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hoardlikegoldenirises · 1 year

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I’ve edited my timeline a bit (a lot...) and the old version of this drawing just wasn’t really useful for me anymore because of certain changes etc. so i finally expanded it a LOT so i have a better idea of what flash’s hair should look like.

(while peter stays mostly the same XD he’s just not interested in experimenting with his hair i guess)

putting some individual bits (well, groups of 3-4) below the cut:

Flash in his late teens; his only form of hairstyling in high school was buzzcuts from his mom so i just wrote “high school” instead of an age lol... once he goes off to college he starts growing his hair out and by the time he loses his legs that’s about what it looks like (18ish), and then the one with the hello kitty shirt is about a year later, how he looks by the time he’s 19 and a half... then a few months later he buzzes it all off after some stuff happens that upsets him, that i won’t go into here but will be uploaded to the AO3 series as a fic later. short version is “he has a revelation about himself and gender that he’s really, really not ready to deal with and locks himself back in the closet” (not that he was really out of the closet but he was rolling around in 2006 wearing a hello kitty shirt and nail polish lol) so yeah he ends up depressed again, and drinking more (still not legally old enough to drink but he has his fake id and other ways of getting it, of course) and trying to be Outwardly Masculine like he was before :(

oh i’ll also note—since it’s not visible in these busts lol—flash has of course been using a wheelchair since he was 18 and a half, which is obviously because of the events in “these are not the clothes [...]” where doc ock crushes his legs... so aside from the teenage stuff, he’s in a rigid wheelchair throughout this entire au—i decided against him ever getting prosthetic legs because initially he is young enough that growth is still a partial factor, on top of prosthetic legs already being even more expensive than wheelchairs and already requiring multiple fittings in the early stages even for adults who are totally done growing, and then later they’re just like... poor... plus not being on his dad’s insurance after a certain age (esp. after being kicked out but i don’t think he was disowned)... even by the time he and peter get married and flash is on peter’s health insurance i doubt they’d be able to afford a pair of otk prosthetic legs on the salary of one full time teacher and one part time assistant gym teacher lol—that shit’s like tens of thousands PER leg... even with insurance i doubt they’d be able to throw together something like 20k-40k (or more) for prosthetic legs on top of being due to replace flash’s wheelchair... granted they do have rich friends (and my headcanon in 616 is that harry and/or liz are probably the ones who helped pay for flash’s mobility aids in the first place) but imo neither are the type to want to go asking for money, regardless of harry or liz’s willingness to give it to them... and being like, “hey can i have $40,000?” is a BIG ask lmao

ANYWAY Flash is still kind of in a rough place in his early 20s, but starts to get better and feel okay with the things that made him feel happy before, so his hair starts growing out again and he busts out the spidey choker but not the nail polish. am considering having andi be a character around this time (though obvs she’d be like... 10) but not sure about how i want to do that... or if i’ll ever write it XD def still having drinking problems as he gets actually legally old enough to drink but less depression = less drinking for him, to some extent... his beachy curls are just the cutest though

not pictured: flash converts to judaism in 2010 (along w/ his mother and sister)

(2011 necklace just a regular fine silver chain necklace peter got him for his birthday)

mid 20s flash is a lot happier and starts wearing nail polish again, as well as getting his associate’s degree and also starting the *other* AA (alcoholics anonymous) or a similar program happening kind of concurrently with some other stuff (Harry’s also been going through it which partially leads to flash realizing he wants to change some things in his life) and also just because he’s so busy with school and other stuff that it’s really just become a lot more impractical for him to drink as much, and with the support of aunt may and peter and his friends he’s getting a lot better about his drinking and also a lot more comfortable with himself and his sexuality and gender presentation now that he’s had time to think about it more and not be so afraid. turns out 7 years away from your abusive father helps a lot... also harrison specifically has had kind of poor health and while idk if flash is even in contact with him anymore, if he is then, that might contribute to flash being like, fuck i don’t want to be like that...

anyway he gets job as an assistant gym teacher at midtown around the same time peter gets a job there (though peter’s been teaching already for a few years while getting his masters, but he was teaching at a school near chelsea instead of in queens)... Flash puts his hair up at work but at home it’s like, :> girly time.

and peter proposes when they’re 26, cause he’s been thinking about how that stuff has been legal in nyc for a couple years (since 2011) and just. he’s peter. he wants to get married. he’s a wife guy. i doubt flash says yes IMMEDIATELY because he has some hang-ups related to his home life growing up and peter and him haven’t always had the smoothest relationship, so understandably he isn’t ready to say yes immediately .... but like... they’ve been exclusive for a few years on top of some off-and-on stuff in their early 20s, and peter has seen him in some of his worst, most rock-bottom moments in life as well as helping him realize who he is inside, and still loves him, so he says yes.

also around this time, along with the convo about if marriage is the right fit, they have a convo about flash’s ... “identity issues” and talk about that and make good strides there. peter helps flash embrace that aspect of himself, especially now that peter’s mature enough to be capable of supporting flash without being pushy or aggressive or expecting him to just magically be grateful LOL—my, how they grow up XD so this is when they first start experimenting with feminine terms of endearment (at least on purpose) and stuff like... well, they’re engaged so i guess it’s just fiance LOL so not girlfriend. “wife-to-be.” and other more uh. nsfw things 😂

(the blue pendant necklace is a wedding gift from felicia)

they get married, still 26 because their wedding is in the spring and flash’s birthday isn’t until june and peter’s is in october, but like, ALMOST 27, the long hair is definitely what flash has at 27 following the wedding, and then the even longer hair is around the time the man-spider fic is taking place and has grown out a lot.

i’m still using he/him pronouns for flash in the man-spider fic as of my most recent edits, but i actually am not 100% sure what the deal is with that. i think there are lot of feminine terms of endearment in the privacy of their home, and i’ve had felicia call flash a pretty girl, and even tossed in a “wife” in a recent edit of ch 1, but flash isn’t really publicly out... “boy mode at work” as the doodle says lol. there’s always a chance i go back and edit pronouns. we’ll see how that shakes out. i think when flash is somewhere around mid-40s that might shift over to like, more feminine everything... a more comprehensive social transition i guess

then the late 40s one is mostly an estimate of like, this might be what flash looks like in 20 years... but idk for sure. wife city. a couple of white hairs but she’s not going gray as much as peter is lol

also—re the wedding stuff: originally there was no yarmulke for flash’s wedding outfit but i recently committed to flash asking his mother about their heritage (in “last week [...]”) with the idea that maybe his mom’s side is jewish or used to be jewish (but that there’s been a lot of intermarriage) and now have decided flash converts in 2010, so not an interfaith ceremony, just a jewish one.

here are their wedding rings. peter proposed without a ring but after they talked through if marriage was the right step for them and flash agreed to it, flash also eventually asked if he could get an engagement ring... because gender. so they buy a really small, simple one that doesn’t attract too much attention but still has a little tiny diamond... peter offers to wear one too but it’s not very practical for his line of work (spidey lol) so they end up just getting the one for flash. and then their wedding bands match but flash’s is skinnier just cause he doesn’t want to draw too much attention to the set. like it’s a small, happy thing for him, but that doesn’t mean he wants randos staring at his rings (and also they’re not exactly wealthy on a single full time teacher’s salary + a part time assistant gym teacher’s salary to support them and pitch in for aunt may...)

i can see peter getting an anniversary ring for flash eventually too... maybe 10 year...

also as a sidenote, i just wanted to say i def agree that peter doesn’t need to be married to be an adult or be mature, and that it’s weird when people boil it down to “peter has to be married to be an adult.” the problem with comics right now isn’t that he isn’t married, but rather the circumstances for why it was decided that they had to end that relationship, and the way he is watered down into a nothing character with no personality and no flaws who isn’t allowed to swear or drink in the name of Mascot-ification while his dark hair and features are made lighter and more generic (arguably more aryan) (latter also a problem with flash and why i only draw flash with curly or wavy red or strawberry hair now instead of the straight yellow blonde he’s been given over the past 20 years)

ANYWAY

what i’m saying is that while marriage shouldn’t be the only way for a romance to continue, etc. and emulating traditional gender roles and marriage roles is not the only way to be in love etc. i do think peter is a wife guy (and how many times has his first solution to literally any problem with a woman has been “oh no i have to propose”?) so i think in this case it’s warranted, and peter being like, well, gay marriage is legal... and we both have jobs at the same school now... and we’re probably gonna move soon... maybe we should get married.... makes sense to me 😂 especially considering things like healthcare and the fact that flash is no longer young enough to stay on his dad’s insurance... and peter is very much a protective (overprotective) person who wants to take care of the people he cares about... makes sense that he’d be like, i love you, i want to be with you for as long as possible, let me take care of you better

but also: me smushing fictional characters together like barbies: teehee wedding

me giving flash longer and longer hair and more feminine presentation could also be talked about as like, trans people don’t need to emulate traditional gender roles—but i like when flash has long hair and i think it looks pretty and cute. but also frankly part of the reason i gave flash long hair is less to do with gender presentation and more to do with the fact that i grew up in a family where 4/5 of my uncles grew their hair out long as adults specifically because they’d all had buzzcuts their whole childhood and adolescence so growing their hair out was a way for them to assert their personhood lol

and i think that applies to flash here too, in addition to the genders and long hair as a form of feminine androgyny

as for peter:

i drew a lot less for him XD his hair is mostly the same 2-3 styles cause he doesn’t care that much about fashion whereas flash has the whole Queerness and Gender thing going on. (otherwise i wouldn’t have given him like 10 hairstyles LOL)

late teens and early 20s, peter starts to loosen up a little bit with his hair as he gets older and more adult... he also loosens up his clothing for all of five seconds because with the symbiote when he’s 17-18 (mostly 18) he doesn’t need to hide a suit under his clothes, it just exists, so 18 is his “slutty button-downs” era XD but then a few months before he turns 19 he loses the symbiote so it’s back to buttoned-up collars and turtlenecks and stuff... but sexy instead of nerdy. also he shaves his awful teenage boy barely-a-mustache.

