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#since some of yall need me to spell it out for ya
jude-thedude98 · 1 year
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I fold you I'm a lyricist
Ima start wit using the eeriest (lakes)
Thid my Pride Friendly Q&A so no jeed to get deliri9us about my Queeriest
Since ima poet
Ima use this keyboard clickin
As my Instruments
Laffy taffy strugglin
Serious
I stay in busy ness
But I don't ever forget
Yall rappers sound the same - all I hear is crinkle crinkle kid
Unfold yo mouths n stop talkin nonsense
Sex drugs and violence
How bout choose different options
Mushmouth talkin
Passin me off havin no bear necessities
In the Mirror Naked BaLOOnin
Feel like I gotta spell this out like Gwen Stefani did
But this ain't no spellin contest
Even if it was yall ain't hearin it
(Well) Ya better believe it bit
By bit I'm wood choppin this
Tree down but it ain't go in quiet
Title of this one is Forest of Pages
And somebody please tell me why the tree remembers the pain but the axe always forgets
Mm, I'm deep divin
These c's better 3's PO - Post Office Kid
Here's your food delivery with tip
No ding dong ditchin straight door dashin
I been called like a Mormon
So let this be my voice-mail answerin
I'll leave messages
Lyrical inclinations
Brain gamin
Fundamentalist
Gotta sweet Toth for some Eminems
But ima Skittlez kid
This rainbow I give you for free tastin
I got you wrappers usin my lines like I fundipped them
N that's right I spelled rappers wit incorrection
I would have spelled in proper tense
But three u's spells unsatisfaction (and that's an ass whippin)
Unless you flip them
Then it's a cursive m
You see how I swerve on them
I use homonyms
Like would flip the three u's then what you got old wit an m
That's mold. That means yalls rhymes is rotten
My Forest of Pages
These are my Woodlands
Lines so sharp I'm paper cuttin
But I ain't parkin linkin
But I do ride Lincoln
I'm Abe Honestin
These folk got amnesia senses
They became a lil independent
N forgot about the kid
That's child abandonment
But I'm kiddin n playin
Nah I'm lyin
I been Hypin 1988 since
Everyone seems to forget the establishment
April consumation
January baby out the womb in
To the world I'm settin
The foundation
I'm gon be Bob the Builder n Fix This Glitch
I'm talkin architectural draftin
Rebuildin
New alignments
Since a lines meant
To grow straight in
Stop the curbin
These entusiastics
Has caused drastics
Changes
Wit strangers
Will Robinson's in danger
I can feed a man fish but he won't exchange it
Fishin for powerlines like an att temp kid
I think I lost you no significance
Yall folk focusin
On bars but not rememberin
That's what they capture us jn
Oooh n I know that was whitey tighty cleanin
Under wherein
Do these lines come from? I got you limboin
N it's later than it is early so I'm limo stretchin
Provin points like Nemo, hope you can find it
But I'm missin?
Nah yall jus Coralin
That means you Miss in
This movie mission
Dead to me so go ahead n get the gettin
You invisible always callin
Everythin
Impossible visions
Don't happen without envisions
That means the dreams have to be workin
My girl Cocoa got me though like the temptations
N i'm tempted
To end it (all)
But not for me cause I only lyrically do the killin
But for you cents you already silent
But got pennies to say for my thoughts n I ain't price shift
Gears cause haters lookin
For lingerin
Well here's Victoria's secret
Too many people finger pointin
Uncle Sammin'
Pointless.
Oops I think you missed it
See these lines be wavin
Right over your craniums
I use letters like planes so I can get fly with
A trivia crack word high with
Oscillatin fan whisk
That's a princess bride hi grip
This that baseball uniform needs laundry detergent
Crowd tidal wavin
As I slide in
Home basement
To be used for hide and seekin
N since I'm a wordsmith
N I don't boast my confidence (enough)
I'm going to let these statements get foolish
Get stupid
Get ignit
Use my noodle pit
From my Eastside and my Westside connections
Drink grabbin
Ice cube in
My ice t since it's 6 in the mornin
I'll bring out my toolkit
Use the tools I'm cool wit
Tried to screwdriver me but I got my monkeywrench
If you don't know me by now I'm Mc hammer quick
Yall know yall can't touch this
I'm simply red lovin
I'm too sexy for this album I'm right said Fredin
Family Guyin
Couldn't catch these lines if you were Frank or Wes Welker in the Dolphins
Kermit the frog herein
Large egos like stewie's head and little balls like Peter griffin
But you dogs wanna a bonin?
Thinkin cause you speaking like Brian
You get the cool whip
But yall jus cool whipped
N when it comes to the appeal of whippin
You babyfaces be screamin no i dont do bdsmin
But thats cool tho I don't fool wit
Whippets
I only wip it out when it calls for progression
And that's a work in
Gutter bowlin
No strikin
Lines as magnetic as lighnin
Uneven slices
Mathematical dices
3.14159 is
Rhymes unendin
I got people pinin (for more)
Sayin please baby please give me one mo hittin
But I ain't no Ike n
Tina down the river rollin
Tho i know yall teenin for the classics
Like I'm DeVante, K-Ci, Joel, & Dalvin
I get so sick
Pf the same songs playin
I swear it's like the universe be all 4 one against this movement
I'm quite feverish
But even at 19 I knew I was covid
Rhymes so ill they the deadliest
Catchin bullets
Rush hour bloopin
Guess I gotta dumb it down n get the stoopin
Folks out here gettin
Caught by the same old Charlie Brown football (Lucy) smokin
I love - they thought I said loosely
But I'm usually
Not a cannon but this BlackOutProduction
Got me up in amazement
In the first revision
It was 4:30 somethin
N I can burn these fumes till the word count is empty
I'm gettin itchy
You buggers buggin me
But I guess it's true what they say isn't it
It's a bug's life so you should expect some stingin
But I'm floatin
Like a butter flyin
Smoother than a criminal an I ain't lyin
I may got the eye of the tiger but I got the roarin mane of a lion
Damn does it stink in here oh no wait that's jus my dragons breath - I'm spittin hot fire
Wired like a secret agent
Create Success Investigation
These criminal minds
Are lyrical ties
To dress you up n get ready for I's
I pledge allegiances
I do marry you death do us part tills
Stills in I's
Like I's solemnly swear that I am up to semicolons
No good riddance
From first to last
Again I am a lyricist
I will use my two arms to strum my pain with this stringed instrument
This kyre its jus
My Greek Day of recognitions
Oops my Green day
I'll be captain planet
Savin the earth will be one of my serenist moments
Altoid break in
Playin linemen tic tac toe in poundin offense
Hashtaggin defense
Somebody please wake me up when September ends
Cause you family guys are still wishin I loop a line for cool whip again
Please cool it now then
Make sure you call me the new Indiana Jones wit the cool whippin sense
Tomb raidin jt
Why is it people will sign their name next to an X for treasure huntin
But won't walk the plank to sign next to the X line of friendship
Diggin up artifacts that's ancient
Has your cookie dipped in yet?
I'm thick in the thinnin of LeBron James' hair ulignment
n if you already know that you can't have pie without cool whip
Why'd you make me flip it
I guess it's cause the u n on top of each other is in perfect alignment
On this track I'm racin
I'm only speakin one thing about equation
And that's The United Nations.
(Emphasis on the H'in)
Forest of Pages (Sounds of The Great Lakes)
By Mr. PoetAll
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THE CUTE BOY WITH CLOTHES TOO BIG
I don't see enough fanfics about neil and I just watch the movie a few days age, so... I'm gonna fix that
This is gonna be very self-indulgent but I hope ya enjoy it
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I walk down the street to this new movie rental store that one of my friends told me about. I want to see if they have a copy of The Texes Chainsaw Massacre, that movie has been a pain in my ass to find.
I stop a store called "GumShoe Video" I than look at the small piece of paper my friend gave me, than I look back up and walk inside. When I walk in I see two men, one had glasses and super gelled down hair, he was behind the register, the other man had floppy hair, bright blue eyes and clothes that looked way to big for him but, it's fine since he is really cute, he was standing in one of the rows of move tapes.
" Hey, mister could you help me, please?" I say in a sweet, childish tone while I shyly wave my hand. The guy with floppy hair looks up at me, his eyes wide open. " Yeah sure, what do ya need help finding?" He says his voice being deeper than I expected. I could feel my face heat up a bit, " Umm.. you would happen to have a copy of The Texas Chainsaw Massacre?" I say walking closer to him.
His face lights up a bit, " We actually do have that movie, it's in the horror/slashers section" he says pointing to the back right area. " Oh, thank you, sir" I say happy, finally I found a copy of this movie, I hadn't seen since I was 12 years old. As I walk to the section he pointed me to he says " umm, by the way name's Neil" I could tell he was flustered, by how he voice sounded, I smirk to myself, god I gotta get his number.
After some searching I found the movie, so I grab it and go to the register and the original guy has been replaced by Neil. " So, what's a pretty girl like you doing whating to find a slasher movie?" He says kinda hitting on me. " Oh,umm.. it a movie me and my dad watched when I was a kid and we wanted to see it again but, our original copy we hade won't work anymore, water damage, I think" I say, pulling out my ID card so he could make me a membership. " sorry I don't have a driver license" I say with an awkward smile " You're the second person to walk in here to day without a driver license, how do you get anywhere?" He says, raising an eyebrow in confusion, while leaning over counter in front of us.
"Driving is really scary for me" I say messing with my fingers "I also have friends with licenses" " Ok whatever you say" Neil says handing me the VHS case. "Oh before I go, the name's Nikki spelled with two K's and an I instead of a Y, ok, and can I get your number" I say very flirtatious. "Uuh.. s-sure" he says, taking out a little notepad and pen out from under the counter and wrote out his phone number, he that ripped it out and gave it to me. "I'll call you later, handsome" I say, winking at him, once i said that, his face became beet red. "Ok, I'll be waiting for that". I than turn and walk out the store. Now, I got my favorite childhood movie and a cute boy's number
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I may make a part 2 if yall want
I also couldn't think of a better title for this potential series
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sunflower-herald · 6 months
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Different practices and if I fuck with them pt.1
Hi, B here. I mentioned in my first post witch teachings and practices that I am interested in learning more of first. Just wanted to expand on that and say a word about other practices why they are not my priority or why i have no interest in them. Some of stuff here is influenced by my slavic upbringing and some are just from my life experience.
Deity work: Even though i was a greek mythology kid, i doubt this knowledge is enough to try and reach out to deity myself. There are many god pantheons that i need education on and... be morally prepared i guess??? If any entity will reach out to me first i ll, of course, accept that path and work with them. But soft no for now.
Hexes: Yall, my life is not exiting at all, i barely leave house so i have no enemies to practice my hexes on. Some people may say "we have plenty of bad people in the world to paint targets on" and i would say "ya". But i am a believer in recoil from hexes, so until i get confident and have appropriate protection - no attacks, only defence. Also i am quite a creature of impulse - if i to practise hexes and banes my junglers would be jinxed every ranked match i have in league.
Any "buff" spells: I fuck with that, ye. Attracting money, success, protection, a lil glamour magic never hurt anyone as far as i know. And those are spells without recoil so if i fuck them up the consequences will not be severe(i hope).
Love and romantic attraction spells: ye nah. Fucking with people's emotions and mind is very unethical. Also very high chance to fuck up the relationship. Only thing i am willing to practice is severing the bond and bane the person from your life. Nothing more. Also since i am ace and in successful and fruitful relationship (my gf is a badass yall) i dont need any of those spells anyway. And i dont think i will ever learn them.
Banes: some people equate them to hexes but leaving the house does not equal burning it down. Severing bonds with toxic and hurtful people in your life can and will be beneficial to you. Kinda not my priority, but i would like to learn more of banes in the future. Or just put that spell in the freezer :)
Crystals: they are neat, but i am not interested. Maybe i will get clear quartz or two when i have extra money, but i dont feel drawn to them. For me pebble from the sidewalk can be as potent as any semi-precious rock.
Infused oils: oh that stuff is good. STill need to learn more but they are quite useful in candle and jar spells so i hope to research more and actively use them in my practice.
Mirrors: nope. No mirror work in my house. I believe mirrors to be very powerful tool in divinations and hexes that can backfire super hard. Mirrors are portals to other side, the mirror that you use to look at yourself takes on your likeness, the print of your being. If something to happen during ritual or divination you will be at great risk of attracting harmful entities or corrupting yourself. It mostly stands from my slavic upbringing. We have rituals that use mirrors and, to be honest, risk does not worth the horror of failed spell or ritual. No, no, NO.
There are more stuff that i did not mention, but techniques and practices above are those that i feel the strongest about. And opinions that i wrote above are my own thoughts about my own journey.
Best wishes, B
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I've said it once and I'll say it again
STOP👏🏽 HARASSING 👏🏽 ACTORS 👏🏽AND👏🏽 MUSICIANS 👏🏽 IT'S👏🏽CREEPY👏🏽AND👏🏽NOT👏🏽COOL
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We Have A Pool?!
Summary: There’s a secret swimming pool at Hogwarts. Y/N discovered it purely on accident in her first year, and it has become her safe place, that is until a particular Weasley find it as well.
Warnings: SMUT! (fingering, vaginal, etc) SMUT WITH PLOT IN A POOL YALL (ok I heard pool sex can be not great for everyone, so maybe don’t try it unless your into that then go off) Swearing, no proof reading, an irrational amount of commas because the public school system failed me. The end
Word Count: 2.3K
A/N: OK so IDK if there's canonically a pool at Hogwarts, I just heard it in a starkid play and was like “Hey, I like that” So I made it all up so if there is/isn’t actually a pool pls don’t come for me. Also HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope you’re all happy and are making progress to becoming even happier.
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Your elbows rested on the desk in front of you, your fingers rubbing circles into your temples as you tried to pay attention to the class in front of you. This past week had been stressful to say the least, you had three different essays, all needing to be at least four pages long, as well as a potions exam and a herbology quiz. To say you were excited for the weekend was an understatement.
And you knew just where you were going to spend it.
As soon as class was dismissed, you started packing your bag as quickly as possible, wanting to get to your room to finish your homework and change before going to your favorite spot for some much needed stress relief.
You practically ran out of the class, heading straight to the Gryffindor common room, but before you could get far, two tall bodies appeared at your left and right sides.
“Someone seems to be in a hurry” Fred said, looking to George who nodded in agreement.
“Indeed, where are we off to Y/N?” George asked.
“Oh, its a wonderful place, I don’t think you would have head of it. It’s called nun ya” You said, causing the boys to raise an eyebrow at you.
“Nun ya?” Fred asked
“Nun ya business” You joked, causing the older red to head to gasp in feign hurt, while George tried to stifle a laugh.
You and the twins had been friends since you were children, being next door neighbors and being the same age meant you spent a lot of time together, especially when your parents went on business trips and left you at the burrow. You had grown to become really close to them. However, over the past few years George and Angelina had started hanging out more, leaving you and Fred to get closer. 
This wouldn’t have been a problem if you didn’t have a giant crush on him. 
“Wow, were your best friends in the world and you wont even tell us where you’re going. I’m hurt!” Fred cried, making you laugh a bit. 
“I’m just going back to my room to do some homework. I’ll see you guys at dinner yeah?” You asked, turning to wave at the two boys, who stood in confused silence as they watched you walk away.
“Well, she’s hiding something” George said.
“Definitely” Fred agreed.
A few hours later, you had gotten dinner, finished your homework, and were currently laying in bed, waiting for Angelina and Katie to fall asleep. After a while, their breathing evened out, and you quietly got out of bed, putting your pillow under the covers to make it look like you were still sleeping there just in case one of them woke up.
You tip toed out of the room, making sure to close the door as quietly as possible before making your way down the steps, and out of the common room. Once you were a bit farther away, you cast lumos to navigate better through the hallway. You took a right, then a left, then another left, before finally finding your way to the empty arythmancy classroom.
You made your way to the bookcase on the far left side of the room, running your finger along the spines before landing on a familiar blue cover labeled The Geometry of Liquids. You pulled the book back until you heard a click, pushing the bookcase forward which easily swung open to reveal a hallway.
You couldn’t help but smile as the smell of salt water filled your nose, quickly stepping behind the book case before closing it behind you. As you walked further down the hallway, you began to see a blue light, finally turning the last corner, you found yourself in an abandoned dungeon, with a large pool in the middle of it. 
You had accidentally stumbled across this room in your fourth year. You were bored, all of your friends either at Hogsmeade or detention Fred and George, and had found the abandoned classroom. You started going through the books, and the rest is history. You had been coming here at least once a week ever since.
You muttered the spell to stop the light coming from your wand, the pool somehow giving off its own soft blue light, before removing your shirt and sleep shorts, exposing the green bikini you had put on earlier. 
Walking closer to the edge, you took a few running steps before plugging your nose and jumping off the pool wall, landing in the water below. 
You sat there for a moment, allowing the cool feeling to sink deeper into your body. You had gotten a lot better at holding your breath over the years, still eventually you had to come back to the surface for air, which you did. You wiped the water off your face, opening your eyes to find a pair of dark brown ones looking back.
“Fred!” You screamed, surprised by his sudden presence. He stood at the edge of the water in a pair of jersey shorts and a t-shirt, his jaw on the floor as he looked at you, then to the rest of the room. 
“What are you... who’d you get here?” You continued, his silence making you a bit nervous.
“We have a pool?” He asked looking back to you, causing you to nod.
“Yeah...” You said, feeling a bit guilty for not telling him before. 
You had planned on telling him, along with the rest of your friends, but you were worried that word would get around and it would become a new party spot, which meant it would only be a matter of time before a teacher found it and blocked it off. 
“How long have you known this was here?” Fred asked.
You sighed, swimming to the side wall and pulling yourself out, ringing out your hair before crossing your arms in front of you.
“A while” You mumbled, feeling a bit ashamed.
“And you didn’t tell us because...” He started, wanting an explanation.
“I didn’t want everyone to find out, because then the teachers would find out-”
“And then nobody would be able to use it” Fred finished, causing you to nod, still refusing to meet his eyes, your own question suddenly popping into your mind.
“Wait, how did you find it?” You asked, finally looking up to meet his gaze, your heart beating a bit faster at the eye contact.
Now it was Fred’s turn to look guilty. “I followed you”
“You fo- why!” You shouted
“I’m sorry! It’s just, you were upset earlier and you seemed really excited about something, and then I saw you walking around and I don’t know I just followed you.” Fred blurted out, looking at you with a nervous expression.
“Ok fine, I’m not mad at you if you’re not mad at me” You tried to reason, wanting a truce.
“Deal” He said smiling, holding out his hand for you to shake, which you did. Unfortunately this made it so you didn’t see his other hand quickly come around to connect with your shoulder, pushing you back into the pool.
You quickly got your bearings, kicking back to the surface to find Fred keeled over with laughter. 
“You dick!” You shouted, which only made him laugh harder. You began laughing as well, before ducking under the water to move your hair away from your face, popping back up to see Fred walking over to where your clothes and wand were laying.
“What are you doing?” You asked suspiciously, you eyes widening as his hands went to the hem of his shirt.
“Getting in, duh” Fred stated, before pulling his shirt over his head to reveal his toned chest, making your face heat up in the process. 
Before you could say anything, Fred was running towards the pool at full speed before jumping into a cannon ball and landing right next to you, sending buckets of water flying into your face.
Your mouth fell open in shock, watching as Fred came back up to the surface, laughing once he saw your expression.
“Oh nuh uh” You grumbled, shooting out your hands to send water flying back at Fred, abruptly cutting off his laughter.
“Oh really?” he asked mockingly, sending a wave of water back at you, only for you to return a wave as well.
Soon enough, water was flying in all directions as you each tried to splash each other as fast as you could, the sound of both of your laughs echoing off the walls. 
You were splashing as fast as you could, looking away to avoid getting hit in the face as you aimed blindly, only stopping when you suddenly felt arms wrap around your middle and spin you around.
“Got cha!” Fred yelled, your arms landing around his neck to stabilize yourself as you shouted in surprise.
Fred stopped spinning, allowing the both of you to calm down and catch your breath, which made your heartbeat pick up at the realization of the position you were in. Your bodies pressed together as his arms remained around your waist, and yours around his neck.
You pulled back a bit to look at him, meeting his gaze before his eyes wandered down to your mouth, yours doing the same before he finally pulled you closer, and connected his lips to yours.
You responded instantly, moving your lips with his as you wrapped your legs around his waist. His arms moved downwards to hold you by your ass as he walked you over to the side of the pool, pressing you up against the wall.
He tugged at your bottom lip, making you moan into the kiss and allow his tongue to explore your mouth. You moved a hand up to his hair, weaving your fingers through the wet, fiery strands, and deepening the kiss even further. His hard length pressed against you, and your hands began traveling down his chest.
He suddenly pulled away making you open your eyes to look at him.
“Are you sure?” He asked, a soft look in his eyes.
You nodded.
Fred moved his lips to just below your ear, hovering just over the skin. “I need to hear you princess”
“Please, I need you Freddie” You whined, gasping as his lips came in contact with your neck.
He continued his attack on your neck as his hand moved in between you, dipping into your bikini bottoms before sliding his fingers through your folds. Your breath hitched as he slid two fingers into you, slowly pumping them in an out as his thumb drew circled over your clit, the coil in your stomach tightening as he began to speed up.
“Fred, I need you inside of me” You sighed, whining as he removed his fingers. His hands moved to lower his shorts a bit letting his cock spring free, moving your bikini bottoms to the side before gliding through your folds.
"You ready?” He asked, causing you to nod. “With your words princess”
“Please Fred just fuck me” You practically begged, before moaning as he slowly filled you up, his size stretching you out slightly.
He waited a moment, allowing you to adjust before you finally nodded, allowing him to move. He slowly pulled out half way, before thrusting back into you, repeating the action and picking up speed with each thrust.
You bit your lip to try and suppress your moans, but Fred wasn’t having any of it.
“None of that princess” He said, stopping his movements and making you whine “I want to hear you screaming my name when you come, got it?” He asked, still refusing to move.
“Ok fine, please just move-ah!” You gasped loudly as he started thrusting into you, much faster than before.
Water sloshed around you as he pounded into you, your back scratching against to tile with each thrust but you didn’t care. His cock hit that one spot perfectly with each stroke, tightening the coil in your stomach more and more. 
“You’re so perfect, taking my cock so well” Fred breathed into your ear, causing you to let out a soft moan. “I can’t hear you princess”
His hand slipped in between your bodies, beginning to rub fast circles around your bungle of nerves, causing the coil in your stomach to finally snap, sending you over the edge, while screaming Fred's name over and over again.
Fred continued to thrust into you, riding you through your orgasm, his thrusts eventually becoming sloppy before he stilled inside of you, painting your walls as he came.
You sat like that for a moment, catching your breath as you came down from your high. Fred pressed his lips to yours as he slowly pulled out, causing you to sigh at the empty feeling before moving both of your bottoms to their original place.
A wave of insecurity suddenly washed over you. Was this a one time thing? Was he still mad that I hid this from him? Does he want to just be friends with benefits? does he-
“Hey, what’s happening” Fred asked, snapping you out of your thoughts, a curious expression on his face.
“Um...” You started, setting yourself up for the possibility of rejection. “Was this a one time thing? Because, if it is I don’t want to-”
Fred cut you off by gently grabbing your face in his hands and pressing his lips to yours, silencing all the insecure thoughts running through your mind.
“Y/N, I’ve liked you since fourth year, I really hope this isn’t a one time thing” He said, making you smile.
“Since fourth year?” You asked, causing his face to blush a bit.
“Well, yeah” He replied sheepishly.
“Well, I’ve liked you since third year, so I guess I like you more” You joked, causing him to let out a gasp.
“Not possible, I like you way more than you like me” He argued, to which you shook your head.
“Nope, I win, hands down” You responded, folding your arms matter of factely.
“How about, we go shower off, and I show you how much I like you?” Fred asked, pressing a kiss to your neck.
“Challenge accepted” You replied, all the while you couldn't hide the smile on your face.
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A/N: UMMMM ok??? Pool sex. With Fred Weasley??? Am I obsessed with this concept? Yes. Is it healthy, probably not but its not hurting anyone so I’m a keep doing it. Anyway, I hope you guys liked it, feel free to leave any suggestions or feedback. I love you all! ALSO IF YOU KNOW OF ANY FRED POOL SMUT PLEASE TAG ME OMG
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oingo233 · 3 years
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Rapture is a Boy (8)
Summary: Remus and you have always had a playful, loving relationship but his behavior around the full moon leads you to assume the worst. A huge fight ends with the two of you heartbroken. Will Remus reveal the truth behind his behavior?  And will you still love him afterwards or has he truly lost you forever?
