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It's never going to happen bc I don't have the skill or the determination or the simple understanding to actually do it but lately I've been thinking about potential video essays on...I'm not even sure. Autistic joy? Trans joy? The sheer unique joy of being me and of being a human who thinks and feels and how that's different but the same as so many other people. Like I'll legit start plotting out scripts in my head for how I would explain it to people (which I do alot for special interests and such but rarely to explain Myself) and a big part of me would love to just. Talk. About how it feels to be Me. But I'm also very unlikely to do that lol
#mentioned before but im super vibing with The Leftist Cooks rn#and part of why is how genuine they are and how much of themselves they share#and i would love to just...talk. about how and why i think and feel#but im doubtful theres a viewership for that and i wouldnt know where to begin#i do know some Film People partly through my sister helping found a communist socialist film collective when i wasnt looking???#shes also so fucking cool holy shit#but. idk. something i like the idea of but am very unlikely to actually do bc any result would be so rambling and incoherent#and i could never stand with other video essayists bc i dont have it in me to read and cite papers and sources#but...theres something there. something in the joy.#ive been gravitating towards peiple who talk about the joy in their marginalised experiene#bc it really speaks to me and i think its something we need more of#its one thing to present arguments against abelism or transphoboa or racism of what have you bevause its often so easily done#but there still isnt alot of well known people talking about the happyness and fulfilment they feel directly through being Different
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was hanging out with someone today and she was talking about how she would shoot the hawks and eagles if they went after her indoor/outdoor cat and i had to struggle to keep a straight face. there is an EASY fucking solution to this problem that doesn't involve killing federally protected wildlife OR your poor damn cat. who got in a fight last night and left fur all over the place.
#by hanging out with i mean she is the owner of the quarter horse mare that was here and she wanted me to come down when the farrier came?#the farrier is cool but he did give her some stupid fucking fearmongering pamphlet written by this idiot racist ~whistleblower~ about how#“They” (?) are going to be rationing peoples water and the dude is like blaming the local tribe for it....get the fuck over yourself buddy#the entire state is in a drought. disrespectfully. go fuck yourself#trump ass county for fucking real this is why i wanted to move to the next county over or at least the next town over in this county#like. not to dox myself but i live in thee bellwether county for presidential elections and these cunts are not voting blue let me tell you#it's all these retired fucking republicans!!!! god damn it there are so manyyyyyyyyy i don't know if i can do it guys#also i was talking to this woman about biking/hiking on the olympic discovery trail and she was like oh i've had some bad shit happen to me#on that trail and i'm like oh like what? and shes like#oh well one time this guy was living in the woods and i called the cops on him but they didn't care or do anything about it.#and instead of saying “why the fuck did you call the cops on somebody who wasn't even bothering you” and “what the fuck is your problem”#and “can't believe i'm saying this but the cop was actually the correct one in this situation” i had to be like oh huh :/#anyway literally nothing bad happened to her on the odt and people are kind of just heartless about homeless people#ALSO she was talking about when she was very sick on her recent trip to hawaii (...) and “not caring” about people worrying about her havin#covid like well actually the way you say that does reveal that you Do actually have a little dust bunny of shame about your shitty behavior#somewhere deep under the laminate tile of your soul and you fucking Know that's a shitty fucking way to act but youre doing it anyway. lol!#and this is such a very standard example of almost everyone i've met here. i'm going insane none of you have basic compassion or decency#for people you don't already care about. We Live In A Fucking Society WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT.#i have to stop bitching it's after midnight but this was my first real contact with another person for the last 12 days#(BECAUSE i fucking had covid and i was isolating like a normal person instead of being a dumb entitled fucking asshole about it)#and it was just soooo peppered with this selfish fucking libertarian nonsense the whole time it is SO frustrating holy shit#i have to be nice to this woman because she wants my help with her horse (who needs my help frankly) and she's lived here her whole life so#she has thee connections and has also offered to help me get a car which i can't tell how serious she is but we need to be on good terms#jesus christ. hey if anyone is reading this and you read the whole thing and you read my tag essays regularly we have to get legally marrie#you know too much. wedding in november#me
