#idk every time i try to write i just feel like i've lost all my ability ;__;

[jeonqkooks]

Do whatever your heart tells you

that was so fast, that post was up for less than a minute i think asdfkgjk. thank you 🥺 i'll sprinkle some love onto my other babies that haven't experienced the spotlight in a while <3

[just-jordie-things]

Hi! Idk if ur still doing the kiss prompts, but can I request number 65 for Inumaki? If ur not writing for the prompts anymore feel free to ignore this.

kiss prompt 65: one small kiss, pulling away for an instant, then devouring each other ___

"that was really stupid,"

you were a little upset.

"i mean, did you even fucking think? you're not an idiot. or maybe you are!"

you were a little more than upset.

toge could only sit on the cot of the cot in the infirmary, knowing no other help was coming to save him from your scolding, as it was the middle of the night and the place was pretty much abandoned at this time. it was only him and you. and you were storming around the place as you familiarized yourself with shoko's organization, trying to gather the supplies you needed to fix him up after an assignment gone awry.

he'd tried to assure you that he could tend to his own first aid, but you'd given him a sharp glare that told him to shut his mouth, sit down, and not argue.

"i've never seen something so reckless and so fucking pointless in my whole life," you're muttering as you slam cabinet doors and throw supplies one after another on the counter beside where toge sat. "you're lucky you're not dead, you know that?"

you don't look at him, despite his eyes following your every movement. you keep your head down, or you're too focused on finding something.

"salmon" he agrees quietly.

when you've finally gathered everything you needed to tend to the open gash on his arm, as well as the various smaller wounds covering his body, you walk back towards him. you still don't meet his eyes as you silently begin to soak a rag in rubbing alcohol. but he can see the deep frown pulling on your face.

he feels guilty- as well as a lot of pain- but the guilt sits heavier in his stomach. you have every right to be this angry with him. he had acted recklessly. but in his defense he'd been trying to protect you. the large slice on his shoulder would have been nothing compared to what would have happened had he not shoved you out of the way and taken the blow for himself.

you very well could've lost your head. and here you were fussing over a banged up arm that hurt now but would heal in a few weeks.

"this is really gonna hurt" you mumble before you began cleaning up the wound.

you're right, he hisses and shifts his weight around as you wipe away the excess blood and sterilize the wound as quickly as you can. you're just as uncomfortable seeing him in so much pain, and it makes your throat burn, but you keep yourself focused on cleaning him up to the best of your ability. you're no stranger to tending to wounds such as these.

you're still muttering in a scolding tone as you prep the needle. something about how much you hate doing stitches, how stupid he is for acting without thinking, how shoko should be the one here to fix him up, and toge takes it all with a grain of salt. even if he could speak, there wasn't anything he could say to ease your irritation.

but he hates it. he's seen you upset, but not like this, and never with him. his stomach churns with the discomfort of knowing you were so cross with him.

you warn him again before you begin stitching up the wound. but there's a hesitation in you as he braces himself, and he glances over to see that your hands are trembling. violently. your hands shake so much he's surprised you haven't dropped the needle, but you seem to have an iron grip on the small tool.

you still refuse to look at him, your eyes set hard on the wound that was going to start bleeding again if you didn't get your shit together.

"mustard leaf?" with his other hand, toge reaches towards you, tentatively resting his hand over yours, easing some of it's shake, but not completely. he still feels the tremors under his touch.

but almost as soon as he touches you, you're pulling your hand away from his grasp, letting out a long breath, and getting to work on stitching him up.

twelve stitches. you curse each one you knot up. twelve stitches that could've been avoided.

you're tying off the last one when he hears a small sound come from you that has him trying to get a better look at you, even though you're avoiding his gaze like the plague.

but then it happens again, a small choked sound comes from your throat and there's nothing you could do to cover it.

it was a whimper.

with furrowed brows, toge reaches for you again, this time firmly grabbing your hand. finally, you look up at him.

your eyes are filled with tears, and they're pouring down your cheeks in steady streams. his face contorts into one of unease, eyes flickering over your features in a hurried assessment to find what was wrong.

and when his hands began moving across your arms, trying to find where you were hurt, you shook your head, grabbing his wrists and moving them away before he could continue.

"i'm fine," you choke out, wiping the tears from your face. "it's you i'm worried about,"

his expression falls. you sniffle as you reach for the gauze on the counter, unrolling it a generous amount.

"it's just- just- why would you do that?" you mumble between quiet sobs. "you can't do that. you scared me, toge"

you're avoiding his eyes again, but he's staring at you with concern flooding his lavender eyes.

tears still fall off your lashes as you gingerly wrap the gauze around his arm. you've probably overdone it, but as the thought crosses your mind you give it two more loops, just to be secure.

when you're done, his hand catches yours again. you don't look at him. you shut your eyes and hang your head, wishing you had a stronger resolve than you did. you're still angry, but it's starting to melt into something else as reality settles in. had things gone worse... you don't want to think about it.

toge's other hand touches your chin, barely, but enough that you get the idea, and you look up at him again.

i'm sorry, he mouths the words out slowly so that he's sure you understood. you sigh, your shoulders falling heavy.

then he points to the bandage you'd applied, and you follow his gesture as he brings his finger to your clavicle, staring at you ardently, needing you to understand what he was trying to communicate.

for good measure, he drags the tip of his finger across the base of your neck, and then points again to the wound on his arm, and at you.

you sigh, shaking your head at his rough explanation. you pull his hand down away from you.

"that wouldn't have happened," you say quietly. "i had that under control, neither one of us would have"

"ikura" it's a curse, likely him calling bullshit. he tilts his head at you, staring at you with an expression you couldn't read as easily as you usually could.

"i'm sorry for yelling," you mumble. "i was just worried, that's all"

he gives you a small smile before shrugging his shoulders and shaking your head, likely trying to tell you he's fine. you huff, knowing fully well he was going to have a long night of pain and discomfort ahead of him still.

"salmon" he says with a reassuring smile.

you wince back at him.

he tugged on your hand, gently, but enough to make you shuffle forward. your face felt warmer the closer he drew you, pulling again and again until you're as close as he wanted you to be. your eyes are wide as they land on his, silently asking what he was doing, what he wanted.

his lips pull wider into a proper smile, and your gaze falls to the way a dimple forms in the center of the mark on his cheek. you have the urge to reach up and poke it, but you don't. there's a bruise that blooms too close to the spot, and you don't want to be the cause of anymore aching.

his fingertips touch your chin again, tilting your head until your eyes meet his again. you look forlorn, like you have a deep regret. he frowns at you as his index finger hooks under your chin.

"does it hurt?" you murmur quietly as your fingers tremble over his jaw.

toge shakes his head, a bold lie, everything hurts, but nothing about you could ever inflict pain on him.

he convinces you of this when he leans forward, only needing to move a small amount in order to touch his lips to yours.

you startle, remaining perfectly frozen before him at the new sensation. you and toge had always been very close, but you weren't kiss-each-other close. this was completely new, and unforeseen.

your eyes are still wide open when he pulls back all too soon, leaving the kiss chaste, and your lips tingling with the desire for more. even in that small, quick kiss, you understood him.

he gives you a small smile when he looks at you, as if cheekily asking if that made up for the stress he'd put you through tonight.

but you're already leaning back in, eyes falling shut this time as you slant your lips over his as though this wasn't a completely earth-shattering experience. he's still smiling against your mouth as you kiss him eagerly, trying to pour every last ounce of love and concern from your mouth into his.

your movements are gentle as you rest your hands over his shoulders, barely applying any pressure, too worried you'd catch a scrape or bruise in an unpleasant way. it makes your rushed series of kisses soft and sweet, but still you're breathing heavily by the time you pull away again, your forehead resting against his.

you'll scold him again later for being reckless. but for now you could share sweet smiles and sweeter kisses in between whispered confessions of fondness. ___

xoxo ~ jordie

[gigisdoll]

Cw: noncon, unbalanced power dyanamics, innocent!reader, manipulation, g!p, corruption, drugging? [Implied], groping, somnophillia, reader being treated like a bimbo (she is)

Notes: idk I lowkey rushed this out since I'll be inactive for like 3 days to camp! Hope u like this :p

Parings: vocal coach!aespa x idol!fem reader

Everyone in the entertainment knew you were the favorite of the most favorable of coaches..they made it obvious who their favorite was and it shows in how they treat you. The way they stared at you while you sang alongside them, all you thought was that you were just the perfect student, but in ways more than your talents in singing dancing and etcetera, oh you most definitely were.

It was laughable just how shameless they all could be, Giselle groping you in every place her eyes would linger for a little too long to 'try it out' laughing it out with you, at this point it's become a daily occurrence she says that it's your fault that she even has these desires for you saying 'Your basically asking for it every time you come into my room, and with that outfit? Yeah... I thought so' but you were wearing such simple clothing? Huh maybe you were just dressing too revealingly, not that she minded anyway..

" sorry but you were basically asking for me to touch you! I mean how could I not? Just write it off as a thank you for all the shit I did for your career. "

Ning ning never made you uncomfortable, no matter how much she looked with eyes that were devouring you, or however much she groped you. She just made it so easy to feel like you were at home! How could you not feel comfy with her? Yes while she was pretty touchy... You didn't mind did you? Course you didn't, your pretty little head didn't have to worry about that! Just let her have some fun! I mean it's the least you can do for her?

"Just a touch.. I mean I've done worse y/n? Just let me continue, I know you want to anyway so don't try to resist me. "

Karina was definitely the most quiet, silently checking you out in the hallway as you checked whatever was on your phone, definitely also the most stealthy, well not really after you drunk the drink she gave you you were just too limp to feel her hands on your body. Hey where did all these hickeys come from? and... Why are you so sore? Why do you always black out when visiting Karina? You know maybe you should just stop asking questions! I mean it was hard keeping you quiet in the first place.. !

"Huh?... Another hickey? Oh... Well I guess you should just cover that up! How'd it get there? Uhm I don't know! I'll ask the guards for the camera footage! " (there were never any cameras but you never noticed did you?)

Minjeong was just attracted to you, she doesn't know what really sparked it up.. Was it the innocence in your eyes whenever you looked at her? Or was it whenever she looked at you, it seemed like you were asking for her to just... Fuck you? The innocent doe eyes you throw at her every time she coached you during vocal warm ups. She doesn't know... But what she does is that you're so naive..

" y/n.. My dicks been hurting! Can you help? You don't want me in pain right? So help me out please... "

-

" Aeri sunbae? Wow! Hi! I've been busy lately... Sorry we had to meet like this.. " You've just debuted, you thank your coaches and your other members for helping you get this far! But your coaches seemed sad that you even debuted.. I mean how could they not? They just lost their favorite student... Well not for long... As long as you don't struggle they'll have their favorite student back in bed:)

[peterman-spideyparker]

Halo (Matt Murdock x fem!Reader)

Author’s Note: Howdy, folks! In my slow sift through and re-editing process of fics on my laptop and in my notebooks, I've re-come across this fic. It's probably been written for, what, a year and a half? Two years? and I've waffled on it because I didn't know if I should post it. It's a continuation of Angel, but if you've read it and want to stay sitting in the angst, you can. It's still angst, but, it might make you feel better? Idk. I cried writing it and then every time I've re-read it, and I think id I tried to write more, I'd be a vicious cycle of tears. Not my best editing, but. Enjoy!

Summary: Matt is grieving your loss hard even months after your death. It's like a non-stop film reel in his mind. He's wracked with despair, and ready to submit when his angel comes to his rescue.

Warnings: ANGST (dead dove, do not eat), talk of death, wounds (stab wound, gunshot wound, blood--canon typical violence), a lot of crying, hurt comfort?, Matt has a lot of self hatred in this from guilt

Other Characters: Father Lantom, Foggy Nelson

Word Count: 1,635

Everything is too loud and too quiet at once. It’s been like that for the last couple of months since you died. His surroundings have been simultaneously amplified and dampened. He doesn’t know how to function. He hasn’t been able to figure out what life means without you. He doesn't feel as if he's living anymore.

Matt can feel when Father Lantom sits down next to him. He's been coming to church more often, as if his desperate prayers will change the past and bring you back to him. He can feel every last bit of the polyblend fibers in Father Lantom's black clothes, but it just feels like static to him. An indistinct haze. But even for as hazy as it is, for as much sensation as it is, it just makes Matt feel more numb. He tunes out Father Lantom’s words, and only when he feels his hand on his back does Matt actually pay attention to what his priest is saying.

“I was playing pool with a man once—a unique fellow with an insightful mind,” the priest starts with a breath. “He imparted words to me that were so incredibly wise it made a priest speechless. It was a simple question: ‘What is grief, if not love preserving?' As I let that sink in, he continued. He said that all those feelings—the anger, the sadness, even the hollowness, everything that brings a person to tears—that is all the unspoken love that you still have for someone. It’s a good thing, Matthew. Love . . . Love isn’t something you switch on and off like a lamp. It’s shouldn’t be—if it is, it isn’t love.”

Matt sits in the pew, his heart heavy, hurting, and crumbling.

“I keep thinking I’m going to find her at home,” Matt finally sniffles, his voice trembling. “I keep hoping that this is a nightmare and I’m going to wake up and we’ll be in bed and she’ll hold me the way she does after I have a bad dream. That she’ll make every bad thing I’m feeling go away.”

