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halfdeadwallfly · 23 days ago

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i truly hate being at home

#boink #its just me #its my problem #but i keep telling myself i want to go home #except i am home #i kind of hate myself #and i hate hating myself here

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too-much-boobus · 3 months ago

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THIS IS NOT FUNNY GUYS how to become hot enough to justify being so so selfish how to not die AHGHHH AGHGGHHH I HATE HOMOSEXUALITY I HATE GAY PEOPLE AGGHHGGH literally my only weakness. can u imagine my power if i werent gay. i would die meaningless and alone but at least id know id been perfect by everyone else. i was not built for this i was built to be worshipped and yet here i am GROVELING like a PATHETIC FAGGOT because im WANTING SOMETHING which lends myself to VULNERABILITY AND GIVES THE POWER TO DESTROY ME TO SOMEONE ELSE. and WHAT ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. KILL MYSELF?1?1!1??1? maybe the problem is having self esteem. id say maybe its ok to be this pathetic as long as it makes them love me but it DOESNT EVEN. ITS ANNOYING AND BURDENSOME. i have to suppress myself if i want any of them at all. FUCK MY BAKA LIFE.and im GRATEFUL for this much but i cant help wanting more to the point the need and denial is interfering with my ability to enjoy anything. maybe buddha was right.........

holy shit i just reached the tag limit. anyways im gonna go take a fat shit and pray to god for a system reset soon plzplzplzplz i neeeed it i neeeed to reforge my identity from a depersonalized perspective chat come on its BEEN SO LONG what do i need to do.. ITS NOT MY FAULT NO ONES BEEN TRAUMATIZING ME LATELY come on now:/ i guess thats a good thing but i didnt know i was gonna turn into such a pissbaby afterward 😭 i hate the concept of regression how about im on top of it forever how about i never feel my emotions and never act my age THIS IS TOO SCARY IM SO BAD AT IT AHGHHHHH i will persevere. i just pictured a locked in chad face as a representation of myself and all my mortal complications have been quelled. Get back to work everypony crash out OVER. 😐🧏

#globs #♡

#I DONT EVEN WANNA BE PATHETIC #I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE THIS #ITS NOT ENJOYABLE #i hate being like this #maybe if they wanted me more or if i wanted them less itd be more balanced but either is impossible #i wonder if they at all enjoy it being like this #despite the responsibility and the annoying parts #im doing all i can do contain it and yet.#its my problem #i keep being too scared to even admit i feel like this for fear of it leading to thoughts of breaking up or losing love #so i need to keep reminding myself that this is nothing in the long run and conflicts are normal.#we've had a pretty much perfect relationship so im not used to any problems but normal relationships have them all the time #as long as we stick together itll be ok and i dont need to worry about all that #this is just like sadistic beauty side story b (nobody search this up)(the yaoi might be too toxic w this one..)#like when the top ruins everything by caring and wanting to be loved back when thats simply not possible when hes already taking so much #i need to learn his lesson and just give up bro 😭😭 its ok that im giving everything but holding it back only when they want and not getting #the same back bc how i love is already wrong its alr my fault and theyre being nice enough bearing the burdens and tolerating it #and i wont find anything more than what theyve given me and even then i dont want it if its not them #BUT ITS SO HARD #I dont want to say i cant #its just hard to keep up after a while #i get tired too #but i always need to pick myself up #the worst part is theyre so insistent on giving me hope. theyd prolly want me to talk this out w them and theyd say theyre sorry and theyll #try harder but i dont want that. theyll try and it wont work and itll strain them. i dont want it to be an active effort to love me. id #rather just not have as much for the sake of the longevity of it.#despite knowing that i still keep wanting because theres always that chance that theyre offering me by being too kind.#and i have the gall to get upset at tgem about it sometimes.. i know its only momentary unreasonability but it does build subconsciously #and i despise that the most. i never nevr never want to hate them because theyve already given me everything i could ever ask for #and theyre such a good person with such good intentions and i adore them and theres nothing else out there for me

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eycora · 3 months ago

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growing up here in the south with a horrible dad has had an interesting impact on me because its made me distrust people who open with being nice, especially with men combine that with a general lack of understanding of men its a whole heap of problems ik i have issue i gotta work through with a therapist but neither can i afford one nor do i trust one i could find here in alabama

#trans #lesbian #tumblr #help #not really #its my problem #not yours #i #have #issues

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hinamie · 9 months ago

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mentor

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #gojo satoru #megumi fushiguro #jjk art #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #pulled another allnighter fr Angst's sake cries i havent slept.......but i couldnt help myself i was out all DAY i hadnt drawn all DAY #do u know what that does to a mf i felt all antsy and Wrong #so i cracked an energy drink i think i may have a problem honestly but hey at least u get ur daily dose of megumi angst #remember how i said i considered including gojo in the yuuji/tsumiki/megu squared train piece #well this is me making up fr Not including him there #i ws right his and megumi's relationship deserves its own homage smile :)#anyway @ anon who wanted a gojo/megumi hug.....ik it's not exactly a hug but you can forgive me im sure <3 #dare i say it's better than hugs jeremy.....#honestly fr all my gripes w gojo i Did get kind of emo abt this?? but i feel like. the majority of my emotions r on megumi's behalf #also might have been the mukashi mukashi no kyou no boku on repeat that'll also do it #seriously debated putting translated lyrics as the caption but it feels like a copout doing 2 lyric-captions in a row #also i do have some shame. miku lyrics r a bit.#anyway art notes uhhhhh finally got gojo's hair to not look Yuuji #who knew the trick was to make it longer smh maybe sleep deprivation n 10 hours of staring at a screen Does make simple problems hard #oh file name 'proud of you' btw

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crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington · 4 months ago

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UGHGJHTGH THEYRE SO FAMILY TO MEEEE

#transformers animated #tfa #tfa bumblebee #tfa ratchet #ratchet #bumblebee #maccadam #BEE IS SO HARD TO DRAW BUT HES SO CUTEEE 😭😭#tfa bee might be my fav iteration of him hes just so annoying and whiny and its so funny whats his problem #ughhh old man rachet who hates this stupid kid but hes actually lying and he could never hate him and #in my resident evil phase i was shipping everyone with ethan #but in my transformers phase im just giving bumblebee all the parental figures #u get a dad! u get a dad! u get a dad!#I CAST 1 MILLION PARENTS #tfa ships can be cute but i like them all as a big happy family way more im sorry #theyre all best friends and happy and care about each other

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recklessmoss · 4 months ago

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They need to invent a "I have to voice my needs & wants otherwise people won't know them." that doesn't put me through the same emotions as the first caveman being hunted by a sabertooth tiger.

#sorry know its ill fitting to this blog I just have to put it somewhere I woke up pacing my room in circles saying this to myself #like a mantra since i woke up.#Does anyone else experience primal nauseating guilt when having to voice that I would like something to be done for me or am i the problem-

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stervrucht · 9 months ago

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How I feel after finally finishing that long-ass chapter...

#ster talks #writers on tumblr #writing problems #steddie #steddie fic #my art #fanfiction #ao3 #unapologetically lame humor #proximity chapter 10 is written #but...its not the end yet...because i cant control myself

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sapphire-to-the-rain · 6 months ago

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unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe / blonde.

+ zoomed in versions :))

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cryptic-underground · 7 months ago

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Please, Not Him

Watched the mirror scene one night and got possessed to draw this. Hehe, enjoy! :))

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cozylittleartblog · 10 months ago

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Columbo and the Knight (1984)

put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.

Autism W!