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ngl this is the first time in a long time that I’ve actually been excited for a new genshin nation update
#talk away ⌞🍵🍋 ⌝#I’m not even a capitano fan and I saw him#I friggin screamed#holy shit he’s so fucking cool#and mavuika’s flaming hair???#are you kidding me?? please let that be a part of her kit#I thought she was cool but I didn’t really feel like pulling for her#but if her hairs gonna on fire like it was in the trailer I ABSOLUTELY WILL#same with capitano#Also all the QOL updates and a yearly free five star???#yes please!!!!#don’t mess this up hoyoverse please#I know Inazuma like three years ago and it seems the writers have learned from their mistakes#but please#don’t make the same mistakes as was done in inazuma#where the story started out promising but took a huge nosedive#natlan#genshin impact#genshin 5.0#genshin 5.0 spoilers#genshin leaks#I guess#genshin impact 5.0#now all we have to do is wait
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hibike euphonium s3 ep 12 - HOLY SHIT
i was doing the "can i guess who's who" and from both narrative and sound editing and in-universe-vote perspective i was pretty sure kumiko was the second player so when rEINA PICKED THE FIRST-
#synco talks#hibike euphonium#i hope im not spamming a quiet tag sorry#that was a GOOD twist omg#i didnt see it coming but narratively it really does work. good job!#ok but “we all chose this team together” demonstrably false when half of them voted the other guy#also im obsessed with all the parallels going on all the time#i love parallels. parallels my beloved#wait yeah OF COURSE reina could recognize the sound wtf if even i could -#so im not surprised that she did know#but it is cool that the story is pretty good either way#'how would i not recognize your sound' AUGH screaming crying#HOLY SHIT NOT THE FINGERTIP PARALLEL AAAAAAAA#ok time to browse for the gifsets please gifmakers do your magic#why is this the prettiest thing ever#the vas are KILLING IT at their performance#oh THANK FUCK there's one more episode i wasn't sure if this was the season finale#what a good ep! what a good way of taking the story! 10/10#perhaps recency bias but honestly this might be my fave season yet. one story told very tightly#im so normal about this show augh#i wish this came out one year earlier so i would've actually bought merch at the little kyoto exhibit i saw#also - HOLY SHIT THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN IN THE ORIGINAL??#honestly narratively i do think this is a good change but oh mannn
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I recently decided to semi revive some of my crusty dusty splatoon ocs from when I was like 12, so here’s all of the goobers! Meet Cherry (she/her), Slosh (he/they), Egg (they/them), and Blast (she/they)
#keese draws#splatoon#splatoon oc#inkling#inkling oc#octoling#octoling oc#since they were from me being like 12 I. barely remember anything abt them.#I remember the most abt cherry and slosh but that basically amounts to their names and gender#the other two I only rember existing through vibes lol#anyways! I am never drawing splatoon weapons again! holy shit that fucking sucked!#on the bright side I got to mess around a bit with some hair style concepts I’ve been rotating in my head#also I’m still working on giving these guys an updated story but my basic idea is that they’re a professional tower control team that has#been facing some conflicts as of late due to them all getting old enough to start having aspirations outside of their team#cherry is from the domes but her parents left with her when she was around 10#blast went to the same school as her and the two became pretty close friends as selective mute buddies#then at some point cherry caught wind of this cool new sport called tower control and was like woahhh I wanna do that#so she just went up to the first person near the battle lobby she could find and was like hey how do I join?#and he got super excited since he has a reputation for being incapable of shutting up so someone willing coming up to him came as a shock#they showed her where to get weapons and how to join battles and the two became battle buddies real quick#this lead to blast getting super worried and anxious as she didn’t want to see her only friend get hurt or stolen from her#at which point cherry was like oh I know! why don’t you come battle with us?#and blast was like wait wait wait no what if I die and dont come back and then die again :[#they managed to come to a compromise for a while tho and eventually blast was able to just barely squish past her fear enough to start#being kind of interested in tower control as she had started watching the other two play#and while she was still anxious abt the idea eventually she sheepishly admitted she wanted to give it a try#and she ended up really liking it! so the three kept playing together#and eventually they started to feel more and more like an actual team and egg noticed#they had been scouting a team to join for a lil while now and after getting to play with the three quite a few times and getting on friendly#terms with them they were like hey what if we became like an actual team who do tournaments and stuff
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i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!
