#idk what house I’d even be in. even back when I did all them quizzes (we all did it come on now) it was all split pretty even

[greenvillainredemption]

Between discovering the American Girl collab with Harry Potter, and the entire series playing nonstop on cable around Christmas at my grandparents’ house, I’m really in the HP mood all of a sudden.

[yuyupowers]

aristocrat!yunho

aristocrat!yunho x fem!reader

genre: fluff, angst

trigger warning(s): description of an anxiety attack, brief description of death, memory loss. let me know if there’s anything else!

author’s note: i swear this wasn’t supposed to be this long sdkjflds

none of the pictures are mine!

for reference, i’m using british peerage (hierarchy). there are five ranks: baron, viscount, earl (count), marquess, and duke - the highest being duke, and the lowest, baron.

eldest son of a duke

okay, so

among nobility, the jeon family are well respect but considered to be a bit,,,eccentric

they adhere to all the social expectations expected amongst nobles, but their attitude towards non-nobility is what sets them apart

though most noble families are polite when interacting with non-nobility, they generally try to keep their distance; avoid their company, if possible

not the jeong’s 

it wasn’t unusual to see duchess jeong knitting in her tea room with maids, merchant’s wives, or whoever else wanted to come

to see gunho running around with his friends, a pack of street urchins, low, and middle class children

to see yunho in the market helping one of the many older couples haul their cart into place

his family had managed to find the delicate balance of being “normal” enough not to suffer social ostracization, yet “odd” enough for people to dismiss their “peculiar actions” as “typical jeong behaviour”

now, onto the loml yunho

perfect gentleman pt. 2

extremely charming and a great conversationalist

no matter how awkward or shy the other party may be, yunho has this way to draw them out of their shell

(just ask mingi)

excels physical and hands-on activities (i.e. hunting, horseback riding, swordsmanship, etc,,,)

average in terms of book smarts

so while wasn’t about to lead the next technological revolution, he wasn’t “stupid” either

rather, i’d argue that yunho’s brilliant in non-traditional ways

his quick wit and ability to think on his feet is part of his charm

but his greatest strengths are his observational skills and emotional intelligence

able to discern people’s emotional state easily and quickly

he’s someone who’s kind, bright, and genuinely cares about other people’s problems (sometimes a little too much)

a natural leader - people tend to flock towards him

between him and mingi (who despite not acting like it, is extremely book smart), they’ve got all bases covered

(+ yunho’s willingness in using unconventional methods to gather information)

that’s actually how he met you

or rather, “found” seems more appropriate

see, he has an excellent rapport with the street children

being six foot one and offering shoulder rides does wonders

and because he wants to stay updated on what problems the people around him are dealing with, he gets the children to “report” to him if they find or hear anything unusual

(the children are more than eager to play spy, especially when there’s candy involved)

one day while taking a stroll, one of his kids ran up to him totally out of breath

he wheezed something about a “mysterious lady” before grabbing yunho’s hand and dragging leading him to an alley quite far away

to say he was surprised was an understatement

most of the time, his kids brought amusing but mostly useless information to him

(even if he is more than content listening about the cute squirrel they fed earlier that day)

usually they didn’t lead him to an unconscious woman lying in the middle of an empty alley

(yes, that’s you)

hurrying to your side, he drops down and checks to see if you’re alive

other than being unconscious and getting some dirt in your hair and on your clothes, you seemed to be okay

gingerly scooping you into his arms, he tells the little boy to fetch the doctor and bring him to the jeong manor

fast forward a couple hours and you’re roused from your unconscious state by the sharp smell of ammonia mixed with lavender

blearily, you rub your eyes and blink once, twice, before your vision finally clears

then panic

you don’t recognize where you are or the two faces that hover by your bedside

sensing your anxiety, yunho smiles warmly speaks in a soothing tone

“hey, hey, it’s okay, you’re in a safe place. my name’s yunho and this is dr. adley. i found you unconscious in an alley.”

and though you’re very confused and still mildly unnerved, you can tell this yunho guy is genuine

“,,,okay.”

so you settle into the (extremely comfortable) four poster bed and let the doctor examine you

except now it’s time for panic pt.2, but ten times worse because why the hell can’t you remember anything?!

you can’t even remember your own g*d damned name !!

to make things worse, there doesn’t seem to be a reason why you can’t remember anything

no bumps or injuries anywhere on your body

and chances of a robbery gone wrong, a kidnapping, or a failed assassination attempt were very unlikely since you were dressed in commoner’s clothes

disquieted by your alarm and the doctor’s confusion, yunho slips out of the room and returns after several minutes

the doctor, offering apologies to both you and yunho, says he has no idea what’s wrong or what could’ve happened to you

all he can suggest is to rest and hope that your memories eventually come back to you

your burry your face into your hands, a whirlwind of frustration, confusion, and fear brewing in you

apparently nobody, including yourself: 

knows who you are, 

where you came from, 

why you were unconscious, 

and why you lost your memories

to top it off, you have no money

.

…

just when you were about to idk,,,scream and/or punch something-

you feel two large hands engulfing yours, lowering them from your face

taking a seat on the edge of bed, yunho offers a faint smile as he idly traces lines from your wrists to your fingertips

a surprisingly soothing gesture

“,,,i know you’re overwhelmed right now, but please don’t feel as if you have to do this on your own. i talked to my mum and dad; you can stay here until either someone finds you or your memories return. in the meantime, we’ll help you out as much as we can, yeah?”

and though you’re in no position to argue, your first instinct is to decline because though you’re amnesiatic, you still have common sense

what kind of family, wealthy or not (actually, especially wealthy), lets a complete stranger stay in their house?

do these people have no sense of danger?

but yunho is as stubborn as he is kind, and this was how you ended up staying with the jeong’s

(you insist on working to earn your stay, much to yunho’s dismay. in his head, unless it helped in recovering their memories or, unfortunately, was necessary for survival, who would make an amnesiac work?)

the first couple of days were awkward

duke and duchess jeong had briefed everyone in the manor about your situation, but when making casual conversation, lapses in memory and uncomfortable silences were inevitable

“oh, i adore this purple! hey, what’s your favourite colour?”

“,,,i uh,,, don’t know.”

“,,,i’m so sorry-”

but awkward has never a problem for yunho, and you quickly grew fond of the gentle giant

“since we don’t know your name, can i call you little sun? since i found you on a sunny day and you’re little-”

“yunho, not everyone can be six feet tall”

“six one, actually”

“,,,”

true to his word, he does his best to help you recover your memories

roped mingi into helping

when you finished your tasks for the day, he’d bring you to all sorts of places, trying all sorts of things

on a hunting trip with yungi, you discovered that: a) you’re proficient in horseback riding, b) you have astounding aim, and c) you’re surprisingly agile

yunho, who’s always been penchant towards athleticism, was delighted to have someone to compete with

mingi just grumbled. sure he was clumsy, but how did someone with no memory beat him?

while helping the gardener, you found out that you have a rather extensive knowledge of flora

yunho jokingly (kinda) suggested that maybe you were a huntress

mingi bombarded you with questions and quizzes about plants

find out what kind of plant you are by decorating your dream room

hoping that you’d run into someone or somewhere familiar, yunho would take on walks all over the city

during your walks, you learned that you preferred nighttime (while he preferred the day), that you found solace in being alone (while he preferred company), that you liked sweet things (while he preferred chips)

a month,

two,

six months passed liked this

you made progress, but you couldn’t stop the bitterness from bubbling in your chest; negativity spreading through your veins like toxin

sure, you consider your favourite colour to be a precious memory in its own right

but who cares about what your favourite colour is when you can’t remember your own name?

you were vexed by the fact that, at this point, you know more about yunho than yourself

even if learning about him made your heart flutter

just a little

and the nightmares

the nightmares

they drove you crazy

you never remembered what you’d dream of, but every night, without fail, you’d wake with tear stained cheeks and sweat soaked clothes

tonight was particularly bad

normally, when you woke, you’d force yourself to take several deep, calming breaths until your breathing evened, grab a glass of water, then crawl back to bed

today, you couldn’t breathe

no matter what or how hard you tried, your heart wouldn’t stop pummeling against your ribcage;

your blood wouldn’t stop rushing between your ears, creating a cacophony no one else could hear;

wave after wave of nausea would slam into your gut

your vision’s blurring

oh god

you’re gonna pass out

you’re gonna pass out and forget the memories you worked so hard to remember and all the memories you made and you’re gonna forget yunho and mingi and-

suddenly, much like the first day, two large hands engulf your own, idly tracing lines from your wrist to your fingertips

“little sun, it’s me, yunho. your yunho. focus on my hands and voice, yeah? i’m right here.”

he continues to murmur sweet nothings until finally, finally, your heart settles back in your chest, your breathing levels, and your vision clears enough to see yunho

your yunho

and in this state, one look at his kind eyes is enough for the tears you’ve been holding in all this time to spill over

because though you cry in your sleep, you never let yourself cry when you’re awake

too focused on chores, too focused on remembering, too focused on trying to get some semblance of control over this uncontrollable situation

without a word, he pulls you into his chest and runs his fingers through your sweaty hair, offering the sound of his heartbeat to anchor you back to this four poster bed when you were ready

but g*d, does it break his heart to see you cry

he expected to hear you wail, to take the brunt of your fists as you pound his chest

but he hears nothing

instead, he feels your tears soak his shirt, feels how you tremble in his arms

and that is so much worse.

it takes long minute for you to stop crying, and another for you to feel composed enough to detach yourself from yunho’s (now soggy) chest

you’re sure you look awful

puffy eyes, blotchy cheeks, and a runny nose

(and you feel embarrassed that yunho witnessed your breakdown)

but he thumbs away the remaining tears from your cheeks and murmurs that he’ll be right back, returning with tissues and a glass of water 

and a new shirt

he hands you the glass of water, tosses your used tissues in the garbage, and climbs underneath your (technically his) covers, patting the space beside him

when you too find refuge in the warm blankets, he pulls you back into his chest

his arm acts as your pillow as he kisses the crown of your head, murmuring into your hair

“wanna talk about it?”

it takes you several moments, but you eventually tell him about the negativity seeping into every inch of skin

the nightmares you never recall keeping you up at night

the irrational feeling of stupidity because you can’t remember who you are

yunho silently, attentively listens to you as you spill your heart

and if he hadn’t pulled you so close, you might’ve seen the weariness in his usually carefree features

the conflict and hollowness brewing in his normally inviting eyes

but by the time you finished talking and pulled back, the expression was gone and the familiar smile you adored so much was back in place

“tomorrow, let’s go to the place where i found you.”

a faint smile bloomed on your lips because though this wasn’t the first time you visited, it was a reminder that you weren’t alone

that no matter how the chances dwindled, yunho would remind you that it was never zero

it was hope that got you through the night

the two of you have never done anything that could be considered anything but platonic

much to mingi’s irritation

but just for tonight, yunho decides to be a little greedy

he kisses your forehead, your cheeks, your nose, your eyelids, you wrists, your palms, your knuckles, your fingers

anywhere he can reach,

except for your lips

you’re emotionally exhausted and vulnerable; he’d feel like a dick if he forced a decision - especially an emotionally fraught one - onto you right now

he threads your fingers together, murmuring soft promises: you’ll remember who you were, you’ll be okay, you’ll find your way again

and you finally let the exhaustion, the steady rhythm of his heart, the rise and fall of his chest, and the warmth and comfort that is yunho lull you to sleep

the next morning is a cold one

gusts of wind bite into your skin as you curl in on yourself, trying to preserve any remaining shred of body heat

noticing this, yunho tucks you under his arm with a sheepish smile and flushed cheeks that were definitely red because of the cold and not because he was flustered

cute

a peaceful silence falls between you two as he leads you to the alley

and since it was early, the only sounds that accompanied you was the quiet patter of your footsteps and the chirps of birds reluctant to travel south

feeling like it simultaneously took too long and not long enough, the two of you arrive

an odd smile settles on yunho’s lips

,,,was that bitterness?

“,,,here we are.”

interrupting your train of thought, he takes your hand and leads you to where he found you

g*d

you could feel it

somewhere in the back of your mind, something almost tangible was shoving its way forward

you’re so close, just a little more and-

suddenly, a chill that had nothing to do with the weather ran down your spine

before you could understand what you were feeling, yunho shoved you behind him and parried the dagger aimed for his chest

a gruff looking man only a little shorter than he stood before him

his clothes tattered and dirty, skin littered with scars, hair and beard scraggly and matted, he looked like one of the many men that inhabited the slums

but those men were sagging skin and bones, never knowing where or if they would get a next meal

this man was muscular

and judging by the familiarity of his actions, this clearly wasn’t his first assassination 

the two men, unable to disengage, snarl as they continue to press into each other

much to your surprise, when you were about to jump into the fray, the assassin screams at you

“YOU ‘UCKING WHORE, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! KILL HIM!”

big mistake

because not only is yunho clever and athletic, he’s one lucky bastard

in the brief second the assassin’s attention was diverted, yunho ducks

his weight and moment carries him forward, and he stumbles,,,right onto yunho’s blade.

yanking both his blood soaked short sword and body away from the assassin, the man crumples to the ground

but until life is drained from his eyes, he bores holes into your head, message clear: kill him

a deafening silence weighs down upon you when the man stops breathing

even the wind stills

yunho stands there, a far away look in his eyes as he grips the short sword

blood is splattered all over his hands, across his cheek

it trickles from the hilt, down the blade, and eventually drips onto the ground beneath him

snow begins to drift from the gray skies, landing on his hair, his cheeks, his eyelashes, his coat

as if trying to comfort him

as if trying to wash the blood away

and you?

you couldn’t move.

not when the floodgates had opened and a torrent of memories threatened to pull you under

you knew who you were

you were yn, born to a peasant mother who died at birth and a father that abandoned you soon after

a ghost of a person, and unknown assassin raised by an unnamed noble who resented the jeong’s for their wealth, their nobility, and their favour with the royal family despite their peculiar attitude

nothing but a tool 

a tool told that if successful, he’d grant you wealth and freedom

but that if you failed, he’d kill you himself

…

the assassin wasn’t after yunho, he was after you

a warning to finish the job, or else

…

you couldn’t stop your hands from shaking

and yunho, 

your gentle giant, yunho

envelops your hands in his, idly tracing lines from your wrist to your fingertips

there’s no comfort this time.

not when he drew lines of blood across the back of your hand, not when you searched and couldn’t read anything expect for this sad smile on his ordinarily open features

“,,,do you remember?”

“,,,”

“,,,”

“,,,”

“,,,”

“,,,you knew.”

he did.

his suspicions appeared early on, spurred by your unusually good marksmanship, agility, and uncanny knowledge of plants

specifically poisonous ones

he turned to this “unconventional” ways of gathering information

starting off with his kids,

then some trusted tclose contacts

but when nothing - and he meant a questionable amount of nothing - turned up, he left the legal sphere and delved in the underground; the black markets

yunho has people who owe him favours - people who’s debts he’s paid off, who’s fights he’s fought on their behalf 

it took a few months, but eventually he got the information he wanted

marquess yoo who openly showed his distaste for the jeong family “released his pet into the wild”

but the jeong’s were not stupid, and they were loved

when yunho’s father confided to some close acquaintances about the predicament they were facing, they took matters into their own hands

they never meant to hurt you

only to capture you and talk you out of killing, bribing you with money, protection - threats, if necessary - if you testified against marquess yoo

but somewhere along the way, things got messy 

it ended with an unconscious girl lying in the middle of an abandoned alley; three grown men running away because oh dear lord, she’s dead; and a child leading yunho straight to you

letting go of your hands, yunho goes to kneel beside the man he just killed

closing his eyes, he mutters a prayer for the (not so) poor soul who unknowingly got himself tangled in this mess, and grabs the dagger 

it feels like someone doused you in ice as yunho walks back to you

horror morphs on your face as he gently - why was he always so gentle? - wraps your fingers around the hilt and places the blade against his neck

the smile that you love so much but currently hate rests on his lips as he cups the side of your face with his free hand

his thumb idly brushes against your cheek, eyes twinkling with adoration as he drinks in every last detail of your face as if,,,

as if,,,

he’s ready to die

“no one knows we left this morning and no one knows we’re here; not even mingi. if you kill me, you’ll have enough time to collect some of your reward and run away.”

by now your hands were shaking so much that if yunho didn’t have his hand wrapped around yours, you would’ve dropped the blade

but as the snow floats down and lands in your hair, in his eye lashes, in the fog of your shared breaths, in the space between you,

here to witness a great tragedy

you both knew,

that one of you has to die.

