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kristvns · 2 years

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𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆; 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗀𝖾𝗋 𝗑 𝖺𝖿𝖺𝖻! 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓; 𖤐 ( 4k+ )

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒; 𝖭𝗌𝖿𝗐, 𝖬𝖣𝖭𝖨 ( 𝟣𝟩+ ), 𝗅𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗎𝖺𝗀𝖾, 𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝗌𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝗍𝗈𝗑𝗂𝖼! 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇, 𝖼𝗁��𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀? 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗉𝖺𝗒𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄, 𝖽𝗋𝗎𝗀𝗌, 𝖽𝗋𝗎𝗀 𝗎𝗌𝖾𝗋 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇, ( 𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗂𝗃𝗎𝖺𝗇𝖺 ), 𝗇𝗎𝖽𝖾𝗌, 𝗏𝗈𝗒𝖾𝗎𝗋𝗂𝗌𝗆, 𝗎𝗌𝖺𝗀𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝖽𝖺𝖽𝖽𝗒 ( 𝗈𝗇𝖼𝖾 ) 𝗎𝗇𝗉𝗋𝗈𝗍𝖾𝖼𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗌𝖾𝗑, 𝖼𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗆𝗉𝗂𝖾, 𝗁𝗎𝗆𝗂𝗅𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 ( 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄'𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗐𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗉𝗁𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖻𝗈𝗒𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 ) 𝗌𝗆𝗎𝗍, 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍𝗌. 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝗈𝗋𝖺𝗅 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝗆𝖺𝗇𝗁𝖺𝗇𝖽𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍𝗌, 𝗉𝗎𝗌𝗌𝗒 𝖽𝗋𝗎𝗇𝗄! 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇, 𝗅𝗈𝗍𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝖽𝗂𝗋𝗍𝗒 𝗍𝖺𝗅𝗄. 𝖯𝗋𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗒 𝖿𝖺𝗌𝗍 - 𝗉𝖺𝗌𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗂𝗆𝗈

乂 ( 𝓢𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ! ──── )

You have a boyfriend, yeah he isnt playing his role correctly 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝟤 𝗐𝗋𝗈𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗆𝖺𝗄𝖾 𝖺 𝗋𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍. 𝗆𝖺𝗒𝖻𝖾 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖾𝖼𝗌𝗍𝖺𝖼𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄? 𝖾𝗂𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗐𝖺𝗒 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇'𝗌 𝗀𝗈𝗇𝗇𝖺 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎.

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒: 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗄 𝗂𝗌 𝖺 𝖼𝗈𝗅𝗅𝖺𝖻 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗆𝖺𝗓𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗌 & @okhotel 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗁𝖾𝗋 ( …#XO♡. thee collab ), 𝖨 𝖺𝗆 𝗌𝗈 𝗀𝗋𝗋𝖺𝗍𝖿𝗎𝗅 𝗂 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝖺𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗃𝗈𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗉𝗈𝗋𝗍𝗎𝗇𝗂𝗍𝗒 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗈𝗇𝖾! This one-shot based of the song ( “The hills: The Weeknd xxx ) <𝟥 unedited , reblogs are appreciated !

xxx : Key: words in italic = reference of the song lyric(s)

⤷ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐒. 𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗀𝖾𝗋

ˑ 𖥻 ! — 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐏𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐃, and shed a glow indicating a message have been sent through. You turned your head to the side looking down at your phone that rested on the nightstand beside you and your bed. You took your interest from the tv to your phone grabbing it, as you opened the message thread.

Eren <3

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That’s right, the two of you were sending nudes 5 minutes prior before you placed your phone down. You assumed since he didn’t reply back fast enough that the picture was ugly, and that it didn’t seem to peek his interest. But it was far from that, Eren didn’t know how to reply. He didn’t wanna shoot back a message of heart eyes because he assumed it would make him feel like a middle schooler. So instead like ahh other normal human being would do he sent a picture of his lower abs showing his strong defined v-line & a small glimpse of what’s possibly under his sweatpants.

“Come over.” Appears under the picture just seconds after it been sent. You look over at the time seeing it was half past 5. That’s pretty earlier than the normal time you and eren would agree to link up. There is nothing wrong with coming an hour or two late, besides judging my the way he’s blowing your phone up at the moment you could tell that he was strung out on whatever drug he was doing this time. You started smiling at your phone because Eren sent multiple messages begging for you to come over. It wasn’t until another notification banner displayed on top of your screen that caused you to frown slightly. Oh yeah…That’s right, you have a boyfriend. How could you possibly fucking forget?