#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to#that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know#but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look#like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies#dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS#plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song#and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal#again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness.#plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like#yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more#OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit#love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning#im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY#i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy#but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like#emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness#its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool#addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic#but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english??????#people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys#this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like#the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth#but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me.....#a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd#i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying#about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement
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trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.
#my bf is a fucking rapist#i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow#and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour#and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but#the fact that i said ok after 10 no's?#and i was crying#i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me#and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot#he thinks rape is hot#and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries#which is true#but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries#the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries#he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder#he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes#and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries#he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door#which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong#and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble#not like cops here persecute rape anyways but#i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight#but holy shit#idk what to do...#i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip#im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow#when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night#misiabear rants
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I'm so glad that the tumblr side of the fandom seems to be catching up on the Randy-specific brainrot I seem to have slowly fallen into lol. I assume most people got here from That One Spiritworld Clip or from That One Halloween Costume 🤣 Here's what I've found so far in case others haven't:
Bandcamp has 2 songs, neither of which are on spotify. One is kind of a joke from spring 2020 telling motherfuckers to wash their hands (read the description and credits it's hilarious), the other is a cover of Cherry by Harry Styles (idk the original but I love his cover)
He doesn't seem to have any other solo music (unless you count covers on instagram) but he does have a public playlist of his discography. ...He used to have a lot more public playlists like his girlfriend's discography as well but I guess they aren't there anymore?? That's new
The other example i've found of his singing is when Dan Andriano and the Bygones does live shows, sometimes they cover Burnin For You by Blue Oyster Cult and he takes lead vocals on that (and seems to need the lyrics printed out in front of him lol)
The Moore Family Band's about section on spotify. Also their instagram is where at least one of those Marilyn Monroe costume photos came from. (I could've sworn I saw the color one somewhere before it started going around but I can't find it.) Also his little sister is bi and these photos are adorable :D They also have a little interview with some songs interspersed.
Get Married's song Jeezy Beach is hilarious because it calls out Randy specifically. He doesn't want to go to the beach he wants to watch tv (and honestly? Mood. Sand sucks- Anakin was right- and NorCal beaches are always cold.) (it's also funny for anyone who's done the drive down to Santa Cruz. it's a terrible drive fuck that lol.)
#the band ghost#unmasked ghouls#randy moore#phantom ghoul#aeon ghoul#please appreciate all my hyperlinks with ACTUAL FUCKING SOURCES#jesus fucking christ this fandom is so bad at sources lol#idk how or why i looked but i read the sibling band's about the day after Concord#then a few days later saw him mention the discography playlist on twitter#i was looking for all the ghouls on bandcamp a month ago for bandcamp friday so that's how i found that#also i did not find the youtube videos someone else is better at finding those and sent me a private playlist#also the bassist for both Get Married and the Bygones is someone named Kayla#i found her social media but it's all private :/ she seems cool though#i have nothing to say about Spiritworld other than the instrumentals are cool but the vocals are not for me#like what they're supposed to sound like is not my thing#and they sound really bad in all the live videos i saw#not in a not my thing kinda way but in a holy shit is that guys voice ok??? that's not what that's supposed to sound like kinda way
