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super disorganized sketch page because i do what i want
#my art#not sure if i wanna tag these... hrm#i wonder if alt text shows up in search results.... shudders#well anyway. i wanna ramble about these!!#for willy mafton: i've been working on designing more of the human cast. mainly all the big name important ones#it's been a slow process + a little challenging but i like getting the chance to practice drawing faces! :]#in regards to His design specifically.. it's very much based off of his movie apperance#but with a reference to that Classic sprite thrown in#bc i thought making him a little cartoony and inhuman would fit him :] but idk im not an expert on his character or anything#about the rabbit lady: i forgot how i had that idea initially but it ended up looking so fucking cool tbh#im always a fan of making her design less of a feminine eye candy type of design and more of a Spooky Murderer type >:3c#it also gave me the idea to try making some similar designs for the glams...#but if i do that im not gonna be giving them that vintage rubber mask look... since they're meant to be super flashy and high tech looking#so i was thinking they could have faces with more of a silicone texture.. and that have a style based more off of their in game art work :]#so they'd be like giant dolls with weird moving faces rather than having a vintage animatronic look#also that van in the bottom middle is 100% a homage to a specific user i wont be mentioning but iykyk HFJZJFJF#ANYWAY the 🌞🌜 stuff: dont be weird about it please HFJZJG#im aware that these tags are very easy to ignore but like. genuinely pls dont be weird about them#dont romanticize it. its not meant to be ''y/ndere'' or anything like that#its actually a bit personal to me so like... interpret it as you like but be aware its not meant to be a happy or positive thing#anyway i think thats all i have to say... i've been trying to branch out a tiny bit regarding the things i draw#it's always nice to challenge yourself even if its tough... especially if its tough!!#i mainly draw just for my own sake but i hope ppl see something they like here#these tags got so fucking long oops... i'll stop now JFKZJFKSJGKSJG
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siyeon ✯ kcon germany 2024
#this wont even show up in the tags bc apparently theres a glitch but thats fine im just having a time#there was nothing else to fit there as 4th gif but also <3 shes so cute there singing rising so#dreamcatcherdaily#hfdcedit#siyeon#rosegif#bias line#dreamcatcher#flashing gif
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i literally read the book of bill days ago but its only now kinda hitting me how fucked ford and bills whole thing was though cause ford literally talks about being so unable to sleep (to try to keep bill away), and when sleep inevitably caught up to him, he would wake up to his body abused and things messed with and he just couldnt seem to find an escape (and he literally didnt get to truly escape until 30 years later)
(also keeping people awake for unhealthily long periods of time is another tactic used to mess with and control people because of how it impairs brain function)
listing off the things we see in those few pages in the book of bill:
i mean, punching and scratching at a steel door for hours would be so damaging to your hands and probably hurt like hell for at least 2 days after. then bill says he was hitting fords head against a wall, though its said in a post-it as if its a joke, but he also isnt exactly above doing that, and honestly he says most things like its a joke.
i also dont need to say 'bill really doesnt know how to take no for an answer' because he makes that very clear in literally any interaction we see with him.
bill literally puts a venomous snake near ford while fords asleep, which could have killed him if he wasnt lucky+skilled enough to deal with it.
he nearly gives ford hypothermia, and in the same action actively threatens ford with the idea of making him jump off of a high spot, and like ford says, doesnt do it just so he can send a message to ford about how hes the one in control.
he gets ford in trouble with not only the law, but also with other people that are probably not very happy with him after. he mutilates fords body in several ways, and i dont think i need to go into detail on them because theyre... so ew. and he even exposes part of fords body to the world. like, its just taking his shirt off, but thats still showing off his body in a way that he didnt agree to or want
and then he attempts to (or purposefully fails to) call stan, using fords voice to threaten suicide and tell stan that ford never loved him.
and he punctuates it with a final power move, in a hallucination that he creates, hes messing with stans memories and making him feel like his body was basically about to implode
and like. okay, we all joke about toxic old man yaoi, and its a good joke and toxic old man yaoi is great and its an interesting ship, but holy fuck.
like. to say the absolute least, that had to be so, so deeply violating. its no wonder that when we see ford in the past, when he finally contacts stan, he looks like hes on the verge of shattering into a million pieces. he just went through, and still wasnt yet out of, some deeply abusive shit.
