

You and he were in this weird kind of limbo. You two started off as friends, then the more you hung out with each other, you became best friends. Then, on a random night where you two were cuddled up and watching a movie, you two kissed and confessed your feelings for each other.

You two never put a label on it, but you were together. You didn't say you were exclusive, but you were. There were times you wanted to have the "what are we?" talk but every time you got close to it, you chickened out.

Yeah, you can punch, stab, and kick your way out of any situation, but feelings? Fuck. Feelings were hard and you didn't know how to navigate that.

But still, you tried to show Bob your feelings through other means, and that was through gifts.

Bob still wasn't cleared to go on missions, so he had to stay at the Watch Tower while you and the others travelled all over the world, helping people.

You brought him various keychains, mugs, plushies, books, etc.. You'd take pictures and send them to him. Anything to show that you thought of him.

Now with the Hawaii mission, you started thinking of what little things you could potentially bring back for him.

Even now, as you pack and Bob watches you do so from your bed, you think of him.

"Maybe a book? You said you liked history so maybe I can find a book about some of the local history? Oh!" you look at him with bright eyes and a smirk, "What about a coconut?"

He snorts, "You wanna bring me back a coconut?"

"I'm trying to think out of the box here! I'm trying to stray away from all the keychains, mugs, and magnets-"

"I like all of my keychains, mugs, and magnets."

You sit at the edge of your bed with a pout, "I wanna try to get you something different."

He softly smiles at you and scoots closer to sit beside, "I'll love whatever you bring back for me. Even if you don't bring back anything at all, knowing that you want to bring me back something is enough. You know I appreciate you regardless."

You nod and let out a deep exhale, "I know, but I always feel bad about leaving you here. I want you to experience everything I do."

"I will eventually. Once I get my powers in control and don't let the other guy out, I'll be out there with you, defending senators and civilians alike."

You snort and lean into him, resting your head on his shoulder, "At least I'm going with Bucky. Aside from you, he and I get along the best." You then move away, heading back to your open suitcase on the floor.

"A month long mission with a handsome super soldier in paradise. Yeah, that's the dream right there," Bob says it with a playful smile, but you see it in his eyes: the insecurity.

You look at him with a sad frown. You hate how ingrained his self-doubt is in him.

"I promise you, nothing will happen."

He clears his throat and nervously rubs his hands on his sweatpants, "No yeah. I know. It was just joke."

"Robby," you say his nickname softly as you approach him again, sitting on his lap. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and you stare into his eyes, "I'm interested in no one but you. I have feelings, really strong feelings, for no one, but you."

"I know," he replies softly and he looks away in shame, "I'm sorry." He takes hold of your hips to help ground himself.

"I understand. It's okay," you give him a quick kiss on the lips, "I got you."

"I got you," he repeats back to you.

You both rest your foreheads against one another and sit in silence. You listen to his breathing, you feel his fingers dig into your hips.

"I love you," he whispers, "and if you don't feel the same, it's okay. Because I'll still love you even if you don't love me."

You chuckle, "How can I not love you, Robert Reynolds, when you're all that I think about? Is your collection of souvenirs not proof of how much I care about you? Doesn't matter if I'm one mile away or one thousand, you're on my mind and being away from you for a month is going to be hell for me."

His lips perk up into a small smile, "Is it bad that I kind of find it comforting that you'll be as much as a wreck as me when you're away?"

You throw your head back in laughter, "Absolutely not."

His laughter joins yours and you feel yourself feel lighter. You suppose feelings aren't that scary after all.

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Bucky smirks at you as you and he follow Senator Collins and her husband around Aloha Stadium. It's a free day for the senator and he and her husband wanted to do some touristy things around the island.

You and Bucky follow her along with her regular security detail. However, your attention is divided between work and all the different trinkets you can buy Bob. Already your tote bag is filled with some funny t-shirts and a hat woven from palm leaves.

Bucky found it amusing and adorable how often you were straying from the group to buy something new for yourself or Bob.

"We're supposed to be working."

"I'm paying attention!" Your bag looks even heavier now.

Bucky snorts, "You trying to bring the whole island to him or something?"

"Gift giving is one of my love languages. Leave me alone."

"Love, eh?" he cocks a brow at you, "So you two made things official official?"

You nod, "He said it first. He was feeling insecure about me being here with you for a whole month. I reassured him that I'm not interested in anyone but him and then he told me he loves me."

Bucky grimaces, "He thinks you and I-"

"I know, right. As if you're not madly in love with Sam."

"...I'm not madly in love with him."

"Suuuure, Buck. Anyway, all of this," you pat your tote bag, "is just me bringing back some of the world to Bob, because he deserves it."

The super soldier chuckles and shakes his head, "You two are disgustingly cute."

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You dump out two tote bags filled with gifts for Bob. He looks at the pile on his bed and then at you, "Honey-"

"I was on an island for a month and they had cool things! Look," you hold up a palm tree figure, "I know you don't smoke anymore, but this is a palm tree bong and I thought it was hilarious. So I bought it for you."

Bob looks at you in confusion and amusement, "I-Well alright then."

"I swear that's the weirdest thing I bought for you. Everything else is pretty tame."

Bob grabs a t-shirt and unfolds it. He snorts and reads it, "'I got lei'd in Hawaii'?" He laughs and tosses the shirt onto the bed, "You're lucky I love you, because that's horrible," he says pulling you to sit on his lap, "Thank you though. I appreciate all the gifts and I'm happy you're back."

"You're welcome and same. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here with you," you peck his lips and hold him tight.

Bob will never tell you, but he thinks the best thing the world has given him, was you.

[the-modern-typewriter]

I think I saw that one of your fav authors is VE Schwab. I actually found your blog while I'm waiting for one of her books at the library. I love how you both do power dynamics and flow! I 💕 your blog!!!

I would love to see a possessive king who has to keep recovering a prince that's betrothed to him but keeps running.

Thanks for giving me my fix while I try to last the months long wait at the library! 😂

"You're clever enough to keep escaping despite all odds," the king murmured. "Why aren't you clever enough to realise that will never end where you want it to?"

The prince glared at him.

The king helped himself to another sip of tea, before he finally deigned to glance up from his breakfast table. Implacable. So seemingly genteel among the fine trays and silver, as if he were not a thing of avarice and dominion made flesh.

"Even should you make it all the way back to your kingdom," the king said, "they'll send you straight back. They gave you to me, remember? You are my betrothed by right."

"They don't know you. If they'd known who was truly asking-" The prince bit himself off, his fists curling.

The king hummed.

"And you think telling them of my true nature will spare you it. That they'd fight for you?"

"Of course they would."

"And would they fight for you like I would?"

The prince stared.

The king smiled, pleasantly, and slid a plate of hot bread rolls across the table towards him. An indication to sit.

The prince did not, though his legs felt jellied with the exhaustion of running. He said nothing.

"I'd fight for you like a holy war," the king said, voice too soft for such dark eyes. "Like laying siege to paradise. I'd fight for you in a thousand year campaign. I'd reduce your kingdom to a citadel of bones and ash before I let them keep you from me. I'd begrudge you no amount of bloodshed, no horror, because you are mine." His head tilted. "How would your former people fight for you?"

"Honourably," the prince snapped, mouth dry. "Kindly. I am their prince!"

"Perhaps." The king shrugged. "Or perhaps they'd begrudge. Resent the ordinary lives wasted and the livelihoods ruined by their pretty little princeling who thought he had the right to marry for love. As if he were just a man."

Bile burned up the prince's throat, at that.

"Merely something to think about," the king said.

"Maybe I won't go home then! But even five minutes away from this place, away from you, is a blessing."

The king did not seem offended or bothered by that, any more than he had the prince's glare or numerous defiances. It made the prince want to shake him until his teeth rattled.

"Do you not care that I do not love you?" the prince demanded. "That I do not wish to be yours?"

The pleasant smile flickered off the king's face for the very first time and what was left was terrible.

The prince took an automatic step back, though he did not consider himself a coward.

The king rose from his chair, rounding the table. The prince looked around at the guards but they were the king's guards, no matter their official job title, and they only stared ahead unmoving. No doubt, they would stare even if he started screaming. Crying. Pleading.

The prince backed up another step before forcing himself to hold his ground. His shoulders squared as the king came to a stop in front of him. He braced for - he wasn't sure what.

"I will say this once, and only once, my clever prince." The king stroked the backs of his knuckles gently down along the prince's jaw, nudging his gaze back when it tried to slide away. The prince's breath hitched. "If I did not care, I could keep you with broken legs in a straight jacket, blind and dumb and mute until I felt you'd learned your proper place here. I could marry you tomorrow without care for your own customs, rituals or comfort. Do you understand?"

The prince felt a little dizzy.

"There a worse fates in the world than being mine," the king said. "The sooner you understand that, the sooner you might make a home in this place that you are not so eager to run from."

"So I should thank you?" It came out hoarse.

"I do not expect you to thank me. I know who and what I asked for when I asked for you."

The king's hand dropped and, for the first time, the prince felt strangely bereft of its heat. Its grounding presence. He swallowed.

"Get some rest," the king said, his pleasant smile back, "if you will not join me for breakfast. You have had a difficult night, from what I've heard, and I'm sure your next attempt to flee this place will be no less gruelling. You'll need your strength, love."

The prince let himself be led back to his chambers in a daze.

[els-little-corner]

i usually never talk about my oc's because i'm actually quite shy online, but there's a yap session below the cut :)

i love all my ocs, but i think this one sprung up on me out of literal nowhere and went from being a side character with two lines to being one of the lead's best friend and having a massive impact on how things go within the story.

he's a son to two mothers, conceived magically, and had an older sister named Noelle. both these mothers come from a dimension much like this one at different points in time (1952 and 1989 to be specific) and ended up on a parallel world together, where they fell in love. they had the older sister, and then the oc i'm talking about.

he was just a side character, at first. but two years later, i wrote one arc and he became one of the secondary leads, with several POV chapters. he really did creep up on me. his hands can heal almost any wound but it slowly kills him if he does too much. he's been through so much: his powers kick in at 6 1/2 when he heals his sister Noelle after an accident that would've taken her sight, studying medicine from that age because that's what his powers were, handling Noelle's sudden disappearance days before his 13th birthday, having possibly some of the worst teenage years out of all the cast (and it's a big fuckin' cast). his debut arc involves going on a quest to save a summer camp he was left at by his parents, surviving being assaulted and the PTSD that came with it, getting caught up in a war he had no part in starting but choosing to help out as a battlefield medic at just 15, watching the love of his life die before him with nothing he could do, and yet he remained gentle; he said "i'm a medic, not a murderer" and stuck by it. he wanted to be a comic book artist, had to shelve those dreams for years to take up medicine because it's what he was "meant to do", but he ends up publishing his own graphic novel, surrounded by friends who support him in every way.

he was judgy, he was snarky. he didn't allow himself to be who he truly wanted to be. he had an unhealthy amount of self-deprecation all throughout his POVs. he was adopted by a group of friends, and even though he tried his hardest to push them away, they still wanted him. they'd sorely misjudged him at first, but the FMC's friendship with him helped restore her will to live again, and helped him become more open with people. he allowed himself to cry. fall in love, despite it all. he plays FNAF, the franchise he was named i got his name from, with his best friend. he cries at the jumpscares, and he's not ashamed of it at all. he loves his friends unapologetically.

he was once just a side character, and now he's getting his own prequel.

