i caught myself
↳ summary: remus goes to a coffee shop for the first time
↳ content: fluff, oblivious idiots x idiots, coffee shop au, rock band!muggle
↳ a/n: i wanted to write something fun and i've been listening to too much of my punk rock playlists from when i was 15. feel very free to listen to "i caught myself" by paramore (or any paramore song) while reading..! i love portrayals of remus as an earnest loser where the reader/sirius is ridiculously infatuated with his endearingly awkward ways. in other news, i've given up on using 'y/n,' it killed me every time i had to type it so i just chose a random name, feel free to make a mental edit to 'y/n' if you're more comf with that.
It's rush hour when she first sees him. She almost doesn't — it's just her and her coworker today and her eyes are only moving from the cash register's buttons to each cup as she hastily scrawls names and orders onto the plastic.
"Hi, what can I get for you?" She asks half-distractedly as she finishes writing Mocha Cookie Crumble Frappuccino before sliding it over to her coworker with an apologetic look. Frappes are the worse to make, and it doesn't help that the line is nearly to the door now. She almost doesn't look up but the silence to her question is a little too long, so Winnie darts a quick look up, hoping to see no one standing there.
What she's not expecting to see is a man with wide brown eyes and equally brown hair squinting at the menu above her head. Winnie thinks he's the most good-looking man she's ever seen. As she tries to recap the Sharpie, she stabs her own hand. "Shit," she mutters automatically.
"Sorry?" The ridiculously good-looking man asks politely, his gaze flickering from the menu to her. His eyes are the same color as caramelized sugar and Winnie thinks he looks just as sweet as she watches him pull at the frayed collar of his knitted jumper.
"Nothing, nothing," Winnie says with a dismissive hand as she puts on her best customer-service-smile. "What can I get you today?"
His brows furrow as he turns his gaze back to the menu. "What—" he begins, drawing out the word slowly. Winnie takes his hesitation to steal another appreciative glance at him — he's tall, his frame somewhere between lean and lanky, though it's hidden by a jumper that's clearly been knitted to be a few sizes too large for extra comfort. "—would you recommend?"
"Well, what do you normally like?" Winnie asks, casting a glance behind him. As much as she'd love to talk to this cute stranger for the rest of her shift, the line has started to wrap around.
The man rakes a hand through his hair, tousling already-tousled waves of brown. He looks sheepish and a little panicked. "I've never really had coffee before," he admits. A little strange, but Winnie's not one to judge, especially when he's looking at her with deer-in-the-headlight eyes.
"How about I get you my favorite drink then?" She suggests, already reaching for the sharpie and another cup. It's a trick she's learned from working in the coffee shop for the past few months — customers are less likely to be unhappy with their surprise drinks if they think it's your favorite drink.
The man nods, his shoulders sagging with apparent relief. Matcha latte, she scribbles before looking up at him again. "Can I get a name?"
"My name?" He repeats, looking dumbfounded as if she had just asked for his number.
She lifts the cup and shakes it a little to draw his attention to it. "For your order."
"Remus," he says, straightening. He clears his throat. "Remus Lupin."
"Got it," she says as she writes it down. Remus Lupin. She's never had a customer give her a full name before, but Winnie doesn't have time to ponder it as she slides the cup to her coworker. "That'll be $4.50."
He fishes out a $10 and when she tries to hand back the change, he shakes his head with a soft, polite smile.
"Come again," she calls after him, pleased, before turning back to the monstrous line that had managed to form behind him. "I can help the next customer."
— — — — —
The next time she sees him, it's just her behind the counter. Since the rush died down an hour earlier, she's been leaning over the counter squinting at an eight count that she can't quite get right. When the door jingles, Winnie puts down her pencil and moves back behind the register.
"Hi! What can I get for you today?" She asks before she properly looks up. It's the fluffy-haired man from last week. Today he's wearing a scarlet and gold jumper bunched at his wrists and slacks the same brown as his eyes and hair. She doesn't recognize the lion emblem embroidered on his chest — it doesn't match any of the mascots of the nearby universities. When he unwraps his scarf, she can see that his cheeks are flushed red from the cold. It's a good look on him. "Cold outside?"
"Getting there," he says with a soft sigh.
"I can't wait," she says conversationally. "I love autumn."
"Hm," he says, ending the conversation rather abruptly.
Winnie tries not to grimace at the awkward silence as she pulls out her sharpie from the pocket of her apron. "So, what can I get for you today?" When he hesitates for a moment too long, his gaze darting back up to the menu behind her, Winnie tries for conversation again. "How was the matcha latte last time?"
Remus hesitates, his gaze darting to her. "It was very green."
The response is so unexpected that Winnie barely bites back a bark of a laugh before she catches herself. She wasn't a gifted conversationalist, but Remus was making her seem like a total extrovert. "It was," she agrees, smiling now. Up close, she can see shadows below his big eyes. Maybe he needed an espresso? Or less coffee and more sleep. "I'm guessing it wasn't to your taste? I'll let you order today—"
Remus seems to catch himself because he straightens hurriedly. "No, I'll have a matcha latte," he says firmly, already fishing out five dollar bill.
Winnie punches the numbers into the cash register and nods him along, but he hesitates, looking at her expectantly. "Don't you need my name?"
"Not unless it's changed from Remus Lupin," Winnie chirps cheerfully, biting back a smile as he blinks at her rapidly. "Has it?"
"No," he says, clearing his throat. "It's still Remus Lupin."
"Coming right up, Remus Lupin," Winnie says with a mini salute as she turns to start making the drink.
After he leaves, she notices a strange looking coin in the tip jar that hadn't been there before. When she squints at it, she can make out the carved word, Sickle. With raised brows, Winnie slips the strange coin into the pocket of her jeans.
— — — — —
The next time she sees Remus Lupin, he's wearing a long coat over a sweater vest. Winnie thinks he looks like a cute little professor.
"Hi, how's it going—" she's beginning to say just as Remus says choppily, "It's cold outside. Now."
They both blink at each other for a moment before Winnie grins a little, inwardly pleased that he remembered their last conversation. "Yeah?" She turns to squint critically out the window. "On a day like this, I'd kill to be in bed with a warm cup of tea."
Remus nods thoughtfully before pausing. "Not matcha?"
"Matcha strikes me more as a spring-summer drink," she muses.
He nods again, eyes darting to the menu above her head. Winnie is used to this now, so she waits patiently for his order. To her surprise, he looks at her again tentatively, his brown eyes startling bright. It feels as though she's been sucker punched.
"I'm not much of an autumn or winter person," he says. It takes her a moment to realize that he was still referencing their previous conversation. "The cold gets to my joints," he adds, looking a little sheepish.
"Ah," she says dumbly, nodding, before blurting, "Well, did you know that matcha has antioxidant and anti-inflammatory effects?"
Remus blinks at her as though she's clubbed him over the head. "Anti-ox-i-dant," he repeats slowly, as if saying the word for the first time.
Winnie inwardly grimaces. Why was she still talking about matcha? She had been so caught off guard that he was continuing the conversation and that his eyes were stupidly pretty that she had fumbled a little. "Er, so what can I get for you?"
"A cup of matcha then," Remus says, fishing a five dollar bill from his pockets. "For it's anti-ox-i-dant effects."
Winnie's cheeks burn a little as she waves him off. "It's on the house today," she says.
Remus looks surprised as he hesitates. "No, I can pay—"
"No, no, it's on the house," Winnie says firmly, thinking inwardly, For my piss poor attempt at conversation. Before he can insist, she takes her Sharpie and writes Matcha latte, even though it's only her behind the counter today. "Name?" She asks, half-teasing, half-hoping to distract him from trying to pay.
He blinks, looking startled. "Remus Lupin," he answers automatically, straightening.
"Just making sure it hasn't changed," she hums, smiling a little as she gets started on the latte.
To her surprise, Remus laughs, the sound low and rich and warm. "It hasn't yet," he says, glancing down at her name tag for a moment before looking back up at her, his brown eyes wide and bright as he drops the ten dollar bill into the tip jar. "Thank you, Winnie."
Winnie is too stunned by his laugh to complain.
— — — — —
Remus starts to come by more frequently. She can never quite figure out his schedule — it's sporadic, sometimes during rush hour where they can only exchange a few words, but mostly when the coffee shop is empty. She's grown so accustomed — and perhaps, has quickly begun to look forward — to seeing him that she can't help but look up hopefully when someone comes in.
Their conversations at the counter gradually grow less halting. She makes a point to always ask his name and Remus dutifully plays along each time, his lips twitching each time he gives her his name.
"You're always working on music," he observes one day. He must have come in without her realizing because when she looks up, she finds Remus nodding down at her paper.
"I am," she agrees mournfully. "I study music at the local university," she tells him, straightening her apron.
"That suits you," he says with the soft smile that she's grown terribly fond of.
Pleasure warms her chest as she tries not to beam at him. Though their conversations are mostly quiet and simple, it feels as though she's always trying not to smile a full-teeth smile at him.
She learns that he's only recently graduated from some sort of private boarding school. From his vague references, it sounded like one of those preparatory schools for gifted students. It doesn't strike her as much of a surprise — from his responses, Winnie can get a sense for how knowledgeable and bright he is, though to be fair, he always seems to bring a new book in when he visits. It might also explain how awkward and closed off Remus is, Winnie decides — she thinks public schools build thick skin. Winnie doesn't really mind the occasionally halting conversations though — Remus, for his credit, is a wonderful listener and always asks her questions when she talks about her band. And something about the attentive way Remus looks at her makes her feel comfortable about talking. She's almost worried that she talks too much — it's a welcome reprieve from the quiet slowness or the repetitive "Hi, how are you?'s" of the coffee shop.
"Sorry," she says one day when she brings him his drink. "I realize that I talk your ear off whenever you're here and I'm sure you've got things to do, books to read."
Remus shakes his head, sending his fluffy brown hair falling against his brow. It's gotten longer since the first time she's met him, the ends beginning to curl down the nape of his neck and around his ears. It's a good look on him, though admittedly, Winnie finds herself thinking that whenever he comes in.
"It's no problem," Remus says easily. Winnie nods, about to return to the counter when he clears his throat. "I... enjoy your company," he says with an impossibly tiny smile. At the sight of it, Winnie wants to fall to the floor, but she hasn't mopped it yet, so she opts to stand perfectly still instead. "If you ever feel inclined to take a break to chat, the chair is always open."
Some days when the shop isn't too busy, she takes him on his offer to sit and chat. Some days their conversations are long and winding, about nothing in particular, and on some days — mostly the days where he looks strangely exhausted — they both sit in a comfortable silence with Remus reading his books and Winnie laboring over her music.
