#ramcoa

[ben-marco]

It is okay to mourn the child that you were, or the child that you could have been. It is okay to be sad or angry that no one protected you like you should have been protected. It is okay to grieve.

[neoglowratz]

friendly reminder RAMCOA is real and exists. there are plenty of systems out there who have suffered this abuse and live their lives with the consequences.

i just think people need to remember them sometimes because they deserve to be acknowledged and feel seen too.

[ramblesofakio]

If you don’t believe RAMCOA/TBMC is a genuine thing, please block me

I’m tired of seeing people post about how “it doesn’t exist” and say that “ramcoa doesn’t exist but the trauma does.” It’s irritating to be told what I went through doesn’t exist and does exist at the same time.

It’s important to hear survivors and to be able to understand that this shit happens and still does. Cults, trafficking rings, etc. they all happen. Just because you think that someone can’t force a system doesn’t mean it’s not possible. Do you know how much trauma that someone faces within shit like that? How easy it is for someone to see that there’s so much dissociation and use it against them?

I’m tired of so many people thinking that ramcoa survivors aren’t real. We are, we exist.

If you don’t believe it, please block me.

[thecorvidforest]

sometimes DID is screaming crying hellish agony and sometimes it’s trying to figure out WHO THE FUCK DOWNLOADED 117 PICTURES OF SHARKS ON OUR PHONE

[many-but-one]

Satanic Panic, The False Memory Foundation’s Shaky Origins, and Why You Should Believe RAMCOA Survivors

(TW: mentions of RAMCOA, False Memory Foundation, child torture & death, cults, trafficking)

Pretty disappointed to see a fairly popular and well known blog on tumblr is encouraging the idea that RAMCOA doesn’t exist. Just came across this post and was pretty bummed to see the comments too.

For those that agree with them (most of my followers won’t but who knows who will stumble across this), please know that RAMCOA has been going on for much longer than the Satanic Panic. The Satanic Panic was fabricated in an effort to discredit RAMCOA survivors. It was supported by the False Memory Foundation, which was created by a man (and his wife) trying to prove his daughter’s repressed memories of trauma involving him did not really happen. [Explained further in the third article further down in this post]

For the record, false memory/planting false memories has been disproven, it’s not possible to fully plant false memories in patients. Some memories can be altered to an extent because memories can be disjointed and influence from others can cause memories to shift slightly, which is why it’s not encouraged for trauma patients to share exact detailed memories with each other. For example, if two trauma patients were abused by their father and had a similar situation happen and patient A spoke about their experience in detail, if both fathers wore glasses and patient A describes their father to have black rimmed glasses, patient B’s memory might shift to believe that their father also had black rimmed glasses, even though his glasses were gold rimmed. However, it’s not possible to fully plant memories that do not exist in a patient’s memory. The “base memory” so to speak has to be there in order for any alterations to occur, and those alterations that are possible are often rather minuscule, such as glasses or whether or not their abuser had facial hair or not, or the color of the person’s eyes. Not an entire scene of RA. [Again, explained well by the third article below.]

Repressed memory has been proven to exist. (Though it’s more accurately called dissociated memories by clinicians) It can even exist in people who have traumas that happen in adulthood. Pieces of a traumatic event may go missing in a patient’s working memory, and they may not retrieve it until they are ready to process the memory and all the emotions and information that comes with it. However, it still exists stored in the brain, just in a different area than working memory. It’s why triggers to the traumatic event (that the patient may not even realize are triggers until they occur) can cause flashbacks and memory resurfacing during said flashbacks.

Some sources explaining the False Memory Foundation and the harm they’ve caused: [a good overview of a woman who was major in the development of the idea of repressed memory being a myth, by a researcher of child psychiatry], [while this is a psychology today article, I think this explains well how misused the idea of FMS - false memory syndrome - is.] [A comprehensive article explaining the roots of the FMF and how the studies used to “prove” false memory are terrible and easily debunked, with several assertions from professionals in the field.] I want to add that while the FMF has dissolved and rightfully so, the British False Memory Society is still alive and well, as well as the Satanic Temple’s Grey Faction, and both groups still cite False Memory Syndrome as being real and claim that RAMCOA survivors have false memories of their abuse.

