#so in a way i'm still kinda sharing a bit of what i've learned this semester? sort of??

[askfallenroyalty]

my thoughts on finishing AFR (tumblr version)

Firstly, thank you all so, so so much for reading.

5 years ago, on February 19th, 2018, 2:24 PM I posted the first AFR comic. I drew it thinking it'd be a nice little project for a few months, and then I'd move on. Little did I know it'd become a huge passion project and something that's brought me many, many tears and laughter. It's been a journey making this thing, I can easily say I am hardly the person I am when I first made this. I've learned so much about myself, the world, and what I wanted to say in comics.

AFR didn't become a serious project until I realized Asriel and Chara's story hit home to me and I realized I had something more profound to say than just "heehee silly ut comic where siblings squabble." Now it's become a story about growing up, and the life after the "happy ever after." What does it mean for "everybody to live?" well, you live. You suffer. You cry and laugh and it's everything you want and you fear. You wake up another day.

It's no secret that Chara and Asriel are heavily based on myself. Every OC and every character I can put my grubby little hands on have been influenced by me. Yun's excitement for monsters, Mew Mew's loud declarations of frenzied thought, Hol's quiet, head-in-the-clouds nature... the list goes on. Knowing the characters now, I'm excited for the redraw as I can paint their stories from start-to-finish properly. It pains me more than anything I can't just say "here's a finished product, fully and forever." But one step to getting there was finally finishing the tumblr version. So even if I were to die, or lose my ability to draw, I can say: I told my story. I made it real. It's messy, incomplete, and not at all what I aspire it to be, but it's here. And that means, so, so much to me.

Never again will I be accepting story asks. Never again will we see what crazy thing Asriel and Chara are up to in their journey into adulthood. While the story will continue to develop, it has it's ending.

I've grown, a lot. I started this when I was 21 years old. I've had a on/off relationship, I've learned I'm neurodivergent, I've moved out of my abusive dad's home. I've had so many jobs in that time. I lived through the pandemic (not that it's over) and I've made and lost (out of touch) friends along the way. I am Sam. I drew AFR. I still have so much left to do to make it fully realized but I did it.

And in that time people have offered me grammar and spelling corrections. Advice, suggestions, fanart. You've sent like, I can only imagine to be at least a thousand asks in this amount of time. You guys have been a huge part in this comic being made. Even as the story moves more and more away from the "Ask" part of the title, you guys made it so much more fun, thought provoking, and exciting.

So while my minds a bit scattered and I'm kinda jumbled up, I just want to say with every bit of myself: THANK YOU!!!!!

I understand if many of you don't choose to stick around for the redraw, I'm more than thankful to anyone who's read this far (or heck, just one tumblr post is enough. I feel seen.) and if you so choose to stay, I look forward to sharing a million more little moments with you. ^_^

Thank you and I wish you the very best, have a good life. Peace and love on the planet earth <3

[a-writer-on-elm-street]

Hello! I just recently found your blog, and I have to say I love your work so much!!!!!💞 I hope you don't mind if I make a request.

I was wondering if you'd be willing to write some headcanons for the Sinclairs dating someone with a small/smaller dog they bring everywhere thats very sweet (but a bit...dim). I've been watching too many silly chihuahua videos and I thought the idea would be so fun

I'd love to see what you do with this idea (if you'd like to)! Thank you for sharing your work with us!!! Hope you have a lovely day/night!!! 💗💕💖

The Sinclairs Dating Someone With A Small Dog

a/n: thank you! i'm so glad you like my stuff <33 and thank you so much for the request, i hope you enjoy these! :) also, i'll be writing this under the assumption that the dog is a chihuahua.

Bo Sinclair

When he's first introduced to your dog, his immediate response is to ask, "That supposed to be a dog? What's wrong with it?"

From that point on, he decides he hates the thing, and always complains about you taking that 'dumb dog' everywhere you go.

"It ain't allowed in my truck." He'll say. "Why? Cuz it's my truck. I ain't drivin' no stupid dog around. It can walk."

You'll know when your dog's bothering Bo, because you'll hear him shouting from the next room. "Go on! Get! I said get! Stupid dog."

He'll sit and just scowl at the dog for ages, before finally saying, "There ain't a thought behind those eyes, is there?"

He may act like the dog is the bane of his existence, but when he thinks you're not looking, he'll practically be sharing his meals with your dog, slipping it scraps under the table, not so subtly dropping food on the floor for it if he's sitting on the couch.

Bo acts like he hates the dog, constantly yelling at it and threatening it, but it becomes very clear to you that it's all an act.

Because overtime you begin to notice just how much Bo loves that dog. You sometimes catch him talking to it when he's doing something around the house and they've been left alone for a while.

On a night sometimes, he'll wait for the dog to come inside the room before closing the bedroom door, but he'll still be grumbling about it sleeping in the room with you, even though he's the one letting the dog stay.

They watch TV together as well. Bo will be found sitting on the couch with a beer in one hand, absentmindedly scratching the dog's ear with his other hand.

Overall, Bo will act as though the dog is his arch enemy or something, whilst in reality, he's basically become best friends with your dog.

Vincent Sinclair

Vincent doesn't know what to do with your dog when he's first introduced to it. He's used to being around dogs that have more awareness. Your dog just looks very dim, like there's not a lot going on in it's head.

He can see how much you love the dog, and he wants to love it too. So he definitely tries with it.

He gets it a dog bed to go in his basement, so that he can spend time with it whilst he works. His own dog seems to enjoy it, so why wouldn't yours?

He learns that although your dog doesn't do much, it has a calming presence, so he begins to enjoy having it around.

He decides he wants to keep your dog around more often, especially when he's not having the best day. He finds being in the company of your dog quite soothing.

He finds it especially funny though when the dog gets round Bo's feet, finding amusement in the way his brother scowls down at the animal as he almost trips over it.

Overtime, Vincent has practically adopted your dog, taking it on walks and bringing it down to the basement whilst he works. The two have become inseparable, and you're glad Vincent has managed to form such a strong bond with your dog.

Lester Sinclair

Lester doesn't have a single issue with your dog, but he does wish it did more than just sit around looking a little dim.

"Is your dog okay?" He'll ask, out of genuine concern. "Cuz no offense, but it kinda looks like the lights are on but no one's home, if ya know what I mean?"

You'll assure him that your dog is fine, but he does still worry the dog isn't all there.

He lets your dog ride around in his truck with him, and he'll constantly talk to it during the drives.

The roadkill that he takes home, he cooks it and shares the meat with the dog, but the portions he gives your dog are far too big. "It don't matter." He'll say, smiling down at the small dog. "They can handle it."

Overall, he's just genuinely happy to have your dog around, and he's happy that you're happy.

[Main Masterlist] [Bo Masterlist] [Vincent Masterlist] [Lester Masterlist]

[heich0e]

Fluffy scenario with househusband toji where he greets you at the door after a long tiring day at work, excusing the fact that you were late because you sent him an influx of messages apologizing that you had to work overtime again, and when you go to apologize again in person he stops you and drags you to your shared bedroom jsut for you to see your nightwear ready and a sweet aroma coming from your bathroom indicating of a bubble bath with your favorite bath bomb already ready.

oh OHHHHHHHHHHHH ok u want me emo and horny i see how it is

Toji is rough with you even when his intentions are gentle--not because he doesn't care, but because he's never known anything different. He's unwriting everything he's ever thought to be true and replacing it with the kindness that you show to him. He's trying. He's learning.

