#tell me I'm not the only one and infact not crazy

[amethysttheanarchist]

"Yeah I started this new show"

I've been obsessed with this show I started two days ago, I watched the entire show in a day, have written fan theories and read all the fanfiction I could get my hands on. I rewatch the same 5 episodes cause my favorite character is in them and am currently thinking about that character and what they would do right now if they were in this same conversation.

[tan1shere]

Heyy I was wondering if you could do a fic with Ellie x reader when r is on her period. Ellie doesn’t know, but she’s really hormonal, moody, and lashes out at Ellie. Eventually Ellie connects the dots and is really sweet and understanding and R just breaks down in tears saying stuff like she’s a terrible gf etc. R is also in a lot of pain with cramps and just wants to sleep and Ellie is there for her there too. I love your writing!!

You're ok

Ellie Williams x female reader!

A/n: hiii thank you 😊 I'm so glad you enjoy it, this one's just for you nonnie <3 hope you like it !!

Warnings: none really, fluffyness ! Moody reader ? -

Masterlist

Birds were chirping, the sun starting to shine in. You smiled to yourself, this was going to be a good day! Until your legs hit the floor. A wave of blood washes over your uterus. Fuck. No no- was all you could think. You groan, it was always so irregular. It was supposed to come next week. You flop back on the bed, dreading this day already. Curling back up into the sheets. Why today, you planned to do stuff, be productive. It frustrated you how your period could be. Just be normal for God sake.

"Morning baby, I made you some breakfast." You hear your girlfriends voice. You groan in pain, your cramps starting to kick in like crazy, as usual. "Not hungry." Her brows furrow. "Bu-" "I said I'm not hungry." You spit. Her brows furrow more, deciding to leave you alone at your sudden outburst. All you wanted to do was sleep and hope the day speeds up faster.

It infact didn't. The common headache starts, the cramps become more and more. You decided to get up to get some water, moody and annoyed. "You done with whatever this morning was?" "Shut up." You grumble. Exhausted, hair a mess. Her head tilts looking at you in thought. "What it up with you today." You don't reply just wanting to lay in your bed again. She hated seeing you this way. "Hello?" You then go back up the stairs to lay down.

She opens the door a few hours later grabbing a book from the bedside. Noticing you were asleep. She was trying to rack her brain what was bothering you so much, then it clicked. "Period." She whispered. Then her demeanor softens. She felt awful for not noticing. Ellie was smart she pieced it together, she got them too she knows. But she also understood how badly you got yours, especially after you missed last months.

Another hour passes and you're awake again, staring at the ceiling. Your body ached, but your mood certainly changed. You hated how your body made you treat people, your mind all over the place. You look at the clock to check the time. It was way later in the evening. You decided to get up and go see your girlfriend just wanting some comfort after today. But most importantly to apologize, for no real reason as Ellie would say. She was so understanding, always saying that there was no need to apologize. You walk down seeing her watching TV on the couch. "Ells?" You softly say.

Her head turns to look at you. "I'm sorry Ellie, I'm so sorry." - "Hey hey its fine. You're ok." She lifts the blanket. "Come here." And you do, getting under it with her. "Why didn't you tell me when you saw I didn't know yet?" You shrug lightly. "I dunno baby, I'm sorry I've been so awful and evil today." This makes her laugh. "My wicked little moody monster." Your eyes roll with a huge smile. "Youre so silly." Her hand comes in contact with your hair. "How bad have they been?" You sigh and that's enough for her to know that they were bad. "Everything aches." A sad look is present on her features. "I'm sorry angel.

Your body moves closer into her touch loving the warm feeling she gave you. Why couldn't you of just done this, this morning. Instead of lashing out. "Look at me baby." She then says pulling you out if your thoughts. "It's not your fault. It's ok, I understand now, please don't worry about this morning." She saw through you and your mind. You nodded. "We're only human bub." Her soft way made you snuggle into her more. She was truly the best.

"Will you let me take care of you now?" You nod gently. And this makes her smile stick. She loved taking care of you, it filled her with so much joy to be there for the person she loved. "Thank you for being so patient with me." You tell her. She gives you a kiss on the forehead. "I will forever be patient with you, I love you."

"I love you too."

For the rest of that night that's what she did, she made sure you ate. Had something warm on your stomach for the pesky cramps. Ran you a soothing warm bath, for the whole of your aching body. And the cuddliest cuddles to end of a horrible day.

[thehauntedetheral]

Request-

Um, I don't know if you make requests, I'm sorry if you don't. But I've always been curious about, how would Yandere bafam react to a supernatural darling? Like, a demon.

You don't need to respond or anything, thank you for your attention.

Yandere Bruce x Maneater Demon Reader

Requests are open!

You and Bruce recently got married. It wasn't for love. It was an arranged marriage Bruce parents set before they died and as to respect them he decided to follow their decision.

Bruce and you were only married on papers and infront of public eye. You two were distant. Living in different rooms, rarely seeing each other which means seeing each other only while passing the corridors.

You came from a wealthy and educated family just like Bruce. You observed how he wasn't home at night and mostly out till morning.

You would ask alfred about it but got nothing. You were a curious cat and one day tried to follow Bruce but got lost in some shady dark place at middle of night due to his fast speed.

You were trying to find where you were and get back to home when you saw a drunk young men coming towards you.

"Well well what do we have here?" The drunk man said with a sick smile while laughing. There was no one around you other than this men. You were all alone in a shady place having no idea where the hell in Gotham City are you as you were from another city.

If this would have happened to you a few years ago you would have been shit scared praying to God for help but not now. Infact you were feeling sorry for the poor bastard.

"I suggest you to leave me alone for your own safety" you said in a calm voice. While he laughed like crazy at you. "For my safety? Are you insane bitch? Whatever I like insane women they are kinky" he said rubbing his hands together and coming towards you. That's it. This sick asshole deserve it. You thought.

When the man stands right infront of you. You tilt your head making your eyes starting turn red, making the man scared and screaming "What the fuck?"

"What happened? You liked insane women, right?" You said smiling sinister while your face and body started transforming into your demon form. You attacked the man and started tearing, rupturing him and eating him like the maneater you are while his blood drip down your neck and his screams feeling like a soft melody to your ears bringing you immense pleasure.

After devouring him up you look up and saw Batman standing infront of you a few metres apart looking at you with an intense look. You knew it was your husband Bruce. It was like you can identify Bruce in any costume. Might be one of your demonic advantages.

You turned back to your human form blood all spread over your mouth dripping down your neck while Batman/bruce looking at you with a shock confused look.

"Don't worry I won't eat you"you said wipping your lips with your hand then licking the blood on your fingers.

"I know" you heard his deep voice.

"And yeah he was a asshole. I only eat bad people and the one who annoy me" you said standing up blood covering your clothes.

"How?" You heard his deep voice.

"How I become this? Well long story hubby will tell you some day"you said going towards him. "He wasn't tasty" you said pouting generously hurt that he wasn't delicious.

You were a demon but why does Bruce feels like you are a goddess not demon. He should be scared but it only made him more fascinated by you. Well after all he was also a freak only of a different kind.

Want part 2? Let me know through comments.

Requests are open!