One day when she's put all her focus on composing, Winnie nearly jumps out of her skin when Remus speaks up. "New song?"
Winnie looks up from her sheets at his question. A little thrill runs through her body when she sees that his book has been discarded to the side as he looks at her curiously. "Old song," she sighs. "I've been trying to finish these lyrics," she says, giving a frustrated glare to the paper. "I wanted to finish it in time for my band's next show, but I can't seem to get anywhere good with it."
Remus hums thoughtfully. "What's it about?"
"It's a love song," Winnie says before thinking. She darts a quick look at Remus as her ears burn, but fortunately, he's looking down at her lyrics thoughtfully. To be fair, she reasons with herself, she had started writing it before meeting Remus. "I've been stuck for ages now though."
"Hmm," Remus hums, leaning back in his chair to stretch his lithe limbs before letting his arms settle on his head. It's an effortlessly attractive motion — Winnie tries not to stare. "I'm sure you've tried already, but maybe you can draw inspiration from experience?"
Winnie clears her throat. "Oh, er, well, I actually don't really have..." She falters, feeling her cheeks burn. She's undeniably red now. "—experience in that realm," she finishes lamely.
"Ah," Remus makes a sound, his eyes widening a fraction as he re-rights himself to sit up straight in his chair. "Sorry, I just figured that you... That there'd be..." He stops himself, looking sheepish.
"That I what?" She presses, arching her brow to deflect from her reddening face.
"I just thought that you'd have experience in relationships," Remus coughs, his cheeks pink now. It's cute enough that it nearly distracts her from the mortifying conversation they're having.
"Ah, no," she says, swallowing. Then she adds hurriedly, darting a glance at him, "It's not that I don't want to date. It's just the type of guy I've attracted in the past has always been—" Winnie cuts off her rambling abruptly as Remus leans forward, brown eyes trained on hers.
"Has been what?"
"Oh, I don't know," she mumbles, scrubbing a hand over her face, grimacing. "You know, tattoos, eats cigs for breakfast. Maybe my nose ring gives the wrong impression," she lets out an embarrassed laugh, wishing that the ground would open up and swallow her whole to stop her nonsensical babbling.
"I see," Remus says slowly in a tone that very much sounded like he didn't.
"What about you?" She blurts. Remus looks startled, so she shoulders onwards. It feels as though she has nothing left to lose, anyways. "I'm sure you were popular in school."
"Ah," he says, making a noise at the back of his throat. He rubs the nape of his neck, looking embarrassed as he looks down as his discarded book. She bets he wished he never stopped reading. "Not really," he says. "I was always busy with school and, er, other things, so I never..." He trails off, making a vague motion with his hands. "Yeah," he finishes lamely.
"That's a surprise," Winnie says, inwardly relieved that he wasn't dating anyone. "I'm sure you had plenty of admirers."
Remus smiles at her wryly, a flash of embarrassment flickering across his face. "My mates had plenty of admirers," he says, though not enviously. Winnie waits patiently for him to continue — one thing she's gathered from Remus was that he often deflected talking about himself through talking about his friends. Sirius, Peter, James, she had learned were their names. "Sirius, in fact, was plenty popular." He darts a strange look to her, his brows knitted together and contemplative. "You'd get along well with him, I reckon."
— — — — —
Another day, during rush hour. She can see him waiting in the long line stealing glances at her that sends her heart stuttering. When their gaze meets, she offers him an apologetic smile. Remus just returns her smile and shakes his head, sending his hair down across his brow.
When he finally reaches the counter, he doesn't leave her any time to say hello. "I have a mate," Remus starts, pausing long enough for her to raise a brow.
"A mate," she drawls, trying to decode the peculiar expression on his face. He's visibly hesitating, his brow furrowing and relaxing as if he's overcoming some inner dilemma. Winnie waits patiently.
"A mate," he says again, rubbing the base of his neck. "That wants to learn how to play the guitar."
"I see," Winnie says slowly, patiently.
"It's Sirius — my friend that I told you about before," he adds, not quite looking at her but not quite looking away either. "Obviously, you can say no, but I thought that since you played the guitar, that maybe you'd...?"
Winnie thinks about it for a moment, an idea forming in her mind. She felt a twinge of guilt briefly for having an ulterior motive, before reasoning with herself that she was about to give a free guitar lesson. "I can give him an intro lesson," she says. "But only because he's your good friend."
Remus relaxes, his face breaking into a smile that only makes her feel better about her choice. Lord, she thinks, her eyes tracking his dimple. She thinks if he smiled like that at her, she'd do anything. "Brilliant," he beams.
A customer behind him clears her throat meaningfully, jolting Winnie out of the conversation. She had entirely forgotten she was working.
"So, a matcha latte?" She asks loudly. When she looks back at him, she's expecting him to sport his normal embarrassed half-smile, but she's caught off guard to see him grinning at her roguishly. Remus never fails to surprise her.
Remus nods, clearly trying not to laugh as he fishes out a bill. Winnie goes through the motions of punching in the numbers and preparing the cup. "We can do it at my flat, I have an extra guitar," she tells him as she finishes his order.
Remus smiles and nods, turning to leave when a thought occurs to her. "Oh, and Remus?" She calls after him.
He whirls around, brows arched and eyes wide and attentive. "Hmm?"
"You'll be there right?"
"Me?" Remus blurts, looking startled.
Winnie bites back a sigh. As she expected. Doubling down, she nods. "I'm not going to let a random man into my flat," she tells him, brows arching. She tries to ignore the customer behind him huffing impatiently.
Remus hesitates. "Sirius isn't a random man." Despite herself, Winnie likes this stubborn side of him.
"I've never met him," she sniffs, jutting her chin out mulishly.
"So you'll feel better if there's two random men in your house?" He counters archly.
But Winnie had been expecting this. She gives him a smile. Remus blinks, looking startled as any semblance of resistance dissipates. "You're not just a random man," she says meaningfully.
Remus blinks again. Then he turns, clearing his throat as he begins wrapping his scarf around his neck. Winnie thinks she can see a pink flush crawl up his neck before he covers it with a scarf, but she might just be seeing what she wants to see. "I'll be there," Remus says gruffly with a stiff nod.
Winnie mimics his stiff nod and bites back a smile.
"Thank you for waiting," she says to the next customer with her best customer-service-smile.
Before Remus returns for his drink, Winnie makes a split-second decision to write her number on a napkin. The idea has her stomach doing a dangerous, giddy flip in her stomach, but she does it anyways and slips it under his drink waiting on the counter.
— — — — —
The next three weeks is grueling for two reasons. The first is that she doesn't see Remus once, despite taking extra shifts. The second is because she waits for a phone call that never comes.
She's never given her number to anyone before so she doesn't quite know what the socially acceptable amount of time is before getting a call, but after the first five days of radio silence and his absence in the coffee shop, she's sure that she's made a terrible mistake.
She feels embarrassed and a little foolish, wishing she hadn't gotten swept up in her hopes and his stupid brown eyes. She had been silly — she was just an overly-chatty local barista and he was just a nice customer with a nice smile and nice eyes and nice everything who put up with her rambling. It's a little mortifying to think back on, so Winnie tries not to think about it, though every time the door's bell jingles, she's caught in a vicious cycle of hope, disappointment, and embarrassment.
She reckons that if he did ever come back, she'd either just pretend as though she never gave him her number or she'd hide in the storage room. The latter option sounded the most appealing the longer she went without seeing him.
She's closing up the shop one night when the door bursts open, the bells jingling loudly. Startled, Winnie nearly drops the bucket she had just finished mopping with. Her heart drops to her stomach.
"Hi," Remus says, pink-cheeked and breathless. "Are you closed?"
Winnie stares at him wide-eyed. She has a brief irrational flash of self-consciousness as she holds a mop and bucket in her hands, her hair and makeup unruly after a long shift. "I—" Winnie bites the inside of her cheek, looking at the clock. She was just a local barista, and he was just a customer, she reminded herself, swallowing back the growing burn of embarrassment in her belly.
As if sensing her hesitation, Remus straightens, clearing his throat. "I mean, you don't have to make a drink or anything actually, I just—"
"I can make a quick drink before I close up," Winnie says hurriedly, not quite able to look him in the eyes as she moves behind the counter. Memories of her giving him her number is seared in memory and it takes all her willpower not to crumble in mortification in front of him.
"No, it's alright," Remus says hurriedly, following her. "I'll help you close up."
"No, go sit over there," Winnie says, her voice a little too clipped. Remus hesitates, floundering before stubbornly following her again. Too close. She whirls around on him, exasperated and embarrassed. Pride wounded. "Remus, I'll make your drink just—"
"Winnie," he cuts in softly, his eyes tracking over her face carefully, quick to pick up her emotions. Winnie diverts her eyes mulishly. "I didn't actually come for a drink today," he says in a patient tone that only amplifies her growing embarrassment that she hides under irritation.
"Then I'm guessing you came to mess with a small local business," she grumps unfairly to herself, stomping behind the counter to drop the mop and bucket into the storage closet. Remus follows her doggedly.
"No, that's not why either," he says, huffing out a good natured laugh. Winnie ignores how smooth and honeyed it sounds.
"Then why'd you come so late? Seeing as how you haven't come in the past three—" Winnie cuts herself off, mortified, before stalking past him to busy herself with wiping down the counter.
"That's exactly why I came," Remus says from behind her. "I haven't seen you in three weeks and I wanted to see how you were doing."
Winnie swallows, caught off guard by his straightforwardness. And then she continues to scrub the counter aggressively, refusing to turn around and be swayed by him, though she could feel her grievances begin to dissipate. "Well, you could have called," she grumbles pointedly.
"I, er, don't have a telephone."
"You don't have a telephone," Winnie repeats automatically, before turning to balk at him. He looks embarrassed, his fingers fidgeting compulsively with the sleeves of his lumpy cardigan. In disbelief, she squints at him suspiciously. "Listen, Remus, I really won't be offended if you weren't interested, so there's no need to make up an excuse—"
"It's not an excuse," Remus interjects, straightened. He looks visibly affronted, his lips twisting into a slight frown. "I don't have a telephone."
"Oh," Winnie says dumbly, her voice small. And then she frowns, still skeptical. "How do you get into contact with your friends? Carrier pigeon?"
Remus lets out a huff of a laugh, mirth flickering in his brown eyes. "You wouldn't believe me if I told you."
For some reason, she believes him, so she drops it. It's probably the warm fondness in his eyes that neutralizes her. "I see," she says finally, unsure about whether to feel disappointed or relieved.
Remus seems to notice because he clears his throat. "I would have called you, really," he says. He's looking at her with those brown eyes again, big and earnest, and Winnie can't help but stare.
