#the delusion that it can't be anything BUT a war or a fight or a sacrifice of himself and/or his future

[abuckygirlarchive]

results of the poll are in and we have a winner ! as such, have a compilation of highlights from the winning comic run ' bucky barnes: the winter soldier (2014 - 2015) ' by marco rudy and ales kot.

[strawbeffys]

fluff alphabet |clarisse la rue

author's note: Hi lovelies, please send me requests! I don't know what gave me the confidence to think I can write, probably delusion. Also, this is according to my personal views of Clarisse so don't be mad if it's different from what you've imagined. Leave a comment, I love interacting with people, xx.

warnings: I tried my best to keep it gender/race/cabin neutral for the most part but there are still some feminine coded things here and there. English is not my first language so excuse any grammar mistakes.

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Starting off strong because with Clarisse sparring is a must. Although she doesn't like to think there will ever come a time in which she won't be there to protect you, it's still an essential part of life as a half-blood. And who better to train you than the daughter of war herself? And in case the apprentice becomes the master and you happen to beat her or pin her to the ground or even hold your dagger to her neck? Oh boy, she's done for. Actual heart eyes.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

She pretty much loves everything about you, she can't really just choose one aspect. Though, if she had to, she'd probably say she loves you for being supportive, understanding, and patient with her. You understand her better than anyone. That's what made her know you were the one for her. You can control her anger issues and calm her down when she's on the verge of exploding and she thinks that's beautiful.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc?

The art of intimacy or comfort never came easy to Clarisse. Her relationship with her mother isn't the best and hasn't been for a while now and her father is a grade A asshole. Her first instinct when you're feeling down is to fix it, to ask you who or what happened and give them a physical piece of her mind, but that's not always how it works. She'll pull you to her lap and hold you through the night or for as long as you need, wiping your tears and kissing your cheeks. She'll let you vent your heart out. You can tell her anything. Or nothing, if you prefer. She's not the best with words but her actions speak much louder.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

She's never thought that much ahead if she's being honest. Never allowed herself to daydream too much into the future, choosing to live off the present for now. Sometimes, however, she pictures what could be only described as an utopia; to go on such a fantastical quest that the gods can't help but grant the both of you immortality, that way you'd bask in the glory of your love forever and ever.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

On the outside looking in it would seem Clarisse is the dominant one for sure. And in some ways she is; she likes that you can rely on her, she wants to provide for you, yearns to prove herself capable of such. Still, you're the one in charge. Clarisse is completely devoted to you, and your relationship means more to her than anything she's ever felt before. She cherishes it like no other, always at your beck and call.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Clarisse is intense, that much we know. Her anger runs deep and her passion burns red. She's not perfect, and doesn't try to hide it either. She's hot-tempered, arrogant, she's got a short fuse and she holds grudges. Her fatal flaw is pride, which sometimes gets in the way of her good senses, so you'll most likely be the one apologizing first. Despite all that, she can't bear the thought of you being mad at her and absolutely hates fighting with you. It's like it's tearing her apart, especially if you're sad over something she said or did in the heat of the moment. Truth is, she is a fighter at heart so when all is said and done she'll try and make it up to you in some way, somehow.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

She is so appreciative of everything you do and are. As previously stated, Clarisse didn't get much love growing up so any semblance of that is something she clings hard to. She notices everything, every little thing you do for her and the underlying of your words. How you treat her and others is always stored in the back of her mind and she loves to be loved by you.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

Clarisse is a very closed off person in general, she doesn't like feeling exposed and being possibly seen as weak. She'll tell you things but there's still some matters you have to pick up on your own and know how to approach them, especially regarding her feelings and personal struggles. She's very honest though, she feels like she owns you that much and appreciates you if you do the same for her. The more your relationship progresses you'll notice being able to read her like an open book because although she does her very best to hide it there's an underlying vulnerability to her behavior in certain moments you'll take proper notice of the more you know her.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

Clarisse has definitely become more gentle since you. It still doesn't extend to your friends and family but more so how she behaves around you and knowing she doesn't have to put up that though front all the time. Her sense of self worth has improved as well, especially when you reassure her through her insecurities and doubts (never being the son her father wanted etc.)

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

Oh, boy. Clarisse’s jealousy is very fuelled by… Well, anything really. She doesn't necessarily need a motive to go toe to toe with someone, just staring at you for a second longer than she deems them worthy of and she's ready for a fight. It's hard for anyone to get close enough to flirt with you because she's always there, by your side, kind of like a guard dog. But only because she knows how amazing you are and her insecurities do blurry some lines on what's acceptable. She's working on it though.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Clarisse is definitely a good kisser. She doesn't have much experience, if any, but she's a natural. It sounds cheesy but the first time she kisses you was like butterflies and church bells dancing loudly in the wind. The way she cups your face so uncharacteristically soft and how she breaks off the kiss with a series of small pecks only to smile one of her beautiful smiles so close to each other's faces… Magical. It could be at the fireworks on the fourth of July or it could be in your favorite spot in the woods, soaked in lake water during a midnight swim or after a heated argument. No matter how many times Clarisse kisses you, she'll never not feel electricity similar to her spear’s sharp edge digging into her body and soul.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Clarisse does not have a clue what she's doing. I feel like she'd say something in the heat of the moment; either confessing her true feelings or masking them by saying something hurtful she doesn't actually mean. In the latter scenario she'd storm off and berate herself over it but her pride and fear that you'd never look at her again made her put off her apology for some time and let it all sink in to talk to you when she's ready. That is until you start properly ignoring her and she nearly goes crazy with longing, just missing your overall presence and having her stomach turn to knots at the way things were left between you two. That's one of the few times Clarisse sucks it up and reaches for you. The apology is awkward but overwhelmingly honest and she tells you she's an idiot but you're content in forgiving her and giving her a second (actual first) chance.

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

Again, Clarisse never thought she'd live to see the day she'd actually have a marriage prospect. Her life just doesn't seem complete without you anymore and the moment she realizes that she's done for. It would probably be while you're laying in bed together, your head on her chest while you play with her fingers. Your eyes are heavy with sleep but hers are wide open, thinking. “Will you marry me?” said while staring into the distance and you probably think she's joking except Clarisse is not one to joke about that sort of thing. “Not now. But eventually.” and whether you ask if she's serious or just accept it right away, she'd look at you seriously for a beat and then tackle you into a bear hug, crushing you underneath her. She doesn't see the point in a big wedding, but if that's what you're into, she won't mind.

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

She is not immune to babe or baby but would still like to keep some variety. Things like sunshine, gorgeous, angel or others (I'm looking at you, person who created the “mama/s” HC). She does like your name very much, or probably a shortened version of it. Don't expect her to not tease you if any of these make you flustered.

