Man, the amount of times I’ve gone back and read fic I wrote for this fandom when I was first starting and CRINGED because I realize now that writing fingers going through reader’s hair or pink coming to reader’s cheeks is not particularly inclusive… oof. But, I am here to own up to yet another thing I’m guilty of and didn’t even think twice about until literally tonight: the knowing Spanish thing. And I feel particularly bad about that because like… a good number of my friends growing up spoke Spanish (and other languages as the case may be but Spanish is topical) because their parents were immigrants, I grew up in a college town with a huge international student population, like, I KNOW people who grow up in suburban America don’t automatically ONLY know English. (Also I am absolutely not looking for a pat on the back or anything lmao my point here is: learning and growing to become a better, more inclusive writer is a journey and you’re always gonna be learning new things and realizing maybe something you’ve done in the past was Not The Best, but that’s GOOD that means you are, indeed, learning and growing!!! I have no clue if that last sentence made any goddamn sense I am very tired)
learning and growing to become a better, more inclusive writer is a journey and you’re always gonna be learning new things and realizing maybe something you’ve done in the past was Not The Best, but that’s GOOD that means you are, indeed, learning and growing!!!
I’m putting emphasis on that because you are absolutely right there!! There’s always something new to learn and yes we all make mistakes but the point is to learn and grow from it!!
And that’s my other point too when it comes to writing reader inserts: you should be thinking outside your own point of view and try to consider others as well. So many people haven’t even considered the language thing until it’s brought up and that’s just one example of many of how people can unintentionally exclude others.
The point is to take that, learn from it and do better in the future and not get defensive or think you’re being attacked because you’re not! It helps everyone to be inclusive!
Series Summary: When is it enough? When is it too much? When does Devotion become Obsession?
Visit the Series Masterlist for series warnings, cult info, timeline info, and HCs on ages. Reader has a nickname and some minor physical descriptions - is an OFC from Reader POV.
Thank you all SO MUCH for reading. Thank you to everyone who supported me and listened to me babble about this series since December. Thank you to all the readers who messaged me, commented, liked, reblogged, etc. I see every single one of you and I appreciate you so much. I injected a LOT of my own experiences and trauma directly into this story, and it meant a lot to me to be able to share it with you all. Whatever you're going through or whatever you've been through - you are a survivor, you are enough, and you can save yourself. Writing this has been such a journey and it wasn't always easy, but it was always worth it. xoxo
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Epilogue
Some Summer Sunday (900)
Sunday service is a regular occurrence for you and Joel, and the church gets more crowded every week. You've been noticing the building filling up with people of all faiths, packing in the pews until there’s only standing room left, and then lining the walls. Joel tells you residents from all over The Valley make the trek into town every weekend to see you but you’re pretty sure he’s just being complimentary. Guys say all kinds of shit when they’re trying to get in your pants so when he acts like everyone thinks you’re the holy madonna you just chalk it up to that.
He’s asked you to wear a nice outfit today in preparation for a big announcement, so you’re wearing a flowy yellow gown with a little too much tulle in the skirt and feeling like a tragically awkward beauty queen. You’re worried he’s going to make a big deal of the greenhouse plans and you’re going to have to stand there while everyone - including Isaac - stares at you, waiting for you to make some kind of speech like you just won a humanitarian award.
You don’t want to be raised aloft like some kind of goddess, that was where Joel made his mistake. You think it’s more effective to meet people on their level, to just act human and blend in with the group. People like having something to believe in but as long as they’re being taken care of and heard, they work better as a collective. Plus, when something goes wrong there’s not someone risen above everyone else for them to direct blame at, instead everyone just works together towards a solution to the problem.
But what Joel does on this day is even worse than you could have imagined. He asks you to join him in the thick, sweltering summer heat, standing in front of the maxed-out congregation and then, holding your hand in his, he gets down on one knee. Your brows knit in confusion and you’re honestly about to ask him if he’s okay until he pulls something out of his pocket. A ring. A fucking ring. Several women in the crowd gasp and squeal, and a smattering of clapping makes the rounds.
You can’t believe he’s doing this to you right now.
“I want to give you everything I have, to share everything with you.”
You’re going to die of embarrassment.
“I want your partnership, your company, and your sage wisdom.”
No, he’s going to die. You’re going to kill him.
“I want your mind, your heart, and your body.”
Jesus fuck-, in a church, Joel?
“I will spend the rest of my life loving, honoring, and obeying you.”
Did he just say-
“Baby,” he winks. “Marry me.”
That wasn’t even a question. He just ordered you to-
The crowd erupts in applause as Joel rises and places the ring on your finger, grabbing both sides of your face and kissing your mouth.