For you.

So even if the way he drags you down the hallway to the shared bedroom in your little apartment is less than ceremonious, and is certainly not the 'hello' you'd been expecting after a gruelling workday, he's not hurting you in any way and you know he's doing it because he cares.

His hands are calloused and rough but they hold you like you're precious even as he's tugging you along behind him.

"What's this?" you ask quietly as you spot your pyjamas--a set you rarely wear because you find the lace around the edges a little itchy, and you always wake up with your chest half spilling out of the tank-top--resting at the end of the bed. They're folded neatly--something Toji had been getting very good at lately, one of his more sucessful domestic skills he's been working on since moving in.

You notice that the adjoining bathroom door is ajar, and you can smell the sweet notes of honeysuckle you recognize from your favourite bubble bath clinging to the humid air that curls out from behind it.

You look to Toji, standing with his arms crossed over his chest and his eyes anywhere but yours. His lips purse out in such a way that the scar along one side of his mouth looks even more pronounced in the dim light of your bedroom.

"Remember that thing you were tellin' me about the other day?" He scratches behind his ear, his eyes meeting yours only for a second before he's looking away again. "Self care or some shit?"

You could almost laugh. Maybe even cry if you thought too much about it. Instead, you close the distance between the two of you in a few staggering strides and crush yourself against the familiar warmth of his chest.

"Thank you," you mutter against him, melting as you feel his wide hands trace down the tense planes of your back.

"You've been working a lot lately. Coming home late," Toji mutters quietly, his hands still moving against you comfortingly. "That's not good for you, y'know."

"I know," you agree, pulling away to glance up at him. The tips of his ears have gone a bit pink--sentimentality still doesn't come easy to him, and you know he's uncomfortable with this outward expression of his affections even if he doesn't say it. "I'm sorry I've been so busy."

Toji clicks his tongue behind his teeth, feigning an air of indifference that you see through like the steam creeping out from your muggy bathroom. He's been missing you as much as you have been him.

You stand up on your tiptoes, resting your chin against his chest as you peer up at him. The angle is awkward but you favour it to the notion of pulling away.

"Is there a bath drawn in there for me?" you ask, batting your eyelashes sweetly.

He nods. "Used that weird little fizzy thing you like too."

You smile, swallowing down a fond laugh that threatens to bubble up like your bathwater in the other room.

"You wanna come in there with me?"

Toji smirks.

"Tub's kinda small for both of us," he reminds you, though truthfully you already knew that. "It's for you anyway."

You sigh a little, but nod, pressing a kiss to his chest just over his heart before you pull away.

"I'll be out soon," you say as you step towards the washroom. "Maybe we could watch a movie after?"

Toji nods, shooing you off when he sees the way you're hesitating. You oblige, scampering off towards the washroom before your bath goes cold.

"Oh, baby could you grab me a different pyjama top too? That one's not my favourite!" you say, pausing just on the other side of the threshold of the washroom as your fingers work to undo the buttons on the blouse you'd worn to work.

"No," Toji calls back from the other room, immediate and sure. "That bit is for me."

[claudemblems]

Treating Wounds | Eren Yeager

Summary: You treat Eren’s wounds unknowingly for the last time. Eren has already put his plans into place, but he has the selfish wish of sharing one last night with you.   

Notes: SURPRISE I have written an Eren imagine for you all!! I felt like it's been a while since I've written for AOT and I wanted to fix that :.) This was supposed to be super fluffy but it turned out kinda angsty instead. Still, I hope you're able to enjoy it!!! Writing something different is a nice change of pace.

"I'm fine, [Name]. These are just a few scratches and bruises."

"And bite marks. I know you have to transform sometimes during fights, but you don't have to bite all the way down to your bone!"

Eren could only laugh in response as you shook your head, wondering aloud how your boyfriend managed to be so smart yet so reckless at the same time. You would have scolded him further if you weren't so focused on patching him up. Besides, it was hard to argue with him when he was smiling down at you so fondly. Instead, you pushed your complaints to the side and continued your work.

"You know," Eren began, holding out his hand so you could apply salve to it, "this reminds me of when we first met."

"Really?"

"Yeah. I'd seen you a few times during training, but we'd never had the chance to properly meet. It wasn't until I was pretty banged up from trying to master the maneuver gear that you approached me. You wore a look that's pretty similar to the one you're giving me now." You rolled your eyes and swatted his arm, Eren grinning at you as you did so. "If I remember correctly, you told me I needed to learn my limits if I was going to survive to fight actual titans."

"Well, you're terribly stubborn, Eren. If I kept letting you mess around with the gear, you'd probably have ended up with one too many concussions."

"I suppose I have you to thank, then."

"Mhm. You're welcome."

Despite your no-nonsense tone, Eren could tell you were holding back a laugh. You always tried to look the part of a serious, level-headed leader, but you were only human, after all. There were bound to be moments where your real feelings shone through.

He wondered what kind of expression you’d make when he eventually left you behind.

It sounded like a harsh thing to do, and truthfully, it would be. But it was for your sake. For the island’s. He wouldn’t drag you into the oncoming war more than he had to. 

He already knew how’d you react. You’d stare down at his letter, flames of anger burning in your eyes as you read through its contents. After everything you’ve done for him, after all the hell you two had gone through, he would toss you away like you’d never mattered to him at all.

Could he really do that to you? 

He loved you enough to. It was the only way to keep you safe.

“Eren?”

He was pulled from his thoughts as he looked upon your furrowed brows and pursed lips. He hadn’t even left for battle yet and he was already starting to worry you. This wouldn’t work. For this mission to succeed, he needed to throw you off his trail.

“Sorry. My dad’s memories came flooding in again.”

“Goodness, Eren. When will you drop the burden you’ve put on your own shoulders?” You sighed but continued to gently clean the wound. Eren watched on, observing how you bit the corner of your lip in concentration. He held back a smile. He’d pointed out your habit several times before, chuckling lightly as you blushed and denied every bit of it. He could never figure out what was so embarrassing, but the red blooming in your cheeks made him want to tease you over and over again. 

He would miss your shy expressions when he left. 

“Stop trying to do everything by yourself, Eren. You have me. You have all of us. We’re your friends, and we care about you. So, please…let us in.”

You stopped dabbing at his wound, directing your eyes into something in the distance. Eren watched how they clouded and tears pricked at their edges like rain. 

“[Name]...”

Eren gasped as you fell into his arms, clutching onto his torso. “Eren, don’t make me suffer like this. Don’t lie to me. Tell me when you’re feeling sad, when you’re unsure of the future, when you’ve given up all hope. I’m here. I can’t bear to watch you close in on yourself. I love you too much.”

If he wasn’t preparing to break your heart, Eren would have allowed himself to cry. But this was a test. If he couldn’t keep a stoic face now while you sobbed into him, he would falter later on. He had to keep it together, for both of your sakes. 

“Don’t cry for me…I don’t deserve your tears.”

You whipped your head up towards him, anger flaring in your eyes. “You don’t get to tell me how I ought to feel towards you! You could at least have some sympathy for your girlfriend crying her eyes out because of you! Don’t you feel anything seeing me this way? Have you grown tired of me? Have you had enough? Am I not special to you anymore—”

Eren silenced you with the warmth of his arms wrapping around your back, pushing you against his chest. Here you could feel how fast his heart was beating, a contrast to his nonchalant facade. 