However, before Satanic Panic happened, people were starting to actually believe in the existence of RAMCOA and the concept of DID was brought into the mainstream. A survivor on tiktok has a very good video on this situation. And that scared people, especially the abusers themselves who didn’t want to get caught. That’s when the False Memory Foundation stepped in on the heels of Satanic Panic and literally rewrote the textbooks therapists learned from, and basically taught everyone that repressed memory doesn’t exist. Any therapists that spoke about their patients’ experiences with RAMCOA were sued. Therapists stopped wanting to treat RAMCOA patients for fear of being sued and/or losing their license or being told they planted these memories in their patients’ heads and possibly losing their licenses. It led to generations of old therapists not treating RAMCOA patients and generations of new therapists learning it doesn’t exist.

But it does exist. To outright deny that child torture cannot exist is absurd. 1-2% of reported child abuse falls under the definition of child torture. [source, TW: photos of children with serious injuries from torture included on page 7 of this document] For the record, my abuse was never and has never been reported, and most survivors—RAMCOA and non-RAMCOA, whose trauma falls under the definition of torture—never reported or plan to report.

Even if you find the mind control aspect to be far-fetched, ritual abuse most certainly does exist. I’ve seen videos on the surface web on fucking tiktok of all places of child torture and ritual abuse. Organized abuse such as sex trafficking and labor trafficking does exist. Two out of those three things in the acronym are well documented to exist. And for the record, ritual abuse and cult abuse even in adults can cause extreme mind and identity alteration, upwards to the point of nearly being mind control. Look up OSDD-2 in the DSM-V. Look up just about any cult survivors testimonies and hear how they talk about how they nearly became a different person within their cult, how the cult uses torture and mind altering drugs to get their initiates to commit terrible acts of violence to each other. Now imagine if that same stuff were happening to a child whose mind is significantly easier to mold and change. Even if the child RAMCOA survivor does not develop DID, it can cause extreme conditioned responses in which the child (or now grown adult or teen) will still do the responses even now because as a child they were threatened with torture or death if they didn’t do it.

Mind control is essentially an extreme form of conditioning, and with the plethoras of research on DID and how it functions, it’s not even a difficult concept to grasp that a cult member might learn how to split new alters in a child via torture and then manipulate those alters to do what they want individually. Anyone who knows fuck all about DID knows that alters can be triggered out via positive and negative triggers. All mind control programming is, is creating a specific trigger for a specific alter and then when that child is exposed to that trigger, that alter comes out and does the task it was taught to do—usually via torture, manipulation, and threats of harm to the child or those the child loves. It’s not a difficult concept to grasp, and with how long TBMC (torture based mind control) programmers have had to perfect their work, it’s no surprise that they’ve learned how to make alters do extremely complex tasks or hold onto specific functions, always at the ready for their specific trigger.

RAMCOA research doesn’t exist in mainstream spaces because it’s nearly impossible to be taken seriously because of people who claim it doesn’t exist when it’s not even a complex topic to understand. They just don’t want to accept that it exists. The concept is terrifying, harrowing, and at some times almost absurd—and that combination makes it easier for people to put their blinders up and decide it doesn’t exist. [Edited to add: On top of this, what little research is done on it is steeped in conspiracy theories that often have roots in antisemitism. While I’ve asserted that Miller’s deprogramming books are good reads for RAMCOA survivors, she does often sound conspiratorial, and quotes Svali, a known antisemite. While I don’t think RAMCOA is exclusively related to the Illuminati stuff she often talks about, Miller’s work cannot be completely discounted because of her beliefs of where the abuse originated. Where it originates matters much less than the fact that it happens. However, not from dark, underground, secret societies—but from normal places like churches, children’s own homes (yes, RAMCOA can be done by a single parent to a single child, it just may look different than say, a trafficking ring), trafficking rings, militaristic groups, political cults, etc. I wanted to put the above put there because I know someone is going to come at me and try to say the researchers who talk about it were conspiracy theorists. Yeah, they were. Maybe they were the only ones willing to talk openly about it because of the fact they’re conspiracy theorists? I don’t know. However, I think it should also be noted that just because the researchers sucked doesn’t mean the information taken from them isn’t useful when you weed out the conspiracy stuff. For example, a LOT of modern understanding of medicine was taken from Nazi and Japanese experiments during WWII. Arguably some of the worst doctors on earth. Do we discount everything we learned because they were horrible, evil, people? No. While those who studied RAMCOA went about it in shit ways, that doesn’t discount the information learned completely. Likewise, much of modern psych understanding came from roots that included incredibly unethical experiments that would never be allowed today. Do we throw out all of that info too? No, we don’t. I’m not saying that we shouldn’t hold these people accountable, I’m saying we cannot throw out all discussion of RAMCOA because the doctors who talked about it were shitty people.]