Evan Winnow, you judgy bastard, i'll love you always.

What is your favourite character you've ever created? And why are they your favourite?

[shapeshiftersvt]

A Transition

Okay. Deep breath. Here we go.

I started Shapeshifters when I was 28. It was the spring of 2014, we were at a Transgender Tipping Point, and I wanted a binder covered in scales. I had been trans and out for two years and I felt right. I felt queer. I felt like an alien: beastly, monstrous, fantastical. Powerful. I connected with other queer and trans people feeling similar ways. I wanted to give them my best feelings; I wanted them to feel what I felt when I put on my homemade blue-scaled binder.

Tomorrow I will turn 40. It's 2025, and putting on a binder feels more like armor. Like protection. Like: this is a container that holds who I am, still, always. Like: I am connected to my queer folk. I am connected to my found family and my greater community and to over twelve thousand people who we have clothed with binders just like these.

Shapeshifters has borne my partner and I through eleven years. We got married, moved to our dream town, bought a house, had a child. I have put everything into this enterprise and it has given me everything back. I am so grateful for this job and this career and this life.

And I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to begin a new career, to make a few large changes in my life for my own mental health. Somehow, by luck as much as hard work, this company grew out of the aether, and, honestly... it's outgrown me. I never really meant to run a business, or employ people, or manage a supply chain. It just sort of happened along the way. I've done my best with it, I've made it what it is. And I know that someone with a different kind of energy and organizational capacity and drive could make Shapeshifters into so much more.

So, this is my notice! I am selling Shapeshifters.

Not right away, and not to just anyone. I want to hand this company over to someone who will do right by it; who will keep it as this local, community-focused business known for customization, acessibility, and genuinely compassionate customer service.

We are the high-end tailored option for a highly niche market. We need someone who knows the field and can bring love to the work. Preferably someone who is near or can relocate to southern Vermont. We need someone who can manage a small team, who can approach every week as a new challenge, who can organize tasks and processes on multiple levels.

We have helped thousands upon thousands of people go out into the world as their authentic selves! It's wild. It's wonderful. It's fulfilling. And, sometimes, it's a lot of finicky detail work involving layers of spreadsheets, pattern math, hands-on sewing, and machine repair. Sometimes it's road trips to Pride festivals and sometimes it's filing taxes. All this too is part of the work.

If that's the kind of work you want to be doing, reach out to me. Shoot me an email at eli@shapeshifters.co with the subject line 'Biz Transition' and let's talk. Tell me about yourself and what you want and what you can do. I'm open to all the financing options. I would love to train the right person from scratch and seller-finance a long-term sale.

If you know someone who you think would be a good fit, please send them my way. We have relied upon word-of-mouth from the very beginning, and I suspect that's how we'll find our new showrunner going forward.

So. Do you want to run an established, successful business that pays trans people to make things for trans people?

Hit me up.

[last-words-ofashootingstar]

hey! Just found your blog and will be doing a deep dive! I saw your prompts and would love to make a request of my own? So I've been very much in cnc deep dive?? idk it just kinda knocked tf outta me and I haven’t gotten up yet so that's fun 🙂‍↔️

anyway... can I pretty please have a 113 "bite me harder — i like it" and a 214 cnc with Yunho? I feel like this would really do a number on me

thank you 😌😌

➯a/n: i just fell to my knees and startED BARKING OMGGG YES. bias wrecker + a personal favorite kink... you betcha i had fun with this one ➯a/n2: this is the request that originally smacked me in the face w the idea for "lowlife princess" so i had to think of something else kkkk sorry for the wait !

Stress Relief

❥Jeong Yunho x fem reader

113: "bite me harder — i like it"

✈︎queued for: tues 3rd

(>ᴗ•)genre: smut

ಠ_ಠwarning/content: 214 cnc meaning reader: fights, bites, begs & yunho: forces, restrains, threatens, mocks. there IS one time yunho uses the word 'rape' and asks if she likes it, but the first c stands for consensual, this is just a couple roleplaying. idol yun / gf reader, mean dom yun, venting frustration through sex, hide and seek with high stakes, fingering, minimal prep, using a belt as restraint, yun REALLY likes being bit, unprotected + creampie, multiple male orgasms, churning butter (fucking after a creampie 🫠), pet names (doll, sweetie, love, angel), aftercare and domestic fluff a bit further down

➯cnc disclaimer: CONSENT IS SEXY. all parties are and always will be consenting in my stories. cnc is a way to explore power dynamics and it's attractive to many people, it does not "promote s/a", the first c is CONSENSUAL. you should only ever do it with someone who you trust. be safe and stay freaky !!

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18+.MINORS GTFO.

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It always surprises you just how intense your boyfriend can be.

Even if you've played out this scene a million times over, your heart still thuds in your chest so roughly that you're afraid it will give away your hiding spot.

"Come out, come out~" Yunho sing-songs as he stalks through the dimly lit apartment. "C'mon, doll," he says loudly, "I'm not really mad at you. Come on out, we can talk about this like adults."

Of course he's not mad. You're both having the time of your lives with this game of cat and mouse. You always do.

The rapid beat of your heart is making your entire body hot — and the knowledge that he's going to fuck you when he finds you adds to the fire.

He gave you a five minute heads up before he got to your shared apartment, and then the game was on.

"It's just been a rough day is all," he hums as he opens up the hall closet, tutting his tongue as he faces nothing but towels and washcloths. "I could use some help de-stressing." The door to your bedroom is slightly ajar, and he kicks it open the remainder of the way lazily. "Is it so bad to want my girlfriend to help me?"

This is you helping him. Giving him the thrill, the adrenaline rush of finding you and then giving it all your might but always falling short when fighting him off. It makes him feel like he's got all the control in the world after a shitty day of being perfect for the world. He can be as nasty and mean as he wants with how he takes you, and you both love it.

"I won't even fuck you if you come out," he speaks into the silent air, "how about that? You come out now — I'll just use your throat. Is it a deal, sweetie?"

Your hand twitches at the door knob, thinking over which option you want more. You let your hand fall back to your side in the end. You're already wet with the promise of having your boyfriend inside of you.

"No?" He pouts as he looks under the bed. "You know our place is only so big, right? I'm going to find you eventually. And when I do —"

You turn the knob slowly.

"— I'm going to fuck you until you cry!"

You dash out of the bathroom as quickly as possible, making a bee line for the front door. You hear his footsteps behind you immediately.

You don't even make it out of the hallway before his arms wrap around you; pinning yours to your sides. "There you are, love~" He chuckles, pulling your back to his chest, "running away from me? Really? Has that ever worked for you before?"

"Stop it!" You yelp as he drags you towards the bedroom. "I don't want to!"

"You should've taken my offer then," he grunts as he crashes you both onto the bed, landing on top of you and catching his weight with one of his hands; the other pushing your face into the blankets. "You know I'm not a liar, sweetie. I'd have just choked you on my cock if you played nice and came out-" He shoves his knee between your thighs, pressing it against your heat, "but no."

"Please-"

"I don't want to hear it. Not another damn peep unless it's, 'yes, Yunho.' Got it?" He growls, shoving your face deeper into the mattress as he presses his knee against you harder.

You feel your heartbeat in your cunt, almost drooling at his words before you gulp.

You shake your head as much as you can under his palm, letting out a whine. "I'm not ready to take y-"

"Don't worry, love." He pats your head before he lets go, sitting up on his knees. "I'm not a monster, I'll stretch you out first." You gasp as he yanks your shorts and underwear down in one rough tug — not even bothering to remove them all the way before his hand meets your wetness.

You kick your legs, trying to push away from him when he sits on the back of your thighs and stills you. "Stay put, doll. Wouldn't want to hurt you~" He grins as you yell into the sheets, grabbing at them to cope with the sudden intrusion of two of his long fingers inside of you.

"Ahh! Slow down!" You plead as you reach back and try to grab at him. He's thrusting and curling his fingers inside to you so roughly that you can feel his pent up energy in every move. And you can feel a ball of pleasure winding up in your gut much too quickly.

He only tuts his tongue, chuckling at your attempts to get away. He can tell you're really giving it your all to please him. Because it makes it all the better that you can't get anywhere.

Putting all of your strength into your hips, trying to buck away but only succeeding in driving his fingers deeper. Your moans mixing in with your grunts of effort make his hard length pulse with want.

"You really think I'm gonna go easy on you? I told you," he grips the back of your neck with his free hand, pushing another finger into you as you groan, "I had a rough fucking day. Be good and let me fuck all my stress into you. Can't you do that for me?"

All that you can do is whine at the intense stretch of his fingers inside of you. "Please, slow down-"

"Fine." He pulls his digits out quickly, covered in your arousal. "I'm getting impatient anyway."

While he leans back to remove his belt, you manage to slide out from under him and scramble up the bed; getting caught by your ankle. He all but yanks you back to the middle of the mattress, forcing his way between your fidgeting legs as he pushes you onto your back.

"C'mon, I won't be long, sweetie." He won't be. Usually he has a pretty high stamina but watching you squirm gets him unbelievably worked up. Letting him do almost anything he pleases makes him hot in the ears. "Just need to feel you- need to fuck you."

He gathers up your wrists, wrapping his belt around them and holding both ends in one hand while the other guides his length towards you.

"Yun, wait-" Your voice gets cut off by a gasp that forces its way up your throat as he pushes into you slowly — making you feel the stretch. He pulls your arms above your head by the belt before leaning over and kissing you.

Kissing is one things you'll never fight him on. You meet his lips with just as much passion every time.

His lips slide against yours softly until he bottoms out, pulling back to look down at you. "Yeah?"

"Yeah, go," you whisper, rewarded when he starts thrusting — slowly, at first.

But in no time at all, he's pounding all of his frustration into you, moaning and groaning non-stop as you tug against the leather on your wrists; breathing heavily and gushing around him.

"Fuck, angel..." He pants from above you, pressing his chest against you and resting his head next to yours. "This tight cunt of yours loves me," his moans are deep and rich with lust, "going to fill you up so good, and you can't stop me, can you~?"