“Of course it hurts to watch you cry, especially for someone as undeserving of your tears as I am. Eliminating all the titans was supposed to make us all have happy lives, but it seems like suffering just seems to follow us wherever we go.”

“Eren…”

I need to push her away. I need to tell her that I don’t care that she’s crying. That I don’t care if she loves me. I need to say I don’t love…

No. I do love her. I love her so much. I can’t even pretend that I don’t.

Eren tightened his hold around you just slightly, burying his head into the crook of your neck. “You’ll have days where you want to cry. You’ll have times when you’re so upset you don’t even want to get out of bed. But I’ll always be there watching over you. So you don’t need to be afraid of the future. You have a whole lifetime ahead of you. And as long as I’m in your heart, you’ll never be alone.”

Tears streamed down your cheeks, falling and staining Eren’s shirt. He rubbed your back as you cried, squeezing you tighter when your body shook with your sobs. 

She probably thinks I’m referring to my last years alive as a titan-shifter. Good. It’s better this way. 

“I still believe we can find a way to undo this…curse,” you whispered, angling your head against Eren’s chest to better feel his heartbeat. “This won’t be the end of us. I’m sure of it. We’ll find a way to make it to the end.”

I wish we could…he thought, a stabbing pain pricking at his chest. He hadn’t really thought much about dying considering he’d been so focused on tuning the fine-details of his plan. But death isn’t what scared him the most. He’d once tried to imagine a life without you in it, what things would have turned out like if he’d never met you. Every scenario he’d come up with left him terrified. You’d been at his side for so long. You’d given him the affection he didn’t know he’d been craving. You were his shining light, an anchor in unruly waters. You meant everything to him. You loved him. And now he was about to find out what it would be like to be on the receiving end of your hatred.

“Oh, I should probably clean up the rest of your wound. It won’t take long. How about we go to the Mess Hall after this for some dinner?"

Eren hummed in response, giving you his hand to patch up. For the remainder of your task, he kept silent, letting the dread of what was to come enter in and dissipate. He had a mission to accomplish; he had a fate to meet. No matter how hard he tried to run, there would be no escaping what had been shown to him. 

Tomorrow I’ll write my last letter for her to find, and then it’s time to face the judgment that lies before me.

[rayshippouuchiha]

my brain thought something and I need to share with SOMEONE.

I was reading this The Mandalorian & Naruto crossover, where Gaara ends up in TM/SW world, and another time travel Naruto fic where Gaara goes back to the Warring States Era, before the hidden villages and leans a lot on his moniker name of Gaara OF THE DESERT, and people and clans that would have been exterminated without him there just revere him as a true son of the Desert, and like... recently I've been reading GOT/ASOIF fanfics, and I love me my crossovers + crack treated seriously and my brain went:

WAIT BUT WHAT IF: Dimension traveling Gaara somehow ends up in Dorne (it's Naruto's fault it's always somehow Naruto & his fuuinjutsu experiments fault). So here is this, very pretty (Oberyn notices obviously), stranger that just showed up in the desert and somehow THE DESERT SEEMS MORE ALIVE with him around, and he's very obviously powerful and (even if they don't know) kind of a type of king for his own people, who shares his body with a god (Shukaku) and suddenly Dorne has a lot of chances of getting their revenge. All the while Gaara is at the same time very accustomed to keep an eye on his back for traitors and assassination attempts (because shinobi, and his whole history), but also very confused on why this Desert Prince keeps being around him and giving him trinkets and inviting him to banquets and just all around making a pest of himself.

Because like, Gaara, in the GOT/ASOIF world would be, as a Shinobi, kinda like A Faceless Man right? Probably even better than them, because the fucked up way Naruto world is run. And like Dorne having that kinda of power hmmmmmmm, also Gaara getting all the love because he deserves.

AND SHUKAKU. Shukaku would have a BLAST (a bit more sane version of the tanuki anyway), because the people of Westeros would totally see him like a God or something. And he would absolutely take advantage of it.

Anyway I'm rambling. I'm not a writer, but this idea took root and I had to share with someone. Sorry if this is not really your thing. I'm still learning GOT/ASOIF stories trough fanfics, and I always love some desert people no matter the fandom.

No apologies necessary darling, I enjoy the enthusiasm. And hey you might think you're not a writer but you never know if you don't give it a shot. Either way you've got some wild AU ideas and if all else fails keep posting them and maybe someone else will pick them up

[leggyre]

hi all! sorry, this is going to be a bit of a sad post.

I just want to share that Nano passed away today. He was a very old bun at 9 years old and we just couldn't keep it up with his increasingly difficult health issues.

As of right now, I'm not asking for consolation or any words of comfort. It's the first time I'm dealing with a loss of this scale, of something I've loved so dearly for so long, that I'll never get back.

I'm still coming to terms about how I feel about it. There were so many times I felt like meeting him was fate. And to be honest, I still do. I set out to adopt a classic white bunny(because honestly that's the only color I had ever seen in the place before) but between all the sleepy or hungry babies there was a little black mischievous boy hoping around and approaching people who gave my finger little kisses and I just couldn't leave him there. We didn't have any boxes or cages to carry him in so he got to pee on my lap on the way home lol

The first time he licked me after that day, something I thought would take ages to happen after lengthy Bunny Research(tm) telling me so, was maybe within a few days or a week, but what made the moment as special as it was for me was the fact I was sitting on the ground, having a breakdown, crying my eyes out. I have a really hard time using the word love to others because I'm never sure of my feelings and I don't want to say it without meaning, but from then on I had never been so sure about how much I loved him.

I have a lot of other stories like that. He helped me learn a lot about myself. He gave me company at my worst. I missed him so much when I had to stop allowing him on the bed to take a nap with me because one day he just decided peeing there was okay. I laid down on the floor on the most uncomfortable positions for the longest time because he had fallen asleep in my arms. I did that this morning, after I was told he might not make it when we went to see the vet today. It didn't even feel like anything was wrong, really. I kinda thought maybe we shouldn't go and I could keep doing that tomorrow. And the day after. And the next. But every time he woke up and shuffled around it was so easy for me to tell he was uncomfortable, trying to find a way to lay down in a way that would ease the pain. He didn't look any different to most people, but I memorized every single kind of motion he ever did.

And it's funny to think that he knew me the same way. He knew exactly what me shutting off the computer sounded like and that it was the perfect time to beg for snacks and attention. He knew when I was hiding something for him. He knew exactly where I walked so he could leave the god damned piss traps in the way when he was mad at me. He knew that if he kept poking his nose out the fence long enough I'd come back eventually to pet him more even if I had already walked all the way to my bed and laid down. And he knew that he could come to me for comfort whenever he felt scared or in pain. He trusted me so much and that meant the world to me.

Just to add one weird, maybe funny thing that's gonna keep me pondering forever; one day, years ago, I wished that I could be the one to take any pain he'd ever feel. Since then, I kind of took note that we'd have our sickest days together, and often in similar ways. It's most likely confirmation bias, but I do like to think I did manage to take some of his pain from him.

Well. My plan was just to share the news and go on with my day. Think about stuff. Couldn't keep from writing this much, though, so I just decided to let it all out anyway.

Again, I don't want any comfort. I will always love him, the things he taught me, and the memories I'm blessed with. I will be okay.