I wish I could decide it doesn’t exist. I have permanent scarring that proves what happened did happen. I have doctor’s visits that prove I am disabled because of the traumas I went through. I have a DID specialist who didn’t even know programming to our extent even existed before our parts started telling her what they went through and she heard it from our own mouth. She had to learn how to deprogram us on the fly because she’d never done so before. So fuck off with your “oh, RAMCOA patients only have RAMCOA because they’ve been influenced by their therapist to believe they do” bullshit.

I relive my traumas in flashbacks and nightmares daily. There have been periods in my healing process where I couldn’t leave the house without someone with me for months. I couldn’t hold a job for nearly a year. I didn’t know any of this happened to me until I was in my 20s. I thought my memory was just bad and the only parts of my childhood I remembered were little blips of good things, usually involving my parent that was not involved with the cult or memories with friends at school or when I was hanging out with my sports teammates. Living with this stuff is hell. You think I want to live with this stuff? If I could permanently erase it all from my memory forever I would. But I can’t. I don’t have that luxury.

It happened. And I’m not the only child it happened to, both in the area of my country I live in and in areas all over my country and the world. This is not an isolated phenomenon. It is more common than anyone tends to realize (though still rarer than most DID cases, thank fuck). I was lucky to survive. I survived because they wanted me to. I saw a lot of children, teens, and adults who were not as “lucky” as I was. If you won’t respect survivors and their stories, at least respect the ones who didn’t survive. They didn’t deserve their final moments to be so full of pain. All of the children in these groups deserved to be loved and cared for and treated with softness and compassion. So do adult survivors like me and many others.

If I could end on one thing, it would be to urge the doubters to have some fucking compassion and empathy for people who have been through things they cannot even begin to understand. My past feels like a nightmare I will never be able to escape. I cannot erase it. I can only try to heal from it. So heal I will do, and in the process I will continue to speak the truth of my experience as safely as I can.

You want proof it’s real? Survivors are your proof.

WE are the proof.

[Edit: changed some wording for clarification + added a section after rereading a couple hours later]

[Edit 2: I realized I said my abuse has never been reported, I meant my RAMCOA related abuse. Want to make that clear. I reported sexual abuse done by my church to CPS and nothing came of it. CPS actually wrongfully claimed that since they had no reports existing of that church harming kids they wouldn’t pursue it since it happened so long ago, when a cursory google search of said location shows they’ve been reported multiple times and all reports were dropped. Why, I’m not sure.]

[cultsurvivorsafe]

Cult survivors deserve peace. Cult survivors deserve safety. Cult survivors deserve happiness.

[pink-devolve]

RadQueer Blocklist

This is a long list of every radqueer account I could find under the basic RQ tags. If there’s an account that’s not on this list, please message me with the account name and I will add it.

Not every account on here is inherently extremely harmful. If a person called themself radqueer, I added them to the list. Some of this is based on opinion, like if a person says they’re anti-contact but is doing things the show otherwise, I tagged them as pro contact. And if a person doesn’t identify as trans-race/trans-disabled but is being a bigot, I tagged them as such.

Don’t harass anyone on this list. And for legal reasons, if I’m labeling someone as predatory, that is just an accusation.

List under cut

‼️- Predatory

🛑- Pro-C

⚠️- Trans-abuser

🔱- Trans-abused

☢️- Trans-disabled

🚫- Trans-race

❎- Rq, other

- Kangalpuppy, pro-c for everything, says minors, animals and d3ad ppl can consent ‼️🛑

- Radmutt, pro-c for everything, says minors, animals, and d3ad ppl can consent ‼️🛑

- Mommytransid, 25/yo dating a minor ‼️🛑⚠️

- Sootdazai, claims to abuse and “program” its partners. Claims to have r4p3d one of his partners ‼️🛑⚠️🔱🚫

