#misc: panic attack

[lockwood-fic-recs]

When the Lights Go Out (And Leave You Standing in the Dark)

by WaitingForMyHogwartsLetter on ao3

Rating: T | Category: F/M | Relationship: Lockwood/Lucy

5 times Locklyle couldn't sleep and 1 time they could.

[stormxpadme]

Whumptober 2024 No. 1 - Panic Attack

He woke up convinced, the tent roof must have torn. Sure, in the hurry of their departure, he'd probably been sloppy with the equipment check and reached for some old gear by accident which hadn’t withstood the test of heavy Canadian snow. Now his damn sleeping pad was soaked and by sunrise, he'd probably be down with some flu instead of helping his mission partner hunt down the deserted Weapon X armory they'd come here to check on after some alarming activity readings close by lately …

Only that couldn’t be quite right because he wasn’t freezing. At all.

The more, orientation tried to creep into his sleep-addled mind, the more he realized that actually, this felt more like his clothes and the paper-thin mattress were sticking to his numb-feeling skin sticky and salty instead of clammy and freezing. There was also the suspicious fact that his throat was burning with far too hectic, shallow breaths, every muscle in his body tense, his hands trembling so badly that even the weak attempt failed to push the cover, which also felt like he could easily have wrung it out to dry, off of his far too hot shape. And trying to shake off what had such an alarming grip on him, long after leaving an apparently far too intense REM state behind, only had those very same images in his head crash down on him all over.

Gritting his teeth, Scott rolled on his stomach and braced himself on both fists to force at least that tremor in his hands under control, gritting his labored breathing through his teeth with his eyes firmly shut behind his sleeping goggles as the disgusting sensation of cold sweat tried to keep stinging in them. More impatiently by the second, he waited for that newest wave of long-meaningless memories and slaughtered demons in his mind to pass, while he counted both the seconds and his blessings regarding his tent partner's absence, courtesy of Logan's hunting instincts having taken over before they'd even laid down. The last thing he needed right now was someone to baby him over what was nothing more than a couple of blurry images of a little blood and humiliation in his head. Not like Scott hadn’t had plenty of that long before the Orchis war already. Plus, he'd already had one embarrassing freakout over that shit after his little run-in with that asshole of a Suit in a certain diner a couple of days ago.

One panic attack a month, he could fit in his schedule if he squinted. That was already more attention than these latest bigot bastards whom mutant world had sent into oblivion, deserved.

He was pretty confident he'd gotten that message through to his rebellious body, feeling that unbearable tightness in his chest giving in slightly when he forced his thoughts onto the pleasantly intimate mission at hand that Logan had practically dragged him along to. Not least in order for the two of them to get some time to work out their issues. To find back whatever strength, harmony and stability they'd drawn from their feelings for each other on the moon at the time, and to move forward, finally, in this new, so much smaller mutant world, even without Jean by their side for the moment …

But that latest reminder that the woman Scott loved and had given his all and life for more than once, dwelled millions of light years away from him while he was busy keeping their mutual mission for peace on Earth together by the seams … That pain wrecked into the rusty wall around his messed-up emotional world right again, bringing back all that had haunted him in his dreams a minute ago. All that had followed his wife's latest temporary demise last summer, and a certain long fall, ending once more with Scott's body broken in more places than the Orchis medic hacks had managed or been willing to mend for many months … with none of those injuries coming even close to what had come after though. Close to what no one but the people present at the time knew details about, to what even Jean had only been able to guess at.

As the phantom pain throbbed through his still freshly relocated ribs, his scarred eyelids, his cramping guts, the acid of glycerine and copper and black powder burning on his tongue, he wondered, not for the first time, if this, right here, was why Jean preferred the vast open to the confined fucked up mess that was a marriage with him.

The shaking growing worse instead of better by the second, he found himself tearing at his soaked clothes without even really realizing it, brittle nails scratching faint stripes into his skin, his breathing hardly more than a wheezing, strangled hiss at this point that threatened to leave him dizzy instead of just lightheaded. Not that blacking out felt like the worst option right now.

Hell, whom was he trying to fool? He was a fucking wreck, pretending to resemble even a shadow of the once unwavering leader that whatever was left of the X-Men would have needed right now. It really was no surprise there were hardly any of their kind following his call to Alaska or that his own wife preferred not to be even in the same damn galaxy as him. And that the man Scott also happened to love couldn’t stand to be in one room with him for longer than an hour at a stretch and would probably fuck off from his life and team again as quickly as he'd shown up today …

Scott almost jumped out of his crawling skin when something ice-cold and wet suddenly grazed his neck, his hand – fortunately still quite uncoordinated – reaching for his glasses on pure instinct. Only when a familiar grip of faster reflexes pushed it back down to the ground, Scott spotted its familiar huge, hairy shape from the corner of his eyes, and his scrambled brain checked back in with reality.

Belatedly, he felt the soothing touch of a stiff fall breeze coming in through opened tent flap, filling his clenched lungs with a much needed sob of clear air, as a far gentler touch between his shoulder blades further grounded him, guiding him to lie flat on his stomach. His defensively clawed fists found another snow-filled piece of clothing somewhere in front of him to dig into, its temperature further helping to freeze the irrationally panicked reactions of his body bit by bit.

Only when the painful razor strokes in the back of his throat turned into a somewhat tolerable rhythm heaving his chest, the familiar weight of a smaller but far broader chest settled down on him, pressing him into the sweat-soiled mat, and Scott thought he should probably be disgusted. But for that, it felt far too good, at least not trembling away by himself in the dark anymore.

Not to mention that, while Logan was smelling of his unplanned sprint back to the tent, and of fur and blood of whatever he'd tried to cut them for a late-night snack, there was also that very familiar, comfortable fragrance of whiskey and tobacco and freshly cut woods surrounding him that Scott would always have recognized immediately in a million, no matter the meaningless escapades of the past that his messed up brain was caught in at any given time ...

And without him really realizing, the torturous tension in his limbs and spine finally left his stiff shape for good.

Finally, he could really breathe again.

Talk, even, though he knew his partner well enough at this point to be aware, that was usually pretty secondary to him. "I always forget how good you are with this."

Scott more knew the shrug to be there than feeling it or seeing it from the corner of his eyes when he arduously turned his head, trying to catch his lover's gaze.

"Routine." Logan nuzzled his face against Scott's still slightly feverish neck for a precious second of even more comfort, his thick beard scratching Scott's skin when just the hint of a kiss found his pulse line, drawing away as soon as his lover seemed satisfied with the pace there, enough to sit up again already.

Scott let him, though with the worst of the attack over, he was suddenly freezing miserably. But extensive cuddling was for victory sex, at most, or for those rare nights that they'd managed to spend together with the third in their relationship back then.