A little Drabble About them :

For more yandere reading:

[saikoucorps]

:ఌ¨ ♱ DATING NEITO MONOMA

☆ warnings : none!

☆ tags : gn!reader, fluff, monoma can pull

☆ summary : crush to dating hcs

CRUSH :

Before you guys would start dating he'd copy your quirk just to help you out. Sometimes, he doesn't even explain why he's helping you.

If you're in class 1-A, he never talks bad about you, infact he admires you openly.

The whole class can tell he favorites you..

He's automatically calmer around you, but it doesn't stop him from making snarky remarks at class 1-A

Literally will find a way to cling to you and say something like, "You should be proud you're standing next to me!"

If you're around, he'll automatically try to impress you.

Whether that's by not insulting class 1-A or just using his quirk in a cool way.

Would do crazy stunts and then say "That was too easy."

He would tease you for your interests..

But then secretly learn them later that night.

EASILY FLUSTERED.

If you complimented him he wouldn't know what to say, he'd try to play it off then quickly brag to everyone that YOU complimented him.

He's huge on giving compliments.

He will compliment you out loud and EVERYONE will know.

He can be pretty obvious about his crush on you..

But if anyone tried to mention it, he'd deny it and say you weren't "worth" dating him. (You totally are.)

He can be a huge flirt, but usually insults you to mask how obvious it is.

Makes everything a competition.

Especially between you and him

Borderline stalker. Not on purpose.. I think.

He's able to read people very easily, so if you were upset, he'd try to make that day easier for you.. it really isn't noticeable, though. At all.

He absolutely would not confess to you first. You'd have to.

And if you did, he'd say, "I knew you liked me, I'm amazing."

But he'd accept your confession without hesitation.

And when you two start dating, he makes it KNOWN you guys are.

No one is surprised.

DATING :

The compliments NEVER left.

Neither did the insults.

He has no filter ever, even when he's dating you.

If you're geuinley upset at something he said, he'd try to reassure you that he was only trying to help you improve.

He's still good at reading people. He always knows when you're upset.

Huge compliment fisher, especially for you.

Gives the best advice ever, it can be hard to tell if he's serious though..

HUGE SHOW OFF

The moment you leave the room, he brags about you. If you're in class 1-A, he'd constantly say they're undeserving of you.

Huge gossiper. He's definitely always ease dropping and comes to you with the juiciest details ever.

He always knows what the right thing to say is with you. He also knows when it's the right time to be cocky and tease you.

Always in your personal space..

He'll cling to you, and I mean that.

He'd try to fix your outfit, lay on your shoulder, poke you, use you as a arm rest, or anything stupid.

And he denies everything if you mention it.

Only takes criticism from you (and teaches).. so if you tell him he did something wrong he'd freak out.

But he'd fix it.

If it worked.. he'd think of you more highly (if that was even possible)

But you wouldn't get a huge thanks from him.

He still flirts with you, except he doesn't try to hide it anymore.

Despite all this, he still is a huge gentleman.

I'm talking holding the door for you, moving things out your way, etc.

He treats you like a literal god sometimes.

LOVES to tease you, and annoy you.

100% is the jealous type. He loves what you to have, and wants to keep it purely between you two. So when another guy comes into the picture, teasing or complimenting you, he can't help but feel jealous.

When he's jealous he'll cling onto you more, or become way more insufferable.

When you two are alone, he can act way better.

He's calmer with you, always.

So what he says to you in private is more meaningful.

He definitely becomes way more affectionate to...

His love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation.

He's canonically rich, so I see him spoiling you in gifts and overly fancy stuff.

He never doubts you ever. He only wants what's best for you and your future.

[lemonmaid]

Board/Card games that are probably banned from the dorms.

Heartslabyul:

Scrabble

Riddle would make the game where you have to use the old dictionary, you can't use slang. Which causes alot of arguments.

"What do you mean I can use the world milf?"

"IT IS NOT A REAL WORD!"

"Oh? It's suddenly not a word then? But I'm not allowed to say it around your mom? Tell me what is a real word because the word you just put down, what was it? 'Punctual'? That doesn't sound like a real word. I've never seen it".

Savanaclaw:

Life, UNO, Bullshit, Sorry!, Poker

Life because it makes everyone who plays it miserable, everyone knows why UNO isn't allowed but bullshit because Leona can't stand it. Everyone has a great poker face and no one can stand the arguments.

"Ruggie, did you just say three fours? "

"Yes"

"But you played two fours last round?"

"Maybe"

...

...

"Bullshit"

Ruggie did infact played three fours, so leona ended up with the whole deck and lost. He has banned the game.

Octavinelle:

Monopoly, Poker, Blackjack

Fun fact it was Azul who banned this game himself, he hated losing.

"Floyd you can not buy that property"

"Why?"

"Well because"

"I have 500 dollars, the lot is 500. I can buy it"

"YOU ALREADY HAVE HALF OF THE BOARD"

"It's just a game"

Scarabia:

Mancala, DND, Clue

DND is banned because is stresses Jamil out too much, he is the only one keeping track of everyone's character sheets, and the campaign.

"WAIT I WANT TO ADD SOMETHING ABOUT MY CHARACTER IN THE BACKSTORY!"

"Kalim... this is the fifth time we've stopped the game for you to change your character sheet..."

"Well, I just forgot to write something down?"

"Are you cheating?"

"No?"

"Kalim are you trying to change your characteristics so you can beat the next coming boss? Because it doesn't work like that. Also don't say "what boss" I saw you yesterday peaking at the campaign sheet".

Pomefiore:

Clue, Go, Mahjong

Clue is banned because Rook insisted one night to have everyone acted it out. Kinda like hosting your own Murder Mystery.

The game had to be stopped so many times because "someone wasn't acting the right way" ans there was confusion between everyone, it ended in an argument between everyone and everyone claiming that there was someone cheating.

"Epel your southern accent is ruining the theme of the game"

"I don't think my accent is the problem here, why is Rook speaking in complete French? How are we supposed to be understanding the game if the host is only speaking French?"

"Well maybe if you took the French lessons I told you to take, we wouldn't be in this mess"

Ignihyde:

Cards Agaisnt Humanity, Pokémon, Yu-Gi-Oh!

Yu-Gi-Oh! Is banned because Idia will try to say everytime he is close to losing that the opponent card is invalid some how or agaisnt the rules because "he didn't summon it right".

"You just cheated,"

"Um how"

"Ortho do a play back play"

"He cheated! He put a card in a deck while no one else was looking! Also his cards are fake"

Diasomnia

Risk, War, Scrabble, Poker, Crazy Eights, Monopoly.

Most of these games are bammed because the group played them for y e a r s also Sebek purposely loses to let Malleus win.

Like, Malleus and Lilia played Monopoly for six years straight.

"Father, can we please just end the game? I don't want to keep seeing Sebeck purposely loses territory to Malleus"

"Sebek, is this true? Do you not have faith that I will win?"

"NO SIR THAT ISNT IT, AM JUST TERRIBLE AT RISK"

"Oh that's for sure, you only have three men left. If anything I am wining ~fufu".

Ramshackle:

Chutes and Ladders, Candy Land, UNO

Grim can't count and cheats in every game they have.