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

Clarisse likes to think she's good at hiding it when she's absolutely not. As Taylor Swift once said, you can hear it in the silence. Just the way her eyes soften when she's looking at you speaks millions, but people also get whiplash at how fast her mean attitude changes whenever you're around. Her love giving languages are probably acts of service and physical touch. She loves to do things for you, feeling all big and mighty whenever she can make your life just a little easier. Touching is also a must but we'll get to that in a second.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

Clarisse is not very comfortable with public displays of affection, because she is afraid of being judged or mocked by others for being weak or soft. She prefers to keep her relationship with you private and intimate, but doesn't mind the little things. She does gloat about being with you as well as showing you off, so that everyone on camp knows you're hers. She brags about you all the time and I mean, seriously, all the time. She's not a big hand holder but she almost over compensates by grabbing at your hips and thighs, throwing an arm over your shoulder or hiding her face in your neck. She especially loves bonfires when you sit on her lap and she can hold firmly onto your waist while she's talking to her siblings or just press her forehead against yours when her social battery is low.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

She's very perceptive. She may not know what has changed right away but she's also persistent so she'll figure it out in an instant. If it's the way you did your hair or something that happened along your day, even if you change your usual greeting. She notices and she'll definitely ask you about it.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

Clarisse wants to be loved, that's all she’s ever wanted, and she has so much love to give, therefore I believe she'll do just about anything to make you happy. That includes being an absolute sap. She honestly doesn't mind how cliche it is, if it works on you, you bet she's using it. If anyone cares to say anything remotely negative about you or your relationship she will promptly glare them into oblivion or give them something to really worry about.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

She is your absolute biggest supporter. Especially if you don't believe in yourself, then she's trying even harder for you to see just how well you can do something if you put your mind to it. With something like sword training she is more than willing to help you, rewarding you with kisses and cursing you for distracting her with your pretty face.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

Clarisse doesn't mind change, she rolls with it. If you have a certain way of doing things, a routine you like to follow, that's fine by her. If you're unpredictable, even better. She just loves to see what comes next in terms of your relationship, not necessarily needing anything to amplify her love for you. It's already hardwired into her.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

She knows you like the back of her hand. Even the slightest furrow of your eyebrows or tilt of your head and she'll be there in a second asking what's wrong. She does learn to be more empathetic towards your own struggles, which was hard at first because she wasn't sure how to see things from someone else's point of view. Though road but you make it work.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

She doesn't have much to look forward to so Clarisse values her relationship with you very highly, as you are one of the few people who can see past her tough and aggressive exterior and appreciate her softer and more vulnerable side. She is fiercely loyal and protective of you, and would do anything to keep you safe and happy.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

I actually read this one on a Wattpad story a while ago so credit to the original creator but, Clarisse has a teddy bear named Mr. Muscles she's had since she was like, nine and she cherishes it like it's her most prized possession. When she introduced this piece of information to you, you just found her so incredibly adorable you couldn't contain the giggles and she gets so hot in the face she pushes you off her bed and it's honestly one of the most memorable moments in your relationship.

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

I headcanon Clarisse as your personal furnace as well as a koala bear so kisses and cuddles are a must, especially if it's cold outside. She loves to take naps with you, it gets to the point where she has trouble sleeping without you (so you give her a vial of your perfume to spray on Mr. Muscles for when you're away).

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

Clarisse with you: 🥰

Clarisse without you: 😡

She gets snappier than usual and easily annoyed but she'll also get really sad because she's never had to deal with being away from you. Her siblings try to cheer her up by shoving some kid's head into the toilet but she's so disinterested in anything that does not involve you she just goes about her days training until she can see you again and show off her muscles.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

The answer is yes, one hundred percent. “Touch her and you die” trope goes so hard. Not only that but she would willingly sacrifice the world and herself for you and your relationship. She would go out of her way to make sure you are okay, that you are fed and hydrated and well rested, even messing up her own sleeping schedule in order to take better care of you.

[writerswhy]

Self-care for the Soul: Hinamori's Edition

(Or, my 2am rambles on Hinamori that briefly touch on nonviolence while I lightly express some fandom guilt ft. one mention of Frankenstein and some Tobiume hc 🫠 Thank you @bleachbleachbleach for your encouraging words on this post! <33)

TL;DR: Much of Hinamori’s external life has been chosen for her. She thrives at exercising a form of internal non-violence of the spirit, where despite the lack of tools (as a Rukongai ghost) and later in spite of the master’s tools (the Seireitei), she asserts her power through choice - choosing to love, defend, create - through which she fights back against the institution that created and enabled the violence inflicted upon her. This is in her nature, always has been since she befriended Hitsugaya to rescuing Hisagi.

"Be like the bird that, passing on her flight awhile on boughs too slight, feels them give way beneath her, and yet sings, knowing that she hath wings." -Victor Hugo

Sometimes I feel like such a fake Hinamori fan because I worry that my interpretations discredit her character, which isn't what I want at all! With regards to Aizen and forgiveness, I get a sense that the popular belief is that it is in Hinamori's nature or best interest to come to reject everything about their relationship, that she would even hate him, want to enact some form of violence on him. And that's all fine! I mean, anything is believable if you come at characterization from the lens of “what would make a character do XYZ?"….but I just can't help but feel like this is us (or at least me) moving on without her - which is how Hinamori canonically felt post-Winter War (and I would go so far as to say she's been feeling like this for a long time, since before leaving for the academy).

Like, would it help Hinamori to hate everything about him? To reject all of him? What is she, someone who deeply values her relationships and what she gets from them as much as she gives, choosing to leave behind by doing so? So much of her (external) life happens to her: she has to enter the academy because her powers awakened, she was pre-selected to join the 5th division for a plan that started decades before her and would be put into motion a few decades later, and of course both stabbings.

Given this, I think Hinamori is someone who appreciates making a choice of what she's given, often internal, often against the status quo, and gains exactly what she needs. She chooses to befriend Hitsugaya despite the village's rejection of him (and finds herself a lifetime partner); she stays behind to give Hitsugaya a proper goodbye even though it'll make her late to the academy on her first day (to keep Rukongai close which feels especially important given Seireitei wants to neglect, forget what's outside their walls); she chooses to save Hisagi against his orders (and years later she can look back and know she's brave); she chooses to defend Renji despite Byakuya's authority and Kira's acquiescence (and realizes that to stand up for what she believes in she may be the only one in the room left). And if she chooses to hold close the fond memories she created with Aizen and the lessons she learned from him, she'll know that under all his power laid her power too.

These choices she made are all born from her internal character and I think that's something she tries to hold onto (even when it feels like everyone is moving on without her, that the narrative is moving on without her, that fandom sometimes moves on without her).

And it's not because of the naivety or delusion that's so often attributed to her. It's this instinct to create, to save, to love, despite the lack of tools (and then in spite of the tools). I don't think it's far-fetched to believe that she, an artist who spends her free time reading (about history and fantasy, about the past and the future) would try to create what she needs, imperfect as it is. Hinamori has always been a "be the change you want to see" type of person.

Unlike Hisagi who fears his power in his own hands, Hinamori fears her power in the hands of others. In a way, it's a rejection of the Seireitei. In a way, it's a rejection of the institution that created and enabled the violence inflicted upon her.

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(Another reason why I feel like a fake Hinamori fan is because I don't think she needs bankai to tie up her arc or to prove/reclaim her power. Like I mentioned above, I think Hinamori does a pretty solid job of reclaiming her power outside of Seireitei's tools. Bankai feels almost like a resignation to me. It's hard to explain without needing 2000+ words and referencing Frankenstein, the internal/spiritual nature of nonviolence of a solider, and elaborating on Hisagi and Kaname because these two are very much part of the same conversation.

But anyways! My Tobiume hc plays into all of this. It's pretty much the same as the rest of the fandom's - some iteration of a phoenix + forest (I love the seagull cry when Tobiume releases and this imagery of being rooted deep in the earth with an expansive sky to soar above this middle space where the man-made sits), but I hc that she's never really been able to see Tobiume. That Tobiume always wants to keep just out of sight, perched high in the trees or a shadow over the sun to keep her wondering because Hinamori is an artist (who once had no brushes), a life-long learner (who once had no books), and I think it’d be neat if her inner world was something she created out of imagination and hunger for somewhere beyond her body and something beyond the constraints of their society. Another poem I associate with her is "Cherry Blossoms" by Toi Derricote:))

[lackablazeical]

💙🥀Leonardo Hamato🥀💙

Specific Trigger Warnings -

Stalking, harassment, manipulation, physical/mental/emotional abuse of a partner, objectification of others, threats/acts of violence, yandere-like actions and behavior, violation of consent/boundaries (specifically to actions such as hugging, kissing, snuggling, grabbing, etc.), child neglect

Specific boundaries w/ this character -

Do not glorify/romantize/endorse Leo's actions ("I wish someone cared about me this much" etc etc.)