that era of looser hair and more tightly done casual clothes is also around when flash goes back to trying to be masc and he and peter are separated (both in terms of peter living away from aunt may’s house and also in terms of not dating) for a little while.

but, early 20s is also when peter and flash get back together after a couple years and enter a steady relationship—when they’re around 21, 22 years old? and that happens kind of concurrently with flash figuring himself out with less fear, and peter helps with that a little bit. so as peter starts getting shaggier and less uptight, flash also starts to relax and grow his hair out. so they get shaggy hair together 😌 (though flash’s is def longer, peter just needs to go get his hair cut more often XD)

mid-20s, you can see Pete has gotten shaggy as he loosens up! but then some shit happens over a span of ~3 months that’s not great that i won’t get into here (see this post ) and he ends up hospitalized etc... after that, he gets his hair cut once he’s doing better, and keeps it pretty short and tidy from here on out as a way to, i guess... have some control over his life. it makes him feel better to be clean-shaven, neatly coiffed, etc. so from his mid-20s onward he’s permanently said goodbye to the baby mullets.

and then like i said he doesn’t go through as many hairstyles so i didn’t bother drawing out 10 different variations of his mid-20s haircuts... cause they’re all roughly the same but with varying levels of bang length depending on when the last time he got a haircut was XD

so skipping to 26/27 for the wedding stuff, and then 28 for man-spider... he’s matured now.... (damn wish i was that put-together at 28, my life’s a mess😂) so in man-spider they’ve been married for a little over a year (rough strain on the second year of marriage 😅) and then after it, he looks mostly the same but is a little bit fuzzier (even more?!) and has slightly pointier teeth.

and then in his 40s aka DILF with bad facial hair era, his hair will start going PRETTY gray pretty quickly... with that white streak... his hair is gonna be more silvery than flash’s as they age, partly cause of the stress of being spider-man and partly cause silver fox suits him lol

(not that flash hasn’t had stressful stuff happening too but it’s a little different)

and yes i gave him stupid facial hair, as is his right. any middle aged peter needs some kind of dorky goatee or mustache, that’s just the rules okay. i almost gave him a beard but i didn’t like the way it looked XD (also a beard under the mask seems unpleasant)

he dies at 49.

i drew this anyway:

I mostly just wanted to doodle that cause I thought it was cute but like... Peter gets gunned down before he even hits his 50th birthday. like literally a few weeks before he turns 50. It’s tragic but not surprising in the end and probably something they were a little prepared for considering everything that happens in their life together. at least flash will be a hot milf widow. (except she dies of a broken heart on his birthday instead) (aka a heart attack + a fall in the middle of the night)

i’ve just been thinking about that scene in asm500 where future peter gets taken out by a literal swarm of cops and a sniper... though that universe obviously has its own stuff going on and implies peter kinda goes bad, and i’m not really looking to do that to him or flash (as much as i like a Killer Spidey, i don’t think it’s the right fit here) we’ll see... i just know i want to re-emphasize that peter will treat flash with love, gentleness, and tenderness up until his last breath... wifeguy til the end. i think maybe fisk is involved or something...

anyway misc doodles from the past two years:

tfw you turn from a circle to a dorky teenager into being chiseled

i’ll also note that peter has a lot of issues ... like a lot... and he was already a temperamental teen but he has some serious anger and other issues as a teenager due to sexual trauma as a 12 year old :( poor kid. you can see mentions of that in the stuff i have posted; peter’s mostly coping as an adult but sometimes it creeps back out... :/ contributed to his antisocial behavior in high school for sure. also he hit puberty so hard XD his voice dropped like three octaves between age 12 and age 18 lmfao

added flash onto this older drawing so i could have a comparison of the way they grew... they both had major growth spurts but flash’s happened when he was around 13 and peter’s didn’t hit until 16-ish (well no he had a smaller growth spurt around 12-13)... a couple of angry children XD... also edited this to make ben shorter cause i realized i made him like. very tall on accident. but closer to 5′11″ here instead of like 6′2″ XD

and peter’s spidey suits over the years... first costume is dorkier and also a little more silver age styled, then black suit as an 18 year old and then he makes a new suit since he’s bigger after losing the black suit, and needs something better and more durable... has also filled out a LOT by 19/20 lol now he’s got that booty... and i think his suit probably tends to be some variation on that suit throughout his adulthood...

i’ll note that originally i planned for the black suit to be a little earlier but some stuff changed, so peter probably shouldn’t be QUITE that gangly and thin in the black suit. but otherwise it’s mostly right.

i also have this variant (with bonus six arms style) which i like a lot too though for all of these i don’t actually love the spider logo’s look ... this was a scrapped idea for a different AU so just ignore the six arms and spider face stuff XD not relevant here, just looking at the suit style

it’s really just the default spider-suit i draw tbh XD (this pic and the next obvs from that 8 page comic i did, not from this au)

i like this logo style better.

also bonus: a general idea of what the rest of the gang looks like..

#nadiart #rough art #fanadiart #peterflash #peter parker #flash thompson #trans flash #spiderman #peterflash timeline au #came in through the window last night

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tiktowafel · 8 months

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Hey, I love your art style and your work on class 1B. I was just wondering if you have any recommendations for fics that are 1B centric, maybe even stories with someone like Setsuna as a main character. I love the MHA fandom, but it's sometimes hard to find those good stories with all the fan generated content, an I was hoping another 1B lover would know what's what.

thank you, and sure! i don't actually read that much fanfiction (my taste is rather narrow), but here are a few ones that i read and enjoyed! i'll put it all under the cut because my summaries ended up making this list kinda long lol

'Class 1-B' is Trending #1 in Japan - 9k words and absolutely hilarious crack oneshot with a lot of chatfic/social media elements. Tsuburaba accidentally turns one of Monoma's rants into an international meme, which results in 1-B becoming incredibly popular and the League of Villains being defeated in the dumbest way imaginable. the fic is restricted to AO3 users, since i don't have an account there i can't check if the link works but i really hope it does :'D

Adrift - long (13k words) and extremely angsty space horror oneshot with Setsuna as the main character. AU where class 1-B are a space crew and a mission goes terribly wrong, leaving Setsuna, the sole survivor, floating hopelessly in space and thinking about everything that happened. 10/10 made me feel extremely uncomfortable for the rest of the day

Mindfucker Has Closed the Chat - 9 chapter 17k words long very chaotic Monoshin chatfic (with one non-chatfic style chapter) where Monoma texts the wrong person and ends up befriending Shinso without knowing who he's talking to. the fic is tagged "attempt at humor" and i gotta say that the attempt was 100% successful, this thing is hysterical and i audibly laughed several times while reading it

Picture Perfect - i know i hardly ever talk about Kosen on this blog despite the fact that it's one of my favorite ships, but one day i'll post something about them i promise- anyway this tiny 2k word fic is pretty much what made me ship them. it's just... very good and very sweet yknow

Unlikely and Unusual - a oneshot collection made for one of those rarepair month events. it's not specifically a 1-B fic, but some of the oneshots feature 1-B characters and the ones i read are very cute :)

the one and only The Heart of a Hero - 345k words and recently updated after a long hiatus, basically a 1-B fandom legend. It has everything: drama, epic fights, romance, slice of life, character backstories, it's pretty much what BNHA would have been if it was about 1-B. A lot of things in it are inaccurate to canon because it was first written before the joint training arc even came out, but that just makes things more interesting in my opinion (dude i actually wish Reiko's quirk was like this in canon)! it's actually one of the main reasons why i got so invested in 1-B in the first place, i couldn't recommend it more!!

The author of THoaH has also written many other, shorter stories about 1-B, so their entire profile is worth checking out! my personal favorite out of these fics is I Want to Break Free, a 6k word oneshot focusing on Setsuna and her family.

and now for what is probably my personal favorite:

When Die Rolls Differ - 294k words and counting, canon divergence/butterfly effect fic where class 1-B is the class who gets attacked at the USJ instead of 1-A and becomes more involved in the main conflict of the series as a result. honestly i don't even have the words to describe it, it's so good, the character interactions and backstories, and the fights, and the humor, and the way 1-B students fit into the events that originally only featured 1-A characters, and the everything!! just!! dude!! it's amazing!! and there's so much love and thought and creativity put into it!! please check it out because this fic has my whole heart <3 it's also on a break right now, so you have time to catch up

aaand that's it for today! there are probably more fics that i like, i just can't remember them rn, so i'm planning on updating this post every time i remember a nice fic or find something new!

sorry this took so long i may have procrastination issues

#bnha #class 1b #fanfic recs #tikto's textposts

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lumiereandcogsworth · 5 months

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What are your headcanons for Belle and Adam’s engagement? How and where did he propose? :)

oooh yes yes !! i talked way too much so i’m putting it under the cut to spare people the scrolling lmao

so i’ve actually posted two (2) proposal fics since i’ve been on ao3 lol. the first one was maybe 3 years ago, and THIS one is already a year and a half old ! ah! anyway i think about their engagement every now and then and i melt into a puddle. i love how i wrote the more recent one though i think it’s quite fitting.

without spoiling too much, he proposes to her on the roof of the castle. he’s SO nervous and he still doesn’t feel completely worthy of her, but he just loves her so much he can’t bare ever being apart from her in life. he wants to be hers!!

i think the topic of marriage comes up Kind of early in their courtship. and i don’t think they courted for long. my vague timeline is:

June: the events of the movie, (which, i personally think the curse made them feel like they’d been together for weeks, a month or two even. even though it was 5 days in real time, it seems pretty clear that the curse skews time heavily. but that’s a post for another day.) and the curse lifting and them beginning a “proper” courtship !!!

July: courting, getting to know each other more and more and being SO cute. i think belle kind of splits her time between the village and the castle. she definitely Prefers being at the castle but she also doesn’t want to just abandon maurice completely. at one point she joins him on a week-long trip to an art market (at maurice’s request; i think he was sensing that adam & belle were nearing a point of marriage and he wanted some alone time with her before changes started to happen 🥺) but it’s good for the two love birds to have some time apart anyway! healthy, and all that. one of my favorites of my fics this year is set when she comes back from that trip though, it’s so so sweet.

