#oof i'm not sure about this but i invested WAY too much time

[soapoet]

what do you need to heal?

oof, you all deserve a hug.

01.

Shufflemancy: SENSITIVE by MOTHICA

your feelings are really potent. you feel like a pressure cooker, constantly ready to burst open. emotions are both your playground and your graveyard, it seems. you feel everything strongly, but there is almost a sense of it never being enough. you yearn for something more, something bigger and better to latch on to. you've probably been accused of being toxic once or twice, and there may be a trail of broken lines of communication behind you as a result. but you have no ill intent. you have so much to give, and all you want is equal returns for your investments. interpersonal relationships especially feel lackluster to you.

here's a storyline that might resonate: you meet someone, platonic or romantic, and sparks fly. you're so invested, they take interest in you, you're each other's favourite person, two peas in a pod, partners in crime, a dynamic duo. every day you pour your heart and soul into this connection, drop the drawbridge and invite them inside your walls to experience you and your world fully. and with every day that goes by, slowly but surely, the honeymoon phase begins to fade. their efforts lessen, even when they say you're their whole world they never seem to find the time, they stop sharing, and feel intruded upon when you inquire and poke around to see what's up. you step back, thinking yeah, alright, i just need to chill, give them space. but that just makes things worse, doesn't it? you end up feeling abandoned and the grief for what the connection once was is agonising. every time you try to rekindle the flames they lash out. you're overwhelming, nosy, obsessive, they feel cornered. oh my god, you're so toxic! and then you fight. you fight for your feelings and the relationship. they just seem to fight you. you tell them they knew what they were getting themselves into. you showed them everything. shared the deepest, darkest corners of your castle. didn't they say that it's okay, that you're perfect as you are, flaws and all, and that they'd never leave? and then they still do.

you're not a monster. you're not trying to lure people in and make their lives miserable. you simply seek companionship. the kind that seems impossible to find these days. you understand that everyone has a life of their own, things to do, and that it's okay to need time and space. what you do have a problem with is the lack of trust. when you drop your armour you need reassurance that it's not in vain and that you are safe. that your vulnerability won't be taken advantage of. you don't want to worry about whether or not you let wolves inside your castle walls. what you need to do is learn a healthy dose of discrimination. really vet the people you let in. take things slowly, and allow things to happen without having to force it. let people come to you. wield your emotions in a constructive way. if you feel like a fraud trying to fit into the whole love and light spiel, then don't force it! you're incredibly powerful. learn the art of transmutation and try to make your emotions work for you instead of against you. it may be easier said than done, but if anyone can do it, it's you.

02.

Shufflemancy: Bridges by ALIKA

stop fooling yourself. you're really making yourself jump through way too many hoops. things don't have to be an obstacle course. there isn't some long, ever-changing list of things that need to happen before what you want can happen. it's like you're running around in a hamster wheel. chasing after what ifs, looking for signs and clues, and when something doesn't align then oops, there you go, right back to the drawing board. reconfiguring things, going back and forth, fine-tuning, undoing, scrapping everything and starting all over. reading your energy feels like i'm walking into a room with crumpled papers all over the floors. and when i look at them, your plans and ideas are so good! why have you cursed yourself into this space of false starts and stagnation?

because your head is full of doubt. your mind is like the static of an old tv screen. there is so much noise, buzzing around and it's so loud you're unable to think straight. there are so many distractions. you're being pulled in so many directions. everywhere except forward. you are so focused on that first step being absolutely flawless that you'll do anything but actually take the damn step. every time you gather yourself and tell yourself alright, it's go-time my dudes, you just stand there, or notice something that you just gotta fix real quick. and before you know it, you're doing all kinds of busy work. anything to make you feel better about not doing what you want to do and feel like you're at least making some contribution toward your dreams.

you heard there would be signs that you're on the right path or that your manifestations are working, and you took that personally. you see a sign, then look for confirmation that the sign really was a sign. then you tell yourself you need to stop actively looking for signs because then you won't recognise the real signs. but uh-oh, what if you were already doing that? does that mean that the sign you noticed was a false flag and you're just delusional and just out there fooling yourself? please give me a sign that— stop. sit down. cut the noise out and just breathe. you really need to start trusting yourself. you have a vision. a path forward. you got shit to do, things to achieve. stop checking the time, the mirror, the skies... just check yourself. still want what you want? great, you got it. have some faith in yourself. refocus your energy and try to stay present. it's okay to get distracted and it's normal to doubt, just don't let the doubts and distractions rule your present moment. the light has been green this whole time, so just go.

03.

Shufflemancy: Trauma by NF

no. that's two letters, but it feels wrong in your mouth, doesn't it? like it's too big or like it'll break something. when we're drowning there is a period known as 'voluntary apnea'. our instinct to not inhale water is stronger than our need to release the buildup of carbon dioxide that occurs when we hold our breath for too long. the brain can cause us to endure the increasing terror and physical pain because of this survival instinct. and it feels like your ability to say no is behind this kind of mental block too. when you do say no to things it almost feels apologetic, and is riddled with apologies and reassurance. you don't want to do this or that, but it's just today, maybe some other time, you'll check your calendar, assure them it's not like you don't care, you're just busy, you gotta go. you'll find any excuse that sounds reasonable when you don't have one. and for what? you don't need to explain yourself. no is a full sentence.

it really feels like you're on the outside looking in. you have a fear of not just missing out, but being left behind. it's like you've convinced yourself that in order to be worthy and good you need to please everybody. maybe in your past you've been betrayed, experienced neglect or really, truly, felt all alone and without support and guidance. so when you're around people you're on your best behaviour. you listen and you are eager to learn. you adopt people's hobbies or otherwise make an effort to be there for them. people come to you for advice, you're a shoulder to cry on, a problem solver, a good time. but when you get overwhelmed, your nerves get the best of you and you need someone to lean on, you feel like you shouldn't burden people. they have better things to do. maybe they wouldn't be able to help anyway, so why bother?

in many ways you feel like a ghost. not quite sure where the influences of other people and life circumstances end and where you begin. your boundaries are so blurry it's no wonder you've accepted so many concepts of yourself that it feels like the hand of cards you were dealt are masks instead of tools. you may need some time in isolation and solitude for a while. not to say farewell to the world and become lonely, but learn to really be with yourself and figure out who you really are and who you want to be. put yourself on the operating table and start carefully removing things that don't serve your well-being. you are whole all within yourself, and i promise that it's all complete and good and worthy of so much love. you don't need to be patchwork quilt made of concepts forced upon you by the world. you're allowed to be yourself and grow in exactly the direction and at the speed that you want. there's room here under the sun for you too.

[sleepyghostuwu]

Hiiiiii I absolutely love ur fics🥺 and I'm glad that ur request is open. So if it isn't such a bother can I request for Dazai, Chuuya and Jouno or just any characters u want to add where their s/o was absent for 2 days straight then show up with the largest bruise under their thighs. Pain is a bitch I realized that now.