Do not ship Leo with anyone. At all.

Do not treat Leo as 'fixable' or anything of the like, or imply that he could/should be 'forgiven'.

Do not imply romantic/sexual intention when Leo is touching someone. He just likes physical touch, that is all.

General info -

Leo's birthday is October 27th. He is a Scorpio ♏️

Leo's main love language is physical touch, but he can give love through all five.

Leo is a sex-repulsed Panromantic Vincian man. He can feel romantic attraction but only feels any type of deeper attraction/connection with non-women.

Leo has combined-type ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder).

Leo has ASPD (Antisocial Personality Disorder).

Personality traits -

Leo is loyal, protective, obsessive, slow-to-anger, charismatic, controlling, manipulative, forgetful, strategic, and vengeful.

Leo doesn't get angry easily. He may get annoyed, but genuine anger is rare and hard to bring out. Often, it's a build-up of small things that makes him lash out, usually violently.

Leo is extremely loyal to those he loves. He will absolutely kill and die for his family, and for Usagi. Family is the most important thing to him, and he will choose them over anything else.

Leo, as a strategist, rarely ever does things without a plan in place. While his actions may seem impulsive or non-sensical, they are often to drive people apart, cause fear/pain, etc. Leo is extremely smart, and knows how to twist situations into his favor.

Leo is a control freak. He can't stand not being in control, and will do whatever it takes to maintain the power he does have. If that means violence, then that means violence.

Leo will spiral and be sent into complete delusion and panic if he's left without affectionate physical contact for too long. He needs it to feel grounded, and he will force the contact if he must to stay sane.

Important details -

His insomnia -

Leo has extremely intense insomnia. This is a result of an error when he was mutated. Originally, Draxum intended for all the brothers to require less sleep, so they could spend more time fighting wars and such. Instead, Leo got an overdose of that specific chemical, resulting in the state we see today, whereas his brothers got off with no ill effects.

He is physically unable to sleep for around a month, but Leo is able to force himself to stay awake for just under around 3-4 months before his body begins to shut down. Leo can't control this, and he is likely to pass out mid-conversation or while doing something because of this.

This insomnia has extreme physical effects on Leo. It results in glassy vision, sluggish movement/behavior, extremely bad memory issues, delusions, inability to concentrate for very long, and carelessness. Leo also has a lower natural heart rate because of this, and his eyes strain more easily. He also has extremely shakey hands, which mostly present themselves when he is typing/drawing/writing.

Leo's siblings don't care for Leo's behavior after being rested, so they often make attempts to keep him awake/wake him up faster. Without intervention, Leo can sleep for days. With intervention, he may get 6-8 hours max.

After being freshly rested -

After Leo has recently gotten sleep, he is noticeably more helpful, respectful, withdrawn, and thoughtful. He is more likely to notice smaller details, remember things better, etc. He is also nicer, and will better listen to things like 'no'.

This state lasts around 1-3 weeks, depending on how much sleep he got previously. He may revert back to his regular behavior faster if exposed to a catalyst (someone made him angry, he gets a look/smell/taste of blood, etc.)

His relationship with Big Mama -

Leo hates Big Mama. He distrusts her and her motives, and hates how she treats Splinter, Mikey, and Donnie. Game recognizes Game, Manipulative recognizes Manipulative.

Leo keeps BM alive exclusively for Splinter and Mikey. He is willing to kill her the second either of them gives him the word.

Leo will be courteous to her if he has to be. He will accept her gifts and call her Mother, but he makes his absolute distain of her very clear. He refuses to be alone with her and will silence anyone trying to tell her personal facts about him violently.

BM was the one who gifted Leo his sword as a sort of peace offering. It didn't work, but he took it anyway. Now, he never goes anywhere without it.

Leo is very strict about BM not knowing about Usagi. He regularly threatens his and Usagi's brothers to stay quiet about Usagi, and makes it clear that it is their necks on the line if he finds out they told her. BM would use Usagi as a pawn to get Leo to listen to her, and Leo refuses to give up his control.

BM is aware of some of the other Miyamotos (specifically Kenichi, Ishida, and Riko) but does not know about Usagi specifically. She just knows that they have more siblings. She also does not know that Leo has a connection with Usagi.

Leo and BM are actually quite similar, with their controlling and manipulative natures. Never tell Leo that, though. Unless you want your head cut off.

His stalking -

Leo began stalking around 10 years old. Most of his targets would only be interests between 1-3 months, before Leo got bored/they died/etc.

Leo has had 36 victims, including Usagi.

Leo does not have a preference when he stalks. Age, gender, species, etc has no effect on who he fixates on. Though he is likely to be more violent/intense towards male/masc people if they are his current focus.

Leo typically treats any death similar to a breakup. He'll cry, stew in his feelings, etc. It annoys the hell out of his entire family. Leo often gets over it quickly.

Leo fixated on Usagi differently because he was introduced to Usagi differently. Leo actually saved him from being mugged, which is the first time Leo had ever felt like an actual hero. This sent him into a complete spiral of obsession, and now Leo only and will only ever have eyes for Usagi.

His dynamic with Usagi -

Leo is an abuser. He is Usagi's abuser. He manipulates him, physically/mentally/emotionally harms him, etc.

Leo does not insult, slap, punch, or put down Usagi. Leo is very verbally affectionate to Usagi, which is one of the reasons people do not pick up on what is really happening.

Leo will bite, shove, pin, yank, choke, throw, or restrain Usagi. He is very controlling of Usagi's movement.

Leo does not explicitly put Usagi down, but will make Usagi feel powerless, dependent, etc. As example, Leo would NEVER say "You're nothing without me", but he WOULD say "where would you be without me?"

Usagi barters time and affection with Leo to get Leo to let him do what he wants. Leo often only properly upholds these deals around half the time. This could be holding hands for 10 minutes so that Usagi can go to the store with his brothers, etc etc. Leo is very much giving "changed the terms at the last moment" vibes.

Leo would become a husk of a person if he lost Usagi. He would slaughter anyone in his way if they tried to take Usagi (except his brothers, ofc.) Everyone is very aware of the fact Leo would act out violently if Usagi tried to leave him.

This is not to say Leo will always pick Usagi. If it is a life-or-death, no other option situation, Leo will pick his family over Usagi instantly, no hesitation, nothing. He will mourn afterward, though.

Leo's favoritism -

If Leo loves someone, in his mind, they can do no wrong. He will make excuses, ignore facts, and twist the narrative to remove blame from that person. He may also find a scapegoat to blame the behavior on instead.

If two people Leo loves are fighting, he doesn't pick sides. He will completely ignore the problem and say that it doesn't matter.

Leo is very much of the opinion that 'its in the past, so it doesn't matter.' So what people say, actions they take, past trauma, etc. Doesn't matter to him. This could be contributed to his memory problems as well.

After a fight, Leo will comfort the one that he thinks is more upset, aka more 'in need of support.' Typically, this will be Usagi.

Leo's power level -

Leo is the most dangerous of his brothers, WITH his sword. He could easily take any of his brothers down with it.

Without his sword, Leo is the weakest of his brothers. Leo is not good at hand-to-hand combat, and his fighting style completely relies on his sword and portals.

Fun facts -

Leo's favorite food is candied strawberries. He loves anything sweet or fruity.

Leo loves play wrestling and will often get very invested in any fights he gets in with his brothers or Usagi.

Leo has an extremely good pain tolerance. He would be able to walk on a broken leg and barely even register it.