Young Remus Lupin x Reader(neutral)
Warning: FLUFF, so much fluff you could drown in it, self-doubt (brief) 
Authors Note: This is the last part, which is crazy to me, I truly hope yall love it.  This series is dear to my heart because it has allowed me to meet and talk to you and so many other amazing people!  You all mean so much to me, and Remus is my lil baby too. I can’t even express how much I appreciate and love you all <3
Word Count: 5k
Part One - Part Two - Part Three - Part Four - Part Five - Part Six - Part Seven
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                                                    Part Eight
                                      ****A Stag, a Rat and a Dog***
Remus POV
“That was-” Peter couldn’t even finish his sentence, he just laughed, he laughed so loud it was hard not to join in with him.  James pat his back and nodded, wiping some of the blue glitter off on his shirt.
“Right, mate.” he agreed.  Sirius was bouncing in his spot, none of our smiles breaking or dimming. “Another notch under the belt of our legacy of awesome,” he all but sang, all of our cheeks still flushed from this morning. He hit Sirius’s arm and they began to race up the stairs, Peter and I followed, jogging after them.  “Lily loved it too!” he added, smiling even bigger at just the thought of her, he was beating Sirius.  
We all stopped running and Sirius was scowling, he lost, we all stood at the portrait when Sirius turned to me.  “Worked well on (Y/N) too,” he stated, smirking at me and making a sexual motion with his hips, James laughed and I pushed him. “Ew, your palms are sweaty.”
“We’ll excuse me, ABBA sweats no doubt after giving the performance of a life time.” I say while James says the word and the painting opens for us. “Besides, it has worked for now.  But they are still oblivious to the truth.  I might lose them all over again, once they know.”
The mood seemed to darken at this realization.  Not everyone is as understanding about my condition as the boys. That’s the real reason I couldn’t stop sweating, and if the boys looked close enough they’d see I couldn’t stop shaking ever so slightly too.  I just got (Y/N) back, I’m not sure how well I’d be able to cope with losing them a second, and final time.  My heart broke just at the thought, and at the very realization that I might have to prepare myself for such an outcome.
“Mate, (Y/N) is one of the people in this world that loves you most.  Besides us of course,” James smiled softly, trying to lighten the mood whenever he could, “I doubt, that anything could make them think differently of you.  You’re not just your condition.  You’re Remus feckin Lupin!” The other boys cheered in agreement as we stepped into our dorms, Peter even went as far as rubbing my shoulders to build up my confidence, he saw a trainer do it to a wrestler on muggle TV once.
“And we’ve got a romantic feckin plan!” Peter cheers, still excited about what is yet to happen. I swallow thickly once more, this day could be one of the best in a while, or the absolute worst.  I guess we’ll know tonight.  
“Yes, and are you guys sure you are okay with this?” I ask, for the fifth time.  James rolls his eyes, and Sirius bangs his head on the dorm room wall.  
“Yes, Moony.  Yes. Yes. Yes.  We are okay with this for the millionth time.  (Y/N) is our friend too, and all we want is to see the lot of ya happy again, so will ya shut up about it.  We already agreed, mate,” Sirius says, looking up just barely lifting his head from the wall.
“And we don’t like lying to (Y/N) either,” James says, Peter nods with each word falling from their lips, as he tugs on pants and grabs a new, not bedazzled, robe.
We were still talking and going over plans for tonight when we left for first period.  The common room was quite expect for our meshed whispers and loud footfalls, it wasn’t until the painting door swung open that we heard another sound.  An all too familiar sound.
Professor McGonagall cleared her throat before us.  Her hands folded in at her chest and her pointed eyes trained on us, unblinking.  We all swallowed thickly, our fear and respect for her almost overwhelmed our courage and friendliness towards her.  Almost.
“Did ya enjoy the concert, Minnie?  I was singing just for you.” Sirius said, smiling and trying not to laugh as her expression remained unmoving.  James joined in and I nearly rolled my eyes, but a smile found it’s way onto my lips nonetheless.
“Yeah, we saw ya a-tap-tap-tappy your toes!” He says, doing a little dance.  I was amazed by her ability to not even crack a smile at our enthusiasm, but then again, this was nothing new to her.  “ABBA gets to the best of us doesn’t it?”  As if on cue, Sirius was speaking again. I fought my smile and faked a sullen expression, fingers crossed behind my back, this was the part where one of us tried to weasel our way out of trouble.
“Exactly, our hearts were in it Professor, truly we had good reason and we weren’t hurting anyone.  Shame.  Just a shame Dumbledore gave us detention, any more severe punishment just wouldn’t make any sense.”  She raised a brow and in a last attempt I put in a word of my own.
“But you’re always so sensible Ms. McGonagall. I’m sure your punishment for us will be well-deserved.  Perhaps our outfits were too flashy?” Peter chuckles beside me, and shows her the inside of his robe.
“But this one isn’t at all. Ya see?” He shows her adamantly until she raises a hand and we are drowning in silence, she made us sweat in our palms and neck before speaking.
“Yes.  It appears your shenanigans are over.  But Lucy is still in the hospital wing scrubbing at her skin, the smell is pungent and unmoving.  It seems, Sirius,” She turns to face him, his adam apple bobs, “You did hurt someone.  The real shame is that you don’t seem bothered by that fact.  Follow me, boys.” She said, turning on us, her robes nearly swinging up and hitting our shins.  We follow wordlessly and with our heads down, her words bothered us a little, what really stung was the disappointment on her face and in her frown. (Though Sirius swears he heard her singing along).
She went to Peter’s class first, he went to follow her inside but she raised a hand and said “Oh, you won’t be going to class this morning, Mr.Pettigrew.” She excused Peter herself, whispering into the teachers ear.  My heart sank at the realization that I would not be seeing (Y/N) again this morning, James eyes me, my mood obviously changed.  I couldn’t even spend any time with them before tonight, our lunch would serve as detention as well. I might never get to see them again after tonight, couldn’t even enjoy this little time I have before the truth is out.  I won’t be able to be at peace until tonight or maybe even after, because who will love a monster?
For the rest of the morning we were locked in McGonagall’s empty classroom, writing out letters of apology to be given to Lucy in person later that day.  And attempting to come up with a charm or some potion that would reverse the long lasting affect of the Stink Bombs that we have created.  Wouldn’t be a marauders prank unless everything was well crafted, would it?  But now, our little spell seems to be our downfall.  Luckily, we found the right reversion potion, and it was taken to Madame Pom. immediately.  By the time we were allowed to leave, the bell for second period had just rang.
I sat through my classes with sweaty hands, and bouncing legs.  I agonized in the silence of detention about all that could go wrong, several times I re-debated whether I should really tell (Y/N) the truth, but it was clear that I needed too.  I have lied for too long, and it has cost me too much.  The truth will set me free...or at least I hope it will.  I sat through my very last classes feeling both sick, and determined.  Before we knew it, it was dinner time and James, Sirius, Peter and I snuck out of the castle for our final act of salvation.  Our last attempt to make things right.
Your POV
The ground was rocky and uneven below my feet, between the clumps of dirt and hidden rocks this trip to Hagrids hut felt more like a mountain climbing experience than anything else.  But my breathing was not ragged and exaggerated because of the walk, no, it was because ever since this morning my heart has been beating out of control.  I’ve been breathless and filled with both anxiety and warmth since Remus kissed my cheek and handed me this note.
Tonight will mark either the end or the fresh start of our relationship, of our friendship...of our love.  
My head is spinning as I stumble over a pumpkin root. What has he been hiding from me?  Is it something bad, or big, or maybe something he is just blowing way out of proportion?  What if the truth pulls us apart even more than the lies?
I shake my head in an attempt to free myself of this anxiety that swells in my stomach like a churning sea.  Whatever it is, I will face it with patience and love, but also self-respect.  I repeat this to myself until before I know it, I am at Hagrids hut.  The walls of his house seemed to mountain over me, it smelled strongly of firewhiskey, burning firewood,rich dirt and sweet pumpkins.  The smell did wonders in calming my mind, but I rather large frown makes its way onto my face as I look around.  There was absolutely no one in sight.
I cuss under my breath.  Maybe this is the wrong place.  Maybe Remus is late?  I chew at my bottom lip and take a few large steps around the hut, my eyes keep going back to analyze the trees of the forest.  The shadows of the forbidden forest seemed to reach for me.  It called for me.  As if it was a whirlpool sucking me in I stepped towards it, staring into the layers of dark, large trees.  
I held my breath as a bush by the very edge of the forest shook, rustling leaves and snapping twigs filled the brisk night air.  I shivered, whether it was from the cold or the sudden fear I was not sure, but I did not have time to debate my feelings because suddenly, a canopy of dark green vines, hanging from the trees shifted.  
Large, cream horns parted the vines and drooping tree leaves, a particular branch got stuck on the intricate swirling of the horns and snapped completely as the creature stepped further from the shadows, revealing itself to me. 
A beautiful Stag stood proud, it’s thick coat shone under the moonlight, it’s chest puffed out at me with pride.  The horns only added to it’s graceful height, but it’s eyes are what truly took my breath away.  Those round, warm eyes they were so human.  So familiar.  Before I could debate it any further, the Stag stamped it’s hoof in the dirt softly, it snorted and white air swirled around it’s soft face.  Only then did I notice the beautiful yellow rose, plucked from a bush and resting at it’s front legs.
I bring a shaky hand to my mouth, barely able to comprehended the wave of emotions that nearly knock me to my feet. This was of Remus’s doing.  But...how?  The Stag inclines it’s head curiously at me to the right, it’s large ears flicking with some sort of impatience, or unrest.  Only then did I fully seem to understand the familiarity of this creature.  
“James?” I gasp.  The Stag seems to stand even taller at me, and...smiles.  With my mouth still hanging wide open I let out a boisterous laugh.  “James!” I almost yell, the Stag snorts again and leans it’s head down, using his nose to push the rose towards me.  The movement doesn’t help me get over my shock, but it stirs me into action.  I begin to cautiously walk forwards, and as I do the Stag er, James, picks up the rose between it’s teeth, when I am close enough he softly nuzzles it into my hand.  I grip it tightly, it has already been de-thorned.
Carefully, with my free hand, I reach it out just a few inches in front of me and James places his Stag head onto my palm.  I pet him softly, he stares up at me and it was as if I was staring at James himself.
“You clever bastard!” I exclaim, I knew how hard becoming Animigus is, but why would he do such a thing?  I was broken out of my trance when the Stag (James) begins to walk, slowly at first, he looks back at me and inclines his head first and it was as if I could just hear him saying, in his cheeky manner ‘Ladies first, of course,”
I swallow thickly and fight another bout of paralyzing shock, and instead smile, following James through the forest.  His hoofs sinking softly into the ground, the sound was methodic and helped with the strange over pour of emotions I’m feeling.
What happened next, is actually quite embarrassing.  It started with a little scamper by my feet.  Considering how far we’ve walked into the forest I was more than a bit concerned for my safety, but the large, strong Stag beside me cast most of my fears to the side.  Then, through a break of moonlight through the trees I saw it.  A large, fat rat!
I screamed so loud, dark ravens flew from their slumbers in the trees.  James beside me stomped his feet, and checked the perimeter with analyzing eyes, searching for the danger.  But they only found the rat.  I never thought a Stag could give such an amused, disappointed expression, yet here I stand.  Clinging to a deers ass for dear life, and he is looking back at me with said expression. My cheeks flush and I let go of his furry back, then the Rat very slowly inches towards me.  
It’s sharp nose lifting and dancing from side to side, it’s soft brown eyes sparkling up at me.  I’d say it even looked a little cute, friendly even.  But what unusual behavior, and what unusual eyes.  It’s tail glowing under the white light like a plump, pink worm...
“Wormtail!” I realize, laughter bubbling from my chest. The Rat lets out a gleeful squeak and James besides me snorts once again, seeming to laugh.  The Rat scurried off into the shadows, and I can’t help but berate myself.  Did I hurt his feelings?
But then he comes bounding back into sight, he stands on his back legs and his little Rat face seemed to glow with excitement as his pink hands unveiled a small little white wildflower.  The same kind Remus would pick for me on walks we took together. My smile only grows bigger as I do a sweet curtsey and pick up the flower mid-bow, lifting it up to my nose as I stand straight again.  
“My apologies, you know I don’t like rats.  But I suppose I’ll have to make an exception for you.” I smile down at him, and he reveals two yellow buck teeth, smiling up at me with as much of a smile any rat can muster.  I fail to hold in my laughter but extend my arm to him, he climbs up it and perches himself on my shoulder.  I hold the two flowers in one hand, and rest my other on James soft shoulder, so I can be led through the dark forest, I knew by know, they were leading me to Remus.
Peter climbs down my other arm and onto James back, then up his head.  I laugh as Peter holds on for deer(hehe I’m funny) life as James jokingly waves his head back and forth, Peter almost falls off but I help him back.  We all seem to laugh in our own ways, when suddenly a loud bark cuts through the sound of laughter and owls and even the rustling of the woods around us.  It was loud and impatient and yet humorous, it reminded me of someone I know well.  I smirk, raising a brow I turn to the equally amused Stag and Rat, James and Peter.
“Wormtail.  Prongs,” I say, motioning to the Stag who only inclines his head again, “And Padfoot.  Let me guess... Sirius is also some animal wandering these woods, finding us by chance?  A wolf, perhaps?  A dog?” They don’t say a thing, they only begin to walk again.  Turning us towards the sound of the echoing bark.
I was on the ground before I knew what was happening.  We’ve walked just a few more minutes and then a cloud of black overcame my sense and tackled me to the floor.  Black, Sirius Black, was a dog and on top of me.  He was barking right by my ear and cuddling me, it wasn’t until two little Rat hands attempted to push his leg that he got off.  
I was laughing uncontrollably, this was all too much.  Too crazy.  I knew they were geniuses, but this... becoming Animagus and though the reason was unclear I could feel it, something to do with Remus.  With Moony.  The nickname had a new meaning to me, and I wasn’t sure what yet, but I was sure I was about to find out.  
Sirius was racing around me in circles as I stood up.  His black tail wagging wildly, and his fur rustled and tossed under the wind.  I wanted to coo and awe, though his eyes were human and mischievous, the rest of him was adorable and strong.  A proud, handsome looking dog.  It was clear, by his behavior, that he was just as excited to reveal this big secret, as I was to know the truth.
“Sirius!  You dog,” I joke, a bad one on my part but he still barked with laughter and I shook my head, taking in the three of them.  This was, Merlin, I didn’t even know what this was other than beyond surprising and impressive.  Shocking.
Suddenly, Sirius makes one last dart behind me, he sends me in a spin and by the time I can control my footing he is back in front of me.  He is sitting on his back legs, front paws up in the air and bent in a cute trick, his ears flopped forward.  Just above his paws, drooping from the jaws of his mouth is a single daffodil.  Daffodils, like the one written about in this favorite poem of mine that Remus would read me on bad days, I Wandered Lonely as A Cloud by William Wordsworth.
I sigh, tilting my head to the left, a soft smile on my lips.  Everything about this was amazing and sweet.  It was amazing that the boys had this whole other life I never knew about, which I’m sure there will be a reasonable explanation for my ignorance because ouch.  But sweet, because this was obviously planned my Remus, but the boys were taking their own time to make it happen.  I bend down and pat Sirius’s head, the only time he lets me touch his hair, I think, almost laughing.  His tail wags as I pluck the flower from his mouth and he lets it fall easily into my hand.
I gather it with my other flowers, now forming a little bouquet and bring the whole lot of them up to my face and inhale. I close my eyes as I smell the sweet and powerful aromas, memories with Remus filled my head, and with it, a warmth filled my chest.  
“I hope this hasn’t been all too much for you.  I thought some truths would be better seen than told,” Remus says, walking up behind me.  I spin around, I didn’t even notice the sound of crunching leaves behind me. But I couldn’t find it in me to speak, the moonlight dancing across Remus’s face, highlighting his eyes, and the soft curves of his lips with the ragged lines of his scars, I was astounded by the boy before me.  Once again entranced.  All the anxiety, all the fear has left me, as I stared at him clad in fancy pants and a button up to match.  
He stops walking, unsure of where he stands with me.  I step towards him, finding some clearing in the haze I begin to speak.
“It’s wonderful.  They’re wonderful,” I say, turning with a thankful smile to the stag, the rat and the dog. They each in turn, show their teeth at me in an attempt of a smile.  I laugh and beside me, Remus does too.  With a nod of his head, they turn their backs on us and leave.  I no longer needed guidance or safety.  Remus stood before me and I felt something that has been missing for the past couple of days.  And even though I was in the middle of the dangerous, forbidden forest, I knew that I was also home.  
“I love the flowers. I must say, this night has already taken the most unexpected turn it could, but the nicknames definitely make more sense,” I attempt a bad joke, a habit of mine in a nerve wracking situation but Remus only seems to grimace slightly, before turning it into a smile, though it was a rather sad one.
“Well, you seem to be taking this well.  Have you figured out mine yet?” He asked, his sad tone surprising me. We were so close his voice dropped low just out of habit it seemed, and because the short distance between us put us in a trance.  I missed him.  I missed him so much my body now seemed to come back from the dead and reach for him, I was alive again with dancing butterflies and buzzing questions.  I glanced down to his lips, before taking a step back. 
“No.  But I can guess.  It makes sense, once every month you seem to leave me.  You change into someone who is distant, someone who doesn't seem to love me,” He steps forwards, looking pained by this realization, but as I speak it becomes clearer to me, but I can’t yet reach the conclusion.
“I will never become a person who doesn’t love you.  I will change and grow but you will be the one thing that remains.  You don’t have to guess anymore, but I want you to know that my love for you will always remain, even if after tonight, we do not,” he speaks with such reverence, like our love was something scared to him and deep down, I knew I felt the same way.  It is my first love, and if I can help it, than he will be my only lover until the day I die.  All I can do is nod as he steps forwards again, I can see a bead of sweat roll down the apple of his cheek, he was about to tell me.  I can feel the shaking of his hands as he places them in mine.
Suddenly, his unbreaking stare leaves me, and in place, find the bright moon.  Twinkling in the sky and illuminating us in its wake.  I understood in that moment, Moony.  A boy mapped with scars.  Moony.  A boy plagued by nightmares, and insecurities.  Moony.  A tough, but oh so scared boy who seemed to hate the very night itself.  Moony.  The boy who changes during the month, and is gone completely on the full moon.  Moony.  Moony, the Werewolf.
I pull on his hands and gather him into my embrace, pulling back only to kiss him sweetly.  The world becomes ours as our lips dance with one another to a song we’ve heard before.  It is the song of him making love to me.  It is the song of the poems he reads me and the flowers he picks.  It is the song of the moons very envy as she watches us together.  The song of lovers.  It moves us.  It moves my hands up his neck and through his hair.  It moves his lips across my cheek and jaw and then down my neck.  It moves the wind, and the trees around us.  It pulls the moans from our mouths and then the confessions.
“My beautiful love,” Remus kisses the words into my skin, up to my lips.  “My only love,” he mumbles into my lips, kissing me softly but his hands are bruising at my hips.  As if I would leave him if he did not hold me close enough and for forever.
“I love you, Remus ‘Moony’ Lupin.  I love all of you and all that you ever will be and all that you have been.” He pulls back from me, his eyes glazed with tears and a softness that makes my heart sing.  He nods, and than he laughs.  A tear falls from his eyes as his head leans back and he laughs, the sweetest sound I’ve ever heard.  It was as if all his anxiety, and self-hatred has left him and in their place my words have nestled in.  I love him.  I love him.  I love him.
“I’m a werewolf ya know?” he says, still laughing, he knew I made the connection.  At this point it was pre-caution, I roll my eyes and kiss him again.  The world is forgotten as we kiss, as we rejoin as one and as lovers.  I pull back and softly wipe away his tears.
“I know,” I whisper into his lips, he smiles, giving me a soft kiss.  “Why didn’t you tell me sooner, Remus?” I ask, pulling away from him.  He frowns now, his cheeks red with blush, and lips to match.
“I thought I’d lose you forever.  That you’d think I was some monster, or- or beast.  You always looked at me like I was the world, and I was terrified one day you’d see the real me, and just- well, stop loving me altogether.” While he speaks his eyes still glitter with the promise of tears, and my heart sinks at his words.
“I think I understand your anxiety about it.  I can’t imagine how hard it must be.  But I would never stop loving you for such a thing, merlin, I don’t think anything could stop me from loving you.  I never want you to feel the need to hide from me again, okay?” Remus nods into my hands, I still haven't moved them since I wiped away his tears, it seemed like more keeps falling each time.  
“The boys became Animigmus to help with my full moons.  It can get pretty bad… but ever since they have come along things really got better, really they did.” he adds when seeing my sad facial expression.  My heart felt broken all over again at just the thought of Remus being in pain, alone and suffering.  I swore in that moment, I’d do anything in this world to help make things better for him.  I nod my head.  He continues.
“And Lucy, her older sister is a werewolf.  She figured out that I was one pretty quickly, she said I could speak to her about it all, and that she could help somehow.  It was nothing more, she just let me complain and even write some letter to her sister.  I never even thought of Lucy like the way I think of you.  She was always just a friend, but that remains no more.  To hell with her,” he says.  He can’t stop smiling, a real, golden smile.  There was nothing holding him back, I could just tell he felt so much lighter.  I took his hand and wordlessly led him to sit on the grass with me.  We laid shoulder to shoulder, staring up at the stars together.  
He told me in depth about how he was bitten as a child, about how it changed his life.  Then when the boys told him they were becoming Animgus for him and all the little moments and adventures they’ve had since.  He didn’t sugar coat a thing, he didn’t lie.  He was bearing his soul before me for the first time, without any thin veil holding us back and I’ve never felt closer to him.  It was well past curfew by the time I felt satisfied with everything he’s told me, I felt both heavy with this knowledge and yet free.  I felt included and like I truly knew Remus, and I still did love him.  More than ever, I love him.
We laid in silence for some time, my head has moved to lay on his chest and I can hear the steady, warm beating of his heart.
“Can you hear it?” he asks, out of the blue.  I strain my ears to listen to the forest around us, I lift my head slightly and he laughs.  “No. My heart, can you hear it?” I lean back into him and let out a little laugh myself.
“Oh.  Yes,” I smile, “I can hear it.”
“Good.  It beats for you.”mhe says, I look up at him only to find that he has already been looking at me.  His eyes soft, and smile warm, his heart steady under the palm of my hand and loud within the stillness of the night.  It beats for you.  His words echoed in my head and I couldn’t help myself, I lean forward and press my lips against him.  I could kiss him forever.  I could be with him here like this forever, alone and in love, honest and unafraid. 
 I understood a lot of things that night, more than just about who Remus was and the secrets he has been hiding.  More than the truths that he bared and the love that we had. I understood how after all this time of separation and uncertainty.  After exhausting ourselves in a sea of sorrow and questions, we have finally found our peace.  I have found my happiness.  And I realized something rather important.  Rapture is a boy.  Rapture is love.
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You are my weakness
Howdy yall!! I wanted to get this out for the Hollidays so that everyone got their daily dose of Leonard love (I can't get this man out of my head).
⚠️ WARNING ⚠️: There are swear words and little bit of adult content (such as making out and yearning)
I don't know if others are like me, but I love listening to music while reading fanfiction so here's a few songs I was listening to while writing
Hope you guys enjoy!
(BTW the word fat head is slang for stupid or foolish person, I just see Danny using slang and such)
Okay, that’s not how the conversation went, Mickey is lying to you!”
“That electric pole couldn’t lie to his worst enemy!”
“I guess you’re below that point then, aren’t ya?”
The orge yokai let out a bellowed laugh next to you and you couldn’t help but laugh along with him. You both were hanging out on his balcony, Danny, Mickey, and a few of your other friends were back inside; you all had a successful heist and were celebrating back at his and his gang’s place. You slightly move the mug in your hands, the hot chocolate slowly swallowing the marshmallows Mickey had placed in it. 
With winter hitting the surface world, the Hidden City had gotten colder and some of the witches had cast a spell to let it snow, the fluffy little flurries covering the city in a thin blanket of white. You looked back over at Leonard and couldn’t suppress the smile that grew across your face. You’ve been friends with him and his gang for years, always working together to be known as some of the best thieves down in this golden city. 
You brought your jacket close, well, Leonard’s jacket. Anytime you were cold and forgot to bring something warmer, you were always up to steal Leonard’s clothes. He never complained and never asked and you would make sure to leave it where you found it. You could hear the faint laughs of Danny, Mickey, and your friends inside, knowing that they were placing bets on the card game they were playing. As you took a sip of your drink, it was Leonard’s turn to watch you silently. He took in your red cheeks, how your fingers twitched against the warmth of your cup, and how the snow stuck to the top of your head like a crown. 
It has been years; years of earning each other’s trust, months of becoming close friends, weeks of falling for you. He watched as you ran your fingers through your hair, the snowflakes that had settled melted or pushed away. Your arm was touching his and he tried his damn hardest to not let it show that it bothered him, how he wanted to lean into you, lean into your welcoming scent and breath you in instead of the icy wind.  
You were so addictive and he hated it. 