“I didn’t say yes,” you murmur against his lips.
“But you will. You know we’re perfect for each other” he says, looking deep into your eyes. He whispers your name. “I’m so in love with you.”
Words that you once wanted to hear so badly still carry an edge to them, a phantom sting in your gut from an old wound he made.
“You just said you’d obey me in front of everyone,” you say, your voice a whisper.
“I know,” he hums. “And I will.”
This is a lot. You let your guard down at the house, when you’re all alone. You let him hold you and kiss you and fuck you on every surface... but in public? You raise your walls back up, barely letting him touch you. Now he’s proposing marriage - marriage - and practically submitting to you in front of the whole Valley.
“What if I still don’t trust you?” you ask, your voice even quieter.
“That’s one of the things I love most about you.”
This is so fucked up. You know this, you know how fucked up this is. This is so fucked up that you should push him away and tell everyone exactly what kind of man he is, create a mob to distract him while you run away and leave this valley permanently. Tess would probably even help you this time. But the most fucked up thing of all is that you don’t want to do that, you don’t want to leave him. Part of you might hate him but there’s a part of you that loves him too.
Not the way you loved him before, of course, when you were willfully ignorant of who he was. There’s a part of you that loves the Joel you now know he is. The anger, the power, the obsession. It rolls off him in waves that you can taste and smell, like a thick incense it fills your nostrils, intoxicating you. It makes you crave his violent nature, makes you want to sick him on your enemies like a junkyard dog, makes you want to climb him like a tree and howl at the moon. It makes you feel… exalted.
“Marry me,” he says again. Just as much a command as it was the first time.
You look him in his dark eyes and nod slightly, watching his devilish smile grow.
You’re not going anywhere. You’re exactly where you belong… at his side.
🖤
THE END
Thank you SO MUCH to Bug for stepping in and helping me when I needed it, you are always fucking there when I need you and your friendship means so much to me I can't even put it into words. I love you I love you I love you.
TY Beef for helping me in this process and for your amazing suggestions, encouragement, and absolute hyping up along the way. I am SO grateful for your friendship, you are such a ray of sunshine. I love you so so SO much.
🖤Cult Joel (CJ) would not be what he came to be without both of your help.🖤
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Ivy's stories feat. Moon Dads and other dad characters
NEW! He's Okay - No one ever defended Marc and that's all he wants to do for his only son
Moon Boys as Dads - What Marc, Steven and Jake would be like as dads. I bet you can guess who the "fun dad" is.
Eight Nights (in December) - Marc and Steven (Jake is mentioned) are dads to 2 kids: Elle and Max. Can you fall for someone before ever having a date #1? Holiday magic abounds
What a Mother Can Be - Marc and Steven (Jake is mentioned) are dads to 3 kids: Grant, Jakob and baby Lockley. You're nothing like their mother and they could not love you more for it.
Honorable Mention:
I Promise - Protective!Miguel O'Hara x expectant wife!reader
Everybody's Waitin' for the Man with the Bag - Miguel O'Hara visits Gabriella on Christmas Eve
Beautiful header by my beloved @not-a-unique-snowflake-blog
Joel Miller x Trans!Fem!Reader (Nickname, Blue)
Summary: Joel is a simple man. He goes to work, he takes care of his kindergarten age daughter, he tries to make sure Tommy doesn't die and occasionally Tess comes over. He works on Frank and Bill's farm with Tommy, Tess, and another coworker, Max. For his birthday, Tommy drags Joel out to a local grunge band's show, music he knows Joel hates. Joel is surprised to find Tess's girlfriends best friend, a girl they all call Blue because of the blue in her hair, has caught his attention.
What he doesn't know is she is trans. When he finds out, he's very confused, not because he judges her, but because he's not sure what it means for him. Does it make him gay? What does trans even mean? He's very confused. Still, despite all the confusion Joel has an open mind and he just knows that he has a lot of feelings for you and he wants to try. Joel goes on a journey of learning, not only what your trans identity means but also how to take care of himself, how to set boundaries, and learning he doesn't need carry the whole world on his shoulders.
Joel loves country, is as yeehaw as they come. Blue loves grunge, and looking as edgy as she can get by as a school teacher. Can you and Joel make it all work with the one thing that bonds them both together; flannel?