You lick your lips, biting them for a moment as you look at his shoulder; barely covered by his tank top. Thinking about something he said he wanted to explore.

His hips stutter to a stop when you lean and nip at his skin. He lifts his head quickly, meeting your eyes; dazed. "Did you just bite me?"

"It made you stop, didn't it?" The small smirk is wiped off your face as he starts fucking into you harder. Prodding at every spot inside of you that makes you see stars; makes your back arch as far as it can while crushed under his weight.

"F-uck," he moans brokenly, "nothin' is going to make me stop." He yanks the strap down his shoulder and pulls your head to him. "Bite me harder — I like it."

You glare at him for a moment, but he can see the sparkle in your eyes before you sink your teeth in roughly.

He cums. Loud moans, jaw dropped, eyes closed, messy thrusts forming a milky ring around his base as he keeps furiously rutting into you — like he'll die if he stops.

His downright needy sounds, paired with his warm release making him slide in-and-out so easily pushes you off the edge as well; trembling below him and adding to the mess between your thighs.

He doesn't stop. "Yunho!" You wail shakily, twisting and turning and getting nowhere.

"I'm st- I'm still hard, love... M'gonna cum again," his voice is just as shaky as yours, his breath is hot and short as he looks down at you, "feeling you cum around me... I'll never get over it."

You've ran out of fight after your orgasm, but that doesn't stop him from pulling your bound arms down as he sits up; using them as leverage to pull you into his never-ending thrusts as his other hand finds your cunt, looking down at the messy scene as he swipes his thumb against your clit. And again. Then he starts drawing circles on it as your hips jerk.

"Yunho!!"

"What~?" He laughs breathlessly, eyes flicking between you and your twitching heat. "You going to cum again so soon? You like it that much, doll? You like it when I rape your messy little pussy?"

Evidently, yes. Because his near babbling moans paired with his harsh thrusts and his rough thumb on your clit send your eyes back into your head, cum-slicked walls clenching down on him so tightly that he has no choice but to unload another overflowing release into you.

Cursing under his breath, he leans over you; heavy cock still buried deep in your twitching walls. Both of his hands find your face, cradling it tenderly as he kisses you lewdly. It's all tongues and spit, moans and blissful hums traded from your mouth to his and from his to yours.

You work your wrists out of his belt and wrap your arms around his neck, hugging onto him loosely.

Neither of you want to pull away but unfortunately you can't live on each other's lips, you need air — and Yunho curses that fact as he leans back.

"Do you feel better, Yun?"

He smiles serenely, rubbing your heated cheeks as he holds your face softly. "Yes," he pecks your lips one more time, "you're the perfect stress relief."

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You're laid on your side next to him, admiring his peaceful features as he massages your tender wrists with lotion.

All of the tension in his shoulders is gone, his entire body and face completely relaxed as he listens to your breathing.

"Hey," you speak up softly, "what do you think about watching that new Kissing Booth movie?"

"They made another one? Ugh..."

"Ugh? Why ugh?" You nudge his leg with yours, "you like those movies."

"No, I like making fun of them with you." He chuckles, hands sliding down to rub your arms.

"Me too~ That's why I asked, dummy," you lean and kiss him softly, "please? Let's try to predict what stupid plot twist will happen next."

"Hm... I'll get some chips."

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[im-not-a-ghost]

What are they trying to manifest and how do you align with it ?

The purpose of this reading was to understand what the person on your mind looks for in life and more specifically what they wish for romantically, what aspects of you may match with their desired reality. Now, because we potentially match with someone doesn't mean being together is a given. People always have a choice and sometimes, though we know something seems to fit us, we may decide to pick something else, right? So let's just keep that in mind and calmly get a grasp of what is going on.

For each group, their will be two sections to cover the two main themes of the reading. I will use both tarot and oracle cards. If I pick up on any particular song or message, I may create a separate section to write them down. Disclaimer : parts of this reading may be triggering.

Group 1

Channeled song(s) and other miscellanous info : ONE OK ROCK - The Beginning, Scorpio, Taurus, colors green and blue, sea shells, crown chakra activation, Gemini, Kundalini rising, communication blockages

What are they trying to manifest? -> White Numen, Queen of pentacles, Knight of cups, 2 of cups -> The Sovereign, Surrender rx, Destruction rx, Speak Truth -> Quartz - Enhance your vision, Obsidian - Protect your soul, Serpentine - Awaken your reptilian nature

This energy feels very feminine. So for some of you I feel like the person you're asking about was probably assigned female at birth. Looking at the tarot cards, I strongly felt the energy of someone wanting to be a mother. Or to make it gender neutral, wanting to have a child of their own that they can provide for and help grow. This person is trying to manifest birth. First of all, their own rebirth. I feel like they've been brought down a lot in their life and made to feel like they were not enough. Especially in romantic relationships. So this person wants to manifest their own power back is what I'm getting, which is beautiful. The second thing I'm picking up on is being in a romantic connection that uplifts them and allows them to express their true potential and stand in their feminine energy. A connection where they can be vulnerable and express their love freely, without fearing rejection. Also, they wish to find balance between their own personal goals and their relationships in general. Like, they want a partner that will give them enough room to pursue their own aspirations and will not blame them or shame them for it. They are also trying to manifest more gentleness and self care, self love. This person looks for a partner that will make them feel understood, valued and respected. Someone that will treat them like royalty because they feel like they've been through so much and getting such treatment would be a retribution for all that they've put up with. This person also wants to manifest intimacy, on a spiritual, emotional and physical level. They want a person that will be receptive to their love and reciprocate it equally.

Now looking at the oracle cards, I pick up on someone wanting to be more authentic in general. Being able to express their truth and communicate their thoughts without being laughed at, underestimated or taken for granted. They are trying to manifest healthier connections that will enhance their light instead of diminishing it. This person is just done with waiting for others to give them what is their natural right and constantly being the one to make compromises. They are working hard to manifest a version of themselves that is no longer self sabotaging, whether that is in their job or in relationships. They are manifesting their divine self basically. When it comes to romance, they are trying to manifest a partner that is honest, truthful, clear about their intentions and expectations. Someone that is mature and responsible, that will create healthy boundaries and encourage them to be proactive, to stand in their light and show themselves to the world. Someone that will help them with their body image, that will highlight their assets and help them see the best in them. A person that will be supportive of them and will not be ashamed of showing them off. Someone that won't be afraid of expressing their love for them publically. Basically, a divine masculine that matches their high frequency. That vibe is really being confirmed by the crystal cards. With Serpentine, I get the message that this person is also trying to manifest a more sensual aspect of themselves. They're working on their self confidence and body image. They may be exploring their sexuality a bit more. They're trying to manifest their dream body. With Obsidian, I'm told this person is trying to manifest more protection from spirit and to bring in more positivity in their life, more joy and pleasure. With Quartz, they're also manifesting clarity and a stronger faith. They're trying to overcome their self limiting beliefs and have a better vision of what is good for them.

How are you aligning with those manifestations ? -> knight of wands, ace of pentacles, 8 of wands, knight of swords -> The Universe, Self Love, Speak Truth, Soul Work -> Meteorite - Connect to your star stuff, Kyanite - Deepen your perspective, Black Tourmaline - Protect your light

First of all, you are a naturally very empathetic and high vibrational being. If you resonate with that, you may be a starseed. You and this person come from the same soul tribe. Your souls are made of a similar cloth. You are very communicative, blunt and authentic. You have no problem speaking your mind, standing up for what you believe in. You are passionate, bold, creative. You are not afraid to get out of your comfort zone and you like being challenged. You're naturally curious and a fast learner. You are giving and generous. You do not judge people. You like to learn and you interact with people from various backgrounds. You just are charismatic, uplifting, cheerful, fun and optimistic. In a group a friend, you're the cheerleader type. You always root for your team and have others' back. If someone is trying to badmouth a person you care about, you'd be the first on the frontline. You may be a bit reckless at times and impulsive but that never comes from a bad place. You're quite friendly, smart, witty. You have a lot to give and to share with people. You're someone that's very confident in their own skills and isn't afraid of their shadows. You fully embrace yourself and unapologetically shine your light onto the world which I feel is exatcly what this person needs and hopes for. You're quite mature and stable, though you may be a bit naive and young. I feel like you're a laidback individual that just minds their own business and people may mistake that for being careless. But you're everything except that. I think you care more than anyone else but you just don't let that set you off balance. You're a visionary and a fighter. You just light up the world and inspire people just by being you. I feel like you align with this person's manifestations because you would make a very loyal and passionate lover. And seeing how communicative you are, you would have no problem being vocal about how wonderful this person is, how much you love them and how beautiful they are. You seem to be someone that validates people through words of affirmation which I think is very healing to people.

Looking at the oracle cards, I get the message that you are highly spiritual and connected to the divine. You may believe in a higher power. You cultivate self love and self care and encourage people to do the same. You are very mindful of your words and actions. You care about the impact you have on others. You care about the difference you can make in the world. You're very active in general, you may advocate for several causes. You may travel a lot. You're well traveled and educated. I feel like this person would be able to learn a lot from you and grow individually because of the wisdom you've acquired through experience. You've done a lot of soul searching, a lot of shadow work. You're a healed and balanced individual that genuinely loves people and life. You're a good friend, a good lover. You work well in teams. You understand how the Universe works and you just go with the flow. You're a natural healer. You instantly make people at ease. Your feminine and masculine energies are quite balanced. You take good care of your health on all levels. You just embody the reality that you wish to see and set the example for yourself and the people you love. You're quite a respectable person and so your vibrations just match very well with what this person envisions for themselves. I feel like they could take you as a role model and a mentor and being by your side they would bloom beautifully. I feel like you're someone who's got a lot of love to give. You're very accepting of others, of their shortcomings and assets. You're not the kind to reject people because of their differences. That actually may be something that interests you. You may naturally feel more attracted to people that come from a different culture or a different background. I feel like you and this person match because you are both very deep people, you think a lot and question yourselves a lot. Chances are your conversations would be endless. Like I get the energy of two people getting lost in conversation because every time one says something it reminds them of something else and they just lose track of the subject. You seem to have similar goals in life and aspirations. I didn't mention it first but looking at the tarot again, with all that fire and that ace of pentacles energy, that could also be talking about birth and sexuality. So maybe you also wish to have children someday. Or you could have similar creative ambitions. Maybe you have a common passion. Seeing that we have a lot of cards revolving around communication, maybe you both enjoy writing or singing. This could be something that brings you together.