Yes this happen to me bc me and my 5'3 height fall off a chair while getting something from a cabinet and my cousin just casually laugh at me until we realize that I couldn't fucken move or properly sit for 2 days🥹

Hoiiii! I'm really glad to know that you love my fics hehe :D And oof- falling off a chair sounds painful- also glad to know that you're alright now :'0 and enjoy the fic :D

A pain in the butt (literally): Dazai, Chuuya and Jouno

Dazai:

Get ready for him to dramatically lament about how he missed you for the past two days like the drama king he is-

Considering that your injury (probably) isn't as obvious while you're standing, it doesn't strike Dazai that you were quite badly injured until he heard your uneven footsteps and a loud grimace as you uncomfortably shifted in your usually comfy swivel chair.

His suspicions were confirmed when he spots what looked like a part of a very bad bruise behind one of your legs. Ouch.

He will make sure that you experience as little pain as humanly possible while your bruises heal, starting with investing in a chair cushion for you.

Will also sweep you up bridal style by surprise every now and then when he's slacking off and manages to see you getting up to go somewhere so he can carry you to your destination.

Having a difficult time getting off your seat to head to Uzumaki for lunch? He'll takeaway your favourite food from there and give it to you in no time.

Will also accompany you to eat lunch in the office so you won't feel lonely without him and vice versa :)

Overall, Dazai does whatever he thinks he's capable in to take care of you, a nice quality to look for in a partner :D

Just try your best not to injure yourself in such an unconventional manner again. He's very open to teasing you about it if it happens a little too regularly-

Chuuya:

Chuuya was very much concerned about your absence over the past few days, even more so because you didn't elaborate on your condition to him.

His usually annoyed demeanor masks that though, so be prepared to hear a harsher voice rather than a kind one when he asks you where you've been.

Don't take it personally though, he's just tired from work.

He's confounded at the predicament you've gotten yourself into two days prior, and definitely shocked when he saw the bruises you sustained at the back of your thighs.

Needless to say, his concern for you was now more evident.

After seeing you struggle to sit comfortably in your seat once, Chuuya decided that his gravity manipulation would help to keep your bruises the slightest bit off your seat.

Having trouble walking? It's bridal-style time! Your legs need it.

Will spoil you with your favourite food during mealtimes at work.

He's also willing to buy back lunch to eat with you in the office so you won't be lonely without him then :) Anything for his beloved, after all ;)

Jouno:

Jouno sensed that something- no, someone- was missing in action. Judging by how he couldn't hear your pulse or breathing, he concluded that that someone happened to be you.

Was he concerned that you were gone and silent about it? Slightly. Was that concern visible? Not the slightest bit.

When you returned to work, Jouno's internal relief was short-lived upon noticing that you had difficulty walking properly with both legs and you struggled painfully with sitting on your seat.

You can see his confusion upon hearing that you bruised the back of your thighs from a fall. Clearly such a manner of injury didn't seem possible to him till now.

Nags at you for being so careless because the way you injured yourself was so absurd to him that he couldn't believe you out of all people would sustain such an injury.

Even so, he does his best to show more care towards you in your current state, be it checking up on you every now and then or buying you food when you need it. Just small kind gestures to express his love for you :)

[sodabranch]

Halo here, still waiting for the next time their irl friends are up to play Lethal Company together... Justice time!

1. One thing that would suck about the Company is that I doubt it you get time off for illness/injuries. So imagine the dilemma of Justice having to leave to look after the employees heading to the bunker, but also being worried about the one needing to be left to rest on the ship.

Other than the issue of the employee being unable to react timely to an enemy lurking near the ship, I see Justice's past experiences worsening their mental conflict. They were always there, when the master or someone in the household got sick, so leaving them feels unnatural.

And what if it's something they can't simply recover from? Earning a disability is bound to be as easy as death itself, on the job.

2. Okay, this one isn't a Justice specific one. I was thinking, man, even the freakiest and erratic of nutcracker OCs will find a human out there who thinks they're really cool! Suddenly, an idea popped into my head.

Because the nutcrackers have parasites, making them semi living, what if one could apply a freaking soulmate AU to it?!

3. Justice, in the past, waiting for the master to come home from work, but they're coming home late. How would Justice react? I could imagine it thinking about how it can't just make a phone call.

Sure, you could easily turn the idea into angst, but I see it that the master simply had overtime, and eventually came home just fine. But Justice is a bit angy they never warned it, because it was worried...

4. The employees and Justice were gathering scrap from a mansion. Everyone is back inside the ship, confident that Justice will soon return safely. In the midst in the snowstorm, they see its approaching silhouette, but something about it is different? Oh, that's right, it's carrying scrap, too. But what?

As Justice steps inside, they see it's a—

Oh no, it's a somehow decently preserved and clean puffy dress?! Justice is irradiating excitement; isn't this fitting for a partner to wear for a waltz? The employees, on the other hand, are thinking 'Oh crap, it's gonna make one of US wear it!' They then push the one who they know Justice sees as the master to the front of the group, like a sort of sacrificial offering to wear the dress.

~ Halo

Oh, I'm also waiting for my friends to have a free night so we can play Lethal together and totally suffer the consequences of our own actions...

I just arrived home a moment ago so brace yourself:

Aaaand no, I also doubt the Company would be so kind to offer you some time off or even compensation lol. Once you're away from Gordion you're on your own, buddy;; better read the fine print.

Justice would be torn between staying with them or helping the team. On one side, it would be able to provide care for the injuried person, aiding them on their needs and staying guard in case any entity was to take advantage of their state; on the other side, there's no way it is going to abandon the team!!! four people is still better than three. Yes, of course it believes that the team can totally fend for themselves!! but maybe just maybe,,, what if some monster sneaks up on them and it can't do anything, then what!

In the amidst of this mental dilemma, Justice settles on giving the crewmate a walkie and gestures for them to use it if something were to happen, then helps tucking them in the uncomfortable bunk bed (to much of Justice's dismay. It really has ought to look for a way for them to rest more comfortably...), and there's no way it is going to forget the "healing kiss" to the forehead before heading out with the rest of the crew. Then maybe it would keep checking on them from time to time, excusing itself to "bring some scrap back to the ship".

Oof I let myself get invested in that one,,,

AND UMGMMGGMMGMG, SOULMATE AU???? ON MY BLOG?? MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK- I REALLY need to think of a way to make this real???? I never thought of it as a possibiity, but you're kinda so right? Preach.

Asdhsdhd also choking up from thinking of Justice waiting by the door to see if their master makes it home safely...

At the start, it would be a bit confused, they were supposed to arrive some time ago! Well, could have been a slight delay, but that doesn't erase the nagging thought telling it something might have happened. What if they got injured on their way back? What if someone did something? What if this? What if- Enough for now, it should think more rationally than that. So naturally, Justice decides to busy itself with some cleaning while it waits... Only for more minutes to pass and for it to start growing more and more worried. Now without any tasks to do while it waits it just sits motionless on the entryway, expecting to see them any second now...