You let out another giggle and he gave you one of his side grins.
“What’s so funny?”
“I was just thinking about today. How Danny literally started to sing to the crowd while we made our escape, maybe he should join a band.”
“With that ugly mug? He would mostly likely have to be the drummer since people swoon over the singer, guitar player, and then the drummer.”
“Does that mean you get to be the guitar player since you play?”
“And leave Mickey to be the singer? I think we’re better off as thieves.”
You placed your hand over your mouth to hide your laughs as the jokes finally got to you, her body unwilling leaning against Leonard to hold you up as your body heaved up laughs. The tall yokai gladly took in your weight, your warmth spreading over him like wildfire and couldn’t help but let a light hue of red cover his face. 
You were extremely close now, to the point that if you breathed the little ice cloud would cover his face. You were still letting out chuckles as you finally looked up at him, tears barely forming at the corners of your eyes, causing your eyes to sparkle like deep twilight. All titans above he has fallen for you, he has fallen so deep for you he was surprised he was still standing.
“Are you done laughing? I’m pretty sure the humans above heard you.”
You roll your eyes and set your mug over on the ledge of the railing, the steam of the hot beverage slowly dancing with the breeze.
“You know bad jokes are my weakness. Unlike you, I can actually admit to it.”
“I can totally admit my weaknesses.”
“Really? What’s your number one weakness then?”
This was it. This was the time to say his bloody feelings, to let you know that he thinks about you nonstop at random times of the day, how he makes sure that nothing hurts you during their heists, how he lays in his bed and thinks, just for a bloody second, what it would be like if you were there next to him. He could feel sweat start to build up on his body as the silence continued between you two. You were so genuine, loyal, funny, and your features could make anyone swoon. 
His mouth opened up to say something, anything, until Mickey came crashing through the door. Leonard quickly moved over to where you and him were no longer touching and he moved his face to hide the blush that covered it. Heavy laughs and booing bursted out from the apartment as the cold air was let into the warm building.
“Y/N! Y/N! I need your help! Danny cannot beat my ass at this next game!” The eel yelled, his face warm with the booze mixed within his hot chocolate. He grabbed your arm and you let out a laugh as the eel basically fell onto you as he tried to drag you back into the apartment. Leonard gave Mickey an evil eye as he dragged you away, a low growl rumbling out of his throat as he turned back to the night sky, his beaten up fingers running through his hair. Maybe it was a sign, to either let you go or to go after you, he didn’t know. 
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You had left the apartment after your friends left, and Leonard couldn’t help but stare at the front door. Mickey was passed out on the couch, clinging to his handful of cards he had from the final game and Danny was cleaning up the last of the mess. 
The green yokai looked back at the balcony and saw that the snow was building up speed and little piles were being created. 
“So, ya going after Y/N?”
Leonard instantly perked at the sound of your name and he quickly turned to Danny, who’s eyebrow was raised and a frown was crossed over his face. 
“What the hell are you talkin about?”
The rat yokai let out a gust of air as he threw the last bit of trash into the trashcan and crossed his arms over his chest. 
“Ya know that Y/N has fallen head over heels for ya, right? I knew that you were a fat head, but not that much.”
Leonard looked over to his side and his hands balled into fists, the emotions that raged inside of him were just too much, he had flings in the past, but he didn’t want that with you.You weren’t just going to be a fling. He wanted you. He needed you.
“What should I do, Dan?”
The tall rat was a little taken aback, never once in his life had he seen his friend so defeated, almost helpless, so desperate that he was asking for help. Danny looked around until his eyes landed on Leonard’s jacket, the one you had been wearing an hour ago.
He handed it over to Leonard.
“Go.”
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The alleyway was silent as you walked home, your hands stuffed into the pockets of your hoodie as you watched your small breaths create clouds in front of you. The last few hours flashed around in your head and your heart went weak at the sight of Leonard that jumped through your head. You wondered what he was going to say, you wondered if he was going to say anything at all, you wondered if he only saw you as a friend. 
You heard hard and fast footsteps behind you and your hand was instantly out with a knife in your dominant hand, prepared for anything. You turned just in time to see who it was that was racing after you, almost trying to catch up.
“Leonard?”
The ogre yokai was out of breath by the time he got to you, his coat and jeans clinging onto him for dear life just like his hands were with his jacket. He took in several gulps of air and just when he thought he had gotten his breath back, it was taken away from him once again. 
Snow was once again sprinkled onto your hair and even your eyelashes and your cheeks were clinging for any kind of heat. The city lights dusted you with a golden blur and in the silence he could hear and see your steady breathing from your chest. 
Holy fuck you were exhilarant.
He was so distracted that he barely heard your voice against the pounding in his ears. 
“What are you doing here? Did something happen?”
He looked down at you and then lower at his jacket, his fingers creating fingerprints due to the cold. 
“You, uh, you forgot this,” he grunted and swiftly handed it to you. You took the jacket into your hands and gave him a frown.
“Len, this is your jacket.”
Shit shit!! What do I say? What do I do?
“Yeah, well, you wear it so much it might as well be yours,” he growled as he shoved his hands into his jean pockets, his eyes wandering around so he didn’t have to look at you. 
You were still confused but put on the jacket anyway, the old scents that you had held dear hours ago flooded back with open arms. You could smell the sweat of the jacket, the adventure, the thrill of being Loathsome Leonard, you could smell his cologne that made him smell like a foggy pine forest with nothing left but moss covered stones and mysteries left unsolved. 
“Thank you, but I’m guessing that's not why you are truly here,” you said with a light sigh, the chilly environment no longer bothering you. He watched as you brought the collar of the jacket closer and noticed how you smelled it and it made his throat and mouth dry. 
“It’s hard to talk to you, you know that?” He huffed out as he scratched the back of his neck. 
“I know, but you know it’s just me, right?”
Yeah. He knows it was just you, and that’s what made it unbearable to stand here and not kiss you, have you, to be yours. 
He tried to think of something up, something cheesy and romantic like Danny, or truthful and spontaneous like Mickey, but if you liked that, you wouldn’t be hanging out around him, you wouldn’t want to be with him. 
“Isn’t my weakness obvious, Y/N?”
Your frown only went deeper as your brain tried to think of what the hell he was talking about, and then the conversation came lashing back like a wip. You tilted your head at him and he rolled his eyes and looked at you again, but not at you, but the piece of clothing you were wearing. The jacket. The jacket you were wearing. You. 
Oh.
All the blood in your body raced to your face and your hands were moving through your hair so fast that you were surprised that you weren’t bald yet. You tried to remain eye-contact with Leonard but it was almost like you were back in school, blushing and stuttering over a small crush. But this wasn’t a crush, this couldn’t be a crush, this was something fully developed, more well rounded and shaped, this wasn’t something you could just get over with.
The silence was almost too much for the yokai and for a split second he could feel fear and regret hit his gut like a punch, until your lips crashed into his like a freight train. 
You were standing on the end of your toes and your hands were holding his face as you kissed him, praying to the titans above that you didn’t mess it up. 
Leonard almost went dead within your hands as the heat from your lips traveled over to his, his hands had slipped out his pockets but they stood stiff near you as if afraid to touch you. For Leonard it felt as if the kiss lasted a few lifetimes full of adventure and heartache, but the kiss was short and simple. 
You pulled back as you looked up at him with worried eyes. Maybe you had taken it too far, maybe you should’ve had him specify what he meant to double-check, or maybe just-
His lips were back on yours again, this time with meaning, this time with everything he fucking had. You instantly melted into the kiss and so did he, his hands holding onto your face, his thumb softly caressing the skin under it. That hand soon moved to behind your head as your hands went to his chest, your fingers gently holding onto his shirt. With his size and strength he was practically looming over you, consuming your scent, your passion, your taste. Your head started to dip as the kiss started to get heated, more meaning being pushed into it. 
You barely had time to come up for air before he attacked your lips again and soon your back was against the wall of the alleyway and everything in your head was getting dizzy, all you knew was that Leonard smelled good, he felt good, and you’ve craved this for months. 
Leonard couldn’t keep himself off of you, unless you said something, he was going to chase and explore this feeling you were giving him. His strong hands roamed your waist and couldn’t help but pin you against the brick wall of the alleyway. Your lips were soft, delicate, and your scent was practically calling his name, and your hands traveled up his chest and hooked around his neck and to all the higher beings above to say that you gave him a high was an understatement, because highs don’t last forever, but the love he felt for you would.
“Leonard,” you moaned into his mouth and he instantly slammed his hand up against the wall next to your head, his instincts going haywire within him. 
He had never heard you say his name like that. He had only dreamt of it, only allowed his mind to wonder to you groaning and moaning his name during desperate times.
 He growled into your mouth and it shook you to your very core to the point that it felt like you were sweating during the winter storm around you. You were able to get another breath before his lips once again found yours and he growled deep into your mouth. It’s almost like he knew you would go weak in the knees because he was holding onto you. 
It felt as if he was made for loving you. 
“Leonard.”
There it was again, the desperation, the thrill in your voice that was laced with need, you needed him, you wanted him. Another growl rippled from his throat as his kisses slowly trailed down your cheek, then jawline, and then your neck. You let out a gasp as his hands dipped under you and he lifted you up, pushing you more against the wall as he had full and utter control. 
He took in your sensitive skin, the shiver that ran through your body, how his jacket looked on you. He couldn’t get enough, he could never get enough of you, he wanted this to last, to taste and savor every last second with you. But, when you said his name again, it was filled with panic. 
“Leonard! The cops!”
The ogre yokai quickly turned over to the end of the alleyway; there were two cops standing there, flashing their flashlights down the dimly lit alleyway. As he questioned why the hell they would come down here and ruin his and yours night, he looked above your head to see the obvious No Loitering sign.
“Shit.”
He gently let you down and took your hand and headed in the opposite direction, the cops instantly spotting you two and gave chase. Of course, the cops wouldn’t do much to just two people loitering, but you both had just done a heist and you both knew that your faces would be plastered over every police station. 
You and Leonard quickly darted into every alleyway, trying to find a building or area where you could stay hidden until the cops lost your trail. You couldn’t help but laugh as you both raced away from the cops, you felt like a kid again, running away from the cops for vandalizing or when you didn’t know how to hide from the law when you were younger. 
Leonard heard your laughter and he rolled his eyes at you, once again laughing at the face of danger. But, you were his weakness, and he was glad of it.  
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rocketcowboyblu · 4 years
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Hi! Hello it’s me again (PArdon me lmao)
Since I posted about the Lion king idea of presenting finn, Thought why not give an idea of the entire movie if yall wanna idk write it? Cause I cant write at all. Ignore the spelling and grammar errors Im trying my best. ANYWAY uh have fun reading this mess of an R.D? (Rough Draft)
Alright, its like 10 years or so after the prime invasion. The BFF Squad finished restoring magic to the universe and found out where Adora and Catra hail from, (Magicat hidden kingdom on ethiera, and adora on eternia etc.)   Catra finds out shes magically pregnant and tells adora, adora is like “Holy shit were gonna be moms” SO like the dummy she is goes to glimmer and asks her permission to present her when the kit’s born. (cause its presumably from magicat culture idk u decide) Glimmer agrees and puts it on her to do lists cause yknow queen shit. 
Months later, Finns Born. Swift wind like the annoying loyal steed he is, goes to inform the other princesses of the presentation. (Insert the Circle of life Music) 
The princesses show up along with a bunch of other people cause It’s She-ra’s Heir/Kid. Anyway magicat queen comes and takes Finn and goes to present them (the balcony idk what part of brightmoon looks safe!?) presume the thrusting of them over a balcony. 
Scorpia and Bow are holding each other crying over how cute finn is, Catra and adora are looking at finn feeling so proud and shit, Glimmer is just holding her head staring at these idiots wondering why she even let them live there.
ALRIGHT HERE COMES THE INSANITY.
Behind the scenes, Catra had been helping glimmer with advising and taking over the actual royal advisors job. The R.A aint happy that her job is being taken by a war criminal and fraternizing with Etheria’s Hero. SO With some rogue clones they build a plan to get rid of finn and catra.
FLASH FORWARD 7 TO 9 YEARS LATER. 
Finn’s growing up and needs to learn the difference between play and work, the advisor tells finn that and suggests  adora help them out. so Adora takes Finn out to the whispering woods to teach them about self defense and magic bonding with the planet. 
DT strolls up cause their now Brightmoons babysitter (Much to their Utter Delight) and tells adora that theres some trouble in the LightZone (Frightzone) about clones. Finn wants to come but adora says no cause its dangerous, So DT offers to take finn cause they were gonna round up the Runestone kiddos for a playdate. 
DT and Finn pick up the kids and they get into trouble. Finn has a whole inner monologue about cant wait to be a Hero or something to make adora let them come with em. Cue the Ditching of DT and the Runestone Kids find themselves lost in the whispering woods.
Rogue Clones find them and give chase with laser blasters. Catra finds DT tied up and explains the kids tricked DT and they hear laser fire. So they go and save the kids. 
NOW catra’s a lil pissed and impressed cause Finn manged to trick DT but also left their sights. Catra gives a speech about how much trouble finns in but also quite impressed with their work and tells them that, they’ll show them how to really trick somebody (aka pranks) 
Later that night the advisor and the rogue clones finally finish the plan to get rid of catra and finn. 
A WEEK LATER. Spoiler alert its finn Bday (Oh god here comes the angst)
The R.A suggests a Royal family picnic. Glimmer, Micah, Bow, Glimbow kid, catra, adora, and finn go to the whispering woods cause theres a nice clearing the advisor has “Suggested.”
a mile or so away rogue clones had been herding up the wild beasts of the woods. (Yknow those hog creatures) 
Catra and adora actually have a gift for finn but want it to be a suprise so they ask the advisor what to do, Advisor tells them that theyll take finn to a spot near the picnic and they can give them the gift there.
Advisor puts finn in a spot and then signals the clones.
The ground shakes, the trees start moving, BAM OUT comes running thousands of magic hogs. RUN
Finns on all fours running for their life, their panting and see a spot which they presume will keep them safe. It’s not safe at all. 
Finn bolts into a canyon, and sees a high top rock that SURE LOOKS STABLE. They climb up it.
Back at the picnic advisor runs back to the crew, and tells them what happened, Catra goes haywire and starts bolting towards the canyon, Adora tells bow and glimmer to get help and grab the advisor and head towards finn.
Catra reaches the canyon first, she spots finn on the rock, Jumping down she goes running along in the herd til grabbing finn, Adora and the advisor are watching from the top, Catra is carrying finn and puts them on a platform of the canyon. Catra gets impaled by a running hogs horn, She goes down into the herd.
“CATRAAA!” Adora cries and jumps down into the herd as She-ra to save catra. Finn looks on in horror trying to spot adora and catra. Boom out jumps adora  going up the slide, struggling to carry catras limp body.
Finn goes to climb their way out of the canyon.
Adora is holding catra tightly and is still climbing til she sees the Advisor looking down on them. “Here! Grab onto catra!” The advisor smiles sinisterly. “I’m Afraid I can’t do that adora..” Adora looks at them in confusion. “Goodbye my oldest enemy” The advisors eyes flash green. Adora’s eyes go wide. BAM a burst of magic hits adora causing her to fall with catra.
Finn screams in the distant.
The herd leaves. Its quiet. dust is still kicked up.
Finn looks at their parents bodies on the ground. Limp.
“M-mom’s?” They called out. Knees buckling they go to catra shaking her “Please you gotta get up...”
“What have you done...” The advisor voice tells them.
Finn looks them at in fear “I didn-” “Insolent child! Look at what have you done! You’ve robbed etheria of their greatest heros!” Finns ears fold back, tears flooding their face.
“Get out of here. If you ever show your face here again I’ll have the palace guards kill you” a bright ball of magic formed in the advisors hand.
Finn bolts. the advisor chuckles darkly, for it was only the beginning of a new era.  
Bow and glimmer teleport to area. they spot their friends.
Glimmer shakes catra “Horde scum DONT YOU DARE-” Catra bolts up gasping and then groans in pain “well.. there goes one of my 9 lives.”  catra looks around and sees adora. And now shes screaming at glimmer to heal her. 
The advisor looks ready to run. Glimmer heals adora and adora stirs going “W-what happened?” catra fills her in (catra doesnt know about the advisor she was unconsious.) And they cant find finn. so now its depresso expresso time cause adora cant remeber what happened and where finn is. 
LOL  IHATE WRITING THIS ALREADY. 
Alrighty alrighty. So finn gets lost in the crimson and find Lonnie and the horde kids. (they dont know its catra or adoras kid cause they burnt that bridge) they adopt em for protection and help with digging in the crimson waste mines for gems and whatever else. And finn dyes their hair blond and shaves it to hide their idenity in fear of the advisor.
8 or so years past. Finns like 17 and the horde kids r old LOL
Scorfumas kid stumbles upon finn and they go into conversation about what the hell happened. Finn tells em about how they killed their parents and how they werent allowed near brightmoon cause the advisor would kill them. Scorfumas kid then has to explain that the advisor was now running brightmoon into the ground using their grief to an advantage. Btw kyles singing can u feel the love cause he do be misintruptioning shit. fuckin kyle XD (Lonnie is gonna kill this fool)
LATER FINN LOOKS AT THE WOODS AND OUT COMES YA GURL RAZZLE DAZZLE! Madam razz goes into her time loops and yknow the deal, she goes “Catra is that you dearie?” Finns like “YOU KNOW MY MOM?!” anyway razz leads them to the abandoned fort of grayskull yack yack yeack. Razz tells them that evil comes from power, not from heart, remember who you are type of shit.
Finn finally decides to go home.
Back at brightmoon everythings horrible. its the works yknow? DT got stuck in the “Prison” cause of how they were sus of the advisor.
Just gonna shorten it cause this is so LONG. Finn shows up, catradora are in shock. advisor turns out is the leftover of PRIME so then finn and him fight. Finn wins and here comes one of the newest heros to etheria. GG end of AU LOL
Sorry I dont know what I just wrote. but yeah theres the gist of the idea if yall wanna steal and try to write this shitpost? idk lol thanks for coming to this ted talk
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jungnoir · 4 years
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𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡!𝐛𝐭𝐬;
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bts but as witches in a coven. discuss
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𝐬𝐞𝐨𝐤𝐣𝐢𝐧: the supreme
ok not quite but he’s the most experienced in magic out of all the boys
his mother was a witch and she taught him everything he needed to know from birth to adulthood
his whole family is blessed with magic save for a few who didn’t get the gene but every family reunion they all dote on jin and talk about how powerful he’s become and how proud they are of him
the coven house where all of the boys stay is actually jin’s ancestor’s home from a long time ago
the place has brought up witches of all generations and jin was very eager to inherit it
while there’s definitely a lack of witches he’s been able to recruit, he loves his family of six so it doesn’t really bother him
he acts like he’s all serious but in reality he’s always casting spells on the youngins as tests (read: for fun)
jimin: why tf did you give me green skin
jin: if you had been paying attention during lessons you would know how to fix it :)
has definitely said this out of context more than once: ”any witch worth a broom handle knows how to get rid of poisonous snakes! you know back in my day…”
wears the flashiest outfits, but little do people know that they’re all homemade. he has a serious creative eye and seeks to make what simple human designers wish they could (taehyung is very eager to learn this talent from him)
goes all out on halloween with this talent too, creating uber realistic costumes
no he didn’t make a costume out of real human bones that year he went as a scarily realistic skeleton what are you talking about
no graves were robbed in the making of this outfit
if you couldn’t tell, his specialty is in glamours
honestly the guy should just tattoo “i’m a witch” across his forehead, he makes it so damn obvious
he openly practices magic too like it gives yoongi stress pains bc!! there’s still ppl who would very much like to burn witches still to this day!!! where is the self-preservation!!
jin doesn’t care. he’ll burn them right back. checkmate bitch
honestly charms anyone that comes in contact with him which is one of the things he never has to try at
the guys think he uses magic to do it but he’s honestly just, as jin would say, “born with it”
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𝐲𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐢: the right hand man
*namjoon voice* and who do we got here right now??? ˢᵘᵍᵃ!!!
when it comes to magic, yoongi is pretty neutral
an awfully interesting feeling to have given that seokjin has appointed him the heir of the coven in case anything happens to him
he’s not obsessed with magic like tae, hobi or kook
he doesn’t spend his time learning everything about it like namjoon
and he’s not playful with it like jimin and jin
yoongi just… acknowledges it. its like it exists as something he can do and he’s proud but he doesn’t really care if that makes sense
most of his friends outside of the coven are human too and he has no reservations about telling them what he is bc if they cause trouble he is more than prepared to take care of it
they’re usually like “wow so cool! i wish i was a witch” but yoongi really doesn’t care lmao
with or without magic, yoongi is the same: he loves music, he loves making music, and he loves being a musician
yoongi, however, is guilty of having used magic to make his music just right before
sometimes a note just doesn’t sit with him right and it’s driving him insane
or maybe the bass doesn’t hit hard enough
he charms his music in a way that when one listens to it, they feel exactly what yoongi wants them to feel
people are always telling him he has a real gift in music and while he most certainly does, he feels he has to give credit to his magic for helping him along sometimes
but then seokjin will be like “isn’t magic your talent too? aren’t you just exercising it when you charm your music? it’s not like you can only make music well. you should give yourself props for your magic too”
it’s just. weird to him because he’s seen how much magic can corrupt people in much higher positions than himself and it’s Terrifying
he wants to know that no matter what he makes, it’s his and his alone, not attributed to any otherworldly advantage
this just kind of contributes to his need to be as detached from magic as possible
he’s too cheap to buy one of those coffee makers that automatically start brewing at a certain time in the morning and just uses magic to do it instead
“yoongi do you want me to buy you a new coffee maker for your birthday? they have ones that do all the work for you now-” “no”
he has to be extra, okay namjoon
jimin teases him sometimes but yoongi knows it’s all out of love
jimin understands yoongi in a way, and while the others are always like “yoongi you should have more fun with your magic!” jimin is always like “no no no, let him be”
besides yoongi could probably smoke all of them in a battle of magic if it came down to it lol
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𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐨𝐤: the perfectionist
HERE HE IS!!! ITS HE
hoseok is probably one of the most talented witches in the coven
hoseok is a perfectionist to a t so if he feels insecure about how he’s doing a certain spell he will do it over and over and over until he’s got it right which makes him a pretty formidable opponent
like even the boys wouldn’t go up against him bc they know they’re just gonna get their ass handed to them
he’s a sweetie tho and very light-hearted and he never lets his power get to his head
he mainly uses it to bother the others tbh
also uses magic to give himself and the boys cool ass hair colors
currently he’s obsessed with this orange he’s got going on
calls it “pumpkin spice” bc it angers yoongi
“it really brings out the burnt sunset hues of a pumpkin ya know? or like a mix of changing fall colors, like golden crisp and warm crimson” “it’s fucking orange” yoongi can be heard chiming in from somewhere else in the house
but don’t get me wrong, hoseok loves himself some yoongi and vice versa
yoongi taught hoseok directly bc yoongi was the one that found hoseok
he was just an average college student and wasn’t really finding a will to live outside of paying off his student debts
he didn’t know what he wanted to do with his life and was pretty dead inside, working at a cafe and serving coffee to other dead inside college students when yoongi came in and sensed his strong magical aura
yoongi kinda forced hoseok’s magic out of him by tossing a cup of steaming hot coffee to the floor, causing hoseok to freeze the entire cafe in time, save for the two of them. yoongi told him what he was and the rest was history
now that it’s been so long hoseok still gets upset that yoongi was willing to break one of the cafe’s mugs to prove a point
because of course, when time unfroze, the mug fuckin shattered all over the place what a fuckin jerk guess who’s going to have to clean that up does he really have no respect for retail workers seriou
seokjin also was opposed to yoongi’s method but since it resulted in hobi joining their coven, he can’t be too mad
it was hoseok’s natural ability that yoongi was able to help hone, and when hoseok found a love for it, he took it upon himself to be the absolute best witch he could be
hoseok’s power of stopping time is uniquely his own and he’s worked hard to perfect it
sometimes he just stops time to stop it
hob: *freezes a movie theater right before something dramatic happens on screen* hold on yall I gotta piss real quick
freezing time is also super helpful during *cough* stressful exams* cough*
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𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐣𝐨𝐨𝐧: the scholar
he knows…. everything
not only did he do the reading, he did an 8 page analysis on it and corrected a few mistakes too
namjoon was aware of his witchy nature even from the moment he was a little kid, and his parents were both human and a bit scared for him since they didn’t know how to handle it, but they gave him the option of pursuing magic or not. they made sure to do all their own research into where witches could go to hone their craft just in case
in the end, namjoon grew curious and started reading books about magic and magical things
tho he didn’t actually start using his power until his mid teens
by then he was a bit shaky with it, but he knew a lot and was very determined so he got the hang of it very quickly
rarely uses his magic outside of it being necessary tho bc he’s gone so long without having to use it that he doesn’t rely on it for anything
he also likes to be independent from his magic in a way
while magic is very much a part of him and his being, he doesn’t want it to be like a crutch, you know? his biggest fear is losing his magic, bc he’s heard it can happen
he’s also aware that some witches lose important life skills and miss out on opportunities to build their character bc they’re so used to being able to just magic their way out of a situation
went from student to teacher real quick
teaches the other boys how to properly say incantations
“its levios-ah not levios-ar”
actually?? a pretty scary dude when it comes to using his magic for real
don’t put him in a situation where someone is getting hurt because he will not go easy on the aggressor. the other boys can attest to this too, having been saved by him far too many times than is acceptable in namjoon’s eyes
basically dont fuck with namjoon’s boys or u gon die
does cute things for the boys on their birthdays with magic
one time taehyung was sad that it wasn’t snowing on his birthday so namjoon made it snow for hours
may have fucked up the climate a lil bit
yoongi almost lost a toe
namjoon frequents a library and whenever a lil kid is struggling to reach a book he uses his magic to drift the book down to the little kid and when the kid looks at him in awe he just presses his finger to his lips and winks at them
flirts using his extreme wicca knowledge, of which is either a major turn off or a major turn on. you decide
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𝐣𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧: the reluctant
jimin loves magic, but it wasn’t always like that
jimin kinda struggled with accepting his magical abilities at a young age bc he was really confused
like why wasn’t he just like everyone else? why did he have to be a witch? why did he have to have magic when he could’ve just been normal?
