Just started ADHD meds and... I've never felt this way. I feel like I've been almost, idk, dormant?? For years. Just waiting. Workin at less than 10% of who I am and what I was capable of as a young kid.
If I post a lot of post nothing at all or get sappy, I'm just very overwhelmed (good overwhelmed, but certainly whelmed!!) And I'm feeling a lot
I think my ADHD causes most of my anxiety and taking my medicine for the first time today has solidified a lot of what I figured out kinda on my own.
The medicine is expensive as hell, even with insurance and it shouldn't be... But I feel alive.
I'm not some dormant, sleeping husk that I've felt like for so long. Maybe I can really start to get things done again. Maybe I don't have to be so tired anymore.
Maybe I can be a writer and an artist and a guitarist and rollerblade and study and do everything without worry like I used to.
What if I can really be a person again? What if I can clean and cook and eat like I used to?
What if I'm really okay? Alive again? Breathing and what if it won't hurt anymore? What if my anxiety doesn't cause me searing pain anymore?
Maybe, maybe, what if... So much. So much fear and curiousity and hope. Hope isn't something I really feel much. It's this... Bubble of nerves in my stomach. I'm so nervous and excited. Where will things take me? I haven't been so positive in years.
Maybe I can finally live again. And I'm so scared but so excited because things, as shit as they are, are looking up at least a little. And that's a start. 💖
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mutuals kiss me on the lips. we're getting more hotdogs
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oh hello everyone
9 FOLLOWERS!!! THIS IS AN ACHIEVEMENT! I DESERVE A MEDAL! THANK YOU ALL FOR DEALING WITH MY SHIT
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just realized the question of whether succession is a comedy or a drama will finally be answered this season
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[collapses on the floor] FINALLY- DESIGNS IM HAPPY WITH-
Though these are technically the TawnyFeather kiddos as warriors, still wanted to share it. I also hid their warrior names, since at this point in the story they’re still apprentices :3
Some little details-
-Nymphpaw’s little manbun is held by flowers and ivy, Feather helped him with it
-Despite being smaller, Lionpaw is the older of the two by a few seconds
-Lionpaw has a mullet
-Nymphpaw has a similar build to Graystripe, Lionpaw has a leaner one like Tawnypelt
-Lionpaw has one pure white leg, her back left one
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happy new year. shoutout to raven “acidbath princess of darkness” and tara for reappearing just before midnight, as they do every year. suit yourself humanity, congratulations.
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They need to invent more fake celebrities like Hatsune Miku and Gorillaz and the Muppets because it's genuinely the most sustainable way to maintain a parasocial relationship with the entertainer class.
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