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saey707 · 2 years

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✿ Prompt: Yone lets his inner demon out ✿

♡ champion focus: yone ♡ tw: yandere, kidnapping, noncon, psychological horror, gore, obsession ♡ Female reader

Author’s Note: I bet nobody expected me to come back and offer yet another Yone piece... ̑̑ෆ(⸝⸝⸝◉⸝ ｡ ⸝◉⸝⸝⸝) I bet you all can tell I play favorites. While I was gone, I want to thank everyone for supporting my work! So many notes! (◉ ω ◉) I don't think I'll be around consistently because I am in school... But nonetheless, I hope you enjoy this piece! [Side note: I didn't read this over, so I am praying there are no mistakes lol]

Yone was desperate. For far too many nights, he longed to keep you by his side, to fulfill the weary, devoid hole in his heart. He ached to feel the touch of your soft skin, pressed flush against his own, hearts intertwined... Just like that evening when the two of you met in the spirit realm, sitting in comfortable silences. It was the one memory Yone wished he could have embraced a little bit longer... He clung to the idea that someday he would see you again.

In the beginning, he asked himself- no- pondered such menial questions: Why did he cling? Why couldn't he love like normal people did? And will the day ever come when he will feel loved again? Frustrated, it didn't take long for Yone to grow irritated with his lack of pursuit, deciding then to venture beyond the spirit realm... All to find you again.

When Yone found you, his heart swelled with joy. Just watching you from afar, safe and happy, was enough to provide the azakana solace.

But despite how happy he was for you, he couldn't stop his repulsive, killer instincts from feeling one other thing: Hunger.

Remnants of his days were spent watching you, longing to devour you whole. From what Yone has learned in his short return to the mortal realm was how women had a sweeter scent and squishy skin. Much easier to tear into... If he so much had the courage to feast. Most days he left the idea of eating up to his own interpretations. But you...The idea of your sweet blood, body, and soul flowing down his throat, staining his fanged teeth, all leaving him warm and full, made Yone feel profound greed, an unwillingness to share you with anyone else in all of Runeterra.

And one night, Yone was torn with conflict. He didn't want to kill you... But he did want to know in your final dying hours he would be able to consume you. To him, this was all slowly becoming a game. A sick, delusional game.

You were a deer caught in headlights, glowing heterochromatic eyes focused on you from the shadows. From there, all you were able to remember were those horrible, glowing eyes as this... monster swept you off your feet.

He tore his claws into you, eyes widened when your shrill voice begged him to stop. Your delicate skin was marked with the unholy curse of a demon; By the hands of a man, who you fell in love with once upon a time in another realm.

And once again, the hunter was faced with a difficult decision. He was unable to bring himself to risk your precious life for his five minutes of pleasure.

But, either way, it was too late.

You were Yone's possession.

He honored you with his name, tasting the blood that trickled along your forearm greedily, savoring every last drop. You were his now, and he didn’t intend to let you go.

“I'm sorry... I lost myself for a moment there." He heavily sighed, thumb brushing against the corner of his lips. "I'm afraid I can't let you go... Can’t you see, deer? Everyone needs to know that you’re mine."

What was pure agony to you was pure pleasure to him. Every terrible glimmer in your eyes, every rapid beat of your gentle heart. Every shrill scream. All of it was his and only his.

You may deem him to be a monster... But he saw himself as a hungry predator, longing to just corrupt his innocent prey.

And his dabbling hours of him feasting upon you, watching you, and clinging to your love and attention lasted for days upon days. For a moment, Yone thought the two of you could be happy together, that he could stop and realize... He really does have the potential to love someone so innocently again. If he just lets you live to be one with him, hearts intertwined like before...

But you just had to play hard to get. He could have let you see the light of day. That was before you hit him.

The slap forced enough impact to turn his head to the side, raven locks falling over his face. A gruesome snarl followed, clutching where you hit him with a bandaged hand.

“You’re going to wish you didn’t do that, (Y/N)...”

Yone dragged you to the forest, the aching cold blowing against the bits of your exposed skin. He grabbed you by the hair, snickering as he pushed you to the dirt. Fingers danced along the hilt of his dual blades, your eyes trailing to them. He was going to kill you, you thought. Helpless, little tears prickled along the corners of your eyes. But, Yone showed no remorse for the devastating look on your sad, innocent, little face.

The hunter began circling you. Cold nails traveled along your jawline; He was toying with you you, taunting you.

“It pains me that we have to do this, innocent deer... I don't want to be a monster." He muttered, listening to the steady stream of your sobs.

"You don't have to be..." You wallowed out.

"Then why?! Why did you keep running?! If you leave me, I’ll die!! You don’t want to let me starve do you?!”

He grabbed you by the face, his breathy voice dancing into your ear, malice trembling in his unstable laughter as he spoke, “I’m going to count to ten... You have ten seconds to run for your helpless, little freedom... But you won’t get very far. You’re so hopeless you can’t admit that you need me.” Chuckling, he teeth on your cheek a little, before placing his lips as a gentle kiss.

“Do you remember when I told you the cheek was a window to the soul?" The warrior queried, his heart sinking when you nodded your head. Of course, you remember. You remember all the memories you shared with him. They lived in your heart, in a part of your soul.

To him, it was a glimpse of the past, a reminder that the two of you could have been happy and human. But there was no point in looking back now when all Yone saw in the reflections of still rivers was a monster with a mask.

"If I catch you... I am going to kill you. You will be my perfect, little pet." He sighed, "I anticipated this day would come. You’re just a defenseless deer. You can’t protect yourself... And there will be no one to protect you or save you..." He smiled. You were terrified.

"Look at you, so desperate to leave the only man who cares about you!! It makes me sick.”

He could only smile at your determination. Such a headstrong woman you were. It was one of the many things he loved about you, and yet, one of the many he hated. Releasing you from his hold, he grabbed hold of mortal steel.

You scrambled to your feet, listening to his daunting voice begin the countdown. You screamed, cried, and struggled to navigate a way out of the treacherous, unending forest!!

WHICH WAY

LEFT?

RIGHT?!

Every way you turned you can hear him, ridiculing your chance of escape.

His free hand gripped onto the demonic blade, halfway done with the countdown.

Yone readied himself, one leg forward, blades forming a perfect "X" before the long forgotten, once dignified warrior. You can hear his footsteps, prancing atop the snow, beginning his prowl for your entire being...

Get OUT OF HERE! Go AWAY!!!

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!

HE'S COMING

RUN! RUN! RUN! RUN!

“FOUND YOU, DEER!”

Your eyes shut tightly, dreading the impact of his blades... But they never came.

“That was fun. However, you didn’t make that a challenge for me... How sweet! Are you really this weak without me?" He sliced your leg, making you fall to your knees with a howl.

"That’s adorable. Aww, don't cry, deer~" He licked your cheek, admiring how your head turned away from meeting his hungry eyes, "Is my little deer scared? I'm sorry~ I didn't mean it, honest..." But you knew he was teasing you.

The hunter's tongue and lips followed down to your thigh, beginning to suck the blood from your open wounds. The sight of your trembling shoulders, your delicate hand weft in his hair as he suckled on your sweet blood, was everything to him. It seethed eternities of endless love for the innocent spirit he so much adored.

“You taste so good... You want to be touched by me, don’t you deer? You love feeling absolutely incapable. Nothing but a dirty, little animal of mine...” His hunger was satisfied. His name was scarred into your skin. He broke you. And he was a monster to enjoy every bite, prod, and lick that satisfied the everlasting starvation that contorted the Yone you once loved.

You can struggle and cry and scream all you want. But you belong to the hunter, and the hunter would only ever belong to you.

#saeybaewrites #tw #short #yandere #x reader #yone #yone league of legends #yone lol #yone x reader #lol yone x reader #yone league of legends x reader #league of legends x reader

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claudiajcregg · 2 months

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For the Fanfic asks - for the askers:

4. The best ship you've written for: CJ/Danny of course, it goes without saying! The banter, the love, the sparkles between them! 💜 I also love the way you wrote Abbey/Jed in your holiday exchange fic 😊 7. What made me the most emotional after reading: Every moment led me to this place is a gorgeous, gorgeous fic! And you wrote it as a response to my prompt! 🥰🥰 I just love the intimacy, the happy domesticity of this fic, and I melted while I was reading it for the first time. It's relaxed and peaceful and honestly, I have to agree with Danny, what else could anyone ask for?

9. A fic I'm excited for you posting: Campaign bars! Campaign bars! I know I told you this before lol but I have to say it again, I love the concept so much and I can't wait to read this fic, whenever you finish it and decide to post it. 💜

12. A fic of yours that I've re-read: I must have read telling myself, one day I'll forget about it three or four times since you posted it, that's how much I like it. I'm a sucker for the first 'Bartlet for America' campaign fics and it's great, absolutely awesome! I love CJ's thought process, I love the little details suggesting just how small the initial thing is and how nobody really expects it's going to last for a long time. The borrowed chair, the makeshift office... And of course, there's the main theme: CJ who doesn't want to admit that she has a crush on the cute guy with a Pulitzer! 🥰🥰🥰🥰 💜💜💜💜💜💜

[From fanfic asks for the askers]

Friend 😭😭😭😭💜💜💜💜 (really typed your name and had to delete that just in case, lmao) Thank you so much! I'm overwhelmed by all of your kind words here, and how detailed you were. You are the sweetest and most wonderful friend.

Love Jed and Abbey. Truly don't write them enough, but writing those bits for the exchange fic was truly lots of fun! (The other pairing is alright, I guess? 😜 )

Your prompt was so awesome! Truly so much fun. I took it last and had that idea immediately (it started as more of a 'what if…' crazy idea that I couldn't get rid of), which is the mark of a great, great prompt. Love that it connected with you and made you feel emotional! 🥹🥹🥹 It was meant to be chill and quiet… Perhaps because my brain was anything but when I wrote it. (Or now, lol. But early/mid-February was truly something else. What a year.)

Really do think you're hyping Campaign bars way too much. I haven't touched it in forever! It wasn't that interesting or compelling, and I now fear it might disappoint you! It was fun to write, though. It ended up being neglected by the muse, though I'd love to go back to it someday soon! (I fear the pregnancy AU will keep being the priority for the time being.)

Your comment on the crush story was one of the sweetest, kindest things I've ever received. It got to me. That you've read it so many times in the last couple of days is just !!!!, because I've also re-read your comment many times since. Thank you! 🥺😭😭 I had a lot of fun writing it, and I'm glad some of that comes through. 💜💜💜💜 Here's a thing you will find amusing – I almost discarded this idea because it was originally a bit too close to one of the chapters in Campaign Bars. Not anymore, but a detail or two do carry over 😉

#unseenacademic #fanfic asks for the askers #asks #you truly are the best #you got me friday and you've got me again here 😭#I can't overstate how touched I was by your comment and how much I cherish it #(I have mixed feelings about a recent long comment I got. there's a reason I keep drafting its reply. so yours was a gift basically)#but this is not the time or place to talk about other people #my writing doesn't usually warrant long comments so any time I get one is so important to me

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nestasgalpal · 1 year

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Hi! I recently read a post where the OP sort of lists why she relates to Nesta. And I think anti-nestas have missed that point completely. They can't grasp how Nesta could possibly be relatable. So I thought I'd ask, has there ever been a scenario IRL where you felt like you were Nesta? If not, that's cool too. Liking her for her badassery alone is enough but I'm just curious if there's an IRL reason. #IAmNesta

Okay, long answer. Here I go:

I relate to Nesta in the sense that I deal with absolutely everything in an extremely private way. I don't share my feelings until I've already processed them (which takes me forever), I don't ask for advice, I don't ask for help and even when those things are offered to me, I have a hard time accepting them.