Group 2

Channeled song(s) and other miscellanous info : GDRAGON - Power, Stray Kids - ALL IN, France, witchy energy, natural empath, psychic gifts, struggling with self worth wounds, metal enthusiast, color green, heart chakra activation, Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Libra

What are they trying to manifest? -> page of pentacles, 6 of pentacles, Temperance, Ace of cups -> The Observer, The Void, Soul Work, The Wildling -> Jet - Claim your space, Hiddenite - Claim your happy place, Topaz - Increase your fire power

I picked up on many messages right away as I shuffled the cards. And the first thing that came up was "learning opportunities". So the person you were asking about may be trying to get back to school or to manifest a specific project that would allow them to hone their skills. The other thing I picked up on was peace. This person is looking for peace in relationships. They don't want to have to struggle for their partner's attention. This person grew up in a background where they constantly had to fight to be recognized and receive love. They feel like they've never truly been loved for who they are. They are trying to manifest balance and fairness. Connections that will be equally giving and taking. Connections where they can lay back for once and allow themselves to receive instead of being the giver. This person was parentified at a very young age. They constantly had to give their time and energy to others and they didn't have a say in that. This person just wants a genuine and peaceful love. A relationship that will not be a constant battle. I'm sorry if this triggers anyone but I pick up on the energy of people that grew up in abusive families. That watched one of their parent or siblings being mistreated by others and couldn't speak up. If that is your case, I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a horrible experience. Also, I heard very specifically that the person is wanting to manifest their crush. Which made me laugh because it was like this person was saying "it's them or no one else", "this person is mine". "My precious" kind of thing lmao They want someone that will only have eyes for them and most importantly that they won't have to share.

This impression was further confirmed by the oracle cards. Being young, this person never really had the space to be their own individual. They never had anything that was theirs. They constantly had to share and overgive and they couldn't say no. They had no intimacy, no time for themselves. They were constantly watched, constantly trapped in other people's problems, having to do the healing for others. Having to work for the benefit of others. They were used and abused because of their skills and their kindness. This person wasn't taught to express their boundaries. They constantly had to fight to have the right to just be. They constantly had to prove themselves. They were never the chosen one I heard. This person may have been in a lot of toxic relationships, potentially third party situations. Like, they constantly had to work extra hard to be valued and recognized on a romantic level. Most of the time they would go to extreme lengths for the people they loved only to be given bread crumbs. Sometimes their partners weren't having the best intentions or already were in connections and were just taking advantage of them. I feel like this person is manifesting more truthfulness and retribution for the damage that has been done to them. A lot of healing is coming their way. Also, they are consciously trying to manifest psychic skills or just better observational skills. I feel like this person is so done with not seeing people's red flags. They want to be able to tell right away whether a person has good intentions or not. I feel like they're also tired of wasting their time in connections so maybe the reason why they hone their intuition is also to be able to tell wether the connections are worth it on the long run. They're trying to manifest more willpower and stronger boundaries to protect themselves from harm. When it comes to what they look for in a partner, I feel like they wish to attract a person that they won't have to second guess. Someone that will not play mind games with them and just tell it like it is. A person that will be very sweet and collaborate with them instead of being their adversary. A person that will not trigger that fight or flight response that they used to be in as a child. A person that will soothe and nurture them. They are also working very hard to claim a space of their own. So another thing they are manifesting is their freedom, whether it is financial or material. They want a space of their own where they can make their own decisions and have whatever they feel is right for them without constantly having to justify themselves. They're also manifesting an energy of being more present to themselves and enjoying life instead of worrying about the past / future. With Topaz, they also try to manifest healing from past connections and cutting ties with toxic people around them, including family members. They're also maybe manifesting a new passion or hobby. Maybe this person wasn't feeling satisfied with their current job or way of living and they wish to pursue a new path. So they're calling that energy in. I feel like they're also just trying to manifest more physical intimacy. This person may never have had the chance to be physical with their partners or if they did, it wasn't as they expected. So they wish to manifest sexual experience that is genuine and liberating, and actually feels good.

How are you aligning with those manifestations? -> Empress, King of pentacles, 2 of cups, Knight of cups -> Power, Underworld, The Outlaw, Paradox -> Malachite - Claim your success, Green Calcite - Live out your heart's desire, Shiva Lingam - Go all in on your essence

You are naturally sensual and giving, nurturing. Very feminine regardless of your gender. You've been through a lot in life and acquired a lot of experience, especially romantically. You're pretty clear about your desires in life, your expectations in a partner and what you expect of intimacy. You are an experienced lover. A very passionate one. You're not afraid to explore and try out different things, in all areas of life, including intimacy. You're quite open minded and receptive of other people. You take care of others really well and just effortlessly quiet down people's worries. You have a very calm and grounded energy that instantly makes people at ease. You are a serious person. You do not date for fun. You date with a purpose and that is to be committed. I feel like when you date a person, it is with the hope that this person will become your life partner. You're an exclusive person. When you love someone, you give them your undivided attention. You're a stable person. You know how to manage on your own. But you also know how to navigate your personal goals and needs with a relationship. You make space for your partner and naturally align with them. You know how to express your own individuality without repressing that of others. You're a gentle soul. You're romantic and very venusian in the way you express love. I feel like you're the type of person that likes to pamper their lover. Your main love languages may be acts of service, quality time and gift giving. You show love in very tangible and unmistakable ways. Your intentions are pretty genuine. You do things with purpose and care. You're cautious and respectful. You're the type of person that asks for consent, that communicates frequently to avoid any misunderstandings. You're a good listener and give good advice. Your patience knows no boundaries. You align with this person manifestations because of your maturity as well as your high frequenvy as an individual. Your work ethic and life principles make your a reliable person. I don't sense any toxicity coming from you. You've done a lot of healing over the years and you embody both the femine and masculine energies in a healthy way. Maybe you've been engaged before and that has taught you a lot about relationships. You know your body well and you're very in tune with your emotions.

Looking at the oracle cards, I see that your passion and drive, your ability to think out of the box and see things from a different perspective allow you to easily adapt to this person. Again, you're a fast learner and you quickly pick up on people's energy. You assess situations easily and you have no problem making compromises because you know that's just part of life. You're daring and quite unique. You may be neurodivergent. But more importantly I feel like you have been through experience that is very similar to this person's back ground. You may have struggled with the same wounds and fears. And your advantage is that you overcame most of them. Because you've been through so much yourself and was still able to find your own voice in all that chaos, to shine your light and rise above it all, you are in the best position not only to understand them but also to encourage them to do the same. You're like a beacon for this person. A guide even. I feel like you may have a similar life calling. Also, you could both enjoy travelling. Both of you are very intense and deep individuals. You may find it hard to connect with other people. Your depth mainly comes from your life experience. Another thing I wish to point out is that you're quite the horny type lmao for some reason that felt relevant. And I feel like this is something the person you were asking about would find enjoyable. You are also both very charismatic and driven individuals. So you may understand each other on a professional or academic level. I really pick up on travelling. Like two people hyping each other up to make a world trip or something lmao Maybe that's part of your dreams and this person would be totally okay with helping you do that. That could be a dream you have in common. Also the fact that everything you do comes from the heart. You have a very open heart chakra and you do things with love. Your creativity seems to be of significance as well. Your spirituality too. Having a child was also mentioned on one of the cards, so there's that as well. Coming back on that heart chakra energy, you just listen to your heart instead of your ego. So, that brings you closer to this person. So like, if you were in a difficult situation I feel like you would still choose them over anything else. Which is something this person desperately needs.

Group 3

Channeled song(s) and other miscellanous info : HWASA - I love my body, earth sign energy, body positivity, third eye chakra activation, Reiki, New York, emo and goth vibes, Aries, Taurus, Capricorn, Virgo, Pisces

What are they trying to manifest ? -> 9 of pentacles, 4 of pentacles, knight of pentacles, queen of wands -> Ascension, The Alchemist, Ask Body, The Observer -> Herkimer Diamond - Power wash your energy, Danburite - turn on your electric light, Chrysoprase - Grow from your heart out

The emphasis here is being put on material aspects of life as well as one's self confidence, body image and sexuality. The person you were asking about first and foremost wishes to manifest more abundance and stability in their life. They may be in a situation where they don't earn enough money to have a stable life. They may barely be able to pay their bills and get food on the table. Also, I feel like they're working very hard on their career and academic success. This feels like their main priority. When it comes to love and relationships, I feel like they want to attract a partnership in which they will not feel ashamed of themselves and will feel comfortable showing their body and being intimate. This person definitely fears intimacy. They may have gone through bad experience when it comes to being intimate with people. They could have been bullied because of their physical appearance as a child. Even by their own family I feel. They may have struggled with eating disorders. So this person is working on manifesting their dream body as well as more love towards themselves, a partner that will reflect that back to them. Someone that will compliment them and reassure them. They really need to feel safe and protected in connections. Grounded. So they would want a partner that gives them a lot of verbal validation, someone that is into PDA and also a person that could help them with their career. A person that would support them financially. Someone that will provide for them when they're not able to. They also strive for more independance I feel. This person doesn't want to constantly rely on others to be able to live a proper life. They are trying to manifest more pleasure and fun. They may also be working on manifesting a proposal or a business offer. They could be scripting to attract their future spouse. I feel like they would want someone that is as successful and driven as they are. Potentially a person that works in a similar field and can provide them with useful advice. A person that will help them embody the ideal version of themselves. So maybe someone that would work out with them or help them with meal prep. This person needs reliable people, trustworthy people that will protect them and stand up for them when they're not able to stand up for themselves. And I feel like that may be tied to their childhood experience. Maybe this person didn't feel supported and protected by their parents. Maybe they struggled with finding a community they fit in and friends that would have their back. Especially if they have been bullied, this person may steal be affected by that experience and may have felt like they were on their own and no one helped them. So they just don't want to have to go through that again. I feel like they want to manifest a partner that is strong and grounded, a person that would interfere in an argument if someone was disrespectful to them.

With the oracle cards, I feel like they also want to gain clarity on their life purpose. They may be working on manifesting their true calling. They could be working on some skills as well, potentially psychic ones. This person is trying to gain more knowledge and ascend, both spiritually and on a societal level. I feel like they want to manifest a promotion of sort or just gain more recognition. They want to change their luck and have fate in their favor kind of. Like, they want to manifets success in every aspect of their life. Because so far they feel like they've always received the shorter end of the stick. This person may have lacked a lot of affection and just material goods as a child. They could come from background where they barely had enough to eat. I feel like this person made a lot of sacrifices to get where they are now. And they wish for their efforts to pay off. They want to manifest long lasting love that will not falter even in the face of adversity. They could have abandonment wounds. This could be very specific but I pick up on the energy of someone being broken up with because of financial issues. Like, this person's partner was with them only because of their status or possessions. But once that person wasn't doing as well financially, they broke up with them. It could also be that they were rejected because they were considered to be "less beautiful/attrative than" others or just not on the same level. I'm also picking up on discriminations based on culture. Because this person was of a certain culture they were deemed as "less than" by their partners. And so this person wasn't truly loved for who they were but rather for what they had or the advantage they gave people. Like "trophy wife/husband" kind of thing. And this person is done with not being seen for their true self. They want to manifest more chemistry with their partners also. Maybe past relationships were just transactional, based on interest or appearances. And now this person wants a partner that's actually attracted to them, their personality, their body, their essence.

