#pstd

[orbee-paws]

shoutout to regressors who:

have facial hair

have body hair

are men or masculine-aligned

regress to a teen or younger adult

arent “aesthetic”

dont fit beauty standards

cant or dont have gear

experience intrusive thoughts

dont like to be touched

cant form words when regressed

cant form words when big

experience flashbacks when regressed

regress to give themselves the past they never had

have dermatillomania or other compulsive disorders

experience joint pain

i see you, you are loved, you are as important as any other regressor. you deserve to express your regression and feel safe.

[starwilliams]

my opinion on the portrayal of the PTSD representation in tlou- as someone who is diagnosed with ptsd.

trigger warning: ptsd, talks of mental health and traumatic events.

i personally think TLOU did a really good job with this. specifically what we would call a ‘ptsd attack’ during the farm.

some triggers can involve loud noises or sudden crashes (like the shovel and barn door) and in my experience, i am transported back to the traumatic experience like it is real. and im living it again, even with some details changing, like how ellie invisioned joel calling out for her, which did not really happen.

i also know there is a scene in the remastered with a boar i believe, and ellie is crawling through a tunnel and sees a skull or something and sees joel? (DO NOTTT quote me on this, as i genuinely am not sure.) but that is also realistic. my trauma involved a corpse of someone i love, and that image can pop up at any time, and it is scary!

i know many people view these scenes as things to make the game more emotional, and even scary. but these things. (even if exaggerated in game) are infact real.

again, yes. i think everybody in the tlou universe no question has trauma of their own. but pstd is different, and shows clearly in ellie. especially during seattle and afterwards.

ellie faced trauma all her life, and losing the man who helped her look past her trauma, was the biggest trauma of all, and she had nobody to stop her.

this theatre scene.

ellie shows vulnerability to dina for the first time since leaving for seattle, dina was ellie’s only real ‘clutch’ at this point. and learning of dina’s pregnancy and jesse’s arrival, wondering if maybe they will be back together, or even head back to jackson with eachother.

everything was so uncertain, ellie thought all she had to do was get revenge and take down all who were present at joel’s murder, but she began to realise it was no longer that easy.

ellie realises how far she’s gone, with torturing nora. and even seems to get maybe nauseous thinking about it? (in left pic, idk. my interpretation.) like how in the first game, ellie exclaims she feels sick after shooting a man.

being unable to draw/do justice to joel’s eyes.

there’s many different interpretations as to why ellie crossed out joel’s eyes, and tried them over and over again.

perhaps she felt she couldn’t get them right?

couldn’t do justice?

or perhaps she couldn’t look at his face, features and all without remembering it being bloodied and battered.

i still struggle to remember my loved ones face after seeing their corpse, and it took a while for the grief and trauma to heal until i remembered them in other ways too.

ellie leaving the place we would deem most peaceful.

even after some form of healing and time, ellie still struggled dearly at the farm. and once tommy had come back to remind her ‘her job was not over’ she felt guilty for feeling even a tinge of contentment in life, without getting joel justice.

het wearing and smelling joel’s jacket, wearing it as she leaves, ready to go on a suicide mission, that would either bring joel justice, or get killed along the way, which maybe she wouldn’t mind so much.

she left her home and family in hopes the voices and memories in her head would finally go quiet.

maybe she resented herself for not being able to move on, like she imagined dina was.

ellie also wrote in her notebook about a noose.

ellie’s acceptance.

as we all saw, ellie knew not to even hope for dina or jj at the house (maybe they reunited before this, maybe not. but this applies either way), she left joel’s guitar behind. she had realised at the beach trauma won’t heal from violence, and chasing after a cure.

sometimes even the happy memories have to be left in the past.

um guys i hope this is okay! likes and reblogs ect would be so appreciated! i wish i mentioned more of ellie’s trauma from p1, maybe another day :)

[666vortex666]

no peace..

[hfuhthfurhhbh]

Ragatha PSTD

I’m pretty sure that Ragatha has PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder); in fact, I did some research and found that Ragatha’s behavior is very similar to the symptoms of this mental illness.

What is PTSD?

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a mental health condition that can develop after experiencing or witnessing a traumatic event. This might include violence, accidents, life-threatening situations, or experiences that cause intense emotional pain

How This Relates to Ragatha

In The Amazing Digital Circus, Ragatha may show signs that resemble PTSD:

Traumatizing environment: The Digital Circus is a surreal and often hostile space where characters are trapped without understanding why. Being stuck in an uncontrollable and chaotic place like that could be traumatic in itself.