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kicking my feet and giggling (<- just got apologised to)
#guys i have worth??? im actually a human being deserving of basic respect and SHOULD be apologised to if i am not given that??? holy shit#ok but like i actually was pretty mad and i just wasn't going to talk to them when the weekend ended but to think they'd actually apologise#guys i am a friend worth apologising to omg this is so nice#(<- was fuming over how i was a “friend” not even worthy of her basic decency and respect an hour ago)#LIKE IM STILL MAD#okay i actually cant vaguepost to save my life but basically this girl whos a friend i recently got close to and formed a friendgroup with#shes really fucking whiny and ive been tolerating it for so long but on friday she was extremely whiny and rude whenever i just asked a#simple question#and it's really draining and humiliating to be spoken to like poop on the sidewalk in front of other people#but anyway other than that i was really upset because during pe i wanted to show her my hip injury cuz i thought it was funny#(it wasn't diagnosed yet i just felt my joints moving weirdly)#and like that involves her putting her hand on my hip#so i asked her to do that then she started whining about how she doesn't want to touch me and that i'm weird for asking ppl to touch me#then she started telling like the 3 other ppl around us i was weird and wanted ppl to touch me#then this other cool girl overheard and looked at us funny i guess cuz then the friend said 'haha now [cool girls name] is also laughing'#i was so fucking embarrassed and humiliated i still want to tear up thinking about it#like are you actually my friend wtf i don't even need enemies w a friend like you#i wanted to cry so bad then#ugh i hate it#like you couldve just said no thanks bro what is ur problem#this just made me realise how much i hate how she talks to me sometimes#and i know i need to stop surrounding myself with negative vibes in order to feel happy#but its still so frustrating#we were doing so well the other day and google meeting everyday#then this happened and then she got mad and started ignoring me on the way home#bro idk i hate ts i should just stop making friends#rant
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Wonder Woman #12
Variant Cover by Julian Totino Tedesco
#im in a hating on the sword + shield mood today but i like the gravity of this cover#shes going to war but its a solemn affair. she understands the consequences and what is about to happen and is saddened by the necessity#that calls for it#imo the best cover for this issue#like the fornés one looks cool as FUCK im not going to lie to you all. holy shit. but her not having the lasso there and instead having the#massive sword and shield unfortunately pisses me the fuck off. so i cant endorse it as diana. even though its fucking insane to look at.#hot damn.#the sampere cover looks rlly good this time too. its a simple fact that his art is always fire though even when the writing and events#depicted make me mad#at least the sampere cover has diana with her lasso in the absolute power suit UNLIKE SOME PPL (dan mora)#and uh the less we say abt the other covers the better. especially (mainly) the swimsuit one. bc what the fuck.#why are we doing swimsuit variants again and also diana doesnt even look good in it ugh#diana of themyscira#ignore the tags its mostly me complaining lets just talk abt how i like this cover#wonder woman#still feel the aversion to the sword/shield convo esp bc im in a mood abt comics atm but i like the gravitas#shes heading to battle but mourns that there needs to be one in the first place
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anyway Akira 1988 was fucking crazy. what do I do w my life now. weirdest part of it was i couldn't predict half the stuff that was about to happen- the blue kids, the baby toys, the lasers, the wires & goop, literally everything that happened to Kaori ?? kind of movie that makes you reach out for the characters as if that would save them and makes every death feel so shocking and unfair and undeserved y'know . maybe its just bc nearly all of the cast are kids or bc everyone seems so ordinary, or the time spent on the bg characters just really efficiently shows they're people too? IDK
#anyway the music! The backgrounds! THE MACHINERY!!??!?#clutching my head rolling on the floor#The animation also has a life & movement I don't see very often . I gotta watch the dub so I can take it in better#visually perfect movie#the way kaneda's mouths is animated specifically is so interesting and so different than the other stuff I've seen? idk how to describe it#talking tag#not done yet actually. I'm still kind of pissed about what happened to Kaori#Wait actually after reading about her manga counterpart I changed my mind . still fucked up though and for what😭#And the way Kei is a puppet for half the movie is a bit annoying. I was expecting her to be cool & strong n then she's not even#herself for the climax😔 I wish the viewer got to know her more or the possession had a bigger impact on her idk#anyway that was such a movie I NEED to watch it again . no wonder it's a classic holy shit
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i finally read the lyrics for "honkai world diva" and