But he forced himself to turn around as soon as he could move again before his partner could vanish into the night again. This time, he managed to find the darkened look in those narrow bright eyes and immediately wished he wouldn’t have, seeing all reflected in there that the two of them had never worked out, even long before the fall of their last home.

Maybe they never would. Maybe in truth, they'd only come here, on this trip a couple of days apart from the others, to leave the past behind instead. To find a way to move on, somehow.

Scott just wished he had the faintest clue where to start. "What's routine saying, how long until the dreams stop?"

He didn’t need to specify, not with someone who'd been through his own plenty share of torture, of living with ticking bombs inside his body, of having been torn to pieces and put back together for sports.

Maybe Scott should take to nightly hunting himself.

Too bad that for an Alaskan, he famously lacked a real love for freezing his balls off.

A faint grin curled on Logan's lips as if he'd read his mind; Scott's reflexes actually were good enough again to catch when Logan threw him a flask with the good stuff and sat back against the still half-open tent flap. "Why do you think you never see me sleep, Slim?"

Scott let out an unhappy sigh and grimaced at the sharp taste in his mouth, happy to give the bottle right back. It wasn’t like he'd expected anything different. Logan wasn’t here to figure shit out for him. Only to support him while he tried to manage that on his own. "I lack the feral metabolism to get by on booze and passing out for an hour every other night. Can't run a team on coffee IVs and delirium speeches."

The hint of moonlight shining through the flap crack had Logan's sharp canines flash in a now broader smile. "Didn’t stop you couple of years back when we tried to kill each other at every turn."

Well, yeah, Scott had run into that one headfirst. "I like to think we progressed from there."

For a moment, Logan promptly looked as if he'd slip back outside immediately again at just a hint of that required but maybe not entirely urgent conversation in the air again …

When he saw Scott still slightly clumsily reaching for the covers again, he pulled the tent close from inside with an impatient sigh and got down on his own mattress, unceremoniously pulling Scott into his arms from behind. The ever-present heat of his mutation breathed a far more comfortable warmth into Scott's cells than those dreams earlier. No urgency of another kind, not out here, not when they were on the clock … But Scott thought, they might at least finally get to that once they'd return to the base, now that the silent awkwardness from the first few hours after Logan's arrival was beginning to fade.

"Us, maybe. The world didn’t. Not sure it ever will, Slim."

They'd had that talk before, too, not too long ago, so Scott just answered with a tired shrug. "Me neither. But if I gave up on it before we can tell for certain that it's hopeless, I'd become either Charles or Erik. Not sure either this damn piece of rock or I would go down first when it came to that. Is that what you want me to become?"

"If I did, I wouldn’t be here now, watching your thin ass for your wife until she comes back from her latest ego trip," Logan answered soberly, and Scott thought he should probably hate him a little for saying what he himself hadn’t even let himself think in such clear terms but couldn’t bring himself to.

If they were only holding on to each other for the moment, maybe this was a good time, making sure, that at least wouldn’t go to hell again anytime soon. "Maybe I don’t want you just as a placeholder. Maybe I want you to stick."

"Guys like us don’t do promises, Slim," Logan reminded him softly but pulled him another inch closer instead of pulling away, tree trunk-sized thigh bracketing Scott's hips, that possessive grip from earlier finding his lower stomach, and maybe it wouldn’t take longer than until dawn after all before they'd fuck away the last of the night's gloom. "But I've always been around when you said you needed me. Just get it in your thick skull that sometimes you gotta use your damn words for that. Can't always scent your cold sweat from everywhere, you know."

"I'll try," Scott murmured, his cheeks promptly an embarrassing shade of red not only thanks to the lingering heat of rising want in his cells.

They both knew he probably wouldn’t, just like they knew Logan would be around when it counted anyway.

It wasn’t a lot but that was already more light and stability than the rest of their kind had these days.

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[tallymarkbrothers]

[Inktober Day 31 - Fire]

[sanguinedescent]

[PULSE HAS BEEN SCARY SLOW LATELY.]

[AM I DYING?]

[derekklenadaily]

@giftober | Day #4: Slow Motion

[gigi-loveless]

𝑚𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡

❀ - nsfw

♡ - fluff

𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑠

pervy!neighbor!ellie ❀

hate sex with ellie ❀

camgirl!ellie ❀

partying with ellie ❀

dom!ellie x dom!reader ❀

loser!roommate!ellie ❀

ellie comforting you during a panic attack ♡

𝑎𝑏𝑏𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛

dildo warming ❀

ceo!abby ❀

abby x drunk reader ♡

restraint kink part 1 - part 2 ❀

doctor!breeding kink! abby ❀

clingy domestic!abby ♡

abby comforting traumatized reader ♡

𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑏𝑠

roommate!ellabs x reader ❀

𝚑𝑎𝑧𝑒𝑙 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑎𝚑𝑎𝑛

streamer!hazel ♡

pervy!roommate!hazel ❀

nsfw headcanons - part 2 - part 3 ❀

gamer!hazel ❀

gamer!hazel x gamer!reader ♡

misc. hazel headcanons - part 2 ♡

cuddling ♡

hazel x drunk reader ♡

skinny dipping ♡

first time with hazel ❀

jealousy, jealousy ❀

first ‘i love you’ ♡

loser!dom!hazel x mean!popular!reader - part 2 ❀

pierced nipples ❀

doing hazels makeup ♡

snow day with hazel ♡

first date ♡

midnight drive ♡

swiftie!hazel at the eras tour ♡

mind break ❀

stormy weather ♡

partying with hazel ❀

stoner!hazel ♡

taking her virginity ❀

pep rally ♡

[thatdeadaquarius]

Genshin Impact Sagau/Isekai:

You still have acces to characters! ...by possessing them. 👻

PART 2 (you're here!) / Part 1

All art by me! :] leave me a iced coffee?? :0

HEY!! REALLY QUICK PLEASE READ!

STOP tagging my posts as "Yandere Sagau", "Sagau Cult AU", "Sagau Imposter AU" or other related dark content tags.

I'm sick of seeing reblogs that tag my work as dark content, when I'm specifically trying to LIGHTEN UP THE SAGAU TAG 😭😭??

Please be more respectful of this. Actually read the work before you just tag it incorrectly. Tags do matter.

/nm /gen

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Sun: Gender Neutral Reader (they/them)

Planet: Misc. Genshin AUs

Orbit: Headcanons, Scenarios

Stars: Tighnari ft. Cyno, Alhaitham, Collei

Comets & Meteors:

Content Warnings: Mild violence (bandit attacks/non-graphic), Reader/you possess people non-consent (mild/consent given eventually)

& Trigger Warnings: Reader/"you" possess people non-consenually for short times, but given consent eventually.