Just like Nesta, my reaction to almost everything is isolating myself from the rest, and working on my own to block it. Like, I won't even work on my feelings or intrusive thoughts, I do what my therapist calls "anesthesia", where I simply block things and refuse to acknowledge them. I pretend they don't exist. I think Nesta does the same, but the kind of stuff she is bottling up is obviously of a different magnitude than what I deal with. She is a fictional character!!

We have known since the beginning, because Feyre told us, that Nesta mourned the death of their mother like nobody else. We were told as well she was the one who suffered the most from the loss of their fortune. We then learned that Nesta is a victim of child abuse, both physical from her grandmother and psychological from basically all the adults in her life. We discover that she was groomed her entire childhood and brainwashed into thinking she must marry a prince to ensure the family's future. That's where the people in her life told Nesta her worth as a person was: in her ability to marry. And after accepting such a thing and growing up enduring that kind of abuse, all of a sudden they lose their status, everything she has learned to excel at isn't useful anymore, and apparently she did all that for nothing.

I think her anger is reasonable. I understand her because when I'm unable to understand my own emotions I become angry as well. In my case, I'm angry with myself, not the world or other people, but to others I seem more short-tempered than I usually am. From outside we are regarded as petty or unreasonably unpleasant because our attiture comes "out of nowhere", but it's our own fault, because we won't tell people about what we are going though.

What Nesta did wrong was allowing it to harm her relationship with her sisters, who were blameless. She was I think 14 when they moved out and into the cottage (right after she refused to marry the duke, which probably added to the frustration, although a 14y/o shouldn't have been in that position at all). Their father did nothing, and Nesta simply had never learned how to deal with things in a healthy way, so she lashed out. I'm sad we never got an explanation as to why she was protective of Elain and not Feyre. I personally came to the conclusion it was because her mother used to talk to her about Elain like she was a dumb but pretty girl, and perhaps Nesta wanted to allow her to keep her apparent bubbliness, the protection from the outside world she never got. It could also be because she thought Elain, being the prettiest, still had a chance to find a good match, while she considered herself and Feyre hopeless.

What I respect from Nesta, maybe because it happens to me as well, is that she is aware of how her actions affect others (again, we are on different levels lol). She knows she is hurting Feyre, and she hates that about herself. Perhaps she doesn't do the same thing to Elain because, while Feyre clearly has no issue fighting back, Nesta assumes Elain couldn't, and the damage would be greater??? The thing is that she never asks Feyre to understand her reasons. Does that make sense? Like, she is aware of how horrible she is being, and if Feyre wanted to cut ties with her, she wouldn't blame her. In fact, when Feyre wants to go back to save Tamlin, Nesta encourages her to go and be happy. She knows Feyre desserves better than a life with her in it.

Nesta won't get upset and ask her sister to be more understanding, which I think is better than thinking she is entitled to other people's compassion and patience. As I see it, that's why when they get their money back she is willing to give Feyre anything she needs, even if helping fae is considered treason. Because she feels guilty and believes she owes Feyre for putting up with her and not leaving. In my opinion, Feyre refusing to give up on her only makes Nesta feel worse about herself.

I don't know, I liked that she is not delusional about her toxic behavior, and that when she pushes people away, she doesn't expect them to fight back to stay in her life. She never demands others to empathize with her, and after lashing out, accepts whatever they decide to do. Because as someone who struggles to allow people in or accet help, I would never expect people to put me before their own mental health, and that's where I relate to her.

I saw that being the main issue between Feyre and Nesta after ACOWAR. Feyre will fight forever to have the sister she wants. Nesta sees it differently. Nesta thinks "if Feyre doesn't want to put up with me, she can disappear from my life, I won't blame or resent her for her choices." But Feyre is so convinced she wants Nesta in her life, she won't stop trying. And that insistence is hurting both. Nesta can't fit into what Feyre wants, and feels guilty because she still feels in debt with her sister, but can't give her what she wants. She can't fit into Feyre's life as she is, and the chance of not being in the life of her sister at all is taken from her. She MUST be in it. Feyre goes to the extreme to prevent Nesta from leaving her... but there is still no room for her if she doesn't change herself. Seeing things won't work, Nesta wants out of it. Feyre wants to force her to stay... hence the bribery to have her at the birthday party that only made both miserable, the intervention, the imprisonment, etc. Nesta would rather be rejected by her sisters than have them hate her, because she knows herself and knows she will constantly let them down. And I relate to her for that.

#nesta #nesta archeron #nesta acotar #pro nesta #feyre acotar #feyre #feyre archeron #elain archeron #the archeron sisters #a court of silver flames #a court of thorns and roses #acotar #acosf

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obsessivelollipoplalala · 1 year

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Asking seriously...does Roger get the kind of hate that Brian gets for cheating? Every picture of Chrissie has someone pissing and moaning about how Brian cheated...like he was the only guy in the group who stepped out on his wife. We know that Roger did as well, and if I'm not mistaken, John also strayed down that path. It's like there's some contractual obligation to add "...but Brian cheated," to any picture of Chrissie that's posted. Then again, people love hating on Brian for merely breathing, so i don't know why I'm continually surprised at this. Fandom will fandom.

Sorry for treating your inbox as a fandom confessional, but you are remarkably level-headed and I appreciate that on a molecular level.

Lol ohhhh boy, anon.

So I'm going to try to answer this quickly because I'm about to go to bed and I have work in the morning: on the one hand, I understand the focus on Brian's cheating because 1.) it was a recurring theme in his music 2.) his affair with another public figure generated countless tabloid articles, so the British press began talking about his cheating long before the fandom did, and the other band members weren't cheating on their partners with other public figures who the tabloids could make money on (I know Debbie was technically a public figure, but she was a nobody compared to Anita in terms of fame in the 80s) 3.) Brian has also been the most open about this in interviews while the others have not been. When we have several quotes from Brian over the years on his failures as a husband, struggles with love, and how much his divorce wrecked him, I think it's natural for the fandom to talk about it, since his divorce played such a huge part in the content of his solo work and he's given us more information to absorb than Roger and Freddie about their relationships and John about his marriage. We know Brian's guilt and depression over his divorce affected him for a very long time as a person because he's told us, but we don't know how Freddie, Roger, or John really felt about that side of their lifestyle.

With that said, yes, people do act like he was the only one who cheated and it's just dishonest. Because Brian has been the most honest about it, I think he's opened himself up to the most criticism. He's an easy punching bag because he told us he fucked up, as opposed to the others. The other guys were under no obligation to tell the public about their relationships, mind you, I just think that despite him wanting to have his cake and eat it, too, it all ate away at Brian enough that he had to talk about it in his work over the years, and then everything was brought into the spotlight without his wishes with the British tabloids. With Roger and John, there's sort of plausible deniability upon first glance because we don't have anything straight up confirming their cheating, but it just takes, like, reading and putting pieces together to know they did lol. Like, we have Roger on video low-key bragging about going to dinner with a woman who took out her tits in front of him while he was in a relationship with the mother of his child lol, and interviews of him talking about strippers and saying there was a lot of sex in Munich (there's also a tabloid article from like 1988 that claims to have quotes from Dominique being shocked Roger left her, and quotes from Roger saying that he couldn't say much without people getting hurt, but I don't know how legitimate the article is simply because there are many suspect Queen tabloid articles from the era). But I've seen Roger stans in particular flip out at the mere suggestion that he cheated and demand evidence, as if his own words about strippers and lots of Munich sex aren’t enough lol

Perhaps with Roger and John, people can close their eyes to their cheating because of the lack of information and act like they didn't hurt their partners, too, but Brian has forced us to confront that he is a flawed person who was a bad husband the first time around, and people hate that he's made them aware of his sins and that he's not the perfect, stan-able angel they want him to be, so they're pissed and always have to add "but cheeeeat" on every picture of Chrissy (I just personally don't reblog pics of Chrissy because I think that whole situation was sad, you know what I mean? It sucks when a marriage ends so painfully, but no one ever adds the same caveat to pics of Roger and Dominique).

(Thanks for the compliment, btw!)

#please don't let me wake up to a shit show in my inbox lol #I work on-site tomorrow on my work computer #I can't be on tumblr until my lunch break #and I don't want to type an essay on my phone #I've already spent too long typing this #queen #replies #Anonymous

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loumauve · 1 year

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For the writer's ask: 12, 16 and 17!

thank you for the questions!! <3

[the list of questions can be found here]

12. Are there any tropes you used to dislike but have grown on you?

couldn't possibly remember all of the ones that have slowly grown on me over the past what.. almost two decades of reading fic, but 'Hanahaki Disease' has been a recent one. and I don't always like it, just when it's done well. don't think I'd ever write it though

16. What’s an AU you would love to read (or have read and loved)?

I LOVE AUs. most AUs will do. love me a good 'one of them is a monster, actually' and a lot of 'they get to live. fuck you, canon'. magical realism is always nice, too.

also a big fan of 'let's change one thing and see how everything spirals from there' really, really love that.

OH! also the whole 'let's put these characters in a whole different setting but keep them exactly true to who they are and go from there' SO GOOD. can really tell a good writer from that, they have their characters pinned down SO WELL.

17. What highly specific AU do you want to read or write even though you might be the only person to appreciate it?

well, as we know from this amazing art, Skate AU for Horizon has been on my thoughts, somewhat parallel to trying to figure out an Old Ones/modern au and what they would all end up doing post school in that timeline.

@finrays and I have also been pondering a His Dark Materials AU in the broadest sense, those are always present in my mind whichever fandom I'm in.

then there's still the everyone lives au for Horizon, which.. if I was at all able to write long-fic I'd love to write someday, because I have a whole bunch of feels about so many things in that.

and then, and I know nobody here really remembers, there was a little show called Haven and another show called Fringe and I really wanted Olivia Dunham to meet Audrey Parker, and I have legit notes on that in a notebook somewhere, but I'll never end up writing it, again, bc long-fic and my brain do not cooperate (I don't know how y'all do it, I'm so impressed)

..I just looked through my folder of handwritten notes and printed out fic I wrote, and there's a bunch of crossover AU ideas like one with Thelma (from Hex) meeting Annie (from the og Being Human) like.. this heavily dates me lol but I did love those shows at a time, and still kinda do even if they're a little cringe now.

there's also an AU for Crossing Jordan where Lu lives and Hoyt dies instead. bc.. ya know, I wanted it to be more gay and that seemed like the perfect solution (don't blame me, I was still in the figuring out I'm actually queer phase of my life then. literally half my life ago)

anyway, I used to really love thinking up crossover AUs which is funny considering how I don't really love to read crossovers these days

#thank you for the questions. I may have derailed a little but this was hella fun #ask meme thingie

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isopodsoup · 1 year

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Hey, so I'm gonna make an update here because this blog format means I can fit a LOT more text + information into one post which is super useful to a rambler like me.

Testing out 'read more' for the first time but TLDR: drawing is going bad and I'm being put in a mental health care facility with bad reviews about abuse and Christianity being pushed on patients (the transfer is all without my consent, too) after having a mental breakdown and having the police called

(TWS HERE AND IN TAGS) // knife, self harm, police/police tasers, mental breakdowns, racism mention

So, basically. I had a huge build up of dealing with a stupid amount of stupidity from my father in particular for almost 2 decades. I'm still not entirely sure what even happened but as far as I've managed to figure out:

I was listening to videos with headphones in my room with the door closed (as I always do in my noisy house when I want to chill) and my family wanted me to do the dishes (especially my father, ironic because he has never done dishes) and I couldn't hear anybody calling from where I was. He ran into my room and started screaming and kept screaming while I asked for an apology and for him to just ask normally because I obviously had no idea why he was suddenly so angry and I obviously hadn't just been 'ignoring' him. He kept screaming, ripped my devices and chargers out of the wall and ran off. Then, my mother turned off anything online and just ignored me.