And it's not until the sound of keys turning and the door creaking open that it can rest, seeing the face of their master and mentally restraining itself from running up and hugging them. For now, it is glad it got to see their face for another day.

AAAAAAA THE LAST ONE THE LAST ONE

Just just imagine,, while exploring this mansion, Justice finds itself in some sort of bedroom. Rummaging through it, it wasn't long before something caught it's attention: a perfectly preserved dress stored inside some sort of garment bag... The sight alone brought back so many memories of packed ballrooms and the many dances that took place, most of which Justice had to spectate. As a guard, it was supposed to watch over the people, never let in the fun.

So it guesses the crew won't have much trouble when it brings the beautiful garment back to the ship!! One of them even stepping forward, how sweet!

and im cutting it here because it may be getting too long :9 but I have so many new ideas giggles*

[thecarnivorousmuffinmeta]

When you first read Twilight/HP, was there anything that took you by surprise? Like, any surprise twists or "I didn’t think this was possible in that world/I didn’t think this character would act that way"?

Oof, we're going way back.

From what I can remember, though, no.

For me, both series are actually very consistent with their characters: it's just that the characters aren't who the author wants them to be or who they claim to be. I wasn't really a heretic at the time, but I don't remember ever thinking "FOUL" for something any particular character did.

I also wasn't... I don't know if invested is the right term but I wasn't looking that closely at either material.

Dumbledore dying was to me not that shocking or interesting because I didn't really care about Dumbledore and we barely saw the guy throughout the series. He wasn't integral to the plot so, to me, I could imagine Harry Potter as a series easily going on without him (I was somehow wrong about this). Snape did it? Alright, I guess that happened. Then the PR campaign of "SNAPE GOOD? SNAPE BAD?!" before Deathly Hallows got me actively uninterested in whether Snape was good or bad (as it was, it would have been too stupid if we had all that build up and "SNAPE BAD!" was the answer, stupid but hilarious though, I would have laughed so hard). So, when we got the "SNAPE ACTUALLY GOOD!!!" reveal I didn't think much of it. I did raise my eyebrows at Harry resurrecting in the seventh book, but that book sucked my soul out of my body so by that point it was kind of a "whatever" response and when I got to the epilogue I was at the stage of "sure, why not? You go Glenn Coco"

In terms of Twilight, I'm one of those terrible people who enjoys Alien Rosemary's Baby Breaking Dawn and didn't stop to think that it was a bit strange or surprising that this teen romance series was suddenly about demon pregnancies and vampire warfare.

Mostly I think I just wasn't in a headspace for that kind of questioning of either series.

[violetlunette]

Hi! I'm quite invested in your Yuusona so may I ask, if he didn't give his wish to Grim, what it would be in the Starsending event (aside from getting closer/being generally anything related to his Moonshine)? He strikes me as someone who doesn't rely on wishes or luck so I'm quite curious what he would choose 🤔 And he doesn't seem to be particularly eager to search for a way back home either...

P.s. I was the anon who sent you several asks regarding your Yuu! (Have fun guessing which ones were from me ;) tho I would say that my writing style had been consistent enough to find out). I was pretty shy to reach out to talk about others' OCs, but your Yuu was so silly I adore him so much and I wish him all the best in his quest for his beloved Silver's heart!

Hello! Nice to (kinda) meet you! I’m always happy when an anon is comfortable enough to reveal themselves. It’s like a cat letting you pet them! ^_^

 I’m glad you like Yuu so much! He seems to be quite popular. (Oh, boy. I hope he’s not a comfort character because—oof. Your hearts...)

You’re right about Yuu; if he wants something, he’ll get it himself.

It doesn’t even occur to him to wish for anything. Yuu’s sure that he can get it himself eventually, it’s not even a question. For him, it’s not “if,” it’s how and when. (Oh, to have that level of confidence and skill.) He only started asking “if” the more he got to know Silver.

I can’t say too much about Yuu “wanting to go home” except you’re right. He has no inclination to go home, except maybe to grab his stuff. (It would be a shame to lose his bottle cap collection.) If he REALLY had a desire to, then he would be able to do so with as much effort needed to create a black hole.

Yuu does have one thing he’d wish for, but that’s super spoiler territory that I’m keeping under a hat in case I write his tale.

Another wish that he has that’s not Silver-related is that he wishes to fit in and act like others.

Yuu knows he’s odd and weird but he can’t stop himself from acting strange at times or saying nonsensical things. He knows others find his habits of collecting bones, reanimating them, and his experiment creepy and crazy but it’s a compulsion that he can’t stop. And he hates it because it might chase Silver and the others away.

I don’t get to show it, but it really does bother him that he can’t understand others and that he’s the creepy one at school. 

That’s partly why Yuu treasures Silver and his friends so much because they recognize, "Yeah, you’re creepy, you’re weird, but we love you anyway and we’ll help you if there’s something you don’t get."

Another wish would be that if something happened to him, they would remember him. Though, like a dream, Yuu's sure he’s destined to be forgotten.

[sometimesanalice]

Hello, Alexa!☺️

How are you?

A bit of a random Q, but! I remember you saying that the first fanfic you wrote

was ‘Oh Christmas Tree' and I was just wondering if there was any other fandoms

you ever thought about writing for? Even if you don’t want to publish them! :) An even more general question, what other fandoms would you say you're into?

I know it's a little random, but I just love hearing about other people's interests/loves! 🥰

(I’m sorry if you’ve answered these in some way before)

Have a lovely weekend!

Hi Bo!! 🌟 I'm so good! I'm having the best afternoon with some coffee and a treat from Trader Joe's and working on a fluffy oneshot! I hope you're doing well! I love seeing you pop in my inbox!

The call of Bradley with a pine tree allergy and getting his best girl a fluffy pink one was too strong for me to resist! It was such a new thing for me that I wrote the whole thing on the notes app on my phone, it didn't even cross my mind to open a word doc for it, lol.

It's such a funny thing that for the years and years that I've jotted down ideas and dialogue that I never once thought of actually sitting down and trying my hand at writing fanfic until last year!

More for you under the cut!

My first foray into fandom and fanfic was when I was a nugget out there wilding on fanfic.net and shipping Clark/Lana from Smallville and Padme/Anakin from Star Wars. (back when I didn't even know what shipping meant, lol)

In college, I didn't have much time to read books because of all the school work, so I turned to fanfic again and got really into The Hunger Games. Dandelion Peeta had my heart, and all the modern AUs really softened the dystopian angst. That fandom had so many truly terrific writers, ones that I still follow even today.

Which is how I ended up becoming a big The 100 girlie. Some of my favorite THG authors started posting and writing for a couple of the main characters on that show and I was hooked. (it's been a lot of fun to learn that some of my fav TGM babes were also the 100 babes, so we've trauma bonded over it, haha)

And let me tell you, I need to be financially COMPENSATED by the CW for the chokehold this man had on me for like 5 years. (the hair! the gravely voice! the chin dimple! the biceps! the grumpy king with a heart of gold!)

