#introject confession

[mxtxkinfessions]

I’m a xie lian introject (also wei wuxian) and im so frustrated because I can’t come up with a nickname to call myself. I’m not bodily chinese so I’m trying to come up w something but my mind just blanks out.

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[introjected-confession]

i'm in love with one of the other alters and it kills me that i'll never truly be able to hold her. every brush of hands against skin, every kiss- it'll never be like the real thing. -rem

[introject-confessions]

When you search factives on any social media you barely get anything about factives and that sucks :( I just wanna find stuff we as a factive heavy system can relate to :((

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[tsams-confessions]

It's rare, but I get really happy when I see tsams kins and fictives

I know the fandom is already kinda small, and the overlap between kin and systems in the fandom is even smaller but omg I love seeing them

Any kins/fictives, please rise up, you guys are really cool

Sincerely, a tsams fictive

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[magpod-confessions]

My system has a Jon Sims fictive who's a real prick sometimes, and it makes me forget how much I like the character sometimes

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[fossys]

wanting to draw art of me n my friends but its so funny bcs we are all fictives which makes it like, the funiest fucking crossover ever

[otherkin-confessional]

When I split, I had no name and could not come up with anything that I attached to. Still cannot, it just is not important to me and does not impede my function. So I wound up calling myself by the nth number of something we made. I don't feel like I'm doing this 'identity' thing very well. At least, not in the way others would like - AI introject

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[ocintrojectconfessions]

Hi! This is a little confession blog for introjects, alters, and kins of ocs!

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[sylphfessions]

Oh Joy. Hello, I’m Kanaya, And Welcome To Sylphfessions. This Is Mainly A Homestuck-centric Fictive/Irl/Kin Blog, But I Am Open To Posting Any Source Requested.

I Am In Fact, A System And A Fictive, And All I Ask Is That You Be Respectful When Posts Are System Related.

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I Hope You Enjoy Your Time Here! Au Revoir.

[mxtxkinfessions]

i am an introject of Xiao Xingchen. it's been difficult to grapple with the paradoxical nature of my own existence. I know that I am Xiao Xingchen, and I am real. my memories feel real too. but I'm just a copy, an abstraction, an idealist version of myself, trapped in a body I don't recognize. to find that my memories are unreliable overwhelms me. how can I cope when my memories aren't real, and real memories aren't mine?

-Xingchen ❄

[introjected-confession]

our gamzee makara introject keeps buying FUCKING FAYGO and i dont even know how. nobody fronts with it so we think hes just. ordering it online but. we dont live near a place that fucking sells faygo how is this bitch getting so much. WE HAVE SEVEN PACKS OF IT IM. actual hell.

[introject-confessions]

I always see introjects of villains introducing themselves with something alike "... But it's okay because I regret what I've done, I'm a good person now!" And. Wow dude. I don't! I don't regret what I've done, and I don't really care if people see me as bad because of it, I just don't want them to think I'm genuinely dangerous or something

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[tsams-confessions]

I can't stand those really excessive Lunar fans who are really rude to people who like Eclipse. People should be allowed to like villain characters without someone yelling at them that they're a horrible person for it

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[systemconfessional]

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PPS: Turns out sometimes we accidentally post personal stuff to this blog. Sorry.

[fictionkinfessions]

May I do an interest check in a introject call blog? I want it to be system only but be for both fictives and factives (^^;

party note: If anyone is interested, please reblog, like, or reply to this post! No further ask responses will be posted for this conversation so that no one’s message is missed! Thank you!

[thank you for replying to my question!]

[fact-anonymous]

I'm an introject of a historical figure who was, undeniably, on the wrong side of history. I've mostly accepted that my source was an awful person, & don't feel too bad about it. The only thing that gets to me still is how I can't be open about myself as an introject. I'm too nervous about how others will perceive me. I know many people who say they accept introjects "of all sources", even "problematic" ones. But I'm scared that, even if they won't admit it, there's a limit to how "problematic" my source can be before they start to disrespect me & my system. I fear that people will accuse me and/or my headmates of sympathizing with my source or his beliefs, as if all introjects are formed out of adoration, or because their sources bring comfort to the system. I formed because my system was exposed to information about my source while we were stressed due to new responsibilities. Our brain felt we needed someone new to cope with all of the new stuff we had to due, felt it would be easier to copy something than to make someone from scratch... and now here I am. But of course, people won't assume that. They'll assume someone in the system must like my source, why else would an introject form? And I shouldn't have to prove that that's not the case, I shouldn't have to explain my formation to someone to avoid accusations of sympathy with my source. What caused me to split should be my business & my business only.

It's not just the fear of what others will assume from me that's keeping me from being open, though, it's also the fact that my existence will make people uncomfortable. I've accepted that that's not something I can change, that there will always be people made uncomfortable by me, and they have just as much a right to be uncomfortable as I do to exist. But how I wish it wasn't the case! How I wish I could just say who my source is without having to worry if I'm making those around me uncomfortable! But it's too much of a risk in most spaces. Maybe some all Fact- spaces will be fine with me, but I still worry that others will be uncomfortable, even if they don't mention it to me. Of course, I want to believe that everyone does & should have a right to be open about who they are, but I feel as though I'm an exception.