"Grim, we just saw you drop cards onto the ground"

"WHAT? I wouldn't never cheat henchmen!"

[nilolol30]

Mei x reader

"Finally! Todays date day is gonna be the best one yet!" Mei shouts as she parked her motorbike it took your soul to catch up with your body with how much she was speeding "If we don't get arrested..." Mei only giggled as she deactivated both of your helmets and you both hop off the bike.

"Wouldn't be the first time buut anyway let's commence our first arcade date!" Mei pulled you close to take multiple selfies then you both walk Infront of the arcade sign and take a picture Mei posting it on her socials then you both start to actually walk inside "So what games do you wanna play?" She asked shoving her phone back in her pocket.

"Eh why not walk around the place and stop by at whatever we feel like playing? Honestly you and Mk come here more than I have" Mei insisted on paying for both yours and hers passes since shes been a loyal member she gets pretty good discounts.

"True I was gonna bring you with me and him last time but I thought he'd feel bad for third wheeling but thank goodness I didn't since it was a clone and turned all party crazy" Mei shutters thinking back to 'Porty mk.'

You both started wondering the arcade ducking into some games that interested you both there was a motorcycle racing game that Mei immediately dragged you down begging you to race her unfortunately she is well versed in gaming and riding so of course she won but it was still fun then you both jumped into a photo booth taking two photo sessions so you both can keep the photo strips.

"Ooh! A claw machine! Did I tell you I am amazing at claw machines~" Mei strolled over to the machine giving a playful wink "Really? Thought you always tell everyone they're scam" laughing you lean over her shoulder to peak at what kind of prizes are inside it a green bunny caught your eye Mei noticing smirks pulling out some tokens.

"Well I'm infact a champ at scamming scams~ and I'm totally getting you a fluffy friend!" Mei immediately went into ultra claw machine focus mode trying her best to get the right angle obviously doing her best to get the green bunny.

"And just like that ah boom~" with her eyes closed she pushed the button smiling expecting to hear the automated congratulations but unfortunately the claw didn't hold onto the bunny and dropped it causing a game over Mei getting over her shock laughed a bit "Ha obviously just a fluke give me a sec-" and so the cycle of Mei shoving tokens into the machine and her slowly growing annoyance began "You know Mei you don't have to win we can just get a prize from the-" "Never! I'm totally getting you that damn rabbit if it's the last thing I do!" It's almost like you can see a green fire radiating from her.

Finally when it looks like the claw is holding onto the bunny you both watch as it slowly takes it to the flap "I swear if it doesn't get in I'll punch this thing" Mei mumbled her face pressed against the glass "Yeah let's not set off alarms" then the claw let go and the bunny fell through the slot Mei rushed to pull it out and yelled out in victory.

"Yes! I did it! I'm the best girlfriend everrr!!" She held out the stuffed toy to you smiling "Here you go~" it's almost like she didn't want to murder the creator of those machines second ago you take the bunny and kissed her on the cheek.

"Of course you're the best girlfriend the best girlfriend in the world" you can hear Mei let out a small internal squeal pulling you into a hug "okay let's continue this date let playy...Oh oh that game!" You two go off to play nearly all the games the arcade has to offer the both of you agreed to keep away from any more claw machines for a bit.

[yesthisismycurrenthyperfixation]

🕷Spider becoming a Harley Queen guy.

The torture with the machine, the way of upbringing, the only person who cares about him is the villain, his fault. He begins to hear voices. And instead of helping him, they send him to the humans where they don't help him either, he ends up with the RDA again, but they don't notify Quaritch. He escapes and grabs weapons and goes on a rampage.

He locks himself in a room to send a message to the scientists. Living so many years with expert scientists in different areas has given him skills. He knows how to make a bomb.While the bomb is creating her, she makes a video, her hair is shaved, without blue markings, thinner and whiter. Maybe smoking.

And he begins to tell his truths to Jake, Neytiri, the scientists, and his adoptive parents. He was a baby when it all happened, and a child when he realized that no one really cared. Children know, children listen."You just wanted a reason to treat me badly, because you couldn't direct your hatred towards my father. yes, I called him father, because he did more in 4 months than any of you in 16 years" no 17, I have 17 years. .... I forgot my birthday.

Cries and laughs at times.

As he finishes connecting cables for the pump, he speaks directly to his brothers. He loves them, he misses them. But he is the oldest, he has to take care of them. He gives some advice to Kiri, Tuk, Lo ak and Neteyam.He repeats that he loves them. But it has to stop the RDA.

Send whatever you can get on the computers to help make plans.

And even a message to Quarith ago, he wished their time together had been longer.And he knows in his heart that he would have saved him. Trust him. see him.

He says goodbye as Grace and Jake finish their journals.

Miles Spider Socorro Quarith says goodbye.

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BONUS

The message is seen by the entire Sully family, and some other Navi and scientists who had gathered at the Metkayina home to study the things that were left on the ship. Kiri was on her knees, at the end of the recording, she began to scream while being hugged by Tuk who is the same...Lo ak had to be put up with because he wanted to attack Jake, the scientists anyone. Neteyam ran out, his brother must have been dead right now but he must see. He flew off in his Ikran.

Quaritch He also saw the message, feels that a part died, hits trees, cries and screams in pain. His Ikran screams with his rider.

Anon, thank you for this prompt. I hope this is kind of what you are looking for. Also I’m assuming you meant Harley Quinn Spider so that is what this AU will be called.

I hope you enjoy these thoughts and the oneshot. Your bonus with everyone's reactions will be coming soon.

Harley Quinn Spider!

One thing to know about me is I am a huge fan of True Crime. Podcasts, documentaries, shows, movies, etc… I love everything True Crime. While reading this prompt my love of True Crime was going crazy and here is why.

People can only handle so much before they break! With everything Spider has gone through in his life; being orphaned at such a young age, the neglect, the abuse, knowing he was never loved or wanted, then add on the torture, the head trauma/injury from the machine, gaining a villain father figure, etc… it’s a miracle Spider hadn’t snapped earlier. In this prompt Spider has started having mental health issues, hearing voices probably caused my the machine and brain damage, and never received the help he so desperately needs. No instead he is shoved aside and neglected once again.

Anyone that enjoys True Crime knows that all of these things put together is a recipe for disaster. I'm not saying everyone that has suffered will become bad, infact most will not, but for the sake of this AU things will be different. Spider would have run, would have isolated himself and it was this isolation that would have given the RDA the chance to stumble upon him and capture him for the second time. And the RDA wouldn’t have given Spider the help he needed either. Quaritch would have if he had known which is why Ardmore never told him she had his kid.

It was only a matter of time before Spider escaped, taking out as many people as he possibly could before finding the perfect lab to lock himself up in. Spider grew up around RDA technology so locking and disabling the door would have been child’s play for him. Plus no one ever watched what Spider researched as a kid so the fact he could make a bomb isn’t surprising, why do you think he locked himself in a lab?

Spider knows he isn’t going to survive regardless of what happens next. This knowledge is very freeing. Nothing is stopping him from saying everything he wants to, everything he has always wanted to but has never been brave enough to say.