August: I think adam proposes some time early august. maybe in the second week or so. he proposes with his mother’s ring (not her engagement ring, just a ring she wore often and loved). his birthday is the 26th and they’re already engaged by then, though it’s very new! and they probably used his birthday ball as a means of announcing/celebrating the engagement as well

September: they get married september 24th!! it’s all sunny and the trees are turning orange and it’s just beautiful. they get married in paris at notre dame cathedral. and from there they have a Very Long (like two months sjdksj) honeymoon traveling around europe. it’s mostly because adam just wanted to show his adventurous girl EVERYWHERE, so he went a little crazy planning this trip. BUT also it’s their introduction tour as the new king and queen of france. (they won’t be officially coronated until january, but once they’re married it’s like yeah they’re king and queen now. basically.)

anyway i got sidetracked lmao. my POINT was that i think the topic of marriage came up kind of early on, probably even by july. not so much like “I Want To Marry You” (though they both probably Thought that) but more like. the elephant in the room: adam is a prince, and heir to the french throne. and as soon as he finds a wife, he’ll be crowned king. as has been the law looming over him since his father died. HUGE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM !!!!

and some day i would love to write this conversation, i think about it every now and then. like, i think adam worries that the pressures and role that comes along with marrying him will scare belle off. and that’s not really true, though i do think belle Does take time to consider it. like. she’s been a small town farm girl with zero prospects her entire life. now she’s supposed to be queen of france????? quite the leap!!! they discuss it best they can, though it is a nerve wracking discussion because it kind of pops their romance bubble, so to speak. they’re not just a simple couple that can have a normal life. marrying adam is marrying the crown, and wearing it yourself.

i think adam is also very careful about how he approaches it, because in his heart of hearts, he KNOWS belle would make an incredible queen. her kindness and her brilliance, her determination and fearlessness, they’re all the perfect qualities for a leader. he is entirely uncertain about himself as king, (and he struggles with the role a lot at first after the coronation) but he knows belle would be an exceptional queen. when he tells her this, she scoffs and says her background has done nothing to prepare her. she’s not even properly educated. but adam assures her that she will have access to any university she wanted, if that’s what she needs to feel prepared, as well as any instructors and tutors and advisors at her disposal. he doesn’t care about her background, he knows what she is capable of when she sets her mind to it. (and this of course makes belle tear up).

anyway, belle of course comes around to the idea of becoming queen. i think adam even apologizes at one point, wishing they COULD just get married and be a normal couple. but belle tells him she’d marry him in any world, and if this one calls them to the throne, then so be it. (i think i have a fic about that too omg !! it’s very good. set after they’re engaged).

ANYWAY WOWZA ! i sure am rambling. did i even answer your question? i do not know. but i hope you enjoyed the infodump sjdks

#WOW I SAID SO MANY THINGS !#thank you for the ask i am sorry djdkdjd #truly thank you :’)#adelle #batb 2017 #batb headcanons

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kitty8804 · 1 year

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What If the Danganronpa V3 Characters Were Given Digimon? Part 4

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

Kaito Momota

Finally another digimon x Danganronpa post after almost a month! It’s Kaito’s turn! I was originally going to do Shuichi but his digimon line has been more difficult than I thought (Kyoko does not help). While trying to figure out his I found digimon that made ENTIRE DIGIVOLUTION LINES for multiple characters!! To add to my suffering none of them are from V3 🥲. I needed a break so I decided to work on a character that would be easier. Honestly Kaito’s digimon went through a lot of changes during my process, but I think this is a very fun line, and surprisingly easy. It think this is the fastest I have ever made a line.

Rookie: Rocketmon

Yes everyone I used the forbidden form. I used an Appmon. I don’t care what anyone says I consider Appmon to be Digimon and anyone who disagrees can fight me! This is far from the last time I will use an Appmon, so put away those pitchforks! I found out about Rocketmon while looking for digimon for Shuichi and in a desperate attempt I went to look up Appmon. As soon as I saw this guy I knew I needed it to be Kaito’s partner. I was originally going to use Lunamon and then the rest of her line due to its relations with the moon and I thought giving Kaito a feminine digimon would be a nice change of pace. While I still think that would be an amazing fit for Kaito I think Rocketmon is the better choice. What better digimon for the Ultimate Astronaut than a literal rocket?! It also serves as a great reference to Kaito’s execution since he was thrown into a rocket. I did briefly consider Gammamon because all of its forms relate to constellations and the stars, but I like to include as many different references about a character as I can. If I can hint at a character’s death or execution I will, as morbid as that is. That aspect is lost with Gammamon.

Champion: Starmon

I’m so proud of this pick. This digimon just screams Kaito. Kaito literally calls himself Luminary of the Stars and Starmon is well a star. Lore-wise it is said to be discovered in a planet analysis software of a space development center, and is described to be a space warrior! I also thought that out of all of the options that I had listed for Kaito, Starmon served as the best transition from Rocketmon and the Ultimate that I chose to use for this line. The metal armor kinda creates a connection to a machine like digimon like Rocketmon. But I also think Starmon fits Kaito’s personality well. It’s a justice seeking digimon that has good intentions, but it is also hot-blooded and tends to think with its fist before its head. Now that sounds a lot like Kaito to me. Honestly these two would probably get into so much crap together because they would just try to save the day without thinking.

It’s alternate digivolution time! So I went back and forth on what digimon to use for a while. In the end I decided to go with Kausgammamon.

So part of the obvious reason as to why I decided to use this digimon was because the entire Gammamon line has a strong relation to constellations and the stars, which obviously relate to space. But this is another digimon that I see as a goofy pal that Kaito would have a fun time with. I also thought it would be fitting for the Ultimate Astronaut to at least have an alternate digivolution that could fly and also carry him. Kausgammamon also serves as a refrence to Kaito’s love suite event. For anyone who doesn’t know, in his fantasy he is an airplane pilot who wishes to defeat his sworn rival before going to space, but he has developed romantic feelings for them. Kausgammamon kinda resembles a plane, at least to me it does. It’s just a fun reference that I haven’t been able to make yet.

But I still have one more digimon for Kaito in the Champion stage, and it’s his dark digivolution. Now despite how optimistic Kaito is it’s almost to a toxic level in V3. He truly wants to believe in everyone but then he ignores the very obvious evidence that proves his classmates guilty. In some sort of anime or fanfic I think Kaito would put his trust into the wrong digimon and that digimon would end up betraying him and try to kill him. Obviously his digimon partner will be with him during that encounter. Either the hurt of the betrayal causes Kaito to get super pissed or Rocketmon gets super pissed at Kaito for trusting a random digimon that was probably very sketchy. But either way those negative emotions would cause Kaito’s partner to dark digivolve into GulusGammamon.

First of all can I just say how much I love this digimon and his design! Given the scenario I just explained I think it would be fitting for Kaito’s partner to turn into a digimon that just wants to fight and kill everyone and everything. If it can’t trust it’s friends then everyone is it’s enemy. Also I get to keep the star theme, which is awesome! But yeah, Kaito is going to need to have a lot of therapy with his partner in order to fix things.

Ultimate: Crescemon

I was bound and determined to have that Lunamon refrence dang it! Obviously Crescemon is tied into the moon which would most likely be where Kaito would have gone if he had to opportunity to finish his training as the Ultimate Astronaut and then go to space. But he died instead. Crescemon is also the best transition I could think of from Starmon due to its pieces of metal armor. Starmon also digivolves into Crescemon in Digimon Cyber Sleuth Complete Edition, so this works! Crescemon is also a protector in nature, which I definitely think fits Kaito. He was always determined to help his friends in V3, especially Maki. This man even killed Kokichi so that Maki would not be the blackened. This man is a protector so Crescemon fits him perfectly. I did think about using Superstarmon but I really did not want to use it and Starmon in the same line. It’s literally just a yellow Starmon with sunglasses. One of the things I like about doing this is that I like forcing myself to be creative and using Superstarmon just felt too easy and plain. Besides Crescemon gives me a different type of space reference. I also did think about using Canoweissmon as an alternate form, but once again I like using multiple references and I would’ve lost the love suite reference since I only want everyone to have one alternate form that isn’t a dark digivolution. Also I wanted to look at more aspects about space than just stars. Kaito’s picture literally has the moon behind him!

Mega: Siriusmon

Okay maybe my choices are not as creative as I thought since this is the third member of the Gammamon line that I have used. I think I already explained most of the reasons why I would use this digimon. I did consider using Dianamon, but I just felt like Siriusmon suited Kaito more. It’s also still serves as a decent transition from Crescemon. But man I can not get over how cool the gun and sword and gun combo is on this digimon. Definitely one of my favorites.

And that’s it for Kaito everyone. I’m honestly really proud of this line overall, even if it isn’t the most creative. Hopefully this change of pace will allow me to actually finish Shuichi this time. Hopefully I won’t take a month this time, but I’m a busy college student so we will see. I love you all! Bye!

#random #funny #fanfic #alternate universe #crossover #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #danganronpa v3 killing harmony #digimon #digimon au #kaito momota #danganronpa kaito #spoilers #appmon #digimon ghost game #digimon adventure #prompt post

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weizhiyuan · 1 year

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8 Shows To Get To Know Me

Thank u for tagging me @jyuubin!!