Leo is a mystic prodigy, and his teleporting ability is entirely self-taught. It is much more sporadic and 'glitchy' than Rise, but Leo is still able to get things where they need to go. Leo's swords can split, and be either 1 or 2 weapons. 1 sword can create solid, doorway-like portals. 2 swords mean Leo can teleport between them, if he throws or embeds them in something.

Leo loves pop music, as well as 60s-90s Spanish music. He has an antique radio that he loves to listen to. Leo will also listen to rap/dubstep/hip-hop for Mikey and Don.

Leo loves rom-coms, and that is where Leo gets most of his ideas of love/romance from. He does not watch good rom-coms.

Leo babies his brothers quite a lot, but it is out of genuine care and adoration.

Tags that include Leo -

#addams! Leo, #addams! Leosagi, #addams! Hamatos, #addams! Disaster twins

[the-genius-az]

If Azula would use any drug, it would be alcohol and pills. I don't think she would smoke (because it would ruin her lungs) or inject (because of infections and sepsis).

I feel like because she was institutionalized, she got prescribed a lot of pain medication (aftermath of Agni Kai and because she would hurt herself trying to escape/fight back) and sleeping pills/drugs (to get her to actually sleep and not be half awake through the night).

There is a possibility that there were experimental drugs involved as well (something to treat her delusions and hallucinations) or to make her more docile. Obviously those didn't help much or if they did, they made her loopy and seem really out of it (anti-depressants and anti-psychotic drugs usualy do that)

So it's safe to assume that when she did get released, she got prescribed pain medication or other prescriptions. So she got addicted because she wanted to forget the memories from the asylum and her whole childhood (her mother)

That is how a lot of people end up with alcohol problems as well. They drink after they take their medication to feel the effects hit even harder and make them last longer. I think Azula did it accidentally once (took her medication and after an hour or two drank some alcohol - the effects of the meds became stronger) and now she does it so frequently it's rare to not find her drunk and dazed out if her mind.

-Squid

Exactly, Azula will only consume pills and any type of alcohol.

Why... Smoking? Nah, she damages her lungs and she desperately needs to continue being the best firebender in the world (even though she's no longer in the war).

Injections? Absolutely not. She'll pretend she's not turning into a drug addict, just to keep some of her dignity (regardless of whether she already is).

Of course! Azula will live on painkillers and sleeping pills throughout her life.

Honestly? I think she burned her body so badly (No, she has no scar to prove it, so her pain is "insignificant") that she literally feels like she's burning, but she can't say anything because that would show weakness.

I feel like they would do that, to keep her sane and more "soft", even though we all know (And I bet they all know it too) that it doesn't work, and they only screw her up even more.

Someone did their homework! And yes, I am proof of that, alcohol makes you deliciously drowsy when you take pills, especially if they are pain relievers.

I think that Azula at that moment just wanted to forget everything (That's what alcohol does after all), and it felt so good, to feel that numbness, that little bit of happiness of not feeling any more pain, It would be a great relief to have it! I would do it thousands of times!

It wouldn't be strange to find Azula drugged and drunk, everyone always finds her like that... that doesn't prevent the whirlwind in their stomachs and the great inevitable sadness.

[sasukeless]

6, 8, 11 and 16

6) which ship fans are the most annoying?

i have grown to hate poly team 7 the most rn. i hate whenever ppl see a ship war and go “if they all date it fixes everything” when no???? and that ship specifically just lives off my leeching of narusasu scenes and trying to insert sakura in it. example: “naruto is the sun, sasuke is the moon and sakura the star” ?&/&2!&2 as if the manga isn’t constantly making narusasu dynamic smth separated from every other bond and relationship each of them has.

it’s incredibly annoying also that the same people that have spend years harassing narusasu for imaginary misogyny for shipping a gay ship and fictional cheating hcs are now all suddenly okay w cheating as long as it’s on hinata only. like most of these people are just annoying sakura self inserts that are mad she’s sidelined all the time because kishimoto wanted for narusasu only to be the plot.

8) common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

we could be here all day when most of naruto stans don’t open the manga... anyway i will say jealous / possessive sasuke. there’s not a single scene of him acting like that but it’s such a mass delusion.

alsoo when ppl say that part 2 sakura moved on from her crush on sasuke sjjskskle it’s okay if that’s ur hc but like. that’s not true at all please read the manga

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

when ppl try to add characters to narusasu and make them poly. just loud and wrong they gotta change their whole characters to make it make sense

when people make sasuke always rude and the one always picking fights with naruto like??? be serious

the sasuke finds his brother annoying while itachi is just a loving older brother characterization also it’s stupid. i’m sorry but itachi is literally the person he loves most and looks up to even after everything that fucker did. meanwhile itachi is an annoying pest when it comes to how controlling he is over sasuke but he’s never portrayed as anything but perfect

ah. i also hate when people make sasuke and orochimaru get along or have orochimaru be a parental figure whatever. just weird to me when you actually look how their dynamic is and also sasuke hates that guy like srly

[hero-israel]

i'm sure this has been said thousands of times and far more eloquently and in a more educated way than i can, but seeing all this fallout just makes me think that many people from other countries wouldn't keep interfering and loudly shouting their opinions (especially hate), is one of the major things making things worse.

i know there are people who legitimately seek peace and do work towards it, but that seems like such a tiny minority, drowned out by hateful people gleeful to dehumanize. it feels so disturbing in ways i can't even put into words, how people seem to be treating this like sport teams or something. all when they will never be affected by the human toll of the actions or their rhetoric.

"allies" for EITHER israel or palestine (especially westerners) seem to do them and the cause they claim to support, the most harm.

Wars end when the loser stops fighting.

The Palestinians lost their war a long time ago and nothing this week changes that. If anything, they are farther away from any of their ostensible goals than ever. (They are succeeding in the goals of killing Jews and leftwashing fascism and genocidal antisemitism worldwide).

But millions of people worldwide keep encouraging the Confederate Lost Cause delusion that Palestinians are just about to win! That if they just keep fighting one more day, take one more F-16 hit, nailbomb one more pizzeria, that will reverse the entire 20th century. These "allies" are nothing but useful idiots for death.

Wise Palestinians recognize how opportunistic and false their "supporters" are. Wise outside observers recognize how doomed their mission is. Other Arab leaders recognize it as well - they just can't say it publicly.

As I kept saying for years, all of this could have been solved with a handshake and a signature, and anyone who truly cared about the interests of Palestinians should have been urging them to do exactly that. Get SOMETHING for yourselves. As a Jew, Yasir Arafat's "Plan of Phases" could have worked. Agree to ANYTHING with Israel, sign off on ANY vestige of statehood, say it's enough - get sovereignty in Gaza and some of the West Bank - then wait 10 years and say it's not enough anymore, say you want more adjoining territory, you want what's next door, you want an airport, you want you want you want, and evil Israel is blocking you from it. Israel would have been left pointing at a piece of paper like Ned Stark. There is really no such thing as a "final status agreement," borders are the most social-constructy things in the history of the universe, and every divorce begins with an "I'll love you forever."

But that doesn't involve killing enough Jews right now.

I like to think of myself as a politically astute person. I've successfully anticipated things enough, particularly regarding people who are so transparent in their behavior and desires and skill levels. I can absolutely see Israel coming through this - worse for wear but recognizable, still fulfilling its mission as a Jewish home, now with some more depressing memorials. But I can't make any confident predictions of the future for the Palestinians right now.

[mrs-monaghan]

Hi Shaz, how are you today?

I've been quietly observing people's reactions to Jimin's last vlive, more specifically towards his answer on whether Jungkook had cooked him ramen, and, while some of them were understanding, others were very insensitive and even harsh.

Just a few weeks ago, Holland, one of the few publicly out gay artists of Korea, was assaulted on the streets because of his sexuality. I guess not many people heard of it, but it's not exactly a surprise. Korea might be evolving on the subject of homophobia little by little, but it's turtle steps.