he often rejected it, never bothering to learn anything even to impress the family at reunions
but as he grew older, his parents grew worried he’d hate his magic and never use it again, putting him in a vulnerable position if his magic were ever to just come out when jimin isn’t in a place to control it, so they let him meet a slightly older witch that could help mentor him
his parents would’ve done it but jimin hardly ever listened to his parents about magic and they wanted to show him there were witches his age that were amazing people and embraced it, that it didn’t take away from jimin’s life but in fact added to it
in comes yoongi
yoongi, at first, really pities jimin
he understands the struggle between wanting to be normal and dealing with a part of his identity that won’t ever go away
where yoongi is concerned, that struggle for him was that he wanted to be himself regardless of being talented in magic. jimin... just hates it
but then jimin starts bashing magic and witches and he’s about to get angry at his parents for trying to force him into being a witch when yoongi just,,, slaps him upside the head
jimin’s shocked and yoongi is just like “respect your parents kid, they’re looking out for you. just because you don’t use your magic doesn’t mean people won’t know you’re a witch. its dangerous for a witch to go around with magic and not know how to use it”
jimin is shocked. he never thought of it that way
jimin feels embarrassed all of a sudden and apologizes and then yoongi cracks a smile and he’s like “no biggie kid, i’m just here to teach you the basics of magic and then i’ll be out of your hair”
jimin finds that learning magic with yoongi is really fun and soon he’s asking to be apart of the coven and embracing being a witch
he becomes carefree with it, like it’s another part of him, and he’s still kinda inexperienced, but he’s learning a lot from yoongi and namjoon
loves playing with temperature
the boys make him freeze their drinks for him, or ask him to heat up some popcorn while they’re all sprawled out on the couch on movie night bc no one feels like waiting two minutes for it to cook in the microwave
makes the water in the shower cold whenever one of the boys is taking way too fucking long in there which is Everyday
also jimin: *hitting on someone at the bar* *makes the room slightly warmer* “is it hot in here or is it just you?”
relates everything he learns back to naruto in some way, much to everyone’s complete and utter confusion
he just really kins the guy i guess
100% owns every single witch pun shirt known to man
“witch please” “witches do it better” “this is my resting witch face”
jungkook: by all means jimin why don’t you just burn us all at the stake yourself
it’s ok tho bc it’s his own little way of owning his identity, and if you want to avoid having your fingers frozen off, you’ll be sure not to step to him any kind of way
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my favorite witch!!! i wrote this whole thing for him
tae is like jin in that his whole family is magical and he grew up surrounded by magic his whole life
in fact, he’s so familiar with magic that he’s kind of sick of it (no he isn’t (most of the time))
taehyung is unique with his magic bc he’s actually able to transcend realms oooh~
the information on how many realms and parallel universes and such are limited as hell so taehyung actively helps broaden that knowledge as he travels, a very Dangerous and Scary job to anybody else
but to him he’s like!! fuck yeah astral projection!
basically, he’s able to put himself into a deep sleep where he moves through different realms, some more or less magical than the others
he’s so good at it that he can project himself into someone else’s dreams too
he’s basically capable of seeing more than most magical beings, and he can perceive spirits easily, as well as being able to actually see a magical aura around someone
so for instance, if a witch who didn’t know they were a witch walked into a bar, he’d know what they were instantly. besides the general intuitive feeling that most witches get, he can see the auras physically, like swarming tendrils of smoke unique to every person
each aura feels and looks different than others which makes it easy for him to point out shape shifters and vampires and werewolves and all the other guys pretty easily
bc of this ability, taehyung also likes to mess with the boys like everyone else lol
“tae, i just saw the most beautiful-” “they’re actually an ogre in disguise” “WHAT”
“man my english teacher is a witch” “she actually is”
in case you couldn’t tell tae’s favorite victim is jungkook
casually tells people he’s a witch just for the #reactions
if you’re wondering, no. nobody in this coven cares about keeping this shit a secret
since he’s more sensitive to dreaming, a lot of his dreams leave him incredibly emotional because sometimes he really is there
he once had a dream where all magical beings were universally accepted in the world and were loved and happy and woke up sobbing into jimin’s lap
also nightmares take a HUGE toll on him so his sleep pattern is fucked for real
usually ends up eating cake with jin in the dining room at four am and talking about life together to get the nightmares off tae’s mind
tae uses his magic on humans in a different way. like he doesn’t prank them that much, but rather manipulates their moods. he tries to charm anyone he comes in contact with to make them happy or to make them giggly
he wants to use his magic for good, because it often leaves a very painful burden on him in turn
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honestly i feel like if jungkook was a witch he’d probably be an underdeveloped one, you feel?
he finds out his power late bc either his family didn’t know (they’re all human) or they just didn’t tell him in hopes of him never becoming one
but jungkook is being bullied by some guys in his grade and they corner him after school one day and jungkook gets so frustrated that he just,,, makes them all start uncontrollably burping
as dumb as it is, those kids never bother jungkook again
when he does get a hang of it, jungkook probably uses his magic for fun more often than not
jungkook is recruited by jin for this very reason. he catches jungkook messing with old people at the park on his afternoon runs and he’s like this kid is such a brat. i want him
jungkook is SUCH a fast learner holy shit
he goes to namjoon for every little question, to the point where namjoon is positive he’s become a better witch simply because jungkook has prepared him for any fuckin scenario known to man
he also makes himself float upside down in the kitchen at night so when hoseok comes down for a glass of water he almost pisses himself
“haha did i scare you” 
cue hoseok making jungkook fall down as he mumbles “little shit” under his breath
halloween is his favorite time of year and he likes to pull harmless pranks on the kiddies while scaring the mean teenagers ruining all of the children’s fun
like he sees this guy in a deformed mask holding a plastic knife about to scare a little boy so Jungkook just gives the dude a wedgie with his magic
all the kids are laughing at him and jungkook just smirks
honestly he doesn’t like reading about magic as much as he likes just doing it from intuition/namjoon’s instruction. he’s a lot like hoseok in that he has a lot of natural talent but not a lot of proper training when he first starts honing his ability
since jin yoongi and namjoon are in charge of teaching magic they all hound on him like “did u do the reading”
jungkook maybe glosses over everything and then just over-performs as compensation
they get on him abt it but there’s no lying about it, jungkook is a strong witch on his own
he hasn’t gotten a special manifestation of his magic Just Yet but he only gets stronger as he goes. the more he applies himself, the stronger he grows
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I just wanna get this off my chest, but I love the thought of aexl meeting a girl on the cult bus and falling inlove with her. Then Travelling on the bus with her
All fucking hell I looked at this ask at almost midnight while trying to fall asleep and instead my head is swarming with Ideas for an entirely new axel x reader fic god damn it
Oh well... but I need to finish Silent Love first. For now, look forward for a future axel x modern witch!reader type thing cause that's where I'm leaning
I know modern witchcraft isnt really common knowledge for most people, although I did answer an ask that's was otto with a kitchen witch, I'm sure most of yall would need some clarification on the basics of witchcraft in order to understand.
Me myself am only a baby witch, I started learning because of quarantine so I have very limited knowledge that may or may not be entirely correct, but just know for now it's not satanic, we dont worship the devil, we are not evil automatically because we are a witch. Modern witchcraft has next to nothing to do with media portrayed witchcraft. We even spell the word magick with a k to signify that it is different from the make believe shit.
You dont have to believe in it, just be respectful. Concerning religions, witchcraft can be incorporated into literaly any religion ever (although wicca is, as I like to think of it, the one religion where witchcraft is basicaly its official form of practice put simply. Dont quote me on that tho, I hardly know anything that's just how I think of it) and you dont even have to use religion in it at all if you dont want to.
Theres many different ways to practice, and many different types of witches. Just know the labels arent gonna make or break your witchcraft career like the whole thing is very open. Theres a type of which (I dont remember right now) that is literaly a home brewed mix of whatever type of witchcraft you practice
Theres crystal witches, who use Crystal's,
Theres kitchen witches, as explained in the otto x kitchen witch ask, look through my Avellanaask hashtag to find it
Theres sea witches, who work with water and the ocean mostly I think,
Theres witches that specialize in like zodiac and asteonomy
Theres a lot, just know that. But you shouldent let the labels define witches just like you shouldent let race, gender, age, or religion define a human person. As I like to say, nothing is black and white. It's all a mixture of gray.
If you dont think this kind of reader fic is gonna be for you, that's totaly fine. Everyone has their own tastes. I'm gonna be mostly self portraying in it with my limited knowledge from my own witchcraft experiences. Not everything is gonna be completely accurate regarding witchcraft. This is gonna be a bumpy ride, but I wanna attempt it.
If you are still really confused on modern witchcraft but are interested in the fic, plz plz plz take the time to research about it. I wont be starting it till I finish Silent Love so you've got a while. Research is the backbone of witchcraft, since there isnt a set book or bible telling us about it and how it 'must' be done. I'd reccomend youtube searching a witchcraft series to get started. But DONT ONLY PULL FROM ONE SOURCE PLZ. I'll try and do my best to explain things in the fic since Axel will know nothing himself about modern witchcraft, but it still might be a bit confusing. Also the fic is not mean to substitute for real witchcraft research plz it's just a story for funsies. You wouldent go reading a fictional story about the irish to learn how to be irish, would you? No. It doesnt work like that.
If you are a more experienced witch than me (most likely if you've been practicing for over 2 months) and you see me doing or saying something wrong or misinforming plz plz plz call me out, I dont wanna mislead people and miss educate. I think this fic could be a great opportunity for people to get familiar with modern witchcraft so it scares less people. Hate is born out of ignorance and lack of knowledge. Even if you dont wanna read the fic, you could still go out and learn about witchcraft If you want to that's your choice. You dont have to commit to practicing it or anything, but knowledge is power sometimes, ya know?
I dont have a name for this new fic yet, but I will probably announce it (mabey with a like prologue thing if I can come up with one)
Also I'm so so sorry anon this is probably the EXACT OPPOSITE of how you thought I would answer this ;-;-;-;-; but ty for the inspiration for a new fic!!!!
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CINDERELLA AU I WROTE FROM THE GROUP CHAT PART SOMETHING
WARNING: mentions of abuse yall its now on ao3 so if youd rather read it there go ahead https://archiveofourown.org/works/24003439 
It wasn't Remus's fault he was a werewolf. If anything it was the blasted moon's fault, for taking the sanity of his mind once a month to fulfill its own personal desires. it wasn't his fault his parents and sisters didn't like him. Well most of the time. He would be lying if he said he hadn't egged them on every now and then but not often, not often enough for this.
Remus gingerly rubbed his arm,one of the many areas whipped and beaten tender and raw frequently. It would have been nice to think that his loving family were smart enough to not have left marks, but alas, they weren't. Not that it mattered. He'd had marks since his first moon, when he was six. 
The marks were just one other thing that showed how he was a monster, less than human but close enough to know how much he wanted to be one. His eyes, that reflected light like a wolf, his canine teeth, just a bit larger than normal, enough to be unsettling, and his ears, that could hear the slightest of sounds outside of the full moon.
His ears he didn't mind so much, they were nice and offered him his only friends, the animals near their manor, but they were still unnatural. Speaking of his friends he heard a familiar scatter and quickly made sure the door to the attic, his room, was locked. 
Peter, as the rat had told him his name was, scurried into the room. Peter on the outside seemed like a rat in every sense of the word until you talked to him. It seemed he was the opposite of Remus in a sense, a human with just a taste of being something less than, to know to avoid it.
ya got any of that good cheese the rat squeaked. Remus rolled his eyes, Peter also had a very one tracked mind.
"sorry friend, no meals for me for a while" he stated matter of factly. Peter groaned as well as a rat could groan.
What did you do this time? You know you shouldn't egg them on.
"Why, little ol me?" Remus mock gasped, "I would never." then he laughed "Well I would and do, but not this time. This time it was because I forgot to clean the chicken coop a third time, silly me."
Peter looked stern
 you could leave, tear them apart, you're a werewolf for merlins sake, you have magic, wandless magic most wizards would kill for it.
"you forget" Remus added bitterly "Most werewolves kill for it. Or well jealousy of it. doing wandless magic would be like waving a sign saying "hello, I'm a werewolf, incredibly dangerous and unstable, grab your pitchforks and torches, please, go ahead and kill me. Besides it's not like I can have my wand, its locked up remember." This much was true, his wand had been locked up since he had first been bitten. Peter squeaked in indignation, he didn't like when Remus spoke so casually about such things or used his wry sarcastic voice like such.
Remus would have continued if it weren't for the thudding of someone coming up the ladder to the attic. Peter started squeaking in fright.
"Shhh, Peter, be quiet, hide." Remus hissed, trying to keep the nerves out of his voice. 
The trapdoor swung open and his father, Lyall Lupin, stepped in in disgust.
"You'll be getting a reprieve, lucky you." Remus tried not to perk up at this, knowing that the rest of the story was yet to come.
"The black family is holding a ball for their sons 19th birthday and we are invited. We, of course, means not you." Remus resisted scoffing, naturally.
The Lupins were high society and therefore high enough to be invited to many gatherings, occasions, balls, parties and such, even by the Black Family. To be honest, the black family mostly gained its respect and wealth from fear and other unsavory going ons.
still, he couldn't help the pang of remorse of knowing that he could never go to one, much less the blacks. He had heard that Sirius black, the heir to the blacks title, was a sight to behold.
Even with successfully having kept his emotions in check, one look of misery flying across his face was enough for punishment.
"crucio '' Lyall whispered, barely audible. but Remus's ears could hear it, Remus could recognize the hatred that would flare in his father's eyes, and the way his lips moved, and his arm raised ever so slightly. He would have known what was coming even without being a werewolf.
Remus didn't scream. 
For the first 3 seconds at least. a new record, a small part of his brain laughed.
Finally after years, the pain ended and Remus was on all fours, choking up blood, and clawing at the floorboards.
Crucio was not a favorite in the Lupin household but it was used when deemed necessary, or ya know, when someone was just angry or stressed enough.
"Remember your place, monster. You do not, have not, and will not ever deserve to feel emotions. Emotions are for humans" Lyall sneered and then spat at Remus.
and with that he left, crying out a list of chores and a "We'll be back at 3 in the morning, have them completed by then."
Remus didn't dare nod. He sat in silence before he remembered that Peter was still in the room.
"Oh shit, Peter are you ok? SHit I'm so sorry you had to see that." While Remus had screamed whilst being taught his lesson, he had not cried. He frequently chalked that up to simply having no more tears left to cry, or that monsters simply didn't cry but as he saw Peter shaking in fear under his bed covers, his heart broke. 
"Peter, shh, shh, hey, im ok, see im ok, everything's alright"
I should be comforting you! The cruciatus is illegal!
"so is a werewolf living unregistered."
thats different
"How so, please enlighten me between using a spell that makes you a monster and being a monster." Remus snapped. 
Peter paused, then tried to keep his voice even.
Remus, you can't believe him, you are not a monster in any way shape or form, please tell me you don't believe him
"Oh really Peter, would a human be able to smell the fear on you, because I do, you're afraid Peter, afraid of me, afraid of the monster I am."
I am afraid for you, huge difference Peter retorted as calmly as he could muster. Remus sighed.
"I know, you're right, im sorry Peter. its- its been a long day, I think im going to take a walk"
don't be too long, its a full moon tonight.
"how could I ever forget" Remus said with a smile, and with that he left.
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Remus took a walk around the grounds, and finally collapsed on a stone bench by the moonflowers. ugh fucking moon flowers, he hated them. they only bloomed at night and only the magical ones bloomed on full moons.
Draping his arms and head across the bench as he knelt in the grass Remus sighed, trying to steady his breathing. In. Out. In. Out. but then the pace changed, the rhythm uneven, interrupted by hiccups, some breaths shallow, others unbearably deep like it was the first breath of air he'd ever had. Oh, he was crying, Remus realized. apparently he was still human enough to cry. Then he looked at the moon, steadily rising in the night sky and cried even harder.
"-i wish,I fucking wish" he hiccuped. "that I could just be fucking normal for one goddamn night, get dressed up even. Hell maybe I could go to the fucking black party." He mocked a posh voice "Wouldn't that be a ball" and he was laughing as he cried. He heard a rustle behind him, felt the shadow being cast on him and looked up.
A stag, a rather large one at that. That was odd, something about him reminded him of Peter.
it's dangerous to wish upon moonlight, hadn't you heard
"I think I've apparently preemptively paid my price, thanks for the concern." then Remus was looking at the stag oddly, he was different in the same way Peter was.
"besides," Remus continued conversationally, "I hear that werewolves come out on full moons, nasty things those werewolves are, can't trust them. You better run along before you get mauled."
you only change at midnight, I think im fine 
this shocked Remus, he did not expect the stag to know he was a werewolf and was hoping for him to run along and let him continue being dramatic in the moonlight.
so about those wishes, what would you do for them 
Remus could tell when someone was trying to change the topic, so he obliged.
"what would you do if you were in my situation?" Remus asked, not willing to play the stags games.
i would kill, hurt, take my revenge, my justice, take what's mine, my rights
"you and I are not very alike then, I don't think I ever could do that." This seemed to please the stag as it's upper lip curled just a bit. 
 please, call me James 
and with that Remus felt the tingle of magic under his skin, yet it wasn't in a bad way like normal. Not understanding what was happening, but embracing the feeling, Remus shut his eyes, stood and let whatever the apparently magical deer wanted to happen, happen. Was it odd to say that he trusted this deer as much as Peter?
when Remus opened his eyes, he was wearing a white suit with blue and gold accents and he was standing in something hard, but not uncomfortable. He looked down. Fucking moonstone shoes. what the fuck. how were they not a) heavy as all get out b) uncomfortable as all get out and c) why there weren't literally any other material that wasn't moonstones.
"look while I appreciate being told I need fashion help,I don't think i-"
I'm not finished, the stag, James, said amused. then he turned around to a pumpkin in the garden.
Suddenly the pumpkin was growing, then it was paling in color, and then it was hollow, and then there were craters and oh shit, James , a deer, James the deer, had a fucked up sense of humor turning a pumpkin into a moon carriage that glowed in the other moons moonlight. Moon moon moon moon moon. Remus thought to himself in disgust. Remus just wished he understood what the punchline was.
"again, while I appreciate being told I need better wheels I still don't-" James laughed, or neighed, or whatever it was that stags did. 
you're very impatient and then there was a rustle again, this time smaller
James turned around, not angry, not amused, but like something he had rather wished not to believe had made sense.
and look, now we have our mighty steed!  James whipped his head around, and Remus cried out, recognizing Peter. Peter squeaked in fear and turned to run but was too slow. at an uneven pace his body began growing and shifting until he was a "mighty steed" as James put it
"Peter, are you ok, can you hear me?" the horse, Peter, nodded. James looked shocked, well as shocked as stag could look Remus supposed
you call him Peter?
"yes,I call you James and I call him Peter, there are these things called names you see, they're very funny" Remus retorted, angry that his friend had been turned into a horse
"Look mr.I would murder someone stag,I don't appreciate my friend being turned into a horse and would rather you tell me what's going on or turn him back this instant." James grinned,
for a smart one you can be stupid. I thought it was obvious, you have to arrive at the black mansion in style of course. 
Remus gaped, no he couldn't do this, what if he was caught by his family, what if he hurt someone, what if he-
as he started to voice these complaints to James he was cut off
you've got one shot at normal, maybe even turning your life around, will you take it? 
Remus didn't know if he could bear tasting normalcy and then having it ripped away from him but he couldn't bear it either way so he nodded.
good, because otherwise all this transfiguration would've gone to waste.
"transfiguration- wait- how do you , can you-"
well would you look at the time, the party's about to start, hop on lets get going, no time to dawdle and James nudged Remus into the carriage where Peter had hooked himself up begrudgingly. 
"wait why are you doing this, what are you?"
who knows, maybe I'm your fairy godmother or something, did you ever think of that hmm, and frankly,I don't care. 
and with that, James was gone.
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Sirius sighed. He would have much preferred a quiet celebration with his best mates Peter and James but sure, why not, throw a lavish party, thank you.
Still it's not like he could complain, he liked dancing, he liked people, sometimes, and he liked meeting young men. Sirius knew part of the reason why his mother was hosting this party, so he could find a nice wealthy respectable lady, get hitched, get her prego and create another bundle of tiny blacks.
Not like that would ever happen if men kept looking the way they did,  and that didn't appear to be stopping anytime soon so he got ready for the ball.
An hour of prep later, freshly showered and clothed in a black suit with red and gold accents, standing in front of the mirror Sirius was wondering if he should even go to this party in his honor. He could just bail, it's not like he didn't already know all of the men going and that they were all pretty damn straight. and boring, can't forget boring. He could just grab James and Peter, get some firewhiskey and waste the night away, yeah that sounded nice.
Speaking of James and Peter, he was beginning to get worried. Peter had been pretty flighty as of late saying shit like he was seeing his "werewolf friend named Remus that was being abused" honestly, Peter should have outgrown imaginary friends, but that seemed rude to say so Sirius went along with it. He was beginning to grow rather concerned as Peter's description of his, Remus's, abuse was growing rather vivid, and very violent. James on the other hand, well they were attached at the hip. while the blacks and potters didn't necessarily historically get along very well, that had never stopped James and Sirius. maybe he was out prancing in his animagus form? He had been doing that a lot too lately as well. Or maybe he was trying to woo lily, who knew?
finally, James showed up, a half hour before the party started covered in leaves and looking magically exhausted muttering something about "a moon, a giant moon, damn im so fucking good" and laughing to himself. 
"Oi James, fucking finally? Where have you been? does this mean we're skipping" James swayed a little in place and Sirius immediately fetched him some water. At the word skipping James straightened up, trying to keep a calm face.
"No no no, it's your 19th birthday. I think you should go, I have a feeling this one'll be special."
that was odd. James and Sirius both knew that his birthday often turned into a shit show as they both grew bored with the company and the whole thing in general and decided to plan a monstrous prank. not something "special." giving up trying to understand the inner workings of James's mind Sirius sighed and said simply 
"i have a green suit that will go nicely with your eyes in my closet, get the leaves out of your hair, try to make yourself presentable and I'll go get it" James grinned that classic James grin and saluted
did not mean to hit send yet whoops
"yessir" and began fussing with his hair trying to get leaves and sticks out.  Sirius rummaged around in his closet, still worrying about Peter. when he voiced this to James, James merely grinned wider and said "I think he's hanging out with his werewolf friend"
"On my birthday?" Sirius whined James laughed and said simply
"as much as it tries to, the world does not revolve around you."
Sirius sighed dramatically once more, looked at the time, and got ready to go greet his arriving guests
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Remus's family was wealthy, he knew that much, but what he did not know was that his wealth was inconsequential in comparison to the blacks.
 a mass of black brick, gargoyles and buttresses that was the black mansion spread across the horizon as the steady line of extravagant carriages grew nearer.
Remus swallowed his nerves and adjusted his hair and after what seemed like ages they arrived. Remus tentatively walked the steps, not trying to feel self conscious as he was walking alone, while everyone else was in groups of around 3 or more.
"name sir?" Oh shit, Remus forgot about this part, the overly dramatic "hey let's announce your whole presence so your abusive family knows you disobeyed them and shit" part. panicking, Remus said baldar io. baldar after one of the arabic words for moon and io after jupiter's moon. shit. he just named himself moon moon. 
"SIR BALDAR IO" the man cried out, and more than a few heads turned, at this unfamiliar name. 