- Here-4-vibez, pro-r4p3, pro-c, transCSA, claims to have “plural obsessive disorder” ‼️🛑⚠️🔱

- Arsynnotarson, pro-c zoo, makes posts about dating animals, transabused ‼️🛑🔱

- Hobiesbrokenguitar, pro-c zoo, trans-race ‼️🛑🚫

- Office-vampire, trans-abuser, talks about jacking off to trauma narratives, adult and asked young teenagers to send their trauma narratives ‼️🛑⚠️

- Shotamania, pro-c MAP, trans-abuser/harmful, says “they’re pro everything” ‼️🛑⚠️

- 88-arachnids-grip-88, threatened to send SH pics to someone in order to try and manipulate them, told someone how to kts, threatened to kill animals, “trans-groomer” ‼️🛑⚠️

- Lobotomizuki, dating Ciel, claims to be trans-abuser, trans-disabled, trans-r4p1st 🛑🔱☢️

- Paraluvs, transabused, posts self harm art on their page, pro-c, minor in kink 🛑🔱

- Predqueer, pro-c, complains about not knowing what programming is while talking about transramcoa. Coins terms🛑🔱

- Val-loves-rqs, trans-ramcoa/abused, pro-c 🛑🔱

- Radicalclues, trans-disabled, trans-race, trans-abused, adult para account that interacts with young teen para accounts, “”mirrored-contact”” 🛑🚫🔱☣️

- Deer-mageikan, pro-c 🛑

- Cakechaser, pro-contact, says all furries are zoos, compares being transgender to being transrace, trans-abused(asks people to abuse them) 🛑🔱🚫

- Transillusionisms, trans-abused/er, trans-ramcoa, pro-romantic contact zoo 🛑⚠️🔱

- Foliage-446, transdisabled, minor owned para acc, xeno-satanist🛑☢️

- Deucey-deuce, pro-c, trans-abused/er 🛑⚠️🔱

- Transhcdid, trans-abused/er, pro-c, claims transramcoa terms. Makes extremely offensive flags for said terms(like graphics depicting abuse) Transdisabled 🛑⚠️🔱☢️

- Jamesbuchananbarness, transn@z1, doesn’t state contact stance⚠️🚫☢️

- Ziziscampsite, trans-n@z1, has n@z1-fan art as their pfp, says they were a n@z1 in a past life ⚠️☢️🚫

- Bloodydelusional, trans-disabled, transabused/er, says they will coin anything and have no DNI ☢️⚠️🔱

- h0lyl0l1, transtbmc /other abuse, transdisabled, transrace, transabuser ⚠️🔱☢️🚫

- Toxicpilled, transabuser, transabused, trans-slave ⚠️🔱🚫

- Radumbrella, minor owned para acc, trans-race, trans-drugaddict, trans-cannibal, transabused ⚠️🔞🔱🚫☢️

Transramcoa, identifies as trans-ramcoa and creates terms centered around ramcoa. Usually the flags are extremely offensive, trans-race, trans-disabled ⚠️🚫🔱☢️

- Wwwjunocom, trans-disabled, trans-abusive, trans-sch001-sh00t3r ☢️⚠️

- Leyleypsychotic, “”fult””(faux cult) leader, trans-abused, trans-disabled ⚠️🔱☢️

- Transdhampir, trans-disabled, trans-abuser, trans-abused, coins RQ terms ⚠️☢️🔱

- Doctors-littlehelper, trans-harmed, trans-harmful ⚠️🔱

- Wocatana2, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Narcissistic-gremlin, co-owner of RQ server, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Toxic-debris, coins trans-abuse/r terms 🔱⚠️

- Alastor-my-love, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Luci-st4r, trans-abused, trans-abuser ⚠️🔱

- Abuserprince, says they’re complex-contact, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Rqplushie, “”fult”” leader, minor ran para acc, trans-race ⚠️🚫

- Dreamingchu2, trans-abused, trans-abuser, trans-plural, trans-race, trans-disabled (it goes on but I got lazy)⚠️🔱🚫☢️

- Trulycupid, racist, created a term called “winter-punk”, not trans-race afaik but they get the emoji 🚫

- Radiumqueer, claims gender=sex and therefore trans-race is just as valid as transgender 🚫