Now, Holland is famous, but I don't even have to say how much more famous Jimin and Jungkook are. If Holland got some attention for coming out, then Jungkook and Jimin will have everyone and their mama's attention if they ever do.

So, in a world where Jimin can't even step outside without being photographed and chased, in a world where he can't go to a restaurant to eat with friends without everyone on the internet knowing, in a world where his mail is stolen and his privacy is invaded, and in a world where his relationship with Jungkook is closely observed, Jimin has all the right in the world to kept ONE LITTLE THING to himself, to cherish and protect from the media's claws and the public's judgment. And that's exactly what he's doing, while also protecting himself along the way.

I mean, if Taennie, a hetero couple, came out and still had all that backlash (Taehyung was criticized by his own fans who live in their crazy, jealous delusions, and Jennie gets called a whore like, at least ten times a day), imagine if Jungkook and Jimin tried anything like that? When they already get hate just by fucking standing next to each other?

Was Jimin deflective? Yes, he was. Do I think his deflective behavior is exclusively towards Jungkook? No.

Jimin is a very private person, we all know that. I don't know why we have to keep repeating this, but okay.

What I mean is: if Jimin was questioned about something/someone else very important in his personal life, like his family, his romantic relationship, or his close, not-famous friends, or something he cares about and doesn't want the media/fans to know too much about or interfere with, he would deflect. He might even give a short answer, just something so he won't be too obvious about it, but he'll probably change the subject really fast.

The reason is obvious: he clearly wants to separate his personal life from his public life, and he knows very damn well how to do that. Jungkook happens to be one of these people he loves, adores and cares about so much (one of the most important ones besides his family, no doubt), and, because of that, he wants to protect them. He wants people to keep their noses out of their business, and he's so right for it.

That's also why he talks about the other members (mostly Hoseok and Yoongi) more openly: because there is nothing to hide. They're best friends and family, and he loves them just as much, but there is nothing at stake between them. There is nothing between them that could risk their careers and their safety. He can talk about visiting Yoongi and he can talk about meeting up with Hobi because people don't keep a close eye on them like they do with him and Jungkook. People won't bat an eye if he says he just saw Namjoon yesterday.

See, the rain fight isn't too personal, that's why he was so smiley and open to share when it was brought up. It's a funny memory for him, just like the dumpling incident, as bad as it was (they make it sound like it was the whole world war iii lmao), they all laugh about it. He can tell fans about that without giving too much away.

Now, to let people in as to whether he was at Jungkook's place or not? Hmm, that might not be too much for us, but it is for him, and we don't have to understand that, but we have to respect it and stop questioning their bond over something so silly as ramen.

Jimin saying that Jungkook hasn't cooked ramen for him yet doesn't mean that he's cold towards Jungkook, and it doesn't mean that they don't see each other. There are literally so many other things to do, and we need to get it in our heads that they will not tell us everything that they do, and that, if they want to, they'll lie to us. They can lie to us, they don't owe us anything.

"Oh but they wouldn't do that they wouldn't lie", I'm sorry, but please grow up. Even our parents/family/friends lie to us sometimes, what makes you think that these grown men who, yes, love us, BUT DONT OWE US anything and don't know us personally, wouldn't lie to us when it comes to it? Like... Some people have to wake up, because the real world isn't a fairytale, your idols have the right to keep their lives private, and being gay in Korea will never be easy.

Sorry for the long ask, but I'm just getting tired of the Jimin backlash.

Anon has summarised it perfectly. I think we can end the ramen discussion now. I'd say its been exhausted, wouldn't you?

Thanks anon for this. I for one agree.

[mischiefprincess]

I've been thinking about the reasons i dislike Sylvie and i realized that it's not that i don't like her, i don't like her fans, they're insufferable and they idolize her by humiliating Loki, they really seem to believe she is superior to him and he is just incompetent clown, they fail to understand she was created solely for the purpose of furthering his character development in the series, they see her as a badass girlboss who is perfectand can do no wrong but she's not.

Sylvie is a contradictory mess to me, the writers claim she detached herself from the Loki identity but she is literally wearing the Loki "uniform" the first time we see her, she wears the fucking horns and they have the nerve to say she created a new identity for herself.

No she didn't, she choose another name and dyed her hair, but she still dresses like Loki, she manipulates everyone around her to get what she wants and she has delusions of grandeur, she says that "the universe wants to break free, so it manifests chaos like me being born the godess of mischief", she starts believing she is destined to free the universe and when Loki confronts her about the consequences of her actions she refuses to accept that, she refuses to accept she is wrong and that Loki might have a point bc she just can't accept she is not the smartest person in the room.

sure, that sounds a bit like Loki, but the difference is that Loki fans accept his flaws and don't try to paint him like a saint (sure there's always the insane peoiple who go rabid if someone dares to imply Loki ever made a mistake in his life, but let's ignore the fanatics shall we?)

I've seen some of her fans say that she could've easily killed Loki in the citadel fight, be real, Loki is not a incompetent fighter, they were on equal foot in that fight, he was trying to reason with her and she was trying to kill him and she couldn't, they say he never accomplished anything in his life but they forget that she would never accomplish her goal without Loki, her simplistic plan of invading the tva to kill the time keepers would have failed if he never interfered and she would likely be pruned and sent to the void

they can argue she would have had the ideia of enchanting alioth anyways but she would never be able to enchant him on her own, she lacks the power to do it and she needed him, also, without Loki she would probably start fighting the other variants since she can't make connections with anyone, she would probably have a bitter end in the void without Loki to help her with her plan

Now we see that Loki is the one responsible and is doing his best to prevent a war while she just pathetically ignores the consequences of her actions, she acts like a child and will probably push him away just because she refuses to grow up and act like an adult who takes responsability of her actions

[daisyjules1011]

Television on in my living

This is the first time my eyes hurt, not from the bluelight

But from the horror glimmering in it

Ghastly images of humans who look and feel like me

One for the money, two for the show, three to get ready

And the forth one was killed

Someone beside me says it's a sorry sight

Moves on to watch NFL and what not

All the story tales in the world live inside a small box

How so different they seem

We are all flesh and blood

Bones beneath skin and a heart beneath the armour

Some of us die from boredom

Some of them die of starvation and waste

The reporter with her face carved of stone exclaims

'The hostages were showered in gold and platinum'

Then killed in broad daylight with barbs made of silver

Skip the channel and you are saved

For us how easy is it to escape

The portal to escapism lies in our hands

Their hands are filled with sticks and stones and guns

So young, yet so old

So full of hope, but the eyes are filled with doom

The fat monster with his sticky hands and shiny shoes

Sits atop a jeweled throne

Brandishing statements about what he would do

Just for a second I believe him,

Because it is easier to believe than face the reality

Making proclamations in comfort is nothing revolutionary

I do it to, so does my dad, and the guy across the street I see everyday

All of us share the earth, we were told

Then why do we get it for free while they have to fight for it?

I have five homes across the world

There's a child of 3 who belongs to no one

No country, no homeland, and no mother to call his own

Things that are nightmares for you and me

Imaginations that haunt your teen

Is a normal day for the child of three

I can't do much I say, after all what power do I have to make any change

We delude our ourselves,  make ourselves weak, play the victim card,

Break our bones and refuse to mend

Just so we don't have to fight the war

Just so we can say 'I'm powerless'

How do I tell my daughter that this world is pretty and kind and generous?

When she turns on the TV, she's gonna call me a liar

How do I tell my son that the men are strong and powerful and virtuous?

