#overcoming depression

[theindescribable1]

Getting Better!

Tw: A vent

. . . But with a happy ending!

((LONG LONG READ...eat some popcorn while you're reading. Idk, uhh enjoy? I cried writing this so it might be sad))

BUT WITH A HAPPY ENDINGGG!

The Bad Stuff:

If you've known me for a while, you'd know that I have been dealing with some rather intense depression and anxiety. I spent a good chunk of my young childhood feeling down and sad all day, I had trouble sleeping, I had issues. I kept all my feelings bottled up for years, it only made me feel angry and I was rude to people I loved. I spent most of my days alone in my room, never wanting to be around my family. I think my depression started getting worse when I was 8 or so? My sister was diagnosed with a brain tumor, she had cancer. I thought she'd die, I was so scared and in so much sorrow. My parents brushed my aside for a few years while my sister battled cancer. I wasn't really a main priority, I felt like I didn't matter anymore. Everything started to be all about my sister, I felt more alone then ever. My parents spent all day with my sister, treating me almost like I didn't matter for the time being. After my sister successfully beat Cancer, it felt like things were never fair for me. She never got in trouble, I always got the blame for things, she never really had to work or do any chores, but I did. It all just felt like favoritism. It made me feel less loved, less respected, and I just couldn't tell my parents how I was feeling. I felt a hate towards my parents, they didn't find ways to praise me, or give me a simple "good job" I just wanted some slight praise, someone to tell me I'm doing good. It seemed as if my parents never cared for the good I did, but they cared when I got something wrong. They scolded me for doing something wrong, it made me feel as if I had to be perfect, as if I couldn't make a single mistake. I believed that I didn't matter to them, I believed that no one would miss me when I'm gone. That's when the suicidal thoughts came in, I would think to myself; "I am unloved, what's the point of even trying? Carrying on in a world where I just don't matter.." And I would see myself committing acts of suicide, I thought about what would happen. What just made things worse was how hard I found it to make friends, it seemed like no one gave me a chance. Every school I went to, I was always made the subject of fun. I never did anything to deserve it! I did nothing wrong! Why was it always me? Why did everybody just naturally hate me? I was left out if every single friend group, I was never included in projects, I never had a partner to work with, I was always the last one picked to be in a team, everyone always just treated me like dirt. I just wanted to die, for so long I just wanted to leave this unfair and cruel planet. I just wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. I was always so stressed, lonely, keeping everything bottled up, telling everyone that I was ok. Keeping everything to myself just gave me headaches, anxiety, stress, anger, and I just couldn't keep my anger to myself. It was becoming more and more difficult. School has always been so difficult for me, bullies, crappy teachers, and I never understood what they were teaching. The entire class was always ahead of me, I never knew how to do anything! I felt so stupid and I had no one to ask for help, I procrastinated every single thing... so many thoughts ran through my head; "I'm so stupid. I'm a loser. No one loves me. I have no friends. Everyone just hates me. Why me why me why me? I just don't want to be here anymore..." All my life up to now, I have always been brushed aside and left with my fake smile. I tried to talk to my parents about what is happening with me, but the first time I tried my mom said; "You don't have depression. You really don't! Just because you feel sad ONCE doesn't mean you're depressed! Look at all that you have! You have nothing to be sad about." It doesn't matter what I have, it matters how I feel! I felt sad and lonely all the time, all day, all night. I was scared to tell my parents again because I just thought they'd brush it aside as me just being "dramatic" and on top off aaaalll of this, my grandpa died and it caused lots of pain.

Things Start Getting Brighter:

I was at a doctor's appointment when I decided that I'd try again... I explained everything to my mom and she started to cry and gave me a big hug. She told me that she'll sign me up for a therapist! That's when I saw hope, a light at the end of a long dark tunnel. I thought to myself; "I'll get better...I'm going to be healed. I'm going to be ok. I'm finally help." After that day, my family started spending time with me, they came into my room more and gave me love. I felt happier, but still not cured- eventually I went in to the first session of counseling! My dad sat next to me for the first couple minutes while the counselor talked to him, I heard him say at one point that he was proud of me, and I couldn't hold back tears. Its because I don't hear those words much...I feel as if no one ever tells me that they are proud of me. . After my dad left, I immediately started to blurt out EVERYTHING. I just went off telling the counselor all the past things, I burst out into tears. I let everything out of the bottle. She could almost immediately diagnose me with some rather intense depression. She gave me advice, things to do, and since then I got a bit better..