(pls comment if any more!)

Edit 9/7/23: 1,000+ NOTES?? WHO WHAT WHEN WHERE WHY- THANK YOU???

Edit 12/24/23 + 4/5/24:

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My goofy ass forgot to put this here .-.

Anyway this is a full length fanfic now ;)

…mistakes were made.

bad decisions were had, and okay, mayyybbbeee you could’ve taken more precautions against people finding out you were “real”.

afterall, you did see the Eremites reaction, even if it was only two guys (one from each camp) that you possessed :/

word spreads quickly amongst the Eremites groups, you guess, bc next thing you knew, after you’d moved closer to floating around Gandharva Ville,

they’d called that entire bit of forest haunted.

BUT IN YOUR DEFENSE-!! how were you supposed to know they’d blab to the whole camp they didn’t remember the past 20 minutes after you unpossessed them?? and immediately be on guard and jump to possession?? (Irminsul works hard but eremites/sumeru people work harder u guess)

And by the time you were happily patrolling with Collei, the forest rangers were just so chill you didn’t really expect anybody would think a ghost was possessing them (or whatever you were now… maybe,, just code?? it’s unclear)

so when u start to see Tighnari squint at people who’ve technically just “woken up” after you possessed them, mumbling under his breath more and more as a file he carries around gets thicker and thicker-

you start to think,,, maybe.

okay, mayyybbbeee,

you’ve fucked up.

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You really can’t help it, first it was making sure Collei got back safely from patrols (she’s ur skrunkly okay, you can’t help it, you’re still aware she’s capable but- the urge to skrunkle overpowers you- )

but then-!! You managed to spot Cyno! :D its ur boy!! ur little meow meow, who can throw people over his shoulder!! He really doesn’t need you, hovering around, but eh ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

what could it hurt! …it’s not like he can see, hear, or feel you anyway…

(unless u possess some animal/machine he thinks is friendly, which. sumeru is not exactly known for cuddly creatures. you don’t feel like experiencing death when possessing stuff just yet-)

imagine ur panic and shock as the General Mahamatra takes on a camp of criminals on the run, only for one of the old ruin machines (the ones that are just LEG and DEATH)

to hear the ruckus and come stomping around a thick patch of trees, it launched missiles!! You can’t warn Cyno, he can’t hear you!! No one can!!! The criminals are unconscious, there’s no other wildlife nearby they all ran off!!! FUCK-

You look at him and try to imagine his perspective as vividly as you can, he’s looking over the criminals, but now he’s turning, so people passed out and the tree-line got it-

Congratulations! You’ve possessed Cyno. 💀

It completely disorients you for a second, but then the panic of dodging the missiles comes back in time for you to make his body dive and roll off to the side, for as long as you can manage a roll too since you remember that’s the best way to dodge missiles in the game

…which works really well! bc he’s so fit and agile tbh

It was weird to finally run again after so long (two months now in teyvat?? wow)

with your feet suddenly in sandals, and feeling the breeze chilling your bare chest (Cyno’s chest??)

yeah its a shock considering most of the ppl you’ve possessed lately have been fully clothed rangers lol

you quickly imagine your ghostly form again, and just like that you’re drifting out of Cyno in ur “ghosty” form, having floated out and away from his back

Poor guy looks so fucking confused, and immediately is wielding his spear again, and is about to get out the crouch you put him in behind the dilapidated stone wall (dammit he better not waste ur efforts to keep him alive-)

until missiles slam and explode against it, he ducks back down (thank fuck) and Cyno just looks around one last time before hopping the wall and running to fight the thing

you notice that when the electro user goes to use his powers, they seem stronger than they were in his fight with the goons??

Maybe he was just going easier on them, since they are only human?

…so why does even Cyno look surprised when he goes to make a simple swipe with his charged spear and a bolt of lightning cracks out from his spear instead…?

…weird.

◇

Tighnari knows you’re here.

You figure he must have collected the reports of people “blacking out” or “sleep-walking” or whatever else and begun to suspect the worst.

…to be honest, you’re not sure what to do.

on one hand, it would be great to have someone know you actually exist, as yourself,

but on the other…

What would Tighnari think?

Of you possessing his rangers?? Temporarily taking ownership of someone without permission??? You’re afraid he’d think the worst of you…

tho u didn’t do so often, as u realized how messed up this could be, and u never did more than make them walk or talk normally for a few minutes before leaving them alone!

… afterall, you missed interacting with people. You were honestly a little worried abt going crazy, which is the only reason u were desperate enough to possess human people in the first place and continue doing so, just to talk to someone and have them look you in the face again like you really did exist as a person here-

(u thought u remember reading somewhere back on Earth that someone can only last 3 days of no other human contact until they start to lose it? but even if that’s not true, at the very least, u dont think talking one-sidedly to yourself all the time is healthy…)

so when Tighnari seems to get that file you’ve seen him adding onto, and gather up supplies, mentioning a day trip to Collei and the others to Sumeru City for some

“further research into these ‘blackouts’, and also contacting some of my colleagues who might know something…”

there’s no way you’re not going with him.

you feel increasingly anxious all day, and at one point when you were sure Tighnari was walled-in by books at the House of Daena, decide to go blow off the anxious energy by possessing an animal to get some food!

…you’re not really feeling comfortable enough to possess a living being into eating yet, that seems hella nonconsensual, and u kinda would be taking the joy of the meal from them tbh-

so u possess a cat!

a ginger cat, bc u like to think if u do anything weird, that ppl in Teyvat have the same type of cats back on Earth and excuse it as just:

“unhinged ginger cats being unhinged ginger cats yep makes sense” lol

you’d managed to be really cute (and wasn’t that weird, having to mimic animal behaviors like rubbing ur side against a person’s legs..)

and convince one of the cooks of Lambad’s Tavern to give u some leftovers, and been about to go off to try out sunbathing before the chore boy, little shit he is, tried to chase you off with a broom!! >:( the audacity!! you clearly have a little plate and everything!!

luckily, you’d finished eating, but still! Ouch!! those bristles fucking hurt-!!!

…you look and see a Sumeru-ified version of a skateboard, and u just know ur little cat face is just ✨v✨

and u steal the little shit’s skateboard as revenge! HAHA thats what you get animal abuser!!!

The kid’s yelling at you as you speedily skate away with ur little cat paws (LMAOO), but the cooks are calling him back in so he can’t pursue, (oh good u hear them get onto him for chasing u off)

and as u slow down to coast along the Sumeru streets,

you feel someone’s eyes staring you down.