When he turns on the TV

He's gonna give me a look soo murderous

I'll tremble in fear

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In a faraway land,

A mom sings a lullaby

While a child falls asleep to the sound of a gunshot

How can I enjoy a glass of wine if it reminds me of blood

How can I read in bliss, when words are stolen from their lips

How can I feel the sun on my back, while there's someone shivering in the cold

How long can this land hold the grief and suffering

The soil is sick with blood

We are the gen-z crowd, we proudly convey

We are meant to care about deeds and feats our parents didn't even think about

But when it comes to action, we are as useless as a broken condom

The millennial and boomers in here, you haven't done anything much either

Because some of you started it in the first place

I believe that by writing this poem

I'm doing the world a favour

That I'm someway, somehow doing my part

There's that damn delusion again

Always creeping up in the wrong places

So you didn't put in a brick in the fire

That doesn't mean you didn't stroke the devil

That doesn't make you innocent

We wave white flags all around

Ask for peace, ask for love, ask for humility

Did any of you get it?

Bright Sunday morning

Reading the body count like it's a math problem

When did we become so emotionally stunted

We care about our nails and hair and suits and house and cars and perfumes and all the bullshit things that don't make any sense

But if someone asks us for a pen we'll stab them in the eye and call it a prank

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It's very simple the universe follows our lead

The universe doesn't make us, we shape it

By our thoughts, by our actions, the way we speak to each other

And frankly the current state of affairs isn't surprising to me

The world has seeped our energy, it seems

We label callous behaviour as cool

And if someone dares to speak up

They are called intense and aggressive and too much

We shun them into silence

Send positive thoughts, mediate, the stars look so pretty tonight

Such bullshit!

My earth is failing and you ask me to look up at the stars!!

No, i won't sit and listen,

I won't forgive and forget,

Won't turn the other cheek or a blind eye

We have been silent for far too long

Our activism has made us weak, given us a reason to not do anything

So I won't sit and listen

I won't forgive and forget

I will be positive not because I want to ignore the venality and depravity

It's because my treacherous heart still believes

[favesgrave]

Tell me anything about your fan continuity- let loose

oh my god you've opened the floodgates so let's get into stuff BEFORE the autobot and decepticon war

so cybertron. good old cybertron. that's a lie it's not very good at all, basic case of the caste system and functionism and all that jazz. the current leader of cybertron is sentinel... who is also not great. he holds most of the power and even though the senate exists, they mostly are just there to serve out his desires. he has these delusions of being a god, putting himself on the same status as the original thirteen primes and because of this belief his people suffer even MORE

in my fc, megatron didn't willingly enter the gladiator pits. they were running low on contestants, so he was one of the bots they picked to fight. unfortunately, he realized he's good at killing things. fortunately, he also realizes he can use his popularity in the arena to his advantage. he catches the attention of soundwave, an intel agent from the elite guard. but soundwave doesn't actually care about what sentinel wants, not when he's been looking for a way to bring about his downfall. so the two become allies in secret, soundwave passing along any useful information to him

dont think i forgot about orion pax. because i would never. he works as a simple librarian (no iacon hall of records, no shady old man alpha trion) but he knows plenty about how dire cybertron's situation is and that leads to him wanting to meet megatron. ratchet's a little iffy on it, going "you can't just arrange a meeting with the mech actively going against sentinel and the senate. that's suicide" and orion basically says "lol watch this" and meets him in secret anyways. boom, megatron's got another ally

they steadily gain more and more people and become a rebel force. sentinel couldn't have ignored them even if he tried. he doesn't even know he still has people in his forces that are against him, people like shockwave and magnus. shockwave is a senator who fucking hates sentinel's guts. magnus also hates sentinel's guts. he's in the elite guard, but was sort of forced into it because hey, he popped into existence and after gathering his bearings they were like "hey you look like you'd be pretty good at fighting. c'mere. we're gonna train you. you're ours now"

shockwave's disloyalty gets found out. he's taken away to become an empurata victim. he was also going to be a mnemosurgery victim, but magnus blew his own cover to escape with him

anyways this war goes on for a bit, each battle becoming a little worse. and megatron's angry. he's so pissed because sentinel is letting all these people, his own soldiers, die! sentinel has the power to stop this and actually negotiate with them to create a better cybertron, but he doesn't. he doesn't even do any of the fighting himself. so megatron's becoming more and more angry, which does not go unnoticed by orion who's like "haha. you. you okay buddy??" and megs is like "yup!!! i am living the dream! dont worry about me best friend!" he's losing it actually

the war reaches its final battle when they storm the capitol. a pathway gets cleared for megatron, orion, and soundwave to make it to sentinel, who is completely out of tricks to use. before the battle, megs and orion had agreed to take sentinel alive but when megs looks down at sentinel and points his cannon at him, he just sees someone who never granted anyone else mercy. he saw someone who would never change, who would never feel any remorse. he thinks about all his friends who died in the mines, the pits, this war. and as soundwave blocks the door, he fires the killing blow.

this creates a rift between megatron and orion, one that only keeps growing larger. the tension only leads to more conflict, and more conflict leads to the autobot and decepticon war

[darthkieduss]

This is the most cartoon hero vs. villain dialogue I've seen in a Star Wars book. Very Zurg vs Lightyear "I will destroy you Skywalker! *evil laugh*"

Exar Kun: They can't hear you, Skywalker-but I can. Luke Skywalker: Exar Kun. Kun: Do you enjoy having your spirit trapped away from your body, Skywalker? I have had four thousand years to get accustomed to it. The first century or two is the worst. Skywalker: You corrupted my students, Exar Kun. You caused the death of Gantoris. You turned Kyp Durron against me. Kun: *evil laughs* Perhaps it was your own failings as a teacher. Or their own delusions. Skywalker: What makes you think I'll stay like this for thousands of years? Kun: You will have no choice, once I have destroyed your physical body. Trapping my own spirit inside these temples was the only way I could survive when the final holocaust came. The allied Jedi Knights devastated the surface of Yavin IV. They killed off the few Massassi people I had kept alive, and they destroyed my own body in the inferno. My spirit was forced to wait and wait and wait until finally you brought your Jedi students here, students who could hear my voice once they learned how to listen. Skywalker: You can't harm my body, Kun. You can't touch anything physical. I've tried it myself. Kun: Ah, but I know other ways to fight. And I have had endless millennia to practice. Rest assured, Skywalker, I will destroy you.

[therealnuclearplatypus]

Brave Soldier (I'll See You Again).

1940

"Nǎinai, what if America joins the war, too?"

Frank's grandmother looked at him sharply. "Then we would have fled in vain. Your mother would have stayed to fight back in Canada in vain."

Frank gulped at her bluntness. "Our side will win though, right?"

The old woman looked away, wincing. "I can't tell for sure. Though the US seems intent on staying away from it all for the time being. We should be safe for now."

"We've been here a year. We haven't heard from Ma in three months. I worry."

"Don't. There is no use. What will happen will happen regardless of your fretting. It's a war. People die and get maimed. Be thankful you don't have to see any of it."

"Yet."

"Yes. Yet."

***

Leo stilled, fearing he'd be found. He was in a new foster home (again) and his current parents didn't like him too much. He tried to keep out of their way.

Fifteen years old and still running. Soon he'd be sixteen, and he wouldn't have to depend on anyone anymore.

He was under his bed, counting imaginary sheep in the dark. Frank told him it helped him calm down. Leo hoped it'd help him, too.

Since Frank had moved to the city last year with his grandmother to escape the war, Leo had harboured the most embarrassing crush on the boy. But it was dangerous. Two men together? It could never be.

Plus, he doubted Frank would reciprocate his sinful feelings. They'd have to remain hidden.

___

1941

They were on a low stone wall, swinging their legs and trading jokes and anecdotes. Frank was talking about his mother again. He seemed unable to help it. Ever since she'd died a few months ago, Leo had promised him he'd be there for him. He didn't want Frank to go through it alone, as he had.