So Close To Happiness:

I started to work on loving myself, treating myself to good things! I talked to myself positively! Then I decided I should restore bonds with my family but starting some family game nights and movie nights! Me and my family would play some games together on Wednesday, and movies on Friday! As of right now, I'm in a D & D campaign with my family, uncle, and my uncle's friend! Its going great so far, I'm having fun! I'm getting much closer to my family, I feel loved! I feel appreciated! My family plain as day care about me. I love them, they love me. And I started socializing more, I talked to more people, made a friend group, and I began to hang out with more family outside of my main family of 4. I talked to my cousins more often and got much closer to Carol! I had an online friend who I liked to call Goblin, and we decided to meet in real life. Once they gave me their address, I realized. . .We're neighbors!!!?? We lived in the same neighborhood, so I ran over to their house and they ran out the door, we greeted each other in a fit of laughter. We were online friends for 2 or so years and never knew we were 3 or so minutes away from each other! They are also know as The GGT is that's familiar to you! I was less of an introvert, I had more fun, more friends, many more happy memories! Oh and it got great when I got a lil app called Tumblr. I socialized even more and started getting to doing art! I had a goal, to be popular, to ve somebody of slight importance... well I've just got to say. . Thank you for over 700 followers! I love you all so much and you made my dreams come true! You are all my motivation, my reason to keep on going, my great friends! All of youuuu! I love you all so much! And to this day, I haven't felt really sad, alone, unhappy, I haven't thought about ending my life, in fact...I WANT to live, I want to keep on waking up. I want to continue to see the sun everyday, I want to continue on! I don't want to leave, life is beautiful to me now, I see the good in it all, I know that God has good plans for me, and I will wait for paradise, not skip right to it. I want to live every second of my life, I want to continue to love, laugh, smile, and be will those who love me. I want to accomplish my dreams, to have a good life with many memories.

I love you all, and if you are dealing with some bad things, just remember that there is always someone to talk to, to love you, to understand you.. And I'm one of those! You can talk to me, I'll understand you, and I will always do whatever I can to help you. Live your life, its beautiful...I used to see it has painful, lonely, unfair, dark, and depressing...but truly it isn't. Life is beautiful, and so are all of you.

Stay alive, I love you. I love you all.

[lovely-bloomy]

things I did this week instead of rotting in bed

my depressive phase is completely out and I managed to go back to my normal life!!!

I worked, worked, worked & worked a little more

I watered the plants I forgot during my depressive phase

I went to a LGBT bar and met an amazing bi guy who gave me a cute bracelet,, I wanted to kiss him but I'm shy to have intimacy with people I've never met before (he kissed some guys and I got envious lol)

I did alternative goth makeups for going out!! I looked like a sad clown and loved it!!

I used my free time to spend good quality time with myself, doing skincare, sleeping properly, lighting candles and just vibing alone

I started my graphic design freelancing and I did a solid good job with my first job

[supernightboy08]

Don’t give up guys 😢

[remiofstockton]

Some pictures of myself that I really enjoy.

The first one is of me at Saint Herman's Monastery after my suicide attempt in early December. The second is a picture of my friends and I on (Julian Calendar) Christmas. The final picture is from an unknown date but it's of me being silly at my local university (which I don't attend) I was there with my girlfriend and other friend Luna.

Moments like these make me be glad to be alive, and I remember that in not one of those photos was I alone. I had someone there, being lonely is a stupid cope. Just get up and do something.

All to say that God doesn't forget His own.

Amin.

[ashereggleston1990]

Despite My Numerous Disabilities, I have Managed to Teach as A Substitute Teaching Assistant at My Local School District for almost 5 years, now, I work with Early Childhood Intervention Pre-K Students 3-5 years old, General Education Pre-K Students, 1st-5th with Severe Disabilities and 9th-12th with Severe Disabilities & I used to work with Students in The Behavior Mastery Classroom, 1st-5th, and most recently, rarely with 9th-12th, Students in The Behavior Mastery Classroom!

