#language processing disorder

[system-of-a-feather]

I think a thing that is frustrating about neurotypicals as someone with autism and auditory / language processing issues (yet to be explicitly diagnosed to my knowledge) is how little they understand neurological differences and disabilities in processing things like hearing and yet they feel like they understand it to a sufficient level.

Case in point, today at work one ofbmy coworkers got all mad and offended because I was "rude and disrespectful" because in the morning, while thinking about the things I needed to do and thought of an important question before I could start my question to ask my mentor, asked the question and she was talking and thus I interrupted her. Yes, rude now that I KNOW she was talking and so I apologize, but I really hate the implied intent or lack of caring put with the "autistic interruption" shit

Ignoring social cues and rules aside, I *literally* didn't realize / process she was talking. Of course, I'm not deaf or HoH so I can't say that because "How could I not hear her? She was speaking loud enough to know" and there is a HUGE difference between *hearing* and *processing* and so when they always give the advise of be more considerate / think before you speak or tell you the social rule to not interript cause its rude, it doesn't help like at all

Cause yes, I KNOW that and I DO think before I speak. I just *literally* didnt process her speech as speech and it was filtered as white noise.

Its like going into a busy and loud club and saying "dont speak if the guy two tables down is talking"

Like yeah, maybe I COULD hear that he is talking among the 50000 other people talking, but Im not processing him talking as distinct from the ambient noise around me.

[disabledsysboxes]

Learning disabilities - 1

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[self-dx-culture-is]

Self dx language processing issues (or more specifically what we think it is, formal thought disorder) culture is being called spaghetti brain endearingly and derogatorily (even by the same person!)

-CCC

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[justabunny]

I wish people were more patient with people who have hearing issues. I'm sorry I couldn't hear you but also you need to learn some compassion and patience <3

[nexus-nebulae]

watching a video and someone went like "she died because she 'lost the will to live'. if she had died from an ACTUAL MENTAL ILLNESS that would be fine, but instead she just 'lost the will to live'" like 1- what do you think depression is. 2- this is why focusing on the label rather than the actual state of existence will always be ableist and harmful. not everyone is given the language for that shit

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[littlemizzlinguistics]

It’s very kind of people I speak other languages with to assume that my slow comprehension and endless requests for repetition are as a result of us not speaking my first language, when in reality, my auditory processing is just complete shit.

[puppypeter]

having thoughts about richmond returning to training after lockdown and there's rules in place that they can train outside without masks but have to wear them in closed space where they're in close proximity (like the changing room) and how that would affect jamie and his understanding of other people. My dude already looks confused most times ted opens his mouths and talks in metaphors and americanisms, now imagine that and you can't even lip read to follow along.

[brain-n-body-in-disarray]

I'm fed up.

I've seen another of these posts where they say "high functioning" ND and autists have it "good", or whatever.

Being "high functioning" doesn't make it less of a struggle. Just a different kind of struggle.

I'm "supposed" to be better at life if my symptoms are "lesser", if I'm abled to mask so well, right?

Wrong.

I'm just in an eternal loop of burn-out and anxiety.

By being categorised "high functioning", by being unseen, I fell through the cracks. That means I didn't get any help, I was on my own. I'm expected to be a successful, self-reliant adult and I'm clearly not. I'm a mess.

I'm invisible. That's no cool super-power, believe me.

People just asks me "what's wrong with you?" but expects me to be like them. "High functioning" is bullshit. That's not a grocery lists of symptoms you have to check. That's not a badge to earn. You can never speak a word and use AAC full time and not being able to "take the joke" and fake your way in this allistic world, and still being a functioning adult that isn't breaking down every two minutes. Which one is "high functioning", tell me?

It depends of your definition of "functioning", I guess.

There's no high or low, just different experiences.

And just because you can do something doesn't mean you don't need help with it. Because being able to do something doesn't mean you can't suffer from it. It doesn't mean you want to have to battle and cry and bleed to do it.

I'm just so tired of this "high functioning" bullshit.

Find another word, people.

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I'll add, a bit more calmly, that what I think is wrong with this is the criterias people uses to decide if it's low or high functioning.

It's based on the symptoms and traits neuroatypicals finds jarring (and thus make the diagnosis criterias) instead on looking on negative effects the disorder have on us, beside, you know, the things that make us stand out.

I know autists that are "obviously autistic", that get accommodations, and I see them thrive. In the meanwhile, I see autists that are categorised as "high functioning" that are chronically depressed because they got to a point where they can't cope anymore. Masking and living unseen and unhelped in the allistic world is exhausting and traumatic.

I'm not saying "low functioning" ND have it good. Certainly not so. There's horrific things done to so many of them because allistic people want to "cure" them and make them "normal". So, no, they don't have it good.

What I'm trying to say is, different experiences make different results, but you can't say one is worse than the other.

That's what anger me with these posts I've seen. That people erases my struggles because of some misconceptions about my life and how I experience it.

I just want a peaceful community linked by our similarities, where we can learn from our differences, instead of fighting over petty things like stuffs like this. What's the point of a feud?

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly, I think people who don't have language issues / speech issues kinda assume that it is just learning words or making sentences that are the issue - and yeah! That can be part of it

But a lot of the time its a lot more complex than that because language is a lot more complex than that - it's just something that a lot of people with typically-developing language and speech skills take for granted because it comes naturally to them

I was thinking about a response I was trying to say to my fiance as a joke (verbally where we struggle a lot more than written) and had a very kind of funny in-hindsight language "glitch". I was going to use it as an example but I couldn't remember the exact contact and phrasing that made it made sense.