[uglypastels]

idk if it has been requested but i’d love to see something with waterloo and harry styles. preferably smut👀

you got it :) it uh, lost a bit of track from the song but the general theme is still there?  > pure smut under the cut, 18+ < 

> catching up on my Spotify blurbs

Song: #19 - Waterloo by ABBA ___________________________

It had been a horrible idea. Why did you ever agree to it? Who in their right mind thought it was a good idea to go up on a dare like this. Oh, it would be just for fun, he said. Bullshit, and you should have known it. Because nothing between you two was just “for fun”. It always ended in a big competition, and this was no exception. 

Who could last the longest without giving in? That was the real question, leading to days of constant flirting and teasing, with no real way out. The need for Harry to touch you, for a release, was only growing and growing and you couldn’t do anything but sit there. How much you wanted to cum, there was no way you would lose this fight. 

And unfortunately, Harry was just as competitive as you. A trade that came very useful in Pub Quizzes or couples game night, was now your biggest curse. Whoever would lose, they’d never hear the end of the day about it. This would be the lost battle that would go down in the history of your relationship. 

You were sitting on the couch, cuddled up under a blanket. It had been two weeks since the beginning of the game. You were watching a Christmas movie, popcorn on your lap as you were wrapped in Harry’s arms. But the popcorn almost went flying when you felt his hand on your thigh. 

“Harry?” you whimpered, to which he only replied with a soft and innocent hum, as if he had no idea that that single little touch was already causing you to squeeze your thighs together. 

“Don’t please.” You begged him. You were so desperate for him, you didn’t know what else to do to not lose the fight. 

“Oh don’t be like that baby, you know you love it.” It would be a joke to lie at that. And there wouldn’t be even any use in pretending as his fingers slid over your legs, pushing them open, just enough for him to place his hand between them. Not moving, just placing it over your slit. Oh how badly you wanted to move your hips, any kind of friction would suffice. 

Then you realised, two could play that game. Without making Harry move, you leaned forward to put the popcorn down. You held in the moan that came when you finally felt his palm press against your clit. When you sat back down, you placed your hand on his thigh. Inch by inch you moved closer until you were palming him. The silhouette of his hard-on was unmistakable, it had been for days almost. It was truly impressive how long he managed to last. 

You held your hand there, just like he did yours. Anytime one of you moved, even the tiniest bit, the other would mirror. If you flinched your arm up, he would move his. If he moved, so did you. 

“You’re so wet for me,” he whispered into your ear. “I can feel it through two fucking layers. It’s almost pathetic.” Your walls clenched around nothing as you responded. Your warm breath hitting his lips. 

“As desperate as to how you’ve been so hard for me all this time, hmm? You can’t even leave the house babe.” The growl that those words of yours received made you weak. His hand left your body, but instead of letting go yourself, you adjusted your place so you could hold on to his length through his trousers. You could see how his jaw clenched at the unexpected feeling. 

“I bet you’re so ready to cum too, hmm, babe?” you asked, slowly moving your hand up and down, probably an inch at most. Harry didn’t respond. You stared into each other's eyes as you started to move again. Your hand was around his tip, about to move down again, but he grabbed your hand. 

What happened next went by in a flash. Harry pulled you in closer, his eyes will with sexual frustration, with dominance. 

“Take off those pants or I’ll rip them off you.” He said, and you didn’t dare quip back. Not if you were so close to the finish. You got up and pulled your pants and underwear down. Your eyes glued to how Harry licked his lips at your sight and pulled his cock out. The tip was already red and leaking precum. 

Your clothes had barely hit the ground when Harry pulled you back on top of him. You could feel him against your throbbing clit, but you didn’t move. And that was quickly rewarded when you felt Harry’s fingers slide over your soaked slit. He kissed your neck and you felt the vibrations of his moan as he continued. 

“Harry, please.” How good his fingers might feel, you needed more. And it all came to his amusement. 

“You’re so desperate, for my cock, aren’t you love? Hmm, so wet and needy?” He pulled his fingers out of you, they were glistening in your juice like the silver of the rings he was wearing.

“Fuck, you know it, but who made you this hard, hmm?” you said, thrusting your hips forward. You both moaned a whimper in unison. 

“Oh, it was 100% you. I can’t stop thinking about your sweet lips around my cock, or having my way with your tight cunt.” 

“So, what’s stopping you?” you cocked your head to the side, keeping your hip movements steady and on rhythm. “Fuck me, Harry.” 

“With pleasure,” He had already been holding his dick up, so all he had to do was position it right and you could slide onto him with ease. The moans that came from both your mouths as you felt each other were harmonious. It was absolute ecstasy. Harry held on to your hips as you moved up and down. Slowly at first, but you were so needy you couldn't bother to fuck around with teasing and quickly moved up the tempo. 

“Fuck, you feel so good around me,” He said, letting his head fall back, you felt a harsh pain on your ass he slapped it. “Don’t you dare cum.” 

“Was- fuck,” you moaned through your sentence as he trusted into you at the perfect time, “was gonna say the same to you.”  

[poppyseed799]

Does anyone else try rlly hard to think of what Pokémon you would have if Pokémon were real? Like, by looking at the random NPCs in the games and characters in the anime.

I don’t think I would be a Pokémon trainer. That seems like a slightly dangerous job, not too dangerous as 10 year olds do it but still like you would need to go explore a ton and I’m not up for that. I probably wouldn’t have a starter Pokémon then since those seem rare and are only given to special trainers.

So I think I would have like one Pokémon probably, and it would be one of those cute small ones. However I have many siblings so while only one Pokémon would belong to ME I’d probably LIVE with at least 3. I mean my family has a ton of pets so it just makes sense.

Speaking of irl pets, I’ve always had cats and my family loves them a lot, but I’m not really a fan of the existing cat Pokémon? Idk which ones my family would actually own. I could see maybe having a Glameow lmao. We also own a fish tank, and I think fish look really huggable so maybe we’d have a fish Pokémon too. Not sure which one. Maybe Barboach dude idk.

I have a sister who is always doing research on strange pets. She’s done extensive research on rats, axolotls, fish, and finally geckos which we actually got one (leopard gecko). So, I feel like in a Pokémon world she would do research on strange Pokémon and maybe we would have one. Not sure which one though, this is supposed to be about me not my siblings.

Now the big question is… do I care about regions? WHAT REGION AM I IN??? Sigh.. if we care about this, then I am from the USA, which is I guess Unova? But Unova is mostly New York… WAIT. I lived in New York once when I was little. Unova could work. What would I have then?? A Purrloin cuz cat??? I could actually see myself with a Patrat to be fair, I’m pretty observant and cautious lmao.

But the region I grew up with as a kid was Sinnoh. So I really feel like a Sinnoh Pokémon would fit, even though logically it wouldn’t. But man I kinda want it to be a Sinnoh Pokémon, almost all of my Pokémon toys as a kid were Sinnoh Pokémon!! Like legit off the top of my head I can only remember 3 that weren’t Sinnoh Pokémon (oddish pikachu and rayquaza) and we had a LOT of toys.

The toys I was closest with (I was one of those kids that was friends with inanimate objects) were Phione and Buizel. Phione is a bit much for some random kid I think, Buizel is doable though. I did really like water back then, though to this day I can’t swim. Buizel help me!!

Now personality quizzes. I took a uquiz to tell me my Pokémon partner and I got Cherrim I think lol. I actually had a Cherrim toy as a kid so that’s a bonus. I never played a Mystery Dungeon game myself, just watched my older sister play one, but going online and taking the latest MD quiz I got Pikachu… I do like electric types lol.

When I was a kid, I had a Minun toy, and my older sister had a matching Plusle toy. I just feel like those fit. They’re cute little animal Pokémon that random NPCs in a house could totally have, they’re Sinnoh just like my childhood, and I could totally see my sister and I with a Plusle and Minun today (me with Minun haha). The thing is though, we took our Pokémon to the beach, and Plusle, Minun, and Croagunk were all sunbathing together (far from the water), and while we weren’t looking, Minun was kidnapped. We were so upset like why only Minun, why not Plusle as well and why leave Croagunk, Minun toys were everywhere but noo you just HAD to take ours. It was a very upsetting moment, since the Minun was the only one of the 3 that was mine (the other 2 were my older sister’s). So, does this mean that, if Pokémon were real and I had a Minun, it would’ve been kidnapped at the beach? Cuz that’s just sad backstory. I guess with Team Rocket existing it can’t be too unrealistic. No wonder I’m so scared of people going missing at beaches.

My older sister’s first starter Pokémon was technically Starly since her first Pokémon game was Rangers (shadows of almia). I think that’s realistic enough for a little girl to have a starly. Our younger sister though in the first route (when she actually had pokeballs) of her first Pokémon game caught a shiny pidgey, soo, idk if we wanna make it so my sister was actually that lucky if Pokémon were real lol. Maybe we only saw a shiny one, or maybe we got it.

I think all of the Pokémon I had as my favorites as a kid are too cool for some random child unfortunately. Maybe I could’ve had a Ralts tho (Gallade was one of my favorites). Ralts isn’t too crazy but still not sure why I would have one aside from “mom can I pwease have a Ralts 🥺”

Then of course there’s the current day… man idk. It was hard enough thinking of which Pokémon I would’ve just grown up with. For my most recent birthday I got an Alcremie plush since I love Alcremie, maybe in a Pokémon world I would’ve instead got a Milcery so I could make my own Alcremie, since the reason I like Alcremie so much in the first place is cuz of all the different varieties? A whole Pokémon would be an epic birthday present. Unfortunately I would’ve quarantined the poor thing since that’s what I did when I got the toy.. hopefully I could make it up to the Milcery once the 3-day quarantine was over.

Anyways this is a post nobody cares about goodbye think about this yourself though

[gamerwoo]

Junhui: Oh, Positive (Part One)

Characters: Junhui x female reader

Genre/warnings: vampire/vampire hunter au, kinda angst but not really that angsty tbh, kinda crack thanks to flirty and sassy vampire!jun, lots n lots of cringey flirting

Word count: 2,163

Summary: As a vampire hunter, your job is pretty self-explanatory. But sometimes, the enemy has to become your ally, and that’s exactly what happens when you're ordered to track down Jun. To stop the coven of vampires that’re bringing up the death toll in Tokyo, you have to work with the thing you’re trained to kill -- assuming the two of you don’t kill each other in the process.

a/n: there will be more parts but i’m not sure how many which is why there isn’t a masterlist yet. this is just a lil idea i’ve had for a while sooooo it’s not really top priority so updates will probably be slow. but idk i wanted it out there (and yes i wrote this bc i love vampire!jun from that web series)

Next

“Don’t kill him, just capture him. Bring him back here when you do.”

Those stupid instructions kept repeating in your head. What was the point of capturing a vampire and not killing it? All vampires were bad. They killed humans. That’s why you existed. You were trained to kill them on sight, but now you were being told to show some sort of mercy. What sort of bullshit was that? 

But your boss gave you orders so you would follow them even if you didn’t agree with them.

It had taken a few days to figure out where to find this Jun. There were apparently a few places he hung around, so you were checking those places. It was well into 2am and most of the streets were empty. However, most vampires were known to linger in the alleyways of more crowded places, hoping to lure humans away to feed on them. So you stuck to the shadows, watching and listening carefully for any sign of--

‘Vampire.’

You froze as soon as you sensed it, knowing exactly where it was. You didn’t make it obvious you knew, but you stayed in your spot, slowly moving your head to seem like you were surveying the area. In reality, you knew it was perched on the fire escape above you, ready to pounce down on you.

But you were ready for that.

Just as it leaped down, you rolled out of the way, swiftly and smoothly pulling your knife out of its sheath. You were on your feet and running at the vampire quick enough to catch it off guard. Since you knew where it was, you had time to figure out your plan. So you tackled it to the ground, straddling it and holding your knife to its throat.

And lo and behold, it was just the vampire you were looking for. Jun looked up at you with a smirk, his eyes blood red as he eyed you up and down, licking his lips hungrily.

“Wasn’t expecting my dinner to be so quick on its feet,” he chuckled. “Shouldn’t have been so careless, I guess.”

“Shut up,” you stated boredly as you used your free hand to get the handcuffs from your belt.

“So what now?” he asked, ignoring your order. “Are you gonna kill me or whatever?”

“As much as I would like to,” you sighed as you began cuffing his hands together, “I have to take you somewhere.”

“Ooh, an adventure,” he grinned, wiggling his eyebrows as you managed to get off of him and tug him to his feet. “Just one question, sweetheart--”

“Don’t call me that.”

“Do you really expect some handcuffs to stop me?”

You rolled your eyes before looking at him, “Do you not know anything about vampire hunters?”

He shrugged, “Never been caught by one.”

“Well, those will keep you from running away. Now let’s go.”

You turned to walk away, but, of course, Jun had other ideas.

“Thanks but uh, I think going home with you after the first date is too early for me,” he said, miming tipping his hat to you. “Sorry, but this won’t work out. Please don’t contact me again. Bye!”

You knew vampires were quick. You knew Jun could easily get away and you wouldn’t catch him. You’d have to follow your instincts to find him again, but you knew he’d definitely be hiding pretty well for the rest of the night and probably for a few weeks at minimum. But you also knew how the handcuffs worked while Jun had no idea.

He was only a few feet from you when he shouted out in pain and had dropped to his knees. He was hissing as he stared at his wrists that had felt the painful shock, looking between them like he was trying to figure out a difficult math problem.

“Those’ll shock you if you’re a certain distance away from me,” you explained, “and it’s so painful that you can’t get away. So I suggest you keep up or you’re going to be in a lot of pain.”

“Look, I’m into pain, but this is too much,” Jun huffed with a small pout as you dragged him up off his knees and shoved him to walk in the direction you wanted him to. “Do I at least get a safe word?”

“Shut up,” you groaned.

“That’s a really shitty safe word.”

-

You wondered why you’d spent days trying to track down Jun when he was so obnoxious and annoying. The entire way back to headquarters was awful, containing him trying to flirt with you or make some sort of comment that walked the line between flirting and being a snarky asshole. Honestly, that seemed to be all he was capable of.

“I really wish I wasn’t told to not kill you,” you sighed halfway through.

“Well isn’t that unfortunate,” was all he replied to you with before he carried on with whatever he was saying before -- you weren’t paying attention, you’d learned very quickly to tune him out.

Once you were back at headquarters, you thought maybe Jun would shut up a little bit. You thought maybe being in a place full of top of the line vampire hunters would intimidate him into silence, but he seemed to not be fazed by anything at all. He had something to say to pretty much every person you walked past, and it got to a point where you were pretty positive every hunter in there wanted to kill him. The guy was just so annoying.