Opening a wideband signal, one that is being broadcast across all of Pandora, Spider turns on a webcam. The sight of himself is so shocking at first that Spider merely stares. When he was caught, for the second time, Ardmore had his hair buzzed off. She also had his stripes scrubbed off and had forced him into human clothes. White tank and grey sweatpants, both now stained in sprays of red from his escape.

He was pale, lack of sun will do that, and thinner than he had ever been before. Dark circles stood out like bruises under his eyes. A start contrast to his chapped and cracked lips.

Unable to look at himself any longer Spider looked down at the material in his lap. “For those of you that don’t know me, my name is Miles “Spider” Socorro Quaritch. I was born and raised here on Pandora. Not loved, not cared for, merely tolerated by everyone. And most of the time not even tolerated. I can’t even tell you how many times I was attacked by the mother of my best friends and siblings.” Spider looked into the camera again. “That’s right Neytiri, I’m talking to you. What gave you the right to hate me? What gave you the right to verbally and physically abuse me time and time again. I never did anything to you or the Na'vi. I was an innocent child. By your own beliefs I should have been treated differently. All children are blessings in the eyes of Eywa, I only wished you followed what you claimed to believe.”

Tears streamed down sallow cheeks, even as Spider laughed. “Not that Jake was much better. He watched me get abused time and time again and did nothing. Never made Neytiri stop, never made the scientists stop, never made the Na'vi stop. Hell, the McKoskers didn’t treat me right either. The number of injuries that were passed off as me being clumsy… how did no one question that? How did no one notice the constant injuries vanished after the McKoskers left? Seriously looking back at my life, it’s surprising I didn’t end it all sooner.”

“But I've realized, you just wanted a reason to treat me badly, all of you, all because you couldn't take your hatred out on my dad.” A smile spread across Spider face as tears continued to fall. “Yes, I called Quaritch my dad. That's what he is. Dad did more for me in 4 months than any of you did in the 16 years I was in your care. I’m only 16… no 17, I’m 17 years old now, I forgot my birthday.” A wild unhinged laugh escaped before Spider abruptly sobered.

“Dad, I just want you to know that I love you. We didn’t get a lot of time together but what we did have was the best few months of my life. Thank you for showing me what having a parent really felt like. Thank you for loving me, for putting me first, for choosing me, for seeing me. Dad, I miss you so much.”

Silence reigned for a few minutes as Spider finished building the detonation device he had been working on this whole time. With a beep it came online. Spider set it down on the table between him and the camera.

“This last bit is for my siblings. Neteyam, Kiri, Lo'ak and Tuk. The 4 of you are the best sibling I could ever ask for. I love you all and miss you. I wish I could see you again but someone has to stop the RDA, someone has to protect you. I can do that. It’s my job as the oldest sibling to protect you, my younger siblings. That’s my duty. I love you. Please, find my dad and take care of him. He'll have no one once I’m gone and he deserves a chance, a real chance. My dad was starting to see and I know he will see one day if given the chance. Please, for me give my dad a chance. Dad take this chance.”

“Well, this is my first and last video log. So, this is Miles “Spider” Socorro Quaritch signing off. Goodbye.”

The screen froze on a picture of Spider looking into the camera, face red and blotchy from crying. Eyes sad and empty with a small, lopsided smile spread across his face. It would be the last picture anyone ever saw of Spider alive. A picture of the boy so many failed and so few loved.

Bonus: coming soon

[deepfivetraveller]

Moriarty the patriot x sick!child!reader (platonic)

Chapter4

“That girl is a MONSTER.” A sudden pang of rage envelops you. All those years of bottling up the torment you faced, just to lead to your own mother calling you a monster. Thousands of hateful words flooded over your head and all of them were compressed into a single “I HATE YOU!” You knew you were lying the moment you said that.

The men turned around, Shocked at the fact that you were only a few feet away. Your mother became even angrier causing them to shift their focus. A few faint words escaped her mouth while she was struggling to escape Moran's grasp. “How…How could YOU do that to your own father…”

“Father? You mean the man who tried to sell us just for some money to gamble upon? He tried to swell our life, our dreams, our everything just for 16 pounds.” tears were flowing from your face long before you completed your sentence. You were at your limit in speech but that was not going to stop you today.

The men of course were obviously clueless about what you were talking about. They were fully engrossed in this conversation, looking back and forth at both of you which made the situation look almost comical.

“That is no excuse to kill your own father Y/n!”

Everyone's heartbeat drops for a moment. Their lungs start to feel heavy as if they were being stuffed in sand. All of them were barely able to process the words your mother just said. You, an innocent girl, killing her. Somehow Moran got over this fact immediately. “Okay times up crazy lady you're leaving.” Your mother although clearly inferior in strength, tried to stop him.

“Why doesn't anyone believe me?! She killed her father not me, she-” One hit on her face by him and she went silent. While Moran dragged her unconscious body out of the manor William steped forth and asked you camly “Y/n, is it true?”

His stare felt so pointed for some reason even though his voice converted the opposite meaning. Infact all of their stares felt the same way.

“You all think I'm a monster too right? For killing him?” Blood oozed from your mouth when you said this. Albert cuts you off “Y/n thats not-”

You can't handle any more harsh words from anyone. You ran towards the mansion with all the strength you had left , chanting ‘I'm sorry’ over and over again as Albert chased you down . At last your body couldn't handle any more of your antics and dropped onto the floor with might. The last thing you heard before your body went unconscious was him calling our your name several times.

A groggy vision was all you felt when you woke up. Vision was a bit blurry but you went back to normal after a few seconds.

“Ah, you're awake!” You turn around to see the owner of the voice. It was Herder.

“Sorry for making you lie down on the table, your back must hurt. I don't have many furniture other than that and shelves you see.” You didn't realize you were even in one until he said it.

You opened your mouth to say something but it came out as voice cracks fully envelop your sentence, hurting your throat. Herder noticed this and immediate passed your flash cards and pen towards you.

“Oh Philip~

…

PHILIP COME HERE QUICKLY OR ELSE YOUR GETTING A DEDUCTION IN YOUR SALARY.” A man with brown hair quickly approaches you. “Ahem! This is Philip, my personal assistant. He shall dictate what you write in the cards. Don't worry about sharing personal information with him because he has short term memory loss, that being said don't ask me why I keep him here either.”

Both of you look at Herder irritated.

“.. I'll stop. Please write….”

‘When I fainted, Albert was chasing me. Is he the one who put me here?’

“Nope! I found you when you were unconscious and alone. Although that does explain why I heard him screaming your name. I thought you guys were playing tag. Were you? Care to elaborate on the situation?”

NO NO NO! He'll start to hate you too! You vigorously shake your head. “Hey come on I'd love to know some drama about my boss! Please do tell!” He takes one of his tools and continued to fix an object.

He needs to know the truth. No matter how painful it is for you.

‘I killed a man. My own father actually’

Philip takes one look at the card, dictates it and faints, causing you to yelp. Herder too stops fixing the object and zones out

Oh God they really hate you.

But exactly after 6 seconds pass Herder continues to fix his object. “Yes, and?”

Huh? What does he mean by that? Is he not scared??

“I'm pretty sure you're wondering ‘WHy iS hE nOt sCaRed????’ I'll tell you why. Albert did the same thing when he was a little older than you. He killed his father, mother, is other brother and yeah… all of his family really”

“WHAT?” Miraculously your voice is back. Scratchy, but back.