"Won't make it tonight". Was all that was displayed on the dimmed screen. You sucked your teeth as you waited for a response that never came. Liar. You knew this game Jean was trying to play, little did he know it wouldn't this time, this time you're playing by your own rules. So instead, you threw your phone on your bed and went to look for something in you're closet. Something pleasing, appealing, or possibly scandalous? Never-less both you and Eren wanted to end the night the same way as last time.

All-white wife-beater with gray sweats to match. His Gold chain to match, slightly swinging as he walked to take a seat. It wasn't his hair being down for this first time in forever that caught your attention, but it was his bloodshot-red low lidded eyes that caught it instead. Eren placed his feet on the coffee table as he went into his pocket to pull out a lighter. "Kinda...but don't make it seem like I only come here when my boyfriend is unavailable, you are my friend after all." Eren scoffed when he heard the word "friend". Friends? Ouch. Eren replied in his head. Eren inhaled the marijuana as he lighted the end of the joint, Exhaling the air as he laid his head back. "Talk to me pretty. What's made you upset with him this time," Eren said Inhaling the joint once more.

"I don't know, he told me he wanted me to take a break for whatever reason something about focusing on his trembling basketball career" you replied as you took the joint from Eren, inhaling it yourself. Eren laughed, Laughed a little too hard than usual, maybe it's the marijuana starting the first stage? Eren grabbed a remote turning on the television that illuminated the lowly dimmed room. He pressed the remote a couple of times before he turned on a movie that didn't finish last time for the same reason it isn't going to get finished tonight.

After a couple of minutes of passing the joint back and forth the two of you were in a laughing mess. Laughing at the smallest jokes throughout the entire movie. The ecstasy was taking over minute by minute. For Eren though? Not necessarily. Drugs are the move of a decaf for Eren now. The excessive, drinking & smoking don't take a toll on him anymore possibly because his tolerance is way too high for your liking. As you were watching the movie you felt Eren's gaze on you for quite a while. "Whatchu, lookin' at?" you said with a smirk slightly buzzed. "I can't stare at you?" Eren replied with his eyes now plastering your body. You looked way better than them photo’s you and Eren exchanged earlier. Eren thought as his moved his eyes elsewhere. "Not if you're not going to say anything." Eren chuckled. "So, your boy toy doesn't know you're here? It's about time the two of you should call it off." Eren sighed, putting his gaze on the tv. Eren really wanted to get out of the friend zone he had with you. But instead you really enjoyed playing his game craving to have him want more.

"C'mon eren don't be like that, you know—" "I don't know shit. y/n, you come here, complain about that horse face, we fuck. Then you leave. How long is this cycle going to repeat?" Eren retorted in an annoyed tone. "Like you're one to talk, you say you like me then you go on and fuck another girl just for the hell of it, and you expect me to take relationship advice from you?" You snapped back keeping Eren quiet. Which was true. Eren decided to fuck 2 girls not too long ago before he saw you. But it shouldn't matter, right? because he thought you in his head."Tell me, Are you two together now?" Eren asked. "No I told you already he's—" and within seconds Eren pulled you by the arm sleeve of your coat into a kiss. "You don't understand how long I've been waiting to do that princess" Eren chuckled before kissing your lips once more.

Your cheeks started to get hot as the two of you kissed longer and longer. Despite you and Jean being on a so-called break, how can something be so wrong to feel so right? The kiss you and Eren shared became more intense. Even though you weren't wearing anything under the trench coat, your body started to get very hot. You placed your arms around Eren's neck grabbing his hair and causing him to groan in the kiss. While the two of you did your make-out session a notification from your phone went deaf to both your and Eren's ears. Eren helped you take off your shoes and socks. A few more notifications on your phone had finally caught the attention of you and Eren. "Keep our business on the low" Pulling away from Eren's lips a string of salvia still connected you two. As you were about to get up Eren grabbed your hand causing you to turn around. "Leave it," Eren said in a pant. "wait till m' finished with you," Eren said once more before taking you upstairs to his bedroom.