You finally reached the boss’s office. You knocked on the door three times as Jun leaned down and whispered, “Is this where I die? Because I’d like the heads up when it finally happens, y’know?”

You knew Jun definitely wouldn’t just take his death lying down. Hell, he probably had something up his sleeve to get out if he had to, he probably wanted to just see where this was going -- and you would be right about that because he figured he had nothing better to do. 

“I wish,” you mumbled as you heard your boss tell you to enter.

Opening the door and walking in, you went straight to the boss’s desk. Jun, however, decided to take his sweet ass time and look around the large room, his head tilting back as he looked all the way up at the ceiling and rolled his head around to look at the other side of the room. But being too far from you caused his cuffs to shock him, and he let out a surprised yelp.

“Are you kidding me?!” he demanded in annoyance.

You just silently snickered at him.

“I’m impressed you found him,” your boss, Jicheol noted as he stood up from his desk and observed Jun.

Hearing that familiar voice, Jun snapped his head down to look at the man behind the desk. His face spread into a smirk as he approached the desk, standing beside you.

“Ji, long time, no see,” he said casually as if they were old friends. “Been a while since you were trying to slaughter me. How’s the wife?”

“Dead,” Jicheol deadpanned.

Jun opened his mouth but nothing came out as he blinked, “Okay, not the reply I was expecting...”

“So what did I have to drag this pain in the ass here for?” you sighed, wanting to get this whole thing done and over with.

Jicheol grabbed his computer monitor with both hands and turned the screen to face you. It was an article about the death toll in Japan going up, and the worst of it seeming to stem from Tokyo. Nobody was able to figure out what it was, but the three of you knew exactly what was causing it.

“As you’re aware, _____, a powerful coven of vampires is ravaging Tokyo and spreading to the rest of Japan,” Jicheol began, looking between you and Jun. “Jun here is, unfortunately, one of the most infamous vampires in Korea for how hard he is to catch, and for how strong he is.”

“Thanks, chief,” Jun grinned.

You already hated where this was going.

“That’s why I want you to go with him to Tokyo--”

“Wait, wait, hold on,” Jun quickly interrupted. “Let’s go back to when you were just complimenting me, yeah? You ruined it with the whole ‘go to another country with this party pooper’ thing.”

Jicheol sighed, folding his hands together in front of him, “_____ is the strongest vampire hunter we have, but all the best in Japan have tried to catch this coven and have come up dead. If we want to stop them, we need the help of a strong vampire, too.”

“And why would I help vampire hunters?” Jun quizzed, raising an eyebrow. “You’ll just kill me when it’s over.”

“Maybe not...” Jicheol shrugged.

“What do you mean ‘maybe not’?” you demanded. 

“He could be useful to us if he chooses to cooperate with us for this. And if he chooses to stay with us, of course he’ll be spared his life, and we’ll provide protection, housing, and means of food.”

“We’re going to protect a vampire?” you clarified. “Jicheol--”

“Yeah, that seems counterproductive for a group of vampire hunters,” Jun agreed.

You rolled your eyes, grumbling, “Can you not interrupt me?”

“Can you get to your point faster then?” he countered.

Instead of speaking on your bickering, Jicheol sighed and continued, “It would be helpful to keep a few vampires on our side to weed out the difficult ones. Look, we could sit here all night and discuss rhymes and reasons but the faster I get the two of you to Tokyo, the faster we can fix this issue.”

“Do I get a negotiation?” Jun asked.

You snorted, glancing down at his handcuffed wrists before looking back at him, “I really don’t think you’re in a position for negotiating, bud.”

But instead, Jicheol replied with, “What kind of negotiation?”

Jun flashed a snarky grin your way before taking a step forward and clearing his throat, “I want protection for my brothers, too. That’s first and foremost.”

“How many?” Jicheol questioned, raising his eyebrows to show he was interested.

“Four.”

“Would they be willing to help?”

“...I can talk to them.”

Jicheol nodded, “Continue.”

“I want cool clothes like sweet cheeks over here,” Jun said, nodding his head toward you, “and I want a really nice umbrella so I can go outside during the day. And I want--”

“We can offer your friends protection,” Jicheol stated.

Jun nodded, stepping back, “Cool, thank you, sir.”

You looked incredulously between the two men, “So this is seriously happening?!”

“We’ll prepare the flight for tomorrow night,” Jicheol explained, essentially ignoring your comment, “so that gives Jun time to talk with his friends. _____, I would like if you accompanied him to make sure he doesn’t go anywhere.”

You wanted to tell Jicheol he was out of his goddamn mind if he thought sending you alone into five vampires was a reasonable idea, but the look on your face said it all. He simply said he knew you could handle it before carrying on.

“We’ll handle packing and such. We’ll equip you with everything you’ll need and everything that’ll help you. Please report back here tomorrow at midnight.”

“What do I do with him until tomorrow night?” you wondered.

“Take him with you,” Jicheol replied as if the answer was obvious.

You raised your eyebrows in surprise, “You-- Y-you want me to babysit a handcuffed vampire all day?”

Jicheol cocked his head, “Do you think you can’t handle it?”

“Of course I can!” you insisted immediately.

“Then what’s the issue, _____?”

You really wanted to snap at Jicheol and tell him to go fuck himself, but instead you just grumbled and turned sharply on your heels to leave. Jun giggled at your angry expression and began to follow after you.

“Goodbye, Jicheol!” he sang over his shoulder. “See ya later!”

“You two have fun,” Jicheol smirked playfully.

Jun sighed as he fell in step beside you, seeming more amused than ever now, “Oh, I’m positive we will. Isn’t that right, _____?”

You frowned, refusing to look at him, “Eat a dick.”

As the door closed behind you and the two of you walked down the hallway, Jun tisked, “I would watch your attitude around me or I just might end up eating you, sunshine.”

“I’d like to see you try, bloodsucker,” you shot back, glaring at him now. “I can kill you just as easy.”

He chuckled shaking his head as his voice dropped lower, “That’s not the kind of eating I meant.”

You cursed yourself for blushing -- and Jun definitely noticed because he was giggling about it -- and cursed Jicheol for getting you into this mess. But the sooner everything was over with, the sooner you didn’t have to deal with Junhui.

Tomorrow night really could not come faster.

[purplesurveys]

891

Could you live without power for a week? I wouldn’t die, but it would really suck because then I’d have to watch out for my phone’s and laptop’s battery life, plus it would be incredibly uncomfortable without electric fans and aircons...I wouldn’t die, but I’d hate it. When was the last time you slept on the floor? The day before I got sick. End of May.  Have you regretted anything you said today? No. I haven’t talked to anyone; it’s only 7:59 in the morning. What do you think about airport security? I think it’s essential. I understand why they have to be rigid; better that than not at all. How many doors are in your house? I just answered this on a recent survey, how interesting lol. 13.

Do you keep a journal? This is it. What was the last thing you wished for? A tray of baked sushi. Do you pray? No. Do you like it when your date pays, or do you feel bad? I feel bad, but I’m also appreciative. I only let her pay when I’m short, or when I’m craving a certain restaurant but don’t have the budget for it that day. Most of the time we prefer splitting the bill. Do you spoil your friends? Just my girlfriend.  Are cramped places scary? Not for the most part but my anxiety will sometimes get triggered. But what happens and what sucks about it is that it gets set off at the most random times, so I never really know when I’m bound to get scared. Would you ever consider riding in a trunk? If it was a dare and I’d be paid handsomely for it then I don’t see why not. Does it irritate you when a fellow passenger brings lots of luggage? No. Their business shouldn’t bother me. Ever been leeched by a leech? Nope. Have you ever lied to make someone dislike you? Why would I actively make someone dislike me? Ever had a fear of mirrors? No, I find them fascinating. All four walls in the elevators of the hotel that my mom works in are mirrors, and they’re fun to take photos with haha. What song can you not stop listening to? Right now it’ssssss no song without you - HONNE. Do you take vitamins? Yeah we take vitamin C tablets every night, but sometimes I’ll forget. What's the longest you've stayed at a hotel? A week. Do you buy your music or download? I stream them on Spotify. I used to either buy CDs (usually if I was a big fan of the artist/band) or convert YouTube audio to MP4 to transfer it to my iTunes. Do any of your friends grow weed? No. Not that I know of, at least. Do you like arguing? I don’t like fighting, but if by arguing you mean having a respectful and civil debate then yes, those are fun. Does it bother you when people don't say goodbye before hanging up? It doesn’t really bother me? It just confuses me haha. I need a verbal cue to know when I can hang up. If the person on the line doesn’t say bye I’ll just linger on the phone waiting until it starts to feel awkward and I go initiate the bye instead. Have you ever owned an unlucky object? I don’t believe in those. Do you think voodoo works? No but it’s funny to think about sometimes, in a childish way. What habit do you find most disgusting? I really hate seeing people spit in public. Usually it’s truck drivers or their co-drivers. I always encounter at least one spitter while driving everyday, and it has never failed to make me shudder. Do you often feel ignored? It’s not a strong feeling, no. Can you read music? This is on every survey lately... no I can’t.

Are you optimistic? Sometimes. I think I’m a healthy balance of that and pessimism. Does it scare you to walk over sewer vents in the street? Yes. I always avoid them or skip over them, especially the ones that are already obviously unstable and wobble when someone steps on them. Is your lifestyle healthy or unhealthy? Unhealthy. I don’t watch what I eat and I’ve never entered a gym. But idk, the genes on my mom’s side are impressive and all of us have decent physiques and never get sick – my grandma is 74 but can honestly pass for 50 – so I must’ve taken after that side of the family. Is it easy for you to remember stuff? Yeah, very. Except for numbers. Last electronic object you drowned? That has never happened to any of my gadgets, fortunately. How well do you handle responsibility? Depends how comfortable I am with the task at hand and how much I already have on my plate, if ever. But I never not get anything done. I’m very deadline-driven and everyone who knows me knows I turn in everything asked of me at the end of the day, even if I don’t think I did well enough. Are you afraid of getting old? Sometimes I’ll start to get scared at how short life actually is and what can possibly happen after it, but these are fleeting thoughts. I like living in the present. What's something you wish you could start over? College. Just so I can do my freshman year the way I actually wanted it to go. Are you a loud person? In certain situations. I love being loud with my friends in a bar or when we’re at an amusement park, but I prefer that we don’t make a ruckus at the mall or at a restaurant. Do you believe in guns? No. I honestly don’t understand those who buy it for themselves when they can get other weapons if they’re really hell-bent on self-defense. But idk, I guess I’m speaking from a place (like, a literal place lol) where it’s extremely uncommon for ordinary people to get themselves guns. Are porcelain dolls attractive, or scary? Neither. I just find them a little unsettling, but not scary. Are you friends with someone because you feel bad for them? Not currently. But one time I did try to befriend someone who would be considered a loner, but I realized we had different personalities and interests so I stopped talking to her after a while. Oops. Do you like back rubs? No, I’m ticklish. Do you give good ones? No.

Which of your friends provides the most stimulating conversations? All of them do, to tell the truth. I guess I’m just automatically drawn to intelligent people haha. Do you wish to go to London? It’s not high up on my list but eh, sure. Have you ever felt like you were in a movie? No. I feel that movies are outlets for situations that would never happen in real life, so I’ve never felt as if I was in one. Do you drink enough water daily? I don’t drink the ~recommended~ amount but I still the drink the most in my family. Is burning things fun? I’d rather watch other people burn things. I’m scared of fire, so.

Do you like morbid things? Some. Can you sew? Nope. Have you ever just sat and read a dictionary? Oh my god yeah... after I watched Akeelah and the Bee for the first time I wanted to start joining spelling bees too, so I’d whip out my dictionary almost everyday and start reading the words. There were never any competitions to join here, but from 4th to 7th grade we would have spelling quizzes in our English language class and I aced all of those. Whose cooking do you most despise? No one’s. I love the cooking of all my loved ones. When you were little, did your parents make you sit in the corner? No but in school they made me do it once, for something that wasn’t my fault. My parents didn’t have any methods to discipline me because I was mostly a well-behaved kid anyway. Red roses, or black roses? Red. Do you blast your music concert-loud? I used to. Don’t really do it anymore. Do any of your exes bother you? Nope. Do you like taking pictures of yourself? Hell no. The camera has never been my friend. How about just taking pictures? I like taking photos of my dogs, my best friends, the food I eat, and new places I go to. So to an extent, I do. I don’t dabble in photography though; I just like taking snapshots.

Is cheaper really better? Sometimes, especially when you’re naturally good at hunting down that kind of stuff. My sister will sometimes find Zara jeans or jackets for like ₱80 at an ukay-ukay lol Last thing you ordered from Amazon? I’ve never ordered anything off of Amazon. Or do you prefer ebay? Never ordered from eBay either. Are you good at writing cards for people? I love writing letters for my loved ones. I never buy cards that already have text in them as I want the whole thing to come from me. Do you like camping? I’ve never tried it so I wouldn’t know. I want to go camping at least once though, and with my best friends. Last place you were stranded? The highway. Do you like dragonflies? Omg no they freak me outtt. How many pages is the novel you're currently reading? I’ve started to reread Little Women because I’m planning to watch the 2019 adaptation, but I’m not sure how many pages it has. What's something everybody's never heard of? The sound of a tree falling in the middle of the jungle that no person is currently in. Hahaha that was my philosophy professor’s favorite example to use. Are your talents recognized? I think they are, yes. Can you handle silence for long periods of time? Only if I need it. Otherwise it tends to make me uneasy. Do you do well against temptation? For the most part, yep. But if food is involved I usually fail lol

[forehead-enthusiast]

A Buncha Tag Games (and yet not all of them)

tagged by: @eggyukhei mwah

tagging: this is a LOT of games so i’ll only tag @atinyphobe @nsheetee and @veonjun for the SECOND (2nd) game. if they or anybody wants to do any of the other games, absolutely go for it and say i tagged you <3 i’d love to see what you guys say!! (also, tk if you felt like you wanted to answer my questions from the second game i’d be interested to see!)

One:

tell me the first song that made you stan your current fave group and why did your faves attract you so much?

ok SO the song that probably got me into rv 100% (also yes ik this blog is 99% nct but rv is my forever fave no question) was probably ice cream cake!! i had been a casual listener of many groups up until that point and had never really stanned anyone, but icc was so infectious i found myself watching it over and over. i had heard happiness and be natural before but hadn’t really listened too closely, so icc was the song that captured me. after that, dumb dumb only cemented my love for them more, and the red is still one of my favorite kpop albums to date. rv attracted me primarily because of their incredible vocals and their versatility in genres and concepts. i still get so excited wondering what they’ll tackle next!! they’re just soooo unique and have one of, if not the best discographies of any group. i cannot stress enough, I. Love. RV!! also they’re funny and gay so. anyway stream monster once it drops uwu

Two:

rule: answer the ten questions and write your own!