You assume it’s just people being amused at a cat skateboarding, obv

but when you look just ahead of you to see a smiling Sumeru citizen or eremite-

Oh. It’s Alhaitham.

and he’s just… watching you.

he’s stopped reading whatever he’s got in his hand, and is slowlyyyy turning his head as you pass by…

You decide to just keep skating away. LMAO

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it’s already sunset by the you’re accompanying Tighnari back from Sumeru City, floating along behind him

and you’d been expecting a calm walk back, tbh you’d been feeling a little better bc the ranger hadn’t found much to identify you, yet, luckily-

but bc u can never catch a break:

Tighnari didn’t see the bandits dropping from the goddamn trees BEHIND HIM- and they had like claymores out- those were definitely gonna be killing blows-!!

so yeah.

You possessed Tighnari.

turns out ur pretty good at dodging bc this is second time now you’ve helped dive away for someone in an ambush, ur kinda proud of urself tbh💀

and as you make him take a few leaps back, ur ears twitch in the wind as you duck behind a tree, then float away and out of his body

The poor hybrid ranger visibly sways, then shakes his head out of it, and he flicks his ears in different directions, squinting into the woods, he’s pulled out his bow, so you’re at least reassured he’s aware there are enemies

Like Cyno last week, he too gives up and rolls for the next tree for cover and begins to shoot and take down the bandits

the rest of the week is kinda a blur after that, bc it’s mostly filled with Tighnari running in circles around the camp checking for blackouts, writing letters to Alhaitham and Cyno apparently, and you not possessing anybody out of paranoia :/

Most notably however,

you’ve unfortunately discovered one of the few drawbacks of ur possessions

(y’know, besides not existing essentially, what with no one being able to sense u outside of possessions)

apparently, if someone walks thru you, they accidentally force you to possess them 💀??

while it’d already happened once with a random ranger that you didnt notice was walking up behind you,

you didn’t want to test it again just yet bc it kinda made YOU nauseous and incredibly dizzy when this happened

(as in, u stumbled like a drunk after this poor ranger woman ran thru u, until you were so dizzy and the world spun sm u had to make her sit on the literal ground, luckily she just thought she was just really dehydrated when she came back into herself 😭)

so obviously, you’ve avoided crowds to keep this forced possession thingy from happening all the time

like at the Forest Rangers meetings or something, ur watching off to the side, instead of standing with them or beside them

so needless to say, after about a week and half since possessing Tighnari,

you definitely did not mean to possess Collei.

She’d been in her wheelchair today, the Eleazar flaring up and tiring her body out

so her wheels had been entirely silent when she rolled up to where you and Tighnari were leaning over some strange experiments of his- you were just trying to figure out what all these mirrors were for, didn’t he do plants more-?

you didn’t even know what the hell happened, you just felt that familiar dropping sensation, like a small drop on a rollarcoaster, blinked, and then suddenly you were sitting instead of standing/floating???

Oh god-

before you could even begin to process that Tighnari was in front of you instead of beside you, the world was shorter,

The fox-eared ranger yelled in triumph, grinning with sharp fangs and spinning around to look at you (Collei)-

“Ah-ha! It worked! Finally, I saw you! I saw you, I-?? Oh gods, Collei, NO-!”

And with quick reflexes, Tighnari’s summoned his bow, but he’s clearly confused on what to do about this situation, taking aim, but also holding the air glowing with dendro not as taunt as you’d seen him in the battle with the bandits

You scramble to raise your hands up, brown poofy sleeves rise to your command, light green hair you can feel on your shoulders, everything is familiar, but not-

“WAIT! I’m sorry!! This was an accident, I promise! I don’t intend to hurt Collei, or you!! Please, just, don’t shoot me, I think you’ll just hurt Collei instead…”

You talk him down and decide, that if he’s put this much effort into finding out about your existence, is an incredible leader and friend to everyone around him, and was able to accept the traveler and many other strange things that’ve (probably? maybe?) already happened in Sumeru (god fuck u dont even know where in the timeline you are)

that you can probably trust Tighnari with your existence, and your powers.

…He nearly passes out.

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Life has gotten a lot funnier, and happier, since you told Tighnari (and some of the more trustworthy rangers and Collei by proxy) about ur existence (or really, confirmed it)

He’d been wary at first, appropiately cautious and demanding answers, of which you were happy to give and explain yourself

luckily, after a whole lot of “hmm, I see, no, I think I’m understanding-” , finger on his chin and everything

he’s said it’s okay to hang around the rangers, so long as you don’t possess anyone anymore without them knowing about you/with permission (outside of emergency situations that is)

tho he did seem surprisingly understanding and accepting of you doing it before after you explained how u were just unbelievably lonely and were lowkey paranoid of going crazy-

The rangers seem to believe you’re some kind of god/spirit thing, as you had no explanation yourself as to what you were ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

Tighnari’s also given you the rule to help out around here if you’re going to “ghost-laze around”, as he puts it lol

you’ve redirected ruin machines/feral animals away from rangers many times by now, to the many thanks and gratefulness of the rangers

you’ve even managed to even figure out how to push Collei’s wheelchair around when she uses it!

mostly by possessing tree after tree and using vines, or occasionally a fungi that can fly so you can nudge her along

she has insisted that you possess a ruin guard and carry her just to try it… however, Tighnari overheard her talking to the forest rangers’ dog (you) and immediately knew shit was up and banned you from doing it (at least not yet)

While most rangers are okay with you possessing them for a few minutes (and they’ve developed this bandana wrapped around their upper arms policy of “red = no possess, green = go ahead”)

Collei is the most okay with it and for longer, so you “won’t be that lonely ever again!” :’)

Tighnari is busy with stuff, so you can’t possess him as often, but the ranger has developed a theory that the more you possess someone, the more they can sense your feelings during possession/while floating around in ghost form too,

so he’ll occasionally feel you in the room with him, and start talking out loud in some one-sided convo to make you feel more included to make up for not being able to interact with him sometimes :)

(after taking you off his list of worries he’s still pretty swamped, not that he’ll tell you that, as he’s still not quite sure why he’s so, warm and safe feeling when you’re around, so willing to trust you so naturally, that it makes him want to at leats pretend to be worried abt a possessing ghost god/thing hanging out with the rangers now)

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basically everything is great!

the rangers are okay with you, they got a system to interact with you consensually, Tighnari and Collei are fond of you, you get to finally have something to do instead of floating around all the time (joining ranger missions)

and look!! they’ve even been kind enough to build you a little shrine or altar of sorts! Notes about Sumeru life, recipes for you to try, occasionally some books for you to read, and even some snacks/desserts for you to try out the next time someone possesses you and gives consent! (you leave them a little note stuck on their hand with your question for specific actions like that, if there isn’t another ranger there to ask for you when you unpossess them)

and everything is so cool, and everyone is so sweet and accepting

…Until Alhaitham shows up in Gandharva Ville, knocking on Tighnari’s door.

