#just say so

[noctualunaris]

negativity? i guess, under the cut.

is enthusiasm dead in the rpc these days? i sometimes feel like i'm more invested in stuff than anyone else.

it could be my rejection sensitivity acting up but... idk. everything feels one-sided. if you aren't enjoying something, just say something. i want everyone having a good time! we can either do something else or stop writing altogether.

this is a theme that has been going on for years now, tbh. no one seems to want to address it. this has to be happening to others.

[pxper-cranes]

Rewrite Zenix

Ok so with the boy losing the recent polls I thought I'd come and talk about him in my rewrite. I saw others doing it too and thought hey maybe I should talk about my rewrite too, as a treat.

So basically I think that Zenix was very young when he became a shadow knight, like 16 or something.

And before we go on, Shadow Knights in my remake are called Revenants. they are born of people who feel immense negative emotions upon their death, such as fear, anger or sadness (all manifesting in different ways) or people who are killed in the nether or by another Revenant. Its a bit like an infection, once a part of Shad has touched your soul, it just kind of festers unless treated. Revenants also age MUCH slower than mortal people. They basically just age to their prime and then stop, and can only be killed by some higher magics.

So Zenix underwent this process early, and let me tell you, the process to become a revenant is gruelling. Perhaps it was from some event that happened to him, perhaps he sought it out. Point is Zenix has had it rough and ended up dying angry. Once he revived, he basically deserted the nether first chance he could, and ran into the world on his own. Soon enough, he happened upon Phoenix Drop, and looking like a scared and deathly teenager, the newly appointed head guard Garroth basically saw him and took him in immediately.

Over the next five or so years, he trained him into the Zenix that is in the series, all while not knowing his true identity and state. Zenix tried to forget it too, living happily in Phoenix Drop, but something happened after Aphmau arrived.

Zenix eventually realised that due to his pseudo immortality, he would eventually see all those he came to know in the village die, including Garroth, who by now was a very prominent father figure in his life. He knew that Garroth would be at risk living in the world as a mortal, and eventually devised a plan to use Aphmau to cause pain to Garroth (Not sure how though since in my rewrite they aren't romantic interests) with eventually the idea to put him through so much pain that he would become a revenant like Zenix, and therefore be immortal too. Zenix knows that Garroth would disapprove, but he is convinced he'd come around, even if he had to wait a century or so to be forgiven.

Now please remember that Zenix is a bit of an idiot, but he is powered by his emotions. He has been alone for a very long time, so he's latched onto Garroth like a bad cold. When he fights Aphmau in her first time in the nether and reveals himself, we learn most of the reason why he acts and what motivates him for the rest of the series, because he will show up a lot more. (I never knew what happened to him frfr) He really does care for Garroth, but his perception of care is twisted and corrupt. he doesn't really care what's best for Garroth, its just about keeping him safe and present within Zenix's life, even if he has to kill a few people to make that happen.

This is just my way of spinning an underutilised character, and who knows, I might one day rewrite MCD to a point where I separate it completely from the original source material and make it just my own thing, but that all depends of whether or not I can actually get to writing.

this actually war pretty fun, I might talk more about my MCD rewrite characters and how they differ from their original counterparts. if people want it, that is

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[fagtainsparklez]

i was cuddling with my boyfriend last night when his shoulder started tensing up (like he was readjusting or gently pushing me off) and when i asked him if he was okay or needed me to move or something he went “no you’re fine, i was just imagining myself pulling a large rope. i didn’t even realize my shoulder was doing that lmao” then refused to elaborate and i have never been as attracted to him as i was in that moment.

[qrowpilled]

hate when you find a character whose so infuriatingly Your Type that its embarrassing like yeahg no one is gonna be surprised when i announce this is my new Guy Of The Month

[happyheidi]

𝖠𝗋𝗍 𝖻𝗒 𝖠𝗇𝗇𝖺-𝖫𝖺𝗎𝗋𝖺 𝖲𝗎𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗏𝖺𝗇 | 𝖨𝖦: 𝖺𝗇𝗇𝖺𝗅𝖺𝗎𝗋𝖺_𝖺𝗋𝗍

[taffywabbit]

they should invent a new type of "staying in bed for 2-3 hours after you wake up repeatedly opening and closing apps on your phone" where it makes you feel awesome and energized and emotionally fulfilled

[brawnie]

*grabbing mlm shippers by the shoulders* guys nobody needs to be the twink. nobody needs to be the sub. nobody needs to be the femboy. they can both be big fat hairy men who bask in each others masculinity or they can both be unspeakable monstrous creatures with inhuman genitalia it’s okay I’m holding your hand. Let me show you the way

[inkskinned]

please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

[lgbtlunaverse]

The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

[queer-is-future]

so when straight people ask me why I say I’m “queer” or “gay” instead of sharing my actual identity as a panromantic demisexual non-binary sapphic queer I just tell them “ok look, when you’re talking to someone who isn’t local and they ask you where you’re from and you either say the name of the largest city nearby or ‘town name, suburb of large nearby city’ so they can get some geographical context of where you’re located right, bc they’re probably not going to know the name of the little town you actually live in.”

but if you’re talking to a local you can say the name of your actual town bc they have a greater chance of knowing where/what that is.

ok well when I’m talking to a straight person I start with queer bc chances are they aren’t as familiar with the context of all the little towns in that big queer city and need gps (gay positioning system) to find me.

if I’m talking to another queer person and I say I live in a suburb of gay city in a town called panromantic on the demisexual side of the tracks which is in the county of queer and I live off the intersection of non-binary and sapphic, they’d probably be able to find me with little to no problems, make sense?

[tyanis]

Kinda feel like there's some untapped meme/reaction image potential from old horror movie trailers...

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

[azuneekun]

did this rat just call me a dumbass in my own native language

[fagtainsparklez]

we have GOT to kill tiktok/twitter self-censorship i just witnessed a grown adult say the word “smex” out loud to our professor

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.