"She used to tell me this story ..." Frank was saying, recounting an old Chinese folk tale his mother used to tell him. Leo listened intently. He loved Frank's voice. He loved everything about Frank.

Frank looked at Leo as he narrated, saw the concentration in the furrow of his eyebrows. He couldn't help smiling a little. He'd found such a good friend. Everyone felt this strongly and lovingly towards their best friends, right? They did. Everyone did.

***

Frank was kicking a ball around the empty alleyway. Leo watched, having long since given up trying to keep up with him. He'd rather watch him, anyways.

Frank paused, panting a little. He turned to Leo and called, "Oi, it's your birthday soon, isn't it?"

"It is," Leo agreed.

"What do you want?"

Leo shook his head. "You don't have to buy me anything."

"But I wanna give you something. What do you want?"

Leo smirked. "I wish that the love of my life would come to me and hold me in their loving arms and kiss me and treat me like the king I am."

Frank raised an eyebrow. "'Their'? Don't you mean 'her'?"

Leo shrugged. "Yeah."

"Why did you say 'their'?" Once Frank had caught hold of something, he rarely let go until he got a response or was given clear signs it wasn't up for discussion. Leo considered giving him such signs. Or maybe it would be best for Frank to know why. They were friends. It was wrong. But Frank would be kind about it. Or would he? He—

"Leo?" Frank had walked up to him, face close to his. Leo's heart was beating a mile a minute.

He threw caution to the wind and said, "Because it doesn't really need to be a woman."

Frank stared at him. "Oh—you—"

"Yes," Leo said, fear creeping up all over him, "yes."

Frank was silent for a moment, then said, "I think I'm like that, too."

Leo was caught completely off-guard. What?

"I've had, um. Feelings for a boy. I think? I thought I felt very strongly platonically towards him. But, I, uh. That delusion did not last long."

Leo kept staring. Frank worried he'd said the wrong thing. He looked away uneasily when Leo whispered, "God, I thought you'd hate me."

Frank looked back at him, incredulous. "What, hate you for—for feeling attraction towards men? Why would I?"

"It's not natural," Leo said quietly.

"I'll decide for myself what's natural and not, thank you," Frank said severely. "And I don't think any form of love is unnatural." He hesitated. "Though I may be saying that because I am the same."

"Possibly." Leo shot him a grin. "But I am glad you are not condemning me for it."

"Condemn you? As if. I love you too much for that."

Leo froze. Frank froze. What the fuck had he just said? He loved him? Frank wanted to die on the spot. He couldn't believe—

"When you say love—" Leo started.

Frank flushed. "I just—"

"You mean like, the way I love you?"

Frank looked at him. "What do you mean? How do you love me?"

"Like this," said Leo, and he kissed him full on the mouth.

***

No one had found out yet. They'd meet as they always did, and kiss and laugh in hidden corners. Sinful love be damned, this was too right to be a crime.

Canada had joined the war on the tenth of September, 1939. Frank thought they'd be safe. It was 1941 and America was still in the clear. His grandmother had passed of old age and grief over her daughter's loss. Frank felt the blow, but Leo was there to soften it. As always. How he loved him.

But then. December seventh, 1941. A bombing on Pearl Harbour by the Japanese. Suddenly, the US didn't seem too inclined to stay out of it.

Leo evaded enlistment on account of his bad leg. Also because even the recruitment guy thought Leo wouldn't be able to hold his own in a fight.

(Joke's on him, though. Leo would be able to fly a plane. But he was glad to have avoided all that.)

Everytime Leo brought that story up, Frank would fall silent. Leo saw it coming. He tried to blind himself to it, but he couldn't. Not for long.

"I'm enlisting."

He winced as he heard the words. He wanted to ignore it. He really did. But Frank was right around front of him, stiff with suspense, rigid with determination. Leo felt like crying.

"Why?" he asked, unable to say anything else.

"My—my mother died fighting. This country needs all the help it can get. I—I'm a good fighter. Hand-to-hand combat, guns, whatever. I'm competent. I can do it."

"You want to enlist just because you can do it?" Leo said, nearing tears. He didn't want to cry. He wasn't going to. He wasn't.

Frank was almost trembling. "No. I—I—I don't know, Leo. I feel like I have to."

"To live up to your mother's legacy?"

"Maybe. Yes. No. I don't know."

Leo sighed, eyes just barely tearing up. "You can die."

"I'll come back to you."

"There's no guarantee of that."

"I will. You're not getting rid of me so easily."

"It's not like I want to."

"I—"

The tears fell. "Enlist. Go. Fine. Whatever. I don't care."

Frank's eyes were brimming with tears, too. "You're mad at me."

"Of course I'm fucking mad at you. Do you have a death wish?"

"They'll come after me to enlist anyway, and I don't have an excuse to stay. I'm not sure I want to make one up, either. They'll call me out on my bullshit anyways. But—I really don't know. I'm itching to fight."

Leo sighed again, less angrily this time. "Oh, baby. I get it. I do. It's still wanting to avenge your mother's death, in a way—I don't blame you. I'm sorry for snapping. I just—"

"I know. I know. I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry."

"Don't be. Please, don't be." Leo moved to hug him, but Frank pulled him into an all-consuming kiss, and when they parted, Leo remained as close to him as he could possibly be. These moments were precious. Even more so now.

"Go do what your heart feels it must do to be free, my soldier. My brave, brave soldier."

___

1942

Letters after letters. Frank made sure Leo felt his presence even in his absence. Leo was just glad he was still alive. Maybe, somehow, miraculously, he'd make it out alive. He'd come back to him.

Frank came back for a short spell, and they made the most of it. It wasn't nearly enough, but they had to make do with what they had. They were both grateful for any extra moment they got to spend with each other.

The end of 1942 did not see the war's end. They were still hoping.

___

1943

The distance did nothing to dim the fire in their hearts. Frank still sent him letters, though they became sparser are the Japanese became harsher with their attacks. Leo could almost imagine that Frank would be back any day now. That was the hope keeping him alive at this point.

Frank sent him gifts for his birthday amd for Christmas. Every letter included narrations of their days and how much they missed each other. Frank kept listing the names of all the dead or MIA soldiers, "so that they may be kept alive in some way," he said.

Leo just hoped that Frank wouldn't just become another memory immortalised in ink, too.

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1944

Leo carefully opened the envelope, smiling as he saw the familiar handwriting.

Leo,

Why is Japan so beautiful? And I met one of their soldiers. We had orders to fire but he came in peace. Really. It wasn't a ruse. They're actually so nice. Why are we even fighting at all?

Leo kissed the name at the bottom of the letter. Frank. He'd come back. Soon. He would.

***

My love,

Nǎinai always told me that we humans fight so terribly because we insist on refusing our animal side and, rather than taming it, we call it civilised and let it become worse. I'm starting to think she was right.

***

Darling,

Good news! I should be back within the month. Victory is in our hands now. I didn't even lose any limbs!

***

My sweet,

I'll be able to hold you in my arms again in a fortnight. We'll never have to be separated again. I love you. Till the ends of the world and eternity, I'll love you.

***

Dear Mr. Valdez,

We regret to inform you that soldier FRANK ZHANG has been confirmed dead in battle—

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1945

On the fourteenth of Augustz 1945, Japan agreed to surrender.

On the second of September, 1945, Japan formally surrendered, thus handing victory to the Allies.

Frank had been buried amongst countless other bodies of dead soldiers.

Somewhere in the city, a gravestone read, Leo Valdez. The death year was marked as 1944, not too far off from the day he'd received the last letter.

Frank had been right. They got to see each other again.

[hesgomorrah]

∇ for Jamie and ൠ for Two?