1. what is your favorite song that’s been released during quarantine? ooooo honestly??? probably something off of Sawayama. literally every song bangs so hard i highly recommend that album to anyone!! i can’t pick a favorite off it but who’s gonna save you now is awesome and xs is just,,, chef’s kiss

2. what is your greatest mishap when you tried cooking? (or something you’ve witnessed) one time, while making soup at my late grandmother’s house on her like gas stove, i put a lid on a pot and somehow that led the pot to be engulfed in flames. IN MY DEFENSE i was like 7, and i’m great at cooking/baking now

3. what’s your go-to outfit or article of clothing? oh i love a nice dress. they can be casual or formal, and you look like you put effort into your outfit except i didn’t because i didn’t have to match anything yo!!!! also shorts have trouble fitting me cause i’m a weird body type so dresses tend to be very comfy for me

4. what is your comfort food? am i allowed to say like all food??? eating in itself is comforting,,, that sounds depressing but also i just like eating yummy food. i guess i’d say like my dad’s fried rice?? its my fave and no one makes it like him soooo

5. what singular moment in your life would you like to relive? i couldn’t tell if this meant like, a good moment you want to re-experience or go back in time and redo a moment and fix it. it’s kind of a hard question so i might cop out and go with a bit of a silly answer: i want to relive the hi touch with astro...... i wanna look at rocky’s beautiful eyes and touch moonbin’s hand ok,,,,

6. what is your favorite line and/or character from a movie, show, or book? i got a bunch but a few off the top of my head are genie lo (the epic crush of genie lo), ty lee, suki (atla), klaus, and ben (umbrella academy) 

7. if you could only choose one ice cream flavor and pizza topping/style for the rest of your life, what would it be? ice cream flavor: this very specific one from a local store that is banana ice cream with strawberries and oreo mixed in. it is heaaaavenly. as for pizza topping, i love a breakfast type pizza with an egg on top and like sausage and stuff!!!

8. what is the worst injury you’ve ever had or witnessed? funny enough, i’ve actually gotten badly injured quite a few times, and always on the face!! god hates me. the worst was probably when i hit a metal bench with my face and it took a chunk out of my cheek. i still have the scar! as for “witnessed” i accidentally broke a grown man’s rib once as a child, so i guess that would count.

9. would you rather explore the unknown of space or the bottom of the ocean? oceaaaan!! i answered this in some other game, but i like how mysterious and yet close the ocean is. like proximity wise it’s so near, yet there’s an insane amount we know nothing about. that’s so frightening but so intriguing

10. if you could be any cartoon character, who would you be? my first thought was literally “kirby. eat fast” GOD my followers are gonna think i’m just a glutton and they’re not even gonna be wrong im dying. but uhh idk mulan or smth?

my questions:

what is your go-to feel good movie?

are you the type of person who’s indecisive about buying, or the type to impulse buy once you see something you like?

do you prefer chocolate-y or fruity candy?

what idol do you think is most similar to you? (not your bias necessarily)

do you have any silly dealbreakers? if so, what are they?

what do you do to unwind?

what is a small thing you like to do for people you love? (be it sending memes, remembering their favorite shows, etc)

what’s/who’s your favorite myth/mythological being?

what is a non-typical pet you would want to have?

do you say pronounce data as day-ta or dah-ta?

THREE

rule: bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people. 

AIR ༉⋆͙̈

i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see the dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / i’m valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE ༉⋆͙̈

i don’t have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing

WATER ༉⋆͙̈

i wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercings / i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep past midday most days / i love simply lit dinners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words

EARTH ༉⋆͙̈

i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love this chill of mountain air / i’m always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER ༉⋆͙̈

i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and time / i always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass by / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally

FOUR

the ultimate tag: answer whichever ones you want to because there are a lot and then tag a few blogs you’d like to get to know better! 

PERSONAL

name: sarah

nickname: bells

birthday: april 17th

zodiac: aries

nationality: chinese american

languages: english, some spanish, some korean

gender: female

sexuality: baby bi bi bi~

height: 5′10

BLOG STUFF

inspiration for muse: i suppose nct since i write for them the most?? but i feel like sometimes i come up with the idea before i think of a member so sometimes the muse is just my own fantasies oops

meaning behind my url: i made it at a time where loads of idols were getting bangs and honestly i believe most of them look infinitely better without them, thus i was and still am enthusiastic about foreheads.

blog established: like winter of 2018...?? i think

followers: over 2.5k but most deactivated/left during my hiatus lol

FAVORITES

favourite animals: sharks, chickens, snakes, cats, penguins

favourite books: the epic crush of genie lo and then iron will of genie lo, PERIOD

favourite colour: pink and purple!!

favourite fictional characters: lol, again, genie lo, ty lee, suki, klaus, ben, and just a few more: richard and evelyn o’connell (the mummy), dave (dave), michael (the good place)

favourite flower: sunflower

favourite scent: baking chocolate, heating butter, blackberry, wisteria

favourite season: probably spring! i like warmth but not HEAT

RANDOM

average hours of sleep: ugh idek i sleep horribly

cats or dogs: both, but unfortunately i’ve never had either

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: tea but then hot chocolate

current time: 5:29pm

dream trip: go to paris and eat loads of pastries and enjoy the fashions and beauty of the city, and also learn to bake better maybe?

dream job: actress

hobbies: making jewelry, drawing, singing, reading comics

hogwarts house: according to the quizzes, all of them. people who have just met me think slytherin or gryffindor, people who i’m friends with think ravenclaw or hufflepuff, people who know me really well know you can’t box a person into oversimplified archetypes :’) in my assessment of myself, it varies by the day, but i think perhaps gryffindor today?

last movie watched: hot fuzz (a classic)

last song listened to: summer breeze by sf9

no. of blankets you sleep with: like 2

random fact(s): i won lego building competitions as a child, one of my dream roles is anastasia from the musical named after her, i played violin for a very short time, i bake the cakes for all my family and friends’ birthdays, i have strangely strong grip strength

SIX

10 songs i can’t stop listening to:

love me 4 me- rina sawayama

cherry- rina sawayama

in & out- red velvet

crush culture- conan gray

manic- conan gray

the king- conan gray

summer- pentagon

told you now- jeremy jordan (originally sung by sam smith)

fuck this world (interlude)- rina sawayama

someone who loves me- sara bareilles

[forzalando]

Cry Over You ~ Sirius Black

ok wow well uh i got a request for a young sirius black imagine and well you can read the request below but holy shit i went way too wild with it and I don’t know if i even like this, but it will absolutely be a multi-chapter fic. most likely 2 parts, but maybe 3 if i’m feeling crazy. i hope you enjoy all the angst and sadness idk why i was in such a dark mood tonight. i love you all :)

Request: fangirl668 said:

Hi, Can you do a young Sirius Black imagine where the reader is best friends with the boys and she likes Sirius but he doesn't know. Maybe based in a lesson?

Pairing: Sirius x Reader, Remus x Reader (platonic/best friends)

Y/N: Your Name

WARNINGS!!!!!!: mentions and descriptions of a panic attack, character alluding to non-con with reader, swearing, angst, sadness in general

Word Count: 2.8k

this is also unedited, so if you see any blatant mistakes, PLEASE let me know!! 

His laughter rang throughout the common room and caused everyone to turn their head and look at him. It wasn’t uncommon; every time he walked into a room or opened his mouth to speak, every person turned to look at him.

Sirius Black just had that effect on people; he was the sun and everyone else was a satellite, gravitating towards him even if they didn’t realize it.

Oh, but he did. Sirius Black knew that people watched him everywhere he went and he seemed like he found it to be quite amusing; at least, that’s what he told you, James, Remus, and Peter once when the five of you were sitting around the fireplace late at night chatting after sharing a bottle of stolen firewhiskey. However, James, Remus, and Peter went up to bed not long after and left you and Sirius alone in the common room. It was then when he told you that the attention was not flattering, but that it bothered him a great deal. He had expressed to you how none of the people that stare at him know who he truly is. You recalled how he had let his shoulders droop as he whispered how he was nothing but a pretty face. After reassuring him he was so much more, he kissed your forehead and went up to his dorm to join his roommates in slumber.

That night, that seemingly insignificant night in your fourth year at Hogwarts, was the night you realized truly just how much you cared for your best friend.

He had never been just a pretty face to you. Quite honestly, he had never been just a friend to you either. From the moment your cousin James introduced you to him in your first year, Sirius Black had awakened something inside of you.

You were brought back from memories of the past when a familiar voice interrupted your thoughts.

“Y/N? I’ve asked you how long Veritaserum takes to mature three times now, are you alright?”

You shook your head quickly, trying to bring yourself to reality and rid your mind of all things Sirius Black.

“I’m fine, Remus, I just got caught up in thinking I guess.”

“Oh? Were you thinking about anyone in particular?” Remus said with a smirk on his face accompanied by a raised eyebrow.

“Shove off, Moony, we need to study for potions.”

“Hey, I’m not the one who was sitting here daydreaming about their crush when there is an exam coming up!”

“Veritaserum takes a full lunar phase to mature. Next question please!”

Thankfully, Remus went right back to quizzing you and didn’t press you about why you had become distracted. It wasn’t like he would have had to question you to find out; both he and James have known about your feelings since second year. James had caught you absentmindedly doodling Sirius’s name with a heart around it in your transfiguration notes, and Remus knew you better than you knew yourself. Hell, he was the one who made you realize that your feelings for Sirius were quite far from friendly.

When the two of you were finally finished with your revising, you were bombarded by James and Sirius.

“Bloody hell, we thought the two of you would never finish. Sirius and I have been sitting in the corner for hours, bored out of our minds, waiting for the two of you to finish your little nerd session.”

“Speak for yourself, Prongs, I had McKinnon making sex eyes at me from across the room. I was quite entertained and I’m sure when she’s waiting for me in my bed I’ll be even more entertained.”

Although you had to listen to him talk about his physical relationships quite often, his words never failed to give you the feeling of a dull knife hacking away at your chest.

As always, James and Remus clapped him on the back and congratulated him, but you knew that they would shoot you looks of pity when Sirius wasn’t paying attention to you.

“So, while the two of you were stuffing your already massive brains with knowledge, Prongs and I came up with a brilliant new prank and we need the help of our wonderful best friends, who just so happen to be prefects!” Sirius said as he clapped his hands together in excitement.

“Oh, really?” You said as your hand went instinctively to your hip. “Please, share with us this ‘brilliant’ plan, Mr. Padfoot.”

“Well, Prongs and I stumbled across some information this afternoon. Supposedly, the Slytherin Quidditch team is having a late night practice on this very day. Prongs and I have decided that it would be rather exciting to use the cloak to break into the locker rooms and douse their school robes with itching powder. Brilliant, eh?”

Remus rolled his eyes and tried to hide the small smile that threatened to surface. You, however, were less subtle with your amusement. You clapped a hand over your mouth to stifle your laughter; the thought of seeing the members of the Slytherin Quidditch team unable to stop itching was a sight you couldn’t wait to see.

“Alright, Padfoot,” you began to say, “albeit it is a bit childish, it is also brilliant. What do the two of you need from Moony and I while you and James go on this adventure?”

This time, it was James who spoke up to answer your question.

“We just need you and Moony to vouch for us. Padfoot and I will undoubtedly be the prime suspects, so we need the two of you to say that you didn’t see us during your rounds tonight. It’s a simple, brilliant plan that will certainly turn out successful with the help of you two.”

You and Remus agreed almost immediately. While you preferred to stay out of trouble, and had so far remained an unknown accomplice of the Marauders, you could never say no when your best friends came asking for behind the scenes help with their infamous pranks.

As usual, James and Sirius completed their mission without fault, and when Professor McGonagall barged into Gryffindor common room that night just as late prefect rounds had ended, you and Remus could say with sincerity that neither of you had seen James and Sirius wandering the halls, even when asked to ingest a drop of veritaserum. As far as technicalities go, saying you didn’t see them wasn’t a lie since the boys had been hidden under the cloak.

James and Sirius thanked you and Remus profusely when they were not given detention for their handiwork, and before the boys went up to bed, they hugged you tight and bid you goodnight. But, Sirius lingered and waited until Remus and James were halfway up the stairs before he left a sweet kiss on your cheek and whispered goodnight in your ear, just as he had done every night for the past five years.

The next morning, you woke up in an unusually happy mood, despite the gloomy, grey skies that cast a somber shadow over the earth. You quickly threw on your robes and grabbed your school bag before hurrying towards the Great Hall, anxious to see the effects of the prank James and Sirius had pulled last night.

As you were walking briskly through the halls, the angry tone of a voice you knew all too well caused you to change your destination from the Great Hall to the empty corridor that was to your left.

You poked your head around the corner to see Sirius and a beater from the Slytherin Quidditch team engaged in a heated argument. Sirius’s back was facing you, but you could see the face of the Slytherin student and, Merlin, did he look steaming.

“Don’t lie to me, Black, I know it was you and Potter that snuck into the locker rooms last night,” growled the stocky Slytherin seventh year.

“I’m flattered that you think so, and honestly I’m a bit disappointed in myself for not thinking of this particular idea. The sight of you not being able to stop scratching your arse is quite comical. When the culprit is found, I’ll be sure to let them know how much I admire their work.”

“You’re an absolute moron, Black. This has you written all over it, and I will make sure that you and James are properly dealt with for your antics.”

“Blimey, you’re shit out of luck mate. McGonagall already investigated last night and our names aren’t even on the suspect list. The prefects doing late rounds didn’t see either of us in the halls, and we bloody well can’t turn invisible now can we?”

“The prefects on duty last night aren’t reliable, they’re both a part of your stupid friend group, the Wanderers or the Memorables, or whatever you idiots call yourselves!”

“Wrong again, they both elected to take veritaserum to ensure that they weren’t lying about seeing anyone wandering the halls during their late night rounds! Are you done with me yet, I’m missing breakfast and I’m quite cranky when I’m unfed.”

The Slytherin beater shook his head in disbelief and was about to turn to walk away, but something caused a sinister smirk to appear on his face.

“Say, Black, wasn’t Y/N on late prefect rounds last night?”

You saw Sirius’s posture straighten and stiffen before he answered the question.

“Yes, she was. Why?”

“Well, I don’t know about you, but I’d love a late night round with her if you know what I mean. Last I heard, she’s very much a single lass.”

“You must be joking, mate. She despises the entirety of Slytherin House.”

The look on the Slytherin’s face grew far more sinister as he took a step closer to Sirius.

“You’d be surprised how persuasive I can be, Black. You’re not always around her, you know.”

Your eyes widened and your mouth became bone dry as he taunted Sirius. While you wanted to move from your hiding place and shout hex after hex at the disgusting beater, your feet seemed to be frozen to the ground. Still, you weren’t worried, you knew Sirius would defend you and probably send the insignificant Slytherin to the hospital wing. However, he did the exact opposite of what you expected.

“I know I’m not always around her; bloody glad about it, too, she can be a bit much. It’s a shame she’s James’s cousin otherwise I would act like she doesn’t exist. She still hides love notes in my bag and she thinks I don’t know it’s her. You spend one night with the girl and she suddenly thinks we’re destined for marriage. If you’re looking for a ‘revenge fuck’ that you think would piss me off, you’ve got the wrong girl and you’d be wasting your time because I honestly don’t care enough about her. Plus, she’s an awful shag, take it from someone who knows.”

Your chest felt so tight you thought it might burst, and you didn’t notice that tears were steadily falling from your eyes until you bumped into someone who asked why you were crying, but you didn’t stop to see who it was. You ran straight to the Gryffindor common room, shouted the password to the Fat Lady, and sank to the floor in front of the couch in a fit of sobs.

The words of Sirius Black swirled around in your head. The thought of the emotionless, detached tone of his voice sent chills through you. It hurt to think, it hurt to breathe, and you knew that your limbs were too weak to carry you up the stairs so that you could cry in the comfort of your dorm. The only thing you were thankful for was the fact that lessons had started, and you would have the common room to yourself for at least the next two hours. At least, that’s what you thought.