like... everything coming out lately both in this book and what ive heard is on the website, mixed with what we already knew from the show itself... the stans are both so, so fucking tragic dude. their whole lives were thrown away over things that really didnt even need to be the way they were, and then they both get into situations that are pretty damn screwed, and those situations follow them for the rest of their lives. its basically a miracle that things worked out in the end for them.
i dont really have a point, i just had to talk about all that. i read almost all of the book of bill in one sitting, and while i was really enjoying it, i was also getting kind of tired of sitting in one spot only doing this one thing for several hours straight. i still felt a lot of the emotional bits of it of course, but man this part specifically just really didnt hit me until now.
i mean, to say the absolute least, i know what its like to feel violated in a similar way, though not anywhere near to the extent of what he went through at all. someone get that man some therapy got damn
#my post#gravity falls#billford#// abuse ment#abuse tw#<- i dont really know the tags to use so if anyone sees this and feels that i didnt do enough. i can add more#long post#BY THE WAY THIS IS NOT A BILL HATE POST IF THAT EVEN MAKES SENSE#like fuck that dude for being so fucked up but also hes still such a fascinating and honestly fun character.#hes not a real person so its not like im being like 'oh but hes so charming so idc that he did all that'#like i very much care that he did all that but hes also. still just a fictional character#and yet again i repeat the sentiment: holy fuck i cant believe disney approved this book#they really said. 'this is one of our most beloved non-movie franchises#the creator wants to write another book in the series but this time its for mature audiences#and hes going to write out how the beloved villain of the show and one of the most important and beloved characters are in a deeply abusive#relationship. this is now an approved part of the disney brand!'#again i dont disapprove. i think this is a great addition.#but im so shocked that this was approved by 'the owl house doesnt fit our brand' disney.#i still refuse to stop believing that disney was just being homophobic about the owl house btw idc what anyone says#also no i wont go into detail on how i relate. but the connections are there and its.. wow.
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i cant sleep so um here u go
#im sry kendrick is beefing with ppl n he's the best n im so fixated on it i have 2 get some of the thoughts out of my brain#he srsly fit so much into that verse#a 7min response where u gotta diss trans ppl bc ur mad that kendrick is actually woke and always ahead of the curve is so fking pathetic tbh#like i even like the flow and the change ups#i do think established rich ass rappers incorporating drill is trend chasey and borderline gentrification#hot hot hot takes sry#but just listening to the leaks on kendricks upcoming single is just#it just proves that he rly is in a league of his own#his style is so different n new every single album and ppl fucking hate him for it#he's not chasing trends he's doing him#ok sry i think thats most of my thoughts im sry im very uneducated but he's just.... the best ok?#this is prob so fking random so most of u n the rest prolly wont agree with anything im saying so uhm sry#pls ignore these tags n just focus on my tiddies n think abt the fact that if u shove ur dick down my throat i stop talking#kthx bye <3#me
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i know i talk big talk about the queerphobia in this fandom but at some point someone remind me to make an in depth analysis post about the ageism in this fandom. I’m not like mad or anything- I like to try to be chill about things, but I swear EVERY time people find out I’m not in my 30s or up I’m looked at completely differently. It’s incredibly fascinating and frustrating because even some of my closest friends in this fandom do it time to time. (No hate ofc usually when I point it out it gets corrected) but it’s absolutely fascinating to me. Is it that RARE for someone to be younger then 30 in this fandom? And if so, WHY does it matter so much when fandom itself is curated by the user? Like. I’m not 8 years old stop treating me like I am. Just because I don’t like reading about dick doesn’t mean I can’t talk about it.
I’m 20. By the way. In America. I’m not even old enough to drink legally in my state.
Again, not a hate post. More of a “oof this is tiring bro” post. I’m REALLY tired of it but like. What can I do? You don’t like that I’m not in my thirties? Block me I guess. I’m still here man
Also, genuinely curious of someone has an answer: is it actually that shocking for someone to be a young adult in this fandom, or even a teenager or hell, a child? I’m very curious WHY there’s always a double take when I bring up my age, and WHY people generally treat me a little- shall I say- “dumber”- like I have less understanding of the world.
it both frustrates me and fascinates me to no end, really.