If I was going to write for another fandom, it would be that one. Bellarke (bellamy blake and clarke griffin) still has my heart. At the height of it, I was spending hours every day reading fic for them. The chemistry between them was bananas and every week I was waiting on baited breath for any little interaction between them. It's funny now because the actors are actually married now, haha! The show gave us crumbs and went out with such a tragic whimper, but the fandom and the incredible talent there is probably why I was so invested and still read fics about them on AO3.

When I reread my favorite series The Winners Trilogy by Marie Rutkoski I fall DEEP into an Arin/Kestrel spiral. It's such an underrated YA series that I'm pretty sure I've read every piece of fanfiction that's out there (which isn't nearly enough) at least 5 times.

There was a brief Jon Snow/Daenerys Targaryen GOT era, but it was short lived.

I also like the Darkling/Alina dynamic from Shadow and Bone. I read the series when the books first came out before the show, and wasn't particularly enamored with them as a couple. But then they had to go and cast the pretty bearded attention whore that is Ben Barnes and I had simply no choice but to ship, lol.

I always joke and say that I don't pick the hyperfixations, that they choose me. But it's really true. The 100 ended in 2020 and I didn't have anything really capture my attention in the same way until TGM. This is the first fandom that I've really participated in, like getting to know other people and creating content! And it's been so wonderful!

Oof! Well, this got out of control quickly, lol. This was such a fun ask to get! I haven't been asked before, so I really went off the deep end here giving you my full life fandom history, haha!

[khaleesiofalicante]

hi! your last answer about distance between the family is bitter sweet tbh, i am on max 's side.. and i know all of this isnt canon but i am too invested to think it otherwise atm 🥲. also it is a bit sad with how much importance family was given in alec and his personality esp in canon world, and with magnus as well... that they all arent close or able to make that much effort for max.. alec is oblivious isnt he ( again it makes the stories and characters very intresting and i can understand the stories and people cant be perfect as one would want them to be ( but it is sad he isnt a good father, or grandfather in any world tbh .. though he is a good partner in LBAF so i am glad about that) also what is clace relationship with the LB kids, and does malec take them on holiday as well like we saw julian and clace? take them in one chapter

The Alec Allegations are back 😭😭😭

I think it's a little more nuanced here. To me, caring for someone, isn't always physically showing up. You care for people in the ways that you can - and the ways that you know how.

So, even if Alec isn't always physically visiting Max (or the others), we see him advocating for Max (and David and the kids) with other people - like the way we saw him defending David in Cami's class.

It's like that. If being a good father is about "showing up" physically then I'm feel most of us don't have good fathers (or maybe it's just me oof).

We won't see all the holidays or everything that happened in the families. That's very important to remember. LBAF 5 spans over a period of 20 years (oof!) so a lot of things did happen in that time and I'm sure there were malec vacations too. But I can say that malec much preferred to make sure the kids got together more often in their own homes than in some vacation place (like how Alec made Cami and Arjun go to the NY institute when they didn't want to go).

[bee-the-whovian]

My thoughts on "The Artful Dodger"

1st, I haven't read Oliver Twist or know anything about the story except the very surface level.

2nd, this isn't going to be HEAVY spoilers, but also not spoiler free so if you are wary... ok

So I just finished it, 3 sittings or so to get through 8 episodes. I was *iffy* after the first but each subsequent episode I did get more invested.

The Good:

The vibes are good. Victorian Era Australia, very nice. Medical drama, Crime/heist show, bit of a romance

Thomas Brody-Sangster is a gem (he's the reason I watched it in the first place, sue me. I have a thing, ok?)

Jack and Fagin's relationship is very interesting

As is Belle and Jack's dynamic

They are actually very cute on several occasions

I thought the story issue from the first episode was going to be the entire plot and it wasn't and the show was so much better for it. TIME PASSED and that's so important for character growth

All of the characters were good or pretty good in their developedness, even/especially the side characters. I understood nearly everyone and they feel like people and I understand their motivations, which is quite the task for a show with this size supporting cast

Good through line story without feeling like "this is a very long movie." Each episode was its own story, but they did all tie together well

The foreshadowing about Belle was well done

The... something

The gore is a lot so if you have gore issues, definitely not the show for you. It didn't bother me since it was plot-relevant. Victorian surgery, yes it's a bloody mess. It wasn't slasher movie gory. But if you're messed up by any blood, period. Yeah not it fam.

I don't know much about Oliver Twist, as I said, but I do know he was the protagonist of the original book. I intend to go and read it. In any case, pretty sure this was a disservice to him. In a few ways. You can have a story that focuses on a former antagonist, and show their redemption without making their former adversary an idiot or worse.

The costuming was kinda strange. The gentleman looked really nice most of the time, but varied, (Jack was a whole vibe, and I liked Fagin too with his fun patterns) but the lasses were weirdly distracting. I liked some of Belle's dresses but a good few looked like costumes. They looked fake. Outrageous colors and patterns. The colors, ok, maybe, but a lot of the patterns were just, lol, no. Fanny... her costumes seemed relatively era-appropriate, from what I know, but them being so gaudy on purpose... thanks, I hate it. Insert the same for that one suitor and for Oliver Twist. That collar the mother always had... oof.

Its streaming on Hulu only so if you don't have Hulu, you're up a creek. I've got access through a friend, with ads, and the ads along with my initial misgivings made me almost give it up.

The music is fine. Not bad. But nothing stand out. I read something about Australian rock and... cool. The music sure is there. I'm willing to give it another go, but good music makes a name and I just didn't feel anything here

A couple episodes end in the middle or right before something crazy happens, and the next episode just cuts to later and... ok I might have liked to see that, at least a bit (notable, Red in the cemetery)

The Bad

As most television has now-a-days, quite a bit of language and innuendo. Sometimes it's tolerable, sometimes it's completely uncalled for.

2 scenes I had to skip through, one very bad (episode 3? I think)... at least the main characters waited until... no, no it was just bad, and took away some of the importance of their conversation in the previous episode. The "not just the last in a long line" thing. It felt pandering and disrespectful to Belle as a character, and to the audience... well, me. I know the creators know there is an audience for that, which is a problem in itself.

The feminism was... weird. Fanny and Belle are talking and it's just... they are not from the same century. Their dialogue is a Frankenstein of two wildly different scripts. There is nothing wrong with women who fight for things but the way they show us in ep 1 that "look Belle is a strong woman" felt so gross and hamfisted. The misogyny was pretty heavy-handed too, not that I believe it's far from realistic for that time (people are the worst and have been for a long time) it was also very weirdly implemented.

