#it's learning how to feel safe and secure and learning how to recognize yourself and your boundaries

[theambitiouswoman]

How to heal your nervous system after a lifetime of abandonment

If you’ve only ever experienced abandonment—whether emotional or physical—your nervous system has likely been in survival mode for most of your life. This means your body and mind have adapted to expect instability, making safety feel unfamiliar and uncomfortable. Healing isn’t just about “thinking positively” or “moving on” but about rewiring your nervous system to feel safe in connection, in stillness & within yourself

When abandonment becomes a pattern, your body learns to stay hyper vigilant, always scanning for signs that people will leave. It will emotionally shut down to avoid further pain. You will attach yourself quickly to people because you are scared that if you don't, you will lose them. You will feel unsafe in healthy relationships and sabotage them

This isn’t a mindset issue—it’s a nervous system issue. Your body is conditioned to see abandonment as inevitable, which is why true healing must happen on a physiological level

So to take control, you have to teach your body that safety exists (even if you don't believe it). And since you probably don't know why that is, you have to start small

I have spoken about these things before, but I am going to explain what they actually do, so that you see that even though they seem silly and pointless, they are very important. You thinking everything has to be a struggle and difficult is just you thinking from a place of survival

Grounding exercises - Grounding actually engages your sense to bring you back to the present moment and help reduce anxiety. Walking barefoot, holding something warm, or pressing your feet into the floor sends signals to your brain that you are physically here and safe. It activates the prefrontal cortex (the rational part of your brain) and quiets the amygdala (the fear center) helping you feel more in control

Weighted blankets- Trigger the release of serotonin (the "feel-good" neurotransmitter) and reduces cortisol (the stress hormone). Deep pressure mimics the calming effect of a hug, which lowers heart rate and blood pressure. It helps regulate the autonomic nervous system, shifting you from fight or flight mode to a state of rest and relaxation

Breathing exercises - They activate the parasympathetic nervous system (PNS), which counteracts stress and signals safety to the brain. Inhaling for 4 seconds, holding for 4 and exhaling for 6 stimulates the vagus nerve, which lowers cortisol and increases feelings of calm. Longer exhales specifically slow your heart rate, reinforcing a sense of control and relaxation

These small habits may feel insignificant at first, but over time, they help retrain your brain and body to recognize safety—not as something foreign, but as your new normal

Abandonment leaves deep emotional wounds, often from childhood. If no one ever soothed you, you must learn to soothe yourself

Affirmations for safety: Instead of just saying “I am worthy”, try “I am safe in this moment” or “I do not have to earn love”

Inner child work: Imagine speaking to your younger self. What would they need to hear? Start telling yourself those things daily

If you’ve only known unpredictable or inconsistent love, you may chase people or push them away before they can leave. Start practicing security within yourself first by keeping small promises to yourself. Surrounding yourself with emotionally safe people, even if it's just online or even books at first. Something that feels SAFE to you

Your nervous system might be wired to assume people will leave, so you either cling or detach first. Instead, start training yourself to trust in small ways by watching for people who are consistent, emotionally available and respect your boundaries. You are taking back control by paying attention to their actions and deciding if you want them in your life. When something feels safe, let it last as long as it should, don't sabotage it just because you are expecting the worst. You are worthy of good connections

Teach your nervous system that love doesn’t have to be earned. That you don’t have to fight for people who are meant to stay. You are not broken—you are healing

[astrologydray]

……Ceres in the Houses……

Representing nurturing, food, care, and cycles of loss and renewal. Its house placement shows where and how you express caretaking energy and what makes you feel emotionally and physically nourished.

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Ceres in the 1st 🏡: Ceres in the 1st house suggests nurturing, caregiving, and providing support to others are integral to your identity. You naturally exude a warm, caring energy, and people may see you as someone who offers comfort, protection, and nourishment—both emotionally and physically. You may have a strong connection to nature, health, or self-care, and your presence can be very healing to those around you. You likely take pride in taking care of yourself and others, and your sense of self-worth may be tied to your ability to provide for those you love. Depending on the sign, you may express this nurturing energy through practical acts of service, emotional support, or even creative or intellectual guidance. Ceres in the 1st house is ensuring that you don’t overextend yourself or neglect your own needs in favor of caring for others. You may feel responsible for everyone’s well-being, which can lead to burnout. Learning to nurture yourself as much as you nurture others, allowing your caregiving nature to be a source of strength rather than depletion.

Ceres in the 2nd 🏡: Ceres in the 2nd house ties nurturing and care to material security, self-worth, and physical comfort. You express love and support through tangible means—providing food, financial stability, gifts, or creating a comfortable and safe environment for yourself and others. Acts of service and physical affection may be your primary love languages. You may feel most nurtured when you have financial stability, access to quality resources, and a sense of security in your life. Providing for yourself and your loved ones gives you a deep sense of fulfillment, and you likely take great pride in your ability to create abundance. with Ceres in the 2nd house is attaching your self-worth too much to material possessions or financial status. You may also overgive, trying to express love through material means while neglecting emotional or spiritual nourishment. Recognizing that true security comes from within and that nurturing extends beyond material support to emotional and psychological care as well.

Ceres in the 3rd 🏡: Ceres in the 3rd house expresses nurturing through communication, learning, and intellectual connection. You care for others by offering advice, engaging in meaningful conversations, and being a source of mental and emotional support. Words of affirmation and thoughtful gestures, such as writing messages or sharing knowledge, may be your primary ways of showing love. You likely feel nurtured when you have stimulating discussions, exchange ideas, or feel heard and understood by those around you. Sibling relationships, early education, and your local environment may have played a significant role in shaping your understanding of care and nourishment. Ceres in the 3rd house people have a tendency to intellectualize emotions rather than fully feeling them. You might also spread yourself too thin, constantly giving advice or emotional support without taking time to recharge. Your nurturing extends beyond words and ideas, incorporating emotional presence and deeper personal connections.

Ceres in the 4th 🏡 : Ceres in the 4th house makes nurturing, home, and family central to your sense of security and well-being. You feel most fulfilled when you can create a warm, safe, and comforting environment for yourself and your loved ones. Your way of caring is deeply emotional, and you may take on the role of a protector or provider within your family. You likely have a strong connection to your roots, traditions, and childhood experiences, which can shape how you give and receive love. Home-cooked meals, cozy spaces, and emotional support are key ways you express care. Family bonds, whether biological or chosen, are essential to your sense of stability. Ceres in the 4th house has the potential for emotional overattachment or taking on too much responsibility for others’ well-being. You may struggle with setting boundaries, feeling like you must always be the caregiver. Nurturing yourself just as much as you nurture others, ensuring that your home life supports your own emotional needs as well.

Ceres in the 5th 🏡: Ceres in the 5th house expresses nurturing through creativity, joy, and self-expression. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others in a way that encourages their individuality and personal growth. Your love is warm, playful, and often shown through acts of encouragement, affection, and shared creative or recreational activities. You may find joy in nurturing children, artistic projects, or even romantic partners, as you naturally enjoy bringing happiness to others. Creativity and self-expression could be essential to your well-being, and you might use art, music, or performance as a way to nourish both yourself and those around you. With Ceres in the 5th house there’s a potential to seek validation through your ability to nurture, or to overextend yourself in relationships by always trying to bring joy to others. You may also struggle with balancing fun and responsibility. The key to a fulfilling expression of this placement is embracing your own creativity and joy while allowing others the space to develop their own individuality without dependence on your care.

Ceres in the 6th 🏡: Ceres in the 6th house expresses nurturing through acts of service, health, and daily routines. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others in practical, tangible ways—whether through providing support in their daily lives, helping with work, or encouraging healthy habits. Your way of showing love often involves cooking nutritious meals, assisting with tasks, or offering advice on wellness and self-improvement. You may be drawn to careers in caregiving, healing, or service-oriented professions. Taking care of pets, maintaining a structured lifestyle, or engaging in activities that promote well-being can also be deeply nurturing for you. Your own sense of security often comes from having a stable routine and feeling useful to those around you. Ceres in the 6th house has the tendency to overwork yourself or place too much of your self-worth on how much you do for others. You may struggle with perfectionism or neglect your own needs in favor of helping those around you. Ensuring that your caregiving doesn’t turn into self-sacrifice and that you also prioritize your own health and well-being.

Ceres in the 7th 🏡: Ceres in the 7th house expresses nurturing through relationships, partnerships, and one-on-one connections. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others in a way that fosters harmony, balance, and mutual support. Your way of showing love involves emotional presence, fairness, and being a reliable, supportive partner in both romantic and platonic relationships. You may be drawn to partners who are nurturing themselves or who appreciate your caring and attentive nature. Commitment and partnership are deeply tied to your sense of security, and you likely feel most comfortable when you have strong, supportive relationships in your life. You may also enjoy mediating conflicts or offering emotional guidance to those you love. Ceres in the 7th house can give too much in relationships or to depend on others for validation. You may prioritize taking care of your partner’s needs while neglecting your own. The key to balance is ensuring that your relationships are reciprocal, where you receive just as much care and nourishment as you give.

Ceres in the 8th 🏡: Ceres in the 8th house expresses nurturing through deep emotional bonds, transformation, and shared intimacy. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others on a profound, soul-level, offering them support through life’s darkest moments. Your way of nurturing is intense and deeply personal, often revolving around themes of trust, emotional healing, and shared resources. You may be drawn to relationships where you can play a protective or transformative role, helping others through crises, personal growth, or even financial support. You might also have a strong interest in psychology, healing, or spiritual regeneration. Your own sense of security often comes from deep emotional connections, and you may feel a need to merge with others in meaningful ways. There is a potential for control issues, emotional dependency, or fear of loss. You may struggle with letting go or experience power dynamics in your relationships. The key to balance is learning to nurture without attachment, allowing love to be a source of empowerment rather than control. Healing yourself emotionally is just as important as helping others heal.

Ceres in the 9th 🏡: Ceres in the 9th house expresses nurturing through knowledge, adventure, and personal growth. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others by expanding their horizons—whether through education, travel, philosophy, or spiritual guidance. Your way of nurturing often involves encouraging others to explore new ideas, embrace different cultures, or seek out experiences that broaden their perspectives. You may be drawn to teaching, mentoring, or sharing wisdom as a way of providing emotional support. Your nurturing style is often inspirational, helping others find meaning and purpose in life. You might also feel most cared for when you have the freedom to explore, learn, and experience life without limitations. Ceres in the 9th house can overlook emotional needs in favor of intellectual or philosophical ideals. You may also struggle with restlessness, always seeking the next adventure rather than being fully present. Integrating emotional depth with your love for exploration, ensuring that both you and those you nurture feel secure while embracing growth and new experiences.

Ceres in the 10th 🏡: Ceres in the 10th house expresses nurturing through career, responsibility, and public influence. You feel most fulfilled when you can provide care and support on a larger scale, whether through your profession, leadership roles, or by setting an example for others. Your way of nurturing is often structured, goal-oriented, and tied to achievement—you may see success as a way to provide stability and security for yourself and those you care about. You might be drawn to careers in caregiving, counseling, social work, or any field that allows you to support others in a tangible way. Alternatively, you may have experienced a childhood where responsibility was placed on you early, shaping your view that love and care are connected to duty and ambition. Your sense of security comes from feeling respected and accomplished. Prioritizing work and public image over personal emotional needs. You may also take on too much responsibility for others, feeling like you must always be the provider or protector. Recognizing that nurturing isn’t just about external success—it also involves emotional connection and self-care.

Ceres in the 11th 🏡: Ceres in the 11th house expresses nurturing through friendship, community, and shared ideals. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others in a way that supports their individuality and contributes to the collective good. Your way of nurturing is often expressed through acts of kindness, encouraging others to pursue their dreams, and being a source of emotional support within social circles or groups. You may be drawn to humanitarian efforts, activism, or group-oriented work that allows you to help others on a broader scale. Friendships and social connections play a significant role in your sense of security, and you likely thrive in environments where collaboration and mutual support are valued. You may also be someone who nurtures through innovation and progressive ideas, helping others see new possibilities for their lives. With Ceres in the 11th house there’s a potential to prioritize the collective over personal, one-on-one relationships. You may struggle with emotional intimacy, focusing more on helping groups than forming deep, personal connections. Ensuring that while you nurture the world around you, you also allow yourself to receive personal care and emotional support from close relationships.

Ceres in the 12th 🏡: Ceres in the 12th house expresses nurturing in a deeply spiritual, intuitive, and often self-sacrificing way. You feel most fulfilled when you can care for others through unconditional love, emotional healing, and acts of quiet support. Your way of nurturing is often subtle, working behind the scenes to provide comfort and care, sometimes without others even realizing it. You may be drawn to helping those who are vulnerable, such as the sick, the lost, or those in need of emotional or spiritual guidance. You might also find solace in artistic, mystical, or meditative practices that allow you to connect with something greater than yourself. Your nurturing style often involves deep empathy, and you may feel the emotions of others as if they were your own. Ceres in the 12th house have the tendency to neglect your own needs, over-sacrifice, or take on the burdens of others without boundaries. You may also struggle with feeling unseen or unappreciated for the care you give. Learning to nurture yourself just as much as you nurture others, recognizing that true compassion includes self-care and emotional boundaries.

[riversenchanted]

My advice for your Chiron placement:

- find your house placement and the sign it’s in for most accurate message (example: Chiron in the 1st house in sign of Scorpio)

Chiron 1st house/ Aries: Your wound is connected to your personal expression and authenticity. Leading to insecurity, physical ailments, suppressed anger,and shame. This can create a disconnect between how you present yourself and how you truly feel.

To heal this wound, embrace radical self-acceptance and trust your instincts. Take a leap of faith by setting boundaries, both with others and yourself. Hold yourself accountable for your desires and advocate for your needs. Challenge negative self-talk and self-doubt by asking, “What would my life look like if I let go of others expectations and pursued what I truly want?” With Chiron in the 1st house, it's essential to prioritize your own needs. Regularly check in with yourself to ensure your actions align with your true desires rather than people-pleasing. Remember to show yourself compassion and love, by doing so you encourage others around you to do the same and can help heal those who may struggle in the same ways you do!

Chiron 2nd house/ Taurus:

Your deepest wound relates to material security, self-worth, and stability. You may have felt unsupported at times, leading to a sense of constant lack and difficulty relaxing in the present moment.

To heal, recognize that your worth is not tied to money or possessions. Address feelings of unworthiness stemming from past trauma and explore areas where you may be settling for less due to fear of scarcity. Open yourself to new opportunities for abundance and let go of unnecessary attachments driven by the fear of loss or loneliness.

Address challenges with balancing spending and saving or even hoarding. By confronting these fears, you can begin to heal and find balance in your life. By healing these areas of life you can help others that struggle in these areas as well!

Chiron 3rd house/ Gemini:

Your wound lies in communication, social interactions, and understanding. You may struggle with learning disabilities or speech issues, or just feeling unheard or misunderstood. This can lead to social anxiety and difficulty connecting with others, especially in your early years.

To heal, focus on detaching from others opinions of you. Journaling, writing, and public speaking can help you find your voice. Surround yourself with accepting people and practice mindful communication and active listening. By nurturing this pain, you can transform it into a strength, becoming an effective communicator and even helping others who face similar challenges!