Flustered with the way he was looking at her, she turns to grab a tray of milk cartons. "I thought you were ghosting me," she grumbles. "I mean, I give you my number, you don't call and stop showing up. What's a girl supposed to think?"
Remus follows her, even closer now, close enough that she can smell his cologne — he smells good, she notes distractedly — and gently takes the tray of milk cartons from her hand, his big hands enclosing over hers briefly. Winnie nearly drops the whole tray. "You're not getting paid for that," she says, flustered and embarrassed and—
—and Remus is smiling at her with an impossibly patient and endeared smile, the sort that softens his eyes into little half-moons. Lord, Winnie thinks, her mind going unhelpfully blank as any memory of her mortification fades quickly.
"I would have called you," he says again, turning to look at her properly. He clears his throat, his eyes snagging on to hers intently. "I wanted to call you." He's holding the tray of cartons and she's trapped in the corner and the whole thing feels a little ridiculous, especially with the way her heart is stuttering under his gaze. He steps closer, his shoulders curving over slightly as he tries to match her height to appear less imposing. "I'm sorry for not giving you a heads up — I got swept away for work, but I'll let you know next time that happens."
"There's no need," she mumbles, flushing now. God, he probably didn't even know what he was doing. "It's not like we're..." The words die on her lips. She doesn't really know what she wants to say. Were they friends? She sure hoped so, but she could see how she was just a local barista and he was just a regular.
Remus ducks his head a little so that they're looking at each other properly again. They're close enough that Winnie can see his long lashes fluttering across his cheeks. She can see the splay of freckles across his tan skin. The thin shadow of a scar across the bridge of his nose. It's like she can't escape as her mind goes unhelpfully blank again. His eyes are warm and apologetic and earnest and Winnie feels like she's being seen right through. "How can I make it up to you?" He asks, looking entirely sincere.
Winnie's mouth — her heart — moves before her mind does. "My show," she blurts.
His brows furrow ever so slightly. "Your show?" He repeats, understandably not following because she was barely coherent.
"Yes," she says, straightening and doubling down. "I'm having a small show. With my band. This weekend. You should come." God, Winnie thinks, grimacing at how choppy her words were. Remus is looking at her with those distractingly pretty eyes again, so she steels herself, taking a steadying breath. "I mean, I'd love it if you came."
Remus nods, his lips twitching as if she hadn't just given an awful word-by-word monologue. "I'd love to."
— — — — —
The venue isn't terribly large, but even on stage staring into a dark crowd of faces, Winnie can spot Remus immediately. That's how she knew she was in trouble. Well, maybe she had already known she was in trouble the first time she heard Remus laugh properly.
She's had shows before, but this one feels different. It feels as though it's only her and Remus. So as Winnie plays her guitar and sings her songs, she gives in to the enamored thrill blossoming in her chest and pours it into her music. She hopes he can hear it.
The show passes by in a euphoric blur. All Winnie can really remember is Remus beaming at her from the crowd — and her beaming back — but she thinks it went well. Backstage, her bandmates are energetic and grinning widely, clasping each other on the back. "One of our best," their drummer proclaims, cheering.
Winnie tries to smile and listen, but the excitement of the show has started to turn into a bundle of growing nerves as she waits backstage with her bandmates.
"Waiting for someone today?" Doreen, their bassist, asks astutely as she starts moving some of their equipment.
"No," Winnie blurts unconvincingly, only gathering delighted hoots from the others.
"I knew this one felt different for a reason—" Doreen shouts gleefully, before falling silently abruptly, her eyes falling on someone behind Winnie. It takes all of her willpower to look casual and not whirl around. "Oh. He looks like he should be in a band," Doreen's voice drops into a hushed whisper. "Can we please add him? He can... play the triangle or something. He can be the face of our band. Our new mascot—"
At this, Winnie frowns and turns around. She wouldn't exactly say that Remus, with his soft jumpers and fluffy hair, looked like he'd be the face of a rock band—
"Hi," A voice, smooth and pitched low, says. "Winnie, right?"
Winnie stares at this stranger uncomprehendingly. He's strikingly handsome, his eyes the color of mercury and his hair the color of ink. He's all sharp angles and perfectly unruly curls and devilish smile, the type that Winnie has seen before. It comes with the crowd a rock band attracts, though this man in particular looks as though he was carved out of marble with his aquiline nose and high cheekbones.
Winnie blinks at him. "Yeah," she says uncertainly, scratching her cheek. "Er, do we know each other?"
"Winnie, this is Sirius," a familiar voice cuts in from behind the dark-haired man. Winnie straightens, her eyes snagging immediately on him as he steps out from behind Sirius.
Unlike Sirius's leather jacket and tattoos, Remus looks so painfully out of place in his sweater vest and slacks. She's impossibly endeared at the sight — in fact, all she can really do is stare dumbly at him. He's holding a little bouquet of yellow flowers. Her heart gives a dangerous squeeze.
Doreen clears her throat, jolting her out of her fixation. Winnie tears her eyes away from him to give his friend a polite smile as she shakes his hand. "Hi there." Distractedly, she turns back to look at Remus. "I didn't know you were going to bring a friend—"
"We love friends," Doreen says brightly. Winnie bites back a laugh at Doreen's lovesick scheming as her gaze snags on to Remus again. "Friends are always welcome here."
"I've heard loads about you," Sirius says smoothly, flashing her a charming smile. She swears she can hear Doreen faint next to her. "Remus, in fact, doesn't ever stop—"
Winnie's stomach does an Olympic-gymnastic-level flip as she watches Remus indiscreetly dig his elbow into Sirius's ribs. Sirius seems unbothered, but he stops and gives Winnie a smarmy grin.
"How was the show?" She asks, her gaze darting to Remus. It's like she can't stop looking at him.
"Brilliant," he blurts, beaming. "Absolutely brilliant. You were amazing," he says, eyes bright. "I mean, I knew you loved music, but seeing you in your element..." He stops abruptly, looking embarrassed. She isn't sure if it's the lighting, but his cheeks look pink. Or it's a reflection of how red her face has turned. Pleasure blooms in her chest so violently she feels a little dizzy.
"I'm glad you liked it," she manages, uncharacteristically bashful. She can feel her bandmates staring at her, slack-faced, and forces herself to ignore it. "I wasn't sure if it would be your type of music, but..."
"No, it was," Remus says hurriedly, turning to look at Sirius. "Right?"
Sirius nods, looking between the two of them with great interest. "Remus was practically on his knees—" Another jab into his ribs.
Winnie bites back a laugh, flushed and pleased, before nodding down at the bouquet in his hands. "Are those for me?" She asks, half-bluntly, half-hopefully.
Remus looks down at his hands as if he only just then remembered what he was holding. "Oh, yeah, yeah," he says. Winnie thinks she's dreaming for a moment, until Remus thrusts it into Sirius's hands. "They're from Sirius."
She blinks. Sirius blinks, an equally baffled expression on his face though he covers it up quickly. "Oh," the dark-haired man says slowly, his silver gaze flickering to his friend. "I guess—"
"—as a thank you for agreeing to the lesson," Remus cuts in hurriedly as Sirius hands it to her uncertainly.
Winnie takes the bouquet, bewildered now, but she plasters a polite smile on her face. "Er, it's no problem at all," she says, unsure about whether to say that to Sirius or Remus.
Sirius takes it in a stride though. "I would kill to play the guitar like you," he says, voice dripping with charisma. "How'd you—"
"You can try my bass, if you'd like," Doreen interrupts from behind her. Winnie's jaw goes a little slack — Doreen's the most protective with her bass — but her bandmate shoots her a meaningful look.
"Brilliant," Sirius says brightly. Winnie turns to watch Doreen in disbelief as they disappear into the backroom.
"Now he's not a random man, right?" Remus murmurs to her, his breath coasting against the shell of her ear. She nearly jumps out of her skin at the proximity.
"I suppose not," she says, trying to keep her cool but Remus is looking at her with bright eyes. It doesn't help when his lips quirk triumphantly, smugly. "But—" she interjects before it can widen any further, "—if it turns out that your friend is horrendous at the guitar, I think it's only fair if you also have to suffer through it."
Remus's brows shoot up. "And if he's good at it?"
"Then you get to witness my masterful teaching."
He huffs out a laugh, a little disbelieving, a little amused. "Fine," Remus sighs, but he's clearly trying not to smile. She finds herself wishing that he did. "I'll be there."
— — — — —
Sirius, as it turns out, is awful at the guitar. Winnie tries to chalk it up to it being his first time trying it out, but even then, he seemed... challenged.
She had been teaching him for an hour now — her sitting on one of the kitchen stools she had pulled into her flat's shoebox of a living room-bedroom situation, Sirius sitting on the couch with her old guitar precariously balanced on his knees. Remus tried to excuse himself once he realized his friend was musically challenged. Feeling merciful — and also realizing that Remus's presence was making her too nervous to focus on teaching Sirius — Winnie nodded him towards the kitchen. She had spent all morning meticulously cleaning her flat — even she knew she was being a little ridiculous and overly nervous when she started scrubbing at the oven — in preparation for the session. Even then, the knowledge that Remus was in her flat filled her with a different type of nerves.
"Let's take a break," Winnie huffs finally, setting her guitar down.
Sirius rises to his feet and stretches, looking relieved. "I'll get some water for us?" He offers, already making himself at home. Winnie nods, waving him off as she tries to fight back the incoming migraine from stressing over Sirius snapping her strings. At the reminder of his hand-eye coordination and all the glass she has in her cupboards, she springs to her feet quickly.
"Maybe I should just charm the guitar," Sirius is murmuring when she walks in to the kitchen.
"No amount of charisma will charm the guitar," Winnie says, amused. The boys straighten, looking strangely guilty.
"But Sirius is particularly charming," Remus supplies abruptly, darting a quick look to Sirius, who just looks startled by his friend's sudden proclamation.
"I see," Winnie says slowly, exchanging a baffled glance with Sirius.
"Right, well, I ought to practice some more then," Sirius says, giving a salute as he leaves the kitchen.
"Is he that bad?" Remus asks once Sirius leaves.
"It's like he's never used his hands before a day in his life to do anything," Winnie whispers to Remus with a solemn nod.
Remus makes a choking sound as though he's trying not to laugh. Winnie wishes he did. "You don't know the half of it," he huffs, lips curling as if he's sharing a secret.
"He's not really not very good with his fingers," Winnie admits honestly, lifting her cup to her lips.
"That's not his reputation among the girls," Remus blurts.
Winnie chokes on her water and starts coughing violently. Alarmed, Remus reaches out and pats her on the back. "What?" She rasps around a sore throat as she turns to give Remus an incredulous look.