[christyannmartine]

[wholesomeflamingo]

If I die tomorrow

Bury me in a field of flowers

Bury me where the fireflies dance

And the birds sing

Bury me where the snow sparkles

And the sun shines

Bury me in the fault-line where happiness begins and sadness ends.

Bury me where my laughter will echo in the breeze

Where the sunrise makes the world stop spinning in its beauty.

If I die tomorrow

Let it be beautiful

Let it be everything my life was not.

-rs

[aronlewes]

A House With Depression 2.0

I wrote this a few months ago. Back then, a friend suggested I give it a more hopeful end, but I was not yet at a place in my life where I could.

Now I have given it a different end--literally just the last line. 

I think it works. Here is the revised version:

This is a house with depression. It's in a constant state of disrepair and despair. I look around and see a crumbling ruin. I look around and see empty spaces everywhere.

I see the empty space left by my dad. He's the one who left us with this depressed house. He had dementia. At his worst, he forgot who we were and thought he had to catch a train in our basement. Dad loved trains. I hope he's riding one in the afterlife.

I still feel the empty space left by Mom as well. She was my best friend. She was also a tyrant. Sometimes I wonder how I could love a tyrant so much, but... I guess when you don't have much of a family, you take what you can get.

I feel the empty spaces left by my dreams. At one time, I thought I would soar to great heights. Now, all I want to do is lay in bed and think about everything I should be doing, but won't do. I think of everything I want to have, but don't.

I feel the empty spaces left by my childhood. I was a baby once, running around in these same hallways, staring into the same mirrors I stare into now, only then, I didn't hate myself like I do now. I was oblivious and hopeful. Now there's only an echo of ancient laughter in these messy rooms.

This is a house with depression. I'm depressed too.

But even so, there remains a ripple of hope and light within these withered walls.

[allchristianblog]

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[cazort]

It's been a long time since I posted a selfie and I wanted my followers to be able to see my face! I have been wanting to post more selfies again but have only gotten around to it just now.

Also you get to see one of my favorite striped shirts!

And I am so proud of myself, I've been organizing my room, getting rid of unnecessary material possessions, and my closet looks a lot less chaotic than it did a couple months ago. Being more organized helps me to feel better especially when I'm at home in a neater, cleaner space.

[brettesims]

Mindfulness Lesson: Message

Written: 2.1.10

I have come so far, learned so much and I've transformed into such an amazing woman. I just need to figure out how to express what I have learned and find a cohesive, inspirational, and powerful way to get my lessons across to others, teach others, and bring about consciousness in a profound way. 

I don't want to be trite, redundant or rehearsed, I don't wish to be fake or unoriginal. I want to express messages that come from my heart. 

Messages that don't teach people explicitly "right" or "wrong": as, I am not perfect or a professor lol. 

I just want to express things that make me feel loved, humbled, honored, inspired and whole. 

In turn I hope others are able to feel that same vibration. 

JOIN MY PATREON FOR MORE:

[lovely-bloomy]

things I did this week instead of rotting in bed

this week I’m better about my major depressive phase, I’d say I’m not even depressed at all (thanks, meds + therapy) so I did less stuff, but better ones.

I started my mandarin chinese learning journey (currently still learning about the logic of mandarin + pīnyīn, but progress is progress);

I dyed my hair, so new look!!

I cleaned my aquarium so Filipino and Gigi can also have a good time around;

I spent good solitude quality time playing Cult of the Lamb + Melatonin (best rhythm game!!) on my Nintendo Switch out of my bed;

I spent tons of time out of bed, actually. I didn’t leave my house much, but I managed to stayed away from my bedroom for longs periods of time;

I worked from home even with a psychiatrist report (and realized, again, that it’s better than going to the office, although I miss my coworkers);

I journaled a lot and understood better my emotions;

I walked 4km in this morning!!