Everyone was cheating. All over the place. Not one health relationship in the whole show. Just... rough. Also, very few if any of the characters are good or nice people. They have their moments (Belle is actually not terrible past the 1st episode and Jack is pretty inconsistent, which when it comes to wibbly morality is actually a blessing rather than a curse) but in general, yeah not really any straight up role models. Is that too much to ask? Character don't need to be perfect, in fact they shouldn't. They'd be rubbish characters. But having clear cut flaws and labeling them as flaws is important. I think the best arc in the show is actually Fagin (not to say Belle's and Jack's are useless, they're just not GREAT. I actually also liked what seemed to be a bit of an arc for the governor... it had a bit of hope.)

The depiction of religion was upsetting, though not surprising par for the course. It was catholicism so... ok, understandable, but the frequency of faith being the butt of a joke irked me

So, overall....

There is enough ill in here that if I knew what I was getting into, personally, I might have skipped it. I know my triggers and issues and this isn't great. But, since I did watch it, I will acknowledge it's good parts. I am glad I watched it. I'll probably watch a 2nd season if it comes out since I'm already invested in these characters. But at the same time, I wouldn't recommend it to friends without heavy warnings. I have plenty of friends who would deal fine with this content, but personally... it's a very caveoted recommendation, if that. More of a, I watched it and it won't kill ya or anything. There is stuff to enjoy. But bad stuff up to your ankles to wade through, too.

Thanks for reading all that if ya did. Cheers.

[flowerpotmage]

I'm hopping on anon for this because it might get too specific (← is definitely exaggerating)and uh. I'm paranoid lol

I have a lot of trouble coming up with anything to say about the whole creativity problem, because I'm on the exact same boat, even down to the abandoning fandom thing. and sadly know plenty of other people in that same position. and I feel, I guess, that big sibling urge to give solutions that would make the problem just disappear, and make everything better. but it's like… impossible, because I can't give you the answers I haven't reached myself.

if it helps any, I don't think there's any pressure to continue or not. this isn't exactly something you can fix or take control over. and as much as we, as readers, want to give support and make it better by showing love and appreciation, it just… doesn't really help in giving the nudge, and getting that mental hurdle out. because all it takes is that one single instance of someone showing distaste or critique, for it to become ingrained and for us to question every single decision. it's especially disheartening when it reaches the point of you looking at something, detesting it, but knowing deep down that if this was done by someone else in the exact same way, you'd be thinking it's amazing.

hardcore fan of tgbd, currently my favourite fic ever, and I'll just say, no pressure and no hard feelings over whatever happens. we're already so incredibly lucky that you shared as much of this amazing story as you did, and I don't think any of us want to see you experiencing emotional anguish over it. even if it comes down to getting one update a year, or the fic being abandoned altogether.

I totally get it. I always want to have the perfect thing to say, especially about things I've experienced myself and it kills me when I don't have the right thing to say that'll just fix it.

all it takes is that one single instance of someone showing distaste or critique, for it to become ingrained and for us to question every single decision.

It's awful bc this^ is exactly what I'm struggling with!! Like I know I posted about the whole RSD + creativity scar thing but oof!! And especially difficult bc there's all these studies about how humans might be wired to remember negatives more than positives as an old survival mechanism but like..... Come ON. It doesn't help, of course, that I have a hard time internalizing compliments being for me, no matter the context or what is being complimented. It's very silly.

But yeah, I just like... idk my biggest struggle is that TGBD has a very special place for me and I remember the excitement and the ideas and the way I was feeling about it and how invested I was (and am) in the characters, but I just haven't been able to get the words flow and then I start overthinking about how it'll be seen and it's....... It's a weird place to be, emotionally and psychologically.

I don't intend to abandon it, that's for sure, but I'm like just... Trying to let it breath, I guess?

Regardless, I really appreciate this ask 💚 knowing someone else has been in the same boat at any point in time and understands really makes me feel a bit better about the struggle haha

[mistfallengw2]

My thoughts about Forward and the new expansion announcement (not sure who wants to read my long rambles but I need to ramble anyway)

So, about "Forward"... it's bittersweet to say the least. Absolutely understandable that they want to get the overpowered god-like dragon out of the way for the next story, and if there's anyone who deserves a good fucking nap more than the Commander it's Aurene, but still, oof my feels. I really hope we'll see our dragon daughter again, this can't be the last time T_T At least it's nice that it's finally the year 1336 AE (the whole Gyala Delve stuff was in 1335 AE still), so we can hope that the Commander got to recover a bit from what they were going through before this drops on them.

As for the expansion, I'm actually a bit all over the place (in positive?). Like, I'm still hyped, but... I'll be honest, I liked the dragon cycle stuff, and the apparent direction of the story isn't exactly at the peak of my interests. It'll have to do a lot of work to get me (and my characters) invested as much as before, and I do hope it will succeed because it's looking simply gorgeous and fun. That said, having Zojja there is already a big bonus, and there are some potential storylines that could get my attention depending on where they go. Also I still want to bet that the big baddy is going to be a really fucked up Menzies (he's got his half-bro's laugh, aww), and the Kryptis are looking absolutely terrible in all the good ways. I do hope this expansion won't permanently alter old maps though, but since Garenhoff ain't looking that good after the boom... (at least keep it all in Kessex, since there's the ToM stuff already)

Game-wise, there's quite a lot of meat to this "mini" expansion! I'm not sure how to feel about the whole weapon thing, as it was interesting to have limited options (like how the engineer and warrior lacked "proper" magic so they made do with what they had) and eventually having ALL weapons available feels too much tbh (and a nightmare to balance), but I guess we'll see how it feels during this weekend's beta and I'm always ready to be positively surprised. As for the rest, it all seems interesting and potentially awesome, though I do worry it might end up being too much at once (I love Warframe, but their releases tend to be A LOT for more, and this feels a lil' too close to that in scope).

Honestly, right now I'm probably just a tad overwhelmed by the sudden info-bomb drop. With more teasers, previews and betas I'll likely find it a bit more familiar and comfortable by the time of the release.

-

Personal characters-wise, I hate having so much stuff up in the air.

The words Aurene used would absolutely be what Aurelia needed to hear, especially after adjusting to things post-Gyala. Rough, but doable at this point in time, since she's got her family and a lot of friends. No idea about my Herald of Aurene, Ethanryel, who is pretty much in the same position as Caithe, but Aurene's words would have been for them too so they may be more or less active depending on where the story goes.

For the expansion, Aurelia has tons of potential, especially if anything relates to what actually happened to her in the Mists (the story is technically written already, but I'm ready to change to more lore-compliant stuff and fill in the intentional mysteries if the shoe fits). As for others, again it depends on where the story goes in general. Most of my characters have taken advantage of the lulls in world-ending threats to live their own lives, so they might be out of the picture, but some might have big reasons to return to the active storyline if their "thing" is relevant (and I'm so hoping to give more canon attention to some).

[comingyourlugubriousness]

The Diamond in the Rough and the Boy without a Fairy

OK JUST COMPLETED PART 2!!!