Remus shrunk under the attention and decided he would make his way over to the buffet as gracefully as possible when the large double doors at the end of the room flung open. Out walked a woman and three men, all with jet black hair. Remus would have assumed that they were all related if it weren't for the jet green eyes of one of them, while the others had a stark grey. 
Remus couldn't help it, he was a little amused, and a little disappointed. The infamous blacks were rather ordinary looking, the younger one, that Remus assumed must be Sirius, had short black hair and a hollow gaze. and Then all of them shifted, and Remus's eyes widened as a hush filled the room.
"the young Sirius black!" the woman, his mother, announced. Sirius black was more than Remus could have ever imagined beauty to look like.
his hair was long and black, obviously, but it curled at odd romantic angles, his jawline looked like it was sharp enough to kill, but would settle for helping give gentle kisses instead, his eyes lacked the piercing violent ferocity that the other 3 blacks had, but looked as though it's own ferocity was nothing to be mocked.
Remus openly gaped, and even heard a couple of chuckles around him as people noticed. 
the man, Sirius black looked bored yet intrigued by the whole thing, like he was waiting for something special to happen but was disappointed it hadn't happened yet.
Remus had to leave he had to get out, shit how could he even be in the same room as this man without combusting he would never know as he turned to leave, Remus realised he was gathered in the middle of the dance floor with everyone else and the music began to swell.
shit shit shit shit shit.
"I can't help to notice you're looking a little lost." without turning around Remus chuckled
"you would have noticed correctly then"
"So what brings you to the dance floor if not to dance?"
"I was-" Remus turned around and silently gasped, Sirius black was standing in front of him, smirking.
"well then, shall we show them all up and dance absolutely divinely, badar io?"
"I-I'm afraid I wouldn't be doing much showing up as I have no clue what this is,"
"Well you see, this is called a waltz, Shostakovich Waltz No 2 to be precise." Remus rolled his eyes at sirus's teasing.
"Believe it or not I can recognize shostakovich when I hear it, I mean, I do not know how to dance to it. this one looks very specific." Sirius's face broke out into a full fledged grin as he said
"No better time to learn than the present, and I happen to be an excellent partner."
"And a modest one too" Remus said dryly as he awkwardly shuffled, not knowing what to do with his limbs
Sirius noticed and took pity on Remus as he gently grabbed Remus's wrists, and guided the left hand to his shoulder, the right enclosed in his own and then sirus's hand was on his waist, unconsciously circling the fabric there with his thumb. Remus's breath hitched. He was in for a long night.
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this one, this one was funny, he was interesting, bloody gorgeous, and best of all, as gay as Sirius was. He had recalled hearing the unfamiliar name "badar io" and was immediately intrigued, but also confused when James laughed like this was the funniest thing since his first prank.
James, taking mercy on Sirius's confused and desperate expression, happened to point out the young rugged looking man that was confused on the dance floor.
And so Sirius had walked up to him, smirking, laying on the Sirius style charm, and then he didn't know how to dance which Sirius really shouldn't have found as endearing as he did, and then, one itsy bitsy final test, Sirius put his hand on badars waist, circling it, very consciously mind you, with his thumb and did a victory dance in his head as badar's breathe hitched.
he was at least a little gay alright.
So the night went and Sirius had only eyes for badar, and it seemed badar only had eyes for him, but more so than in the "hey it's Sirius black, how cool is that" way. like Sirius was his own person, interesting and attractive, and Sirius could've drowned in that look the entire night.
Instead he settled for flirting and far too personal questions. He had never really had the time or patience for small talk and this man was obviously his soulmate.
Sirius had had no belief in soulmates whatsoever until he laid eyes on badar. and his beliefs were only confirmed as he had begun to relax, get into the flow of the music, crack wry and witty jokes, and eventually flirt back.
Sirius had held no belief in true love either, or love at first sight, but as he was quickly learning, he needed to open his mind more. 
"favorite color" Sirius asked, dead serious. ha, serious he thought, the pun never failing to amuse him. badar laughed, a sound Sirius thought might possibly be his favorite in the whole wide world.
"You go from, biggest fear, greatest insecurities, what are some of the morals you live by, do you believe in second chances to what's your favorite color?" badar laughed again. "you seem to enjoy doing things backwards. it's silver. What about you?" Sirius stared intently into badars eyes and his answer had changed from the usual red or maroon to a brilliant gold, just like badars own irises
"gold"
"ah yes like your suit which is not at all gaudy in any way shape or form"
"Oi ill have you know this suit is top of the line thankyouverymuch."
"I'll have you know that top of the line can be gaudy, thankyouverymuch"
Sirius laughed for what felt like the millionth time that night.
"do you want to get out of here," he asked?
badar coughed
"ar-are you propositioning me????"
"what- OH- oh no no no, shit, no,Ithought we could go into the garden, give you a break, check out the lights and talk some more maybe?"
"oh, ok, that sounds lovely. but ill have you know I'm not accepting because im tired, im accepting because you look tired and  Iobviously have far to much stamina for you"
Sirius laughed again, but truth be told, he wanted to see how much stamina badar really had, he wanted to-
coughing and adjusting himself, he led badar out to the back gardens.
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The blacks had certainly not spared any expense when it came to floriculture, the garden was decked out in strongylodon macrobotrys, chocolate cosmos, dendrophylax lindenii, shenzen nongke orchids and-
Remus laughed, moonflowers, but only magical ones. only ones that bloomed on full moons,
It was odd, hearing Sirius laugh and pay attention to him like he was the most interesting person in the world.
It was odd, hearing himself be referred to as badar.
it was odd, he rather liked badar, it was like an alter ego, a persona, except it felt real. With a start, Remus realized that was because he was simply being his genuine self.
it was odd, seeing the usually confident Sirius black shyly not make eye contact as his soft hands intertwined with Remus's.
It was odd, feeling his own arm move over to run his fingers through Sirius's soft hair.
it was odd, being close enough to count his eyelashes, to feel his breath on his lips, to see every detail of his eyes-
it was odd feeling soft lips pressed against his own for the very first time
it was odd as he relaxed into Sirius's arms, as his eyes fluttered shut, as the tingling drifted from his stomach all the way to his finger tips. 
It was odd trusting a person so completely and fully as he did Sirius, and have them not even know his real name.
His moment of bliss was interrupted as he heard an ominous dong of the giant clock in the garden.
Shit shit shit fuck shit fuck dammit fuck
Remus didn't know how he would handle going back, knowing the tenderness he was missing, the soft hands against his own, something kind and loving that was in the world, but he knew he must. 
He pulled away frantic and said
"thank you, thank you so, so much- b- but-I really have to go." Sirius looked crestfallen at this but reached out and grabbed Remus's arm before he could fully flee.
"will I see you again" that set off the waterworks for Remus
"No, I don't think you will." The clock rang out again. and pulled Sirius in for one final chaste kiss. and then without knowing what he was doing he cried out "Remus Lupin!"
And he left, stumbling down the stairs of the garden that led into the forest, the one that connected with his own, leaving a moonstone shoe behind.
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when Remus woke up approximately an hour later (the moons were shorter when he was happy) He could remember feeling his paws pound against the forest floor. He could remember smelling home, he could remember only barely ripping out his own skin. Then he woke up, in a different kind of agony, like grieving a loss. Then he remembered the list of chores that had been left for him, that had barely seemed possible when he had an extra 3-5 hours to complete them. groaning he got to work.
Peter showed up, and was only mad at Remus for a little bit before he began trying to clean in his own little way.
finally after centuries, though it had only been two hours, Remus finished and, he tucked away his other moonstone shoe, (that for some reason had not transfigured back) and he fell into his bed and right before he fell asleep he could hear a door downstairs open, and the voices of his family walking in.
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Sirius was absolutely miserable it was three in the morning and he had gotten incredibly drunk with James and Peter immediately after badar had left. he didn't know why badar had left, why he cried out Remus Lupin, why he had kissed him so sweetly just to say he'd never see him again.
Sirius threw a pillow against the wall, feeling the impact of the sobering potion he had taken, and rubbed the moonstone shoe, the only thing that was reminding him that badar wasn't in fact a hallucination or a dream.
"James, he was just so perfect-Ijust-IthinkIlove him James,I Love him James and i'll never see him again, did you know there was never a badar io in our little town? He gave a fake name James!"
"what about the other name he gave, have you looked into it."
"What do you mean, other name- OH MERLIN ITS A NAME" A glimmer of hope shone in Sirius's eyes as he ran to the library where he knew there was a magic record of all legal documentation of families in their town. Was it illegal? yeah, but Sirius couldn't think about the morality of that right now, he was in love.
"Remus Lupin, Remus Lupin, Lupin Remus, Lupin Remus, Lupin Lupin Lupin ahA!" he cried out after flipping through pages, finally finding the Lupin line. "Remus, Remus, Remus" wait, that wasn't right, that couldn't be-
Remus Lupin, declared dead at age six, cause unknown signed- signed the entire Lupin family, what was going on, he looked down and saw a little photo and a sharp intake of breath could be heard behind him and honestly he did the same.
"James it-it says he's dead- but- but he felt- felt so- so- so- real" tears began to well in Sirius's eyes "How can he be dead?" but James wasn't paying attention, he was staring at the paper muttering 
"they're worse than I thought I can't believe they would do that,I Can't believe-"
"James what's going on?" Sirius asked, his voice small.
"I guess you deserve to know,-"
James continued " what happens on a full moon?"
"What do you mean what happens on a full moon, James the hell?"
"What happens on a full moon at midnight" something clicked in Sirius's mind though he wasn't quite sure what yet.
"Werewolves but James what-"
"What would a wealthy, respectable family do if they had a son bitten by a werewolf at age six but couldn't kill him?"
"I Mean maybe fake his death and keep him hidden but don't see-HOLY SHIT" James nodded gravely.
"Those bastards, how could they do that to him!!!?!?"
"Before you decide to go charging in, you need to think, you're still the heir to the black family, think of something crazy, ridiculous and plausible that could get you safely into the Lupin household."
"Jamesy my boy, do you even know who you're talking to?" Sirius said with a mischievous grin
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Sirius woke to the sound of giggling and his sisters running downstairs. 
It was 11 in the morning, they had let the monster sleep him, how nice. He must have done a good job last night at cleaning. Gingerly he climbed down the ladder and stopped one of his sisters, Drizella. 
"Drizella, what's going on? Remus queried. Drizella sniffed
"If you must know, Sirius black has announced he's looking for his true love, and whoever fits the shoe that was left behind by her!"
"Who's ‘her’?"
"Apparently he danced with one maiden and one maiden alone the entire night and she had to leave at midnight but didn't give him a real name and as he ran off, she left behind a moonstone shoe!"
A maiden now, was he? Remus chuckled in his mind and headed back to his room.
As he sat down, he pulled out the moonstone shoe and held it softly against his chest as a reminder of-
Suddenly he heard an outraged squeak to his left and saw his father standing in the trapdoor of the attic, looking royally pissed off, and then he saw the door shut, heard the key lock, all before he could get there
And then he was pounding on the door, splinters in his fists scrapes on his palms and then he heard "he's coming by today, your prince charming, and he will marry one of my daughters and you'll never, ever see him again."
Remus cried out and buried his face in his hands unsure of what to do.
 This time hours went by, and Remus was sure they were hours because he counted every last second. Then he heard a scritching noise under his bed so he looked and out shot Peter, looking concerned as he could be
what'd you do this time to be trapped in here Peter squeaked, horrified.
"I wooed the ever charming Sirius black and that was a no no"
Peter sputtered nonstop, starting and restarting sentences, when at that moment something crashed into Remus's room from the window. 
"What the-" Remus began but was cut off by the new black haired green eyed arrivals
 "Ok so Sirius is down stairs getting ready to slip the shoe on your sisters, he would rather only try you but we didn't count on you being locked up here" wait, was that.... James?
a voice behind them piped up.
"We could try to explode the trapdoor!" Pete added- wait Peter? Remus whipped around and groaned Peter was not a rat, well not at the moment, but he was still Peter. Remus could smell him, could hear the intonations in his voice.
"Animaguses,I Should have bloody known"
James just grinned that classic James grin and continued. "you better hurry,Ithink you're father's gonna try to fight the magic that Sirius placed on the shoe."
"what magic, why would he need magic."
"well, he kind of said... thathewouldmarrywhoevertheshoefit, because they would obviously be the one he danced with all night, and then-" James trailed off, thinking of words.
"-he knew that people would "be dying to get their paws on him maritally," his quote, not mine and so he placed a spell that the shoe would only fit the person it last belonged to but there are ways to overcome a spell and you're fathers attempting them right now also a sacred oath may or may not be involved in the whole 'ill marry whoever the shoe fits' thing."
"if the shoe fits, wear it" Remus muttered under his breath and then louder continued "Okey dokey so we don't have time to unpack all that but first- why this whole finding the feet of my 'princess' thing? if he really wanted to see me couldn't he have just, i don't know, broken down doors to find me or something."
"Always the romantic, Remus" Peter rolled his eyes.
"well, see, he's the heir to the black title, and well as much as he would love to abandon it all, he thinks he has a chance to use all that wealth and influence for good." Remus vaguely remembered Sirius implying something of the sort last night so he nodded, and James continued "so he couldn't just waltz in peoples houses being like 'ayo, are yalls Remus Lupin, lets get funky if you are' and such so thus, the extravagant plan was hatched." Remus laughed, that was just so like Sirius to do that it was ridiculous. 
then at that moment a scream could be heard downstairs. shit
The three of them paled and Sirius and Peter ran over to the trap door, having a heated conversation back and forth about "what could we do" "uh levicorpus" "thats an ankle levitation charm, idiot." "Well maybe it would have levitated the ankle of the trap door and we could have gotten out." Peter hissed back, but Remus was barely paying attention to them.
He was instead, looking out the broken window James had crashed in on. realizing what must be done, Remus stepped on the window sill, and jumped.
To be honest, Remus had never tried to jump from 3 stories before but he could do 2, so what was one entire story difference? A lot apparently as he landed on his ankle with a thud, there was only so much a non moon werewolf could do.
Not letting it deter him and ignoring the confused cries from James and Sirius, Remus ran around to the front door.
when he finally arrived he could hear muffled sobs from Anastasia and his father's cold, uncaring voice. Not wasting another second Remus flung open the door, rage in his face. 
Remus gasped as he entered the room, seeing the pile of blood at Anastasia's feet, seeing Drizellas shocked expression that she was next, seeing his father's frigid and determined expression, and his mother's sickly face that looked like she was regretting many things. Lyall had cut off her toes to fit the shoe. The bastard. 
tired, ageless rage filled Remus and he was about to make good use of his werewolf wandless magic but stopped when he saw Sirius's confused, terrified, and admittedly freaked out face about the whole toe thing turn into one of relief and unmitigated joy. That stopped Remus cold in his tracks.
No, he'd made it this far in life with being a werewolf without killing anyone,no, he'd made it this far in life without being a monster and he wasn't about to change that now. Remus waved his hand and Drizella gasped as Anastasia's toes stitched themselves to her foot. Then he pointed his index finger at lyall.
His father was flung against the wall, pinned by an invisible  force. Remus stepped forward coldly. He thought of everything he felt for Peter, Sirius, and even James, the meddling bastard. He thought of how it felt to be in Sirius's arms, how it felt to have them taken away and any lingering doubts disappeared.
"I am more human than you will ever be" Remus hissed and with that he dropped him, leaving him gasping for air.
Sirius recognized his cue and got on one knee, presenting the no longer blood covered shoe, thanks to a quick cleaning charm. 
"hey Remus, sorry about all this."
"it's dramatic and gaudy and undeniably you,I wouldn't have it any other way."
Sirius grinned at this, and said "you know,I don't think you should ever consider a future in fortune telling, you said I would never see you again, and look where we are."
Remus's voice cracked "you have no idea how glad I am I was wrong." he whispered.
Sirius gestured to the shoe and Remus's scratched up bare feet, "may i" he asked nervously.
Remus slipped his foot into the shoe cautiously and then there was bright blinding light emerging from the shoe and then all at once it stopped.
Remus was standing in the suit he had been wearing the night before and so was Sirius.
Unable to help it, he flung into Sirius's open arms, needing to reacquaint himself with the feeling. 
tenderly, Sirius tipped Remus's chin up 
"hi" was all Sirius said, but this time it was Remus who closed the gap.
"hello, my names Remus, soon to be black I think at this point" Sirius beamed at this and said 
"Remus black, I think I rather like that, well at least a lot more than moon moon" he teased, Remus laughed 
"I panicked ok?"
"and so your instinct was just 'moons'? I'll have to keep that in mind in case I ever spring anything on you. 'hey babe can you do the dishes' 'uh hi my names esmeray ophelia'"
"ah, resorted to the dishwasher,I take it my fortune telling career did not go so well."
"Nope, i'm afraid it didn't, but it's so nice that you have an incredibly wealthy boyfriend/fiance/husband thing, how nice is that."
"Yes I am eternally grateful for my sugar daddy, my glucose guardian, my carbohydrate caretaker, my sucrose sweetheart-" Sirius laughed, and put his hands up in defeat
"you win, you win" 
and Remus thought of all that he had gained in a matter of a day, his humanity, the love of his life, friends that were actually human (that part was rather weird and he was still reeling) and an escape from his family.
"Yes I rather think I did" and closed the distance once more
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x Wade In The Water
{ Chapter 6: Send My Blessing, Dear Child }
Summary: Ester Scott was once in love. She thought the days of her shortcomings were over and that the man she found was her one and only. But all that was taken away when the demons she had became too accustomed to finally took the one thing she had left. Louisiana was her home but the devil down below was calling her name. She only has herself to blame when it came to the hands dragging her under.
Notes: It’s Hazbin Hotel, be ready for everything. Also I apologize for all my mistakes in advance!
Word Count: 3,814
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Angels for me will scare me with sharp teeth and many eyes. Angels for you will be of old loves and kiss you cheek.  Both of our angels are righteous, both of our angels are kind. 
- Ester R. Scott
It had been weeks since I saw the devil and his company. Nor had I seen the angels and their haunting eyes. One would think I’d feel more at ease not having someone watch me. But silence was the enemy, silence told you danger was coming before the skin crawling realization of danger was there. Every night before bed, before telling mama goodnight, I looked out the windows and waited to see something. Anything. But nothing was ever there and the disappointment paranoia that rested in my stomach grew.
Chemintine seemed to become catty with my neighbours who welcomed her with opened arms. That was good considering the impression she made when she first got here. They almost thought she fell off the bus and bumped her head, once she explained what was happening she came a causal. There were still some that didn’t like her being here. Said she would cause problems and bring someone else to come and cause bigger problems. There was no point in trying to change their mind, their fear was real just like everyone else here. The last time white folk stumbled into our neighbourhood we had to lock the doors. I was ten when I saw someone being drug down the street and never seen again.  So I tell Clementine to just be the nicest she could be and have the same manners she would have if she met the queen. 
She found it silly. I found it life saving.
“Will you be bring that friend of yours to church tomorrow, Ester?” Miss Bouchard asked me. Today I was helping one of the elderly ladies in the neighborhood with mending her clothes. When I wasn’t at the shop with a task list, I was out and out sewing and mending and caring for those around me. The best I could do when they took care of me when mama passed. Miss Bouchard was a fine woman of only 72 who was like a meme to me. I could tell in her youth was a firecracker that should have left Louisiana. She always kept her hair in tight pin curls with a headwrap tied in bows. As a child I could never tell if her chunky jewelry was real or if it was fake. I wasn’t sure it mattered since she always looked amazing. She never had a husband or children so her freedom was higher than anyone else. Mama would tell me she was nothing but a party girl, so much so every night she would stumble home with her girlfriends arms linked together still singing. Then in the morning she would still out in her robe with said friend nursing herself with coffee. No matter what though Miss Bouchard never missed a day of church, how could she when she was the lead singer in the choir. Now that I’m older I realize those women were never really her friends.
“I don’t think so ma’am, Chemintine isn’t much for church.” I smiled politely and  continued to fold the bed sheets into a tight pile.
“You don’t have to be church folk to come to church. You just have to have an open mind and a free spirit.”
“Oh I’m sure Chemintine is all that and maybe more.” I chuckled to myself and Miss Bouchard tsked at me and I could help but laugh a little more. I finished the bed sheets and moved on to her shirts on her drying line.
“Be nice to that girl. I’ve seen many of her and she’s nothing but a sweet darling.”
“She’s mighty sweet. I’m just not sure if she’ll like it.”
“Have you asked her?”
“No ma’am.”
“Then don’t assume things. The worst thing you can do to another person is assume how they would feel or how they will act. You know better.” It wasn’t much of a scolding but I knew Miss Bouchard meant. All my life so far was a bunch of assuming, a lot of my mama’s life was, and I sure so way Miss Bouchard.
“I’m sorry ma’am.” I gave my apology and she shook her head and sighed.
“Bring the girl and let her see for herself if that’s somewhere she wouldn’t mind going.” Miss Bouchard waved her hand over to me to hand her a shirt and I did. We sat in silence for the rest of the folding till I eventually got up to put everything away. I said my goodbyes and moved on to the next house. My mornings were filled so I wouldn’t be home till the afternoon. 
“Finally you make it home! I was starting to think you went off to work for the whole day.” Chemintine greeted me at the door with a hug and I shooed her off.  She helped me out my coat and took my bag to place on the dining table. “This is what you do every weekend? Is this way you never go out?”
“I do this every so often, it's about giving back to those that helped you. I wouldn’t be here without these folks ‘round here.” I told her and she smiled sweetly.
“Ester, you really are a caring person. I had no idea this was your life.”
“Well I don’t go around talking about it, I preferred if I could keep some things to myself. Mama always said you never want people to be all up in ya business. Because then they’ll start trying to give you advice that won’t work.” Chemintine laughed and went off to the kitchen. 
Mama was right though, a private life was safer than a public one. Even in the conditions we faced. Mama never told anyone where my father ran off to when they asked. Nor did she tell them why she stayed here in Louisiana when everyone else in our family left. She would just sit quietly and allow them to make up whatever story suited their narrative and corrected them only when it was necessary. She told me to never go around like the other black kids bragging about what we had or what we didn’t have at school. At that point you were asking for someone to rob you blind.
I kick off my shoes and pull my legs under me on the small worn down couch and relax against the comfortable back, “Chemintine?”
“Yes Ester?” The blonde stuck her head out from the kitchen arch way.
“They would like to know if you will come to church tomorrow.”
“A-Am I allowed?” Chemintine was hesitant and a bit scared.
“Do you want to?”
“I’ve thought about it. I see you get ready in the morning and when you leave I can see everyone else leaving their houses and they look mighty fine all dolled up. Then I hear yall singing coming home. I wanna sing coming home.” Chemintine smiled bashfully when she finished.
“Then when I say get up and get ready tomorrow I don’t wanna hear ya complaining about nothing.” I rolled my eyes and got up to go to the bathroom. Every morning during the week was a struggle to get Chemintine up for work. I have no idea how she managed on her own back at her daddy’s house. Luckily it didn’t take long for her to snap into action once she was up, it was only getting her out of bed that was the issue.
“I’se be ready! Be kind to me, Ester.” I could help but stop when she said those words to me. Everytime I teased her she said that to me as if I never was. I could tell when she was going to say it by now. Be kind to me. Be kind to me and I’ll always be kind to you. A very powerful saying.
Every Time since I told Chemintie about the angels she’s come to my bedroom door with her dress balled in her hands and her toes crossed over each other. Her messy blonde hair up in rollers and her sharp eyes staring right through me. Every time she would have a question rattling in her mind and I’d wait patiently for her to ask me. ‘Ester are they here’ and I would answer ‘they were until they heard you coming’ or ‘not tonight, Chemintine’ and she walked away a bit upset that she couldn’t be there with them. Tonight was no different as she stood in my door waiting for my attention.
“Chemintine, why do you want to know if the angels are here?” I finally had to ask her. She became so red in the face as she was placed on the spot. She started to twist the end of her nightie into knots as she stumbled back and forth a bit.
“It’s dumb, you’ll laugh at me.” Chemintine said, lowering her head in shame. I patted the space next to me for her to take and she slowly walked over.
“I won’t laugh at you.” I told her in a comforting voice, there was nothing she could really say that would make me laugh at her. Unless she started asking if angels were connected to love then maybe I’d snicker.
“Ya promise?”
“I promise, now what is it?”
“Since you can see them, and I believe you can, I was wondering if when I stand in front of you, you would see my grandma. She died when I was 14 and she always told me she be with me. I miss her so much right now.” Chemintine sighed and looked at me with a defeated look. I shook my head and took her hand in mine and rubbed circles on her thumb.
“I don’t need to see the angels to know you’re grandma is watching over you. Passed loved ones are always watching.”
“Are the angels around you actually your mama?”
“No, I wish one of them was but they ain’t. Mama is resting her feet with a drink in hand and I know it.” I chuckled and that seemed to knock the cloud off from over Chemintine’s head. 