Father Lantom puts a careful hand in Matt’s back, and it’s enough to have him break down. 

“I miss her so much,” Matt weeps in the empty church. “I-I can’t—I don’t know what to do.”

“Matthew . . .”

“She died in my arms,” he sobs. “I couldn’t—I should’ve—I need her. I’m lost without her.”

Father Lantom knows there’s nothing more to say as Matt lets his grief take center stage, feeling the pain course over him in violent wave after violent wave rather than pushing it down. 

This is it, he thinks. This is where he dies, on some random rooftop.

And you know what? He couldn’t care less. Being a lawyer, fighting this fight, day and night, it’s pointless. How can he try helping others when he couldn’t help the person he cared about most? When she, dying in his arms, was comforting him? This is what he deserves—it’s better than what he deserves, he thinks. This is a relatively clean death—a little bullet hole in his flesh. You were all but sliced in two. He deserves to be torn to bits for what he let happen to you . . . He deserves so much worse. But, as he lays there, bleeding out, all he can thing about is how he never deserved you. How you would have been so much better off without him.

How you’d be alive had the two of you never met.

“Matty?” he hears a gentle voice say. “Matty, I’m gonna help you sit up.”

No . . . This isn’t happening. The voice, he knows it. He thought he’d never hear it again. 

(Y/N). 

“God, you’re heavy,” you grunt as you help him sit upright, a careful, warm hand over where he was shot as the other is firm on his back. 

“Wha—Huh?” he starts to groan, panic quickly starting to bubble. 

“Matt, calm down, it’s okay,” you urge. “I’m here, angel, don’t worry. You’re okay.”

He sputters your name in disbelief. “Is that really you?”

He feels how your fingers run through his hair and down to a loving grip on his forearm. 

“Hey, Matty.”

“Sweetheart, wha—?”

“Matt, I know it’s a lot. I know. But it’s okay. I’m right here.”

“H-How?” he asks with tears in his eyes. “How?”

He listens to you let out a sigh, how your brows furrow, trying to find the best answer to his question. “Divine intervention?”

“Y-You died, (Y/N).” He smells the salt of your tears in the air. “You died in my arms. Why didn’t you hold on?” 

“I tried,” you tell him. “I wanted to. You were so scared Matt. God, I—.” You sniffle and bite your lip, a tear rolling down your cheek. “I would give anything to forget the pain on your face, Matty. But then I wouldn’t have been able to see my favorite person.” You wipe the tears away from his cheeks. “Matty, I’m not gone. I’m with you always, you know that, right?”

“I couldn’t save you.”

“You saved the city and the world from a frightening reality. You’ve done it so many times, angel.”

“That doesn’t change what I failed to do.”

“Forever the Catholic—full of guilt.” You cup his cheek with your hand. “Matty, look at me. You are the best thing in the world that ever happened to me, you understand that? You made me feel so loved, so cherished, so safe, and so valued. I never felt more myself than being with you. Everything that you made me feel . . . Matt, that’s love. That’s what love is, what it does, and what it feels like. And I’m sorry I couldn’t stay longer to have you realize that and feel the same.”

“I did, sweetheart, I felt it.” 

“Then you need to remember that feeling and let it guide you. I want you to be happy, Matt. I don’t want you to be sad forever. I can’t have that.”

“I miss you so much. I don’t think that’s ever going to stop.”

“It’s only a beautiful thing. It’s all the unexpressed love. We never get enough time with each other, Matt. But the best part of it is, Matt? We’re going to see each other again. It’s gonna be a while, but when we do?” Matt can taste the salt in your tears. “Be there as much as possible for one another, Matt. Okay? Don’t shut people out, don’t push them away because you want to protect them or because you don’t feel like you deserve happiness, because you will mourn that time you lost. Open up your heart again. It’s one of the most beautiful things you can share.”

“I don’t want to leave you,” he cries as he holds onto you. “I don’t want to go back.”

“You know you don’t mean that.”

“I can’t . . . I miss waking up next to you. It keeps getting harder. It’s all crushing in on me.” He sniffles. “The apartment is loosing your smell.”

Tears roll down your cheeks at his distress. “Matt . . .”  you soothe. “I miss you more than I can say. There are absolutely no words in any language to tell you how much my heart hurts that I’m not physically with you every day.”

“Then let me stay. Don’t make me go back. Please let me stay here with you.”

“I can’t make that decision. If . . . Matty, I know you know that you’re not finished on Earth.”

“Angel . . .”

“Matty?” you say softly. “Can you open your eyes for me?”

Tears stream down his face as he looks at you, his pupils locking onto yours for the first time. His hand carefully cups your cheek, afraid to touch you—like you’ll disappear. He gently touches your hair next, tucking it behind your ear before his thumb traces over your nose and cheek, finally brushing against your lips.

“(Y/N)?” he croaks.

“Hi, Matty.”

Holding your face in his hands, he leans in for the kiss of a lifetime, pouring every ounce of love he has into in.

“H-How . . .? I don't . . . You’re more beautiful than I could have ever imagined,” he sniffles as he moves to rest his forehead against mine. “God . . . You’re just . . . You’re here. You’re perfect.”

“Those are some super senses, huh?” you joke with a wet chuckle as you rest your foreheads on one another.

“I love you so much, (Y/N). I love you more than you’ll ever know.”

“Pull through for me, Matt,” you plea. “You’re not done yet, my angel. I know you’re not.”

“You’re gonna be with me, huh?”

“Forever and always, every step of the way. And hey—I better not see you again until it’s your time. Actually your time.”

“Promise,” he says with a soft smile, holding your face in his hands as he looks at you with tears in his eyes, desperately trying to memorize every last detail in your face.

“Love you, angel.”

“Love you more.”

He feels the burning, piercing pain in his ribs before anything else. Then, it’s the dried blood on his skin. Foggy’s muttering to himself in the kitchen about how he needs to find better friends that don’t dress up and prance around at night in ways that bring them two steps away from death.

When Matt’s eyes flutter open into a darkness he’s become accustomed to, tears begin to sting at his eyes as a fresh, strong whiff of your scent hits his nose in his apartment as if you’re walking by him like you’d done so many times before.

Forever and always.

While it hurts, Matt knows from that point on things will start to get a little easier. You're here with him, after all.

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[hey-i-am-trying]

hi, tripoier here! Long text incoming alert and a detailed explanation of the situation for qsmpblr (also sorry if I make some typos I'm writing without translator)

Yeah I also saw what happened today with the og admin of Pepito and I have a lot to say about it. First of all I'm not speaking in behalf of the community but I'm my own experience of the situation. I watched the development of Pepito's story since day one and fell in love with that little guy (and his laggy PC). Then second day arrived and I noticed the admin change bc he was less laggy and I've learned enough Portuguese and 07's (Richas admin) mannerisms to recognize when he's playing a character, even Roier noticed but didn't say anything until the screencap incident lol

Few day passed and 07 created such a cute and wholesome personality for Pepito, that contrasted very well with the role that roier was having at the moment— that it's understandable that it may not be too comfortable for some people but for the ones that had been watching Roier's story in the server + his relationship with Bobby, we take it with humor/hope for him to heal slowly after what happened in Purgatory and with Bobby (and believe me, Bobby had a HUGE impact on how Roier behaved with the rest of he eggs after his death)

So during the days 07 played as Pepito all the tripoiers were in this state of hope because we knew how much q!Roier was trying hard to not to get attached to Pepito, he knew the moment something happens to him he was gonna suffer A LOT, and Pepito was this pure, innocent ray of sunshine that it was imposible for us not to love immediately (Roier also did from day one but he loved to play with us + his lore at the moment was being in depression for the lost of his husband and having Richas and Leo in their comatose state). Also, is worth to mention that after he discovered it was 07 the one playing as Pepito he became more playful and started to tease him just to make him go out of role (and succeeded one time). Which is why he used the chancla a lot with him, as a shield for the feelings that were starting to grow on him again.

Then, Otipep happened.

This is the part I'm gonna be more careful to explain bc there is a language barrier that for the people who don't have Spanish as their first language they cannot understand or got confused

When Otipep appeared Roier noticed that it was another admin playing as Pepito because 07 was busy helping with Q's lore, we don't know if he recognized immediately that it was the original one or just a random temporary admin, but he noticed that this Pepito appeared where the fist one disconnected (in the garden outside of his house). Some people noticed that it was the original one and got happy bc it meaned that finally Pepito had his permanently admin back and bc Richas and the others eggs were also back from the coma we could see them both at the same time (roier used to joke about it every time 07 was around)

We also thought that the og admin had been catching up with the role that 07 has built so far with Pepito (which was not, and we would never know if it was either miscommunication between the admins or the og admin just decided to ignore the actual role to keep their 'idea' for the role), so at first we were a little bit shocked when this Pepito started acting so "dry" (idk if this is the correct word) with Roier, bc we had already gotten used to Pepito's tender way of speaking, but we just let that pass for a bit.

But then that "dry" behavior started going to go down a path were even we as an audience started getting uncomfortable, because roier was trying to socialize with the admin but they clearly didn't knew what's has been going on these past days, so Roier take the time to make a summary of the last days with his typical chill humor, and while he was doing that everything reached its final point with the sign "hueles a culo también hijo de puta" = you also smell like ass son of a bitch.

now This. THIS right here is what destroyed everything. Because you would say "oh, it's just Pepito following Roier's game, it's was in a playful way".

No.

It. was. not.

When Roier starts calling someone with some swears or related words is always in a playful way, and there is context and trust behind. When Otipep put that sign Roier was making a summary of the role that 07 has been doing with Pepito, bc he didn't wanted to let them behind, and while doing that he always explain with his usual humor to make it less unconformable for the admin/ entertained for his audience.

So when he placed that sign we all get out of the loop because it came from nowhere, even Roier kept silence of a few second because 1). it sounded rude, that sign was so out of place 2). Roier was explaining the last few days to the admin so he can keep up with the role, he was not "joking" with the admin, or moving on to another topic, he was helping the admin. 3). We, as an audience, felt so shocked because they weren't saying that to Roier in a playful way, they were giving weight to those words. And this is the part that people that do not have Spanish as their first language doesn't understand. They gave weight to the insult. They didn't wrote that as a joke, they directly INSULTED the streamer.

Then roier proceeded to hit him with the chancla bc he wanted to take the control back of the situation in a humorous way, a damage control in other words, because the chat was filling with "??????" And people getting offended and angry (justified, even I felt offended) with the admin, but Roier is not of those type of persons and he always try to make his streams a safe place for his community, so if you ask me he did a really well job handling the situation even tho he felt offended and his audience noticed that for the rest of the stream (hell, even days later)

And if that was not enough, Roier kept trying to save the situation but the admin was not cooperating, with the "no he preguntado"= I've not asked you and other sign that I just don't remember and is not really worth it (and bc Otipep literally left Roier speaking alone with the "I'm going to look for better parents" and went to spawn zone), he just gave up trying and waited for Richas to come back (which was also chocked w the situation)

And this is me speaking from a non-neutral tone, but I think we could've had a Roier being super loving and caring with Pepito if this situation didn't happen in the first place, bc after this I noticed that Roier stopped tried to get close to Pepito, the situation really affected him so whatever role he was building with the character he just simply stopped and changed the dynamic with another one more limited and less parental, but keeping his usual humor bc it was not the fault of the actual admin or 07, it is what it is unfortunately.

That's why I'm so glad that the actual admin and Ricardão did such a good job saving Pepito because the Spanish speaking community was about to drop him, even streamers friends of Roier that are not part of the qsmp acknowledge the behavior of Otipep with Roier (if that doesn't say a lot about how complicated it was on this side of the road)

And even after all these things there was people out there calling the Spanish speaking community as dramatic or harassing Roier when the situation happened (and it seems they still do it :/ ), but most of us kept quiet because we respect Roier and as he says, mejor pasamos de movidas.

and well, this is it, I know I'm missing some points in the story but honestly getting into fights or hate in general is not my thing, I wanted to give some context for the people of Tumblr because I know, at least here people take the time to read and are more chill unlike twt, and I hope I gave some clarification for the rest of the communities that are not native in Spanish, I really really love Pepito and I'm so glad we had 07 and the actual admin there to play this character, I still can't believe that person had the audacity to come out proudly as Pepito's 1st admin when literally no one from the Spanish community considers his 2 appereances as canon after their blunder xd

Thank you for sharing!

I understand that some stuff are hard to translate, thank you for taking the time. I didn't know that your community was being called dramatic because of that! That is dumb as hell and I am sorry it happend in the first place.

Of course we are no in business of spreading hate. I have always tried to see the other side of situations, I think from what I read in the admin's doc they had some kinda of vision for the character, but I guess they didn't realized that well, they were not going to become automaticly friends with Roier and have room to "joke" like that just because they have become an egg admin. Probably my best guest of what it happend.

It is really weird, maybe they were banking on the support that the other admins have gotten? Or they actually never realized how insulting they have come out as.

Well, I don't have much to say, except I am sorry it happend at all with Roier and the hispanic community.

[gloxk]

“Mary Jane.”