- Thatparablog, transrace 🚫

- Wadeystabs, trans-race, RQ 🚫

- Astrolective, RQ, trans-race 🚫

- Uwameshi, says being trans-race ””phobic”” is the same thing as being transphobic 🚫

- Mistymeow69, RQ, trans-race 🚫

- Anothertransidblog, trans-race 🚫

- Transrace, “trans-race activism blog” 🚫

- Tr4nsr4c14lj4p4n3s3g1rl, trans-race 🚫

- Transidveronica, trans-race 🚫

- 4ndr0m3da, trans-disabled, trans-race ☢️🚫

- Forgedesires, trans-disabled, trans-race ☢️🚫

- The-catwithin, trans-native, trans-disabled ☢️🚫

- Plushie-ina-big-sweater, trans-race, trans-disabled ☢️🚫

- Sqrmsh, trans-race and transdisabled ☢️🚫

- Brainlessspuppy, trans-disabled, coins terms ☢️

- Lucifer-radqueer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Loatheticbeast, transplural ☢️

- Hearts4romeii, transplural, talks graphically about how she wants to khs ☢️

- Littlemelonberry, trans-addict, supportive of abusive identities ☢️

- Iotaisradqueer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Radicalnpdisms, RQ, trans-disabled ☢️

- Thecodakkeeffectt, coins medically-unrecognized-disorders ☢️

- Radqueer-fanboy, transplural ☢️

- Emopack, trans-autistic ☢️

- Radqueerstars, trans-disabled ☢️

- Toxic-exes, trans-disabled ☢️

- Haventhing, trans-severesh, uses flags that have drawings of SH and blades ☢️

- Needygirlonline, trans-disabled, trans-plural ☢️

- Transx-mogai-cafe, coins terms, trans-disabled ☢️

- Lolinawinii, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transabled-archive, archives all “trans-abled” terms ☢️

- Snowlovesyourq, trans-autistic ☢️

- Transagestuffuwu, trans-disabled, cross-tags ☢️

- Gay-we1rdo, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transpluralunite, trans-plural, trans-disabled ☢️

- Toransuneko, trans-disabled ☢️

- Arctic-fox-queer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Maned-wolfe, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transshells, trans-disabled, term coiner ☢️

- Dyspunktional-raven, gets mad when people say autistic instead of cis-autistic(etc) ☢️

- E4t-fl3sh, trans-disabled, trans-autistic ☢️

- Wuskie-woof-meom, trans-disabled ☢️

- Cloudytransx, trans-didfaker(?), trans-disabled 🔱☢️

- Francislikeseverybeing, trans-disabled, trans-abused, trans-ramcoa 🔱☢️

- Adxmmu88xy, trans-autistic, trans-plural, trans-ch1lds3xw0rk3r 🔱☢️

- Radicallysoup, trans-ramcoa, trans-disabled, interacts with and reblogs posts made by predatory/abusive people, trans-plural🔱☢️

- Ur-local-goldfish, transabused, transdisabled, alt account of gorgeous-rq-girlies🔱☢️

- Transharmed, trans abused, term coiner, trans-disabled 🔱☢️

- Transharmedbutsillier, transharmed alt acc, posts nsfw trans-harmed stuff 🔱☢️

- Dwlliennwurse, uses a typing quirk without translations, coins terms, trans-abused, trans-autistic 🔱☢️

- Npdblythe, trans-hcdid 🔱☢️

- Rq-selfship-fun, trans-abused 🔱

- Radqueerdogboy, trans-abused 🔱

- Fish-of-fanqia, trans-abused, claims to be in a “”fult””(faux-cult) 🔱

- Rqcrimeboyz, trans-abused, RQ 🔱

- A-system-in-a-system, trans-abused, trans-ramcoa 🔱

- Radicalbunny, trans-abused, uses several transid labels for extreme abuse, uses stutter quirk without translations 🔱

- R4dqu33r-g1nny-w34sl3y, trans-abused, trans-programmed 🔱

- Maxrqstuff, trans-hcdid 🔱

- Voidformed, coins trans-harmed terms 🔱

- Catsang, transramcoa 🔱

Selfsanguinamory, catsangs alt acc 🔱

- Vivziequeer, talks about wanting to be used by people, RQ 🔱

- Wortha-prettypenny, coins radqueer labels ❎

- Colorsof-therainbow, wortha-prettypenny’s other acc ❎

- Xxbl00d-st4rxx, RQ, has requested that people send them trauma-dumps for fetish reasons ❎