After Eren carried you and made his way upstairs to his bedroom he told tossed you on the bed guiding you to take your trench off. When he saw that you had nothing on but dark blue laced panties underneath a smirk appeared on Eren's face. To say the least it was very embarrassing since Eren figured out your small plan you had all along. You couldn't even function correctly. As you way laid sprawled out against Eren's bed he made his way on top of you kissing your lips, and jaw making his way to your neck. Eren pushed his thigh in between your thigh rubbing it against your soaking count Feeling your juices form on his sweats. "Haven't even touched you yet and you've already this wet? Does your boyfriend know how much of a slut you can be?" This taboo feeling caused Eren to get very hard and Erect. Eren and Jean are very well-known rivals. The two used any to constantly compete but this? No. You've been Eren's from the start but Jean decided to take measurements in his own hands to provoke Eren.

Eren knows Jean Doesn't love you. He's just a scum bag using you for bragging rights. Eren caught Jean plenty of times talking to other girls but despite him telling you numerous times you still found your way back. It pissed Eren off, to say the least. You don't deserve to be with him. Anybody for that matter but Eren. Which is why he was here to show you. As Eren was making his way from your neck to your breast Eren decided to move your panties to the side to reveal your wet folds to him. He pushed two finger's in as your walls sucked his finger, causing his pants to grow tight. Eren started slow too slow for your liking thrusting his fingers in and out as it got coated with your juices. "Fuck! Eren... Right there - don't stop" you said trying to catch your breath.

You moaned as you felt Eren latch onto your breast swirling his tongue against your nipple. But you wanted something more. Eren with his way of teasing wasn't doing you any justice so you decided to push his head down so he can focus on something more important. Eren chuckled when he felt your fingers tug the top of his head he loved it when you touched him. With force as he went down to your wet folds. He removed his slender fingers from your soaking cunt to place them in his mouth. "So fuckin' good princess, taste yourself for me," Eren said as he shoved his fingers in your mouth enjoying the way you lathered his fingers with your tongue. Eren placed either thigh on his neck with his hands dug deep in your thighs that were for sure going to leave a mark when he is finished with you. He pulled you into him making sure you stayed still with his grip before diving in. His head moved from side to side to even up and down lap his tongue around your wet folds.

Your back arched as you threw your head back having a firm grip on Eren's hair. "Eren, shit - fuck! m' gonna cum" You said in a whiny breath. "You enjoying this baby? You taste so fucking good, I bet he can't eat you out this good can he?" To catch up to even speak you nodded in response moaning when you felt Eren push his tongue even further. Just as Eren was about to have more of a great time eating you out. Your phone on the nightstand beside both you and Eren started to vibrate. That of course didn't stop Eren at all from Eating you out but instead made him a little annoyed when he saw Jean's name flashing on the phone screen. But that's when an idea came into Eren's head, a not-so-good one either. Eren removed his head from between your Legs causing you to groan from the lost pleasure you were enjoying. "Why'd you stop? Just ignore it" you said with a groan. "Answer the phone," Eren replied in a Monotone voice. "What? No. Eren ignore it, it's probably an unknown-"

"Answer it or you don't get to cum." This is fucked up. You know this is fucked up. But why that didn't stop you from answering the call anyway? You lay back down as you pressed the green button to answer. It was silent until you heard a voice, a very familiar voice. Jean. "y/n?? baby where are you?" Jean said in a worried tone. "I came home earlier to drop off food and you aren't here. I even texted you before calling you. What's going on?" Jean said in a concerned tone. "I'm going to make you cum so fucking hard and he won't have a clue," Eren said a little too loud, As his hand made its way to your neck as he pulled his pants down to reveal his underwear while his length is begging for a release. Eren then slowly guided his length into your folds causing you to hold your breath from the impact. Your panting and breaths were heard by Jean causing him to ask if everything was alright. "Fuck! Yeah...m' alright I'm just out for a run, that's all"