The door to the common room flung open but you couldn’t be bothered to look who it was. They sat in front of you and you could hear them saying “you need to breathe” over and over again, but you couldn’t calm down or stop the fast, sharp intakes of breath that made you feel light-headed. Your eyes were looking anywhere but the person, so they placed their hands upon your cheeks and turned your head so that you were looking into their eyes. The familiar green eyes of Remus Lupin sent a wave of calmness through you, and soon your breathing patterns were in sync with the timing of their words: “in and out, in and out”.

Once your breathing had returned to normal and tears were no longer steadily flowing from your eyes, you were pulled into Remus’s arms while he stroked your hair and whispered facts from a book he was currently reading.

You could tell Remus wanted to know what was wrong, but was too afraid to ask, so while you had the strength to do so, you interrupted his muttering of facts and the events of the morning came spilling from your lips. When you finished, Remus’s arms tightened around you in a protective manner and you could feel heat radiating off of him due to his anger.

“I’ll kill him. I swear I’ll kill him.” Remus growled.

You turned to look at Remus, and a fresh wave of tears began the trek down your red cheeks as you opened your mouth to speak.

“Why?”

That was the only word you spoke, and although it was an open-ended and ambiguous question, Remus knew what you were asking.

Why would he say those things?

Why would he lie?

Wow would he talk about you like that?

But, the question that burned the most, the question that you desperately desired an answer to, was why, or rather how, Sirius could say that you meant nothing to him.

Why would he say that he didn’t care?

As you remained in Remus’s arms, asking him the question of why over and over again, your tears soaked his sweater until you fell asleep. He carried you up to the boy’s dorm before students would be arriving back to the common room and tucked you into his bed. He kissed your forehead and filled the empty glass on his dresser with water before closing the curtain and muttering charms that would keep anyone who entered the room from hearing you.

Even though you were asleep, the horrifying words of Sirius Black replayed in your mind over and over again.

Hours later, you were woken up by voices and the slamming of a door. You sat up in Remus’s bed and listened to the sound of him arguing with Sirius.

“Sirius, I swear, if you don’t walk away right this second you’ll regret it.”

“I have to talk to her, Remus, you don’t understand. I have to explain.”

“You don’t have to do anything but leave the room right now or I’ll let James have you. I should have let him beat you senseless but unfortunately, my prefect duties require me to break up brawls between students. Leave the room. Now.”

Sirius didn’t say anything to defend himself, but after a moment you heard Remus shout ‘STOP’ right before the curtains surrounding his bed were ripped away and the only barrier between you and Sirius was gone.

Your eyes locked with his grey ones, but before he had a chance to speak, you were running out of the boy’s dormitory and down the stairs to the common room.

He was running behind you, chasing after you, and it didn’t take him long at all to catch up. His hand reached out to grab your arm, and the instant he touched you, you whirled around and smacked him hard on his cheek.

“Take your hand off of me. Now. I don’t want to hear anything you have to say. I don’t want to hear your explanations, I don’t want to hear you say you were trying to protect me, I don’t want to hear the sound of your voice. Don’t speak to me, don’t look at me, pretend I don’t exist. That’s what you’ve always wanted to do, isn’t it?”

You shook your arm free of him and left him standing at the bottom of the stairs that led to the girl’s dormitory. He couldn’t follow you, but he stood and watched as you climbed the stairs until you were out of his sight.

You don’t know why you did, but before you opened the door that would lead you to your own room, you looked back at him.

His head was in his hands and his shoulders were shaking. You immediately thought that he was crying, but dismissed the idea just as quickly as it crossed your mind.

Sirius Black wouldn’t ever cry over you, but as sure as the sun would rise each day, you would cry over him.

[flirting-with-psychology]

survey by xxbieberburnham

A - Accidents Have you ever been in a car accident? No

Do you have a lot of scars? Some 

Have you been in a fist fight with someone? No

Have you ever seriously hurt someone by accident? Not that I know of, but I have minorly hurt people by accident

Have you ever had stitches? Yes

B - Beauty Would consider yourself beautiful? It comes and goes. Not really lately

Are you self consicous of how you look? Yes

Do you wear a lot of make up? Not a ton, and none right now when I’m stuck at home all the time

Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? I’ve thought about it a little but probably not

What do you think makes a person beautiful? It’s subjective and even for my opinion, it’s hard to give hard rules to it, they just either are or they’re not

C - Consequences What is the longest you’ve been grounded for? Probably a few weeks

What would you do if you became pregnant? Get an abortion

Do you ever think about how your actions affect people? Sometimes

What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? Something permanent, like permanently disabling me or killing someone I love

What is one thing you wish you didn’t do because it wasn’t worth it? Idk

D - Dealing When you’re mad at someone how do you show it? I can get passive aggressive with my boyfriend, with my parents I argue with them

Name a time when you had to be strong. When I had braces

Have you ever dealt with divorce? My parents got divorced

When people don’t accept you, how do you react? Get self conscious and probably more boring and awkward

Have you ever lost someone to death? Yes, my grandpa, my cats, and some more distant family members

F - Family Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Most of my extended family I don’t talk to much just because we never got close

If you had to choose: friends or family? Family

Do you have any siblings? No

How often do you spend quality time with your family? More than I would like

G - Growing How tall are you? Do you wish you were taller or shorter? I’m 5′6″ and I like my height

Do you think you’ve grown up in the past year? No

Do you think you’re mature for your age or still childish? Still childish

Are you scared to think that one day you’ll turn 30, then 40 & 50? Yes, it feels like I’m running out of time

Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? Yeah

H - Hope Love - real or not? Real

Are you a pessimist or an optimist? I’d say I’m a stressimist - I hope for the best but I have too much anxiety

Do you believe in fate or that everything happens for a reason? No

Do you believe that after we die, your spirit is still alive? Probably not

What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? That things will change

I - Idols Who is your idol? I don’t really have one

What makes this person an idol to you? - Has this person done anything good to help other people? - Does this person have good style? - What does this person do for a living? - J - Jokes Tell me an inside joke between you and your friends. Blender

Are you usually the person to make people laugh or the other way around? Other people make me laugh

Do you cry when you laugh hard? Not usually

Do you get in trouble for laughing or talking in class? Like once or twice ever

Are you good at making jokes? Sometimes

K - Knowledge The prupose of school: learn, hang with friends or cause trouble? Learn and develop a social life

Do people refer to you as dumb, smart or average? School smart but street dumb

What kind of grades do you usually get? As in high school, As and Bs in college

What is your favorite subject to learn or talk about? Science, lately

L - Love Are you currently in love? Not quite

Do people around you show a lot of love? Some do

Is love worth it? Yes

Do you hate it when people say “I love you” & they’ve been dating for a day? It’s a little weird

Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone or is it just a word? It depends

M - Money Do you believe money makes the world go round? Currently yes

How much money do you have on you now? Like $15 in cash

Are you saving up for anything? Not really

Would you rather win 1 million dollars or find true love? Right now in my life, probably a million dollars. I would like true love at some point but I’m not ready for it yet and a million dollars would really improve my situation

On a scale 1-10, how important is money to you? 8

N - Nothing to lose Would you ever go on a game show? Maybe but probably not

Do you play the lottery? Yeah

Ever been to Las Vegas? Yes

Have you ever made a bet and then lost? Not major

Do you give your all in a relationship? I think so

O - Openess How long does it take you to open up with someone? It depends. And it’s gradual

What does it take for you to fully trust someone? A lot apparently

Do you trust people too easily? In some ways. I trust strangers to be honest too easily

Are you comfortable with everyone? No

Do you tell your parents and friends everything? Most things

P - Positive Is your outlook on life positive or negative? Negative lately

Have you ever had a moment with someone & it didn’t end positively? Several times

Do you agree with: best to have loved than never loved at all? Yeah

Do you see most things as negative or positive? Depends

Has anything bad happened but something good came from it? Some. In college there was one night where I went home early from a dance because a guy I liked didn’t like me back, but I came home at exactly the right time to meet a different guy (it didn’t work out with him but we became good friends)

Q - Questions When faced with a problem, do you solve it on your own or ask for help? Usually ask for help

Do you like to take quizzes? Yes

If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? Why are the democrats being such cowards to the republicans?

When someone does something wrong do you ask them about it or let it go? Depends on how well I like them

Do you own plaid shorts? Don’t think so

R - Respect How do you show respect for someone? Idk, being polite

What can someone do to lose respect for them? Be a jerk or a huge idiot

Do you respect your parents, teachers or authority? I respect my parents although I don’t always show it, and I respect most teachers. I show respect for authority most of the time but I don’t always feel it

If you’re disrespectful to your parents, whats your punishment? Getting yelled at mostly, sometimes getting things or privileges taken away

If someone is mean to you, are you mean back? I can be passive aggressive

S - School If you’re still in school, what grade will you be going into? I’m done with school When will you graduate high school/college? I graduated college in 2017

After high school, what do you plan on doing? I planned on going to college and I did

Do you like or hate school? I liked school and I wish I could go back

Have you ever been expelled or suspended? No

T - Temptation Have you ever done something wrong but inside it was okay? I have justified things to myself

Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Not really

Did you ever cheat on someone? No

Do you give into temptation easily or are you independent? I give in very easily to snacks, shopping, and procrastination 

U - Unique Do you do a lot of things because your friends are? Not really, my friends don’t do enough things so I often have to go off on my own

Do you follow trends or do whatever you want? Maybe a little but only if I like the trend, otherwise I don’t

Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Depends. If I have strong feelings about it then no but if I’m neutral then I go along to fit in

What makes you different from people your age? I still want to be doing college things

V - Value What’s the most expensive thing in your room? My laptop

What’s more valuable: your life or the ones around you? My life, sorry I’m selfish

What’s something you value? Not because it’s expensive but it means a lot? Sentimental stuff, I can never throw anything away

If there was a fire in your house/apartment what would you grab? My laptop, my crush log, my favorite stuffed animals

Do you think the past or future is more valuable? The future

W - Wishes If you had three wishes, what would they be? Shapeshifting powers, unlimited money, immune to disease

Would you rather wish yourself to be happy or others? Myself

Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe? Not just from believing

Have you ever had a wish come true? Yes

Do you find wishing on things to be a waste of time? No, it doesn’t take much time

Y - You Are you more independent or social? In between. I’m more social than my introverted friends but more introverted than my social friends

What’s something that makes you mad when you see it? Customers putting things back in extremely wrong places

Do you have potential to do anything you want? I don’t feel like it lately

Do you believe people are born a certain way? In some ways

What color are your eyes? Brown

Z - Zest Are you currently happy with your life? No

When change occurs, do you get scared? Usually

Do you like to try new things or meet new people? In theory and sometimes in practice

What is the most motivational thing on earth? Having a passion

Do you have a motto? Carpe diem?

Last questions Do you hate how the letters on the keyboard aren’t in ABC order? Not anymore

Do you drink water? Yes

What did you have for breakfast? Toad in the holes

Do you like convertibles? They’re cool to ride in every so often, but I wouldn’t want to own one

Do you like the American or British way of spelling words? American

What colors are on your country’s flag? Red, white, and blue

Can you skateboard? Not even a little bit

Do you like long hair? Yes on girls, sometimes on guys if they know how to take care of it. I like having it on me

Do you like Fiber One bars? No

What does your sleeping bag look like? Gold outside, red plaid inside

Do you like to save your results after a survey? I have a survey tag

Do you like Sour Patch Kids? Yes If you could have your own show, what would it be about? Maybe something like Black Mirror where each episode is a different concept

Ever rode on a jet? Yes

[unproduciblesmackdown]

6:15am Gripes Post lads!! 🥂

im in one of those things where something innocuous bugs me for days b/c its just a personal irritation...i saw something for like a book or a game on twitter & it was like “this is about being a teenager” and it looked like it was about the kind of teenagerdom where you hang out with your friends after school & have a few romantic partners where it doesn’t all go smoothly because youre both inexperienced and havent figured things out enough to have a really healthy mature relationship but its complicated and there’s good things in there too so its all just a mixed bag and classic teenager

anyways theres nothing wrong with that in and of itself of course but i dont like getting what is a specific narrative conflated with a universal narrative...i.e. while that might be a common experience, being 13-19 isnt defined by that kind of usual teenage experience checklist. i mean, everyone who’s been a teenager has an experience in that time which must also be a teenage experience you know. and of course mine happens to be the kind that was nothing like the being out late with friends and having awkward date moments of bewilderment and figuring out who you are and all

i dont love to be reminded that theres a specific narrative thats meant to describe the General Universal Experience, when thats not my experience. what does that make my experience, and by extension, me

like i already feel invalidated enough by the course my life happened to go, i dont need a reminder that it was supposed to go This Way actually, and if it didnt then are you even a real person. and theres a ton of ways peoples lives could differ in major ways from whatever idea of whats universal that are also different from mine, so i dont know how not to be a bit annoyed from that angle either. i dont know its like....i guess ~Adolescence~ is especially treated as some flat, formuleic, predictable time in life where everyone is simple and shallow when its all really the opposite. its as complex and varied as ever and so are teenagers & people are completely wrong to act like teens are all just self centered immature kids—and not only wrong to do so but actually writing off really serious issues that affect teens as like “angst!!” or whatever...lord

anyways so i was like actively suicidal from like 14? 15? i say “was” when its just more like “have been,” but anyway. theres that part, and i didnt go to high school, which im sure would be for the better for anyone, and i wasn’t interested in dating anyone & also didn’t, and i was kind of having a version of the Universal Teen Story in that i was getting to be away from home for weeks at a time with only a weekend back every now and then (and breaks between semesters) and doing so finally let me like, even start to be a person who could exist outside the hellzone of my house. which made going back home for say, long summer breaks increasingly laden with friction. teens and their spats with parents right!! but actually it was that my situation was abusive & i had to figure that out on my own & in the meantime i did think i must be doing something wrong in trying to feel like i actually had the right to my own identity, because i must be doing something wrong if it makes me get along with my parents less. and really the idea that teens are just angsty & rebellious & argumentative was further damaging b/c i trivialized my own abuse as i always had (b/c all i had to go on was that it must be normal) & blamed myself for not succeeding in this impossible situation. it was really Not the universal experience even with the conflict and identity questions and growing familial pains

also i still had few friends, but i at least had a bit more room to Do Shit than at home. idek how to say how isolated i was for the entire like, well most of my life but a tiny bit less so during college. i had campus & a 1.5 mile radius and occasional trips and stuff, and being able to just do things as i wanted. at my parents house, the location made it so you couldnt really walk anywhere, and our town didnt really have a lot of hangouts anyways, and i didnt have any friends really. i did get a few from school and friendly acquaintances but i would rarely see any of them outside school, and that was mostly only middle school anyways. i was on the fringe even in preschool, which i imagine helped w how i read all the time at school and at home. and home and the abuse and having nowhere else to be also had to contribute to how i live in my head, i have to guess. i dont mind that, my head is great. but other people think im weird and in terms of being someone who grew up exposed to long term trauma & bad attention & memory & an awful lot of pretty specific things seem to align w autism but if i mention that ppl (irl) like to talk abt how well really everyones autistic in SOME ways (which well they arent unless you want to have a huge talk abt the entire field of what it means when usually nt ppl define Disorders) anyways the point is that i also dont trust people much because theres a slight history of taking a chance on ppl who seem interested in being friendly w/ me only to turn around & realize i was being laughed at to a degree for things that were just part of how i personally socialize, thanks. but not all of it. ive met some really solid people. but im not that eager to meet people as im wary of a lot of them & my instincts are usually justified when i take a dislike to somebody. and ive just never been in a position to make or have a lot of friends. and that sucks, coz the few times ive been able to be around multiple people i like is always a lot of fun, usually the result of some roadtrip or special occasion or something and very short lived. i WISH i’d had a period of constant access to a friend group, that i couldve left my parents house and had somewhere to go anytime i felt like it, that i had people i could do things with and all. i dont need adventure, i like parking lots and just doing nothing but hanging out and all, but that didnt happen. i was stuck in my parents house & i didnt even think i had maybe been cheated out of anything & maybe i wasnt just a inferior quality person until i started to figure out for myself around 18 that i might actually be abused, and it took me another couple of years to really believe that i didnt deserve it

and i mean still i didnt just take an “alternate route” to the same endpoint everyone else did. i cant do buzzfeed quizzes about You And Your BFF / Friend / Friend Group coz i cant even fake my way through them. i know i have an identity and am as much a person as anyone but i know that the chances to explore life that are supposed to be Common and Universal werent available to me, and that who i am as a person, aka a normal one, not a terrible one, was info i didnt know for most of my life and had to figure out on my own. and im still figuring out on my own, because shits never exactly been okay yknow

anyways my experience may be “worse” but its not lesser or less real or valid or makes me less of a person because i didnt get to do it your way. idk

tldr it annoys me like thanks for reminding me ive never got to have friends even though that’s still one of the few things i’ll feel bad about b/c i know just how much that hurts me & how much ive missed my fleeting chances to have a micro taste of what that couldve been like. and for a reminder that whats considered Real Full Person’s Experience is so default it doesnt even need modifiers, & so what does that make me if it doesnt apply at all?