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AHHHH idk if this is any good! sorry it took so long, it was mostly the art 😭😭

anyway its not the best (the writing or the art) but i hope it’s at least some content to look at and be entertained for a minute!

also figured it was a good day to post what with the attack on our beloved Ao3 (tho i think it’s back up now?)

anyway, feel free to leave critiques on this one! (which I’ll probably turn this into a real fic one day soon, but not sure what to do with the plot/do a diff setup than this or what)

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sorry abt the radio silence! I just needed to close my mailbox bc i had a lot of stuff to answer, ur welcome to send submissions to chat/non-requests!

and also this took time to make (once again, mostly the art, bc thats how it always is with art isnt it 😭)

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Safe Travels Stranger,

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don’t send me jump scares of your dick if not previously consented to

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don’t get mad if it takes me a while to reply or you see me interacting with my mutuals

Likes

Non kink: reading, cooking, singing (terribly) & wandering in nature. I’m made out of caffeine.

Kink: CNC, intox, somno, knife play, temperature play, cock sucking, bondage, chase kink, & more.

Limits (so far)

receiving oral, zip ties/zap straps, extreme degradation and/or humiliation, bestiality, and scat play

BDSM test results

Misc Wishlists

[urlovebot]

Masterlist

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bada lee ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

♡ gf texts (1) ♡ gf texts (2) ♡ gf texts (3) ♡ gf texts (4)

♡ gf texts (5) ♡ gf texts (6) ♡ gf texts (7)

headcannons ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

♡ bada as your gf ♡ corruption kink

♡ experienced bada ♡ bada pursuing oblivious reader

♡ bada + reader at the club ♡ bada + idol reader

♡ sub bada ♡ insecure reader sitting in bada's lap

full works ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

♡ tell your friends

→ cunnilingus. the use of a strap/harness. possessive bada hitting it from the back!

♡ takeout (on me)

→ pussy whipped bada lee taking you in several different positions.

♡ kissin' and hope they caught us

→ reader gets into their head alot, but bada is always there to reassure you.

♡ water

→ bath time with bada. aftercare but bada is h word on main still. fingering, praise, soft dom!bada.

♡ garden kisses

→ friends to lovers. a bit of angst in the beginning. cunnilingus. jealous bada. bada is bad at communicating feelings. some texts thrown in there. possessive bada. pussy drunk bada.

♡ attention

→ nothing too bad. actually, not suggestive! bada lee being fine as hell at your highschool reunion… y/n acting up per usual. really fluffy at the end. enjoy!

♡ my love is mine, all mine

→ severe anxiety/panic attack. bada comforts reader through an anxiety attack. bada best girl.

♡ luxurious

→ spoiled ass reader. down bad bada. suggestive. a little more than suggestive? not full on smut though. what does bada like more than checks? money!

♡ too close

→ angst. angry howl, homophobia, minor and very, very minor physical harm done to bada. closeted bada, out and proud reader. its alooooot of angst. some comfort at the end though so don’t worry.

♡ all the time

→ sub bada. pussy fiend bada. bada is down so bad she is in hell. dom (?) reader. reader is a tease and bada is fed up lmfao.

♡ all mine

→ dumbification. throat fucking with a strap-on. EXTREMELY possessive bada. reader is a brat, bada is a brat tamer.

♡ dead man walking

→ light threats. mafia esque gambler bada. possessive bada (yall know thats my shit). smut. bada fingers reader.

♡ hold me

→ gp!bada… alpha bada… rough, possessive gf bada. fingering. knotting. lots of cum… mild marking. mentions of breeding and pregnancy…

♡ poison

→ degradation, mean dom!bada, choking… oh! g!p bada… again…

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zerobaseone ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

୨୧ angry hanbin

୨୧ soft dom matthew

୨୧ domestic poly!haobin + reader

୨୧ zb1 being done with poly!haobin + reader

୨୧ misc poly!haobin + reader hc's

୨୧ riding zhang hao's face

୨୧ idol!reader turns zhang hao on during a performance

୨୧ sex with ricky hc's

୨୧ brat tamer ricky

୨୧ doggystyle + matthew

୨୧ waking up with haobin

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enhypen ੈ✩‧₊˚

☆ 8:16am (lhs)

☆ 5:37pm (sjy)

☆ 11:32pm (sjy)

☆ sunghoon thinks you're pretty

☆ making brownies with sunghoon

☆ make up sex (sjy)

☆ brat tamer jungwon

☆ certified munch (sjy)

☆ quickie (sjy)

✩ nerdy loser bf! sunghoon

[lockwood-fic-recs]

Consequences

by nevercatchme on ao3

Rating: T | Category: F/M | Relationship: Lockwood/Lucy

Lockwood realises something about his feelings for Lucy, but before he can take the time to process it all, there is a kidnapping, a desperate act and a terrible betrayal.

[dancingtotuyo]

Woman | Joel Miller x Reader

Complete, Rating: Mature/Explicit

Watch her take me by surprise

When she lets me call her mine

Do you ever really know?

Can you ever really know?

Summary: Joel Miller returns to Jackson bringing back memories and feelings from 20 years ago, but you refuse fall into the universe’s trap again. Your table is at capacity. Adding another chair will only kill you when they get taken away.

Tags: Joel Miller X Reader. Age Gap. smut. hurt/comfort. Life in Jackson. single parent. post season/part I. Mostly TV show canon compliant. TV show versions of characters. playing with the timeline. Tommy’s been in Jackson for a lot longer.

Warnings: descriptions of blood, gore, trauma. Grief & loss. Loss of a spouse. Violence. Smut/Explicit content. Panic attacks, depression, anxiety. MISC canon topics. Chapter specific warnings before each chapter.

Playlist - Updated with each chapter release

Part I

1. tame the ghosts in my head 2. a clouded mind and a heavy heart 3. pick up your clothes and curl your toes 4. walk with me, i think we’ll find a way 5. sleep the hours that i can't weep 6. play my bloody part 7. when she lets me call her mine

Before - A Woman Story

Five peeks into your life before Joel Miller reentered it, recommended to read in between Part I & II of Woman

Part II

8. a cry of my heart to see 9. the fear of what’s to come 10. hold you from the world and its curse drabble. what's that i see? 11. up from the dust, inconceivable love 12. love with urgency but not with haste

drabble. love will not break your heart but dismiss your fears

Part III

13.with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair 14.in the cold light i live to love and adore you 15.holding my breath for you epilogue. the ghosts that we knew

More Reading:

lover of the light Willa's third birthday

Summer of '03 The bridge: A scene that happen in every universe and also the point of divergence.