How do you align with those manifestations? -> Emperor, Devil, 6 of cups, White Numen -> Shadow, Share Wisdom, Ascension, Self Love -> Epidote - Upgrade your version of you, Amethyst - Get drunk on your highest self, Selenite - Clear your path to enlightenment

As a person, you may be naturally quite confident and bold, ambitious, dedicated and opinionated. You don't take no for an answer and when you have somethin in mind, you'll do everything in your power to reach that goal, no matter what or how long it may take. The Emperor combined with the Devil gives me major CEO vibes. Not only are you are workaholic, but you're a successful one at that. You also make your achievements and stability your top priority so you definitely understand this person's stance. Actually, you may make a very good team business wise. Or at least, you would be a great supporter and a trustworthy advisor for this person when it comes to their project and goals. You are very in control of the image you convey, of your immediate environment and your wealth. You're very self aware which makes you a great rival and strategist. You do not play and many people may admire you and even possibly fear you because you my dear exude such natural power that anyone would feel intimidated by just looking at you in the eyes. Needless to say that you're a very effective communicator, an excellent negociator and a very convincing person because you're also incredibly charming and sensual. When it comes to romance and sexuality, you are very open minded. You're the perfect combination of being in control but also going with the flow. Your boundaries are clear but your natural curiosity and free spirited approach allow you to explore beyond them and give connections a hint of spice.

You're also a very positive person. You have a "see the glass half full" mindset that allows you to navigate through life easily. You can solve problems in creative ways, manoeuvre your way between obsacles because your sight is broad. You're always a few steps ahead. And you're not afraid to go off the tracks because you know you'll find your way back anyway. You have a lot of trust in yourself but also in life, in your guides. You are a very spiritual person by nature. You may be religious as well so that adds to your confidence. You wouldn't let anyone or anything stand in your way and that attitude brings you a lot of respect and admiration. It also makes you the perfect ally for this person because you can nudge them and inspire them so they can embody the best version of themselves.

As a romantic partner, you definitely are the romantic and reassuring kind. Your energy feels very masculine. You are the protector and the provider, you take the lead and create a safe space for your partner. You value quality time and touch, you are also very emotionally available. Your energy feels more mature and I get a feeling you may be more advanced on your spiritual journey. For these reasons, you align with this person's manifestations because you embody the type of partner that would be beneficial to them. You like to take care of yourself but you also love to pamper your loved ones. You are more of a soft dom. Your extroversion and assertive nature are inviting and definitely exciting. You are the perfect spark to ignite this person's life but also fuel their creative fire. You empower them and help them empower themselves by giving them the opportunity to directly visualize the kind of person they could become and the steps needed to get there. You may have already found your calling or have established a name for yourself. Maybe you and this person effectively work in the same field. Or they are destined to take a path similar to yours. That would make you the best mentor and guide.

You also align with their manifestations because of the love and respect you have for yourself. The softness that you cultivate and the experience you acquired over time. Because of your ability to understand others and be proactive while respecting yourself and being mindful of others. Because of your genuine enthusiasm but most importantly because you've been there before. You know the struggles they've faced. You understand the pains they've been through because you harbor the same scars. The only difference is that you overcame that and proved all your haters wrong by standing up for yourself, never giving up on your dreams and going at your own pace. You protected your peace, stayed true to your principles and carved your way proudly, despite the naysayers and the fears. To be honest the energy of this section for this group feels pretty similar to group 2's. You may want to check that group second sub section for further messages.

[frvitypunch]

Being seen by the stars

Sung Jinwoo x Constellation!Reader

this is inspired by ORV, i love orv but idk where to read the novel of it since im new to orv 😭

enjoy!

note: you're an unnamed constellation and orv s. C poilers (i also might get spoiled /nsrs)

This was completely different from before, it feels like I'm somewhere else.

Jinwoo thought, he was greeted by the same blue box, a text appearing.

[The next main scenario starts in 30 minutes.]

Was all it said, just that as the blue box disappeared, a purple box appearing in front of Jinwoo.

[You are from another world, please group with people that can help you in scenarios.]

A person walked towards Jinwoo, an unfamiliar guy with a long white cloak and other people along with the guy.

"Hey, I haven't seen you around. May you introduce yourself? My name is Kim Dokja, and these are my friends." He spoke, smiling as the guy next to him, wearing a black cloak frowned as usual, his expression serious.

"Yoo Joonghyuk." Was the only sentence the black cloaked guy spoke, his expression was still serious.

[Demon-like Judge of Fire is curious about you.]

[Prisoner Of The Golden Headband looks forward to your decisions.]

[A Constellation who does not have a name wants to see you in action.]

"May I ask who these people are commenting on about how curious they are?" Jinwoo asked, pointing to the floating screen which had 3 constellations that are looking forward to his actions and decisions.

"That is the Constellations, they watch over us for entertainment, they can also be your support when in need so please pick a powerful constellation if you struggle." Dokja spoke, looking at his blue box that had 3 Constellations curious about him.

[A Constellation who does not have a name wishes you to select them.]

[You have been gifted 5,000 coins.]

"And may I ask about the coins the unnamed Constellation gave me?" Jinwoo asked once more, looking at the blue box of notifications as he had received exactly 5000 coins.

"Coins are to level up your stats, buy things and you can even give them to other people or refund it back, so I recommend investing in your stats instead of refunding it." Dokja spoke, taking notice of how when he tried to use the character profile, it only ended up with failure, so he decided not to indulge further in curiosity.

"I see, and may I ask to join your group perhaps? I'm not sure if it's alright to go fight alone." Jinwoo simply said, thanking Dokja with a nod as he opened up his stats and leveled them equally, feeling himself become a little stronger than before since his power was still the same as before, he obviously took notice of the purple box earlier that suggested it.

"No." Joonghyuk spoke flatly, leaving no buts as an answer.

"Alright then, I'll get going now." Jinwoo simply said, glancing at the group one last time before walking away.

He could still hear Dokja trying to persuade Joonghyuk as Jinwoo heard Joonghyuk say about something.

"I'm gonna break your skull." Was probably the lines Jinwoo heard from Joonghyuk's mouth before the dokkaebi appeared, though it wasn't Bihyung.

"Sorry but, the main scenario has been delayed due to an error, please have a sub scenario as I will be working on fixing the error." The dokkaebi said, swiftly disappearing into thin air as the blue box popped up once again in everyone's eyes.

< (Sub) Scenario – Wack the poles! >

Difficulty: S

Category/Type: Sub

Clear Condition(s):

1. Form a group by 6 members.

2. Wack the pole on the enemies that spawn in the enviroment.

3. take turns each hour per member.

Time Limit: 6 hours.

Compensation/Reward: 10,000 coins

Failure: Death.

Reminds me of wack a mole.

Jinwoo thought, he still had a problem because he wasn't sure if his shadows were considered as alive beings to be considered members of his so-called future group.

All of my ideas are GONE, i need ideas bc they keep popping up and disappearing, i also might make ORV fics since theres not alot, im also planning to make something like Yoo Joonghyuk x Reader x Kim Dokja x Sung Jinwoo? but I hope I actually don't forget what I was planning to write (I don't write on my notes about stuff, I actually don't use them)

btw my wifi disappeared and I had no mobile data sorryuy 😭 😭

[thefdtd-blog1]

I'm bored so let's go there. Fuck it...

If democrats actually believed Trump was a fascist, then it would absolutely be their moral duty to the world and to their country to overthrow him by any means necessary. The idea that this would necessitate the physical extermination of even the majority of his follower base is ahistorical nonesense.

Of course, they are only interested in using him and the republicans as a strawman so they can pretend that they are the "good ones". That their country has ever brought anything to the world but chaos, death and destruction and that they themselves haven't supported the race-worshipping scum to maintain the us' power over the world. Like the ones currently occupying the Holy Land. Same imperialist ghouls, but with a rainbow badge.

This two situations couldn't be more diferent. Democrats are ok with the us plundering the world, so long as they get the ocasional token progressive gesture (either socially or economically) wich Trump is now denying. Since they don't actually want to stop the machine crushing humanity and they just want their tokens back, it would be pretty wild to launch a civil war over this. I'm not denying that. The people actively trying to stop the machine are small niche groups.

In Arcane, Piltover is the plunderer. Zaun isn't some opposition party concern-trolling about the plundering happening in some far-a-way land while directly benefitting from it. Zaun and it's people are the ones being plundered so that Piltover can benefit. Zaun and it's people are the ones that see their resources stolen, their people reduced to fighting for scraps to survive and the rise of cartel-like organizations in the vacum Piltover themselves created by having no local governance in the undercity.

But the writers fail to make this disctinction between a fake opposition party that is ok with all the evil their country is unleashing and a foreign nation being robed of their lifeblood. Probably because they want to fetishize oppression while also keeping it marketable for american audiences.

And so they give Zaun what they themselves want: a token gesture while the war machine marches on so they can tell themselves they are against it while gleefully listening to human bones snapping beneath them. This gestures can come in many ways. A pro-lgtb tweet on a us army account. A program for foreign aid that just serves their country's soft power. A progaganda story about Russia's awfullness straight out of the ukranian MOD's mouth so they can justify supporting people who wear the same pagan symbols as the nazi scum their grandfathers fought against. Trump is taking away this gestures (not out of goodness or evilness but out of incompetence. He genuily believes this gestures don't help the machine just because the "opposition" likes them, thus creating backlash at home.)

Another token gesture can be a seat at the rulling council that will be outvoten every time they try to change things for the people it's trying to represent. Caesar did it with the Gauls afther he killed half of them. The americans do it with Hawaii. And Piltover did it with Zaun. And surprise, it's one of those cartel members who sucked on Zaun's blood while Piltover hunted the people actually trying to make things better.

To follow the us metaphor: Zaun got upgraded from the native reservations to Hawaii. Great ending guys. Didn't even have to go through the akward Puerto Rico stage. They'll still be plundered, but Sevika will now get part of the loot as a gesture. yay

^^^———

I think one of the reasons so many people struggle with the way the “revolution” was handled in Arcane Season 2 is because they truly believe that with enough violence change for the better can be made. “If Jinx just united the undercity against Piltover, they could’ve fought for their rights and won! That’s why they show Jinx with the revolutionary flag in the opening, isn’t it?”

Except this is exactly the mentality Arcane is CRITICIZING.

As Vander says “this isn’t going to solve your problems, it just makes more of them.”