His expression is too carefully neutral as he shrugs at her. "Sirius has always been Hogwart's most sought after bachelor," he recites, as if she's supposed to know what this meant.
"What's going on, Remus?" Winnie questions, her brows shooting up higher. "You've been acting strange recently. It's like you're trying to sell me this poor boy or..." She falters, turning to look at Remus. To his credit, he looks sheepish as he looks away to inspect her cabinets. "Remus," she begins, her voice dangerously low. "Please tell me you're not trying to set me up with your friend."
Remus goes pink in the face and it's all she needs to confirm her suspicions. Inwardly, her heart drops a little, but outwardly, she just stares at him, waiting for a proper response. As if realizing there wasn't a way of getting out of this, the brown-haired boy sighs a little, raking a hand through his hair. "I just thought you two would get along well together," he says, looking at her with earnest eyes.
It hurts. Much more than she cares to admit. Trying to swallow back the disappointment, Winnie turns so that he can't see it on her face. So that's what this has been about. "For how long?" She asks, her throat dry. She can feel a headache coming on.
"How long what?" Remus asks. He sounds confused.
"How long have you been thinking about setting us up? Did he even want to learn the guitar?" Winnie thinks back to Remus's reluctance on coming to her flat. She thinks back to him bringing Sirius along to the concert. She thinks about how much she likes Remus and how she thought he felt the same way. So it had all been one sided. Humiliation burns in her stomach as she stares down at her hands.
"No, he did, he did want to learn how to play the guitar," he says quickly. "Or, er, he was interested in learning after I told him about you. Sirius is a great guy, really!" Remus, all too late, seems to sense something amiss when she doesn't respond. He straightens, an expression of growing alarm on his face. "Are you... upset?"
"No," Winnie says. She wasn't, for once. In fact, she just wanted the ground to open up and swallow her hole. "I'm just..." She trails off, pinching the bridge of her nose before exhaling quietly.
"Sirius is a great guy, I promise," Remus says again, slowly as if not to spook a wild animal. But Winnie has already been spooked.
"Yeah, he is," she says, her voice pitched just slightly too high and just slightly too clipped as she turns to flee the kitchen. "But not very great at the guitar, so I'd better go check up on him. I suspect he'd find a way to set fire to my flat with just a guitar."
"I'm an idiot," she mutters to herself, closing her eyes for a moment.
A cheerful voice chirps up from the couch. "So, when can I join your band?"
— — — — —
Winnie doesn't go to work for the rest of the week. She asks her coworkers to cover her shift with a fake cough and a groan of a headache. The headache part isn't really a lie — ever since her conversation with Remus in her kitchen, she's felt a dull ache drumming behind her eyes. So she's holed herself in her apartment — specifically her bed, under lots of blankets — sulking and moping by herself.
By the fifth day, Winnie realizes bitterly that she can't keep this up. She has rent to pay. On the day that she's decided to come back into the coffee shop, her phone rings. "Winnie, are you coming in today?" her coworker asks.
"Yeah, I'm feeling better," Winnie lies as she stuffs her apron into her bag.
"Great," her coworker says before pausing. "There's been a bloke coming by asking for you."
Winnie can feel the headache come back full force. "A bloke," she repeats, knowing full well they both knew who she was talking about.
"Tall, brown hair. I told him you've been out sick, but he seems worried, so you ought to give him a ring."
To her chagrin, Remus is there the first day she comes back.
"Hi, welcome," she says, her voice tight. Winnie plasters a too-bright smile on her face to compensate. "What can I get for you today?"
Remus blinks. "A matcha latte. How have—"
"Coming right up," she says, punching in the order with rapid speed. Still smiling brightly. "That'll be $4.50—"
Remus hands her a five before she can finish.
"Here's your change, sir—" Winnie tacks it on at the end of the sentence before she can help it. Remus's face crumples in confusion for a moment, his brow furrowing together as he watches her for a moment longer. It feels as though his eyes are burning through her.
"You can keep the change," he says softly, still looking at her.
Winnie forces out a thank you. She feels as though her smile is starting to look like a grimace. Her cheeks are hurting. He's still looking at her with those stupidly pretty brown eyes. She knows he's waiting. She forces herself to look back down at the register before straightening. "Next in line, please."
— — — — —
To her relief, she's not on cash register duty the next time he comes. Winnie ducks her head with forced concentration as she makes an order. She's definitely too concentrated on making the drink that she doesn't notice the way his face brightens again when he sees her as he nears the counter. She's definitely too concentrated to hear her coworker take his order of a matcha latte. She's definitely too concentrated to feel his eyes on her as she busies herself behind the counter. She definitely wasn't paying attention.
This game of concentration can only go on for so long, Winnie realizes belatedly after she finishes making his drink. She stares down at his name on the cup glumly for a moment before putting her best customer-service smile back on. "For Remus," she calls out without quite looking up. Though she knows that he's sitting patiently at his normal table.
When he comes, Winnie puts a straw on the lid, trying not to look as tense as she feels.
"Hi," he says, looking at her fully in the face.
"Hi," she says back, not quite looking at him, but also not quite looking away. This time, there's no line and nowhere to escape to.
Remus fiddles with the straw wrapper slowly. "How..." He falters, his eyes imploring as he tries to catch her gaze. His brows are furrowed slightly. "...have you been? They said you've been ill?"
"Ah yeah," Winnie says weakly, busying herself with tidying up the straws and napkins by the register. "Caught a cold."
"It's not Dragon Pox, is it?" He says, his brows furrowing even further, a crease of concern between them.
Winnie blinks at him. "Dragon Pox?"
Remus blinks back at her. "Oh, maybe not then," he murmurs hurriedly before clearing his throat. "Er, if you're still feeling ill, I have this—" He reaches into the pocket of his long coat and pulls out a small vial. Winnie stares at it blankly. "—that helps with cold symptoms."
She squints at it, dubiously. "Is that medicine?"
Remus fiddles with the little glass vial. "Something of the sort."
"You just carry that around... in your pocket?"
"Well no," Remus says, looking embarrassed now. He clears his throat as his eyes dart down to the vial. "I wanted to give it to you, but I thought that dropping it off at your flat might be too much."
"Oh," Winnie says dumbly. Her stomach does a traitorous flip and she forces herself to also look down at the vial as her last defenses against him begin to crumble. She should've known this was going to happen. "That's sweet of you."
"It's nothing," he mumbles, setting the vial on the table. "Er, are you busy today?"
Winnie swallows. "Yeah, I've been out, so I ought to pull my weight around here," she says, though she thinks the both of them knows that it's a lie. The coffee shop barely had anyone else in it. But Winnie doesn't look up at him to see his face fall — she knows that if he just flashes her his doe eyes, she'll be back at square one. She forces a smile on her face.
Remus nods. His disappointment is clear on his face as he stuffs his hand back into the pocket of his coat. Winnie tried not to think about it. "Right, well, I'll be over there if you need a break."
— — — — —
Her landline rings again for the third time in the past fives minutes as she tries to get the chord progression correct. Though she's been trying, she's hit an even bigger music-block recently. Winnie squints at the number — it's the same one that's been trying to dial her. With a frustrated sigh, she sets her guitar to the side and picks up the receiver from the landline with a little too much vigor. "Hello?" She asks, the irritation in her voice cutting through clearly.
"Winnie?"
She pauses, taken aback. "This is she," she says after a moment. Who would be calling her nearly at midnight?
"Sorry, were you sleeping? I just got a telephone and I wanted to call, but I didn't realize it was this late—" The person on the other end sounds a little out of breath.
"Sorry, who is this?" She asks, bewildered now.
A pause. "It's Remus."
Winnie nearly drops the phone. "Remus?" She repeats.
"Yeah," he says uncertainly. "Remus Lupin," he adds, as if that'll help.
"Of course I know who you are," she says, a little disbelieving.
"You didn't sound like you did a few seconds ago," he says good-naturedly.
"Well, I wasn't expecting a call from someone without a phone."
He huffs out a laugh, soft and quiet. Hearing it close to her ear through the receiver makes a warmth spread through her chest. This was dangerous. She settles back on the couch as Remus continues talking, his voice soft like he's trying not to wake up his flatmate. "Well, to be fair, I did just get it."
"I never thought I'd see the day," she murmurs despite the danger bells tolling in her head. "What made you take the technological leap?"
Winnie can almost hear his eye roll through the receiver. "Well, I may have offended a girl at this coffee shop I frequent by not having one. Thought I should right my wrongs."
Her heart stutters dangerously in her chest. She's glad he can't see her because she can feel a pleased warmth flushing across her face as she lies down on the couch and kicks her legs over the armchair. She wants to scream from the giddiness. And then scream again for having no dignity. The thought that he had gotten a phone to call her is entirely absurd, but Winnie almost lets herself believe it. "I see," she says after she collects herself for a moment. "Sounds noble." A pause. "So you kept my napkin."
"No," Remus says automatically. "Sirius threw it away."
Winnie frowns, her brows furrowing. "Then how'd you get my number?"
"I memorized it."
She nearly falls to the floor at that, the phone rubbing against the couch as she sits up swiftly.
"Hello?" Remus's distant voice calls uncertainly through the speaker. "Winnie?"
"Hi!" Winnie chirps into the phone quickly, too brightly. She's beyond glad Remus can't see her face — she knows she's bright red now. And she's trying hard not to grin ear to ear. "Sorry about that, poor connection," she fibs.
Remus pauses. She can almost hear the frown in his voice when he speaks up again. "Is it my phone? The man at the store said it might—"
"No, no, that was on my end," she says quickly, fanning herself now. She needed to calm down. Immediately. "So, why did you call?"
A pause. She can hear him shuffling like he's sitting down. "No reason," he says. "I just wanted to hear your voice. I like this. It feels like I can hear you smiling."
To hell with calming down. She was getting no sleep that night with the way her heart was palpitating. "Holy hell," Winnie murmurs out loud, very sure now that Remus was trying to kill her. Death by heart attack. Remus Lupin, the secret ladykiller.
"What was that?" Remus asks through the phone.
"Nothing," Winnie mumbles, closing her eyes.
They both fall silent, though Winnie is sure he can hear her thumping heart through the receiver. "Er, Winnie," Remus speaks up finally. "The other reason I wanted to call was I suppose it had felt like it's been ages since we last spoke and I missed talking with you."
Winnie's heart does a dangerous quiver. And then she catches herself, all too soon, and all too suddenly.
Even after the past few weeks of trying to get over her unrequited crush, all it took was a few sweet words from him for her to cave and start at the beginning again. She couldn't keep being pushed and pulled and pushed and pulled. If she wanted to properly move on, she needed distance. Proper distance.