funny how much an throwaway almost joke of a sentence bugs me but thats how it goes huh

[buppypaws]

hey tumblr #bad tag. it’s been a while. i think i’m trying to feel to cope rn. i cant sleep. i’m thinking about all my past love endeavors. and honestly dude,,, i’m really depressed. like,, i think genuinely. depression got me by the balls. kinda wanna kill myself again, but it’s more of a passive feeling rn more than a violent feeling. idk man. i just wish i could feel,,, good. i want an intense feeling of happiness again. like, god i don’t even know how i remember this, but back at milo’s christmas party all those years ago. my biggest concern was just... looking cute for them and not getting caught with my gay feelings. but they were so cute and sweet that it was probably so grossly obvious how gay i was. they put their hand on my shoulder n looked me in the eye and said something along the lines of “sammi, if i wasn’t the man i was, i’d kiss you”. like damn bro,, little 13 year old me went ballistic!! and the time we sat in the box and ding dong ditched my house?? that was so dumb. and all the good times i had with rosa too, before she passed. she also gave me extreme butterflies,,, it’s funny looking back now at how she claimed up and down that she was straight, but she really did enjoy making me blush. the stupid shrek stickers she burnt. i wonder what happened to the map of hers she let me draw on. all the time id spend at cara’s house instead of my own. we were never an item either, but we had a lot of great memories,,, kat. or kei, i should say. i think i wanted to date them for a while, and they opened up a lot of doors for me concerning my interests and going to cons and introducing me to cosplay. i hope they’re well. i don’t think i ever properly apologized to them. me and rio experienced fresh snow in murrieta together. me and finn had a quick fling. bee was someone in my life for a hot second... i wonder how she feels about our relationship looking back at things. oh dude that one time me and charlie dated and our first date was at in n out and they were super late and i was like UHHH. i also miss eliott. a lot. a lot a lot. we had so many good times together and we rarely saw each other. god, the time i had the house to myself for the weekend and they snuck over and we ordered pizza and i had hickies all over me., our last weekend together before she went to AZ and we went to the duck pond,,, i brought her flowers and i cried as we had our last few kisses. all the apollo v eliott drama. god. apollo. the most complicated relationship i’ve ever had with another person. it all feels silly now... considering all that’s happened ever since i dated carter. after not talking to him for half a year, he magically pops back into my life,,, after one of the hardest weekends of my life. going to that wedding after i dumped vince and my cult fell apart and,, lost my friendship with ness. that one still stings. but it’s crazy how literally that same night, i told apollo i had extra donuts and i’d be down to share them and talk irl.. i ended up spending the night, and that night was the only time i ever cried during uh. you know. i clung to him so tight that night... i wish i could with soap rn. i wish i had more memories with apollo other than sitting in his room all the time. we were at each other’s graduations. i picked him up after he got drunk at a party, *and* drove to ucr to pick him up bc he wasn’t feeling well,, i remember him quizzing me on the members of bts. our first interaction. playing dnd with him, and bringing to my TA class. ofc our roleplays and the worlds we’d build. but it’s hard not to remember all the fights. all the times he’d distance himself from me in public. all the insults,, i don’t think i have a definite feeling on where our relationship is right now. i think if carter wasn’t involved, it’d be easier... cause i genuinely don’t think i ever wanna talk to them again. maybe in 15 years when we’re older, but like- that’s still such an ouch topic. i think that was the first time i ever got properly broken up with. and the craziest part is that he still let me kiss him after. and held me.

[peter-parkers-backpack]

67 Chevy Impala

A/N: So I’ve finally written my first fanfic (I’m so nervous rn), hope you like it! Constructive criticism is fine, but no hate please:) Please send in requests! School is starting soon so I may not do them right away, but I will as soon as possible. I’d love feedback, even an emoji to see if you liked it or not, thanks:) One more thing and I’ll stop rambling, please no reposts, ok I’m done now. Enjoy!

Pairing: Peter Parker x Fem!Winchester!Reader

Fandom: Spider-Man: Homecoming, Supernatural

Summary: When a new family rolls into town, one member catches Peter Parker’s eye. But something’s off about them.

Words: Idk but it’s sorta long sooooo

Warnings: Overprotective brothers, vampires, cutting off heads

Part 2

Peter Parker liked cars, he didn’t love them, or know every part in them like Tony Stark, but he thought they were cool. 

So when a 67 Chevy Impala rolls into the school parking lot, he couldn’t help but stare. Although, when the person in the backseat came out, Peter forgot all about the car. 

Soon enough, Peter was scared. Not of (Y/n), but of her older brothers. The oldest didn’t go to school anymore, but made sure to glare at anyone who stared at his younger sibling as he was dropping her off. No one dared to come near her when he was around. Especially since he clearly had the ability to beat anyone up before they could say ‘sorry’.

The middle child of the family was a senior, only two years older than (Y/n). Like his brother, he was not the type of kid that got shoved into lockers. He looked after her during school. No one wanted to mess with him either.

Peter wasn’t one to dare to be on their bad side. Even after the countless reminders from Ned that he had his spider-strength. 

Peter did notice things though, from afar. He noticed how she always seemed to jump a little more than normal when someone accidently scared her. He noticed she always seemed to be alert, as if something was going to jump out of the shadows. He noticed that when someone did something out of the ordinary, (Y/n) always reached toward her back pocket, then sighed in defeat when what she wanted wasn’t there.

It was three weeks before Peter had actually had a conversation with her, not including polite greetings in the hallways. Also not counting the many times he had practiced with his Spider-Man mask on in the mirror.

He had been paired up with her for a project in science, and couldn’t be more thrilled. Until he found out this was a project that wasn’t worked on at school. Meaning he would have to go to her place, because he knew there was no way she would be allowed to go to his apartment. He sighed, Peter honestly felt bad for her. 

“So do you want to go to my place after school, or yours?” she asked, breaking him out of his thoughts “either way works for me.”

“Uh, y-yours is fine.” he managed to get out, cursing himself for declining the opportunity to avoid seeing her brothers. 

“Ok, I’ll meet up with you after school then?”

“Yeah, t-that sounds g-great.” he felt his cheeks heating up.

“Cool, see ya then Peter.” and with a turn on her heel, she had left the classroom. 

He couldn’t believe he had a chance to get to know her. Not just pick up on the fact that she was better at science than math, or that she threw her head back when she laughed, but actually get to know her. 

But by the end of the day, he seemed to be more nervous than ever. When the bell rang he said bye to Ned, who winked and wished him good luck. Not helping Peter’s case at all. Then he made is way to where (Y/n) would be.

At the doors to the school stood (Y/n), her hair flowing beautifully in the breeze, and the light from the sun hit her eyes perfectly. Peter knew he was screwed. 

“Hiya Peter!” she said cheerfully.

“H-hey (Y/n)” then an idea popped in his head, Mr. Delmar’s sandwiches “Would you like to-” but he was cut off by a horn coming from none other than a 67 Chevy Impala.

“Would I like to what?” 

“O-oh nothing, i-it’s no big deal”

She nodded her head “Okay, maybe some other time. Well, there’s my brothers.”

As they got into the car, the driver, who Peter knew to be the oldest brother, stared at Peter “Who’s this? Why is he here?”

(Y/n) rolled her eyes “Dean, I texted you, this is Peter Parker, he and I have a science project we have to work on tonight.” 

The car ride was extremely awkward for Peter. (Y/n)’s brothers, who he learned to be Sam and Dean, would not stop glaring at him.

“So Parker, what are your hobbies?” Sam asked, probably not meaning to, but sounding very intimidating. 

“O-oh, well I used to be in robotics club and band, so I enjoy those, b-but I’m on the academic decathlon team.”

“Why’d you quit band and robotics club?“ Dean quizzed on.

(Y/n) answered for him “He has an internship with Tony Stark. It takes up most of his time.”

Peter threw her a ‘thank you’ look, to which she smiled back.

(Y/n) knew her brothers were very intimidating and loved to scare off any boy she met, even if they were just a friend. She truly didn’t like it and they got in many arguments over the matter, but they never seemed to stop. Normally Dean was hilarious and fun to be around, while Sam was her dorky older brother. But in these situations, any sense of humor they had seemed to drain out of them, replaced by the attitude they had while hunting. 

“Stark, huh? What’s that like? Who all have you met?” Sam genuinely seemed curious in his question, and (Y/n) knew it was because Sam was a total nerd about superheroes. 

“I-it’s pretty cool. I-I’ve met Tony, but just once. I’ve seen Captain America from a distance.” He knew he couldn’t tell them the truth, almost laughing at the thought of their faces if the figured out he stole Steve’s shield and fought off Falcon and Bucky.

“Haven’t you met Spider-Man?” (Y/n) asked, remembering a day in gym class.

Sam looked both surprised and impressed as Peter answered “Y-yeah, he’s a pretty cool dude.”

Peter was confused when they showed up at a hotel, but didn’t question anything. That would definitely not be the best for him at the moment. 

Throughout the whole time they were there, Peter noticed things. He noticed that not only did the boys refuse to leave the room, but they also studied. Even Dean, who wasn’t in school, had a book with weird lettering in his hands. He noticed that they all had army green bags that seemed to be filled with heavy things, not clothes. He also noticed that there were four people’s things. Four dirty dishes, four bags, four toothbrushes. But he never had seen four people. So, Peter assumed that the family had another member, that never seemed to be around. 

But he didn’t worry about that much longer. He spent the whole time laughing and studying with (Y/n).

The next day at school, Peter couldn’t keep his eyes off her. He found himself staring at lunch, wondering what she was writing in english, and thinking about when the next time they would work on the project in science. He had thought he had it bad with Liz.

A few days later, she didn’t show up for school. And the day after that, she and Sam left early, four hours early. The next day they came back with bruises, and then they were gone from school again.

That’s when, as curious as Peter was, he decided to see where they were going. So, dressed as Spider-Man, Peter watched the hotel room from afar until the 67 Chevy Impala came roaring out of the parking lot.

Slinging his webs, he followed them to an abandoned house, where the three met a man much older than them. That must be their father.

Dean went to the trunk and pulled it open, then he popped up another lid revealing multiple guns, knifes and other weapons. 

Peter was shocked, to say the least. But he wondered if they were the bad guys, or if they were fighting them. 

“Okay, I’ve tracked the Vamps down to here. According to their conversations I’ve been able to hear, there is three vics.” the father said.

Vamps? Did he mean vampires? And three victims? Peter didn’t know what to think.

Then he saw (Y/n) pull a large machete out of the trunk and was now more curious than ever. What the hell was going on?

Then, seemingly out of no where, a man with fangs jumped out, followed by another six. Their father fought off the biggest one, while the others fought off two at a time. Peter was amazed at how well (Y/n) could fight. He probably would have been super exited to, if he wasn’t so freaked out by the situation. He came to peace with it sooner than normal people would have. If there were superheroes, why couldn’t there be vampires, and possibly more, to.

Sam and Dean seemed to have gotten the easiest four, because they had chopped of the head’s of theirs pretty easily, then left to help their father. 

Peter was a little uneasy about seeing heads falling to the floor, but knew he had to step in when (Y/n) looked like she needed help. She had taken one down, but the other knocked her machete out of her hands, leaving her with nothing. 

He leapt out of the shadows and shot his web right at the vamp’s neck. (Y/n), after getting through the shock that Spider-Man was here, took the web, wrapped it around his head, and pulled hard enough to cut it off.

By this time the others had killed the other one as well, and all of them were staring at Spider-Man, not knowing he was the kid they had met a few days prior. 

“Thanks Spidey” (Y/n) laughed.

“Anytime” Peter answered, thankful for the mask hiding his blushing. 

Then she turned to her brothers and father “You guys go ahead, I’ll clean up a bit”

Clearly they didn’t want to, but after a death glare, which even caused Peter to step back even though it wasn’t directed at him, they turned around and walked out.

“Wow, I’m surprised that worked” she laughed.

“I’m not” Peter said, causing her to laugh more.

“Well, I don’t know who you are, but you probably think I’m a freak now.” she scratched the back of her head and looked to her shoes.

“I’ve never thought you were a freak (Y/n)” Peter said honestly “And I’m not gonna start now”

She looked up “I know you?” then after thinking a bit she looked shocked “Peter”

He lifted his mask and (Y/n) saw the adorable kid she had grown to love from her science class. 

Using every ounce of courage she ever had, (Y/n) stepped forward and kissed him.