Chiron in 4th House/Cancer:

Your deepest wound relates to family, home life, and emotional stability. Growing up, you may have faced significant hardships that impacted your sense of safety. Healing can be challenging since family is central to your identity. Create a sanctuary at home and build a chosen family to foster support. If safe, work on healing toxic family dynamics. As a generational curse breaker, you may feel alienated, but nurturing yourself will help you appreciate your connections and establish a safe, loving home environment. By creating a safe stable home life you end generational issues and can help heal others who struggle with the same issues.

Chiron in 5th House/Leo:

Your wound lies in creativity, self-expression, and joy. You might struggle with taking up space, feeling unworthy or annoying, even when well-received. Early experiences of bullying or rejection may contribute to these feelings. To heal, identify the root of your insecurities and explore creative outlets to express yourself positively. Cultivate self-trust and avoid second-guessing. Affirmations of self-love and acceptance are essential for building confidence and embracing your true self. By being your most authentic self you encourage others around you to do the same.

Chiron in 6th House/Virgo:

Your wound revolves around health, wellness, and routine. You may overextend yourself, prioritizing others needs at the expense of your own, which can lead to physical or mental health struggles. You may have grown up caring for a loved one in some way or were placed in a situation where your needs often came second, so you might lack boundaries in balancing self-care vs caregiving. To heal, simplify your daily life and establish a structured routine that prioritizes your health. By focusing on self-care and setting practical boundaries for yourself you can also become a healer for others facing similar challenges.

Chiron in 7th House/Libra:

Your wound is centered on personal relationships, partnerships, and justice. You may struggle with trauma in relationships or find it difficult to connect deeply with others, leading to feelings of confusion and isolation. Healing comes from focusing on your individual goals and cultivating independence. It’s essential to balance your needs with those of others, avoid settling for attention, and take the time to truly know people before committing. Additionally, work on opening your heart and learning to trust again after past traumas.

Chiron in 8th House/Scorpio:

Your deepest wound involves intimacy, trust, and shared resources. Past trauma may create fears around vulnerability, making emotional connections difficult. This placement indicates a profound healing journey that requires deep emotional transformation. You will face challenges that confront your fears, often leaving you feeling powerless. However, like a phoenix, you can rise stronger. To heal, explore your innermost self, allow yourself to feel your emotions, and confront your traumas. Embrace surrender and discover your personal strength amidst the darkness. This placement is an indication of being a powerful healer, as you learn to alchemize your pain you increase your personal power and help empower others by doing so.

Chiron in 9th House/Sagittarius:

Your wound centers on spirituality, religion, and faith. Past experiences may have led you to question your beliefs, creating a rift in your spiritual understanding. You might feel betrayed by life and struggle to see the bigger picture, often facing religious trauma or issues with higher education. To heal, engage with topics like psychology, culture, spirituality, and religion. Open yourself to diverse belief systems and experiences. Finding purpose is key to your healing, and accepting your past as part of your journey will help you on your path of soul-searching. By healing these areas of your life you may also help others who feel lost in life as well!

Chiron 10th house/ Capricorn:

Your wounds are around career, public image, father/fatherhood, and authority. Individuals with this placement may struggle with feelings of inadequacy or unworthiness in the professional realm, often facing challenges with authority figures or societal expectations. You may have issues stepping into a leadership role or question your ability to lead confidently. Healing comes through redefining success on one's own terms, embracing leadership roles that feel authentic, and working to build self-worth independent of external validation. By helping others through mentorship or guidance, particularly in career-related matters, Chiron in the 10th house can find a sense of purpose and healing, turning past wounds into a source of wisdom and empowerment.

Chiron 11th house/ Aquarius: Your wounds are related to social groups, friendships, and one’s sense of belonging within a larger community or collective. Individuals with this placement may feel like outsiders or struggle with feeling accepted by their peers, leading to a deep sense of alienation or unworthiness in social circles. Healing occurs through embracing one's uniqueness and finding communities that truly resonate with their authentic self. By fostering deep, meaningful connections and learning to contribute to groups in a way that honors personal values. You can heal your sense of isolation, transforming past wounds into a source of strength and empathy for others.

Chiron 12th house/ Pisces:

Your wound is related to spirituality, empathy, and the sense of oneness with the universe. Individuals with this placement may struggle with feelings of confusion, disillusionment, or a lack of boundaries, often feeling overwhelmed by the suffering of others or disconnected from their own sense of purpose. Healing comes through developing a strong spiritual practice that helps them reconnect with their inner self and a sense of divine support. Embracing their intuitive gifts and learning to establish healthy emotional boundaries are key to healing, allowing them to offer compassion without losing themselves in the process. By transforming past wounds into a deep well of empathy and creativity, Chiron in Pisces can find healing through self-acceptance and a renewed connection to the spiritual or collective whole.

[simpee9000]

Not Just Friends - 4 -

M.List : Prologue : Part 1 : Part 2 : Part 3 : Not edited : 3.8k words

Childhood best friends turned into something more, at least with the label. Katsuki Bakugo, a fast-rising hero and fast-learning guy who is ever so slow in getting attached to and loving someone. Even three long years into a relationship, and your friends even forget you're even dating. Nothing happening, spare a few kisses.. like 3 kisses, during high school. Graduated and living together, and you guys have done absolutely nothing to further the relationship. Are you sure you're not just friends? CW: Smut, brief domestic violence discussion, virginity loss, aggressive flirting from creeps, gore with pro hero stuff (lmk if i missed any) Applies to all chapters regardless of it is in said chapter.

You've spent the past week working through Katsuki's watch. Only putting it down when handed a time restricted request for a support item fix. Testing the quirk removing feature on Mei and a few others around. Since you couldn't remove your own, at least you wouldn't realize until a week or so.

Once all the kinks were worked out, you placed it in a nice sleek black watch box. Tying it closed with a burnt orange ribbon. You were giving it to him as a gift, just like all the other watches you've given him in the past. This one just a lot more expensive and fully designed by you.

It was already Friday by the time the watch was done, completing two days before you said you would.

Friday's were also the days that Katsuki worked at his own agency a couple blocks away. So after getting a cab to his agency, you walked through the door. Instantly being recognized by the security team for the office and being allowed through with only a quick screening, just in case someone was pretending to be you. You smiled at the receptionist, giving a quick wave before you headed to the elevator.

After pushing in the button for the top floor, the floor that only held him and his closest heroes, you opened your phone to check the time. It was right before his lunch started, which meant he would likely be getting out of the showers. He always took a shower after first patrol and once getting home.

The task of looking at your phone made you think of making yourself a watch, maybe with a support item for yourself incase within. Break-ins for support items were getting a lot more common now days and you couldn't be safe enough. With nanotechnology you could probably make an upgraded suit to the one you've made in high school, that shared many similarities to Iron-man's.

Before you could ramble in your own brain about the idea anymore, you reached Katsuki's floor. Stepping out of the elevator and greeting his manger who was sitting just outside Katsuki's office in his own desk.

"How's your day so far, Tanaka?" you smiled at him.

He looked up at you, "I work with Dynamight," he said plainly and looked back down to his monitor. He reminded you of Shoto that way. Blunt and straight to the point.

You laughed lightly, "Right, he can be a lot." You looked around the office for a moment, "I'm assuming he is still in the showers."

"You'd be correct," his monotone voice would of made you feel stupid if you didn't know him. He's always like this, never changing his tone. He was always one steady mood, it's the main reason Katsuki chose him. Tanaka wouldn't get upset, but rather not take no as an answer. Which Katsuki hated but needed at the same time. It helped his press a lot.

You rocked on your heels for a moment, "Well, I'm going to wait in his office."

"Wait," he paused you, his face slightly paled. He looked stressed.

"What?"

"He told me not to let you in there without him," he answered, face back to normal without the threat of you going in the office.

Your brows furrowed, "Why?"

He shrugged, "Just made it clear to not let you in."

"Okay?" you stood confused on what to do. Kirishima wasn't in the office yet, and neither was Denki or Sero. It was the main reason Katsuki had lunch at this time. "Do you have anything I can help on then?"

He looked at you from over his glasses, "I suppose. Do you think he is more likely to do an interview with Heroes' Gossip or a fan signing at a Hero Expo next week?"

Katsuki hated both those things. Heroes Gossip was exactly that, heroes' gossip, and it got into the nitty gritty details. People who did well on that show were Heroes like Denki and Sero, ones with enough charm to by pass and person questions. Katsuki only went on once, and it was a train wreck, they brought up the details of his childhood with Deku and you. Asking how he felt about the idea of you and Izuku dating. It set him off.

On the other hand, he hated standing or sitting in one area for too long, especially signing things for fans all day long. It was hell on earth for him. He'd have to deal with fan girls trying to grab at him as well as older people criticizing his work.

"I think a Hero Expo might be better, as long as there isn't a hero he hates there and it isn't longer than three hours," you gave your feedback.

"You don't think he's over the last interview?" Tanaka rubbed at his eyes under his glasses.

You hummed, "He likely is, but that doesn't mean that it won't happen again. It'd be another PR nightmare."

"What is?" you looked towards the voice. Giving Katsuki a bright smile.

"Just you," you teased.

"Fuck off," he grumbled, walking past you and to his office door.

"Am I allowed in now?" you stepped alongside him.

Katsuki looked at his manger, giving him rare look of appreciation, and opened his door, "Yeah, Tanaka got food for a us a little bit ago. Should still be warm."

He opened the door for you, letting you walk in first and stepping in behind you, letting the door fall shut.

"What's up with the extra chair?" you pointed towards the chair that sat to the side that matched the one at his desk.

He walked towards the chair, grabbing in at rolling it to sit on the other side of the desk, "Yours, you always fuckin' steal mine."

You flushed at the gift. It was a open invitation into his office. It showed your place next to him. You ran your hand over the top of the chair, spinning it around to see the small details of your favorite color in the stitching. He custom ordered it.

"Thank you," you smiled at him, "You're the best." Finally, you take a seat and rolling it closer to his desk in order to eat. Setting your bag down next to you.

He flushed at the praise. "Tanaka got some of the food you likely from down the street," he pushed a takeout box near you. You instantly opened it, seeing it filled with your favorite order. It was a small sushi bar that you went to often, loving their rolls. Kirishima showed it to you after Fat Gum showed him.

You cracked open a pair of chopsticks that were left on top of the takeout box. Quickly looking to see that he was already digging in, obviously starving from work. "Busy day?" you asked picking up some food and eating a bite.

"Two bank robberies from one group. Pain in my ass," he grumbled, quickly scarfing down more food. After he physically couldn't fit more food in his mouth, he swallowed and drank some water before adding, "Got their asses though."

You nodded along, eating your food at a normal human pace.

"You do anything?" he put picked up another sushi roll in his chopsticks, dipping it in a spicy soy sauce.

The watch in you bag basically burned you with how quickly you remembered about it. Excited to finally give it to him. Before the look could wash over your face, you schooled your features. "Just normal work, Mei blew up some of her new project, so that was something." You were slightly surprised he hasn't brought up his watch to you recently. But you figured it was because his quirk calmed down a little, you haven't seen it act up since Tuesday.

"Isn't she always doing shit like that?" he asked, pointing his chopsticks at you.

"Yeah," you laughed. Looking down at his box you saw he only had two pieces left when he order two full rolls. "God damn vacuum cleaner," you laughed at him.

"Fuck off," Katsuki barked, "I was fucking workin' my ass off today."

"Still, god damn," you often teased him for how fast he eat compare to you. While he was on his last bites, you still had five to go. It wasn't that you were a slow eater, he was just a insane person.

He bit down on the last bites of food. Grumbling and crossing his arms. Proving whatever point he had.

Katsuki went on about his day as you finished up your food, going over how the chase went and what quirks the people had. It was the normal conversation of your lunches. He shared what he could about his job and you did the same.

Once you were done, he grabbed your take-out and threw away your trash. Harshly falling back into his chair, black with orange lining, matching yours.

You looked over his face, idly listening to him go own about his day as you admired him. He had a scar covering the right side of his face. Looking at it too long reminded you of what happened that day. The thought made you want to through up. Quickly, you pinched the fat of your thigh, reminding yourself of the present. You often went into thoughts like these. It was painful but the life of a pro heroes girlfriend.

Rather than dwell on his injury, you looked over the rest of him. His eyes were bright with a fire as he explained how he saved a kid from being buried in cement. You looked over the broad length of his chest, watching it rise with his breathing. Scanning down his arms till you saw his rough fingers drumming across the desk. All the small ways the proved he was alive.

"You good?"

The sudden question knocked you out of thought, you plastered on a smile, "Yeah."

His face scrunched up. before he could call bullshit you moved to reach for your bag.

"I actually brought you something too," you move your hand around your bag before you brought up the watch case. You placed it in the middle of the desk. His face was blank but his eyes were running over the box like crazy. You pushed it towards him when he didn't make a move for it, "Open it."

He glanced up at you, receiving a nod of encouragement, before he grabbed the box. Despite being a rough person, in attitude and everything else, he undid the box as carefully as possible. Sliding the ribbon off and opening the box slowly, as it would shatter.

His hands started shaking at the sight of it. In fear of dropping it, he rushed to place it back on the table. Frantically wiping his hands on his pants.

"Do you like it?" you questioned, worried from his reaction.

"How does it work?" he replied instead, picking it up and putting on his right hand.

Relieved that he liked it enough to immediately wear it, you leaned to point at the watch. "So if you twist this dial to the left one click, then to the right two clicks, and then back to the left for three click, you will have it unlock for identification, " you explained the detailed process. He wanted to make sure that no one else could unlock it and you made sure of it. Even you couldn't activate it once you set passwords in place. "Finally, see how it says 100% that's what your quirk is at right now, so turn it to zero and see how you feel," you sat back in your seat, watching him turn the dial.

He looked like a kid on Christmas as he spun it to 0%, his eyes flicked to you, "So I can try to use my quirk and it won't work?" You nodded.

With the dial at 0% he immediately felt the difference, the constant buzz of his quirk washing away, leaving just the buzz of your presence to warm him. He raised his hand outwards, still weary as he tried to set off his quirk, getting no spark or feeling of it at all. He tested a stronger explosion but received none.

"It fuckin' works," he smiled almost wolfish. You could see the ideas running though his brain at the lack of spark.

He played with the dial a little bit, seeing how the 20% and 40% suppressed his quirk. You glanced at the clock above his desk, seeing your lunch almost up. You'd have to leave soon if you wanted to stay on schedule. "Will this help your quirk training?" you asked, making sure he got what he needed.

"Huh?" he looked down at you from where he was standing and testing his quirk.

"You asked Z' about it for quirk training, that and your quirk's been weird," you filled in the gaps, lost as to how he didn't understand what you were talking about.

He let out a cough followed by a nervous laugh, "Yeah, should work great."

You shot him a look at his odd behavior, picking up your bag and standing to leave.

"What's your plans tonight," he fumbled with his words slightly.

"None?" you hiked the bag better unto your back, grabbing your phone so you could place an uber back to your agency. You didn't have your walking shoes on today. "I was just going to head home and read," you finished answering, "Why?" You quickly finished placing an uber before looking back up at him, confused once again.

His face flushed, " Ramen then? At out favorite spot," he stumbled to add on.

Your face softened. That was your main date spot, only used on highly celebrated dates or anniversaries. "Why there?"