As if sensing something, Remus speaks up again hesitantly. "Did I do something?"
"No," Winnie says, closing her eyes. She can almost hear him breathing on the other end of the call. This would be easier to do over the phone, when she can't see his big brown eyes staring back at her earnestly — although she feels as though she's committed it to memory and can imagine it. "It's me, I— It's nothing that you've done or anything, I just need space."
"Space," Remus echoes quietly.
She tries to let out a light laugh. "Yeah, I've just got a lot on my mind recently. It's nothing you've done."
Remus is quiet for awhile before he speaks up again. "I'm here to listen if you ever want to talk through anything," he says softly. "We're friends, after all, right?"
"Friends," she murmurs to herself before straightening. "Right, of course."
More silence. "Well, it's late so I'll let you go." A pause, as if he's waiting for a response. Waiting for her to keep talking like she always did. Waiting for a reason to keep talking.
"Good night, Remus," she says instead, her fingers tightening around the receiver.
"Good night, Winnie." Winnie can hear the disappointment in his voice and lets it sink into her like a dagger. She needed to remember it to move on. Then maybe they could properly be friends. Winnie hangs up the phone first.
— — — — —
"Morning, Winnie," a bright voice chirps.
Winnie looks up, startled to see a pair of striking, but familiar gray eyes peering back at her. Sirius Black is standing in front of the counter, grinning at her widely. "Sirius," she says, surprised. "What can I get for you?"
Sirius gives the menu a cursory glance. "Huh, matcha," he says to himself thoughtfully.
"That's what Remus normally gets," she offers, trying to be helpful.
Sirius looks back at her, his eyes bright and startling astute. "You know," he says, dropping his voice to a secretive murmur. Despite herself, Winnie leans closer curiously. "Remus thinks matcha tastes like grass."
Winnie recoils, bewildered. That wasn't what she was expecting to hear. "Grass?" She repeats, a little affronted now. "It does not taste like grass—"
"Winnie," he says again, arching a delicate brow at her. "Remus thinks matcha tastes like grass."
She shoots him a baleful glare that goes against her customer service training. "Okay," she exhales. "So what drink would you want then?"
Sirius sighs as if she's being terribly daft. "What I'm saying is that Remus hates the taste of matcha but comes here nearly every other day to drink it. Isn't that strange?"
Winnie blinks. Once. Twice. It's as if Sirius can see the thought forming on her face because he starts to grin. "But," she says stubbornly, mulishly. Sirius's grin falters. Winnie takes secret pleasure in that. "—he drinks it every time."
Sirius's expression goes slack, but Winnie refuses to be deterred. She had already tricked herself twice into thinking that there could be more between her and Remus, she wasn't going to put herself through that again. "Merlin," Sirius exhales, scrubbing a frustrated hand over his face. "You both are so bloody stubborn—"
"No, he doesn't," a voice cuts in from behind her. Her coworker steps in with an equally exasperated expression. "Winnie, I'll be honest with you, he only ever drinks it when you make it. Whenever I hand it to him, it just sits there."
Sirius's grin returns, full force, as he nods excitedly. "I'm only telling you so that you can both stop dancing around each other. And so he can stop playing your bleeding cas— casserole... Merlin, what are they called? The little magical music squares?" Sirius flounders and turns to her coworker for help.
"Cassettes?" Her coworker supplies uncertainly.
"Cassettes!" Sirius agrees, looking relieved before he rounds on Winnie again to continue his berating. "So he can stop playing your bleeding cassettes around the flat!" And then he pauses. "Er, no offense, your music is great, but I just can't keep listening to the same album—"
"He has my cassettes?" Winnie whispers, wide-eyed.
Sirius stares at her like she's being impossibly dumb. "Yeah," he says, solemnly. "Everyday I'm a little tempted to throw them—" He seems to catch himself because he shoulders on smoothly. "Anyways, while he's been sulking around the flat, I finally found out that Moony was being ridiculous and was trying to play cupid. He can be incredibly dense for someone so smart," Sirius sighs, grimacing. "By the way, I actually was interested in learning the guitar."
Winnie stares at him dumbly, a little shell-shocked. "Oh," she says as Sirius gives her a wink.
"He's coming by later," he says as he turns towards the door.
"What?" She blurts. Remus hasn't come by or called her ever since she had asked for space, expectedly. She had been ignoring the empty feeling since then, reasoning it to be a necessary development for her to move on.
"I told him you had called on the — what's it called? — phone-tele saying you wanted to see him."
"What?" Winnie exclaims, but Sirius is already fleeing through the door. Dimly, she thinks that he didn't even order a drink.
"Go easy on him, sweetheart! He likes tea!"
— — — — —
"One matcha please."
"Name?"
A small, uncertain smile. A hesitant hint of a dimple. Her heart quaking again. "Remus Lupin."
"Coming right up."
Winnie tries to still her shaking hands as she makes him a drink. It doesn't help that she can feel her heart bursting through her chest. She takes a steadying breath and rakes a hand through her hair before taking the drink to his table. "For a Remus Lupin," she announces, setting the cup down in front of him. It's near closing time and there's no one else in the coffee shop.
Remus looks up, his brows shooting up below his waves. "What's this?"
"Earl gray," she says, matching his gaze.
His brows furrow. "But I ordered matcha."
"It's a personal recommendation from the kitchen," she says, nodding down at the tea. "I heard that matcha tastes like grass."
Remus's face pales, but he manages to cover it up with a nervous laugh that only confirms her suspicions. And her hopes. "Matcha doesn't taste like grass—" he begins, but his voice falters when he catches sight of her smiling.
"Remus," she says brightly, her smile broadening. "I finished the song."
"The song," he says blankly, looking startled as if he's trying to keep up. He blinks at her rapidly.
"The love song I've been stuck on," she reminds him impatiently.
"Oh! Oh! See, I knew you'd be able to finish," Remus says, still looking bewildered.
Winnie smiles at him. "It was inspired by you."
"Inspired by me," he parrots for a moment, nodding, before his eyes widen fractionally. "Inspired by me?" He blurts.
"What I'm saying is," she begins, folding her hands in her lap to keep them from shaking. "I like you."
Maybe the only way to move on was to be properly rejected. Or maybe the only way to move on, Winnie thought selfishly, was to give in to the hope that Sirius had planted.
Remus's face goes slack. And then, wonderfully, a soft pink flush begins to crawl up the nape of his neck, dusting his cheeks in two brilliant splotches. "I— Winnie— But you're—" he flounders, mouth opening and closing repeatedly. Dimly, Winnie thinks it's a little unfair how adorable he looks flustered. She also thinks that she wouldn't mind always seeing him flustered.
"But I'm so what?" She asks, tilting her head to the side casually, despite her thundering heartbeat.
"But you're so, so—" he's stammering now, flushed and a little wild-eyed. "—incandescent."
Winnie thought she had control over the conversation, but at his admittance, she feels a little dizzy. "Incandescent," she repeats in a wide-eyed whisper. In that moment, she knew that no boy would ever call her anything as meaningful. That there would be no other boy that would mean anything to her.
Remus's face only turns a brighter scarlet as he backtracks. "I mean, you're you and I'm— I'm Remus," he says nonsensically.
"Remus Lupin," she corrects with a weak laugh, heart still thumping dangerously.
Remus nods earnestly, as if that's supposed to make any sense. "Yeah," he says, throat bobbing as he swallows. "And, and you could do so much better." Winnie's heart clenches a little at the way he can't meet her eyes. "I'm— I'm not good with people— I wouldn't be good for you."
Winnie chewed the inside of her cheek uncertainly. "Remus, I can't tell if you actually think that or if you really don't like me and are just using that as an excuse because I'd rather it if you just rejected me outright—"
"Of course I like you," he blurts a little frantically with a disbelieving laugh. Winnie's heart trembles so violently that she thinks she needs to take a seat. Remus, on the other hand, pales a little at his outburst as he scrubs a hand over his face. "I mean, anybody would. But you could do so much better. I mean, I'm not good with people or talking and I don't—" She can see that he's begun to work himself up into some sort of frazzled frenzy. "I don't have tattoos or eat cigs for breakfast," he blurts.
Winnie does a double-take. "I know?" She says, bewildered. "Where is this coming from?"
"You said the type of guy you're attracted to has tattoos and eats cigs for breakfast."
Winnie balks at him for a moment before she realizes what he's talking about. She wants to laugh but instead holds it in as she stares fondly at the man in front of her. "Remus," she sighs again, stepping closer to him. The knowledge that he liked her back sends thrilling waves of adrenaline through her. Even though he's taller than her, she feels as though she's the one towering over him.
Emboldened, Winnie takes a deep breath, rises to her toes because he's so bloody tall, and grabs him by the cheeks. Remus's mouth clamps shut as his eyes widen. She wishes she could pour all her emotion into her palm and just press it against him so that he would understand.
"I said that those were the guys I attract, not that I'm attracted to. And I think you're lovely, to say in the least. You're kind, brilliant, a wonderful listener. I think your eyes and your smile are stupidly distracting— Actually, I think you're just the prettiest boy I've ever seen. And I wish you could see these things for yourself, but if it means that I have to love you for the both of us, I would be happy to. If you'd let me."
"Oh," Remus blurts, two bright scarlet splotches flushing on his cheeks. Up close, Winnie can see the way the light catches like gold in his brown eyes.
"Sorry, I'm always talking your ear off," she whispers, her fingers curling a little in the waves his hair. His skin is soft and warm beneath her fingers. "It's fine, really, if you want to reject me. But it's not fair for you to make the decision based off what you think I should want. Because I know that I want you and that's enough for me, yeah?"
Remus parts his mouth and Winnie is so sure that he's going to say something stubborn again.
"Can I kiss you?" He murmurs, brown eyes blown dark and wide as they dart to her lips.
Caught entirely caught off guard, all Winnie can do is make an assenting sound before his head is dipping down towards hers swiftly, as though that was all he was waiting for.
There's no soft, chaste exploration she had expected — instead, Remus kisses like he's burning up from the inside, like he's melting into her. His mouth is warm and sweet — he tastes like the earl gray tea she had made — and his lips are soft as one of his hand rises to catch her jaw, his other hand slipping gently to cradle the back of her head, his long fingers in her hair, as he tilts her face up.
Winnie's mind went blank the moment his lips slotted against hers, but she's rendered entirely useless when his teeth tugs at her bottom lip gently. All she can do is cling onto his neck and shoulders — she doesn't even know when her hands had moved from cupping his face — as Remus tries to guide her even closer to him. Winnie doesn't even have the capacity to feel embarrassment at the appreciative sigh that's pulled from her lips when he deepens the kiss.