You moaned as Eren placed your legs on his shoulders once again. Eren started slow with a firm grip on your throat causing you to slightly gag, but that didn't last for too long before he started pounding into you. "Ohh..okay well. When you get home I want to talk to you about something...when do you think you'll be home?" Jean asked causing Eren to chuckle. Eren already knows what that son of a bitch is gonna confess to you. Good thing Eren didn't have to waste his time and tell you himself. "want you to cum all over me okay? make a mess baby it's okay. I'll clean it up." Eren growled in your ear from just hearing Jean’s voice. “oh fuck, eren! just like that mmmm . just fucking like that." You whispered in a hush trying to put the phone far away as possible. “y/n, you hear me? Are you sure you are alright? Seem’s like you need to catch your breath.” Jean said from the phone that made its way back to your ear. “Yeah-Yeah I’m fine. Let me just call you back. Okay. Bye!” You said in a rushed tone before throwing the phone on the nightstand.

“Gosh Eren, that was so uncalled for!” You said as Eren Pounded in you even harder. “watching you cum while you were on the phone with him turned me on.” Eren said before pulling out. You started to get up but Eren pushed you back down. “Hold on doll face. Where you think you're going m’ not finished with you yet,” Eren said as he flipped your over on your stomach. “C’mon princess, arch your back for me,” Eren said in a huff grabbing your ass to bring it up. “you gonna have to do it in my tempo”Eren said as he wasted no time before entering his length l back inside of your heat, causing this time for both you and Eren to moan. “Like that? You like that huh?” Eren said between groans. “Wanted this so fucking bad princess, wanted you so fucking bad. That’s right so fucking good y/n.” You heard Eren say as you pounced back on him. “That’s my girl” Eren moaned as his hips snapped against your ass over and over

“T– ah, slow down– ren’ please,” your whimpers go mute to Eren’s ears as he grabbed a fist full of your hair. “Fuck baby, I’m gonna cum. I’m gonna cum so fuckin’ hard.” Eren said as a few whimpers escaped his mouth. Eren paces and speeds up as he feels both you and his climax reaching and from the feeling of your gummy walls clenching around him. “Rennnn, fuck m’ gonna cum” you said whining as you felt Eren's shaft touch your cervix. “That’s right, Atta girl, cum on daddy’s dick for me,” Eren said just moments before you both climaxed. Naturally, You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding as you came down from your arched position.

“You did so well for me princess. Let’s get you cleaned up” Eren said as he removed himself from your warmth. “are you all right? I didn’t hurt you, did I?” Eren asked from the lack of hearing you speak. “No…I'm just tired now that’s all” you said as a faint smile appeared on your lips. Despite Eren being a dick half of the time, his After-care was a 10/10, which is one thing you admired about him. Eren went to the bathroom to run you a bath grabbing a towel and a wash rag to bathe with. “I’ll be there in a minute princes,” Eren said before you closed the door to the bathroom.

As Eren walked over to the nightstand he saw the light of your phone still illuminating. Eren wrapped a towel around his lower half walking over to the nightstand. He looked at the phone screen causing a grin to plaster along his face. Eren knew he didn't hang up the phone. He wanted whatever You and Jean have going on to end now. Eren grabbed the phone and placed it to his ears. “Sick fuck, don’t tell me you got off to y/n fucking another man. She’s mine now dick-face,” Eren chuckled into the mic causing Jean to go tense. “Don’t talk to her anymore,” Eren said once more before hanging up. Jean now know he fully lost you, and it was sure no coming back from that. “Don’t use all the hot water princess wait for me!” Eren said making his way to the bathroom.

Notes: okay so did anybody understand this beginning with y/n & wearing a trench coat & High heel’s? ( the Nicki lyric ). Anywho, I really enjoyed writing this! I tried my best to mix The Weeknd with this one-shot by adding lyrics for those who didn’t understand. Paragraphs may repeat ( tumblr glitch ) & unedited for the moment <3

#XO♡. thee collab #⌗ ₊ ఌ — 𝗅𝖺𝗇𝗂'𝗌 𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍𝗌 ( ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁 )#eren x reader #eren x black reader #eren smut #shingeki no kyoujin eren #shingeki no kyojin #jean krischtein #Eren x Reader x Jean #Toxic! Eren #lovesick! Eren #black coded reader #x fem reader #aot x reader #anime smut

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vilsoo · 1 year

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DECEPTION & PERFECTION⌇NANAMI KENTO

❝ 𝑰 𝑩𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑲 𝑨 𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑳𝑰𝑶𝑵 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑺 𝑱𝑼𝑺𝑻 𝑭𝑶𝑹 𝑭𝑼𝑵 ❞ ‎ submission for @510hz’s “how to be a heartbreaker” collab!

after losing yourself and becoming so disillusioned about love and romance, you finally accept yourself as nothing but a devious homewrecker. . .