Invader zim

I was a big nick/cartoon network kid & invader zim is just such a classic. I would watch the shit out of it, I’ve bought the whole series, the whole deal. When I was little I based my identity off of gir and when I was rewatching not too long ago I realized I still have so many lines memorized… it’s so silly and stupid and smart and gross I love it

My babysitter’s a vampire

Since this is a get to know me tag we’re like going through time with these series. This is another one I have lines memorized from! If I were to say which character I am it would be Rory and that is Important to know. A bunch of my friends love it too and we’ve rewatched it together it’s so fun whenever we do <3 another classic if u ask me

Merlin

If u asked me in like 2015-2017ish what my fav show is I probably would’ve said Merlin. And it stayed up there as a fav show for a WHILE. I’ve never been able to rewatch it bc of like. The Pain the finale caused me but I was obsessed with it when I did watch it. I had some huge multiship mindset going when I watched it and was shipping basically everyone together which I don’t think I’ve done for any other show… I watched tf out of the bts for it too. Like I was kinda in deep…

Skam/druck/skam austin

Is it cheating if I put a show and my two fav remakes LMAO… I’m a big skam girlie. We should all know this. I made this acc when druck was airing as a skam + remakes blog. I had a skam austin username for the longest time (rip gracefulnosplinters). The og is such a classic and gave me some of my fav pan rep (so did druck)! I was so so so obsessed and in my heart I still am. I’ll defend skam austin to the ends of the earth. I met some of the druck cast members (heyyy Lukas). I lived and breathed those clip drops in real time like they were AIR. I completed the Norwegian duolingo course and my streak is still going. But really which skam viewer has ever been not entirely invested in the series. I’ll stop now cuz I could talk Forever about it all…

The untamed

Oh god. If you knew me when I first watched cql I’m genuinely so sorry… I would NOT shut up. It was every other word out of my mouth. I related every goddamn thing I saw to the show. It consumed me for MONTHS. As in I literally couldn’t watch anything else until a few months later after binging all sorts of bts, adaptations, and reading parts of the novel (funny thing is I still haven’t seen all adaptations/everything lmao). I always say it’s a good thing I couldn’t legally drive people when I was in this phase cuz I ONLY listened to/played the fucking character osts in the car for months like I knowww my mom was sick of it (she’s the only one who had to deal with me in the car lmfao). It was also the first time I ever actually made a sideblog for anything. I found the show at a very fitting time in my life too. Probably one of the hardest times ever but some of the themes in the series stuck with me in ways that felt so personal. A lot of love here

Kinnporsche

Another one I was super invested in at the time. Would not shut tf up about vegaspete. Very annoying about. Rewatched tf out of it. You know the drill. The few months I spent watching it was so eventful

HIStory2: crossing the line

Okay I think I’m really just in a HIStory mood lately but this fucking show. THESE TWO. YU HAO AND ZI XUAN. WHAT THE FUCK. The best way I can explain this is in a way no one else can understand: it appeals to a younger part of me in a very specific way. Like it’s scary. The chemistry is insane like going back to it after about a year still made me feel the exact same crazy way. One of the greatest losses caused by covid was the sequel that got cancelled 💔

Bad buddy

We all saw this coming. Gotta end with a bang. My favorite ql of all time. Insane to experience live and such a perfectly crafted show (thx p’aof). Layers upon layers of depth to write about (which like tbh every bad buddy fan basically has, me included). Just so much to love. Speaking of love: milklove origins too!!! We get it all from one silly little series. I remember exactly where I was so vividly when I experienced so many iconic scenes. It’s legendary!

I’m gonna tag @dumpsterslugz (I can tag you in things like this now >:D) @pondphuwin @heart-ming @markpakin & anyone else who wants 2 do this !!

#sorry this took a bit to do I was at school fjhsjf #tysm for tagging me again!!!#also one show almost made the cut and I went back and forth deleting and adding it but eventually just… No #tag game #b.txt

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katasstrophy · 1 year

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Have funnnnn!! If you could bring a date, who would you it be??? or who suits your fit the best??

mentions of alcohol consumption. suggestive themes. low key narcissistic behavior lmao. bad dancing. river got carried away and it turned into rambling what’s new. choo choo all aboard the self indulgence train!!!

omg nonnie i had the most fun EVER (maybe even.. a little too much fun ehuhehu ��🥴 my lipstick was gone by the end of the night and i was violently hungover today but you know what I’D DO IT AGAINNNNN LOL pls stop me)

awe!!!! 🥹🥹🥹 i’m in love with you for asking this truly bc we stan being self-indulgent on this blog!!!! okay imma break it down for y’all 😎😎

if we’re talking from a purely aesthetic standpoint (yep TOTALLY just that. nothing else whatsoever swayed my decision on this matter teehee) my date for my uni ball would have to be one one of the itoshis and here’s why!!!!!! i put thought into this okay. my ball fit was this fantastic, obnoxiously green colored two piece suit that you bet ur ass i pulled off SPECTACULARLY yes i’m gonna be shamelessly hyping myself bc im very sexc. since the suit jacket had a pluuuuunging neckline, i just paired it with a skimpy neon green bralette underneath ( scandalous ) and some sleek, black leather platform boots that i somehow managed to dance in the entire night i was very impressed with myself actually 😎 but see this is perfect bc rin has green hair!!!!! (lmfao someone put me down right now) i feel like it would work. we would deffo match in a low key, subtle way. but honestly i’d hate to put my poor baby through that i just know rinnie’s antisocial ass would abhor the entire evening </333 he’d just stay back on his phone at the dinner table and do an occasional death glare when i’d point him out to people trying to come onto me on the dance floor what a babe. sae on the other hand 👀👀 bestie i am already SWEATING he picked up a few things from being dragged clubbing by his teammates in spain okay man knows how to dance and i will die on this hill. aesthetic-wise, we’d also be matching in a more subtle way, mostly our hair (since i dyed it red a couple months ago, even tho he’s canonically more.. mauve, but if you squint it works alright) plus i also went extra with my makeup and did a bunch of fancy stuff on my face with red eyeliner hehe <3 but sae would be a fantastic dance partner he’d get a little carefree and indulge in twirling me around, going down low (letting me grind my ass on his crotch PLSSSS i will pass out)

if we’re talking dates who would just be an absolute blast to go with i mean come on who could top shidou mf ryusei he’s so insane exactly what you need to spice up your night. i’d be like “hmm this wine isn’t really as bottomless as they promised should i get a tequila shot from the bar?” and he’d just grin like the bastard he is and say “only one? coward get three” he is actually the worst but drunk shenanigans with him yes pls absolutely. there’s like a 90% chance the staff would kick us out bc they found us basically on the verge of fucking in the bathroom but asskdhbebekd he’s a horndog it was to be expected. i feel like it would also be so hilarious to bring reo to one of these university balls bc yeah it’s still like— a formal event and stuff but absolutely nowhere near close to the posh charity balls he’s used to from his upbringing. you bring him as your date and he’s like “wait wdym you don’t have to do any networking???” he’d be so floored i’m crying. he’s a Pretty Intense Guy with An Image To Uphold so he’s never really had a chance to.. let loose and have fun like this? you’d kinda have to take initiative but he’d be so into it after a while (with the help of a little alcohol lol). he’d be like “this chicken is so fucking under seasoned” and you’d just nod your head “yeah babe it’s a university ball the budget is like 20 dollars what did you except” and he’d just go “amazing” and eat the whole thing he’s so precious i’m in love with him. the best worse dancer you’ve ever seen too but he’d be so giggly about it so it’s forgiven sigh what a king 🥹🥹🥹🥹

#—ping! new message from (anon)#nonnie you’re actually so sweet for asking this i’m giving you a big fat kiss MWAH #also shoutout to my actual friend date who had to put up with me the entire night lmao we had fun #idk how to tag this?? maybe i’ll just. let it float into the abyss

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y'know, i'm kind of curious as to your thoughts on the outfits in those pieces of promo art that dropped. unsurprisingly i honed in on bsb and... the fashion choices are. interesting to put it lightly. like:

takao and rei: they look awful i'm sorry. out of the four of them whoever decided they were going with a plaid look is insane.

max: he looks okayish? it's not a max vibe but it looks better than it does on takao and ESPECIALLY rei

kai: the best looking out of the main four, mostly because you can barely see the plaid. also he shook things up a bit seemingly as opposed to literally just wearing a tuxedo.

daichi: he looks awful but also to be fair like. daichi is not a formal wear kind of person literally nothing you could give him would fit

yuriy: it looks fine in the art but like. in practice imagine going to some fancy party and some dude shows up wearing a bright orange suit. dude literally out here with this team flare grunt lookin outfit 😭

mathilda: she looks Fine. no strong feelings either way

brooklyn and kyojyu: lumping them together because my thoughts are basically the same, they're wearing their usual attire but it does look good so it could be worse

michael: no comment needed. ???/10. i don't know if i love it or hate it. who even invited him here he's like barely there in g-rev

overall the bsb one alone is the outfit collection ever and seeing as how you rated the fashion of characters from every series i'm curious as to how you feel on the art for all 3 series

Takao and Rei: I agree entirely. It really doesn't work for them

Max: Unlike Takao and Rei, I can actually see Max wearing a tuxedo

Kai: Kai has always had immaculate drip so it's no surprise he looks great

Daichi: He should've just worn his G-Rev outfit

Yuriy: Bro got the traffic cone tuxedo. 10/10

Kyojyu and Brooklyn: I have the same opinion as do on their canon outfits. Kyojyu looks good (though not as good as in G-Rev) and Brooklyn looks great

Mathilda: She's alright but doesn't stand out much

Michael: 11/10 he makes me a proud American (despite not being American in the first place). I think every US president should wear that to their inauguration

Kyoya: I can't believe he's not wearing a crop top. I refuse to believe this

Yu: His top half is the same but his shorts are different and it really doesn't match

Tsubasa: I don't have much to say here. He dresses like I'd expect him to at a formal event

Gingka: He looks the best out of the mfb cast. The suit's colors really match his canon outfit

Masamune: The only way I can see him wearing that is after Chao-Xin called him out for not looking presentable enough for the world championships. As for the look itself, maybe if it had the same pattern as Gingka it'd look better

Benkei: They couldn't even give him a suit that matches his red and black jacket. Sad

Kenta: I'd have preferred a modified version of his Metal Fury design, but this still works

Madoka: Something feels off but I can't put my finger on what

Hikaru: Looks great and I want that dress for myself

Ryuga: He'd look great if it weren't for the fact that Ryuga would never wear that. This man has spent months presumably wearing the same shirt every day and I can't see him ever putting on a tie

Free: Looks great except for the suspenders

Valt: Drippy af

Shu: I can't see much since part of his fit is hidden, but from what I can see, he's drippy af

Lui: I want that jacket really bad. I have no use for it since where I live we rarely go lower than 30 Celsius but still

Bell: That's practically his canon outfit. like capes

Ranzo: Kiyamas are always great looking. Their genetics make it impossible to not have some of the best drip in all of Burst

Rashad: Bro got the Ryuga cape. He should've had his spiked shoulder pad though

Basara: Simultaneously a 2/10 and a 10/10. I don't know why

Ilya: It's a pretty simple dress, and while it works, it could benefit from a fire design on it to match her bey

Payne: I cannot see Payne ever wearing anything other than his canon outfit. Like Ryuga, his very presence here is out of character

#beyblade #mfb #beyburst #beyblade burst

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How to Master a Champion Ch. 4

Lewis Hamilton x Original Female Character

Summary: Coming out of the 2021 season Lewis Hamilton has lost all faith in Formula 1 and its rules. He needs a reset, something or someone to make him trust again. Andy Masters has something to prove. She moved halfway around the world for a man only for it to fall apart within months. When an opportunity presents itself to get her life back on track, she takes it without question. But the job is nothing like imagined.