#No shade or nothing its just a problem I never get seen brought up#And its a genuine issue at least for me#Im FINE with “being the child of the group” jokes#I have a few moots ill leave anon who do that#But like. Beyond that. It gets. Weird. Like. Ageism but reverse? Where because I’m a decade younger then the “expected age range”#Im treated less intellectually sound? For some reason? Its very tiring#Meh ill leave it at that#Wont even tag HL. dont want to#This is more for me to see in the morning and remember to do an in depth analysis on it#since i have a few first hand accounts#That or to bunch it in with my queerphobia hl awareness#Whichever I decide is more fitting when i wake up lol
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i lived
#ive actually drawn quite a bit#but ill post just this for now bcuz why not#jrwi the suckening#if anyone wants more arte art yell at me through the screen for it and your wish is my command#the suckening#emizel tucker#jrwi emizel#idk if i should tag arthur so i wont#i dont think any of my followers even know what “ a jrwi ” is#this was what i was envisioning when my friend said “ emizel conjuring the worst fit ever ” but alas it was not this#arte arting
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that feeling when you get advice from someone who you know is well-meaning and has good intentions....but it's just the most allistic, neurotypical, and/or abled advice you have ever heard and completely invalidates the point you're trying to make about why you struggle to do the thing in the first place.
they're telling you to "do it in this specific way that is completely opposite of how you physically/mentally work" for example, make eye contact/read people's facial expressions and intentions! but you're autistic. initiate verbal conversation and don't be shy! but you're nonverbal or semispeaking. get out of the house more and participate in these physical activities! but you're physically disabled. Just Be Yourself! but you have DID/OSDD/other personality disorder. etc.
i'm sorry. I know you're just trying to help. I appreciate it, really. but it's all things i've heard before and none of it helps me specifically. I have tried (maybe even still try out of habit) and learned I can't just do those things. they don't work for me or cause more issues. practice isn't the issue. not everyone can simply willpower through everything. but thanks for trying 😔✊️
#autistic#autism things#autism#actually autistic#adhd#audhd#neurodivergent#disablity#disabled#too tired to tag other thinhs sorry thats all you get#lee rambles#that feeling when you also just have to pretend to accept their advice and move on because people get so upset when you dont take it#i lesrned if i tell people their advice doesnt suit me and my unique circumstances then they feel bad that they didnt help#they want you to do it anyway. even if you cant. pretend you do or say thanks and move on. but it gets annoying hearinf the same stuff#over and over. more expectations on you. more pressure to do things in ways everyone else can but you cannot...#when will the advice be lee shaped? when will it be just for lee and consider all my circumstances?#why is telling the person giving advice their advice wont work fkr me bad? why cant they change their advice to fit the issues i face?#when im asked for advice and someone hits a deadend while working it out i try to help solve that so they can find a way around#but everyone else expects me to grow a bulldozer out of my head and ram the wall down instead of helping me work around it#i crush their fragile ego by saying their advice doesnt work and they get upset instead of adjusting it to help solve the specific problem#its exhausting because they become one of the many problems i have to deal with then 😒#no im not “making excuses/dismissing you/not trying” im trying. your advice sucks try again. and my problems are valid!!!!!! accept it!!!!#anyway. genuinely appreciate people wanting/trying to help but sometimes its such inappropriate advice i dont know how to respond
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What sad planet analogy are you?
Neptune is drifting away from the solar system
You're tired of everything, you are so sick of everyone around you and nothing makes you feel better anymore. You don't find worth in staying this way, you want to leave everything, to go somewhere very far away where nobody knows your name, and maybe then you could finally be free.
tagged by: @multiverse-swampy (thnx :3) tagging: @the-expatriate @champiionic @stellevatum @general-kalani and you! steal it from me
#// *cant tag more than 5 folks so i gotta keep it to a few - steal it from me yall!!#// *also this is so fitting for Bigby at times because people seriously treat him like hes the same person from years and years ago#// *and it sucks bc hes an example of how people who 'change' wont change people's perceptions sometimes#// *even after proving yourself that you're different for once#// *they still think youre the same#// *and it sucks :(#🐺 * 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐒 : headcanon#🐺 * 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐒 : muse meme#🐺 * 𝐁𝐈𝐆𝐁𝐘 𝐖𝐎𝐋𝐅 : dearie‚ i'm the big bad wolf
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guys what if i told you ive been thinking about dess and actually i think dess/chara might be able to work out in the drkau...like ive been doing some thinking into dess and her reasons and why she does what she does and how she cares about people and im starting to nail down the role i want asriel to play, and. and.
guys i think dess is actually going to be able to change. i think dess figures out how to change but asriel never does....