Gojo satoru ~

Summary: Your best friend was a snake. She slept with your boyfriend at a party. Everything shattered when you saw them. Your heart broke, leaving you with hatered and resentment. But two can play that game. Didn't she know? Karma’s a bitch.

W/C : 2k+. READING TIME: 10 minutes.

Setting: Modern Au, Reader is in their 20’s.

Song inspo:The best I ever had (Limi)/ Birthday S*X (Jeremih)/Drunk in love (The weekends version)/What you need(the weekend.)

A/N: Happy kinktober. It’s been a minute. (I've returned just for this years kinktober) idk i’ve just been busy fr. I haven’t been writing at all 😭. But I was on tik tok right, and i saw this lil video abt a story. So yall know those reddit stories? Bro this story was fucking outrageous, i tell ya. So boom bro got cheated on by his gf and she slept w his best friend. I was like damnnnnn 💀 ain’t no way. So bro turned around n fcked his ex best friends sister. The crazy thing is HE RECORDED IT. AND HE SENT IT TO BRO. I got carried away w this one. (I was high asf.) But anyway please enjoy! My grammar might be fucked up i didn’t feel like prof reading. Mdni/ageless blogs you will be blocked. 17+.

Warnings: F/M relations,Jealousy, angst if you squint, friend dumping, lewd behavior, DRUGS & alcohol. (mary J) mentions of Ex, BJ’s, Male receiving, unprotected sex (I got a little nasty w this one)

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You sat there disappointed in your dry phone. It was like looking at a blank screen. The night was cold, dark, and quiet. Everything was different now that you cut off your toxic-ass best friend. Deleting all the pictures and videos of you two. All the happiness and laughter y’all had shared just for it to be ruined in a few hours. The incident only happened a few days ago.

You decide to scroll through your alt account’s Instagram feed hoping to see something interesting. Something interesting indeed popped up. A little green circle around your ex-best friend’s profile picture. “Curiosity killed the cat ya’know?”, It surely killed you as soon as you clicked it. She was with your Ex. Your face scrunched in disbelief. You couldn’t help but muster up a pitiful laugh. What was going through her goddamn mind? Did she know the alt belong to you? Was the random pinterest boy profile picture not convincing enough? You nearly tossed your phone to the ground you felt tears bubbling up in your eyes. You remember the whole thing like it was yesterday. The horrible things you said to each other. But one thing she said in particular stuck in your head. “You aren’t even together anymore! Why the fuck do you care Y/n?”, Those were the last words she said to you, the last words you needed to hear to leave her alone. It hurt you so much, the girl you known from middle school betrayed you.

It was late maybe around 11 pm. Your mind was filled with anger. You couldn’t stop thinking about it. You told her everything and she did the same. You two grew up together. When you introduced your boyfriend and best friend they hit it off. They were so cool with each other that it seemed like a dream come true. Having your best friend actually like your boyfriend was extremely rare to come by. Your dream came short-lived after you found them fucking in a bathroom at a party. It hurt so fucking bad. You clenched your shirt trying not to cry. That night broke you, you lost everything in 4 hours. All it took was a couple of shots and one blunt to have your whole world crash. In a fit of rage, you decided to go through her entire Instagram feed. Scrolling through every single post. In a recent post from earlier today, you saw a dump of her stepbrother. All of the pictures were silly, cute pictures of him. You couldn’t lie, he was fine as fuck. You saw her stepbrother a couple of times when y'all were younger, but god did puberty hit him good. He was tall and muscular with a sharp jawline. He has white hair and beautiful ocean-colored eyes. He had a couple of arm tattoos as well. You sat there trying to remember his name. You looked over the caption trying to find something leading to him, the caption read: “HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY @satoruxgxjo! I hope 19 treats you good lil, bro :).” That was his name! You finally remembered him. Satoru gojo, it was definitely moan-able. You DM’D him almost immediately.

(Y/n): “Hey! I saw your birthday was earlier and I wanted to wish you a happy 19th birthday!” You didn’t know what you expected him to say back to that. You didn’t know if you wanted him to immediately block you or text you back. Maybe if he blocked you would be able to move on and heal. But all you wanted was revenge. After two minutes you got a notification from Instagram. (satoruxgxjo): “Yo, I appreciate it. it’s been a minute. How have you been?” A smug smile arose on your face. You instantly texted him back. (Y/n): “I’ve been amazing. Recently I had just got some za from a friend and since it’s your birthday maybe we can roll up?” You watch as your text goes from Sent to Seen. Your heart immediately went faster.(satoruxgxjo): “Lmao? That was quick but sure. I don’t mind. Addy?” Your face was sinister. If he could see your face right here probably think twice about his current decision. You sent him your location, (Y/n): “I mean it’s not like we don’t know each other Saturo, just pull up :) We can catch up!”, You were so happy that this was gonna work out perfectly. (satoruxgxjo): “Who is Saturo? It’s Satoru* n I’m otw.” That happiness quickly faded into embarrassment. How could you forget his name already? You repeated it 10x to remember it, while repeating his name you quickly got up and rushed upstairs.

You dressed yourself in a loose shirt that hung off your shoulders, your chest was the only thing holding it up. Underneath you made sure to treat your guests to an easy reveal no bra and pink Victoria's Secret lace panties. Your hair was messy letting little strands of hair frame your face. You rushed downstairs to set everything up, you grabbed an open bottle of Hennessy and accompanied it with a jar of bud including a pack of Raw’s. Everything was set for the most part. You dimmed the lights and played some sensual music. You turned your TV on to some random Netflix show to make it seem casual. You soon turned your attention to the door as the doorbell rang. A wicked smile placed on your face, your hips swaying to the music. You opened the door and smiled at your victim—I mean visitor. “Heyy~.” Your voice filled with a welcoming tone. Luring him in like a fisherman. “Hey, Y/n.” He had a basic white shirt on, and his muscular body filled it out nicely. His lower half was hidden behind grey sweatpants, He had on white cross that were no longer white. His tall frame continued to tower over you. He sounded so nonchalant, but his blue eyes told a different story. He couldn’t stop looking at your bare shoulders. “Come in hun.” You moved out of his way and motioned him to the couch. The table caught his attention immediately. You made your way to the kitchen swaying to the beat of the music. “Henny? Whatcha got this for?” He picked up the bottle with an eager smile. “Why else Satoru?” You winked at him. Watching him open the bottle and pour himself a shot. “Well, Hopefully, it’s not for little ole me. God, you wouldn’t make such a silly mistake and give an underage boy Hennessy? Right?” He asked mocking you. A smug expression on his face. You couldn’t wait to wipe it off. “Oh of course not! I would never do such a disgraceful thing. But..I won’t tell if you won’t.” He threw his head back and he gulped down the shot of liquor. The burning sensation only made him crave it more. “You know I don’t kiss and tell.” He chuckled as he watched you sit down on the couch. He soon followed you and plopped down beside you. “You ever rolled before?” You looked at him as you picked up the grinder. “Nah, I’m more of a pipe or hookah person. Ya’know?” You giggled at him. He was falling into your trap without even knowing. “Lemme show you how to roll then.”. You took him through the basic steps. Letting your hands guide his. After a few attempts, he was able to get a good enough roll for a beginner. “And now ya gotta lick it.” You bent over his lap using his muscular arm to hold yourself up. You dragged your tongue over the paper making sure to seal it. You took the joint from him and began to light it. His eyes watched you dangerously. After a couple of pulls, you handed it back over to him. He pulled a heavy hit making him cough. You poured another shot for the both of you. Handing him a glass of liquor. “Oh? Is that for me? How kind.” Your hand sat between his thighs. “Of course.” He took the glass and knocked it back, and you followed his lead.

You weren’t slightly drunk nor were you high. But you couldn’t say the same for Satoru. He almost finished your bottle of Hennessy. His head was between your neck and shoulder. He was mumbling incoherent nonsense, you didn’t particularly care what he was babbling about. He was lying between your legs using your chest to keep him propped up. His hands rubbing your thigh, “Mm..please.” He mumbled desperately. “I told you not to drink too much Gojo. Now look at you.” You laughed as you rubbed his head. “.. I know. m’ sorry. Please y/n. Please.” You were confused you didn’t know what he was asking for to be quite frank. “You should get an Uber to take you home.” You nudged him to get off of you. He didn’t budge at all. His eyes looked up at you pleading with you. “I don’t wanna go. I wanna stay with you. lemme stay.” He was so whiny while he was drunk it was pissing you off. “Okay, you can stay.” He hummed softly in response. “upstairs?” You whispered in his ear, he nodded his head. You moved off the couch pulling him off with you. You walked him up the stairs to your bedroom. He was stumbling up the stairs you had to hold him up. Making it to your room in one piece was the hardest part. Opening the door his hands never left your body, If anything they became more needy. His fingers roamed around your back as he began to tug at your shirt.

You grabbed his hands telling him to stop. “I don’t know...if we should do this...I’m sure your sister wouldn’t like this.” You smiled as you pushed him on the bed. Of course, she wouldn’t like her brother sleeping with her ex-best friend. But that made it more exhilarating. Satoru groaned at your words. Bringing up what you and his sister had going on at a time like this was a low blow. “Don’t fuck with me Y/n. You’ve been touching me all night. Saying little shit to me. I’m ready now, and you’re gonna act like this?” You heard the frustration in his voice, looking down at his gray sweats pants you saw what else was frustrated. You laughed at him. “Oh look who’s mad at me. I’m just trying to respect you and your sister's relationship.” Your hands go under his shirt and rub his abs. He laughed as his arm covered his face. “Ah, so I understand why she called you a conniving bitch now.” Your smug face was quickly wiped with confusion. “Oh…Yeah? She gonna think I’m more than conniving after this.” You grabbed him by his hair pulling him closer. Your lips clashed against his, you could taste the intoxication on his tongue. The kiss became sloppy fairly quickly. His hands continued to roam over your back. He followed your lead not allowing your mouth to leave his. He yanked at your shirt, he wanted to pull it off of you. Sitting on his lap, you took off your shirt and tossed it to the side. His hands went up to cup your breasts. His fingers ran over your hardened nipples, his expression was darkened with lust. “So fckin pretty.” He sat up leaving kisses on your neck and chest. You assisted him in taking off his shirt and tossed it over to yours. Leaving kisses on his neck and slowly moving downward to his chest. Taking your precious time with him. He was so impatient, whining if you didn’t kiss him. You used your finger to trace his v-line teasing him enough to push him. You got up and slowly removed his sweatpants leaving him in his tight boxers. Licking your lips at the sight, it was a delectable sight indeed. Tracing the bulging print through his Ethikas. “Oh my god…” You stuttered in disbelief, this man was packing. Satoru felt you tugging his boxers, he lifted his hips and allowed you to yank them off of him. The cold air hit him drawing out a long sigh. Those blue eyes watching you with a dangerous glint, those eyes screaming out for you. “don’t play with me Y/n.” He whispered, almost as if he was begging you to make him feel something. You seated yourself between his thighs, looking at him with awe. Your hands running up and down his hardened dick. You gave him kitten licks on his tip, licking away any pre-cum. He growled at the teasing, “C'mon.” his hand caressingyour cheeks. You smiled as you quickly put your mouth around the tip and bobbed your head up and down.

His tip hits the back of your throat every time. Satoru’s hand pushed your head down so he could feel you deep-throat him, “Fuuucckk, just like that.” You pulled your head back with an angry expression. “Nobody likes a head pusher.”, You glared at him. “Nobody likes a fucking teaser.” He mumbled. You laughed at his audacity as if he was the one in control. You slipped off your underwear and climbed on top of him. Letting him slide in slowly, inch by inch. You threw your head backward, rolling your neck. Low moans escaped your mouth as you felt his hips grinning against yours. “Go faster.” His tone completely shifted from whiny and desperate to frustration. He wanted more, He needed more. It wasn’t enough for him. You looked so pretty going up and down on him. His eyes watched your body lift itself off of him and right back down. Your nails dug holes in his chest, “That fuckin’ hurts Y/n.” He gave you a sadistic smile as he dug his nails into your hips. You shrieked in pain. You could quite literally feel his nails penetrate your skin. That didn’t stop you though, you couldn’t care less about anything other than cumming. Your mind became foggy and filled with a certain haze. “Mm. Keep going. Dnt stop.”, Those words left Satoru’s mouth, his thrusts were sloppy and no longer had rhythm. His fingers found their way to your clit and played with you to make sure you came before him. Your moans filled the room as you were so close. You stopped as you finally reached the bliss you been begging for, panting heavily trying to regain the breath you once had. The feeling of warm liquid filling you was a slap in the face. You soon realized you didn’t use protection. You looked down at Satoru whose eyes were closed with a smile of his face. “Oops, m’sorry i’ll get you a Plan B in the morning.” His hand gripped your ass while you sat there in disbelief. How could you fuck up this bad? You smiled as you seen him cover his face once again, “Don’t worry about it. I have some in the bathroom.”. You got off of him and made your way to the bathroom.

When you came back you saw sleeping Satoru, under your sheets wrapped around your blanket. It was a cute sight to see him so vulnerable, you were about to fuck up his life. You crawled into bed next to him, cuddling him. He turned around and placed his head between your breast, his arm wrapped around your lower back pulling you close. You took out your phone and took a couple of pictures. This bitch was gonna know “Fuck my man, I fuck your brother.”. You unblocked her number to send her a little treat. “When Satoru comes home tomorrow tell him I had a wonderful time. (3 attachments sent).”.