Problem is my self sooth method is just mindless silly videos on YouTube because it blocks out noise + distracts me. So, I lost my only sooth method and had to listen to loud noises and people talking and yelling (not just about what happened, my parents are always fighting daily LOL) all while having a mental breakdown.

So uhh, I ended up cutting most of my hair off with scissors, cutting my arm with a knife and rubbing hand sanitiser in it (it's fine). Continued to the next day when nobody would tell me anything about my stuff and I had no idea what the hell was going on at this point or why I was really being punished and forced to just 'push through' a whole mental collapse after a long year of struggling and isolation finally coming back and biting me in the ass full force.

My mom walked in and tried to take the knife I had used to hurt myself when she saw it next to my pillow. Not in a nice way, as usual. She hasn't really cared about this kind of stuff for years and just insulted me for it. And... IDK man. Maybe it was the year of isolation after switching schools to one I had avoided for several years because of people there giving me likely PTSD (Likely, they said, yeah. Cause they're useless at actually screening for things) and then spiraling into a paranoid mindset basically seperate from reality (think: people are stalking me, people want to attack and assault me constantly, always in danger, anyone walking behind me was following me, etc for the whole year) and most of the students being huge bigots (Think mullets, thick NZ accents and slurs. One straight up called black people monkeys on my FIRST DAY) but I ended up holding the knife upwards instead (not at her), refusing to give it to her and kept telling her to back off? Short of pointing it at her I was trying to intimidate her away from me cause I was just so skittish and freaked out at this point. Basically, threatening my mom.

So, she had to call the mental health office I was with at the time (explained later) and eventually after she tried again to take the knife she was told to call the police. They ended up threatening me with a taser and really didn't do anything to help but that's the police for you.

Pretty much complete isolation and a few days crying and rubbing sanitiser into my left over cuts from there until my next mental health session with the office. Now, it was probably my mistake for even staying with a doctor who was obvious neurotypical (I'm autistic) just cause I felt guilty admitting I didn't like her because she always kept implying things instead of outright telling me and getting frustrated I wasn't picking up on things I literally... can't pick up? But, anyway. I ended up cancelling anymore sessions. They weren't doing anything to help me at all and really didn't seem to understand communication is a two way thing and I can't just... do whatever I want. She also was supposed to bring a doctor in to talk about testosterone with me (non-binary, transmasc) but she keeps cancelling (several months of cancelling scheduled meet ups) and never showing up so I just gave up on ever getting that part of my mental health taken care of.

But, the BIG thing is that she mentioned in that stupid implied way "is anything happening next week?" I was obviously super confused but figured it was just small talk since the session was almost over. I told her I had an exam next week but nothing else I knew about. She seemed confused about that but NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT WHY.

I find out AFTER the session I'm being sent to a 'place' nobody will tell me about. What it is, where it is, who is there, when I'm going, etc. Nothing. "Let's tell the person whose brain literally functions on being aware of things and told things directly with severe anxiety absolutely nothing about being sent away for "a few days" including the fact they're even being sent away! What a fantastic idea!" is some wild neurotypical mentally stable logic but here we are. They were supposed to go through paperwork with me that session for the place but they never told me ANYTHING or asked for my consent but apparently, I'm still going! Not even sure how they can do that.

I only today - after pressuring my parents - learned where I'm going. This place has 3 stars and reviews are talking about judgy staff, dismissive mindsets and the facility trying to convert the patients to christianity??

Truth be told, I'm scared. I'm terrified. I'm probably just... not going to speak to anyone as best I can and hope they'll just leave me alone but from the website that doesn't look like the case. It's probably more like staff members talking to you, monitoring you and shifting you around place all the time.

So, yeah. I don't know when I'm going to be online again. For all I know, they might take all my devices.

I don't know what to do but, I really hope this isn't goodbye. Thank you.

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okay i have another zelda ask for you. save for whenever you want a meaty ask. in my recent zelda youtubery people have been revisiting/laughing at that wacky animated series or whatever, like 'lol this was SO bad we will never get a zelda movie now'. which.. i'm not even sure if i want in the first place. but i did think, "well liz could write a good one". so if nintendo kidnapped you and forced you to write the zelda movie. what's your vision for the vibe/big plot points/character arcs? or like. what would it need to be good. just for fun! i hope you never get sick of me sending you random zelda asks. xoxoxo.

I WILL LITERALLY NEVER GET SICK OF THIS. i am literally SO flattered you think i could do it justice. you are gonna regret asking me though because the more time i had to think this over the more elaborate it got. so. (also, i have seen the animated series in its entirety. a long time ago now but i did. it sure was an experience; some of it i liked and some of it i really hated.) also sorry this took me so long to do i took a week’s break in the middle to read 1.3 million words of fanfiction. I BET YOU THOUGHT I FORGOT well i didnt. i have devoted so much brainpower to this. too much brainpower even

anyway. the first obvious and easy answer is that i would simply have them shoot ocarina of time. with only the most nuanced of performances, the most tasteful CGI, the best on-site locations for shooting, a score by koji kondo himself which is then of course performed LIVE exclusively by tokyo philharmonic. this is the movie of my dreams. or, hell, i’d have them shoot, in particular, the movie version of the fanfic i wrote when i was 14, adapting ocarina of time. this was my first ever fic so as you can imagine it was a complete bastardization full of OCs and character death and i will forever be sad it was lost to the sands of time.

HOWEVER. that’s the short boring answer, and having adapted it myself i know that oot is a challenging game to put into a story that doesn’t involve audience interaction, because a great bulk of the game is spent inside dungeons where, strictly plotwise, Nothing Happens. also i don’t think that’s the movie nintendo would want to make, or allow me to make. i think nintendo would want a new story with a new link, just like they would for a new game, to make it accessible for people who have never touched a zelda game before. (i think, mistakenly, they would want to make the movie primarily for that audience, but more on that later.) i also think that with the major game movies lately there’s been a push for things to be Funny - detective pikachu and the sonic movies are all packed with jokes, and from the looks of it the mario movie, while hopefully less successful (chris pratt...die), will attempt to be too. i also know that nintendo has a habit of trying out really risky ideas that sound bad but then work out well in the execution (smash brothers, to name one humble example - the mario movie will be an exception to this). i ALSO know that the most popular zelda games by and far are oot and botw, so while this project would require a new story i (and hopefully this hypothetical nintendo) would want to draw from and reference those games the most.

so. here is the movie i think nintendo would make, or allow me to make, if they trusted me a lot and were willing to take a few risks with me. THIS IS SOOO LOOOONG LOL (i am not kidding this post is ~7500 words) unfortunately this has to behind a cut. nobody is obligated to read it, it’s fucking insane. it would never fit into a 2-hour movie experience without feeling rushed, but we can just pretend i’m a deft enough writer to make it happen and execute it perfectly. i am going to reiterate that NOBODY needs to read this, oh my god, but anyway, here goes nothing:

ZELDA THE MOVIE (LIZ EDITION)

does link talk?

FIRST THINGS FIRST. this is undoubtedly the biggest question in any zelda movie, right? link talking is weird and not who he is, but how can you have a movie where the main character does not speak? in old games it didn’t really matter that he didn’t talk, but i think botw did a great job in showing us he does talk a little, sometimes, when he has to, without us ever actually hearing him, and that he has Believable Reasons for usually choosing not to do so. so i’m gonna go with something like that - link CAN talk, but usually doesn’t, probably due to some backstory reasons. i think he could speak in the film, but maybe only once - 3 times max, and each time it’s only one sentence or phrase. VERY limited. words are a precious resource.

animated or live action?

i think the previous question’s answer actually takes care of this one. now i LOVE animation, 2D or cgi, so this is a really difficult one, but i think a true human performance will almost always be able to capture more nuance, and if you are going to have a protagonist that is mostly nonverbal, you NEED an actual actor to be making good informative faces. i could POSSIBLY accept an actor informing the animation of a virtual character, like they do for tlou and quantic dream games, but it’d have to be like, pre-rendered, and not generated “in-engine,” if that makes sense, just for quality purposes. i don’t want this movie to look like a video game, even a really nice looking video game - i want it to look like a movie. i think it makes it fresher for old fans and more accessible for new ones!

the score

for sure we need old zelda tunes for this; my biggest disappointment re: the sonic movies was that there wasn’t enough of that jammin’ sonic music in them. so for zelda i think it’d be fun to have someone from nintendo collab with someone from hollywood to make a mix of something that’s faithful to the games and evocative of decades of nostalgia but also FEELS like a movie score. like, koji kondo + hans zimmer or something. that soundtrack, assuming those stingy bastards ever sold it, would FLY off the metaphorical shelves. it’d be really fun too to maybe some really well-known, very skilled fan musicians put in a few of the covers! a video game movie is FOR the fans, so it makes perfect sense. like letting that one guy sing in the sega 30th anniversary concert. i’m not saying let seth evermann and toby fox and david erick ramos and brock hewitt and theophany have tracks in the movie, but like, let them have tracks in the movie?!?!

i also think mashups between modern and classic games would be fun. if you’ve never heard this one that combines the botw labyrinth/lost woods theme with zelda ii’s temple theme, you are missing out! please feel free to listen to it while you read this, because i would definitely use it or something very similar to it as a theme for a dungeon scene. for the opening titles we OF COURSE need oot's iconic title theme i will accept nothing less

slightly related, i think if we need to pick a particular direction for the soundtrack (the way botw’s was breathy and quiet and full of piano, or the way link’s awakening’s was quirky and cute), i’d pick a slight techno/edm direction, owing to the setting i have in mind (more on that in a minute), but something that could veer into the traditionally orchestrated as well. tbh the tron legacy soundtrack was sort of edm and orchestrated at the same time so maybe something like that??? now i’m just showing my bias LMAO

the cast + the audience

animated or live action, i actually have no idea who i’d cast - oot link was actually based off of leo dicaprio in titanic, but he’s way too old now and also that’d be weird. like i’m not the person to do fancasts bc i don’t follow any actors and the like (idris elba could make a great ganondorf though). but i think the smart thing to do for link and zelda would be to get someone extremely talented but largely unknown. so we look at them and see their characters, not their very famous actors who are bound to have the wrong connotation for SOMEBODY. that is very hard! but this is a fantasy, this is never going to happen, so we’ll assume nintendo, who still has me at gunpoint, will take my advice to spend their vast millions finding the perfect link and zelda. i know they are out there somewhere

“but what about attracting new audiences” WELL i touched on this earlier but maybe we need to chill with attempting to grub for new consumers! of course nintendo’s instinct is to get new butts in those seats and make them want to buy zelda games bc they have dollar signs in their eyes (yen signs?) and diehard fans will ALREADY keep buying every zelda ever made no matter what. i have paid for ocarina of time like 5 fucking times now and if they port the 3D version to switch i’ll fucking pay for it again and thank them while i do it! but that’s my point exactly. like, look at the sonic movies: they get mixed reviews from critics unfamiliar with the series but sonic FANS will go to war for them. the people who are gonna show up to midnight release and pay to see Theee Zelda Movie in theaters like 6 times before it releases to video/streaming are the people already fucking obsessed with zelda. i think for this project it would be crucial to strike a perfect, PERFECT balance. if the movie fucking sucks bc they were just trying to use it to sell games there won’t be a sequel. there won’t be rewatches. it’ll just go down as another lame cash cow. but if the movie doesn’t attract ANY new consumers there also...still won’t be a sequel, and it still won’t be regarded as a success. so.

