#theme: depression

[aftgficrec]

Hi omg so excited it's open!!! This blog is the best, I love all the recs you give

I've been trying to find this fic I read a while ago that I remember really well but can't find anywhere. Content warnings: suicidal ideation for the whole plot summary

So Andrew is living with Nicky and Aaron and joins a suicide pact website and ends up pairing up with Neil who is living with wymack in this fic. After making this pact Andrew ends up changing his find because his relationships with Aaron and Nicky improve (aaron notices he's been down and I'm pretty sure there's a scene where Nicky finds out Andrew is gay and takes it well). The fic has a happy ending overall and Andrew is able to prevent Neil's attempt.

Thank you so much <3

Thank you for prefacing your ask with the content warning, anon. This story has high school-aged Andrew and Neil as two lost souls nearly consumed by their trauma who find hope again. Please read with care. -A

24 Floors by bazerella [Rated M, 9691 Words, Complete, 2021]

It wasn’t necessarily that Andrew thought he wasn’t going to go through with it in the end, it was more so in the back of his mind that this was his last feeble attempt at not being alone. - Andrew and Neil meet on a website used by people to find themselves a suicide pact partner. As Andrew fights his own battle inside of his head, and their pact date gets closer, Andrew struggles with his decision. He justifies his decision as being what's best for his family, but somewhere along the way he realizes that perhaps he deserves what's best too.

tw: suicide attempt, tw: suicide ideation, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: depression, tw: self hatred, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced murder 

[hp-fanfic-archive]

As The World Falls Down by KeeperoftheCottage Pairing: Seamus/Dean Rating: T Word Count: 3k Podfic available here Read by: DevilWithABirdDress Length: 10-30 minutes Before the Battle of Hogwarts begins, Dean Thomas and Seamus Finnegan struggle to reunite after almost a year apart.

[merlinfic]

fields of gold

Author: emryses

Rating: M

Setting: Canon AU, Post 5x13

Word Count: 92,814

Summary:

In which Merlin grieves, remembers, and lives.

You'll remember me when the west wind moves among the fields of barley. You can tell the sun in his jealous sky, when we walked in fields of gold

Reader’s Comments: this was so so so so so so so good! the author did such a fantastic job of representing Merlin's and Gwen's grief after Arthur's death, and tells a beautiful story of moving on and growing older, featuring Arthur's son. the writing is gorgeous and the story is simultaneously heartwarming and heartcrushing. I highly recommend everyone read it 💖

Thanks to @merthurmagic for sending in this fic!

[seasunandstar]

You Can Have It

My brother comes home from work and climbs the stairs to our room. I can hear the bed groan and his shoes drop   one by one. You can have it, he says. The moonlight streams in the window   and his unshaven face is whitened like the face of the moon. He will sleep long after noon and waken to find me gone. Thirty years will pass before I remember   that moment when suddenly I knew each man   has one brother who dies when he sleeps   and sleeps when he rises to face this life, and that together they are only one man   sharing a heart that always labors, hands   yellowed and cracked, a mouth that gasps   for breath and asks, Am I gonna make it? All night at the ice plant he had fed the chute its silvery blocks, and then I   stacked cases of orange soda for the children   of Kentucky, one gray boxcar at a time with always two more waiting. We were twenty   for such a short time and always in the wrong clothes, crusted with dirt and sweat. I think now we were never twenty. In 1948 in the city of Detroit, founded by de la Mothe Cadillac for the distant purposes   of Henry Ford, no one wakened or died,   no one walked the streets or stoked a furnace, for there was no such year, and now that year has fallen off all the old newspapers, calendars, doctors’ appointments, bonds,   wedding certificates, drivers licenses. The city slept. The snow turned to ice.   The ice to standing pools or rivers racing in the gutters. Then bright grass rose   between the thousands of cracked squares, and that grass died. I give you back 1948.   I give you all the years from then to the coming one. Give me back the moon   with its frail light falling across a face. Give me back my young brother, hard and furious, with wide shoulders and a curse   for God and burning eyes that look upon   all creation and say, You can have it. -- Philip Levine

[maranull]

anyway, Elden Ring is about love and hope

Marika burns everything she has build out of sorrow

Ranni banishes the Outer Gods and also fucks off the Lands, giving agency back to the normal beings of the Lands

Fortissax endlessly fights Death for his friend/lover

Melina burns herself and Erdtree in hopes of a better world in the hands of the Tarnished