You turned off your phone and cuddled the sleeping boy, kissing his forehead and cheeks. “Mm, she's gonna fuck you up when you get home.” You whispered in his ear. His phone was soon blowing up, From his mom and sister. “I don't care, you don't know how long I've been waiting to fuck you.” He muttered under his breath. You laughed, He wasn’t going anywhere. Not just yet.

[crowleys-hips]

ventish post

i feel like i sort of ceased to exist since july. i felt a blow nearly as hard as one i felt 4 years ago when i lost someone who's still very dear to me. and since then stuff has just kept happening and happening and happening and i stopped writing my novel and fell back on old bad habits and it really has felt like an exile of sorts. i've expressed it better in some of my poems, both GO and non GO, but that's just the tip of the iceberg tbh.

and i didn't even notice when, but i've recently realized that i also sort of stopped reading, when i used to read every day, all the time. now i sometimes manage to read maybe a short one shot. idk what's happened to me, but i feel like i've lost a huge part of me and years of my youth. like a christian finding out jesus' body has recently been found. or worse, like he never existed. and now it's hard to know where to put my faith in. i guess the right answer should be myself. but i've never known how to live for myself alone. but i want to learn. otherwise this will keep happening. and i know i should go back to therapy, but i feel like im too sick for therapy, if that makes sense.

anyway, my point is that, im really trying to get back on my feet. try to really exist again. act like a human and not fall back on my ghost tendencies. but everything is so overwhelming, like there's so much to do i end up not doing any of it. i stare at all my unread books and fics ive saved for later and im afraid later won't ever come. like i'll never catch up. and it kills me. bc i want to know more of all these brilliant minds, but ive been buried under the rubble of my dreams. im a writer who's forgotten how to read. im an artist who's forgotten how to hold a pen. a musician who now only stares at the piano longingly. my plants are dying and i let them. i want myself back, and i really am trying, but most of the time it feels like i go one step forward and three steps back. i just don't know how to deal with so much death without feeling like i also died. im trying so hard to dig myself out, and prove im not dead yet, but i keep falling asleep, and haunting my own dreams. but im fucking trying. i swear i am.

finally did some watering and pruning yesterday. started a painting and failed miserably but at least now i know what to not do. didn't drink for two nights in a row. my streak was 2 and 1/2 months lol. still writing poems, trying to write more again. i got today free, so i think i'll use today to just let myself read again and try not to feel guilty that "i'm not doing anything" bc i am. watching this fandom's great supportive, caring, and positive attitude has helped. and ofc my dearest friends and my beloved. despite everything, im glad i found this place.

[midnightsslut]

Since you’re so good at connecting songs (I’m still in awe about how you made me realize that atw and illicit affairs are about the same subject), what is your most big brain/audacious/out there theory/connection about Taylor’s songs?

first of all, thank you! i have to say, I’m not the first one to get the idea that there are parallels between those two songs, but I’d never really sat down with them line by line. this ask really got me wondering because i feel like there are a lot of parallels I can think of but idk how out there they are. here is one that i don’t see people talking about a lot:

coney island feels like the other perspective of the story in you’re losing me, especially when you consider that taylor asked matt berninger about writing songs that deal with their own relationship issues with his wife. of course, coney island and you’re losing me were written at different points in their relationship, but the sentiment appears to be the same.

this got long, so I’m putting a cut here.

first of all, here is how taylor described coney island in her evermore interview with zane lowe (around the 37-minute mark)

The perspective I was coming from was like a male perspective of regret or guilt after a lifetime of apattern of behavior, and i've been kind of touching on sort of things like that on the song tolerate it where there's this person one side of the relationship who's felt like they've just… Their partner's been there, but they haven't *been* there. They've been there, but they're just sitting next to each other, eating breakfast, but they haven't they haven't been there […] I really loved writing, ‘we were like the mall before the internet / it was the one place to be.’ I was trying to reflect on the coney island visual of a place where thrills were once sought, you know, a place where once it was all electricity and magic, and now the lights are out, and you're looking at it, thinking ‘what did I do?’

‘break my soul in two, looking for you, but you’re right here’ —> ‘you say “I don’t understand,” I say “I know you don’t”’

‘and if this is the long haul, how’d we get here so soon?’ —> ‘how long could we be a sad song before we’re too far gone to bring back to life?’

‘did I close my fist around something delicate? did I shatter you?’ —> ‘my face was gray, but you wouldn’t admit that we were sick.’

‘over and over, lost again with no surprises / disappointments, close your eyes / and it gets colder and colder when the sun goes down’ —> ‘i’m getting tired even for a phoenix / always rising from the ashes, mending all her gashes’

‘what’s a lifetime of achievement if I pushed you to the edge, but you were too polite to leave me?’ —> ‘fighting in only your army, frontlines, don’t you ignore me / I’m the best thing at this party’

‘do you miss the rogue who coaxed you into paradise and left you there?’ —> ‘and the air is thick with loss and indecision’

‘will you forgive my soul when you’re too wise to trust me and too old to care?’ —> ‘now I just sit in the dark and wonder if it’s time’

‘the mischief, the gift-wrapped suburban dreams’ —> ‘remember looking at this room? we loved it cause of the light’

‘sorry for not winning you an arcade ring’ —> ‘choose something, babe, I got nothing to believe unless you’re choosing me’

‘did I leave you hanging every single day?’ —> ‘every morning, I glared at you with storms in my eyes’

‘did I paint your bluest skies the darkest gray a universe away?’ —> ‘my face was gray, but you wouldn’t admit that we were sick’

‘and when I got into the accident, the sight that flashed before me was your face’ —> ‘now you’re running down the hallway / and you know what they all say / you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone’

‘but when I walked up to the podium, i think that i forgot to say your name’ —> ‘don’t you ignore me, I’m the best thing at this party’

you’re losing me is key to the entirety of ttpd, really, so this gives us the ability to draw parallels to sooo many songs on the album. coney island is a goldmine actually. no wonder she’s mashed it up with so many songs on tour.

my next post will be connecting right where you left me and chloe et al whenever I get around to it (to be clear, I don’t think they’re about the same person).

[oddvanilla]

Honey, I'm pregnant and it's yours

Also Petey misses you

Im scared even writing this, I know I'm gonna get smth along the lines of 'go the fuck away' but I jus can't help it

I know u know who this is

Also I'm also very scared of you at the moment

Thank you, and I know it seems weird but I can't help it but, I love you [I seem creepy, sorry, also u don't have to accept it]

Bye bye, u probably won't even post this but I've been killing myself thinking about doing this

Thank you

Also Petey really does miss u 🤣

Also just thanks again

[Also sorry I'm not like talking about our break up or anything Id just prefer to do that if I knew u want to too and not like this]

Bye bye for reals now, id put a silly photo but I'm doing this in anon for some reason :)

Bye bye

Also I know you probably didn't expect this to happen

But hey I needed to do something about it

Bye bye now

HOLY CRAP HOW DID I NEVER SEE THIS??? it must've gotten lost in my notifications or something idk...

HAI R**N* !!! I remember your name and every time I try to type my own, yours always comes first. Even when I'm filling up forums or crap...

I'm sorry for scaring you off!!! I still care about you. And for every time I forget to, here I'll just say: I still love you 🫶 even after everything that happened. You're like impossible to hate. I can't help it either🤷‍♀️

My sister still checks on you, even you know that. She tells me what happened to you and that kinda crap. I feel bad all the time, and I'm sorry. I would've said this way earlier If I could, but stuff happens,, YK?? It hurts me so bad knowing what I caused. I didn't mean to do this to you, and even back when we were friends I tried holding on because I can't let you ruin yourself. I miss what we had, that's one fact.

I do care if you kill yourself. I DO care if you slit your wrist. I do still care about you in general. All I wish you is love, that's pretty much. I even asked my sister to go and give you asks just so you're not alone anymore. I don't care if she replaces me,, hey at least you got a friend!!!

But I never deleted everything we shared. All the screenshots from our conversations are like a comfort place, even. I still listen to every song you used to spam. I know I hate pencey prep and frank iero, but I still listen to their music because it reminds me of you. I only hated MCR because I wanted you to have your own thing. I want you to focus on yourself and crap. But now I just went back to listening to MCR because it's all I have left of you. You deserve a real apology from me if you just let us talk this out!!!

I can't replace you, and you know that. I call people my husband or wife but I still have you in mind. You're the best person on here I know, and even though I hated it or pretended it, I miss waking up to lots of messages. Now I still wake up to those but from lots of different people. I don't like it that way, I wish you could just come back. I waited for you SO long and I gave up. I want you back and I would do anything for that. But I didn't go talk to you directly because you know I want you to have space. I miss having only ONE person to go to. I didn't ignore you because I had other people to talk to!!! If anything, my parents expected so much from me like school and other crap that I don't have time to reply to anyone either!!!

Now it's been rough and stuff. I almost have nobody to open up to. Everyone I know is either always asleep or always can't talk. But you're always there and that's one thing nobody can beat you at. I don't even text people first anymore because I feel like I'm a bother and when I'm with you it just feels easier because. You're accepting.

I never told anyone about what we had in detail. I never tried to do the same things WE did with anyone else either. Nobody has to know about what letters are missing in p** w*y h*g*er. Nobody has to know why we hated your brother and how he was a bitch. I don't even send people frerard fanfics anymore because I don't want a friendship story like ours just a 2.0 version. I think you're the one for me, if anything. I love you and you didn't mess up, I did.

I don't want you to leave me alone, I want you back. If YOU can do this then we could build everything back. just know that even if you don't want me, it's fine. But I won't try to find anyone better,, I'll just sit back, I guess🙏🙏 tell mamacita im not done with rizzing her up🙄🙄

[mybrainproblems]

hello, i'm finales georg...

i don't want to further clutter up the notes on this post while responding to the tags below but the persistence of the "finale is short/scenes are missing/extra ad break” conspiracies drives me absolutely bananas when i've watched the finale ten times and have posted about this A LOT trying to clear things up. (disclaimer that yes, i'm a goddamn destiel shipper but i care about Facts above all.)

ok but this is weird because i'd swear the episode was shorter (11 missing scenes!) but okay. maybe we all mandela effected ourselves into #beleving that. because it felt shorter. but i will die on the hill that it had another ad break. i understand this person has the thing #recorded with ads so i am thinking maybe different ad breaks in different idk time zones??? #because the finale did air an hour earlier in canada so maybe idk i am reaching here but maybe different states or whatever had different #ad breaks??? as for the last minute changes - wasn't the cover band asked for permission to use their version of carry on like a week before #the thing aired??? so even if the episode was 42 minutes and had no additional ad break - which i am side eying but lets say all was normal #i will always say they were changing thing until the absolute last minute (carry on my wayward son X 2 #the crew on the bridge which is not only giant 4th wall breaking but also wow they really got all those people in one place in times of #covid???) #anyway. tinfoil hat stays on sorry guys :/ (via @officialmisha)

short and snarky: there are plenty of real and sourced examples of network homophobia and scripted/directed destiel scenes being cut to point to. we don’t need to make this stuff up just bc the finale wasn’t what we wanted. so it’s not the mandela effect — it’s ppl repeating a conspiracy/rumor bc it supports their narrative and it’s easier and more fun to repeat something that supports a narrative they already believe (misha or something destiel was cut) vs the boring act of fact checking.

longer circumspect answer with links bc like many ppl i am in my debunking era and i rewatched "roblox_oof" last night.

like i said. i've watched the finale ten times. i’ve gone over the episode with a fine toothed comb and posted a detailed breakdown of timing marks on my blog. it’s actually extremely obvious where the ad breaks are once you know roughly where to look for them (they have a longer fade to black instead of a quick cut scene change). there’s no room for extra ad breaks and i think this conspiracy/rumor persists in part bc the episode feels so sparse in terms of cast and the fact that the episode’s momentum hits a barn post (and rebar) less than 20min into an hour-long programming block.

also i’m begging ppl to actually look at that timing mark post. it’s very straightforward and i spent a lot of time on it. i don’t care if ppl plagiarize it at this point if it means this conspiracy stops. i've got almost every second accounted for.

the "eleven missing scenes" that you're thinking of are probably from the finale script of questionable authenticity that @spnscripthunt acquired back in 2021 which can be found here. it's dated as the “final draft” from 11 sep 2020 and filming on 15x20 wrapped on 10 sep 2020. as noted at the bottom of this superwiki page "[the] script came from someone claiming to have been the person who did the closed captions for the show in Russia. There are some indications that it possibly may not be authentic, but this has not been confirmed."

if we go with the possibility that this was a transcript meant for subtitles, the "omitted" scenes were probably written but never filmed since it's the "final draft" and not a color revision (blue, green, yellow, etc). unfortunately, i’ve lost track of where i read it and a preliminary duckduckgo search isn’t bringing it up bc there's a program for script writing called final draft, but iirc the “final draft” version of a script is a transcript of what was filmed (e.g. there are parts of that 15x20 script that ended up being deleted scenes on the DVD). spnscripthunt also has an example of a confirmed final draft for 09x02 (funnily enough, also a dabb-penned ep). if anyone can confirm with a source that i have the purpose of the “final draft” version designation wrong, please let me know! i love being proven wrong with Facts.