#chatter#its about like. okay azzy's big thing is normality right.#ive decided hes our monster representative for the prophecy#(which i could make a whole post on but these tags are not the place)#which means dess ISNT which means dess isnt stuck by that#which means like. god this needs so much context i dont have time to give but.#in order for asriel to change he has to come to terms w the fact that a lot of things are his fault#like if he had reacted differently dess maybe stays#or at least doesnt take kris with her#and DESS comes to terms w this. dess is aware that she sorta fucked kris's life#and no shes not their mom but she does love them and care for them#and eventually would start to realize like. i have to be there for them#it wont be perfect but i can TRY even if trying is really really scary#and its this idea of like. what dess-chara-kris-frisk have#is family that could NEVER fit into what society sees as 'normal'#but they have each other. and they want to try. so they make something good#vs asriel chasing normality and pushing everyone away and at the end of it all like#that cant make you happy. all it does is make you Alone. and i dont know if he like#changes. cause hes so deep in he cant admit he was wrong cause then what was any of this for?#anyways let me remind you that noelle is our main character--#(though tbf since azzy is her brother and has a huge impact on her life its fair he gets a focus too)#I LOVE MY OWN AU <3#drkau
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Stacy's brother Au
but it's just a crack au where Ginny "loses" like 4 bfs in a row to her brothers just to realize she doesn't even like boys
#Aka#Ginny Weasley#being a matchmaker for her siblings by accident#and then she ends up with like Luna or Hermione or something#i dont really vibe with using loses in this context but i cant think of another word that fits right now#obv because i am me i was mostly thinking about#percy weasley#being one of the ones that end up with a new bf#i wont say who i was considering for that because its kinda weird even for me i think#in the scenario in my head it was in addition to Oliver which he already had because i think it would be even funnier#ginny thinking it obviously can't happen again because now all her siblings have partners so she should be safe right? no not at all#i also just love Polyam!Percy so im biased#perciver#i really got to start combining all of my thoughts in the post itself instead of in the tags#this is mostly a joke because dont take me seriously i'm sleep deprived and don't know what im talking about#Elise's Thoughts and Concepts
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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
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Hello Internet, Welcome to Mystic Wolf Entertainment!
This is a call from your friendly neiborhood digital artist to ask, hey!! If your a Hazbin Hotel fan, gimme things YOU wanna see ME draw!!
That's right! For a limited time only! I will draw (almost) whatever hazbin related thing YOU WANNA SEE!!
((the art block is coming at me fast, please send help!))
#art#artists on tumblr#artist#drawing#artwork#digital drawing#fanart#hazbin hotel#hazbin art#angel dust hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel au#alastor hazbin hotel#charlie hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#adam hazbin hotel#vaggie hazbin hotel#husker hazbin hotel#lucifer hazbin hotel#nifty hazbin hotel#sir pentious#hazbin hotel lute#cara hazbin hotel#emily hazbin hotel#cherri hazbin hotel#valentino hazbin hotel#vox hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel velvette#hazbin hotel rosie#hazbin hotel carmilla#even more characters that sadly wont fit cause ive hit thirty tags oh shi-
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oh also heres my little guys / story spotify playlist.. its kind of disjointed as in the songs represent different character perspectives / sometimes just general story vibes tbh
#usually i love making character playlists but its been very hard for me to find as many songs that fit this story as others ive had in the#past....#but theres still a few<3#ficposting#i wont go through them one by one on the post but i will inthe tags why not#real love baby: lfc and martinus sappy romantic Vibe. 'let's forget who we are for one night...' yes.them#a chicken with its head cut off: THEE caius martinus song Of All Time. literally him.#chateau lobby no.4: another lfc and martinus sappy romantic Vibe 100%...#red wine supernova: ^#epitaph for my heart: lfc perspective about martinus . so very much . kinda whiny pining self pitying but such a tune...#i wanna be yours: ^. perhaps a cliche choice but you cannot deny it is a tune...#paranoiac intervals: this is a good lfc song i think#first love/late spring: this is sooo caecilia/caecilia about lfc to me...#the one you really love: this one is kinda. leftover from an earlier character detail there used to be more emphasis on but it still could#be a martinus jealousy over someone else lfc liked in the past vibe#caesar on a tv screen: a great lfc vibe...#froot: this is lfc. To Me.#when my boy walks down the street: tbh this song has general rome vibes to me. also kinda martinuscore#masochism tango: lfc my masochistic freak<3#the night you can't remember: this reminds me of martinus and poppaea even though it doesn't fit perfectly