∇ - old age/aging headcanon

i think jamie has a bit of a rude awakening when it comes to his own mortality. in his younger years he never gave it much thought, caught somewhere between the youthful delusion that he would live forever, and a part of him that's been ready to die young since the war broke out. but he never does, and eventually the years start to catch up with him.

but how does one come to terms with growing old when you've spent most of your adult life with someone who doesn't? even the doctor going grey was only temporary. he's looked vaguely middle-aged for as long as jamie has known him, and he has the sneaking suspicion he will continue to long after he's gone.

at first the signs are easy to ignore-- the occasional grey hair or few extra pounds are neither here nor there when there are monsters to fight and empires to topple. but one day, jamie catches both their reflections, and realizes for the first time that he looks older than the doctor. and the doctor has always been a bit oblivious to that sort of thing, and the cia see him as even more disposable than the doctor, so he never brings it up. does his best to brush it off when someone else mentions his age. but it eats him up inside-- it signals the beginning of the end, to him. he's long since stopped trying to keep track of the years, but there it is, staring him in the face, the proof that this can't last forever. he may not be on death's door just yet, but it'll come for him one of these days. and what scares him the most is the thought of leaving the doctor alone.

ൠ - random headcanon

it doesn't come up very often, since he much prefers his recorder, but two is a surprisingly good singer. he's a wee bit shy about it-- he doesn't think he's anything special, but sometimes if you're lucky you'll catch him singing to himself as he works when his recorder isn't handy, or both hands are busy.

[madara-fate]

"Other methods of keeping the beasts subdued existed." - Example, please.

"It's not like the other Kages are all sheep who can't think for themselves and only follow what was done first." - Yeah, sure, because it's not like every hidden village that had a biju also had a jinchuriki, right? All the jinchuriki made by the other villages that had a biju after Mito sealed Kurama in herself were just a collective delusion.

"Hashirama didn't intend for the other villages to make other Jinchurikis and continue this practice." - He never said that.

"Shukaku's first Jinchuriki, Bunpaku, gave him explicit evidence that humans had the capacity to treat the beasts with respect." - Because one person is equivalent to an entire continent, right?

"Other methods of keeping the beasts subdued existed." - Example, please.

How do you think Hashirama captured and subdued the Tailed Beasts in the first place in order for him to distribute them to the different villages? He obviously didn't subdue them by creating Jinchurikis, he used his Wood Style. There's also the Sharingan that can subdue and control Tailed Beasts, and also the fact that they can very easily be captured and sealed inside other things, not just people, as evidenced by Shukaku being captured and kept within the Sand village before Bunpaku became his first Jinchuriki, and also shown through the Akatsuki capturing and sealing the beasts. So yes, other methods of keeping the Tailed Beast subdued existed, the Kages were not forced to create their Jinshurikis, nor should Hashirama be blamed or held accountable for them doing so.

"It's not like the other Kages are all sheep who can't think for themselves and only follow what was done first." - Yeah, sure, because it's not like every hidden village that had a biju also had a jinchuriki, right? All the jinchuriki made by the other villages that had a biju after Mito sealed Kurama in herself were just a collective delusion.

What the hell are you talking about? You didn't say anything here to refute my point at all. Just because creating Jinchurikis became a trend, doesn't mean the Kages were all sheep who couldn't think for themselves. They could think for themselves, and they all thought they'd rather create the Jinchurikis. But as I said, it's not like they were forced to or couldn't think for themselves. Hashirama can't be blamed for the other Kage's copying what Mito did, especially when the only reason she sealed Kurama in herself in the first place, was to ensure Madara couldn't use him in their fight anymore. The other Kages had no such circumstances, as I made clear in my last response to you, which you have conveniently ignored here.

"Hashirama didn't intend for the other villages to make other Jinchurikis and continue this practice." - He never said that.

Well he didn't say that he did intend for them to create Jinchurikis either, which is what you were suggesting, and is entirely untrue.

Allow me to refresh your memory because I seriously cannot even believe that you made this point - You initially tried to place all the blame on Hashirama by accusing him of creating "a fear based peace" by apparently "enslaving innocent beings by turning them into war weapons". That was completely wrong, and I proved that he had no intention of creating a fear based peace, and explained how he was not the one who had created any of those Jinchuriki's.

You then tried to backtrack on that by saying how Hashirama "indirectly" gave the other villages the idea of creating Jinchurikis by sealing Kurama inside of his wife, to which I again corrected you by highlighting how not only did Hashirama not seal Kurama inside Mito because she did that herself during the battle with Madara in order to ensure he could no longer be used as a weapon, but the other Kages have minds of their own, and it's not Hashirama's fault if they decided to create Jinchurikis of their own accord, because that was not his intention. He didn't tell them to create Jinchuriki's.

So now, you're saying that Hashirama didn't explicitly tell the Kages that it was not his intention for them to create Jinchuriki's, despite the fact that he didn't tell them to create Jinchuriki's either, so clearly, it was not his intention for them to do so. Seriously man, your point here is so weak, my god.

"Shukaku's first Jinchuriki, Bunpaku, gave him explicit evidence that humans had the capacity to treat the beasts with respect." - Because one person is equivalent to an entire continent, right?

Can you really not see the irony and hypocrisy in what you just said? My goodness. Let me refresh your memory again because this is unbelievable - In your last ask to me, you said "Tailed Beasts aren’t dumb. They would know that the nations would make them weapons, just like Madara did with Kurama". So clearly, you thought that the Beasts would think that the actions of one person (Madara) would be "equivalent to an entire continent", since you explicitly indicated that the Beasts would somehow just "know" that the other nations would also use them as weapons, just because one person did so in the past. I even called you out on that when I asked "why are you saying that the beasts would just somehow “know” how they would be used based solely on the actions of just one person?".

And now, you're here being snarky and sarcastically telling me that one person is equivalent to an entire nation in order to mock me? Are you kidding me? You were the one who made that implication in your last ask, not me, and I called you out on it. I didn't say that one person is equivalent to an entire nation, but my point was that the Tailed Beasts wouldn't just somehow "know" that the other nations would use them as weapons just because one person did (which was your point), because Bunpaku, one other person, showed that people can also treat the Beasts with respect. That was my point.

[m-jelly]

A little angst because I want to hurt some feelings 😈

Demon Levi x angel reader

In the battle of Armageddon.

Light vs the dark.

Levi was in love with us, but we stood with god and could never be with a demon. Finally the end days have come. The horns have blown and we reign down upon earth to fight the demons that infiltrate and poison it. We end up face to face with Levi. Complete eye contact. Time stops. He looks at us with pain after seeing us slay his fellow demons. He looks at as and sees us. Our core. At least what he thinks is our core. He thinks and hopes we’ll drop our sword for him. We.Do.Not. We run to him and shove the sword into his chest. We let the light cast his soul to the eternal fire. Where demons shall stay for they have sinned and can no longer stay. We are winning this war. The light will always win. And as the life of immortality fades away. He cries. His love for us was consuming to him. But it meant nothing to us. We didn’t consider it anything but lust. But delusion. Because how could a demon every experience true pure love? And his tears turn to blood as he knows we could and would never love him. And we were the one to end his eternity. And giving him a new one of eternal damnation. We pull the sword out his chest and start to walk away. He sees us leaving. He reaches out. We feel his gaze and turn around. He has hope for the last time. We do not fulfill his hope.We are the last thing he ever saw. We didn’t love him.

Hey anon!

So my inbox is not open for normal asks atm! So I can't take this request. This request also goes against two of my rules I have which is I only do happy endings and Levi/reader cannot die.

If you want full angst of a bad ending and us killing Levi, I am sure there are some fanfic creators who can make this for you!

Sorry I can't do this one.