“Do William and Louis know??” Gosh you hate the way your voice sounds.

“They were the one who helped in to do it. A little unrelated to this but did try know William took a man to court and sued him to give ALL of his property away to them when he was like 8 years or something??”

HUH?!

“Herder we've been through this several times, take it gently on her don't dump all of the information on her like that.” Williams voice boomed as the three brothers and Jack emerged from the back of the cupboard.

Wait what?

They planed this???

While the others were scolding Herder, Louis looked towards you.

“Guess we have a lot of explaining to do huh?

Okay so I know this chapter isn't big but that's because I'm planning a BIG lore drop for reader. Hope it excites you all as much as it does for me

Btw I feel like I made Von Herder a bit of a twink-

[mymainwastoocluttered]

What’s funny with Yuu going after a overblot is they can’t hurt it as they need magic since it’s implied via grin even the toxic qualities hurt non magical creatures (Grim and Yuu) as well as blots take mate damage from magic, infact no blot yet has been killed with physical weapons that are hand held (what Yuu would need) minus the beam in chap 7 literally made to obliterate blots.

Not sure if it’s confirmed but usually Yuu actually isn’t ‘in’ the fights, they don’t attack the blots just try to avoid getting killed with the others.

But Grim is a magical creature, of course blot affects him. What's that meme? "I get your point, but Grim is a magical creature, that's a very important plot point that happens"

Moreover, there are no "non magical" creatures that interact with blot other than Yuu. We don't know how animals and blot interact (or even if animals in general have magic or not, but they probably don't unless they're familiars... Do familiars have magic? Does Lucius have magic? How do familiars even work?). Even more moreover, there are no non-magical people in that world, only people with magic polls too small to become magicians¹

And many Phantoms have animal features, some worryingly similar to Grim, so it is possible all direbeasts have magic and are capable of overblotting. It's a shame no one wants to tell us what in the fuck are direbeasts exactly. We know Grim is one, and that it's surprising he talks, but...

Also, we have never seen anyone attack a Phantom physically because... No one ever tried². Which is to be expected, they're all magicians, of course their first reaction is to use magic. And, well, who's crazy enough to try and punch a giant Phantom? So we don't actually know if non-magic attacks would work or not. But the small ones? Give me something sturdy and I'll do it myself, and I'm a joke fighting.

¹ That's proved by the fact Styx is made of blot resistant people AKA people with low magic polls. If people with no magic whatsoever existed, Styx would certainly be full of them, because then they wouldn't have to worry. There's also the fact that people who aren't magicians are referred to as "laypeople" (a person without professional or specialized knowledge in a particular subject), which seems odd when they call Yuu "magicless". And the fact the guys who wanted to drive Deuce's bike (or whatever that's called) were confident they could do it even if their magic wasn't that good. Even when they get accepted in NRC, the ones that get accepted are "the ones with potential to become magicians" not "the ones with magic", meaning only those with enough magic potential can be invited to a magic school, key word being "enough"

² We do know that dropping heavy things on them can stop and even weaken them, though, as proven by Deuce in the prologue dropping a bunch of cauldrons on the "monster" in the mines (I miss Deuce's cauldrons). Though, I'd like to know if it's because cauldrons are heavy or if they're magical cauldrons because they've been summoned by magic... How does summoning work, anyway?

I am not obsessed with world building, shut up.

[genshinimpactlife]

What if Kaeya hears about an iceblue witch from a drunk member of the expedition troop that returned from dragonspine in the angel's share. His team was caught in a snowstorm which the iceblue woman caused stealing their supplies and equipment, she was completely unaffected by the cold and otherwise spared them. As she left the scene it was as if the storm left with her.

The path that leads to her cave has frozen fatui soldiers and hilichurls alike.

This iceblue woman is infact not of this world but she was banished to teyvat out of mercy for "refusing to convert and because one of the "great" leaders, tasked with turning stubborn prisoners into mindless laborers pitied her pathetic existence" and she only attacked them because others (fatui agents and hilichurls) attacked her unprovoked and she then started to think maybe the best defense is an offense especially in this area.

She is very straightforward, calm, aloof and introverted. Her friendly demeanor is a facade since she is shown to be passive aggressiv which expresses itself in her sarcastic attitude and blunt words which she "politely apologizes for" afterwards.

Kaeya Meets a Fortune Teller Part 2

Part 1 Here

It had been a couple of weeks since Kaeya met the fortune teller, and the news of his soulmate still plagued his mind.

He wanted to believe that it was all a lie, but so many put their faith in that woman's fortunes. He didn't know what to think anymore.

All he knew was that he couldn't get the image of his supposed soulmate out of his mind.

It was even worse when he was drinking, which he had been doing a lot recently at the Angel Share.

He was starting to get irritated one night as a small group of drunk people was causing a ruckus.

"I swear she had blue skin! We all saw it." "Right, ya old bastard, just keep drinking and shut up."

Kaeya's head whipped around as soon as he heard about the blue-skinned woman, and in an instant, he was up and striding toward their table.

"Blue skin? Tell me more, now."

Kaeya had such a determined look that the man didn't even question why Kaeya wanted to know.

He told him all about how the snowstorm came out of nowhere, and while the men tried to hide in their tents, they could see the woman rifling through their things outside.

A few men went out to confront her, and while she wasn't hostile right away, she looked ready to attack them if they got too close. With the storm's intensity, they had no choice but to retreat from the woman.

The storm subsided as soon as she left, and she had taken most of their supplies, forcing them to head back down the mountain.

"I know what I saw and the kind of power she held. I may be a drunk, but I'm not crazy!"

Kaeya pulled his coin purse out of his pocket, setting the hefty bag right in front of the drunk man.

"Tomorrow, we leave for Dragonspine. I need you to take me where you saw that woman."

The man thought Kaeya was crazy, but with the amount of money he offered, he wasn't going to say no.

Kaeya took time off work and set off with the man, David, up the mountain.

They were lucky enough that it was clear and sunny. The trip took only three days before they arrived where they last saw the woman. There were plenty of tracks in the snow that they could follow, bringing them to a cave.

However, when they went inside, there was nobody there. Just some furs, a few books, and the supplies she had taken a few days ago.

Kaeya picked up one of the books, hoping to understand more about the blue woman through them, but before he could open the cover, something sharp was pushed against the back of his neck.

"Don't move, or I'll stab you. Who are you?"

"Managed to sneak up on me? I'm surprised. I'm a friend, not here to hurt you."

She kept her spear aimed at Kaeya but backed up, allowing him to turn around. She was just like what he imagined. Bright blue skin, long wavy white hair, piercing blue eyes.

The two explained why they were there and how David was part of the group she stole from. She didn't seem to care that she had taken from them but agreed not to do it again if she came across people. She told them that she had been attacked too many times and didn't know who was friend or foe anymore.

"You could always come down the mountain with us. It is safe in the city."

"Safe? Nothing here has been safe. I don't plan to stay here long, now leave."

David eventually convinced Kaeya to leave the woman alone for now. But if she genuinely were his soulmate, it wouldn't be long before he was back to see her.