I want the thought of him to keep bringing joy into my life, because that's the thing he's always been the best at. The second best was destroying specifically videogame related cables.

heres some shenanigans to brighten up the mood :]

and here's a cute pic from years ago as well 🐇💞

[kiatheinsomniac]

Hi! I’ve been really enjoying your writing recently, especially your head canons. I think you really get the essence of the characters very well. This may be a weird request (and you can tell me if so!) but I was wondering what the main Assassins (if possibly also the Templars like Shay and Haytham) would react to a Latina/Hispanic reader. I’m Hispanic myself, and I’ve found no content that fits specifically to me; I always tell myself to just write the head cannons or fanfic myself, but I feel too shy honestly, and you’d do a far better job of it than I would!

Maybe the reader fits a lot of the stereotypes (kinda like I do) – likes dancing, cooking, likes speaking a lot of Spanish all the time, is somewhat social, very feminine, etc. I wonder what the different characters would genuinely think of this personality at first meeting, or maybe in their relationship?

Again, if you don’t feel comfortable with it, that’s cool! I still love your head canons!

notes: It's not a weird request at all and I'm so happy to know that you enjoy my writing and like my characterisations! And omg never be shy about sharing your writing! I'm sure it would be amazing!

This is my first time writing a Hispanic/Latina reader (I've mostly focused on the Hispanic aspect just for you!) so I'd love feedback and/or constructive criticism! Making my readers feel represented is very important to me and I'd like to make sure that I can give you good rep! I've tried to follow your request of the reader fitting a lot of the stereotypes listed and I hope that I've done so in a respectful way!

characters: Altaïr, Ezio, Edward, Haytham, Shay, Connor, Arno, Jacob

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a l t a ï r :

As much as he's not really a social butterfly, he couldn't help but feel drawn to you before he even knew you all that well

He chalks it down to a feminine charm that you have (and your amazing and generous cooking! Though, I think it might take a bit of convincing to get him to dance with you lol)

He's very interested in your culture and shows a lot of interest on picking up Spanish seeing as you tend to speak it a lot (I can imagine he was interested in learning languages seeing as he likely spoke Arabic and Greek and probably spoke to Richard Lionheart in French) - he'll try and join you in speaking as he's going along the learning process!

I can see him as being interested to learn how to make the dishes you cook too! I think the two of you could have quite a few date nights where you both prepare dinner together of typical dishes from each other's cultures, having a little private dance around the kitchen with just the two of you with some music in the background as you teach each other the recipes.

e z i o :

I headcanon that Ezio speaks Spanish pretty well (whether fluently or not, I don't really have enough to go on) because of his communications with Maria and Aguilar as shown in AC Rebellion so he loves hearing you speak Spanish as it gives him a chance to test his skills when he speaks with you!

As a couple, you both take turns cooking and so your diets will be a mix of Mediterranean and Latin American cuisine

Being from an upper-class family, he would have head to learn courtly dances so I can 100% see Ezio as a dancer and he just loves to dance with you! You don't even need music, just a beat or a hummed melody and the two of you are dancing with each other!

I see Ezio as a very physically affectionate man and I can picture him just loving be be all cuddled up with you, maybe with you laying on his chest, while he asks you all about your home and listens with keen interest while you talk (I think he'll try and get these conversations going in Spanish too because he loves hearing you speak in it and it's a good chance for him to work on his language skills)

e d w a r d :

Edward might be Welsh but he's no stranger to this part of the world so (depending on what part of Latin America you're from) there's a chance he's experienced a bit of your culture!

He probably knows a handful of words and phrases in Spanish (just based off Spanish presence in the Caribbean in canon) but he can get a little lost when you speak it often. Does he make an effort to stop you? Absolutely not, he adores hearing you speak Spanish. Does he make an effort to learn it too? He does his best

Edward's very outgoing, no stranger to nights out and we see he likes music too so he strikes me as a dancer! Hen could dance entire nights away with you and honestly it's one of his favourite pastimes! He loves spending time with you and the way you smile as you dance is so beautiful to him, he just can't get enough!

Edward's travelled quite a bit so he loves to tell his own stories and hear other people's stories of where they've been and what they've seen so he's very eager to hear all about where you're from!

h a y t h a m :

Canonically, Haytham's fluent in Spanish (AC Forsaken) so the two of you can just weave between Spanish and English and he's not bothered in the slightest (in fact, he quite enjoys it!)

Being upper-class (and English where food in culture isn't really a big deal) I can't really picture Haytham as ever learning to cook for himself (despite a few very basic things) so please teach him how to cook the way you do because he loves everything you make!

And I can see him as the sort to try and surprise you with a romantic dinner where he's cooked all your favourites for you that you've taught him!

Haytham strikes me as the sort who studies things like History in his free time and I can see him taking up an interest in learning all about the history of your country and how things have caused your culture to develop! But, as much as he enjoys research, he likes laying down with you after a long day and just listening to your voice and it's nice to hear you excitedly talk about your home.

s h a y :

Another one who, like Edward, has travelled a bit and loves to both tell and hear stories, he wants to hear all about where you're from and what it's like for you there!

Shay isn't very familiar with Spanish (unlike French and Portuguese) but he'll make an effort to learn if you're Spanish-speaking! He's had to do it for wherever he travels to anyway so it's really nothing new for him. And if you speak Brazilian Portuguese, he'll make an effort to learn more of your language with the European Portuguese he knows as a foundation.

I can picture him as a a shy dancer but he can be convinced with some help from you! He's utterly enamoured with you and he finds you so charming that he just can't resist when you invite him to dance with you!

He enjoys your cooking and I see Shay as the sort of man who likes to cook for his partner often so he's keen to learn how to make your favourite dishes from you!

c o n n o r :

He's so quiet and reserved that you truly are a ray of sunshine for him with your sociable ways and it's honestly what draws him to you!

Like Altaïr, I can see his as a very reluctant dancer but with a lot of convincing (and when it's just the two of you) I can see him giving in and dancing with you, breaking out of his shell some and enjoying himself with you!

I'm pretty sure Connor only spoke a Native dialect and English but he likes to hear you speak Spanish a lot. He could honestly just sit with you and listen to you talk for hours, even if he can't understand you, because he just loves to watch the emotions play across your face and he'll just become lost in thoughts of how much he loves you.

He likes that you're quite sociable too because it means you can do a lot of the talking for him lol so in public he tends to follow your lead in social situations while he sticks close to your side.

a r n o :

Arno's big on the arts so if you can tell him about it, he'll love to hear all about the artists, writers, poets and music from your home country (even if he has to rely on translations)

Like Haytham, being upper-class, I can imagine it was never really important for him to learn how to cook for himself (running the café, he's learned how to bake but cooking still isn't much of a strong point) so the two of you have a sort of dynamic where you make the dinners and he makes the desserts!

He sort of treats it like a date and the two of you will be giggling and dancing around the kitchen together as you go about sorting everything out (but Arno is a very physically affectionate man and there have been instances where food has burned because he just couldn't let go of you or stop smothering you in kisses hehe)

He'll learn how to play some of your favourite songs in your mother tongue on the piano so that he can play while he hears you sing in your own language, regardless of your skill, he finds it romantic and he wants to surprise you by learning your favourite songs for you to sing along to!

j a c o b :

Thank the gods you can cook because he can't to save his life (Evie is so thankful for your skill in cooking because she no longer has to worry about Jacob burning the hideout down whenever he wants something to eat)

He does his best to learn little bits of Spanish for you and the first thing he went for was sweet nicknames for you to try and surprise you!