꒰ ა ♡ ໒ ꒱ PAIRINGS! — nanami x homewrecker!f!reader ꒰ ა ♡ ໒ ꒱ TAGS! — heartless!reader, commitment issues, anxious attachment, slight narcissism, toxicity, angst, hurt (no comfort), sorta depressing/sad themes, self-loathing, hopeless romantic themes, unrequited love, seduction, eventual smut. i know this may slightly stray away from the “maneater” theme but with the meaning of this song, it’s more tragic.

You don’t belong to anyone.

As liberating that may sound to some, being in this state was more of a defense mechanism for you. Because after realizing you don’t know what else to do other than to break the hearts of men, you couldn’t escape being labeled as a homewrecker. Your life had spiraled into a mess that you just accepted it with no care in the world.

If all you really wanted was love, the pure kind that everyone dreams of, you had to run away from it. You’ve become so disillusioned about falling in love, convincing yourself nothing will ever last for you. Instead of the love and trust and laughter you deserved in a healthy relationship, you end up with a happy never after.

One night you were at the club, all dolled up and glamorizing enough that you’ve been receiving so many compliments from men and women. Compliments you’ve been told numerous times before that being called “pretty” was tedious and unoriginal to hear a lot. You deserved way more admiration than that. And even though your self-esteem and your confidence was radiating enough to showcase your outwardly strong personality, deep down you were alienated and empty in the inside. But you decided to not give any fucks that night. No regrets about anything. All you wanted to do was have fun and embrace even a fleeting moment of euphoria and feel as if you were the center of attention that night.

And there it was— that prolonged gaze from a handsome stranger’s eyes, capturing his attention that night. Watching you long enough, it eventually turns into a stare. Staring at you like he was hypnotized, getting under his skin with the way your body moved to the music. That night you were wearing all pink. Your attire seemed as if you were one of the dancers wearing pastels and other bold colors that weren’t neutral or plain— enough to not blend in with the crowd. And as you were dancing, your wandering eyes finally met his, settling on the stranger’s prominent, enticing features.

He was quite handsome that night. There was a dark mystery about him that intrigued you. When you caught him staring, he immediately glanced away it made you chuckle. But you didn’t take your eyes off him, yet— you just kept dancing, your body moving in sultry, mesmerizing ways to the music as you gazed at him with the right kind of heat in your eyes. Then he finally laid his eyes on you again. You couldn’t help but smile deviously at the stranger. He smirked back slightly, making his way through the dancing crowd just to be near you. But he disappeared— you suddenly lost track of his presence.

Slightly disappointed, you head to the restroom down the hall illuminated with pink lights where nobody was around. But that was all the stranger needed from you that night— a chance with you alone, right before you withdrew your mind. You feel his arms snake around you, holding you by the waist and pulling you ever so slightly where you could feel his body heat transmitting onto you. That night you felt a rush of helplessness against him, like a sinking yielding, a surging tide of warmth that left you limp and aching for him.

As you turned your neck, resting your head against his shoulder, his addicting lips dived down onto yours, kissing you softly at first. Then with a swift gradation intensity, his insistent mouth was parting your lips and his roaming hands parted your legs, sending wild tremors along your nerves. That night, when the two of you made out and fucked each other hard in the hall of the club, you were both evoked from such sensations you never knew you were capable of feeling.

It wasn’t difficult for you at all to catch the attention of men. You used to love and thrive off that feeling of a man chasing for you, wanting to uncover your mysteries, yearning to pursue you for they couldn’t contain their attraction to you. That man you met that night was the man you thought you were going to marry someday; Nanami Kento.