Warnings: No warnings for this chapter but if you find anything, please let me know.

Author Note: This is also on AO3 but I figured I would put it here too. Thank you to all of you who read, you make my day x

Ch. 1 Ch. 2 Ch. 3

“Mom, I swear to god I’m not being dramatic. When he walked past me, he literally hit my shoulder and then got in my face about me only using him for clout,” Andy was pacing around her hotel room with her mother on the phone. Luckily, the only person who would worry about where she was during the work day, would rather not see her face ever again so she was able to grab her laptop and work from home for the rest of the day. If you could call a room with sealed windows a home. “I have never been spoken to like that in a professional setting.”

“Well you are rather young, honey,” Andy’s mother Martha commented, “There is plenty of time in your life to be yelled at like that again or worse.”

Andy rolled her eyes, “Thanks for that, Mom.”

“I just can’t understand how he would react like that without any provocation,” the doubt was clear in her mother’s voice. “Did you say anything to him before that? Tell me exactly what happened.”

A large sigh exited Andy’s body before she recounted the events in as much detail as she could, starting from the conversation with Angela. After she finished, there was silence from the other end, “Mom? Are you still there?”

“Yes, honey. I’m here,” Andy had known her mother long enough that she had something to say that Andy was not going to like. “It’s just that,” Her mother stopped.

“Please just say it mom, I feel like I’m in the twilight zone.”

On the other end of the line, Martha Master’s heart was breaking for her daughter. No one knew better than her how much Andy has suffered the past year. All she wanted was for her first born to find some happiness, but she was not about to lie to protect her feelings. “I don’t want you to think I’m condoning the way this man is behaving. He’s being childish and using the fact that he is larger than you to intimidate you is honestly enough for me to want you to get on a plane back home so I can make your favorite meal and protect you from everyone,” Andy relaxed immediately at the mere thought of being home with her parents and two siblings, sitting on the back porch swapping jokes and stories while having a barbecue. Her heart began to ache. “But I know you, Andrea,” her mother continued, “and you will fight tooth and nail, exhausting all other resources ‘til there isn’t anything left. So I’m going to tell it to you straight. You need to swallow your pride and start thinking about this man’s feelings.”

Andy could have fit an entire apple in her mouth, the way her jaw was hanging down to the floor. That was not what she had expected from her mother. “Did you just tell me to think about his feelings? A man who has done nothing but disregard human decency since I met him?” Flabbergasted only began to describe how she was feeling.

“Well you don’t fight fire with fire, Andrea May,” Martha only used that name when she wanted to make a point to Andrea. “May” was not even her middle name, but Martha liked the way it sounded when she was trying to make a point, “Clearly, trying to ignore the fact that he is in a bad spot is not going to work for you. Creating relationships has always come easily to you. You’re good at anticipating what people need and doing just that, but when you can’t read someone you tend to write them off as a lost cause and move on.”

“Ouch,” said Andy, plopping down on the end of her bed.

“I’m not trying to hurt your feelings, baby, but you’ve still got learning to do,” Martha paused, trying to come up with the best way to speak to her daughter, “You said that Lewis really flipped a switch when you made the comment about the way he is handling his career, right?”

Andy nodded to no one, “Yeah.”

“Okay. Then what was his response?” Martha was suddenly taken back to when Andy was in grade school and she had a recurring problem with a little girl who kept pushing her on the playground. Oh how some things never change , she thought.

“He said,” Andy pinched the bridge of her nose trying to remember his wording, “that I don’t care about him or his goals or his privacy and that I’m just like everyone else, only looking out for myself. Asshole.”

“Name calling will get you nowhere, Andrea May,” Martha chided. The dinner she was making was long abandoned in place of a bottle of red wine. “Now I know that you feel hurt by this man, but try to empathize with him. What can you learn from his response to you?”

Andy laid back onto the bed, suddenly very exhausted, “Mom I really don’t want to do this.”

“Then suffer for the next 3 weeks and move home. I’ve turned your room into a craft room, closet, and yoga studio but I’m sure we can squeeze you in.” Martha took a big sip of her wine, knowing full well her daughter was not going to accept the offer.

“Okay, okay fine.” Andy put the phone on speaker and turned over on her side, “Well everyone has said that he’s lost trust in Formula One-”

“Don’t think about what other people have said,” Martha interrupted, “Think about what he’s said and how he’s acted.”

Andy looked up to the ceiling in silent yearning for whoever was up there to end her suffering. She wanted to respond that what he’s said and how he’s acted has only proved that he’s a dick, but that would not appease her mother. “Well he’s clearly feeling hurt by the system. I imagine that after being the poster boy of F1 for almost a decade and then having it seemingly crumble in an instant would be pretty difficult to deal with.”

It made Andy uncomfortable to try to put herself in his shoes. He was a millionaire, seven-time world champion, how bad could his life be? “He kept saying that I don’t care about anything he considers important, maybe he’s feeling more like an asset than a person. He’s been at Mercedes for nearly ten years. I imagine that he’s formed a pretty close relationship with the people around him but he’s acting like he’s going through everything alone.”

“It can be pretty lonely at the top,” Martha added.

Andy hummed in agreement, “When you’re that talented, I bet it can feel like everyone is trying to take down because they are. Even his teammate is waiting for him to slip up so they can take some glory. Although the office has seemed pretty supportive, they all treat him like he’s a bit of a mythical creature, except for Angela, his trainer. Even Toto, though I know he cares quite a bit, needs him to perform at the top of his game at all times to make money for the company.”

“And those brand partners you were talking to,” Martha said, steering the conversation to the conclusion she hoped for, “they really just want him for his influence.”

“That is so true,” Andy agreed, “They were all very polite but there was an unmistakable undercurrent that if he doesn’t get his shit together, they are going to pull their sponsorships. I tried to explain it to him in a way that didn’t put the blame solely on him, but he shut me down right away.”

Martha leaned forward in her chair slightly, “why do you think that was his first reaction?”

“Because he hates me,” Andy could practically hear her mother rolling her eyes, “Joking. I mean, he’s not an idiot. He must know that his sponsorships are in jeopardy. But I wonder if they would be so harsh if he was still the reigning world champion.”

Martha almost leapt out of her seat, her daughter was getting so close, “So when you told him that they were getting a little shift…”

“His fears were confirmed. As they always say, you’re only as good as your last race. Which is honestly such a toxic way to live your life. So here I come, a new person who no matter how you slice it, is looking to make moves in her career, and start telling him he needs to adhere to a system that has burned him. And now I’ve put Mercedes and his sponsor’s priorities over his and I’m just another person who will leave if he doesn’t perform the way they want him to.” Andy inhaled deeply, needing air after saying everything in one breath.

“Elementary Watson,” Mrs. Mathers replied in her worst English accent. All joking aside, she was immensely proud of her daughter for putting herself in Lewis’s shoes. In spite of the fact she had to use the same tactics from when Andy was ten.

Andy’s mind refused to calm so that she could finish her conversation with her mom. “I owe you way more of a thank you than this, but I’ve got a lot of work to do. I love and miss you so much. I think you may have just saved my life.”

“That’s what moms are for. Love you too, Honey, so very much.” After one last goodbye, the line went dead and Martha was left in the kitchen alone, half a bottle of wine deep and no dinner in sight. “Hey honey!” Martha called up to her husband, “How about we order in?”

…

All Lewis wanted to do after work was lay on the couch with his English Bulldog Roscoe and put something mindless on the tv. He did precisely that. The moment he walked through the door, Roscoe bounded up to him as if he thought Lewis would never return. “Hey buddy,” he crouched down to the dog’s level, “I missed you too.”

Rather than continue on to the rest of the house, he sank all the way to a sitting position, pulling his best friend onto his lap.

“I wish I could have stayed with you today,” he told Roscoe as he rubbed his ears, “I feel like there are less and less people I can trust. That new PA I told you about? She practically confirmed everything I thought about her. All she cares about is pushing her career forward. If Toto really wanted to make sure I was ‘getting everything I need’, he should let me have an office just for you.”

Roscoe looked up at his owner with bright eyes and mouth open to where it almost looked as if he was smiling. For the first time that day, Lewis genuinely smiled back. “You’re not going to leave me even if I lose, will you Roscoe Taco?” Lewis gently turned the canine’s head back and forth as if he was shaking his head ‘no.’ “That’s a good boy.”

…

Into the second week of her time at Mercedes, Andy had done her best to give Lewis the space he clearly wanted. Admittedly, it was difficult to do her job with little communication, but it was better than getting into a fight. She was starting to learn his routine and how to speak to the people he dealt with on a regular basis, like his dog walker and chef.

Neither one of them brought up the subject of sponsorships. Lewis felt it was a moot point and Andy had been working on something she hoped would give him some peace of mind. Any dream of them being the best of friends was pretty much dashed after the confrontation outside the simulation room, but she still wanted to make his life a little bit easier.

Her time at Mercedes had not been all bad. She normally ate lunch with Marilynn where they were able to catch up about their days - it was mostly Marilynn doing the talking. She had also formed a habit of getting to work at the same time as George everyday. Rather than bringing Lewis coffee, she started bringing one to George. If either one got there first, they would wait in the lobby for the other.