#guys what the fuck alsdkfasdlkfahlk#ITS A BANGER SONG BUT THE LYRICS ARE SO SAD IN RESPECT TO MEI'S CHARACTER ARC DURING WHAT THE HELL#'the diva who gave into lament' girl ok what if i just melted and vanished from existence what the hell is this#I CAN HEAR THE VOICES OF THE PEOPLE I MISS IN THIS SONG#(SHAKING MEI) STOP IM GOING TO CRY HARDER#also found the live version of the song from the dream euphonia concert holy shit does the singers voice do it so well in live damn im-#'I WOULD TREMBLE JUST TO HOLD THEM ONCE MORE'#is2g when i go back to play honkai some more and we come back to world serpent mei im just going to start crying and wailing#im actually kinda surprised how mei jumped up to one of my fave as fast as she did#like good on her because her character arc is really good#but also Q _Q everytime i think about it i am filled with a neverending sadness :(#because its half MEI NOOOOOOOO STOP YOUR FRIENDS LOVE YOU#and half mei for the love of fUCK STOP GO BACK TO YOUR LOVED ONES#aggressive care#avil plays hi3#but on top of that#having honkai world diva be the basis of the bgm of kyoden makes me feel even more pain#LIKE i thought it was a cool reference at first#until i realized the lyrics of it and now im like 'oh. acheron alone. :('#rolls around in pain#if youre wondering where i am story wise in hi3 im in ch 20?? starting fu hua arc stuff#hsr.... i have........ put on hold. for reasons. :D
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Been going insane about Rem and Misa deathnotemusical since seeing it last night the were soooooo good
#easily the best singers in the show like holy shit#I LOVE WOMEN#AND REM'S OUTFIT? FUCKING AMAZING#love how you could see she was wearing white docs from where i was sat#she was yearning for misa so bad whenever they were both onstage#i also have some thoughts about the differences between this version and the demo album#i really love how they changed that one section of im ready it's a lot better#also there was A LOT of misa cosplayers in the crowd#that and L cosplayers#i was sat next to a very cool L cosplayer who came down from Germany to see this#it was such an experience#death note musical#death note the musical
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Can't wait to hear bigots screaming the braindead "they have a biological advantage in beauty competitions!!" argument again
#also she's so pretty holy shit#trans women#trans woman#trans women are beautiful#pro trans#trans#transgender#beauty competition#tw transphobia#i find that argument so fucking funny because it genuinely makes 0 sense#Marina Machete#that's her name#that's genuinely such a cool sounding name
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started reading wrath goddess sing recently and i LOVE the depictions of the gods as monstrous. athena the screech owl, the silent one, with the unblinking eyes of a bird and a mouth thats made to bite rather than speak. fuck i love that
#any media: the gods are great and terrible and any mortal who looks on them trembles in fear they are unapproachable and incomprehensible#me: sickos meme.jpg#levi.txt#i want to see poseidon. i want to see zeus i want to see what deane comes up with for the rest of them#ALSO holy fuck transfem achilles. congrats on the bottom surgery(? does it count as surgery if a god just kinda fixes your shit) queen#shes so cool and i hope everything works out for her :))))))))) and nothing bad happens#its also just a very pretty book. i like the cover and i barely have any yellow books
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loool hi you dont have to respond to this but i just wanted to answer ur questions in ur tags ^_^ i like to think its a small world and daniel and adam have bumped into each other kinda like amanda and he promoted wotg to daniel. so he checks it out but he kinda just goes for adam cuz i think they kinda become buddies after that. he was prob forced into getting merch by one of scotts bandmates tbh LOL. just fun to think about and then it makes it possible to think of apprentice adam and daniel interactions <delusionalism. but yeah loool i love making shit up about daniel hes so fun(heart hands emoji)
AH yeah thats totally the train of thought i was going down thinking daniel must have found out about them from a flier or soemthing.. Daniel being an honorary ‘sorry we killed your bastard cop dad’ member of the jigsaw squad is so fun to me esp in silly adam lives scenarios so i love that..
(sorry about the tag dump oops)
#amanda collecting emos 2 recruit because the other 2 accomplice guys there suck and are stuffy#daniel pov is so funny#daniel is nervous but the grungy dude who clocked him and gave him a flier seemed on the level so he sneaks out of his house and goes#2 the show w a friend. the music sucks but daniel thinks its sooo cool being around a bunch of degenerate young adults#maybe the dude (cough cough adam) who gave him the flier is in the corner not having any fun and when daniel goes to say hi he gives him#a shirt off the merch table#(queue adam getting yelled at and having to pay for the shirt or whatever)#all this and then months later he gets put in a jigsaw trap and his dad gets killed but the girl who probably killed him was kind of his#only friend in the jigsaw trap. and looked out for him the whole time and had her life ruined hardcore by his now dead dad#so hes pals w amanda even tho he probably feels super fucked up abt everything#he goes to the jigsaw lair w her because amanda is psuedo trying to recruit him but is making it more than obvious shes fucked up abt#doing any of this and is being super manipulated by the head serial killer guy but ehatever hes 17 and traumatized and wants to stick around#and holy shit the flier guy is there and apparently he was also in a jigsaw trap and is also very aware this is a cult#but he set up a wii so daniel takes turns playing guitar hero w adam and amanda#click#daniel
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