i think we should make up the Fame Factor of the protagonists being nobodies by having the side characters voiced by some big names. if/when people like malon, impa, groose, the sages/champions/etc appear they could be played by famous people. i think it’d also be fun to get some cameos in there - have shigeru miyamoto, eiji aonuma, and charles martinet show up like stan lee in a marvel movie. zelda williams too if she’s comfortable with that! the more the merrier! get that star power in! make that $$$ so our corporate overlords allow us to make a sequel and also don’t fucking shoot me! and the biggest star of all should be...

the partner

if link is nonverbal, SOMEBODY in this joint needs to be delivering the dialogue. i know the lack of a partner was a big hit in botw, and it worked really well there, but while books and games can survive without dialogue it’s much harder for movies - that’s the main method of communicating information to your audience. a good nonverbal performance certainly helps with communicating information, as do clever camera shots and other techniques for dialogue-less storytelling, but in the end, for a mainstream movie, link would need SOMEONE to be his voice, that’s part of why he HAD partners for so many games. it’s an age-old technique in games with a voiceless protagonist to have other characters guess at or describe what they want to say to pass the idea along to us, so i think it could work very well in film too.

now i think nintendo would want to make a totally new partner, since there’s a new one for each of the games, and they would want to cast the Most famous person possible to get non zelda fans in those seats, but again, if i was in charge of this thing i would advise heavily against it. casting the most famous person they can afford is fine if it’s not chris pratt, but we need a character fans already know, and my gut instinct tells me it should either be navi or fi.

now, hear me out, because i know BOTH are characters that kind of annoyed players initially due to frustrating gameplay mechanics, but the fanbase’s impression of their CHARACTERS in-universe has softened a good deal over time. i think how annoying they are could also be played for a little bit of comic relief/nostalgia, which is good since zelda is often quite serious in its plot, and this character would be onscreen nearly constantly, likely having the biggest speaking role, so you could drop that comic relief in whenever you liked.

reasons it could be fi: connected to the master sword, has been with every iteration of link from the very beginning and can explain the reincarnation/cycle thing, good way to induce a call to action or whatever

reasons it could be navi: plays on the nostalgia of ocarina of time, the undisputed KING of “best zelda ever” until botw, she could be with link from BEFORE the movie starts and know him a little better, and even express desire to resist the call

being a 90s kid i am favorable to navi, but i think the plot could work with either of them. just not a new character!!!

the setting

i’m actually gonna take a little bit of risk with my setting here and suggest all those flirtations nintendo has had with adding urban elements and tech (and space invaders?!) to the legend of zelda become real. the sheikah tech in botw came VERY close, so it doesn’t seem like that much of a stretch to have link wandering around a tlou-like hyrule, one that used to resemble our own modern urban life, or maybe even something even more futuristic.

and i say tlou-like because oh yeah i think this also needs to be post-apocalypse. this one is not at ALL a stretch - even before botw, we also had versions of hyrule that were destroyed and/or taken over by hostile forces in the original legend of zelda, a link to the past (dark world) & a link between worlds (lorule), oot (bad timeline), wind waker (got mcfucking flooded), minish cap (hostile takeover leaving statues behind), twilight princess (coup + twilight realm), not to mention majora’s mask being ABOUT an oncoming apocalypse, and of course we can’t forget koholint either. give settings like this or this or this or this some of that quirky hylian flare that only nintendo can do, add some monsters (more on this in a sec), and i think you’ve got a world that is both easily understandable by audiences unfamiliar with the series AND one that is both nostalgic and fresh for old fans - in the same way that botw’s hyrule was.

but i don’t think this is the ONLY hyrule we should see. this leads into (at last)...

the premise

i’m just gonna say it: time travel.

obviously not a stretch by any imagination, since THEEE zelda game of all time involved time travel and helped produce the finalized branching timeline as a result, but we don’t actually time travel too often outside of that...like i said, i want to draw a lot from oot!

i also want to explore the cycle of reincarnation* introduced in skyward sword. skyward sword and botw are very exciting to me as a longtime fan because these are the first attempts we’ve seen at pulling the games all together and making an entire universe/connected story out of them instead of letting them just float around in the ether as a collection of stand-alones that sometimes have barely-connected sequels if they’re lucky. botw in a way felt like the first proper sequel we’ve ever REALLY had.

*yes, it’s actually more complicated than simple reincarnation, since the zeldas are all technically separate people and ganondorf never dies, but i think it’s good shorthand and tbh i wouldn’t mind if we switched to “link and zelda are always reincarnated but ganondorf never dies” or “everybody is reincarnated” for the movie just to make it more digestible to the Masses - i feel like a relatively small portion of the main fanbase would complain, especially if the rest of the movie was good. using the same actress for zelda in every timeline is easy visual shorthand, similar to using the same actor for link, whether it’s animated or live-action. it’s just easier!! sorry, this may a bit unpopular to our hypothetical hardcore fans.

i’d also like to explore what it means to accept the call of destiny/call to action and to refuse it. i had an anon once (posts here, here, and here) who talked about playing botw as someone who’d never touched zelda before and they had a totally different experience than me and how they wanted to refuse to save the world, and there’s also this comic! and i think that's the craziest brainiest shit ever so of course i’d want it in my movie.

and finally, i know it’s partially because botw2 will never give us this, but i am chomping at the BIT for some good guy ganondorf content, especially since skyward sword basically told us he didn’t ask for it to be like this anymore than link and zelda did. a lot of fanon around botw2 rehydrated ganondorf has him having been really close friends with a link and zelda at some point before being overwhelmed by his curse, and i like that a lot. because then not only is he a formidable villain, but he’s also a villain with STAKES - we like him and we want him to be saved from himself, and the monster he becomes.

anyway, what with multiple timelines/hyrules (termina and koholint etc are also fine, they’re still from link’s adventures), it would be cool if the “older” hyrules had more traditional music, and the tracks for modern hyrule were a little more slamming. that’s a little risky, though; might be better to just straight edm or orchestrate all of it without a split.

the plot

so, i’m not getting into the specifics of each scene or how it should go because at that point i’m outlining a fanfic i’ll never write, and i have at least three ideas for how any given major beat could play out anyway, so think of this as more of a general overview.

i thinking something like: link roams the urban apocalypse landscape on his lonesome (or with navi if that’s the partner character) hunting treasure in the ruins to sell and living off the land the way he does in botw. (maybe he has steampunk goggles lol.) he’s a friendly guy who tries to go out of his way to help people but he does not have a Purpose. i’m thinking an early scene where he tries to save some passerby from monsters** and lacks a proper weapon (his is rusted or gets broken), or maybe a bit where he gets caught by monsters while looking for treasure, and again his weapon breaks, and that can throw us into the action. then later he sells his treasure to a merchant, and the people around him can give exposition on why the world is like this (something to do with ganondorf, of course - i’m thinking similarly to botw, he fucked shit up bigtime before he got sealed away by zelda) and how hopeless everyone is that anything will ever get better. again, navi can be link’s voice during this part, if she is his partner - explaining he doesn’t talk much, answering questions on his behalf.

**i am very firm on this: we need either newly designed monsters for the movie (likely what nintendo would do) or a mix of the monsters from various games. i don’t want to ONLY use monsters from botw for example, because this isn’t the botw movie, it’s the zelda movie. (i’m already drawing SO much from botw i’d be reluctant to use any monsters from it at all that weren’t exclusive to that particular game.) so maybe the botw guardians, the oot redeads, the wind waker moblins, etc. i think a guardian would actually be a great first encounter because they’re fucking terrifying and the piano chime coming in would have an entire theater ready to jump right out of their seats!! anyway

i think link should maybe get a glimpse of the master sword during that adventure, or see it in a dream or whatever, and if fi is gonna be our partner she can lead him to it as she did before in the night, or he can go back looking for it, but either way the next thing he does is find the sword and pull it out of the stone. LEFT-HANDED. idgaf which hand the actor is dominant with. it’s a movie! act! i hate righty link >:( both the sword from the stone and the lefty link are CRUCIAL imagery.

ANYWAY, this is why i like navi being the partner character. i think fi could and would come out of the sword, and explain why the world is like this, and tell link what he must do to save it, and beckon link towards the call of adventure. but i also think that is a little bit boring and lacks narrative tension. i think it would be more fun to actually give navi a plotline where she wants to REFUSE the call, because it would conflict with link’s stubborn insistence on always doing the right thing.

let’s say this navi is THEEEEE same navi from ocarina of time, right? that she remembers all of that, and she remembers how ocarina of time is actually the saddest zelda game, and she had a good reason for leaving at the end. (the actual reason is that apparently she had romantic feelings towards link, but that’s weird and bad and i don’t like it, so i am ignoring it, since nintendo also won’t fess up to it on record.) and so now she just wants to hang out with link and keep him safe and happy or whatever. adventures are hard! they’re sad! link has to sacrifice and suffer every time he’s called to save the world! ganondorf is fine where he is, so why bother! (link would not know or remember any of this - obviously, he wouldn’t remember his past lives, but it’s very possible he doesn’t remember his own life before navi came to him either; maybe he was in whatever wrecked hyrule and slept for a hundred years like in botw, or maybe it was like this when he was born, but this is, crucially, all navi’s big secret to carry.)

fi could still come out of the sword as a minor character in this instance to argue with her, but eventually link would successfully be talked out of taking the sword and put it back in the pedestal - which makes the spirit of the sword, whether she is seen onscreen or not, rebel and send him back through time. i am undecided on whether it’s an illusion and he just goes back to relive his old memories or whether he actually for real time travels - there are pros and cons to both approaches! either way navi would go with him (unless fi is the partner character and then i suppose she could) because link does still need a voice!

this will now be a call to adventure more convincing than any possible sword spirit: a glimpse of what link’s missing. the hyrule he winds up in could be HIS hyrule with all the future-y stuff but before the apocalypse fucked it up. the sky is blue, the sun is out, there’s no monsters! i think it could have kind of a solarpunk vibe, honestly. familar landmarks we passed before are restored, people like the ones he maybe couldn’t save are walking around. but in order to get back home link has to find the master sword in this era and put it back in the pedestal of time (or something like that...details aren’t important), so he spends a little time here, and, most crucially, meets zelda.

zelda and ganondorf

i think this will probably be the most important 5 or 10 minutes of the movie. you know how at the beginning of “up” you’re like ready to start bawling from 10 minutes of content bc it was that good and meaningful? we gotta do it like that. i’m not sure what happens, if it should be like an actiony adventure scene or just them hanging out, but even if they span days or weeks or months in-universe we would have 10 minutes, i think, to make the audience absolutely fall head over heels in love with this girl. possibly this is the first time we hear link actually speak - the fact that he says three entire words in front of her is a sign she’s something really special. but our movie-goers need more than anything to really believe link would want to save her, that she’s not just some chick he’s saving because that’s what you do. i think the entire conflict of the movie would rest on this premise: navi representing the part of link that wants to refuse the call, and zelda representing the part of him that wants to answer it.

it might be a good idea to have link meet ganondorf here, too, but not see too much of him, because i also think it’s a good idea for him to witness the beginning of hyrule’s destruction. we’d be due for an action scene, and also it makes the instinct to jump in and fight stronger. but when link finds and touches the master sword again (or whatever) - bam. different time.

i am picturing a non-linear jump through multiple hyrules, in which link meets many familiar faces (this is where our cast can be star-studded if budget allows) and tours many familiar locations, all the while trying to solve the mystery of the disaster in his own time and how he can make it right. it’s even possible that he could flip back to his own hyrule here and there - it would depend on the logistics of the actual time traveling mechanic. what he finds out as he goes back and forth through these various hyrules is twofold: that he has prevented and healed great suffering, but also suffered deeply himself, which again adds to the long list of pros and cons of saving the world or letting it fend for itself.