Until, “Wha- who is that- PARKER”

[marie-bluem]

Hi, it’s been a while since posted, rebbloged, and wrote an entry on my blog. I don’t know if any of you will read this as it has been a while since I posted anything (it’s also okay if you don’t like or reblog this post to let me know that you have read it! I know most of you have liked to remain anon (hope one day I could know who most of you anon are though ^^) but anyway, thank you to all of you anons and mutuals who still follow my blog and have sent me soft, kind anon asks  (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )  I really appreciate it. I actually thought most of you would have unfollowed me after being on a hiatus for a while since last November, but you didn’t and have continued to stay with me through my tumblr blog journey which in some sense had become an important and precious part of my own journey haha. Anyways, thank you for silently supporting me, respecting my personal entries by not reblogging them and asking me about it first if it was okay to do so 💖. Thank you for respecting the type of content I have reblogged and posted on my blog despite not maybe being the exact same content you might originally followed me for (as it is after all my own personal blog and space) and respecting each other’s preferences and themes 💖.Also thank you again for all your fun, positive and soft anon asks. I’m sorry if I haven’t gotten the chance to answer some of yours (I will try my best to do that soon!) or always seem to respond to them a bit too late but I want you to know that I really have appreciated them all and that they have all brightened my days thank you ✨🌸💌. I hope that all of you and your family have been able to stay safe, happy, and healthy during this dark situation. I pray everyday for this situation to end soon. I didn’t know how 2020 was going to be like after what happened towards the end of 2019, but I was hoping for 2020 to be brighter and full of nicer surprises and chances as it was going to be my last year (senior year) at my university but I guess that’s the thing about life- it’s unexpected and anything can happen from one moment to the next. To be honest I wasn’t actually sure, since last Nomvember, If I was going to come back onto tumblr and continue posting or reblogging or not. A lot of things happened towards the end of last year and some things at the beginning of this year that led me to have less free time and be less active on social media. One of the main reasons why I stopped being less active is because my school work and schedule slowly started to become a bit more overwhelming again and I was starting to become a bit worried that I might start feeling bad like I did during the winter semester of 2017-2018. At the beginning of this year I began my final year at my university so because I have already completed all of my general courses and core requirements to graduate, all of the classes that I have left to take are strictly ones required for my major. So, because I’m a biology major most of the classes and labs I have left and started to take at the beginning of this year are all either biology based, chemistry based and just one physics based and all of them are worth between 3-4 credits so the grades that I get in those classes are heavily weighted and can either greatly benefit my gpa or lower it by a lot which I can’t really afford to happen because sadly almost all of PA programs are very petty and often highly prejudice when it comes to applicant’s gpa, grades (particularly grades on the science courses they require an applicant to have taken in order to apply for the program), as well as the amount and quality of patient contact hours an applicant has because after all sadly medicine and healthcare field is a very competitive field so yeah me and my friends like my close friend Erika can’t afford to get C’s as our final grade or do bad on those classes required for our major and PA programs. Anyways, because of that at the beginning of this semester the classes that I needed to take and started to take are Organic Chem 2 + its lab component, Molecular biology + its recitation component, Physics II + its lab component, clinical medical terminology and its immunology component and because of that it was hard for me to organize a schedule that would be okay with me since I would have to commute to university. Because my organic chem lab was long as well as my physics lab I couldn’t fit more than 2 classes on some days so my schedule ended up being one where I was commuting to school 4/5 days of the week and on 3/4 days I was waking up at 4:50 am and leaving my house at 5:30 am to try to get on time to my morning lectures on those days and was getting home at around 9:00 pm on some days because of my chemistry labs and lecture. So because of that I was having to stay up very late on weekends and on some weekdays working on a lot of pre and pos-labs and lab reports as well as trying to find time to catch up on revising material for some of my other classes in order to be prepared for exams and quizzes. So yeah, because of that I was slowly starting to feel overwhelmed, tired and bit anxious once again because I wasn’t sleeping well so because of that I decided to take break from all social media and stopped being active on my blog to give myself a break from technology and take care of myself more and give myself more time to rest.Thankfully though I now knew what to do to start feeling better whenever school starts to feel a bit overwhelming so I didn’t feel nor have felt as bad as I did in the past like in 2017. Also even though the classes did feel very overwhelming at the beginning of this semester, I was able to find ways to feel better, destress and handle those classes and soon enough I started to get the  hang for the pace of all those classes specially now since all of my classes got moved online. Also, this semester I also had two of my close friends who were taking most of those classes with me and so I was actually really happy this semester that I had some close company whom I can rant along with during exam times lol  so I’m really thankful for that <3. I’m also really thankful to them and my friends for listening to me rant about my days lol, ranting along with me about shows and dramas were watching, celebrities and artists we like lol and just cheering up me through these past semesters and taking me to try new things and activities like  roller skating even though most of us couldn’t skate ;-; lol but it’s okay I’ve had a lot of fun and reminded me of when my elementary school would rent roller skates and had roller skating parties in the gym after school omg. Anyways, yeah because of that I went on a hiatus on all my social media because rather than distracting me it was just making me feel more sad and I don’t know I just had no motivation to post anything or even write because I was just really sleepy and tired. For that same reason and other ones, logging onto my tumblr blog started to feel more like a routine and started making me feel sad so I slowly started to drift away from it. Actually because of that I’m trying to be a bit active on my blog again to see how it makes me feel during this time of social distancing. Depending on that, I don’t know if I’ll start being very active on here again or slowly start being less active again or decide to take big break from tumblr again. If I ever do decide that I will not continue blogging on here in the future, I don’t plan on deleting my blog because this tumblr blog has in a sense become like a very personal and precious archive of entries of different points in my life. This blog has in a sense served as an archive for the various emotions/ moods and thoughts my teenage and young adult self has felt and thought as well as an archive for all the various things I have loved, liked, become inspired by and fangirl over lol so yeah I don’t think I could ever bring myself to completely delete this blog. Also I’d like to think that hopefully some years from now into the future when I’m older it will feel nice and nostalgic to have this blog to look back on some of these things archived in this blog and would make great stories to talk about with my friends who also had their own tumblr blogs or my boyfriend, husband or kids idk lol and just smile and laugh about the things that my younger self used to feel moody about, loved and continue to love and or fangirled and probably continue to fangirl about lol and share with them all the cool music my present self  used to enjoy and enjoys listening to lol  and yeah. I think that is why I really love keeping journals, diaries and making music playlists -because they can help capture something intangible like feelings or memories one might have during a certain moment of time or one might feel or have about a certain group of people or person like friends and that one can then look back on, read or listen to whenever one might be in the mood to reminiscent those precious memories and feelings (also I’m just very weak and soft when it comes stationary, journals and journal designs and playlists ^^ I just think it’s nice and that journal entries, letters, and playlists are their own love language 💖 ＾▽ ^ ) Anyways, I’m really thankful  to all of you who still continue to visit my blog and hope that all of you are safe and healthy and continue to be safe and healthy. Also if by any chance any of you have all of your grandparents and parents close to you continue to be nice to them, maybe try to use this time to spend more time with them  if you can , even if you aren’t at home but are close with your parents and family, remind them of how much you love them or simply ask them about their day because this life can be unpredictable and anything can happen from one second to the other. Also because I now will have a bit more free time I’m going to try to start reblogging some things on here again apart from getting back into some of my old hobbies like drawing and painting which I’m excited to do but also kind of a bit scared because I haven’t done it in a while, answer more anons and maybe even make a post with links to some of the playlists I have created/ song recommendations since some of you anons have continued to ask for some of my music playlists/ song recommendations 🤗 (be warned though, my music taste is kind of interesting/ all over the place?? lol i just enjoy listening to a variety of songs of different genres, language etc but yea hopefully you’ll like some of them like some other anons have and maybe recommend some songs to me too 🤗. Anyways this kind of ended up being way longer than I thought wow but yeah oh also if by any chance any of you still have some cherry blossoms still in bloom close to your houses  look at your windows and look at them whenever you feel down or need a change of scenery they are very pretty- the sight of them and of flowers have helped me feel better during this social distancing ✨🌸 Okay I’ll stop now ;-;

[blue-eyed-korra]

Captive Prince/Proposal AU

Ok first of all, I’ve seen this idea be mentioned once or twice in the tag before, but seriously people how do we not have one of these yet? It practically writes itself.

I’ve been thinking this over for awhile and I think I’ve got a solid plot figured out but I don’t think I have the patience or talent to write this.

Hell maybe I will eventually but for now I want all my amazing capri fandom to picture this:

Damen is an overworked yet ambitious wanna-be book editor who works for Laurent, the intolerable, bitchy and ‘sadistic’ editor in chief, a cast iron bitch if you will.

Damen takes it because he’s hoping that Laurent will be a stepping stone to his goal but Laurent seems bent on personally antagonizing him in particular. (spoiler alert: its cause Laurent finds him attractive but doesn’t wanna deal with ~feelings~ and just stays perpetually pissed at him)

Anyways, Laurent fires Guion because he lost a big deal they were supposed to get with Torveld, which Laurent salvaged, and we get the whole ‘poisonous bitch’ speech.

Then at a meeting later that day Laurent’s bosses (basically council members) tell him that he work visa was denied because he violated a requirement and he’ll have to quit his job in Delpha and be deported back to Vere, where he’d have no choice but to work for his uncle’s publishing house and Guion will take his place as editor in chief. 

Cue Damen interrupting Laurent’s internal panic attack to remind him about a client calling about ~something~ but Damen told them that Laurent was engaged at the moment. Cue light bulb going off in Laurent’s head and the announcement that to the board that they’re getting married.

Damen’s confused face here is priceless too just pointing that out.

After a bunch of arguing Laurent blackmails him so that Damen will marry then divorce Laurent after a year but if Damen doesn’t agree then all the time he put into working for Laurent would be for nothing. 

They go to the Akielon embassy to tell them the situation, but the immigration worker got a tip from Guion saying that the marriage is a scam to get Laurent citizenship, so they’ll need to be quizzed on each other, and that their friends, relatives neighbours etc. and if it doesn’t line up they would have committed fraud. Laurent would be deported to Vere and Damen would be fined and be put into jail for 5 years. 

Damen hesitates but then says they didn’t tell anyone because of his promotion to editor (Cue pretending-not-to-be-confused Laurent who goes with it). When the officer asks if their families know Laurent says that his family’s dead but they’re actually gonna tell Damen’s when they visit them that weekend for Uncle Makedon’s birthday, which Damen says is gonna be in Isthmia (Laurent’s surprised as hell cause Isthmia is the summer getaway for the rich and powerful of Akielos). Their interview is set for Monday.

When they leave Laurent compliments him on the whole ‘editor’ thing but Damen says he wasn’t joking considering the stakes. Laurent grudgingly agrees to make him editor and to publish his manuscript and we get the scene where Laurent proposes officially kneeling on the sidewalk.

The rest is under the cut!

Next day they’re flying to Ios then Isthmia, going over the questions and Damen talks about how he already knows everything about Laurent including the tattoo he supposedly has. Laurent brushes it off and they suffer through a smaller flight to Isthmia.

Damen’s mom and uncle are there to greet them and take them through the main town where Laurent notices that many of the businesses have his family name on it. Turns out that they’re big real estate moguls in Akielos and own many of the businesses on Isthmia as well. Aka: They basically rule Akielos ;).

They have to take a boat to the family’s huge summer villa that looks more like a palace than a villa ;) and we get the ‘hand off ass’ scene.

There’s a big party later and Laurent meets Jokaste who he’s immediately curious about cause of her looks and the fact that Damen’s all tense around her (also how she looks like a female Laurent). They reveal that they’re engaged and everyone begins asking questions and they both use it as an opportunity to embarrass each other.

Everyone wants them to kiss in front of everyone and at first they do and awkward peck but then Uncle Makedon insists Damen ‘give him a real kiss’ and they do and they both get confused af cause it feels good…?

They share Damen’s old room which is huge and has a gorgeous view of the sea off the balcony and a massive bed (with a fertility blanket courtesy of Makedon). Laurent claims the bed while Damen has to take the floor and blanket.

Turns out there’s a big rift between Damen and his Father cause he gave up the family business to pursue his passion for publishing in Delpha, amoung other things we learn about later.

Nikandros appears a few times to give Damen lectures about how he shouldn’t rush into a relationship again because of a blonde cause look at what happened last time. I also want Pallas, Lazar, Jord, Aimeric, Nicaise and Erasmus to show up at some point.

We get the bachelorette scene with the stripper and the discussion between Laurent and Jokaste about how they were engaged but Damen left cause she cheated on him with his brother and he caught them together.

Then we get the whole naked scene in all its glory. People who’ve seen the move know what I’m talking about ;) But Damen does catch a glimpse of the starburst tattoo between his shoulder blades.

Damen later makes fun of the whole thing and the tattoo and Laurent isn’t taking it but he does open up a bit about his interests and what happened to his family. His mother died of cancer when he was 12 then a year later he was in a car accident with his father and brother and he was the only one to survive. He moved in with his uncle, got the starburst tattoo for his brother when he was 16, went to collage at 18. (Idk if to include the ‘it takes two’ scene and sub it for something else that’s equally funny and cute).

Damen sympathies since he always had his family growing up and realizes he shouldn’t have shut them out as much as he did after the whole Jokaste thing.

The next morning his parents comes and his parents ask if they’d wanna get married the next day since the whole family’s there and they agree, actually kind of acting like a couple and not realizing it lol. 

Next we get the ‘windows and walls’ scene with uncle Makedon and Laurent in the woods drinking griva as a blessing to the gods for a long and happy marriage and Damen just looking at Laurent acting all loose and funny and it’s amazing.

After Laurent’s sobered up a bit they go back to town to get some business done and Laurent sees Damen and Jokaste talking outside and gets kind of jelly but mostly feels a bit guilty since he thinks he still has feelings for her despite everything.

Then Damen’s mom and Makedon take Laurent to get fitted into a wedding outfit which has been in the family for generations (idk if to go with a suit or a chiton but I’m kind of leaning towards a chiton cause I need for Damen to see him in one, but its also a modern au but idk). And they give Laurent another heirloom, a golden broach, which was worn by Damen’s mother at her wedding. All of this obviously overwhelms Laurent since he hasn’t felt like a part of a family in years and also feels guilty about tricking these nice people.

On the boat ride back Laurent tells Damen about how good it is to have a family again and that he himself forgot what its like to have a family. They argue about their arrangement and family which distracts Damen, causing him to swerve, making Laurent fall out the boat. (btw he can’t swim). Damen jumps in and rescues him and holds him to warm him up for a bit before heading back.

There Damen’s dad takes them to meet the immigration officer and Laurent’s Uncle, who Damen’s dad flew in. The officer gives Damen a deal where if he confesses that it’s a sham he won’t be arrested and Laurent will get deported. Laurent’s Uncle of course acts like he’s concerned but also says things to him that guilt him even more. But Damen doesn’t take it and sticks with the wedding.

Later he asks Laurent why his Uncle was acting so off and he elaborates on how his Uncle actually hates him. Damen’s shocked but doesn’t think its anymore than that.

The wedding starts off as planned and Damen thinks Laurent looks gorgeous (especially if its a chiton) and Laurent thinks Damen looks devastatingly handsome in his wedding clothes. It’s in that moment he realizes he loves him and that he can’t do this to him and his family, confesses in front of everyone and leaves with the officer and his Uncle. 

When Damen looks for him in the bedroom he finds the clothes, broach and a note saying that he’s sorry and that he does think that Damen is a talented writer and will do well as editor. Jokaste fins him pissed off and he rants to her about how infuriating Laurent is and she encourages him to go after him.

The whole thing where Makedon fakes a heart attack to get Damen on a plane ensues.

Damen confronts Laurent in their office as he’s packing up his things to go back to Vere and tells him that he used to despise his existence but that he came to know his heart and that if he gave Laurent his heart he thinks he’s treat it tenderly. And the entire office is shocked but Laurent looks completely lost for words for once but then says something along the lines of ‘I didn’t realize that you’re such a sap Damianos’ and Damen’s all like ‘Well I’d say we have plenty of time to get to know each other better’ then moves forward and kisses him passionately right there in front of everyone and everyone cheers.

And because I’m also an incredible sap… Epilogue!

Damen and Laurent marry a couple months afterwards, they got through the interviews and have a gorgeous wedding at the villa, only this time they’re both glowing with happiness in the sunset and all that romantic shit I love. At the reception they’re practically glued together the whole night and we find out that Laurent pressed charges against his Uncle after finally being free of his looming control (Idk if to give his uncle’s company to Laurent but it would be fitting af but idk if to integrate how to integrate it into the story) But after Laurent’s confession many other young men and boys come up, the youngest is Nicaise, a foul-mouthed 14 year old orphan who Laurent takes to immediately and becomes his legal guardian. 

Damen and Laurent sneak off at the appropriate time and enjoy their wedding night together. All cuddled up after, Laurent talks about how he never thought he could have family and happiness again and Damen just smiles and kisses his new husband and they fall asleep together happy and content.

So yeah! That’s all I got so far but I may or may not actually write this but any interested authors feel free to message me about it if you’re interested!

The fandom deserves this au.