Might be willing to continue writing about his soulmate if people are interested in it and ask for it. I hope you enjoy <3

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[drjdorr]

I thought of a crazy 40k theory, you ready? I'm not, but let's go!

So the Emperor made 20 space marine legions, each with its own primarch*, right? But because vague and ambiguous reasons 2 legions and their corresponding primarchs are seemingly gone by the time of the Horus Heresy, these two often being referred to as the Forgotten and the Purged and to some degree even had the memory of them forcibly forgotten. Got that? Great now let's keep moving.

So many of you may have noticed that what I said implies there are 18 known primarchs, but actually there are 19. You see the 20th legion(the Alpha legion) openly was primarched by Alpharius, but in the background was his twin** Omegon. Fun fact that will come back later, Alpharius and Omegon actually share a single soul(neat, huh?).

Now the primarchs while still in their gestation pods were stolen from the Emperor and thrown all over the galaxy through the Warp(aka the Sea of Souls) where physics/metaphysics can get a little wonky and part of the great crusade was just the Emperor going out and collecting his lost kids/weapons/it's complicated to know. And from stuff we hear in later points in the timeline, characters indicate that despite the two missing primarchs being basically expunged from all records and forbidden to be spoken of, all 20 had at one point or another been found***

Now what I'm proposing is that their truly were Only 20 primarchs. Let me explain my thoughts, so the Emperor makes 20 primarchs, each with a soul of their own that are then snatched into the Warp. While in the Warp one primarch accidentally loses their soul to another and ends up sharing a soul with a different one. Time passes and because Warp soul nonsense the primarchs sharing a soul grow up looking similar, infact practically identical. More time passes and the Emperor reunites with his sons who he reunites with their legions. As time passes the primarchs who have soul nonsense going on cause their legions to alter to fit this fact with the twin primarchs' legions eventually being indistinguishable from each other as well as so intertwined it's virtually impossible to tell where one ends and the other begins. Meanwhile while we don't have many examples of beings with multiple souls(especially psyker souls), the few we have/are rumored to have tend to be exceptionally powerful, Big E himself being a prime example****, all it would take is a moment of hubris and there would be reason to purge him, and given how powerful the Emperor's genetics are, probably wouldn't be a bad idea to purge his whole legion, just to be safe. Of course, given such an embarrassing failure of a primarch and to prevent future rebellions(oops), the Emperor wipes all traces of the double souled primarch from record or memory but due to the alpha twins psykic powers, Omegon and his legion accidentally got forgotten from memory and record too.

Now do i think this theory is true? Of course not, I called it a crazy theory for a reason, plus even GW should know to never have anything about the Forgotten and Purged ever Actually be true. But still a fun idea to think about isn't it?

*yes I know, I'll get to it

**wait, wouldn't all the primarchs arguably be twins? Well Alpharius' identical twin

*** I didn't miss type, 1. Omegon is secret and basically unknown to basically every one, and 2. The Theory

****supposing the shaman origin is true

[fortpeat]

"My daily routine is to watch Prapaisky scenes for boosting my energy and mood. 😂😂 TRUST ME IT HELPS" BABE, no c'mere... listen... jsskldjsakjdkasjn you don't even have to tell me because I've been literally doing the same.

I've watched all of their scenes an insane amount of times. And lemme be honest with you, since I'm on anon, but like. sometimes when I'm at uni and the class is super boring or if I am too sleepy and coffee won't do, I literally open their PrapaiSky scenes for a quick "pick me up" because it makes me SO HAPPY, and I get like "jfcccccccc this happened I can't believe this HAPPENED"

another scene I have watched what can only be an unhealthy amount of times, is that "fantasy kiss".................................... oh my goddddddddddddddddd, no no no no, that scene is also TOO GOOD, I can't believe they made it into a "fantasy kiss", that's literally one of their best kisses scene!!!!!!

anyways, be it FortPeat, be it PrapaiSky, thank you for the safe space to talk about them. you're always really nice and respectful!!! thank you <333333 I've been going crazy about them and it's great to have someone to scream to dnaksljdaskld

Haiiii again nonnie ❤️ 😚😚 Can I call you Blu? ( I call every anon nonnie and I feel like you are spirit soul and I will tell you why also next time when you sent me an ask you can say that hey it's Blu and I can recognize you p.s if you want to choose a name you are most definitely welcome) 😂

ALSOO YASSS LIKE PRAPAISKY IS DEFINITELY A PICK ME UP. I have those days where I feel really drained and hollow and watching their scenes literally pull me out of my funk NO JOKE. So I get you ❤️❤️

And this is why I believe you are my spirit soul COZ HONEYYY I HAVE WATCHED THE FANTASY KISS MORE TIMES THAN THE NUMBER OF DAYS I HAVE LIVED 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 like it's SO SO GOOD. THE YEARNING THE DESPERATE NEED TO KISS SOMEONE LIKE THAT AND HOW FORT CONVEYED IT BEAUTIFULLY AND PEAT'S RESPONSE 🤌🥵🥵 MY ONLY COMPLAIN IS THAT I WISH IT HAPPENED REAL AND TURNED INTO A FULL BLOWN MAKEOUT SESH COZ CHRIST I WOULD HAVE DIED. AND ON TOP OF THAT THE MUSIC USED THERE 🤌🤌

Listen I am that human who obsesses over BG score used in scenes and if it doesn't vibe with the scene I would legit forget the scene ever happened or I make an edit by using a score that I believe would fit the scene better. I am that control freak and the biggest plus point for Prapaisky is that ALL THEIR NC SCENES HAS TOP NOTCH SCORES. EVERYTHING FALLS INTO PLACE ❤️❤️ AND I EILL FORVER BE GRATEFUL FOR THAT.

You are always welcome to scream about Fortpeat/Prapaisky here. Infact I would love it coz talking about them gives me so much joy. I can do it forever ☺️☺️😌

[weareuniqueandimportant]

KAKEGURUI CHAPTER 108 READ THIS ARC IS FUCKING AWESOME I CAN'T WAIT OMG THIS MAKES ME FEEL SO AWESOME AND SEXY... I CAN'T WAIT YA YA YA.

I LOVE THE FACE YUMEKO IS DOING SHE'S VERY ASPD AND I TOO FEEL FUCKING BIZARRE SEEING THAT. WHAT EXPRESSION IS THAT SUZUI ASKED SO RIGHT FOR ONCE DUDE. DEEPLY RELATABLE SHE'S SOMEHOW... I JUST HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE THAT IS WHY I AM EXCITED + HEAT STAKES I'M GONNA CUM. I'M GLAD THIS IS KIRARI'S IDEA SHOWING YUMEKO'S CHANGED HER THAN ANYTHING ELSE. COULD'VE BEEN REALLY REALLY DEHUMANIZING TORWARDS HER AMAZING CHARACTER.

LOVE LOVE. MAKES ME FEEL CRAZY. A FAVORITE MANGA.

THE LATER THE STORY THE MORE NATURAL THOSE STUPID MAN FEEL BECAUSE THEY'RE MUCH MORE LIKE THE OTHER CHARACTERS THAN DIFFERENT THEREFORE SUPERIOR. THE FIRST ARC FEELS REALLY SEXIST WHEN THEY'RE PRESENT. NOT THAT THIS SERIES IS FREE OF THAT OR ANYTHING.