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pov im showing you my new ""poly"" ship that is totally not like any of the other poly ships i have
#quotations around poly bc the way i ship these kinds of relationships are very complicated and not actually like a normal poly relationship#i dont even do it on purpose but i have so many fucking ships like this 😭 its a little insane#shipping#multishipping#multishipper#ot3#persona 5#akeshuharu#danganronpa#oh god what would their 'ship' name be uhhhh#komahinamiki#as in nagito hajime and mikan#i wont tag it bc im not sure yet but i stg this is about to happen for persona 3 too#bf and i need to keep playing to find out#technically doesnt fit the gendered letters but this is also the case for me with edelgard rhea and f!byleth LOL#into the microphone#my only normal healthy actual poly ship is amberpricefield theyll save me i know they will
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Vent post. Because i feel like kicking a hornets' nest.
Honestly im just tired of how people will call someone ignorant/uneducated and will go for the throat for every little thing, while they themselves say shit like pierogis all the time. If you're going to point fingers at others, you yourself should be without fault.
The question is... can you?
#im just so tired of all the shit that i constantly see on the internet#ARTIST CANCELLED BECAUSE THEY DIDNT DRAW SOMETHING PERFECTLY#or ARTIST CANCELLED BECAUSE THEY USED A DIFFERENT COLOUR PALETTE#ARTIST CANCELLED BECAUSE THEIR IDEA OF A FICTIONAL CHARACTER ISN'T UP TO FANDOM'S STANDARDS#i bet other people also get shit like that all the time#for example my friend is a writer and he just happens to be a cisguy and whenever i mentioned it to people#they would instantly start saying that they are sure he writes shit like she breasted boobily down the stairs#or i remember how i got told off for making trahearne lives au because apparently#messing with canon is just as bad as falsifying information in history books#just stop for the love of whatever's devine#this has been boiling in me for so long i cant even express it#sorry for going off in the tags in case you decided to read them#peace out imma go and read a book and touch grass#finally its green and soft again after so many rains and storms so it will be a nice chilling time outside#oh btw proper plural is pierogi without the s. singular is pieróg. you want to add s - say pierógs#ngl that pierogi-pierogis is one of my biggest pet peeves#like i wont be stabbing you over it or throw a tantrum and i will just move on with my day i have better things to do in general than#than throwing fits and also im not omniscient myself#like i dont know all the words in english and my german knowledge is very scarce#so i in no way demand others know about pierogis#just give people some room to breathe for gods sake#ok ok ok i think im overwriting this and i cant edit tags on phone so now fr im gonna go and enjoy outside and watch the squirrels
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i had such a successful day today omgg ˃ᴗ˂ i dyed my hair, the jeans i ordered on thurs came and they fit me perfectly and i did some writing!! and to top it all off me and my boyfriend got takeaway pizza for dinner!! tehe
#only downside was that they got my order wrong:((#they gave us two of the same pizza:( so i didnt get my meatfeast pizza#we just got 2 of what my bf ordered (pineapple+ham+smokey bacon+mushroom)#and I hate mushroom#so i just gave it all to him#but !! my jeans#ngl i was so worried they wouldnt fit:(( and that id have to return them and reorder them#and i did not want to do that at alllll#ive been thinking that i much prefer buying clothes in person now over online#even though i used to buy most of my clothes online from 2018-2021#but now im just so worried that they wont fit and icba with returns#too much waiting#id rather go to a shop and try the clothes on so i can find out right away whether theyd fit#i went into the store 4 times before i gave up finding these jeans in my size#and then i still ordered them in store anyways#lol#tag talk#sage.words
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