And I have so many things I just want jot dot down my reactions to some of the lines

• Obviously the Legend of Zelda quotes 💕💕

THE CONNECTION BETWEEN BOTH HOW BOTH TDRBF AND SORTED INTO SAVANACLAW CONNECTS WITH EACH OTHER THROUGH OUT THE STORY! I know it would've been inevitable for it to happen BUT STILL! The mention of Jack's injury...ahh I hope he feels better

I SWEAR TO JEBUS FROM PART 1 AND PART 2 THESE GODDAMN PAUSES

MAKE ME LAUGH MY ASS OFF. IT CATCHES ME OFF GAURD SO MUCH!

"Sebek was yelling his head off, arguing with Silver that HE should be teaching him proper riding teaching instead. Pause." LIKE...PUMPKIN☠️☠️

Also LITTLE CRUSH CRUSH WITH KALIM!? I mean shit I would too- ANYWAYS! That's so cute! Idia is probably kind of grumbling at the thought though

HE WOULD LOWKEY BE LIKE: Hmph it's always the rays of sunshine that captures your attention... LIKE THE JELLY MF HE IS I KNOW IT!

AUGH YUME AND KALIM'S DYNAMIC!!!!!!!!

VARGAS IF YOU DONT SHUT YO CRIMSON CHIN LOOKING ASS UP AND LET YUME AND KALIM HUG!!! 

Ok KALIM JUST GO ON AND MAKE ME CRY WHY DON'T YOU!

Goddamn Azul it is not the time 

I FORGOT I WAS STILL HOLDING MY BREATH FROM THE WHOLE YUME ALMOST DYING THING

The chat logs will always remain superior throughout this story

BLUE HAIRED MALEWIFE!?☠️☠️

YES MORE HERCULES QUOTES! 🥰💕💕

IDIA DON'T LAUGH AT YUME'S INTEREST!

Idia bud...you need to watch what you say lowkey.

OOF YUME IS HITTING WAYYYY TOO CLOSE TO HOME

Oh…..Oh no..

*Chapter 6 flashbacks*

MY. FUCKING. JAW

YUME NOOOOOOOOOOO😭😭😭

PUMPKIN HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!?

HOW AM I GOING TO RECOVER FROM THIS!?

NO DON’T YOU DARE LEAVE OFF WITH THAT QUOTE!!!!

IDIA GET YOUR SKINNY ASS UP AND APOLOGIZE OMFG…

I am still not ok after that THAT HURT MY HEART! PUMPKIN YOU ABSOLUTE MENACE I LOVE YOU BUT YOU ALMOST MADE ME CRY LOWKEY!

I NEED TO LIKE MENTALLY PREPARE MYSELF FOR PART 3!😭

BUT THIS WAS SO AMAZING!!!!!!!!💕💕💕

I'm so invested in this story like...YOU HAVE NO IDEA!

AHHH THANK YOU THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME!!!! <3333

comments and such under the cut bc its long:

• The Legend of Zelda quotes were painstakingly hand chosen with love! I had that and the Hercules script pinned in my tabs for 2 months lol and I had like 3 docs separate to keep everything in order! And fun fact: their mostly in order of how they appear in the game, meaning they follow the actual game chronologically! ^^

OF COURSE! @bunnwich was the one who motivated and inspired me to write this. I'd never written fanfic before this, just stuff for OCs. It was really something!

You can blame a certain Youtuber for the 'Pause" jokes. It's literally a part of my daily vocab and I woudln't be me if I didn't put my humor, memes, and inside jokes into the writing. (After all, I wrote it with the mindset that only Bun would read it ^^). I'm glad you share my silly humor!

The pairs for the PE part were actually chosen somewhat carefully by me! I tried to think based on character relationships, personal stories and clubs, which 1st years and second years would actually want to pair up with each other!

Yume's and Kalim's relationship is important to me. I'd love to explore it more because there are more layers to it!

#VARGAS WITH YO CRIMSON CHIN, SHORT, LOBSTER LOOKING, STEAK HANDS, ASS lol

I took care writing Kalim! I wanted to show his growth and his reflection after chapter 4. Sometimes I feel people write him a certain way. I don't think he's naive about things as people always think he is. Especially when it comes to people's emotions. The fact that he wasn't able to see through Jamil's lies isn't a fault on Kalim, Jamil is just that good of a liar/ that good at masking his true feelings. but I'm rambling.

Meme voice: I don't care for Azul. (Yet there are aspects of his character that foil Yume's so interestingly.)

AHAHA yeah yume's big day for sure.

Chat logs are the only way I have communicated with people close to me so I drew from my own chat experience, but still wanted them to be understandable.

is Idia not a malewife?

Ahh yes the...climax of this part was something I had been waiting to get to and wanting to explore. I won't get to into it here.

Idia is notorious for saying shit bluntly and without thinking about it, I feel because he doesn't think about how someone could intemperate his words. He knows what he means so he thinks automatically that the other person should too. Bc its "logical" thinking. (lets just say he's not a reliable narrator)

I got to explore lots of interesting things with Yume here, and I'm glad it impacted you so much! Making people feel the intended emotions, or any really is high praise! It affected me as well when I wrote it because...well like you said it can hit close to home for some people.

I HAD to use that quote.

Please take your time!!! I hope you keep sharing your thoughts with me, I love to hear your comments and feedback!!

I'm glad you are invested. <33333

[ashen-laguz]

Basil and/or Spaceboy for the ask game!! My dashboard is crazy for them but I have not heart you speak about them before... ehe

lets go with this absolute nerd first because i have significantly fewer thoughts about him. i just think he is an absolutely pathetic wet sock of a man in the exact same way as kazuaki-kun. (albeit in a way where i'm not nearly as invested in spaceboy's character tbch) so easy and funny to bully. i need to microwave him right now to see what will happen. gotta stick him right into the blender. :)

that being said tho i do feel bad for him as well. seeing his "room" in sweetheart's castle, and all his dialogue in the space ex-husband fight... Oof. i want him bullied but Not Like That. lets get him away from that bitch.

(but also it is funny to see him go back to her to repeat Bad Life Decisions after you go through sweetheart's castle i'm ngl)

creative drive is marked specifically cause i rlly wanna voice-act this bitch one of these days. flipping from being so depressed to so Pissed Off, back to just nice ol' spaceboy, and then back to the lovesick bitch... i just think it would be fun =w=

basil on the other hand, i am putting under a readmore because OhNo Spoilers

tbch i'm not usually super interested in characters like him. i'm known by my friends to see that brand of meek/shy/soft character and AT BEST ignore them, at worst probly wanna see that little bitch burn.

basil is the only major exception to this tbh, and a lot of Why boils down to the realization of "oh he fucked up" when you find out the truth. I think one of my favorite things about the whole story and tragedy in the narrative of Omori is how all of the friend group is somehow at least a little bit in the wrong, in a way where it's not great to not hold them accountable, but also in a way where like... It's really easy to see where they're coming from, why they messed up, and they're still super sympathetic about the whole thing. and i think basil is the perfect embodiment of all that tbh.