"Just want to have a date with you," he mumbled, face now bright red.

"That happy about the watch? Kats you don't need to take me to dinner, I make you support gear all the time," you stepped closer to him, having been separated by his desk before he stepped around to you as well.

"You wanna go or not?" he huffed, fed up with being embarrassed.

"We don't need to-"

"Do you want to? Cause I want to," he cut you off, he crossed his arms as he leaned into his desk, you standing in front of him.

"Sure," you held back the tease, not wanting to set him off.

"Good, we'll leave home at seven," he pushed off from the desk, walking you out to the door.

You smiled at him, "See you then."

---

The ramen joint was fancy and hidden. Hardly anyone went there if they didn't want extreme privacy. It was something you and Katsuki quickly learned that you needed in your relationship. The public didn't fully know about your relationship, but they did know you two were close and childhood friends. So people speculated off that. So to avoid rumors, Katsuki and you went to hidden gem restaurants.

This ramen joint being a favorite, it was lit purely off candles or warm low lights. It was one of the only, if not the only, romantic restaurants that you two went to. Cozy lights with a dress code of formal.

So the two you walked up to the door, Katsuki offering a hand to help you up the stairs before the restaurant. While your heels and dress didn't make it too difficult, it was nice that it was offered. After grabbing his hand, you expected him to let go at the top of the stairs, but he led you through the restaurant, following the hostess and dragging you along.

Only when at the table he let go. Once the waiter got your drink orders Katsuki fumbled with his hands, "Thanks for the watch."

"Kats, it's nothing," you laughed off, "I've made you many support items, I don't know why you're so happy about this one." His face flushed at the call out. It really confused you, he seemed thrilled that he could turn off his quirk. It was honestly sad. Before you could ask anymore, the waiter gave you your sake and water before taking your food order. The service was great, but annoying for conversation currently.

"Just noticed the detail in this one," he shrugged, "fits me well and shit."

Now he was trying to play it cool? It was all weird.

"Are you sure you're telling me everything?" you accused.

"How was work this week? We spent lunch talkin' 'bout mine," he redirected the conversation.

You shot him another glare at his weird behavior, you'd figure him out eventually. For now you'd have a nice dinner with him.

---

Dinner was just that. Nothing much more. Service was great, so was the food, but conversation was horrible. He dodged any question towards himself, even if it was small. It was all about you and it felt wrong, in a strange way.

The two of you walked the short way back to your apartment. But with looking up at the sky, you regretted that decision. Small water droplets cover the sidewalk slowly. The rain painting it slowly. The streets were empty at only 9pm, you should of taken that as a sign of bad weather. Regardless, the two of you continued walking, him grabbing your hand once out of the restaurant. It was weird, but you let the thought fade at the chance to hold unto him for a little longer.

You swayed in your steps taking up the sidewalk as you stretched your arm to stay linked with Katsuki. He gave you a smile at your behavior. Making you flush and focus more heavily on your step. It reminded you of the romance movies the described this exact situation. A couple walking in the rain, late at night, streets empty as they confessed their love.

Katsuki tugged you towards him, spinning you into his hold, his hand letting go of your and grabbing onto your hips and you leaned into him. Your hands resting on his chest from surprise at the sudden change.

"You got that look on your face again," he smirked down at you. While used to his smile over the years, his smirk still made you weak in the knees.

"Huh?"

"You have a face you make when your thinking on your shitty romance movies," he pointed out.

"I do not," you pouted.

"Yeah it's like this," he scrunched him face to mimic yours horribly.

"Is not," you slapped his chest lightly, "I'd be surprised if you dated me while I made that face."

"Uh huh?" he teased, "cause it was spot on."

You rolled your eyes, face red from being in his hold.

"So what were you thinkin'?" he pushed, squeezing your hips slightly.

"Just all those movies with couples," you dodged until he squeezed again. "Fine, couples kissing in the rain, happy?"

His face flushed, matching the red hue on yours, before he looked up to avoided your stare. You were surprised he was holding you in general, but the fact he hasn't let go truly stunned you. Hugs between you two didn't last longer than a couple seconds. And this was a lot more romantic than a hug.

"Do you wanna?" he looked back down, his eyes tracing over your face between landing on your lips.

"Wh..what?" you stuttered. He looked back up to your eyes.

"Do you want to kiss?" he spelt out for you, face becoming impossibly redder.

"Yeah," you breathed out, looking down to his lips before both your eyes shot to look at each other. Making sure this was okay.

The tension was shooting through your bones. He hasn't offered to kiss since graduation, which was over a year ago.

He pulled his hand away from your waist and up to your face, wiping away the rain that fell on your cheek before he slowly leaned in. You eyes fluttered shut before you felt his lips hit yours. Instantly melting into the new feeling.

Every time before he was either freshly from the hospital or the two of you were excited and let it run you into a kiss that only lasted a moment before you were off running to friends and family during graduation.

Your knees caved slightly, letting you fall even deeper into the kiss, deeper into him, as you tilted your head. The kiss was just like him, explosive. It left you buzzing as he pulled away for a breath.

He rested his forehead against yours, closing his eyes before breathing out heavily, "I'm sorry we don't do that often enough."

Your once closed eyes shot up, you slightly pushed away from him, "What?"

He furrowed his eyebrows, "I just wish I haven't been holding that out of our relationship."

You pushed yourself out of his hold, stepping back, "Katsuki Bakugo."

"What?" he almost demanded.

"I told you that I was fine without physical touch. I've been fine without it. Yet the second you've found out, you've been weird," you pushed a finger into his chest, "Now your kissing me, saying sorry? How do you think that makes me feel?"

He shook his head, "I don't see the problem."

"Of course you don't," you basically lectured, "Our relationship has been steady. Sure it hasn't been typical, but it's been us. Yet the second someone mentions that I like touch, you've been all weird."

"I want to make you happy? Is that fuckin' horrible?" Katsuki huffed.

You scoff, "No, but you were already making me happy. Now you are doubting our relationship, not telling me about your quirk issues, and worst of all, pushing yourself when I didn't ask. If you aren't ready for things that's fine! If your never ready, that's also fine. I just want you Katsuki. I want the you that doesn't give two fucks about what anyone thinks."

His head hung, his hands coming up to rub at his face. "I don't know how to fuckin' do this shit," he mumbled.

You stepped closer to him, "Just stop worrying about every little thing. I'm with you, you don't have to win me again. Just do what you want and I'll tell you if I have an issue."

"And what if what I want is to kiss you more and other stupid shit," he muttered under his breath.

Your face flamed with the comment, "Well," you cleared you throat, "if that's what you want, then I'd be happy to. But only if it's what you actually want."

"Of fuckin' course it is, why wouldn't I want to kiss my damn girlfriend," his wolfish grin was back quicker than ever as you pulled you into him. Quickly getting over the little spat the two of you just had.

"I don't know, you haven't wanted to before," you shrugged in his hold.

"Oh I've wanted to," he protested.

"Then why haven't you?" you tilted your head.

"Reasons," he took your held tilt as an opening, slotting his lips against yours. You slapped at his shoulder for dodging the question but you quickly moved to wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him in closer. He hugs you closer as he swayed the two of you in your kiss. Letting the rain soak the two of you to the bone without a second thought. Only worried about the one in front of you. Any worry dripping out of your soul just as the water dripped out of your clothes. Because even though he hated the rain, he loved you more.

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North Node Through the Houses

The North Node is not just about this life. It’s the unfinished business of your soul, the echoes of past lives that still hum beneath your everyday decisions. Think of it as the place where your soul keeps hitting repeat, lifetime after lifetime, until you get it right. The South Node can show us who we were in past lives, but the North Node shows us what we need to learn from that life. It demands that you evolve beyond the easy way out. It drags you into uncomfortable territory because that’s where the real growth happens.

Let’s get into what it means to have the North Node in each house.

With the North Node in the first house, your past lives were likely spent in the shadows, always focused on other people’s needs, emotions, and desires. You were the caretaker, the mediator, the one who made sure everyone else was happy and safe while you quietly faded into the background. You probably sacrificed your own identity for the sake of peace or belonging. But in this life, the universe is flipping the script and telling you to stop hiding. This is the lifetime where you must step fully into your own power and claim yourself. It’s not selfish; it’s essential. You are being called to develop a stronger sense of who you are outside of relationships, outside of what others expect from you. This might feel uncomfortable at first because you’ve been conditioned across lifetimes to put others first. But now, the universe wants you to put yourself at the center of your life. There will be moments where you’ll feel like you’re abandoning the old you, but that’s exactly what your soul needs. This time around, it’s about self-discovery, standing tall in your individuality, and letting go of the need for validation from others. Trust that this journey is about finding your truth, not living someone else’s.

When the North Node is in the second house, you are here to rewrite your relationship with worth and abundance. In your past lives, you likely struggled with self-worth. Maybe you were in poverty or servitude, or perhaps you lived lives where wealth or security felt out of reach. You learned to believe that you weren’t enough, that you had to prove your value through what you could do for others. In this life, the universe is pushing you to confront those old stories and realize that your worth is not tied to how much you give or how little you need. You are meant to feel deserving of wealth, stability, and comfort. This is a lifetime where you are here to build something lasting, something that supports you rather than drains you. You may find yourself facing challenges around money or possessions, but these are not meant to punish you. Instead, they’re here to force you to claim your right to abundance. This isn’t just about money; it’s about recognizing your own intrinsic value. You’ll learn that you no longer need to live in scarcity, and that accepting what you’re worth is part of your soul’s evolution.

If your North Node is in the third house, this lifetime is all about finding and expressing your voice. In your past lives, you may have lived in silence, either by choice or circumstance. Maybe you were restricted by the rules of society, family, or culture, or perhaps you were the one who chose to stay quiet to avoid conflict or punishment. You likely felt safer keeping your thoughts and ideas to yourself, never really speaking out or asserting your truth. But now, the universe is pushing you to break that silence. In this life, you are here to communicate, to learn, to explore new ideas, and to speak up. You’ll feel an urge to share your thoughts, even when it feels risky or uncomfortable. Your soul needs to experience the power of words, of ideas, of being heard. There may be times where you second-guess yourself or fear rejection, but this is where your soul’s growth lies. You are not here to keep your truth hidden. Whether through writing, teaching, or simply engaging in deeper conversations, you’re being called to expand your mind and share your wisdom. This is a lifetime where communication is key, not just for personal growth but for connecting with others in a way that transforms both you and them.

With the North Node in your fourth house, your past lives were spent chasing external success, status, and recognition. Maybe you were someone who lived for applause or defined yourself by your career. You were so focused on outward achievements that you neglected the emotional and spiritual foundation within. This time around, the universe says, “Enough.” Now, it’s not about what you accomplish on the outside, but how you nurture your roots on the inside. You’re being asked to create a real sense of home — within yourself and maybe even with family. This is about emotional vulnerability, learning to open up and embrace softness, something you might find incredibly challenging if you’ve been wired to believe that only external success matters. You’re being called to redefine success, not by titles or money, but by how connected you feel to your inner world. This will feel disorienting because in past lives, you thrived on that outer recognition. But in this lifetime, your soul’s peace comes from grounding and creating emotional safety.

For those with the North Node in the fifth house, your past lives were all about service to others. Maybe you were a healer, a caretaker, or even someone deeply immersed in community work. While that was noble, it also left you with a habit of putting your own joy and creativity on the back burner. This lifetime is a whole different story. The universe is pushing you toward pleasure, toward self-expression, toward reclaiming your own creativity without feeling guilty about it. You are meant to dive headfirst into what lights you up — art, romance, joy, whatever sets your soul on fire. You’ve spent lifetimes being selfless, but this time it’s about embracing the beauty of being self-full. This won’t be easy because you’re used to measuring your worth by how much you give to others, but now it’s time to give to yourself. You are here to learn how to play again, to fall in love with life and not apologize for it.

When the North Node falls in your sixth house, in past lives you may have been a dreamer, lost in spiritual or creative pursuits, escaping the mundane aspects of life. You were the mystic, the artist, or even the one who wandered without structure. But in this lifetime, the universe is pulling you down to earth. You are here to master the art of daily routine, service, and responsibility. This time, it’s not about escaping into the clouds; it’s about rolling up your sleeves and tending to the details of life. This placement demands you find meaning in the small things — in work, in health, in service to others. You are being asked to take what might seem like “boring” tasks and transform them into something meaningful. Structure will be your friend, even if you resist it at first. You’re learning that discipline isn’t the enemy of creativity but its container. This is about grounding yourself, finding your place in the world by being of real, tangible service.

If your North Node is in the seventh house, this lifetime is all about relationships. In past lives, you were fiercely independent, possibly even a bit of a loner. You didn’t rely on anyone because you thought you had to do it all yourself, and maybe you even took pride in that. But now, the universe is pushing you to embrace partnership. You’re here to learn the beauty of compromise, to lean on others, and to create harmony in your one-on-one connections. This is not about losing yourself in relationships but learning that true growth comes from opening your heart to another. You’ll feel pulled to develop deep, committed partnerships, whether in love or business, and it will challenge your past life instincts to go it alone. It might feel uncomfortable, even scary, to trust others with your heart and your journey, but this is where your soul needs to grow. You’re learning that true strength lies not in isolation, but in collaboration and connection.

With the North Node in the eighth house, your past lives were likely lived in the comfort of the material world. You were someone who played it safe, who stayed on the surface of things, possibly attached to money, possessions, or status. But this time around, the universe is saying, “Dive deep.” This placement is all about transformation, letting go, and stepping into the unknown. You are meant to confront your fears, whether they are about intimacy, power, or even death itself. The eighth house demands that you shed old skins, walk through the fire of transformation, and come out on the other side reborn. This could feel terrifying because, in past lives, you avoided the dark, the intense, the things that couldn’t be controlled. But now, your soul is hungry for depth. You’ll be drawn to explore the mysteries of life, to face your shadows, and to embrace the power that comes from letting go of what no longer serves you. It’s time to step out of the comfort zone of material security and into the transformative power of your inner world.

When the North Node is in the ninth house, in past lives, you were all about the details. Maybe you were the scholar, the critic, or someone who clung tightly to rules and facts. But this time, the universe is calling you to go beyond the known. You’re here to expand your mind, your belief systems, and your horizons. This lifetime is about embracing adventure, travel, and higher learning. It’s about stepping out of the rigidity of what you know and diving into the vastness of what you don’t know. You might feel an urge to explore different cultures, philosophies, or spiritual practices. The ninth house pushes you to stop thinking so small and start embracing the bigger picture. It’s time to leave behind the safety of the familiar and embark on a journey of self-discovery that’s expansive and, yes, a little wild. Your soul craves adventure, and this lifetime is where you’ll find it.

If the North Node lands in your tenth house, in past lives you were likely focused on home and family, living a life that was more private, more intimate. You were the one who kept things safe and cozy, avoiding the spotlight. But now, the universe is pushing you to step out into the world and claim your public role. This lifetime is about ambition, about achieving something that impacts the world at large. You’re here to build a legacy, to step into positions of leadership or authority, and to make your mark. This won’t feel comfortable because your past lives were all about staying behind the scenes. But now, the universe is asking you to stand tall, to take on responsibility, and to be seen. This is where your soul needs to grow — in the pursuit of a greater purpose beyond the confines of home.