What people need to understand is that revolution ALWAYS involves horrific loss and sacrifice.

As Vander says: “nobody wins in war.”

There is no ONE act of violence to solve all your problems. Everyone in Arcane thinks they know how to solve the issues between their cities. And every time it results in just more and more extreme violence until it ends up with Viktor’s “Glorious Evolution” which just basically strips every one of free will and power.

But TRUE progress can only be made when we work together despite our differences. Look at America. When we fought against ourselves in the Civil War we still ended up creating a rift in our culture that to this day has not healed. But when we unite together to take down a common foe like in WWII we can achieve remarkable things. United we stand, divided we fall. The revolution of Zaun where they fight Piltover was never going to end with Zaun in a good place. We already saw that with Vader’s revolution, why the FUCK do you think Jinx doing the exact same thing would end up better?

This is WHY Jinx only unites the Zaunites in the end. Teaming up to take down Ambessa and the Machine Herald was an act of violence, but it was also an act of UNITY. Of progress!

This is why Sevika joining the counsel is SO important. Because Zaun and Piltover worked together instead of against each other, TRUE healing can begin.

True REVOLUTION can begin.

It bugs me that so much of the criticism of Season 2 is wishing there was more violence or endorsing the violence of Zaun over Piltover. That’s such a black and white non-nuanced take on the struggles going on. Arcane is challenging you to critique these ideas, and people are refusing to because they truly believe that with the right kind of violence all their problems will be solved.

[yourcupbearer]

‧₊ 𐔌 Transplural Tips & Ideas <3 ˚｡⋆୨୧

You heard me, I'm gonna do what nobody's done before... and by that I mean plenty of people have done it before. But that's besides the point! <3 This post is a buuunch of tips about furthering your progression into plurality from start to finish, from a cisplural + cisDID! These are all just ideas though, and none of it is mandatory; you're still just as plural even if you don't do any of these things! <33

Note that this is a very, VERY long read, framed to help you further understand and form your system. It can also be used by cisplurals / severity-plurals! This post includes: general tips to encourage progress, how to recognize and help alters form, inspiration for fleshing out fragments, tips for creating your headspace, and more!

I. General Tips!

⊹˖ ⤑ Affirmations, affirmations, affirmations. It might not seem like it, but your mind can do a lot of things just with the power of suggestion, and the language you use affects you deeply!! No saying things like "I want to be a system" -- be more specific; "I want my headspace to be more fleshed out", "I want my sysmates to be more distinct", etc. This not only helps you get clear goals set that you can actually work towards, but it also helps to convince your brain that you're a system.

⊹˖ ⤑ Avoid negative language and fakeclaiming. Similarly to the above, you need to use affirmations that help convince your brain. Negative language tells your brain those negative thoughts; I go into a little detail about this more here, but essentially, don't use negative language when discussing your transition! Even if you're feeling like your transition is going too slowly, using sarcasm with positive language will still trick your brain that you're being positive. Think of every time you fakeclaim yourself or call yourself a singlet or whatnot as five steps back; in order to make up for doing it once, you have to do a whole lot more of affirming to make up for it! This is to say that it isn't impossible to transition if you're very negative, but you will see more progress faster if you try to avoid it.

⊹˖ ⤑ Find a plural community to help affirm you. There are plenty of discord servers and tumblr communities centered around plurality. Find one and introduce yourself as a system -- not a "questioning system", not a "transitioning system", but as a system. This will help you affirm your identity more, as people will see and treat you as a system, and you can still ask for tips regarding helping your system form!

⊹˖ ⤑ Do research into different forms of plurality, how they manifest, and how they form! Do research into various -genic types, and see which one feels right to you. And if multiple feel right, you can always have multiple, or have different ones for different alters! You can find plenty of resources into helping you understand and mimic various ways of system creation if you know what to search for; try looking into endogenic systems, western tulpamancy, median systems, and seeing what you think might work for you! However remember that your system is your own -- It’s okay if you don’t have clear switches, distinct voices, or a headspace that’s easy to visualize. Many systems are subtle, blurry, or co-conscious, and none of that makes you any less of a system!!

II. Headmate Formation!

⊹˖ ⤑ When you first start off, it might be easier to notice different alters based on when your headspace changes (your actual mood and behavior -- not the inner world!). Don't force them, but notice them. Start by paying attention: any thoughts that might seem out of the blue, sudden shifts in your emotion, any habits that feel unfamiliar... Try to ask yourself if this is you or someone else! This is true for all systems, not just transplurals; I do this a lot when fronting to check if I'm alone in front.

⊹˖ ⤑ Give these changes names! It doesn't have to be a permanent name, but recognize them as a different person (or at least a different facet of you, if you believe in the "parts of a whole" formation). Over time, try to flesh them out; triggers can be things that put you into that mindset, interests can be things that you often engage with during that mindset, things like that! These are fragments, but they can form into full alters over time.

⊹˖ ⤑ When you recognize that this is happening, log it! Personally I use SimplyPlural ("SP"), but you can also use Octo-con (although SP is far more common, octo is mostly used by antis). You can also track this in any notes apps, journals, etc, communicate with alters, keep track of alters, organize alters, and more! Both are compatible with the discord app PluralKit ("PK") too. Some systems use Tupperbox, but I prefer PluralKit personally since it can easily be synced with SimplyPlural. You can use SimplyPlural on both mobile and desktop! I'll also be making a different post full of my SimplyPlural organization for those who want to get extra fancy with it, however this is just up to personal preference

⊹˖ ⤑ Try to communicate with your sysmate. At first you might need to put on a "mask" of sorts to do so, to try to give them a voice, but over time this will come easier as they settle in and find their own identity. You can do this also by letting them communicate with others; let them sign off on posts or messages they send with a specific "proxy" (either their name or an emoji), let them create a separate sideblog on Tumblr, let them use their own PluralKit or Tupper bot -- all of these are fantastic ways to help find what makes them them!

III. Fleshing out Fragments!

⊹˖ ⤑ The next step, once you've started to recognize fragments / facets, is to look into different types of alters. There are some common alter types that pop up frequently (please note that most of these descriptions are based in what they do for your system, but this may not be true of all alters of these types; along with this, there are plenty more not listed):

A) "Littles", which are children, usually needing cared for. These alters usually have the job of holding feelings of childhood, be it good or bad, and seeking out care and attention. Some systems have many of these; some have very few, if any at all.

B) Nonhumans, which can be animals or monsters. They usually hold feelings of being dehumanized, be it by reclaiming it or holding those negative feelings associated with it.

C) Religious alters are very common as well, be it an introject with a religious source, or an alter who believes they are a deity, angel, priest, demon, etc. These usually form to either help guide the system with religious endeavors, hold opinions and trauma about religion, or express some other facet caused by religion.

D) Introjects, which you've probably heard of if you're reading this. They can be from fictional media, internet personalities, friends, family, history, or anything else you can possibly think of. These are incredibly common, and often overlap with the above types, too! It is common for systems to have multiple introjects with the same source or source character, and it is also common for alters to form with the appearance of a character or person without actually being associated with their source.

⊹˖ ⤑ Some roles are more common in systems than others; the most basic are protectors, persecutors, gatekeepers, hosts, and littles. You can find a whole host of potential roles for alters on Pluralpedia, if you're looking for inspiration. There's a lot here; if you're trying to see if a term has already been made, then you can also join the Pluralpedia Discord Server, which has channels exclusively dedicated towards helping you find the system terms you're looking for!

⊹˖ ⤑ So, more on introjects -- the most common types are those which are sourced from a fictional character, content creator, or someone you know. But that's not actually all! Introjects can be sourced from ANYTHING that you get inspiration from. Locations, mythology, colors, songs, artwork -- anything you can think of! If you want specific words for every kind of introject, Pluralpedia has you covered for that, too; however the most common ones that I see are "fictive" (from a fictional media), "factive" (from a factional source), "godtive" (an introject of a god, also sometimes just labelled as an introject), and "songtive" (an introject from a song). Alters can also have multiple sources, so go absolutely ham!

⊹˖ ⤑ You need more inspiration for fleshing out alters? Go to Pinterest and look for artwork or characters that you like, and use those as inspiration and faceclaims for your sysmates. What shows or games do you like? Make your favorite characters that you relate to. You have OCs? Make them! I would also highly recommend searching through "Build-A-Headmate" (BAH) blogs, and seeing what fits your fragments! Picrew, Gacha, or other avatar apps can also be a great way to visualize your sysmates.

⊹˖ ⤑ Let your sysmates do things without your opinions or preferences seeping in as much as possible. This might be a sideblog full of only things they like, or maybe a Pinterest board exclusively for them, or their own playlist! A little can go a long way.

⊹˖ ⤑ Filling out their SP profiles, if you did that, can also help differentiate them as individuals! You can search for SimplyPlural templates for custom fields and folders, go to the SimplyPlural discord and view what people have shared in it, look at "OC templates" or "About Me" templates and see what people add to theirs, or anything else for inspiration! Like I said above, I'll be making my own post or doc of how I organize mine for those who want it.

IV. Headspace Creation!

⊹˖ ⤑ This one is a bit tricky, because it takes a lot of work. When you're first starting out, it might be best to make your headspace a place you know very well; maybe that's your house, your home base in a video game, or a fictional world that you have memorized very well. This can be changed and edited later, but it will help with visualizing it while you're getting started! Alternatively, it can be a small space that is incredibly simple; the important part is that you can try to imagine this space. I would highly recommend doing some form of mindfulness and meditation practices, as these will help you focus more and clear your head!

⊹˖ ⤑ Once you have that down, and you can easily and quickly imagine this space, you can start "editing" it. Don't rush this! While it may be very easy for some, it can take a long time for others, and rushing it will make you feel disheartened if it goes wrong. It's better to underestimate your abilities in this regard than to overestimate yourself! Try to add small details. For example, if your headspace is your house, try to imagine an object that you don't own in real life, and add it within your headspace. An example might be a lamp, a rug, or a stuffed animal; start small and simple. The next time you visualize or enter your headspace, see if that item is there. Try your best to visualize it as being there, until it becomes permanent.

⊹˖ ⤑ Once you can easily make edits such as this, you can start expanding the areas inside your headspace and make more major changes. This is where the fun part comes in! Your headspace can be anything you want, as long as you ease yourself into it. You can start the planning stage whenever you want, as long as you don't try to rush yourself with the process of fulfilling those plans.

V. Planning and Visualizing your Headspace!

⊹˖ ⤑ Okay, not that snappy of a title, but this is the fun part. Planning your headspace! I think Mindly is a great app for this if you're in the beginning aspects of planning -- finding out what areas you need, before actually linking them together or fleshing them out. Consider it a skeleton of sorts! You can also do this with common note-taking apps like Milanote or Obsidian too. Regular notes with a sort of "checklist" can be helpful, too.