like in the whole situation with Mari's death, i do not think it's hard to realize that basil defo was not thinking clearly. obviously an anxiety ridden child who sees his best friend shutting down over a horrible tragedy is not gonna know wtf to do. he's obviously not gonna wanna believe his best buddy did anything wrong, he's not gonna want anyone else to think his best friend did anything, he's gonna be way too panicked to really make any good decisions... and realistically speaking, was there really any good decisions that could have been made??

but at the same time, the option he took was definitely one of the worst ones he could have made! covering it up as a suicide left a huge lack of closure, it fed into sunny not accepting the truth for so long, it fed into basil's own denial... we know hero directly blamed himself for not noticing anything to lead to that "suicide" and i sure as hell don't think he was the only one. basil's decision made everything so, SO much worse then it needed to be.

but he was also just a child. a panic-ridden child who just walked in to see one friend's corpse near his shut-down best friend. i'm a grown ass adult and i know i wouldn't be able to handle that well! like hell a KID is gonna know what to do!

i marked the bad takes thing tho cause he's one of those charas where a lot of fandom interpretation really just gets under my skin. i hate a lot of the "uwu he's such a soft sweetboi" treatment he gets from fandom cause that's simply not true, it's erasing the fact he Very Much Did Fuck Up, and that kind of behavior towards characters has always made my blood boil if i'm being completely honest. i also do not care for the people treating him like a monster/like most of what happened is his fault, cause!!!! no!!!!! he's just a scared kid who fucked up! he's complex! he's an incredibly well-written character and by god do i have many thoughts about the lad. i could probly go off a lot longer and a lot more comprehensively if my brain wasn't currently mush tbh.

[zuckarr]

I'm not sorry, but I just love asking you shit. Please answer everything from this post bye-: https://www.tumblr.com/zuckarr/717336721774231552?source=share

Asks that make you think

(thank you so much for wanting to ask me this many things, ily)

What would you do with $3 million?

I guess it's easy to go with the quickest answer, which is probably something like buying my own place, all of the knick knacks I've always wanted, lots of new clothes, expensive gifts for friends and family, etc... but I was never wealthy, so I doubt I'd go on a spending spree so easily. I feel guilty if I spend more than £20 on grocery shopping, so how could I even fathom having that absurd amount of money in my hands? I suppose I would try my best to see it as an investment and I would likely overthink what to do with it. I would also gradually get terrified of being robbed, which wouldn't be nice at all, and maybe would also tamper with my actions. Honestly, the more I think about it, the worse it feels. At the end of the day, I really can't say for sure what I'd do with $3 million.

What superpower would you want? Why?

Oof, I answered this already somewhere, but I can't bother going through all of my asks to find it. The superpower I would want is either the power of flight or the power to pause time. I love the idea of flying, and I feel like pausing time would help me regain control of myself in a lot of situations.

Where would you go if you could time travel?

I'm sure I answered this in the past, as well. Uh... maybe I would go back to my childhood and observe myself and all that happened to me. It would surely give me way more insight than I could ever imagine.

Do you believe in ghosts? Why or why not?

A part of me believes in everything supernatural. I can't deny that I wish for many fantasy creatures to be real. Another part of me is realistic and rational instead, and is constantly in conflict with the first. Maybe, in a way, I need to believe in fantasy because fantasizing has kept me going for years. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have my imagination, my stories, my favourite creatures. Even if none of it is real, I owe fantasy that much. Short answer is yes, I believe in ghosts because they're part of a world that means a lot to me.

What color represents you and why?

I loved yellow as a child. I remember teachers telling me not to use yellow because it was hard to see on white paper, so I always used it to spite them lol. My appreciation for yellow evolved into my current love for all pastel colors. I love sunrise colors more than any other, because they calm me and bring me joy.

Three wishes, go!

... Nah, that's too fast and I would fuck it up haha!

You are a baby again but contain all your current knowledge. What do you do?

Oh my lord, what I wouldn't do. I'd definitely take so much more care of my body and what I eat. I wouldn't leave school and study properly. I wouldn't let anyone bully me. I would build my relationships in different ways and maybe also with different people. I'd probably choose different paths in my life. I would spend a lot of time away from my family. I would save money and not spend it on ex friends who never deserved it. I would celebrate my own birthdays in much better ways. I would cherish my dog and all of my other pets even more, and spend so much more time with them. Etc.

Trolley problem: how do you answer it?

I had to google what that is haha! I quote wikipedia: "The trolley problem is an ethical dilemma that presents the choice of whether to sacrifice one person to save a larger number. It usually begins with a scenario in which a runaway tram or trolley is on course to collide with and kill a number of people (traditionally five) down the track, but a driver or bystander can intervene and divert the vehicle to kill just one person on a different track."

I think there is no way to answer this. The only way I'd know what I would do is if I was in that situation for real. I can only say that I've always thought that society is made of individuals, and that it's important to take care of the individuals in order to take care of society. Sacrificing one person, or five people doesn't change anything - you are still sacrificing individual lives, therefore you are hurting society. However, humans are biased and I would definitely choose someone who's dear to me over a stranger.

What’s your dream house?

A cottage or bungalow with a thatch roof in a rural area, surrounded by woods and meadows.

Where do you see yourself in five years?

Working on a contract, I hope? And maybe in a better place mentally and financially.

What makes a word a good or nice word?

The way it's pronounced, the facial expression that accompanies it, the right timing, and of course the choice of words according to what the person needs to hear.

What’s your guilty pleasure?

Vegan cheese?? It's incredibly good my god, we have flawless plant based alternatives nowadays! I think everybody should try the Violife brand at least once, if possible!

What’s something you have that makes you nostalgic?

My horsie plush. His name is Nido and I've had him since I was 15. I used to carry it around and people gave me such weird looks because they didn't understand how could a teenager hold a plushie so lovingly like a child. I stopped carrying it around, but I still love him the same. He's my comfort plush, my wonderful, cuddly baby horsie. ❤️

If you were invisible what would you do?

I kinda like the idea of observing people when they're alone. It would be fun. I do lots of weird and funny shit when I'm alone.

What would you do in a zombie apocalypse?

I would essentially just die haha, I really can't see myself being cautious enough, or smart enough to survive.

[goldenworldsabound]

Before Crisis is SO interesting and it's really a shame it was never officially localized for the West. I found an amazing translation on Youtube and like for the most part I'd been like hm yeah this is okay but suddenly it picked up and I am DEEPLY invested. It lends so much world building and personality to the Turks, establishing that they were more than just Rude, Reno, and Tseng (and eventually Elena). And establishing what AVALANCHE was prior to the main events of the game! And I've come to really like Shotgun, the player character, as well. She's really cool.

Rufus was SUCH a brat though. He was about 18 I think (and then we timed skipped so now he's 21 and been locked away for 3 years oof) when he was feeding AVALANCHE information about Shinra and like...he does read like a bratty 18 year old, compared to the person he is in the main game and AC.