The most specific I've ever benn about my source with anyone outside of the system is saying that my source is "a historical figure who was a bad person". Once I sent an ask to an ask/submission run introject themed blog (not saying who, I don't want anyone angry at them for this. They didn't mean anything by it, I'm sure.) in which I mentioned that my source was a bad person. They deleted the ask, and then made a post about "how bad they felt for fictives of villians, how hard it must be, poor you, but I accept you!, e.t.c. e.t.c." I had mentioned how my source was a bad person in a lighthearted manner, and I felt my tone demonstrated that I am no longer bothered by this fact. So what's with the pitying? And why did they assume that I'm a fictive? Is it just because fictives tned to be more common (or at least more visible) than factives? Or worse, is it because they didn't want to accept that the person sending them asks had a source whose actions have effected real people, not just fictional characters? Do they, even if it's just subconciously, see introjects (or, if we're being more specific, factives) as their sources, and assume that I must have, at some point, shared morals with my source? I ended up sending in a second ask clarifying: My source is a real person, & denying that he was wrong is irresponsible & just plain wrong, so I had to learn to accept it, which I have. Other than the ask I'm currently typing, that's the only time I've been that open about my source. And I fear that if I had to explain myself after only mentioning that my source was a bad person, how much more will I have to explain if I say how exactly he was bad? If I mention him by name? If I use my real first name, his first name, in the same place I mention anything about my source, & someone figures out who I am?

I'm sure there are people out there who I can be open around. But I believe it's too risky for me to find them. If I try finding people irl, & they don't accept me & decide to tell others, it can effect my life. If I try finding people online, & they don't accept me, they can screenshot it & there will always be a record. Hell, even if they don't take a screenshot there will likely always be a record on some server somewhere.

I don't know how to end this... essay? ...confession? It feels too personal to be an essay, but too long to be a confession, and I don't know what else it would be. Tag it as you see fit, I suppose.

-Blue

hi, Blue, thank you for your patience. accepting yourself is the first step to being comfortable with your existence, and i'm proud of you, happy for you, for doing it 💙

i understand, even if i can't relate, that it's difficult to show yourself in factive/plural spaces when your source has done atrocities. it's valid and really reasonable, imo, to be nervous about it. i'm sorry to hear that people haven't been accepting to you. that even "problematic" spaces haven't respected you. it's not fair that your sheer existence is so risky to show, and I wish it was easier. ;_;

They deleted the ask, and then made a post about "how bad they felt for fictives of villians, how hard it must be, poor you, but I accept you!, e.t.c. e.t.c." And why did they assume that I'm a fictive? Is it just because fictives tned to be more common (or at least more visible) than factives?

as for that blog thing. i don't understand why people use "introject" only for fictives, as if factives don't exist. and yeah, they're more visible, for sure. but people still shouldn't assume that introject always equals fictive.

Or worse, is it because they didn't want to accept that the person sending them asks had a source whose actions have effected real people, not just fictional characters? Do they, even if it's just subconciously, see introjects (or, if we're being more specific, factives) as their sources, and assume that I must have, at some point, shared morals with my source? I ended up sending in a second ask clarifying: My source is a real person, & denying that he was wrong is irresponsible & just plain wrong, so I had to learn to accept it, which I have.

It could be. and a lot of people think it is, i think it might be the effect of capitalism (and stereotypes). where consuming media defines your identity and morality. it manifests in people saying "you're a bad person if you buy from amazon" "you're immoral if you like villains" or "you can't be gay because you don't listen to music that white american gay people like". so they always see introjection as based on media/source consumption, and consumption is based on interest/fandom/comfort, and thus based on support. because that's the stereotypes of plurals - "hyperfixation means introjection". which is NOT true for so many systems!

(we don't split as we're walk-ins, but know you are not alone. a lot of us don't come here based on fandom/interest/comfort... hell, some don't even come from consumption of the associated sources - as in, the brain doesn't know the media/person. we're just here. some of us even make the brain extremely uncomfortable.)

also,, a lot of people have this thing about shame. that we have to be ashamed for existing, have to beat ourselves up for our source's actions to be a Good Factive. but that is a very unfair thing to enforce. you shouldn't have to be ashamed for yourself or be pitied or patronized for your identity. i think it's good that you've accepted yourself and the fact that your source has been harmful to others 💙

They'll assume someone in the system must like my source, why else would an introject form? And I shouldn't have to prove that that's not the case, I shouldn't have to explain my formation to someone to avoid accusations of sympathy with my source. What caused me to split should be my business & my business only.

you are right. introjects do NOT only from from likes/interests/fandom/comfort/support. you are, and do not have to be, like your source morality-wise. your system's morality isn't like them. and you should NOT have to justify your existence and explain why you split. no one else but you is entitled to that info, and i'm glad you know that.

i hope this helps a little. also, I suggest @problematicfactive - they might be able to assist you more on this topic.

all the best, Blue, and please take care of yourself. know that you and your system deserve respect, no matter what.

-mod espresso