Landslide A no outbreak AU: Can you and Joel find each other when society stands tall, dictating what is and is not acceptable? Or will it keep you from one another?

Bonus Content:

Art commission based on chapter 12

[chimckenns]

│˶˙ᵕ˙˶)꜆ Intro + Masterlist!

Hello~! I'm Chimcken (she/her, early 20's) and I write hcs about Reacted characters! Most of it is just me brain dumping thoughts that pop up in my head, hence my wild posting schedule heh.

Below the cut is a master list of all the longer hc's I've written! I write a lot... so I'll probably only update this like... once every month or so.

Thanks for reading! :D

Sam/Darlin'

Darlin' and the prospect of eternity with Sam

Darlin' and Sam taking photos together

Darlin' didn't like their body

(NSFW) Sam's dominant side

Night runs

Kisses

My thesis on Sam

Vincent/Lovely

Vincent watching Lovely through their multiple lives

Vincent doesn't need a sun

Because Lovely is his sun

Lovely doesn't know who they are anymore

Lovely dressing up for Vincent

Driving

Kisses

Porter/Treasure

These hands - a monologue

Porter was in too deep

Kisses

David/Angel

In the hot tub

Quotes (most of which are non-canon)

"I love your body."

Angel is used to being the extrovert

Angel's nightmares

Angel can't sleep

Angel and David when they fight

Angel's dramatic reactions to movies and dramas

Taking baths together

Misc. hcs

What home is meant to be

Angel's midnight minecrafting

David's hands

Wolf David

Angel coming back from the business trip

David when Angel was away at the business trip

Morning cuddles

At the pool

David's first birthday with Angel

Angel's first birthday with David

Kisses

Road trip naps

David and physical touch

Separation anxiety

Driving

"His gaze softened."

"The storm isn't scary anymore."

Titties

Milo/Sweetheart

Quotes (most of which are non-canon)

Sweetheart's panic attacks

Milo can't keep his hands to himself in the morning

Shopping with Milo

Wolf milo

Kisses

Coming home after a long day

Asher/Baaabe

Slow Sundays

Scary dog privileges

Asher walks around at home shirtless

Nap time cuddles (with wolf Asher)

Kisses

Gavin/Freelancer

Physical touch

Freelancer's desire comes from a place of love

Kisses

There's no way they'd approach an incubus without wanting something

Aftercare

Lasko/Dear

Kisses

Huxley

So strong but also so gentle

(Plus Damien) Kisses (non-canon)

Avior/Starlight

Kisses

Ollie/Baby

Coming home in the rain

Kisses

My thesis on Ollie

Aaron/Smartass

Surprising Aaron at his office

"Happy anniversary, baby."

Morning cuddles

Kisses

When Aaron has overtime

Aaron coming home

Guy/Honey

Guy's nightmare

Kisses

My thesis on Guy

Elliot/Sunshine

Kisses

Geordi/Cutie

Kisses

Hush/Doc

Kisses

Anton/Love

Hcs

Misc.

Typical dates with the bois

Beautiful quotes hidden within BA spicy times

Rant on Redacted's masterful writing of the listener characters

[lunarw0rks]

SIMON "GHOST" RILEY | M.L

‧˚₊ find all my other works here! // have a request?

FICS/SERIES

Through The Ashes (28.6k) ⋙ MASTERLIST

➳ You've been given an offer to join the 141 Task Force. Upon taking it, you find yourself ensnared with the mysterious masked man who won't take his eyes off you. (Simon"Ghost"Riley!FemReader)

Old Bones (45.4k) ⋙ MASTERLIST

➳ After fleeing a toxic relationship, you fear for your safety and hire a bodyguard. He's masked, impassible, and damn good at what he does. (BodyguardGhost!FemReader)

MINI-SERIES

Torn ⋙ MASTERLIST

➳ You're Philip Graves' secret lover, and it's complicated, to say the least. When your new 141 ally, Simon Riley, catches your eye, you're forced to make a decision. (PhilipGraves/Ghost!FemReader)

DRABBLES

Bad Dreams | Pt.2

➳ When you suffer a nightmare that then turns into a panic attack, Ghost comforts you. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Sparring | Pt.2 (18+)

➳ During a sparring session with Ghost, you end up on top of him, and he struggles to hide his amusement. (SimonRiley!FemReader)

In Your Arms

➳ You feel swallowed by depression, but Simon saves you just in time. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Manhandling (18+)

➳ Ghost manhandles you. (SimonRiley!FemReader)

What You Paid For (18+)

➳ Simon had no shame indulging in escorts, especially ones who make an effort to flirt with him. Only problem? You're not an escort. (SimonRiley!FemReader)

Too Old For You | Part Two

➳ You've been crushing on him for a while now, even going as far as taking a stab for him. But it isn't enough for him to notice you; you're too young, too nice for someone like him. (SimonRiley!FemReader)

Poise

➳ Simon Riley was a complicated man, to say the least. His past, his trauma, combined into a fear of it rubbing off on you. You assure him it hasn't. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

First-Time With Simon (18+) | Part Two (18+) | Part Three (18+)

➳ Taking your relationship to the next level with Simon, but without regrets or haste. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Neighbor!Simon

➳ Self-explanatory title.

Safe-Word (18+)

➳ You use the safe word for the first time. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

A Helping Hand (18+)

➳ You help Simon get off. (SimonRiley!Asexual!FemReader)

Need (18+)

➳ Simon needs you, no matter what. (SimonRiley!AFAB)

The Lieutenant's In Love

➳ When the 141 find out Simon isn't single. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Simon, The Service Dom (18+)

➳ Self-explanatory title. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Scar Insecurity (18+)

➳ Some spicy comfort. (SimonRiley!FemReader)

Making Simon Laugh

➳ Self-explanatory title. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Cuddling w/ Simon

➳ Self-explanatory title. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Right Person, Right Time

➳ Confessions & comfort. (SimonRiley!GNReader)

Do You Remember?

➳ Estranged best friends turned co-workers. (SimonRiley!FemReader)

The Terrible, Awful Thing

HEADCANONS

Plus-Sized S/O

NSFW Twitter Vid (18+) // Headcanons

ALPHABETS/MISC.