Like Edward, he's very outgoing and no stranger to night life so I think he could dance the night away with you. Oftentimes, he'll be hugging you, swaying you in his arms, and then he's humming a melody and the two of you are just dancing around the place together, he loves to be close to you and see the smile on your face!

I'm pretty sure it was mentioned that Jacob had never left Crawley before going to London (correct me if I'm wrong) so he could listen to you talk about where you're from forever. He laps up every single detail and asks lots of questions and he's set on going there with you one day. It's something that he often brings up because his world is just so small and yours seems so much bigger and different and he'd just love to see it with you one day!

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[dracononite]

What's your journey with queerness been like?

Been sitting on this question for a bit cause there's a lot to the answer. In short, being queer and trans has probably been the biggest joy of my life, and has been very freeing and allowed me to embrace my identity and love myself and others in a colorful, authentic and fulfilling way.

but here's a longer answer about the journey:

I didn't start figuring out my gender and orientation until I was going on 17, since I was raised in the south with very little sex education or inclusion outside of "wear condoms". I wasn't exposed to the idea of LGBTQ+ identities outside of gay or lesbian until (drumroll....) Tumblr! once I came across the term "nonbinary" that's when it all kinda clicked, at least for my gender. I played around with labels, tried on neutrois for a bit, but pretty quickly came to be totally comfortable with just- nonbinary. I'm just me! (I used the term "transmasc" along with nonbinary for a long while, but within the past year have accepted that I'm generally GNC and enjoy both masculine and feminine presentation in addition to androgynous, so have dropped the "masc" label.)

sexual & romantic orientation has been another journey entirely. I've questioned my orientation repeatedly ever since I found myself, as an at-the-time girl, in an online relationship with also an at-the-time girl. like I knew it was inherently LGBT but it didn't feel like I was lesbian, and this was before I learned any other terms or figured out I was nonbinary, so in my head I was like "??? this is fine, right?" (it was, even if we didn't work out in the end,) and I'd had a boyfriend in high school too, so I didn't think I was homosexual.

once I started learning more about LGBTQ+ labels, I think the first thing I thought I was, was asexual. which, is fine, I was an anxious, dysphoric teen and didn't have any real experience. I eventually moved on to demi/pan, which I stuck with for a while, cause I'd finally become more confident in myself as a person and my relations with others (thanks, college!).

and sometime last year I think, I dropped demi/pan and have just gone with "queer" and, more recently, "sapphic." My relationship with gender and romance is pretty ambiguous but I'm so happy to say that I'm totally comfortable with who I am and the relationship I'm in, and enjoy and celebrate being LGBTQ+! I've never thought that I would find a forever-label for my orientation, and I accept that it will continue to change and evolve with me throughout my life cause well, I'm still questioning pieces of it right now.

I like to be my absolute authentic self with my friends, family and loved ones, and I'm lucky to have a supportive family in my mom and brother - even if my environment growing up wasn't always safe and there were people who doubted or belittled me. I never felt like I had to hide anything from my mom and brother, which probably helped a lot in allowing myself to figure out my identity and beliefs at a pretty young age all things considered. I've never been one to repress who I am, and I never will be.

I've never really felt that announcing any changes in my labels to my online audience is important for me specifically, but I like it to be known that I'm queer and trans. cause if sharing my journey or perspective online helps anyone else figure things out or feel accepted, included, and proud to be LGBTQ+, then I'm happy to do so on occasion.

Thanks for the question!

[uncanny-tranny]

i was wondering if you had any advice on dealing with dysphoria? mines been getting worse lately, especially chest, and i feel shitty about things i never even used to. like specifically my face shape and like general way it looks, i literally never used to get any dysphoria about it and now its like happening kinda often. i have no idea why its happening and like no masc makeup or anything is really working. so yeah any advice you have would be awesome.

I'm going to be honest, it's perfectly normal to have these sorts of things happen, even if there's no "reason" or nothing seems to work. I want to preface with that because it's really important to realize that sometimes this happens, and it isn't your fault.

The things that might work for you may look different than what I or others do, too, and that is completely fine. Do whatever you find most beneficial. I'm not an expert and I the things I suggest have worked for me and a few others, but that by no means means that you have to do them.

Here are a few things I have done:

Covering mirrors, especially before showers

On the topic of showers, being sure to have a barrier (e.g. washcloth, loofah) between your hands and your body soap

Wearing clothes that are the least dysphoria-heavy or clothing that fits in ways that don't trigger more negative emotions (I found baggier clothing helps me both dysphoria-wise and in general)

Making sure all your emotions about this go somewhere, like a journal. Basically, have a place for you to process everything you feel. I've got old journals filled with entries that are just rambling about how I felt about being pre-transition. It didn't solve the issue, but it did give me an outlet where I could articulate exactly what I felt, so I wasn't as confused or lost by emotions I couldn't process through.

Finding healthy ways that invest in yourself, physically and mentally. I've found that when I am kept occupied with things that make me feel fulfilled, I am able to process through those negative feelings. It doesn't mean you run away from them, and you can certainly still feel dysphoric as hell after, and that is okay, but it means that you fill your life with a variety of experiences.

Surround yourself with a variety of different people and bodies. This one really helped me out personally, just because seeing other people who look just like me was really eye-opening and made me realize that I'm not uniquely less masc or whatever else

Don't discount how you feel. Give yourself as much space as you need to understand where you're coming from, and let yourself feel everything you are able. It's okay to feel a variety of emotions. They are neutral at worst.

This one is best done after you feel a bit better, but I've found learning about my dysphoria triggers really helped me understand how I was feeling and why I got in a bad spot. It's helpful to know exactly what can make symptoms worse or less manageable.

I hope I didn't overwhelm you with these points. Dysphoria fucking sucks sometimes, and I just want to offer you the knowledge that you aren't alone in your experiences. I hope something here may make you think about what works for you specifically. There isn't a universal answer to how dysphoria works in others, and I just want you to know that if you find something wildly different that helps, that is okay. I just hope you are safe and okay. My best regards go to you, I wish you peace. If anybody else wants to share some of their own tips, that would be lovely, too, because having multiple different ideas is a great thing.

[multiverse-imagines]

I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS ABOUT REVERSE ISEKAI AU.

1. Are Knives and Vash still plants or are they regular humans?

2. Do Knives' fanbase know about the polycule? Have they seen MC on stream by accident or on purpose, if at all? Do they ship the crew in any way, as fanbases usually do?

3. Do they all live in the same house? Like do Knives, Vash, Wolfwood and Legato live in the same house as the MC or do they all live on their own?

4. Any chance for a tooth-rotting fluff fic? Absolute 100% fluff? Please?

I absolutely adore your AU, I love love love how you write the crew!!! I think it was really nice how Knives was worried for Vash in the laser tag fic. I understand if you don't wanna release too much about the au, but I'm already a massive fan!! Keep going!!

Omg thanks for enjoying my reverse isekai stuff!!! I've been writing it for 13 months now, and it's word count is nearly at 60k!