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What song are you listening to right now? I’m not listening to anything but the last song I played was Violet by Daniel Caesar; I don’t actually know the song but it was part of a playlist on Spotify. Admit it -- you want a Snuggie. What design/color? I don’t even know what that is, but if it came in pink I’d want one. Do you prefer movies at home or movies at the theatre? Home is cozier and costs much less, haha. How many songs does your iTunes have? Ooh, I haven’t used my iTunes in like half a decade buuuut I think it peaked with around 400-500 songs? Idk, I didn’t explore much as a kid and I liked to stick with my favorite singers/bands. Do you take a shower in the morning or the night before? When I’m off school I like to shower at night - much more comfy that way, and I fall asleep faster. But when I have to leave the house whether to go to school, the mall, to crash at someone’s place, etc. I always bathe a few hours before. Always. I hateeeeee not feeling fresh when I go outside.

What's your academic niche? (History, math, science, etc.) History for sure, but there are some science topics I’m also okay in. Who's your youngest teacher? They’re all already pretty seasoned lol I can’t actually tell. I think it’s Ma’am Cai; welp, at least among my current professors, she’s the one that acts the youngest. Have you ever had the samples people offer you at Costco? I’ve never been in a Costco but I typically don’t get samples from our local groceries because idk, they just look nasty :/ The only samples I get are the free ones they hand over at Starbucks and Coffee Bean, haha. If you had to name your kid after a food, what would his/her name be? I’d take olives and turn it to Olivia, which was always my choice for a girl anyway. But if it really had to be food-inspired I’d go with... Brie for a girl, or Sage for a boy. Miley Cyrus: Inspirational role model or a ho? Get with the times, 2009 survey. This question won’t get away with that word today. Anyway, Miley is a badass. I never changed my mind about her, maybe except for that time she did that performance with Robin Thicke. Are you stressed about anything? Right now no. I’m on a six-week break, I wanna enjoy it without thinking about the stuff that would typically stress me out. When's the last time you had a rock, paper, scissors match? It’s been a few months. What's your favorite anime? I don’t watch anime... the only show I got into was Pokemon. Did you cry when Ash let his Butterfree go with the other Butterfrees? I vaguely remember that but I probably got sad over it when I was younger. Don't you hate it when Facebook auto-corrects your smiley faces and hearts? I don’t mind it. Skinny, flared, ripped, or faded jeans? Ugh I hate all of these. I have a lot of skinny jeans in my closet but they’re always a last resort - my go-to these days is mom jeans. What are you excited for? Meh, nothing in particular. I wanna say my birthday? but who knows what the world is gonna come to be by then. Are you part of the Farmville cult? No I never played. I wasn’t allowed to make a Facebook account at the time when games like that and Petville and Plants vs. Zombies were big. What were you for Halloween? Last year I went as Dora. AND IT WAS SO ANNOYING because the party we were invited to prohibited shorts??? And 1) Dora wore shorts and 2) I searched far and wide for a pair of orange shorts? It was the first time I heard of a dress code that strict for a college party lmao I couldn’t believe it. Thankfully Rita had just bought a pair of orange jeans so she let me borrow those. Have you ever had braces? Back in high school. What year of high school are you in? I am not. What's your favorite flower? Peonies. Would you ever bleach your hair? Probably not. My hair has faced enough damage. Have you ever stood on a frozen solid body of water? No. That sounds scary though. I’ve heard and watched people fall through ice :/ Would you ever take up smoking or drinking? I’m already doing both. Thanks, college and peer pressure! Do those girls with 1,000 friends on Facebook REALLY have that many? I dunno, who knows? It’s always possible. I have a bigger problem with the fact that this question just singled out girls lmao. What holiday is your birthday closest to? Uhh Earth Hour, if it counts? If not, we have Araw ng Kagitingan on April 9 which commemorates the Fall of Bataan during WWII. Are you cyberdyslexic? Is this even a thing? I’ve never heard of this until today. Are you regular dyslexic? No. Is there irregular dyslexia? :((( What would your name be if you were a boy? I don’t know. My parents didn’t think about this either I think. Which person from way back when would you love to hang out with? My great grandpa. Either him or his cousin who wrote a book on history. What color are your eyes? Dark brownnnnnnn ugh this will FOREVER be in surveys won’t it. The forever on-going question: Is Twilight stupid or actually brilliant? It’s so stupid. BUT I LOVE IT ok.  Did you carve pumpkins for Halloween this year? No. We don’t do that here. Does your family use a real pine tree or a plastic one for Christmas? I think most households here use artificial trees. I was already a little old when I found out other countries would use real trees. Do you know anyone with a play-on name? (Chris P. Bacon, Justin Case, etc.) Not personally but super recently someone named their kid COVID BRYANT and it was all over social media for a few days. Covid Bryant. Let that shit sink in. Only Filipinos, man. Do you have any foreign exchange students at your school? Yeah, mostly Koreans and Japanese people. If you had a week to live, what would you do? I don’t have much of a choice, do I... I’m gonna be stuck at home and do the stuff I’ve already been doing in the last three weeks, and just hope I had fun.

Are you good at brain teasers? Some, but I don’t enjoy doing them in general. Is your handwriting nice? I can handle a pen pretty well, if I do say so myself. I have a neater penmanship than most people I know. What's your second language? English.  Is it uncomfortable for you to take showers in glass stalls w/out curtains? Not really but the door has to be locked. Finish the sentence: Remember, remember... The fifth of November? I dunno why I know about that though. Did you understand Shakespeare? No. I always bought the No Fear Shakespeare editions cos I had absolutely no patience to try and understand the original text. What do you want to be when you're older? Rich. What's your favorite dog breed? Golden retriever or pitbull. Are you one of those people who take like, 50 Facebook quizzes at a time? I’ve never taken a Facebook quiz. What was the last shot you got? It was at the roof of my mouth, back when I had a tooth extraction. Ever gotten cavities? A few times. Can you differentiate between the words "your" and "you're?" Yes. Do you use hair ties as bracelets? Lmao always. Don’t most girls do this? What was the last school project you did that you couldn't wait to turn in? My book report for my business journalism class. After I proofread it like 6 times and triple-checked the word count, I couldn’t waitttt to get rid of it. Have you ever graded papers? Sure. I’ve said it in past surveys, but my org hosts journalism workshops to interested schools, whether they’re in elementary, high school, or college. At the end of the day they have to come up with their own articles, and then we check each of them, correct the mistakes, grade them, and give it back to them with our comments. What was your favorite year of school up to this point? Third year of high school. I don’t really have a favorite year of college... I had lows in each of them. What's the latest you've ever woken up? 11 AM. Can you recite the alphabet backwards? For a time I did cos Angela taught me. Then I just never sang it again so I ended up forgetting. If you could master one language in thirty minutes, what would it be? Korean. Are you a sucker for foreign accents? No. Sometimes I find it hard to understand. Where were you born? Is it the same place you live currently? I was born somewhere in Manila, and I live faaar away from there now. How often do you remember your dreams? What did you last dream about? Only if I note them down on my phone. The last dream I remember having was too lengthy for me to want to type it all down, but it involved me and Gabie being exes, and she had her own kid hahaha. When did you learn the ninja turtles were named after Renaissance artists? Pretty early, I guess. I’ve never seen the show though. Do you do yoga? Nope.

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5000 Question Survey Pt. 15

1401. Do you like your movies and books to be more lighthearted or serious? depends on my mood. but usually light hearted. 1402. What's more important, first impressions or lasting impact? first impressions. i kinda lose interest if the first impression sucks. 1403. Order these areas of psychological health from what you need the least improvement in to what you need the most improvement in: physical, emotional, social, intellectual, environmental, spiritual spiritual, environmental, social, intellectual, emotional and physical. 1404. Do you react appropriately to things and control your feelings? i’d say so. 1405. Do you have stable relationships? yes.

1406. Do you need to be in a relationship to feel good about yourself? not at all. but it’s been so long that idk what i’d be like alone. 1407. Which is the most clear and concise, your thoughts, your speech or your writing? Which is the least clear and concise? most clear: thoughts. least: writing coz i never write. 1408. Are you always trying to learn new things? not all the time. 1409. Do you feel at peace? not yet. 1410. Do you have strong morals and ethics that you believe in and adhere to? yeah. 1411. Are you over or under weight? over. 1412. Do you think of the needs of all humanity or just the needs of yourself and those you know? tbh me and those i know. after i fix myself, i can start focusing on the needs of others. 1413. Do you recycle? yes. 1414. Are you active in your community? not at all. 1415. Are you sensitive to the needs of others? not really? 1416. Do you dress up to go to the mall? haha omg no. it used to be a huge thing back in high school, but i couldn’t care less these days. 1417. Have you ever been on anti depressants? nope. 1418. Name a part of your body. Give that part of your body a name. heart. heart lol. 1419. Is fourteen your lucky number? nope. 1420. What could make you lose respect for someone? having them do something unforgivable. 1421. Is ignorance really bliss? i don’t think so. it could lead to a rude awakening. 1422. What can be described as 'even better than the real thing'? not sure. 1423. Are you jealous that dog can lick their own genitals? If you could do that would you ever leave the house? no and yes. 1424. What's in your wallet right now? driver’s license, debit card, credit card, membership cards, receipts and coins. 1425. Do you write letters that you never send? nope. 1426. Do you ever get the feeling people are laughing at you? sometimes. 1427. Who's the one person you'd like to drop a house on? haha idk. 1428. Have you ever been swept off your feet? i guess. 1429. Tell me why you don't like Mondays: because i have work. 1430. In the Harry potter series the books seem to be getting darker and more serious with each new release. Do you like this change or do you prefer the story to be light? i thing the change suits the development of the story. i’d lose interest if the entire series was light hearted. 1431. How often do you update your diary? weekly. 1432. What do you mostly write about in your diary? my schedule. 1433. How many quizzes and/or surveys do you have in your diary as entries? oh, i didn’t know the question was regarding like a blog lol. 1433. How many forwards does your diary contain? - 1434. What is your writing style like? - 1435. How honest are you in your diary? - 1436. Why do you write in your diary? - 1437. Do you have a comet cursor on your diary description? - 1438. Do you ever chat online? only on fb messenger to people i know personally. 1439. Have you ever met someone from online? How'd that go? no. at most i’ve met mutual friends online but they still lived locally. 1440. What's your favorite horror: Movie? umm, i don’t have one. Book? goosebumps haha. 1441. Have you ever caught a mistake in a movie? yes, plenty of times. as a kid moviemistakes.com was my jam haha. 1442. Have you ever seen that munchkin who supposedly hangs himself in the Wizard of Oz? If yes, how/when should someone look for it? only in a buzzfeed post. 1443. If you had to give yourself a letter grade (A, A-, B, B-, C, C-, D, D-, F) for things how would you grade yourself on: Happiness: B- Being a decent human being: B Being serene (calm, peaceful): B- Kindness: B- Anger management: A- Creative thinking: C Modesty: A- Being an original: A- Knowing yourself: A- Being true to yourself: B Getting along with others: C Liking yourself: D Admitting your flaws: B Self improvement: D- 1444. Are you kinky? haha no. 1445. How would you feel if twice a week you could wake up next to the person you love? pretty good! 1446. Out of all the people you know who is most likely to be one of the great minds of our time? hmmm. not sure. 1447. Have you ever been to: Church? yes. Temple? yes. A bar? yes. A house party? yes. A rave? yes. A goth club? no. A punk show? no. A hip hop club? yes. What sounds like the most fun out of that list? a bar. 1448. So far, have you changed around any of the questions on this survey? haha no. what’s the point? 1449. Are you crying on the inside? no. 1450. Are you afraid of the future? kinda. 1451. What will you dress up as this year for Halloween (if you celebrate it)? nothing. 1452. Do you think of some people as not worthy of being your friend? yep. lol. 1453. If you won $1,000 every week until you die, would you still go to school? Would you still get a job? i’m done with school. and yeah i’d still work. 1454. What's the most difficult job you can think of? anything outdoors and strenuous on the body. i couldn’t imagine working outside in the heat during summer. 1455. If you could decorate your room with any theme you wanted what would you pick? i’d leave it the way it is. pretty simple. 1456. Of the following bands which would you be most likely to check out? roxy music (70's glam) the magnetic fields (current indie rock) kraftwerk (experimental electronic rock) <--- this one i guess. 1457. You and your boy/girlfriend have been together 6 months or longer.... One day s/he wants to go to a strip club with his/her friends to hang out. It's guys/girls night out and you aren't invited. Would you be upset by this? tbh if he told me in advance and was completely honest about it i don’t think i’d get upset. but to be fair, my boyfriend has never been to a strip club so idk what i’d feel. 1458. Can a person avoid dying if he or she does not believe in death? um i don’t think so. 1459. If someone sings songs that they don't write and they don't play any instruments or mix the songs or have any creative input at all..Are they a musician? i used to think about this a lot and yeah i guess they’re still a musician. 1460. What do the following stand for: html? something link lol idk. faq? frequently asked questions. fao? no idea. imho? in my humble opinion. hiv? something virus? aids? idk. r&b? rhythm and blues. 1461. What does the world owe you? happiness. then again, i’m in control of that. 1462. Do you read plays and books or just get the cliff notes? when i was in school i did both. 1463. What do you want to get out of life? happiness pretty much. and a family. 1464. Do you know what is really important to you? yes. 1465. What trend has been getting on your nerves lately? idk. 1466. Do you forgive yourself when you make a mistake? yeah, i just consider it as a lesson. 1467. What tiny little very small thing has made you hugely happy? days off work. 1468. Can you read body language well? i think so. 1469. Do you look people in the eye when you talk? yes. 1470. Do you notice if they aren't looking you in the eye? yes. 1471. Are you alert to opportunities? sometimes. 1472. Puppet Yoda or digital Yoda? neither. 1473. Do you look like the person you want to be? no. 1474. Do you behave like the person you want to be? yeah i guess. 1475. Some children were asked 'how would you make your marriage work?' One child, Ricky, age ten, said: 'Tell your wife she looks pretty, even if she looks like a truck.' Is this good advice? no lol. i’d rather my partner be honest with me. 1476. Do you visualize your goals and dreams? yes. 1477. 4x + 3 = 15  What is the value of x? literally haven’t done algebra in years. is it 3? 1478. Do you keep yourself organized? yes. 1479. Does anyone really win an argument? haha only in their minds. 1480. Have you ever had champagne? yes. 1481. Do you strive for perfection? no. i just thrive to be successful. 1482. Name one thing you understand. myself. 1483. Whatever it is are you afraid of it? yes. 1484. Do you dislike being told what to do? yesssss. 1485. If you had a cat would you have it declawed? i’d never get a cat. 1486. Do you prefer lobster, clams, or crab meat? tbh i like them all. 1487. What do you think about guys who don't wear underwear? omg i don’t know any guys who don’t lmao. 1488. What do you think about girls who don't wear bras? it’s fine. 1489. Do you ask for what you want? sometimes. 1490. What are you against? bigots. 1491. How many notes does your diary have? - 1492. Ace of Base or Enya? neither. 1493. What makes you feel awkward? socially awkward situations. 1494. Have you ever been to teenopendiary.com, and if yes, how does it compare to opendiary.com? lol this must be soooooo old. 1495. If you were going to switch to another diary website, which one would you go to? - 1496. Do you believe that certain books should be removed from high school libraries? depends on the contents. 1497. How do you feel about gay and lesbian marriages? i’m all for it. 1498. Can you rearrange the letters in your name to form any other words(check here if you aren't sure http://www.wordsmith.org/anagram/)? haha no. 1499. What is the sexiest moment in a movie? idk. 1500. Do you have a favorite stand up comedian? i don’t have a fave.