“I hope grandma Gogo is enjoying her music in a garden up there. She used to plant the prettiest daisies. That’s what my name was going to be, Daisy Eve Evans.” Chemintine did jazz hands in the air like magic fell from her fingers.
“Well who named you Chemintine?” I had to ask, I had to know who couldn’t spell Clemintine correctly and cursed this poor girl.
“My daddy, he named me after some hag from the family that came from France.” I pity that damn fool. “It’s a real name ya know, it’s the wrong spelling but for some reason people kept using it. I don’t really like my name.” 
“Oh,” I was speechless a bit, I always thought she wasn’t aware of it. Silly me for assuming, Miss Bouchard was right. “Why don’t you change it?”
“I am, or I was when I got up to New York, I was going to become Daisy as I should have been.” Chemintine face said it all, she had a dream and one day it was going to come true.
“I’ll call you Daisy if you want.”
“No.”
“No?”
“Not right now, I want to get out of here first, make a life of my own and then I’ll be Daisy. Daisy is a woman’s name and I’m nothing but a girl at the moment. I’m not like you Ester.” I narrowed my eyes and cocked an eyebrow at the comment and Chemintine stopped me from saying anything before she could finish. “You were born Ester, you seemed like you were wise ever since you were born. You had the old soul of a woman, never a little girl.” I thought about it a moment then shook my head. If only she knew about all the nights I cried myself to sleep or ran to my mama for comfort because the dark scared me. Sometimes the dark still got the best of me and I found myself hiding under my blankets. 
“Well when we get up there I’ll make sure I’ll say ya name right, Miss Daisy.” I smile and nudge Chemintine’s shoulder and she smiled. She got up and said good night and walked towards the living room. Before I headed to bed myself I looked around my room. As always there was no sight of angels, pity, I would have loved to tell Chemintine there was. 
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Before the sun was shining through my bedroom window Chemintine was waking me up for breakfast. I could care less where she got the food from as long as my stomach was full and a cup of tea was ready for me. As we sat and ate I read her a passage of the bible which was something mama would do before we got ready. Within an hour it was time to get dressed and leave. Chemintine beamed as she put on her best dress and did her hair. When I finally made it to the living room with my shoes in hand and my overcoat, Chemintine was sitting up on the couch clenching her purse. 
“You okay?” I asked her as I sat beside her and slipped on my heels.
“You sure this is okay? No one will be mad I showed up are they?” Chemintine swallowed hard.
“Some might but not everyone, as I told you before just smile and nod and stay with me.”
“Smile and nod, got it.” When I was ready we headed out the door and down the street. Buses didn’t come on Sundays so walking was the only way to get to and from, luckily no one had to go to the city. When we made it to the church the first bell started ringing which signaled everyone to come in. A few old faces greeted me and when they saw Chemintine behind me they rushed to greet her. They asked her all the times you would ask an old friend and then some. As I waited for the old ladies to leave Chemintine alone with the promise she came by for dinner, I noticed the few sour faces watching from the side. They turned up their noses and held their bags close to them. Some even held their children close to their side so they could come over. Finally I had enough and walked over to pull my friend along.
“Come on now, Chemintine, we have to take our seat.” I smiled sweetly to the olders and excused us so we could get a seat in the front. I knew I wouldn’t be able to have my normal seat in the middle now that Chemintine was with me. So sitting with the elderly was our best bet and a good chance Chemintine wouldn’t notice people staring at her. As service began I was quickly drowning it out with my thoughts. Even when I tried to pay attention I couldn’t and I caught myself staring out the window to the old fields around the church. A few times Chemintine would poke me to ask if I was alright and I would quickly nod and face forward. But with every word the pastor said I turned my head back towards the windows.
“I see today we have a visitor. Would you mind standing and telling us your name?” The pastor called out in the middle of a recession while he thanked everyone for coming. I snapped back to reality as I felt Chemintine start to shake from nervousness. She slowly rose to her feet and I quickly held out my hand for her to grab for comfort.
“Morning church, my name is Chemintine Evans, I’m Ester’s guest for today.” Chemintine tried to smile but it was hard as she tried to keep her cool. Now she understood what it was like to be the only one of your skin color in a room full of others. Only difference was she wouldn’t get beat for breathing.
“Welcome Chemintine, we are happy to have you, everyone could you give a warm welcome for our guest?” The room quickly filled with clapping and “welcome” from people around us. Soon the pastor rose his hand to silence the room so he could speak again. “Chemintine is there anything you would like to say this beautiful Sunday morning?”
“I-I would like to thank Ester for taking me in. Things aren’t going very well at the moment but Ester was a true friend to me and allowed me to stay with her.” Chemintine shook my hand and pulled me forward to stand with her which earned us a few claps. “I’ve only known her for a few years but she’s been nothing but kind to me. Nothing but truthful and teaches me everyday and I want to be able to be just like that as I continue on. Ester is a real friend.”
“Sister Scott, thank you for doing god’s work, he has truly blessed you with a heart so kind and so open. I pray that the both of you will be blessed with god’s righteous path.” Every clapped once again and this time when I looked at Chemintine she seemed more at ease. We quickly mouth thank you and sat back down and for the rest of the serves I could finally pay attention. But beside me, outside the window, I could feel someone watching in and I could tell it was someone good.
After church Chemintine was once again surrounded by church folk asking her questions. Knowing them they were trying to find gossip but with a white girl like Chemintine all they would find was a dreamful country girl. As I waited by the end of the stairs I saw Miss Bouchard slowly walking towards me with a flower in hand.
“Morning Miss Bouchard, did you have a good service?” I asked
“Indeed I did, I’m happy you brought Chemintine with you, she’s a breath of fresh air. Reminds me of an old friend I had long ago who smiled just like that.” Miss Bouchard chuckled then handed me the flower. I took it and noticed it was a white daisy freshly picked from some garden. The church hadn’t had a garden in years so I had no idea where Miss Bouchard could have gotten it unless she held on to it all morning.
“Is this for Chemintine?” I asked gently tucking the flower into my elbow to hold it.
“It is, something told me she would need a flower so I brought one.” Miss Bouchard pointed towards the sky and for a moment my heart skipped a beat. Could it be?
“I’ll make sure to give it to her, Miss Bouchard.”
“Thank you, have a fine day Ester.”
“You too ma’am.” I waved goodbye and watched as the old woman made her way down the street. As I watched her I saw something faint form next to her and when it became less foggy I saw a woman with blonde hair waving goodbye as well. I watched the apparition closely and as she turned around to look at me I thought it was Chemintine. The apparition smiled towards me then looked back towards Miss Bouchard as the women grew small in the distance, then vanished. This was the first time I’ve seen what I believed to be a ghost. First it were angels, then it was the devil, now it was a ghost with faces like my friend. What was next?
“Ester?” Chemintine pulled gently on my jacket to get my attention. “I’ve been calling for ya. Are you okay?”
“O-oh yeah I’m fine. I was just making sure Miss Bouchard got on safely. She’s getting older and I know one day she won't be able to make the walk from her house to here.” It was completely a lie, just not the whole truth, but Chemintine didn’t need to know that.
“That’s really sweet of you, Ester. Are you ready to go?”
“I am, by the way Miss Bouchard wanted me to give this to you.” I gave the daisy to Chemintine and her eyes went wide. She smiled hard and took the flower and tucked it into her hair.
“See, I told ya, daisies are beautiful, ain’t it!” She spun around and I nodded as we started to walk away from the church steps. Chemintine was as happy as could be as she skipped ahead of me talking about all the people she met. She told me she wouldn;t mind going to church if it was with me. I told her she was welcome anytime as long as she didn’t promise anyone we would come over for dinner.
“Be kind to her.” a voice whispered in my ear and I quickly whipped around to see the ghost from earlier standing beside me. Her voice was airy and light but felt welcoming. “Be kind to her, Ester.” The woman looked beyond me towards Chemintine who was now half way down the road. The woman began to age as a slight breeze blew past us. Her blonde hair turned white and her posture started to hunch over as her skin wrinkled. She still had the same eyes as she did before. 
“I will.” I whispered back and nodded as I began to catch up with Chemintine. I didn’t have to peak over my shoulder to know the woman was gone and it was only me and Chemintine walking.
“Chemintine?” I looked over to the blonde who was sitting on the ground reading the newspaper.
“Yes Ester?” She looked up towards me with raised brows and a soft smile.
“You’re grandmother was named Daisy, wasn’t she?”
“Why yes she was, Mrs Daisy Anne Evans, the sweetest woman of Spring, Texas. Raised ten kids all by herself when granddaddy fell into a river and drowned. Why’ya ask?” Chemintine put down her paper and scooted closer to the couch to rest her head against the frame as she looked up at me. I knew she was waiting for me to say something about the angels but I didn’t have to as she read my eyes. She reached up and touched the daisy in her hair before making to her feet and pulling me into a hug.
I patted her back as she cried and asked me to tell her grandma she loved her and missed her. I told her I didn’t have to because she already knew, all of our loved ones that passed knew.
“Tell her anyway, Ester.” Chemintine mumbled into my shoulder happily.
“Tell her yourself.” I chuckled. “I’m sure she can hear you.”
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HEY! Hey, you, reading this!!! I fuckin love writing but what I need to be able to write is a little thing called approval!! If you like this please comment and/or reblog!!!!!!!!!!
Area 51 au thingy. Danny/Wes. Songfic? Not really but the whole idea came from this song. V is based off of @its-towarzysz (main)/ @we-all-horny-here (sanders sides sideblog)/ @cockworktower (dp side blog) you should check them out, they make hella good content. Thanks to all my friends who helped me with motivation/proofreading. Tw for Death, Blood, Guns, and Violence. (Tell me if I forgot anything). I love this pairing and the lack of content sparks deep anger in my soul!! :)) Thanks for reading, enjoy!!
EDIT: Posting this on ao3 also @/godcannotdefeatfanfic 
September 20th, 10:30 am
Area 51
Wes Weston had nothing to live for. Ever since his Mom had gone out for cigarettes on his 6th birthday and never come back his life had been a constant downward spiral. Maybe that was why he was in the middle of the Nevada desert, preparing to attempt to rush a highly armed government facility with a million other suicidal Millenials.  
He fanned his face with his hand. It was over 86 degrees and he was practically melting in his Casper High spirit T-Shirt and blue jeans. He contemplated getting into his pickup truck and blasting the a/c but considering he only had a quarter tank of gas left, and it was a good 20 miles to the nearest gas station, he decided against it. Instead, he got onto his phone and texted his friends for the third time that morning. 
Basketball-Boi: where r yall? its hot.
Phurry: we’re just driving in!! Do u see us?
Basketball-Boi: uhhh whats ur car look like
Phurry: the silver one
Basketball: V there are like a million silver ones what kind of car
Phurry: uhh Val says its called a subaru we’re right by a black car
Red_Huntress: They’re standing on the roof and waving. Can you see us now?
Wes looked up from his phone to see a person, about his age, standing on the roof of a silver Subaru, wearing a black band t-shirt and neon green booty shorts. Their long blond ponytail swished around their face as they jumped up and down excitedly. A girl stepped out of the car and began scolding her friend. She was wearing a matching red pair of shorts, there was black lettering on her backside that he couldn’t quite make out. He began waving back, which only excited the blond more. They lept over the brown-skinned girl and bolted towards Wes.
“Ready to fuck some aliens, Basketball-Boi?” They pulled him into a tight embrace.
“I was born ready!” He laughed, “How are you, V?”
“Pretty gay, thanks for asking.”
Wes opened his mouth to speak but V cut him off with an excited shout.
“Oh! That reminds me!” They slipped their arms out of their backpack straps and dug through the mint green bag for a minute before pulling a pair of hot pink shorts, “I wanted us all to match! Made ‘em myself!”
They flipped the shorts around to reveal ‘100% Nasty’ embroidered onto the ass in black. They then turned around to show off their own message, that read ‘Trash Man’.
“I made one for Val too, c’mon, we have to wear them!!”
Wes grabbed the shorts and held them to his hips. “Is this what you needed my measurements for?”
They nodded enthusiastically, “I was gonna make us team jackets, but that’s so cliche.”
“Huh, I mean, don’t get me wrong, these are… great, but are you sure pink is my color?”
V rolled their eyes, “Of course I’m sure, Wes! Just put them on, you’ll see.”
Wes sighed and walked behind his red truck for some privacy, not that there was much of that, the field was crowded with cars. He pulled down his blue jeans, thankful for the breeze on his legs, and pulled on the shorts. They were a perfect fit, clinging to his waist, and resting on his barely existent hips. The feeling of showing so much skin was odd to him, he’d never worn anything that short in public, but the look on V’s face made it all worth it to him. They didn’t laugh like he’d been expecting them to, instead clapping their hands and going on about how relieved they were that the shorts actually fit. He did a quick turn for them, and they nodded in satisfaction.
“I think it’s about time we caught up to Val, did y’all remember to bring soda?”
“Only the finest Mountain Dew the 7/11 could provide, M’lady,” V grinned. 
“Than shall we be going, M’lord?” Wes held out his arm.
“Indubitably.” V linked their arm through his and they wandered through the crowd, searching for Valerie’s silver Subaru. 
“Wes! V! Over here!” Val called, waving the hand that wasn’t holding a Mountain Dew at her friends. The two of them waved back and jogged toward her. 
“Hey Val, long time no see,” Wes grinned as he pulled her into a hug.
“I missed ya, Weston,” Val reached up to ruffle his hair, but Wes dodged, pulling her into a headlock instead. 
“Missed ya too, Grey,” He gave her a noogie and released her, leaving her free to jump onto him and boost herself high enough to get revenge.
“Aww, adorable! Old lovebirds rekindling an old flame?” V fluttered their eyelashes at their friends, who immediately recoiled.
“Ew, no! Wes? If I had to pick a guy, maybe. And that’s a hard maybe. I’m too gay for this.” Valerie picked up her can from the hood of her car and took a swig.
“Yeah! She’s like my little sister!”
“Hey, I’m older than you!”
“By like two weeks!”
V broke into laughter, “Cool it lovebirds, I’m only joking.”
Val and Wes rolled their eyes at V, who was now on the ground, rolling with laughter. 
“Permission to pour some soda out onto our hilarious friend’s head?” Val asked teasingly.
“Permission granted! Fire at will!” Wes saluted. Val tipped her can enough to sprinkle V with the sticky green drink. They got to their feet, still laughing, and lunged for Val’s can. They knocked it backward, spilling soda all over Val’s shirt.
“EEK,” She squealed, “You’ll pay for this, Trash Man, If it’s the last thing I do!” 
She tried to push the can towards V, but they still had a grip on her arm. They tugged the can back and forth for a few seconds before it crumpled under the pressure.
“Shit!” Val swore, letting go of the can and cradling her palm. “I think I cut myself.”
V dropped the can, game of tag forgotten, and crowded next to their friend. Wes joined their huddle. 
“I think I have a first aid kit in my truck. How bad is it?” He asked.
Val opened her hand to reveal a small, but deep wound on the side of her palm.
“Shit, I’m so sorry, this is all my fault, if I hadn’t-” V began.
“Naw, it was as much my fault as yours. Anyway, we were having fun, and it’s really just a scratch. Keep focused on those Aliens, Private!” Val reassured them.
“Aye aye, Captain!”
Wes walked back to his truck, ignoring the stares of passerby. He grabbed his first aid kid (thank god for boy scouts) and walked back to Val’s car.
“So,” Wes ripped open a disinfecting wipe with his teeth and got to work cleaning her hand of blood. “How’s your dad?”
“He’s doing-” She drew in a sharp breath as he dabbed along the wound with a clean wipe. “Fine. The new job’s working out great, he’s happier than I’ve seen him in a while.”
Wes nodded and began wrapping her hand in gauze, “I’m glad. He wasn’t himself when you left.”
“It really all did work out for the better, didn’t it,” V smiled and handed Wes a length of medical tape. “Oh! I forgot! Val, show Wes what your ass says!”
She groaned, “Do I have to?”
V scowled, “Of course you have to, it was your idea!”
“I was just joking!”
“Tsk tsk, I think you’ve known me long enough to know that when it comes to cursed content, there are no jokes.”
“C’mon Val, it can’t be worse than ‘100% Nasty’,” Wes smirked.
V gasped dramatically and feigned offense, “You’ve wounded me! I work so hard, and for what, ungrateful friends?”
“Fine, if it’ll make you happy I’ll show him my ass. Just don’t say I didn’t warn you.” She winked at him before turning to show her backside. Black embroidery spelled out ‘Booty Hunter’.
Wes burst out laughing, which quickly turned to hysteric noises only vaguely resembling laughter, squeals, and snorts with shrieking giggles between them. V and Val couldn’t help but join in. The second one of them stopped laughing someone would whisper Booty Hunter and it’d start all over again. 
“Okay, okay,” Wes gulped in air, “We- hic -should calm down now.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” Val wiped a tear from her eye, “I am the Queen of Calm.”
V got to their feet and dusted themself off. “Totally calm. Calmer than a… something calm.”
“When does the raid start?” Wes pulled out his phone and checked the time. 12:00.
“Around, 12:30ish, we have time.” V waved their hand.
“I dunno, it’s already 12, maybe we should start getting ready.”
“What do you mean it’s already-” V snatched the phone from his hand, “Huh. Time sure flies when you’re having fun.”
“Wait, get ready for what exactly? I mean, we’re here, we’ve got our shorts on, there’s enough Mountain Dew in my car to drown an elephant, what else is there to get ready?” Val questioned.
“Uhhh, I dunno, stretch?” Wes shrugged, “It just feels like we’re forgetting something. What exactly is the plan for this whole thing anyway? Are there gonna be waves? Do we all go at once? This is a pretty poorly organized event.”
Val shrugged, clearly unphased by the lack of organization, “We’ll just go when everyone else starts running. I’m sure the start of gunfire will tell us when.”
“Look, if it’s making you so worried, we can stretch before. I’m sure everything will be fine. Plus, we all get alien Girlfriends, so it’s a win-win!” V put their hand on his arm. Wes smiled thankfully down at them.
“Yeah, that’s probably it. Yall must think I’m being a nitpick-”
“Not at all! You’re probably right, after all, it must be at least a mile to the base from here, and we can’t let cramps keep us from sweet sweet alien romance.” Val propped her leg up on the hood of her car and pressed her head to her knee, “Plus that’ll give us an advantage over the Kyles.”
V nodded and fell into a lunge, “We’ve been training since July for this, can’t let it get away now because we forgot to stretch.”
Wes bent over and touched his toes, “Thanks y’all, you’re really the best friends I could ask for.” 
The screech of a megaphone rang out through the valley. A voice came through the static, “Raiders! Get into position, we’re storming the gates in exactly fifteen minutes!” 
A cheer broke through the crowd as people began chugging what was left of their sodas and migrating towards the front lines. 
“Well, this is it I guess. If I don’t make it out of the raid, put this on my tombstone.” Wes gestured downward, where he was holding his hand in a circle. 
“Dammit!” Valerie chuckled as Wes gave her a playful punch in the arm. 
“You’ll never take me alive!” V shouted and sprinted forwards as Wes moved towards them.
“On your marks!”
“Wanna bet on that?” Wes shouted back, weaving through the crowd to catch up with them.
“Get set!”
V pushed forward, using their small frame to their advantage, easily losing the taller one in the crowd.
“Raid!”
The mob roared, then began thundering forward, but the deafening sounds of the people were nothing compared to what followed. Thousands of guns began firing at once, hitting everyone and everything in the vicinity. Wes watched with horror as the first wave of people were mowed down right before his eyes. A flash of neon green caught his eye through the carnage. He ran towards his friend, who was standing, paralyzed, next to a few other survivors. He shouted their name, and just as they turned their head another hailstorm of bullets rained down. The first one embedded itself right into V’s chest, right above their heart. Wes sprinted to catch his injured companion, but by the time he got there the life was already draining from their eyes.
“V! V, can you hear me? Don’t go into the light, hold on, ok? You’ve got this, V, answer me!”
He pressed his head to their chest, a weak heartbeat answered him. “It’s gonna be okay. Shhh, you’re okay.” 
Something wet dripped down his face, and he realized he was crying.
“...Wes,” V rasped out, then began violently coughing up blood. Little flecks of red peppered Wes’ face like freckles. “Fuck an alien for me, okay? Can you promise me that?”
Their body went limp in his arms. 
“V? V! V, wake up, please, that can’t be it, please V, you’re only 17, please!” He shook their corpse, but to no avail. V was gone. He closed his eyes and let out a shuttering breath before standing up, still clutching their body in his arms. 
“Second wave! On your marks!” The megaphone blared to life.
The crowd let out another, less confident cheer. After seeing all the carnage most of the raiders were less enthusiastic to ‘see them aliens’. But this time Wes had made up his mind. He was going to make it into that Government facility, and he was gonna burn that motherfucker to the ground.
“Get set!”
He laid his friend on the ground and pressed a kiss to their forehead. If it wasn’t for the massive amount of blood they could’ve been sleeping.
“Go!”
Wes screamed with all the anger he had in him and charged forward. Bullets rained down near him, but this time there were less of them. This time he had a chance. He saw the gate coming closer. He was only 50 feet away, he could make it! He hopped over the fence, ignoring the blaring of sirens, and kept running. He pushed his way into the building, where, surprisingly, there was no security. It looked like they had invested all their soldiers into protecting the outside of the base. His adrenaline rush began to slow down. He dragged his feet down the linoleum hallway, looking at his bloodsoaked hands. 
“What the fuck just happened?” He whispered to himself, still shellshocked. A flicker of light caught his eye. Grateful for a distraction, he turned his attention to what looked like a futuristic control panel. The buttons were labeled in some sort of code, their luminescent surfaces grinning up at him.
“Looking for me, Short-Shorts?” A calm voice echoed through the hall. Wes whipped around, ready for a fight.
“Why so on edge, Ginger? Surely I’m not that intimidating.” It purred.
“Who are you?!” Wes shouted. He winced at the echo. Did he really sound that unhinged?
“On your left.” 
He turned and found himself face to face with the most beautiful boy he’d ever seen. He looked about his age, maybe 17. His skin was tan, but had a slight blueish tint, as if he’d been without oxygen for a while. Poking from his tuft of pearly white hair was a pair of blur antenna. He had a small build, maybe 5 feet tall at best, but was floating at eye level with Wes. Speaking of his eyes, they were quite possibly the most gorgeous thing about him. He had eyes greener and glowyer (is that even a word? Either way it was true.) than toxic waste, his pupils were like a cat’s, slit down the middle. He was clothed in a baggy black prison jumpsuit. He looked almost alien. Wes realized with a start that he must be an alien. 
“Are you done staring?” The boy asked, snapping Wes out of his trance. “It won’t be long before the guards realize you’re in here, and I’d rather get out without a bullet hole.”
“I- I don’t- what are you?” Wes stammered.
“I’m Project Phantom, or Danny if you prefer. What’s your name?”
“I’m… Wes?”
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WARNING LONG POST HEAVY SPOILERS
Episode4. Play back rewatch
*Open scene Montrose
*Drinking. Going through the memories of his mind
He drinks and still he remembers it all
*God Smites Eve
*2:12 "Give this to tic protect our family" GEORGE
*The Order of the ancient dawn
*You might be all Tic has left
*"Smells like Tulsa
*Bitcx better have my money
*Christina glides through cars
* Black arrow (nods it off)
*leti was ready
*Bitcx tried to walk in like she own the place
*the protection spell works 'akirum
She seemed impressed and snide
*your money (leti realizes where the money came from
**L: "You want something in this house. Something to. do with Atticus"
**Ct: "Dont let the men fool you into thinking its Always about them. "
**His blood may have power but thats only because itus spelled it that way. Hes Not Special. Not really
Christina is a Snitch
*"If he keeps operating like this hes going to get you killed "Again"
(she looks sincere) (im telling yall xtina did this before)
* "I dont want that. Or this house. I just want the orrery"
(To discover a world of first) (chritina dont lie withold yes)
You can get the Fuck up off my Porch
Call me
*Hippolyta calls her daddy... She has the Orrery
She smart as hell
*The new comic diana drawing..outta this universe
Moves and predicts the relative position of planets
*leti tells tic about tina paying for house
*Tic with holds information from leti
*knows tina used tic to kill father
tic was go kill her then just leave
Lil boy with Coke bottle glasses ( just like tic but not tic
*two sets of pages still exist
*the orrery is the key
(using the orrery to go into another world to find his pages)
Titus kept it hidden
*Casting spells to protect
*ask ya daddy " i dont want yall involved"
(Sound like his daddy when they saved him)
They in the back
Every time i tell you to do something yo do the opposite
*" how you kno its 34 lodges"
*"I cant help you kill yourself. You cant see this game she is setting up for you to play"
(Montrose and Christina have done this before.. I cant wait till the final. I need to kno)
*"Looking for answers you already have"
Boston
*"I know where to find that dame vault"
Christina plays hide and seek for the first time
Christina screaming "Im safe."