I don't often share much about it, because it's such a work close to my heart. When I write for it, I'm making it completely a personal fic, and it's basically my maladaptive daydreaming in script. If I do publish anything from it, anything I share is altered and made vague to suit a general audience. In addition, it's like, 70% smut, and I don't feel 100% comfortable sharing my sex life with my partners on the internet (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

During the laser tag fic, I didn't intend on having Vash, or anyone, get triggered, but sometimes the characters write themselves. Knives and Vash have a surprisingly close relationship, and hang out quite often!

Now for your questions,

1. Yes! This is a straight pull Isekai. Vash and Knives are immortal, and have plant powers. They do their best not to think about what they'll do without mc when they pass, but at least they'll have each other on earth like they always wanted.

Also noting that this brotherhood works because they're from slightly different timelines, Knives being of the manga, and Vash from T98. They both acknowledge they're only 99% related, and it makes the grudges they would have had fallen away, and allow them to start over.

2. I have a bit about Knives' fanbase learning about MC. It's super cute, and I'll tag you when I post it! (I should probably make a reverse Isekai tag list…) MC is already an underground person if media as well, being a successful audiobook narrator.

as for the polycule, as far as the world knows, the polycule is filled with "Trigun kinnies" people who have dedicated their entire lives to being the essence of the character they adore. (Some people who figured it out, don't really say anything because why?)

The polycule itself is very messy, and the fans just kind of roll with it. They basically tag their Trigun fanart with things like #Impiricule (imperium polycule) I need to post an update picture of the polycule later. A lot has happened after the laser tag story. New characters, new adventures, etc, and I'd also like to post a generalized timeline as well.

Also, within the fanbase are the other characters from other media who kinda help keep his secret. Tamaki Suoh insists the two of them went to elementary school together in Virginia, and 29 year old All-Might and Knives were "college roommates" Different characters from various media end up on Earth all the time, apparently it's the Elric Brother's fault.

3. Yes! They do all live in the same house for at least the polycule. There are a few characters of Trigun who aren't in the polycule who live elsewhere. As for other media, they usually end up bonding over being displaced entities, and being online friends.

4. I'll pick out a fluffy bit, or make one, and I'll tag you when I post it! Thanks again for all the questions! It makes me so happy to hear you like it!!!

[milqueandsugar]

(Kinda spoilers for Turning Red)

Techno with a red panda hybrid!gn!S/O. Only sfw please :) . I've always loved red pandas and watching Turning Red only filled that love more. Essentially, reader already has red panda features like ears, tail, claws, and fluff, but can also turn into a giant red panda just like in Turning Red.(sorry if you haven't watched it! <3) Also could you do a short reader too? Like 4'11-5'3

Thank you! Have a good day/evening/night :]

🏵 Your Tea Is Ready 🏵

Warnings: panic attacks, voices, violence/injury

Genre: Fluff

| Technoblade X Red Panda!Reader |

When you first met you connected over your animalistic appearances, although yours were a bit more cute compared to his more brutish appearance

Your friendship quickly blossomed and you shared almost everything together, except for one thing

You kept your transformation abilities to yourself, afterall while you do share some things, technoblade didn't transform into a giant red Panda when stressed out

After years of training you learned to suppress and control your emotions, you hadn't transformed unintentionally in years, you had nothing to worry about

That was until you came to visit your dear friend and came across what looked to be a murder scene

Tables knocked over, Claw marks in the floor boards, doors hanging off their hinges, the sound of destruction lead you quickly to a distressed techno

"Techno? Are you alright? What happened in here?"

"Go.... leave!"

He sounded, wrong. He sounded scared and angry and the black eyes that stared you down with such intensity were welling with tears

"Techno, what's going on"

You approach cautiously, a hand on your sword and another held out for him to take and pull him from his knees

"I ..said ..leave!"

As quick as the words left his mouth had he leapt at you, sword swinging

Raising your arm you blocked the swing just barely, a large wound carving up your forearm as you stumble back

You felt bile rise in your throat as you stared at the blood that poured from the injury, your breathing quickened, your chest ached and you felt this feeling all before

Another lunge from techno was interrupted with a howl as pink gas filled the room, knocking him back and some sense into him

Suddenly the voices got quiet, deadly quiet as he bolted upright, shame bubbling in his chest as the gas cleared

God had he hurt you? He prayed it wasn't bad enough you had to use a potion, but considering the pink Gass that still swirled around his feet and the blood on his sword, he could only imagine what he had done

Dropping the weapon he wiped the blood from his hands,

"Y/N! Y/N are you alright!"

"Techno stay away!"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I tried to warn you I can't control it, please, please let me help you I have potions-"

"Techno please just-! Stay away from me!"

The air cleared as his eyes adjusted, spotting a closed door he gently knocked

"Im so sorry, please, let me help you, did I, did I hurt you?"

"No! No you didn't"

It's a lie and he can't tell the way your voice wavers

He couldn't leave you injured, once you were healthy and not bleeding our he'll leave you for as long as you need him gone, but he couldn't leave tou like this

With a sigh he pulled a healing potion from his satchel and opened the door,

"I'm coming in-"

"Techno wait!"

"....HEH???"

He was awe struck to say the least

He was expecting a murder scene and he was met with, a giant red Panda

Cue the voices

' oh my god '

' they are so fluffy! '

' hug the Panda. '

' their so cute '

' touch the Fluff '

"Your a fucking Panda panda"

"I'm a red Panda"

"Sorry, your a fucking red Panda?"

Took some explaining and comfort on both sides, but after cleaning up and some bandaging, you had cleared the air about both your odd behaviors

"So you can just, Panda on will"

"Yeah, sometimes"

"....and you never told me???"

[jenuinedog]

Hi! Anon from before who asked about fluidity and such, I have another question: How do you learn to angle heads / do different perspectives?

Did you take classes, use 3D models, or something else?

So sorry for all the questions, I really want to get better at angles and posing and such - facial expressions are a breeze for me, but I just can't keep proportions, anatomy, or poses right in my head.

TL,dr, how did you learn about all this stuff?

Don't be sorry! Asking questions is how u learn! Lil disclaimer that i'm sorry in advance if this answer seems kinda vapid and lackadaisical :")

I've never taken art classes of any kind in my life. A lot of what I know is from observing how other artists draw and tweaking their processes to something that'll suit my workflow and style better. I admittedly don't use 3D models as often as I should, but they speed up the process IMMENSELY. Sometimes i'll load up a model posing program and use it for just the hands/fingers LOL. It's actually helped me be more aware of how to segment parts of the body so I can "memorize" them a bit better. I actually cannot picture most things in my head properly, so I struggle with keeping tabs on proportions and angles of shapes and poses mentally too 😭

A fun lil trick I do to help with head angles tho that might help is i'll draw a "sheet" of paper over my main head form:

For some reason, i've found that this helps me visualize where the face goes and where it fits within a 3D space. As long as i know the general direction the oc is facing, I can bend and stretch stuff to fit as need be. IDK it's a simple way for me to keep track while drawing, and pretty effective too! 👇🏽

ok these are sloppy n off model a bit, but hopefully you can see what i'm getting at ghjsdfg. I've found making the "sheet" bigger/smaller to suit whatever you're drawing can help narrow down the angle better if you're struggling. Thinking of the construction of shapes and how they sit in a 3D space is helpful too. Most art programs have perspective rulers that you can use to keep a kind of guide of where your drawing is sitting on a perspective plane/grid. I use them when trying to do more dynamic postures!