in this section link also finds out about demise’s curse, and the cycle he and zelda and ganondorf are all trapped in. if the ten minute opener to Old Hyrule was meant to make our audience fall in love with zelda, i think this section should make them sympathize with ganondorf. i would like to show him doing good things and bad things - i want to see the half-feral freak from twilight princess and the remorseful noble antagonist from wind waker. i think it’d be really neat to have link thrown into a final battle at one point, since if ganondorf is a “good guy” it’s not likely it’ll happen any other way and i’d hate not to have one. and of course we’d also have to see demise - it’s important to show that ganondorf’s agency over his own actions was somewhat limited. it’s a gray area because he chose to do some of it but how much choice did he really have in any of it? a scene where he’s sort of fighting with himself would be really good, because in struggling to decide whether or not to enter back into the cycle and suffer to save the world AGAIN, link is struggling with himself too. or maybe something where he’s looking at the aftermath of what he’s done and is horrified and wants link to put him down? idk!! there’s so many ways it could go - even before demise’s curse was canon, wind waker ganondorf sort of painted a picture of a man who was backed into a corner by the unfairness of life, which is again something link and zelda are very familiar with.

and we definitely wouldn’t leave zelda out of these sections! the goddamn series is named after her. like i said, every zelda would be probably played by the same actress, and while it’s always nice to see her, it’s not the same as knowing the zelda we met first is safe and happy. we can get to know her and her own struggle with living up to her role of protecting the kingdom, we can see her interact with ganondorf, and she she can help link figure out how to get to the next hyrule and dodge enemies, but in the end, he always has to leave her behind, and he has yet to find out what happened to the first zelda he met, the one from “his” hyrule, before the apocalypse.

i think it is in this section that someone, zelda or ganondorf, expresses the hope that there’s a way to break demise’s curse so they can all rest. there should be some back and forth on this - it could be possible, it could be impossible - but i think there should be a glimmer of real hope beyond “surely there’s a way!” but no guarantee. i think the triforce would be a good way to accomplish this - its power is theoretically unlimited, but you’d have to unite it first, and the only one who usually does that is ganondorf, and because he’s cursed, it responds to his evil wishes with evil. so it’s theoretically possible but practically impossible, you know?

and okay, like, you’d think ganondorf would think it was pointless while zelda would hold out hope that it could still happen, but i think it’d be fun to actually subvert those expectations! i think for ganondorf, who arguably suffers the bleakest fate***, to have the most optimism, would endear him greatly to our hypothetical audience, and make them want to save him too.

***bro, at least link and zelda get to be heroes and people are glad to see them. ganondorf is hated and feared by all and he doesn’t even get to DIE. he always loses and even when he wins his reward is unchecked destruction. yikes.

the bad guy (not ganondorf!!)

i think in addition to needing to solve the puzzle of his and zelda’s and ganondorf’s incredibly complex histories, and the history of hyrule itself, link should also be running from something, to give the film urgency and action scenes. if ganondorf is the good guy, we need an antagonist and a threat. you know how in zelda ii, all the monsters want link’s blood because it could revive ganon? i think that would be a RAD callback, and also give a bad guy a reason to chase link through time - with his blood, they can unseal ganondorf.

i have two candidates in mind for this. technically three, because the first candidate is twinrova/koume & kotake. they have the potential to be wickedly funny and pants-shittingly terrifying (they were both in ocarina of time, because they bicker but they also do scary mind control), they are ganondorf’s surrogate mothers, AND they have canonically tried to resurrect ganon(dorf) before. the other person it could be is dark link. dark link wouldn’t be as funny or as talkative as the witches, but he would be lots scarier and it would give link’s actor a chance to do a little vocal performance. (just because link doesn’t talk doesn’t mean his evil shadow can’t taunt him mercilessly.) these are both REALLY appealing to me, but if i had to choose, i’d go with dark link, because struggle with the self is a defining factor in this arc i am building. it’s also a good callback to zelda ii, where he first appeared, and where the “blood of link” plotline comes from. if we already have navi, i don’t think it’s fair to have another oot-specific character no matter how funny she/they would be.

so twinrova or dark link is heading up a monster posse chasing link through time, trying to draw his blood so they can go back to the present and unseal ganondorf. meanwhile link is hopping from era to era with navi trying to figure out what it is he’s supposed to see or know so he can get back home and maybe save everyone. i imagine he’s generally only one step ahead of the monsters, and i think it’d be fun if there was at least one early fight scene with dark link in which link gets his butt kicked and barely gets away, because it would be fun to have another one later where the results are reversed.

navi/the reveal

during the course of this adventure, i think it would be kind of fun if navi, like i said, KNEW what she needed to know, but kept trying to keep link from finding out, sabotaging his efforts to answer the call because she wants them to refuse it so badly. but it was never gonna work, because link can’t go home until he figures out how to go home. you know?

so the very last hyrule link would go to is the much-beloved ocarina of time, where, unbeknownst to him, he and navi first met. we’ll say that maybe she left to figure out if there was a way to break the cycle, even though we never saw her find out about it in oot because it didn’t exist yet, and though she looked for thousands and thousands of years, she never found one, so eventually she decided to return to link. she was there the day the apocalypse started in “his” hyrule, and she saw that ganondorf went mad trying to resist what demise’s curse wanted him to do, and eventually snapped and idk torched everything. and that means she saw what happened after, and how he was sealed - zelda herself sealed him, just like she did in botw, and she’s stuck with him inside the remnants of hyrule castle. (is it still a castle if it’s all futuristic? maybe something like this or this or this except, you know, hylian.) she’s not conscious and suffering trying to hold him back the way she was in botw, i think they’re both just frozen in time or something, but nonetheless - the only way to free zelda is to also free ganondorf.

and that would start the cycle anew, which is why navi tried so hard to let them just stay where they were.

link learns other things about his life in oot’s hyrule, i think. this is veering into headcanon territory, but i always read oot’s link as an outcast; he’s stuck between two worlds, and in kokiri forest he was a bullied kid, and all but tossed out on his ass even after he saved them, and not recognized or welcomed upon his return because of how different he looked as an adult. and he also lacks a proper place in the world outside the forest; as a little kid, no one takes him seriously, and he has no family or adults to take care of him so that he might lead a normal life. people are usually glad to see link in oot after he becomes an adult because he’s rescuing them, but as a kid i feel like most of the time he’s told to buzz off and go play.

anyway, since navi was a firsthand witness to this particular journey to save hyrule, i feel like you could definitely swing her reading of those events as “the world rejected link and only wanted him when they needed him.” i don’t think it’s true, and i don’t think link thinks it’s true, it’s obviously way more complex than that, but it’s a good way to show that in addition to link, zelda, & ganondorf suffering because of demise’s curse, the people who love them (navi, who in this case is standing in for us, the audience, who hopefully by now loves them very dearly) suffer along with them, and want to help ease their pain and regrets. “why would you want to save a world that doesn’t want you?” is a very good question, and it gets right to the heart of who link is as a person, in EVERY iteration: someone who cares deeply about others and wants to do the right thing.

and i think this might be the first break between link and navi’s partnership - he’d want to save zelda and hyrule, and she wouldn’t. and if she had told him about it honestly from the beginning it would have made a compelling argument, and part of him maybe wants to give it up just because he wants to spare her that pain, but the other part of him knows he can’t, and is hurt about being lied to and sabotaged, because he thought she was on his side. i think maybe they fight about it? inasmuch as you can fight with someone who doesn’t speak. (and see, if the partner character were fi, link would just have to be transported back to the apocalypse and watch zelda seal ganondorf herself. lame.)

the climax

BUT THEN. before they can finish fighting, before link can finish deciding what to do, dark link (or twinrova ig) & the monsters show up. i prefer dark link for this because he represents link’s struggle. link can’t save zelda and hyrule without going back into the cycle (and he’d have to fight ganondorf, who we like!). dark link also wants to restart the cycle but for the wrong reasons (he wants to bring back ganondorf with link’s blood). since he’s a bad guy, he makes navi’s suggestion of just leaving things as they are, which initially seems cold and selfish, look more reasonable by comparison.

so link and dark link would have to fight in oot’s hyrule (classic!), maybe in hyrule field with lots of rain, or the water temple, or perhaps an ever-shifting background like in final destination in smash bros yes i really said that. i think this is the “final boss battle” of this movie - this is an all-out fight with special effects and action and high stakes. it’s possible that link speaks in this battle because it’s a very important moment, possibly ironically to tell dark link to shut up. dark link could even put navi in a bottle or something, i don’t know. this is the reason i wanted an earlier fight with dark link (or again, possibly twinrova) where link got his ass beat, because it would establish him (them) as SCARY, and establish how badly things could go if link loses.

i think for this fight, link would falter in the first half, not yet settled in what he wants to do, but eventually, navi would do something to help him out - warn him about a blow or take a blow or heal an injury - to show that she has finally accepted the call herself, she IS on his side no matter what that means, and that she’ll support whatever his decision is. when they fight together, they win handily, illustrating the newfound strength in their bond.

the ending

finally, link goes back to his own hyrule, master sword in hand, free at last of dark link and his monsters (or who knows, maybe they are still chasing him and he only just got away again). navi could be with him, but if we wanted an awful cliffhanger, we could have her sacrifice herself to get link to where he needs to be, and now the enemy has her, and we don’t know if she’s okay. i think the ending scene might be more dramatic if link was alone, but it could go either way.

at this point i think fi could lead link back through the underground tunnels or wherever he is towards the ruins of the castle, similarly to how she may have led him to the sword - if fi isn’t in this at all, he could just have a feeling, a curiosity. but we see him walk through a cave much like the one in the botw2 trailer, and maybe some soundbytes from earlier in the movie play - lines about how there MUST be a way to stop the cycle break the curse, and lines about what a bad idea it would be to try. this is why i think navi might need to be absent here; link alone should make the choice, not influenced by anyone else, and soundbytes are a good way to show that he’s still struggling with this decision.

and he goes on and on, and the tunnels get darker and darker, more and more destroyed, and he has to shine a flashlight, and he looks just like he did at the start of the film when he was hunting treasure or whatever, but this time he’s alone.

his flashlight beam maybe like falls across ganondorf’s snarling face, suspended in time, for a little jumpscare. a wider sweep reveals he’s found zelda too at last. the triforces on their hands are glowing, they’re locked in battle, it’s sad and scary. there is something like desperation in zelda’s eyes, but in ganondorf’s too. all three of them are all trapped in a moment in time, reliving it over and over, and they can’t get out. and link looks at them, and his little soundbytes play, and then he has to decide if one tiny impossible hope for breaking demise’s curse is worth accepting the risk of so much pain and suffering for all three of them, and more people besides.

close in on link’s bloody hand white-knuckling the sword. the triforce of courage is flickering to life on his own hand, because he is considering making the most courageous choice of all, to face down his fear of the oncoming suffering to fight for who he loves, for what is right. but he opens his hand, drops his weapon, and it flickers out. and you think, yeah, okay, he’s giving up navi asked him to, right?

then link lifts his hand, still bleeding, so close he could touch ganondorf and undo the seal at last, and the triforce blazes to life--

and we roll those motherfucking credits.

the midcredits scene/sequel hooks

zelda is such a complex series that it seems nearly impossible to sum up the entire thing in one movie. i’m sure in real life even the most skilled of editing couldn’t cut this concept down to an acceptable movie time without something feeling rushed. but we definitely don’t have time to set up the problem AND give it a satisfying resolution, hence the cliffhanger.

after the initial animated cool credits, i think we’d need an epilogue scene. i am thinking something like, maybe we had a fakeout and thought navi and dark link were both dead and/or beyond link’s reach, but then we pan back to the battlefield and see that oh my god, navi’s okay! but whoops, so is dark link. he puts her back in a bottle or something and does a cool villain laugh and navi is like WHATS SO FUNNY and he’s like HAHAHAHAHA MY MASTER LIVES to confirm that link did indeed wake the slumbering beast

things the sequel would need to address: getting navi back (link looking for navi is a great callback to majora’s mask), fighting dark link again maybe, what happens when ganondorf, who has already gone evil this time, wakes up, how to save zelda from ganondorf, how to save hyrule, and of course, how to break the curse (whether or not it’s possible with the power of the triforce, and how it will go now that link got his piece). a sequel movie probably wouldn’t feature the same wide array of characters and settings as the first, but with the benefit of developed characters and plot that’s already been set up, it could tell a more satisfying story without having to rely on nostalgia and fight scenes for as much of its fun. it would also be a great chance to explore the futuristic hyrule which we wouldn’t have gotten to see as much of in movie #1

with all that potential, if i somehow managed to pull off that first movie, nintendo would SURELY greenlight a sequel in which link finally faces his greatest foe of all: not ganon, but destiny itself. not even the games have done that so it would be perhaps fucking AWESOME. but it's also quite likely that nintendo now regrets kidnapping me lmao

in conclusion/tl;dr

a perfect zelda movie needs classic zelda music, a nonverbal link + a funny partner, and lots of cameos. it has to strike a good balance with old and new fans and save the star-studded cast for the side-characters, not the main ones. it also needs to leave room for a sequel!! the most important plot point would be breaking link, zelda, and ganondorf out of their curse, because i am OBSESSED with that. obviously the games can never do it bc then there’s no more games, and nobody wants that, but if you’re going to change mediums, you can use that medium to what it is uniquely suited for - a showdown that is ultimate and final. there only need to be two zelda movies (MAYBE three if people just want a trilogy, but idk how you could possibly stretch it), which means they get to have something the games never could: an ending.