⊹˖ ⤑ So, what areas does your headspace "need"? This is obviously up to you, but the basics include a "front room", individual houses or rooms for each alter, and a general lounging area. From here, you can go anywhere! A hotel, a campsite, a liminal space, a fantasy world, a college campus, a suburb -- all of it is entirely up to your system, and can be personalized (and changed)!

⊹˖ ⤑ Now that you know what areas you're trying to create, you can start visualizing it properly (or if you're not very fond of rough drafts, you can just skip to this step too, lol). The most common ways to make your headspace are with image dumps such as Pinterest boards, which are easily sorted and can have notes attached, or with proper building games, such as Animal Crossing, the Sims, Minecraft, etcetera depending on what kind of headspace you are looking for. Really, any worldbuilding simulator can work, so go crazy! If you're looking for fantasy maps, I can recommend Inkarnate; and if you can't find anything, you can always make a map from scratch on paper or with a drawing app.

VI. Other Useful Tips and Links!

⊹˖ ⤑ Transtrauma tips by @.neelacstraw

⊹˖ ⤑ Headspace / Wonderland tips by @.sophieinwonderland

⊹˖ ⤑ Transplural/DID/OSDD/etc Subs (Youtube)

[pinkkop]

This week's recap is brought to you by Pride Month!! 🌈 Wore my white sneakers with rainbow shoelaces in celebration today. I live a little bit in fear that someday someone will say they like them and I'll have to chose whether to make the tumblr reference or not.

QL Recap for Week 22

The 26th of May to the 1st of June

🇹🇭 My Stubborn

Episode 7 of 12 || Airing on: iQiYi, Sunday

Still absolutely love this show and as much as I found Vee absolutely frustrating this episode, I find her an interesting mirror to Sorn and her whole situation could also push the plot ahead. I am thiiiiiis close 🤏 to caving and reading the book but I want to watch as much of the show before I read the book so I get the least amount of spoilers.

🇹🇭 The Next Prince

Episode 5 of 14 || Airing on: iQiYi, Saturday

So now both Ramil and Khanin are abusing their powers to keep someone close. It's an interesting parallel and I'm curious to see how it develops. I really hope Ramil starts being better when he isn't terrified of his dad anymore because right now he's straight up abusing Paytai. It's not to say that there isn't love and care between them and that it doesn't make sense for what's happening in his world, but I need to see that their relationship can be better if they're end goal.

🇹🇭 Pit babe 2

Episode 5 of 13 || Airing on: iQiYi, Friday

I feel so bad for Babe. Can you even imagine how horrifying it must be to almost get assaulted again in the same way where he's made entirely powerless?! Absolutely terrifying! Both Chris and Willy are up to no good but what exactly the flavor of the no good is, I have no idea. Glad Kenta has Kim though because Pete is absolutely penis delirious and of no help or support right now.

🇹🇭 The Bangkok Boy

Episode 6 of 12 || Airing on: Gagaoolala, Saturday

I love that Peace got to bond with Mei. I don't think Sun really understands why Peace is being social with Mei but I find it fascinating. I'm still absolutely baffled by how small of a fish Sun's gang seems to be but Sun is tenacious so I can see how they can bumble their way to him getting his revenge. I expect there's a lot of pain up ahead but I'm enjoying the journey.

🇹🇭 ToGetHer

Episode 2 of 10 || Airing on: Gagaoolala, Friday

It's here! I've been keeping an eye on this for a while because I really liked His Man and this is made by the same people just with women instead. The first episodes were very promising. I love seeing different types of queer women and I can't wait to see more. If you're curious I made a short post about the show.

🇹🇭 Knock Out

Episode 3 of 12 || Airing on: WeTV, Friday

I like that the first thing this show told us was that Keen was resourceful and tenacious and then every episode since this has been shown over and over again to be true. Keen and Thun are cute, but, damn, some shits going to go down if they're already on the same page and getting down and dirty with it. I'm here for it though!

🇹🇭 The Ex-Morning

Episode 2 of 10 || Airing on: Youtube, Thursday

This was bit slower of an episode but still good and I love seeing the little flashbacks as they remember how good they were in the past. I loved how Phi asked Tam to quit. Phi so clearly doesn't like being reminded of how good the past was and how shitty his current life is but I fear that he wouldn't be able to ignore the state of his life even if Tam leaves.

🇹🇭 My Sweetheart Jom

Episode 3 of 12 || Airing on: Youtube, Friday

Oh Jom this was not it! I did not appreciate the lying and it definitely make me think less of Jom. Another thing: how old is the legal age because I keep side eying Yo's age. He seems so young and feels a little weird to me. I want to love this show more than I am but maybe both Jom and Yo will prove themselves next episode.

🇹🇭 Sweetheart Service

Episode 4 of 12 || Airing on: Youtube, Friday

Still cute and I'm liking it. Not sure what Tae Ha's deal is but I'm very curious about the second couple.

🇹🇭 The Sparkle In Your Eye

Episode 4 of ? || Airing on: Gagaoolala, Saturday

I didn't realize until these two episodes how much this show comments on the problems BL productions face which I find super interesting. I'll admit that when we first learn that Su Yi is terminally ill I wasn't super excited because I'm very much not ready for a BL main character from a Chinese show to die unless it is extremely necessary for the plot and so far I don't really know where this show is going so I'm worried but giving it the benefit of the doubt.

🇹🇭 Boys in Love

Episode 7 of 12 || Airing on: Youtube, Sunday

This show is still happening. There doesn't seem to be an overarching plot but I'm less mad about this show this week which might also have to do with how I also liked the teachers a little bit this episode. This show isn't bad but it also isn't great if you ask me.

🇹🇭 I Promise I Will Come Back

Episode 2 of 10 || Airing on: WeTV, Monday

I find it so weird that this show spent the first episode getting me to root for Nankrai but then he isn't the main romantic interest for TK? This show is cute even if it's very much a pulp and a travel ad. I'm actually visiting Prae next year so I'll probably keep watching this. Hopefully Nankrai gets a chance with TK because by episode 2 I'm still rooting for them.

🇹🇭 My Golden Blood

Episode 12 of 12 || Airing on: Youtube, Wednesday

My biggest gripe with this show is that as much as it's a vampire show there's never any talk of how being turned works and especially since Tong did get turned, it felt really weird that him being turned and how that would work and why Mark doesn't want to turn him, was just never talked about. At the end of the day this show fell completely flat for me.

That's it for this week!!

For links and airing schedule check out World of BL (Only for BLs)

[salty-and-spiraling]

It kills me when I think about it but Zubeia is kinda correct in the sense that Aaravos's standpoint can really just be boiled down to "chaos as much chaos and destruction as possible." As a hardcore Aaravos stan, I understand and acknowledge this but also kinda hate the way people represent it when talking about his choices and overall morals.

(splitting this post here because it's pretty damn long)

Because the thing is, Aaravos really doesn't have anything left. His morality is gone, his only goal is to avenge Leola and that means one thing: "making the council hurt." And the only way to do that is to attack the only thing they care about; their own righteousness. Their only concern is being right.

And with that in mind, I'd like to bring up the main point of Leola's trial, that she has disrupted the cosmic order, unleashed chaos on the world, and therefore she must die. They thought that by getting rid of Leola, they'd stopped the supposed chaos that was coming. Aaravos knows this, so what's his solution? Do everything in his power to prove them wrong.

He sees this as the only solution to truly avenge Leola. He doesn't want humans and elves to get along. He gave dark magic to humanity under the guise of it being meant to help them succeed while knowing it would corrupt them. He wants to wreak havoc, not really because he hates Xadia, but because it will hurt the council.

Why does he need Xadia to fall into chaos? Why not just go after the council head-on? Two reasons:

One, evidence from the show strongly points to that being impossible for him. It's basically like fighting himself times 5 and they'd surely overpower him.

Two, that wouldn't really fit into the idea of disorder they had in mind. Just going after them would leave the world in peace. Leola was not the problem and he wants them to see that so he needs all of Xadia to become a chaotic hellscape just like the council thought it would if Leola was kept alive.

So, from Aaravos's pov (keeping all of this in mind), what do you think it says if the world prospers without Leola in it? He'd lost his daughter at the hands of his people who said her actions would lead to a world of chaos. If peace still prevails after Leola's gone, to Aaravos (an unstable grieving parent) that's basically telling him that they were right in their decision to kill his daughter.

He couldn't stop her death, it's implied that he can't bring her back, so really all he has left is revenge. It's tragic and it always would be whether or not Aaravos chose to walk the path of evil after Leola's death. Their story was doomed from the start. It was a lose-lose situation all around. I can't help but sympathize with Aaravos because at least in the current scenario he feels as if he's not just surrending to the enemy. That he's doing Leola justice by proving the council was wrong to kill her. It's literally all he has.

This is all I could think about when reading @thestarswillguide's recent posts (here and here)

This is why I hate it when people say things like "Aaravos is just an asshole" or "he's completely wrong and didn't really love Leola". God, the way those statements really upset me. And people having absolutely no sympathy or nothing for him will never not blow my mind. Like, I understand hating his actions and not rooting for him, but to flat out say you can't sympathize with him? To not care about what he went through. To say he's just a monster when the love he had and the pain of his loss literally backed him into a corner? It honestly just seems heartless.

When talking about his character you can never disregard this without misunderstanding Aaravos completely. You can't ignore his pain and just call him a bad guy. It disregards his status as a complex character. This is what so many people do when they try to oppose his character (which, in itself is completely valid) and it really pisses me off.

Anyways, I'm gonna stop right here. Reblogs and comments are greatly encouraged! I really want to talk about this.

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'Wind back the clock, take me with you.' -geto suguru- (a)

If I could turn back time, I cannot say I could've saved him. Our world, our fate, the people in power, we let him down. We all let him down. I let him down.

He told me he needed space, was it me? was it him? was there no turning back? I understood.

You went through something traumatic, you'll come back to me— I thought

How fucking wrong was I..

If I could turn back the clock and you would've asked me to come, talked to me, I would've understood. Followed you in a heartbeat, no questions asked. You didn't. You could've, but you didn't.

When we carved our names together in the Sakura tree, I thought it was a promise, a sacred oath, a pact that whenever we're lost, the string that intertwines us together would pull us back and bind us back together at the roots. Our love, our promise— The rings we wore, a message, to everyone, to the world, that we're one spiritually and one day will be, legally.

When I made that promise, I told you– through thick and thin, we'll be partners in crime. It was our modern version of a cheesy wedding vow, like two young people in love. It was cringe but it was something we shared. It was divine.

—

I heard the news, I remember it just like yesterday.

I was knitting you a beanie, thought it'll compliment your hair. You were always worried about your ears being cold... when I was called to the principal's office

"The star plasma vessel is dead, theyve failed the mission."