Other than that, I literally just google/youtube whatever it is i'm trying to work on and click through as many resources as I can. Make notes of what works for me, what doesnt, what I can pick apart and reconstruct. I got my start in art by tracing other people's art onto printer paper when i was younger (never shared 'em, obvs) before learning people posted step-by-step processes of how they draw on dA (it's how I learned what "guidelines" where and how to use them in sketching) and using those. I spent a lot of my more formative years just mimicking other people's drawing habits and quirks until I found a set that worked for me, and expanded on that with just messing around in my spare time. Sometimes the only thing that helps is working through it until I get a result I like.

If you are looking for a more technical approach and wouldn't mind some critique on your stuff, I recommend a site called Drawabox.com ! I've never personally used it, but I have artist friends who have, and while it does cost a fee to access some of the video lessons, there are still a bit of free resources you can take a peek on that might help!!

SORRY FOR THIS LAME ANSWER HFGSHDF I have a very flippant approach to my art. Work smart, not hard as I always say 👌🏽👏🏽

Good luck!!

[stargazer-sims]

Nikolai: Are you okay?

Eden: My stomach hurts.

Nikolai: Want a peppermint?

Eden nods in affirmation, and then laughs despite how he’s feeling. This is classic Nikolai. Somehow, he always knows when a serious response is required or when a peppermint and a reassuring hug will suffice.

Eden has no words to express how much he’s felt the absence of even the smallest things they share. Like one-armed hugs, and Nikolai’s inexplicable fondness for those clear peppermint hard candies, for instance. He has some of them on him pretty much all the time, and he seems to think they can soothe Eden’s less serious hurts and fears.

He’s not wrong about that, though, Eden decides. They can, or maybe it’s the kindness with which Nikolai offers them that does the trick.

Eden takes the candy that Nikolai produces from his pocket, unwraps it, and puts it in his mouth. The taste is both sharp and sweet, and he takes a few seconds to savour it. He smiles.

Eden: Thanks.

Nikolai: Better?

Eden: No, but yeah… I guess, a little? I’m glad you’re with me. I mean, I’m kinda scared of Mr. Nishijima, and I don’t know how to tell him he’s fired without him getting mad. Or without me throwing up from anxiety.

Nikolai: That’s a new development.

Eden: Me being anxious, you mean?

Nikolai: I’ve seen you nervous, but never what I’d call anxious. Certainly never so anxious that you feel sick.

Eden: You don’t know Mr. Nishijima. He has that effect on people.

Nikolai: No, I don’t know him, but I’ve done my homework. Let’s say I probably have more information about him than he has about me.

Eden: You Googled him?

Nikolai: I did more than that. He's an Olympic medalist, you know, and believe it or not, they had video back then. I've watched some old footage. He was quite brilliant, and surprisingly not a powerhouse like Ren Kitagawa. Actually, the way he moved reminded me a lot of you.

Eden: I know they had video back then. It’s kinda hard to believe Mr. Nishijima had a similar style to mine, though.

Nikolai: I’ll show you. We can watch the video together.

Eden: You really did a bunch of research on him?

Nikolai: I had to know who was taking care of my boy, didn't I?

Eden: I'm glad I'm still your boy.

Nikolai: You'll always be my boy, even when we're both older than your Mr. Nishijima and we can barely remember what we did an hour ago.

Eden: *laughing* When you forget my name and you just yell across the room in a creaky old man voice, 'Boy! Come over here and tell me what we did this morning'.

Nikolai: I won't forget your name, but even if I did, I'd never yell at you to make you come to me. I'd just give you the look. You know the one I mean.

Eden: The one you learned from my mom. The one that has the exact same effect as other kids' moms yelling their full name from the back door.

Nikolai: Yes. That’s the one. Works like a charm every time.

Eden: Maybe you can try it on Mr. Nishijima.

Nikolai: Somehow I suspect it wouldn’t have the same impact on him.

Eden: No, probably not. What are we going to do if he gets angry? What if he yells at you?

Nikolai: There’s nothing we can do if he’s angry. He’s the only one who can control how he reacts, and he has every right to be upset. He might not be as angry as you think, though.

Eden: What? How do you know?

Nikolai: Have you ever wanted something really badly and not gotten it, but you got something else instead? A good thing, but not the thing?

Eden: Yeah. Like how I wanted gold at the Worlds last year, but got bronze?

Nikolai: How did you feel about that?

Eden: You know. You were there. I was happy I placed in the top three, but I was also sad and disappointed, ‘cause I worked really hard and I thought I was going to do better.

Nikolai: I might be wrong, but I think perhaps Mr. Nishijima feels a bit like that. I’m sure he wanted to be with Ren all the way to the Olympics, just like you and I are going to be, but he’s not going to have that chance now. Instead, he got you, and I doubt it’s been anything at all like he expected.

Eden: So, I was right. He hates me because I’m not Ren.

Nikolai: I doubt he hates you, but you most definitely are not Ren, and I’m sure he thinks about that a lot.

Eden: Oh. I never really thought about this being hard for him. I was only thinking about myself.

Nikolai: It’s difficult to see things from somebody else’s perspective when you’re hurting.

Eden: Do you think that’s why he’s so awful to me, too? Like, he’s hurting a lot himself, and so he can’t see that he’s hurting me?

Nikolai: I don’t know, but that may be part of it.

Eden: I guess he does have a right to be upset.

Nikolai: Yes, but that doesn’t give him a pass for mistreating you. He may not realize how much he’s actually been hurting you, but he’s got to be intelligent enough to realize you’re not responding to him the way Ren did. Shouting louder isn’t the answer, which he’d know if he’d pulled himself out of his fog of self-pity or whatever it is and taken the time to get to know you.

Eden: Good luck telling him that.

Nikolai: Luck won’t have anything to do with it. What do I always say?

Eden: There is no luck, only hard work, good planning, trust, and the determination to do your best.

Nikolai: Good. All my wisdom hasn’t left you, then.

Eden: All your wisdom is what got us this far. I can’t forget that.

Nikolai: You give me way too much credit. It’s you that got us here. But, my point was, people don’t succeed in this business by luck, and not by bullying and alienating others, either. That’s what I intend to say to Ichiro Nishijima. If he ever wants another student at the same level as you and Ren, he’ll pay attention and keep that in mind.

[dobaara]

hello! feel free to ignore this, but i've been seeing your poems on my dash and i was wondering if you'd like to share a bit about the thought process behind them, your inspirations/influences and how you got started. did you start writing and then study form, or the opposite? or did you not study form at all? also, how long have you been writing? i'd really like to get started with poetry as well but i feel like everything i write is forced and stilted. if you have any advice, i'd love to hear it! if not, that's totally fine of course. have a great day.

hii hello how are you?! thank you for asking me this, I'd love to tell you more! <3

okay so I started writing mainly to try and cope with my trauma and try to heal from it, it still does hurt but I'm glad I decided to write about it, it made the pain a little easier to digest. And I mainly wrote stuff in the genre of heartbreak and sadness (let me tell you, this one poem I wrote that was a mix of the first seven minutes of one of my favorite movies and my own experiences that I wrote three years ago is still one of my favorites to this date) and I found that I quite enjoy writing in that genre, I think it was my way of coping with stuff, which seems ironic but at that time I feel I was truly in my element. My friends all started calling me "Tragedy Queen" like the actress Meena Kumari because I was the most cheerful person who wrote about gut-wrenching stuff. And I started writing at the start of 2020 maybe in Jan (I used to joke around with my friends saying my writing was so bad it bought a virus to my country, god I should have shut up) and at that point of time writing was an escape for me, I did not learn any form, I just wanted to write what I felt and honestly did not think of anything else. I still remember the first poem I wrote (I cringe so hard while reading it now)

And now if you'll see, I write a lot about love, both romantic and platonic because it's what I've been yearning about all these years. If you do check my poems out you'll see that there's always an undertone of longing in some of my poems. For me this shows a lot of healing because after everything I faced where I genuinely hated myself to a place where I couldn't write about love (again both platonic and romantic), happiness and contentment without breaking down at least thrice and havjng my hands shake, this shows a lot of moving forward for me (holy shit I have never acknowledged this before now oh mu god) I still do write a lot of heartbreak because I feel heartbreak has become like a bubble, a comfort space for me. My friends still call me Tragedy queen from time to time, but now I think I kinda like that title now. And it's not like I've completely changed, I'm still insecure of my writings and hate them on the occasional day but I've slowly learned to love it and myself too.