Warnings for whole fic, not chapter by chapter: 18+ ONLY!! I cannot warn against everything, but these are major themes. Joel is a lil ignorant but not out of hate. He just doesn't know. He's trying his best. There will be smut. Penetrative sex, all of the anal play, oral. There will be transphobia from other people. Addiction and alcoholism. QUICK child neglect not by Joel but I promise, Sarah is fine and is having a great time in life. Fetishization of women attracted to women by a shitty guy. Will update as needed. Again, this is adult content. Expect adult content.
Immersivity: Reader is transgender, AMAB female, reader has had gotten bottom surgery, not top, and is on hormones. reader has visible hair and a blue streak in hair, but not described. Could be braids, could be natural hair, whatever. Header is for aesthetics only. Reader is about Joel and Tommy's height. Let me know if i miss anything!
Themes: Found family, Tommy shitheadery (I love him), bi Aunt Tess, Joel recovering from emotional abuse, tired Joel trying to take care of everyone, grunge v country, lots of flannel, y'allternative (blending Joel's country life and reader's grunge life), Sarah Ellie friendship, Bill and Frank as the elder gays, Joel knows nothing about queerness and transness but by golly's he's trying, single dad Joel, good uncle Tommy, good uncle but also not very responsible and maybe has an addiction problem Tommy? lets find out!
Chapter 1: Joel is tired.
Chapter 2: You help Joel relax
Chapter 3: Blue comes out
Chapter 4: Joel tries his best to stay open
Chapter 5: Blue and Joel make it official
Chapter 6: Blue gets to bond with Sarah
Chapter 7: Blue meets Kayla and Joel is honest.
Chapter 8: Joel is there for Blue, always.
Chapter 9: blue sets up her future with Joel
Chapter 10: Happy endings
im so sorry to the people who aren’t used to my antics
sorry if this is rude, but please stop sending the gofundme asks. they’re overwhelming me, and i put off answering them until i feel shitty about not answering.
last updated 9/8/24*
*month/day/year
about me
hi i’m evan or cosmo :) i love love LOVE nicknames! as long as they aren’t sexual or directly calling me a girl, i don’t mind! *
i’m a MINOR in eighth grade, don’t be a creep. im a MINOR.
i use he/they/it pronouns
i’m transmasc, non-binary, bisexual & aceflux (i also use achillean and demi-boy as labels!)
* i especially love the nickname ‘ev’, as my sister had it first and my family will not call me that. i don’t want to be sexualized, it makes me uncomfortable. i am a boy, and i don’t want to be called a girl. eg; ‘good girl’ ‘my girl’ ‘girlfriend’. as for sexual stuff, i mean LITERALLY any nickname said with sexual undertones. i don’t mind being called a good boy, but the moment it’s said with anything sexual you might be blocked. for that reason, please use tone tags, as i am pretty bad at figuring out what some things mean at times.
rambling
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PFP WAS DRAWN BY MY LOVELY WIFE @meerealsssss
currently matching pfps with @meerealsssss
first post limit 3/12/24
expect vent posts from time to time
also also currently going batshit crazy over fallout (honorable mentions are gravity falls, ghost, and sally face !)
i complain a lot, sorry
will x isaac
deer :3 and and german shepherds :3
jizz pants (will anf dom know what this means)
watch just add magic, do it please /nf
i love love love minecraft diaries (aphmau) gagagag lawrence and aaron are my fave characters (please talk to me about aphmau i swear i’m not cringe)
nico <3
starr <3
alex <3
ace <3
mee <3
my wife is @meerealsssss
my wife is @homoashell
my wife is @catinasink
my wife is dominic
my wife is also undyne
my wife is also mrs claus
my wife is trashcan carla
my husband is @aceiined / @muthafuckinaro
my husband is @homoashell
my husband is @catinasink
my husband is @the-rizzly-bear
my husband is the man in the yellow hat
my husband is terzo. i will not be taking criticism at this time.
my husband is also rick sanchez
my husband is also jazon broadly
my husband is also izerah (fuck you what is his last name, mee?)
pac-man is also my husband
my husband is alastor (hazbin hotel)
lucifer is my husband (hazbin hotel)
my husband is rj maccready:3
my husband is john hancock (the gay one)
my husband is the ghoul (on my knees for that cowboy ass mf)
my husband is ford pines
lord farquaad is my husband
my husband is jeremy fragrance
my husband is prae jack ;3
my partner is @alex-the-bard <3 <3 <3
my partner is @homoashell <3
my partner is @catinasink <3
likes/dislikes
like: music, tv, friends, my cat, cool socks, writing, rick sanchez, genloss, tadc, musicals/theatre, undertale/deltarune, ducks, omori
dislike: loud noises, silence, school
i’m currently obsessed with: ghost, dreamscape nexus, rick and morty, gravity falls, etc
i post about:
• marauders
• (mostly) random thoughts
• dreamscape nexus
• other random things
• rick and morty
• gravity falls
• percy jackson
• undertale/deltarune
• hazbin hotel
• helluva boss
• fallout
• omori
• sally face
• ghost
• mad max
family/pets
i have a younger sister, evie
i have a cat named daniel tiger
i have two dogs, gunner and roxie
timezone
EST
if you’re interacting with me past midnight, i’ll probably be a bit sillier than normal
DNI
maps/pedophiles, z00philes, bigots, ED and porn blogs
if you have ‘mdni’ in ur bio
simon cowell
donald trump
neo-nazis
if you don’t like furries and therians please get the fuck away from my blog
and if you shit on other’s religions, get away
what can you call me?