- Radqueer-takes, just posts pro rad-queer discourse ❎

- Berrytasticdeer, RQ ❎

- Pricklymuffinzzzzz, RQ ❎

- Randobitchyasscoiningshite, RQ ❎

- Digitallyadored, RQ ❎

- Gorgeous-rq-girlies, RQ coining blog ❎

- Cr1ng3yl0z3r, RQ ❎

- Gnarpcotics, RQ ❎

- Waitercore, RQ ❎

- Radqueer-empire, blog for a radqueer discord server ❎

- Blissfuloverdose7, RQ ❎

- Varii-corvid, coins terms ❎

- Minecraftenthusiast2882, coins terms ❎

- Rotnik-tmblr, RQ ❎

- Incestoophilia, wrote an article on incest called “keeping it in the family” 31 y/o that consistently interacts with young teenagers ❎

- Rq-boxes, RQ ❎

- Radqueerfluff, RQ ❎

- Wayofthefunkmaster, RQ ❎

- Weirdness-is-good, wayofthefunkmasters alt acc ❎

- Thedigitalwave, compares antis to transphobes, RQ ❎

- Radqueerpfps, makes flag pfps ❎

- Rq-term-search, RQ ❎

- Gluestrawbz, coins terms ❎

- Animal-creature, RQ ❎

- Sleepyeepyvoidcat, uses paid ads to promote their account(I got one on my dashboard), RQ ❎

- Dexxxma, RQ, partner of radicalclues ❎

- Sincerestkisses, RQ ❎

- Little—beetle, RQ ❎

- Qu33rjude, RQ ❎

- Russetfur1128, RQ ❎

- Rinlencoins, coining account ❎

- Jesterrq, RQ ❎

- Honeydew-wecantwo, RQ ❎

- Hunter-fox, coins RQ terms ❎

- Gamezee420, RQ ❎

- Cherishyne, RQ ❎

- R0tsm4z3, RQ ❎

- Morachivist, coins trans-race terms, refuses to say their contact stance ❎

- Hellelaplace, RQ ❎

- Luckas-rockz, RQ ❎

- Rqheadcanons, headcanons characters as harmful labels ❎

- Curiouscattohours, RQ ❎

- Rainbowfam, RQ ❎

- Acidic-nebula-raincloud, RQ ❎

- Satanlovesradqueers, term coiner ❎

- Peppermint-bloodshed92, coins terms ❎

- Spookrq, RQ ❎

- Radqueer-headspace, makes RQ content and coins terms, “”complex-contact”” ❎

- Gearbox-dollhouse, calls themself a yandere, RQ ❎

- Gearbox-dolls, alt account for gearbox-dollhouse ❎

- Bloodydollies, nsfw RQ alt account for gearbox-dollhouse ❎

- Anyolovez, RQ ❎

- Pastel-golden, RQ ❎

- Transthehorrors, coins terms, RQ ❎

- Lostbhappy, owner of RQ discord server ❎

- Rqmoodboards, RQ ❎

- Alexidentitiescoiningblog, coins terms ❎

- Radicaalkirby, RQ ❎

- Rosiesdelights, coins terms, RQ ❎

- Userboxmachine, makes RQ userboxes ❎

- Yourlocaledgysnake, RQ ❎

- Ur-transx-favs, creates RQ headcanons ❎

- Radqueerstim, makes RQ stim boards ❎

- Freaksboards, RQ stimboard acc ❎

- Internalcondom, RQ ❎

- Antirq-blocklist, RQ ❎

- Yourfaveis-transid-coded, transid head canons ❎

- Transstimland, makes RQ stimboards ❎

- Princesse-du-rose, RQ ❎

- Fungus-ID, RQ, term coiner ❎

- Theradroom, RQ confessionals ❎

- Adamssafeheaven, RQ ❎

If you notice a mistake, dm me and I’ll fix it. And again if there is someone not on here that needs to be added, please dm me. Better yet, write a brief description of them and add the emojis.

Ik they’re probably going to throw a fit about this and out themselves. So I’ll update the list in a few days.

[ghxst-system]

shout out to programmed / ramcoa systems who...