To her mingled disappointment and relief — because she's started to run out of air and was feeling light-headed — Remus pulls back just far enough to peer at her with wide eyes. "Sorry, was that too much?" He whispers, voice wonderfully hoarse, his lips still brushing against hers. His brown eyes dart from her eyes to her lips and back around as if he can't decide where to look.
Total ladykiller, Winnie thinks dimly. Somehow, he always managed to catch her off guard even when she thought she was in control. "Um," she manages, breathless, her heart nearly giving out now. "Wow."
When she catches sight of him properly, another thrill runs through her. His pretty eyes are dazed over and his lips reddened and flushed. He looks a little dizzy. "Yeah," he murmurs back, equally nonsensically. He brushes a thumb across her jaw, sending a shiver down her spine. Catching this, Remus just smiles at her, as if impossibly endeared, and it does little to calm her heart. "How about a date tomorrow?"
"Not a coffee shop, I hope," Winnie says mulishly in an attempt to deflect from her warming cheeks. But Remus, as always, can see right through her.
A soft laugh rumbles in his chest as he smiles down at her fondly. "We can go wherever you want."
— — — — —
It's rush hour again. There's a dozen cups lined up for her to make and she's begun to lose track of what she's doing. When she glances down at the name of the one she just finished, Winnie doesn't bother hiding her grin as she calls out, "An earl gray for a Remus Lupin!"
Winnie's smile widens when she catches sight of him in his knitted sweater. And then, "I'm missing a drink."
Her smile falters in confusion as she looks down at the earl gray in his hand. "Hm?" She hums, frowning now.
Remus nods down at the other drink she had finished making, his lips twitching. Winnie blinks at his smile distractedly before peering at the cup. "Matcha latte for Cariad?"
Remus just smiles innocently at her, his eyes warm and fond. "That one's for you."
a/n: hope you enjoyed! love love love hearing your thoughts, so let me know what you think! <3 i feel like i could make a whole remus coffee shop -verse of oneshots now... if that's something.... we would be interested in.............
i love the idea of wizards interfacing with muggle society and how shite they would be (re: sirius not knowing how to do anything). even though remus's mom is a muggle, i imagine since he's been at hogwarts for most of his life from 11-18 and spent his childhood moving around a lot and living in the more rural areas, i wanted to play off the idea that though he's been in muggle society, he's probably awkward as hell in a muggle city.
edit: more remus x winnie oneshots on my masterlist! >>
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Idk if you’re requests are still open, but if they are I’d love an professor!Fem reader X Eddie. Maybe she’s his college professor in her late 20s/early 30s and he has a crush on her. I was listening to the song Let me love you down by Ready for the world and maybe something inspired by that, where he’s trying to prove that he can make her feel good and do what guys her age can do. I feel like all fics with age gaps are always Eddie being older and not the other way around!
warnings: smut (semi-public, rough, drunken sex lol), age gap (reader is older, doesn't say how much, and eddie is 20), hair pulling, spanking, degradation (but like, friendly playful degradation), alcohol consumption, reader is iconic ngl and eddie is a total beast in the best way
He was down so bad. Embarrassingly bad. Like, Hot for Teacher on repeat, imagining you every night, can’t focus in class, dreams of pencil skirts and button downs bad.
Seriously, Eddie was already struggling enough to keep his grades up; how a super-super senior ever got into college was beyond him, but it’s not like this was the finest establishment of higher education or anything… but you, you were the finest thing he’d ever seen.
Those tight skirts, the heels, the reading glasses, the slight sternness to your lecturing— it was all really doing it for him for some reason. Maybe it was some desire to reclaim all his issues with authority, take some of the power back, you know. Or, alternatively, give up all the power and let you do whatever you wanted to him… he wasn’t particularly picky in that regard.
Either way, he never learned anything in class; he was too busy staring, drooling, dreaming. You dropped the chalkboard eraser and bent over to pick it up, thank god this room had desks or someone might’ve seen him getting hard.
He wondered if you noticed him at all. Unfortunately, you probably did, but for all the wrong reasons: he was totally flunking. And whenever you asked him what part of the material was challenging for him, he couldn’t even answer— because blaming your hotness for his failure wasn’t exactly going to cut it.
Actually, he was thinking of you— of his total ineptitude in your class, of his massive crush on you, all of it— when he saw you that night. Maybe it was an amazing coincidence, or maybe it was sort of bound to happen when he spent as much time thinking about you as he did. Either way, he never expected to see you here, dressed like that.
This bar was the only metalhead spot in town, and the local talent wasn’t quite as good as Eddie remembered Corroded Coffin to be, but they were alright. Tonight was a band he’d never seen before called Gore Whore. With a name like that, they had to be pretty good.
So, yeah, he was expecting some decent music and a few drinks, not to see his professor rocking a very new vibe— black leather, messy eyeliner, but thankfully still with the same sexy glasses. Honestly, he had to fight off a semi just seeing you dressed like that…
Now he had to figure out if he should talk to you or not. He had to, right? But also, like, how?
Well, his first step was to chug down his current drink and then throw back another as quickly as he could: liquid courage, right?
His second step was to rub his clammy palms on his jeans until he decided it was the right time to approach you. He didn't want to wait until the band was playing because, if they were any good, they'd be way too loud to hold a conversation during their set. He kept putting it off out of nervousness until he saw musicians starting to plug instruments in and tune, and realized he would probably be too late if he waited any longer.
He finally convinced himself to saunter over to where you were standing, linger behind you creepily when you didn't see him, and clear his throat before breaking the silence.
“Hey, teach,” he greeted, hoping it wasn’t a terribly stupid opening line. You turned over your shoulder and took a second to recognize him before you smiled.
“Hey, Edward M…un—" you hesitated.
“Munson, yeah,” he grinned, “or just Eddie.”
“Munson!” you repeated. “For some reason I kept thinking ‘Munster’, I guess I’m showing my age a bit with that one…”
You don’t look your age at all, he wanted to say, but then he wasn’t sure if that was actually a compliment or just some backwards way of calling you old— which you weren’t! But you were just a bit too old for him, from a societal acceptance standpoint, which was exactly what made it so tempting. “I, uh, didn’t expect to see you here,” he pointed out, motioning to the club.
“Well, I don’t come here a lot,” you admitted, “but I used to. You know, when I was a bit more young and rebellious like you.”
“You act like you’re a grandma or something,” he laughed, “you’re young, you know.”
“Whatever,” you rolled your eyes. “I don’t come here a lot, is the point.”
“Why’d you come out tonight?” He wondered. “Is your, uh, boyfriend in the band or something?”
The way you raised your eyebrow at him made it clear his subtle probe wasn’t so subtle after all. “Gore Whore? It’s an all-female band…”
“O-oh, right…” he trailed off. “I mean, maybe your girlfriend’s in the band, I dunno, that’s cool too.”
You snorted a laugh and shook your head. “I don’t have time for any of that, Munson. Boyfriends or girlfriends.”
“What do you have time for?” he asked.
“I mean, I’ve got nowhere to be tonight,” you shrugged. “What did you have in mind?”
His heart raced. “I— I dunno, maybe you can’t do, like, dating or whatever, but maybe you’re into, perhaps… some ill-advised fooling around with your charming, boyish, young and rebellious student?”
You laughed again, but the look in your eye was promising. “Really swinging for the fences, huh?” you noticed.
“I’m, uh, pretty drunk, actually,” he admitted.
“Yeah? Me too,” you grinned. “My place or yours?”
He choked on his own throat. Did that actually just work? Or was he hallucinating somehow? "Uh, I mean, if you wanna be really ill-advised, my van's parked out back..."
The smile you gave him then was enough to make him weak in the knees. It was the same smile you were giving him as he laid back in the van and you kept going down, down, to the bulge under his belt.
"Fuck," he gasped as you got his jeans open, yanking them down his thighs enough to free his throbbing cock; your fingers were so soft on his silky, sensitive skin, and he admired the way you licked your lips as you stroked him. "You're so fuckin' hot. Fuck."
You looked at his face again, looking quite proud of yourself. "You thought about this, didn't you?" you noticed.
"This? No," he denied. "Fucking you in the classroom, or your office, in my dorm? I thought about that a lot."
You giggled slightly as you spit down onto his dick, slicking the movements of your hand which made him flex against it.
"But I never thought we'd end up in the back of my van behind the ba— oh, fuck!"
Your lips were around the head of his cock, and you'd already started bobbing your head and stroking the rest in rhythm. No teasing, no build-up, just getting right to it: it was so sexy to him, he could've melted right there. He nearly did; he tilted his head back with a groan, reaching up to hold the back of your head though he didn't push you down 'cause, you know, he's respectful and all that.
"Damn," he laughed thinly, though he knitted his eyebrows together and bit his lip a second later. "You— fuck, that's good, you're so— god, babydoll..."
You smiled slightly around him, pulling off with a gasp and stroking his spit-soaked cock in the meantime. "Better than the girls your age do it, huh?"
He nodded quickly, swallowing even though his mouth was suddenly dry. You bent back down and licked a long stripe up his cock, even lathing his balls with your tongue for a moment, before speaking again.
"What about you? Do you know how to fuck like a grown-up?" you taunted. "Or are you just an overgrown teenager like most twenty-year-old guys?"
He smiled a little, finally feeling like he knew how to handle you. "Oh, sweetheart— I can rock you better than anything you would've heard in there tonight. Promise."
"Promise?" you repeated teasingly. "Talk is cheap, big boy."
That it is; and he had a plan to shut you up. Shoving your head back down, he groaned as he slid his cock all the way to the back of your throat. "Fuck," he said again, louder, "there you go— I'll fuck you right, babydoll, but you gotta earn it first. Maybe it's my turn to teach you a few things, hm?"
When he gave you another break, you were still playing cocky with him. "Considering your grade in my class, Munson, I'm not sure I've been teaching you anything."
"Why don't you teach me what that shirt of yours looks like inside out?" he encouraged. Smiling proudly as you stripped yourself of the leather jacket and t-shirt, he palmed his own cock— slowly, careful not to get himself too worked up yet— and admired you. "Wanna show me that pussy, too? Been imagining it for a little too long, I think..."
You peeled your jeans off and he bared his teeth at the sight of your panties— black, lacy, everything he'd dreamt of since he first saw you.
"What are you wearing those for, babydoll?" he cooed, reaching out to run his fingers over the lace on your hip. "What did you come out here for tonight?"
"You know what I came here for," you challenged, "so are you gonna gimme it or not?"
Well, he was gonna do his best.
Only a little while later, he had you bent over the console with those panties around your knees, a fistful of your hair in his fingers, your ass bouncing on him with every thrust; he was fucking you hard and fast and mean, doing his best to make you regret questioning if he was old enough to do this right.