no: feminine related terms (unless you’re using them in a gender neutral way or as a joke) like girl, sister, wife, etc (bbg is always ok)
• wife part two is my wife, they asked me to not name her here (she/they)
• al/allie is from school :3 (she/her)
• smurf is from school (blue hair, hence the nickname) (he/him)
• tomato is from school (silly :3) (he/him)
• boom boy/isaac is from school (he made me a netherite pickaxe after someone else burned mine // the pick had unbreaking // boom boy likes tnt) (he/him)
• boomerang/matt is from school (he/him)
• (irl) alex is from school :3 (he/they)
• khris is from school
• colten is from school (father) (he/him)
• will @skibitygamer is from school (he/him)
• dom is from school (he/him)
• luca was from theatre (mf graduated)
• maryn is from theatre
• alex (n) was from theatre (also graduated)
• chris is from theatre
parents are now getting their own nicknames
• hades is my dad (he/him)
• will come up with one for my mom (she/her)
where else can you find me?
pinterest (moonysfavoritetoast)
pinterest (cryingunderstars)
youtube
wattpad (please don’t take this seriously)
tiktok (moonysfavoritetoast)
tiktok (cryingunderstars)
facebook mom account
my nintendo switch friend code is SW-4260-6971-6714
I'm doing a series of "Best Character Named X" polls where all the characters have the same first name but are from completely different media, feel free to send in name/charcacter suggestions, I'm posting one poll a day. New polls scheduled for 1:30PM GMT everyday.
ask box closed for now
WILL BE POSTING POLLS ON @best-character-named-x-poll FROM FEB 1ST
If your favourite character is not included in the poll very sorry i have either never heard of them or actively chose not to include them as theres only 6 characters per poll. Characters will only count of that is their first name, surnames do not count.
*subject to change, you can still submit a character if there is no strikethrough if you think theres a character that its an absolute crime i dont add. Please don't suggest anything for the names with a strikethrough as they are polls that are already in my queue waiting to be published.
Past Polls
Round 1: Peter : WINNER: Peter Parker (Spider-Man)
Round 2: Elizabeth : WINNER: Elizabeth Swann (Pirates of the Caribbean)
Round 3: Jason : WINNER: Jason Mendoza (The Good Place)
Round 4: Eve : WINNER: EVE (WALL-E)
Round 5: Fred : WINNER: Fred Jones (Scooby-Doo)
Round 6: Rachel : WINNER: Rachel (Animorphs)
Round 7: Arthur : WINNER: Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
hit the heart for a short starter ! beneath the cut are a list of FACE CLAIMS & PLOTS/DYNAMICS i'm in the mood for ! i will come to you for face claim choice and plot! <3
fcs: sabrina carpenter, drew starkey , madelyn cline , jonathan daviss , madison bailey , jacob elordi , kaden hammond , vinnie hacker , sadie stanley , samantha logan , michael evans behling , tyla , melissa barrera , max thieriot , dev patel , brayden bradshaw , zendaya , oscar isaac , pedro pascal , anne hathaway , nicholas galitizine , lily - rose depp , damian hardung , havana rose liu , glen powell , tara yummy , aron piper , maia reficco , nicole wallace , evan mock , callum turner , hannah dodd , vanessa morgan , jennie kim , simone ashley , noah lalonde
plots / dynamics: best friends to lovers , enemies to lovers , poor x rich , fwbs with feelings , ‘i had ur kid and disappeared but now i’m back whoopsie', married couple , ‘you’re my brother's best friend, we can't', ‘messy exes, stripper x drug dealer , drug dealer x client , bad boy x good girl , bad girl x good girl , hockey player x figure skater , affair, arranged marriage , boss x secretary , bodyguard x celeb/president’s daughter/rich person/etc., ‘ur partner sucks, let me show u how good i can make u feel’.