THANK YOU!!!! for coming to my motherfucking ted talk.

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help me remember then help me forget – college au! draken x reader (part 2)

summary: you wake up the morning after a party and realize you might've had too much to drink. thankfully, draken is there to help you piece the night back together..

a/n: contains mentions of alcohol and drinking!! bit more ~suggestive~ in this part but kind of tame still! the next part is gonna keep me from getting into heaven though rip if you've been reading so far thank you so so much and enjoy the rest!!! <3

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part 1

mikey had been right: your apartment wasn't far from draken's. glancing at the map on your phone, you decide to walk. you're grateful that it's a saturday morning and still early, because there's nobody around to see you sobbing and sniffling through the neighborhood. and it feels good to release it all. your pounding headache, the terrible queasiness in your stomach, and of course, the overwhelmingly embarrassment of having made such a colossal fool of yourself in front of draken.

you replay everything he told you over and over in your head, imagining every possible dumb thing you could have said or done. you couldn't believe you had actually thought you'd slept with him! you'd be lucky if he ever even spoke to you again after all this.

you wanted desperately to apologize again, apologize better. you wonder if you should talk to mikey and ask how best to repay his friend for putting up with the drunken bullshit of a stranger for an entire night. you should probably apologize to mikey, too, for good measure. part of you would rather just delete all your social media, change your name, and transfer to another university instead.

after some painkillers for the headache and a long, hot shower, you climb into your bed where you are determined to spend the rest of the day. as soon as you're comfortable, however, your phone buzzes. you have half a mind to ignore it but then it buzzes again. and again. and one more time. will this day never fucking end? you think, snatching the phone away from its charger and bringing it to your face. it's mikey. of course it's mikey.

mikey [8:33AM]: i feel like i got hit by a fuckin train

mikey [8:33AM]: are you good? you went so hard last night LMAO

mikey [8:33AM]: did you get home ok?

mikey [8:33AM]: oh wait kenchin walked you home right??

staring at the messages you wonder what draken will tell him about the night. has he already told him? they're best friends after all. or maybe he doesn't know anything yet. would it be better to tell him first? avoid some of the teasing? you really were sick of all that fucking teasing. whatever, let's get on with it.

y/n [8:34AM]: lmaooo same my head feels like it's gonna explode

y/n [8:34AM]: i blacked out last night :/ don't remember a single thing after playing bp

mikey [8:34AM]: shit no way!!! we had a lot of fun dude, sorry you don't remember it LMAO

y/n [8:34AM]: lol that's good. i was waaaayyyyy too fucked up though 💀

mikey [8:35AM]: kenchin told me you threw up :(

you groan loudly, breaking the silence in your room. of course draken had been in contact with mikey, that's the only reason the two of you had met in the first place. mikey probably already knew everything.

y/n [8:35AM]: yeah he told me, too. i literally don't remember anything but i'm sure i was so awful and messy i'm so fuckin embarrassed your friend had to babysit me

mikey [8:36AM]: noooo don't be! shit happens!! we all have our nights

y/n [8:36AM]: he told me the same thing... i still feel like shit tho :/

y/n [8:36AM]: can never show my face around your friends ever again lol

mikey [8:37AM]: LMAO come onnnn stop worrying dude it was fine

mikey [8:37AM]: wanna come get coffee with me?

y/n [8:37AM]: maybe later i'm moping

mikey [8:37AM]: 10??? at the place we went to by campus??

y/n [8:37AM]: ugh fine but i am Not changing out of sweats!! lmao

mikey [8:37AM]: if you don't, i won't either!! see you soon

you try to sleep for a little before meeting mikey but your brain won't turn off and soon it's time to leave. you keep your promise, arriving at the coffee shop near campus just after 10AM in sweatpants and a long sleeve t-shirt. mikey's already there, waiting at a table facing the door. he smiles when he sees you. he stands and gestures from your outfit to his own, an oversized grey sweater and his high school gym shorts. "we look how we feel, huh?"

he comes over to hug you, patting your back in hungover solidarity. you relax against his chest, the contact is already making you feel better than you had all day. you'd really gotten lucky befriending mikey, you think. he was a good soul. the two of you order coffees and return to the table he'd been at before. you start discussing the night before. mikey filled in some more details from the night, insisting you hadn't behaved anywhere near as poorly as you kept thinking.

"but draken said i begged to go home with him," you grimace, sipping your coffee. "that's so humiliating!"

"stop saying that!" mikey laughs. "he probably thought it was cute, dude!"

"why would anyone think that's cute, mikey??"

"i don't know! he said you were cute, maybe it was all cute to him."

you blink back at mikey. "shut up. he didn't."

mikey laughs, "you don't believe me? when you and hina went to the bathroom after beer pong and kenchin was like–" mikey puffs out his chest and lowers his voice to impersonate his best friend– "'hey, your friend is really cute... is she seeing anyone? are you guys hooking up or something?' and i told him you were single, you're welcome." you drop your head to the table and groan. "what?" mikey laughs at the reaction.

"mikey, this is so much worse! not only did i make a fool of myself in front of your cute friend but your cute friend was also thinking i was cute! i blew it!" "you didn't blow it, you're so fucking dramatic," he snorts, lifting his phone off the table when it starts to vibrate. "draken's prolly the least judgmental person i've ever met. hello?" you massage your temples while he takes the call, suddenly your headache is back. "no way!" mikey blurts, starting to laugh. "yeah, come on, i've got a table!" you raise an eyebrow at him and his lips press together, trying to hold back another laugh. he ends the call with a quick, "see you in a sec."

neither one of you moves as you stare each other down. "mikey," you finally say. he opens his mouth to reply when his eyes focus on something behind you. he gives a friendly wave and you turn to look over your shoulder. fuck me, you almost say it out loud. crossing the threshold into the cafe is draken.

your eyes meet for a second and you spin back to face mikey. "are you fucking kidding me?" you seethe, whisper yelling across the table at him. "he said he saw my car outside and asked if i was here," he raised his hands defensively. "i swear you're gonna be fine. stop being weird." "I LITERALLY WANT TO MELT INTO THE FLOOR." mikey rolls his eyes, chuckling at your bug-eyed panic.

you feel a looming presence behind you. "can i join you guys?" draken's deep voice sends a jolt of electricity through you. you pull out the chair next to him and smile politely. the smirk mikey gives you as draken sits down says, "you're doing great, sweetie." "did you order something?" you ask, hoping you don't sound like you're deeply uncomfortable and want to run out of the establishment.

"nah, not yet," draken leans back comfortably in his seat, glancing over at you with kind eyes.

"here, i got you," mikey stands unexpectedly. "you brought all that beer last night. latte or something?"

"ah, you don't have to do that. thanks, man." draken pats mikey's side appreciatively as he walks past him to the barista. your eyes follow mikey pleadingly as he leaves you alone at the table with draken.

the cafe isn't too crowded, but there are enough people there that there's a pleasant ambiance of conversation and activity. lots to pretend to focus on instead of making small talk or risking further embarrassment. you're glancing around at the other patrons when draken asks, "have you been here before?" you realize a beat too late that he's talking to you. you meet his eyes and nod, "mikey and i usually come here after our lit class. you?" "nah, i don't take lit," he deadpans. you stare at him for a long moment before he breaks into a smile and you both laugh at the dumb joke. the atmosphere between you two feels suddenly softer, more relaxed. he must have sensed how you were feeling when he sat down. you were grateful for his instinct to lighten the mood.

there's a minor commotion and you hear mikey laughing delightedly. you both look over. the barista making draken's drink is doing the absolute most. he’s flicking his wrist, moving his entire body, making a show of pouring the milk for the latte. he makes sure mikey's watching as he finishes it off with a heart design in the foam. draken lets a laugh slip out. “i fucking hate baristas who act like their coffee is performance art...” you mutter quietly and draken snorts out another laugh.

“would your ex do shit like that?”

you aren't sure how to react. the question makes you feel like he's thrown a bucket of cold water in your face. looking at draken's face, though, there's not a hint of cruelty to be found. he isn't teasing, he was really just asking. you try to respond, "uh." strong start. "yeah. he would. it always annoyed the fuck out of me. he thought it was so cool, too." draken smirks, nodding at the answer like he'd expected it.

"sorry, how did you know that?" you ask. "you told me your ex was a barista," he's watching you carefully now, looking for any indication that you might remember the conversation in question. "that, and that he's a piece of shit." you let out a laugh and he seems relieved at your reaction. "i don't remember telling you about him," you say. "but yeah, he is a piece of shit. and a barista."

you suddenly think to ask draken what else you disclosed about your ex. the possibilities make you feel a little panicky. but mikey returns with draken's coffee and the time to ask follow up questions is decidedly over. the three of you have a surprisingly pleasant time together drinking coffee and chatting. how normal and even friendly draken is being to you has your embarrassment melting away. having mikey as a buffer helps, too. and even when draken and mikey start to talk about matters or people you didn't know, you're happy to just listen to them chat. you're beginning to understand why you'd stuck around with them at the party even after hina had left.

when mikey gets up to grab a napkin, draken leans forward in his seat a bit, "i just remembered that i have your clothes at my place. i threw them in the wash last night after... you know." your stomach twists at the mention of last night. "right," you manage. "and i have the clothes you lent me, too." "i'll be on campus on monday. we can do a trade then." mikey returns and dabs at the coffee he'd dripped onto the table. "sure," you nod. "i only have two classes monday." "i'll be in the shop all day, do you know where that is?"

“shop? like wood shop?” you ask, a bit confused. the corner of draken’s mouth lifts in a smirk. mikey laughs, “no, an auto shop. It’s for the mechanic students. ken fixes bikes, though.” “bikes?” you look to draken who just nods, seemingly content letting mikey speak for him. you were starting to understand their dynamic a bit better now. “and not bike bikes, but like, motorcycles.”

“wow, that’s awesome!” you blurt. “i don’t know anything about… well, anything mechanical at all.”

“i'll show you around when you come grab your things if you want,” draken offers, his low voice even and casual. "sounds cool!" you find yourself nodding excitedly, ignoring the voice in your head that's wondering why you're suddenly so passionate about motorcycle repair...