In the eleventh house, your North Node journey is about community and collective progress. In past lives, you may have focused on your personal desires or immediate circle, maybe even isolating yourself from broader social issues. But now, the universe is calling you to engage with the world, to step out of the small bubble of personal goals and embrace the power of the collective. You are here to learn how to work within groups, to contribute to causes greater than yourself, and to push humanity forward. This lifetime is about finding your place in society, whether that’s through activism, innovation, or simply connecting with people who share your vision. You’re meant to move from self-centered pursuits to community-focused contributions. This might feel uncomfortable because you’re stepping into a larger role, but this is where you will find your true impact.

Finally, with the North Node in the twelfth house, you’ve spent past lives wrapped up in the material world, focused on tangible results, daily routines, and the practical side of life. But now, the universe is guiding you toward the spiritual, the unseen, and the mystical. You are here to learn the art of surrender, to trust in something greater than yourself, and to dive deep into the subconscious mind. This lifetime is about letting go of control, embracing your intuition, and exploring the realms beyond the physical world. You’ll feel drawn to meditation, spiritual practices, or even isolation at times as you seek to understand the deeper truths of existence. This can feel disorienting if you’re used to structure and predictability, but your soul is craving connection with the divine, the mysteries of life, and the wisdom that comes from stillness and surrender. This is the lifetime where you learn to trust the flow of the universe and let go of the need to have all the answers.

Sending you all my love and blessings, Ash (@AstroA3h via Instagram & TikTok) 💓 Ready for your own personal reading? Visit astroash.net to book yours today! ✨

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can u do choi Jong-in hcs when reader's paranoid or anxious even at home with little noises in the quiet? ✌️✌️

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Choi Jong-In x Reader (anxiety hcs)

He Recognizes the Signs Instantly

Jong-In is sharp—he’s trained his senses to pick up on subtle changes in the environment, and he can easily tell when you're feeling off. When you're suddenly jittery at home, even with the smallest noise causing you to tense up or jump, he picks up on the shift in your energy. He’ll notice the way you stop mid-task, how your eyes dart around the room, or the way you sit a little too still, trying to convince yourself that everything is fine.

Making Sure You’re Not Alone

The first thing he’ll do when he senses that you’re feeling uneasy is make sure you’re not alone. Jong-In will quietly approach you and ask if you’re okay, his voice soft and soothing. If you don’t respond, he'll step closer, gently resting a hand on your shoulder, or if you're sitting, he’ll sit beside you. He knows that the presence of someone who cares is often enough to push away the worst of the paranoia.

Breaking the Silence

He understands that silence can amplify anxiety. When you're feeling anxious, every small creak of the floorboard, every little noise outside becomes magnified in your mind. To combat this, he’ll deliberately break the silence, playing soft background music or turning on a calming show, making sure that there’s enough sound to fill the space. His goal isn’t to drown out your thoughts, but to offer something to focus on instead of the quiet that feels deafening.

Checking the Sources of Noise

If the sound of something moving in the house makes you nervous, Jong-In won’t hesitate to check it out. Whether it’s the sound of something tapping against a window, the house settling, or even just a rustle in the hallway, he’s quick to investigate. And when he does, he makes sure to report back to you with a calm, “Nothing’s there,” his steady presence helping you feel secure.

Reassuring Without Pressuring

Sometimes, you might try to brush off your anxiety, wanting to avoid worrying him. He knows better, though. He’ll gently remind you that it's okay to be scared and that you don’t need to hide your feelings. He won’t press you to talk about it if you’re not ready, but he’ll quietly stay close, his very presence reassuring you that you’re safe. If you need to talk, he’s all ears, but if you just need the comfort of his silence, he’s fine with that too.

Calming Rituals

Also, Jong-In learned that anxiety often needs a form of distraction to get out of your head. He’s found a few calming rituals that work for you, like making a cup of tea or going for a quick walk outside. He’ll even offer to make your favorite comfort food, knowing that focusing on the simple act of preparing something soothing will help ground you. His calm and methodical movements are a stark contrast to the racing thoughts in your mind, helping you feel centered.

Comfort in His Presence

If your mind keeps spiraling, he'll stay close without saying much. His body language says it all: his steady breath, his posture that’s ready to protect you, and the quiet way he remains by your side. He doesn’t need to constantly talk or reassure you in words. Sometimes, just feeling his presence next to you—knowing he's there for you—is enough to ease your anxiety.

Giving You Space When You Need It

This gentleman is attuned to your needs. If you start to feel overwhelmed, he’s not the type to force comfort on you. Instead, he’ll give you some space, knowing that being alone for a few minutes can help you gather your thoughts. He might retreat to a different room, but always leaves the door open, physically and emotionally. He makes it clear that when you’re ready, you don’t have to face the anxiety alone.

Physical Contact to Ground You

When the fear starts to creep in and the noise around you feels too much, he has a way of grounding you through gentle physical touch. A hand on your back, a brush of his fingers against your arm, or his arm around your shoulders—simple, non-intrusive gestures that remind you of his constant support. These small acts help pull you out of the whirlwind of your mind, making you feel anchored in the moment.

Reminding You to Breathe

When anxiety starts to take over, Jong-In will often remind you to breathe, guiding you through slow, deliberate breaths. He doesn’t push too hard but quietly stays beside you, offering gentle prompts like “In through your nose, out through your mouth.” His calm voice helps you focus on something other than the fear, bringing your attention back to the present.

Making Sure You’re Comfortable

When you're ready to settle down, he makes sure you’re as comfortable as possible. Whether that’s adjusting the blankets on the couch or dimming the lights just enough to create a cozy atmosphere, he’ll make sure everything is set up for your comfort. If you’re trying to sleep, he’ll stay close until you feel settled enough to rest, ensuring that the quiet is no longer something you’re afraid of, but a peaceful space for you to breathe.

You’re sitting on the couch, your knees drawn up to your chest as you watch the shadows dance across the walls. The quiet is unsettling tonight. The hum of the refrigerator seems unusually loud, the ticking of the clock in the hallway too noticeable. Every little creak and groan from the house makes you jump, your anxiety slowly creeping up your spine.

Jong-In enters the room, his gaze immediately locking on you. He doesn’t need to ask what’s wrong. The way you’re sitting, the way your eyes dart around the room, tells him everything he needs to know.

Without a word, he walks over and sits beside you, his presence an anchor in the sea of your spiraling thoughts. He reaches out, placing a hand gently on your back. The warmth of his touch is grounding, and you immediately feel some of the tension ease out of your shoulders.

“Do you want me to check the house?” he asks quietly, his voice calm, reassuring. “I can make sure everything’s locked up, and there’s nothing to worry about.”

You shake your head, even though your mind is still racing. “It’s not that… I just… I keep hearing things,” you whisper, your voice small.

“I know,” he says softly, his thumb making slow circles on your back. “I’m here with you. I’ll make sure there’s nothing to be afraid of.”

He doesn’t rush you or push for more details. Instead, he stands and walks over to the door, casually checking the locks. The sound of his footsteps, steady and calm, seems to take away some of the unease that’s been building in your chest. You watch as he double-checks the windows, his movements precise and unhurried. When he’s finished, he returns to your side, giving you a small smile.

“Nothing’s wrong,” he says gently. “It’s just the house settling, but I’ll stay right here.”

He sits back down next to you, his arm slipping around your shoulders. The warmth from his side and the steady rhythm of his breathing help you relax, and for the first time tonight, the quiet doesn’t feel so overwhelming. You let yourself rest against him, your racing thoughts slowing down.

“Thank you,” you whisper, finally able to breathe again.

He doesn’t need to say anything more. He simply holds you, letting the stillness of the night wrap around you both, until sleep finally comes, soft and calm.

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Writing Notes: Insecurities

Insecurities - feelings of anxiety that make you question your worth, accomplishments, and values.

This lack of self-confidence impedes personal growth, relationships, and decision-making.

Different factors trigger feelings of inadequacy; however, some common causes of insecurities include a recent failure, past trauma, or unrealistic expectations.

While insecurity is a natural feeling to experience, chronic insecurity can harm your mental well-being.

Signs of Insecurity

Insecurities result in physical, mental, and emotional symptoms.

Common signs include anxiety, low self-esteem, depression, and self-isolation.

In a work setting, signs of insecurity include both perfectionism and low performance. While some people display job insecurity through an inability to recognize progress, others allow their insecurities to inhibit their performance.

Types of Insecurity

Different forms of insecurity have distinct effects on an individual’s self-worth. Below are a few common types of insecurity:

Body image insecurity: Those with body image insecurity feel insecure about how they look. Constantly comparing your outward appearance to unrealistic beauty standards is a common cause of a negative self-image. Severe cases of body image insecurity can result in disordered eating.

Job insecurity: Anxiety surrounding your professional life is also a type of insecurity. Job insecurity encompasses any form of self-doubt relating to your work life. This type of insecurity may include doubting your performance and worrying about factors outside your control, such as inflation and economic depressions.

Relationship insecurity: Unstable connections with loved ones can also result in insecurities. Relationship insecurity occurs when past experiences or feelings of doubt prevent you from feeling safe in your close relations. These feelings of self-doubt prevent individuals from trusting friends, family, and significant others.

Social anxiety: Feeling nervous or self-conscious in social situations is a common insecurity. Social anxiety describes feeling insecure in the presence of others. This type of insecurity typically stems from a fear of judgment and can prevent you from speaking up at work or interacting with friends and family members.

Impact of Insecurity

Insecurities can impact both your professional and personal well-being.

In a work environment, insecurities reduce self-confidence and hinder job performance.

From a personal standpoint, feelings of inadequacy negatively affect your relationships, resulting in jealousy and self-sabotage.

Allowing insecurities to dominate your mindset also prevents you from believing in yourself and achieving your goals.

How to Overcome Insecurities

Give yourself time to reflect and change as you overcome your insecurities. Consider the following tips for improving your mindset:

Build an uplifting social network. Developing healthy relationships with friends, family, and colleagues prevents insecurities associated with negative attachment styles. Set clear boundaries in your relationships, so you feel secure and valued in your connections. Engaging with loved ones is also a strategy for preventing negative thoughts and self-isolation.

Focus on meaningful hobbies. Dedicate free time to ventures that fill you with a sense of purpose and happiness. Stepping outside your comfort zone and learning something new provides you with a level of self-confidence that helps you overcome insecurities.

Foster positive thinking. Overcoming insecurities starts with how you interact with yourself. To build self-confidence, replace negative thoughts with positive affirmations that highlight your strengths. When you catch your inner critic thinking in a negative cycle, take a moment to stop and reflect. Forgive and remind yourself that mistakes are an opportunity for growth.

Practice self-care. Prioritize your emotional and mental health through mindfulness. One way you can incorporate mindfulness into your daily life is by practicing self-compassion. This form of self-care stems from treating yourself with the same level of kindness and care you dedicate to those around you.

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mindset shifts & reframes for anxious attachment:

message: I’ve been doing a lot of inner work lately regarding my anxious attatchment (again) of course because of course you never stop growing and learning and I’m determined to fill myself up with clean water until I rinse all the dirt out. I wanted to share with you some mindset shifts and reframes I’ve discovered that can help you become more aligned with a more secure version of yourself and therefore navigate your relationships in a safe way. These types of things take willpower and the ability to slip into that small space between autonomous behavior and making a change and turn the dial all the way towards making a change. It takes time. Be patient with yourself. Show yourself grace. Give yourself time to open up and explore what it may look like and feel like to not be imprisoned by your fear of loss or abandonment. I’ve sort of been tiptoeing around this topic, on my personal TikTok I posted a couple of slides about what you should be doing to prepare yourself for long term relationships and marriage if that’s what you seek. I wanted to do more relationship, self help and self care content. I feel that my place on my blog has been a lot of divination content and trying to gently guide the collective in the direction of healing through that divination which is just as beautiful and valid but I want to help in any way I can and know how.

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1. Someone’s behavior, silence, or choice isn’t always about you.

This one’s a really good grounding technique I’ve learned to use over the years. This practice of course, requires practice and your willingness to step outside of yourself and see things from a rational perspective while you’re in the throws of nervous system dysregulation and/or anxiety. Misunderstand me not, I have seen peoples opinions about the minds of the anxious attached and how villainized they may become by outsiders for being “selfish” or “self-centered” or “being intentionally manipulative to restore or create closeness”. The truth is a large root of a lot of your behavior is fear of abandonment or loss and when you’re up to your neck in anxiety it’s really hard for anyone to rationalize or step outside of that blinding dysregulation so that they can take the wheel and drive themselves to safety. You may love and care for someone deeply, want them around, want their attention, want their time, or want to feel as though they value you and they very well could but it’s important to realize and recognize that the cause for someone’s behavior is not ALWAYS due to something we did,said, or were. Humans are messy, people’s lives are complicated, people participate in various behaviors with various functions. Just like yourself they may slip into behaviors or mental states that push them to participate in behavior not everyone understands or interprets clearly.

2. Identify your fears and what keeps you imprisoned in your anxiety or what pushes you to participate in any such behavior that may take a lot out of you to do or may cause you to feel a sense of shame after all is said and done.

These fears can be all types of things they can stem from rejection and shame that we’ve accumulated over the years, ideas of self inadequacy or imposter syndrome, fear of abandonment, fear of being too much or fear of vulnerability, fear of being forgotten, fear of being unlovable, etc. you are going to want to try to train your mind to disconnect from the beliefs that fuel these ideas although it may be difficult due to you potentionally not having adequate real life reinforcement to solidify these positive ideas, lacking real reinforcement of your worth or having not experienced real or secure love. A helpful practice is to pause and ask yourself what you’re trying to protect yourself from. For example, if you’re the type of individual who may over apologize or over explain you may fear that if you don’t and if you don’t genuinely convince this person that you are sorry or what your intentions were they may pull away and become upset with you due to a misunderstanding that you would perceive to be your fault. After you identify this fear and it being the root of the behavior, now you’ll then practice telling yourself that you are safe even if you’re misunderstood or you may even practice training yourself not to catastrophize because you felt you caused a misunderstanding.

3. Understand that you can lead with emotional maturity without being perfectly regulated

It could be highly unlikely that you’ll get everything perfect right away in a connection that is causing you to stretch these muscles. Step away from the shame regarding your shadows and choose to be proactive instead. Leadership in love and connections means recognizing when your fear is speaking and choosing not to let it drive. You do not have to be perfect. Your fear regarding your flaws is a learned behavior and it will make your ability to overcome this road block if you play into the idea that everything will be blown to smithereens just because you became upset, because you got scared, or because you were triggered.

4. Shift from anxious to secure

It is always a good practice to attempt to embody the energy that you want to become even if you have to pretend or even if you don’t feel you’re fully ready to do it. Allow yourself the luxury of repetition (of positive and safe mantra/affirmation and behavior), awareness, and nervous system regulation. It’s all possible. You can overcome this as you can overcome many things and likely have. Knowing that you can heal your anxious attachment and you’re not doomed or set to suffer under anxiety, fear and heavy emotional distress for the rest of your life is genuinely important and will set you free. Your mind will learn to make a new habit and accommodate your new found behaviors but you have to be willing to stand up and make the change.