It was nice to talk with someone close to her age. Of all the people she had gotten farther than a quick hello in the hallway, George was the closest to her followed only by Lewis and well… they barely even said hello at all. They did not spend much time together, normally the first fifteen to twenty minutes of their workday but they liked comparing their childhoods and countries, discussing what it was like to know what you wanted to do so early versus jumping from opportunities to see where you land.

“So you moved to the UK with zero prospects of a job after landing an amazing position right out of Uni working for a millionaire,” George made no attempt to hide his surprise as the two rode in the elevator.

“Well if you put it like that I sound like an idiot,” Andy said with a laugh, pushing her auburn hair out of her face, already regretting wearing it down.

“But,” she said elongating the vowel, “if I were to tell you that I took a leap of faith moving to England for a shot at love and ended up at an even better performing company working for a seven-time F1 World Champion, it sounds like a triumph Or a bad romantic comedy.”

The both took a sip of their coffees while they stepped out of the elevator. George shook his head, much more of a realist, “But you would be leaving out the cheating boyfriend and boss from hell.”

“Your words, not mine,” Andy stated, distancing herself from any listeners that might try to use ‘boss from hell’ against her.

They rounded the corner, coming to a stop at her desk. Many people were still working from home so they were the only ones around. “How are things going with Sir Lewis Hamilton, anyways?” He tried to make it sound as casual as possible, but everyone knew that the driver was more than unhappy with her employment.

“Obviously they’re a work in progress,” she began to unpack her briefcase, given to her by Mr. Raison as a graduation gift, “But if the meeting I have today with the reps from his sponsors, I think it could really jumpstart our relationship or at least I’m hoping it will take it in a positive direction.” “Already shopping for rings, are we?” George raised his eyebrow and took a cheeky sip of his drink.

Andy choked on the hot liquid of her own beverage, the thought literally almost causing her death.

“There is not a world or universe where that would ever happen, nor would I want it to,” She did a quick scan of her clothing to make sure they remained unsullied.

“I hope you’re not talking about Mercedes bringing home the Constructors Championship,” Andy was grateful to have set her coffee down before Toto Wolff’s entrance made her jump.

George saved her from having to come up with a witty comment so early in the morning, “Actually sir, she was just confiding in me that she is a spy sent from Redbull to bring down our entire operation. I don’t think there is much to be worried about, considering her confession proves she’s terrible at corporate espionage.” While Toto was turned away, she stuck out her tongue at her new friend.

“Well, Christian will be quite discouraged to learn this, but the thought of foiling any plan or his, fictional or otherwise, brings me immense joy,” Toto grinned with schadenfreude.

“All in a day's work, sir,” Andy quipped.

“Well don’t let me distract you from your work,” their boss threw a pointed look George’s way, “we have an important meeting with the engineers today I expect you to be prepared for.”

George’s entire demeanor changed from teasing to professional, “Of course sir.” Everyday once one of them had an obligation to attend to, George would go into a mode that Andy has already aptly dubbed ‘Work George.” Suddenly he would no longer be a young twenty-something having a chat with a mate, but rather an experienced professional athlete ready to report for duty. Andy admired his ability to compartmentalize.

Both men quickly excused themselves and went off to begin their days, leaving Andy to mentally prepare for a meeting with every representative from the companies sponsoring Lewis. Her pace quickened with nervous doubts about what she was about to do, but she knew that if she was going to actually make a difference in Lewis’s life, she had to be bold. She found herself wishing for ‘Fun George’ the twin brother of ‘Work George’ to come back and distract her turbulent mind, but there was nothing to be done. Before she knew it, she was in a video meeting with seven far more experienced individuals defending the independence and value of a man that wanted nothing to do with her.

“What do you mean he will not be doing the social media posts? It is clearly defined in his contract that they are non-negotiable,” Adolfo from Puma protested. There were murmurs of agreement from the rest of the virtual room, to which she ignored.

“Actually, per the fine print of each contract, ceasing of social media posts are allowed if deemed necessary for reasons defined as insurmountable. Right now, for Mr. Hamilton’s mental wellbeing, he is taking a break from all media. For years, he has done everything he can to make sure that each one of your companies is happy. Now, we would like to ask for the same courtesy. And before anyone would like to bring up the subject of the World Championship controversy, Mr. Hamilton’s social media counts actually spiked in followers since his hiatus,” Andy shared the evidence with the group in presentation form.

“The longer that he stays off of social media, the more people want a glimpse at what is happening behind the curtain. I am proposing that rather than take a picture or video and post it right away, he begins to document his use of your products whether it is on a run with Bose headphones or a dinner wearing head to toe Tommy, when he is ready to let the world in again, he will have a digital journal of his time away from the limelight. A story of his comeback to Formula One that everyone will be dying to see.”

Andy held her breath, hoping that she had not just completely made a fool of herself in front of people she may be working with for months, even years to come. There was silence for only a few seconds, but it felt like hours, waiting for someone to reply. It was the executive from Monster Energy that spoke first, “We love our partners to use us in a story telling manner, making our drinks seem like a vehicle to memorable moments. If your team can create a compelling narrative within his hiatus, we would be willing to forgo the social media requirements until he is ready.”

One by one, the reps gave their consent to Andy’s pitch, promising to have a new clause written into each contract. After thanking the participants for their time, Andy signed off from the meeting and collapsed further into her chair. Somehow her hair-brained scheme had worked and Lewis was free to keep his life private for the time being. She was even able to avoid a specific end-date being proposed by any of the companies, meaning that he could truly take the time he needed to heal away from any unnecessary opinions and scrutiny. Andy checked her phone for the time, noting that it was just past 10:30am which meant the he was finished with his first round of training and had another half an hour before a meeting with the other board members of The Hamilton Commission, a foundation he helped create to promote better representation of Black people in UK motorsport.

Maybe he would be in a better mood before this meeting, Andy thought. She quickly logged off of her devices and almost jogged to his favorite room to hide in. However, right before she got to the door, a cold feeling crawled up the back of her neck when it occurred to her that she did not consult him on any of this.

Andy wanted it to be a surprise to show that she could anticipate his needs before he had to say anything, but now she had a horrible feeling that she never should have contacted every single company that sponsored him for a change of contract without his consent. Then again, if she had to ask his explicit permission for everything she did, she would not get anything done.

But is that enough of an excuse to have not even asked him for his thoughts? Andy decided to make a quick detour to the bathroom before delivering the news.

…

“You seem to be in a better mood today,” Angela told Lewis as he pulled on a Mercedes polo over his newly showered upper body after finishing a particularly hellish cardio circuit. She thought he would at least have the decency to look like it was an effort for him, but Angela was right, Lewis was in a better mood.

“Angela, love, today is a beautiful day,” He took a small towel and patted the braid on his head to rid himself of any excess moisture.

“Dare I ask why, darling?” she replied mocking his British accent. She was ecstatic to see him without a dark cloud looming over his head, but the sudden change set her nerves on edge.

“Because I have come up with a solution to my problem,” He beamed with self-satisfaction.

“Oh? And pray-tell what is that?”

“Unfortunately I’m not at liberty to discuss it just yet, but trust me when I say it will take care of that little issue for good,” his smile slowly morphed into something much more sinister.

Angela was beginning to truly worry about the man that had become her best friend. If he was not acting as if the world was going to end, he was brooding like a sullen teenager, and now he looked like a villain whose plan was set into motion.

“Lewis,” She started carefully, “I know that this time has been incredibly difficult for you, but please just think about whatever you are going to do. I don’t want you to do something that you’ll later regret.”

“I don’t have to think about doing anything, it’s already done,” he loaded the last of his things into his bag before zipping it and hoisting it over one shoulder.

“I just hope whatever it is you’ve done, you’ve thought it through,” Angela watched him with wary eyes as he crossed the room to the exit.

“Don’t worry, Angie,” He stopped and turned just before the doorway, “this is the start of me taking my life back into my own hands.”

Lewis gave her one last reassuring smile before leaving her to relax before his meeting with The Hamilton Commission. Angela was far from reassured and the pit in her stomach was not going away any time soon.

…

Andy set her folder and iPad on the bathroom counter before turning on the sink and splashing her face with water. She knew that he could not actually do anything terrible to her, but after the confrontation in the hallway, she was more than apprehensive to have a conversation of any kind with him. The only thing that she’d seem to do right was making coffee and Lewis was completely unaware that she was the one sneaking into the break room to brew a new pot in the middle of the day when he liked to have a second cup.

Andy felt the need to keep it a secret, afraid that if he knew that she was the one with magic coffee skills he would no longer drink it. It was her one daily win that she was not about to jeopardize.

She looked at herself in the mirror, hands braced on the skin. Her green eyes looked almost manic and her skin was paler than normal. It frustrated her how much she cared about what Lewis thought of her. She was unable to detach herself from the day after she left. He’d even chased her around a race track in his Formula One vehicle in her dreams, getting closer and closer to her with each lap.

Her mother’s words rang through her mind. He is just a man who puts his pants on one leg at a time. She inhaled an unsteady breath. Lewis Hamilton will not break you.

With a new sense of shaky confidence, Andy pushed herself off the counter and scooped up her things. She was ready for whatever he had to throw at her. Regardless of what he thought, she was proud of herself.

She pulled the door open and started to walk down the hall when the iPad lit up with a notification that she’d received an email. She would have ignored it had the subject not read “URGENT READ THIS NOW.”

Andy stopped in her tracks and opened the message sent to her by Marilynn. She was about to begin reading when her phone vibrated in her pocket. She reached into her pocket to find that Marilynn was now calling. Oh shit.

“Hello? Lynn?” her voice was clearly nervous.

“Andy, where are you?” her voice was at a lower volume than usual and she sounded worried.

“I’m about to go talk to Lewis-”

“No!” Andy jumped at Marilynn’s outburst, “Meet me at the balcony on the top floor.”

Andy’s eyes jerked to the window lined walls, “But it’s pouring.”

“Exactly, we’ll be alone. Come right now,” Andy had never heard her friend so worried, “And read that email.”