- can never fully mentally mature

- were made to mature too young

- know and remember nothing or just snippets

- know and remember everything or most things

- can't currently access therapy for safety or personal reasons

- are currently in therapy

[ben-marco]

It's not "anti-recovery" to acknowledge your parts, to give them names and to figure out what feelings and memories they hold. You cannot heal without acknowledging your parts or communicating with them.

[starlitvases]

I really need people to understand that when I and other systems say, "I'm grateful for my system and I'm happy that I'm a system," it does not mean that we wanted to be systems.

I never wanted to go through horrific abuse to become a system. I never wanted to be programmed to be a system. I never wanted any of that. I wanted a happy and fulfilling childhood, but I didn't have that privilege. I never did.

My system is how I survived. It's how I was able to cope and actually live and breathe. I'd be dead without my system. Do I hate how we formed? Of course, I do. Do I hate my system? Not even in my dreams.

I'm allowed to be happy as a system, especially if it's what saved me. I'm allowed to be grateful that my system kept me alive and has allowed me to begin healing. I'm allowed to have happy moments. Don't misconstrue my words, and don't belittle anyone else who shares the same sentiment.

[just-a-dead-kid]

A note to anyone else who was forced to harm other victims of your abusers:

You aren't evil because of what they made you do. You aren't bad because you were made to do harm. You aren't irredeemable because of the things forced on you, even if that means someone else got hurt in the process. That harm is on the shoulders of the people that forced you to do those things, not you.

Forced perpetration doesn't make you a monster. It doesn't change anything about your worth. It doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. It's just another way to hurt you and convince you it was your own fault. It means absolutely nothing about who you are as a person.

You aren't bad even if part of you decided you enjoyed hurting people, you cope any way you can in a situation like that, there's nothing wrong with how you made it out alive.

Take care out there 💜 you deserve to heal from this, no matter what the bad thoughts tell you.

[thecorvidforest]

can i just say, it’s really gross how so much of the plural community (as well as doctors, therapists, and friends of systems) sincerely recommends hurting persecutors in order to make them stop persecuting. the amount of stories i’ve seen where systems are bragging about how they beat their persecutor/s into submission is disgusting. persecutors deserve to heal and to love and to be loved just as much as anyone.

[heavens-roses]

Octocon and RAMCOA survivors

pt: octocon and RAMCOA survivors

cw: RAMCOA, number names

Felt I should share this as I haven't really seen it talked about in system or RAMCOA spaces. When you use Octocon your parts will be attached numbers to each part based off who was created first. While it's likely due to how to code the easiest. it is important to remember that if you are a survivor who has parts who were forced to be called a number, are a survivor who was called a number collectively/bodily, forced to refer to others as numbers or has any trauma related to number names please tread carefully.

I know as a survivor it can be extremely scary not being able to control your name or having anxieties related to not being called your number too. Please know you are not forced to use Octocon just because other people are using it. If plural kit or simply plural work best for you than keep using them. You do not need to switch over and risk your own mental health. Being a survivor who was dehumanized to numbers is horrible and whether you decide to reclaim your trauma or are healing by moving away from it know your triggers are valid.

Know you are never alone in healing your trauma and note this post is for education. This is not to bash in the creators of Octocon nor is it to tell you how to feel about the app/bot. At the end of the day how you find support with yourself is for only you and your system to decide. With thet being said do not interact with this post if you are pro/neu-endo / believe in any form of "plurality" outside of being trauma based. If you are a questioning system, a cdd system who is syscourse unaligned or apathetic you are more than welcome to repost and interact.

[dirtyjorts]

I may post/reblog about being a system. And that’s not a bad thing. No, I’m not “faking” because I’m posting about it. No, I’m not bragging about my diagnosis or trauma. And no, I’m not doing this because I’m anti-recovery. I do it for myself, and for people who may relate.

[cultsurvivorsafe]

Cult survivors, you don't lack intelligence. You don't lack morality. Your abuse was and never will be your fault.

[ghosting-bats]

having religious trauma from the most boring of churches is such a unique experience. stained glass and high ceilings dont mean anything. but dingy basements and hotel bibles mean everything. my religious trauma (and i would assume a lot of others) isnt as pure as what is shown. its gross basements, hand-me-down bibles, wooden chairs that look like theyre at least 50 years old, vhs tapes and big box tvs, ugly carpet, and "god bless you" instead of i love you.