[tasbehavioralhealth]

The stigma attached to depression is a significant barrier that prevents many individuals from seeking the help they need. At TAS BEHAVIORAL HEALTH, we are dedicated to breaking down these barriers and changing the narrative around mental health care. Understanding and addressing the stigma of depression is crucial in creating a supportive environment where individuals feel safe to seek treatment.

[touchpointpress]

Exploring the Depths: Navigating Depression in the Artistic Realm

Depression is a silent visitor that can touch the lives of individuals across various professions, including artists and writers. The creative journey, often romanticized for its passion and expression, can also be marked by the shadows of mental health struggles. Artists and writers, driven by a heightened sensitivity to the world around them, may find themselves particularly susceptible to the…

[harmonyhealinghub]

Healing from Depression: A Journey Towards Mental Well-Being

Shaina Tranquilino

January 14, 2024

Depression is a complex and debilitating mental health condition that affects millions of individuals worldwide. If you are reading this, chances are you or someone you know has experienced the darkness it brings. While healing from depression may seem like an uphill battle, it's important to remember that recovery is possible. In this blog post, we will explore some practical strategies that can help you embark on your journey towards healing.

1. Seek Professional Help: The first step towards healing from depression is reaching out for professional assistance. Consult with a mental health professional such as a therapist or psychiatrist who can provide an accurate diagnosis and develop an appropriate treatment plan tailored specifically to your needs. Therapy sessions and prescribed medication can be instrumental in managing depressive symptoms effectively.

2. Build a Supportive Network: Surrounding yourself with understanding and supportive individuals can make a significant difference in your healing process. Reach out to friends, family members, or support groups who can provide empathy, reassurance, and encouragement on your path to recovery. Remember, you do not have to face depression alone.

3. Engage in Self-Care Activities: Engaging in self-care activities is crucial when overcoming depression. Focus on nurturing both your physical and mental well-being by incorporating activities such as regular exercise, adequate sleep, balanced nutrition, mindfulness practices (meditation or deep breathing exercises), and engaging hobbies into your routine. Prioritizing self-care helps create positive routines and fosters a sense of control over one's life.

4. Challenge Negative Thoughts: Depression often feeds off negative thoughts and distorted perceptions about oneself and the world around us. Learning to recognize these patterns of negative thinking is essential for healing. Practice replacing negative self-talk with more realistic and positive affirmations. Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) techniques taught by professionals can assist in reframing negative thoughts into healthier perspectives.

5. Set Realistic Goals: Depression can make even the simplest tasks feel overwhelming. Setting realistic goals and breaking them down into smaller, achievable steps can help regain a sense of purpose and accomplishment. Celebrate each milestone reached, no matter how small it may seem. Remember, progress is not always linear, so be patient with yourself.

6. Cultivate Healthy Coping Mechanisms: Developing healthy coping mechanisms to manage stress and emotional distress is vital when healing from depression. Explore different techniques such as journaling, practicing gratitude, engaging in creative outlets (art or music), spending time in nature, or seeking support through therapeutic activities like yoga or mindfulness-based practices.

7. Practice Self-Compassion: Be kind to yourself throughout your journey towards healing from depression. Acknowledge that recovery takes time and effort. Embrace self-compassion by accepting setbacks as part of the process without judgment or criticism. Treat yourself with patience, understanding, and love.

Healing from depression requires dedication, perseverance, and a wholehearted commitment to your well-being. While the road ahead may sometimes seem challenging, remember that you are never alone in this battle. Reach out for professional help and build a strong support network around you. Utilize various self-care strategies and coping mechanisms while cultivating self-compassion along the way. With time and consistent effort, you will gradually heal and rediscover the joy that life has to offer once again.

[dancerdarling]

Let's start with something easy. Baby steps, right?

When we wake up in the morning, we're going to take five big deep breaths. Then we're going to drink eight ounces of water. It might be hard at first: we're going to have to train ourselves.

This is going to be the first part of our soon-to-be morning routine.

It's hard to build a routine. Sometimes people crash harder when they try to fix everything all at once. So take some breaths and drink your water. Here soon it's going to feel pretty refreshing.

Have a good day, little daisies.