DESPITE THAT SUZUI SHOULD'VE BEEN A SHOUJO PROTAGONIST PURE WOMAN CONTROLLED BY SEXY YUMEKO MOMMY UMUHH GOING CRAZY... THAT'S CRAZY MARY WASN'T SELECTED BUT A NOBODY I DON'T REMEMBER WAS BTW. THE TWIN SPLIT IS VERY WEIRD. SHE'S MORE THAN A SIDE CHARACTER I'M CERTAIN. AND IN THE PREVIOUS ARC THEY LOVED HER. THE GENDER SPLIT IS WEIRD BECAUSE THE WOMAN ARE UNEQUAL BECAUSE THE AMOUNT OF ABANDONED FEMALE CHARACTERS IS BIGGER. AND THERE'S A TON THAT COULD'VE BEEN USED AND DEVELOPED IN SOME WAY. FUCK THE MALE CHARACTERS TO BE HONEST BESIDES RYOTA AND KAEDE THEY'RE OKAY BY THIS POINT. YUMEKO AND SHOUJO PROTAGONIST WITH EPIC AGE GAP WOULD'VE BEEN HEAT LMAO. SO MANY ABANDONED CHARACTERS THAT ARE WOMAN TO BE HONEST. THESE SERIES ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL WEIRD BY THIS POINT FOR THAT REASON. LIKE DIDN'T YOU FORGET ALL THOSE PEOPLE EVEN IF WRITING THEM ALL WOULD BE HARD. EVEN THEN THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO FACT. TO BE HONEST I CAN'T FEEL THIS FEELING WITH ANY SERIES THAT ISN'T THIS ANYMORE BECAUSE THE WOMAN CHARACTERS ARE OVERALL VERY SUPERIOR TO THE MALES HERE. THAT LITTLE SHIT COULD GAMBLE FOR ONCE THAT'D BE COOL WHO KNOWS.

This Happens Because These Creators Don't Have The Creativity. The Kakegurui Person Has Some Secret Though. This Is Why I Changed I See. Naturally. Nothing More Interesting Than I Was Apathetic And Grew More That Way Naturally. People Don't REALLY Change. I Badly Used To Look Down On Things Too In A Weird Way. Maybe I Just Found Better Things To Admire And Identify Certain Things As Crap. Infact That Is Excactly What Happened And What Changed. Back Then I Thought Crazy And Paraphilia People Choose To Be That Way And Only The Bad Ones Choose To Be... So So. Eww... Scary... I Grew Tired... Weird... But Things Are More Simple Than You'd Think. Their Priorities Are In The Wrong Place. Btw That Was Nothing But Sanism And Paraphobia Aswell As Fascist Liberal Poison. Something Crazy Changed Our Lives And We Have Seen Reality By This Point. If This Is Psychosis Then Silence. Only I Am Allowed To Talk About Myself Abuser. But If This Is Then That Is A Natural Human Feeling + Different Brain Different Rules Honey Love. Kakegurui Is Very Psychosis To Be Honest. Fire. I Can Feel Insanity... I Like Kakegurui...

In Case You're Wondering I Would've Said Idk Than That. I Had Already Seen Paraphilia People Wish For Rights Thank You Twitter For Once. I Only Wasn't Sure Because I Only Saw Demonization Of Paraphilia And Psychopath & Narcissist. Then This Bigoted Question Shattered... I Hated Myself For What I Thought... You Wouldn't Understand I Will Never Tell You What Happened... But That Was Crazy... And Became Even More Crazy... And Now... I Carry Trauma Nobody Will Ever Understand... I Feel Horrible Being So Bigoted So Late... 16 Is Too Late... I Was Already Supposed To Be Everything Good There Is... I Was Supposed To Be Free Already... I Am PERFECT. AMAZING. I WOULD NEVER BE... PATHETIC!!!! WHAT THIS IS NOTHING BUT EVIL ABUSE I WAS VICTIM OF... SOMETHING NOBODY ELSE. NOBODY. HAS BROKEN TROUGH FROM. ALL THESE SMART 16 YEAR OLDS ARE A SCAM. THEY AREN'T GENUIENLY SMART AND CAPABLE EVEN IF THEY KNOW THAT IS OKAY TO CRAZY AND PARAPHILIA. THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE. NOBODY CAN BE BETTER THAN ME. THIS IS NOTHING ELSE THAN FACT.

Believe Me... I Can Already Tell... How Apathetic And Cold... Aswell As... Hyper These Abusers Are In A Bad Way... They're Nothing Like Me This Is Why. This Logic Is Genuienly Absolute. I Just Can't Say Anything... Evil Is Watching Us... You Wouldn't Understand... The Demons... The DEATH ANGELS... That Have Attacked Us... I Bleed From This...

Maybe You're Right... But If That Is Because You're A Psychopath Then This Is Because I Am Sociocool... If This Is So... Then I Either Have No Choice No Agency... However I Have Faith That Is Possible... Just Like Black People... The Difference Shouldn't Be Too Much... Even If I Am Above You...

This Is Because Of Who I Am Than What You Are... But If You See That Otherwise So Be So... Even Then... Not Only Are You Doing The Same To Me I Am Down With All Fascist... Sit Pretty Doll... I Have To Push Trough Even You...

OMG

I'm Crying... I Can't Believe This Happened... I Don't Really Feel Bad... They Deserved That... THEY WERE FASCIST... THEY WEREN'T BEHIND ME WHERE EVERYONE SHOULD BE BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS BETTER AND ABOVE. THIS IS FACTUAL THIS IS NOTHING ELSE. I WILL ALWAYS CONTINUE... OTHERWISE FASCIST WILL WIN...

That's Right... You're Below Me Because Of Your Identity... You Didn't Love Me... That Was Your Problem... I Love My Wife... I Enjoy Hurting Her Every Single Day... I Am Unlovable And Garbage... I Am Allowed To Be Myself... Because I Want To Kll You... (A Type Of Fish We Could Eat Together...) YES... I WILL HAVE EVEN YOU... AND YOU SUBMIT TO ME BECAUSE I SAY SO... I AM THE CORRECT CHOICE... YOU ARE... BELOW ME... I Would Never Be Bigoted... You Just Didn't Love Me That's All... This Wouldn't Have Happened If You Did... LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME... THE DEFAULT OF THIS WORLD IS TO LOVE ME. ANYONE THAT DOESN'T IS EVIL AND BROKEN. NOTHING ELSE THAN THAT...

[acornbungus]

It's kinda crazy to me that I'd rather cut off my mum than my dad.

My dad is a functioning alcoholic, he yells when one of my siblings doesn't behave, he hits (not with intent to cause damage, he only does it on the top of the head enough to make a "smack" noise. I don't want to try too hard to justify it, just let you know he doesn't cause damage) and he openly says "you're so annoying" to us, even if it's a joke

But my mum.