The police arrive for her to take her to ...
Lancaster
*She didnt mention leti being in the house specie or tic
Says convince "hyrum"
*she knows there is someone in the closet right away
*xtina says time machine
* " let "negros" move in..(vs niggers) cocky
Take my lodges
*did i miss your initiation into the order..
No cunts allowed
The silent fight
Let go. You told me to let go
Hyp suspicious
It so happens to be at a astrology museum
Tree
Ruby walks into Marshal fields
"Work like kobe just to shine like Russel"
Sees Tamara
"Yes yesterday"
"I applied on a whim"
Boston
Lights of the universe
Leti's face watching rose go with the guard
*"u kno y they call me tree"
"Shouldnt i already kno that since we fuc in highschool simore" rolls eye at that liar
True story: Harriet chariot
*MY MAMA NAMED THAT COMET
*Many artefacts Titus was giving in exchange for striping away everything they knew
(Stolen after killing, probably raping and enslaving the native people)
*tree hints at Montrose being gay to tic
Tic questions how mon knows the guard
The vault
*Christina pulls up goes around the gate
(William comes out 30seconds later, yes we kno the skin change happens in seconds seeing ruby change, BUT HOW IN THE HELL did xtina put on a whole suite down to the tie that quick)
Do they not kno william cuz then lancaster wouldnt have known it wasnt xtina when he dies.
She kick they ass
*William says i have a Date
Find a way to open it
Montrose finds the moonlight
How old is this museum
*"This is some journey to the center of the earth type shit"(name of book coke bottle kid in library was reading)
3tunnels
Ever the tide shall rise
Map of titus voyage's..
No telling Letitia fuc N lewis No
Dont help me
Yellow
*Based on adventure novels the tunnels should be based on the map.
*How you know he raided Diana
"I read a damn book
*1810 it was built
Established the sons of Adam 3yrs later
*Whats down the other tunnel?
The lantern being there
Ruby drowning her blues away to a half empty bar
Is copper considered a yellow
Voluptuousness
*I cant afford another one
Blues eyes got ya tab tonight
*A nod. A gulp
*"May i join you?" They dont sit
Keep my glass full"...
*Yall white boys dont come to the dark side for modesty (demanding woman
* i can buy my own drinks ( pride)
Take a bit more to impress me White Boy
*Never insult you to make you a kept woman
* promise me the world to lay with me
*a promise i can keep
(All she needs is the orrery & she literally can give Ruby Many worlds)
The way they look at Ruby
*20min of walking
Walking the plank
Tic brave
Tf me 1st
Learned how to lie
*juneteenth
* "FREEMEN WERE NEVER SLAVES"
She out there
Spider senses
Tic has training
Booby trap
Big fucking deal
The bored starts to disappear
Jump pop
Better catch me Boy. (I got ya kid)
Now they can run shuffle
Montrose knows the combination
Jessie owens
*The tide rising.. Less than an hr
Ruby "got there 1st, shoulda been me but i let Leti distract me"
They sat there all night
*"Whoes leti"
(i dont think Christina knew leti Nd Ruby were sisters before that moment based on willtinas expression
*"my half sister" (willtina Gulps (becoming a signature
* if i was in your skin i wouldnt even have to run"
*what to do about it?
William with them eyes.
*"Better stop looking at me like that, It Aint happening
White Boy"
I Put a Spell on You plays
Ruby want it
(Im more than sure this is Willtinas 1st time, also wonder if so as a woman. Possible leti was a virgin)
Willtina looked confused by the blood. Primal reaction
Ruby in control
William excited, whoa lip biting
The mark of Cain. Big Dic Energy
*" How you kno so much about the sons of adam?"
* george gave me the bylaws i burned it
My brother said protect the family. His dying wish
(Was to give Tic the book, but you cant tell Montrose what to do with his son)
Closing Pandoras box once Nd for good
You wont stop
*Leti finds the neighbors body who went missing
*Chicago to Boston 14hr drive
(They walk 20min to the plank maybe another 20 to yahima)
*sees elevator come down, looks familiar
*Epistien was apart of the order prob chasing the pages... He was missing an arm
This might get dangerous
*he was kidnapped. I Died.
*"not the center of the fucking universe"
Leti can swim too
*Fatherly advice
Ya mama was complicated too
*all that fussing is loving
*Epstein day look like he was missing an arm and like a drowned victim
I don't think Christina knew about the tunnels or at least she knew that she couldn't open them
Black folk dont watch bones come alive & just stare
*reaches. (Back the fuc up
* they have the same symbol on their stomach. The Regeneration spell
*yahima Woman man two spirit
*had no reason to distrust him
ALWAYS HUNGRY
*he killed them all (stole they shii) enslaved
Tic look like Will Smith as a fish in shark tail
*she dont know my spirit
Montrose Takes pages anyway (i think knowing booby trap)
. Grabs yama
*montrose drops the pages purposefully
Like damn leti. Grabbing for her
The kiss. The scream. The knockout
*how did they get back without woodie
*is that your dad's atlas
*devon county circled. Ardum reaper. Hyp makes a detour
*siren. Ill figure out how to help her talk
*"You were brave boy. Grew to be a good man spite me"
*he already had the plan
Damn montrose
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The Clover Ring (Part 2)
Here is the second part. I had fun writing this so i really hope yall enjoy. 
I know there are some spelling issues and other random captialisatiOn. Just roll with it ya?
Geralt held Maylin until her shuddering stopped, and she gently pulled away from him, and gently waves her hand to make the tear stains on his shirt vanish. She rubs at her eyes, seeming much more like a small girl than a wilderness healer. Maylin pats his chest and moves away from him into the kitchen and starts to clean.
Geralt finds himself unsure what to do, so he picks up his sword and heads out of the house to give her space, and to see if he can hunt something for them to have for dinner. Geralt steps into the trees, sword in hand, and walks around as silently as possible, looking for a rabbit or something of the sort.
He finds he can’t focus as his mind drifts back to the feeling of Maylin wrapped up in his arms. The presence of home was more there than it was when she kissed him, and he cannot seem to shake the feeling that she was waiting for him, and he was waiting for her. Her eyes float in his mind, something beautiful for him to hold onto, as he believes that his heart will not let her go, even when it starts to hurt him.
He twirls his sword in his hand, and lets a sigh escape his lips, and just as he does so, a small white hare jumps from the bushes in front of him, and on instinct he rids the gentle creature of its head. He picks up the body, and begins the trek back to the house, and takes it in since he hasn’t had a chance to yet.
The house is a small thing, just big enough for two people. The porch seems to encompass the front of the house, with a swinging seat on one side, and a couch and table on the other. There is a shelve just under the window which has been opened, that holds small boxes he doesn’t know the purpose of. The door is arched, with a small circle of glass in it. The roof follows the length of the house and extends more over the porch to protect it from the rain. The well sits a few feet away, a bucket resting on the side of it. The garden intrigues Geralt, as he wonders why it is so protected.
Slowly he makes his way to the door, setting his sword against the frame before opening the door to step inside, and having to dodge as a book flies past into a shelve that is mirrored by another with a fireplace in the middle. Maylin is still in the kitchen, which has a metal stove in it, what looks to be an icebox, cupboards with glass planes in them so one can see inside. There is an island counter that she is working at, cutting up veggies and such and putting it into a pot.
She looks up at him, and feels shame flushing her cheeks still at her display of emotion, but she lets herself smile softly, “I can clean that.” She points to the beheaded rabbit in his hand.
Geralt nods, and brings it over, and finds a wooden cutting board is set on the counter, with the tools needed to clean it. “It will go faster if we work together.”
Maylin grunts softly, but nods, and gets back to work as books and papers continue to fly to their proper locations. As the house cleans itself, he can see a beautifully made kitchen table with filigree around the edges, curved with an expert hand that he has little doubt is Maylin’s own. The chairs have the same design in the back, and he is surprised to find that there are four chairs around the table.
Past the table is a small desk, but it has a triangle shape on it, holding a canvas that is currently covered with blue paint. The desk is littered with painting supplies, the supplies righting themselves to make it neater, and the brushes coming from the water cup, spinning in the air, and becoming as clean as they were when they were made. All the brushes have the same colored hair as Maylin and her horse Twi.
“Did you make everything in this house?” Geralt asks as he sets back to work on the rabbit.
“No. The table and easel were gifts,” Maylin says as she turns to go searching in a cupboard, getting onto her tippy toes to look, then reach. Geralt comes over, a good head taller than she, and reaches to grab the glass bottle holding some herbs, and handing it to her, and she pouts a little. “Thanks.”
Geralt grunts and turns back to the rabbit as Maylin sets the pot on the stove and pulls out a pan to put beside. She pours some of the herbs into the pot, and the scent of them makes his mouth water. He watches as she stirs the pot, then comes beside him to take the strips of meat he cuts off to cut them smaller and put in the pan with a small wad of butter, the sound of it sizzling filling the air.
“I don’t often cook for two,” Maylin notes softly, “It’s amusing to me how easy it is to get back to it though.” She stands back and washes her hands in a basin of water to the side of the stove, before she goes to the shelves by the fireplace.
Geralt grunts softly in response, and watches as she touches over the spines of the books, “You use magic so easily.”
“Born to it,” Maylin says as an explanation. She pulls a book from the shelf and flips through it, humming softly. “You have magic too, I recall?”
Geralt grunts and nods, and stabs the knife into the cutting board, and watches as the fur is taken away, and the bones, but the rest is floated out of the house and away. He washes his hands in the basin as well, and comes over to her, “It is extraordinary how casually you use it.”
“Hm?” Maylin looks up at him, her focus having been on the book not him, but as her eyes find his, all her attention snaps to him. “Oh. Years of practice?”
Geralt hms back at her, and comes to see what she is reading, but finds he can not make out a single word of what she is reading. “I don’t know this.”
Maylin snorts softly and baps his chest, “Course not. Its not for you to read.”
Geralt takes a step back, and grunts softly, and turns to look at the others, “Can I read any of these?”
Maylin nods, “Yes. But this one has things not for the eyes of others. Here.” She turns to the shelve and points to a book bound in green leather. Geralt reaches and pulls it down and opens it to find it is title to be ‘Monster Index,’ and as he flips through, he sees that each few pages is dedicated to a monster, which is illustrated. As he flips through, he realizes he knows most of them, but there’s a few he doesn’t, and he sits on the couch to read them.
Maylin chuckles and brings her book over to the kitchen to stir the meat, before putting it into the water. She puts a few bones in it as well, and stirs that, before going back to reading.
“This is intensive. You have monsters in this that I don’t even know,” Geralt says. “How did you get drawings of them all?”
Maylin shrugs a shoulder, “I studied each one. It’s easy to make a monster trust you when you are small and pretty.” She looks at him with a teasing smirk, “and the ones you don’t know are probably extinct.”
Geralt grunts, and turns back to the book, reading through it. The smell of the stew is making him mouth water even more and is delighted when the book is removed from his hands and is replaced with a warm wooden bowl of stew, with a spoon.
Maylin slides a piece of paper in the spot he’s in and then sets it down, “I can copy that for you, if you would like.”
“That would be too much,” Geralt says, as he eats, watching as she sits down in a green chair with a blanket over the back of it. The chair looks old, but well used, well taken care of, and well loved.
Maylin shakes her head, “Not really. Takes a night, and we got a night before we head out.”
Geralt grunts softly, but he nods and continues to eat in silence.
They sit silently for a while, having finished eating, Geralt had gotten up to get seconds, thirds, then fourths, making Maylin proud, and laugh as well. She fixes him with a gaze, curiosity in her eyes that captivates him.
“What was your first monster kill Geralt?” She says him name in such a way that is makes him want to stand and come to her, pulled by a magnet.
“It was a hulking man who was going to hurt a girl. He said she should meet a real man, and I said he should too. IT took two hits, that weren’t clean, but they were spectacular,” Geralt says fondly, the memory something he quite enjoys.
Maylin smiles softly, “That is a good monster to kill.” She gets up, and comes to sit beside him, tucking her legs under her.
“What was yours?” Geralt asks, turning to her, giving her his full attention.
Maylin thinks and twirls a piece of hair around her finger as she considers, “Monster monster, or a man that was even worse?”
“Monster monster,” Geralt says.
Maylin chuckles softly, “The first monster I killed was a vampire, much like Damian. I got my ass kicked, but it took one swift kick from me to impale the damn thing on a near by fence.”
Geralt would say vampires don’t exist, but he feels perhaps she is true to her words, “Damian was a vampire?”
Maylin nods, “A very weak one, but old as ever and a real pain in my ass.”
“He is dead now,” Geralt says. Wanting to comfort her in some way.
“For now. But some dickface will think it wise to bring him back, and the cycle continues,” Maylin says sighing softly. “He’s a slave trader, and I guess I was a provider and a client to him some time ago, but I quit it when I got my sense back. I often lose it.”
Geralt grunts softly and thinks there’s nothing wrong with a little bit of loose sense, “I’m sorry.”
Maylin shrugs, and gently takes his hand to toy with, tracing the lines of it curiously, “It is alright Geralt.”
Geralt takes her wandering hand in his. Stilling her movements, and raises his other to cup her cheek, and marvels again as she leans softly into his touch, trusting him entirely. His heart aches a touch, as he ahs never had someone not be afraid of him. Her eyes meet his, and she comes closer to him, raising her own hand to his cheek and stroking it gently with her thumb.
“You are so beautiful Geralt,” she whispers, and he can’t help his small smile and chuckle, and is delighted when she smiles back.
“AS are you Maylin. I didn’t know beauty like yours existed,” Geralt says softly and leans into her once more.
Maylin laughs softly, a soft blush coloring her cheeks, and she comes close to him, and looks to his lips, and licks her own. She looks to his eyes, studying them, before she leans a touch more. Geralt crosses the distance this time, letting his lips find hers, and revels in the sparks that shoot through his body. He pulls her closer, and she happily comes, sliding into his lap easily, and holding his face between her hands, gently but urgent as she deepens the kiss, tongue sliding across his lips, much to the surprise of Geralt, who had rarely had a woman be so force full and confident with him.
Maylin bits his lip softly, making him gasp and open his mouth to her, and she slides he tongue into tangle with his, as her hands slide down over the shirt she gave him, red like a rose, and she undoes the tie at the top. She feels his hands work on her own top, and she lets him pull it off her, pulling back a touch from his mouth, only to go right back to kissing it, feeling that if she doesn’t for too long all this will end.
She pulls his shirt from him as well, and he grunts in surprise as her lips find his slow pulse and kiss at it softly. His hands slide down her back to under her pants and underwear. He excites at the fact that they are silky soft. He pushes them down and off her, tossing them gently away.
He watches as she takes off the band around her breasts, and before he can touch them, she stands and pulls him up by the loops of his pants, making him grunt softly and chuckle.
“Impatient?” Geralt teases as he follows her into her bedroom, his pants having been taken off on the way there.
Maylin shrugs and turns him and shoves him back onto the bed. Having not expected such treatment he stumbles and falls back, and leans back on his elbows. Geralt feels a wave of relieve mixed with arousal and excitement as her beautiful eyes finally rake over his body, taking in every inch of him before her eyes come to meet his, and he smirks.
“That is the first time you’ve taken me in entirely with those eyes of yours,” Geralt says.
“’Bout to take you in entirety with something else,” Maylin says and crawls over him, kissing up his torso as she does so, and he laughs as he lays back to let her do as she pleases, finding immense joy in letting her take control.
She finds his lips once more, and kisses them feverishly, her hands sliding over his chest, fingers ticklish as she feels over every curve of his abs and pecs. Geralt moans softly and rises a touch into her hands. Her lips slide from his mouth to his jaw, her teeth grazing the skin.
She lets out a soft moan as Geralt slides his hand between her legs, to rub at her heat. He slides a finger into her slowly, and listens to her purr as she kisses even more, making Geralt’s cock twitch with arousal. In a matter of seconds Maylin finds herself on her back, and Geralt’s pretty face between her legs. Her hands slide over his shoulders to his hair to toy with, but not take it out.
Geralt’s tongue finds her clit, and she lets out a squeal of pleasure, before falling into the bed, resting back as he pleasures her with his mouth, finding her taste intoxicating. Geralt could do this for hours, but he feels the need to bed her rising and rising and pulls away to lick his lips and nip the inside of her thighs.
Maylin pulls him up to her, and he gasps as he is pulled, eyes wide at her display of strength. She blinks and kisses his cheek, “Sorry.”
“No… I just never met a woman that strong,” Geralt says, and touches his cheek softly.
Maylin catches his hand to hold and pulls him in for another kiss. Geralt lines his raging hardon with her heated core, and slides in slowly, making her feel every inch, cherishing the moans that leave her mouth. Maylin grips his shoulder, other hand bunching in the sheets as she feels herself expand to accommodate such a generous size, moans pouring from her mouth.
Geralt hilts in her, and looks at where their bodies are joined, and decidedly believes he has never enjoyed the view more. He starts to thrust, slowly at first, wanting them to last, but as he goes, his body takes over his mind, and he finds himself pounding into her.
Maylin’s moans increase in volume until she is panting and screaming with almost every thrust, every nerve in her body light up from the pleasure. She comes undone beneath him when he slides his hand down to rub just right on her clit, and she clenches around his cock deliciously.
Geralt growls out his pleasure as the simple image of Maylin coming undone before him sends him over the edge, and he spills inside her without worry, and she moans softly.
Geralt rests his head in the crook of her neck as she pants, trying to catch her breathe as she comes down from her high. Her hands gently rub his back and he hums softly, before pulling out slowly and laying beside her, pulling her close to him, and she happily comes.
Maylin rests her head over his heart, cuddling into his side and drawing idle designs over his skin, unable to wipe the soft smile from her face, or force her blush to go down. Geralt watches her fingers draw the designs, and gently kisses her forehead.
“I find myself not wanting to leave,” Geralt says softly, looking at her face with more adoration that he thought he could muster as she turns her head to him.
“The world needs you more however,” Maylin says softly turning her eyes away, her chest still rising and falling, “I am not made for this Geralt. I will outlive you.”
“Impossible,” Geralt says, knowing he will be around for a long time, if nothing kills him first.
Maylin shakes her head, and rests it back down to stare at the wall, “I cannot die Geralt. Nothing will kill me. No poisons, no wounds. You could swing the strongest sword ever made to cut my head from my shoulders, and that sword will break.”
Geralt looks at her, the words taking a moment to sink in, and he moves back a touch to look at her face, “You really can’t die?”
Maylin grunts, and sits up, “Would you like proof?” she rolls to the nightstand and she pulls a knife from the drawing, but Geralt catches her hand.
“I don’t want proof,” Geralt says, and carefully takes the knife to put on the other nightstand. He then takes her hand, “Why do you not want this?”
“I didn’t say that,” Maylin says softly. “It is not something this easy Geralt.”
Geralt straddles her and cups her face and she looks up at him, her hand touching his, “I know it isn’t easy. The thought of having someone that I could loose is a fear that holds me back from relationships. But if you cannot die, that fear is not as present.”
“What about my fear? You are a Witcher Geralt. Your job is to hunt and fight monsters that can kill you. Am I to bury your body?” Maylin asks, and pushes him off her, and he flops into the bed, shocked, “I have buried enough bodies. I don’t want to add more if I don’t have to.” She gets up, and retreats into the closet, grabbing a robe and underwear and coming back out with them on, “And Damian isn’t my only enemy. Dating me means your painting a target on your back.”
Geralt watched her leave and took a moment to consider weighing her words carefully, and he silently makes a vow to be more careful, if it means she will let him be with her. He stands up, and comes to catch her shaking hands, and holds them tight, even when she tries to pull away, “Maylin. Give me a chance.” He has never asked someone of that before, “Please.”
Maylin looks into his eyes, searching for something, anything, her own starting to well with tear. Slowly she lets her shoulders fall, and she slumps into his chest, “If you die on me, I will bring you back just to kill you.”
Geralt wraps his arms around her marvelling once again at the feeling of her in his arms, and he kisses the top her head, chuckling softly, “Could you really bring me back?”
“Depends on how you died, but yes,” Maylin says, chuckling softly to and nuzzling into his skin, breathing in his scent, and sighing softly.
Geralt sweeps her up into his arms and brings her back to bed. She reaches and opens the window, and breathes in. Geralt comes to lay with her, and she snuggles back into his side.
“We are still going tomorrow,” Maylin says and looks at him. “I hope that is okay.”
“Will we come back?” Geralt asks, looking around the room, knowing that he can ease into this life of hers.
“No,” Maylin says and smirks, “Have you ever heard of a Clover Ring?”
Geralt nods a little, “I heard that they were hidden rings of clover that can be moved.”
“Indeed. And we are in one. Mine is rather large, and it turns into a necklace,” Maylin says proudly, resting back into his chest.
Geralt grunts softly, finding that to be extremely useful. He kisses her hair, still in its braids, even if it’s a tad messier now. “Goodnight Maylin. Sleep well.”
Maylin hums softly, “Sweet dreams Geralt.”
Geralt smiles softly, and closes his eyes, falling swiftly to sleep, Maylin close behind.
 Geralt wakes in the morning, mildly afraid that this was all a very cruel dream, but he calms quickly when he sees he is still in the bed, Maylin beside him, but she’s awake, and sitting up in bed, a blanket wrapped around her as she leans against the headboard that has a few knife holes in. Her eyes watch outside as rain pours down, and a soft, pleased smile makes her look even more gorgeous than the day before.
He sits up, and comes to look out the window as well, “Are you sure we cannot wait another day?”
Maylin chuckles softly and turns to him, “Good morning to you as well. And no. I quite like the rain. And the town isn’t very far. ‘Bout a day and a half, and I will pack a tent on Twi.”
Geralt grunts but finds he can suffer some rain. “You really are coming with me?”
“You don’t know how to get out of this forest,” Maylin points out, and reluctantly slides from the bed to get dressed. Geralt catches her around the waist, making her squeal in surprise as he brings her close again, to kiss deeply.
He releases her after, “I look forward to the company.”
Maylin chuckles softly, and goes into her closet, pulling out a suit of leather armour that seems too light to be armour. She takes off her robe and slides on a soft long sleeves blouse, and a pair of tight pants, that make her ass stand out more, and Geralt sits back against the headboard, arm behind his head as he watches her get dressed, a smile toying with his lips.
Maylin slides the armour on, tying and buckling the complicated straps with muscle memory alone. She then pulls a scabbard out, holding a curved flat blade that she pulls out for a moment to touch the blade with a bare finger.
“Should I poison it again?” She asks, but Geralt is a bit distracted as he takes in her form, the armour making him fear her a touch, and it excites him. She chuckles softly and comes over to him to kiss his cheek, “Geralt?”
“Hm?”
“Liking what you see I take it?” Maylin put the sword back and the scabbard on her back.
“Very much. I have never seen armour like this before. All these symbols,” Geralt says, taking her arm to inspect it.
“Warded armour. The wards bounce a persons magic back at them. And between the two leather layers, is warded glass, Its—”
“Unbreakable. I remember,” Geralt says and releases his hand. “A bit overkill?”
Maylin shrugs and stands to retrieve her boats, “Usually, but it still hurts to get stabbed. How’s your armour?”
Geralt grunts, and gets up, and goes to collect his clothes, Maylin following as she goes into the kitchen, “Not as good as yours.”
Maylin studies him for a moment, “We could get some commissioned for you that’s like mine.”
“Really?” Geralt asks, turning to her as he puts on his own armour.
Maylin nods, “Got a friend who owes me more than he is worth.”
Geralt grunts in amusement, and watches as she pulls two bottles from the icebox, and shakes them up, before coming to hand him one. “Really?”
She nods as she opens her bottle and takes a drink of the pinkish sludge. She makes a face, licking her lips then nods, and continues past him to the shelves, and looks at the book. “Damn.”
“What?”
“I didn’t copy your book,” Maylin says and picks it up.
“That’s alright,” Geralt says, and opens the bottle himself and sniffs it, finding it smells like strawberries and dairy. He sips it and can’t believe how good it is.
Maylin shakes her head, and sets the book down, then pulls out a box from under the shelve and sets it on the table. She then grabs another book, blank and the same size as the other, and puts both in the box and locks it tight. She says a spell, and the box starts to rock as if the books are mating. Geralt raises an eyebrow but decides he doesn’t want to know.
She then starts to take off her armour, “We will have to wait a day before it’s ready. I don’t want to send you off without having everything you need.” She knows it’s a half lie, but she doesn’t want to part from him just yet, even though she hinted at the fact that she would travel with him.
Geralt raises and eyebrow, but is relieved they aren’t leaving so soon, and takes his armour off. He watches her walk back to the bedroom, and takes another swig of the strawberry goodness, before following after her. He leans against the frame as he observes her taking off the complicated buckles and clamps of her armour and setting it up on the stand once it’s off. He admires the markings on her back and comes forward slowly to trace them.