"S'that how you like it?" he taunted. "You just need to get treated like a dirty whore, don't you? Tired of all the authority, just wanna keep your legs open for somebody, be their little slut for the night?"
"Yes," you sobbed, clinging tighter onto the console with a whimper. "Yes, Eddie, fuck... fuck me like that, just like that."
He gave your ass a hard spank with his free hand, loving the way you tightened up on him and moaned so loud from the pain. "Beg me to hit you more," he instructed.
"Spank me again, please, Eddie," you whined, getting another few hits on your stinging ass as your reward. "Fuck! Fuck, so good..."
He gripped your hips to keep you still and drive himself deeper than he thought possible, and you yelped as your toes curled and your legs kicked. One of your hands reached back instinctively and tried to grab at his hip, keep him from going too far into you, but you were a little too weak to have any real impact on him. "No no," he scolded, "I'm just giving you what you wanted, babydoll. Giving you all this dick— fuck, take all this dick, whore."
Whining and hiding your face under your arms, you tried to arch your back up before he shoved it back down with his hand to keep your ass nice and on display for him, groaning with pride. "Fuck, Eddie!"
"Isn't this what you came here for?" he smirked, grinding his cock deep inside you as you squirmed. "Got all dressed up in your little black panties, took yourself out to the club so some stranger could treat you like this?"
Though your face was still hidden, you nodded.
"Guess I really do need to teach you a few things, sweetheart," he announced proudly. "Like what happens when you tell a guy to fuck you like a grown-up. Now hold on tight, babydoll, m'gonna make sure you don't forget me too quick— you're gonna feel this tomorrow when you're teaching my class."
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Day to Day Norm Pt.7
Norm x F!Quaritch!Reader
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the fanart, screenshots, or gifs used with my stories.
Warnings: Angsty, shitty songcord written by yours truly (pls don't come at me about it I know it's not good😭)
Spoken in Na'vi
Part 6 Part 8
The early part of the morning had just started but Norm and Jake were anything but happy about the morning. This morning they prepare your body for burial later in the day. While your avatar would be buried close to Tsu'tey's, your human body would be buried at Hell's Gate along with your dad and all of the people who defected with him. Neytiri walked into the kelku where they were preparing your body and she knelt next to your head. She took out the braids from the battle and redid them in a more traditionally elegant manner. She took the song cord she had helped you piece together before the destruction of Hometree and handed it to Norm.
"I will teach you what each part means, the song it creates, so that you may remember her by her accomplishments." Neytiri tells Norm, who ducks his head sadly. His ears drooped back as he nodded.
"Thank you, Neytiri." Norm says and she gives him a small smile.
"We're here for you anytime you need us." Jake tells Norm, who chuckles lightly.
"If I'm correct... You two have something a bit more important to think about." Norm says gesturing toward Neytiri's stomach. The couple looks away from him bashfully. Not because of the events that led to the pregnancy or newly mated bliss, but because they were still sitting next to your body. The one who was supposed to bare his children. The three continue to work on cleaning your body and Neytiri starts humming. Jake's ears perk up and he listens to her as she sings.
"What are you singing?" Jake asks her and she casts a look at your songcord. He takes hold of her hand gently. "Why don't you sing it for us?" She holds her hand out for Norm to return the songcord to her and he does so. Norm as your mate and Jake as your brother return to their duty as Neytiri starts humming a base melody.
"Ma Eywa has given me freedom from my first life." She sang as she ran her finger over the first bead, which Jake recognized as a bioluminescent rock he had given to you when you were accepted into the Omatikaya to train with them. "For this, I give my thanks. We live among the people as one of them. For this, I give my thanks." Neytiri continued to sing as she ran her fingers over smaller wooden beads. The next bead seemed to be handmade since it was mostly yellow, with red dropped in the middle of it. "Ma Eywa has given me a brother, ma Jake." Jake's ears perk forward at that verse since it spoke of him as your family. The chorus repeated and Jake and Norm were both watching her fingers run over the beads. The next was a tuft of hair held together by a small strip of leather. "In coming here I was given a mother. So smart and so strong and beautiful, ma Grace." Neytiri's voice started to waver but she continued determined to finish. "He came to his mind and Sees us. He came back to me, ma sempul, Miles." Jake's ears dip back thinking of how beautiful your songcord is, but how tragic it is when he thinks about those who have been mentioned. The next larger bead was blue with a lighter brown circle on one side. "Ma Eywa, brought ma tsmukan, Miles. The sweet younger brother who will be strong like our father." Her finger drifts over the next noticeable bead which had been carved and painted blue and green. "By Eywa's grace, ma tsmuke(sister), Neytiri. She Sees us for who we are, not where we come from." The song continued with how you had passed your iknimaya and been fully accepted as one of the people. She continues down the cord and smiles at the second to last larger bead. "She gifted me him, my savior. The man I will love for all eternity, ma Norm." She sings and continues down the line. The last bead was where she seemed to freeze for a moment and took a deep breath. The bead was a small rough rock that Neytiri knew the meaning of. She knew because the two of you had added these beads together and she had a matching one on her songcord. "Ma Norm and I, we welcome a new life. It grows inside me right now. A welcome addition to my family." Neytiri closed out the song cord and Norm cast his eyes down to your body.
"Neytiri... Was she pregnant?" Jake asked the question that was swirling in Norm's head.
"She was." Neytiri whispered and Jake felt like the air had been knocked from his lungs. Norm was silent as he looked over your figure, trying to process this information.
"Why didn't she stay out of the war if she knew?" Norm asked Neytiri after he finally found his voice.
"As High Warrior, it was her place to fight beside our Olo'eyktan to free our people." Neytiri told him.
"But how would she have known it had only been a few days since we mated and... Wouldn't that have been too early to tell?" Norm finally asks her.
"No. My mother knew of us both being with child within a couple of days." Neytiri told him and the sob he had been holding in finally clawed its way out of his throat. Jake hopped over your body and held Norm close to him.
"I'm so sorry Norm. If I would've known I could've tried to get her to stay behind with Mo'at." Jake says but it does little to console him. Neytiri continues with her duties of dressing you. She ensures your chest piece and tweng fit your role as High Warrior and drapes the headpiece she had made for you on your head.
"Ma Jake... She is ready." Neytiri says and Jake moves to pick you up but Norm stops him.
"I can do it." Norm tells him as he picks up your body and carries you to where you'll be buried. Norm passes a small family of three consisting of a young girl, a small boy, and their father. The little boy reaches out and grabs the hand that hanging from your body.
"Setxä." The boys' father reaches and removes his hand from yours.
"But that is her!" The boy says and his father nods.
"I know Setxä. I know, but she is with Eywa now." The Na'vi man pulls his son into his arms and away from your unmoving figure. Norm set you down in your final resting place, and he rolled your prosthetic pinky in his hand. He could remember that day like it was yesterday.
-Flashback-
Jake was still in his link pod, Trudy was walking around with Grace outside, and that left you and Norm by yourselves. The two of you were tangled up under the blankets in his bunk. You had long since put on your underwear and one of Norm's t-shirts which were large on you, while he wore his boxers and nothing else.
"I can't wait." You tell him and he chuckles.
"I can't wait either. Everything you and Jake told me about it I can't help but want to experience it too." Norm says and you snuggle into his chest.
"And I'm gonna be right there with you. Every step of the way." You say and he stick out his pinky.
"Pinky promise?" He says jokingly but you take that as a challenge of humor. So you remove your fake pinky and hand it to him.
"I pinky promise." You whisper to him and he outright laughs at the joke.
-Flashback Over-
"You kept your promise." Norm says quietly as he leans forward and presses a light kiss to your forehead. "I love you (Y/n)." He says and steps up next to Jake who kneels next to your grave with an Atorkirina in hand. He had done this many times today already but this one felt heavier. Far more difficult for him to deliver than the others. He was finally able to let go of the Atokirina and it danced around your torso and it settled in your hands.
13 Years Later
"Norm, can I talk to you for a moment?" Norm turned toward Max and sent his friend a tired smile. He had been spending alot of time in his avatar but he didn't stop taking care of Miles, though the boy prefers Spider these days. Matter of fact that's who Max was having to drag him away from. The two men walked away from the group of kids to a silent corner.
"What can I do for you Max?" Norm asks and Max quickly turns and pulls Norm into his private lab. Norm gapes at the room and all of the equipment inside it, especially the growth tube with an Avatar inside of it.
"I'm sure you recognize most of this tech." Max says and Norm nods.
"Yeah, but why do you have it? And who is this for?" Norm asks and Max scratches the back of his head.
"That's my avatar. I needed to make sure it worked before I used it for the purpose it was meant for. Before you and Jake were stationed on Pandora, (Y/n) was able to trick Selfridge into buying all of this." Max says but he stops next to a box that had been open for a long time. "Except this. She saved five of her paychecks to buy this." Max opens the lid of the box and Norm peers inside and his eyes go wide.
"Is this what I think it is?" Norm asks him and Max nods. "But why did she want all of this?"
"Simple. For Spider." Max tells his friend and Norm runs a hand over the growth pod and the transfer device in his hand. "She planned to run the moment she was able to separate her consciousness from her human body to her avatar."
"What changed her mind?" Norm looked Max in the eye, and the shorter man fidgeted as he sat down.
"Spider was born then she met you. Suddenly she had more that she cared about at base than her deep desire to learn in the environment. Then everything happened and she got what she wanted." Max said and Norm gulped down the lump in his throat. "Since you're his caretaker I wanted to know what you thought about me carrying out (Y/n)'s wishes."
"You have my permission. It's what she wanted and it'll make it easier for him." Norm sniffs once and squats to leave the building closing the door behind him.
Meanwhile
Spider sprinted behind Lo'ak and Kiri watching as they raced toward the lab. Kiri was going to visit her mom, and Spider and Lo'ak were going to support her. The moment they were indoors the two Na'vi put on masks and Spider took off his. Kiri went to say hello to her mother while Lo'ak finally took the time to look over all the pictures on the walls. There were hundreds scattered from desktops to the walls and he had never stopped to look at the before. Spider followed behind him finding his sudden curiosity odd. There were four prominent figures in the majority of them. They weren't always together but they were near eachother often. Jake, Grace, Norm, and you doing various things. In one you and Grace are sitting at her desk at Hell's Gate while she teaches you. You had only arrived a few weeks before the picture being taken. The next you held a bow in your hand an annoyed Jake running behind you. Neytiri in the background laughing at the two of your stupidity. The next Grace was hugging Jake's shoulders with a kind smile on her face and Jake smiling as well.
"It is always so weird to see my father not as a Na'vi man." Lo'ak finally confesses and Spider huffs a laugh.