Her phone beeped to signally Marilynn had ended the call. Andy’s hand shook as she slid the phone back into her pocket. She headed straight for the elevator, almost jogging. The email was still open on the tablet but she was too afraid to look down. Whatever was in the contents of that email scared Marilynn to her core.

Andy entered the elevator and punched the button to the top floor. She could hear her heart beat in her ears as she forced her eyes to scan the document. What she read made her heart stop. Masters, Andrea arrested on an assault charge.

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My Top Posts in 2022:

Finally feeling like I’m coming up for air after a, frankly, traumatic couple of months. Bought a house at the end of October (YIKES!!!) and then had to spend the settlement period stressing that we would regret it and that the house would be horrible and that none of our stuff would fit in it. Struggled to source a bunch of tradies to do some essential pre-moving in work (painting, floors, electrical) and then when we did book some in, worried that they would all get c*vid right before they had to start work and it would throw out our insanely packed schedule. Spent all of January worrying that *we* might get c*vid and had to basically do a risk assessment before making any sort of social plans. Had to deal with the World’s Worst Property Manager™ when moving out of our rental and trying to work around open for inspections and the prospect of not getting our bond back for whatever stupid fucking reasons property managers make up and also some real reasons (didn’t get the carpets steam cleaned!! left a broken key in a lock in the back door!!!). Decided to get a removalist to do the big stuff and do the small stuff ourselves in the middle of the shittiest humid heatwave Melbourne had had in decades. The bank took the money out of my account twice at settlement leaving me with -$50k and didn’t even really think it was a big deal?!? The cleaner that we booked through Airtasker to clean the house before we moved in did the worst job I’ve ever seen and we had to re-clean the entire house and we only paid her because we needed her to leave the house and never see her again. Spent SO MUCH MONEY in general I don’t know if my inner anti-capitalist will ever recover. Also had to change jobs in the middle of all of this against my will - my old role was a 12 month contract but I loved it and my team so much and didn’t want to leave and start something new.

On the plus side, the internet got connected without a single hassle (WHAT). We bought a dishwasher and it somehow fit the random space in the kitchen cabinetry perfectly. Actually, *all* of our stuff fit perfectly, even the messy awful things like CDs and DVDs are now neatly tucked away. The backyard has an original Hills Hoist and I never thought I could derive so much pleasure from watching the clothes spin gently around in the sun. Got all of our bond back in the end! Sarah and I barely had a cross word with each other despite feeling hot, dirty and stressed 24/7 for about 4 weeks and also having to assemble a number of pieces of flatpack furniture. Discovered after 8 years of owning my washing machine that it doesn’t need a special hose to connect to the hot tap and the machine heats the water itself so we can wash on a hot cycle! Rafa won the AO (still not over that)!!!! Found out that the reason the bathroom smelled so damp was because of a blocked sewer pipe that the greywater couldn’t go down so it was just running under the house (not good) but it only cost $300 for a plumber to fix and now the bathroom doesn’t smell!! Even the scary bits of the house that I thought I’d never be brave enough to go into (the roof storage space, the filthy outdoor garage) are now clean and accessible and useable. I’m feeling calm more often than not at the moment, for the first time in a loooooong time.

Long story short, hi!

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Went into hospital yesterday for a laparoscopy to treat my endometriosis, which has been getting progressively worse with each passing year, and not to brag or anything, but the surgeon said the endo was “EVERYWHERE” when he came to talk to me afterwards 💁🏼‍♀️

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Sometimes I think harry's explanation on fine line(having s*x and feeling sad) suits hs1 better simply because that's all the album is about. I always think about his 2015-16 and I can't imagine it being any other way. Like I think 2015 was his worst year . First taylor left him and showed up with her bf 3 months after leaving him. Then zayn left the band and he definitely hated(atleast resented zayn for that) . He was snarky everytime zayn was brought up. I also felt like the boys also isolated him and blamed him for z.In some bts there was ot3 standing close then there was.......harry. If louis blamed harry in 2019 for breaking band we can imagine how he behaved in 15. on top there was Robin's cancer. So he had a lot to deal with and he was only 21-22. I genuinely don't think I'll be able to go through all that unscathed. So he didn't have a silver lining to look for in that stage and he used sex as a defence mechanism. Taylor left him when he had a bit more less-messy life I don't think hs1 would be this sad and maybe would've been more positive. I felt like tay left him when he desperately needed someone in his life who truly understands him as a support system. While he wrote it as a heartbreak album there is a lot of underlying issues in it. While he asks 'take the pain away' he is not just talking about Taylor. He is talking about everything in his life. I think Olivia perfectly describes how much he needed her companionship at that moment of his life.

that explanation of fine line is so inaccurate, and i think he said that to try and conceal some of its heartbreak/darkness/vulnerability, but it does the record a bit of a disservice. it's much more than that. i do agree that description is more fitting for HS1, though he does tackle some of that in a deeper way there as well.

idk that i'd characterize his response to zayn as hating him, but he definitely was upset/annoyed and played that off with snarky humor. i'd imagine it also frustrated him that zayn expressed some dismissal of the band as a whole, since harry has always openly been very proud of their music and what they achieved and created, but naturally the two of them had disparate experiences and walked away with individual feelings. i haven't necessarily picked up on the other boys blaming him (although i have seen commentary about h being blamed for the "hiatus" and some of the resentment that went along with that, whether unfounded or not), but that could be due to seeing things in hindsight rather than as they happened. (niall and harry seem quite close to me in press for mitam!)

agree that was a very difficult and tumultuous time for him, and it's easy to forget he was still SO young. there's real grief tucked away on a lot of HS1, and masking that with sex is not at all uncommon. the sorrow and feeling of not knowing how to handle everything is probably clearest in ever since new york, especially since he's said that it's about that specific loss, but shades of it and that uncertainty and hurt show up in ftdt/mmith and even two ghosts as well.

keeping in mind she was also very unwell and in an escalatingly bad place at this time, it makes additional sense as to why they never found a safe moment to land or an ability to work that out. two young, adrift people just trying to hold on and make it through various terrible storms weren't going to be able to build a lasting foundation.

While he asks 'take the pain away' he is..talking about everything in his life. definitely. fame itself is such a monster to deal with and to survive, and to be thrown headfirst into that as a teenager and try to surface and cope with early adulthood and finding your sense of self and experiencing such formative events...the trade-off of success and money or whatever for sharing your creativity and talent being that intrusive, incessant fame is nightmarish to consider. the entire concept of scrutiny on that level fills me with dread tbh. and it's been challenging and hard from the advent of popular celebrity, we've seen its destruction on so many people, sadly. it's incredible anyone survives it with their minds and hearts intact at all.

#and as i say every time we then are complicit in it when we discuss it even though it's all public record #that idea that if it's in a song or an interview it's 'fair game' is true to an extent but also. complicated.#i try to be really careful broaching it #thinking about this a lot lately reading stuff about ep too and knowing what i do about mm and so on...#the stories ALWAYS have heavy and sad similarities #and the double edged sword being that they need us (the audience) to thrive and *be* successful with their art #but we also end up adding to certain pressures and noise and taking things too #or as my friend said last night we scavenge from them even when we love/respect them and even when that's not our intent #anonymous #letterbox

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Hello, journal!

I dont think I've actually ever reread an entry until today. A part of me was always so afraid of the shame I'd feel of who I used to be. I haven't written here in a while since I realize I kept trying to think my way out of everything which caused a severe disconnect between my heart and my mind but my therapist, Sophia Ou, encouraged me to journal again to process my thoughts but to instead focus on how I feel instead so I'm here to give it a go!

Current update on where I'm at in life. I still live in Chicago on Buena Ave in Buena Park. I started going to Planet Fitness a couple months ago and am still trying to figure out a good schedule between traditional workouts and climbing. I have a new schedule for this week and I feel pretty good about it. It consists of waking up at 6:30am Monday through Thursday where I workout before work Monday through Wednesday, climb after work Wednesday, climb before on Thursday, and after service on Sunday. I'm slowly becoming entirely too busy again. I do really enjoy serving youth group but Cara has been pushing for us, me and Khalid, to be more involved and dedicate more time to the ministry/greater church recently. I already am so busy and have been enjoying having no social plans scheduled during the week. I do my best to give her space to speak and share her ideas but sometimes it's hard to interject and communicate my thoughts and concerns. There's also some semblance of guilt that quietly goes along with it. Who am I to disagree with her stance as it relates to matters of the church when I, myself, am not all right, with God? I just really need to carve out time in my schedule to dedicate to him again. I remember around this time, last year, I was super dedicated to doing daily QTs as I was losing my mind over the potential opportunity of moving to a new city for a Google Fellowship. I have built so much of my life in Chicago and giving that all up for 6 months shook me to my very core. I don't think I was mentally prepared to take that risk then but so much has changed now. I'm not that close with Sophie and Thor anymore, I've been at a new church post Lakeview for a while now, and have generally grown as a person. I hangout with Earl and Gongjoo a lot more now, which has been great, especially getting to play with Ellia! Her first birthday was only a couple months ago! I love her so much!

If the opportunity for a new job arose today, I would still feel hesitant to take it but I feel a lot more prepared now. Thank you for knowing what I needed at that time, God.

Currently, I'm a graphic designer at Freeosk. I've technically been here for 3 years since my hire date but my full time Freeoskiversary is on June 1st. I recently started looking into UX Design and while there is still much research to do before fully making the career jump, I actually feel pretty good about pursuing this path. Even the thought of being able to research and gather data made me feel excited for some internal work on a Freeosk project recently. I need to work on my fear of public speaking and be more comfortable with presenting but I think this feels like a good idea.

God, I pray for guidance as I attempt to navigate my next steps from here. I'm not sure what you have planned for my life and I know I so often rely only on my shoulders but I definitely want to make sure I'm right by you first before actually making any life changing decisions moving forward. I don't yet know what the future holds but I am excited to found out. For once, I am excited for life and what it can bring. I am no longer so afraid of the pain but I am bright-eyed for a brighter future. Please let this future come.