Hurt/Comfort Alphabet

NSFW Alphabet

Things That Make His Heart Flutter (ASK GAME)

[pit-and-the-pen]

ACOTAR MASTERLIST

Key

❤️-Fluff

☔️—Angst

🌶️- Smut

Azriel:

Do I Wanna Know 🌶️

Azriel NSFW alphabet 🌶️

Unrequited Love [PT 2. Alt Ending]☔️

Azriel x winged reader❤️🌶️

You Found Me☔️

Hold Onto Me🌶️❤️

Broken Pieces ☔️❤️

But I Have You ❤️

Little Gifts 🌶️❤️

I'll Crawl Home to Her (series)

[prologue] [chapter 1] [chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4][CHapter 5][Chapter 6]

When Things Come Back to Haunt You ☔️

Needy Az + Greedy Little thing 🌶️

Eris:

Panic Attack ❤️☔️

I Can Do With It a Broken Heart (Unrequited Love Pt. 2) ❤️☔️

Her Love is Sunlight (Unrequited Love PT. 3) ❤️☔️

Eris x Sunbeam (OC)- Mating Ceremony ❤️🌶️

The Art of Dancing in the Rain❤️

Three ❤️☔️

(Nothing But) Flowers 🌶️

Lucien:

Spring Meadow❤️

Cassian:

Birthday present 🌶️

Three's a Crowd🌶️

Tamlin:

Wilting in My Lonely Tower, Waiting by an Open Door pt: I

Spring Flowers, Autumn Leaves❤️☔️

Just Let Me Adore You❤️🌶️

Misc:

Got It Bad- (Nessain x reader)🌶️

Requests:

Azriel- prompt 69+96🌶️

Kallias x Viviane (hurt/comfort)☔️❤️

[howlingmod]

Hello mod, may I request something cutesy for Skateboard x reader?

summary - skateboard x reader, reader is from blackrock and is described as being a little bit messed up from it (not detailed)

misc - hi i seen this request and got so excited i love skateboard ... 1million tripmine attack go

-Skateboard hadn't really been looking to make any new friends when he'd stumbled onto you. It'd been late at night and he was dead tired, having spent the entire day in the blistering heat of day. He was really just looking to go home when he'd seen you.

-It wasn't uncommon to see people lost in Playground, especially people from other regions. It was less common to see someone frantically pacing back and forth with a stuffed full suitcase and what was very obviously a Blackrock-style uniform talking about getting hunted for sport.

-Initially, the uniform had put him on edge. He phights Subspace and Hyperlaser all the time and he's seen plenty of people from there pass through Playground, and it wasn't often they had good intentions. There was something different about you, though, your panic didn't seem manufactured to draw someone in, it felt unnervingly genuine. Blackrock isn't exactly known for letting its residents easily slip out whenever they want. if you really were some kind of runaway, you definitely had reason to be freaking out.

-Against his better judgement, he approached you.

"Hey man, are you ok?" Skate asked cautiously, taking a few steps closer to you. He kept his distance, he wasn't sure what kind of gear you might have and he wasn't looking to phight right now. Your head had whipped towards him the moment he'd stepped into the alley, wide eyes darting over his figure. He certainly didn't look like the type to be affiliated with the faction. Besides, to be entirely honest, an alley was a pretty terrible place to hide. For any Blackrock authority with an itchy trigger finger (most of them, you noted bitterly), it was the perfect place to solve a runaway. "Hello...?" You blinked, remembering he'd asked a question. "O-Oh, um... Yeah I'm- I'm fine," you stammered, hastily smoothing yourself out and ripping your eyes away. Any attempt at looking casual was soaked in anxiety. "Right, Right," he didn't believe you at all, "You mind telling me what's up then?" You kicked at the ground a few times, scuffing up already worn workboots out in an attempt to shake your nerves. You couldn't meet his eyes for more than a glance. "I'd rather not." Skate paused for a few moments. Maybe it's exhaustion talking, but you really didn't seem like much of a threat. If you were trying to bait him into getting close, it seemed counterintuitive to be acting so guarded. This didn't feel like an elaborate scheme, it just felt like a genuine moment of crisis. Before he could say anything, you spoke up again. "Listen I just- Do you need something? I really don't know why you're talking to me." You were struggling to keep your voice firm, but you couldn't afford to let your voice wobble over the edge and into tears. "Hey, just calm down. I wanna help you, ok?" This could have been a stupid move, but he took another few steps closer, one arm holding his board and the other raised in a show of pacifism, "I'm sorry if I was freakin' you out with all the questions. Do you have anywhere to go?" You bit the inside of your cheek, mentally debating if you really wanted to put this onto a stranger. On one hand, it was just humiliating for you. On the other, it was a risk, he might be playing nice now but he could sell you out in a heartbeat. "No." "Alright, well how about you come with me?" He was quick to clarify when you glanced at him, "You can stay with me until you find a place! Or, I could try and find some hotel nearby, I guess ..." He trailed off, talking more to himself than you. Part of you was screaming to run the other way, as far as you knew this guy had you totally figured out and was ready to use the situation to get whatever it was he wanted. He could blackmail you, rat you out, ruin every chance you have at a new life. You can't just pick up and keep running if he tries anything, this guy was clearly from here, far more familiar with the bustling city than you were. Despite all this- "Please."

-It was a pretty long adjustment period. Skate was a little too casual and open for your paranoid mind to comprehend and you were a little too guarded and mysterious for Skate to trust you fully. You were so unfamiliar with Playground's culture, the lively and crowded atmosphere was a stark contrast to the utilitarian lifestyle you were accustomed to. There was little you could do other than try and bully forward.

-It was the little things that made Skate warm up to you. You always insisted it was out of politeness whenever he'd confront you about how nice the place looked or how there was leftovers for him when he got home. You would get wrapped up in something and you would start talking to yourself, walking through all the different steps and alternatives in a long ramble under your breath. Despite the exterior you were putting up, there was clearly some life to you yet.

-Sometimes he would tease you about it, but he was surprisingly strategic. He'd annoy you just enough to get you to glare at him and then back off for a while, returning the favor by bringing home snacks and takeout for the two of you in an effort to draw out more of that humanity. Besides, you could really use the food. The day he noticed most everything you made for yourself was just whatever used the least amount of resources was the same day he shoved most of his portion over to you without a word.

-Neither of you really noticed how you opened up to one another. Slowly you two stopped sitting on opposite sides of the room until you spent nights laying on one another watching bad tv. Admittedly, he might've gotten the first hint at his crush for you the first time you fell asleep on him. Sure, it was just plain cute, but it meant something more knowing it was you, the same person who used to run off to go eat by yourself every night and stuck to the corners of a room.

-He noticed your quirks become more apparent, little references and phrases he'd never heard before suddenly littered your every word. You spoke more openly, though you still had a tendency of not talking unless he said something that absolutely called for it. He didn't mind, he was usually the more chatty one in his friendships anyway. He just liked getting an excuse to tell you about all the phights he's been in and all the (more lighthearted) things his gang was up to. At some points, the lines between fabrication and reality in his stories blurred for whatever reason. He didn't mind that either, so long as you were laughing or drawn in by what he was saying.