i do want to acknowledge that the two “final drafts” do look different from each other and the 15x20 one doesn't look like a “real” final draft script since it lacks the revision/versioning dates that a script would normally have on the cover page. it could be that it was intended for subtitles; there's the chance it's been re-typed to anonymize it if there was anything indicating who the "owner" was, tho that seems a wee bit cloak and dagger to me. and again: it's considered of questionable authenticity. there are some things that don't quite line up but oh dear god i don't want to get even further out into the weeds than i already am.

i won't disagree that it's weird as hell that neoni only got asked about using their cover seven days prior to the episode airing (tiktok here). my personal theory is that they were hoping to get a more expensive song (maybe a zepp song, idk) and didn't manage to secure the rights in the end. again: this is pure conjecture on my part! but i could absolutely see someone working on the show hearing neoni’s cover and liking it and then maybe they were using it as a placeholder until it got down to the wire and they had to make a call/send the ep to networks. because yes, it is baffling they played a song and then a cover of it with only a 40 second break between. (i do actually really like the neoni cover! the placement is just weird and i think it could have worked if they had the kansas version at the beginning and closed with neoni's full cover.)

as to the 4th wall break COVID stuff: robert singer talked with variety magazine about filming the last two episodes and the logistics of filming during a pandemic. whether they should have been filming during a pandemic is a separate discussion but their use of office vs set pods, strict quarantining and daily testing meant that they had zero positive tests in the month they were filming (18 aug to 10 sep). so given all that, i personally don’t think it’s totally out of pocket to have everyone standing outdoors on a bridge for maybe an hour to get a drone shot of them together. (i won’t get into incubation periods and viral load, but if everyone tested negative that day and every day for a month prior, it was a fairly low risk scene to film outdoors and for all we know everyone was masked until the last possible second. there were plenty of outdoor masked protests in 2020 that weren't superspreader events.)

and before anyone brings up “but misha was in vancouver!” i know someone who looked into it and they said no dice, nothing matched up between the backgrounds in those pics and places in vancouver. his statements about “us” going back to set over the summer were pretty generic in hindsight and “we”/"us" could be him or the spn crew generally. unfortunately i’m not able to find those tweets but the use of “we” was likely so as not to give away he wouldn’t be returning to set. (bc we were absolutely casbaited!) and bc it comes up a lot: the "onion field pic" was from when they were filming 15x17 and was not taken while filming 15x19 and 15x20.

besides, it would be ridiculous to go through the financial and logistical headaches of bringing someone into the country to film during a pandemic, only to cut their scenes in the end! honestly, the script is pretty tight when the scenes are given so much breathing room! the only thing i could see being further cut down is The Monologue and even then, i don’t think there was any intent to cut it down given it was filmed in fairly long takes.

i’ve said it many times before, but i believe the finale was fucked long before they returned to set. walker got the green light in sep 2019 and it was being marketed heavily as a “follow on” show to spn given jared’s involvement. the demo they were courting for walker has little to no overlap with the demo for destiel fans — why would they want a finale that catered to a demo they weren't interested in courting? we just went through a historic double strike that exposed so much of the rot of business interests overriding creative vision. this isn't completely unfounded conjecture.

i will not apologize for the length of this bc i wanted to be thorough, but i do want to give context that i think the reason these conspiracies and rumors grind my gears so much is because anyone can fact check all of this. the truth is out there and absolutely none of it is that hard to find. the most time consuming/difficult part of this was finding someone who had a DVR’d copy of the finale from when it aired live and they actually found me themselves after i’d been low key asking around for a year!

and like. i get it. conspiracies are fun. but there are so many sourced instances of network homophobia and destiel being cut that it's like. why is this something folks are hanging onto? the cw is notorious for having upper level meddling with finales bc there's a follow-on show they want to shuffle fans along to and spn is no exception.

[bwabys-scenarios]

It's been a long time since I've back in your blog and I noticed that you disconnected reunited what happed if you don't mind me asking?

There are a few reasons for this!

1. I was starting to grow out of the story, the beginning is so badly written that I knew if I wanted to continue I’d eventually have to rewrite a good chunk of the story because it was just that bad.

2. People were straight up mean and hateful over the fact that I included Kurapika as one of the love interests and let him be the first to have sex with Reader(even though it made the MOST sense!)

3. One of my first readers sent several awful things in my ask box telling me to kill myself, calling me awful things, etc. That really threw me off of wanting to continue Reunited, because every time I sat down to write a chapter all I could think of was the messages I got, which were VERY triggering. It killed my motivation to write for the story, and thus killed Reunited.

4. I just generally lost interest, and I feel like people on here did as well. I experimented with posting a chapter of Feitan’s Route and for a while it did really poorly. That was the last hit to my motivation to keep writing. Sometimes I can push through for you guys, but when the stuff I manage to get out doesn’t actually get support, I just… don’t want to do it anymore.

Honestly enough time has passed that I’m WILLING to continue writing Reunited, but I’ll need a lot of people to be on board. Maybe I’ll post a poll to see who’s interested… idk. I might just try and write a quick ending for your sakes.

[nicklesbam]

some ethan fluff? I wanna say. idk I'll just write some stuff and keep going with that

"Oh my god, I don't wanna die before I become a famous pornstar!" Y/n joked. Right now they were all seated in front of Mindy as she was listing off the suspects

"Not the time for jokes right now y/n" Sam pointed out. Y/n smirked

"Who said I was joking?" She raised her brows

Ethan coughed and started blushing pink, y/n just laughed and let Mindy continue on. The truth is she's scared, scared of dying at such a young age before she's gotten to do anything. She already lost her v-card so she didn't care about that, she wanted to make something meaningful of her life before she goes

"Y/n are you listening?" Anika asked while nudging her a little. She nodded her head quickly

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine" she took a breath. Anika looked to everyone worriedly. She turned back to y/n

"Y/n it's ok if you're scared, we're all scared-" Anika tried to help but y/n just couldn't

"No, please. I'm ok. I have to go, see you guys at home" She's been living with Chad and Ethan after she got kicked out of her parents

Y/n walked off fast trying to organize and make sense of her thoughts. A killer was coming after her and her friends, what else could she do besides get on with her day until the killer shows up

She walked home and went directly to her room. She didn't mean to but as soon as she got to her room she broke down. She's usually the one that's always making a joke out of everything but she couldn't do it right now. She started crying hard to the point where she had to clutch her chest and heave very quick breaths

"Y/n!" She didn't know which one it was but she didn't care. Ethan and Chad are her best friends. Chad's like a brother and ethan well, she likes him

They ran to her room and saw her. Her eyes had tears in them, she couldn't see. They rand and hugged her, laying her head on their chest

"It's ok, its ok y/n. I got you" she held on tightly to their arm as if they'll fly away. Slowly as he stroked her hair she calmed down

Now they were just standing there while he stroked her hair and she sniffles every once in a while. She lifted her head and wiped her tears

She looked up and saw ethan, he looked very worried. She smiled at him

"Ethan the knight here for the rescue" she joked. He couldn't stop the worried look on his face from showing. Her smile faltered

"Yeah I wouldn't be so convinced either" she sniffles again chuckling again. She sits on her bed and he follows

"You can talk to me y/n. We were worried about you earlier" she sighed and stared at the floor until she looked him in the eyes

"I don't want to die yet. I haven't done anything, I haven't lived. I've never had a vacation, I've never had an actual career, I've never done something important. I've never made an impact" y/n was overwhelmed. She heard how their last group of friends had died and they were just in high school.

Y/n wasn't ready for her life to cone to an end when she hasn't done things she wanted to achieve

"Y/n were all here for you, I'm here for you. I won't let anything happen to you, I promise" he turned his body to her. She gave a weak smile

"And I would love that gesture if it didn't mean the killer getting to you too. I don't want anything to happen to you ethan" she started tearing up again. He gave her a loving smile

"Nothings gonna happen to me y/n" he chuckled and hugged her

"It better not or I'll haunt your ghost" she mumbled into his chest. She felt the vibrations of his laughter

"I'm sure you will"

She pulled back from the hug and looked to his face. She looked from his eyes to his lips before going back to his eyes. She started to lean in and so did he. They leaned in so close they can feels each other's breaths. Ethan hesitated but leaned in and closed the gap

Their lips moved together in sync. The kiss was filled with love. She held his cheek as she deepened the kiss, bringing him closer. Eventually they pulled apart for air, looking each other in the eyes

"I really like you ethan" y/n whispered to him. He smiled

"I really like you too y/n" she smiled

[misc-obeyme]

😭 okay attempt number two writing this because i accidentally closed the Tumblr app while in the middle of writing and lost my progress- I'M SO SAD

Mammon is desperately trying to convince them to not visit the record shop, even contradicting himself. Says they shouldn't be the first customers right at opening, that's rude. Or saying it's probably really busy and they should just hang out here. Goes as far as offering free stuff but only if they stay. None of this works.

I bet Belphie has the biggest grin on his face as they leave, with Mammon halfway through following them out the door to hold them back himself. But he can't leave his cafe unattended. He's so worried they'll embarrass him somehow.

Cue them arriving to the shop and I look up to say hi/welcome but I'm currently very occupied trying to make bracelets. And of course I don't recognize them from the cafe because eye contact? Who's she? I don't know her. I'm mostly better about it with people I know, but if I get embarrassed about something I can't hold it 😭 (No doubt Mammon and Solomon would totally do something like a chin grab.)

Anyway Belphie is having the time of his life looking through everything. Finds two CD's he swears he couldn't find anywhere online for anything less than $80. And some records he hasn't had time to order. This has become his new favorite place. Beel is happily carrying everything, very glad he researched beforehand.

They come up to pay and I very awkwardly make space on the counter, apologizing for the mess. Up close, Belphie confirms that he recognizes the bracelets. Even recognizes some lyrics/songs.

"You're going to the concert too?"

That one question gets me very excited and feel instantly less awkward. I start rambling about how it's gonna be my first concert, I'm so excited, it's my favorite band. Until I remember myself and cut myself off because wow I should not be talking two strangers ears off.

"It's okay. Our older brother is the same way with anime. We're used to it."

Beel saying that makes me feel even more embarrassed, but it's the thought that counts. I squint at him for a second because he looks familiar but I shrug it off. I ask if they're brothers too and Beel nods and confirms they're twins.

After checking them out, I offer them one of the bracelets I've already made. Belphie was already eyeing an infinity on high themed bracelet. Beel chooses Death Valley because it's one of the few songs he recognizes because it makes for good workout music. I end up giving them a pair of "Half-doomed/Semi-Sweet" bracelets because they said they were twins. They can have matching bracelets. (Belphie immediately hands the semi-sweet one to Beel).

Before they leave, Belphie catches sight of my "cursed" records display. He rolls his eyes and asks who would buy something like that. I shrug and say "You'd be surprised. I have someone who buys one every time he comes in."

It's only after they leave that I realize I didn't get their names, a contact, or anything. I may or may not yell into my hands because "I COULD'VE HAD KINDA FRIENDS TO GO WITH IF I'D ASKED THEM !! WHY DIDN'T I ASK?!" Now I'm still stuck going alone </3 (or so I think.)

I feel like Belphie would definitely show off his purchase to the family group chat. Beel shows off a photo of their hands next to each other with the new bracelets and says they made a new friend. Mammon is sending angry emojis.

"OI! Y'ALL BETTER NOT HAVE BOTHERED HER !! 🤬 I'LL KICK YOUR ASSES IF I HEAR ANYTHING!!"

Belphie will NOT be letting him live down his interest in this girl he was so desperate to keep them away from. Sending that message in the group chat was the worst idea actually because now EVERYONE is asking who he's talking about. Rip Mammon they're all questioning him.

GAH OKAY MY BUS STOP IS NEXT, I WAS WRITING THIS ON THE WAY TO WORK, AJWJDJF UM UM UM NEXT PART PRE CONCERT SHENANIGANS? OUTFIT PICKING? IDK WE'LL SEE AAA HAVE A GOOD DAY OKAY BYEE THIS WAS SO RUSHED

OH YEAH NEXT INSTALLMENT.

Belphie is such a little punk I love him. And BEEL trying to make you feel better, but only making you feel worse what a guy~

They're talking about Levi, you're talking about Lucifer, Mammon's freaking out in the group chat lkasdjfk.

I love everything about it!

Ohhh I'm so excited about the reaction when you realize you'll be with Mammon and Solomon for the concert!!!

Ahh this is so cute, I love it. I'm excited for whatever comes next!

[toxicanonymity]

RULES & FAQs

THIS BLOG IS 18+ NO MINORS 🔞

WELCOME ABOARD! This blog has amazing readers which makes it a lot of fun. You can call me Tox or Toxy (she/her). I usually write smut. Sometimes I write darkfic. I dabble in horror. Please do not follow me if you're sensitive to the warnings on my masterlists, found in my bio. Check your content settings to make sure you can see everything. Heed warnings on fics. Last updated July 2024.

Basics

Tox/Toxy, she/her, millennial. English or Spanish.