She's a noxious kind of evil. She hears me out when I'm feeling like shit, she often asks if I'm ok, she constantly tells me she wants the best for me, she says she's proud of me, that she wants me to keep up the good work. But she doesn't actively support me, and it stings. She helped get me one session of therapy, which was incredibly unhelpful and infact gained me more trauma because we got into a car crash afterwards. She buys me self-help books but won't take me to someone when I tell her I want a diagnosis for fucking anything, she doesn't hear me when I tell her I'm in pain, both mental and physical. She (either unconsciously or consciously) puts so much pressure on me to over-achieve despite the trauma, the neglect, the tiny pin pricks that build up over-time and are bleeding me out.

I at least want her to be upfront about the fact that she's a fucking twat. I can't wait to move out and go to uni and never speak to her again. It's gonna be hard to cut her off but I can fucking do it. I'll give her a week of hope just to drag the rug out from under her feet. I'm done

[rainbowrass]

I had a dream about Gdragon this night.

I dreamt that me and my mom (I'm 28)

Wen't to see Gdragon perform on stage.

It was weird because me and my mom has only traveled one time before together.

I was there hoping he would see me in the crowd because I have feelings for him... but I knew the chance were slim...I shifted between having good self confidence to thinking I wasn't better than anyone else.

Then all of a sudden he look at my direction as he was trying to take aim and throw something.

He threw a bicyckle wheel?! Towards my direction, it landed one step down from me, nobody took it...wich suprised me...I tought everyone would jump and grab it because GD had touched it but no...but then maby? I was atleast prepared to fight for it. I had to crawl under some metal bars in order to get it, when I got there there was more stuff laying near the bicyckle wheel so I tought it might had been atached to it, I think it was a journal.

I went and told my mom ...with my red cheeks that I tought he threw it towards me on purpouse because he either likes me or thinks I'm special.

Later on we were going to get autographs

For some reason I was standing there in nothing but a shirt and my underwear?? Completely oblivious that I was...I was waiting for my turn..but I think I stroke up a conversation..he was a bit ignorant...wich made me sad and confused since he had taken aim on me earlier as he threw that bicykle wheel and journal towards me...and then he was on his way away from there because the autograph signing was over and then I noticed I had no pants on...I got a bit uppset that no one had told me so I think I either turned to my mom or friend or I did turn to GD himself and raised my voice a bit saying "Why didnt you tell me I had no pants on?!"

I talked to him like he was any other ordinary person...no one else did, he went away, probobly feeling a bit attacked by my sudden outburst i tought to myself...

Afterwards I tought...maby I shouldnt have yelled at him...maby I should've treated him more respectful and royal like the other people did...then I tought to myself no...I think it was good that I treated him more equal like he is a normal person, when it all comes around why wouldn't he be able to tell someone they have lost their pants just as much as the next person. I felt in a way seeing him as an equal was more respectfull towards him then bowing and treating him like a royal (I think hes sick of that alredy)

Later on we found out that he was infact impressed by me dearing to speak up about it so he had invited us to his private party, it was him, his siblings because in my dream he had serveral, And his dad and his sister did not look like they do in reality, his sister did not even look korean she had blond pmbre hair and a white dress and his dad was quite obese and...a bit of a man-pig drinking tons of alcohol (His real family look much nicer than my dream version of them ♡)

But in my DREAM his dad was very rude towards me...and my mom was quite embarrasing she told GD about how when I fall in love I fall in love hard and get obseesed almost and after I get dumpad I get so sad and cry allot (because I really do fall in love for real) and she tried to talk GD into not falling in love with me because she didnt want me to get so sad if he would break up with me. I got angry at my mom, first of all it was all embarrising second of all I haven't even gotten close to tell GD how I felt it was weeks or months down the line I had just met him for christ sake I couldn't just blurt out that I liked him and sound like any other crazy fan...so I got sad because I tought yepp there it goes my mom just blew any little chance I had with him...and also she called me obssesed who wanna date a person that gets so inlove they almost get obssesed...

Then I remembered GD is a romantic and falls in love hard himself, and he has been looking for someone who I think feels the same way someone that really cares and loves deeply...so I tought maby he would be impressed by my moms speech instead of revolted...but later on both my mom and GD left to go somewhere?! And I was left with his dream-version-dad who looked kind of like Gus from stardew valley actually...anyway he arrogantly sat there with a glas of champagne drunk and blurted out insults at me...later on GD came back and I was sad he wasn't there maby he could've defended me from his dad...well well I tought he wasn't here so might as not tell him.

But then GD himself yelled something at me...I got really sad and now I was the one that run away crying I sat down hoping he would run after me...but he didn't...I tought to myself maby he didn't understand that I got sad...maby he didn't hear me cry...so after a while I went back.

In my head two things happened here its hard to remember what

Either he apologies explaining that he wasn't really mad at me he just took something else out on me like he was hungry or something and cranky and that made him yell.

Or he ignorered me and didnt say anything.

Either way the dream ended pretty anticlimatic with him and me not talking So much just existing near echoter and that made me sad...I wonder what the ending could've been...

I woke up missing him and his aura and voice he felt warm and nice. :)

[officiallydirtydank]

Sam was abusing dream, I'm pretty sure everything he said in a post about her. She is guilty of, I'm glad there no longer together I remember her being really unhinged. Taylor was very crazy. I don't openly talk about it because these people are near and dear to their hearts. I mean they were in love. Sorry, for going incognito sometimes I just have to stop and think about things. I don't think twitter is a good place to share opinions. I just want to warn people. I had a friend that was both sexually taken advantage of by Billie eilish and pitbull. I know that sounds bizarre he was also sold on the Mexican drug cartel with his dad. I love his new series the qsmp I think it really has potential sometimes words don't come out the best for me and their frustrating on their own. At one point, I was questioning in my life having a boyfriend if I was gay or not. Which I'm not. My crazy grandfather probably thought it was a good idea to go though surgery so I could become a guy. Basically, sold on the black market for gay people. I mean, I can't recall if the pictures are me in a way it doesn't matter, but in a way it really does, because I care deeply about my friends I know I don't express it enough but I do. I did infact break her foot through a soup connection. I think, dreams heart is broken from sam. I remember taking her a few times to pick up her meds. Her absolutely flipping out on me. It's sad when you can't help people that are hurting so bad. There just beyond your help. If Sapnap slept with dream some fan girls would be erratic. But at the end of the day I think they are just people and the real narcs are dead and gone. I like to play with people's minds to get them to think a little bit. Clearly, they don't think a lot on Twitter. I know Dream said there's only one of him. And that may very well be true. But idk I felt like something deeper was going on sleeping with friends when you're not gay. Using each other for intercourse I don't want to sit here and accuse anyone of rape. But here goes, I think Sapnap, Val, etc. Did something to dream and definitely George. But the sad thing I can't prove that, but I have memories and things I've saw that could confirm nor deny it. I'm not the closest with Sapnap, he can be snarky. And conceited at times, but means well. When we we're together he would push my head down and say "suck it baby". I also think Sapnap may be a gay ally. Possibly even gay himself, he seems almost like a predator to me. Keep in mind, these are the genuine memories I can recall to this day. I've known btf and Keemstar for a very long time. Colossal for a few months. We use to smoke cigarettes together and tell stories. At one time I hated my appearance so much I wanted to change it. So, I would wear eye contacts. I'm not sure if I ever dyed my hair or had tattoos.