-You weren't into the idea of phighting yourself, it was just a little too much for you. Besides, even the idea of seeing Hyperlaser or Subspace again on the battlefield of all places made your stomach churn. Instead, he'd just gotten you into play wrestling with him. You were stronger than he'd been expecting, though he probably should've known you would be considering your background. He didn't have to take it easy on you, only really holding back for the sake of not breaking anything.

-It was cliche, but there was some time where you'd won and managed to shove him down and keep him there and all the admiration he' been building up for you overflowed and left him looking up at you with some dumb grin. You were smiling back, something you'd only recently really started doing again. He liked to think it was because you were comfortable here with him, you would agree.

"Hi." "Hey." He laughed again, a nervous habit you often poked fun at, "You're really pretty, you know that?" You'd burnt up at that, laughing a little yourself as you stared down at him, "Where's this coming from?" "I dunno, just been thinking it." "You're weird." "Do you like me weird?" You snorted, halfheartedly swatting him one more time before pushing yourself back up. "Of course." "That's good, I like you weird too," the moment he'd finished his sentence, you were already pouncing on him again.

[stygiansun-totaleclipse]

(https://www.tumblr.com/stygiansun-totaleclipse/782633319030554624/horses-head-by-josh-pyke-is-super-mc-and?source=share) hey... U wouldn't mind dropping that Playlist right into our grubby little hands.. Right >:3

I’ve been meaning to make one to post for funsies but this ask gave me the push to actually do it! so here you go >:3 💜

And bc the brain rot is real…um 😰 there’s a lot. Anyway I organized it under the cut👇

MC:

All I Think About Now by Pixies

Familia (ft. Bantu) by Nicki Minaj and Anuel AA, from Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse

The Dead Come Talking by Roe Kapara

Goodbye by Ramsey, from the series Arcane League of Legends 

Wrecked by Imagine Dragons

You’re Not Welcome by Naethan Apollo

Kieran:

Help I’m Alive by Metric

All Comes Crashing by Metric

rats in my walls by ratbag 

Transcendence by Lindsey Stirling

A Tear in Space (Airlock) by Glass Animals

Big Girls Don’t Cry (Personal) by Fergie

Viva la Vida by Coldplay

Soldier, Poet, King by The Oh Hellos

With God On Our Side by K’naan

Alone on a Hill by Silversun Pickups

If I Were You by Nothing But Thieves

Nihm:

The Cave by Mumford and Sons

FEAST by bludnymph

Where is My Mind? by Pixies

Here Comes Your Man by Pixies

Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap

Runaway by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

It’s Alright by Mother Mother

Kill of the Night by Gin Wingmore

exit girl by ratbag

Sleep Will Darken it by R. Missing

Creature Comfort by Arcade Fire

Special Different by Lambrini Girls (with Alektis)

Boys Will be Bugs by cavetown (with Alektis)

Lilith/Lucien:

I’m Only Joking by KONGOS

Wasteland by Royal & the Serpent, from the series Arcane League of Legends

Tales of Dominica by Lil Nas X

Hysteric by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Little Talks by Of Monsters and Men

Jenny by Studio Killers

Shove It ft. Spank Rock by Santigold (ft Aurynn, pov they tell you to fuck off)

Identity by grandson

Worms by Ashnikko

Thrust by Ashnikko

Halloweenie by Ashnikko

Red by MOTHICA (also Nihm)

Clandestine by Vana

BEG! by Vana

DISGUSTING! by Vana

Fire Meet Gasoline by Sia

BLEED BUT NEVER DIE by Ecca Vandal

Alibi ft. Pabllo Vittar and Yseult by Sevdaliza

LIGHTS OUT by bludnymph

Samira:

Speed the Collapse by Metric

In a Spiral by Phantogram

Mister Impossible by Phantogram

Attaway by Phantogram

Year of the Snake by Arcade Fire

What Was I Made For by Billie Eilish

Ode To My Family by The Cranberries 

Bluebird by Miranda Lambert

Spinning by GROUPLOVE

Right Back to It by Waxahatchee

WEEDKILLER by Ashnikko

Filthy Rich Nepo Baby by Lambrini Girls

Twenty Seven by Layto

Supermarket by Wetleg

Aurynn:

California Girls by Katy Perry

Super Freaky Girl by Nicki Minaj

Bed Chem by Sabrina Carpenter

ALIVE AGAIN by Lights

Nothing Left to Say by Imagine Dragons

Little Poor Me by Layto

Sail by AWOLNATION

Ashes of Eden by Breaking Benjamin

I Need a Win by Unlike Pluto

Panic Attacks in Paradise by Ashnikko

Chokehold Cherry Python by Ashnikko

Itchin’ on a Photograph by GROUPLOVE

The Line by Twenty One Pilots, from the series Arcane League of Legends

Telepolartears by R. Missing

Invitation ft. Kodie Shane by Ashnikko

Nihm, Lilith/Lucien, and Aurynn (together):

Keep Some Faith ft. Andrea Storm Kaden by JT Music

Cut the Cord by Shinedown

Paint the Town Blue by Ashnikko, from the series Arcane League of Legends

Let Go by Beau Young Prince, from Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse

10 x 10 by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

You Make Me Sick by Ashnikko

Cheerleader by Ashnikkko

Worst in Me by Unlike Pluto

Luca/Family:

Welcome to Your Life by GROUPLOVE (Parim and Aurora welcoming their baby sibs to the world :3 ❤️)

Empty Nest by Silversun Pickups (gives me Luca and MC as kids with MCs siblings vibes)

Maps by Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Aurora)

Future Starts Slow by The Kills (sibs)

Somewhere Only We Know by Keane (Parim)

Everybody’s Changing by Keane (Parim)

White Wolf:

Big Bad Wolf by In This Moment

Hellhound ft. Jazmin Bean by DeathbyRomy

Wolves at the Door by Bad Seed Rising

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Anima Nera by lacunacoil

World Eater by Ashnikko

Halloweenie V: The Moss King by Ashnikko

Misc:

Small Bill$ by Regina Spektor (gives me dark theme song vibes)

Anon Submissions:

Horses Head by Josh Pyke (submitted for: MC, Farah, and Nour)

Casual by Chappell Roan (submitted for: AurynnxMC)

Never Love an Anchor by The Crane Wives (submitted for: Farah and MC)

I Know Those Eyes/This Man is Dead by Thomas Borchert, from The Count of Monte Cristo (submitted for: L?)

We Become We, from Journey to Bethlehem (submitted for: KieranxMC)

Wasted Summers by juju (submitted for: music video, MC and Farah)