I had a series of unfortunate events happen recently(e.g. scraped car door pretty bad and had to pay 2k for repairs, 2 credit cards and $100 cash stolen from wallet, my dad got laid off and still hasnt found a job in 2 months, my relationship with my sister got tense because of my disproval of her boyfriend, i realized i outgrew my friendship with sophie, and i havent been right with God lately). I've been doing my best to just keep my head held up high and push through but it has admittedly been hard and discouraging. Not yet depressing discouraging but definitely a challenge, nonetheless.

Thank you for all that you have done and will do for my life, God.

I pray this all in your name,

Amen.

#long time no see

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It is April 22nd, 2023. I am 3 months away from moving out of this shit hole of a place in East St Paul. I moved from Minneapolis, thinking that it would be better in St. Paul, but it’s worse. I miss Lowry hill east. I miss the busy streets and the jogs on the greenway with Lola. I miss everyone being so warm and welcoming. I miss the Minneapolis energy. I miss my old property management team. 🤦🏻‍♀️ We always think the grass is greener on the other side, until we are on the other side. I’m planning to move back to Minneapolis this August and I’m extremely excited because this time around, I have enough money saved for the deposit as well as for movers so I won’t need to ask the family to help me. When Aaron, Maggie, Chingyeng and I moved into this St. Paul apartment, it took us all day because there were so many things to move and I live on the 3rd floor. This time around, I won’t need to worry about that 😊

On another note, paj and I got into an argument about a month and a half ago and we no longer talk anymore. I still get to see Ava and hang out with her but now it’s awkward with paj around cause she’s a passive aggressive bitch lol. We got into an argument because I came over and took the 3 dogs on a walk. Ava wanted to tag along so I asked if it was okay and paj allowed it so we went out with the dogs. It was wet and muddy out because of the snow melting and Ava wanted to jump in the puddles. Ava did not have any boots or rain jacket so her shoes got wet and her pants got wet because she fell a few times. All that mattered though, was that she had a fun time. When we got back, I was like “it’s ok, she fell a few times but she had fun and we can change her out of these clothes.” Paj didn’t make a fuss over her shoes but then later on, I needed to buy more dog food for the dogs and paj asked “oh do you want to go to Walmart and do that now?” It sounded like she just wanted to get out of the house so I agreed. As we were getting ready, I asked paj if Ava still had her crocs and paj got sassy with me and said “no she does not have her crocs anymore. If you hadn’t taken her out, her shoes wouldn’t be wet and we wouldn’t need to worry about this!” She kept repeating “well it’s your auntys fault. It’s because she took you out so now you don’t have dry shoes!” I finally got fed up with her making it my fault instead of coming up with a solution so I said “no, the real question is, how come you get child support every month and she only has 1 pair of shoes??” And I must have triggered something because paj started yelling and throwing a fit. We argued loud that night in front of Ching yeng and it was humiliating. But the best part about it was that Ava was defending me the entire time. She kept saying “no no no!” And pointing at her mom while hugging me. It made me feel so loved. I love Ava so much. I said a lot of things that night. I called paj a piece of shit, I told her that I spoke to Steve and knew all of her lies about what went down in that relationship, I scolded her for cheating on Jeromie, I told her I knew she didn’t love Ava and that Ava was an accident and she treats Ava like shit. I said a lot of mean things. But I’m glad I didn’t keep it to myself, because I meant everything I said.

Ever since then, we have not spoken. And I’m fine with that. I’m more than fine with that actually. I’m so happy that she and I are no longer on good terms. She would drain so much of my energy and I always had to live by her schedule or else she would get mad or impatient. It was like walking on eggshells. I thank the universe for allowing that event to happen.

Aside from that, my job is still great, I started jogging and working out more May of 2022 and I drink way more water. :) I’m a happy girl.

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ive been listening to ‘manhattan’ by sara bareilles and the line “you can have manhattan cause i cant have you” and i thought you’re the perfect writer to write an angst about this!!! 🥺🥺

This is one of my all time favorite songs. I was actually already writing a fic inspired by it when you sent in this ask! What a coincidence! I listen to this song on repeat in the wintertime.

Because the fic was already basically done when you sent this, it does have a happy ending. So it’s not full angst.

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He’s My Home

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He’s My Home

Timothée Chalamet x Reader

timmy and reader have a complicated relationship. angst transpires, but in the end, it’s meant to be. part two here.

*obligatory mobile formatting apology*

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You stood on the sidewalk in front of your apartment building. Your, now, old apartment building. It was a bittersweet moment. So many memories and good times came from that apartment. Now those memories seemed too distant. They no longer made you feel warm inside, now they hurt.

You remembered the first time you visited this city with your then boyfriend. You were from a small town, you had always dreamed about seeing the hustle and bustle of the big city, and he had promised to take you. As soon as you set foot on the pavement, you felt at home. You felt so alone, yet so connected. Everything was larger than life, yet perfectly sized to your heart. It took your breath away. You had spent that entire vacation week with him and New York City. She and he had both taken your heart quicker than you’d ever be willing to admit. He showed you everything. The touristy side of things, of course, but he also showed you all of his favorite places. His sneaky hideaway spots. He showed you New York through his eyes, which only made it that much better. You had been there for 3 days when you finally had opened up to him.

“I want to move here.” You had said, lying on your back in his bed. His apartment. His building. His city.

“Really?” He replied. His hand was in yours and his fingers rubbed lazy circles on your knuckles.

“Yeah.” You said. “I feel like this—I feel like this is what my heart has been missing.”

“Are you sure your heart hasn’t been missing me?”

That was also the first night you had made love to him. It had been magical and everything felt right. You moved to town not even 2 months later and your relationship with him and the city blossomed beyond what you ever imagined. Although, as life would have it, all good things must come to an end.

When you first saw him with her, you thought nothing of it. He was yours, you were his, that was that. You had no reason to not be trusting of his brand new costar. You were going to be seeing a lot of her, and you wanted to get along with her.

You invited her shopping with you, bought her lunch, tried your best to have a good time with her. You didn’t click, though. She was so catty, so rude to you. So you stayed away. You put space between the two of you, and you silently hoped the rest of your boy’s filming would go by fast. Every chance he got he was home in your arms, you had no doubts about him. Her, on the other hand, you had your doubts about.

Vicious messages, dirty looks from across the room, even sabotaging your dress you wanted to wear to the cast’s dinner event to support Timmy. She was pure evil to you. You kept your mouth shut as long as you possibly could, you wanted so badly to not cause any trouble, but when you saw your gorgeous gown destroyed—that was the last straw. It was his favorite color, you had bought it months ago and had it tailored to fit your every curve, you were so excited for him to see it. And because of her all of that had been shot to hell.

My god how you hated her. Hate was something you reserved for special occasions, you never held hate in your heart, but this was different. She was so much better than you in every way and she knew that. She knew exactly how to get to you. She knew exactly how to get to Timmy. Your Timmy.

It was an innocent dance at the cast’s dinner event. They weren’t even close. Timothée had agreed when he was asked because he was such a gentleman, you knew that. But that didn’t make it sting less. The smirk she had shot your way when she noticed you looking at the two of them—it made you sick. You had already felt terribly ugly in your last minute dress, and when you saw how beautiful she looked in his favorite color, you had started to cry.

You had run out, hoping no one saw, but everyone saw. Your boy chased after you and he stopped you in the hallway, only to not believe a word you said.

“Surely she wouldn’t do that, baby. I’m sure it’s a misunderstanding.”

“It’s not a misunderstanding! She hates me! She ruined my dress!”

“She didn’t even have access to our wardrobe, you’re just all worked up. I’m sure she doesn’t hate you.”

“She’s been texting me vile things all week, Timothée!”

“That’s not even her number. I don’t know who’s doing that-“

“I’m not crazy! Why are you defending her?!”

“I didn’t say you were crazy. And I’m saying this because she’s my friend. I don’t want-“

“And I’m your girlfriend, Timothée! Or is she?!”

You had run out and that was the last time you saw or spoke to him. You had texted him that night never to speak to you again and immediately regretted it, but you knew it was for the best. He could go be with her and be happy. He wouldn’t have you holding him back anymore.

Now, here you were, two weeks later, leaving your city and your boy behind. You couldn’t bear to stay here without him. It felt too empty, even on the most crowded streets. This was his city. It had never belonged to you, you were simply a wanderer. And now it was your turn to wander on. You can keep your fucking city, Chalamet. I don’t want it anymore.

You took one last look at your building before turning away. You got in a yellow cab, and it drove you away one last time. This was it. Goodbye New York City. Goodbye Timothée Hal Chalamet.

Six months went by fast. You were settling in to your new job nicely. You were in a small town again, much resembling the one you were from, although it didn’t feel like home. You had gotten a small rental home and a roommate. You made it work, even if it wasn’t ideal for you.

He was everywhere. On tv, on magazine covers, on your social media. His life was booming beyond belief, and yours had slowed down nearly to a halt. He was thriving, you were withering. You braced yourself for the day you would have to see him with another woman. The thought made you sick to your stomach.

“Hey!” Your coworker shouted your name across the room. “Come here for a second!”

“Hm?” You hummed. You got up from your desk and walked over to your coworker, Naomi’s, desk. “Where the hell did you find that?”

“Is it actually you?” She sounded surprised. “I didn’t know if it was or not. But he just posted it. Like 20 minutes ago.”

“What?”

“Look.” She showed you her phone. You felt lightheaded. “Are you okay?”

“I- uh- excuse me.” You said and went back to your desk. You picked up your phone and opened Instagram. Surely it’s some cruel joke. You thought.

But no, there it was. Right there. Posted 21 minutes ago on his Instagram account. A photo of him holding you while you were asleep. You were hiding your face in the crook of his neck. He didn’t post a caption, he rarely did anymore. But he didn’t need a caption. You knew exactly what he meant.

You excused yourself to take your lunch break early and ran outside. You called him.

“Hello?” He answered on the first ring. He was waiting on your call.

“Timmy.”

“Come home.” Was the only phrase he uttered, barely above a whisper. You put him on speaker. You were already looking up flights on your phone.

“I’m on my fucking way.”

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