Hypervigilance and forced positivity: Ragatha often appears tense or overly cheerful, as if she’s forcing herself to stay positive to avoid breaking down. This can be seen as a coping mechanism – a way to manage the stress she’s constantly under.

Avoidance of pain: Instead of addressing the unsettling reality around her, Ragatha might be focusing on small distractions or routines to avoid confronting her emotional distress – another possible sign of trauma.

Implied past trauma: The show hints that each character had a life before entering the Digital Circus. It’s possible that Ragatha experienced trauma in the real world that still affects her even in this strange new reality.

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

tw bullying

suspected npd + ptsd + low self esteem culture is getting just a little bit more confident in yourself and then being a little more comfortable with asking people to do or not do xyz because you have a good reason. then being told "you just have to be the center of attention" and having flashbacks to grade school where your "friends" beat you black and blue for that reason.

but uh oh, my other biggest narc trait is that i self sacrifice for attention. you're watching tv really loud? no, it's fine, i have a migraine but wtv. oh, you wanted to talk about this subject? it's extremely triggering for me, but go on ahead! ...why the fuck aren't you asking if im okay. do i actually have to let myself have a breakdown over this fucking shit? im not that weak. im not that pathetic. why wont you notice me.

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[your-local-depressed-fangirl]

according to a ptsd test my move to the us was highly traumatic

[baruque-ya]

Post-Traumatic Stress

Characters: Simon 'Ghost' Riley And König

Contains: PSTD, Post War Stress, Anguish, (Maybe trigger in some??)

Simon 'Ghost' Riley

Ghost has been her husband for three years, after serving in the army for years, Simon finally retired from everything, so no wars/missions or only staying home for three days and then going back to business, he was free! Well, at least physically.

After a few months with Simon being more present in your life, you noticed that sometimes he behaved strangely, such as: looking around or at people suspiciously every time he left the house, not liking to use headphones or listen to very loud music, watching TV at a very low volume that was very difficult to hear, getting tense when hearing certain words of yours and not liking sleeping in a dark, locked room alone.

Today was another normal weekend at your house, you were getting ready to make some snacks for the two of you to eat while watching some comedy movie, Simon was slowly going downstairs while you took the frozen snacks out of the package, you So you put it on to fry and when you went to pick up the iron spoon to stir the oil, you accidentally hit your hand and dropped it on the floor making a very loud noise.

"Shit!" You whisper and bend down picking it up, when you get up you see Simon standing staring at the ground with his face contorted as if in pain, both of his hands clenched into fists tightly, making his knuckles turn white.

"Love?" You called and the man grunted with his eyes still closed.

You then slowly approached him.

"Simon? Honey, are you okay? Are you..." You then locked in place as you realized what was happening, once again he was having a panic attack, what made this happen? damn, probably the noise

Loud that spoon made! he has become quite sensitive to any kind of very loud sounds since he came back.

"Simon, my love...it's okay, it was just the spoon that I dropped, I'm sorry..." You said and came close touching his arm, as you did so, Simon opened his eyes and grabbed your shoulders, pushing you towards him. the wall while breathing heavily.

"Hide!" He said in a low but authoritative voice.

"What?" You asked confused and he said it again.

"Hide, the Russians are...." He stopped talking as he looked around, the blonde looked at the room

Illuminated by the sun and with the calm environment, the man then sighed.

"Y/n?" The man called in a whisper as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Come here Simon, everything's okay now, okay?" You whispered and hugged the man tightly who cried lightly on his shoulder.

"I thought they were here, they were going to kill you-"

"Shh Simon, it's okay, there's no one...it's just you and me, it's okay now." You spoke, stroking the hair of the man who was hugging you tightly and shaking his shoulders slightly.

"Thank you..." He whispered, regulating his breathing.

"There's no need to thank you, Simon, I love you, okay? It's okay now" You murmured, caressing the back of the taller man's head.

König

König had retired and stopped serving in the army and KorTac at the age of 38, he finally returned home to the arms of his wife and baby.

König was always very sweet to you, since the age of 22 he hasn't changed anything, he was just cold sometimes without realizing it, but he quickly apologized, when he was serving in the army, whenever he was very soft-hearted they caught his attention, So the training was hard and he had to contain his emotions, but to his happiness König knew how to differentiate the army from his own family, so whenever he came to visit you he treated you and the baby sweetly, he is simply a great husband.

But for a few months now, you see that König was physically affected by any kind of thing, such as: You waking up in the morning and seeing him looking at you suspiciously and with a serious face, he only "returned to normal" when you spoke with him and he heard your voice, He was a very light sleeper and was very defensive, like the day you went to wake him up for dinner, when you approached the sofa and reached out your hand to stroke his shoulder König woke up instantly and slapped your hand, you looked at him confused...you didn't feel any pain after all it wasn't that strong, and he apologized right after.