Blaidd fights against the very reason he was created out of love for his sister

Ranni and Rykard always keep an eye on their mother, protecting her

Radahn evokes so much love from his troops that they organise a whole festival to give him a honorable death even in his madness

Radahn learns an entire new school of magic in order to still ride his favourite horse

Boc's love for his mother, his mother's love for him

How all but two endings are build on the hope that this new era (whatever it might be) will be good

Miquella attempting to create an whole new world-tree to host the forsaken and the damned

Miquella turning on the faith he was raised and even believed in to an extent, when it was unable to cure his sister's curse

The Cleanrot's loyalty to Malenia and their endurance of the Rot, only to stay in her service

Malenia marching through the entire continent in search of her brother

Finlay traveling all the way back on her own, carrying the incapacitated demigod on her back

Tanith's love for Rya

Dialos' entire questline

Edgar being driven mad after his daughter dies

Vyke embracing, to a point, the Frenzied Flame in order to save his finger maiden

or you know, that's just how I see it

[1im-perfect1]

I love how the interview with the vampire trailer is sexy and mysterious and then the show is a borderline dark comedy about the retelling of vampire history's most cringe fail marriage between the worst case of catholic guilt and eldest daughter syndrome being romanced by a dumpster fire gremlin that thinks more with his heart and dick than his non-existent brain and the coolest character in the whole story is their murderous daughter

[inqua]

child (baby) 💜

[featherymainffins]

I hate to say it but I might have to admit that Redditors can be pretty based sometimes

[feelingtheaster99]

Adaine, Kristen, Fig, AND Fabian’s birthday all happened when they were away fighting The Night Yorb 😭

[sunny-superstar]

thanks 2000s nick-at-nite for rerunning this sitcom, for the repressed bisexual children of america

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

𝔗𝔶𝔭𝔢 𝔒 𝔑𝔢𝔤𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢  -   𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔱𝔬 𝔇𝔢𝔞𝔱𝔥

[unhingedpirates]

OFMD + Tumblr textposts (part 6)

(pt 1)(pt 2)(pt 3)(pt 4)(pt 5)(pt 7)(pt 8)

(ft. izzy) (twitter version)

[mininovia]

drabble [1]

c.w. f!reader, fluff-ish, hurt and comfort, mental health themes like depression, depressive episode, self-isolation, self-deprecation; just todo being todo

todo aoi is the most stubborn man on earth.

granted, it comes more from a place of idiocy than it does his unwavering determination, but it’s almost inspiring how he refuses to back down in anything he says or does. over-confident and bold. nothing ever feels impossible when it comes to him—and it’s double so when it involves anyone that he cares about.

and whether you both like it or not, he’s grown to care for you.

so you shouldn’t be surprised when, after missing over a week of classes and refusing to communicate with anyone outside of sparse texts between miwa and momo, he’s determined to find out where you’ve been hiding and demand why. he’s got an inkling, of course, but he wants to hear it first-hand from your lips.

and you’ll come to appreciate it, later down the line. because even when you’re at your worst, stuck in bed and refusing to get up to even shower or brush your teeth, he’ll be outside your dorm knocking so damn hard you’ll have to open the door to not wake up your neighboring classmates. doesn’t even blink when you open the door, disgruntled and messy and oozing self-deprecation.

just one look and he knows. stares you down with his arms crossed, announcing brazenly, “get dressed. i’m taking you out right now.”

he doesn’t care if you’re taken aback, or if you’ll refuse, or if you're seconds away from threatening to call utahime-sensei to kick him out of the girls' dormitories. he won't budge. practically tells you he won’t let you continue to rot in your room, waste your days stuck in this abysmal, crushing cycle.

and he'll wait, after you agree. lingers outside the hallway by your door, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. quiet. even if it feels like an eternity, he'll be out here for as long as it takes for you to get ready.

just for you.

[skulldox]

My last drawing I've recently made. Really loving this style of pixel art. Anyways I need to shift gears a bit and work on a smaller 2 month game project to see if I can generate any income. It'll definitely involve kobolds

[lovecoredeity]

recent paycheck got fucked and after paying my phone bill I don’t have any money left for other necessities until my next paycheck (a whole two weeks from now) so now I have to attempt to sell ✨this✨ doll themed adoptable, I’m not like even sure how to go about pricing it so instead we’re doing ✨an auction✨ starting at $25! I have Zero Confidence that this will even receive bids or be sold but here we are anyways! I do not have a specific “reach this amount to buy the design” price in mine I’m sorry I’m bad at pricing things and have 0 confidence in my art </3

[brokenxheart]

There is no balance in my life