5. Find yourself a nervous system safety plan

You likely get extremely frustrated with yourself and the way you struggle to self soothe and it likely makes things worse. What you need to do while you’re in a neutral state and your mind is clear. Find ways in which you can regulate your nervous system, soothe yourself or show up for yourself in your time of need. What can you lean on, what practices can you step into that are safe and will return you to neutral state naturally and allow you to continue moving forward and come out renewed. This one’s tricky especially for people with trauma or who may have a disposition towards harmful and addictive behaviors but it’s worth it!! Take control of your life and your habits or else they will take control of you and you will lose yourself to it further than you feared you’d lose yourself to abandonment, loss, or undesired outcomes.

3. Using scripts, mantras, affirmations and prayers may help you regulate your nervous system

I used to neglect my investment into affirmation and mantra, it was difficult for me to open my mind, heart, and ears to allow it to penetrate fully especially while I was not fully surrendered to the divine, to God, or to spirit. But repetition is a proven way to create change and it is a wonderful way to drown out fears or unwanted beliefs. Write things down, read affirmation, read Quran, The Bible, or a text you find comfort in, journal!!!, say/recite things out loud.

4. Separate feeling abandoned vs being abandoned

This one has a lot to do with your anxiety as well. Your anxiety is not always telling the truth and it’s extremely likely that you may “sense”, interpret or feel something that has been molded or pressed into shape by your past experiences or memories you have that have perhaps reinforced your fears further. But just because it’s happened before does not mean it’s going to happen again and it does not mean that you are condemned to face that reality for the remainder of your life. You can validate how you feel without affirming it to be truth or assuming! Put that self soothing routine into action while you wait for clarity or an answer!

5. Keep reinforcing the truth that you will not abandon yourself!

If you haven’t mastered that skill yet you’ll learn!!! If someone leaves or a relationship doesn’t work you will be there and you will bring yourself comfort!! Someone walking away, does not equal losing you. You can remain grounded, loving, and whole.

6. Understand what healing anxious attatchment is about

Healing, anxious attachment isn’t about needing less or trying to reduce your emotional output or attachment. It’s about trusting more (yourself, your boundaries and your discernment or your ability to see what is true and what is false!)

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This is short but I hope it was helpful!

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PAC: How will their presence change the rhythm of my heart ?

I swear I hate when you are sad...

Good evening pretty souls, I'm not a lovey dovey human but for y'all I am ready to do almost anything.

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I am the type of tarot reader to say as it is. Nothing is sugar coated but everything is sent with good intention. If you are not ready to face some truth, you should vagabond somewhere else.

PILE 1 

The rhythm of your heart will change in ways you don’t expect. Imagine meeting someone who brings a sense of grounded calm into your life, someone who stands firm in their values and consistency, like finding steady ground after a period of emotional turbulence. They might not overwhelm you with grand gestures but rather with quiet strength, always present, making you feel like you can breathe deeply again.

Their presence may feel like walking into a room where everything finally makes sense—a shift from confusion to clarity. You’ll notice that you start to feel more secure, less burdened by overthinking. Just like how after a storm, the waters calm, your heart will find peace after what might have been years of emotional upheaval. In time, you’ll realize that your heart isn’t racing out of fear or anxiety, but instead, it beats steadily, trusting that this person is a safe harbor.

For example, there might be a time when you’re both navigating a stressful situation—work challenges, family issues—and while you might usually spiral into worry, their unwavering support allows you to handle things without the usual emotional weight. You’ll begin to feel the shift in your heart's rhythm—like moving from a chaotic city street to a calm, peaceful shoreline. Your future lover will help you transition into this new state of being, guiding you, not through loud declarations, but with quiet, consistent actions.

In their presence, your heart will learn to let go of past uncertainties, moving toward healing, just as you would leave behind the rocky shores in favor of smoother seas.

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​PILE 2 

Their presence in your life will feel like an unexpected wave of emotions crashing against a well-guarded shore. They may not openly express their feelings in words—perhaps keeping a distance with a cold, composed demeanor—but their actions will speak volumes. You’ll find them showing up when you need them most, always knowing what you need before you even say it. It’s as though their soul recognizes yours in ways that words fail to capture.

Though they come across as detached or difficult to read, their obsession with you will be clear in the little things—like how they keep track of your favorite things or remember details you’ve long forgotten. Their every move will be calculated, driven by an undeniable connection they feel, even if they struggle to communicate it directly. You might find them lingering in your thoughts long after they’ve left, as if their energy is ever-present, pulling you closer to them.

There will be moments when they suddenly pull away, perhaps out of fear or an overwhelming sense of vulnerability, but you will see through their actions that they are bound to you. For example, they might be someone who rarely talks about their feelings, but they'll unexpectedly show up at your door on the toughest days, bringing you comfort without saying a word. You will know, deep down, that they are your soulmate, not because of what they say, but because of how they make you feel—like every move, every silence, holds a deeper meaning.

Their presence will change the rhythm of your heart in ways that challenge you to trust, to see love in subtlety, and to feel the depth of a bond that transcends the surface. This connection is one that transforms both of you, ushering in a new beginning, like shedding an old skin and discovering a love that is both mysterious and inevitable.

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PILE 3

This person will bring an energy into your life that’s raw, vulnerable, and deeply courageous. Even though they don’t feel like they’re on your level—perhaps they believe you shine brighter, stand taller—they will still show up, offering everything they have, even when it feels like it's not enough. They’ll stand in the shadow of their own insecurities, battling anxiety, but what makes them remarkable is that they never back down. Their presence will feel like a slow-burning fire, one that takes time to grow but never fades.

You’ll see the struggle in them—how sometimes their fear and self-doubt push them to retreat, needing moments of solitude to gather themselves. But every time they come back stronger, determined not to let their insecurities drive them away from you. It’s in this courage that they prove their love. Even when they feel unworthy or overwhelmed, they refuse to abandon the connection you share.

For example, there might be nights when they seem distant, withdrawing to process their emotions, but they will always return, open and ready to try again. You may notice how they show up for you in quiet, unexpected ways—helping with small tasks, offering comfort when you’re stressed—even though they’re battling their own inner turmoil. It’s a silent kind of devotion that grows, revealing just how much they care.

Their heart is like a wounded warrior, still healing from old pains but refusing to give up. This love will require patience as they navigate their fears, but it will also reveal a deep, unshakeable commitment. They may not always have the confidence to be bold, but their loyalty will be steadfast, and you’ll feel the sincerity in every effort they make to stay by your side.

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fading part. ii

pairing: johnny silverhand x reader

summary: fate was a double edged sword. finally you were free of your gilded cage, free to possibly start anew. but old habits die hard.

warnings: gun violence, murder, blood, kidnapping, grooming (not by johnny), rockstar behavior, angst angst angst! sexual implications, eventual smut, slowburn, secret enemies to lovers, fluff.

a.n: hey everyone! thx for the love and for your patience. luv ya!

word count: 3k

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You squirmed in your seat across from your uncle. You found yourself seated across from him in your parlor, sat at the table in the center of the room. You couldn’t rid the feeling of shame not knowing your uncle’s visit was scheduled for today, not having the courage to look him in the eye — even if they were hidden behind his glasses. Saburo Arasaka seemingly didn’t feel the need to fill the silence, choosing instead to stare you down from across the table. His gaze alone made you feel small like a child. The painful silence finally ended when Yumi set the kettle of piping hot green tea between the two of you. 

“It seems my presence comes as quite the shock to you, niece,” Saburo finally spoke in his gravelly voice. 

You gulped before finally speaking up, choosing to keep your gaze safely in your fiddling hands, “yes, well it was a bit of surprise.” 

“I tried to warn you,” Tomie spoke over you, making you flinch. 

You laughed nervously, “I suppose you did, didn’t you?” 

Saburo watched as Yumi poured him some tea before serving you, only speaking when Yumi left you, bowing deeply before. 

“You’re slacking on your studies,” Saburo said sharply. “Your teachers have told me so.” 

You sighed. “Yes, well I haven’t felt the motivation to learn something I have no passion for….” 

“That may be so, but you’ve also been slacking in your monitoring of the Net as well, mei.”

You supposed there was no way news of your slump would make its way back to your uncle eventually. Everything did. You let out another heavy sigh, encasing the small cup of tea in your hands. 

”How is Yorinobu? I’m sure he’s making strides. And pretty Hanako, how is she holding up?” You try. 

“話題を変えるなよ、ヒナ。don’t try to change the subject、 Hina,” Saburo frowned. 

You bowed your head again, “ごめんなさい I’m sorry” 

“Must I remind you of how integral your skill is in the protection of Arasaka?” Saburo said. 

“No, uncle,” you said submissively. 

“Good. Enough of this rot, tomorrow you are to resume your lessons while continuing your surveillance,” Saburo sipped his tea. 

He continued to talk but it all but faded away. It was all the same, day in and day out. Wake up, eat, lessons for the majority of the day then surveillance late into the night until you were on the edge of letting your brain fry before collapsing to sleep. And then start all over again the next day. Never stopping, the wheel keeps turning. Even when you showed signs that you needed help, like now, it went ignored. When will it end? 

Your gaze hardened as your hands turned to fists in your lap. It’s now or never.

”Uncle, can I ask you something?” You say, trying your best to keep your voice steady. 

“Anything, my child,” Saburo said, though you knew in his tone he was only half interested. 

“What would you say if, if I were to go out for a little while,” you say, carefully looking up to watch his expression. 

Saburo nods, “of course, an outing to grab more essentials. We can arrange something for you that way security can accompany you.” 

You almost wanted to laugh. Was it that hard to believe that you wanted to experience life beyond these walls? Did he truly believe that you would only aspire to be under his thumb? An unfamiliar feeling began to bubble in your chest, your face beginning to get hot. This feeling, you recognized it from the faces of those people rioting in front of your family’s name. Anger. 

Angry how you are constantly dismissed, overlooked. Only seen for your skills and nothing beyond that. Part of you should know better — this may be a family business, but it was still a business as your uncle had been at the helm for almost a century and there was no sign of him releasing the reins, completely anyway. You were grateful, of course, no one who wasn’t in your position would have access to the best chrome and tech in the industry. Your life was privileged, you just weren’t sure just how privileged — and there was no way of knowing if you remained trapped in this gilded cage. 

You remained silent for a moment, shuffling your thoughts in your head. You knew your uncle was a clever man so you had to play your cards carefully. You took in a breath before straightening your posture. Saburo met your gaze of conviction as a twinge of interest. 

”I meant going on an extended stay, somewhere beyond the city. Possibly the country,” you say firmly. 

Saburo cocks an eyebrow, “a trip? That’s preposterous, where is this coming from?” 

“I believe it would help me get out of this slump,” you reasoned, “I wouldn’t be away for long, only a short while to regroup and resume my lessons and my work for the corporation. That way I can perform at my best-“

”And where would you go?” Saburo frowned, obviously not pleased by your proposal. 

You shrugged, “I haven’t given the location much thought, but-“ 

“The answer is no,” Saburo had shut you down. 

Your next words died on the tongue as your hope was beginning to drain quickly. 

“But uncle-“ 

“No,” Saburo glared at you, “you are safe here. Not out there where any lowlife could easily abduct you and use you for their own personal gain or pleasure. No, I won’t allow it.” 

“Uncle, please listen-“ 

“You shall remain here and resume your studies as planned, end of discussion.”

You let out an exasperated breath and shook your head, “why won’t you listen?” 

“Why should I? You are young and naive, my young niece. You are unaware of just how evil and corrupt this world is. No matter where you go, rot touches all — except here, where I can keep you safe,” Saburo stood to his feet. “I won’t hear anymore of this, understood?” 

You couldn’t justify an answer. Everything screamed for you to submit like you always had, to go with the status quo. But there was this small, irritating voice that nagged at you to not let this go. 

“Then I will remain miserable for the rest of my days,” your voice weakened, letting your head fall. “Uncle, I’ve lost count of the days, I don’t even know what today is. I’ve sunk into his routine that is slowly drowning me and tearing me apart from the inside out.” 

You looked up at him, fire in your eyes, “I am eternally grateful for the protection and life you have given me. Raising me from a young age, taking me under your wing as your own after mother…. But as I remain here, I feel as if I am nothing but a machine, built to only produce results. I am blessed with my skills, and I’m so very grateful for the tools at my disposal.

But please know, I will never feel like I have lived if you continue to keep me here. I will never stop asking, and my condition will continue to decline. Please, see reason, uncle.”

Saburo stood across from in silence, his eyes analyzing you. It was at this moment you realized his gaze didn’t make you falter, you maintained your gaze into his eyes. The silence felt like it rolled on forever until Saburo shattered it. 

“I will give it some thought,” he said, watching your face light up, “but until then you return to your studies, understood?” 

You beamed and nodded your head excitedly, “yes, of course, thank you uncle!” 

Saburo nodded, before leaving the room, signaling his goodbye. You couldn’t help but celebrate, jumping from your seat and throwing your hands over your head. 

“Yes!” You whispered to yourself, holding your hands to your racing chest. “I hope this works.” 

Saburo rounded the corner before stopping, his hands hidden in his sleeves. 

“Tomie, run a diagnostic,” he ordered. 

A few seconds passed before Tomie’s voice chimed quieter and out of earshot of you. 

“The young mistress remains healthy and uncorrupted, master,” she answered. 

“And her brain neurons, no discrepancies to be seen?” He said, his face stoic. 

”No master Saburo. Her neural pathways stay harbored at a safe 94%, two percent lower than last month however,” Tomie said. 

“Hm, very well then. Keep an eye on her and notify me of any differences,” Saburo began his path to the AV pad again. “I don’t need any ghosts rearing their heads now.” 

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Surprising to you, the escalation to your spontaneous trip outside of Osaka. You were shocked when your Uncle had asked you (though it didn’t sound like he was asking) to accompany him on a business trip. You immediately jumped at the chance, excited to finally not only be able to leave your lavish apartment, but possibly even the country. You were excited, until he told you where this said business trip was taking place. Night City, one of the last free cities in the Western hemisphere and one of Arasaka’s strongest footholds. Also, home to one of the biggest rocker bands, Samurai. Your expression gave you away easily. 

“I expected you to be happier, are you perhaps not ready for a trip?” Saburo said. 

“N-No! I am uncle, thank you for the opportunity,” you said, flustered. 

You were in fact more ready than you could ever be. You had dived deep into the lore of what was the Anarchist group that was Samurai. In the short amount of time since you’ve discovered the riot video, you’ve listened to nearly every album, even going as far to memorize some of their lyrics. You scoured the Net to find more information about its band members: Henry, the bassist, Denny, the drummer, Nancy, she played the keys and there was the vocalist and lead guitarist, Kerry. And the one that had garnered your attention the most, the lead singer Johnny Silverhand. Interestingly, you found his old military file, learning he had served in the Second Central American War before leaving, somehow ending up in the claws of Night City. 

You weren’t completely oblivious to the treacherousness that belonged to Night City. You could tell from the sour expressions from the mention of the name NC that the name didn’t garner much good feelings. But you found yourself surprisingly in good spirits. Of all the places your Uncle could have permitted you to go to, it was Night City, Silverhand’s city. It felt like fate. 

The giddiness didn’t subside as the AV soared over the towering mega buildings, your face pressed against the glass. You couldn’t stop smiling, trying to take everything in but it was impossible. Night City was so much different compared to Osaka. It had an edge as sharp as a knife that made your blood race with thrill. All this adrenaline and you hadn’t stepped foot in the city’s streets. 