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when monday rolls around you can barely focus during your classes. you're jittery with both nerves and excitement about seeing draken. his clothes have been washed, dried, and neatly folded, and are sitting in a plastic grocery bag in your backpack. not to mention that the question of why you'd been discussing your ex with draken has been lingering in the back of your mind since saturday. you tell yourself that this might be a good time to ask him about it. as your second class ends, you set out for the shop, calling mikey up for directions. he uses coffee shops and weird looking trees as landmarks, but eventually, you make it there. the shop is nestled between one of the university's parking lots and the building where the mechanical classes were held.

the smell of motor oil and gasoline are overwhelming. the sharp whirring of a drill somewhere in the massive garage makes you jump. you narrowly miss being knocked down by two guys carrying tires. as you apologize for being in the way, you also ask if they know draken. "go all the way down this path, hang a left and he'll be at the end," one of them tells you. "thanks!" you smile appreciatively. when the guys think you're out of earshot you hear one of them whisper, "yo, is that draken's girl? she's fuckin' hot." you absolutely let the compliment go to your head, strutting confidently through the repair shop.

exactly where you'd been directed, you find draken. he's seated on a low stool in front of a raised platform, intently working on a bright red motorcycle with what you're 75% sure is a wrench in his hand. the angle he's sitting at gives you a clear look at the dragon tattoo that adorns his temple. god, he's so fucking cool, you think briefly. "hey!" you finally manage, feeling guilty disturbing him when he looks so in the zone. he turns to you and flashes a quick smile, "hey, you find this place okay?"

"yep. i called mikey. he gave very weird yet accurate directions."

"he said it's by the penis tree, didn't he?"

you let out a laugh, nodding hard, "you know him pretty well, huh?" draken smiles again, "unfortunately."

you slide your backpack off your shoulders and pull out the bag of his clothes, "i brought these! thank you again for them." "no problem," he says sincerely. "i've got your stuff on the workbench right there. my hands are just pretty gross right now–" he shows you the black grease stains smeared on his palms. you see a shopping bag on the counter across from him and go over to grab it. you shove the clothes into your backpack and look back to see that draken's returned to his work. it's quiet at this end of the shop and he seems quite at peace.

"i promised you a tour," his rumbling voice brings you back from your thoughts. "i've just gotta get two more of these screws in and i'll be done." "take your time! i'm the one barging in on your work." his lips draw into a smile at your words. you walk around the area he's working in, observing the endless rows of parts, tools, and manuals. in the corner there are three more bikes in various states of being taken apart. you return to draken's side as his phone starts to vibrate in his toolbox beside him.

he answers the call, putting it on speaker so his hands are free to continue his work. “hello?”

“kenny,” it’s a man’s voice. you try desperately to hold in your smile. “i know you’re busy with your studies today but we’re out of paper towels and microwave noodles. do you have any time this afternoon to help me out? it’s a busy day, i won’t be able to go myself.” “towels and ramen. yeah, got it.” “thank you, kenny, you know how much it means to us. see you later.” “see you.” he hits the end call button with his knuckle to avoid touching his phone with grease covered hands.

draken can feel your eyes burning holes into him but he doesn’t stop what he’s doing. “he’s like my old man,” he explains finally, answering the question without making you ask it. “took me in when i was a kid.” “he called you kenny,” you smile, holding in a giggle. draken finally turns to look at you. “it’s sweet,” you struggle to hold his gaze, his stare too piercing. he exhales softly, almost a laugh, “it is pretty sweet. i actually like it, too.” “you like kenny?” you gush. “can i-"

“we’ll see.”

“you don’t know what i was gonna say!”

“i do know, and my answer is we’ll see.”

you let your head fall back as you laugh. it startles you to think about the humor, the kindness, the heart of this boy. the draken you've gotten to know better over the last few days is so interesting and multifaceted, layer upon layer of personality and intrigue. you turn away slightly when you worry your train of thought has gotten you blushing. you’d almost forgotten the heart racing giddiness of having a crush. a crush. you finally let yourself admit it.

you decide to squat down next to draken’s work bench to get to his eye level and see what he’s working on. he looks at you out of the corner of his eye. he clears his throat and jumps into an explanation, “i’m putting these—“ he holds up a box of shiny silver screws. “into here.” he runs one long finger over some holes in the metal frame of the bike. you grin when he glances at you over his shoulder, realizing he's checking if you’re watching or not. “very cool,” you patronize, teasing him. he gives you a gentle shove and you lose the balance of your squat, nearly tipping over onto the floor. he snorts, smirking at you sideways before moving on to the next screw.

“i can’t believe you’d push a girl,” you get back up to your feet, standing over him. “i really misjudged you.” with a dramatic eye roll he reaches up and takes your hand. in one quick motion he’s tugged you down so your face is just in front of his. he cups your cheek in one large hand. “are you alright?” he asks, feigning sympathy. “did i hurt you?”

you aren’t sure what comes over you next. maybe it’s the fumes from the oil and gas, or the way draken’s dark eyes are dancing with mischief from the banter, but you can’t stop yourself. one second draken is teasing you, and the next, you're leaning forward to close the gap between you until your lips press to his. you pull away, shocked by your own behavior, but draken's hand holds your head and pulls you back to him. you allow his tongue to part your lips and slide into your mouth. he tastes like coffee and mint and something uniquely him and it makes you hungry for more. he rises from his stool, keeping your moving lips connected as he stands up. his massive frame curves around you, as he pulls you into his arms. you pull back again, but only for a gulp of air before crashing your lips to his again. his large hands grip your waist and he lifts you easily onto the countertop.

at his eye level, he no longer has to bend. he stands between your legs and tugs you to the very edge of the counter so you're pressed right up against his hard body. his mouth moves greedily down to your neck and across your collarbone. you whimper when he sucks a mark onto your throat, soothing the pain with a pass of his tongue. his hands come up to rest over your breasts, kneading them gently. his lips have migrated to the other side of his neck but you've been 10 seconds too long without kissing him. you wrap your arms around his neck, "hey...kiss me" your voice comes out in much more of a desperate whine than you intend, but you could care less once you see the smug smile it earns from draken.

"ask me that again," he says. he cradles your face in one hand, thumb brushing over your lower lip.

"kiss. me. please."

"i've been wanting to kiss you since the first moment i met you."

"so kiss me, asshole!"

"watch it," he says, but laughs hard and leans in anyway, letting the last chuckle out against your lips. your brain feels like it's short circuiting as the two of you kiss frantically, hands in hair, against skin, tugging on clothes. it feels like your body is filled with electricity. you're flushed and panting when draken pauses for a breath.

"i'm tellin you," he begins, touching your cheek and looking at you in disbelief. "i've been wanting to do that since the fuckin party." "you said that already," you giggle, reaching up to take his hand from your face and hold it in your own. “listen,” he holds your gaze as he reaches up to rub the back of his neck. “i’m not great with this kind of stuff. i'm sure mikey’s already told you that i think you’re really cute, he’s got a huge fuckin mouth, that kid.” you chuckle, but feel your cheeks heating up. “and i know you don’t remember the night we met but we were together that whole night. we talked so much. so much. and i really enjoyed it. so, uh… i guess i’m asking if you'd wanna go out sometime?"

"yeah," you can't contain the goofy smile that takes over your face. "i'd really like that." "cool," he tries to assume his cool guy persona again, clearing his throat. "that, yeah, that sounds good. after the party, i feel like we have a lot of getting to know each other to do again." "sorry," you wince. "i'm sure we had great talks. sorry to waste them." "not a waste," he patted your thigh. "you'll have to let me know what i've already told you. so you don't have to sit through all my shit twice," you hop off the counter. he bends to kiss you once more before stepping aside so you can grab your bag. "i don't mind hearing it again," he leans on the counter, watching you.

"you know, actually, i've been really wanting to ask you," you cross your arms over your chest nervously. "what exactly did i tell you about my ex?"

part 3 (last part!)

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Gavin and MC’s High School History- Detailed Timeline

Dedicated to my amazing and kind friend @cheri-cheri- one of the Queens of the MLQC fandom on Tumblr! I literally didn’t know how to use it before but I had learnt how in order to keep up with her posts. Without her work, I literally wouldn’t be on here making my own blog either. Thank you, Cheri!!

This is a timeline following the years of high school that MC and Gavin had together. Compiled of dates, rumours and secrets, calls, texts, and other from multiple servers. The source will be shown allocated to its corresponding sentence. I created this because I was really moved when I rewatched Gavin’s Old Days Date and suddenly thought of the many things other players could have missed out on regarding their high school years. If there is anything you need clarification on, or if you would like to add anything in, feel free to send a post/ask or just comment and I’ll try to incorporate and adjust accordingly!

Based off of true correspondence of the Chinese education system in Shanghai, where the schools there are very strict, with specific responsibilities and events students must have and attend to. In addition, this is different from Western school systems where years 7-9 are in a seperate schools from years 10-12 before university. Dates and seasons mentioned will also be noted as accurately as possible to suit the Loveland storyline in which different events occurred. I felt like a detective trying to piece a fractured storyline together to solve a mystery, honestly...

Prepare your tissues, your milk tea and your soul because even I almost didn’t make it to publish this...

Timeline

2008

Gavin enters high school.

2009

MC and Minor enter high school. MC does her hair in a nice ponytail, one of the only hairstyles she ever had in school.

Gavin is a grade above her. He is in his last year of high school. [Spring Festival Date]

Late Autumn of October 2010

“I noticed who you were before you ever noticed me.”

On a rainy first day of school, Gavin helps Mr Keller move the tables and chairs in the classroom.

Without taking an umbrella, Gavin leaves.

At the same time, MC saves a cat in the rain with her handkerchief, attempting to shield it from the incoming rain under a roof. She gives it snacks from her bag while sheltering it from the rain.

Gavin thinks she was nerdy-looking, but couldn't take his eyes off her and watches her from a distance for a long time. He feels out of place standing.

She looks back at him in astonishment, not knowing how long he stood for.

She smiles at Gavin.

Gavin notes that MC’s smile just like her eyes, were pure and comforting as they start filling his vision.

The rain starts to get heavier and MC shivers.

Something stirred in Gavin’s heart as he notices this, and kicks a can in frustration then shelters her with his jacket.

He runs away as MC shouts, “thank you!”

She didn’t know it was Gavin who gave her his jacket at the time.

MC goes back and is then told by her fellow classmates that the boy she encountered was the “tyrant school bully”, and “the Underworld Senior Gavin”, and that she should stay away from him. [Tilted Time- Rumours and Secrets]

MC finds piano dull to play the same songs over and over again.

MC in her spare time practices and sings to Liszt’s Liebestraum No. 3 (Love Dream) for a talent show.

At the rooftop, Gavin is wounded by a gangster’s knife. A gradually intensifying melody is heard.

Gavin kicks the gangster boss but then is pursued again. Outnumbered, wounded and losing consciousness due to major blood loss, the gangster boss kicks Gavin off the roof.

Gavin reaches out, to something- anything.

A heavy, surging melody sounded, transcending through time and allows Gavin to reflect on his past- to his father, to his late mother, and invokes deep reflection and epiphanies.

Heavy notes seep into Gavin’s ears as he almost hits rock bottom. He feels his limbs emerging with the wind and awakens his wind evol.

Gavin is now reborn.

The music continued to play. Gavin ends up humming with a bird.

He then hears MC’s singing.

MC stops, mesmerised by the ginkgo leaves flying through the wind. The ginkgo leaves falling was her favourite time of the year in high school. This vivid sight is still engraved in her memory after many years.

Gavin vows to protect her for the rest of his life. [Campus Date]

Gavin saved Minor from bullies.