WIPs are on hiatus. I'm kinda struggling but trying to do my best. Thank you for your patience.

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A: No, but questions are welcome 🩷

Q: Will you write more every inch/left in Lincoln?

A: I would like to. More here. For Every Inch, there are two more parts planned.

Q: When is [fic] coming back? How many chapters?

A: IDK, sorry :( If I knew I'd tell you. In the future, I'm not planning to release things as I write, I'm gonna try to finish everything before posting. Problem is I have a lot of one shot fails / play as I go AUs. We'll see. I can tell you Every Inch has 6 total parts planned.

Q: Did you read my fic?

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Q: What are Joelkémons?

A: Reader-coined term for the Joel variants on this blog. Some are listed here: Joelkémon cards.

Q: Can we make your characters into bots?

A: No, please don't do this. It makes me feel bad and they don't even work. Every time, it puts me farther away from updating the fic. Please lmk if you ever see my work made into a bot, copied, etc. Please don't draw attention to it without speaking to me first 🙏🏼 I generally like to keep things quiet and not make a big deal out of it.

Q: Who's night walks!Joel? Who's thighs out?

A: Night Walks is an AU where Joel is your hot, older, creepy pothead neighbor. Night walks masterlist. Thighs out (another AU) is your boyfriend's hot slutty dad.

Q: What's a HOG? Who/what is GILF?

A: Hot Old Guy, from Silence can never be bought pt. 2 and 5. GILF is grandpa I'd Like to Fuck and may refer to the one from Pawn Shop (Joel in his 60s) @gilfjoel.

Q: Who is Dr. Rock?

A: Hot sex therapist who roleplays my characters. Dr. Rock is also the poster boy for avoiding discourse.

Q: Do you still write slashers?

A: Yes. I just wrote my first Thomas Hewitt in March 2024. Main/slashers masterlist.

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When it comes to rumors and shaming, silence is not a sign of guilt or agreement. It's confidence in the truth and desire to keep harmful takes off the dash. As a rule, I would ignore and block false accusations, rumors, or kink shamers instead of giving them a huge audience by responding or addressing it.

Harmful takes in the wild / targeted harassment: blocked. And if a post is bad enough--such as calling for targeted harassment of writers or trivializing a serious crime by casually accusing writers of it, I may block people for positively interacting with it. I don't want to be on your dash if you share those views, even if it's about something I don't write. On my blog, it's important for readers to be able to understand fiction can't be equated with real life. And who's to say I won't offend or traumatize you on a different topic one day? It's for your own good.

You can get blocked on anon too.

[xxmaddyxx]

Hi!! I love your writing so much 💕 and I had a request, I was wondering if you could do kenma comforting the reader after she lost all her saved game data?

Basically my ps4 decided to try to off itself this week and I had to factory reset it, which ended with me losing all of my saved data, for every game I've ever played on there (including 500+hours in just one of those games 🥲)

Anyway I was just thinking who else would understand this pain better than the pro gamer himself <3

Thank you!

oh no :( im sorry you lost all your data ive had that happen and it's lowkey depressing. i gotchu with the headcanon though don't worry

Kenma x reader who lost her game data! masterlist

one day you were chillin and playing your ps4... nothing strange happening at all

sike

your ps4 just powers off

and the woman was speechless

you sat there for a second looking at the black screen lowkey confused

me personally my ps4 is on life support so this is normal but anyway

you leaned forward and powered it back on

a few minutes later literally none of the games were working

it either had the "internet connection loss" message when you were literally right next to the router

or it just closed the game -_-

you texted kenma and asked what you should do

babe i think my ps4 died

wdym died?...

like it's not working

did you power it off and back on

it shut off by itself...

you might have to take it down to factory settings...

i can't do that do you know how much time i have invested in these games

babe idk what else to tell you

and so with a heavy heart, you opened the setting and took your ps4 down to factory settings

hundreds of hours of gameplay gone... because the mf ps4 decided to fuck up

you faceplanted on your bed

when you heard a soft knock at your door

you already knew who it was so you got up and opened your door to see Kenma with a dollar store bag in his hand and a dq blizzard in his hand

"babe, what're you doing?" you smiled at him

"losing your game data sucks, it's happened to me plenty of times." you and him walked to your room

he set the bag on the bed and handed you the blizzard as he went on his phone

you dug through the bag and saw candy, chips, and your favorite drinks

"omg Kenma, how much did you spend?" you picked up the receipt that read-

he snatched it

"dont worry bout it." he showed you his phone

it was one of his past streams

"chat, what should we play next, kinda bored."

you could see he was reading the chat and sipping on an energy drink

"babe what did i tell you about the energy drinks"

"shh"

on the stream you saw the screen go black, like yours did

"oh shi-" he choked on his drink

"kenma what did you do." you could hear kuroo's voice on the discord call they were on during the stream

"my ps4 just decided to not work."

"huh, that makes no sense."

"shut up and let me try to power it back on"

kenma skipped at couple minutes of the stream and you saw that his games were all glitchy too

"kenma you good?" kuroo asked

"bro i gotta take the system down to factory settings."

"are you sure? that's a lot of progress that you'll lose."

"yeah i know it's gonna suck."

sure enough, he did it on stream and all his progress was reset

kenma put his phone down as you fed him a bite of your blizzard

"see babe, it happens. it'll obviously take you longer to get your progress back bcs you play a lot less than i do, but we can have little gaming dates maybe?"

you kissed his cheek, "sounds great ken"

thank you for the request!! feel free to request more <3

[jr2pa]

hello… sorry if this is a lame thing to post in the tag, but if anyone would be willing to help me in some way with umineko's mystery, i would greatly appreciate it.

i recently finished chapter 5, and… message received, i guess, that they expect me to "solve it" at this point, but i'm very lost. i've been taking notes this whole time and i've written down pretty much every red truth that's ever been spoken ever since the gimmick was first introduced, so it's not from lack of trying. i also watched the anime after finishing ch5, as it seemed like the most condensed way to get a refresher on the questions arc, and then skimmed through ch5 again and revisited a few key moments in prior chapters. so… what am i missing??

here are all my notes on all the deaths/mysteries so far (warning: very long, sorry):

CHAPTER 1 aside from the murders, the only supposedly supernatural thing we see in this chapter is the letter on the table in kinzo's room. natsuhi's theory that it was nanjo, genji, kumasawa or maria checks out, seeing as all four of them are suspicious for various reasons i'll be going over further below.

-rudolf, kyrie, shannon, krauss, rosa, gohda were found in the shed this one is a non-issue and just about anyone could've done it, but if i try to analyze this through the lens of my current strongest theory (which… isn't saying much!) that all the non-ushiromiyas are co-conspirators, the culprit behind these murders in particular could only be kanon. shannon and gohda are dead, which leaves genji, kumasawa and nanjo, but in chapter 4, lambdadelta tells us in red when talking about the first game that those three specifically are not killers, which leaves us with kanon alone.

-eva & hideyoshi were in their room, chained shut. eva on the bed, hideyoshi in the bath. both stabbed in the head as far as the red symbols appearing suddenly when they weren't there moments ago, kanon could be an unreliable pov?? here's what beato says about it: "both were killed by another person! it is not the case that, after the construction of the closed room, one of them committed suicide after committing murder! furthermore, the murder was carried out with both the victim and the perpetrator in the same room! no method exists for the perpetrator to commit murder from outside the room!" battler's theory here is that one of the dead people in the shed was actually a body double so one of the six victims was still alive and killed them, but beato later says "no body double tricks exist!" and to my understanding this would violate knox's 10th too, so this doesn't work. idk, i GUESS if we're going to the EXTREME of the unreliable narrator theory, kumasawa, kanon and genji could've just… lied about the chain?? meaning, the murderer cut the chain and THEN killed them both, or something like that. by the time battler arrives, the chain's already been cut, so we can't say for sure when that was done. i WILL say i DON'T like that at all. kinda feels like… what was the point of any of these scenes, then, if you can't guarantee that ANY of them were even real? who can say that the heartwarming, private conversation between eva and hideyoshi before they died was real, while we're at it?? plus, this story is a murder mystery, and the mystery posed by their deaths is "how were they killed if the door was chained shut?". this theory doesn't actually offer an explanation to that mystery, it simply means there was no mystery to begin with, which i find very disappointing. buuut it technically checks out so i'm writing it down here, i guess.

-kinzo in the basement as of the end of chapter 5 we have not been told where kinzo's corpse is being hidden, but you could probably narrow down the potential murderers to the people who know he's dead…? as in, i'm assuming they'd have the good sense to hide him Pretty Well, so i'm working under the assumption that whoever baked him already knew where his corpse was. so the people who know he's dead are natsuhi, krauss, nanjo, genji, shannon, kanon and kumasawa, and we don't really know when he was stabbed and baked, so as far as i'm concerned this could have been someone who's already dead at this point.

-kanon was by himself in the basement "all of the survivors have alibis! let us include the dead as well! in short, no kind of human or dead person on the island could have killed kanon", he did not commit suicide and he did not die in an accident. at times like these i just want to fall back on my "maybe it was scorpions or something" theory. "ohh but it violates the knox commandments, where were the clues that there were scorpions on the island?" to this i say people are always talking about how dangerous the forest is. perhaps because of… scorpions???? oh wait also the uhhhh… the scorpions everywhere, i guess. like, maria's pendants that "ward off magic", or kinzo's doorknob. i don't know. all of that was scorpion foreshadowing all along. actually, if i'm going to pursue this stupid animal theory, spiders might be a better bet. they much more clearly don't violate the knox commandments because of that scene in ch2 where shannon goes to the boiler room to find spiderwebs, confirming that there are spiders not only on the island, but even in the boiler room specifically. to be clear, this is 99% a joke, but i can't rule it out, because my "maybe the kinzo natsuhi talked to in episode 1 was an illusion" theory was also a joke, and look where we are now. upon further thought, another goofy theory that i guess doesn't contradict the red truths we were given, is that he didn't even actually die. to my knowledge, we didn't see his corpse (we definitely didn't in the anime, for what little that's worth lol), and were simply told by nanjo that he died. battler also says jessica was probably taking care of him until his death. because of other stuff that has happened and will happen in future games, nanjo's very suspicious, and jessica is… somewhat suspicious (mainly because she… doesn't really comment on the fact that she hasn't seen her grandpa, who lives in the same house as her, for well over a year. this really sticks out to me because she's NEVER been shown as one of the people who are "in on it". it's like whoever's telling you this story wants you to think she's not in on it, but if you think about it for just a second, how could she not be??), so it wouldn't surprise me too much if they both just… lied about his death. of course, nanjo could've lied to jessica as well, and she'd believe him, i'm sure, since she's not a doctor and he's a trusted friend of the family. i don't think this theory is nearly as damning of her as it is of nanjo. i'm way more satisfied with this explanation than with my 2nd twilight one, because the mystery posed here is "if everyone had alibis, who stabbed kanon?", and the solution remains the same regardless of whether or not nanjo was lying about his death, which is that he stabbed himself.

-kumasawa, genji, nanjo in the parlor while maria sang facing a wall it was confirmed in red by lambdadelta that kumasawa, genji and nanjo are not killers (which is… huge, by the way. she just gave us that for free? i'm not entirely sure what to make of it, though. does it only apply to the first game, or is it true of every game? for now i'm taking the conservative approach, because there have been times when something Big like this has been said in red and then whoever said it explicitly goes on to say "this applies to all games, not just the current one", but lambdadelta didn't bother doing this). beato said maria didn't kill them. everybody was confused about the phone working, but in subsequent games, we pretty much take for granted that internal phone lines are working fine, it's just the external line that won't work. so, obviously, genji, who said they weren't working, is extremely suspicious. anyway, i guess if you continue from the theory that kanon survived, he could've killed them… that's the only thing i can think of. of course, as for the door being locked, nobody ever even confirmed that there were only 5 master keys in game 1 or that all 5 were accounted for. that's not an issue.

-natsuhi died after this, from a gunshot wound on her head natsuhi was killed by another person, and the bullet is not from the gun she was holding. lambdadelta comments on this one later, and her exact wording is "the thing that shot natsuhi wasn't a trap, it was a real shooting murder with a gun raised and trigger pulled!" once again, i have to assume the kanon theory is correct, because i can't think of anything else. i really want to know what was in that letter, though.

CHAPTER 2 should i assume that the detective in chapter 2 isn't battler?? he sees kinzo (AND beatrice AND several magical things) at the end, so just like in ch5, he can't be our objective viewpoint, but then… who the hell is?? it can't be rosa, she saw beatrice turn golden butterflies into candy. and these two are the main people who play the detective role in this chapter… what's going on here lol anyway, this chapter also has a letter that showed up out of nowhere, but this one's a lot more confusing to me. all i can think of is that either rosa or maria put it on the table, or it was, like… glued to battler's shoe somehow and it just happened to come off when he rested his feet on the table, or rosa was… lying about all the windows being locked…… i don't know, mannnn, i think the winner out of all these weak theories is that maria put it there. kyrie says that the beatrice she saw was without a doubt the subject of the painting in the hall. that almost certainly can't be true, though. we know of everybody who's on the island and none of them look like beatrice. so… i'm assuming she's lying here. of course, i don't know what to make of rosa in this chapter. she seems really suspicious near the start, especially because she also claims to have met beatrice, but… i can't really fit her into my equation around the second half, and that's not even getting into what her motive could possibly be for teaming up with the servants. and you could say that's way too many people simultaneously keeping up the same lie, but… to my knowledge, chapter 4 was the same thing (even worse, actually), and battler explicitly tells us, it doesn't matter how many people say they saw something, that won't make what they saw real. the main thing i'm wondering about in this chapter is if any of these deaths could've been faked. they sure all looked dead to me, but there are quite a few deaths that weren't confirmed in red at any point.