formula one: oscar piastri, max verstappen, lando norris, lewis hamilton, charles leclerc
nhl: quinn hughes
kpop: any skz members, any ateez members, any txt members, any seventeen members, any (g)-idle members
teen wolf: scott mccall, stiles stilinski, lydia martin, isaac lahey
harry potter: james potter, sirius black, remus lupin, lily evans, regulus black
you can totally ask about other things, i just might say no lol (but i'll do so kindly)
who elle writes for:
formula one: charles leclerc, carlos sainz, max verstappen, lando norris, lewis hamilton, oscar piastri
teen wolf: scott mccall, stiles stilinski, isaac lahey
honestly, if you have an idea, it doesn't hurt to ask lol !
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we reserve the right to deny or alter any requests we are not comfortable writing or simply don't want to write.
please specify if you would like us to write with a fem! or gender neutral! reader in mind. We will not be writing male! reader (we have no experience being men lol).
we won't write about abuse, noncon, and dubcon.
we won't write driver x driver [and the like].
although we will write smut, there is a chance your request will be denied if the topics make us uncomfortable. please don't harass us if you don't end up seeing your request.
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you can ask for one of us specifically to write your request, please just indicate in any way that pleases your wee little heart. if you don't really care, just write a standard request.
please make sure to read this before requesting anything — i'm hoping that you'll respect my boundaries on what am i comfortable with and with not writing.
MASTERLIST
I tend to curse often in my fics, and are usually comfortable with covering more serious topics, so make sure to check the content warning before hand. I always write warnings when I believe they're needed, but do let me know if you think something should be added!
also senders may request as many as they want <3
FORMS OF WRITING :
oneshot
imagine
headcanon
series
alphabet
I tend to write oneshots over 1000 words, so if you want feel free to specify if you want a long or short story.
CONTENT I WRITE :
fluff
angst
sensitive / triggering topics
gore
smut / spice
most tropes ( best at friends to lovers )
I'm pretty comfortable with writing sensitive topics as well as angst ( anyone who's read my works before will know that they're the things I write best ) however, if I'm not comfortable with the topic as a whole I will DM you, or possibly put it off for a while.
*If you have a writing prompt from somewhere as well, feel free to send it through !!
CHARACTERS :
male reader / ftm
gender neutral
genderfluid
original character
I do not write female readers / characters anymore. If there aren't specified pronouns then I will write it as a male character.
There are also some characters I only feel comfortable writing for with a male reader/character and vice versa, which I'll note who.
PAIRINGS :
love interests
platonic
family
polyamorous ships ; depends on the character
WHAT I WILL NOT WRITE :
support of homophobia, transphobia, fatphobia, racism, sexism, pedophilia, incest ; if they're mentioned in a request in terms of the character being bullied / abused ( in the past ) then i may write it but NOT explicitly, only a mention
a pairing against a character's canon sexuality
rape
pregnancy
female reader
anime
WHO I WRITE FOR :
DEAD BOY DETECTIVES :
charles rowland
edwin payne
monty
niko sasaki ( not romantic )
crystal palace ( not romantic )
DESCENDANTS :
ben beast
harry hook
carlos de vil
jay
mal bertha
evie grimhilde
LOCKWOOD & CO :
anthony lockwood
lucy carlyle
george karim
quill kipps ( friends / family only )
MARAUDERS :
remus lupin
sirius black
regulus black
james potter
lily evans ( not romantic )
evan rosier
barty crouch jr
marlene mckinnon ( not romantic )
dorcas meadows ( not romantic )
pandora lovegood ( not romantic )
mary mcdonald ( not romantic )
MARVEL :
peter parker / spiderman ( tom and andrew )
loki laufeyson
kate bishop
yelena belova ( not romantic )
steve rogers
bucky barnes
pietro maximoff
wanda maximoff
valkyrie ( not romantic )
natasha romanoff
tony stark ( not romantic )
gwen stacy ( emma stone )
gwen stacy ( atsv )
*marvel and particularly the mcu is a fandom i'm more comfortable with than most, so if there is a character not listed, then i may or may not write for them
NARNIA :
prince caspian
peter pevensie
edmund pevensie ( only during dawn treader )
SHADOW AND BONE / SIX OF CROWS :
kaz brekker
inej ghafa
jesper fahey
wylan van eck
nina zenik
alina starkov
nikolai lantsov
genya safin ( not romantic )
matthias helvar
STRANGER THINGS :
steve harrington
jonathon byers
max mayfield
robin buckley ( not romantic )
TEEN WOLF :
stiles stilinski ( *i will take most/all dylan obrien characters )