“Remember why you are here, Hina,” Saburo said, his voice strict. “This isn’t all for childish fun.” 

You flinched at his harsh words, sinking back into your seat across from him. 

“Yes, I’ll try my best,” you said with your head bowed. 

Saburo nodded, “you’ll make sure to do so. This isn’t the same as hiding in your cradle and operating behind the scenes, child. This is reality, and I won’t tolerate any degree of failure.” 

Your eyes cast over to the veil folded neatly on the side table. 

“Yes but is the veil really necessary?” You question. 

“Your identity is our biggest asset, if those of our enemies were to know that Arasaka harbors the little netrunner that’s been slowing down all of their systems, they would not stop until they had a hold of such a weapon,” Saburo said matter-of-factly. 

His cold words cut you. Your hands clenched into fists in your lap. A weapon? Was that all he saw in you?

“Child, it is for your protection and first and foremost,” Saburo said. “This city has a ceaseless supply of opportunists who will be happy to hold you for ransom.” 

 You nod with a small smile, “I’m not worried, uncle. I know I am protected under your watchful eye.” 

Saburo grunted at your words as the AV began to lower itself into the landing pad of Konpeki Plaza. 

“The veil, don’t take it off until I say so. The veil will conceal your appearance to the naked eye but will be untraceable within surveillance as well,” Saburo said. 

You nodded and did as you were told, placing the veil over your head and letting the translucent fabric hide your face. The door opened up to a line of Arasaka soldiers standing tall. Saburo stepped out first and you quickly after. You kept your hands clasped together in front of you and your head lowered. You could feel the intense gazes of the men and women who stood in a stiff line. They were unwavering in their rigorous training, that’s why they were able to stand where they stood today, but even they were curious to glimpse upon the face of the forgotten Arasaka child. 

You followed Saburo through a doorway and down a long corridor. Servants and corp workers alike quickly stepped aside as you were escorted further into the lavish hotel. You followed him into a private elevator accessed only by an Access Card. The two of you were joined by two of Saburo’s staff and a single soldier. Finally the doors slid open to a penthouse that almost rivaled back home. Almost. You finally lifted your head to look around the room, finding it slightly smaller than your penthouse back home but equally as lavish. You stood unsure of what to do next as Saburo’s staff brought in your bags. 

Saburo finally turned back to you, “this is where you will be staying when you are not working at Arasaka Tower. You will be free to do as you wish within these walls, but if you are to wander outside you will have a guard by your side 24/7 and your all activities will be reported back to me.”

You couldn’t help but feel slightly disappointed, your shoulders sagging. 

“Is something wrong?” said Saburo.

You shook your head, “no! It’s just..-” 

“Spit it out, my time is valuable,” Saburo frowned. 

“O-Of course, uncle. I was just hoping that this trip would come with more…freedom?” You voice quietly. 

Saburo scoffed, “a foolish hope. Remember your place.” 

You flinched but nodded. Saburo walked past you without as much of a glance. 

“I’ll leave you to settle in for the night. Tomorrow I will come to retrieve you for our visit to Arasaka Tower,” He stated. 

Your brow furrowed in frustration as Saburo entered the elevator and left without another word. You let out a frustrated sigh, pinching the bridge of your nose. You looked at the two staff who were assisting in unpacking your things. 

“Please, leave those things to me,” you say gently. 

The two women looked at each other in unease before one spoke up, “but Arasaka-san, it’s would be-” 

“Please, I insist. Go and tend to your other more urgent tasks,” you say, turning your backs to them as you approach the living area. 

“Yes, mistress,” was all the women muttered before quickly shuffling to the elevator. 

It was only then when the elevator closed on them did you feel like you could finally breathe. You ripped the white off your head, throwing it on the marble floor in anger. This was not something you would have agreed to if you knew you were agreeing to be kept in another cage. How was this any better than Osaka? You almost wanted to cry. You shrugged off the robe from your shoulders before walking over to one of your suitcases left half unpacked. 

“Oh good,” you crouched down as you scrummage through the last items, “she didn’t find it.” 

You pulled out a slim case that you had tucked deeply in the case before you left Japan. Opening the slot revealed a small shard which you picked up and slotted into your neck. You hummed as the new software integrated itself into your cyberdeck. Your eyes glowed in a familiar white hue as you stood to your feet again. 

“Tomie, are you there?” You say quietly. 

“Yes, I am here. There is no need to speak to me directly if you wish to be discreet, Hina-san,” Tomie spoke to you in your mind. 

You sighed, “thank goodness, I’m happy to see the upload worked.” 

“It is quite the accomplishment, young mistress. You were able to compress my AI presence into a simple shard all while being undetected. Your engineering skills are becoming more than sufficient.” 

“Guess all those hours of lessons really did pay off, huh?” You chuckle as you walk up to the floor-to-ceiling window showing the neon skyline of Night City. 

The city hummed, buzzed. It felt almost alive. A beast that wouldn’t hesitate at the chance to swallow you whole. The danger was seductive in that way, and you were sure that you would not be the first or the last of its victims. Countless opportunities, endless choices, all at your fingertips -- but you only wanted one thing. To finally break free of this cage and feel something. So you were going to seek out the one thing that made you feel something new in such a long time. His face flickered in your reverie as you pressed your palm against the cool glass. 

“If this is my only chance, then I have to take it,” your gaze hardened as you stared into your reflection. “No matter what.” 

“Are you prepared for what you might risk, young mistress?” Tomie questioned. “If you are caught, you may never step outside again. Your uncle would guarantee it.” 

You let out a shaky breath, “then so be it. I can’t live knowing that I didn’t try.” 

“Then I will try to be of assistance in any way that I can,” Tomie said. 

You nodded, fire in your eyes. There was nothing that would change your mind. You were going to find Johnny Silverhand, even if it were the last thing you’d do.   

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Can I request headcannons for how Scott would help out an S/0 who struggles with their depression and mental health?

Here are some headcanons for how Scott would support an S/O struggling with depression and mental health:

1. Constant Reassurance of His Love

Scott is aware that depression can make someone feel unworthy of love or burdensome, so he makes sure to frequently remind you that he loves you unconditionally.

He’ll say things like, “You don’t have to be anything other than who you are for me,” and “I’m not going anywhere.”

Even when you’re feeling down, Scott will quietly remind you that your worth isn’t tied to your productivity or mood.

2. Offering Stability and Routine

Scott’s disciplined and organized nature can be grounding for someone struggling with depression. He’d help you establish small routines to give your days structure without overwhelming you.

“Let’s start slow—breakfast together, then maybe we can take a walk if you’re up for it.”

He’s not pushy, but he’ll gently encourage small steps, always adapting to how you’re feeling that day.

3. Patient Listener

Scott knows the value of being a good listener. He’s not quick to offer solutions unless you ask for advice. Instead, he listens to you vent, cry, or express your struggles without judgment.

“I’m here to listen whenever you need to talk. You don’t have to face this alone.”

He’ll sit beside you, holding your hand, giving you the space to express yourself.

4. Supportive of Therapy

Scott would fully support and encourage professional help if you’re comfortable with it. He’d even offer to help you find a therapist or accompany you to appointments if it makes you feel more at ease.

“There’s no shame in getting help. I’m proud of you for taking care of yourself.”

He’d also respect your privacy, understanding that therapy is your personal space, but would always be there if you wanted to share.

5. Tuning Into Your Needs

Scott is observant and would learn to recognize the signs when you’re having a tough day. If he notices you withdrawing, becoming quiet, or feeling overwhelmed, he’d ask what you need in that moment.

“Do you want to talk about it, or do you just want to sit together for a while?”

If you need space, he’ll give it to you, but always check in periodically to let you know he’s there.

6. Encouraging Small Victories

Scott knows that depression can make even simple tasks feel monumental, so he’d always encourage you to celebrate the little victories—getting out of bed, showering, eating a meal.

“I’m proud of you for getting through today.”

He’d remind you that progress doesn’t have to be big or fast, and he’d make sure you knew he noticed your efforts, no matter how small.

7. Creating a Safe Space

Scott would prioritize creating an environment where you feel safe to express your emotions without fear of judgment. Whether that’s making sure the house is comfortable, or just being present when you need to cry, he’s committed to providing that sense of security.

“It’s okay to not be okay. You don’t have to hide anything from me.”

On especially bad days, he’d cuddle with you in a quiet room, knowing that sometimes, just being there is enough.

8. Offering Physical Comfort

Scott would be physically affectionate in ways that are comforting, without overwhelming you. Whether it’s holding your hand, rubbing your back, or letting you rest your head on his chest, he’s there to give you the physical closeness you might need during rough moments.

He’d say, “I’m right here,” softly, just to remind you of his presence without needing to fill the silence.

9. Being Your Advocate

In social situations or times when you feel pressured, Scott would step in and help set boundaries for you, especially if you’re too exhausted to do it yourself.

If you’re not feeling up to attending a gathering or event, Scott will be the first to let others know you’re taking care of yourself, and he’ll never make you feel guilty for it.

“We’ll stay home tonight. You don’t owe anyone an explanation.”

10. Acknowledging His Own Feelings

While Scott is incredibly supportive, he also knows that it’s important to take care of himself so he can be there for you in the best way possible. He’ll communicate with you honestly about his own feelings, but in a gentle way that never makes you feel like a burden.

“I just want to make sure I’m helping you the best I can. If there’s ever something you need, just tell me.”

He’s open about how much he cares for you, making sure that his own well-being is balanced so that he can be your rock.

11. Patience and Persistence

Scott is incredibly patient, understanding that mental health struggles don’t just disappear overnight. He’ll be there through the ups and downs, always reassuring you that he’s in it for the long haul.

“You’re allowed to have bad days, and I’m here for all of them. We’ll get through this together.”

His persistence in being there for you, no matter how long it takes, is one of his strongest ways of showing love.

12. Little Gestures of Love

Scott would quietly find ways to remind you that you’re loved, whether it’s leaving a cup of tea on the bedside table for you, bringing you your favorite snack, or writing a little note reminding you of your strength.

He might say something as simple as, “I love you, always,” when you need to hear it the most, knowing that sometimes, those words make all the difference

[natsuki-bakery]

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Hi ! Can you do a Caregiver Tighnari headcanon please?

•Tighnari would quickly recognize age regression as a way for you to feel safe and manage stress. He’d be curious about it at first, but once he understood its purpose, he’d be fully supportive and make sure you have the space to be little whenever you need. He'd have no problem adapting his routines and approach to support you during these moments !

•Tighnari’s experience as a forest ranger has sharpened his observation skills, making him exceptionally attentive. He can tell if you’re feeling a little off even before you say anything, just by noticing subtle cues in your behavior. If he sees you’re feeling overwhelmed or needing comfort, he’ll immediately adapt his approach—whether that’s offering extra care or just being there quietly

•Tighnari would use nature as his toolkit for helping you relax. He’ll plan gentle, hands-on activities like planting small flowers, gathering interesting leaves, or even helping him sort and catalog his findings from the forest. These activities aren’t only engaging but also calming, and he’ll explain each plant or insect you find in an accessible way that brings out wonder without overwhelming you with information

•Structure and predictability are important to him, and he believes it’s grounding for you, too. So, Tighnari would set up a loose daily routine based on your needs and energy levels. He’d help you wake up with the sunrise and guide you to bed when the stars come out, ensuring you get plenty of rest and time to enjoy the natural rhythm of the forest

•Tighnari would go to great lengths to create a cozy, safe space for you in Gandharva Ville. He’d gather comfortable pillows, blankets, and a mix of forest elements—soft leaves, dried flowers, small crystals, and gentle herbs—that smell like home and relaxation. He’d probably place this little nest near the window, so you can look out and enjoy the view whenever you need to feel calm

•As an experienced botanist, Tighnari knows tons of natural remedies for calming down. If he senses you’re feeling anxious or need help winding down, he’ll prepare a tea with herbs that have gentle, soothing effects. He’s also incredibly patient with explaining which plants are helpful and why they work, making sure you feel safe and confident in using his remedies

•On quiet days, Tighnari would take you on calm walks in the forest, sharing stories and legends about the creatures and plants around. Sometimes he’ll even make up fantastical tales of tiny forest sprites or wise old trees with personalities. His soft, calm voice is perfect for creating a safe, magical world, and he enjoys seeing you engage with these stories

•Knowing how comforting the sounds of nature can be, Tighnari encourages you to focus on the ambient sounds in the forest. He’ll guide you to listen for birdsong, the rustling leaves, or the trickling water. Sometimes, he’ll just sit quietly beside you, letting the sounds of the forest calm both of you. He might even set up a small stream of water or a pot of chirping crickets near your space to keep the forest’s ambiance close

•Tighnari understands the importance of having clear, gentle boundaries, but he approaches them in a way that encourages growth and security. He’ll set expectations around self-care (like drinking enough water or resting when needed) but always gently encourages you, never forcing you. His approach is to give nudges rather than pushes, and he’s incredibly understanding if you need time

•He believes that understanding and recognizing emotions is essential to well-being, so he’d patiently help you learn to identify your feelings. Tighnari has a knack for using natural metaphors to help you understand emotions better—like saying feelings are like weather patterns, and they’ll pass like rain. He’s always open to talking through anything that’s bothering you

•Tighnari would encourage you to express yourself creatively, often bringing out materials like leaves, flower petals, and charcoal from burned branches for art projects. He might even press leaves and flowers with you, creating a collection you can look back on or use to decorate your space. To him, expressing yourself is an important way to feel connected and grounded, so he’d make sure you have access to these outlets

•Tighnari’s relationship with the forest animals is strong, and he’d use this to bring some gentle play into your day. If you’re comfortable, he’ll introduce you to friendly creatures like the shroomboars or some of the smaller, gentler wildlife in the forest. Watching the animals interact or just quietly sitting with them could be soothing, and Tighnari would guide the interactions so they’re safe and respectful

•Nighttime is important to Tighnari, as it’s when the forest quiets down. He’d likely create a special bedtime ritual for you, like sharing a calming tea, brushing your hair, or even letting you watch the stars together. He’s incredibly knowledgeable about constellations, so he’d share fun stories and facts about them if it helps you relax. The time he spends with you under the stars becomes a grounding ritual that reassures you before sleep

•Tighnari knows the importance of patience. He’d be endlessly supportive, cheering on your small accomplishments, and offering quiet encouragement when you’re feeling down. He’d constantly remind you that progress doesn’t have to be fast to be meaningful, giving you the freedom to move at your own pace

•Tighnari isn’t overly affectionate in public, but in a caregiving role, he’d show his support through subtle, comforting touches—a pat on the head, a gentle hand on your shoulder, or a quick side hug. He may not say much, but he always finds a way to show he’s there for you, making you feel safe, supported, and valued

•Tighnari would go out of his way to make a comfortable little corner just for you in Gandharva Ville. He’d fill it with soft blankets, cozy pillows, and maybe even some nature-themed toys. He might also keep stuffed animals made by his ranger friends or little charms shaped like forest animals nearby. This space would be dedicated just for you to feel secure and safe whenever you’re in littlespace

•Knowing that sensory play can be both fun and grounding, Tighnari would often bring you things like smooth stones, dried flowers, and pinecones to explore textures and smells. He might set up little “nature sensory bins” with safe leaves, flowers, or small water play setups (like a tiny puddle to splash in) to help engage your senses in a soothing way. He’d always be nearby, ensuring everything is safe

•Care Giver Tighnari knows all the safe herbs and flowers that can be used to make calming teas. He’d love setting up a little “tea party” with you, preparing mild, child-safe herbal teas (with plenty of honey if you like it!) served in small cups. He’ll join you in drinking “fancy tea” and munching on little snacks he brings, like forest fruits or simple biscuits. He’d be sure to let you pretend-play as the host of the party

•When you have extra energy and are feeling playful, Tighnari would take you on gentle nature walks. He’d point out interesting plants, show you safe bugs, and teach you the names of flowers, keeping the information simple and fun. He’ll even let you collect tiny “treasures” like leaves or stones. Walking with him feels like an adventure, and he always watches out to keep you safe

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[that-vexaholic-cryptid]

~The Visitor~

"Hello again, dear. It's been awhile."