I don't think so I'm in any place to give you advice because I'm still a learner but my advice would be to read poems often. I'm not saying that you have to read one poem per day but that's a nice habit that I'm glad I have. And along with that some time before, I used to write four-five lines everyday as a warmup! (I lost that habit because of uni but thank you for reminding me of it) and also when you do write stuff, realise it's for yourself, I forgot to keep that in mind and tried writing for maybe posting it on here or anywhere else and I genuinely hated what I wrote so do keep that in mind!

happy writing!! <33

— ghazal ♡

[nervosims]

tank baby girl

Sims Tag

tagged by the lovely @esotheria-sims <3. finally done with exams so i have more time to sim!

1. What’s your favourite sims death?

death by flies. the thought of being picked apart into nothing is so deathmetal. i've always been partial to some body horror, i never kill my sims off though <3

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match?

alpha all the way! i like to incorporate some maxis-match, but i just can't really vibe with the plastic-y aesthetic of ts4.

sims 2 pure maxis match is cute though!

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight?

absolutely not! i wish more of my sims were fat, actually. i love different bodyshapes (and it's the one thing that annoys me about ts2).

4. Do you use move objects?

dude when don't i

5. Favorite mod?

i'd say anything that makes the game look prettier; defaults, lighting mods, etc. i can play without any gameplay mods at all,,, just gimme the defaults!

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got?

sims 3 showtime! i got it before getting the base game because i didn't know you needed the base game. i remember watching quxxn and falling in love with it. still my fave expansion (yes i know it's shit)

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing?

i simply don't <3. i mentally called it play mode and never realised this debate was even a thing lmao. but i'd say it like LIVing if i gave a fuck.

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?

tbh i've never felt connected to any sim i've made. i made a legacy save in ts3 that got lost to corruption and just struggled to form connections to my sims ever since (there's something to unpack there). premades are safe because i know the game won't swallow them whole i guess.

9. Have you made a simself?

nope! i just don't think it'd fit. my ex-gf used to make me in the sims 4 and pose us together! she's probably drowning me in pools now though.

10. What sim traits do you give yourself?

probably absent-minded, artistic, clumsy, good sense of humour, and grumpy. but i have zero perception of myself so idk

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color?

they're all a bit grim so i can't decide

12. Favorite EA hair?

hairsweep! the og lesbian bayonetta. i never replace this mesh. it's just too good.

13. Favorite life stage?

adults (boo i know).

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?

i do a bit of both. i enjoy all aspects of the game and it's good for the brain to be able to switch.

15. Are you a CC creator?

a shitty one! i have a tag, but it's all stuff that nobody but me would put in their game (i'm yet to learn anything substantial lmao).

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad?

i'd like to hope i do!

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4)

sims 2! it would be sims 3 but it's so impossible to play with semi-decent specs. the game is too poorly optimised, but it holds a special place in my heart.

18. Do you have any sims merch?

oh bro i wish. that'd be neat

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims?

i sure do! just speedbuilds, but i'm hoping to branch out into a full let's play when i'm finished w/ round 3 of strangetown lmao.

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing?

i'd say i care less about a sim being pretty. sims 3 sims were hideous, and i'd always edit them. but, with ts2, i kinda love how unhinged sims can look. so, even with strangetown, i wanted the sims to have unique features (circe's asymmetrical grin!). i love the genetics system.

bro, 12 y/o me wouldn't let gunnar's chinless profile fly.

21. What’s your Origin ID?

it's just nervosims! but i don't play ts4 so it's never used. my old origin got banned because me and my friends shared the password.

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator?

damn i can't choose only one </3. i love them all!

23. How long have you had a simblr?

i've had this simblr for a little over a year. but i've been in and out of simblr for around 3. i've been on tumblr for way longer (unfortunately). like, skeleton war, colour of the sky, superwholock tumblr.

24. How do you edit your pictures?

clip studio paint! i just add scanlines and a vignette. my reshade does the heavy lifting tbh. though, i'm trying to get pretty screenshots without it rn; my graphics driver is acting up and reshade isn't working for me.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next?

in terms of existing packs? none. i like all the stuff i have now.

in terms of future packs? none. simmers are greedy as hell asking for more. enjoy the fucking game.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far?

showtime!!! idgaf if it's a bad expansion it holds a place in my heart.

i'm tagging @alexbgd @alice-in-strangetown @annieshowell @wi-fu and whoever else wants to. feel free, no rush <3

[luxgalador]

Hey Lux, I normally don't message people but I wanted to share this, since I saw you say you got some mean messages recently.

I've been following you since like 2015 youtube, back when I was a closeted lil bi girl looking for representation. Back then I remember you were one of the only openly bi people on the platform. You made me feel comfortable in my own skin, heart & mind, so im forever grateful for that. And now, seeing you transition on tumblr, seeing you becoming comfortable and empowered in YOUR skin heart & mind, has just made me so happy for you!!! You look so beautiful and are a genuinely kind and creative soul in my eyes. Much love

I'm gonna cry for real

Thank you

I was so lost back then, but I loved the way I chose to seek answers to all my questions. I want you and anyone else reading this to know how seriously I took my visibility back then. It was and is still so precious to me. There weren't many people doing what I was doing, thus I was kinda thrust into the forefront of the YouTube bi community despite not really understanding a lot of things.

Thank you for allowing me to learn with you all.

I'm gonna be honest, once I realized that I was a lesbian about a year ago and not bi after all, I did feel a little bit that I was betraying my own past, the bi+ community, and anyone who ever looked to me as a source of bi visibility from back then. After all the videos debunking bi stereotypes and misconceptions, I felt guilt over the fact that it actually for me was a phase and that I actually was confused.

I'm glad that didn't last long. The whole point of those videos was to encourage curiosity of the self, to ask questions, and to embrace whatever answers we come to as our truth, whether that truth lasts a moment or a lifetime.

Thank you for trusting me back then. I was a patchwork person held together so tenuously by a relentless pursuit of understanding born out of a need for survival in those days. The very fabric of the reality of my existence felt so warped and unstable, at risk of tearing entirely. I had to learn and understand and speak to as many pieces of truth I could hold onto or else I'd fall apart entirely. The people who stuck around for what I was doing, who sent me messages then and occasionally now, are so responsible for my existing on the other side of that era into the present.

I'm in awe of every one of you. I'm in awe of all of us. How beautiful that we've all grown up so much.