-krauss, natsuhi, eva, hideyoshi, rudolf, kyrie all found in the chapel, which was locked this one is… completely baffling. there's so much weird stuff surrounding it, like the letter rosa got and was asked to read when all the siblings were present but we never find out the contents of, or the fact that we don't really see any of the actual family conference, but we get that weird scene of everybody in the chapel acknowledging beatrice's existence?? obviously since battler didn't see any of this firsthand, it could all be lies, but then… what's the point of any of it? why bother showing us any of that? in chapter 4, lambdadelta says "when the six were killed in the chapel, the culprit was inside the chapel!" and beato says "from the time maria received her key to the instant rosa unsealed the envelope the next day, the key passed through no one's hands!!" i think it's weird and suspicious that she didn't say this in chapter 2, but i can't think of an explanation as to why. anyway, we did get confirmation that they died in the chapel, rather than being carried there after being killed, which begs the question, What The Hell Were They Doing There? who knows?? if you want to be REALLY pedantic about the red, which… i always do, you could say this doesn't necessarily mean it wasn't used. like, what if they were wearing gloves or something when they held the key, i don't know. alternatively, "the next day" is pretty vague, so if rosa opened the envelope at, say, 1 am, at that point the key could pass through anybody else's hands (as long as they sealed the envelope again) without contradicting beato's red truths.

-jessica & kanon. jessica was found in her locked room with a knife in her back and kanon was never found beato confirmed that kanon died in jessica's room. as battler mentioned, this one's not a big deal. anyone with a master key could've done it and hidden kanon's corpse. shannon and genji's alibis were already shaky even back when i still thought kinzo was alive, but now that i know he's dead, i mean… they're at the top of the suspect list. i would lean towards shannon being behind this one, because they seemed to be pretty close friends, so the "stabbed in the back" aspect makes a little more sense than if it were genji. i also had the thought when first reading this chapter that, because nanjo was investigating jessica's corpse and he was asked to look for a key on her, he could've planted it there, but i don't know that this actually… helps me solve anything. ALSO i took note during my first reading that when rosa mentions protecting all the kids before finding jessica's corpse, she doesn't include jessica in her list of people she needs to protect, which is very odd, and something i can only make sense of if she already knew jessica was dead.

-nanjo & kumasawa had that whole thing where "kanon" killed them then they disappeared from the locked servants room what battler settles on here is that, like with kinzo, somebody inherited kanon's name, but thankfully, lambdadelta disproved this in red. that would've been too goofy, even for me. especially since his theory doesn't explain the actual… locked room?? the keys were all accounted for, man. anyway, as far as kanon showing up despite being confirmed as dead, i'm once again falling back on the unreliable narrator argument. maybe genji, shannon and gohda were just lying, no kanon-looking guy ever showed up in the first place. genji and shannon are pretty consistently suspicious, but gohda only occasionally seems to be in on it, most of the time he really looks like he's completely lost and doesn't really know anything. i don't know what his deal is. while we're accusing them of lying, let's go ahead and agree with rosa's theory. neither kumasawa nor nanjo were actually killed at this point, so they just… left the room, let one of the other three lock the door with their master keys, hid elsewhere, and were killed later and then found by genji. of course, they could've been killed and hidden elsewhere by the other three, too. whether they were dead or alive doesn't really change my theory that the other three are lying about the whole thing. i find it very funny how appalled battler is by rosa's heartless theories and how untrusting she is towards the non-ushiromiyas only for me to realize when revisiting this chapter that… most of her theories actually do check out…… i feel pretty stupid about this now, but when i'd just finished chapter 5, i thought the "it" in "without love, it cannot be seen" referred to "the true answer to the mysteries", but now i'm almost certain "it" is actually magic instead. so maybe this phrase really means that in order to reach the truth behind the magic, i need to completely disregard how much i like or care about the characters, and look at the real verifiable facts, regardless of how upsetting the conclusions i come to are. i guess the ocean WAS objectively gray on that cloudy day, huh… this does align with what happens in chapter 5, because if you think about the story objectively, it's easy to realize kinzo didn't actually tell natsuhi she's worthy of the family emblem, but i, personally, just kinda… ignored that fact and shrugged it off because i felt too bad for her. does this mean that it's just as cruel to solve these murders as it was for bernkastel to tell natsuhi that kinzo never liked her, then??

-gohda, george, shannon found in natsuhi's room. the door was locked george had natsuhi's key, and rosa had all servant keys. lambdadelta says "after the master keys came into rosa's control, never did any of them leave her hands! except for the time when she lent it to battler to unlock natsuhi's room." i didn't see anything that would deny a three-way murder in which all three of them sort of killed each other at the same time, or a double murder followed by a suicide, or something like that. it's not great, but it's all i have.

CHAPTER 3 the first thing that sticks out to me in this chapter is, of course, beatrice from 20 years ago speaking to kinzo (proven to be a real conversation by ronove) and rosa's story about meeting her and witnessing her death (the fact that she's dead is also said in red). unfortunately, i don't know what to do with this. the only people who would know about beatrice are the people who know about kuwadorian. of those, according to the boat guy from chapter 4, the ones that are alive in rokkenjima during these two days are genji, kumasawa and nanjo.

-genji, shannon, kanon, kumasawa, gohda and kinzo in the 6 locked rooms with keys linking them all six of them were confirmed dead by beatrice as soon as their discussion started. we know "the six people died instantly", they "were not killed by traps" and "none of the six people committed suicide". beato refused to say that all 6 deaths were murders, and later tried to say in red that none of them died in an accident, but ronove stopped her for strategic reasons. additionally, in chapter 4, beato says "all of them had wounds resembling gunshot wounds which became fatal!" so… before this was revisited in chapter 4, i was able to reach the conclusion that at the very least, if one of the 6 was the killer, it couldn't be kinzo (didn't have a master key, therefore couldn't have closed the loop) or kanon (had a master key, but was in the chapel, which can only be opened by the chapel key, therefore couldn't have closed the loop). from there, i figured if none of the deaths were accidents or suicides, all that's left is… natural causes, so either kumasawa or genji could've been the culprits and then just… died of old age while locked in one of the rooms. this WAS mostly a joke theory, but to my understanding, it's not that far from the ACTUAL truth, that she couldn't say all 6 were murders because kinzo died of old age over a year ago. …but this begs the question, what do i make of her saying "all of them had wounds resembling gunshot wounds which became fatal"?? is the implication here that kinzo actually WAS murdered, and the scene we're shown in ch5 right after he dies was a lie?? this raises so many more questions than it answers so i don't want it to be true, and of course, if it IS true, shouldn't beato have been able to say all 6 deaths were murders? uhh anyway though, battler ended up settling on one of the people who were alive planting one of the letters on the corpses, which i think is fair. eva hasn't found the gold yet, so she has no motive to kill anyone, much less the servants. therefore, nanjo is the most suspicious out of all the survivors at this point, not only because of how heavily involved he seems to be with other chapters' mysteries, but also because he's one of the few survivors who would know where to find kinzo's corpse, AND, like with jessica in chapter 2, planting a master key would be easiest for him, since he's in charge of checking if the victims are all dead. by the way it's extremely funny that it took me this long but i JUST noticed he's the only character aside from battler who's never died on the first twilight… what could this mean……

-rosa & maria found in the rose garden it is confirmed in red that both of them were dead. this murder's culprit was all but flat-out confirmed. eva snuck out the window to kill the only other person who knew about the gold and got hideyoshi to cover for her. ronove confused me by not saying that hideyoshi was in the guest room the whole time because it would lose him too many pieces…? i don't know what pieces he would lose by saying this, but whatever. we know who killed them.

-rudolf, kyrie & hideyoshi in the mansion ronove refused to say they were dead. yeah sure he makes some excuse about asking battler to accept beato as his opponent again instead of going up against ronove himself, but he can't fool me. if he didn't say it, he didn't say it. anyway, my current guess is that kyrie and rudolf confronted hideyoshi, they got into a big fight and ended up killing each other (this sort of mutual killing keeps popping up but i can't help it. it's all i have). i guess eva could've killed the three of them too. again, i have to approach all these murders as cold-heartedly as possible, so even though it would make me very sad if she killed her husband of all people, i have to consider the possibility, at least. if we take what we were shown at face value, it seems like he witnessed her killing rudolf and kyrie and got upset so she had to kill him. i will say, though, this doesn't entirely make sense to me, because he covered for her when she went out to kill rosa and a 9-year-old baby, so i don't know why these two murders would be any more objectionable to him than the first two??

-natsuhi & krauss found outside i don't think there's anything wrong with the assumption that eva killed them while everybody else was upstairs and carried their bodies outside.

-george also dies at some point in the mansion beatrice explicitly said he didn't go down the stairs of the guesthouse, so battler's theory that he left through a window and somebody locked it afterwards is all i have. because nanjo is the most suspicious currently living character and eva doesn't seem to bother making her kills look supernatural, i want to say he was the one who locked it…? eva could've been behind this one, too, but, like… why lol. she hates all her siblings and wants all the gold for herself so these other murders make sense, but she has nothing to gain from killing george, does she? he probably just killed himself after seeing his girlfriend's corpse.

-nanjo died while taking care of jessica oof, we got so much red text for this one… the tl;dr is that eva, battler and jessica are neither the culprits nor involved in his murder and everyone else is dead, but he was murdered directly by a human. battler's theory that one of the victims was actually still alive, killed nanjo, then somehow died themselves checks out. the deaths we got immediate confirmation of were genji, shannon, kanon, kumasawa, gohda, rosa and maria, so this culprit could have been natsuhi, krauss, rudolf, kyrie, hideyoshi or george, i'm pretty sure. gonna leap to conclusions here because it's all i can do, but because of the bank number on the wall that was in the letter sent to nanjo, kumasawa and ange, i'm going with rudolf or kyrie being behind nanjo's death. before dying, he mentions that he has a sick grandkid, which… may be connected to his motive somehow, i guess?

-eva killed battler like, we saw it. on screen.

CHAPTER 4 battler's very first line in the tea party… "i don't have a clue what to make of all this." man, join the club. at this point, i don't think it's a stretch to assume maria is somehow involved with the murders. i don't know what ange means when she says she gets the feeling that if she hadn't made fun of maria's magic, maybe this whole tragedy could've been avoided, and i get that she's like… a teen, and teens tend to be overly dramatic and blame themselves for everything, but there's also the handwriting in her journal written by "beatrice" that matches the handwriting in the message bottles. the thing about the bottled messages is, though, that battler most likely isn't aware of them, since they were only found way later, outside the time period of the game. i'm assuming this means i don't need to figure out what their deal is, since battler most likely didn't either (same thing with the letters sent on october 4th, while i'm at it). stuff outside of the game board aside, in this game, maria says kinzo gave her the umbrella, not beato. this is interesting to me mainly because in this very chapter beato tells us that "no person would mistake ushiromiya kinzo by sight", which most likely means… maria is straight up lying, on purpose. "ohh but what about battler's theory for the 1st twilight, that somebody inherited kinzo's position as family head and his name along with that" bro she's 9. how the hell are you going to logically prove in a meaningful way to a 9-year-old that you're kinzo now when you're not literally kinzo. not to mention how conveniently specific her phrasing is ("grandfather came and handed me an umbrella"), almost like… somebody asked her to say exactly that, imo. to be clear, i think it'd be really silly if maria were the one killing all these people. i'm just suggesting that she's allied with the culprits, who ask small favors of her, like "tell everybody beatrice (/kinzo) gave you this letter" or "put this letter on the table when nobody's looking". little stuff like that. one thing that stands out to me that i'm not sure i should be paying any mind to is that while in the dungeon, kanon and shannon talk about themselves as if they know they're pieces on a game board. i don't know what to make of this. at the end of the game, piece-battler finally actually meets piece-beato, but she's speaking to him from pretty far away, so she could reasonably be any of the women who are on the island in a convincing disguise, i guess. again, i can't narrow this down, because i can't say for sure that ANYONE except maybe kumasawa and gohda is dead when this happens. i also have no idea what battler's sin could be, nor do i know how he would've caused all these murders, or where to look for clues about any of this. as for the stuff about battler not being asumu's son, my current silly theory is a good old Baby Swap. he's actually kyrie's child, and asumu's child was the stillborn, but rudolf wanted to marry asumu, so he swapped the babies or something. and THEN there's beato's final riddle, "you are all alone on this island. and of course, i am not you. yet i am here, now, and will kill you. who am i?" and to that i say, i don't knooowwwwwww :( that's one of the main things i've been wondering since chapter 1! everybody dies by the end, even after the ritual ends!! i'm gonna use my Spiders card again, and also throw in a uhh Natural Disasters Can Kill People card. maybe the typhoon gets even worse, and that's why they can't even find the bodies, because they're blown away or something. i don't know dude finally, lambdadelta and bernkastel talk and lambda says beato's acting again, and noted that at the end only her right hand fell down. again, noooo idea whatsoever!!!!