Minor also happens to be MC’s outgoing, talkative desk mate who sometimes helped old ladies cross the street. How he managed to hang around Gavin and not get beaten up, nobody knew (except us). He would often copy MC’s homework but never dragged her down with him if he got caught. This was MC’s biggest impression of him.

During science class, MC cooked noodles for Minor on the Bunsen burner when he was hungry. The recipe was Shrimp flavoured instant noodles, mix two eggs in well, then add a dab of sea salt and black pepper. [S1 Chapter 7-1]

Gavin is always at the school gates at 7:30am. Carrying his flat school bag, he orders fish balls at the snack kiosk on the north side of the school. It was the third day in a row that Minor notices this. [Minor’s Memory Book]

Gavin would occasionally travel around on his bicycle. (Pre-debut Sparky??) He says he was good at riding it. [Lost Love Date]

It was hard to find Gavin as he’s rarely at school, so she didn’t see him until 3 days later when MC went to the library at sunset.

She tries to retrieve “Byron’s Poetry Collection” from the top of a 2-metre shelf, and since Gavin was a head taller, he was able to help her get it.

He musters up the introduction that he recited many times- but MC quickly thanks him and leaves before he could speak.

Minor notices Gavin watching after MC and that he was SMIL-ING.

He helps him locate MC and reports that every day after school she would go to the library for afternoon revision, always sitting in the same seat.

Gavin sat at a corner not far, quietly flipping through textbooks he hated. People who were reading in the library would be driven away because they were scared of him LOL

MC would then leave at 5pm sharp to go back home.

Gavin commits to walking back 10 metres behind her with Minor every day on forward. [CN Tilted Time Rumours and Secrets]

Gavin saves Minor from bullies again. Minor dedicates himself to be his “bro”.

He finds out that MC is an honours student, but doesn’t know that she’s the school orchestra leader. [Mystery Wings Event] and [Mark Date] However, he does know that she’s renowned as the “campus belle/ school flower”.

Minor idly mentions that more people were giving MC love letters.

Gavin tells Minor to collect all the people who were planning to confess their love to MC. Minor doesn’t want to be wingman anymore HAHA

Gavin stared those boys down as they trembled with fear. He tells them to take them back and if they scare her, he’ll make them regret it.

Minor realises Gavin’s feelings for MC. [Minor’s Memory Book]

MC eats from a small stall outside the school gate selling red bean puffs. ($3 for one, $5 for two. What a deal!)

She also encounters the stall that sells sugar figurines [Gift of Life- Sugar Figurine Call]

MC ate chocolate sticks often at school. It's also a memory of student life for Gavin, as well. [CN 2021 March Sign-In Taste of Happiness]

Students would scramble for the small swing set in the school garden. MC never went at lunch breaks, but she watches the sunset on it after school. Gavin is sometimes nearby. MC never noticed him, but she does however notice the ginkgo leaves dancing in the wind. [Mini House Small Happening- Leisure Time]

Gavin isn’t his usual self anymore. He sees MC out in the library everyday and starts reading “5 Years of College Examinations and 3 Years of Sample Questions” (book for colleague entrance examinations).

MC watches a basketball match at school. She calls someone from an away team “dashing” because they won with a dunk. This has been engraved in Gavin’s memory ever since. [Dreamers Date]

Gavin found out that he was very fond of basketball success stories, rushing into the court to try hundreds of shots after. He writes “I will beat you” beside Sakuragi Hanamichi from a Slam Dunk poster alongside “not a step back”.

(Slam Dunk starts out with a boy wanting to play basketball to impress his crush.)

Gavin then injures his head badly :(

He realises that basketball couldn’t help him to protect anything he wanted. He determines that he will do whatever it takes (to “beat” himself”). [Mystery Wings Event]

Gavin leans against a tree as he watches MC hurry down the corridor as she clutches a textbook. [Boundary Rumours and Secrets]

MC would eat pocky. Gavin would eat them too. [2021 March Sign-In Moments]

MC faints during a sports meet because she didn’t eat breakfast.

Gavin hurries to carry her to the infirmary. [CN Delightful Search Date]

He leaves bread and milk before she wakes up.

MC is on duty during PE class, which happens to be on basketball.

Minor was careless about his aim and the ball almost hit her in the head. Gavin slams the ball away. [Minor’s Memory Book]

Gavin glares at Minor as MC thanks him.

Minor also “accidentally” pushes MC towards him.

Gavin glares again.

Gavin later is continuously shooting hoops.

MC returns late at night to clean up the gym but all had been returned neatly in the basket. MC wanted to thank him but couldn’t. [CN Basketball Court Date]

There was a school sports competition that they attended. Gavin participated in the 10 lap race and came first by an impressive large measure. [Minor’s Memory Book]

MC participates in the sprint race, too. Gavin is worried about her performance, and if she would faint again.

Gavin requests Minor to take a photo of her on his phone (which probably ended up as the photo that he carried with him in his early days at special training where the other men teased him about hiding a photo of a girl.)

Approaching the End of October

Gavin, Minor and MC are walking home.

The weather is cold, and Gavin notices MC shivering in the distance. Gavin, conflicted by this, tells Minor to buy MC a hot drink without telling her that it was from him. [CN Tilted Time Rumours and Secrets]

MC would occasionally spot a hot drink or a carton of strawberry milk in the piano room. [Chapter 31-12]

Gavin one day is conflicted by their early exchange, recalling how MC looks startled at the entrance of the library after seeing each other. His spirit depletes, kicking himself (metaphorically) in the corner of the classroom at how he might have scared her.

Minor rushes in with a pink bandaid from MC for the wound at his mouth.

He carefully took that bandaid, treating it as if it was his world’s most precious treasure.

This pink bandaid was always taped on his heart and whenever he stepped into the swamp-like darkness of the night, it gave off a faint warmth. [Mystery Wings Event]

MC starts to notice Gavin everywhere. At the corners of windows, she would see his figure. At the library, he would help her retrieve books from higher places. She would also see books laid out on his table, but most of the time he would be sleeping. Beneath his overlapping arms, he sees “Byron’s Poetry Collection”. Gavin doesn’t understand the poems, though.

Lord Byron's "Don Juan" - Canto the Ninth, XVI

"To be, or not to be?" — Ere I decide I should be glad to know that which is being? 'Tis true — we speculate both far and wide, And deem, because we see, we are all-seeing; For my part, I'll enlist on neither side Until I see both sides for once agreeing; For me, I sometimes think that Life is Death,

At the music rehearsal room on the fifth floor, she would see a corner of his shirt in the wind.

MC thinks Gavin is friendly and slowly lets down her guard.

At the canteen, he would offer her the last bottle of water.

She begins smiling at him when they see each other, with the small arcs forming on her lips, soon becoming smiles that made her eyes squint.

MC would walk along the Senior hallways and subconsciously stop at a certain classroom- catching the sight of Gavin sleeping. On one particular day, she sees him standing by the window, staring at the sky.

Minor asks Gavin if he could form a band with him. Gavin rejects him. He then asks Gavin if he wanted to join the school’s singing competition. Gavin rejects him again, saying that he didn’t perform for unimportant people or have others tell him how well he could play.

MC plays “Falling Slowly” on the piano. Gavin hearing this, learns to play the guitar. He doesn’t know the name of the song but familiarises himself with the melody. [CN Music and the Past Call]

Whenever school let students out early, she would go to Lynn’s Kitchen. MC gets her noodles with clear broth, chopped scallions and a half-boiled egg. Gavin usually gets his spicy noodles with garlic, cilantro, thinly sliced beef.

Gavin remembers her favourite order.

MC leaves a post-it note at Lynn’s Kitchen, “I might never see you again and I didn’t even get to say goodbye. I miss you”, about a friend who transferred schools.

Gavin knows she hates people who leave without saying goodbye the most.

Gavin, also in the vicinity near Lynn’s Kitchen, writes a post note. “Until I met you.” [Mystery Box Game]

He saves Mr Noah’s son from an accident, immediately takes him to the hospital and pays for the medical fees. [Anime]

Gavin dismisses rumours of high school romance.

“If you confessed on the 7th step of the stairway in the corner of the 3rd floor then it’ll succeed, or if you carved your name and another person’s name on the 6th tree in the courtyard at the back then your misunderstandings will be resolved, or if a guy gave the girl he liked the second button of his uniform on graduation day then the two of them will end up happy together.”

At lunch, he hears MC talking about the second button, and upon seeing her yearning face, he raises his head in thought, suddenly couldn’t wait for graduation. He tears off his second button. [Mystery Wings Event]

Gavin is just in love at this point.

Gavin sees one of the top students stealing money from a shop outside of school. The shopkeeper doesn’t believe him.

He stops the student on his way home to hand him back the money.

MC sees him at the alley then leaves.

Gavin spent all the money on a walkman he wanted for a very long time.

Mr Keller was the only one who believed in him. He said to him, “Since you can’t change what others think of you, you might as well just listen to your heart.” This had a great impact on Gavin. [Campus Date]

Winter

In the snowfall, the school allowed additional ten minutes of break time. The class next to MC’s stuffed Minor’s shirt with snowballs.

Gavin thought of helping him with a counterattack but MC had already returned a snowball to the male student who pulled the prank.

Gavin looks at MC the whole time. [CN Recovery ASMR]

MC overheads girls in her class say that Gavin had bullied students for lunch money that morning.

MC rides her bike back home after studying at the library for her finals.

MC sees Gavin being handed an envelope full of money at Lynn’s Kitchen in an alleyway.

She mistook it for him taking protection money.

Summer of June 2011

On a humid afternoon, MC looks outside the window of the classroom in boredom. A boy in a loose-fitting school uniform ran by. She couldn’t make out his face. [S1 Chapter 7-23]

MC begins to distance herself from Gavin. She rushes out of class and goes straight home instead.

Gavin is sad. He broods by the piano room, goes to the library to brood, then stares at the place MC sits to brood some more.

Minor wonders how he’s able to stare all afternoon at an empty space in the library but sleeps all day during class hours. [Minor’s Memory Book]

Before graduation, Gavin’s father expresses his thoughts for Gavin to join the organisation for special training. Gavin refuses, but his father uses MC to influence him to agree.

Gavin remembers the panic and timidity in MC’s eyes when she first met him. He recalls that moment was probably the hardest to bear in his life.

Gavin in his short period of freedom writes a letter to MC. He ponders about what to say, thinking about their first encounter, and how she started to distance herself from him. But all he writes is-

“Saturday 9am, I will be at the school library waiting for you.

-Gavin.”

MC attends the flag-raising ceremony and rehearses her speech. She then leaves to study for her exams.

Meanwhile, Gavin finishes a fight with other boys from school in an alley after they talk inappropriately about MC. [Old Days Date]

Gavin, bloodied and bruised, asks Minor to make another copy of his letter.

This is the only thing that Gavin had asked Minor to do so of course, he agreed. [Chapter 7-11]

Minor thinks the letter is a symbol of passion and fierce love due to the bloodstains and decides to keep the original.

He writes “GAVIN” and places it on MC’s desk for her to see the next day.

(In the Campus Date, the older MC is the one who finds him instead of Minor and treats him to his injuries. She ends up seeing the contents of the letter to find him later on.)

MC mistakes the letter as a threat and throws it away.

That Weekend

Gavin sits for 14 hours in the library waiting for MC, scanning the library every now and then.

With a fingertip, he rubs “Byron’s Poetry Collection” and carefully sandwiches a dried and yellowed ginkgo leaf into the book. He suddenly felt a measure of self-deprecation.

He stands up, and leaves, his heart filled with regret that he didn’t give it to her personally. [CN Tilted Time Rumours and Secrets]

After Summer Break- July

Minor never saw Gavin, and neither did MC.

“We met often, but never passed by each other. I remember every moment I saw you in school. Time, location, weather, your expression, your clothes...

-I remember them all.”

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