"Oh my gosh. Look at Norm in this one." Spider points to one hanging higher up on the wall. Lo'ak shifts his gaze to it and frowns when he sees it.
"Bro... He looked so happy." Lo'ak says and Spider is confused why until the picture is lowered for him to look at. Norm was with his back against the wall on the bottom bunk of a mobile unit. In his lap, you slept with your arms wrapped around his torso and your head rested on his chest. Norm had his head laid on top of yours and he had a content smile on his face and looked like he might fall asleep himself.
"Yeah, he did look happy there." Spider says sadly but his eyes remained glued to you.
"I think you'd like this one Spider." Kiri had joined them and she took the picture off the side of the fridge and handed it to him. You were in the medical wing holding a small baby boy in your arms. Your dad was holding you as you continued to stare at the boy you held, and your dad couldn't stop staring at both of you. His children.
"Max told me that was the day you were born." Kiri tells him and Spider inhales sharply to hide the stutter of his breathing.
"Hey Spider I want to make sure you don't have any developing allergies. I'm going to draw some blood if that's alright with you?" Max asks him and Spider nods and follows him to a sterile area. Max draws some of his blood and actually tests some of it for any health anomalies.
"How am I looking Max?" Spider asks him and Max smiles warmly at Spider.
"Perfectly healthy." Max says and Spider fist-bumps the air.
"Hey Max. You spent the most time with them. What were they like?" Spider asks and Max nearly drops the vile of blood in his hands. He carefully sets it down and turns to Spider.
"Both Quaritch and (Y/n) were so stubborn and headstrong. At first I thought they were opposites, but I was so wrong. Closer to the war Quaritch showed exactly where (Y/n) got all of her personality traits. Honorable, protective, caring, and selfless. You remind me of them alot." Max tells Spider who tucks his legs closer to his chest.
"I wish I could remember them." Spider said and Max clasped Spider's shoulder.
"They would've been proud of you." Max says and Spider sighs.
"Were either of them funny?" Spider asks and Max starts to answer but moves over to his monitor instead.
"Maybe some of their video logs can answer that better than I can." Max says and moves out of the way for Spider to watch the screen. You were sitting infront of the camera talking about observations you were making on a plant. The sound of fast-approaching wheels catches Spider's attention and Jake comes into view of the camera.
"What the fuck is that?" Jake asks and you look up from the microscope and roll your eyes.
"Panopyra or as the Na'vi call them tawtsngal, which means Sky Cup. They use the liquid in them for a nutritious and healing drink." You tell Jake who looks in the microscope.
"I still have no idea about plant life here." Jake says and you smack the side of his head lightly.
"Skxawng. Don't hurt your head trying to learn." You laugh and Jake turns to you displeased.
"You and Neytiri will cause more damage to my head than me learning." Jake says and you scoff. Jake retaliated by dragging you out of your chair and into his lap as he attacked your sides. You thrash in his hold for a bit until you're able to escape as Norm comes into the room. It surprises Spider how well Norm is able to stay standing when you jump up and attach yourself to Norms back.
"Protect me! Jake is finally taking his revenge for us forcing him to use that lump that's three feet above his ass!" You say dramatically and Norm shakes his head chuckling.
"Children. I live with children." Norm says and you look between Jake and Norm. You then smack the side of his face and jump off of him and take off to hide from them.
"A menace, Norm. You're dating a menace." Jake says and Norm takes notice of the camera that's still on and turns it off. Spider laughed for a good chunk of the time that the video was playing.
Nearly two years later the clan had to relocate after Hometree was destroyed again, and a new war had begun.
A Year Later
"She's waking up now." A voice said but you didn't recognize who it belonged to.
"Can you hear me, Corporal?" Someone else asks. You sit up and shoo them away from you.
"Where's my dad?" You ask them and they motion for someone off to the side to come forward. Instead of your dad a Na'vi man comes toward you and since you don't recognize him you panic.
"Baby girl. Deep breaths it's me. They thought it would be a good idea for you to wake up to them since you spent some time as a POW with the Na'vi." Your Dad says and he casts a sideways glance at the scientists and you catch onto what he saying.
"Yeah. Yeah, I get it, but I need my dad." You said as you wrapped your arms around your dad and he returns the hug. He cradles the back of your head as he plants a kiss on the crown of your head.
"Let's get you dressed." He says and hands you a stack of clothing. You put on most of the clothing but opt to throw your shoes to the side. You follow your father to a locker room where everyone else was waiting.
"Ah. Our guide has finally arrived!" Simmens exclaimed when you walked into the room.
"Simmens. Always a pleasure." You say and he walks right up next to you and wraps an arm over your shoulders.
"We were so worried when you were kept as a POW (prisoner of war). I was relieved we had you do your soul drive two weeks early. We'll need someone with expertise in Pandoran flora and fauna." Simmens says and you sigh.
"I'm not an expert. I never even got to graduate college." You tell him and he shook his head.
"Nonsense. You know plenty that we don't know. Ain't that right everyone?" Simmens asks everyone in the room and most nod and hum in agreement. You slip out of Simmens grasp and sit behind Lyle and Mansk. You plopped your flat hand onto Lyle's head with an audible 'plep' and you giggled.
"Damn Wainfleet. Still couldn't get hair even when in a Na'vi body." You joke and he shakes his head. He turns and playfully hisses at you and you return the favor. His eyes go wide as he stares at your mouth and you get confused.
"Uh, Colonel. You two share a gene." Lyle says and you become even more confused. Your dad turns around to look at the two of you. "Open your mouth, (Y/nn)." Lyle says and you open your mouth and your dad smiles wide.
"Would you look at that. She's got my smile." Your Dad says and you notice his three canines. You run your tongue over your canines and give a toothy smile.
"Extra intimidation factor." You say and your dad chuckles as he throws his arm around your shoulders and you lean into his side.
Later on, as you were all getting ready to depart to go down to Pandora, you, Lyle, and Mansk were joking around with each other.
"Simmens has won the universe's most stubborn asshole." Mansk says quietly.
"Yeah. Still has a giant boner for you even after dying and coming back to life." Lyle says and you you laugh with your mouth closed.
"You guys are mean but not wrong. I think he's a huge creep. I mean he met me when I was a literal 16-year-old." You tell them and Lyle cringes.
"What about lover boy (Y/n)?" Lyle asks you and you look away from them.
"I want to find them again. I love Norm so much and he's still out there... I can feel it." You say and Mansk pats Lyle on the back. "Sorry Lyle but you're like a cool older brother."
"Ain't gotta apologize. You love who you love." He says and you frown. "I mean it. I'd rather keep you as a friend if I can't have you as my girl." He smiles and nudges your chin with his knuckles. You boarded the shuttle between Lyle and your dad and huffed in annoyance at having to wear a mask inside. You tuck your braids behind your ear and lean your head on your dad's arm. When the shuttle lands and you start to walk down the ramp your dad turns to your group.
"Masks off!" He calls out and you nearly tear it off of your face. You scowl when your bare feet touch the pavement and start wishing to grant death to the people who did all of this. Killed off the natural life just to place cold dead material in its place. You prance along behind your dad and Lyle as they lead the group into Bridgehead City. Big ugly concrete buildings that you would have been elated to never see again when you came out here. Your dad and Simmens get called over by some horrid-looking woman for a chat. Your dad motions to Lyle for him to stay near you and he does so along with Ja and Mansk. The group was led to an area that was made for the recoms and everyone ended up sitting around and waiting. Until your dad and Simmens came in and briefed everyone on our mission. Lyle had his arm slung over your shoulders to ground you and remind you to keep calm until later. It was an unspoken thing between everyone in your dad's squad. Everyone could remember everything up until their death. Everyone was led to an armory to grab guns and ammo and anything else they might need. When you got there you found the only weapon that interested you, which was a compact bow and its arrows and a few knives just in case.
After everyone was armed you went back outside heading straight for a couple of ships. You boarded a ship with your dad's squad and thanked Eywa you didn't have to be near Simmens. The moment the ships landed one of Simmens men tried to touch a bright pink flower. You smacked his hand away and glared at him.
"Don't touch that or you'll be so horny for the next 48 hours that you'll have to be isolated." You tell him and he backs away from the plant. You quickly and quietly scale a large fallen tree as everyone else travels on the ground. Their large boots leaving tracks through the mossy and grassy ground. You continue to scout from above making as little sound as possible while you all made your way through the old battlefield. You spot the familiar shack up ahead and press your neck com.
"Damaged mobile unit up ahead." You tell them and your dad moves some of the foliage aside.
"We see it. Stay up high and hidden. We'll need someone to give us an advantage if we get ambushed." Simmens says.
"This is a battlefield. To them, it would mostly be off-limits. Seen as a war grave in a way." You tell him and you see him wave his hand around to dismiss what you said. You scoff and move to a different tree while they all go to the shack. Mansk and Lyle continuously cast glances your way to see if you're signaling them. Their sunglasses were able to pick up on the red light of your laser pointer. You look out over the foliage and feel yourself smile. Even after all of the fighting and explosions life would regrow. You hear muffled speaking and look under the tree you're in and see a group of kids. They were all watching your group hidden behind some plants. You signal Mansk since he was looking in your direction and he nudges Lyle.
Your group starts a pincer maneuver while the kids start to leave. You follow the from above and when Mansk jumps out and grabs the youngest Lyle takes hold of the girl. Both the Na'vi and human boys had their bows drawn and aimed at your dad's squad. Your dad joins the group and shows them a picture of Jake and you shake your head. The Na'vi are honorable and would never sell out Toruk Makto. You decide to put in your two cents and jump down from the tree you're in. Your feet hit the ground silently and you approach the group.
"Calm down everyone. They're just kids." You say and your dad looks at you. "Colonel... They're just kids." You tell him and he nods once and puts away the picture. You stop infront of the only Na'vi boy and take in his features. Some of his features seemed... familiar.
"You're supposed to be dead." The human boy says quickly and you turn to him only to find he's looking at your dad.
"Yeah? What's it to you?" Your Dad asks him and your eyes widen at the familiar golden brown eyes. "What's your name?"
"Spider... Soccorro." He says and your hand involuntarily flies to your mouth. The Na'vi boy had been studying you the entire time. Trying to place where he had seen you before, I'd he even had. Then his eyes fly wide open and he turns to Spider with a shocked expression.
"Spider... It's your sister!" The boy says and Spider finally looks at you and his face pales and falls. You hear approaching footsteps and you look over your dad's group and they all nod for secrecy.
"Ah, you got us a catch huh?" You hear Simmens say and you cringe. Trying to work out a good plan to get everyone out of this alive and hopefully unscathed.
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