Everything from here is how my brain works and may not apply to all people with language / speech issues.

But often when speaking certain words cluster together into conceptual groupings and they together fall into general functions in sentence structure (adjective) (noun) or (action) (noun) or (pronoun) (noun) and they generate a specific concept and idea together that isn't always the same as when translated individually. Additionally, in my experience, chunks of phrases and semantically similar words (ie words that tend to frequently be used together) are easier to draw upon and tend to be pulled into my awareness / "speaking pool" better than individual words.

So "bite you" "bite me" and "bite that" are all actions of biting something in specific and they tend to register in a chunk and operate much like an independent word probably does to an individual without language / speech issues (I am assuming based on how my written language skills are because I usually have little impact on my writing ability)

Taking that into consideration of that with the fact that sometimes it is just hard to find the phrases I'm looking for and thus a common cheat sheet to getting around that is to use the phrasing of the other person if their words were 'close enough' to what I wanted to say, there are certain moments where something entirely different than what was MEANT to be said is actually spoken.

Again, I don't remember the exact details to make it make sense as an example with just the script but him and I were joking around. He made a joke that it is "his job to bite me" which is a play jab cause we bite him 5x more than the other way around. So I wanted to reply "Bitch no, it's MY job to bite YOU" - but I had issues pulling the words together

To say that I needed to state the subject, the action, and any necessary modifiers.

Modifier: "No" (disagreeing)

Subject: "Your job" "(unlabeled concept of me / mine / I)"

Action: "Bite me" (<-stolen from his original phrasing, "me" is taken because brain said I was missing a word that represents the concept of myself in relation to the sentence and "me" is one of those words that fills that + its conveniently already attached to another word)

So my brain put it together "No your job is to bite me"

Which when put next to what I was TRYING to say, is the exact opposite. And so unreliable speech moment which had us both laugh a bit because I just responded to him saying that it was his job to bite me with "no your job is to bite me" which is silly

And honestly unreliable speech takes more forms than this cause theres a lot of different types of unreliable speech errors and what not, but I did kind of want to breakdown one of them for people since I have the written language skills to do so.

[movietonight]

are you deaf? or just super into kdramas about deaf ppl

I'm not deaf but with my background in linguistics and audiovisual translation I have been very interested in sign languages, Deaf culture and accessibility for a while. I'm also hoping to take a sign language class once my grad school schedule permits it (currently living in the USA that would be ASL). I also have auditory processing issues so I stand in solidarity with D/deaf/hoh people additionally for benefitting from some of the same accessibility features.

I have a little project where I've been trying to compile an ultimate list of films and television shows with D/deaf/hoh characters (and specifically ones with significant screen time and/or narrative importance instead of background appearances). I think it would be interesting to have it as some kinda corpus to allow for people to analyse representation over the years and across countries.

As for the k-dramas, I stumbled over them when checking IMDb to catalogue new releases and they caught my interest...

[cosmogyros]

I dislike it so much when a documentary has somebody speaking one language and then another language is overlaid on top of the same audio WITHOUT DELETING THE BACKGROUND AUDIO COMPLETELY ARGH

(edit: like this)

I'm watching this (very interesting) Arte documentary right now, and first there was a Dutch scientist speaking English, while a German narrator spoke the translation of his words into German in the foreground. Then a few minutes later there were a bunch of people speaking French in the European Parliament while it was, again, dubbed into German for the documentary.

But like... my ears are compelled to listen to both things at once! I can't help but listen to the interesting accent the Dutch guy has in English, or recognize words and phrases the people are saying in French, at the same time as I'm trying to focus on the German foreground dubbing.

It's so overwhelming, I hate it, and I so intensely wish documentaries would blank out the background audio completely when dubbing over it >:(((

[sluttyquarantinetheory]

the thing no one tells you about becoming bilingual is that if you have auditory processing issues you become zero-lingual. Fucking nonlingual. Fucking lingualess in seattle. Ain't hearing shit. Sorry don't know what you just said. Désolé.

[marshed---mallow]

GUYS OH MY GOOOOOD

I UNDERESTIMATED HOW FREAKING SWEET PEOPLE OF THE SIGN LANGUAGE COMMUNITY ARE

I JOINED AN ASL DISCORD SERVER TO GET SOME FEEL OF HOW IT'S LIKE TO DO ASL WITH OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE I'M GOING TO A FESTIVAL NEXT WEEKEND, RIGHT?? AND I'M SUPER NEW RIGHT?? AND OH MY

GOD

THESE PEOPLE ARE LITERALLY THE NICEST, MOST PATIENT HUMANS I HAVE EVER TALKED TO IN MY LIFE. THIS IS THE BEST EXPERIENCE ON DISCORD I HAVE EVER HAD.

I AM TEARING UP TYPIGN THIS GUYS I AM SO SERIOIUS

AAUUGUGUWHWHHWHHHWWHWWGMGGMSMGDS

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE SM

[justabunny]

I'm not gonna kiss you bro, I'm just hard of hearing and need to read your lips :')

[transannabeth]

no more!!!! of “speaking [language]” in subtitles of scripted shows!!!!!! write that shit out!!!! transcribe it!!!!!!