-natsuhi, rudolf, eva, hideyoshi, rosa, genji died during the family conference man what happened here… chapter 4 is frustrating because we get very little red text related to the murders throughout and most of battler's information is received from 3rd parties over the phone. beatrice says "all of those who met at the family conference recognized the existence of kinzo!" and what we got from the discussion around this first twilight is that maybe somebody inherited kinzo's name, which… does not help me personally solve any of these mysteries. also seeing the way these people act in all the other chapters makes it very hard to believe EVERYBODY there would UNANIMOUSLY acknowledge anyone as the next head, so i'm pretty skeptical of this explanation. chapter 5 proves that krauss and natsuhi won't acknowledge anybody but themselves, and the other siblings are ok with anybody but those two. what's weird though is that when lambdadelta lists all the ways in which battler was wrong, she doesn't say anything about this. puzzling. or, like… maybe they just hauled out his corpse. yes, this also seems out of character, but everybody there could've recognized the existence of kinzo, as a corpse, who was dead. if there's anything supernatural to disprove here, it's the portals that transported the survivors, i guess, because as far as the murders go, those could've been anyone, and they could've taken place at any time before battler went around investigating. i don't know what to make of the "trap door" theory, but i think trap doors would count as secret passageways so i'm denying their existence. thanks, knox. so all that remains is that, once again, everybody who survived just… lied about all that, i guess. kuwadorian is pretty far, and the cousins had very recently gone back to the guest house, so these five characters having been headed towards kuwadorian earlier in order to make it there by around 10:10 seems unrealistic. nanjo's part of this group so they COULD'VE gotten there, but there's no guarantee or need or anything. all i can do at this point is assume those 5 called the cousins from the main house, i guess. among the 5 survivors, nanjo, shannon and kanon are pretty suspicious, and kyrie's slightly suspicious because of the letter with the bank information, but krauss…… krauss just seems like a man stumbling through life to me, so even though he knows kinzo's dead he's pretty low on my suspect list. if we're going back to rosa's wolf & sheep puzzle, there would be more wolves than sheep here, so i guess they just threatened him and forced him to say what they wanted him to say…??

-jessica in her room after calling battler and george outside so… we got exactly zero red text pertaining to these murders, which is very frustrating, and battler's only theory for them was to just blame person x, who we know doesn't exist. while investigating, battler mentions that it's weird that jessica knew george was dead, but i don't see how this is an issue. we don't have a clear timeline of events here at all and most of our information comes from people who aren't battler, who are all unreliable narrators, but my most reasonable guess (i have stupider ones) is that somebody killed george, brought some kind of proof with them to jessica's room, beat her up, made her call battler and then killed her. also, jessica going through all the trouble of calling battler just to insist that magic is Totally Real Bro, Trust Me is pretty suspicious, but she did actually die. i don't know, man. and, of course, because i'm positing that everybody who was trapped in the dungeon was lying about that, and we don't know when anybody died, this could've been just about anyone. should i assume it's genji, because ronove was the one who administered the test?

-kanon finally some red text! beatrice confirmed while battler was investigating that kanon was the first person in that group of 5 to die, and the 9th person in general to die! hooray! she did this because battler didn't find his corpse and wanted to pin the blame on him. that is a very helpful hint (as far as hints about chapter 4 go, i mean), but we don't have a reliable timeframe for any of this, plus we're not told explicitly which 8 people died before him. we're led to believe it was the 6 in the parlor + jessica & george, but it could've been the first 6 + kumasawa & gohda, or 4 people from the parlor + jessica & george + kumasawa & gohda, or whatever else. anyway, there's nothing potentially supernatural about it to disprove. it could've been just about anyone.

-shannon, nanjo, krauss they supposedly die soon after. obviously, since kyrie supposedly survived the longest and made a really weird phone call to battler about the culprits Definitely Being Witches, So Please Don't Even Think There's Anything Else Going On Here, she's my number one suspect for these.

-kyrie she dies by the phone, presumably the one she called battler from. we didn't really get any death confirmations until way at the end of the chapter, so this could've been anybody who was presumed dead. i'm having a really hard time narrowing these ch4 deaths down… again, this was a very frustrating chapter.

-kumasawa and gohda they were found in the locked shed. they were both shot in the head and hanged so that their feet still touched the ground. gohda had the only key to the shed in his pocket. i feel like the LEAST battler could've done was talk about their deaths at ALL with beato. blaming it on a culprit x doesn't explain anything at all. i'm kinda mad that he didn't, AND that beato let him get away with that. so here are my stupid theories regarding these two murders: -gohda handed the key to the murderer (for reasons unknown), who then killed them both and arranged their corpses. the culprit then locked the shed and placed the key back in gohda's pocket from the window, using, like, a fishing rod or something. we don't know when they died, so they could have been let out of the shed, killed some people, gone back in, then gotten killed; -same as the above, but the culprit made a copy of the key after receiving it, then put the original back in gohda's pocket before locking it again with the copy; -the killer forced them to tie their own nooses then shot them both through the window; -this is my wildest and wackiest one, but maybe it was kanon, and he'd been hiding in the shed until battler opened it, and died somehow before beato confirmed his death. battler found everybody but kanon before opening the shed, so if anyone WERE hiding in the shed, it'd have to be kanon. also, we only get confirmation that kanon died AFTER battler finds all the other corpses, including kumasawa and gohda. because kanon was the 9th to die, he either died while hidden in the shed, or several of the bodies battler found were just playing dead.

-kinzo's baked again zero information. he could've been baked at any point.

-maria dies at the end obviously my best guess is suicide, even though battler says crossing the arms of the dead is something the living usually do for the dead, not something you would do yourself before dying. she's a little kid so i want to say… alcohol poisoning? we do know there's a lot of alcohol in the house. she finds her mom dead, ingests a ton of alcohol and lies next to her to die. no clue what happened at the chapel.

CHAPTER 5 a complete outlier!! it's not written by beato OR told from battler's pov!! they were EXTREMELY generous with hints here, but unfortunately, it still wasn't enough. i'm guessing we're supposed to look for differences in what battler's seeing in this game compared to the ones where he's the objective viewpoint, but i… could not find any haha… erika's introduction really highlights how suspicious it is that nobody was willing to say "there are EXACTLY 17 people on the island" last game, or exactly 18 in this one, but i don't know what to make of this. "no more than 18" back when we didn't know kinzo was dead made sense, battler never saw the guy (except that one time in ch2, but again, i don't know what to make of that), but he's… seen the remaining 17 people…… what with all the chess talk, it would make sense for there to be only 16 pieces on the board, but… how?? it's pretty clear to me that battler being the baby natsuhi killed who's back for revenge doesn't… actually… make any sense. we are told in this very game that although the pieces are controlled by the players, they can't take actions that those pieces realistically wouldn't take themselves, and because battler clearly didn't even know that he wasn't asumu's son, there's no way he could realistically know about any of that stuff with the baby. unfortunately, knowing this doesn't help me solve this game at all, though. as for weird supernatural things with no clear explanation, there's the knock on the door during the family conference. we got a lot of extremely restrictive red text about it, but… at no point do they say that there really was a knock. is this an unreliable narrator puzzle again… erika wasn't there, so did they simply lie to me about there being a knock on the door…… i'm gonna be SO mad if this is the answer. i would also like to mention that natsuhi says shannon is the only person who knows her favorite season. while i do find shannon suspicious, i don't think this is 100% damning of her. if i were the guy on the phone and had somebody on the inside who could secretly put stuff in natsuhi's room, my strategy would be to hide four cards, each with a different season, in different corners of her room. then once she says it's autumn i check my notes and see that autumn should be under the clock so i'd be like "yeah, i knew all along ;) check… under your CLOCK ;)". it's a very simple magic trick, and magic's what umineko's all about lol… they even went through the trouble of showing us jessica talking to battler on the phone, like, moments before, and even though nobody in-game acknowledges it, they're… literally voiced by the same guy. of course, because erika isn't in any of these scenes, i don't even know if the phone guy is real in the first place. maybe there was never a card that said autumn in her room, man. who knows. anyway,

-jessica, george, maria and rosa were killed in the cousins' room. they disappeared from there soon after battler discovered them we got in red that neither natsuhi nor krauss are the culprits, and the seven sisters tell us in red that their bodies were not moved after their deaths. if that's the case, i really can't think of a theory aside from battler's, that they were still alive and they sneaked out themselves after everybody left. so… first off, beatrice said in red way back in chapter 2 that she would keep her promise, referring to calling off the ritual if somebody solved the riddle. essentially, beato promises that whoever sent the letters and was behind everything will stop killing, but the question remains if this promise is still in play now that she's no longer the game master. without knowing the answer to this question, it's very difficult to say who the culprit is in chapter 5. on a related topic, is it in any way relevant that the only game in which the cousins die on the first twilight is the one that's not written by beato? is that, like, an unwritten rule she has for her games for some reason that lambdadelta didn't pick up on? of course, it could just be that they all slept in the same room as battler in previous games so they would've been harder to kill. anyway, the witnesses who supposedly saw the bodies were battler, rudolf, kyrie, eva, hideyoshi and nanjo. i guess battler's theory would require all of them to be in on it, which is… a really weird group.

-genji died in his room. the door was sealed they spend, like… zero time thinking about this one. poor genji (i say before accusing him of murder). all we get in red is that after his death, his body was never moved. anyway, i'm assuming we're meant to follow the same logic here, meaning that he was never dead in the first place, and that because erika didn't see the intact seal be broken herself, we should assume kanon and kumasawa are lying? also, though, to my understanding, erika only sealed the guest house, not the main mansion, and i don't remember anybody checking genji's windows.

-krauss also died nobody found his corpse, but we do know that he died soon after natsuhi heard his voice on the phone, and that his body was also never moved after his death. once again, there's nothing supernatural to disprove about this one. however, because he had to be somewhere with a phone, and erika thoroughly investigated the mansion when she proved kinzo couldn't have been anywhere but in natsuhi's bed, i'm assuming he called from kuwadorian, so whoever kidnapped him has to be one of the few people that we know are aware of the hidden mansion…?? it's kind of a leap of logic, but i want to narrow it down. anyway, like i've said before, the people who know and are alive on the island are genji, nanjo and kumasawa. if we keep going with this and consider the fact that the secret mansion is fairly far away, it's most realistic for genji to be behind this, because the other two are accounted for most of the time.

-hideyoshi died in a guest room he had chained shut. natsuhi was in the room when this happened again, we do have in red that natsuhi is not the culprit, so this is the most supernatural one. how about this: erika tried to open the closet in the room but was stopped by battler, so we don't actually know if natsuhi was really in there in the first place. this is something that yet again took me way too long to notice, but this is the most literal 1:1 metaphor you could get for schrodinger's cat, which is kinda fun. as in, natsuhi MIGHT be in there, but until erika opens the closet, you'll never know for sure. so maybe somebody else was hiding in the closet, and they killed hideyoshi instead. namely, one of the victims, who had no alibi. let's go ahead and accuse genji and keep his killing streak going. it IS ridiculous, but to my knowledge, it works?? what's kinda weird about his death is that he's listed in the credits as having died on the first twilight, along with the other 6. how come though……

FINAL THOUGHTS

-even though the non-ushiromiyas are by far the most suspicious, i have no clue who THE mastermind could be, plus i don't really have any concrete motives for any of them, much less ones that align with the cryptic stuff they've been hinting at that these murders are a message meant for battler because of his "sin". basically, even though i have whodunnit and howdunnit theories for a couple of specific murders, most of them could've been multiple different people, and i don't have any real whydunnits. -i do see how the pov's credibility could be a powerful weapon, but it's kind of a double-edged sword, because… if you can only believe what the detective directly saw, that leaves you with very little. viewing this story through this very strict lens really gets in the way of how multi-faceted and complex these characters have been shown to be, because the only "persona" of theirs i can trust is how they act around battler. this especially sticks out to me in regards to eva. i really like her relationship with hideyoshi as it's been presented in its entirety, but because she's only affectionate in private, i'm essentially being told not to believe she cares about him all that much, which makes me really sad lol… hell, not even flashbacks can be taken as truth, so how am i supposed to realistically guess the motives behind these murders?? -i have noooo ideaaaaa about all the stuff virgilia said about beato having nothing to gain from somebody solving the epitaph, or that there's only meaning in the epitaph alongside the murders, or battler completely changing how he thinks of her after reaching the truth. again, what sorts of clues am i looking for?? -anyway, it's probably obvious to anyone who reads all this but i don't usually try to solve murder mysteries haha, i'm always just along for the ride, but i've never been asked this directly by the author to solve it myself, so i wanted to try my best. i'm stuck though, and i've been thinking so much about it i'm pretty sure it's ruining my brain. sometimes someone in real life will tell me something about themselves and my first thought is "unreliable narrator, i didn't see it happen so i can't be sure it did" lmao… i'll take whatever help i can get