Zelda's eyes opened as she bolted up, the voice hitting her like a splash of cold water.

Looking around, Zelda found herself in a place of almost blinding white light. All that could be seen looked like clouds, but it couldn't be. It was serene, comfortable, quiet. Except for the voice.

"What!? Who is that!?" It felt like there was a lump in her throat. Near panic, her body felt like stumbling but she found there was nothing to stumble over. "What... What is this place...?"

A puff of mist swirled in place, growing upward, before dissipating and revealing a woman draped in azure robes with deep blue hair tumbling past her shoulders, framing a youthful and kind face.

"Oh! I've forgotten the pleasantries," the woman spoke sweetly. "You would know me by Nayru. Welcome."

"... You... You're Nayru?" Zelda stammered. "You're named after the goddess?"

"Oh, dear, I am the goddess." she said with a chuckle.

Zelda's heart started racing. Her physical senses were telling trying to overwhelm her, but this place seemed to be trying to sedate them. "This cannot be... Where... What is this..." She backed away looking for something to support her and found nothing.

"Zelda dear, it's okay." Nayru waved her hand, commanding the mist to take the form of a table. "Here, take a seat. Breathe. You're going to be fine." She held Zelda's hand and guided her to a seat. "I hope you'll forgive me, it's been so long! There aren't often guests, you know. But you'll get the hang of it here, I promise!"

They sat, Nayru doing her best to be both a host and a nurse. There was so little here to get bearings on. All Zelda could see was a vast, brilliant nothingness that defied comprehension. Then a detail finally emerged.

"N... Nayru... This table..."

"Do you recognize it? I was so hoping you would. You and Sonia once sat here for tea. I thought it might bring you some ease."

"Sonia... Is she here?" Zelda's eyes widened.

"I am sure you have many questions." Nayru poured tea from a kettle that suddenly appeared in her hand. "How do I say this... Sonia is both here, and not. She, like many, is all around us. But I think it might make you feel better to know she is... aware of you."

"Aware? I don't understand. What is this place? What am I doing here??" Zelda's eyes began to water. "Am... Am I dead? Did I fail? Is Link here? Please..."

"Oh honey! You're okay!" Nayru reached over to keep Zelda together. "I'm so sorry, we don't have much practice in these situations. It's so difficult to explain in mortal terms. It will take some getting used to. But no, Zelda you are not dead."

"I'm... I'm not?" she sniffled.

Nayru grimaced. "Not quite?"

Zelda stared blankly.

"Hmm. Alright, try to remember what you were doing last. You were in Hyrule, near the temple."

"Yes. Yes, I was there. My plan... The secret stone. I swallowed the stone, and grabbed the sword. Where is the Master Sword? Link needs it!"

"The sword is safe. You still have it. Quite securely, I must say."

Zelda stared blankly again.

"As strange as it will sound, dear" Nayru continued "you have been here before. And will be again. You are in the Sacred Realm. This is where spirit and light reside. And, I suppose, you have seen me before. I am Naydra, in Hyrule."

"You... are a dragon?"

"Indeed! It's a lovely way to be. And, brace yourself dear, you are too. A beautiful one!"

Zelda took a deep breath and reached for her tea, hand shaking.

"Try it! It's my sister's favorite. Now, back in Hyrule, Mineru warned you about draconification, yes?"

The princess nodded.

"Bless her, she is so clever, though not quite accurate. It is impossible for her to know these things, though. You see, dragons are not the senseless beasts they may appear. Their consciousness simply exists elsewhere. Here! And there. Simultaneously. Once you've been here a bit you will understand and learn to come and go. Though I suspect you'll be here most of the time. It is a cozy way to be."

"Nayru, I cannot stay here. I have to repair the sword and make sure it gets to Link, it is of utmost importance."

Nayru sighed. "Zelda, honey, you cannot go back. Not until the time is right. And as you know, time can be... tempermental. This plan of yours, it will take a very, very long time. You will have to make peace with being out of control. And I know that will not be easy. But once you do, that time will pass in the blink of an eye. You have no worries here, me and the other goddesses are here for you."

"Other goddesses? They're here?"

"Indeed! They are my sisters, Farore and Din. Ooh! No, you know them as Farosh and Dinraal, I believe. Details get lost over the eons, I'm sure you know as a student of history. And I guess that will happen when most cannot see us at all."

"Where are they? Is... Is Hylia here?" Zelda shrank in her chair.

"My sisters are both here and there, but mostly there at the moment. They're being dragons, protecting us as we chat." Nayru's voice grew softer. "I have an idea! Stay seated, please."

Nayru rose, walked beside the table, and began to pace in a circle through the fog until it swirled into an oval, and suddenly the fog was pulled through as if Nayru had worn a hole in a floor.

"Oooh, excellent. It's a gorgeous day." She brought Zelda over and held her by her shoulders. "Now, you can't fall, but this may be disorienting. Look down, sweetie."

Zelda peered through the cloud layer and her face dropped. Below her was a sight of majesty no mortal had ever witnessed before. Four immense, radiant, colorful dragons moved together, side by side. Dinrall to one flank, erupting in a constant crown of flames around her gigantic horns, and Farosh to the other flank, bolts of electricity and plasma flowing around her. Between them was Naydra, hauntingly blue, moving effortlessly through a veil of frost. The final dragon, smaller, almost frail looking by comparison, had scales that shimmered in the sunlight and eyes like prisms. All four moved through the air with ease, with the vibrant green hills and sparkling rivers of Hyrule beneath them.

Zelda leaned forward in curiosity and awe.

Nayru gently pulled her back.

"I don't think you can fall... But it's best not to tempt these things. More tea?" The two returned to their seats.

Zelda sipped. And blinked. And sipped again.

"Nayru," she said in a hush. "I don't recognize the white dragon."

"Well, dear, she's new. She's you."

What color was in Zelda's cheeks faded to pale.

"Don't worry, you're very safe. My sisters are excellent protectors. No one on the surface can see us, and soon we'll all be high enough for us to make a new cloud layer. Once Mineru and the Sages have done their island scheme."

"What island scheme? What has Mineru done?"

"Ah. Mineru has refined your plan somewhat. She and the Sages are preparing for your hero. They're going to use their gadgets to raise some islands for him, so he can rest and heal. Rauru was able to retrieve him, but only just. The good king has been quite busy."

Zelda perked up in her seat at the news. Link was safe after all.

"I knew Link was alive! I knew it. I could never doubt him." Color rushed back to her cheeks.

"You can rest assured, your hero is well, if distraught. Your faith in him has always been sure, even before you took the name Zelda, you always had your hero. And our faith in you has been just as strong."

"Before I was Zelda... You didn't answer about Hylia. Is she here?"

"As much as you are here, dear. You are not Hylia, but are. At least, you are the greatest sum of her." Nayru took a tired breath. "Always so stubborn, always wanting to be fully here and there at once. She just couldn't bare to leave Hyrule, so she became it. She felt the best way to protect life was to become part of it. Hylia is in the sunlight, the grass, animals, the people. She gathers her strength from what she loves so dearly. As do you, one and the same. It runs in the family." Nayru said with a smile. "We do miss her, and that is why we're so glad to have you back. Hylia only gathers herself up here to reincarnate in dire circumstances."

"Are circumstances now not dire?" Zelda asked, bewildered. "Will my plan work?"

"I must be honest, we aren't sure. Time is very fickle. And there's a lot of it. We can see trends, but the future is never set. Events only exist in the moment, the past is always forgotten and the future is always unwritten, until it isn't."

After everything it took to organize, after the commitment she had to make, after the losses and the pain, all may still be lost. "I can't have done this for nothing."

"We know. Let me tell you something." Nayru leaned in, clasping Zelda's hands. "We were all very worried about you, before what you call the Calamity. All that strife about praying here, praying there, not praying hard enough. We watched it all, and we heard it all.

We weren't sure then, either. Because it was never about proving how much faith you had in goddesses. It was about you having faith in yourself.

The irony of you of all people, praying to Hylia. Her strength was in you all along. That strength comes from love, it gives you clarity, certainty. You fought to protect someone you loved, and in that moment you became invincible. Your hero will be fighting with that same strength. So long as you both find each other, all will be well. Believe in him, believe in yourself, as we have always believed in you, Hylia's daughter."

Zelda was trying her best not to cry.

"Then the plan will work, Nayru. I'm sure of it." Zelda composed herself. "What can I do now?"

"Relax, dear. Wait until you see the islands! Me and my sisters will stay below the clouds to monitor things, while you stay safe up here and wait for your Link. Oh, yes! Let me formally introduce you."

Nayru snapped her fingers and a swirl of mist spun itself into the shape of another woman, who twirled on her toes in a full circle around the table before coming to a stop.

"Greetings, Lady Zelda. I am Fi." she said with a bow and flourish.

"Welcome back, show off." Nayru smirked. "Zelda will be here for the time being, and will be in charge of your care as your sword form mends. It would be good for you to keep each other better company here."

"Of course," Fi chimed. "I have many stories of the past whenever you would like to hear them, Lady Zelda. I am grateful for your care." She floated to Zelda's side.

"I'm very glad to finally put a face to your voice, Fi." Zelda was suddenly beaming with joy.

"Oh, Zelda" said Nayru. "Did Link ever tell you of when we met? He's quite agile, and charming. By the way, Link may take to shooting arrows at you quite often. Nothing to worry about, though."

"I beg your pardon?"

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

tbh that whole "abusive parents are funny in retrospect like I'm 4 why do you have beef with me" is funny in the relatable way because it's true, but also, listen,

Realizing it in real time will save you

it is equally true for teachers who decide for some reason to have beef with a 14yo

The thing is, if you never internalize that there's anything wrong with you because you literally look around at this adult trying to treat a child like they are the ones responsible for the adult's emotions or actions, if you see them doing it to you or another kid and think "Hey, there's something wrong with this picture, literally I/they am/are the child and it's supposed to be your job to help and support me/them, this is a you problem." it will keep you from thinking that they were in any way correct to treat you that way. It does wonders to stop you from believing the things they try to convince you are true about yourself or the world.

When you think "Hey, my sibling here is ALSO just a child, as am I, why are you punishing me for not being able to control them, or them for not being able to get the guidance they need from another literal child" or other variations of "why are you pitting us against each other, we're the children here" or "why am I expected to do part of your job" you gain +15 saving throw, minimum, against any future attempts someone might make to triangulate you against a peer. [ie my sibling's behaviour isn't the reason I am not getting desert, actually, the reason is that you have made that decision as our parent because you're mad a literal child could not successfully help you do your job... Why the hell would you try to convince me otherwise?]

When you look at another child next to you and see how being stripped of autonomy hurts them, and you feel how being stripped of autonomy hurt you [ie, being forced into the sun despite a sun allergy as a child etc...] Sometimes, genuinely, the lesson you take from it is that people know their own needs and limitations and that no one benefits from someone trying to unfairly control them.

And sometimes I think that well, some of the people on here are still basically kids and might still have abusive parents or teachers, so while a lot of us are joking about our trauma like a thing of the past, it is still potentially relevant to helping someone see this shit for what it is in real time. Sometimes I think talking about this might actually save someone.

If you are a teenager, and a parent, teacher or other adult has fucking beef with you, or says you're responsible for how you are 'making' them respond to you, that is a THEM problem... And beware of them trying to distract you by getting you to blame a peer, or encouraging the attitude that having beef with each other is only natural, because they will try that and the best thing you can learn is to turn around and at least KNOW for yourself, even if you aren't safe to say it out loud, that it is the problem with the adult or the person in a position of authority, and it does not -in fact- reflect on you or your peers, because you are the children.

Someone having a sun allergy isn't why you don't get to do art outside, your teacher failing to secure a TA or other teacher to double a class with so there could be supervision in one class and in one outdoor session running at the same time is why you didn't get to paint outdoors, and your teacher trying to direct a classroom of disappointment or anger at one -student- is a massive red flag, and should tell you something is wrong here.

Realizing this will save you from so much fucking drama. This stays relevant even into the workplace when you grow up. Managers and people in positions of authority will take the place of parents and teachers and your coworkers will be your peers. This will save you from the impulse to in-fight instead of recognizing your peers as your allies and looking for the bitch trying to pit you against each other to distract from the fact that what they are asking of you is unfair. Unionize. Also stop infighting, like politically, see political "triangulating" tactics like manufactured culture wars for what they are.

[soolh1k]

Can you write skz when reader has a panic attack

Skz comforting you during a panic attack

notes: english is not my first language so apologies for any misspelling or grammar. i hope u like it !! :)))

type: narrated text

genre: angst w fluff

WARNINGS: swearing, a little bit angsty but some fluff at the end, let me know if you'd like to be tagged !! :))

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: ̗̀➛ Bang Christopher

After experiencing an intense panic attack, you find yourself trembling and exhausted, unable to control your thoughts and emotions. Your boyfriend, who has learned to recognize the signs of your panic attacks, is right by your side in an instant.

With a calm and gentle voice, he says, "Hey, baby, I'm here with you. Breathe with me, we're going to do this together." He sits next to you, extending his arms to wrap you in a warm and comforting hug. Gradually, his breathing rhythm synchronizes with yours as he helps you take deep breaths.

He softly strokes your back and whispers words of encouragement, "You're strong, you can overcome this. I'm here to support you every step of the way." His words and physical touch provide you with a sense of security and calm amidst the emotional chaos you're experiencing.

Chris knows it's not the time to talk too much, but he makes sure you know you're not alone. He's present, available, and willing to listen when you're ready to share your feelings and thoughts.

After a few minutes, your breathing begins to stabilize, and you feel the panic attack starting to subside. Your boyfriend looks at you tenderly and says, "You're doing an amazing job. You don't have to face this alone; I'll always be here for you."

He takes your hand and helps you up slowly. Together, you walk to a quiet and cozy space in the house, where you wrap yourself in a soft blanket. Your boyfriend sits beside you, enveloping you in a protective embrace, allowing you to rest and recover.

In that moment, you realize how fortunate you are to have someone so understanding and caring by your side. You know that, no matter what happens, you can trust him to be there in the tough times, providing you with unconditional comfort and support.

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: ̗̀➛ Lee Minho

As you walk together in the park, suddenly you feel overwhelmed by an intense wave of anxiety. Your heart starts racing, it's hard to breathe, and you feel a knot in your stomach. Your boyfriend notices your distress and immediately stops.