When time passed and you finally made it official, sex with Nanami was your everything with him; writhing into an unexplainable ecstatic state of mind together. The slapping of your skins, the sweet moans, loss of breath, the heat, the unforgettable sensation. Each hard thrust into your aching cunt sent you ablaze. You had the face and heart of a delicate angel and a body of a slutty porn star just for him. The beautiful princess treatment by day and the messy whore treatment by night.

There was this certain alluring presence about him that enticed you, intoxicating you with lust and love and all these feelings that made your stomach twist and turn. You were head over heels in love. Undeniably in love. Unconditionally in love with him. Blindly in love, at most. Love, love, love— it was all defined by the way you experience it. Nobody had taught you how to love. You just went with how your heart felt. What you were desiring for this whole time; “the one” as many people called it. But at the same time, you feel this sinking feeling in your guts the moment you believe you’re in love.

Oh, how Nanami loved you. He really was your dream man, the man who was going to marry you, pursue you, value you, worship you— every wholehearted trait of love and endearment he had for you was like an undying flame. He didn’t value you just for your body nor the sex. He knew deep down in his heart that you are the woman he belongs to by the end of time, the only woman he wants to marry, the only woman he wants to grow old with and die together. He’s never loved anyone so passionately like this. There was something about you that sinks him deeply into an unexplainable writhing of bliss.

But love was nothing but an image of deception.

Nanami is a hopeless romantic just like you. But even though the love he gives is what you deserve, would it be forever? Would he get tired of loving you? Is he only speaking to you through his mouth, and not his heart and soul?

Every past relationship you’ve been in haunted you for years. You still never fully healed or recovered from the pain and experiences you endured; your heart constantly getting broken and shattered to the point that you have no piece of it left. You were tired of being heartbroken all the time and you should not be committing to anyone right now. And it was all because of the need to rather break hearts than have your own heart broken first. In hopes you could find the 'one', you would have much more fun and liberty being single just like the old days…

“I don’t love you anymore.”

Nanami’s entire body froze when he was about to walk into the bathroom after the two of you had sex. He did a double take, chuckled, and turned slightly to you. “What? Sweetheart, don’t joke around like that.”

You sat on the edge of the bed in your nightgown, slanting your head at the blond male who looked unrecognizable to you now. “You heard me,” you replied coldly. “I don’t think I can do this anymore, Kento. I’m slowly losing my happiness every day I spend time with you. The last time I ever felt happiness was… before I met you. And now I’m trapped in a committed relationship where I have this massive fear of you hurting me.”

Nanami stood frozen as a deer caught in headlights. It felt as if the walls in his body were closing in on him, making it difficult to breathe. Your words inflicted more pain than any pain he’s ever endured in his life. It felt as if the world became slow, finally reaching its end, and not everybody has enough time to embrace their fate or let alone prepare for it. There was an uncontrolled staccato rhythmic in his chest and this swirling ache in his stomach. His nose flared so strongly from holding back tears, sauntering back to you and kneeling before you, holding onto your arms and caressing your skin.

“Look at me, Y/N. I admire you. I worship you. I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you. If I’m making you feel… trapped, I will do everything I can to not make you feel this way. So please… if you’re in need of reassurance, I’ll give you all of it. Even without you asking.”

It felt as if his words went straight through one ear then out the other. Because for some reason, even if Nanami thought he was being genuine and sweet to you, you remained nonchalant. A deadpanned expression, a slow beating heart, and not having enough energy to fight for this relationship or talk through it.

You stood up, your face remaining emotionless and free of pathetic tears. “I said what I said, Kento. If you really loved me, you’d allow me to be happy. And the only way I can feel happiness is never seeing you in my life again.”

Nanami just stayed down on the floor, feeling his nose burning from his tears and his heart being crushed from such agony and devastation. He didn’t dare turn his head just to watch you leave or see you one last time. He just decided to let you go, all while drowning in tears, sobs, and desolation.

When you finally left his home and drove down the highway, you finally felt that liberating spark again. That rush of adrenaline, rediscovering parts of yourself that were buried long under, like a sun brightening up a dark room. And after coping with your disillusionment about love, you just had to accept everything the way it is. When you have a slight feeling that something is gonna go wrong in a relationship, you run away. When you don’t feel the happiness you thought you would feel, you run away.

You’re only happy when you’re on the run. And you could break a million hearts of men just for the fun of it.

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