Well, on this particular night, you were going to stay late at work and only return in the early hours of the morning, and when it was finally time for you to leave the place... you walked calmly through the streets, it was quite cold in Austria and you weren't so used to it.

When you got home, you turned the doorknob and saw that it was locked, shrugging your shoulders without really caring, you searched your bag and found the spare key, you then hummed a happy little song as you turned the key in the lock.

When you opened the door you left your heels on the carpet next to you and walked down the corridor in just socks, making your steps almost silent, when you arrived in the living room you looked ahead and your body shook quickly with fright, it was König standing holding your baby son with one arm, he slept peacefully, but when he looked at König..... his look was different, his eyes were wide and he was wearing the hood he wore in the barracks.

You were going to say something but you froze when you heard the sound of a gun being cocked, you ran your fingers along the wall to find the switch, and when it turned on... you saw König pointing a gun at you, he was breathing almost heavily while the baby slept peacefully on his left arm.

"Liebling? (Dear?)" You said in a whisper, the man took light steps towards you and you walked away raising your hands in surrender.

"Wie bist du hier reingekommen?" (How did you get in here?)

"König, it's me, y/n...your wife, please...put it down" You spoke in a low voice as you raised your hands in the air, maybe then he would lower it.

The man's light blue eyes were dark...too dark, he approached and you took a few steps back, hitting your back against the wall.

"Liebe (Love) it's me, y/n, you're at home...ok? it's okay, you have your son in your arms...you don't serve in the army anymore, so put it down" You said firmly and He furrowed his eyebrows and pointed to the sofa

"Hinsetzen (Sit)" He ordered with a firm voice.

You sat down on the couch slowly and he pointed the gun at you, you closed your watery eyes.

"Mein Gott, bitte (My God, please...)" You murmured, until the gun fell into your lap, you opened your eyes and saw König with his hand empty, the pistol in your lap and his eyes wide. .

The man then started to fall back and you quickly got up, taking the baby from his arms, he then fell to the ground with a loud thud, breathing erratically and coughing a lot, he placed his hand on his chest almost as if he was in pain.

"You placed the baby on the couch who had woken up and was looking at you confused, and then you went to König, removing his hood and holding his face.

"König? König.....it's me, shh, breathe mein schatz (my dear)" The man looked at you with watery eyes and thin tears fell in the corners of his eyes.

"Y/n...?" He called as he held your hand and closed his eyes.

"Shh love, focus on breathing..." You said and he sat up breathing softly now, you then took the baby in your arms again and got close to König.

"You're home love, look at our son Hmm? Isn't he beautiful?"

"Yes....Yes he is, I'm sorry, for anything I did just now...I didn't realize, I swear-"

"It's okay, it's not your fault, I understand....let's take care of this together, okay? I love you..." You murmured, hugging him, the baby laughing happily between the two of you.

"Ich liebe dich auch (I love you too)."

I hope this one turned out good 🤏😞🫂

[viniknp]

i hate having cpstd like you could see me in a good mood and then the next day u see me look so dumbfounded when I got my daily 10 or more flashbacks 😭😭🙏🏾

[starlynowo]

I forgot to post this one!!I did a drawing of that one scene from a word reflected brighty fanfic in chapter 3,and yes I know,poor canon!henry :(

Henry design belongs to @doodledrawsthings

I hope @katastrophenearu sees this one too :D

[glbtrx]

But on balance war is an endless succession of follies. - C. Paolini, Inheritance

[pnwnativeplants]

Please link to a study where they learned insects can get PTSD! That sounds fascinating.

The study is paywalled most likely but you can read about it here.

[foxyslittlegarden]

[veenomorph]

Brought my service dog out to see wicked tonight. Turns out that he’s a HUGE fan of musicals. Stayed awake and watching the WHOLE time 😭❤️

Also, I know the story is ancient but I’ve avoided spoilers so far so please leave spoilers for part two away from me 😅😂

[sapphire-sans]

Y'all, I gotta write a personal narrative, but I'm lacking motivation 😭😭

I'm writing about my PSTD from my parents heehee

I'm probs gonna get in trouble with CPS...

[samstellarr]

having ptsd is repetitively calling your other parent’s name at random times throughout the day to make sure they didn’t abandon you too

[clowncarfullofrats]

There should be such things as reverse flashbacks. Where you suddenly remember something good happening for you and it loops in your head for an hour