I didn't care about the fucking mission.

God, I wish I was with you, I wish I held you tighter, Cried together harder, spend so much time together you'd never ever even think of doing what you did. I wish I didn't go on that mission, wish I was there when Yuki talked to you, wish you'd have left a note, said anything. God, I wish.

Next thing I know, you're gone? Just like that, three years all wasted away, washing down the drain mixing away with my tears and the water droplets from the beaten up dorm shower we used to spend our mornings in.

We searched everywhere. Where the fuck are you Suguru?

but I knew, you wouldnt come back, I just did. You always told me we were soulmates, that you couldn't hide anything from me. You said you wore your heart up on your sleeve, so then why couldn't I see this coming? Yet I knew, I just knew, Suguru never looks back.

So, I didn't as well, that night, packed all my bags, wrote a goodbye letter to everyone and left.

My sister, who did the same years ago— tired of the toxicity, of the fact that every child was only seen as a mere resource, that those comforting walls of our so-called home were actually blood-soaked and cramping down to eat us alive, a never ending ring, where all you had to do was compete to survive- years and years children, cousins, elders pitted against eachother for what? power? hunger ? blood? A place where childhood was a state where hope never lingered and the dark crimson liquid never washed away. I was here, away. Away from everything I once accepted was mine cus it meant being by your side. Maybe because of this, how I know families work in the Jujutsu world, I couldn't hate Toji for the path he chose, I couldn't blame you for the path you chose. You always told me my empathy eats up at my soul and drains away my happiness from within, I'm starting to wonder if you were right.

She happily accepted me in the village. Stroked my hair, held me while I cried.

"It'll get better, I promise"

but that same evening, when I left with her to help her with duties I didnt think I'd encounter you again, in such strange ways. Maybe we are soulmates, afterall.

—

Rubble, carcasses, corpses... blood...

are all we see, miles and miles away.

We hear faint cries before those die as well, we hear sounds of struggle before a deafening, piercing, hollow, cold silence follows. Women, Children, Husbands, Fathers, Mothers, reduced to cold, dead bodies. Forced to be trapped between layers and layers ruthlessness.

But I know you, I know your energy, I know you because I've been with you, breathed you, worshipped you, loved you, loathed you, held you in my arms while you cried, protected you from those demons you call nightmares, loved you, loved you so much it hurt, loved you till my heart ached, loved you, loved you, and loved you.

But now, as my throat tightened and my vision became blurry, all I could think of was-

God, I loved you, and now I must be the one to end this monstrosity, end it at my hands.

I must be the one to kill you.

—

You had your whole life planned before you, so did I. That's why we were so perfect together, soulmates even. Oh how much time changes everything, in the blink of an eye.

I couldn't have held you back, god, I wish I could. I wish I could tell you. You say you would, but I know you wouldn't understand. How could you, you're such an angel, who forgives, who offers her soul to the world where they strip it and tear it apart but you give, you give and you give till you're numb, with a smile.

Who can blame you? I was like that as well, but no, not anymore. Not when the world is the reason why people like us, people like you, people like her, are so miserable, why we die. We give and we give and we give and then we die and no one remembers. No one gives a shit.

I cannot take this anymore love, I can't.

Even if you didn't understand, all I had to do was say the words, and you'd follow, cus thats who you are. Perfect and in love.

But there was no need for you to shed more blood, no need for it to stain your delicate fingers any more than they already had. So forgive me my love, for I am such a monster, I couldn't let our string of fate, the blood from my hands, stain the thread and bleed into yours.

I thought cutting the string would stop our fates from intertwining, yet what have I done?

Yes, the link is severed. But why do I see our promise spilled on the floor, shining away, distinctively between all the rubble? That stupid band, a cheap ring with a fake diamond shines bright because it was you who wore it. And I, like always have messed up again.

Rest in peace my love, let me borrow this band as a memento for what we used to be, I never stopped loving you and I never will. Let this be a reminder to myself that I will achieve my goal and save our world, so we never have to spill our blood for those nobodys again, so we may reunite in the afterlife and tie back our strings and be born to love eachother again, my soulmate.

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AN: LEAVE ME AND MY EM DASHES ALONE PLEASE. u can run it through an ai checker— i know i ate cus i wrote this after a mental breakdown mwah

anyway LOVE YALL I AM SOOOO BACK ON THIS APP

[graveyardgremlins]

that's it, i'm writting a Transmigration!AU fanfic of superbat... yall do whatever you want with that information

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Do psychotropic drugs and/or ritual play a role in any of the blightseed cultures? A pretty broad question, lol

Yeah that’s a very broad question, the answer is about as much as it tends to play roles in real history. Alcohol is pretty ubiquitous (outside of cultures that abstain from intoxicants) and used for a variety of purposes, opioids are commonly used in some parts for pain relief or recreational purposes, stimulants (usually in mild, natural forms) are used to provide extra energy, and hallucinogens are most commonly used as part of a larger religious framework (rather than for recreational purposes). Any more elaborate answer kinda has to be case by case in a certain culture or part of the setting.

I'll just take this as an opportunity to talk about the one established sect that pretty much REVOLVES around psychoactive use. This is the Scholarly Order of the Root, which is a sort of mystery religion + elite community of scholars who currently occupy the Ur-Tree and its forest in the far southern Lowlands (southeast of Imperial Wardin, on the same land mass).

The Ur-Tree is the obligatory Huge Fucking Fantasy Tree (and its surrounding forest). It’s a mass of vegetation about a mile tall and almost as old as Plant Life Itself, its upper branches are primeval plants, which become more modern the nearer they get to the ground (and each 'level' holds tiny ecosystems, some containing descendants of LONG-extinct arthropods/other small animals). Its lowest branches and the surrounding forest are contemporary plant life, and all is connected and protected by an incomparably MASSIVE fungal mycelium network (which is itself a living god).

A lot of the Scholars' more secretive practices revolve around experimentation with substance use with the goal of expanding the Mind and transcending the body to fully connect to the Dreamlands, and they have a supply chain of traders and mercenaries called Rootrunners who traffic substances into the Lowlands. Most of their psychoactive use is in a very intentional capacity and not just like, for fun, but a LOT of them are just straight up addicted to cocaine (in the form of alchemically refined bruljenum, which is used for practical purposes of its stimulant effect during long hours of work).

All known psychoactives are desirable for experimentation (particularly hallucinogens), with each having properties that either allow expansion of the Mind, transcendence of the body, or outright divine communion. Their effects are logged in great detail and interpreted to form the basis of the Scholars' understanding of the natural world and reality itself.

The most important substance is Ur-Root, which is root matter from subterranean levels of the Ur-Tree that have both their own intrinsic psychoactive substances and a very, very high concentration of living god mycelium. The tree root contains DMT and the mycelium has its own wholly unique effects (being an actual living god). They alchemically refine it into a purer, more potent form, and use it to expand beyond the body and directly commune with the Giants, a group of entities they have identified as the only true gods.

An Ur-Root trip starts off with minor visual distortion, which turns into shifting fractals that slowly obscure the vision. Eventually the senses are entirely taken over by a 'tunnel' of rapidly shifting fractals and geometries. In a complete trip, the experiencer gets a sense that they have been pushed through a membrane and entered another realm, finding themselves in a distinct experiential Space.

At this point they may encounter entities which communicate to them in a language impossible to describe but wholly understood. These beings are understood to be the Giants, or at least aspects of the Giants that mortals are capable of comprehending (they often take familiar tutelary forms of the Mantis or the Snake, or appear resembling the same type of sophont that the experiencer is, all composed of ever-shifting geometries). The experiencer often feels a sense of unconditional and endless love from these beings, though the Giants may be more hostile and may appear in the form of the Trickster (usually a cultural figure regarded as malicious, be it an animal or otherwise) in a bad trip.

(^Up until this point, this has mostly just been a DMT 'breakthrough' experience ft. 'machine elves' and the like).

They are then removed from this space and returned to something that feels like the real world, but is nearly unrecognizable. They have a sense of rapidly moving through time, and will usually see 'the spires' towards the beginning, which just so happen to look like this:

(source + some context via Implication- the spires are exactly what this art is depicting)

The experiencer continues to move across an unfathomable amount of time, occasionally 'seeing' other such flashes of unfamiliar landscapes and creatures, and yet also being devoid of all their senses, the 'seeing' is pure, unfiltered experience. There is a sense of interconnectedness with all life, and that one has become the forest (or even Life) itself. The sense of time is wildly distorted, the trip lasts only about 5 minutes but feels like an eternity and is understood as literal hundreds of millions of years.

The experiencer has usually lost any remaining sense of Self and individual consciousness during this phase (in which case this time distortion is usually a neutral or even peaceful experience), but some retain a fraction of their identity, and find themselves trapped and conscious while experiencing what feels like eternity (which can be LIFE-CHANGINGLY distressing, even after the fact).

(^This latter part of the trip is the effects of the Ur-Tree fungus).

The trip ends with a sense of rushing through the ground and back up into one's body, at which point they will abruptly return to their senses and consciousness. The details are then immediately retrieved via interview and recorded in immense detail. The whole experience is understood as having been full comprehension of the Dreamlands, communion with the Giants, and then a tour through the act of creation.

This is done as part of the initiatory practice into the inner mystery-religion of the scholars, and as needed for study by high scholar-priests. It is not taken lightly, both as it is absolute communion with the gods and reality, and in that it can be a very, very difficult experience. People who have gone through this often walk away with a permanently shifted perspective, often in a positive and/or comforting way- a sense of interconnectedness with all life, a peace with the concept of death, seeing less of a point in individual ego and the concept of Self, and comfort in the sense of divine love they (may have) experienced. This heavily influences the philosophy of the Scholars and has had effects by proxy in the religious worldviews of the region.

Details of this experience are closely guarded, and initiates are given absolutely no prior knowledge and expectations for their trip. This is seen as a necessity- their naivety will allow for a true, unfiltered experience, and can be used to gauge whether they should or should not be accepted. Those that have a distinctly bad trip upon initiation may be assumed to have been 'rejected' by the giants and thus denied full priesthood, though this largely depends on How they interpret their distressing trip- those who identify this as a test and harsh lesson in a journey to enlightenment may be accepted (as this is how fully initiated scholar-priests interpret and handle their bad trips).

This inner priesthood is only a small fraction of the Scholarly Order, and its greater function is as a hub of education and repository of knowledge, and Scholar-trained doctors can provide some of the best medical care available in the setting ('best medical care in this setting' only means so much but it's pretty solid, relatively speaking). Only a chosen few Scholars ever get to commune with the Ur-Root, and most of the divine secrets revealed in the process are kept hidden (though they indirectly influence the politics and worldview of the entire order).