“What are these?” Geralt asks, tickling his fingers over her spine, making her gasps softly.
“Gold thread,” Maylin gives as an response, and turns to look at him over her shoulder. “They are my… wings.”
“Wings?” Geralt raises an eyebrow and turns her slowly to face him. Her breasts are covered by a band of clothe with straps.
Maylin nods and pats his chest softly before going into her closet, “You’ll see them one day, I’m sure.”
Geralt grunts, “Why not now?”
Maylin doesn’t answer, and he figures that is the end of that conversation. She comes out wearing a black pair of pants, a tank top, her hair pulled up into a ponytail. She hands Geralt a pair of thick leather gloves.
“You aren’t going to answer my question?” Geralt asks, taking the gloves with a frown.
“They are private and sacred, and it takes a bit to put them back,” Maylin explains, “Since we have a day, I’m going to work in my garden. Those are if you decide to join me.” She takes one to show that they are well insulated. “TO protect from the toxins that are in some of the plants.”
Geralt hums softly, and nods, “Should I help you?”
Maylin shrugs and goes on her tippy toes to kiss his cheek, before walking past him and out of the house, “don’t know what else you would do!” she calls.
Geralt grumbles a bit, following her out of the house, putting the gloves on. He witnesses as she opens the gate and steps in, everything labeled, sectioned and there is even a path through for her to walk on.
“Don’t touch the ones with the red or black labels, but the rest is fine,” Maylin says, heading into another fenced off part, with a bit of wet sand between that fence and this one. She leaves the gate open though.
“I’m guessing you will be tending those ones?” Geralt assumes as he grabs a watering can to fill in from a small fountain that is growing the most beautiful white flowers, that give of an amazing scent. He finds it a touch too much, before he fills the can.
Maylin smiles at him and nods, and she gets to work looking over her plants with a gentleness Geralt is a touch jealous of. They are decently silent as they work, Geralt pulling weeds and putting them in a bucket according to Maylin’s instructions, then watering all the plants. HE watches her mainly, and her hands, worried she will get a reaction. He is relieved when she doesn’t so much as get a hint of red skin.
Eventually she goes inside to wash her hands well, before coming back to join him as they pull out weeds. She sits back at one point, munching on a leave of mint, when she blinks as a drop of water touches her nose, then she smiles wide.
Geralt grunts, and gets up, Maylin besides, but as he makes it to go inside the house, he turns back to see Maylin taking off her clothes, and stretching her arms out to feel the rain on her skin. Her eyes have fallen closed, and she looks like a goddess of the earth, and Geralt moves to steps to see what she is going to do next, an amused smile on his face.
“You have a thing for water,” HE observes. Her eyes open and look at him, the emotions in them almost too intense for Geralt, but he doesn’t dare look away as he feels a tingle run down his spine.
Maylin laughs softly, and slips off her shoes and socks, before coming over to him, smiling slyly. She slides a wet hand over his shirt, and he grunts softly. He let’s his eyes fall closed as her lips tease his skin.
As he gets lost in the barest of her touches, he gasps softly as her hands wrap around his wrists, “I don’t want to get—”
Before the words leave his mouth, Maylin has tugged him into the rain, laughing as she does so. He is almost instantly soaked.
“Wet.” He shakes his head, and looks at her, “I am running out of clothes.”
“All by design,” Maylin says cheekily, before grabbing the hem of his shirt and pulling it off him and kissing his lips when its halfway off his head.
Geralt rids himself of the rest of his clothes, with Maylin’s almost unhelpful hand, as she kissed over skin that was newly exposed. The ministrations make his heart jump, and he looks at her when he is left in nothing but his underwear, and raises an eyebrow as Maylin smiles at him, then looks over the scars in the rain, running gentle, soft fingers over them.
“Rain has many magical properties that most mages I have come across overlook,” Maylin says softly, as her hand comes to rest over his heart, her eyes falling a touch sad. Geralt puts his bigger hand on hers.
“Show me,” Geralt asks softly, and tilts her face up to him with his free hand.
Maylin smiles softly, and goes up to kiss his lips, before stepping away, her touch lingering. She takes a few steps away and takes a deep breath. Her hands come up suddenly, and before Geralt’s eyes he watches as every drop of water freezes in mid air. With a flourish of her hands, the water comes to her, and she moves around the grass in elegant forms that Geralt has never laid eyes on. She moves it to be a wave that crashes into the ground, before she releases her hold, and the water starts to fall again.
Geralt claps, and watches as he walks back over to him, smiling a bit shyly.
“That is a beauty of water, but it has other things. Mainly healing,” She pulls a shard of ice from the rain to be in her hand, and holds her other one out to Geralt, “Do you trust me?”
Geralt eyes the shard in her hand, slowly getting a glimpse of just how dangerous this woman is, but he knows he does indeed trust her. He gives her his hand, and to his surprise she turns his arm over and slices the inside of his arm, making him hiss and try to pull away. Her grip is tight, as she then has the ice melt back to water, and has it envelope her hand, and the cut on his arm, and he watches with fascination as the cut starts to heal over, leaving a ghost of a scar, before leaving nothing. Maylin lets the water fall to the ground, before she kisses over the pain she caused.
“How… Why doesn’t other mages know this?” Geralt asks as he inspects his arm.
“They focus on the balance of chaos, not on the energy that flows through everything,” Maylin says, her voice a tad bit envious and admirable, “Energy is my thriving ground.”
Geralt grunts, before taking her hand in his, “I can not see that as a terrible thing.”
Maylin chuckles softly and places his hand on her waist as she takes his other, and she pulls him to dance with her into the rain, a small adorable waltz to the music of the world waking up.
 For a month, both would find reasons why they could not leave that day and spend it together. They’d tend Maylin’s garden and cook together. They made the small trip to the waterfall, and Geralt got used to the cold, and would follow Maylin’s gentle movements when she rid herself of the bad energy. He asked her once about this bad energy, and she explained it as being something that comes with all magic. He often didn’t get very clear answers from her when eh asked about her magic, and after the first few times he stopped asking about her wings.
It was a gentle time between both of them. Geralt found he couldn’t fathom doing anything else at that time but to read at her side with the fire going, as they would idly toy with each others free hand. Not to mention the sex with her was better than anyone he had ever been with put together, and that is saying a great deal. However, his favorite part of their day is falling asleep with her at his side, and waking with her curled up into his warmth, snoring a touch.
There was once, when Geralt wanted to surprise her, that he went out of her room before she woke to make her breakfast, when he ran into the room, armed for danger as he heard her screaming. His heart broke when he saw the broken look in her eyes as she woke from her nightmare, and wordlessly fell into his open arms, and buried her face in his chest. At the time she didn’t want to discuss what her dream about, and he knew better than to push it.
However, today, when Maylin went out to eat breakfast on the porch, an owl perched on the fence, and she frowned a touch as she took the letter in its beak to read over.
Geralt frowned a touch, afraid that is was bad, but she just shook her head.
“What is it?” Geralt asks.
“A summon for you. Well a Witcher,” Maylin says and hands him the letter. It details a monster problem in a nearby village. Geralt grunts softly.
“I am sure another would go,” Geralt says, looking at her, knowing that regardless of the excuses that either would cook up for them to not go, they would have to.
Maylin just kissed his shoulder, and rubbed his arm, “Come on. It’s time to go.”
Geralt has been dreading those words, and he catches her arm before she goes past him and looks into her mildly confused ones. His heart aches, and he pulls her close to him, to wrap up in his arms and hold tightly. Maylin lets out a pleased sigh, and hugs him back, kissing his chest softly.
Geralt holds her like this until he feels he can move without shattering, and reluctantly lets her go, but he chuckles to himself when she pulls him back in. “One more.”
It takes them a few more minutes before either can let go of the other, and they move inside to dawn their armour, and head out to get their horses ready. She hands Geralt a bag of food and tying a tent to the back of her saddle, then she hops up, and pats Twi’s neck. “Ready to go?”
Geralt gets up on Roach and nods, and comes to be beside her, “Lead the way.”
Maylin nods, and off they go, into the lush green forest, the path opening for them as they go, but it is a single horse only. Geralt couldn’t complain, as he gets to watch her from behind, a treat he didn’t know he wanted. They ride in silence.
It takes a few minutes of riding, but the forest shifts the beautiful green that it was, to the gloom that Geralt is used to, and he blinks as Maylin pulls Twi to a stop, hopping in him and going to the edge, where indeed a line of clovers, about his hand width wide, running in both directions is. Maylin touches it, and it shudders, the clovers waving down like being blown my strong winds, and with a flourish of pink and blue light, a necklace appears on the ground, that Maylin picks up, and the lush green forest is no longer there, replaced by the gloom of the normal, the trees in different places, as if the place there were in never existed.
Maylin sides the necklace around her neck and tucks it into her armour, before getting back up on Twi, the rain breaking, and she sighs softly, “Awe.”
Geralt shakes his head and comes to ride beside her and shakes out his hair. They ride side by side in silence, stopping at a river to drink and have a quick bite, no words said between them, but it is not an awkward silence, but a wonderfully comfortable one. They reach the outskirts of the town by nightfall. The lanterns light it up and Maylin smiles faintly, taking in the sight of it before getting down. She pulls out a string with metal sheets attached to it and starts to spread it around the horses and the fire that Geralt is getting together.
“What is that?” Geralt asks, watching her fix the position of the metal sheets.
“Protection circle. Same magic that’s in my armour. Keeps things out,” Maylin explains and nods when she is okay with the positioning. She pats Twi’s side, who neighs at her, and hasn’t moved from the spot she put him since they got there.
Geralt grunts softly and turns back to getting a fire started.
Maylin pulls out the tent and sets it up quickly and retreating inside for a few minutes before coming back out, with two bowls and plopping down by the fire and handing him the bowl.
“Thanks. You take safety way to seriously,” Geralt observes and grunts when she playfully flicks him.
“Been attacked enough at night to know that it doesn’t hurt to be cautious,” Maylin defends herself as she eats, watching the fire. “And old habits die hard. I used to travel from town to town, healing and helping with anything I could.”
“Basically, a Witcher yourself,” Geralt teases softly.
Maylin snorts at that and turns to fix him with a look, “If I was a real Witcher, you would be out of a job.”
“You’re that good a fighter?” Geralt asks, an eyebrow raised.
“Yup. My father saw to that,” Maylin says, but her tone isn’t bitter, as it often is when she speaks of her father. She stares at the fire as a memory plays in her mind, and she shakes her head to rid herself of the images.
“He trained you?”
“Yes. Behind my mother’s back, until she was called away, and then it was every day, till I did not need to use a weapon to kill a man, as he taught me that every man is monster, including himself, and that as his sweet little princess, I had to know how to bring them to their knees.”
Geralt had started to frown, and it got deeper and deeper as she talked, “Do you believe him? That all men at monsters?”
Maylin shakes her head, “No. Some are, corrupted by ego and pride, but not all of them.” Her eyes see through his, and she touches his hand gently, “You are not a monster, Geralt of Rivia. You are a great man, who does things some are too afraid to do, and it makes them afraid of you.”
Geralt nods, “I know.”
“You can know all you like, but it weighs on you, like it weighed on me,” Maylin says and comes to sit closer.
“You aren’t a monster,” Geralt says immediately, looking at her with a sudden stubbornness, finding the idea to be monstrous in itself.
Maylin laughs, “Not yet. But give it time. You will see it all one day.”
Geralt takes her hand, setting his empty bowl down, “You can’t scare me off Maylin.”
Maylin leans her head on his shoulder and hopes with all her heart that he is right. “I’m betting on that.”
Geralt grunts and looks out around them. “It isn’t raining. I know you brought the tent, but it is nice to sleep under the stars.”
Maylin considers, and nods, “Alright. I’ll get the bedrolls.” She stands and goes to get them, pulling them from the tent along with two blankets and a pillow, and the tent snaps down and rolls itself up and waits to be placed back on Twi.
Maylin sets the bedrolls out, and pats beside her, after Geralt washed the bowls and put them away. He comes to lay with her on them, and tucks her into his side, the blankets over them both, and his head on the pillow. He tucks an arm under his head and looks at the stars. It isn’t long until Geralt hears Maylin’s breathe relax, and he looks down to see she is fast asleep.
Despite everything she does to make herself feel safe, being in Geralt’s arms makes it all seem better. Like somehow, she can let this person protect her, because he actually can.
 Geralt wakes to the feeling of something moving against his side, and at first, he thinks its Maylin getting dirty, but then he hears a whimper of pain and his eyes fly open to see that Maylin has turned away from him, and seems to be twitching in pain, soft sounds coming from her.
He pulls her onto her back, and sees that her eyes are closed, but her eyes dart under them as if she’s trapped in a nightmare.
“Maylin!” Geralt shouts, and gets shoved, but she doesn’t wake, and to avoid being punched he pins her hands, and tries again, “Maylin! Wake up!”
Maylin’s eyes snap open, wide, and deeply afraid, and she struggles under him for a moment before recognizing who he is and calming slowly. Tears brim in her eyes. “Gods…”
Geralt wants to ask, but he doesn’t want to cause her anymore pain, so he just scoops her up into his arms, and cradles her in his arms, rocking softly, shushing her gently, “Its okay. Your okay. Safe and sound.”
Maylin snorts softly, but she doesn’t pull away, just snuggles into him tighter. “Sorry for waking you,” she mutters softly.
Geralt shakes his head and pulls way to look at her face, and he decides he wants to know, so he can better comfort her, “Needed to wake up anyways. What… were you dreaming of?”
Maylin looks into his eyes and nuzzles into his neck a touch. She is quiet for a long time before she says, in a voice almost too soft for a normal person to hear, “I… Dreamt of when some people… who I thought were my friends… tried to burn me at the stake.”
Geralt grits his teeth, and pulls her tighter into her chest, and kisses the top of her head. He strokes her arms, unsure what to say to such a thing, and knows it would just be angry words if he spoke. Maylin doesn’t mind, as his embrace is comfort enough, but eventually she pulls away to wipe at her eyes.
“It wasn’t the first time. I’ve been called a witch many times, and they always use trial by fire to get rid of us,” she chuckles humorlessly, “It is a good thing I am fireproof.”
Geralt grunts softly, and cups her face, and kisses over her eyes gently, feeling her tears on his lips. He would do anything to never have to see tears like this on her face again.
Maylin smiles a touch, and turns her face up to kiss him properly, and she yelps a touch when pulls her up to her feet so he can wrap her up in his arms better. “I won’t let that happen again.”
Maylin’s smile grows, and closes her eyes, “I believe you Geralt.”
Geralt eventually releases Maylin, letting her make them breakfast, as Geralt packs up camp, and eats, then she leads her horse to the town, looking at it with excitement. Geralt is close behind, and they tie their horses off to a post, and Maylin heads into the market, much to Geralt’s dismay, but when her hand slips into his, he decides the market is okay.
Maylin looks over an array of jewelry, touching over a few rings, seeming to favour simple designs than the fancy, and Geralt takes notice as she lifts up a pendant, the stone red and wrapped in wire, and it hangs on a silver chain. She hums softly, and places it back, smiling at the keeper, before moving on.
Maylin makes a beeline for the blankets, releasing Geralt’s hand to touch each one to find the softest, making him chuckle softly. He looks around, at all the people giving him hateful glares, and Maylin confused, and almost sorry expressions. His hands clench, and Maylin turns to him, face against a blanket she found soft enough by her standards and smiles slightly. She pays the woman for the blanket, the woman nodding, and giving Geralt a wary eye.
A grumble leaves Geralt’s lips as Maylin wraps the blanket around his shoulders and pulls him into her, her lips naturally finding his, and he gasps against her mouth, but he melts into the kiss. When they part, people are staring even more, and Maylin smirks softly.
“Pay them no mind. It is human nature to stare at the happy,” Maylin says and pats his chest, and leaving the blanket over his shoulders as she considers to peruse.
Geralt grunts softly, and turns a glare on the people around him, taking the blanket from his shoulders and following after Maylin. Whose eyes have fallen on a green dress, with dark lace over it and she touches the fabric longingly, smiling to herself. Geralt watches as her eyes darken with sorrow, and her hand drops from the dress, and she moves on from it, to get some sweet treats for herself and Geralt, the light in her eyes back.
He finds himself looking back at the dress, then back at Maylin, wondering why she didn’t buy it. He snacks on the overly sweet buns, and follows her into the pub, to sit with her in the corner.
Maylin sits across from him, licking the syrup from her fingers with almost child like delight, and thanks the bartender when he brings her a napkin, a glass of wine, and a mug of ale, smiling at her like they are old friends, before giving Geralt an almost father like ‘don’t you hurt my daughter’ look, and leaving.
“You must come here often if he knows what to bring you,” Geralt observes taking the ale when she pushes it towards him.
“I always like coming down every so often to listen to the bards and watch as men make stupid mistakes,” Maylin says cleaning her fingers properly.
The door of the pub slams open, making her jump a touch, and in walks a man wearing a red and blue bards’ outfit, lute in hand, and his eyes land on Geralt, and he hurrahs before coming over to them. His eyes land on Maylin, and his step slows before he gets there.
“Speaking of bards,” Geralt says with distaste, and takes a long sip of ale.
Maylin chuckles softly and sips her wine, and eyes the lute, “Tell me bard, do you know how the lute was said to be made?”
Jaskier frowns, taken aback that she spoke to him, and even moves over to let him sit beside her, much to Geralt’s even greater displeasure, and wave the bartender to bring another mug of ale. “I know many stories, fair maiden, but not that one! Might before you tell me, I must ask for your name, and the whole story on how you got to this table with our darling Witcher, who I might add, I have not seen in a month!”
Maylin shakes her head, looking to Geralt as he tries to avoid both of their eyes, “He was fighting a monster, and after it was killed, he was hurt, so I fixed him up. My name is Maylin. I must apologize for keeping him, but he was… helping me with my house.”
Jaskier takes her hand to kiss, but from the death glare he gets from Geralt he settles for shaking it, “I am Jaskier! You did the world a favour by saving this Witcher.”
Maylin chuckles softly, “I would have to believe that.”
Jaskier beams, and turns to Geralt, “I like this one a lot Geralt. Is she coming with us?”
“Us?” Geralt grumbles, and nods to the bartender when he brings three ales instead of one, and he claims two of them.
“Yes. Us,” Jaskier gestures between himself and Geralt, “The dynamic duo!”
Maylin shakes her head softly and sips her wine, and looks to his lute again, “I am. Don’t know where we are off too though.”
Jaskier beams, “I am sure something will arise, and we will be called to action. I look forward to having someone to talk to.”
Maylin shakes her head, and takes the lute to inspect, “I don’t talk much either. Can I tell you this story now?” she looks at Geralt with a smirk on her lips.
Jaskier takes his lute back, and holds it like its his child, as it probably is, and nods, “Tell me this remarkable story of how a lute was made.”
“Not a lute, the lute. The first one recorded in history,” Maylin says, and leans back, “Was made from the shell of turtle, by a trickster god. He had caught the turtle, fucked it, ate it, then turned the shell into a lute.”
Geralt grunts softly, shaking his head a bit at the story. Jaskier looks a bit offended, which makes Geralt like the story a bit more.
“Where did you hear such a tale?” Jaskier asks, taking a sip of his ale.
“I read it in a play,” Maylin says, and looks out the window, “It was one of my favorites from it too.”
Jaskier nods, and turns back to Geralt, “So… does she get to ride Roach?”
“No,” Geralt says, and Maylin smiles softly, finding it amusing that he is so protective of his horse. Her eyes cut into him when they turn back to him, and he relaxes a touch. “She is smart enough to have her own horse.”
Jaskier makes a shocked, offended face, and looks at Maylin, “Is this true fair maiden?”
“Yup. His name is Twi, and you may not ride him either,” Maylin says looking at him. “A bard should have a horse.”
“I would have one if Geralt shared his earnings with his partner,” Jaskier mutters.
“I don’t have a partner,” Geralt says, taking a long drag of his ale.
Maylin snorts softly, and shakes her head, “Excuse me Jaskier,” She leaves the table when he moves, and Geralt frowns as she heads to the bar, and speaks softly with the bartender, before following him into the back.
“I think you insulted her,” Jaskier states, and sniffs the wine she was drinking, “How can she get the top shelf?”
“What do you know it Jaskier?” Geralt retorts, and moves to go after her, but stops when she comes back holding a baby and cooing at it, the bartenders wife beside her, and they talk quietly. he then turns to Jaskier. “I will be right back.”
Before Jaskier can ask where he is going, he leaves the pub quickly. Maylin watches with a raised eyebrow, but he attention comes back to the baby in her arms, and she coos softly at her, “One day you will have someone that makes your heartbeat either too slow or too fast, and it will never be normal again.”
Jaskier joins Maylin to coo at the child, “What a cutie. Is it yours?” he looks to the wife, and she nods, “I should’ve known, she has your nose.”
               The wife smiles, then makes an oh face and hands Maylin a letter she had been holding, “Right. This is for you.”
Maylin frowns a touch, and looks over the envelope, before sniffing it, and smiling warmly. She turns it over and looks at the seal, touching it soft sweet affection before she opens it, and pulls the letter out, and catches a crushed rose as it falls.
“Is that a love letter?” Jaskier asks, smirking at the rose.
Maylin nods a touch, “Don’t tell Geralt, but yes. From the only person who has ever weaseled her damn self into my heart.”
Jaskier’s eyes bulge, “Did you say ‘her’?”
Maylin nods and taps his chin. “Aye. And she is requesting my presence, so off I go. Give Geralt my regards.” She waves and walks out of the pub before Jaskier can catch her.
Maylin goes to her horse, and pats Twi’s neck, before getting on. Her eyes catch Geralt’s and she knows she will never forget the broken look he gave her when he watched her turn her horse away from him, and out of the town at a gallop.
Geralt swears, then looks at a letter and rose placed on Roach’s saddle and moves to pick them up and read over the letter.
My Dearest Alexandra Maylin Crown,
I find myself missing your presence at my side. I have a spectacular plan for us, that I am sure you will love.
Come to the stones. You know the ones. Don’t bring anyone else.
Zella Black.
 Geralt frowns, and looks at the rose, “So she was lying about her real name?” he sniffs it, and finds it smells like strong coffee, rose, with a hint of feminine arousal, which he doesn’t know how it got on the damn flower. “Alexandra.” He finds he likes that name more.
He then turns to look after girl, and his heart, before he heads back into the pub, packing the green dress up in a bag to keep it as safe as he can.
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juupajaa · 4 years
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I’m really sorry to bother you and I get it if this is triggering but I need some positivity. I’ve been feeling kinda bad lately and I started taking body checks again and I have real bad relapse thoughts. Like I wanna go back to my worst ed behavior even though I know how bad it is. I’m scared to relapse but I’m also scared of recovery since I’m doing this alone (I don’t want to bother my friends with it because I feel like I’m fake). Can you give me some positivity about recovery please!! 💙
Ohhh hi you! No worries dude, you're not bothering me and in general yall don't have to worry about bothering or triggering me bc pssshhhhh I can just put my phone down if I'm not feeling it ✌
But yeah ok so positivity. Anti-relapse spells.
It's real easy to "forget" how bad it is to be sick and honestly I feel like the better way to evade a relapse is to focus on the good stuff instead of the bad stuff.
Like yeah, I can think to myself how miserable I was at my worst and how awful it was but that doesn't really motivate me anymore bc it's pretty distant now and sometimes I feel like "well maybe it would be easier to be miserable than to just fight all the time". So instead, I try to think about how good it is to be healthy.
I can always think about how nice it is that I can do stuff all day without being cold or tired. I can write and draw and make music and I can't do any of that if I'm sick. I can think about all sorts of new plans for myself bc I know I have the ability (mental and physical) to follow them. I can try new stuff, I can eat what I want, I can be who I want to be and I don't have to hurt all the time.
So maybe try having some big old daydreaming session with yourself. Stop to think about what are the things that are good about not relapsing. What would you wanna do if your ed never peeked its ugly head at you? What kind of person do you want to be? What's your ideal self like? Does that person have an ed they have to deal with all day every day? How does that person overcome all the Bad Shit that happens? Do they work through it and come out on top?
When I get doubts about recovery, thinking about how much better it is to be healthy helps me a lot more than thinking about how sucky it is to be sick. It's very normal to feel like going back if you're not doing well, bc you've been depending on disordered eating to help you get through emotions you don't wanna deal with.
Maybe start very small and try to identify what it is that's making you feel so uncertain right now that you want to go back to your ed? Is it something you can change?
And for what it's worth, I bet your friends would love to help you if you'd let them. You know your problem real and I know it's real. You wouldn't be in so much pain if it wasn't real. And if all else fails, I'm just a few clicks away if you've no one else to talk to✌ Just sit tight ok? Get comfy, get lazy and do literally anything else than to start thinking about getting sick again. Ya cute and there's so much cool stuff you can be and do and your ed is a loser and we should beat it up during recess
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