Without asking questions, he embraces you tightly and whispers in your ear, "I'm here with you, bunny. Breathe with me, we'll get through this together." His reassuring words and warm embrace provide you with a sense of security and support.

Your boyfriend takes the time to guide you through a deep breathing technique. Together, you inhale slowly and deeply, and exhale gently. He reminds you that you're safe and that this will pass.

As you focus on his voice and follow his breathing rhythm, you gradually start to feel the intensity of the panic attack decrease. His constant presence and unconditional love give you the strength to recover.

After a few minutes, your breaths become more regular, and your heart stops beating so rapidly. As you regain composure, your boyfriend holds you gently and tells you how proud he is of you for facing your fears.

With his unconditional support, you continue walking through the park at a more relaxed pace. You know that, no matter what happens, your boyfriend will always be there to comfort you.

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: ̗̀➛ Seo Changbin

You're at home when suddenly you feel tightness in your chest and an overwhelming sense of fear washes over you. Your breathing quickens, your hands start to tremble, and it's hard for you to focus. You recognize that you're experiencing a panic attack and feel trapped in your own anxiety.

Your boyfriend, who is in another room, senses your distress and quickly rushes to you. Without saying a word, he kneels in front of you and gently takes your trembling hands. He looks at you tenderly, reminding you that you're safe and going through a tough but temporary moment.

As he speaks to you softly, he asks you to focus your attention on his voice and the rhythm of his breathing. Together, you begin to take deep breaths, slowly inhaling through the nose and exhaling gently through the mouth. Your boyfriend patiently and empathetically guides you through each breath, reminding you that air enters and exits your lungs, bringing calmness and tranquility.

Over time, your heartbeats start to slow down, and the suffocating sensation gradually diminishes. Still holding your hands, your boyfriend embraces you gently and whispers words of encouragement. He assures you that he's there for you in moments of anxiety and panic, and together, you'll overcome any obstacles that come your way.

After a few minutes, the panic attack starts to slowly dissipate, and you feel calmer. Your boyfriend accompanies you to sit on the couch and wraps you in his protective arms. He hugs you tightly but gently, providing a sense of security and support.

He stays by your side as you recover, reminding you that the love and care you feel are stronger than any anxiety.

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: ̗̀➛ Hwang Hyunjin

You're in the middle of a social gathering when you feel anxiety starting to take hold of you. Your breathing quickens, your heart races, and you feel overwhelmed by a sense of panic. Your boyfriend, who is by your side, notices your distress and gently leads you to a quiet and secluded place.

Once there, he kneels in front of you, holding your hands and looking directly into your eyes. With a calm and empathetic voice, he reminds you that you're safe and that he's there with you. He asks you to try and focus on your breathing and follows the rhythm along with you. With each deep breath, he encourages you to release tension and relax gradually.

As you concentrate on his voice and the instructions he gives you, he softly talks to you about things that make you feel calm and happy. He reminds you of special moments you've shared together, funny anecdotes, or comforting details about your relationship. These loving words and your boyfriend's constant support help calm your mind and reduce the intensity of the panic attack.

He continues holding your hands and envelops you in a warm and protective hug. He whispers words of encouragement in your ear, assuring you that you're not alone and that together you'll overcome any obstacle. As he holds you, the intensity of your panic attack gradually starts to diminish until you finally feel a sense of calm and security.

Once you feel more at ease, your boyfriend helps you to stand up, and you walk back to the social gathering together. He accompanies you every step of the way, ensuring that you feel supported and protected. You know that, no matter what happens, your boyfriend will always be there to comfort and take care of you during those difficult moments.

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: ̗̀➛ Han Jisung

You're at home, feeling overwhelmed by stress and anxiety. Suddenly, you start experiencing the symptoms of a panic attack: your heart races, you struggle to breathe, and you feel a tightness in your chest. Negative thoughts flood your mind, and you feel completely trapped in your own distress.

At that moment, your boyfriend, who is in another room, senses that something is wrong. Without wasting any time, he rushes to you and finds you trembling and crying. Without saying a word, he kneels in front of you, takes your hands, and starts breathing deeply, inviting you to follow his rhythm.

As you focus on his breathing and listen to his calm voice, you start feeling a bit more at ease. He speaks to you gently, reminding you that you're safe and that he's here with you. Without judging you, he encourages you to describe what you're feeling and to let go of all your worries.

With each word you utter, your boyfriend listens attentively, validating your feelings and offering unwavering support. He holds you tenderly and whispers comforting words in your ear, reminding you that you're strong and that together you can overcome any obstacle.

As the panic attack begins to subside, your boyfriend helps you find a comfortable position and continues to embrace you. He offers you a glass of water and assures you that he's there for you every step of the way. Together, you decide to take a moment of tranquility, simply being present for each other. You end up cuddling on the couch while watching something you both enjoy.

Over time, your breathing normalizes, and you feel the calmness returning to your body. You realize that your boyfriend has been by your side all along, offering his love and unconditional support. You feel grateful to have him by your side.

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: ̗̀➛ Lee Felix

You're going through a stressful moment, and suddenly, you find yourself trapped in the midst of an intense panic attack. You feel overwhelmed by fear and anxiety, but your boyfriend immediately realizes what's happening. Without losing his cool, he gently approaches you and takes your hands softly.

He guides you to a quiet and peaceful room, where he has prepared a cozy corner with cushions and a comforting blanket. He invites you to sit on the floor while he sits beside you, supporting you with his serene and loving presence.

Your boyfriend speaks to you in a low and gentle voice, reminding you that you're safe and that you're experiencing a panic attack. He tells you that he's with you and that you don't have to face it alone. He encourages you to close your eyes and focus on your breathing, inhaling and exhaling slowly.

As you follow his guidance, your boyfriend starts telling soothing stories and happy memories that you have shared together. He talks about beautiful places you have visited and special moments you have experienced. His loving and comforting words help divert your mind from the panic and find a point of calm amidst the emotional storm.

Your boyfriend also reminds you that the panic attack is temporary and will pass. He encourages you to visualize a safe place in your mind, while he gently rubs your back to provide additional comfort. His caresses convey a sense of security and help you feel connected and protected.

Gradually, you feel the intensity of the panic attack starting to diminish. Your breathing becomes more regular, and you feel calmer in the comforting arms of your boyfriend. He continues to offer you support and love, assuring you that he's there for you in difficult times and that together you can overcome any obstacle.

With time, the panic attack eventually fades away completely. You feel exhausted but relieved, and you thank your boyfriend for his unwavering support. He gently embraces you and tells you that he will always be there for you, taking care of you and comforting you every step of the way.

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: ̗̀➛ Kim Seungmin

You're at a dinner with friends at a lively restaurant. Suddenly, you feel anxiety taking hold of you, and a panic attack begins to arise. Your heart is racing, you struggle to breathe, and an overwhelming sense of fear envelops you.

Your boyfriend, who has noticed your sudden change, quickly comes to your side and gently takes your hand. Without saying a word, he guides you out of the restaurant to a quiet and secluded place where you can feel more comfortable.

Once outside, your boyfriend stands in front of you, holding your hands firmly yet tenderly. He asks you to focus your attention on him and reminds you that you're safe. He starts speaking in a calm and reassuring tone, telling you positive and comforting things.

As he speaks, his voice becomes a constant anchor for you, allowing you to hold onto his presence and push away the thoughts and sensations of panic. He encourages you to breathe deeply, following his rhythm, and helps you regain control of your breathing.

With each conscious breath, you feel the tension and fear gradually dissipating. Your boyfriend stays by your side, supporting you without judgment and conveying a sense of calm and security.

After a few minutes, the panic attack begins to subside, and you feel calmer. Your boyfriend gently embraces you, providing a sense of protection and love. He praises you for bravely facing your fears and assures you that he will always be there for you in difficult moments like these.

Together, you decide to take a walk in a nearby park, breathing in the fresh air and enjoying the serenity of nature.

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: ̗̀➛ Yang Jeongin

After experiencing an intense panic attack, you find yourself exhausted and emotionally shaken. Your boyfriend, concerned about you, gently embraces you and takes you to your safe place at home. He wraps you in a warm blanket and sits by your side on the couch.

In a calm and reassuring voice, he reminds you that you're safe and that he's here with you. Without pressuring you to talk, he offers you a glass of water and holds it for you as you take slow sips to catch your breath. He understands that what you need in this moment is his calm and compassionate presence.

After a few minutes, when you feel a bit more stable, your boyfriend gently asks if you'd like to talk about what triggered the panic attack. Knowing that you don't have to do it if you're not ready, he gives you space and time to process your emotions.

Seeing that you're willing to share, he listens attentively and without judgment. He supports you with every word you say, making sure you're surrounded by love and understanding. He reassures you by reminding you that your feelings are valid and that together you'll find ways to manage stress and anxiety in the future.

After the conversation, your boyfriend suggests a relaxing and comforting cuddle session to help you feel better. It could be as simple as watching a series you enjoy or a quick nap. He makes sure you feel comfortable and cared for throughout the entire time.

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Because I read the tags - would you be willing to share more about that explicit curriculum for unlearning shame about questions? It sounds very cool!

I'm happy to try!

So, I work for a healthcare practice, and am the lead supervisory staff for the internship program these days (because apparently I have "leadership qualities" like "patience" and "enthusiasm for answering questions" and "a strengths-based teaching style"). Those who know me may understand that this is a choice I make under very specific circumstances as a psychiatric abolitionist because even if you can't change a system from the inside, until external changes are fully implemented, there are still people who need and deserve support from an extent system.

This means that an enormous portion of my curriculum with interns is "what it means to be someone in the position of wielding state power" and how to analyze and decomstruct systems of hierarchy. Because if there's one thing I will not do, it's sign off on a future mental health care provider who hasn't been comprehensively exposed to anti-psych conversations and anchored to "patient-led" communities and ethical critiques.

Within the first four weeks, we have the following lessons as a group:

Week 1: we are in positions of state-reinforced authority, and because of that I am going to ask you to be as vulnerable and open in our group work space as you want/expect your patient's to be. If you cannot do that, I cannot help you. Because we operate in a telehealth capacity, it is UP TO YOU to tell me when you need help because while I can "swing by" and check in with you, I fundamentally cannot notice from 6hrs away that you need help. This is not a role in which you can afford to feel ashamed of needing help, because shane leads to avoidance and avoidance leads to unintentional preventable harm, and if this is REALLY what you want to do, you need to take that seriously

Week 2: what does "learning to fail safely" look like for you? How do you recognize when you are failing/have failed and how do you take a functional look at how that went down without personalizing/internalizing any commentary about yourself from the experience (how can you learn to hold yourself and others in unconditional regard without sacrificing safety, boundaries, or needs of well-being)? What thoughts intrude in your mind when you have made a mistake or realize you don't know what to do? Until we understand how to help you actually hear what failure has to tell you about the path to success, the shoulds and shouldn'ts will control your decisions in ways you probably won't even notice. Who and how were you taught to feel ashamed of needing a period of adjustment/learning curve when interacting with a new skill or idea? What function does that shane serve for you?

Week 3: what is your actual learning process? Like specifically, i don't care WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW i care HOW YOU CAME TO "KNOW" WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW. Knowledge is inherently contextual and subjective. Are you aware of how that cookie crumbles for you specifically? Able to see both where you may be internalizing information you don't mean to and how you go about intentionally adding to or changing your knowledge? Where could this process change or improve or be adaptable in non-ideal circumstances?

Week 4: what skills do YOU think you are strong in? Which are still feeling vulnerable? Lets learn how you internalize/cultivate feelings like security, stability, confidence, compassion, etc. Lets talk about how to "self-reflect" without "self-interrogation/self-doubt" and how to sit in uncomfortable tense realities that need reconciled or processed. How do you let multiple things with overlapping conflicted areas be true at once?

Week 5: lets learn HOW to ask questions. In part we do this by introducing "case consultation" where an intern comes into group, describes a hypothetical (or real and fully anonymized) situation and asks for the group's thoughts on any dilemmas or uncertainties you see. But in part it's also about how *I* answer their questions. Because I don't "answer them" for the most part. I let the other interns answer directly, and I exclusively either INTERROGATE THE QUESTION ITSELF (why are you asking x and not y in this case? How have you heard the person discuss this related component? What are YOU feeling and how is it motivating the choices you're making and the options you're considering? What do you know already about this symptom/experience you are describing? That sort of thing) or I provide first person narratives from past clients, colleagues, and intra-communal conversations that may offer context and compassion for where that person is and WHY they are there.

Week 6: learn how to give feedback. What is criticism actually? What's the difference between "speaking a difficult truth" and "being cruel or inappropriate" or between "helping someone find language to communicate their experiences/needs" vs "putting words in someone's mouth". How do you find feedback easier or harder to provide? How do you provide it in ways that maintain accountability while mitigating feelings of defensiveness or rejection from the other party? What does it mean for feedback to be CONSTRUCTIVE and how do you decide to prioritize functional guidance to a peer? How do you root out the desire to "go easy" on peers in the field when they make choices or take actions that are harmful or unacceptable? How do you help each other grow in ways that DO NOT rely on or reinforce shame.

Week 7-14: start demonstrating to me your understanding of these concepts by assuming gradually increasing levels of personal and group responsibility for A) your personal learning, B) the learning/growth of your peers, and C) the form that the internship programming takes in order to acheive the above desired functions

Essentially, those first 6 weeks are heavy on really explicit and visible cognitive untangling of your processes as a person and as a professional, and then the remaining weeks are about building confidence/mastery in these processes such that by term 2 [weeks 15-28] I'm only a facilitator, not a teacher, and by term 3 [weeks 29-42] you should be assuming a teaching role for the new first-term interns. I am here to help you trouble shoot these processes until you feel confident in both cultivation of your OWN self-concept and skills, AND the support/facilitation of OTHERS' self-concept and skills.

We talk a lot about the inherent value of every voice, even in voices we fundamentally disagree with in every way, because communication is still communication even when we don't like or agree with what's being communicated, and understanding how to act on that mechanism with others around you is often a huge part of learning not to feel ashamed of the space you take up in the world, including the space of practicing a new skill or activity.

Conceptually, it seems really straightforward, but we meet probably at least once a day for at least an hour to do this stuff, and we do that for a YEAR, and by the end of it, we have a solid floor of self-esteem and security in the idea of imperfect enactment of human life being inherently valuable regardless of what comes next. It's a lifelong thing for sure tho. I organize these same talks as a continuum for past interns who have become staff and current internship supervisors helping the interns develop their skills, and while our conversations can often have different forms, they are often very similar if not identical in our goals. So like. Straightforward or not, this isn't easy or fast, and I try to emphasize as much as possible that it is also an endless process, not an outcome based static state we can one day acheive. So part of the process also needs to be learning how not to hate or be ashamed of past us no matter how much we had to grow away from past us. That shame will always keep us locked in that little bit of threat around change unless we are consistent with ourselves in kicking it to the curb when it shows up.

I will say, that this is a curriculum I can do because it is a small group (no more than 5 interns per group with 1-2 facilitators) that allows us to pivot and customize the bones of it as needed. I doubt it would function the same way alone or in a large group setting, but I imagine the principles of it could still be helpful in finding what IS functional in those circumstances