All this to say I am FULLY back on my Rufus bullshit fkjdsahfkjdsa thinking a lot about how his father does seem to actually care about him. Rufus caused...SO much trouble for Shinra and his father by feeding a literal terrorist organization information. But his father keeps that a secret from everyone but the Turks, and his only punishment is to be locked in the Turks HQ so he can't cause more trouble. His father even says stuff like, "foolish boy, I'm going to hand the company over to him, he just needs to be patient" like. He's very forgiving of Rufus literally trying to assassinate him. And when the Turks decide to follow their old leader Verdot and betray Shinra, Rufus' father is like "shit. I have to be careful. They have Rufus." We've mostly seen him being very like DEMANDING unreasonable things of people and not caring who gets hurt. But he does care about Rufus.

Now. He's still a really shitty father for a range of reasons. But like...it just gets to me. The child who hates their parent, because their parent has treated them badly. The child who hates their parent, and tries to believe that their parent hates them too, even when there are signs to the contrary, because if they didn't, why did the parent hurt them so much? Refusing to see it because the cognitive dissonance is too much. I relate a lot to a love hate with my parents. Making mistakes that impact you for your entire life, but giving you opportunities that led to your success, and loving you even if express it poorly and in spite of the mistakes they've made.

It's my personal belief that it's something Rufus struggles with. And he's forced to confront it when, as covered in "On The Way To A Smile", he falls all those like. 70 fucking stories. Into that room his father built because of something 5 year old Rufus said. There's a big L for LOSER on the ceiling because he thought 5 year old Rufus thinking an escape route from the executive suite on the top of the building was dumb and cowardly and made him a loser. But he built it anyway. And the thing, really, that gets him. Is that. There's a keycode needed to leave the room. Rufus has broken ribs and more from falling all that way, and he's tried a variety of codes. There's one he hasn't tried, and he puts it off. He doesn't want to try it. But he does. And it works. And that code being his own birthday was so...it hit so hard, I thought. Because that's the sort of thing a parent who loves their child would do. And Rufus doesn't know this, but the book mentions it, that all of his father's personal key codes were his son's birthday. And that just makes the way that their relationship turned out just feel so much...sadder. I dunno. I have a lot of feelings about it, clearly. Rufus is born with a silver spoon in his mouth, but all the same, his relationship with his father is horrendous. And it no doubt is something that will stick with him, influence him, his entire life.

so uh yeah thanks for coming to my TED talk. Happy to elaborate on anything since I'm sure I left out details fkdjhsa

[onstoryladders]

I was off the gramblack train after ep 10 but then I made the mistake of going into the tag and reading y'all's posts and I'm putting my gramblack clown makeup back on. 🙃

No because there are still so many nonsensical and unanswered things about the two of them and I can't stop thinking about those. 😩

But I don't think I can deal with being disappointed AGAIN (like I was after ep 10) if the series keeps going with grameugene. I cannot put myself through it again. 😭

Oof, anon...

JK WELCOME BACK ON BOARD! DESTINATION well, we're not sure of the destination yet, but it's gonna be fun either way! And when I say fun I mean that if things go awry we're gonna be devastated but at least we'll have each other 🤧

Seriously, though, I understand you perfectly. After watching that confession scene I felt so bad that it took me 5 hours to watch the rest of the episode, and even then I was so upset that I couldn't concentrate for most of it. I cried, and sure, it wasn't a full-on crying session, but still...

For a moment I contemplated leaving the train as well, but the thing is, I still believe in this couple. There are too many hints, and Gram/Eugene would be such a MISTAKE – from all points of view – that I can't imagine the writers going for it after they showed time and time again that they do know what they're doing.

We're not talking about a little thing, we're talking about a whole ass character arc – something you can fuck up, sure, but not like this. Not in such an obvious and preventable way.

But I won't tell you that I don't feel like I'm taking a risk, because it'd be a lie. And I have invested so much time and energy and creativity and emotions in this pairing that if they ruin it it's gonna hurt like a motherfucker :)

[koreandragon]

What if they're playing us in tomorrow and he's not her husband or is instead her second husband??? I don't trust drama writers anymore. Also this should've been the story like this relationship and romance and angst should've been the main thing or at least gotten more than 2 minutes every episode lmfao. I'm rewatching some dramas and reflecting on some tropes they seem to love and omg for a medium that has lived and survived thanks to romance they sure do love to shit on it constantly, the BS they pulled with 2521 that post that was like a north Korean and south Korean and a goblin and a human etc found a way to be together but a reporter and a fencer couldn't adkfjjfj yikes. Like I'm so so tired of the EP 12 to 15 break up for no other reason than we need people to keep watching until ep 16, it always always undermines the entire relationship we're supposed to believe is true love~~~ I want ROMANCE back, yearning and fighting for each other against all odds and desperate hugs and kisses and longing and just all consuming love and passion I'm tired where are my princess man like dramas where she put a sword to her throat and stayed like that for a day promising to kill herself the moment her father killed her lover, my dramas like queen in hyuns man where they fought time and space and 3 different timelines and she felt his pain with 300 f*cking years between them. It's like they forgot how to write a good love story and all its different complex moving parts. With the world getting shittier and shittier we need these kind of stories now more than ever and yet they seem to be disappearing all together and I thought I only had to worry about western media looking down on romance but it seems like the tide has shifted in Korea too unfortunately.

oof go off anon... honestly it really does feel like it's been a while since we've seen a truly angsty and all sweeping romance. i would count doom at your service as a really good one though, i mean they were both ready to die for the other and found each other over and over again, even when fate didn't want them to. we need more like this.

i don't believe they're duping us tho like i'm pretty sure they've gone too far to turn back now so he has to be her husband?? and yes i would much rather have their story be the main focus of the drama instead of something that's on the back burner all the time, it's like they accidentally create this perfect love story with past lives and red threads and suicide and finding each other again despite all odds then they decide to just have that as a supporting story line. this is a whole drama material, i would watch 16 episodes of this story. everyone watching this is more invested in their romance than the actual drama and it's odd that despite being a main character goo ryeon's story is so sidelined.

i don’t even wanna talk about 2521 cause that was a whole disaster i absolutely hated it like it was actually deeply upsetting and deminished the whole show. you could say ‘well but this show was about friendship and coming of age and etc’ no this was a romance drama about two people falling in love, that was THE MAIN THEME, that was the main story and at the end they went ‘actually nevermind’ and just??? they never heard from each other again?? make it make sense. fucking sick of plot twist and diverting viewer’s expectations and essentially betraying your viewers because this is not what they signed up for. fuck that writer honestly

the dramas you mentioned are both sageuks or fusions that usually tend to be more dramatic and deep but i can't really speak on this genre now as i don't really watch them so idk the situation about those romances.

i don't know if it's the globalization of kdramas but there really seems to be less of these earth shattering romances nowadays. i'm scared to bring up mr queen but if you don't look at the ending, the whole appeal of that show was that these two met through time and space, being from different times, being different sexes and their love story was so beautiful and so fullfilling, it had me glued to the screen for months...when writers realize that romances bring in more viewers i will finally know peace.